#but i know that would be selfish because he didnt have the means or money to take care of me

[allforlovessake]

fuck . i miss my dad

[mediumgayitalian]

okay a few solangelo things i’m curious your take on,

what kind of gift givers do you think will and nico are to each other?

are either of them music nerds? making playlists? gifting playlists? what music do u think they like?

what is their favorite fruit?

do you think either of them keep up with pop culture? are they fans of anything? celebrity crushes? like do you think will would think timothee chalamet is cute bc he lowkey has nico’s vibes and is such a buzzer name for celeb crushes? lolll

and then, do you think nico shamelessly takes will’s sweaters and shirts to wear or secretly swipes them?

ty! love ur blog so much xx

HELL YEAH THANK YOU

what kind of gift givers do you think will and nico are to each other?

i think nico spoils will fucking rotten.

his dad is the god of wealth he is holding NOTHING back. aside from that, he grew up wealthy and spent so so long in the lotus casino. i think he has a rly bad handle on money lol.

however he's such a mysterious guy that i think it doesn't occur to will that nico is actively spending money on him??

like will makes an offhand comment about how he would marry the person who would bring him the mystical rocket launching boba fett. and nico is like word okay and the next day there is a rocket launching boba fett on will's pillow and he's like BRO???? OH MY GOD?????

but he just figures that nico knew someone who had it!! he knows nico is big on figurines & collectibles and has a lot of connections, so he thinks nico just called in a favour.

in reality nico did all those things and also spent like two hundred k lol

basically, nico doesn't even think about it. if he hears a friend express a want that he has to means to acquire...its not even an active choice to him?? he's like well why wouldn't i buy this for them.

and i think this means a whole lot to will!!

he's spent his life in his mom's tour van or a bunk bed. he grew up in two wars. he was responsible for an entire infirmary at 13. he's a nerd and he likes nerdy things but like...collecting takes time. and money he doesn't have, because money isn't really a focus in camp and its not like he's paid lol

so of course there are things that he likes but...imagine being will. imagine having a budget for the INFIRMARY YOU RUN and thinking, like...well the camp has only so much money. i know exactly what these medical supplies cost. i refuse to steal. why would i ever be so selfish to ask for money to be spent on me and the things i like?

and then there's nico, who doesn't need him to ask. who WANTS to give him things he wants, not just what he needs or what he wants for others. what WILL wants. nico will get him.

will on the other hand....he gives away his time like it's free.

he does things for people. constantly. like austin complains about not having anywhere quiet to practice and will builds him a soundproof practice room. you know?

now when nico, who has had no one spend their time on him since bianca....

like his father did not have time for him. even when he lived in the underworld, he was put to work. or else he was bored. it's not like he and hades HUNG OUT, you know?

and of course he had no friends to spend their time on him. even in his first time at camp half blood -- for the first time, bianca didnt have time for him. she chose the hunters for ETERNITY, she said i am done choosing you now. and nico drove percy insane, who certainly didn't have time for him between saving the world. the entire time we saw him in TTC he was being pushed away.

by the time he had hazel, HE was the one pushing himself away before anyone else could. he filled his time so he wasn't waiting for anyone else. besides, through no fault of hers, he and hazel CAN'T give each other as much of their time as they would like!! they live on opposite sides of the country!!

but will.....

gods will. will SEEKS HIM OUT. the first thing will says to him is i have carved out, in my busy healer schedule, three days of time for YOU. not only have i carved out these three days, but in that brief moment of time where i was running around camp, i was thinking about you. you were a PRIORITY and i'm upset that you did not come spend your time with me.

like.....oh my god. can you imagine that? being nico? hearing someone you barely know, at this point, talk about how much time he wants to spend with you? and then as you get closer, he spends SO MUCH time with you!! he makes you a priority!

will walks nico to breakfast and watches him in sword practice and takes out his schedule when nico is making his to make sure they line up. he plans dates and they're FUN and he is so careful to make them enjoyable for nico, too, so much so that he forgets his nerves.

the biggest gifts they give to each other is noticing, i think. i see you, i see what you need and wont ask for, and i care enough to give it to you anyway.

are either of them music nerds? making playlists? gifting playlists? what music do u think they like?

will is the HUGEST MUSIC NERD IN THE WORLD.

he may not have many musical talents himself but music was naomi solace's whole world. you bet your ass it's everything for him, too.

he is teased for his love of country, and he does love country (everybody loves country if you hate country you are lying to yourself, i know you sing along to before he cheats with your whole chest), but he has a VAST music taste.

he is a britney spears stan. i will not be convinced otherwise.

nico, on the other hand, is not nearly as ignorant about music as people pretend he is. y'all he was in a casino/arcade until like 2006!!!!! do you think it was silent in there!!!!! do you think he is not the absolute king of just dance and DDR!!!

