#but i rememvered this fact

[sleeepying]

I get her back tomorrow guys im not ready. Im flipping my shit!!

[joleneghoul]

When i was a kid, I used to think that there were two ants in my brain, and they sat on a couch and looked out my eyes like windows. When I remembered stuff, it was them watching tv.

[kyoupann]

From almost a year ago; what multiple scoliosis looks on me

So, my hip is a lil bit slanted and that makes one of my legs longer than the other; and so my spine tried to balance things out by turning into an S-shape. I never really considered it a disability because I can go on with my day most days without pain, even when the doctor who diagnosed me was like "yup, if you have kids you're gonna suffer even more and by 40 you'll probs need a wheelchair";

however, there are moments after walking for long periods (or really just bad days) where my hips hurt so bad I just wanna pass out, trying to walk real fast makes my right hip make a popping sound and it's painful, like a cramp. When I am with people that walk faster than my top speed (most of my friends rip) I either gotta try to keep up and bear the pain or stay behind watching the distance between us grow. It's really isolating in that sense. I can't lift more than 15k without my back resenting it later (I can't carry one of my dogs :( ) and let's not talk about sports that involve running 😂 I used to dance and that in of itself was a challenge for me; I'd be so sore after each routine, even after warming up. Wearing a back-brace(? Support thingy helps when sitting down for long periods but other than stretching exercises, there isn't much I can do about my fucked up back

Sometime all September and October last year I was going through a very hard time dealing with body image issues. Tbh, I'm still am. So I did the very logical thing of taking some pics and painting them. This was the first time I had ever done some sort of portrait and it was cathartic in a way; I encountered the idea that my body will never look a certain way because of my back issues. I have always had "love handles" more noticeable on one side than the other. I'd think that if my back was a bit straighter, I'd probably not have them at all. The amount of times I've tried to stand as straight as possible, trying to get them to disappear... yeah, that's embarrassing. But oh well, surgery isn't really an option for me so I gotta work on making peace with them🫠. Which is something I want to work on, so here's to that!

Anyways, I spent a good chunk of this month thinking if I should post in this so here it goes aaa

[strawbnetwork]

dave functionally being the only non only child in all of homestuck is so fucking crazy

[queensilber]

Supernatural: Witch‘s Canyon

Posting everything in this book that i think you need to know, lets go!

Summary:

Okay, so, the boys head to the Grand Canyon to solve a case of a fourty-year murder cycle. The spirits of variouse humans and animals alike attack the locals and they need to find out why and how to stop it.

It is set somewhere in Season two.

My opinion:

This was so much fun. Like, it was really like watching an episode, just a lot longer and with the magic ability to see into Sam and Deans (and a bunch of other characters) heads.

It also gave a little bit of a fanfiction vibe, just with the addidtion that everything is cannon and that all the random little facts and quotes are a real thing (i‘ll list those in a second)

And also there were flashbacks of their childhood??? That made me cry??? I hated john winchester before, but now even more so. (More about the flashbacks below too)

So yea, it was definetly worth it and i cant wait to read the others!!

Songs:

This is the music Sam and Dean listened to during the course of the book (some locals listened to music too, but i did not list those)

- „paranoid“ by Black Sabbath

- „turn the page“ by Bob Seger

- unspecified tape by Bad Company

Flashbacks:

There are two flashbacks to Sam and Dean‘s Childhood:

- the first one is Dean Remembering a time when John made him and Sam run through an obstacle course at age twelve and eight. Dean had to shoot a gun during it, Sam just had to point and yell „Bang!“.

In the process of that Sam got injured and cried and John yelled at him to keep going and that he was doing poorly. Dean comforted his brother and encouraged him, leading to sam actually making it. Sam did it and Dean cheered, but john kept yelling at them to keep going to the next obstacle.

- the second one was from when Dean was fourteen and Sam was ten. Their Dad gave them backbags and said what was in them could last them fir four days and they all went on a hike together.

In the middle of nowhere john then saud that they should not trust anyone on what they are told and left them alone, telling them that they should find their way (at very least two days of walk) back themsleves and they shouldnt have relied on him so much and he just… left.

