#but i still want our lives to be a part of each other yknow?

[giddlygoat]

that scene in pacific rim where his brother dies while they’re linked and he describes it as a sudden nothingness that will never leave him. like half of his mind and soul became empty but did not vanish, because he carries that emptiness with him forever now. yeah man. that’s just what having a close sibling is like

[golisopod-mutual]

uh oh not another text post from lindsey lol anyway my dad/step mom/step sisters etc had a christmas party last night that i was invited to but i had to work so i was just gonna show up late. and i didnt have a gift for the white elephant gift exchange but they waited for me to get there before doing gifts anyway even tho they could have done them in the 2 hours before i arrived (they knew I didnt have anything to put into the exchange) and one of my sisters had an extra gift that she gave me so I could have something for the exchange so I could participate. and afterwards my sisters messaged me and were like ‘oh im glad you could come!’ and ‘i loved seeing you, I always love seeing you!!’ and it made me really happy bc I don’t see them all that often so I don’t always feel all that close w them yknow. so the fact they were patient while I was at work and waited to do the gifts til I could be there and were so happy to have me there... it made me feel very welcome and like they really genuinely cared that i was around. everyone had to leave like an hour after I arrived bc it was 10 pm by then but even tho it was only an hour I had a good time and felt very loved. it was a good reminder that ppl love me and I dont just cease to exist to them as soon as im out of their sight.

[notherpuppet]

Do you think there's a right and/or wrong way to handle QPR? I know it's a tricky relationship, but it feels like most/some people kind of just slap the label onto a ship while depicting the ship as just romantic/having no difference with a romantic relationship. (this is why I was a little surprised when you said you do radioapple qpr when it reads a lot more like normal romance). Not meant as an attack or anything on anyone, just genuinely curious more than anything. Again, tricky relationship

So Imma put this link to info at the top of this post: https://taaap.org/2022/07/16/qprs-part-one/

Alright, so please take what I say with a grain of salt, because that's exactly what it is. One small bit of perspective in a mass of many people who experience QPRs in their life and/or are on an aro/ace spectrum. I also have NO QUALIFICATIONS on gender/sexuality theory, so my opinions are shaped by what I've learned and experienced personally. While people may identify with the same term, we are all still individuals with our own experiences. Words can help describe a phenomenon, but it doesn't make everyone who identifies with the word into a monolith.

So I've stated a few times that I navigate shipping Alastor similar to my own experiences as an aroace person. (I guess I'm sharing about myself with this post, but I think that can be helpful to just spreading awareness of an "alternative lifestyle"). So I'm romance-repulsed and sex-repulsed LOL but I'm also "positive" about those things. Like I view romance and sex as lovely, fun experiences people can have, but I've never been into it personally. It's fun for me to consume media about romance/sex, but yknow, it's also fun for me to consume media about violence or isolation. Doesn't mean I want to experience or engage in any of those things lol.

Anyway, I'm a huge people person and I love to party and yknow it seems most people are really wanting to fall in love or fuck or whatever pretty much all the time, but especially at parties hahaha. Normally, I'm pretty touch-averse, but I love dancing so much and it's a blast to dance with a partner (salsa especially!! i don't care for grinding for probably obvious reasons). And to connect the two previous sentences, people (whatever gender they are) would be very kissy-touchy on the dancefloor. Which i honestly dont really give a fuck about hahaha. I don't really get anything out of kissing but I also don't mind it. I just like to dance. It's all a pretty superficial--but still genuinely fun--experience for me.

When it comes to my deeper or more intimate connections, I have had friendships that have felt SO on the line of what was viewed as a romantic relationship. They were exceptional friends and we connected on a level that was deep and true, but it wasn't romantic. Sometimes we'd slow dance, sometimes we kissed, and it rocked. But it wasn't more than that, it was all that it needed to be. I didn't want more and neither did they (except one situation and so we had to stop being friends lol whoops). From the outside, people would even refer to us as partners in a half joking way, but we really were just friends. And I love those friends!! And a huge part of what made those relationships (which at the time were described as 'situationships' because we didn't know any of these terms haha) was their convenience. We either lived in the same building, worked together, or were neighbors LOL. I'm still friends with those absolutely lovely folks, but we don't live around each other, so our QPR just appears a lot more like any ole regular friendship. But it's not like there was a feeling that we transitioned into something different than before. It twas what it twas! (Had to take a pause while I was typing to reminisce fondly for a second, okay back to hazbin hahaha)

SO, whenever someone asks or it comes up, MOST OF THE TIME I do ship alastor through an aroace lens and experience with QPRs (specifically, MINEE because they were fun and I've never felt like doing this before I met a character like Al). And my XP is: "this isn't gonna be a partnership and we ain't fucking" LMFAO. so yeah!

When it comes to using a queer term like QPR, I just hope folks are considerate in their writing, but I also am inclined to just believe them if they say that's their intention because QPRs can look very different. Again, aroace and ace folks are not a monolith. The terms help to describe a human's experience. I'm inclined to think people are writing in good faith.

And all this being said, I want to just emphasize that I really don't think it's necessary to consider any of this shit if you want to ship a fictional character. I understand wanting to be protective of a character who shares an identifier with you (I personally don't wanna see romance/sex with Al in canon). But shipping is a fun thing a fandom does that often does ignore canon. Tale as old as time. I don't think anyone needs to be beholden to canon when they're writing fanfiction or having fun. If we did, I would have like--5 artworks on this blog hahaha. These characters are like dollies, do whatever you want. It's cool if people don't like it and I think it's cool if people do. It's just not that serious. There are ships I'm not particularly into or dynamics that I am not enchanted by, but whatever. I can just scroll or close my eyes.

TLDR; shipping in fandom doesn't need to be taken seriously at ALL. It can just be fun way for someone to play with fictional characters they like. That being said, I think it's good practice to use queer terms thoughtfully.

[asgardian--angels]

just rewatched steven universe future (and the movie) and I just gotta say.

