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Mel and Jayce Deserved Much Better
After experiencing horrors and walking through valleys and shadows, I truly hoped Mel would break down this season and unleash her emotions. Especially since she spent the entire season unlearning hardness with Jayce being so openly affectionate and emotional. This final act was honestly a slap in the face.
The one person she hoped would offer her that safety net to do this completely shuts her down. Mel was always cognizant of his feelings, constantly looking out for him, advising him, and teaching him. She shared with him her deepest insecurities and vulnerabilities. I can understand if Mel and Jayce are both going their separate ways because of the Noxus plot but to have him be this cold, and distant, and show a lack of understanding toward her plight is bizarre.
Mel comes back with a changed appearance and a different demeanor, and he doesn't even ask what happened. He seems to not care. Jayce isn't even giving her a chance to explain herself and just keeps coming at her and you can see the moment when Mel puts all her walls back up. Don't even get me started on the fact that he held the hammer in his hand for most of the time.
Their interactions during this act paint Jayce as one large hypocrite. He benefitted from all of Mel's teachings, from her providing comfort and affection, to her investments in Hextech. Asking her why she didn't save Viktor like she had something against him was wild.
This is the same Mel who offered comfort to Jayce when Viktor was severely injured during the explosion. The same Mel who immediately understood why Jayce left after their night together, recognized the importance of Viktor to Jayce.
If Mel could protect everybody in that room, she would. When she explains her lack of awareness of her abilities to him, he just keeps going on and on.
And the apology with the "passenger" line was just bad. It lacked a certain level of remorse that I would expect from Jayce of all people. Where is that good-hearted man who could tell when people aren't feeling their best, that person who always wanted to help people and make their lives better?
I think the Survivor Jayce is not the Jayce that Mel fell in love with, this is another man. The Jayce she fell in love with died at the bottom of that cave. The survivor Jayce is Viktor's passenger.
Jayce abandoned not just Mel but also his mother who protected him many times to be with Viktor in the afterlife?? In what universe is Jayce pulling that shit?
Now Mel's heading off to Noxus. A nation that doesn't align with her values and morals and would most likely have to harden herself to rule or have influence there. I hate it all. I hate that Black women always have to be strong. We actually had an opportunity to see a Black woman who grew up in that environment slowly shed those walls with a man who actually loved her and was openly affectionate and vulnerable. I'm so sad that it was taken from us. I'm sick and tired of the strong Black woman trope.
With how mischaracterized her motives and actions towards Jayce are, I for one cannot say that I'm excited for a spin-off series with Mel as a main character. Not with this writing team and this fandom.
To me, this show ended in season 1 with Zaun becoming independent, Jinx not firing the rocket, and Mel and Jayce growing together as individuals and as a couple.
#Mel Medarda#Jayce Talis#MelJay#Mel x Jayce#arcane#Let Black women be in love#I'm tired of the strong Black woman trope
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jason todd with a partner whoâs into skincare/haircare
he didnât know people actually did those 10 step korean skincare routines until he met you
he goes over to your place one day and sees all of the products in your bathroom and is like how could you possibly use all of these
he grew up with a broke mom and then a bunch of men, even billionaire bruce wayne doesnât really do much besides some fancy hair products maybe
will probably be a bit skeptical like he lowkey thinks itâs a scam because no way do you need that many products just for your face
but if you sit him down and explain everything i think heâll understand (or at least he understands that itâs important to you. donât expect him to become a skincare expert overnight)
thinks youâre kinda cute when youâre doing your routine, like with your little headband and how focused you are while youâre doing it
will loiter around in the washroom, spend extra long brushing his teeth so he has an excuse to watch you
he will 100% laugh at how goofy you look when you put on a face mask though
make him wear one and suddenly he isnât laughing anymore
if you try to make him do a whole skincare routine heâs going to grumbling the whole time but heâll still do it
still thinks itâs kind of unnecessary (âwhy are we washing our face to make it dry to slap on wet stuff?â)
he lowkey does enjoy it though
he doesnât have too many skin problems (i feel like he did have acne as a teenager but he grew out of that) besides maybe like his skin being on the dry side
definitely has ashy elbows and knees too
so at the very least he appreciates the moisturizarion, but he doesnât really get the other stuff
feel like heâll stick to just splashing his face with water or going like âi wash my face when i showerâ but when youâre doing your routine heâll steal some of your moisturizer
i think as time goes on, heâll really like the domesticity of the whole nighttime routine thiugh
like shower, blow dry hair, brush teeth, skincare
luckily heâs not a 2 in 1 type of guy but thatâs only because he straight up didnât understand what conditioner was for
and i feel like he would just buy one of those costco sized bottles of body wash, like a neutral scented one so he doesnât have to think about restocking (also itâs the most price efficient)
will tease you if you have fancy shampoo and conditioner
but whoâs going to steal it after all of that teasing? he is
i think he just does it accidentally but ends up finding the smell really comforting (reminds him of you) and also his hair feels weirdly nice
might use it once in a while
definitely see him enjoying having his hair blow dried and also blow drying your hair
itâs a weirdly intimate act
also i feel like heâs not big on words, so sometimes he does other things to show he cares for you
like just the little things
he knows you take your skincare routine seriously, so if thereâs ever a day when you feel too tired to do it, he knows something is up
will probably try to gauge what the situation is, like whether itâs a problem with work or school, if you want to talk about; or if itâs just been a long day
will help you to the washroom and if youâre too tired, will do your skincare for you
heâs watched you enough times to kind of know what heâs doing
personally hc that he has to get used to the change in his body and physical strength after the lazarus pit so heâs careful to be as gentle as possible
handles you like youâre on the verge of breaking
heâll tie your hair into a loose ponytail (he knows it could be tighter but heâs kinda worried that itâll hurt if he does another loop), keep the headband stretched as he pulls it over your head so that it doesnât make contact with your face
makes sure the water isnât too hot (you have to assure him that if the water is a little hot it wonât kill you and that for the oil cleanser to come off properly heâs going to need to make it hotter) and rubs the softest circles into your face
i think heâs focusing on this too much to be talkative
itâs kinda cute watching him struggle with some of the products
heâs trying to remember the order of the products and where on your face you put each one
you might have to give him pointers from time to time
i think he starts giving you obnoxious kisses all over your face as youâre trying to do your skincare to tease you
but after a few times i donât think itâs a joke anymoreâŠ
will accidentally taste some serum and be traumatized though (please do not try to eat skincare!!)
will stick to your lips
#dc batman#jason todd#batman comics#red hood#batman#jason todd x you#jason todd x reader#jason todd x y/n#jason todd headcanon#jason todd hcs#jason todd hc#red hood x you#red hood imagine#red hood x reader#red hood x y/n#jason todd imagine
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It sounds like Stitch but it just doesnât have the Stitchiness of Stitch. His mouth is too small. His nose is too small and too low down.
His ears are too furry. Thereâs too much teddy-bear-bunny, not enough insect-shark.
His ears should look almost-translucent, with fine fuzz, like bat ears! His nose should look stamped onto his face with gigantic nostrils, like a bulldogâs. His eyes should look bigger and blanker.
His mouth should make you think shark, like his whole head is resting on the hinge of his jaw. And the fur around his eyes should be much thinner and more peach fuzz like so that you can see the wrinkles in his flesh when he squints or makes snarly faces.
Why
Why is that so hard
heâs not cutesy and only-pretending-to-be-fierce. heâs not a kitten. Heâs not made to appeal to the Minions and Toothless-but-only-Toothless-in-HTTYD-3 crowd.
There are NO BLACK LIPS. Heâs not a dog. There are NO CAT-MUZZLE-UPPER-LIP-MUSCLES. Heâs not a kitty. OR a bunny. Why are those two-front-teeth so so much smaller than the rest of his teeth? Why are all of the teeth so small??
Donât you guys understand why heâs supposed to look more than just cute-but-acting-naughty?
He has to be able to look convincingly disgusting, and genuinely fearsome.
Look how whip-thin his eyes and eyebrows are. Look at how, like a snake mid-eat, you can see some of Pleakleyâs head swelling Stitchâs throat. It is important that he look like a monster when he needs to because he is a monster.
If Stitch doesnât look like the kind of small monster that can take big disgusting bites out of you, with jerky, spider-like movements and tiger-scrunched eyes then the whole emotional weight of the movie looks flimsy. Weâll forgive a cat for scratching us and giving us cat-scratch fever because itâs cute. If Stitch looks too cute, then the human brain goes, yeah, he pushed that little girl down and laughed at her pain, but look at his wittle face, heâs a babydoll, who could stay mad at him
We can easily see why Lilo puts up with him.
When the point is, we shouldnât be able to see why Lilo puts up with himânot in and of himself. Stitch does nothing to deserve Liloâs love, including being cuteâ actually, heâs gross and unsettling. Heâs not even cute enough to want around as a snuggle-buddy. Heâs certainly not cute enough to look unthreatening. Nobody in the movie runs up and asks to pet him. Nobody even looks like they want to. Heâs not appealing in that way. The dogcatcher screams at him on sight. The tourists just stare when he walks up dressed as Elvis. Her friends immediately think heâs the ugliest thing in the world and donât want him anywhere near them. David is sure itâs not a dog. Even the aliens in an intergalactic council find him not-appealing, on sight. They take him, as a threat, seriously, even before Jumba lists his powers.
All of that is not because Stitch really looks outrageously ugly.
âŹïž THAT is ugly. Can we all agree? Thatâs ugly. Whereas this:
Less ugly. Obviously I know that. But there are a couple things about Stitch that are not traditionally appealing, when the filmmakers could have made him traditionally appealing. If they wanted his nose to look muzzle-y, they couldâve. If they wanted his spine to bend at the hips like a human toddlerâs they couldâve. If they wanted his mouth smaller and more cartoon-y, with kitty-cat lips, they could have done that. They chose to do the slightly more ugly thing instead. Heâs still appealing. But he can look and be convincingly threatening, unattractive, and disgusting when he needs to be for the story.
