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auugh the thing about not having an income is things that would be relatively easy for someone with an income to save for or just pay in monthly installments is just, completely unattainable.
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i love when ppl draw bumblebee like the happy little creachure he is but also i love when people draw bumblebee like he's had 500 beers in the last 1 hour and still the pain won't even ebb
#bonus when they do both by making him just utterly psychotic but he smiles so no one notices#i am a shameful idw bee enjoyer but like in the tired af ppl pleasing libra girl who needs a therapist so fking bad but#has 700000 billion duties and 900000000 billion expectations and mean bitches in his ear telling him hes stupid#sense#and not the he feels like an officer sense like no my queen is just a teachers pet doing her best which is her worst im afraid#anyways i love bee hes very indignant and a bitch but also im gonna stand beside her sorry#u do not understand how powerful it was to give him a cane . a literal crutch to hold onto to feel stronger even when ratchet says he doesnt#have to anymore but yet bee still insists bcs he doesnt have time for the repairs itll take when others cannot survive#and 2 it comforts him with support and also power and so he cradles it close with the idea of him being weak & needing smthing else#to make him strong#even tho at this point it's rlly just for comfort but he cant afford to allow himself to have comfort when others cant#or dont need it in his heroism ideals (specifically optimus being seen as so much stronger than him)#optimus also had bee tho. had him. but bee is so self conscious he just sees all his failures surrounding optimus & views himself not a#crutch to lean on but a crutch to optimus' character#he rlly needed rodimus and his fiery upbeat persona so they could fake it till they made it together and he left & fucking exploded#(in bees eyes)#like idk im just obsessed with this little tryhard loser#he islike a sad little clingy mother who refuses to think herself as human. she is just mother. lives off evrryones accomplishments#never her own#idk like hes so interesting tonme i want to kill him teehee#chew on him like sponge cak#bumblebee#transformers#tf bumblebee#tf idw#idw#tf#????#maccadam#i hate not knowing waht tag to use
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My last wip before my pen kicked it.
-I love drawing Mac (and another monkey👀) in modern clothes
#I WAS SO UPSET!!!!! I CANT AFFORD TO REPLACE YOU RN SERIOUSLY??!??#anyways I've been using my laptop and cheap tablet#its not too noticable but I'm still getting used to it so drawing is slow#my art#lmk fanart#lego monkey kid#lmk#lmk macaque#six eared macaque#i was actually planning a little comic but it was not meant to be lol#lego monkie kid#rockstar!mac au
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part of my tooth fell out earlier so if u need a reminder/wake up call that dental hygiene and eating healthy is Important Actually here it is 👍
#jasper speaks#i cant afford the dentist so. rip. its not too bad the nerves not sticking out or anything. i can still eat and brush my teeth properly#so im thankful for that#but i was eating broccoli earlier and i felt a CRUNCH but i didnt think anything of it. then i thought about it and was like#hmm.#so i felt my mouth and BOOM chipped tooth#the worst part is idk if i chewed it or if it just fell like that but the part that fell out was in like a million pieces. GREAT!!!!!!!#i also just do not brush my teeth. thanks mental illness very cool
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Honestly the best way I can describe the 2nd season of Arcane is written by extremely competend writers who bit off way more than they could chew. Especially in that short of a timeframe.