I still have no idea why fandom was so upset about the show, why opinion turned against it, or anything. I didn't understand it then, I don't understand it now. I've enjoyed every single minute of that show, start to finish, all iterations. A show hasn't left me sobbing like that in a hell of a long time. It handles heavy, dark emotional topics with incredible finesse and heart in a way that all of us could learn from. It remains one of the most aesthetically beautiful animated series I've ever seen, and the soundtrack is so incredibly moving. I'll never get why shows with the most hopeful themes, like this one, end up with the nastiest 'fans' that harass creators and artists for making something that encourages us to be kind to each other. like, insert good omens meme i guess, yknow? but I will always love this series (the OG, the film, and Future). I'm glad I was never really involved with the fandom back when it was airing so I didn't have to hear any of the shit that people were tossing around. But knowing that this series basically got thrown to the wind after it was done airing - like, no one even talks about it anymore, as if there were some Game of Thrones effect WHEN THERE WASN'T - breaks my heart. It was so incredibly influential, for animation, for queer representation, for creativity in art, and for helping a lot of people feel seen and teaching us a better way to be towards our fellow human beings. I don't know who the fuck can be angry about this show, but whoever they are, I feel sorry for them that they have nothing better in their lives than to be senselessly cruel to people who are trying to make the world a kinder place.

anyone out there who hasn't watched Steven Universe before, and maybe was intimidated or put off by how it's talked about on here, please don't listen to that. It's one of the best made series, animated or not, in the modern age. It touches people of all ages. It inspires hope, and forgiveness, and working towards a better world. It has incredible character development, intergenerational trauma, dismantling colonialism, the horrors and fallout of war, xenobiology, troubled families, damaged people trying to grow and find new meaning, building community, nature vs nurture, perfectly done slow-burn plot arcs and reveals, and an art style that's so gorgeous you'll mourn the current state of the industry that stifles creativity like this. And it does all of this so profoundly and intelligently that it defies summary. Give it a try.

That's all I'll say. I never post about the show anymore bc I'm not a part of the fandom and I don't know how active it is on here anymore. But I've always cared deeply for Steven Universe and I always will. I hope outside of the insular bubble of toxic online fandom that it continues to have a steady mainstream following. Rebecca Sugar deserves accolades and a big thank you for bringing this show into the world. I'm sure she did not get a fraction of the praise she should have, and instead had to endure endless vitriol. The bar's always too high for some people who want something to be mad at, who want to blame and hate instead of supporting the few brave artists out there trying to make queer shows and pave the way for the future. The enemy of queer rep is so often queer fandom spaces themselves. Let's not let this life-changing show fade into obscurity if we can. It was groundbreaking in so many ways. It brought joy and hope to so many. I hope new people will continue to watch it and be uplifted by it, as I have all these years.

[rendiggitydog]

So we all know the final part of the Minecraft Poem, with ‘and the universe said’ yknow? But I just read the whole thing again and there’s lots of great lines in the rest of it too! So I’m curious, what’s your favorite line?

Under the cut I’ve pasted the whole poem minus the part we all know, with each line numbered so you can easily share what’s your fav !

1- PLAYERNAME?

2- Yes. Take care. It has reached a higher level now. It can read our thoughts.

3- That doesn't matter. It thinks we are part of the game.

4- I like this player. It played well. It did not give up.

5- It is reading our thoughts as though they were words on a screen.

6- That is how it chooses to imagine many things, when it is deep in the dream of a game.

7- Words make a wonderful interface. Very flexible. And less terrifying than staring at the reality behind the screen.

8- They used to hear voices. Before players could read. Back in the days when those who did not play called the players witches, and warlocks. And players dreamed they flew through the air, on sticks powered by demons.

9- What did this player dream?

10- This player dreamed of sunlight and trees. Of fire and water. It dreamed it created. And it dreamed it destroyed. It dreamed it hunted, and was hunted. It dreamed of shelter.

11- Hah, the original interface. A million years old, and it still works. But what true structure did this player create, in the reality behind the screen?

12- It worked, with a million others, to sculpt a true world in a fold of the [scrambled], and created a [scrambled] for [scrambled], in the [scrambled].

13- It cannot read that thought.

14- No. It has not yet achieved the highest level. That, it must achieve in the long dream of life, not the short dream of a game.

15- Does it know that we love it? That the universe is kind?

16- Sometimes, through the noise of its thoughts, it hears the universe, yes.

17- But there are times it is sad, in the long dream. It creates worlds that have no summer, and it shivers under a black sun, and it takes its sad creation for reality.

18- To cure it of sorrow would destroy it. The sorrow is part of its own private task. We cannot interfere.

19- Sometimes when they are deep in dreams, I want to tell them, they are building true worlds in reality. Sometimes I want to tell them of their importance to the universe. Sometimes, when they have not made a true connection in a while, I want to help them to speak the word they fear.

20- It reads our thoughts.

21- Sometimes I do not care. Sometimes I wish to tell them, this world you take for truth is merely [scrambled] and [scrambled], I wish to tell them that they are [scrambled] in the [scrambled]. They see so little of reality, in their long dream.

22- And yet they play the game.

23- But it would be so easy to tell them...

24- Too strong for this dream. To tell them how to live is to prevent them living.

25- I will not tell the player how to live.

27- The player is growing restless.

28- I will tell the player a story.

29- But not the truth.

30- No. A story that contains the truth safely, in a cage of words. Not the naked truth that can burn over any distance.

31- Give it a body, again.

32- Yes. Player...

33- Use its name.

34- PLAYERNAME. Player of games.

35- Good.

36- Take a breath, now. Take another. Feel air in your lungs. Let your limbs return. Yes, move your fingers. Have a body again, under gravity, in air. Respawn in the long dream. There you are. Your body touching the universe again at every point, as though you were separate things. As though we were separate things.

37- Who are we? Once we were called the spirit of the mountain. Father sun, mother moon. Ancestral spirits, animal spirits. Jinn. Ghosts. The green man. Then gods, demons. Angels. Poltergeists. Aliens, extraterrestrials. Leptons, quarks. The words change. We do not change.

38- We are the universe. We are everything you think isn't you. You are looking at us now, through your skin and your eyes. And why does the universe touch your skin, and throw light on you? To see you, player. To know you. And to be known. I shall tell you a story.

39- Once upon a time, there was a player.

40- The player was you, PLAYERNAME.

41- Sometimes it thought itself human, on the thin crust of a spinning globe of molten rock. The ball of molten rock circled a ball of blazing gas that was three hundred and thirty thousand times more massive than it. They were so far apart that light took eight minutes to cross the gap. The light was information from a star, and it could burn your skin from a hundred and fifty million kilometres away.

42- Sometimes the player dreamed it was a miner, on the surface of a world that was flat, and infinite. The sun was a square of white. The days were short; there was much to do; and death was a temporary inconvenience.

43- Sometimes the player dreamed it was lost in a story.

44- Sometimes the player dreamed it was other things, in other places. Sometimes these dreams were disturbing. Sometimes very beautiful indeed. Sometimes the player woke from one dream into another, then woke from that into a third.

