#but i still have so many thoughts
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i feel enough time has passed but i wanna discuss my negative thoughts on the tf es starscream episode but I'm too scared
#i have a lot of thoughts#i have a lot of thoughts about the fans make hashtag the 'mom' archetype despite her being a child who has faced ptsd herself#which no one actually cares about#and then agian the whole fact that#most people took 'star doesn't need to be held accountable for hurting/abiusing others because he was a victim'#instead of hashtag's point being that he didn't need to blame himself for the abuse he went thru#not how he treated others#he does need to be held accountabel for that#I love that starscream got his validation tho#but i still have so many thoughts
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"he died for our wins" - 2024, LIDL Oil paint on LIDL canvas
#CAN YOU TELL I SHIFTED INTO PLANT MODE#HLVRAI#RTVS#I got so many houseplants this summer i have a serious problem#the problem is alocasias#and overpriced aglaonemas#nilryth draws stuff#orange oil paint sucks by the way#it takes forever to dry#pink sucks too#I could keep messing with it forever but i have got to paint something else before i lose my mind#it's still wet af rn#I'll post a high res scan eventually#update: thought of an equally demented 'prequel' painting to work on next#maybe a third too
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his therapist woulda had a field day at their next appointment
#my art#doodle#fanart#resident evil 8#ethan winters#i think its so funny that he has a journal in re8. not only does he have a journal but he illustrates it. i dont know if capcom intended to#imply that ethan stops every now and then to jot down the horrors and the hour that the horrors occur my guess is prolly not#but now its there and it makes me laugh. i shouldnt laugh at his mental health journey but i am anyways#shoutout to people who journal i wish i was you but instead i draw a guy feelin my emotions for me#but im so happy the sun goess away at 5pm. truly immaculate. i miss snow. but we stay chillin#i made more dear diary doodles but these were my favs n they went well together#i changed the entry in the 2nd one though cause i thought it was funnier to me this way#i cut my hair too short again im not even sad about it anymore like whatever man#at least its out of my way. and my shower was SO fast i got to stand there 5ever and it was still only like 15 minutes#fantastic. there are so many joys in life. theres twice as many horrors but the joys are definitely there and they are definitely joyful#anyways thats the post stay warm n cozy out there gang
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Soup solves everything.
#dungeon meshi#dungeon meshi spoilers#Senshi#izutsumi#chilchuck tims#laios touden#marcille donato#THE SOUP CHAPTER HAS BEEN ANIMATED#I have so many thoughts about senshi's backstory and how much that experience has shaped who he is.#This is such a powerful moment because it makes it clear how *stuck* senshi has been because of his trauma.#Up until now he has been a mystery! He's the chef guy! Don't worry about his apparent reclusiveness from society!#Don't worry about his intense need to make sure 'the young ones are fed'!#Senshi still has a lot of healing but this was the moment he could finally forgive himself.#This chapter is so important to me because sometimes you truly do need to face the most terrifying things to move past them.#This joke here is a bit too narrow to be funny for the masses...but mdzs fans know.#MDZS :handshake: Dungeon Meshi: Soup moment.#Laios and Jiang Yanli have a powerful magic call "Eat some soup and maybe you'll feel better'#That is also a spell you can cast upon yourself. Go eat some soup and you will feel better. Merry Soupmas everyone.#One more week of Thistle Thursdays....I'm not ready to say goodbye B*(
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you know what boils my blood.
over the last 2 weeks, i've seen countless patients walk into my urgent care center, symptomatic for so many things, refusing to get tested for covid and flu, citing that they don't want to knowingly bring it to their holiday tables. i had a patient tell me, verbatim, "i don't want to test for covid, because i don't want to be the asshole who brings it on a plane."
i understand that - i understand that holidays are times where people look forward to meeting loved ones that they might only see once a year, or where they get a break from the hectic back and forth of their lives.
