#but i think that would be a sensory nightmare
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I think they should let you request music in clubs if they don't already. I'm just assuming that they usually don't
#just because i think that the DIVELA remix of Meltdown would do numbers#if i were drunk at a club and it came on i think that would be a religious experience for me#i just forgot how much i really like this song#its vocaloid did i mention that#i think they should play vocaloid in clubs#that would be a great idea#maybe this isnt club music its rave music#i dont know i dont think so#but maybe#i havent been to one of either of those places#does a rave count as a place#i feel like its more of a thing#unless theres a place that regularly has raves take place there#i want to go to a rave#but i think that would be a sensory nightmare#i should dj at a club id be great at it#(says a guy with absolutely 0 experience)
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bart and his yellowy-golden speedster eyes... do you think as a civilian he ever has to wear colored contacts to hide them? its either that or preston and all his other friends are just like this is bart. he wears colored contacts every single day bc he likes anime
#rimi talks#i feel like bart would think that contacts are a sensory nightmare. so he might just be like#haha yeah im wearing yellow contacts right now for the aesthetic. yeah. totally#preston vc bart what color are your eyes really??#bart vc uhhhh bluewn.#preston: oh that's a funny way of saying hazel! bluewn lol#max watching: ????? how did that WORK????#it's just that bart has advantage on all charisma checks with his civvy friends bc they all just think he's cool#bart
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it’s like yes my brain is probably fried from thinking about Kathryn Hahn non stop but
I have so many thoughts about this dress. Like it is a blanket , it’s strapless, is it comfortable? Would this make a nice blanket to sleep in? So many other thoughts
It's like a snuggie but nicer, but it also looks like Merino wool...but also like a weighted blanket
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me, never been to a proper club in my life: maybe i SHOULD be at the club
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thinking about. las vegas
#i’ve never been but i am So Fascinated by it#like i made the argument in one of my uni classes once that elvis impersonation is a form of drag#in the judith butler sense that drag reveals the performance/performativity of gender that everyone participates in#hopefully i phrased that right it’s been a minute since i read butler#but the cliche of getting married in vegas by an elvis impersonator made me think like. vegas is kind of emblematic of a particular idk.#concept of america and its identity???#idk im talking out of my ass a bit since i’ve never been to the us#but i was looking at vegas a lot for my abandoned theme parks thesis (rip)#since vegas is like. the ultimate example of hyper consumption intertwined with themeing#i would love to go to vegas but i feel like it would be a sensory nightmare#but if for some reason the whole strip closes at once and is empty LET ME INNNNN
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roommate got a tv and hes watching it so loud usually we can hardly hear anything from each others rooms like we have thick walls and we're on opposite ends of the apartment anyway BUT we do have our doors open rn so the AC can get in but. i closed my door and even with TWO fans running i can still hear low rumbling/mumbling from the tv which shouldnt be that big of a deal but it IS i hone in on it and it is soooo bad for my brain. and this is what made me start having meltdowns so bad in high school that i finally went to therapy and started meds was because i would focus in on the tv in my parents room upstairs for me and not be able to sleep and i would keep going out to the living room and asking them to turn it down and all it was was low unintelligible sounds but i just could not tune it out. and its happening now and i dont want to be a fucking asshole but like idk what to do if its like this every day
#the thing is im SURE just a few notches down would make a huge difference for me. but im scared to bring it up#we'll see if its off/lower by the time i go to bed idk#frankly its probably even more noticeable to the upstairs neighbors sound carries through our ceiling more than our walls#if i do need to talk to him about it i will probably say like. after midnight or something if it could be quieter. i think thats reasonable#this is not something i've had to negotiate before and i didnt think it would be this bad across the house#like my other roommates tv never bothered me before she moved out but she also always had her door closed#and was probably gaming with headphones on idk#anyway. idkkkkkkk what to do but its truly a sensory nightmare#r.txt
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when is it my turn to be crucified and soaked in fake blood in front of a live audience
#bowieposting#genloss#i think actually. being covered in as much blood ranboo was would be a sensory nightmare for me#only one pant leg that got drenched? itd be over for me /hj
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i really really REALLY dislike small children. everyone in my life knows this. and yet when i mention i was upset by a small child they are basically like "yeah but its understandable/excusable because theyre just a kid" and im like I AM TELLING YOU WHY I DONT LIKE KIDS
THE FACT THAT THEY ARE KIDS DOES NOT MAKE IT BETTER