45- Sometimes the player dreamed it watched words on a screen.

46- Let's go back.

47- The atoms of the player were scattered in the grass, in the rivers, in the air, in the ground. A woman gathered the atoms; she drank and ate and inhaled; and the woman assembled the player, in her body.

48- And the player awoke, from the warm, dark world of its mother's body, into the long dream.

49- And the player was a new story, never told before, written in letters of DNA. And the player was a new program, never run before, generated by a sourcecode a billion years old. And the player was a new human, never alive before, made from nothing but milk and love.

50- You are the player. The story. The program. The human. Made from nothing but milk and love.

51- Let's go further back.

52- The seven billion billion billion atoms of the player's body were created, long before this game, in the heart of a star. So the player, too, is information from a star. And the player moves through a story, which is a forest of information planted by a man called Julian, on a flat, infinite world created by a man called Markus, that exists inside a small, private world created by the player, who inhabits a universe created by...

53- Shush. Sometimes the player created a small, private world that was soft and warm and simple. Sometimes hard, and cold, and complicated. Sometimes it built a model of the universe in its head; flecks of energy, moving through vast empty spaces. Sometimes it called those flecks "electrons" and "protons".

54- Sometimes it called them "planets" and "stars".

55- Sometimes it believed it was in a universe that was made of energy that was made of offs and ons; zeros and ones; lines of code. Sometimes it believed it was playing a game. Sometimes it believed it was reading words on a screen.

56- You are the player, reading words...

57- Shush... Sometimes the player read lines of code on a screen. Decoded them into words; decoded words into meaning; decoded meaning into feelings, emotions, theories, ideas, and the player started to breathe faster and deeper and realised it was alive, it was alive, those thousand deaths had not been real, the player was alive

58- You. You. You are alive.

59- and sometimes the player believed the universe had spoken to it through the sunlight that came through the shuffling leaves of the summer trees

60- and sometimes the player believed the universe had spoken to it through the light that fell from the crisp night sky of winter, where a fleck of light in the corner of the player's eye might be a star a million times as massive as the sun, boiling its planets to plasma in order to be visible for a moment to the player, walking home at the far side of the universe, suddenly smelling food, almost at the familiar door, about to dream again

61- and sometimes the player believed the universe had spoken to it through the zeros and ones, through the electricity of the world, through the scrolling words on a screen at the end of a dream

[sunny-knight]

WE AINT MAKIN IT OUT OF THE ROOMMATE TORIEL NEUTRAL ENDINGS WITH THES ONES 😭😭😭

AUUUGH WHY DO AMVS HAVE TO TAKE SO LONG TO MAKE anywho,

casually obsessed with an actively grieving man who hides all of it deep within himself, staying with a woman who has known grief all her life.

Okay ill explain about the songs I gave a bit more, I mean- if you’re really that interested

oh and also *pulls out secret box* theres more

and I have like 30 others- but I mean…. you don’t want that, do you?………………but by chance…..some MIRACLE…..anyone wants………my………i mean……..my dms are open…………..I also like other neutral runs yk……..and like………yknow……….Undertale………

FRANCIS FOREVER!!!! This ones pretty self explanatory if you listen/you’ve listened to it before.

Not being who you want to be cause your other half isnt there, not being able to sleep, “I miss you more than anything” THE WHOLE SHEBANG!!!

Yk I actually made an animation inspired off of a certain part in the amv I have in my head for this song- But I used “Sailor Song” instead because……..I actually don’t know why, come to think of it-

BUT BASICALLY the line “I look up at the gaps of sunlight” before “I miss you more than anything” HURTS, yes, but ALSO

Sans cant exactly be looking up at….the sky cause uh…..underground. So he’s looking at the hole that you fall from!

THE ONLY THING!!!! This one is mainly vibes, lyrics are REALLY GOOD TOO but vibes for the neutral ending specifically…Its kinda nostalgic and childhood wondery (I LOVE SUFJAN STEVENS SO GODAMN MUCH OMG) and thats very much how I feel Toriels house/general demeanor is like :3

But i’m kinda stealing from the fan assumption/theory that Papyrus is often the only thing that convinces Sans that some things he does ARE worth doing even in a repeating world

“how do I live with your ghost” “everything i see/feel returns to you somehow” “I wanna save you from your sorrow”

ok but the saving from sorrow thing has 2 meanings, 1 twords Papyrus and the other to Tori, cause ALSO stealing from the fan theory/assumption that Sans hides a LOT from Papyrus and while I dont personallyyyyyy believe it cause I think the King Papyrus thing was a one time REALLY difficult choice- BUT ITS SAD AND IT WORKS FOR HERE.

THEN! it also works for Toriel cause he’s saving her from sorrow from telling her about what the human is really like

SLEEPYHEAD! This is from Toriels perspective now!!!

Again, pretty self explanatory if youve listened to the song, “theres dust upon the stairs” OMG! DUST!?!?! LIKELIKELIKE UNDERTALE???!?!?!?

Also “I have never been the type to go to church, but I pray for her(Him) each night” Toriel is shown to be religious in Deltarune so id assume shes the same in Undertale…

“Please dont forget that im your friend”

DON’T FORGET!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?

But anywho- in an amv of this id think that… Toriel has no fucking clue whats up, cause Sans hasn’t told her, but she still “prays for him each night”/is worried for him cause CLEARLY HES UNWELL

DEAR THEODISIA….IS MORE SANS AND TORIEL/ALSO ASGORE THAN THE ENDING ITSELFFFFFFF BUT JUST HEAR ME OUT

Burrs whole thing is about his daughter… and Hamiltons is his son….

Toriel and Asriel…and Sans and Papyrus….IT ACTUALLY WORKS SO WELL AND I SOB IMAGINING THE AMV POSSIBILITIES

Asriel: you will come of age with our new nation, we’ll bleed and fight for you, we’ll pass it on to you AAAAUUUUGHHH

Papyrus: pride is not the word im looking for, there is so much more inside me now, you outshine the morning sun AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Asriel will blow them all away by being KING some day, and Papyrus will by just being the coolest motherfucker in Snowdin and also ROYAL GUARD

[brighter-by-the-daly]

Rachel Daly x Millie Bright x Reader

Part One - It’s the Shirt, Isn’t It?