however he was, like, 10. so i think he's familiar with a lot of songs but in the way you were when you were a kid, you know?? like i could sing paparazzi w my whole chest beginning to end flawlessly at eight years old, but i would not have been able to recognise lady gaga by name or sight.

i think he and will make somewhat of a game out of it. the first time they hang out, nico is NERVOUS beforehand. like for hours. will said they were going to have a chill day bc he has time off, but what are they supposed to DO?? before they were actively doing stuff together. will was teaching nico first aid basics, or nico was helping him around the infirmary; they were helping rebuild camp together. sure, they were talking, but they had something to focus on if things got awkward or conversation faded naturally.

that is VERY DIFFERENT from just hanging out in person. is nico supposed to have conversation starters prepared? how much silence is rude? is will going to finally decide he's boring? or weird? will is such a hyper person!!! how is nico supposed to entertain him!!

meanwhile will is in his cabin freaking the fuck out to his siblings like GUYS HES GONNA THINK IM A WEIRD NERD DORK LOSER 😭😭😭.....WHAT IF HE SAYS THE WORD SAND AND I GO ON THE ANAKIN SKYWALKER RANT ON REFLEX FUCK KAYLA WHAT DO I DO I DONT KNOW HOW TO MAKE FRIENDS LIKE A NORMAL PERSON HE IS SO OUT OF MY LEAGUE

so he calls his mom 💀

and his mom is like baby....you are a disaster are you aware. and hes like thanks MOM i know i need HELP OKAY

and naomi is like well you got on with my backstage crew just fine. and hes like well yeah we just talked about music that was easy.

...

OH THANKS MOM YOURE SO SMART

and he's like wait nico has spent a lot of time in the underworld...he might not be very up to date!! this'll be awesome. so he stays up till like 3 on the big house computer carefully making nico several CDs worth of playlists.

he makes HOURS of music. way more than they could ever listen to in one day, but he gets carried away. he makes a playlist with his favourite country music, including his moms stuff obviously, with rock music he thinks nico in particular will like, pop punk stuff, regular pop, an entire CD dedicated to the icon herself kesha (whom he knows personally bc she sun backup vocals for his mom when she was a teenager), some musicals, and some iconic european music to top it off. he has a little bit of EVERYTHING.

most important, though, he makes a CD with the top 100 billboard songs from the years 1958 (when it started) to 1985. he doesnt have enough time to do it all the way to this year in one night but vows to work on it when he has time.

when he goes to nico's cabin, he comes with a stack of CDs as long as his arm and chiron's CD player. he's practically sparkling with excitement; when nico opens the door he is already halfway through a sentence lol.

for four straight hours, they just listen to song after song, will pausing after each one to ask what nico thinks. he recognises a lot of them, even though he didn't know their names, but even still he's pretty quiet at first. but as they go on it gets hard not to get caught up in wills excitement, and he dances like such a dork, anyway, is it his fault for laughing? and those four hours pass like MINUTES and suddenly its curfew and will has to go.

this becomes their tradition! will plays a song, nico reviews it. even as they learn how to hang out with each other in different ways, it becomes reflex -- when there's a song playing will looks at nico for a reaction. when they're with others, in public, whenever.

the first time nico makes will a playlist he cries.

the playlist is called sunshine.

will plays on his walkman until its worn right through.

what is their favorite fruit?

at first will thinks nico doesn't like fruit at all because he has to force this dumbass to eat fruit and vegetables. all he eats is like. cereal and sandwiches. it stresses will the fuck out.

he's out here plopping a bowl of fruit on nico's table like eat this whole thing or i'm gonna whoop your ass before scurvy does. (he is genuinely afraid nico is going to get scurvy, although its not a very effective anxiety because hes kind of deeply afraid of scurvy in general and is always trying to push people to eat oranges lol).

nico ALWAYS drags his feet about it. at one point will gets worried that nico just straight up doesn't like fruit and starts fretting about synthetizing supplements.

turns out nico is just, like...a little pretentious. about fruit particularly. in his defense, he has been all over the world. like he's had indian mangoes and algerian clementines okay it is VERY hard to settle for stuff grown in north america as nice as the demeter greenhouses are.

his favourite fruit ever is the lemon though. he had a lemon tree in his backyard when he was a kid that he doesn't remember, exactly, but he remembers how it tastes. will brings him a lemon once and almost as if his hands are working on their own, he cuts a slice, removes the peel and pith, puts it in a jar of sugar, and shakes to coat it, like his nonna would do secretly when he mama wasn't looking. its the best thing he's ever tasted.

will is a fruit fanatic, on the other hand. he steals strawberries every time he walks by the fields. the demeter cabin has to count their blueberries every night because he can and will eat them all when no one's looking.

