#but i really liked them and i wanna communicate so i think im gonna check in

[teenagefeeling]

i was talking to this dude from hinge for like a while and we only went on one date but i really wanted to be friends, we got along well and we had all sorts of silly random text conversations but then a few weeks ago they said they were kinda having some mental health issues and might not be around as much and i didn't rly think anything of it tbh. it's been like a few weeks and i've just been kinda waiting for them to respond to my last message, i figured they were gonna eventually. but then i opened tiktok & i saw that they had sent me some videos more recently and i was like oh cool lemme go look but now their account is not loading??? like it looks like they blocked me and their last message just read "👋👋👋" and im very fucking confused because that was on sunday and they haven't texted me for at least two weeks. i fully warned them i never check tiktok, that was never our main method of communication we mostly texted. im so confused, did i get blocked and ghosted or are they still gonna text me?

[emceescha]

Hihi! We just became moots nice to meet you! (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠) You can use this as a free gush pass, id just like to hear abit about your self ship(s) if youd like to talk about it (or them if you wanna talk abt multiple)! If not you ofcourse dont have to answer the ask !

hihi!! thank you!!!! im gonna ramble a bit about the way em and mi communicate w each other,, which is something ive been thinking a lot abt lately !

i think that because emil always has to be so outgoing and friendly and flirty, the way he talks to and refers to mischa is just. different. yknow outside all the "bienvenue"s and "happy to see you"s and dears and darlings and such that he throws around all day, 'smaller' affections mean more for him to give than any grand gesture.

he does a lot of stuff on stage and it doesnt really bother mischa all that much because it cant; but at the same time it means everything when at the end of the night he comes to wipe down a glass at the bar to help mi, or when he calls them by their name directly or if he doesnt then some small petname he wont call anyone else, or just rests his head atop theirs and they sit quietly for a bit -- those are things he doesn't do with anyone else, so they mean more.

similarly, just the way he words things would be different with them. he's a crowdpleaser, and he's charming and outgoing and i think he'd let himself be a little less of that around them. instead of being so sure all the time and so forward, he could let himself be a little more reserved. he's allowed to not know, to shrug his shoulders, to let someone else do the picking. he doesn't greet them with a bonsoir or guten abend, but just with something simple acknowledging them, a small smile and a schatz, or something. theyre the only one to greet him good morning, and the only one at the club that knows his name.

they honestly get a lot from each other too in just expressions alone. they learned to do it working in a loud, crowded environment and from there progressed to just making sure to check in (read: make eye contact) with each other from time to time throughout the night when they couldn't get close, and it just became natural for them to read each others emotional tells. i should write about that sometime tbh

they dont ever say i love you, but honestly they dont even really need to. yknow. theyre just able to talk to each other and understand each other in a way they cant with anyone else there or in their lives, and i love to explore that thought path. i need to do it more honestly.

[terraliensvent]

Vibez got banned from Terras for telling the mods they shouldn’t be posting art of characters who are related to BDSM (talking about smile demons, of course)

Couldn’t access the original work Tycho posted bc I’m not in the server anymore but here’s the compiled screens https://imgur.com/a/RWCH5KZ

yeah this is fucking crazy

first of all, CW for sexual/suggestive themes, BDSM, latex, smile demons, the links provided in this post show receipts of the claims made here and thus have NSFW/BDSM imagery. this is your warning.

link provided

my own imgur link with more screenshots (includes everything linked here and more so dont just rely on the images linked in the text body tyyy)

so, somewhat recently a few terra staff have been getting pretty invested with smile demons, including xil, florian, keldeosknight, and tycho (xil is apparently even on staff in smile demons!)

smile demons has a huge and sordid history, there's a PSA on them somewhere that i dont feel like digging for, as well as accusations they dont take reports of harassment seriously

as for actually verifiable stuff, smile demons have pretty sexual connotations in general, even down to the original MYO art featuring leather gear and several smile demons having leather and BDSM features (in imgur gallery), as well as one of the species fucking mascots having some pretty big sexual themes!

so this is all fine and dandy until tonight, when xil posts an emoji of their smile demon that has BDSM themes and Tycho shortly after posts a drawing of that smile demon. notably, a minor originally replied to xil's emoticon knowing the character by name

public enemy #1 vibez takes issue with this and DMs Tycho, taking issue with the fact that smile demons are allowed to be freely posted yet reference images are deemed too unsavory

this leads to a back and forth where tycho sends vibez to talk to xil directly about it, and xil tries to argue that leather fetish gear totally isnt sexual guys and smile demons are perfectly fine to talk/post about in terra server despite all the fetish shit heavily associated with it (seriously, check the imgur and look at this whole argument its completely idiotic)

something i find especially funny to note, xil says in the back and forth that they "dont use the masked version" and "dont use it anywhere, its just on her th," however, they have linked the character's toyhouse profile in the lounge (with a minor even replying to them in this screenshot!) and within this toyhouse profile, NONE OF THE IMAGES ARE MATURE LOCKED

another fun side note is that florian (at age 17) commissioned another minor (age 16) to draw the BDSM demon, including the masked version as a reference. im not gonna paint this like a grooming thing because thats incredibly stupid, but i will say that this just really goes to show how unsafe this species is for minors that theyre able to participate with a species and own characters that heavily feature these themes.

so after vibez' chat with xil, tycho says that actually vibez was harrassing xil and boom. thats the straw that broke the camel's back and allowed them to swiftly smack them with a ban. feel however you wanna feel about vibez, but i think its a bit crazy for them to get banned for rightfully pointing out that smile demons shouldnt be posted in terras. even vibez admits they were pretty aggro about things lately

and i think thats where the story ends for now, moral of it all is stay the fuck away from smile demons and that terra staff continue to be incredibly irresponsible with their community, especially around minors.

[aropride]

listened to a podcast from tumblr ceo matt mullenweg abt his plans for tumblr and such and wrote down some quotes i found Interesting . (some are not word for word bc auditory processing + memory etc but i tried to stick to what he said as much as i could)

(on being ceo of a social network) "it is as hard as being the leader of a country"

"it needs to do a good job at showing you things you want to see- so both the people you follow but maybe also exposing you to new things you don't know about yet"

"people want their own home on the web, they want it to be something reflects them, not the needs of an advertiser"

"how do we make this amazing and really give the tumblr community what they deserve, and also give the world an alternative from these closed-proprietary advertisement-driven social networks?"

"you can have custom themes, you can customize it every little bit .. what we wanna do is making it be the best of both worlds, giving you the full customization that u currently have on tumblr, that u also have on wordpress, but still provide a streamlined interface, particularly on mobile ... you kind of move in and out of that full customization"

"that's ultimately what we're about, is giving power in the hands of users"

"what people really want isnt what they say they want ... its kind of like expressed preferences vs stated preferences ... thats probably why [other social medias] dont give u total control over ur algorithm"

"i want to have a path where you can start with, call it 'just' a tumblr ... but if you want to turn that into an e-commerce store, or customize it in a different way, or build a newsletter, or a mailing list, or create a membership site- these are all things that are supported by wordpress today"

"tumblr's userbase are primarily young .. more women than men which isnt common in technology .. its a very safe place and vibrant community for lgbt+, i think its over a quarter of the userbase.. kind of a place for art and artists"

"how do we make that a path to the wordpress open source community ... excited about ..bringing a younger demographic into wordpress"

"[the amount of new users from twitter/reddit are] less than you would think in the long term"

(to reddit/twt migrants) "give us feedback! what do you miss from the old thing when you move over?"