It's possible that it was a higher up decision for future League shows, but the focus on the Black Rose & magic worldbuilding took away focus from the core cast and the narrative of 2 cities/sisters opposed to one another. They desperately needed at least 3 more episodes
The writers are competent, but they made some deliberate choices I don't like and pulled focus from things I believe they should've left in focus. It feels like the entire narrative of the show got changed between seasons, and maybe it was always the intention and I should rewatch the entire show front-to-back without a massive hiatus in-between them for me to get it, but from my current standing... It could've been more, and the things that they did focus on and give time to were really good. It's just that the show lost its priorities and primary narrative along the way
#why yes i am still upset about vi but there is other stuff to be found here too#sevika isha and jinx being established in act 1 and not being focused on for the rest of the show. specifically sevika just vanishing#i love mel but the black rose plotline came out of left-field and needed more time that this show could nooot afford.#if it deserved it at all. honestly the plot was just unsatisfying to me in general#the end product is banging but the way we got there was sort of tedious#i changed my mind. they should've SHORTENED the black rose storyline#i think vi's and powder's dad getting less than 0 acknowledgement was hilarious. go dude give us nothiiiing#dont get me started on vi.#dont get me started on caitlyn and vi.#they were one of those relationships playing into the piltover vs zaun narrative and just like that narrative their relationship was wooshe#or at least its built up. they are so unstable and needed more focus before becoming endgame in my humble opinion#but i also cant say where to fit that amongst everything else#actually scratch that. jayvik was the endgame of the show and it was a BIG surprise. but a welcome one#arcane#arcane s2#arcane season 2#arcane spoilers#arcane s2 spoilers#arcane season 2 spoilers#bear rambles
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Ok so your 'Megatron as the 2nd in command to Starscream' idea has brainblasted me /pos.
Does Starscream allow anyone else to wield Megatron or is that his privilege alone?
Does Megatron know that Starscream is only helping the lower castes as a side thing but believes that, no matter his motivations, Starscream is ultimately doing good or does Megatron genuinely think that Starscream is invested in this conflict as a way of creating equity?
Are the other members of Decepticon high command actually loyal to Starscream?
Thanks for giving me the chance to yap about this!
I think that in the beginning Starscream wouldn't care too much about who's shooting him as long as they are victorious but Megatron only trusts Starscream to be the one pulling the trigger.
As time goes on, Megatron got more comfortable letting Skywarp, Thundercracker, and Soundwave shoot him but Starscream had realized how powerful of a weapon Megatron is and how much he enjoyed being the only one that Megatron allowed to wield him. He got more possessive but Megatron enjoys how much Starscream cherishes(?) him
I think the second question depends on the backstory a bit, Megatron didn't know much about the world before Starscream other then he's just a thing to be used by the elites, and his altmode being a gun really limited his mobility. I did think about some possibilities of what he did beforehand:
1. He was a miner or worker (I don't think he would be so easily pacified if he was a gladiator and could fight himself) whose altform was pretty useless because always held back to not be used to hurt anyone, he mostly kept his head down and worked until Starscream came around and took over. Megatron was so awed that someone had thought about bots like him and took the first chance he got to present himself to Starscream and show him his real strength as a weapon
("new ruler the workers are demanding for rights! We must send forces to squash this before it gets out of hand!" "Why would I do that lol" "new ruler please! If those low caste get what they want then our economy will crash!" "Listen I'm leaving in 3 days, so I order that you give them what they want now and YOU can deal with the political and economic ramifications! If you succeed I'll send someone later when you did all of the work to take credit, if not, well, you're to blame for everything.")
Or
2. Gunformers are quite rare, and no one wanted to reformat to be one especially if they weren't a triple changer. He ended up being sold to be the weapon of the police to keep the lower caste in check, no matter how much he tried to hold back he was still a powerful gun and was forced to execute innocent mechs. The chief had him trapped in his alt mode due to his... disobedience and dunked him in energon every once in a while to keep him alive. But they would forget that he was a cybertronian so he would just lay there in a locker, unmoving, starving, until someone used him and noticed that his shots were weaker, then they would dunk him in energon to use more. Megatron was starting to grow numb to it all, his hatred for the elites bleed into everything else, why did the mechs rebel? If they didn't then maybe he wouldn't be used against them.
It wasn't until Starscream came along and none of the police could hit him, his trine, or any of the seekers, they were too fast. The police chief who wielded him managed to get a lucky shot on one of Starscreams null rays. Annoyed, Starscream turned his target to the chief and landed a shot on him. The chief dropped Megatron at the feet of a Starscream who landed in his root mode, Starscream decided to shoot the pest with his own weapon, as payback for destroying one of his expensive null rays.