his favourite, though, and he never ever gets it at camp, is prickly pear. in the summers before camp he would go to the desert with his mom and pick enough to make his stomach hurt -- he's never home when they're in season now, so sometimes when she's free shell drive up to new york just to bring him a box of them. she knows he's busy and cant leave camp in summers but she wants him to have that, at least.

do you think either of them keep up with pop culture? are they fans of anything? celebrity crushes? like do you think will would think timothee chalamet is cute bc he lowkey has nico’s vibes and is such a buzzer name for celeb crushes? lolll

i think all year-rounders are into pop culture just fine, but they're a few years behind. except for music -- will knows music. but things like movies and tv shows and memes, they either get updated from their summer-only friends or they stumble upon in naturally when it's not longer relevant lol.

nico, though, has an encyclopedic knowledge of old pop culture, because the lotus got new tech and games and movies before literally anyone else. he saw back to the future before it was in theatres and it changed his life. he quotes it all the time and no one has called him out on it then, but it is only a matter of time.

(he has seen star wars. he saw star wars before will was alive. but it is 100% funnier to pretend he doesn't know what a galaxy is and watch will's eye twitch when he asks him about luke skyrunner)

and then, do you think nico shamelessly takes will’s sweaters and shirts to wear or secretly swipes them?

yes absolutely. but he's super embarrassed about it at first so he genuinely STEALS them, not just borrows them.

it's a heist and everything. he shadow travels into the apollo cabin at like three in the morning and rifles through will's shelf. when he gets back he panics and shoves it under his mattress, where it lives in shame for four months. will just thinks it must have been an unfortunate victim of some poor sick child or bleeding demigod and writes it off.

after several months, during which nico thinks about the sweater ALL the time but cannot physically force himself to touch, nico finally gets brave enough to take it out from under his mattress. he just stares at it for a long ass time, wrinkling it in his clenched hands. it's just a hoodie, you know?? who cares.

nico cares. obviously.

eventually he gets so annoyed with himself that he just yanks it on expecting to be able to tell himself like SEE you dumbass it's just a piece of clothing it literally does not matter. except.

except.

the hoodie still smells like will.

somehow.

and that is.

well.

he would rather dunk his head into the river of fire than admit it, but he melts. the hoodie is old as hell and worn and so so so so soft, gods, no wonder will wears it all the time. he never wants to take it off ever.

for weeks, whenever he's alone in the cabin, he wears the hoodie. it stops smelling like will pretty quickly but he doesn't mind, it's still the most comfortable thing ever. it becomes second nature to walk into his cabin, throw off his jacket, and tug the hoodie on, wearing it to bed.

on one night, and of course it's the hermes' cabin fault, everyone is rushing out of their cabin to see what the fresh fuck is sounding like twenty four fire alarms at once and also a nuclear explosion. nico, in his haste, does not take off the hoodie.

will, whipped, makes sure his siblings are okay and then turns immediately to find nico. he Sees The Hoodie. nico Sees Him See The Hoodie. nico tries to flee.

will has longer legs and also spots a teasing opportunity, so hera herself could not stop him.

will teases him to pieces but is also visibly pleased. the next morning nico finds another hoodie of will's hung over his desk chair.

he wears will's hoodies all the time.

THANK YOU FOR SENDING THESE IN I HAD SO MUCH FUN

[chaifootsteps]

its really hard to take any comparisons of stolas to other abusive characters seriously because i genuinely dont think viv comprehends shes written an abuser, the same way other authors can comprehend theyve written abusers. she self projects so heavily onto him and acts like his sass is justified to the point pretty much everyone, even fans and critics, knows that s3 will just end up with him living with blitz and working for IMP (which was foreshadowed just oh so subtly in the helluvababies season 2 premiere,) after losing everything (oh no, the consequences of my actions!) because of the full moon deal HE decided to start. he started out doing something bad, acknowledged it once (didnt even apologize to blitz for the deal btw,) and got go back to his life of luxury after his former sex slave said no to his love. he took advantage of the main character in the very first episode and will still be rewarded with him presented as stolas's knight in shining armor, a family who will unconditionally love him because of fucking course they will even though they know their boss had to fuck him or else they wouldnt have their "meal ticket", and eventually, most probably, his daughters forgiveness after she cut him out of his life for.. taking antidepressants. not for neglecting her, not for not teaching her anything about the book she was solely created for, for 17 years, before letting someone else have it without a single worry of what could happen to it, and certainly not because she cheated on his mom with some "weird red dickhead" i can watch other shows with the understanding (most of the time) that that character probably will receive some kind of growth, karma, acknowledgement, or change of their terrible behavior if theyre intentionally written as toxic. or, if their toxicity is supposed to be the point, for them to go full ham with it. helluva boss is neither to me; its abuse tactics and toxic patterns presented as good, like gaslighting, triangulation, and codependency. and an audience like vivs will digest these ideas subconsciously as good if they have no critical thinking skills of their own, which most of them dont. and all while being too afraid to actually hold abusers accountable in a setting like hell of all places. thats why none of the characters even acknowledge the actually shitty things stolas does and arent allowed to not forgive him- because the creator herself is an abuser who doesnt understand, or doesnt want to understand, that being held accountable is about ALWAYS acknowledging the mistakes you made and STILL trying to be better, even if the people you hurt still hate you. not apologizing once, and then getting pissed someone didnt automatically forgive you, as if your remorse means you're entitled to forgiveness. thats how stolas thinks, because thats how she thinks, and thats terrible. i cant even watch these shows in a "im a messy bitch who lives 4 drama" way as much as i want to because watching an abuser get everything he wants after a season of straight up cloaca sucking is NOT drama. its just incredibly depressing and makes me think about the piles of money that couldve been used to make anything other then this, instead of the creators self insert fanfiction of "no one is allowed to judge my character based on my past selfish actions: the overpriced, overstuffed with expensive celebs while i claim i cant fairly pay my animators i force to work exclusively on my shows the musical!"