"i'd definitely like it to be as big as twitter or instagram"

"for tumblr for example i think [AI] could make our developers a lot more productive, their coding could be checked/tested by ai, .. that'll allow us to do a lot more .. maybe our pace of development could increase."

"ai can be a huge help in assisting on moderation, if it could help flag things before people even report them, that someone could look at and review."

"the algorithm [for the feed/dashboard] is a form of ai- its really machine learning, people use the terms interchangeably- if we could make the feed a lot better, we could tweak it and really learn the things u want to see and the people u want to follow"

"it could provide some really cool tools, when u think of the generative ai stuff, whether its dall-e or midjourney. so much of what people do on tumblr is expressing art and creativity, and theres some people who are resistant to this, but im actually hearing far more artists that are like 'wow! this is another tool in my toolbox!' its not just like using it instead of doing ur work, it's helping with the first draft, or helping u come up with new ideas, or maybe accelerating part of a workflow. so i see it like a new type of paintbrush, or new colors they can use. they see it as a new way to express their creativity. to me that's also the future. .. just like any other tool, like when we moved from typewriters to word processors."

(asked if generative AI worries him) "bad actors using ai to do more bad things .. that's definitely smth that's gonna happen, that's true with any new technology. if u rob a bank before, u used to have to get away on a horse, now you can get away on a car [laugh]. so like, think of it like that. we don't say "oh, banks are gonna be robbed so much more cuz now people can drive away faster". the good guys have cars too, so the police have cars .. it becomes something that is part of society .. there's more good people than bad people"

[speckle-meow-meow]

Ok so, i love how you write and i wanted to request a thingy for Howdy!! (If ya interested ofc, also am non native eng speaker so um sorry in advance for bad communicating)

How about human Reader jolting awake in the middle of the night, waking up Howdy too, as they panic and say "oh my god oh my god i think we have bed bugs and they are eating me!!!!" They are covered in bites and now explaining how there are several bug species that find readers blood to be delicious? Im assuming that Home usually only has non aggressive species of bugs in it, and its not like anyone has blood there for them to appear ether

Fun fact about speckle!!! (Idgaf if you don't wanna hear it *^*) I have never been bitten by a bed bug! So whoop whoop!!!

Your honesty right about the non lethal bugs in the neighborhood

The obvious bugs that inhabit that area are: butterflies (for obvious reasons), caterpillars, ants (the non harmful ones), spiders (but the goofy cartoony ones), and bees!

It's mostly the basic bugs people know about

Anyways

Ever since you came into the neighborhood you have been bringing in new things that home never had to deal with

It was a quiet night not a single puppet -or human- was stirring the frogs were- "OH MY GODS OH MY GODS OH MY GODSSSSS!!!!!!"

And never mind....

"THEY'RE BITING MEEEE THEY'RE BITING MEEEEE."

"What's biting you sugar cube?!?!" Your husband howdy shouted in alarm.

"BED BUGSSS!!!" You exclaimed while trying to scrape them off you.

Howdy was rightfully concerned so he headed to the bed and checked it.

All around where you slept were hundreds if not less of those pesky bed bugs you were talking about.

He was incredibly confused but decided to do a deep clean of his whole bed and covers so you both could go back to sleep.

After that little fiasco he went to Frank to see what could be done

But Frank didn't know to much so you told him of what you could remember

"Darling I think we have to vacuum them, or what's left of them. So we're gonna have to do a deep clean." You said while scratching your arms

"ohhh no no no not you sugar cube your gonna stay in the living room while I do the deep cleaning!" He stated while picking you up and dropping you on the couch.

You decided not to argue so you went and took a shower washing and disinfecting all of the bites.

After said shower you applied creams (that were some how available) onto all your bites

Later on howdy emerged from the room putting away all of the cleaning products he had used

"Go take a shower darling! It's best to clean your self off just incase" you said looking up from your book.

After a while the bed bugs haven't come back which was a good sign

After that experience after every week on Sundays you wash all your bed sheets, pillows, pillow covers!, and you check the mattress just in case!

{HI HI ANON!!! I really hope you liked this! I wrote this while taking a break from Minecraft... But as always hearts and reblogs are always welcomed along with questions, comments, and requests!!! }

[spacewolfthemovie]

Space Wolf The Movie Script

Chapter 3

(scene switches back to the others all in their lil space ships, the space ships are huddled in a circle in space. Btw. As each person talks it switches to the inside of their ship)

Chef: So, you’re trying to tell me that he traded Moustache off to Purpol 2.0!?

Number Five: where would we find him!?

Emo Furry: Well, I don’t KNOW that part. And since Purpol 2.0 ran away and… him and his family are trying to kill each other it makes things hard

Rat boy: Of course, you don’t

Chef: Probably better anyway, at least we don’t have to deal with Evil Guy

Number Five: I’d probably prefer him; his son needs some REAL help. LIKE A LOT of serious help

Emo Furry: Anyway, I perhaps… possibly know where he could be… the scams sales guy the stealer was purple and was consistently talking about how he was gonna get some new kind of stupid shampoo. Which was odd to say the least

Number Five: Purple 2.0?

Rat boy: I mean maybe he just wants to make sure his hair is shimmering. WAIT! Don’t call me cray-cray but I think the reason he bought Moustache was because his moustache is SO extravagant he’s trying to find out what shampoo he uses. That or…

Chef: WHAT IF PURPOL 2.0 STEALS HIS MOUSTACHE TO USE IT IN A SPELL TO MAKE HIS HAIR EVEN MORE LUXURIOUS THAN IT ALREADY IS!

Number Five: Oh my god, I have never been so proud in my life, this is revolutionary

Rat boy: that’s some pretty epic detective shit right there. NOW where is he anyway and where can we find a hair salon of all places.

Emo Furry: Good question. Maybe we can ask Space wolf

Rat boy: We’ve been over this! He’s not going to emotionally connect with you so you two can communicate, I know it sucks

Emo Furry: I meant like he can point his nose or something, OBVIOUSLY

Number Five: How is a Space wolf supposed to know where to find a hair salon again?

Chef: HEY! That’s wolfs fur is amazing. But also, good point.

Emo Furry: OKAY OKAY! We just have to find someone with extraordinary hair and then ask them what salon they go to. Can’t be that hard.

(INSERT TOTALLY COOL EPIC RAD MONTAGE OF THEM ALL IN THEIR COLOUR COORDINATED SHIPS FLYING AROUND AND THEN LANDING ON PLANETS TO SEARCH FOR SOMEONE WITH LUCIOUS LOCKS) Rat Boy: This is useless! No one here has hair amazing enough to even COMPARE

Number Five: Yeah, and I’m getting tired of searching so much, my eyes are in pain

Emo Furry: We just have to keep looking, we knew this would take a lot of hard work.