Megatron, realizing that he was being pointed towards the mech that has caused him so much pain, stopped holding back for the first time ever when Starscream pulled the trigger. The blast that fired turned everyone's vision white and caused an explosion that left a big crater where the chief was, body instantly vaporized. Starscream (and Megatron) didn't expect the blast to be so strong and the pair got flung back from the force. Starscream stunned, hit the ground with the gun still in his hand. He looked at it before strapping it in his cockpit seat and transforming to join the fight again.
Megatron felt every swoop and roll Starscream did, like watching an elegent dancer preform before they come to sweep you off your feet, he was still trapped in his alt mode but flying through the air as Starscream won the battle, he finally felt something, freedom.
After Starscream took the territory over, got the resources he wanted, allowed the lower caste to move up or whatever, he then looked more into this strange gun he picked up. It was different then all of the other guns that the police used? There's a machine in the basement that traps bots in their alt mode? Ohhhh.
In both of those options Megatrons self worth is pretty low and being with Starscream is better then anything he ever had in his life (at least at the start), but in the first one he's probably going to be alot more pushy about helping the lower caste and bicker more in general, and is probably more in line of the first option you said
I dont think either Megatron would fully believe the second one unless Starscream actually does want to make his equality his main goal, but the second Megatron can definitely dilude himself into thinking it! If he does accept that equality is only a secondary thing for Starscream, I want him to be like "might as well dedicate my entire being to Starscream because thats the only part of my identity that I feel is real".
There's just so many possibilities like how hard Starscream pushes to keep Megatron dependent on him, if they have a fallout how big would it be, if they ever have a healthy mutual respect, if Megatrons infatuation ever dies down, or if they just reflect themselves in the cartoon where they just bicker with each other but don't do anything to permanently change their positions. Although Megatron wouldn't declare himself leader he just. Does. The autobots are confused on who's actually the leader they don't question it anymore. (At the end of the day it's always Starscream)
As for everyone else in the high command, his trine are loyal, the rumors why Thundercracker and Skywarp aren't co leader, SIC, or TIC are blown out of proportion, they aren't secretly against Starscream, they like to enjoy all of the benefits of high command with no paperwork, probably the only bots other then Megatron that are strongly loyal to Starscream. Soundwave is still TIC, and competent at it, he doesn't mind that Starscream is leader but he wouldn't fight Megatron if he ever does want to take over, he still reports on any other traitors though. Would actually push for Megatron to take over if Starscream seriously hurts his cassettes. Shockwave and Starscream are on good terms but he does recognize that Megatron would also be a pretty good leader if he were to take over, I dunno about any other high command cause they change alot but if they liked Megatron normally then they *really* want him to take over, otherwise they're pretty indifferent, the lower rank you go the more popular Megatron is, hes even growing on some of the seekers who are still pretty loyal to Starscream.
Ngl I'm still pondering on what version I like the most, feel free to take any ideas!
#there are 4 main wolves inside of me#megatron who sticks with starscream because while things have... changed he still admires his skills#megatron who has the capability to lead but Starscream has instilled in him that he would always be his his tool#megatron who is ready to betray starscream if the battles with the autobots weren't so close and they cant afford infighting#or my current favorite#megatron who is so dedicated to starscream starscream also thinks that he would be nothing if it wasnt for megatron#asks#megastar#megascream#teetering to find a balance between this and being too ooc#I need to think about this a lil bit more lol#SIC megatron
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I swear, nothing makes me go bonkers fucking yonkers quite like comparing Athena and Apollos' introductions to the WAA.
When Phoenix asked Athena to come work for the agency, he reached out overseas to get in contact and offer her a job. When Phoenix asked Apollo to come work for the agency, he didn't even mention what the business was called or what they actually did.
On Athena's first day in court, Phoenix showed up and took over for her when she started to break down. On Apollo's first day in court, Phoenix made him an accomplice in crime and almost ruined his career.
When Athena introduces her childhood best friend to the WAA, they get her cleared of murder charges and save a friendgroup. When Apollo tries to introduce his childhood best friend to the agency, he dies before that can even happen.