I think you're spot on, unfortunately. If it weren't for the fanbase slavishly, cultishly lapping up everything Viv gives them and making it a point to incorporate it into their own lives, it would be a fascinating look at how an abusive person sees themselves. Stolas's justifications really are Viv's justifications, and she'll never see him as an abuser for the same reason she'll never see herself as one.

[diminuel]

Ngl i didnt really love Dragodile but THEN I saw your drag-on (hehe) pic and it all clicked. dragon loves Crocodile no matter what, if he changes gender, kills people, overthrows a government, kills people, enforces a drought on a small kingdom, kills people, steals, lies, cheats, he loves him so fully that it penetrates all else. even when they can’t be together, even if Crocodile did something so evil the only safe and just thing would be to kill Crocodile — Dragon would STILL love him

And Dragon would do ANYTHING for Crocodile, would change as much as he could. If Dragon was straight when Crocodile transitioned he would do everything he could to be supportive and caring, maybe even try to fake or force it if it didn’t follow suit — but if Crocodile was still straight after he transitioned (somehow) than Dragon would crossdress as much as he could. Happily live life as Crocodile’s dotting girlfriend if that’s what it took to make him happy.

But Crocodile loves and respects him too much to try and tie him down. Maybe an even more selfish crocodile could work to slowly corrode and morph Dragon into his pirate desert criminal king, someone eager to protect Baroque works and propel Crocodile to the throne — but that wouldn’t be *his* Dragon.

I think what is interesting about Dragon and Crocodile as a ship is that we have nothing to go on. Zero. The only thing that binds them together is Iva knowing Crocodile and the Crocodad theory. Which means that this ship lives off the potential. It is a vessel for all the wholesome and fucked up ideas we can make up for them.

We can use what little we know of Dragon and Crocodile’s characters to give us an idea what their interactions would be like but even that is kind of uncertain *lol*

Dragon in drag is @mangyraccooon's doing, I cannot take credit for that X’D

But I do like to imagine that Dragon and Crocodile’s love for each other is unconditional because that just appeals to me. Sure, Dragon is most likely a character with a strong moral code, but it’s a matter of perspective, isn’t it? He IS branded as a criminal. He doesn’t shy away from starving people as long as those are people he doesn’t approve of. He shouldn’t judge Crocodile too harshly for his nefarious plans. (Well, he might not like the whole government dog thing, but might see the merit in having access to government resources and information.)

So far I’ve disregarded the topic of sexuality and gender and how that might impact their relationship, since I feel it would be a non-issue for Dragon? I have nothing to back this up of course. But yes, I don’t think Crocodile would want Dragon to change for him, at least not in that regard. If Dragon wants to experiment then sure, go ahead.

Regarding the Crocodile influencing (( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) if you’re a Supernatural fan you know why I make that face) Dragon idea. He could but then again I don’t really think Dragon is someone who easily lets himself be influenced. Dragon is a very stubborn kind of man, but even he can be pushed to change his approach as we’ve seen after Ohara. Since he’s now willing to use force, he might also be willing to listen to Crocodile’s more questionable avenues to getting power and money. But I think both of them know that they have diverging paths even though their goal might be the same. And they have to be alright with that.

(Though I really like the idea that Crocodile is basically doing the dirty work for the RA until they manage to have enough power to do the dirty work themselves.)

All that said… I would actually be interested in scenarios where Dragon does not as easily forgive Crocodile for what he’s done – in Alabasta, to Luffy (even though Crocodile wouldn’t have known about the kid). It would be interesting how they might navigate the clash of love and anger. Maybe they should have sex about it.

Sorry, I ended up rambling about random things.