Chef: Are we sure someone with luscious enough hair even exists!? What if it was all a lie

(Space wolf barks at them and points their head towards a dark alleyway)

Emo Furry: Guys, I think Space wolf wants us to follow it into that deadly alleyway

(He goes to follow it but then stops and rolls his eyes as he hears a voice)

Rat boy: You SERIOUSLY need to stop trying to emotionally connect with that wolf! I swear you need help, LIKE MORE THAN THE REST OF US

(Chef and Number Five worriedly nod in agreement)

Emo Furry: AGAIN, Im not speaking with it, ITS JUST POINTING ITS NOSE INTO AN ALLEYWAY! Obviously, I trust it, Space wolf is like my closest companion

Number Five: and what makes you think a Space wolf knows where a HAIR SALON IS?

Chef: Yeah, that’s kind of a stretch. Maybe it just wants to play. I think you should spend more time playing with your dog then bonding by going on dangerous missions with it

Emo Furry: Fine, Space wolf and I will just teleport there then

Rat boy: WAIT!Im gonna prove that this is stupid and I wanna see the look on your face when your wrong about this so much mhahaha

Chef: Do we have to be going in there now?

Number Five: I agree with Chef, I get that Space wolf is amazing but can we really trust this. it might be a waste of time

Emo Furry: Well, Rat Boy and I can teleport in, check it out and you two can go scope out some other areas. We’ll cover more ground.

Rat boy: KEEP YOUR WALKY TALKIES ON GUYS! We can’t be losing more people on my watch, because im just so cool

(Rat boy like smiles and waves excitedly as he says that btw. Space wolf excitedly runs around Emo Furry and Rat boy and then they all teleport away)

Number Five: Do you wanna go get a snack instead of looking out for that space salon?

Chef: I was gonna do that anyway if I’m being honest

Number Five: Oh, thank god because I am so done with this

Chef: Yeah, they’ll work it out

[samaraxmorgan]

Hello it is me, the Yap Anon but in my true form, before I yapped again I drew some eyes and i wanted to share them because I think the colors are cool.

NOW TIME TO YAP, OK SO I KNOW I KEEP GIVING YOU LIKE SUGGESTIVE-ISH IDEAS SO YOU GET AN ANGSTY ONE, SO WHAT IF HEAR ME OUT HERE, WE COME HOME FROM A LONG DAY AT WORK TO FIND SUKUNA OPENING THE DOOR AND WE LOOK AT EACH OTHER BEFORE SUKUNA SAYS 'Where the hell have you been?!' WHICH SHOCKS US BEFORE WE REPLY SOMETHING ALONG THE LINES OF 'Work' AND SUKUNA MUMBLES SOMETHING UNDER HIS BREATH ABOUT OUR JOB WORKING US TO DEATH AND HE TAKES OUR HAND (How scandalous) AND BRINGS US INSIDE SETTING US ON THE COUCH BEFORE SCOLDING US FOR NOT TEXTING HIM WHERE WE WERE AND WE RESPOND WITH SOMETHING LIKE 'Why would you care' OR 'it's not like you'd notice or care' WHICH MAKES SUKUNA MAD SO HE GRABS OUR FACE AND MAKES US LOOK INTO HIS EYES WHILE HE SAYS 'I do care, no matter how much it seems I don't I care, please, don't worry me like that again' AND WE'RE JUST SPEECHLESS BECAUSE WTF SUKUNA CARES ABOUT US AND WE GAWK AT HIM BEFORE COMPOSING OURSELVES AND HUG, PLUS SNUGGLING AS A TREAT BECAUSE :3

IM SORRY I KNOW THIS IS STRUNG TOGETHER HORRIBLLY BUT I THINK IT'S SUCH A FUN IDEA FOR SOME SILLY ANGST, I'M SORRY IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT.

REMEMBER HAVE AN AMAZING DAY/NIGHT :DDDD

HELLO BABE GOOD TO SEE U AGAINNNNN!!! True form I LOVE THAT FOR YOUUUU <3 and I loveeeee the drawings they look SO COOL!! The colors are so nice I love it!!

AAAAAA HIM BEING SO LOWKEY POSSESSIVEEEEE!!!!! SOOOO I have a very similar thing coming in a part soon!!!! We’re out in the city with him and we lose our phone and he spends HOURS trying to find us hehehehe :) he’s so MAD when he finally tracks us down but it’s just because he was worried fucking sickkkkkk

Ugh the idea of him shit talking our job I love it askalakk <3 I used to work at a place that treated me like SHIT and I knowwww he would fucking storm in there and curse my old boss out!!! King!!! And also I bet he HATES us having to stay late and work overtime because he’s always secretly staying up waiting for us to get home, both bc he wants to spend more time with us but also because he wants to make sure we’re safe!! I bet after something like this he would ~casually~ suggest downloading Life 360 ASKAKKAKS

God I know he was pacing around the apartment constantly checking the time watching as we were supposed to be home at one time but then an hour goes by, and another, and ANOTHER and he’s losing his MIND thinking something happened to us. I’m not gonna get too into it bc I don’t wanna spoil BUT I have his backstory planned out and let’s just say… he’s not exactly accustomed to regular every day jobs and he’s also VERY afraid of losing the people he cares about. So the first time we stay late at work he’s in a full PANIC

He doesn’t mean to lash out, but he tends to show fear through anger. We think he’s being over dramatic, unreasonable, but he’s got past trauma that we’re not aware of; and believe me he IS relieved that we’re okay, but his emotions are running HIGH and he’s having a hard time keeping them contained.

And when we ask him why he would care he’s stunned into silence. His mind is running, because how could we POSSIBLY think he doesn’t care? How bad has he been with showing us how important we are to him? Do we really think he doesn’t value us? He’s always been a firm believer that actions speak louder than words, but for once he realizes that he’s gonna need to communicate verbally, as much as it kills him to do so.

He’s not exactly graceful with his words, but we can tell that he’s TRYING. His hands cupping our cheeks to keep our gaze locked on his and the look in his eyes is so serious, so genuine. He DOES worry about us, he DOES care for us, and he tries so hard to hide it because he hates being vulnerable, but for us it’s worth it <3 We give him a hug and he squeezes us a little too tight that it hurts, he waits a little too long to let go, his fingers linger a little too much on our skin, and the look he gives us is a little too close to lovestruck, but how could we be sure?

And I got a LITTLE TOO carried away ASSKAKAK ANYWAYYYY!!!! If u couldn’t tell I LOVED this idea hehe

I hope you have a wonderful day :) !!!!