but here's the thing - whether they get tested or not, they will bring whatever they have to their holiday tables. it's pure recklessness to know that you're sick, and walk into someone else's house spreading the disease.
today, january 2, i saw 91 patients, many of them who have tested positive for covid and flu. many of these patients are the same ones who didn't want testing 3 days ago, until their events were over, and now, they will have to reach out to everyone they know to let them know that they were positive because they were showing symptoms well before their event.
the next week or two? we're going to see many, many more, all people with symptoms that started around christmas. these are the only two viruses we test for rapidly in our office, but they are potent and can be fatal in many people.
so here's why i wrote this post, and maybe it's a little late, but - if you care about your loved ones, please get tested if you know you're sick. it doesn't have to be at a clinic if you don't want it to, because the over-the-counter tests work just fine too (if you test within 5-7 days of symptom onset). just...please don't try to run from the knowledge that you might have covid, because immunocompromised people, elderly people, people with co-morbidities like asthma, pregnancy, diabetes, etc...many of them may not recover. and they may not be sitting at your holiday table in the future because of it.
#zee rambles#this isn't to guilt trip anyone#but im so so tired of people coming in and just refusing testing because they want to see grandma or whatever#and on top of that people are avoiding vaccinations and all that too??#we all lived through the pandemic - everyone saw how many people unfortunately passed away from it#now because of vaccinations and some amount of herd immunity we're finding milder cases in healthy people#but that doesn't mean its gone#that doesn't mean it doesn't have long-term repercussions even in healthy people and that doesn't mean people aren't still dying from it#honestly i just needed a lil rant#and if this helps at least one person??? im all for it#also i can't sleep so here we are spilling thoughts into the voidddd
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queen of diamonds, upright + reversed 💎
I've redone this like eighty times, I have to just be done with it now and stop staring at all my mistakes oh no 🫠
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 8 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 8 spoilers#coming in well after the fact but that's what happens when the art doesn't cooperate#and i just HAD to draw something for vil's ob (re-ob?) because i loved it so much#legit put my hand over my mouth and went “oh!” when i realized what was happening#i thought it was just going to be an idia thing because. y'know. closing out his character arc from episode 6 and all#so this was like. oh! oh we're going to get ALL the inky boys!!!!!#i wonder if this is why we got a malleus flashback so early...#not to mention everyone's dreams?!#i am braced for 90% of the dreams to be kind of jokey/inconsequential because we have SO many characters to get through#and most of the time will probably be spent on our lads (literally) dropkicking their emotional problems#but i am excited to see everyone regardless!#and also kind of terrified! what on EARTH will floyd be dreaming about. do i want to know.#i do but do i want to.#man. they're probably not going to get back to it but i do wonder what silver's dream was#what was he doing when he was like 'wait a minute' and noped right out of there#lilia: here silver i made dinner :)#silver: oh boy this looks great! ...YOU'RE NOT MY REAL DAD#ouuuagh i'm still deep in the blotsauce guys and i'm loving it#come make snowangels in the ink with me it's great
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the first time college roommate!vi sees you in one of her shirts, she loses her mind just a little bit, bc it's a sunday morning, and she walks into the living room to find you there, one of her big graphic shirts hanging off your shoulders, a book perched against an empty bottle of peach svedka from god knows when, munching through a bowl of overnight oats.
"is... that mine?"
you jump to your feet, blushing something fierce as you tug at the hem of the shirt, pursing your lips; vi's stomach flips; there's a flake of oatmeal at the corner of your lip that she wants so badly to reach out and wipe for you --
"sorry! it's just -- i forgot to do laundry yesterday, and i think one of your shirts got mixed up with my clothes in the last batch so i just --" you fidget with your own fingers, cheeks blazing as you stare down at her shirt hanging off your frame.