When they checked their backbags they found that most in it was useless and they were also filled with rocks to make it seem like it was more than it was.

Thats so fucked up, like

Those are children. And the worst part, when Dean rememvers this he thinks of it almost positively because it taught him a valuable lesson. I cant even begin to describe how my heart hurt for them.

Random facts:

Here are some facts from the book, i do t know anymor if those are mentioned in the show too, but it hardly matters, i think:

- Sam outgrew Dean at the age of 16

- Dean felt gutity over Jessicas death and thought that it was a „more solid basis“ of guilt than Sam had on the matter

- Sam can differentiate between uniforms of different wars in history just by a look

- Dean hates Rats. A lot.

Quotes:

Some quotes from the book:

John Winchester hunted monsters, ghosts, demons — the creatures most people only believed in deep down in their 3:00 am hearts, abd that they laughted off when the sun was bright and their spirits high.

It was a habit Dean had picked up from Dad — reffering to what they did as a „job“. To Sam it was nore of a Mission, even a calling.

„Sammy really likes cops,“ Dean said. „If he didnt have any talents he might have become one“

Sometimes he thought Dean wouldnt mind dying if he could go out in a blaze of glory, as the saying went. In moments of fairness, Sam knew that wasnt true. Dean didnt care about the glory; he cared about making a difference.

„I‘m coming around to the point, Sam.“ „He‘s Dean,“ Sam corrected. „I‘m Sam“. „Sorry, For some reason, you just look more like a Dean to me“

Gilmore Girls reference?

„You tried to shoot my brother“ Dean said.

Sam belived in a highter power, Dean didnt. Sam didnt have any special knowledge that Dean lacked, handt seen or heard or met God.

Lol, not yet.

Dean had been a kid, hadnt ever had a chance to become anything other than what Dad had made of him. That, finally, was the gulf between them — the canyon that could never be bridged.

Dean was an amazing guy, Sam knew, with skills and abilities most people would never imagine, and smarts Dean himself wouldnt credit, even though he relied on them all the time. And yet, at times like this, he was so humble, so unassuming, that he seemed almost unaware of the importance if his iwn contributions. At other times, of course, that humility vanished. Knowing and accepting both Deans, he guessed, was what being brothers was all about. Maybe I wouldnt want to be Dean, he thought, but i‘m sure glad I have him araound.

STOP MAKING MY CRY WTH

So anyways, that book sure was an experiance and i cant wait for the next one! I‘ll post a review of that as well and will update that post with a link to it one i‘m done!

Xoxo! <3

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[n3-x-us]

Hi i'm going on a huge rant I know I should do it on the tsams confession thing but I'd rather do it on my own blog

Absolutely no hate to the creators by the way, this is just stuff that ticks me off :3

Completely fine if you like the stuff I stated!

VA's if you somehow see this uhhhh please ignore this entire post

I want to rewrite ruin's character as a whole so hes just canonical eclipse

Sadly no jigsaw but at least it isn't whats happening on tsams

God i want to go on a huge rant about how much i despise whats happening with the lore to get it off my chest but i just know that some people will take ir the wrong way and assume I want it to change and I hate tsams as a whole

I don't hate it as a whole but i dp kind of wish to say this

It kind of feels like that after the ruin dlc released that what the creators had planned was changed from it- for one their reaction to canonical eclipse, which was them saying 'no' over him being nice- and the fact that ruin i think was originally supposed to be canon eclipse with how he acted after being 'cured'

Does it feel like they hate canon eclipse or at least dislike him? Yes, yes it does

Does it feel like the lore is rushed a bit now? Honetsly kinda

Is the excessive amount of angst overwhelming? For me at least, it is (hence why i've stopped watching and moved to laes)

Also it would be so refreshing if it didn't seem like this was the whoke "all eclipses are bad but solar" because i know thats not true

A character does not need to have a bad backstory to be rude or nice or whateverz but it feels like that way in tsams which ticks me off so much FOR INSTANCE, BASICALLY THE ENTIRE FAMILY