The cuteness was a by-product. It was an artfully-done side. It was not the main course of what heâs supposed to look like. Again I say to youâhe is not your Minions-loving Facebook Momâs bumper sticker. He is supposed to walk the line between most-disgusting-pet-you-could-have and Gremlin-meets-E.T.
These teasers are totally catering to the people who like Stitch T-Shirts from WalMart but probably couldnât explain the first thing about him as a character. And whatever, thatâs fine. But the design affects the story, and the original story was so good.
This does not bode well.
#Lilo & stitch#character design#peak character design#stitch#lilo#animation#lilo & stitch 2025#experiment 626#Disney#live action remakes#my favorite movie#my favorite film#Chris sanders#alien#gremlins#e.t. the extra terrestrial#sci-fi#meta#analysis#character analysis#characterizations#remakes#redesign
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remember when i said i was beginning to relate more and more to michael? well,
i think itâs easy to underestimate his character and not really understand who he is, but once you start acting like him, it gives you a new perspective in the whole of solitaire. michael is a very angry individual, i think we all know that. however, he is not portrayed like how angry characters usually are. his anger stays inside, like a lion waiting to attack. michael lives hiding a part of himself, somewhere so deep in his mind that whenever it is able to come out it becomes his worst nightmare ever. unlike most angry characters, the anger doesnât affect the rest, it affects him.
i think this is so important to talk about, because yes, solitaire is toriâs book, but michael brings very important details to the story. i know most of the fandom likes to talk about him as a silly little guy, and thatâs valid, because he also is that. my mind just wonât be at peace until we all realize a bit more how important he is.
anger will bring him down. thatâs not something we can argue about, itâs the truth. and yes, it sounds silly, anger, really? thatâs the thing thatâs gonna bring him down? well, not exactly. anger is the first symptom of losing yourself. you start keeping all the anger to yourself, not really knowing what to do with it or why itâs becoming bigger and bigger. as this continues, you start hating, loathing every single moment of your life that doesnât go as planned. before you even know it, youâre isolating yourself, afraid of any chance of the anger getting stronger.
if i were to show this with a scene of the book i would choose the one were michael finally explodes at tori. because at that moment, he has been trying so hard to be her friend, and attempt after attempt, sheâs just been making things difficult. i say this from an objective perspective, because we know tori wasnât in the right headspace, but that doesnât mean michaelâs wasnât bad mentally as well. itâs what i said before, you start loathing everything that doesnât go your way. and in this case, his friendship with tori wasnât going his way. itâs a very hard topic to explain because i have been in both ends, mostly in michaelâs, and it is extremely difficult to deal with. we know michael doesnât have friends and probably didnât have before either, which means he has been carrying this issue his whole life. itâs obvious he was going to explode. he keeps trying and trying and nothing goes his way. he canât make friends to save his life, oh and look, he also failed the competition of what he is supposed to be great at, perfect!
i guess i just wanted to talk about this because as i said, feeling like this is not great. it sucks. itâs horrible to experience but so normalized as well. people like tori get talked about behind their backs. everyone has a bit of bitterness in their voice when they talk about them, spitting how being mentally ill doesnât excuse you for being a bad person. people like michael get pitied. the people who keep a smile and donât stop trying even when theyâre dying inside. everyone feels bad for them, but no one cares enough to make a difference.
#guys iâm losing it#sorry for being depressing#and whatever this means#osemanverse#solitaire#michael holden#tori spring#sprolden#.đ§
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iâm in my analysing good omens era and i was just thinking at how aziraphaleâs and crowleyâs love languages are a big part of the reason it took them so long to figure out their reciprocated love.
when youâre a demon, an unforgivable creature, you donât deserve to hear that youâre loved. demons donât go around telling each other nice things, what they do if they want to show it, is acts of services.
a demon wouldnât tell you youâre good, but they would cover up your duties for you and say that itâs so you owe them a favour which they will never claim, they wouldnât say they love you but they would linger on your doorstep for a bit too long and steal your scarf as an excuse to meet you again.
and thatâs what crowley does, he keeps aziraphale company and he makes him try food, he says that itâs to tempt him when itâs just an excuse to see the angel happy, he saves you from death situations and says that itâs because your substitute would be more of a bother than you are.
crowley never tells aziraphale anything, and thatâs his way of showing him he loves him.
but when youâre an angel, doing nice things for each other is the norm, itâs the way to show the universe that youâre Good.
angels donât go around giving each otherâs things or doing your work for you, because that should be what you would do to anyone. if an angel gives you money, itâs not because they love you, itâs because theyâre a good selfless person.
aziraphale does that countless times, he gives people his stuff, he never asks for money, he uses more miracles than necessary even if it means that heâll get a reprimand just so he can help strangers on the street. acts of services for an angel are just intertwined in their essence.
so the only way to actually show it is to talk. if an angel loves someone, they have to tell them, if they love someone they tell them that theyâre good and that theyâre worth it. aziraphale positively lights up any time someone compliments him, because thatâs what he needs to know that heâs loved.
so aziraphale tells crowley heâs good even if he knows that will make crowley skittish, aziraphale tells crowley that he always comes to save him to praise him for his caring, he tells crowley that he needs him and thatâs the most loving words he could say, because what does an ethereal creature capable of anything need from anyone? their love, probably.
but they donât understand each other.
crowley uses acts of service and aziraphale takes it as his way to show his forbidden goodness to the world, aziraphale uses words of affirmation and crowley thinks thatâs his way of feeling better about himself for consorting with a demon.
why is 1941 and crowley saving his books so important for their relationship? because i think thatâs when aziraphale realised the truth, crowley had already done his âgoodâ act, he had already proved as he did countless times that he is not the usual demon and heâs actually nice, but saving something just because he knows aziraphale cares about that, and giving no excuse for his action, thatâs something else.
it was the first act done, in aziraphaleâs eyes, for no reason other than love.
aziraphale then tells him that he could do something for him in return, people interpret it as sexual (which i find very funny, mind you) but i think itâs just aziraphaleâs way of telling crowley that he can also show him his love through acts, if thatâs what crowley wants, he can save him back if that will mean crowley will realise that he loves him too.
and thatâs why i also think that crowley is not very sure about the love being reciprocated, because he never had the realisation that aziraphale is always around him and telling him nice things because thatâs how he can show his love.
and it is even worsened in the end, because if crowley knew, he would have waited for him.
it can be seen as a selfish act on crowleyâs part, wanting your lover to put you over saving the universe, but i think itâs because crowley doesnât know what aziraphale is doing. he canât know that aziraphale is actually disregarding all of his feelings for the greater good, because crowley doesnât know about these feelings.
what he thinks is that what he always thought was true, his angel doesnât love him back and he chose heaven over him.
if they actually talked, it wouldâve been resolved.
but the problem is that they donât talk, they cling to their love and beliefs and they think that the other has finally caught up, and they are so convinced that they know everything of each other that they donât find the need to do it.
#aziraphale#aziraphale and crowley#crowley#good omens#analysis#ineffable idiots#ineffable husbands#ineffable fandom#a nightingale sang in berkeley square#ineffable divorce
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I'm aware you are currently working on the Kinktober, but whenever you've time, could you tell us how you think things would have been if Aizen were the Captain and Shinji the Lieutenant?
Thank you for sending me this ask, I've been mulling over it for a few weeks now! I wanted to answer this to give myself a bit of a break from kinktober. It was a really good thought exercise.
I'm not 100% confident in this response, and it's honestly a lot of rambling, but nonetheless, here are my thoughts:
Imo, their relationship would be dependent on what stage Aizen is at with the hogyoku/Hueco Mundo/his research. Before the start of the story, he recruited a low-seated Kaname into his larger machinations/ideology, in TBTP, Aizen was deliberate in choosing a "loyal" aide in the form of Gin to fulfill the more gruesome parts of his plans. But in his captaincy he chose Hinamori for her admiration. The timing of when Captain Aizen and Lieutenant Shinji occur will greatly affect their dynamic.
Regardless, I believe Shinji will still be completely distrustful of Aizen no matter what "era" he meets Aizen at. He can "sense" something is off about him, even if it is the "kind and gentle" Captain Aizen persona that is being displayed to everyone in the Gotei 13 for centuries.
I think it's important that Gin is the third seat in this scenario as well. Unlike what Aizen and Gin did in TBTP, where Gin killed the pre-existing 3rd seat, Aizen will "allow" Shinji to live, because he knows Shinji is distrustful of him. Again, he will use that to his advantage.
This may be a situation where in private, Aizen and Shinji are antagonistic towards each other, whether that be Shinji trying to trip Aizen up, or Aizen being colder and crueler with his words. It would definitely be a game of tug-of-war between them.
This is getting longer so I'll put everything else behind the read more.
That being said, the reversal of power is something that needs to be talked about. Aizen knew that at some point, Gin would betray him, he just didn't know when and how. I think by keeping Shinji away from his own plans, gives Aizen a bit of leeway in how he approaches Shinji as a Lieutenant. It might amuse him that his Lieutenant is so wary of him, but I wonder if this might be how the "real" Aizen comes out, and it's... humanizing to Shinji? Like the sweet, calm, gentle Aizen is an act, Shinji sees through it, and he gets to experience/witness the actual Captain Aizen. And in a way, he likes that better.
I still think Aizen will use Shinji/betray him somehow. Not in a sense of how he used Momo, but it still shakes Shinji to his core. There was a fundamental reason Shinji couldn't trust Aizen, and now he is seeing why.
Aizen's relationships to particular characters are so fascinating to me, and Shinji is one of them. It is "bonded" by a mutual distrust of one another, and from Aizen, a sense of "disappointment." Going by this, if Shinji fell into one of Aizen's traps, it would disappoint Aizen - his Lieutenant couldn't understand/see eye-to-eye to him. I want to say by the time he meets Hinamori, he is done away with trying to meet someone at his level/trying to understand him. It is why he does away with Momo like that, yet also why I don't think Aizen would do Shinji in a similar fashion.