When Athena returns to the space center, she is greeted by the robots with open arms. When Apollo returns to the space center, he is greeted by the name of a dead man.
When Phoenix sought out Athena as a protégé, it was because he realized how much she was hurting. When Phoenix sought out Apollo as a protégé, its because he realized how much he could be used to hurt others.
#something something you are everything I wish my life could have been.#you did not steal those opportunities from me because they were never even mine to begin with.#it feels like you were afforded so much more than I ever was but I look at you and I don't see someone at peace and happy#and the ways they use this to parallel him to AURA. someone who also feels like Athena 'stole' all the attention and love#and none of this in Athena's fault she didn't ASK for these things#she spends the whole game suffering from the fact that someone threw their life away just to preserve hers#but its happening and she cant stop it and apollo knows its not her fault but still. it still hurts#thinking about how protege comes from the french word 'to protect'#aa#ace attorney#ace attorney dual destinies#dual destinies#aa dual destinies#aa5#aa5 spoilers#athena cykes#apollo justice#phoenix wright#clay terran#juniper woods#spk plays dual destinies
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i love that the murder time trio all have dangerous little greetings. horror has his little hand drill thing. killer puts a knife up his sleeve and then does a little switcharoo. dust INSTINCTIVELY shoots whoever he sees with a bone. no greeting whatsoever. so just imagine how things go on a first meeting or whatever. immediately horror and killer have to dodge bones from dust and horror's like hey wtf man. mildly irritated but he just met these guys so he's willing to forgive. he's not gonna lose his cool in front of these two random ass guys even though one just tried to kill him. killer just has that dumbass smile on his face like always (but he was intrigued when dust did that. like who tries to kill someone on first sight?? he's curious now :3)
and then theyre all just standing together and staring for a moment and horror sticks out his hand. killer takes the bait but then he just points a knife to horror's stolen eye once he realizes that he got duped and his other hand is now currently being drilled into. dust didn't shake either of their hands because he could see the drill and tell that killer had something off about him in general. but he does give a tiny smile when he sees the state that the two r in rn with the drill and knife. it's an eensy bit funny in his eyes
least violent mtt interaction
#overall?? first good impression on all their parts#except horror because he doesn't like to get threatened or risk dying#but he gets over it (he never does)#i'm at that stage of mtt fan where i cant afford to ignore phantom paps anymore and leave him out from the hc#immediately once dust saw the other two paps commented on how ugly they were#dust must have the strength of fucking Hercules or something because like#phantom papyrus probably drops some of the most hilarious bangers that only he can hear and he just CANNOT laugh or else he'll look dumb#i wouldnt last a day in dusts shoes if phantom paps said shit like that. i'd die of holding back laughter#how many off hand comments does paps make he just has to let out his laughs in private#violence is sooooo funny to them they wish they could throw the other 2 into a volcano#triglycercule will you ever run out of mtt ideas??? i dunno......#as long as im alive i can find a way to make my life about the mtt#this post was written august 22 still a peak idea tho LMAO#the phantom papyrus making outrageous comments thingy is funny enough to be its own post HOLD ON LMAO#listen this didnt happen in my mtt fic LITERALLY about them meeting but it did in another universe TRUST TRUST TRUST#tricule rant#killer sans#dust sans#horror sans#murder time trio#utmv#sans au#i'm so eepy....... i need to stay awake................#still have 70 soon to be 71 drafts left in my loaded gun we WILL survive through the winter if i eat one draft every day
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maybe a weird/selfish question/request but have you considered maybe dropping fic updates on patreon when you’re comfortable? stuff like Solar Lunacy or whatever you might feel like doin, or would that still feel too tense for you? i understand if so!
I'm sorry but I can't do that for reasons even outside of my comfort zone! I'm not sure about other countries, but in mine fanwriting and fanart have different grey areas when it comes legality: fanart is more greenlight than fanwriting is. Plus i'm a very firm believer of not having fanfiction being put behind a paywall
#my artwork is still early access and not exclusive so people who cant afford to support me can still see finished things eventually#supporters get wips and sai files avaliable to them but most of my work is done outside of patreon (and stickers but theyre slow to ship)#people supporting me on patreon means i get to produce more stuff outside of patreon that they can see in other places#patreon is my only source of income as a disabled creator rn so i dont want to risk it or go back on my belief by posting my written works#sorry!
