#I want to go home.

[blake-in-the-closet]

i hate this place.

[vaesivlasta]

so that was a thing that i played.

[tyhi]

im so angry and sad i feel like im gonna be sick

[thepiedromeo]

i never want to go to a hospital again. why did i do that? what have i done?

tw descriptions of violence

the one time i thought someone was going to be nice to me, they tried to trap me in a hospital and killed the nurses. i had to beat him with my crutch until he passed out and until i couldn't handle what i was doing anymore. i've never hurt someone that badly before, or at least directly. sure, i flooded a stadium with rats, but it was all petty! i made sure no one got seriously hurt. but this? i had to watch the man who i thought had saved me get beaten and bruised by my very hands. i watched as he threatened me, told me "God I want to rip your face off. I want to tear flesh from bone and-" as he begun to click. click. click. click. it was terrifying. to hear otherworldly sounds come from someone i thought was cool, someone who made me feel appreciated, was absolutely terrifying. i thought this was going to be a fun adventure. i thought i could've finally, finally made something of myself, finally have done something helpful instead of something that hurts, but it just ended in me hurting more. and i didn't even mention what else i was told.

"when one knows, they all know. i want you dead. that means they wont stop at anything now. run. please." someone's after me. i don't know what, but someone, something is after me. i don't know what to do. what can i do? what can i do when i'm being chased? when i might be dead tomorrow?

"to be or not to be, that is the question." a question on mortality, to live or to die. i want to live, i want to be. not just be alive, but to be more than what i am. but at this point? i might not be anything by tomorrow.

[ashyjingles]

what kind of class makes you take selfies for attendance what the actual fuck

[imjustexistingtbh]

the autism do be burning out today

[morndas]

as much as i feel like i’m on the verge of some sort of psychological breaking point, at least i know i’m not as bad as i was from 2018 to 2020. i’m not dabbling in alcoholism anymore. i’m not taking sleeping pills with a finger of jim beam to shut off my brain. i’m not going to bed while the sun is up every day just so i don’t have to be awake anymore. i’m not screaming and crying at my family over things that aren’t their fault. i’m not draining the emotional reserves of everyone around me.

i’m not doing well but i’m not the worst i’ve ever been. i’m not doing well but i’m waking up, feeding my cat, going to work. i’m not doing well but i’m here. i made it through then. i will make it through now.

[acasternaut]

when my condition that gets worse when im stressed gets worse due to stress

[chadsuke]

i think my school just decides to come together and go 'how can we fuck over gigi the most today. how can we make sure they have an absolutely miserable experience. can we make them regret staying on until the end of the school year. can we make them cry at work? can we?'

and the answer is yes you fucking can.

[ashxxgyu]

I don’t appreciate being called “emo” cause I’m siting in a chair in the lobby…?

[milfronin]

christmas time always makes me feel a bit weird and out of it . don't like it. not one bit.

[camsuffers]

I feel like I should give a proper introduction for myself so uh

Hi, my name is Cam Kralie (sometimes Lexi), I’m an introject of Alex from Marble Hornets. I chose the name Cam because cameras are still cool and also because we already have two alters named Alex. I use he/him(/it/thing) pronouns (sometimes she/her), and my source is technically from our system’s recent failed attempts at reality shifting.

I have a lot of feelings about everyone from my source and about everything that I remember from it.

I struggle a lot with my sense of self and my grasp on what’s real and what’s not, and so far it appears to me that my role is to hold our symptoms of depression and any feelings of guilt or anxiety (basically i feel like shit the majority of the time).

I am the only alter who will use this blog.

I suppose if you somehow find this and manage to think “hey he seems cool” in relation to me, you can reach out to us on our main blog ( @theshippingroyalty ) or system blog ( @themixtapesystem ). We have a lot more than just me in the system, including but not limited to multiple other marble hornets introjects, brainmade people, [REDACTED], and people with obscure sources.

I’ll probably just post vent stuff here, or reblog things that I felt particularly resonated with me for whatever reason. Maybe. Idk.

Have a good now

[xx-hail2theking-xx]

we will, if we need to. but he's asked us to do the same, so I'll tell you what I told him. if you die, yes, I'll tell him, because I think you need that reassurance. but it will mean a thousand times more, once this is over, when he hears it directly from you.

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and we love you too. your majesty.

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[flob0t]

i hate being off my meds. i end up sleeping on and off all day. and i never know what’s a dream and what’s actually happening.

[caninecowboy]

actually going to go into a field and scream my group members are being so fucking annoying rn shUT UPPPPP

[dizzybevvie]

ohhh ok. life sucks again