Story-wise, it would certainly add another level of cruelty once Aizen forces hollowfication on Shinji. Again because of the power dynamic now at play. It was certainly cruel of Aizen to do that as a Lieutenant, but if he were the captain? I think it's crueller. I can't find the words as to why I find it that way (lol), but I think its because fundamentally, while Captain and Lieutenant relationships are diverse and complex, there's an underlying bond of "do no harm." It's why when Aizen stabbed Momo, it was shocking - a Captain wasn't supposed to do that to their Lieutenant. Yes Renji and Byakuya fought, but that was of Renji's choice and will. Momo trusted Aizen, her superior, and yet here we are. I think a similar feeling would arise if Captain Aizen had hollowfied a Lieutenant Shinji.
I don't want to say story-wise, things would have played out the same. Shinji's experience and position as a captain is why he connected with Urahara to some degree. I'm not sure if that would play a part if he were a Lieutenant. It would still drive Urahara to action (because Hiyori would be involved), but Urahara's feelings towards his squad and captaincy in general, might not be as fully-realized.
Ok I'm going to cap it here because I'll just go in a circle LOL. Thanks again for sending this ask! It was nice food for thought.
#bleach#aizen sousuke#hirako shinji#bleach headcanons#shinji hirako#aizen sosuke#sosuke aizen#sousuke aizen#bleach aizen#bleach shinji#a writes#answered#ramblings
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I just saw the clip of the entrapment line Colin said to Pen again and it hurts. I hate that he said that to her so much, especially considering that Colin ruined her engagement and chased her carriage. She did not try to entrap him, and then we later have him taking about Pen ruining Miss Thompson, who is literally the one who tried to entrap him. Add in the brothel scenes and I am so disappointed with Colin in S3 đ. I know they gave him the lines at the end of the season but honestly that did not redeem him for me.
I totally understand why the entrapment line stings, but I donât think it's as bad as it might seem. Colin had just learned about Penelope being Lady Whistledown, and he was clearly reeling, trying to process something he wasnât prepared to handle. Do I think he truly meant what he said? Not at all. It was a knee-jerk reaction - an attempt to organize his thoughts while grappling with overwhelming emotions. All the while, he was just coming to the realization that he LOVES Penelope, so he was actually going through it. Was it fair to Penelope? Nope. But do I understand it? Yes.
I think it stings more because we know Colin doesnât truly mean those things. Heâs trying to hurt her because heâs feeling hurt. Is that mature? No. But it is human. In relationships, people sometimes say things they donât fully mean or that come out harsher than intended. Whatâs important is how those moments are handled afterward. Does it reflect a toxic relationship? It could, but only if those moments happen repeatedly and thereâs no communication or growth afterward. Colin came to terms with why he was feeling the way he was, and what brought him to say those things. Relationships arenât perfect 100% of the time, and conflicts will arise. What matters is how those conflicts are addressed, and whether they lead to growth and understanding.
Colin was taking his frustration out on Penelope - not the best decision, for sure, and he couldâve handled it better. But thatâs part of what I appreciate about Bridgerton. It doesnât present perfect, flawless relationships. No relationship is perfect or flawless. Instead, it shows characters learning, making mistakes, and growing together. A relationship where everyone always says the perfect thing, always acts the ideal way, and is always the best version of themselves just isnât real. I think that imperfection is part of what makes Bridgerton resonate with so many people. Even though it is a romance show and you want it to be perfect.
I will be doing a blog post in the near future about my thoughts on the brothel scenes!
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A... rather personal defense of Pran
I've seen a lot of people being confused about Pran's behaviour and rather upset by him. But like @waitmyturtles said in their review, "I see Pran dealing with something really complicated." Which, yes. That's what this post is about. I just don't think it's about Singapore.
It's about Pran's OCD. I think there was a consensus last week with the way Pran talked about it that it was a recent diagnosis. And I think this episode just confirmed that for me.
This is where the personal part begins - I was diagnosed with OCD in 2020, in the very first few months of covid. When I told people about it I got about the same response that we had to Pran - it's not surprising but it's good that it's an official diagnosis now.
Such a diagnosis is almost a relief when you get it because suddenly a lot of things start making sense. But it also comes with a very fun challenge - learning to deal with it. Because while you understand why you get so much more anxious and overthink more than most people, you're also suddenly more aware of your thought patterns. You have to be, to find a way to work through them, to not give into the intrusive thoughts. But looking at the intrusive thoughts is one of the best ways to let them take over. You do have to look at them though, because you have to learn to recognise them. Because you cannot deal with them until you do. It's a rough cycle.
I was a few years older than Pran when I was diagnosed, and in a very different place in my life. The pandemic that we didn't know a lot about at that time looming over our heads did not help my anxiety, but the lockdown gave me something really special - time and space to work through it all. I wasn't in college so I didn't have the constant looming threat of deadlines and figuring out my future in that very moment. I also didn't have the very unique set of stressors Pran lives with - friends and family from whom you're hiding a relationship that if revealed could potentially lead to very severe consequences, consequences that in the past have been the worst of his anxieties come to life. Nor a relationship to maintain while being overtly aware at all times that this is not the kind of relationship your partner would really want, that they're only in this because of you.
And there is the sacrifice of it all. There is the thing that keeps coming up again and again - that Pat does so much for him. That Pat helps him all the time, that Pat's sacrificed so much for him, that Pran isn't sure he's good enough or ever will be.
Add to that the regular reminders from Pat that he overthinks. They're meant in a very good way and they do help in the moment, I'm not denying that at all. But it's also a fact that Pran struggles with. It adds to his concern that he's a burden on Pat with the way he thinks, that Pat has to do so much work because of Pran's brain, something Pat had no say over (something Pran had no say over but it's harder to see it like that in the moment).
I've had my diagnosis for the past 3 years now. And it hasn't been until the past year that I've finally started feeling confident in myself and my ability to regulate my anxiety, to finally start feeling like I have control over my brain. Because as much as knowing the diagnosis helps, the work you have to do afterwards is no joke.
So yes, Pran is going through something very heavy, but it's not the prospect of going to Singapore (I don't believe that exists just yet, but it's coming soon). Pran is in the process of figuring out how to make his brain work in his favour instead of actively against him. He's learning to rely on people when he needs to while fighting off constant reminders that he's a burden.
And we've seen Pran make a lot of progress. Any points at which he talks about being anxious are progress. Any time he lets himself be upset is progress. Any time time he says any of his worries out loud (even if he can't say them directly to Pat yet), he has fought his way through who knows how many intrusive thoughts to get to that point. And in the same regard - he probably feels guilty about having Pat say "I can't live without you" first. Because he's likely just as aware that Pat has done so much for him that this is just another thing he's adding on top of that.
But - and I think this is very big - he knows that he needs Pat to say it first, to give him permission to feel this, that this isn't too much for him to ask for. This is him asking for help to express himself when he feels like too much. It helps them both in the long run. And I do think it's a very important step to get what we saw in ep 12 - a Pran that demands love, that demands to be babied. This is him giving himself permission through the hardest part of learning his diagnosis.
I love that we get this between ep 11 and 12 because with this ep 12 also becomes a hug, a way of telling us things may be rough for him but he gets through it. He'll get where he needs to be, wants to be. Just give him some time. Because just like with the parents, sometimes time is just what you need.
#so this is probably the most personal i have ever been and will ever be on here#but i think it needed to be said#so here it is#bad buddy#bad buddy brain rot#bad buddy series#our skyy 2#our skyy bad buddy#i understand people being upset with him#but i think it's important to understand why he's acting the way he is#especially when you add in a pretty serious mental health diagnosis#and they are dealing with it pretty well!#i think showing the struggle is important sometimes#and at least they're showing a version of it that makes sense#it's not just a need for everything to be orderly - although that can be part of it and likely is for pran#but it never just ends there
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i made a short post here referring to my own experiences and wanted to expand on it, you can reblog both of these posts btw. I am only writing this all down because the way some of you have spoken about chris and his decision very much bothers me. trust when i tell you i do not want to completely lay out my trauma on the internet for all of you to read, but if it makes one of you understand why this works, why it is important, then it will have been worth it to me.
When I was 12 my father was diagnosed with frontal temporal dementia. the adults in my family and his doctors decided that it was best for him to be moved to a a full time care facility. The next year, and after hearing, seeing, and understanding my father's condition and where it would go, I, at thirteen years old, made the decision to say goodbye to him, that I did not want to hear about what levels of deterioration he had reached. I wanted to remember him as he was when he remembered me, and all the adventures and fun things we did together.
I made that decision. I made it because it was easier than watching him deteriorate, forget who his sister, his brother, my brother, my mother, and me. And I knew that at twelve and thirteen. It was never a decision I ever thought I would have to make, it wasn't a decision I should've had to make.
Now, the important part, over the next few years my decision was questioned and ignored by the adults in my life and even my brother, some of the questioning I can understand now that I am older, but it should have never reached the level it did. My aunt and uncle would openly discuss his condition over dinner when he came to visit, and I would run away to the restaurant bathroom and cry my eyes out until my mom came to get me. I was forced into visiting him in his care home, which ended with it causing far more harm than good. Only then was my decision somewhat respected, it took me being retraumatized for it to be taken seriously.
Despite all of that, I do not regret that decision.
I can't know how I would be different if none of that happened. But at this point in my live, eleven years and some therapy later, I am fairly certain I would be less traumatized, carry less resentment and anger, if maybe my mom had spoken up at those dinners and made arrangements to get updates without me next to her trying to enjoy my pizza. Had I not had to see my own father forget my name and then have some sort of mini medical emergency. Had my brother heard me in a way only a sibling could.
So, yes, Christopher at thirteen made a indefinite and truly most likely temporary decision to remove himself from an environment where he doesn't fully trust his sole and primary caregiver. He knows his dad loves him, Eddie made that so clear. And it could really be 5 minutes, 5 days, 5 weeks, and so on and so forth until Christopher is ready to come home. And him knowing that Eddie respected his decision and loves him no matter what is what is going to make that time shorter. If he had walked out with his father begging him to stay, to forgive him before he was ready, the chances of him coming back would in my opinion would be far slimmer than the circumstances under which he did leave.
with that i leave you this, "yeah people go away. and it's sad. and it hurts. but you know, not everyone goes away forever. sometimes they come back. and as much as we miss them, that's how happy we are to see them again."