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do you guys fucking remember when music artists actually made or commissioned people to make song/album art for them instead of resorting to ugly ass AI slop?
i swear, it's always the artists with more money too. bring me the horizon keeps using AI art even though they basically shit money. incredibly popular artists that can very well pay artists using AI images to reduce costs. actually fucking sucks so bad. it just makes your song stand out way less
#dont have much of a problem with artists that cant afford to pay artists for 500 arts if they make a ton of music#but i still think itd be a lot better if they tried making it themselves with images online#like even phonk artists using manga panels and badly cut out pics and shit photoshop jobs#is soooo much more charming than Big Artist™ using an AI image for their shitass song#its especially fucked when they use an expensive AI model too. like damn.#wonder what these people think of that one AI generated music program 👍#thunderclap#musicposting#idk man it makes me mad to see this shit bro. like ok whatever!! small artists do whatever!!! BUT THE BIG GUYS. COME THE FUCK ON...........#artist sphere cannibalizing itself. love to fucking see it
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lmao sorry to everyone in my inbox, this month has been a mess and I'm just not really around enough for it. someone in my immediate family got a new cancer diagnosis, my not-art job got restructured because management is a joke and it's been.... not great, to be honest! to top it off, my mom's cousin just died because the major hospital didn't have enough beds open for the provincial hospital to transfer him. etc etc etc.
anyway. it's been a lot and I'm Very Tired Of Things Happening 🙃
#tbd later#SHDSSHSH im so behind on emails and emails take precedent over my inbox but i WILL get around to my inbox at some point#its also annoying (in general) that the healthcare system in america is in such shambles that i can't book an appointment#with any doctor in public transit distance because everyone's maxxed out like okay! i cant afford private health insurance so i guess#we'll just figure things out ourselves. I GUESS#AND because of how freelancer taxes work i still havent saved up quite enough for a new laptop and im running out of space on my phone for#books aughghghghghgh (books = art&history related research etc. it's for work. my current set up is very goofy)
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last thing i’ll say; people aren’t owed free content but creatives aren’t owed financial compensation either
#i say all this as a cretive btw lets head that off#their bottom line was ‘we want more money to make bigger things and we cant afford to so we want more money in order to do them’#and that is a valid desire#but you cant just expect everyone to go along with that just bc you want it#watcher got where they are due to a loyal viewer base#to reject money from corporations in favour of money from that viewer base? thats skeevy#to default to a complete and absolute paywall removing all your content then pretend that you weren't going to? thats skeevy#to make a countdown to an announcement then make the announcement a somber trip down memory lane#and an ‘if only we can make more stuff like this wink wink’? thats skeevy#and its skeevy bc theyre a company and no matter how personable they are companies are not your friend#are they the rich we should be eating? no#but when your ceo drives a tesla and eats expensive food that is written off as a buisness expense#AND you have a patreon that you dont capitalise on but still brings you on average 100k a month#you cant act like youre a hard done by creative#endevouring to make more elaborate creations is a good idea#monetisation is a good idea#absolute monetisation with no thought to an alternative isnt#name one indie artist that relies entirely on paid content ill wait#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#watcher#shane madej#ryan bergara#steven lim#hey there demons it’s me ya boy#ghost files
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did nora clean or unpack anything today? no. did she write? also no. she did have beer for breakfast, though
#simblr#ts4 edit#sims 4#nora#so she's essentially a hot mess of a human being#a piece of shit and i say it lovingly lmao#she's me if left unchecked#and off my meds ajskfkkshsgkk#real intro to come soon bc i wanna be extra but basically she has familial issues#left home to become a writer#dropped out of uni#maybe will go back?? we'll see#couldn't make it as a writer or afford rent but conveniently inherited her estranged mother's home#so she's living there now#it's a mess and she's a mess and i am v excited to play her#some realistic gameplay!! wooo#still working on some things but cant help myself frm posting bc i am pumped!!! for now#other family idea is on hold for her bc my heart tells me she is the one#<3#summer save
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Calling Magneto Max just feels so wrong to me. I don’t care if that’s supposedly his real name. His name is Erik.