They could've turned out rude but didn't because THEY CHOSE NOT TO

I think i rememver ruin saying that solar was a rare eclipse but idk if thats bc hes nice or bc of the change but if its bc hes nice im gonna scream

Uhm uhm what else uuhhhhdhdhdhhe

Oh yeah the fact that ruin straight up doesn't give a shit about his actions it pisses me off

He watched his friends suffer for ages, and you'd think hed have some remorse because he wouldm't want that to happen to anyone else, but nope! Bro he seemingly didn't evej care when all the family was greiving

YOU'D THINK AFTER THE TIME HE'D SPEND WITH THEM HE'D CARE ECEN THE SLIGJTEST

SURE THEY'RE FROM DIFFERENT AUS BUT HE WAS AROUND THEM LONG ENOUGH TO AT LEAST CARE ABOUT WHAT HIS ACTIONS WOULD CAUSE

Dude i really do hope the VA's don't find this i feel bad enough making this post but i gotta let off some steam 😭 if they see it i'll just feel worse than before

[mediumgayitalian]

Warning, annoying question.

Is there any chance there is more road trip au or modern courting coming soon?

If you have already said this I am so sorry.

not an annoying question!! people asking about my wips is very validating actually it helps me rememver that people aside from me care about them. here is the thing:

multi chaptered fics are hard for me.

i get a lot of ideas all the time. most of them are short. i do not often have the patience to write longer stuff, even tho i rly rly rly want to. i need to be gently bullied. on my last big writing blog, i did this weekly thing -- on tuesday i would put out a poll with all my wips on it (well, most; at the time of doing this thing i had too many wips for the options lol), you guys would vote for the ones you want to see updated most, and on wednesday i would get the results and post that wip on wednesday. thus wip wednesday.

i havent done that on this blog yet bc i only have like six wips, which as i type does in fact seem like a decent number, and also im not sure?? if that would be presumptuous?? so.

it would be, so far, for the following wips:

the capture the flag one i started forever ago

the royal au

the naomi fic

modern courting

new rome?? fic

road trip au

so i would put them all in the poll. anyways. let me know!!

[fantasysocstuffhere]

I rememvered I have Tumblr 👏

And this is Darksnap herself! + a more realistic al pallete I created after 2020 when people became fixated on realism and didn't allow ocs from past roleplays in new once anyway, so I created her genderbent version and made an alt pallete, but the story remained the same. Sneaky👌✨

Story:

(Created in 2016-17, a bit fixed in 2019 or so) (was typed many days ago)

She was born in some unnamed_clan_1 to those 2 cats I posted earlier. Her clan had 1 more kitten + he was her age. Tigerkit, but he shares nothing with Tigerclones, don't worry lol. At some point her parents argue, divorce and leave the clan in 2 separate ways. Darkkit was confused and ask where are they going. And leader said they're leaving. Darkkit freaked out and ran to chase them, but leader stopped her. She got angry he let them abandon her and attacked him. Btw she was like 5 moons old by this time. Or idk. Leader who is named Oakstar (yey Maple inspo) was trying to calm the child, but when it didn't work he impulsively hit the child, thus leaving her her eye and ear scars. He regretted that immedietly, but it was too late. And Darkkit would forever remember that.

Later Darkkit became an apprentice and was training, having a desire to take revenge. I love stories that have revenge btw and I don't judge revenge as something bad. Only strong ones take revenge I think. The only bad from revenge that can be is a wrong aim. Anyway.

She almost 'graduated' from her apprenticeship, but her desire for revenge was stronger, so one night (she wasn't too small by then btw, it's been moons of training) the young cat crawled into the leaders den and tried to hurt and sufficate him. She managed to take only 1 of his lives. And btw this leader had less than 9, bc this clan is isolated, they don't need many lives and they keep some additional ones only as a tradition. But at the end leader climbs out, shrieks, the clan gathers to separate the attacker and the victim, and in the morning they hold a short gathering and exile Darkpaw. Her best friend Tigerpaw is sad. She swears revenge on them and death on the leader, and runs away.