#like i feel like i had to take my lived experience and put it out there cause i think it is rare that it is relevant like this#and many of you are posting from a place of idk what but its not that#sorry if this feels tmi or something idk#also this way of dealing with things is encoded in his dna from both sides#and this is truly the safest way he can do that#and some of you are acting like phones do not exists ffs#911 abc#i might regret this or whatever#ok to rb#i said this to amelia in a text but tbh this kind of respect toward chris from eddie is just as important to me as bi buck#and i guess if i am the only one that feels that way or you can understand why after this...then well i cannot help you#anyway back to my hiatus ig
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Oh, so, like, the entire first season's establishment of the characters and their interactions don't actually matter in Helluva Boss. Okay, cool.
Like, I get that characterization develops over time and the writers come up with new ideas and places they want to take the story, but. So much of the Stolas/BlitzĂž stuff recently isn't character development: it's retconning.
#I'm just salty because i was heavily invested in the unhealthy dynamic as i interpreted it#instead of the unhealthy dynamic the show decided on.#uhhhh. yeah I'll throw this in the crit tag#helluva boss critical#I'm mostly just not invested in this show anymore. alas! but i do still very much enjoy the art and animation style#every time there's shiny glowy eyes i go đ#anyway it does just take a tiny amount of editing to have this come across how i would very much enjoy#where Stolas is just. hypocritical#he wants love and a relationship so badly#and that's such an interesting characterization and I'm here for it!#if we also just. acknowledge the way he was SO obsessed with sex while BlitzĂž was awkward about it#like there is a lot of mention of that - BlitzĂž says he thought that's what Stolas wanted from him#and is confused about why things are changing!! (i love it so much)#but the show seems to take Stolas's side instead of allowing that 'yeahâ he doesn't recognize how his internal emotions were never seenâ#because all BlitzĂž sees are Stolas's external actions - exactly the problem that Stolas is having with BlitzĂž not communicating!'#AND i still think there should be more emphasis on 'hey yeah it was really fucked up to manipulate BlitzĂž into sex like he did'#the crystal didn't magically fix it and they should have issues with BlitzĂž not understanding his worth to Stolas#because from his POV: Stolas really does only want him for sexâ is paying him with access to the book and human realmâ#and has repeatedly sexualized him And seemed ashamed of it when other important people knew#(compared to how he acted towards BlitzĂž around other Imps) (which makes it seem like he doesn't care about what Imps think at all)#Stolas can be sad and his emotions are interesting but not when all of the fandom I'm seeing is taking his side#me at all times always: i think these characters/this ship should be worse!!!
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how do i turn qantoineâs spontaneous marriage proposal to qetoiles into evidence of his early-days fear of qfrench drifing away and keeping secrets from one another
#the conversation takes place in antoineâs vod: LâANNIVERSAIRE DE TALLULAH at 41 mins ish#like . okay . its such a fucking crazy moment to me that still lives in my head bc itâs a a joke . but itâs also not#he asks etoiles directly after spiderbit wedding . âdonât you want to get married?â#after it gets mentioned*#etoiles turns him down bc he âdoesnât have time to fuck [he] needs to kill everyoneâ#and antoine says âwell butâ just a marriageâ like itâs the act itself that is the most important to him not anything that could come with it#the confirmation of partnership . of having someone to rely on . something that feels to him maybe more certain and solid than the#friendships antoine had at that point . like if he felt things were slipping and he was being left behind he wanted the certainty of#something like a marriage that is traditionally considered More important and certain .#and i think the end of their conversation is notable in how antoine brings up the notion of betrayal â he getting betrayed by others and how#heâs fed up with it . after etoiles says no to the marriage (though specifying that heâs gonna think about it) antoine brings the whole#betrayal thing up after a pause . he doesnât necessarily consider etoiles as having betrayed him but itâs that lack of certainty#certainty that etoiles has refused to give him that makes him start to open up about how heâs tired of people promising him things (or#seeming to promise him things) only to leave him out and in the dark . and thereâs an insecurity there that really shines if you take this#moment into consideration with the Larger Shifting his character is going through .#like tldr ; qantoine has begun to realise that his friends are starting to form deeper bonds with other people and thus keep secrets with#them which to him means leaving him behind . taking notice of this he brings this up to his friends in . not exactly direct ways . he#talks about how he doesnât like secret keeping but doesnât seem to push much further and he also tries to remedy the issue#of feeling left behind by doing shit as discussed above ^ however on account of the InHuman iâm not sure he understands what heâs doing very#well . and as we know antoine doesnât make much progress and ends up retreating into himself and beginning to keep his own secrets . to do#his own shady shit . to work in the shadows and not be honest with any of his friends either . to hold them at armâs length despite how much#he still cares . the only person he puts his full trust into anymore is pomme . not ayp who he deems too underhanded . not bagz who he sees#as having started the whole âsecret keepingâ stuff in the first place . and not etoiles whoâs actively going down a path with the codes and#resistance that he cannot follow#that was NOT a short tldr . why the fuck am i writing dissertation length tags about MINECRAFT BLOCKS#god whatever who cares i get joy out of this thats what matters#anw if you read this far holy shit ur insane . thank you#i am going to bed now godbless !#jay rambles#qfrench.posting
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Awhile ago @ouidamforeman made this post:
This shot through my brain like a chain of firecrackers, so, without derailing the original post, I have some THOUGHTS to add about why this concept is not only hilarious (because it is), but also...
It. It kind of fucks. Severely.
And in a delightfully Pratchett-y way, I'd dare to suggest.
I'll explain:
As inferred above, both Crowley AND Aziraphale have canonical Biblical counterparts. Not by name, no, but by function.
Crowley, of course, is the serpent of Eden.
(note on the serpent of Eden: In Genesis 3:1-15, at least, the serpent is not identified as anything other than a serpent, albeit one that can talk. Later, it will be variously interpreted as a traitorous agent of Hell, as a demon, as a guise of Satan himself, etc. In Good Omens --as a slinky ginger who walks funny)
Lesser known, at least so far as I can tell, is the flaming sword. It, too, appears in Genesis 3, in the very last line:
"So he drove out the man; and placed at the east of the garden of Eden Cherubims, and a flaming sword which turned every way, to keep the way of the tree of life." --Genesis 3:24, KJV
Thanks to translation ambiguity, there is some debate concerning the nature of the flaming sword --is it a divine weapon given unto one of the Cherubim (if so, why only one)? Or is it an independent entity, which takes the form of a sword (as other angelic beings take the form of wheels and such)? For our purposes, I don't think the distinction matters. The guard at the gate of Eden, whether an angel wielding the sword or an angel who IS the sword, is Aziraphale.
(note on the flaming sword: in some traditions --Eastern Orthodox, for example-- it is held that upon Christ's death and resurrection, the flaming sword gave up it's post and vanished from Eden for good. By these sensibilities, the removal of the sword signifies the redemption and salvation of man.
...Put a pin in that. We're coming back to it.)
So, we have our pair. The Serpent and the Sword, introduced at the beginning and the end (ha) of the very same chapter of Genesis.
But here's the important bit, the bit that's not immediately obvious, the bit that nonetheless encapsulates one of the central themes, if not THE central theme, of Good Omens:
The Sword was never intended to guard Eden while Adam and Eve were still in it.
Do you understand?
The Sword's function was never to protect them. It doesn't even appear until after they've already fallen. No... it was to usher Adam and Eve from the garden, and then keep them out. It was a threat. It was a punishment.
The flaming sword was given to be used against them.
So. Again. We have our pair. The Serpent and the Sword: the inception and the consequence of original sin, personified. They are the one-two punch that launches mankind from paradise, after Hell lures it to destruction and Heaven condemns it for being destroyed. Which is to say that despite being, supposedly, hereditary enemies on two different sides of a celestial cold war, they are actually unified by one purpose, one pivotal role to play in the Divine Plan: completely fucking humanity over.
That's how it's supposed to go. It is written.
...But, in Good Omens, they're not just the Serpent and the Sword.
They're Crowley and Aziraphale.
(author begins to go insane from emotion under the cut)
In Good Omens, humanity is handed it's salvation (pin!) scarcely half an hour after losing it. Instead of looming over God's empty garden, the sword protects a very sad, very scared and very pregnant girl. And no, not because a blameless martyr suffered and died for the privilege, either.
It was just that she'd had such a bad day. And there were vicious animals out there. And Aziraphale worried she would be cold.
...I need to impress upon you how much this is NOT just a matter of being careless with company property. With this one act of kindness, Aziraphale is undermining the whole entire POINT of the expulsion from Eden. God Herself confronts him about it, and he lies. To God.
And the Serpent--
(Crowley, that is, who wonders what's so bad about knowing the difference between good and evil anyway; who thinks that maybe he did a GOOD thing when he tempted Eve with the apple; who objects that God is over-reacting to a first offense; who knows what it is to fall but not what it is to be comforted after the fact...)
--just goes ahead and falls in love with him about it.
As for Crowley --I barely need to explain him, right? People have been making the 'didn't the serpent actually do us a solid?' argument for centuries. But if I'm going to quote one of them, it may as well be the one Neil Gaiman wrote ficlet about:
"If the account given in Genesis is really true, ought we not, after all, to thank this serpent? He was the first schoolmaster, the first advocate of learning, the first enemy of ignorance, the first to whisper in human ears the sacred word liberty, the creator of ambition, the author of modesty, of inquiry, of doubt, of investigation, of progress and of civilization." --Robert G. Ingersoll
The first to ask questions.
Even beyond flattering literary interpretation, we know that Crowley is, so often, discreetly running damage control on the machinations of Heaven and Hell. When he can get away with it. Occasionally, when he can't (1827).
And Aziraphale loves him for it, too. Loves him back.