[hansirilow]

alright. so this is weird. 

i logged into this account while i was looking for a bootleg post i had saved years ago. first time i've logged in here in like.... five years? i saw the names of a lot of friends i had on here. i saw some inbox messages too, i dunno how old they are. i saw some old posts and messages and just reminisced/spiraled a little bit. i used this blog religiously from when i was 14 to like 18ish. i went thru a lot on here. i had community on here when i was at my loneliest. i was volatile and so scared and trans and queer and i guess in some ways, nothing has changed. im 25 now, gonna be 26 in a couple weeks. i figured i could make a little post to update y'all. i dunno if anyone will read this. but i've been thinking a lot about my friends i made here lately.

i turn 26 in a little over a month. i'm still jasper, havent transitioned yet, but i might be the gayest i've ever been. my coming out process has been Awful to say the least. but my 9 year anniversary with my partner jer is coming up. i'm spending my 26th birthday with jer in salem, mass, my favorite city in the world. 

i have an associates degree in theatre and a bachelors degree in english with a creative writing concentration. not doing anything in those fields yet but i'm figuring things out. it hasn't been exactly easy. 

i'm figuring my life out i guess! i went thru a very traumatic falling out with a group of friends that abused me during the pandemic. i lost a lot of my college life to a horrible group of people, it's a whole thing i'm not gonna get into right now. in some ways i'm still recovering from that. in some ways i'm better than i've ever been. 

i'm like high key a furry now tbh. i have a fursona named salem who kinda saved my life i guess. he is everything to me. 

no shock here but i still love fall out boy with every part of my heart, maybe even more than i did when i was a kid. i got my first tattoo and it's a fall out boy one. i also got into a lot of other alternative bands! i adore ghost a lot, i'm seeing them in july. i also love sleep token, spiritbox, bad omens, linkin park, and poppy. music has gotten me thru the worst of the shit i've been thru. 

and despite everything, i still love musicals and andy and spring awakening and everything. i actually logged in looking for a wicked bootleg in the wake of the movie coming out. i saw andy as jonathan in tick tick boom in cape cod a couple months ago! front row in this old little local theatre, what a magical night it was. i'm planning on getting andy's handwriting tattooed on me still, and i want some other musical related tattoos eventually (i'll probably be covered in a couple years: gender affirming care). 

also i really love spiderman now but no one's shocked by that either, that's just transmasc rite of passage i think. 

i guess i'm still the same in a lot of ways. that weirdo little gay boy that felt too much and definitely shared too much. i am so sorry for being way too TMI when i was younger. i was way too young and unsupervised and lonely as hell. i'm happy to say i'm a bit older and a little less lonely and a little more reserved in what i share online now lmfao 

that being said, i do art and stuff still! i post my art on instagram (sometimes) at @/witchcityspider and on bluesky @/kingofpentacles if anyone wants to find me there. or if you want my discord or my personal instagram you can let me know. i made another blog at one point that i use here and there: @shadowacademy 

i've thought about reaching out to people i used to talk to here but i didn't wanna freak anyone out, so i'm doing this instead. 

i'll keep this blog up, check it here and there. in some ways i miss it. i miss the community i guess, having a place i belonged. i've gone through a lot and lost a lot of friends over the past couple years. i mean, hell, i went through a lot on here. it was a huge part of my life, somedays my little sect on here was all i had. and i hope that, even my friends that have deactivated or aren't active, i hope you all are well and happier than we were in 2015. almost a decade ago. 

i guess i just wanna hug my little 15 year old self and i wish i could warn him about what has happened to us since, but i can't. but we made it out. despite everything, it's still me. 

anyways. i'm around if you're looking to find me. i'm off trying to be cryptic and mysterious but just coming off as a certified yapper elsewhere. i don't wanna be weird and interrupt people that don't wanna see me again, but i do miss so many people from here. i wonder if they ever remember this or think of me and wonder where i've been. maybe it's selfish or maybe it's just human, i'm not sure. 

but i'm here. figuring my shit out, but i'm here. 

i love all of your lights. you are fabulous creatures, each and every one.

jasper morningstar 

or hanschen rilow 

whichever you prefer 

x 

[jovenshires]

💛Smoshblr December Asks Final Day💙

We‘ve done it! We’ve finally reached the end of this lil ask game and also the end of 2023! 🥳 Thank you so much for joining in on this, I truly appreciate it so much 🫶! I wish you a wonderful start into the new year and that all your hopes and dreams for 2024 will come true! ✨💞

But, since the year isn’t quite over yet, I thought this might be a nice time to reminisce a little bit. Therefore, the final question of the Smoshblr December Asks Game:

What are your favourite smosh-related memories of 2023? 💖

(no specific amount required for this one; and you can ofc also include older smosh memories, if you want to 🤗)

oh my god........ im emotional fr. this was so, so, SO much fun and stella, i will speak for EVERYONE you sent these asks to when i say that we are all so grateful to YOU for organizing it. you brought the community together in such an amazing way, asking us thought-provoking and interesting questions, a lot of which i never would have thought to ask. and yet i got to learn all my mutuals' answers anyway!!! it made me feel like i really got to know everyone, even the people im too scared to start a convo with bc i am a Coward. i love you, we all adore you, thank you SO much, and i cant wait to see where smoshblr goes in the new year now that we are all closer than ever <3<3<3<3<3

okay so...... okay okay okay okay HERE we go. im gonna put it under the cut bc this got SO long but if you want a tl;dr summary, please by all means go check out this video i made at the beginning of the month bc. it sums it up tbh.

making all of my amazing friends: i am literally. an emotional wreck just thinking ab this. anyway. i've already been sappy enough this year (from my christmas presents to my many many personal posts and asks that are just. me talking about how much i love these people), but i would still be remiss if i didn't mention my beautiful, wonderful friends. im not gonna tag them all here - it'd be too many and you all know who you are <3<3<3 - but to everyone i've dmed for hours on end, or talked to in replies, or mutuals i've never even spoken to at all, or anons who come into my askbox and just have the most wonderful interactions with me, i am so, so eternally grateful. i made new friends; i reconnected with one of my best friends in the WHOLE world; i met some people who i never would have spoken to otherwise and found such an incredible community. i love you all so so SO much (yes ALL of you even if you think im not talking ab you if you're reading this i AM), and i am so excited to see what happens with all of us next. love you all. mwah. <3

domo day/my birthday: oh my god. OHHHH my god. literally the fic that brought me back to this fandom. i am not crying its fine im FINE. domo - aka dancing on my own - was a passion project from the very start. i thought, 'well, no one will wanna read this niche lil fic that im writing just to deal with My very personal trauma about an rpf ship that no one cares about.' (mind you i started it before i even posted right side, so, like, i literally thought it was just me standing on a deserted island.) and then five or six months later... there we were. i posted it on my birthday (bc i Live for drama !) and god. the amount of love and support i got that day was... everything to me. when i said this was a passion project, i mean that it was truly one of the first things i sat down and wrote For Myself, without giving a fuck what anyone else would think. it was something i poured my heart and soul into because i needed to read it. and when other people started to reach out - telling me how much they related, how much they got from it, how much it meant to them. then there was the analyses of it from everyone,,,, not to mention the birthday love. my birthday is a HUGE thing for me, and, as i told you at the time, you were the very first person to wish me a happy birthday stella (with that incredible moodboard that i think of frequently........ the rat.........). and then kit went and published bad idea and gifted it to ME which was such an incredible and treasured gesture and... truly some of my irls forgot to wish me a happy birthday so. im just so honored and i love you all so much. thank you for loving me and my dearest darling daughter domo <333333

shaynse day: this literally isn't even about me, it's honestly about nat, but this changed my brain chemistry and i think everybody's tbh. it was the way that the MOMENT the love is blind video dropped, we all gathered around my blog to hold hands, sing kumbaya, and all hail the shaynse anon (aka now shaynse founder nat). they had their third eye OPEN. and everyone had to come check on them to make sure they were okay. that meant so much to me. not only did it mean that enough people were reading my blog that an anon had their own niche subset of a fan base, but it was truly like. one of the best displays of fandom togetherness i've ever seen. we were all so united that day. god bless november 19th, aka shaynse day, my FAVORITE national holiday.