[wiihtigo]

CASEY NATION RISE 7, 9, 17, 20, 23, 25

ask game

7. What’s one way your OC has changed since you first came up with them?

i used to think that she didnt care much about the art of actually acting and cinema and stuff and for her it was more about just being famous and it didnt matter how. i think that was partially because although i knew i wanted her to lust for fame and money the acting dream was kind of just randomly decided on. i thought i could easily swap it out with modelling or singing or something and it wouldnt make much difference. but the more time ive spent with casey, the more i see her as a true lover of movies and art....which i think leads in well to her endgame job being a script editor rather than an actor. her true talents lie behind the screen even if she herself doesnt see it...

9. Do you have a specific lyric or quote which you associate with your OC?

whats a girl to do - cristina

a post canon (after nell dies) caseys life anthem:)

17. What is the worst thing you have put your OC through story-wise?

well i was going to blame it entirely on you that nell dies and i had no say in that but i suppose i did come up with her emotional reaction to that myself, which causes me a lot of slow damage pain. SO I GUESS THAT..the fact she pushes michelle away after it happens is really depressing to me because thats literally her only friend left and only possible pillar of support, but she pushes her away because she hates everything and shes mad shes not nell and shes mad at her family and wants to explode. I think she'd be marginally less suicidal if she stayed friends with her.....

I guess also pulling from alternate realities the one where she dies is pretty fucked up. and very painful. and nell doesnt even make it to her to cradle her in her arms. SAD

20. Does your OC have a tendency to get jealous? If so, how does this manifest?

yyessss. at least when he and nell start getting lowkey. no. highkey #serious. early in their setup he wouldnt gaf if nell was married to a businesswoman in russia.but when they start ummmm [redacted] then hes like waittt. lol waittttttt lol wait. lol. WAITTT. gets a little annoyed when theyre at the doom patrol warehouse party and jayna from the wonder twins tries to get ladybugs number. THATS MY BODYGUARD..GET YOUR OWN. it manifests in that he'll get clingy to nell and mean and passive aggressive (or just aggressive) towards the person pissing him off. will be petty and spiteful (sees some poor scared nervous young lesbian trying to say hi to nell so he slides in and nuzzles up to her shoulder in public to let that sstupid kid know to go away)

idk why he does this. if you asked him if he liked nell he would say And what has she done to MAKE me like her

23. What emotion is the hardest for your OC to process? How about express?

lol GRIEF. little casey has never experienced a death before nell! not even a pet death. she has no idea how to process those feelings or cope with them in the slightest. she goes like catatonic immediately after the fact bcuz shes so completely shocked and wasnt prepared for it at all (lowkey thought ladybug was too awesomeand strong to ever get got. stupidd)

on the complete flip side, also .....l-l-l-l-l-l-l--l-l-l-l-l-l...LOVE. or at least feeling a smidge of serious romantic attraction to someone. in canon end she never gets to deal with that bcuz she only realizes it after nell died and then promptly buried everything related to nell deep inside a hole. but in nyc nell simply has an epic near death experience where hes hospitalized and thats when casey is like fuuuuuuuuuck that scared me. DO I LIKE HER? she acts a bit pathetic and tsundere abt it which is endearing to me personally. maybe scares nell a bit. its cute to me though <3

25. What is your favorite thing about your OC?

shes not a good person </3 shes selfish and mean and doesnt care about other people </3 bent on revenge and hating </3 genuinely not a good guy </3 i love everything negative about casey the most

i also think secretary characters are sexy.

[always-a-joyful-note]

gonna hit u with a wild ask for the character opinion game what're ur thoughts on

-jang hayoung (my favorite orv character if the main trio didnt exist)

-kim namwoon

-shin yoosung

-kujo tenn

-kujo takamasa (my favorite i7 character if i give myself over to insanity but i haven't yet so it's nagi or mina)

-natsume minami

BE WILD! AMAZING CHARACTER CHOICES BY THE WAY, Chitra! And thank you so much for the ask!

Spoilers for ORV and i7 under the cut

So Jang Hayoung.

To be fair, the fandom did have to deal with Jan Hayong being misgendered in a sense. I have my own thoughts about that but that's honestly a somewhat negligible point for me? Because THAT whole discourse is more kdj centred (own problems, hence the slight mark on ignore canon) but for Jang Hayoung herself??? Mildly obsessed. Wall of communication and her own character being a product of communication between author and reader. The way she embodies both miscommunication and breaking boundaries and walls with it. Her funny and hilarious crush on the Demon King of Salvation but clear disdain towards KDJ. She is neat and such a character but also such a self insert and I don't know. Like... she's a link between author and reader, she is her own person, she is waroed by the narrative, she's freer from the narrative than most. I love everything about her.