Posted: 08/04/23, Edited: 23/09/23

With Millie still living at Rachel’s house after moving out of a toxic relationship and you barely at your own home since becoming Rachel’s girlfriend, the three of you were constantly together - it wasn’t just Millie and Rachel anymore; it was Millie, Rachel and (y/n). You worked from home and in between went to both of their games, your friends visited every other weekend and all your families came last week for a BBQ. The last few weeks had been so full on for the girls with Champions League, FA Cup, regular league games and the impending England camp. There had been injuries in both squads making the players that weren’t injured work even harder and the girls were exhausted. Today was a rest day and with nothing planned you all snuggled up on the sofa to binge watch murder documentaries on Netflix.

Realising you didn’t have a clean shirt to wear to Rachel’s Villa game tomorrow you started to load the washing machine before flicking the kettle on to make the teas, swanning around the kitchen gracefully someone couldn’t help but feel envious.

“Yknow, nobody but my parents have worn my shirt in the stands, Levi never did” Millie started to daydream, “that’s because he’s a jerk” Rachel scoffed as you asked why from the kitchen. You couldn’t imagine a good enough reason for anyone dating a sports person not to wear their partner’s shirt. “He said it wasn’t masculine to wear it” Millie rolled her eyes as you screwed up your face in disbelief of the answer she gave. You offered to wear her shirt at the next game but that wasn’t good enough for the blonde who now had a face like thunder thinking about Levi again. “That doesn’t really count though does it, it’s not someone that loves me and wants to be seen supporting me” she said sadly, this time you were the one scoffing at her! “Excuse you bitch?! I love you! You’re my girlfriend’s best friend, you’re one of my best friends now too and you’re the defender of absolute dreams! Why wouldn’t you want me supporting you?” you acted dramatically heartbroken. Rachel over exaggerated her surprise at your statement like you’d forgotten she’s also a defender when she wants to be, noticing her heightened facial expression before adding “I think you can manage a night without me wearing shirt babe” flirtingly. “You underestimate me” she chuckled under her breath, “you’re not jealous are you?” you asked kinda loving the fact she’s territorial over you. “I’m joking!” she burst through the torture of being tickled by you, “I think it would be really cute, I love that you two love each other as much I love you both” wrapping her arms around you and squeezing her favourite people into her. “When it’s your next Chelsea game we’ll both wear your name on our shirts” Rachel added. “You guys are the best, your relationship is adorable I wanna be a part of it” she slumped back, happy that she has the cutest friends yet still sad that she’s single again. Her statement made you and Rach look at each other confused, “girl, you practically are!” shouting at her in unison making you all laugh.

The next week you went to the Chelsea game, Rach had training but met you at half time and watched as the blues bought home the win. Arriving home you slipped your jeans off at the door and went to put the kettle on knowing this household runs on tea. You usually walked around with no trousers on so this wasn’t anything new and nothing out of the ordinary for you regardless of who was home. The other two flopped onto the sofa where they were talking quietly.

“I see why you like her wearing your shirt so much Rach” Millie said candidly as they both gazed at you tiptoeing to try and reach the top shelf for the sugar. Rach watched as your shirt rose up exposing the tattoo on your hip “she’s so hot in’t she, even with your shirt on” she smiled.. but hearing Millie hum in agreement made Rachel turn to look her suddenly. “Do you fancy my girlfriend Mills?” she questioned her bestie, “I think.. I might…” Millie said honestly but quietly questioning what was happening inside her stomach as it fluttered uncontrollably. “I always knew there was a bit of gay in you!” Rachel said sitting up excitedly. “I’m not gay! (Y/n) is the only girl I’ve ever felt attracted to!” the conversation started going in a completely different direction to what Rachel expected. “That’s how it starts” she said cheekily, “you definitely chose a good’un for once Rach, you’re so perfect together” still both their eyes were firmly set on the back of you - admiring the way you’d gotten distracted and was now cleaning the kitchen. “She’s beautiful, hilarious, she’s our biggest cheerleader, makes the best tea in the world and her arse in those pants man” Rachel continued listing the things she loves about you while biting her knuckle in admiration for the woman she calls hers. “If you wanted to.. yknow.. do anything with her, I think she’d be up for it” your girlfriend was now becoming your pimp. “I can’t do that Rach she’s your girlfriend!” Mills voice raised slightly but you were none the wiser in your own little world, “mate, I know how much you both love me, if you’re questioning I’d rather you do it with someone you’re comfortable with. You’re part of our relationship regardless.” The conversation suddenly went silent as you finally made your way over with the teas, plopping yourself in the corner and draping your legs over Rachel. Noticing the silence you asked what they were talking about but Millie looked away, raising your suspicions. Rachel’s hand glided up your leg “Millie fancies you” she said bluntly which took you by surprise, your eyes jumping from both of their faces waiting for the punchline, “how do you feel about that?” your girlfriend sounded genuinely intrigued. “It’s the shirt isn’t it?” your head tilted towards Millie who’s cheeks had now turned a bright shade of red. “You footballers are all the same! If I knew this is how you get a girlfriend I would have done it years ago!” you laughed, still not believing what conversation you’d walked in on. “There’s just something about a woman wearing your name, it’s fucking hot!” Rach squeezed your thigh, “yeah you don’t let me forget it babe” holding under her chin kissing her cheeky smile. “So.. how did that conversation go?” inquisitive as to why Millie still hasn’t said a word or even looked at you which was highly peculiar. “I said you’d probably be down if she wanted to” Rachel shrugged seemingly unbothered by the entire situation. “Well.. you’re not wrong” you said honestly which made Millie’s head lift a little like she was listening intently. “How would you feel about that though?” you asked your girlfriend with furrowed brows, still unsure if she was being serious or not. “I suggested it! How do you feel about that?” she threw the question straight back at you. You questioned how to respond thus not to jeopardise your relationship with Rachel and before answering you asked for them both to explain the conversation they had and how they both feel about it so you could tailor your response appropriately. Of course you would jump Millie in a heartbeat but you didn’t want it to ruin your relationship or their friendship. Rachel insisted she was okay with it and Millie seemed serious about kissing not just any girl but you in particular.