gedits: i really Dont think i have to explain this one. this is one of my favorite bits (but also its not really a bit and i genuinely wanna fuck that old man). making thirst traps for garrett? oh my god. stroke of actual genius. once again another day we all came together, held hands, and decided we were ALL gonna be garrett fuckers. long live gedits. they will never stop and im NOT sorry about it.

the bsf fan art: i have literally never had fan art made for my fic before...... i screamed and cried and threw up when someone made fan art for the bed-sharing fic. furry-jackson is my hero and this fan art lives in my mind RENT FUCKING FREE. it truly imprinted itself on my brain and i think about it all the time. thanks so much to them for loving i could be the reason as much as i do <3333

the top ten dynamics poll: !!!!! my baby!!!! i truly thank you all so much for indulging me by voting in that silly lil poll. it was so SO interesting to see the way the dynamics stacked up. not to mention, it also got me into gif-making again!! that was the first time i'd made gifs in ages, especially gifs i was proud of. but i love that silly lil gif series so much, one of my favorite projects of the year, so thank you all <3

smoshblr december asks: i mean. i said it all up top, but it's worth mentioning again. this was so, so, SO much fun, and it must have been such hard work for you, and i am honored that you did all this work for US of all people when you are so busy and talented and working so hard just in like. YOUR LIFE. honestly, this whole section could just be called 'stella,' bc i am so, so grateful for you especially coming into my life this year. whether we're working together on fic or just chatting about our lives or shouting back and forth about why EVERY taylor swift song is in fact a spommy song, i am just so lucky to have you and i love you so, so much. you always tolerate my shenanigans and i am SO incredibly lucky to have you as a friend. anyway. yeah i love you and smoshblr december asks so there.

[antiradqueer]

i love this blog so much. i was groomed by specifically paraphile communities (anti-c and pro-c! would you look at that.) and because of that i was in the radqueer community for a bit. because i was like oh!! these people are pro-para aswell!! until i realized… most para communities and ‘pro-para’ communities are just harmful because they try to normalize the actions and thoughts instead of trying to help you heal from them. i was like 12 when it started and got out when i was 14. it went on for two whole years. i think it’s crazy. i was in a gc full of paras and was the youngest one there. (i joined it when i was 14 i think? but i knew the owner of it from the time i was 13.) everyone else was like 16-30+ and i think that’s INSANE. sfw or not how are you gonna put a minor (multiple minors. sometimes people younger than me joined.) into a gc full of adults, let them talk abt their paraphilias, have the ADULTS talk about theirs. and be like “we aren’t groomers!! we help and support!!” like yeah. sure. okay. the first thing i got asked when i joined the gc? “what are your paraphilias?” FROM A WHOLE ASS ADULT MAN. also mind you none of these people were quiet about their paraphilias. they claimed to be anti contact yet half of them would say weird shit about whatever they were attracted to. last time i checked you can’t be anti contact if you sexualize or say weird things about the things you’re attracted to if they can’t consent. and like. don’t get me wrong. i’m still a paraphile, i’ve got multiple that’d be harmful if i acted on them. but the thing is the thoughts don’t distress me anymore, because i’ve learnt how to cope with them in healthy ways and i’m not normalizing them to myself like the communities tried to get me to. but i’m not open about them, i don’t go around being like “IM A PARA!!!! I LIKE (THING)!! IF YOU DONT ACCEPT ME YOURE ABLEIST!!” so.. idk. para communities are just.. weird. esp radqueer communities since they normalize it way more. i think if you really wanna recover from something you can’t join a group of people who make it seem like acting on it is okay. anyways sorry for the long ass rant in your inbox. LMAO. i’m just happy this blog exists because it really helps me know that what i went through was real and i’m not just convincing myself i was groomed so i don’t view myself as a bad person. thank you for existing 🫶

what you went through sounds absolutely horrible, and I hope you can safely heal from that!

I also don't want to claim that what you say is wrong at all (the part about most/many para communities being weird as fuck), but I do want to mention again that this blog is pro-para (and strictly anti-c for harmful ones of course). just a reminder ^^ (/gentle)

I totally agree, in order to heal from harmful and disordered paraphilias, surrounding yourself with pro-c, neutral-c or whatever people is extremely contraproductive and dangerous - and the server you were in sounds a lot like being secretly pro-c, maybe even intended as a pipeline towards being pro-c. glad you got out!

[nerves-nebula]

k im gonna be in my feelings about my race again so here we go

i sometimes worry that the way my mom raised me has made me permanently cut off from other black people, because she never seriously called us black. she was racist about a lot of stuff but she specifically insisted that if we wrote our race down on a form we would check both black and white, or just "other", or black, white, AND other.

i've talked about this before but i never referred to myself as black until i was about 15, maybe 16, so for the majority of my life i wasn't black i was just "mixed" and black americans were a group of people neither my mom nor my dad wanted me to be.

i still remember sitting in the gym and hearing some guy trying to tell his friend where he'd put his backpack or something, and he'd said it was next to "the black girl with long hair" and his friend stopped by ME and looked back for confirmation, before his friend told him he meant the other one further down. and idk how to explain this feeling.

cuz like, i was homeschooled, so i didnt even have the chance for other people to call me black. i only met the people my mom wanted me to meet until high school. ironically, it felt kind of like passing, which is absurd for two reasons:

the history of the word "passing" originates from (i believe, though i might be remembering wrong) black people who could "pass" as white deciding to do that and disengage from identifying as black. so the fact that i'm referring to it but like positively and in reference to how it feels as a trans person to get gendered correctly is kind of funny.

i am literally black. im not even so light skin/white featured that i could be mistaken for white i am LITERALLY VISIBLY A BLACK PERSON my dad is from NIGERIA

and yet!! i was relieved that someone else called me one unprompted because i was and still am sort of afraid that everyone else can tell i am Not Like Them. that i was raised to think i'm not like them. that i'm not Really Black, that I'm new at this cuz i only started calling myself black a few years ago. i know that my experiences are black american experiences because i'm a black american but i just. i worry that the opportunity to be a part of a black community will never happen!!!

but then i see my siblings. my younger brother is fully culturally a black american. he did a lot of sports growing up so he picked up a lot of black american subculture from the other kids there, and my oldest sister is getting more in touch with black communities too. they're like an activist and do politics and shit. i'm not sure what it is i need to do but i can see that it's possible i just need to fuckin!! talk to more black people!! go to black events!! but i can't because i'm an agoraphobic freak that doesn't go anywhere i don't HAVE to go!! and i feel like i don't belong with black people because i've had it drilled into me by my mom that i'm not one of them and i'm not black enough and it's laughable to call myself black.

but im not even sure if i can vent to black people about this cuz it sounds like i'm whining about having to be black or something that isnt a real problem but it really fucks with me sometimes it's like fucking race dysphoria or something (can't think of a better word for it sorry)

anyway the point is i'm fine i'll figure it out. i just need to keep trying. i try to find black people online and become painfully aware of the fact that i don't know how to find them and just have to keep searching shit like #black queer or #black artist until i find some ppl i wanna follow.

special circle in hell for ppl who give their kids racial complexes.