And so this romance plays out over millennia, where they fall in love with each other but also the world, because of each other and because of the world. But it begins in Eden. Where, instead of acting as the first Earthly example of Divine/Diabolical collusion and callousness--
(other examples --the flood; the bet with Satan; the back channels; the exchange of Holy Water and Hellfire; and on and on...)
--they refuse. Without even necessarily knowing they're doing it, they just refuse. Refuse to trivialize human life, and refuse to hate each other.
To write a story about the Serpent and the Sword falling in love is to write a story about transgression.
Not just in the sense that they are a demon and an angel, and it's ~forbidden. That's part of it, yeah, but the greater part of it is that they are THIS demon and angel, in particular. From The Real Bible's Book of Genesis, in the chapter where man falls.
It's the sort of thing you write and laugh. And then you look at it. And you think. And then you frown, and you sit up a little straighter. And you think.
And then you keep writing.
And what emerges hits you like a goddamn truck.
(...A lot of Pratchett reads that way. I believe Gaiman when he says Pratchett would have been happy with the romance, by the way. I really really do).
It's a story about transgression, about love as transgression. They break the rules by loving each other, by loving creation, and by rejecting the hatred and hypocrisy that would have triangulated them as a unified blow against humanity, before humanity had even really got started. And yeah, hell, it's a queer romance too, just to really drive the point home (oh, that!!! THAT!!!)
...I could spend a long time wildly gesturing at this and never be satisfied. Instead of watching me do that (I'll spare you), please look at this gif:
I love this shot so much.
Look at Eve and Crowley moving, at the same time in the same direction, towards their respective wielders of the flaming sword. Adam reaches out and takes her hand; Aziraphale reaches out and covers him with a wing.
You know what a shot like that establishes? Likeness. Commonality. Kinship.
"Our side" was never just Crowley and Aziraphale. Crowley says as much at the end of season 1 ("--all of us against all of them."). From the beginning, "our side" was Crowley, Aziraphale, and every single human being. Lately that's around 8 billion, but once upon a time it was just two other people. Another couple. The primeval mother and father.
But Adam and Eve die, eventually. Humanity grows without them. It's Crowley and Aziraphale who remain, and who protect it. Who...oversee it's upbringing.
Godfathers. Sort of.
#good omens#ineffable husbands#aziracrow#good omens 2#crowley#aziraphale#good omens meta#I have no idea if I've made a coherent point here but I'm tired of this being in my drafts; RAW FEELINGS IT IS#it's about being sent to destroy and instead staying to love and protect and nurture I'M CRAZY I'M CRAZY RAAAAAAAGGHHHH#gnu terry pratchett
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I wanted to make this post because we donât see a lot of asexual characters in western media and despite him being from a hugely popular show (Seaside Hotel) youâre unlikely to know of his existence if youâre not from Denmark.
His name is Hjalmar Aurland and heâs one of the more sympathetic and realistic asexual characters Iâve seen. He lives in a time and place where asexuality as a concept doesnât exist yet so heâs never labeled as such but rewatching the show made me realize that he acts exactly like the asexual people I personally know. Asexuality can mean a lot of things but his specific brand isnât naive to sex nor is he repulsed by sex, sexual desire or thoughts simply doesnât come naturally to him.
He can be convinced to have sex with his wife Helene but only if she appeals to their emotional bond. Just so you donât get the wrong idea, heâs not being forced or emotionally blackmailed to sleep with her. Itâs simply that he understands sex is a way to show emotional love too and he wants to express that love for Helene when itâs important to her, and seeing as sex isnât unpleasant to him, just kinda boring, heâs willing to do that for her.
Unfortunately that isnât enough for Helene and despite her love for Hjalmar she starts an affair with the dramatic and emotional actor Edward Weyse. He has a string of relationships, marriages and divorces behind him because despite what it may look like from the outside Edward doesnât really want shallow sexual relationships. He just canât help himself and keep falling in love with women left and right, fully and wholeheartedly, only to be dumped or dump them once the initial excitement has passed.
So Helene and Edwardâs affair that was only meant to satisfy their carnal desires quickly becomes romantic. Helene feels torn between him and Hjalmar who she still loves and Edward understands the difficult situation theyâre both in while also feeling jealous of Hjalmar. And Hjalmar? He doesnât catch on for years. Heâs not stupid but his brain just doesnât jump to sex. He just assumes theyâre good friends and why shouldnât his wife be allowed to have friends, even male ones? Things get really complicated when Helene gets pregnant and she has to have sex with Hjalmar so he wonât wonder how it happened. Edward even has to join in on the seduction, reminding Hjalmar how much Helene loves him, even though it breaks Edwardâs heart to do so.
But like Iâve said Hjalmar isnât stupid. He saw the signs but chose to ignore them until one night when Helene accidentally says Edwardâs name. It breaks the dam in Hjalmarâs denial and he has to face that deep down he always knew. Overcome by sadness and betrayal he wanders off into the night in nothing but his nightgown and gets a room at a different hotel where he can think in peace. Eventually he agrees to return to the first hotel with Helene and Edward and decides to take control of the situation.
He sits them both down and tells them that he understands that the three of them share a bond and that there are things he canât really do for Helene so from now on he wants their relationship to be open and honest. He wants Helene and Edward to keep seeing each other and Edward is welcome in their house, but Hjalmar wants to be allowed to call Edward by his first name and makes it very clear that Helene and Edwardâs children âbelong to himâ because he still thinks of himself as their dad and loves them as his own children. Both Helene and Edward agrees to it, though the emotional Edward is very flustered and confused by the acceptance and love heâs being shown by Hjalmar.
This is obviously a very tv drama situation but I was so stuck by how much Hjalmar acts like my asexual friends. Having a lover for your partner isnât the most common solution but itâs an idea Iâve heard a lot of asexual people be open to under the right circumstances and of course thatâs the most dramatic solution for a romantic tv drama.
Hjalmar is defined by so much more than his sexuality though. His main characteristic is his passion for social justice and equality, and other than some early show weirdness before they really cemented the characters, Hjamler is the only character who floats freely between the men and women. Heâs just as likely to sit with the men as he is the women, often appearing in otherwise entirely female spaces. Itâs never questioned or even brought up, not because heâs a âsafe asexualâ but because he cares and think their worries are as important as the menâs. Heâs often called a pessimist by the other men when in reality he is determined to be hopeful and compassionate and spread the love he feels the world is lacking as WWII draws closer.
So yeah, I just wanted to share this sweet ace guy with you because you probably wouldnât have known about him otherwise.
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#jade watches gilmore girls#UGHHH#dean mocking rory about Harvard is the worst...#he's so needy and annoying#lorelai warned him about how rory is a perfectionist and he knows what a hard worker she is#he knows how important harvard is to her and he just mocks it instead of understanding why rory is stressing#like she can't see lane as often and lane only voices how sad that makes her once and never guilt trips her#she never even got mad about her moving school#and the fact dean was ready to break up because she'd be going to college (i had my problems with Jess but at least he understood-#-and looked how far it was so he could consider travelling to her to see her and was upset she dropped out)#the way he does that mocking tone a lot#you should care about Harvard because it matters to your girlfriend#i was going to say if lorelai saw/heard the way he talked to her and act with her...but remembered she thinks he does no wrong because-#-shes obsessed....ehhhh
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âș PAIRING: lee heeseung x female reader
âș GENRE: stepbrother au, smut
âș SUMMARY: the story of how your stepbrotherâs girlfriend realizes her boyfriend has never really been hers.
âș CW/TW: stepcest, infidelity, possessiveness, heeseung can lift reader, cucking kink, voyeurism, masturbation (f), oral sex (f), fingering, face sitting, unprotected sex, creampies
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A lot of people find your relationship with your stepbrother cute. How could they not? Heâs always so doting and protective like a real brother would be. In spite of being only slightly older, Heeseung takes on a very important role in your life. He constantly goes out of his way to take care of you, making sure you have anything you could possibly need.
Heeseungâs girlfriend never thought too much about the relationship between you two. It was natural that he took the naive college freshman under his wing and constantly had you by his side. Mina found it endearing, actually. The way he worried about you like a mother hen who wasnât ready for her young chick to go into the world alone is adorable and a good sign. After dating so many inconsiderate losers, she thinks sheâs finally chosen the right guy.
But somewhere along the way, Mina starts to grow tired of it. Time has gone by, and youâre no longer a naive freshman who canât get around without her boyfriendâs help. Of course family is important, but itâs not like youâre entirely helpless. And yet, thatâs exactly the way Heeseung acts. Heâs always ready to drop everything when you need him. On several humiliating occasions, heâs even left her half naked on his bed just to go to you because you bought something you couldnât figure out how to put together, or because you wanted to hang out with him.
Itâs hard for Mina to admit that sheâs a little jealous. Especially because it all seems so ridiculous. Thereâs no way her boyfriend actually wants you like that. But as time goes on, she thinks that maybe sheâs not all that crazy. Especially with the affectionate way her boyfriend looks at you. Despite all this, Mina doesnât say anything. At least, not until Heeseung starts to bring you along to what were meant to be dates.
âBabe, why do you keep bringing your stepsister? i thought we were going on a date?â Itâs hard for her to not sound bitter and annoyed.
âHer roommate is going to visit her parents, and I donât want Y/N to be alone.â His tone is kind and gentle like always, but itâs also firm and leaves no room for arguments.
Whatâs worse is that Mina canât bring herself to hate or blame you. In a way, she understands why her boyfriend is always so concerned about you. Youâre so nice and trusting that it would be way too easy for someone to take advantage of that. Thereâs also the fact that youâve been more than willing to let them have some alone time, but Heeseung never lets you leave.
Itâs all so strange and frustrating that Mina feels like she has to take matters into her own hands. So she does.
The key to Heeseung letting you go is getting you a boyfriendâor at least getting you to start dating. Itâs easy enough to find a guy whoâs interested in you. Thatâs never been a problem for you, and all it takes is her showing your picture to the cute guy in her communications class for her plan to fall into place. As luck would have it, youâre also into meeting the guy and going out with him.
Little did Mina know, setting you up with him would be a mistake that would cost her everything.