Kim Namwoon

I don't have many strong feelings about Kim Namwoon except that he deserved better but KDJ wouldn't let him deserve better because KDJ is a self-hating idiot. He is like the definition of a plot device character but if the plot was some guy's intense sense of self-hatred. He is well written in the sense that there was definitely more to the guy but that KDJ didn't let it be fully realised. But I do love their obsession with mecha. Very valid

Shin Yoosung

CHARACTER OF ALL TIME I LOVE HER I WOULD DIE FOR HER I WOULD -

Listen. Shin Yoosung is like a daughter to me, okay? Which I guess does note beat the KDJ reader self insert allegations but seriously. Her characters arcs (yes, plural on both)??? Her power? The fact that KDJ wanted to give her (and Gilyoung) the kind of childhood he couldn't ever have but that her hands were already sort of tainted with blood? Canon isn't real doesn't mean I hate what canon did to her, by the way. It's that KDJ hated what canon did to her and...changed it. Shin Yoosung is like what if you put a little girl with so much guilt and made her face the realisation of that guilt - that she IS or can be as bad as she currently fears. Also, she is so mean sometimes to Gilyoung and that is so real for her. (Kiss them is platonic, by the way)

Also. Older Shin Yoosung's aesthetic and gender. Yes.

Kujo Tenn

Insane, self-sacrificial, selfish, and Profession. As the Discord group put it: ableist icon, too. Tenn is like what if you mixed the yandere trope with the stoic soldier trope or something (don't listen to that I am literally just spitting nonsense here.) But for real....he's SUCH a well-written character that that itself drives me BONKERS. He's got such Eldest Child energy BUT - BUT THIS IS IMPORTANT - there is a youngest child inside him screaming for attention too!! (Which I think TRIGGER gave). You never can completely hate him even if you do think he should be slapped. As a treat. The writers just went OFF on his character and I could think about it all day and one day will try to articulate it all. He's just......neat

Kujo Takamasa

In my defense of the design thing....he really gives off SUCH Phantom of the Opera vibes, it's SO funny to me. I say beast unleashed when he's just a poor meow meow who should have used his money for therapy rather than the stuff he pulled in canon. Is he for me? Nah, not really. But do I find him hilarious from an observer's point of view? Absolutely

Natsume Minami

Minami and Sogo both made me realize I might have a vibe with characters who look frail and have white hair but are deeply unwell inside and express that through toxic violence of some sort. To be honest, my favourite thing about Mina is that he might be a subversion of the composer trope? Like a foil to Sogo. Usually, I think composers are written as tortured souls who want to express a deep but beautiful feeling in music. Mina is a tortured soul but his feelings are raw and ugly and frankly terrifying and he was encouraged to express those through art. Which is honestly great and makes me want to bite his character arc like a watermelon. Also, at this point, he's probably the only one holding ZOOL's bad boy image together because the others can act it out well enough but they're all so pathetic and sweethearts at heart (took some time getting there for Torao, though.) Minami is not a sweetheart in any sense or form, even if he is pathetic, and that's very cool of him

[mojaves]

shooting star, comet, milky way, see no evil

also your description is cute

OHEHheheegrghgd ok im gonna do this for andrew my new favourite squeaky toy

🙈 SEE-NO-EVIL - whats a side of your oc that they don't want to show other people?

ohrhfddghj great start!! great start. he used to be the head of the special programs branch at arasaka [: basically, overseeing projects that primarily experimented on people in one way or another, and lead to SO many deaths and a whole lot of misery for anyone who didn't get outright killed by the experiments. he started working at arasaka when he was barely even 20, and became the head of the branch not long after - which is a LOT of power to give to a guy who's basically a kid in the corporate world, and has never had anyone tell him no before. and arasaka didnt do that either, they actively encouraged him to do whatever he wanted, as long as it would push their technology forward and get them more money. and he absolutely let that get to his head. who wouldnt in that situation!! he also just so Desperately wanted his family to be proud of him, to be better than his siblings, better than his cousins by any means necessary. he did a Lot of things that he's not proud of. he used to be an absolute asshole. self-centered self-absorbed corpo bastard man who was only in it for himself. and he doesnt want people to see him like that ever again. if they do, thats fair. he cant change that. he knows what he's done. it's far too late to apologise for it. but if he can present himself in literally any other way, a more positive light - a man who is actively trying to change, he would much rather people see that side of him. and not the monster he was once. So badly.

🌌 MILKY WAY - what was the inspiration behind your oc? what was the first thing you decided about them?

another fun one!! there wasn't really any inspiration really??? i just needed a guy for part of seb's story - the reason he almost died and got thrown out of arasaka. and up until very VERY recently thats all he was, asshole who beat seb within an inch of his life for no clear reason - which lead to the countless problems seb has had since, and the reason why he has a cyber jaw and prosthetic leg. but over like. the past week or so?? he has been through a lot of developments so ^ that incident is a lot more grey now rather than just good and bad. don't even worry about it.