[lunarifie]

Hi can we remember that characters are Multi-faceted

Rant based on the atsv fandom. I promise I’m not seething. This is very dramatized and my mood will change the next day. Don’t take this seriously.

Edit: I was right, its been 5 minutes and the agony is over. I have found fun funny people.

(VERY minor spoilers. More under cut)

- I am soooo disappointed in the early fandom of spider-verse right now. Maybe its because Ive been hanging around Tiktok when I really shouldnt, because its MOSTLY them with the bad takes but WHY are they SO bad.

- Im just going to start with the controversy with Gwen. Because thats happening for some reason.

- All over tiktok people are treating her as irredeemable and undeserving of Miles, as if she hadn’t gone out of her way to see him even though she wasnt allowed to. Even though the writers gave her a conflict with her father that was supposed to pull the audiences heart strings.

- Its as if people can’t see characters as anything more than one-dimensional. I appreciated every character in spider-verse because they were all so multi-faceted with their own flaws, positives, and motives.

- It just irks me to see people put down Gwen simply because she was slightly stand-offish with Miles. She had so much going on and it made SENSE for her to not want to risk everything she was given. The gift of traveling dimensions, of being safe from her father and to make friends that understand.

- Branching from Gwen, MIGUEL. I love him, he’s great, his backstory is so unique and explains his motive and character perfectly. Again, he’s multi-faceted, and I appreciate that SO much.

- But why is every fanart on tiktok I see JUST him and how hot he is. I understand, hes hot, and thats fine! Its also great because it gives fans something to talk about other than spoilers. But its the ONLY thing I see. Gwen was practically the second main character other than Miles in this movie. We were introduced to her conflict and then her resolution.

- Why not talk about Peter B. and how he must be feeling with Miles in danger?

- Why is Miguels hotness talked and drawn more than that, more than the PLOT. On tiktok AND tumblr. And I can bet that if I check instagram it’d be the same.

- Secondly, the love triangle. I think I can speak for everyone when I say that there was relief at how there was no true love triangle. The spiderverse characters did so well in making romance a component but not the main focus. So why are some fans trying to FORCE a love triangle?

- Examples are: People hating on Gwen, saying she was playing with Mile’s heart by fooling around with Hobie.

- People saying Miles had 100 times more chemistry with Morgo/spider-byte than he ever did with Gwen.

- I love ships, im very big on the fact that people can ship whoever they like as long as its not incest or pedophilia. Im not even the biggest Miles x Gwen shipper. But putting down ANOTHER ship just doesnt sit right with me, especially since its false? The writers are amazing, and they DID amazing at giving Miles and Gwen cute subtle chemistry. All these ship wars just seem like another play at hating Gwen.

- Spiderverse is amazing, and I love that the first movie was a great hit. But it was praised for its story-telling, art, and worldbuilding. The second movie just, isn’t, and I wish it was. Of course, with show and movie fandoms expanding, theres gonna be toxicity introduced. Like this one person who was revulsed by the idea of Gwen being trans, even with her trans pin on her backpack, her protect trans kid flag, and her signature colors.

- Its expected, I just wish it wasn’t.

- Maybe im just on the wrong side of social media, maybe I should wait until I can wedge my way into a spider-verse sub-community fandom I wanna see. Or maybe I just have to wait until this all blows over and then the fandom will revert to character and plot loving. Who knows.

- Im usually not the type of person to be hung over something like this, and I truly don’t think this beginning view of the movie will stick. I promise I don’t hate when people have fun in fandoms.

- Thoughts just needed to be put down and perhaps heard. Soooo if you read all of this, congrats! You have been hit with my very temporary negativity. Don’t let it drag you down! Enjoy the good parts of the fandom as I try to wiggle into those sections!

[21stcenturyschizoidfag]

was thinking about how i had my obsession with rapture theology earlier this year and was going crazy over how right wing am.erican religious fundamentalists support isr.ael because its beneficial to them and noone around me had the relevant knowledge to follow what i was saying because. we live in focking england. so i would just be sitting there explaining how these people are vjolently antisemitic and itd be like well how can they be jf they support isr.ael? and id be like no its the state of isr.ael the state of isr.ael is not the same thing as judaism/jewishness as an ethnicity and religion. and i remember one of my friends just thought all jewish people come from isr.ael and its one of the moments i remember feeling most checked out of everything and just like. very aware im living in a different plane of reality than some people AND IM NOT EVEN ETHNICALLY JEWISH OR CONVERTED YETTTTT. Im just a mentally ill person with a huge fixation on religion and eschatology because of specific beliefs i have. like when you believe yourself to exist solely in order to stop some kind of doomsday event of course youre gonna wanna learn about them. and bless my friends i remember one of them being very open to me talking specifically about the stuff id learned about american right wing evangelicals and isr.ael and everything and i finally felt like id gotten somewhere in both getting My thoughts and feelings together and also communicating it to someone else. and then we ended up where we are right now and ive had several people send me messages like did you know it was this bad in gaza?? and it's like. YOU DIDN'T? 😟 and then the cycle of me feeling nuts starts all over again. But yeah what i intended to say with all of this is that it makes me feel so hopeful now more than it ever has that people i never thought i could talk to about this back when it was purely related to a fixation of mine, are now fully pro palestine and seem to know their facts too like. once people hear it really does work and the message really does get through to them. and im really glad about that

[lolipoptheclown]

Art requests closed, I'll still do the ones that have already been sent in though. It'll just take me a bit to get to them.

Intro post! This will probably update often :)

＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ About Me ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊

Age - 16

Sexuality - Asexual, bi, demiromantic, i THINK

Gender - idfk

Pronouns - He/she

Interests - Spooky Month, Regretevator, The Mandela Catalogue, Bugbo, Five Nights at Freddy's, Don't hug me im scared, Killer Klowns from Outer Space, Gravity Falls, Terrifier, Roblox BEAR+Pressure (and just roblox itself), hfjone, Faith: The Unholy Trinity, Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street, Nerdy Prudes Must Die, Insane Clown Posse, Moon Walker (the band), My Chemical Romance, Will Wood, and a few other things. Plus I really like clowns, they are the best. And ratmeat, the ship. Bob and Dexter take over my thoughts they are almost all I think about.

Aaron, Bob Velseb, and Mort Vivifico are my wives fr. I would say Sweeney Todd is too but uhhh if you know Sweeney Todd lore you will understand why I don't say that. The Unknown from DBD is an honorable mention.

I also play the clarinet! But I probably won't be posting myself playing music here. Cuz I need to buy a new one.