On the night youâre meant to meet up with her classmate, Mina excitedly goes to her boyfriendâs apartment. Itâs been a long time since she got to be alone with Heeseung, and she was going to make the most of it.
Sheâs dressed in tiny tank top and a cute little skirt that Heeseung lovesâit barely hides the lingerie sheâs wearing underneath. Mina quietly lets herself into her boyfriendâs apartment using her spare key. Quietly, she tiptoes to his room only to find the door wide open. What she doesnât expect is to find you sitting on his the edge of bed while Heeseung kneels in front of you.
Mina feels like a bucket of cold water has been dumped on her as his pretty hands rub your soft thighs. You look incredible, clad in a cute little dress with your makeup and hair done to perfection. Itâs a mistake for Mina to keep watching, but she canât find her voice at the moment.
âSeungie, whatâs wrong?â
God, Mina hates that you call him that. Mostly because she can tell how much Heeseung likes it.
âWhy didnât you tell me you were going out to meet some guy?â Heeseung sounds almost venomous, but itâs like you donât hear it. âWho is he? Howâd you meet him?â
You tilt your head, pretty lips pulled down in a confused frown. âDidnât Mina tell you? She set me up with a guy from her class. Heâs really cute!â
A chill goes down Minaâs spine. She can see Heeseungâs back tense when you tell him how your date came to be. The air feels almost murderous as he gently squeezes your thighs.
It kills Heeseung that he was almost too late in stopping you from meeting some strange guy in the pretty little dress you have on. He softly rubs your thighs, eyes simmering with anger and desire he doesnât care to hide. Not anymore.
âOh, angel.â Your stepbrother murmurs, hands slowly trailing up to your thighs. âYou know youâre my favorite girl, right?â
An unsuspecting smile graces your lips. âYeah. And youâre my favorite guy.â
Heeseung hums in satisfaction as his fingers ghost the edges of your dress. He watches your eyebrows furrow, but you donât say anything. As always, you have blind trust in your stepbrother. Thatâs all the indication he needs to get up and push you down on his bed. Heeseung hovers over you, loving how youâre staring up at him with sparkling, wide eyes. He swoops down to capture your lips in a searing kiss.
Your heart is racing in your chest as Heeseung forces his tongue into your mouth. Despite the initial shock, you quickly melt into the kiss. He swallows your moans, pulling you closer as he deepens the messy kiss. You mewl into his mouth, carding your fingers through his hair with desire you had never realized you had for him.
Meanwhile, Mina can only watch as her boyfriend kisses you with a passion that he clearly never felt for her. It feels like her heart is ripping in half as Heeseung begins to undress you. Tears well up in her eyes when he groans at the sight of the lingerie adorning your body. Mina can see how hard he is from where sheâs standing, and the desire in his eyes is very different from the way he looks at her.
âCanât believe you got all pretty for some other boy.â Heeseung spits as he starts to undress. âWere planning on letting him fuck you?â
You shake your head and go to speak, but you canât when Heeseung roughly pulls off your lingerie then his own underwear. His cock is thick and big, possibly the biggest youâve ever seen. Itâs twitching and leaking as he looks at you with his dark eyes.
âW-We shouldnât be doing this.â You whine as Heeseung shoves your thighs to your stomach and licks a broad stripe up your wet pussy.
Your stepbrother groans at your sweet taste, thrusting his tongue into your dripping hole. He laps up the juices leaking out of your slit, circling his tongue on your clit for good measure. The noise you let out is downright pornographic and pure music to Heeseungâs ears.
âSeungie!â You keen as you spread your legs and tangle your hands in his messy hair. âIâ Fuck!â
Heeseung pulls back with a wet slurp to spread your cunt open with his big hands. âGod. You have the prettiest pussy Iâve ever seen, angel. Just had to taste it.â
Each one of his words is like a dagger to Minaâs heart and confidence. Wet tears trickle down her face, but she doesnât say anything as you pull on her boyfriendâs hair. Heeseung only moans and dives back into your slick cunt. He greedily laps up everything that drips out of you, sucking and kissing your clit.
âWe shouldnât be doing this, Hee.â You repeat through a needy mewl, making no attempt to stop him. In fact, you buck your pussy into his mouth as he sucks on your sensitive bud.
âShh, angel.â Heeseung shushes as he flicks his tongue across your swollen bud. âJust relax and let me eat you out. Been wanting to do this for so long.â
Mina swallows thickly, the hurt slowly being replaced by something else. Her eyes grow bigger when she realizes which feeling is taking over. She shifts slightly, feeling a familiar wetness begin to pool in her panties. Mina feels sick that the sight of her boyfriend cheating on her can turn her on, and she thinks that she should leave right now and never return.
But she stays.
Mina licks her lips and continues to watch. Even she canât help but think how hot you look, whimpering and writhing as Heeseung pushes your thighs apart so he can bury his face deeper in your pussy. He flicks his tongue, slowly descending until heâs lapping at your hole, slowly fucking the wet muscle in and out. Your eyes roll back as your stepbrother eats your pussy like itâs the best thing heâs ever tasted.
The sounds coming from your pussy and the way Heeseung messily eats you out has Minaâs own cunt clenching with need. She can feel her underwear start to stick to her cunt as she watches her boyfriend lap up your arousal like a starved man. Mina bites her lip, feeling sick and twisted for being turned on by your pretty moans.
Heeseung suddenly pulls away, but not before he slaps your thigh playfully. He goes to lay on his back all while wearing a filthy smirk. âSit on my face.â
You bite your lip as a hot flash of arousal pulses through your body. Both your and Minaâs cunts throb at the suggestion. Heeseung sees your hesitation, but doesnât back down.
âCâmon, baby. Be a good little stepsister and ride my fucking face.â He growls out with dark eyes.
With your pussy dripping, you crawl over to him and kneel over his face. Mina watches with heated eyes as you slowly lower your cunt on her boyfriendâs face. The heat in her stomach grows when she hears Heeseung groan in satisfaction.
âThatâs it. I want your pretty pussy suffocating me.â
With that, your stepbrother grabs your hips and pulls your cunt down onto his face with a groan. Mewling quietly, you rub your cunt all over his mouth. Every time he moans or grunts, it sends little vibrations through your pussy. The delicious feeling has you grinding down on his tongue as you chase that feeling. Heeseung eagerly fucks his wet muscle into your hot cunt, already addicted to your sweet taste.
Mina swallows thickly when he sees Heeseung thrusting into the air as he eats you out. His cock is leaking and throbbing with need. Fuck. How sheâd like to go and lick all that up, to have him fuck her mouth as he fucks you with his tongue. Mina rubs her thighs to soothe the growing ache in her pussy as she watches you ride Heeseungâs face.
Your eyes roll back when your stepbrother slaps your ass. A loud squeal spills from your lips as Heeseung keeps fucking his tongue up into your cunt. He grabs your ass and kneads it roughly. With one last groan and flick of his tongue, he sits up and takes you with him. The effortless display of strength turns both women on, one containing her moan while the other cries out as sheâs pressed back into the mattress.
âSuch a sweet little cunt.â Heeseung moans as he buries his face back into your dripping cunt. âShit, Y/N. Youâre fucking soaked down here.â
âHeeseung!â You cry out as he pries your thighs further apart. Your stepbrother shakes his head to grind his tongue against your sensitive cunt.
âFuck, you have the hottest little pussy.â Heeseung lifts his head with a groan, lips shiny with your arousal. âMissed eating some good pussy. Itâs been so long.â
Mina feels pathetic that her cunt throbs at his degrading words. She bites her lip, hands trailing up her thigh and to her soaked underwear. Itâs so filthy and humiliating, but the ache in her pussy is getting to be too much. She slowly rubs circles on her covered cunt as she keeps watching her boyfriend cheat on her.
âFuck, Seungie.â You mewl desperately. âS-Shouldnât like having your face buried in my cunt.â
Heeseung smirks into your wetness. He gently circles his tongue on your clit, kissing it tenderly before he gently starts to nip at it with his teeth. Mina shoves her panties aside when you moan out in pleasure. Now sheâs furiously rubbing at her bare pussy, wanting to see you cum on her boyfriendâs face.
âBut you do, baby. You like me fucking you with my tongue, and I fucking love eating this sweet little pussy.â
Your hips buck up at the words, grinding your cunt against his mouth as you moan for him. Juices drip out of you lewdly, leaking down to your ass and onto Heeseungâs sheets. Your head is swimming with pleasure, and you have to remember that this is all so very wrong.
âYou like that?â Heeseung teases you, loving how youâve turned into putty in his hands. âAnswer me, Y/N. Do you like your stepbrother telling you how much he loves tasting your juicy cunt?â
Your back arches when Heeseung sucks your puffy bud into his mouth. âGodâyes! Feels so fucking good, Hee! Love having your mouth on my pussy.â
Heeseung growls, the vibrations making your cunt throb as he sucks and licks your swollen clit. Eager to have you cum on his tongue, he slips two fingers into your fluttering hole. Mina follows in suit, unable to take her eyes off the erotic sight of you getting ate out and fingered. Fuck. This was better than any porn she had ever watched. Her hand is dripping with her own arousal, and she canât even feel disgusted anymore that sheâs so turned on by the entire situation.
âMmmh, shit, Hee.â You whine as the tips of his fingers brush against the gummy spot inside you. âYouâre gonna make me cum.â
âDo it, baby. Cream all over my tongue.â He purrs in delight. âBe a good girl and cum for me.â
Heeseung flattens his tongue on your clit while his fingers grind into the spongy spot in your cunt. Your back arches off the bed, orgasm whiting out your thoughts as you cum around his long fingers.
Mina has to cover her mouth as Heeseung moans along with you. By now sheâs shoved her fingers into her sopping pussy, the squelching sound is drowned out from the sounds coming from your own pussy. The filthy sight is driving her wild, and sheâs so delirious with arousal that she wishes Heeseung would just fuck you already.