I DO NOT WANT TO LISTEN TO THAT TODDLER SCREAM AND WATCH THEM STICK THEIR FINGERS IN THEIR MOUTH AND THEN TOUCH ALL THE FOOD ON THE COMMUNITY PLATTER
#children are like the definition of my sensory nightmare#they are so gross#so loud#i am already so burnt out#my mom and i didnt know know there would be a herd of toddlers at the small event we went to#i had my third meltdown of the day there#i have work again tomorrow im literally going to lose my mind#i can tell im going to start pulling my hair out again#i literally want to break down just thinking about socialising and masking tomorrow
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still making my way through braiding sweetgrass and it's really good and making me want to get outside more but alas, like all facets of my life right now, actually doing that is complicated
#my diary#literally too expensive to go outside#right now the issue is I don't have winter clothes#I actually love being out in the snow it's just not really safe for me to do that#at least not for more than a few minutes before I'm soaked and freezing#in the summer I overheat pretty easily too#but the main issue of warmer months is more the sensory nightmare of like. being touched by bugs and plants and stuff#I like critters but making physical contact is torture#like I've genuinely considered a beekeeping hat as an actual accessory to keep bugs out of my face#some outdoor-friendly clothes is def high on my list of future purchases once I get a job#honestly I think some Outside Practice would help me build my tolerance back up#I used to be a little better about it as a kid#because I spent more time outside and camping and stuff#it's like 20% I'm rusty 20% autism and 60% just objectively unsafe for me to go out with my current clothing situation#my warmest sweater is a $20 hoodie and I only own two pairs of shoes: nonslip canvas sneakers and bootleg crocs#idk. sighs wistfully. first world problems I guess. I could be forced to be outside all the time#lowkey a privilege to have an inside to be stuck in#idk I'm just sad and wistful#I wish I was better at Outside
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thinking about how in highschool my social skills were apparently so abysmal that i had to be put in a SOCIAL SKILLS CLASS. and in that class they ONLY taught you the basic things and scripts, so i would formulate in my head how to make a more successful social skills class for people who already know their pleases and thank yous but i hardly ever wrote any of it down so it never came to fruition. but the class was a nice and easy class to start the day with and i got to hang out with quiet and reasonable people even if we did all have terrible conversational skills, so there wasnt much to actually complain about. i got to play CANDY LAND for gods sake! thats WAY better than regular school!
#high school was so cazy for me like i would get so ticked off and stressed in classrooms so i would take my work to the sensory room#after i got all my assignments and lessons for the day. and then the paraeducators would help me if i had questions with stuff.#there were these rocking gaming chairs there and i spent most of my school day in those chairs to be honest#i have one of those chairs now but its not ideal w my fibromyalgia to get up and down from a chair like that at this point#i also had trouble getting to class because i hated it so much. so i had to be given a chart and rewarded with stickers and treats!#didnt go to homecoming. only went to one prom and it was a queer prom. tried best buddies but it was super ableist and scary there#went to an activists group. they liked me at first but newer people came and they talked over me and didnt acknowledge anything#also went to a GSA but the school psych in charge of it was super overbearing and condescending and followed me around#and i lost all my friends from there anyways so i wasnt welcome there after a while. the story is funny though ive gotta tell it sometime#so by the time i was in my last year i was involved in nothing. and then covid hit. and then i graduated. and it was very anticlimactic.#high school was so weird. sorry i keep thinking about this stuff. i actually keep dreaming about being sent back to school oddly enough#school was weird. autism is weird. being autistic in grade school was a living nightmare (and also weird)#evie.txt ♡
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google how to get facial hair without going on t no borax no glue
#facial hair would fix me i think#i also think it wpuld be a sensory nightmare so maybe ots good i dont have it#but...... stubble...... full beard.......
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I have trouble taking care of my teeth because everything that involves doing that is a sensory nightmare. I decide to do some research to see if there's anything I can do about this. The results?
"How to make your autistic child brush their teeth"
"Autistic Children and Sensory issues relating to tooth brushing"
"How to get your little shit to brush his fucking teeth"
Like, yeah Google, thanks, that really helps. And like, even if I was a child, some of the advice seemed... unhelpful. Like, doing a dance and singing a song while brushing your teeth? Even for a kid, I don't think that would help distract from a sensory experience as intense as brushing your teeth. Like, the extremely intense and unpleasant flavor, the intense feeling of the brush against your teeth scraping across it, even mouthwash has such an intense and disgusting flavor that I have difficulty keeping it in my mouth for more than a few seconds. I wish there was SOMETHING that could be done.