🌠 SHOOTING STAR - if they could make any wish with no repercussions, what wish would they make?

above all else he just wants to be happy. but would also feel like wishing for that would be 'too selfish'. so, he would much rather wish to undo all the damage and death and pain he caused when he worked at arasaka. wish to have never worked there in the first place, to have never listened to his family, leave them behind, do his own thing, pursue a career he's actually interested in. learn what it's like to no longer be a sheltered rich kid who buys whatever he wants with his father's credit card.

☄️ COMET - what do people assume about them? are they right?

it depends on the time frame, because back at arasaka, the assumptions about him being a cold heartless asshole would kind of be right??? like. 80% right. he has very much let all of that consume him, but somewhere under all of that, it's just a sad pathetic guy who's trying his best to prove himself to anyone who will listen. he's weak. he's letting people walk all over him. without the money and status, he's powerless. he doesn't want to be there - the horrible personality is a front to not let people close to him. the mask will slip occasionally, and people will get to see him for how he really is.

after that, people really would just assume he's a depressed alcoholic who may or may not be barely clinging onto sanity and onto life at any given moment. at that point they'd be right. unfortunately he is unlucky enough for death to avoid him at every possible turn, so he has to live with the consequences of his actions. what he does with that though?? hehe. well. [: dont worry about it.

[auspex]

(gehenna-calling) MARKSONGSMARKSONGSMARKSONGS. theme… one related to his clan or his relationship with his clan? ALSO do you have any songs for mark + sampson?

YES MARKSONGS i LOVE ty @gehenna-calling okay okay lets see most of them relate to his sire specifically but hm the most general one...

other than the aforementioned To Modern Science which is the more positive one... but 2 explain why i think it relates to his relationship w his clan i would say that its because he does have some pride in tremere being the ones that seem to be researching and improving rather than just being hedonists or money grabbers LMFAO even if he realizes most of em are selfish about it and that some of the older ones do seem to stagnate and only care about prestige, theres still something there and thats the part he likes.

Spellbound is a CLASSIC Tremere song but it fits how the elders in the tremere really throw their weight around to the poor younger apprencties (we play in 2000 so the pyramid is v intact)

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as for the second question... it got long but i promise if u care its a v good song

Uh I Might have a whole playlist just for just mark and sampson (FEEL FREE 2 ASK ABOUT THAT...) :v the ones on mark's personal playlist are abt how he feels abt sampson and not like mutual relationship sooooo actually let me get one from the mark x sampson playlist:

these lyrics are just too good literally almost all of them are perfect. if you know abt mark and sampson read the lyrics first b4 u read mine and just see how perfect it is. anyway let me explain now. let me go insane for a bit. ready?

Every time you get a drink/ And every time you go to sleep/ Are those dreams inside your head?/ Is that sunlight on your bed?

ok FIRST OFF Theres a whole THING about how Mark can't remember his dreams anymore, and also with Sampson being SUPER CAGEY about if Kyle shows up in his dreams. And then obviously the dual meaning with drinking with sampson getting drunk and/or mark drinking blood. and then with the sunlight - idk theres something but i cant articulate it.

moving on

Every time you're driving home/ Way outside your safety zone/ Wherever you will ever be/ You're never getting rid of me.

Mark has gone sooo much out of his comfort zone into really dangerous spots but he always came home or let sampson know he was and one time he didnt and he got really nervous :( anyway now we are getting to the main crux of the song which is owning/being owned and being stuck. So with the blood bond and the ghoul, sampsons kinda stuck. you cant forget about kindred society once ya know it, and he isnt about to leave mark for another kindred domintor LOL. So. Never getting rid of him. But ALSO Mark isn't about to let him go either...

You own me/ There's nothing you can do/ You own me

Mark LITERALLY by Camarilla law owns sampson basically :( very fucked. and he has to to keep him safe. rogue ghouls get killed in detroit.

You could've made a safer bet/ But what you break is what you get/ You wake up in the bed you make/ I think you made a big mistake

few diff ways to interpret it, but Mark does worry he has made mistakes in the way he's handled everything. But he's stuck where he is now! And even if Mark isn't the one who broke sampson, sampson is a broken person.

Skipping the second chorus.. only new thing is "Lucky you"... THEN THE FUCKING BRIDGE.

You clean yourself to meet/ A man who isn't me/ You're putting on a shirt/ A shirt I'll never see/ The letter's in your coat/ And no one's in your head/ 'Cause you're too smart to remember/ You're too smart/

Lucky you/ Lucky you/ Lucky you

Besties the LAYERS here.