âYouâre amazing, angel.â Your stepbrother praises with his fingers still buried knuckle deep in your pussy as he softly strokes your velvety walls. âSo soft and wet. It makes me want to shove my dick into your tight little hole.â
Heeseung slowly pulls his fingers out of you, and you can only watched with a lidded gaze as he moves his body between your thighs. His cock is twitching and leaking as he grabs the base. He smacks his cock down on your slippery pussy, dragging his drooling tip up and down your slit slowly. Mina has to press her hand into her mouth harder to stifle her filthy moans. The sight of her boyfriend pressing his drooling cockhead into your soaking pussy is so hot she might just cum all over her fingers.
âS-Seungieâfuck. We shouldnât.â You whimper as he leans forward and braces his arms by your head.
You and Mina both know you donât really mean your words. Itâs clear that you want your stepbrother to split you open on his big cock. That becomes obvious when you donât try to stop him as he shoves his cock into your pussy until he bottoms out completely, balls pressing against your ass. Shuddering with pleasure, you scratch your nails up his arms as you sink into the bed.
âPretty pussy was meant to take my cock.â Heeseung growls, already drunk on the feeling of your cunt wrapped around his dick. âFuck. I know itâs wrong, baby, but I just couldnât help myself. Your hot little cunt was just begging for my dick. Doesnât it feel all nice and full having your pussy stuffed with your stepbrotherâs big cock?"
Mina starts fucking herself harder when you nod desperately. Your hands go to tangle in his hair as you grind your hips up to meet his thrusts. âYes! Fuck! Love my stepbrotherâs cock stretching me open! Feels so fucking good, Hee!â
Mina knows better than anyone how good you must feel. Although, she imagines you feel must better than she ever did because from the way Heeseungâs fucking you, she can tell heâs doing it with much more enthusiasm and passion. Even his moans are more guttural and full of more pleasure than sheâd ever heard. Theyâre deep as he pulls out until just his tip is spearing you open. Then, he pushes forward, thrusting his cock deep into your fluttering walls.
âThatâs it. Tell me how good it feels.â Heeseung leans down, lips brushing against yours. âDonât be shy, angel. Let me know how much you like this cock fucking you.â
You gasp wantonly and pull him down further to press your lips together. He groans and licks into your mouth easily, tongue slipping past your lips as his cock thrusts deep into your hot, wet cunt. Your hips buck up to meet his, loving how his dick rams into your sweet spot over and over until your sight is painted with pretty little stars.
âFucking love it, Hee.â You moan between sloppy kisses. âGodâI love your cock!â
The coil in Minaâs stomach is close to snapping. By now, her juices are dripping down to her wrist. Luckily, the lewd squelching and sound of skin slapping together drown out any noise sheâs making. Heeseung is fucking you so hard and good that she can smell the musky scent of sex from where sheâs standing. The erotic aroma turns her on even more, pussy clamping down on her fingers in desperate need of release.
âTight little pussy feels so good.â Heeseung moans out between the quick pecks heâs giving you. âGod, I love you, Y/N. So fucking much.â
Your heart races as Minaâs breaks all over again. It hurts, but somehow that just turns her on even more. She keeps fingering herself as tears pool in her eyes.
With a low moan, your pussy clamps down on Heeseungâs dick tightly as you go to eagerly kiss him. A soft I love you, too goes unnoticed by Mina, but not by your stepbrother. He groans into your mouth, cock throbbing inside you.
âMmmh.â Heeseung hums against your lips before he trails wet kisses down your neck. âI love my gorgeous girl. Thatâs why this feels so good. Even your tight little pussy knows how much I love you.â
His gorgeous girl? Mina thinks deliriously, orgasm dangerously close. Itâs something he never referred to her as.
You cry out loudly when Heeseung bites your neck and sucks the skin into his mouth. His hips rock against yours, balls smacking against your ass as his pelvis grinds down on your swollen clit.
âSeungie!â You whine in ecstasy. âIâm getting close.â
Your stepbrother doesnât let up. In fact, his thrusts seem to get faster and rougher. His cock pistons in and out of your cunt, creating sloppy wet sounds as you get even wetter. His eyes are dark as he pulls back to look at you, all pretty squirming and trembling on his cock.
âCum for me, baby. Cover my cock with your sweet cream so I can fill you up.â Heeseung pants. âCum on my cock, angel.â
His teeth sink into your neck again, and it pushes you over the edge. Your hot cunt throbs as you squeeze down on his cock. Somehow your pussy only gets tighter and tighter as you get fucked through your orgasm. You tighten your legs around his waist until he can barely pull out, rutting his cock in short shallow thrusts as your climax starts to taper off.
âSo fucking tight.â Heeseung hisses by your ear. âShit, baby. Get ready. Iâm about to creampie your cute little pussy. Fuck, fuck, fuck!â
With a strangled grunt, he buries his cock to the hilt and shoots his load deep inside your fluttering walls while your pussy softly milks him for every drop of his hot cum. Mina reaches her own climax when she sees her boyfriend cumming inside you. She has to stifle her moans as she trembles and shakes outside the room thatâs filled with the smell and sounds of hot sex.
âYouâre taking it so well, angel.â Heeseung kisses your jaw tenderly as his fat tip spurts rope after rope of his thick cum into your clenching heat. âMilking my cock like I knew you would.â
He grinds his hips down, cock pulsing as he finishes stuffing you full of his hot, sticky load. Your stepbrother fucks his cum inside a bit more before reluctantly pulling out. Heeseungâs cock throbs as he watches his seed drip from your messy pussy.
He licks his lips, heated gaze never leaving your body. âLetâs do it again.â
You donât try to protest as your manhandles into a different position. Mina is still coming down from her high when she realizes her boyfriend is still hard and about to fuck you again. She knows she shouldnât feel excited or aroused by the fact, but she does. Especially when your face is shoved into one of Heeseungâs pillows just before his big cock rails back into your needy pussy.
Heeseung starts fucking you so hard his headboard slams into the wall repeatedly. The harsh sound pairs well with the plop plop plop sound coming from your cunt.
âGod, Y/N. Youâre so fucking good for me.â Heeseung groans when you clench down on him.
You moan loudly, bouncing yourself back on his cock. âFu-Fuck, Seungie. This is wrong. We s-shouldnât be doing this.â
âI know.â Your stepbrother smacks your ass, not sounding the least bit remorseful. âItâs so dirty baby, but I couldnât help myself. Had to get my dick wet using your pretty little pussy.â
âMmmh!â You whine out mindlessly, face turned to the side with your ass raised in the air for Heeseung to fuck deeper into your wet hole. âFeels so fucking good!â
âYeah, it does.â Heeseungâs laugh sounds almost mean as he speeds up his thrusts to fuck his cock harder into your sopping cunt. âYour cute little pussy is the best Iâve ever had.â
His words shouldnât please you as much as they do, but those lewd words turn you on so much that you canât stop your cunt from tightening around him as he keeps spearing into you like an animal in heat. They also shouldnât turn on Heeseungâs girlfriend but thatâs exactly what they do. She isnât angry, only extremely aroused as your ass bounces back on your stepbrotherâs pelvis.
âFuck!â Heeseung groans, fucking his cock right into your g-spot. âYouâre so fucking hot, angel.â
You are. So hot that Mina finds herself wishing she could eat Heeseungâs cum out of your pretty cunt. She just knows you taste good, and mixed with her boyfriend sheâs sure you must taste even better.
âSeungie, please!â You cry out, dizzy with arousal.
âShit.â He growls, slipping a hand underneath your hips to rub fast circles on your clit. âGonna make you cream on my cock again.â
âHeeseung!â You squeal as he picks up his pace, ramming into your squelching pussy as he rubs soft circles into your swollen clit.
Your stepbrother shoves his cock deep into your cunt and grinds, making you squirm and whine as his dick rubs against the spongy spot in your pussy. Your hands twist in the sheets. He flicks and pinches your puffy clit. God, do you look good, and so does Heeseung. Mina is groping one of her tits while the other hand goes to play with her pussy again. Briefly, she thinks she wouldnât mind having a video of you two fucking so she can watch it over and over again.
âHee, Iâm gonna cum.â You moan against the pillow.
âDo it, baby.â He encourages you, free hand coming down to slap your ass hard. âCum all over my cock. Want to feel your hot cunt squeeze me.â
Itâs not long before your orgasm hits. Youâre screaming into your pillow as your cream coats Heeseungâs big cock. Your pussy clamps rhythmically around his dick. Mina canât see you, but with the way your toes are curling she can tell your eyes are rolling to the back of your head in pure ecstasy.
âOh, baby. You feel so fucking good.â Heeseung praises you. His hands move to slap your ass again, making you squeal and tighten again. âFucking work your little pussy on my cock. Fuck. Need to fill you up again.â
âWant you to stuff me full.â You whine back at him, pussy fluttering at the thought of Heeseungâs cum filling your cunt again.
âYeah?â Your stepbrother laughs, sounding way too delighted. âWant me to creampie your hot little cunt again?â
âPlease!â You whine as Heeseungâs fingers slide over your hip to start working soft circles into your clit again. You writhe back on him, feeling yourself get even wetter at the filthy thought of him shooting his hot load inside you.
âCum inside me, Hee.â You pant, mewling when his fingers rub your clit even faster. âWant it so bad. Want to feel it.â
âOh, fuck.â Heeseung groans, hips snapping hard against your ass when he feels how tight youâve gotten. âYou ready, baby? Fucking take it. Take your stepbrotherâs cum in your needy little cunt.â
You moan loudly when you feel his hot cum filling your pussy, stuffing you so full it drips out around his cock. Heeseung ruts his spent cock into your sloppy pussy as he pinches your clit, watching as your back arches as a fourth orgasm sweeps through you. You lazily fuck your cunt back into him, loving the feeling of his cum dripping out of you and coating your thighs.
Heeseung pulls out of your warm cunt with a low groan. Heâs quick to pull you against his chest and lays you down with him. His face is buried in your hair, eyes closed in bliss as you both try to catch your breaths. You feel his smile in your hair as he cuddles you and murmurs sweet praises against your temple.