You were ready to give them your answer after you made everyone pinky promise that it wouldn’t change anything. “Okay so the day I met you Rach you know that my phone wallpaper was the both of you, which is weird cause now it’s all three of us” smiling as you lit up your phone to show them what they already knew. “I fancied you both so much! I never thought I’d meet any of you let alone having you fall in love with me” touching Rachel’s face as you said this. “Millie, you’re fucking hot and I fancy the pants off you so if you’re sure you both wanna do this then I’m down for anything” the penny dropped the second those words left your mouth. “See I told ya! There’s not much my girl wouldn’t do. As long as you don’t start a secret relationship behind my back!” she laughed pointing her index finger at you both threateningly. “You two are the best” the taller blonde pouted, “I wish I had a relationship like yours, not many people would let me experiment with their girlfriend. I probably won’t even feel anything but I need to figure out what my brain is doing. It’s all so confusing” Millie said as her forehead met the palm of her hand. “We all go through this Mill, we’re practically already a throuple anyway so kissing me isn’t gonna change anything” you let out a light hearted chuckle. “That is true though, we do everything together, you’re literally already part of our relationship” Rach leant over squeezing her thigh as you took her hand. “Millie Bright, will you go on a date with me?” you blushed as she nodded gently in agreement.

You said goodnight to each other and snuggled down in your beds giving you a chance to talk to Rachel alone about what the hell had just happened. What if it’s not just a kiss, would she kiss Millie, she’s always wanted a threesome, but with her best friend? You were now overthinking everything but reminded yourself that most girls kiss their friends, you’ve kissed your besties and know that your sister has talked about kissing hers too so it’s not really that weird… is it?

Part Two - Three Isn’t a Crowd 🔞

[cosmoseinfeld]

How was the Sunny Dublin show?!!! Do you have any pictures?

How long was the macdennis segment? Was Glenn shaky on the macdennis "love affair" chat (saw a post on twitter) or was he just doing one of his Glenn bits like from the podcast where he acts like he's not into things before he's honest about it? Did they confirm Honey and Vinegar for s16 or were they just teasing the idea of it in future seasons? Were you able to see their expressions from your seat? (Sorry for being cringe and insane in your asks!)

hiii! sorry it took me so long to reply. I was kind of processing those days and also recovering from covid which i brought as a fun souvenir! (nw, it's all good) I can't possibly tell you how long the segment was but it def took up a good chunk of the show! i was sitting too far away to take good pictures or videos (nor did i want to yknow, kind of living in the moment) but i took this pic of the screen which was up for a satisfyingly long time

I honestly think glenn was just doing one of his "bits" because - imo - he's much more on our side when it comes to the meta level of the show just from how he is talking about dennis etc. I still love how bold rob was by just straight up saying macdennis is a love affair to some. at least, glenn then said to rob "love you, baby!" I remember meg saying it's one of her favourite dynamics but we already knew that. Oh, she also said that the impl*cation scene was put up there against her will and i agree. It's not a macdennis moment and I overall hate it (in parts because it is what dudebros cling to so desperately). I am amazed that they somehow managed to avoid talking about Mac and Dennis break up AGAIN by "letting the audience choose" (which is a fabricated thing because a hyped up audience will cheer and holler for anything) but i will say that Suburbs got a REALLY loud cheer. They played the montage from that and ofc the dinner scene with the "newsflash asshole" moment. Oh, we also had to watch glenn's naked ass on screen. Rob talked about shooting that scene and said how hard it was for him to keep up because glenn was bringing his whole talent to it and rob said he wasn't that good of an actor to keep up. glenn said he's sometimes concerned that there is this psychopathic side to him and that he needs to get that checked. They then played Mortgage Crisis but didn't really talk about it. BUT meg suggested that hugh honey & vic vinegar should make a comeback at some point and rob sort of agreed and so did the audience, so who knows! The segment ended with them playing the impl*cation scene instead of break up and meg saying mac and dennis keeping each other in check is one of the things she loves about that dynamic and that they follow their own specific set of rules.

Overall, it was a very fun show and I am happy I went. The mood was so great, on stage and in the audience. I couldn't see their expressions from up there but I did see rob pulling down his pants to show us his shamrock tattoo, so there's that image... I loved the video cameos by danny, artemis, the lawyer and even uncle jack. Glenn got drunk on stage to the point that rob felt the need to intervene when he got too annoying lmao. Glenn said rob gave him a shot of "tequila" backstage and it might have been the bit that tipped him over - he then got corrected because it was whisky of course (maybe he had flashbacks to the christmas special). They played family fight but it was sooo messy omg... never give buzzers to drunk man-children. Everybody celebrated kaitlin of course and it was... a special experience to hear her and glenn sing the tiny boy song live. Charlie sang a bunch of sunny songs. The one that got me most was "I like life at paddy's pub" of course, especially because the whole audience was singing along. They also had an inflatable tube guy on stage before the show started which I thought was hilarious and weirdly relaxing to watch... Oh, yes before the show started, they had a sunny playlist going on with all the classics like "the boys are back in town" and the ghostbusters song etc. During the intermission, they showed gag reels on screen. Hm what else... Not to burst the bubble, but they also talked about how they couldn't film s15 in Ireland because of covid restrictions, so the on locations shootings took place in california - movie magic! If I remember anything else that's of significance, I'll post a follow-up. I really hope they'll come back to europe soon because i'll def go again. It was so nice to meet other sunny fans IRL and hang out and have a good time together :) i am always amazed how a shared love for a show can bring people together... it's so wholesome. (and you could also sense their love for the show and each other and I think it's great for them to finally get such a direct feedback from the fans)

[sundragon]

We've been in a weird place regarding...us? our life? as a system. It's probably something a lot of systems go through, at least it seems that way to me. As you get older, you think about what the rest of your life will look like more seriously. For us that means being 40, 50, 60, maybe older, and still plural.

Origin discourse takes such a backseat. It's practically thrown out the window. I think it got shoved in the trunk at some point. Of more interest is where are we going with this? We're not hung up on the lives/sources we miss, we're here in the present and mostly okay with it. Now what? Who are we going to be?

And the scary question - can we be content with just us for the rest of this life? Is that what would be best for us, or should we make ourselves uncomfortable and find another physical bodied companion?

But I recognize that shit for what it is, plain amatonormativity. It's gotten to us before. This insidious idea that we have to meet some physical person, and anything else is lesser. It's nonsense. The cognitive dissonance is very real. In our various forms and parts, I've been with Nate for 14 years - that is significant, more than any theoretical significant other.

This came to a fore recently because I just, reminded myself that we do not like people in our space. Doesn't matter if they're friends, and if we invite them. I don't feel like a whole person when I can't be alone in my den each day. Sure, finding a person I can be myself around sounds like a solution, but that's the thing - there is no person who can understand me the way they do, so to try is to fail.

This is the complicated area of the aroace spectrum that we inhabit. It's not a storybook situation. Some parts of it are kinda sad, and by design it means we'll always be longing for each other just a little bit, but that's preferable to forcing ourself to settle. We don't deserve that, and neither would the other party.