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Fun fact: Did you know that taking SSRIs can rapidly increase your breast size? BECAUSE I CERTAINLY DIDN'T
#Little warning for transmascs who are either currently on or thinking of going on SSRIs#And there are like 0 studies about why this happens so nobody actually knows#i would have liked to have known this beforehand#now I have to deal with the dysphorian and sensory nightmares#pylon rambles
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@teapunks did your mum ever threaten to put mustard on your fingernails to stop you biting them? because by my count 6 different adults directly threatened me with that or mentioned it in a "in my day, they would do this so youre lucky i havent done that to you".
the direct threats came from my dad, my paternal nan and my maternal great aunt while the guilt-trip-that-always-felt-like-a-threat-to-me came from my paternal aunt, the other classes' year 4 teacher and an english teacher who wasnt even my english teacher, for anyone curious.
you could reblog for a bigger sample size or not who do i look like the freakin queen of england
#the threats never worked and i doubt doing it would work either#because like 1) im autistic so making me consume anything i dont like the taste ot texture of is soon going to be a nightmare for you two#i will throw up and probably all over you and i will go into sensory overload especially as a fucking child#and 2) me biting and picking my nails is related to my mental health. currently my mental health is pretty good all things considered#yes its a habit formed by being undiagnosed adhd autism in school and having no way to stim without getting into trouble#but i do it a lot more when my mental health is bad#and uh that 'trick' is a great way to give someone trust issues and an unhealthy relationship with food and their own body#also just fuck mr mark stirley#like i remember when he made the weird ''in my day teachers would be able to do this to you'' speech#BECAUSE#it came right after him telling me that ''no kai you dont get migraines. what you get is tension headaches'' after i struggled in DoE#because i got a migraine because both the sun and overexertion can trigger my migraines and wow they did#and that made me very uncomfortable because a c t u a l l y it was being investigated by gp at that time but i was a wildly depressed#undiagnosed autistic abused 14 year old who didnt think they could tell the teacher that because 1) that would be talking back 2) that would#be telling a teacher they were wrong and 3) i really didnt think hed believe me so why even bother trying to convince him otherwise#and like i went on to see a migraine specialist. i have taken propranolol every day for nearly ten years because i have migraines#but nope this random english teacher straight up decided he knew better and violated the fucking equality act#and i was that uncomfortable and on the verge of tears so i started biting my nails and oh now hes got a problem with that too?#...im venting in the tags about a teacher i havent seen for like seven years lmao#i just think the man is a bellend and that 14-year-old me deserved to give him a right lamping#when i got home from that practicr expedition i did cry it out while hugging my mom
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i just want a life in which ALL of my energy EVERY day doesnt have to be spent on dealing with the consequences of someone else's stupid as fuck choices. this woman can be made to do anything out of baseless fear. and she was allowed to make people.
#im not okay with eugenics but somebody should have fucking stopped her#my father didnt have the courage to insist on an abortion like he should have. neither of them are fit parents but he knew that#she is stupid af im not kidding. but i dont think that gets u off the hook at all for creating ppl with every reason not to#i just dont know how much longer i can do this#i want to just love my cat. but my mother makes it clear she thinks i deserve to be punished for not being able to work#so i have to keep her literal shit in my room. so i get woken up every day by the loud ass unecessary noises she makes in the litterbox#so she can put sand all over everything i touch. all of this a sensory nightmare. introducing negative feelings towards this creature i lov#and if my mom wasnt such a goddamned fucking idiot we would have a house with a two car garage to our name. FUCK this woman is stupid
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As soon as I get home I am never leaving my house again.
#im having a horrible morning :D#I've been staying with my brother the past few days for guilt reasons and as nice as he and his girlfriend are this house is#my own personal hell. In the area that im staying everything is cold and damp (including the toiletpaper) and I think ive been rubbing mold#on my face because my towel wont dry. I cant go two inches without seeing or accidentally stepping on a bug and theres dirt and debris#literally everywhere. There are so many goddamn stairs. I tried to actually make something to eat today that was more substantial and more#effort than like a fistful of goldfiah crackers. The knife I had seemed very dull. My noodles are probably undercooked because I don't#understand the stovetop. When I tried to pour my soup out of the pot the shape of it made it so half the liquid in there just poured#straight onto the stove. All of the chairs in this province are so goddamn uncomfortable. I am miserable as I knew I would be#and I want to go home. I miss my cat and my ability to create a semi-sterile environment. My flight (which is itself a horrible stressor an#impending miserable experience + I had to spend $350 for a flight I don't want to be on to get home from a trip I didnt want to go on)#isnt until Monday and its only Wednesday today. I already always feel like Im seeing bugs and like theyre crawling on me.#I cannot live somewhere where thats actually *true*. I'm also constantly being unsubtly judged for using a mobility aid and any time I talk#to my mom she doesnt listen to literally anything I say and theres so much goddamn noise in this house and I dont wanna say anything to my#brother because thats *rude* and *ungrateful* but the only texture I can stand in this place is the tiny couch I have to curl up but keep#vigilant on because not even that is safe from bugs!!! And all of the counters are sticky!!! And they made me get expensive groceries that#I cant make myself use! I'm in a sensory and emotional nightmare and in constant physical pain! And then people get upset with me for being#miserable to be around! What the fuck do they want me to do!?!?#anyways.#ghostprince posts#vent#delete later#I want to go home.#update: I took like two bites of my food and immediately became nauseous. I've also become convinced there's bugs in there. Great.
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