Through your drooping eyes, you catch sight of Mina. Her eyes widen when you two make eye contact. You canât hide your smirk when you see that she was masturbating to the sight of Heeseung fucking you raw. Instead of saying anything, you give her a seductive wink. Mina clenches around her fingers because the wink is full of understanding and promises.
Itâs clear that Heeseung was never hers, but maybe you wouldnât mind sharing.
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Synopsis : He fears the hairdresser like it's the dentist. One day, he accidentally gets an undercut style. He would have thrown a tantrum if it weren't for your positive response â because all he really cares about is that you enjoy his haircut.
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Content : soft fluff, romantic tension, some mutual pining??
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"This will ruin my life..."
"It will not ruin your life."
"I'm gonna die!"
"You're not gonna die."
"Yes, I'm gonna die! They're gonna cut my head off."
"They're not gonna cut your head off."
Satoru had a haircut appointment which you were accompanying him to as per his desperate demand request. Suguru was there also, helping Shoko with something technical on her phone. He laughed when Satoru was whining to you.
The four of you were on the train; Suguru and Shoko stood tightly packed with their backs facing other people as if they were the group shield. And Satoru sat next to you, clinging to your arm as if he were a kid on his way to the dentist.
"Don't laugh. You know I feel the same about hairdressers as people feel about dentists!" he pouted.
"Satoru, you're so weird." you said.
âI'm not!â
You shook your head at him. Satoru grumbled.
"No one understands me!" he said dramatically.
Suguru commented, "I do understand why you dislike hairdressers, Satoru; most of them don't cut your hair how you want."
Shoko nodded and chimed in, "â yup, and you usually leave with a fake smile and say "oh wowww... I love it!" but you actually hate it." then she went back to frowning at her phone with Suguru.
âMy hair is important, I can't afford to have a bad haircut." Satoru said.
"Haha, you make it sound like if you have a bad haircut it could cost you millions." you laughed.
Satoru sat up straighter and spoke seriously, "It may as well cost me millions!"
You didn't understand why Satoru was being so dramatic.
****
The hairdresser looked at you, Shoko and Suguru and then wondered why so many people were accompanying this grown man to his haircut, as if he were about to get a root canal for the first time.
Suguru whispered into her ear, and she blushed at his alluring charm like anyone would.
"He's scared of bad haircuts... so please do your best, he has a girl to impress. See that one sitting there?â Suguru pointed to you, âYeah, that's the one."
He accidentally flustered her, and he smirked about it when he returned to you and Shoko.
"Suguru, your head looks as big as a bubble about ready to pop." you joked, noticing his smug demeanor as he took a waiting seat with you.
"I think I just flustered the hairdresser on accident." he said.
Shoko chuckled, "Is it ever an accident? I think you do it on purpose â oh, Y/n, I think Satoru is trying to get your attention. Give him some comfort."
Satoru recoiled when the cold blade of the scissors touched his neck, and looked distressed when the hairdresser touched his hair.
You knew he was highly sensitive to touch, especially his hair â he hated people touching his hair (reason X for hating hairdressers). The only person who was allowed to touch his hair was you. Suguru and Shoko needed a "valid reason" for touching Satoru's hair.
But you could comb your fingers through his hair any time, any place for no reason and Satoru would go limp with a smile on his face, completely melting for the act of affection.
Sometimes when it was just you and him alone together in his apartment, especially during his sleepless nights, Satoru would lay his tired head on your lap and ask you to play with his hair. Each stroke of your hand mellowed him out. He especially loved the feeling of your fingers running through his hair when it was fluffy and long.
So really, he feared not the hairdresser or even the bad haircut, but the fact that it might be too short or not fluffy enough for you to enjoy. It had to be just right. He had to maintain his fluffy hair for you.
He wanted to make sure that when you saw him at every party and get-together, you'd think "Wow, Satoru's hair looks so good.". He wanted you to compliment his hair and make him feel good and blushy.
And most of all, he just wanted to please your eyes. He wanted you to be starstruck when you looked at him.
So, a good haircut was critical.
****
Satoru's panic calmed after you took the empty seat next to him. He watched in admiration as you struck up a friendly conversation with the hairdresser. She turned out to be kind. She was an apprentice (picture nervous Satoru stiffening his shoulders when he learned this) and her mother owned the establishment next door.
Satoru was mostly quiet and focused on his reflection in the mirror. He squinted in suspicion when the lady brought out a hair buzzer.
But then you distracted Satoru by asking about what the four of you were doing after this. He stuttered a bit, half-looking at the hair buzzer and jumping a little when it turned on.
You talked so much that Satoru was completely distracted, and the lady could work. Though, it was hard, because Satoru didn't really specify what he wanted... so she winged it.
She thought hey, this guy would look good with an undercut. So, she cut an undercut for Satoru, and looked at you and smirked. His girlfriend will appreciate it, she thought as she looked at you and Satoru talking with hearts in your eyes.
You weren't his girlfriend. But you may as well have been. The two of you were anyways soulmates since kindergarten. Sure, you went away for five years to work abroad, but the link between you and Satoru wasn't broken by the distance.
****
Satoru gasped and nearly fainted when he saw how short his hair had been buzzed at the bottom. His neck felt exposed and suddenly it felt more drafty.
"What theâ"
"â oh, you look hot, Satoru." You said.
He immediately shut up and went red in the face.
"Thanks, yeah it looks... yeah." Satoru hesitantly complimented the hairdresser's work.
She beamed proudly and wrapped up the haircutting session. Satoru took off the black dressing gown and stood up and shimmied the white hair off his pants.
"The cat is shedding." you joked, making Satoru grin with sealed lips.
You picked a white strand of his hair off the back of his shirt when he stood in line to pay at the checkout. He didn't notice. Such a cute boy.
Satoru was just grumbling to himself about how he'd need a scarf or turtleneck to compensate for his "practically naked" hairstyle now.
You stared at his undercut and felt your heartbeat get a bit frantic.
Then you kept staring as you left the barber shop.
Satoru wrapped an arm around your shoulders out of habit, as if he were your boyfriend, so the hairdresser felt sure that you two were dating and said something as you two left that really made you and Satoru blush;
"Your girlfriend loves it." she winked.
"I'm not hisâ"
"She's not myâ"
"She sure does! Thanks for everything, see ya." Shoko cut off you and Satoru from responding and shoved the two of you out the door.
****
That comment lingered in the back of yours and Satoru's minds for the rest of the day.
On the train home, you grazed your fingers over Satoru's undercut and it elicited the funniest reaction out of him; he shivered like a cat that had just been scratched in a sweet spot.
"Haha, does that feel good?" you asked.
"It does. But my neck feels naked." Satoru shrugged.
Oh my god, do that again, he thought. It felt so good.
"Aw, then Y/n should wrap her arms around your neck." Suguru said in a flirtatious murmur.
Shoko laughed and propped a cigarette between her lips.
The four of you got off the train, you parted ways. Suguru and Shoko lived in different places and had to wait for their respective trains to take them home. So, you said your goodbyes and went with Satoru.
When you and Satoru moved out of your university housing, you both decided to live on the same street. You can say it was for X reasons, like oh it's a good neighborhood or oh the prices are great or oh the apartment walls aren't thin... but let's be honest; you and Satoru just didn't want to live too far from each other. You were inseparable, even cry-babies whenever the two of you were separated.
Satoru was always clinging or touching you in some way â hanging off your shoulders, resting his chin on the top of your head, draping an arm around you, holding your hand, snuggling into your neck. The closeness brought him more comfort than his own bed. He even claimed once that he could fall asleep on you more readily than on his bed.
Sometimes he was just shy of kissing you when you two met up, or when he knocked on your apartment door some mornings. His lips would graze over yours by accident in some circumstances, and though the two of you would laugh it off, there was an unmistakable spark in the air between you and him.
****
âDo you like it?â Satoru asked.
âI love it. You look really good.â You replied.
Satoru smiled to himself, hiding his face in your lap.
The TV was playing the most recent episode of that trashy romance soap opera â the episode where the two love interests kissed in the rain. Satoru stared hard at their lips connecting, and thought of why he hasnât attempted to kiss you again. He didnât want to ruin anything, so he kept his confession to himself even if it was obvious that he liked you.
You noticed he went a bit silent as you ran your fingers through his hair. He made a soft, long groan when your fingertips tickled up the back of his neck and over his prickly undercut.
âYou sound like a cat.â You laughed.
His eyes were closed, brows relaxed into a sleepy arch. Whenever he got drowsy in your lap, his lips would part and show his two front teeth.
****
After getting an undercut hairstyle, Satoru was living in heaven with how much attention you gave his hair. Every day youâd find an excuse to play with his hair.
It made his heart beat harder and his mind go blank whenever you touched his neck and hair. Heâd get shivers and close his eyes each time you did it, and would even stop talking mid-sentence.
In time it grew out. He refused to go back to the hairdresser, and instead insisted that you cut his hair for him. At first, he attempted to do it himself, but then he wimped out as soon as he held the scissors to his hair.
So, after he practically begged you on his knees and voiced his fear for the hairdresser, you agreed.
Cutting Satoruâs hair was a whole event. You invited Suguru and Shoko over to your apartment, and the four of you were laughing in the cramped bathroom together.
You had no idea what you were doing, and the online tutorials didnât help much.
Satoru was dramatic when he thought you were cutting it too short or jagged, and he was so very picky that it drove you nuts to the point of putting the scissors down and leaving. But then he hugged your legs and apologized cutely, so you came back. Suguru and Shoko had to get it on camera because it was pure comedy.
âAlright, fairy princess. How did I do?â you asked Satoru.
He checked himself out in the mirror. His jawline and shorter hair drove you a bit wild, it was hard to contain yourself.
âItâs okay.â He replied cheekily.
âJust âokayâ?! I put my soul into this!â
He grinned. âIâm just teasing.â He said, âI like it. Now letâs test it out.â
You looked confused. âTest it out?â
âPlay with my hair.â He explained, âAnd tell me you like how it feels or else Iâll cry.â He added dramatically.
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