Asks that make me realize ive mostly been calling him magneto/mags lately
#snap chats#i blame rivals idk how or why i just do#i was flipping through a secret wars omnibus i found today and saw hawkeye(i think it was i forget) call him ‘maggie’#yah ……. evil villainous maggie thats him#even rivals has charas call him ‘erik’ which Makes Sense since thats how they know him#but still … lol …. max is not sticking i fear ….#thats like when you change your name socially but you cant afford a name change#like Ok Guys Just Close Your Eyes Whenever I Have To Put My Legal Ok Thanks
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Huntlow situationship gives me such intense brain termites you don't get it
#no i dont think its because Hunter needs time to heal first#i think if it was up to Hunter they would plunge into a committed romantic relationship immediately after the events of the finale#he would propose to her in like. 3 months probably#i know that sounds intense but i think this is what ''i literally died and came back to life'' mania does to a guy#he is so carpe diem minded hes become a little insane. he wants everything#no more waiting around. no more hesitating. he cant afford to do that anymore#would it have been the wise decision to enter a romantic relationship immediately#who's to say. but Hunter would have done it without thinking about it#its Willow that makes the decision to slow down and wait a while before they make any committments theyre not ready for#i dont think she's entirely learned her lesson about letting herself be emotionally reliant every once in a while#shes made progress but the events of ftf were such heat of the moment responses#once things are semi-stable she still needs to adapt to acknowledging that her feelings for Hunter are like. serious. and scarily intense#so like. yea Willow is slamming her pedals on the breaks for both their sakes. shes thinking about how this would effect Hunter too#but also. she scawwed.#when Willow tells him she wants to talk and she's like ''i think we should just be friends'' oh the face he makes is DEVASTATED#he didnt expect it was going in this direction at all. but like. once Willow explains how this is the most reasonable decision for now#he DOES agree. he understands what shes saying and he agrees that it's the best decision to take a breather before they jump into a romance#anyway even when theyre not officially dating the flirting continues insistently. they are very obsessed with each other and cant stop#Willow keeps trying to insist to herself that its just messing around. nothing serious. they find each other hot. its fine to kiss a little#but Hunter makes it very hard when he looks at her with big brown labrador eyes. looks at her like shes the entire world#i think if it was up to Willow they would have been trapped in that uncertain limbo forever. shes too scared to take the plunge#even if she wants to. she badly wants to#but Hunter just wont let that happen. every so often he says ''im ready whenever you are''#he makes his intentions very known. he is not the shy boy from Camila's house anymore#Willow cant just playfully flirt with him without worrying that hes gonna reciprocate. he talks now. he expresses himself#shes a little afraid of that. but she adores it too. he makes her feel safe but also he wont let her stay in this comfort zone#hes giving her the push she needs to pursue this relationship. gives her to push to feel like she can go after what she wants#because god knows HE knows what he wants#they make me so insane
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#i dont really like getting mopey on this account but things have . sucked ass for a really long time#and its really getting to me that my situation is just inescapable and intolerable#my arm might be broken and it doesn't even change anything except that ive seen the cats even less because ive been barricading my door#i hate asking for help knowing im still stuck here#that the support people give can only go to buying me time rsther than an actual solution dusgusts me. i feel horrific over it#ive never completed anything. i just take and take snd take and im so tired of it.#im too much and i get that. i really do. i just don't have anything else left but that#its going to be six years of denial soon. i want to grieve. i want to be allowed to grieve#but i can't express anything in this house except silence. i cant be angry or its wrong. i cant be happy or im being manipulative.#i cant talk or im selfish and intrusive. and im tired.#i just need a hug man. and affordable rent.#sorry for all of that. just struggling to be normal#patch me through to palaven command
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