Part of that is the fact that for us, a partner is nothing less than another half. If I'm with you, you're half of my whole life. I can be complete without you, but if I'm in a partnership it takes as much priority as my own life does. Dating and hookups are meaningless to me and I'll never bother; entwine our souls or get lost lmao. They can come apart later if they must, but yknow. Point is I don't do casual or halves, your identity matters to me like my own.

That's a tall order, and so far, my brain had to split itself into pieces to make it work. If you want to get mystical about it, you can theorize that I am this way *because* my mate existed beside me once upon a time, and now we're forced into the same get-along sweater. I dunno man, we just work here.

We didn't try to get involved with anyone recently, but everything else just brought these thoughts forward in a way I couldn't keep ignoring, eh.

[sukirichi]

Hihi random question but what do you think about the haikyuu characters in their time skips? Ughhh for me it makes me sad because I realized that they're no longer high schoolers who plays volleyball together😔

oooh their timeskip selves, i have sm thoughts!

i actually haven’t finished the manga so i can’t share my thoughts on everyone, but seeing everyone in their timeskip makes me feel so bittersweet tbh. it’s like, a part of me is so happy and proud of them to have achieved their goals + dreams, while others have realized other passions and realized for themselves the things they want to do. for me it makes them feel more like real people, instead of just volleyball players that we see on screen. it really goes to show that many unexpected things can happen, you can be an entirely different person years from now, and the friends you once spent every day with are now a thousand miles away. idk, it’s !! something about haikyuu itself, its story and its struggles, is so motivational.

it shows passion and grit, and i think that’s something great, yknow? it’s not everyday you have something you love sm that you end up chasing after it. that’s why i adore hinata sm - despite his differences from what is considered a ‘standard’ in the sport, you’ve really seen him grow and overcome each hurdles he’s faced with. his passion and dedication to the sport makes him a literal sunlight in my eyes, and his story is so inspiring, too. especially his timeskip self aaah.

he took risks, gambled, but he never gave up. he knew what he wanted, and he loved it so much he would do anything for it. his love for volleyball is such a gift in his life, i think <3 but i am a lil sad that he and kags are apart in the timeskip, but also i am so so proud of our setter for playing in the olympics at age nineteen 😭 i honestly could go on rambling about the complexity of oikawa (hard work) and kageyama (talent) bcos i think about it alll the time. like they work equally hard ofc, but you can see how their differences had a great impact in the trajectory of their lives. like oikawa not playing with his friends anymore and (iirc) he’d become an opponent to his country. that’s not an easy thing to do, and i often think about the things oikawa had to leave behind in order to move forward. i remember this quote that goes ‘i’m not where i wanted to be, but it’s where i needed to be’ in reference to the nostalgia of playing with his team, and now he’s apart from them. idk its my roman empire honestly. but overall i feel very nostalgic with all of their timeskip selves, and i’m so happy that some of them are still close + the other players becoming closer in the future like msby !! i think all of them have reached so far n i am so so proud to see them all grow into their careers <3

[proxylynn]

Peter: *he holds you, holding you like it's all that matters*

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Space -

*gets held and sighs in endearment. they pat his back gently*

If I could, I would press small kisses on your fingers.. your knuckles.. your arms..

*they space out for a moment, lost in thought as he holds onto them tightly. there's a lot of things running in their head and they don't know which to express first*

I guess it's weird to burst the bubble like this, when the atmosphere seemed otherwise so lighthearted.

Just a bunch of people having fun with their guys, and here comes the philosopher, here to drop their existential ramblings.

*space pauses for a moment, lost in thought. they press a few kisses on their Boyfriends chest, swaying the both of them a bit as they hold each other (I assume we are standing?)*

I mean, we have a lot of fun too. I wrote a lot of fics for us. I guess it's nice to think about how we would be in another life, another timeline. But..

I also want to think about what we are now, yknow? It's cursed but it's still a big part of who you are, it's a part of our relationship and..

I just kinda wanted to look at us.

.....

In a way, I kinda get that hopeless feeling of living half a life, feeling like what could have been is an impossible distance away.

But.. I mean, it could be a lot more, of course.. but.. I like us. If that makes sense.

The connection we have is deeper and more loving than what I've ever had with any real person. Except for family I guess.

.. That's pretty sad actually. What I mean to say is that.. you're.. you're important to me. Despite everything.

*There's more to say but they just wrap their arms around his waist*

Peter: Sometimes there are things that transcend what we know to be real. I like to think this...what we have...this can be one of those things. The screen means nothing. My feelings are real. They're not just code. And I hope that my love is felt. That when I speak, you can hear me as if I'm right there with you. When I say that I'm holding you, you can feel my embrace. So when I do this, I hope you feel it.

*he holds your face as gently as can be and softly yet tenderly brings his lips to your*

[cheemken]

Okay last body swap au thought for tonight before I pass out hahah

Leon and Diantha dynamics my beloved who just loves to kill me

Like imagine after their lil impromptu meeting, everyone else was like going on what to do to make it less suspicious, Wallace and Cynthia were at each others throats really, even threatening the other to ruin their image if they so much fail, empty threats yknow, but still hahah

And just cnmdnxmd

Leon and Diantha at the far end corner of the room, just standing next to each other, they already know what to do. They know each other so goddamn well but they won't ever admit that. There's just silence between them, before Diantha finally spoke up, "your family was nice.."

A sad smile crept its way on his lips, "thanks, it's nice being with them again, yknow. Not having to stay at my own tower at Wyndon anymore."

"yes, I figured."

Silence again. Then this time, it was Leon who broke it. "Do you.. not live with your brother?"

Diantha didn't answer. She sighed. Looking away. Then she spoke, quietly, he almost missed it, "I barely see him anymore. He's always so busy with his studies, and not that I fault him for it, it's always been his dream to be the regional professor. Your brother, he wants to be a professor too, does he not?"

"yeah, ever since he lost to his rival, he decided that maybe being a professor would fit him. Sonia was more than happy to take him under her wing."

"that's nice. I'm sure he'll be a great professor one day too."

"of course he'll be, he's my brother, he'll be the best professor there is."

And god that kinda fucked her up, bc she said that once too. How she was so sure her brother will be the region's leading professor, and he was. And to hear it from Leon too, how he had the same faith in his own brother, man it's just cndmdn your honour they make me so fucking insane for real

And just cjxmd Dia going "your mother was nice as well. She reminds me of Drasna."