She then roams the forest for a while, searching for anyone, and ends up noticing our rp clan that came from Twolegs' town to the forest area. She joins them, finishes her training and gets the name darksnap (lol this Bill Cipher cat was her mentor btw; Imma magician✨ /j) And her bestie gets the name Tigerswipe. Fun fact - I gave them names when I didn't know english that well yet. Couldn't even write on that without google, and me from past would be prouf to see me rn typing this huge paragraph by myself yey.

So. The lore doesn't end here, then my second oc chimes in. At first I was thinking about Riddle's brother, but the guy who roleplayed for Riddle left, so I switched to the guy I called Ainer. I came up with the name myself and spelled it as Iner lol. He and Darksnap shared a lot, so they bonded later, she would become the deputy of his group and they would go on revenge sprees together. First his clan and then hers. In the battle in one of the endings she would try attacking the leader, but her former friend Tigerswipe came to fight her. And I never wrote how that ended, but I liked tragic ends. In one alt end Ainer and Darksnap died and went to the Dark Forest way before they could start revenge sprees. And would train cats for their goals later, in theory. The characters who were supposed to kill them left the roleplay, so I had to change the script and they lived. They ended up living 'till the end and were a part of one adventure involving the previously forgotten character Goldenclaw, Riddle's brother.

Yes, I do want to write books someday👌. And I enjoy torturing people with my long textx (/jjj). Thanks for reading! Buy gold, byye! (Bill reference yey)

[yuzurins]

Me omw to yap in your inbox BC GUESS WHO HAD THEIR FIRST EVER COMP ??

We came third and I played really well even though I'm sick and on period (everyone did ngl), my hate for private schoolers have risen bc I would have beat them easily if they didn't have so many members to bother us (like the fact that they had to sort to those tactics while having more coaches than our teammates in A NOVICE TOURNAMENT says a lot) they weren't even that good (their seniors were alright tho)

Buuuut on the bright side, I only lost twice and they were at 19-21 (for singles the comeback was fucking crazy I would've destroyed her if we played a full game). I got some crazy shots and my obsession with this game only grows (I'm still high on adrenaline it's nighttime help). I also lowkey destroyed one of their seniors. There was another rich school and we won every game against them :D

Thank you for reading my post game yap I'm gonna be binging badminton videos for the rest of the night

WAAAA SO PROUD OF YOU I STILL REMEMVER WHEN YOU FIRST SAID YOU WANTED TO START PLAYING NOW LOOK AT YOU!!!

19-21 IS SO CLOSE 😭😭😭 i bet they were shivering in fear as you started racking up points 😝😝💪

I HOPE YOU GET TONS of rest tho I SAW HOW MUCH PEOPLE SWEAT PLAYING BADMINTON😭😭 and if you’re sick omg…. i hope you get well soon

[biggie-chcese]

do that little purple rain code fella (i dont rememver his name sorry 😭) and uhh. marcille!!

omg i took so long to get home to be able to answer this djafd. anyway i already talked about the little purple fella here, so ill do marcille!

How I feel about this character she's not my favorite, but i still really like her! when i first read the manga, i was rolling my eyes at the fact that the only girl on the main cast was the fussy one, but then later meeting other characters and learning marcille is just Like That made her so much better. plus, i really love her story around her fear of death regarding her friends, and its connected lore with the dynamics of short lived races and long lived ones

All the people I ship romantically with this character i mean, i ship her with falin like everyone else lol. though im a multishipper at heart so ive seen some really cute fanart of her and namari, and even her and laios! im pretty casual about these things so it's like sure i can see it.