"no, no!" vi says, clearing her throat as she tries to focus on anything other than the way your thighs peak out from beneath the hem of the shirt. how she can catch a glimpse of your collarbone when the wide necklines shifts this way and that. "it's fine! you -- it looks good on you, cupcake."
you chew on your lips, tugging at the hem. "t-thanks but -- i'll wash it again before giving it back --"
"you don't have to --" vi says, a bit too quickly, and you look up, your eyes wide. she swears inwardly, clenching her fists. "i mean -- i've got a million shirts like it so you -- you keep that one."
she makes a brave attempt at her usual, easy smirk, shrugging up a shoulder as she looks you over one more time.
"it looks good on you."
and she thinks she's got it -- thinks she's finally gotten back to ground zero, maybe even gotten a bit of the upper hand here. it used to be so easy to make you blush, back when you both first moved in, just a few carefully aimed words here or there, a teasing smirk, and you'd be turning pink enough to match her hair. but it's been harder lately, and vi doesn't really know why (or rather, she doesn't want to think about it too hard, lest she really drive herself crazy with the thought of you), but she's glad that she's still got it in her.
even if it does take everything inside her not to be blushing herself.
"thanks..." you swallow, rubbing your fingers into the soft, worn in material, "i like it cause... it kinda smells like you."
vi thanks every single deity she can think of the name for that she's leaning against the doorframe of her bedroom because if she hadn't, she's sure you would've just taken her out.
and later, after she's made up some ass excuse and said that she's gotta go to the gym for a mid-morning workout (she doesn't actually, but the thought of spending more time with you in that apartment with you prancing around in one of her shirts had her nearly catatonic), she buries her face in her hands, sitting in the gym lockers, her heart thumping a mile a minute, your voice caught like a record on loop in her head as she feels her entire body flush a deep, prickling crimson --
i like it cause... it kinda smells like you.
sweet lord she is so, so fucked.
#⛈ monsoon season#college roommate!vi#this au will be the end of my OHHH my god#arcane x reader#vi x reader#vi x reader fluff#arcane x reader fluff#vi x you#arcane x you#vi x y/n#arcane x y/n#arcane vi#arcane vi x reader#lesbian#x reader#bRUV#i have so so many more thoughts about this au#that i might or might not post today we shall see but yeah they have been brewing in my mind#i JUST LOVE the tENSION btwn 2 ppl when they both like each other and are still kind of uncertain what the other feels ukno
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friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me
#It’s just so different#even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol#in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps#if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it#esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends#no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr#u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS#meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life#this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation#like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !!#& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers#who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them#and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends#it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me#I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc#like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this#so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works#p
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Looking for comfort in odd places
#mgs#metal gear solid#kazuhira miller#revolver ocelot#ocelhira#i have many thoughts of how their rl is in mgsv#even tho kaz doesnt know about venoms deal hed still sense some wrongfulness#so theres a sort of distance between him and ‘boss’#after 9yrs working tgt they sort of know the others worst and best moments. so when kaz is looking for familiarity hed go to ocelot#i dont think this is smt they talk about or recognize#imagine here they were having a convo about cipher and their plans/tactics to take them down#and in the middle kaz gor rlly worn our and needed a 1 minute break#my art
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@funneylizzie got me in that Casey Jones Jr brainrot and I haven't known peace since
#my art#rottmnt#tmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise of the tmnt#rise leo#rise donnie#rise april#rise casey#casey jones#casey jones jr#if anyone needs me im gonna be drowning over here#rotting my brain out with this wayward kid#and his adoptive dad#GOD i just love them so much#this post is specifically for lizzie#but also mostly for me#any rise fans still out there pls talk to me about baby casey jones#i have so many thoughts#rottmnt casey jr#rottmnt casey jones jr#rottmnt future leo
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atsumu makes me go insane haha.. oikage's property..