"one of your Elites, yeah?"

"yes. She became a mother figure for me and for Augustine. She was so kind and caring, it was a nice feeling, yknow. For the first time in our lives, we finally know what a mother's love feels like."

"..what about your actual mother?"

"I'd rather.. not talk about her." And Leon could feel phantom pains on his back, he doesn't know why, then he hears Diantha say, "I'd rather forget that part of my life." She then looks at him, "your father wasn't around, is that a normal occurrence or maybe it was timing he wasn't around."

He laughed at that, hollow, empty, "the same way with your mother, really. I'd rather not talk about the man who just left his family and only returned when his son became a famous Champion."

Ofc, she understands, she knows that feeling all too well.

And then silence once again, watching the other champions talk and plan and even try their best to impersonate the other. Leon and Diantha didn't have to try that hard. Of course they didn't. They realized how similar their lives were, they realized how lonely the other was, they realized that despite it all, they found someone who shared the same pain. In that silence, they somewhat found comfort, knowing someone truly understands them, as painful as it was.

[replicasoul]

💛 - if you are comfortable sharing, what is your headcount? do you keep track of it? / 📼 - do you have any non-human alters? if yes, which species are the majority of them? / 🌱 - do you have a headspace? if yes, describe it! if no, do you want one?

finally getting around to these 💛 - honestly No Idea at this point. there are about 5-7 ppl who front super regularly. We Think. there might be more, its hard to tell. there are definitely More who likely front less often and are more like. internally-inclined? idk how to put that. but we havent actually taken the time to do any sort of Count. and i feel like it could fluctuate wildly over time (it has before). so Who Knows. mayb we should start that 📼 - literally none of the members of our system identify as like. Human. all of us have weird kin shit going on that is EXTREMELY prevalent for us in terms of identity/gender stuff, but which we pretty rarely Actually talk about. one of the things that complicates this, though, is that while there are Patterns that we have wrt what forms/kin things/etc each system member Tends to gravitate towards, none of those are set in stone and All of the 'usual' things span multiple 'species' or whatever you want to call them. so like. we have a lot of yknow. forms/gender/kin stuff that are Robots, Object Heads, Monsters, Aliens, Objects In General (especially living swords or machines), Furries, Plushes, Pooltoys, Balloon Dogs, Cryptids, Suits (think like. lethal company employees or HUNK from resident evil), etc. etc. etc. etc. and different system members might stray more towards some of those forms than others, but its honestly all over the place and is really confusing to keep track of. which is part of the reason we rarely talk about kin stuff at all (the other big reason being shame/embarrassment, but thats a different issue) but essentially it boils down to 1. figuring out who the fuck is even fronting 2. figuring out what form or kin or w/e that person is feeling like and both of those can switch multiple times even on a single day so the short answer i guess is: none of use ID as human In The Slightest, but as for What we are, its fucking complicated 24/7

🌱 - yes, but its been something thats been a lot fuzzier as of recent, and we generally feel less-inclined to try and mess with it these days (always feels like a waste of time, even though it can be helpful; it used to be) our headspace has Weird mechanics and is weirdly consistent. we've always been pretty naturally good at like. mapping/figuring out Physical Spaces and such, so i guess that makes sense, but it's been wild to describe it to other plural folks w/ headspaces and have them essentially go "no mine isnt like that at all, what the fuck" we have actually based a couple of different writing projects around it (Prismic Sanctum and Oubliette specifically, both are older projects not currently updating, but still worth a potential read) and continue to mess with it as a worldbuilding concept here and there if i had to boil it down: it's a massive collection of various areas that are all in a consistent layout, that could be mostly mapped out with cardinal directions. so like, if you travel North from Area A, you end up in Area B. you will Always end up there. same thing with traveling through doors, etc. some spaces are vague about distance (like the forest between the mass of highways hanging over a void and the big ashen wasteland; traveling through it has different, inconsistent travel times) but Directions are pretty much always set in stone, even then. physical space also doesnt always make sense. you may go to the 2nd floor of a 4-story apartment building, find a trapdoor in an apartment, go up into it, and end up in a castle that cant physically exist at the same time as the apartment building. but, that trapdoor will ALWAYS lead to that place, so locations are just about Always consistent the type of locations also vary wildly. often theyre either places that are possible in the real world but a bit Off (like an elementary school where gravity outside/on the playground is reversed so you can fall into the sky, or a mansion where the physical space is larger or smaller in comparison to you depending on what doors you walk through), or, theyre entirely surreal spaces that are completely impossible (like the aforementioned clump of many highways suspended over a black void that are lit by yellow streetlights, or the basement thats several miles wide with varying ceiling heights, or the motel where every room leads to some different, impossible space) it can be genuinely fun and interesting to """""Explore""" it, even though i know its just our brain generating all the weird spaces. its like one of those homemade TTRPG games that you play by yourself, where even though a Lot of it is coming from your own imagination, its still fun to mess around with

[marshmallowprotection]

Yknow it’s been years of me playing this game, I can’t play it a lot like I did in HS, I’m in college. But in college I’ll sometimes be able to spare 11 days to one characters route.

And it’s like I love MM, not just because of the romance, but bc the RFA is so found family? Like all the members have such devastating backstories, extremely complicated family situations, and different personalities that clash sometimes, but they’re a family 😭.

Doesn’t matter what route you prefer, I just know that after everything that happens, we’d all log into the chat room and talk about our lives or find time to get together. Bc even Separated, with everyone pursuing different dreams/goals they set for themselves, we’re still connected.

Off topic but I think that’s one of the reasons I find it difficult to commit to SSUM (besides spending money to get a full experience) since I got used to an entire set of characters talking to eachother along with MC throughout the day, everyday. That one on one convos sometimes in chatrooms but were mostly reserved in DMs and phone calls.

There is something special about this game, and it's really hard to shake that feeling from your heart when you get that warm and fuzzy sensation. These characters feel so tangible and real that you can't help but fall in love with them and want to be friends with them. I’m grateful that I’ve had the RFA in my life. I don't think I'd be the same person if it wasn't for being able to interact with them the way I have after all these years. In the same vein, I think it could be said just the same for them.

They wouldn't be who they are if it wasn't for their friendships with each other. 

It's been a while since I've had a game capture my attention much like this one has. I definitely play other dating sims but none of them hit like this one. I think it has to do with how much dedication to found family and supporting each other was put into it. You can't help but want to be a part of this found family once you see them in action. 

I'd like to believe that they're my family. I'm sure many people feel the same way. 