My non-romantic OTP for this character ok i know i just mentioned her and laios but i do vastly prefer it as non-romantic because i really love their canon dynamic! they both care so deeply for each other and falin and it's always fun to see them interact <3

My unpopular opinion about this character im sorry fam i do not engage with the fandom enough to know what the popular opinions are. uhhh i suppose it does kinda annoy me when she's only reduced to her ship with falin. i like the ship, but she's so much more than her devotion to falin.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon. nothing really, dunmeshi is a piece of media i adore so much that i don't see myself changing anything about it. the storytelling, visuals, and lore had me hooked and satisfied me to the very end. i deeply respect ryoko kui as a writer and wouldn't have this story written any other way <3

[sickknotdoom]

it is actually crazy to me that the anthrys dont eat meat. that itself is fine. but the fact kneeby described anthrys who eat ferrys as barbaric (or something similar? i dont rememver the exact wording to be honest) is craaazy. maybe im overreacting. but it feels real weird

anon What. When Did This Happen

[expressionless-fr]

omce again my brain breaking when I'm trying to rememver shit 😌😌😌😌 I should stop and just accept the fact that I will not rememver anything

[gaybabything]

Hi! Please don't feel bad about going over board on the TOA stuff! It sounded SO cool. I have never watched it, but you talking about it has definitely made me wanna check it out!! However, I liked what you talked about so much I stopped reading about half way through so I wouldn't get too spoiled since I will probably be watching it now (if I rememver after I finish watching it, I will come back and read the rest!!)... also the fact that pretty much every other show you have listed I love. Our taste is so similar, I'm sure I'd probably like it!

As for my own headcannons... hmmmm. None that really come to mind. You have so many cool ones but... I'm not sure I have any of my own. Though I do like most of the really popular headcannons for Rise I wouldn't call them my own, since someone else came up with them? (Such as Leo being gay/trans, Raphs lost of sight in one eye after the movie, ect)

My favorite colors are as follows: sky blue, brighter shades of green, then purple!

And finally, I like to draw turtles mostly. As for writing? I have like a billion and one ideas floating in my head at all times‐ only like .01% of them end up getting written down on paper.

Hmm for my next question... what is YOUR favorite colors? Do you like any books? (I used to be REAL into warrior cats) annnndddd any music you'd recommend? (I get nervous recommending music, so, if not that's fine, I get it ^-^)

I totally get that, I also really like the more popular headcanons that other people come up with! (Like Raph's eyesight.)

My favorite colors are dark sage green, darker purples, and queen blue (or similar shades).

My favorite childhood books were A Series of Unfortunate Events, The Unwanteds, Fablehaven, and The Magic Treehouse! My current favorite book is Hench by Natalie Zina Walschots!

For music I'm a big fan of Will Wood! My top songs are probably Marsha, thank you for the dialects but I need you to leave, Chemical Overreaction/Compound Fracture, Love Me Normally, and Hand me my shovel I'm going in! Other random songs I like are Gamma Ray by Beck, Living Dead Girl by Rob Zombie, Girl Anachronism by the Dresden Dolls, Crocodile Rock by Elton John, and Bad Moon Rising! My Playlist is kind of one giant pot of the most random songs ever.

Alright, now more for you! Do you like to bake/cook? And if so what's you're favorite thing to make? What's your favorite animal? And what's your current favorite piece of media? (Could be a show, book, video game, whatever comes to mind!)

[borathae]

I have mixed feelings bcz I feel so anxious for OC :( poor thing :(

I take my words back I don't want jimin OC to be a thing :( although I feel like he may have a redemption arc somewhere which seems so impossible rn bcz he's lowkey a lunatic with how bratty he acts 🥴 (when tae went let's have a threesome I was like no way is that brat going anywhere near my queen nuh uh)

Poor baby is feeling like her World collapsed rn 😭 I truly felt so sad when she told yoongi to not let her die.

Vmin maybe soulmates best friends but I sometimes think their friendship crosses the threshold of healthy and unhealthy a lot.

Honestly this chapter took a 180 and i loved this little development bcz I'm not sure if jimin feels guilty in even the slightest and if he will try being around her to soother her in the coming days. I know for a fact we are getting jungkook hovering over her like the sweetest laundry fairy and so mundane things with her to make her feel good.