#miya atsumu#oikawa tooru#kageyama tobio#atsuoikage#haikyuu#i forgot how painful it is to draw the cgaracters and be like YAY IM DONE and then realize i still need to draw the tats#but i will persevere#bc tattoos are hot..#also i am a tattoo artist irl so.. i have many thoughts and ideas HAHAHA
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POV: the epic: the musical fans atm
#as me and my friend from work would say…AND THEN ALONG CAME ZEUS HE HURLED HIS THINDER BOLT!!#but holy fucking shit the thunder saga was amazing#i have so many thoughts#but I’m still trying to process#just… AAAAAAHHHH!#epic the musical
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15 YEAR TIME SHIFT
#HAPPY 15TH BDAY TO THE MOST IMPACTFUL SHOW FROM MY CHILDHOOD AAAAAHH!!!!!#one tpot#tpot one#tpot#tpot gaty#bfdi#bfb#bfdi tpot#tpot fanart#tpot spoilers#tpot 15#osc#osc art#god this episode wass ouuhg ouuuhggg so much soo much to me...#had to make art for it cuz of that#15 years... ive been with it for only 7 but im still so proud...#seeing how far we've come... the animation was STUNNING... LIKE INSANELY STUNNING...#ouh i have SO many thoughts about this that isnt even like the story (which is also SO good holy shit)#TO ANOTHER 15 !!!!!!!!!!!!#AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!#KD'sCrumbs#TheTrinketShelf!
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Wrapping up the season with a redraw (Jan 2024)!
Thank you all for these last 6 months, I have loved making so many people laugh from my silly comics B*)
#dungeon meshi#dungeon meshi spoilers#laios touden#marcille donato#senshi#chilchuk tims#izutsumi#When I start my weekly dungeon Meshi posting#I never would have thought it would have pushed me to grow so much as an artist.#Nor that some of those comics would become some of the most popular things I've ever made!#I really did just want to start incorporating some more self-indulgent art into my week.#I love this series dearly and it has been a delight to be able to draw these characters and see so many new people learn to love them#Oh and don't get worried; I *will* still be drawing dungeon meshi fan art now-and-again.#I have a really cool thing to show off next Thursday!#I've been a fan for nearly a decade. This isn't a hyperfixation this is a part of my core personality.#This anime adaptation was beyond good. I'm so excited to see season two!
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... and he was eager moreover to discover all that he could concerning Mankind. He it was that first met Men in Beleriand and befriended them; and for this reason he was often called by the Eldar Edennil, 'the Friend of Men'. (Athrabeth Finrod ah Andreth)
(partially inspired by this)
#small disclaimer: i still haven't completed my annual silm reread#so this mayyyy be a little bit inaccurate#i was having so many thoughts about finrod and the edain again so i couldn't stop myself :)#but!#clarisse! you may ask. whats up with the hands being so realistic but they still have cartoon faces#i don't know. i respond. im at that stage of drawing#you know how sometimes you draw something and stare it for too long and you start having a crisis of whether it was even a good idea#like i've been working on this for the past week! and have no idea if it's even comprehensible#however. i am done with it and methinks is time to release it to the wild#clarisse doodles#tolkien#the silmarillion#finrod felagund#finrod#beor the old#house of beor#baran#andreth#beren
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i dont know how else to put this but to approach books (or any media, really) solely for the sake of relatability is genuinely incredibly heartbreaking......to have such little (or such unwilling) imaginative scope that you cannot stretch yourself, even marginally, in a different direction to what you’ve known or are used to knowing when the very POINT of stories is to transport you somewhere else, into someone else, so you can do just that........when fran lebowiz said a book “is supposed to be a door!” and george saunders said good prose “is like empathy training wheels” they were right!!! they were so so so SO absolutely entirely right!!!!!
#thinking about that last post still and i'm having so many thoughts#that people have relatability as the sole criterion is astonishing to me#like how else are you going to develop variegated textures in your relationships w others?#not to be dramatic but it seems like a little death to me. truly.#everything i read as a child and teenager was expressly something as different from my world as possible. bc i wanted to relate as something#other than me#once again it is. heartbreaking#truly it is#p#book talks#idir lúibíní
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