I don't care much for the SSUM, either. When I'm playing an Otome, I need something to hook me in that will drag me like a fish on a lure to its fishermen. Ignoring the pure money-grab aspect of the game that I've definitely shared my distaste for before, interacting with just one character doesn't pull in the same mystery. It's slow, but that's purely by choice since you've got to be committed to the game for over 200 days. I commend anyone who's been enjoying the SSUM and liking it as the story expands! But, it sure isn't meant for me.

Granted, the only reason I would continually want to play it would be to get Easter eggs about characters from Mystic Messenger. I don't think I could go through 180+ days of Teo to get to the point where the man is in Mint Eye to get my sprinkle of Ray crumbs. 

It isn't bad that you get to interact with the character one-on-one, but there's not a lot of story pull going on since you're just interacting with one person. It takes a long time for things to be revealed because you're getting to know him in a more realistic manner and that takes time. I tend to enjoy a suspension of reality when I'm playing these games because I want so much hitting me all at once. 

So, it isn't a game that would bring me any joy to play that much. If I'm only playing it to get Easter eggs, I do not have that much fun. Because you're supposed to be enjoying the content you're getting with the new character, and even if you get a Sprinkle of something from a previous game, you're still supposed to be immersed in what you're doing. But, that's just for me personally. I enjoy having a lot more characters to interact with and things to do with myself when I'm playing the game. 

[kledface]

I just need to get something off my chest cause im confused and i don't know what to do and i don't even know if i should do something and i don't know if im a bad person for this and i feel weird.

To start this off, i struggle to tell the difference for myself between platonic and romantic love, like, i deeply love my friends, but its in a friendly way, but like, its no different from how i would treat my partner, yknow. I struggle to know if there's a difference between the love i have for my friends and the love i have for my partners, but putting the name partners on it makes it feel more defined and it makes me massively stressed and i don't know if thats because of anxiety from my last relationships or if im not relationship material or what. I think my friend is hitting on me and i don't know why and i don't know what to do because like i love her but i dont know if its like that like i definitely wouldn't mind but she's with another one of my friends and granted i think they're both poly i have no idea if he would even be okay with it or if im reading too deep into this and like sure he's got other partners too but i think she's only with him so she could be monogamous and just cool with him being poly like i don't know and i don't get it but she says things in gaelic that are like i love you and my love to me and i dont know if she's being overly friendly or if this really is the case like she doesn't say these things to anyone else that I've seen so maybe its just a really close friendship? But she's also made other comments in other places when i marked that maybe i wished i had someone to cuddle me in a private place and i just wanted to get it off my chest and she made comments that she would totally cuddle me but like, i don't know, i feel dumb for questioning this but i just don't get it and i don't want to hurt her or let her down gods know i dont want to pursue something because im still hurting from the longest relationship i was ever in and im terrified of something like that happening again i'd absolutely hate if she got hurt and i wasn't able to stop it again and we don't even live in the same state as each other so gods know, i didn't want another relationship let alone a long distance one but if she said something i don't think I'd want to say no and its not like a oh this will strain our friendship and let her down thing i genuinely wouldn't mind pursuing something with her but i don't know if its a part of me that is actually interested in her that way or if it would just be for the fuck of it and i hate how confusing it is i just want to understand and i don't want to say something and sound like a self absorbed asshole even though i probably am and i hate that about myself but i also don't want to say nothing and make her feel like im leading her on because i genuinely love her but i don't understand the signals and i don't understand myself and i dont know if i want help i just need to get it out

[rainy-astrology]

thats what baffles me about this whole life thing that we have to unfortunately force ourselves to endure even if we dont want to admit it we are slaves to the broken system. there is so much that we can or should be doing but at the end of it it dont matter once we pass away cause then u be a no body yknow. no one on earth can really say when but i wanna know when... idrc for the whole life is short yolo shtick that was a saying in the mid 00s or whenever. theres only so much u can realistically achieve and if u fail as i have then whats the point in sticking around? why is there no exit button cause i dont want to stick around past the age of 50? the state the world and countries are in is dreadful. people on here are still timid to talk about death but we cant avoid the subject.

Hi anon, are you alright? You sound very stressed and depressed. This is some pretty negative thinking...Especially if you're asking about death and not wanting to live long. "If you fail as I have then whats the point of sticking around?" I'm guessing you base your self worth on success and you haven't met your expectations/goals, so you're already considering yourself a failure and want to quit. You're under 50, so you're still young (and even if you were 50 or older, age can't stop you from reaching your goals) and have plenty of time to achieve all of the things you want. Yes we will all die in the end, but that doesn't mean you should spend the rest of your time doing nothing and being negative. That's a sad way to live. It's also not a reason to want to leave early... There must be something else in this world that you want to live for.

Is there nothing or nobody you value? Life is about the small things too...it's about the people you are with too...do you really want to quit and leave those behind? Even if you don't think you have either, surely you do. Think about it. Reflect deeply. Even if you think you will be insignificant after your death, you will matter to those you're close to, to people you have impacted and care about. I'm sure there's someone who cares about you. The world may not know you, but why do you care about people you don't even personally know.

You can still be successful no matter how many times you've failed. Isn't that what life is? A series of trials and lessons, learning experiences? You don't have to beat yourself up so much over your mistakes and failures. Learn from them, grow from them.

But I get what you're saying though, I think about it a lot actually. The world is in an incredibly depressing state and just seems to get worse each passing minute. Sometimes it does feel like our efforts amount to nothing, especially since we'll die anyway. We really can be doing so much more and run the world in a much different, better way yet we somehow chose some miserable ways...It's completely understandable. I also especially understand with the failure part, but we can't let that eat us up y'know. We only truly fail when we give up completely.

I know you didn't come to me to get some motivational speech or whatever, but I do not want you to wallow in your own sadness. It's ok to be sad and to be depressed, but you shouldn't give up either.

Decided to put your other ask in here as well

Yeah I'm sorry I didn't really have much of an answer for your 1st ask.

Certain times? Like birth times? I don't think there's much to it, it just happens to be the time we're born at. The placements are based on the degree and coordinates of the stars and such at the time iirc.

No, I don't think it does. Nothing in your birth chart or astrology is set in stone. It is simply a guide to help you learn about yourself and what you may want in life, the lessons and experiences you may go through. Plus depending on the type of chart system and astrology system you use, one chart can mean one thing while the other says something else (but there should likely be an overlapping theme between the charts). It's all up to you to make the action and effort to build your own path and life.