Hoseok is probably the most normal character ever😂

I really liked the chapter I'll re read it because I'm sure I missed a lot of plot points I had to make but my feelings over jimin doing her dirty took priority 🤡 even though he did it out of panic.. Although is blood sharing or drinking from her taboo? I know Tae drank from her? If I'm not wrong yoongi did too? I don't rememver clearly? Is it the consent and intimacy trust issue?

fjadjsf listen, my thoughts are under the cut

I wanted to give OC the biggest hug :( she doesn't deserve this, especially because she always tried to be nice to Jimin like my dude you rude bitch don't hurt my queen :(

no but I feel you fajdjfs I was lowkey panicking because y'all were so into the idea of Jimin joining the poly family while I was looking at chapter ten the entire time like "hahah well uhm yeah..." ahahha

this part ripped me apart too 😭 especially because they have no idea just how important that request actually was :(

I love your analysis of SA!vmin. I 100% agree with you, they definitely dance on the border between healthy and obsessively unhealthy

I'm really excited for the next chapter!! god fucking damnit I just wanna post it now so I can talk about it with you guys afjdjsf

HOSEOK IS MY DUDE MY BRO MY BRETHREN he is solely here to vibe and be a funky lil dude. We love Hoseok. Be like Hoseok. Do no wrong. Be a vibe. Be Hoseok. 😔

Yes Taehyung drinks from her regularly. Yoongi would rather kill himself by burning himself alive before he even as much as swallows one drop from her, she is his treasure and he would never want to bloodshare with her. In general though, bloodsharing between vampires and their human mates is rather common, that's why Tae wants to do it with her. Honestly the biggest issue is definitely the fact that Jimin forced her, like my man that really wasn't okay.

[nevernotannoying]

ok yknow what, i hate ao3.

simply for the fact if i want to find a fic of my favorite character, who happens to be a b or c (or god forbid, d) list character, i have to wade and swift through literally dozens (hundreds???) of fics where they are tagged and yet not nearly the central focal point and mayyyy be have a line or two in the entire fic

fanfiction.net's filter search is superior in that way. list 4 (i rememver when it was 2!) characters max, and thats it

like, not every character who gets one line or perhaps a mention needs to be tagged in your fic, babe.

[robins-den]

Hey can you please list what you call the yttd characters. Not what you think the names are but how you remember them. (It entertains me)

oh god uhhhh okay . i mm lmk if this is what you meant because i kinda devolved into saying what i think i know about them in a short amount

sarah choudin (most unfortunate haircut those fucking BANGGGGGGS)

joe tazuna (literally ,. just some guy. gives me kazuichi vibes but if people in universe actually liked him. hes like a dog maybe?? i think he escaped the killing game through a hole in the ceiling and sarah is impatiently waiting for him to come back with help but he like. broke his leg and died in a different hole so there's no help coming)

sou,,,,, sou shin? he has a hat and a scarf and a rattail? and he has that autism stare. I remember him as the ashe bradley of yttd. also you can rename him apparently

pancake girl. i remember her by the pancakes and syrup on her head. is she in girlscrush with the furry kid or are they the same kid or is furry kid dead. she's the third or second person i think of when i think yttd

furry kid. uhhhhh anzu?? shes uh. cat paws cat mask and ? has a relationship with sou shin but its really weird and bad and emotional . but shes just furry kid to me

that guy with the huge chest the blond one that the mutuals don't agree on. hes a chef?? all i remember is his huge chest tbh he could play captain america . also a sprite with his hand behind his head and he gives the viewer a Look and its like are we on a date ???? at a bar ?? whats the vibe ??

THE SCIENTIST. uhh. big tits according to footlong. also hes dating 'the floormaster'. i dont know anything about him i rememver him as 'weird scientist dude'

the floormaster. i think he works for the guy who trapped them all there and serves up drinks and food. the bandage guy? i remember him like 'oh he looks like the murder method from that episode of case closed :)' with a fedora because he's a loser

apparently there are also these doll things. the way i remember them is that whenever my beloved besties reblog or make a post and its an untagged meta analysis of the fact that all the characters are probably clones and the dolls are proof of that i scroll away super fast

uhh theres this dark skin guy. i have literally never seen him until that singular time a few weeks ago. i don't know anything about him. does he mean that the guild owner brings fresh meat in when enough people die or do they run multiple killing games and then condense them

sarah choudins dad. he looks like papa from witchs heart and sucks like he does

uhh idk anyone else or theyre so insignificant that i think they arent real.