*:..｡o○ Links! ○o｡..:*

Strawpage:

Fictional crush rambling:

Castor Hemlock askblog:

Vampire Bob AU askblog:

Daily Bob Blog:

My server:

Oc rp server I made with catsockpuppet:

*+:｡.｡ My Spooky Month OCs ｡.｡:+*

-Castor Hemlock (He/They) [fav OC!] [Rewrote his lore, older posts are outdated]

-Fangs (It/he, but mostly it) [The thing that is usually in control when Castor is in monster form]

-Donovan Perry (He/Him) [Rewrote his lore, older posts are outdated]

-Michelle Melanie Anderson (He/They/She) [Did a small redesign and gave her a new name]

-Carolynn Parker (She/They)

-Helen Collins (She/Her) [Rewrote her lore, older posts are outdated]

-Shelly Deprimida (She/They) [currently deciding if im gonna get rid of her or not]

-Aspen (It/They)

-Silas Bellamy (He/It)

-Leslie Marie Velseb (She/they/it) [Not in the same AU as my other OCs]

-Jett Black Velseb (He/They) [Not in the same AU as my other OCs]

-Melissa Lee Velseb (She/He/They) [Not in the same AU as my other OCs] [Rewrote her lore, older posts are outdated]

-Annalise Barlowe (She/It)

-Henry Barlowe (He/him)

-Charles (He/It)

-Darcel (He/him)

-Cecil Sypher (He/him)

-Arthur Decipere (He/it)

More info about them

»»————> DNI <————««

•Proshippers

•Homophobes

•Transphobes

•Racists

•People who actively hate any of the things I like, cuz that's gonna be the stuff you see here.

•Hates furries

•Hates xenogenders and/or neopronouns

•Ratmeat haters /hj (I post about it a lot tho so if u don't wanna see ratmeat stuff then I don't suggest following me lol.)

•People who hate on OC x Canon stuff

Another thing I would like to add is that adults CAN follow me! Just don't do anything weird.

Thanks for reading!

[watchingspnagain]

Rewatching Long-Distance Call

Welcome to “Pack Your Panties, We’re Going to Ohio: A Supernatural Rewatch Blog” with Lor and Mace!

  Up today, s3e14: Long-Distance Call.

 People in a town in Ohio are getting phone calls and IMs from the dead. Always someone who was very close to them and whose return they long for. The catch? Eventually the phone calls end in their gruesome deaths. The boys are on the case, but when Dean receives a call from John, he goes off the deep end—juuuust a little. Sam saves the day, but it’s clear Sam and Dean are both getting desperate and emotions are high as the clock ticks down for Dean.

 Below is a log of our real-time reactions as we watched. Remember that there may be spoilers for any part of SPN’s 15-season run here. Note also that the nature of our conversation is adult and thus it may contain adult language and themes.

 [and we begin:]

 Lor:

 (omg only three eps till Cas!)

  Mace:

 (OHMYGOD YAYYYY)

Lor:

 tsk, pull your collar down in the back over your tie, dude

  Mace:

 snork

  Lor:

 1 demerit

  Mace:

 harsh!

  Lor:

I don't make the rules!

  Mace:

 SNORK!

  Lor:

 it's all right he's not gonna live long enough to care about his demerits

  Mace:

 that’s very true

 CREEPY

  Lor:

 YEP

  Mace:

 EW the blood splatter sound

  Lor:

 haaaahahahahah the splatter on the phone

 LOL

  Mace:

 prolly brain splatter too

  Lor:

 LOL our different reactions

  Mace:

 YAS

 “pack your panties, Sam"

  Lor:

 "no we were actually talking about our feelings"

YOU COULD USE TO TALK ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS, BOY

  Mace:

 you KNOW you have a favorite boy band, Dean

 YES

  Lor:

 he DOES

he absolutely does

(it's the Backstreet Boys)

  Mace:

 of course it is

  BOYS. SO FRAUGHT

  Lor:

 "you really wanna talk about who’s keeping secrets from who?" oooooh FRAUGHT

 LOL

  Mace:

 YAS, SAMMY, COME TO OHIO

  Lor:

 "guess I"m going to ohio" SASSY

 YAAAAAS

 oooo I LOVE it when they communicate without talking like that

  Mace:

 YES

  Lor:

 "a capital offense" and Sam's clearing his throat

 Mace:

 HAHAHA

 my god, Sammy looks good in that suit

that checked shirt, his hair

  Lor:

 he DOES

Dean wants a lunch

OMG I love him

  Mace:

 YAS

 omg lookit THOSE suits

  Lor:

 RIGHT?

  Mace:

 “worth every penny”

DEAN WINCHESTER

  Lor:

 oh Dean

  Mace:

 OMG THEIR STERN FACES

  Lor:

 mrrrrrg Dean all stern voice

  Mace:

 HAHAHAHA

  Lor:

 AND THEN THE SMUG SMILE

  Mace:

 YASYASYAS

  Lor:

 excuse, am ded

  Mace:

 SAME

 I think this is my favorite phase of Sammy hair

  Lor:

 it IS good

  "cause I was sort of busy"

OMG Dean's smile

  Mace:

 YES

  Lor:

 I WISH people from the phone company dressed like that

  Mace:

 HA

  Lor:

 THAT ISN'T A CHEAP SUIT

  Mace:

 seriously, Sammy is KILLING ME right now

DIMPLES

  Lor:

 the collar with NO BUTTONS

the HINT of ridiculous sideburns but they aren't ridiculous YET

  Mace:

 YES

the little flippity curls in the back of his hair

  Lor:

 YAAAAS

nrrrrrg now it's UNBUTTONED

  Mace:

 DEEEEDDDDD

  Lor:

 omg the girl walking past him who gives him the look

  Mace:

 YES

  Lor:

 oh DEAN

  Mace:

 oh DEAN NO

 HAHAHA

  Lor:

 you KNOW it's not your dad, honey

come ON

 "like OPRAH"

  Mace:

 SNORK!

 poor tiger he’s SHOOK

  Lor:

 HE IS

 okay, Sam, you need to swaddle your brother in a soft blankie and lock him in a room. he is not okay to do this case right now

  Mace:

 RIGHT?!

 (I’ve been to Milan, OH)

 omg the EYEBROWS

  Lor:

 (woot! did you go to the museum?)

 YES

  Mace:

 no

but they have edison signs all over

  Lor:

 "what's with the quotey fingers?"

  Mace:

 HAHAHA

  Lor:

 "we're walking and we're not touching that" OMG she's hilarious but I would have to smack her in real life

  Mace:

 YEP

  Lor:

 "the moldy are calling the freshies" omg

  Mace:

SNORK

 oh Dean, sitting up waiting for the call

  Lor:

 RIGHT?

 "do what?" omg his voice

  Mace:

 “you’re my boy, I love you” aaaand it’s definitely not him

  Lor:

 he said he loves you Dean, you KNOW THAT'S NOT HIM

 HAAHAHAAHHAHA YES

 this is SUCH a creepy concept

  Mace:

 IT IS

  Lor:

 "my ass is too sweet to let out of sight" DEAN

  Mace:

 he’s…not wrong

  Lor:

 TRUE

 omg the way Sam is trying to be patient and Dean is going off

  Mace:

 Dean, eat a piece of cheese, dude

 YES

  Lor:

 LOL

they both need hugs

  Mace:

 YEP

  Lor:

 "maybe that's all I got okay?"

  Mace:

 oh DEAN

  Lor:

 "please don't go anywhere until I get back

sam I TOLD you to swaddle him. he's just gonna flail and cry and take off now

  Mace:

 they never listen to us

  Lor:

 nope

silly boys

  Mace:

 um, what little kid would just matter-of-factly answer that play phone?

  Lor:

 RIGHT?

  Mace:

 I would have pooped my little pants

  Lor:

 YEP

though I like the parallel of the little boy answering the phone that's his mom and then immediately Dean answering the phone that's his dad

  Mace:

 oooh YES

  Lor:

 Dean can't stop being a little boy here

  Mace:

 NOPE

  Lor:

 "is that a sandwich?"

  Mace:

 “is that a sandwich"

 HAHAHA

  Lor:

 "this is herman munster" HAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHA

  Mace:

 HAHAHAHA

  Lor:

 omg stop hitting Sammy in the head

  Mace:

 Ope, Sammy and the head concussions

HAHAHA

  Lor:

 LOLOLOLOLOL

 poor Stewie

  Mace:

 ew

  Lor:

 oooooh boy

  Mace:

 yeah

this is just cruel

  Lor:

 (I assume Dean is at the dude's house. i don't remember)

  Mace:

 (yep)

  Lor:

 omg moving his hair with the knife

  Mace:

 YES

  Lor:

 omg that move with the gun

  Mace:

 YES

SO COMPETENT

  Lor:

 YAAAAAS

and hot

  Mace:

 EWEWEWEWEWEW

  Lor:

 and hotly competent

  Mace:

 YES

  Lor:

 GROOOOOSS

SEE that impaling I believe would kill someone

UNLIKE SOME

  Mace:

 HAAAAAHAHAHAHA

 oh that Dean LOOK

poor kitten

  Lor:

 RIGHT?

 HOW DID HE GET OUT OF THAT ONE?

 "i see they improved your face" "right back atcha"

  Mace:

 BOYS

  Lor:

 "i gave you a hell of a time on this one" oh DEAN

  Mace:

 DEAN

  Lor:

 "I'm scared, Sam. I'm really scared" "I know" GAAAAAAAAH I CAN'T

  Mace:

 ME NEITHER

  Lor:

 "and me"

GAAAAAH

  Mace:

 YAS

  Lor:

 "that's what you come back with? and me?" "you want a poem?"

HAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

 drinking together in the motel room sigh

  Mace:

 THESE TWO

  Lor:

 holds them

  Mace:

 YES

  Lor:

 our poor boys

  Mace:

 INDEED

[covenofwives]

Mannnnnn there are so so so many things that like i keep wanting to dive all the way into even tho I know you can't say anything because there's more fics coming soon aklsdfhjladf. Like rn the thing that has got my head absolutely spinning is the extent of XD and Dream's relationship.

It is SO complicated and already c!dream as a character is already so deep in canon so it's like i wanna know so much about how much it affects in this au. Like what exactly are the feelings XD has over what Dream's been doing. There's bits and pieces here in there we get to see but I so badly wanna know just how it's effecting them, what they think.

How different is Dream in this au to in canon. What is Dream's reasoning in this universe if it's different to what was revealed in the finale of dsmp? Like what is Dream's reasoning compared to what XD THINKS he's doing it for. The estranged relationship between them once Dream is actually out of prison!! Already now, at least in canon, george never visited, and Sapnap literally hates him and has threatened to kill him. i know it's gotta be so freaking interesting and i would literally listen/read about it for hourssss.

idk how much you'd even be willing to share but if you ever do you can make it as long and in depth as you want to go asdjhflkaf. im so freaking excited about everything hhehehaasjdfasfhg

-emmadoodlewrites

This is gonna be a LONG one I think, so i'll put it under the cut for ease of reading (though I don't know if that helps or not haha)

I'll start out by giving a very basic timeline to XD and Dream's realtionship.

So XD came to the Overworld with Dream and Drista to give them a better future. Suddenly going from near no one to interact with to a whole world of people, Dream became overwhelmed with excitement. He wanted to explore and travel and see and meet everyone but XD and Drista were fine to keep their circle small.

Eventually, as Dream gets older, he does get more distant from his siblings. He meets others, wants to spend time with them and talk. He really only came home to sleep and then was out again with friends the next morning. XD could see Dream’s distance was caused by these new friends and experiences and didn’t want to sour Dream’s exploration. He gave Dream space but would still ask for his brother to come home or spend time with the family which Dream always waved off as he was busy with friends. Dream became old enough to move out, Drista then decided she wanted to stay in the Godly Realm and XD stayed on the Overworld but would visit Drista often. With each attempt XD had trying to talk/spend time with Dream being brushed off, XD accepted his fate as always being Dream’s brother, but never being close to him which hurt XD. XD resided himself to be a God/Overseer of things on the Overworld, specifically at the DSMP area. He’d try and keep a Godly distance with it though so his judgement was never swayed so he made no friends and tired to keep out of the DSMP’s business.

Eventually, Dream realised XD was no longer checking in on him or asking him to spend time. Even though Dream always rejected it before, he still noticed when he wouldn’t be asked and believed XD was starting to distance himself because he didn’t want to see Dream anyone. Anytime they did interact, it would be awkward and distant so Dream believed that’s what XD wanted. A classic misunderstanding.

I tried to keep Dream close to canon as possible but that’s just so hard lol especially when we had so little info to work on for years. Basically the reasoning for Dream’s action is still control. He liked being in control of this community he grew with his friends and he liked it when people looked up to him for it. He didn’t like people making their own parties and governments and elections. He wants control because he thinks that’s the only way he can keep his friends safe. He wants to keep things close to him to protect them. He sews seeds of chaos to swoop in for control but it obviously goes wrong. As for XD’s thoughts on it, he tries not to think about it. He’s trying so hard to keep his Godly, distant relationship to anything but it was rapidly failing. He was beginning to develop a friendship for George and slowly talking with Dream again, and getting to know others on the server with helping/saving them. He keeps himself out of the hard stuff going on even though it kills him to do so. He hates seeing Dream act like this and hates hearing stories from people who despise his brother. He wants to keep his brother away for safety but he also wants to let Dream make his own decisions. I imagine XD has probably asked Dream why he is acting like this and Dream wouldn’t have answered him. Just vague “it’s what’s right” or “I have a plan that’ll work” answers. XD was probably close to acting on it when he found out that Dream was thrown into prison which of course killed XD to hear but he agreed to the laws of the DSMP and wouldn’t interfere (even though it pulls him further from Dream and George)

George still didn’t visit Dream and Sapnap is still sworn on revenge in the AU. As for how XD feels about Dream’s escape that will be seen/explored in the next part of the AU fics. What I can say, and is super obvious, is that XD is frantically looking for Dream just like everyone else on the sever. Which is weird right? Because a powerful God should be able to find one mortal. His brother especially. But somehow, Dream keeps evading him. Weird right :)