I interpret this is Mark cleaning himself up/putting on a persona for Julius who mark wants to make sure sampson never meets. but mark cares a lot about julius due to blood bond. anyway. Then the SECOND part starting with And No One's in your head is about SAMPSOn cause MARK has Julius in his head, but sampson doesnt have anyone afaik, AND Sampson has memory problems....

and they're both stuck w each other and. Mark would definitely be sarcastic and be like "well i guess you're stuck with me, lucky you" but really sampson IS lucky that mark is still trying to be a decent guy - sampson def deserves even better but just statistically many kindred become awful and ksadjflksajf this song is so perf thanks if u read sm

[gibbearish]

alrighty im doing my best to reply relatively nicely because while your response is so deeply fucking condescending and rude that I would be justified in immediately blocking you just for being an asshole, it's also clearly coming from a place of misdirected frustration over your husband's job struggles so im trying to give you the benefit of the doubt

nowhere did i say that i expect internet employees to work for free to serve Me Specifically or that they "don't deserve to pay their bills", that is something you projected onto this. yes, i do believe the internet should be free, AND i believe the employees should be able to live, and i think a system that makes that impossible is indeed fucked up and am allowed to express a desire to want a better one. you said "you can bemoan capitalism but it is the structure we currently reside in" as a cop out but like. yeah, it is the system we currently reside in, and i do think that sucks ass so yeah i am gonna complain about it, that's what this post is, it's me bemoaning capitalism. i'm sorry that in your brain that translated to "the other victims of capitalism don't matter to me as long as i get out on top" but once again that is your projection, not what i said.

and yeah, you're right, even if it's not what i was doing the revolution doesn't start by demanding free labor of others. you know what else doesn't start the revolution though? saying anyone who is frustrated with the way things work now is inherently selfish and infuriatingly self centered just for wanting things to be free. when you say "yes capitalism is bad but theres nothing we can do about it so don't complain about the way things are" you are the crab trying to pull me back into the bucket, you said i "want to be the rich capitalist myself" but of the two of us, only one of us is arguing to keep around the whole "everything must cost money" thing here and it sure isn't me lol

like overall i think the lens youre looking at this post through is "this is my husband's job, it's what he's paid for, therefore anyone saying they want it to be free is saying he shouldn't be paid, and therefore they are advocating for money to be taken directly from us so that they can live it up like kings" which is an understandable pov but takes a LOT of leaps. now to be fair i didnt actually include an asterisk on the post saying i aggressively support UBI and even further think the entire concept of money and paying for ANYTHING should be destroyed so that employees wouldnt HAVE to work at all, but i also think autofilling that nonexistent asterisk with "by the way i don't think anything else about the world should change, just that internet employees should work for free to serve me personally:)" is a big stretch. and to be fair i think at some point you realized thats what i was saying which is why you added in all the "you can be mad but its The Way Things Are soooo" caveats, the system sucking is such an obvious answer that in order for me to still be the villain trying to personally steal your husband's money, you have to preemptively cut it off. which is even funnier considering in the post you say "What do you mean free? For whom?" and then continue as if i had responded "for me and me alone, let the peasants be crushed beneath my heel on my way to ad free youtube" without stopping to think i might just maybe possibly mayhaps have meant free for everyone. so to be perfectly clear:

- i think the internet should be free for everyone

- i think housing should be free for everyone

- i think food should be free for everyone

- i think money should not exist at all

- i think capitalism is evil

- i think no one should have to work to survive and want all work to be voluntary

and finally:

- i think your husband should like. join a union or get a better job so that you're not so stressed about it that you take a random post very personally and proceed to be excessively rude and condescending to the poster while completely misunderstanding the point they were making.

what's interesting abt all this too is despite all the excuses you make for capitalism here, that's really where this anger should be directed. me making a silly one paragraph tumblr dot com post is not the cause of your husbands shitty pay or shitty hours or shitty work conditions, capitalism is. but as you said we can't really /do/ anything about capitalism individually so it's much easier to want to direct your anger at something different, and "blogger who said a thing that sounds kind of like 'your husband shouldnt be paid while everyone else still is' if you squint really hard" is as good a target as any so i do get it to a certain degree. again, SUPER couldve done without the intense condescension about how fucking dumb and selfish do i have to be to dare to want free stuff, but i can at least see how you got from point A to point B

anyways. tldr no i do not think society should be divided into "the rich people with free everything" and "the unpaid peons who suffer and die to make the rich ppls stuff free" nor is that what i said, and "that's just the way capitalism is" is not the bulletproof shutdown you seem to think it is. i know that's just the way capitalism is, that's why i want it to change. i think that's a reasonable desire even if i personally can't just snap my fingers and fix it, and trying to shut down arguments for ways things could be better with "but thats not how things work right now" is actively detrimental to progress because it's saying we should just lay down and accept the current circumstances rather than making a fuss. you can do that if you want, however you cannot demand other people do the same (see what i did there)

love when ppl defend the aggressive monetization of the internet with "what, do you just expect it to be free and them not make a profit???" like. yeah that would be really nice actually i would love that:)! thanks for asking

[rebellum]

Okay so something happened and I want some wider opinion on if what I said was really wrong or not, or if my mum is just overreacting a little.

So, last night my family watched The Rat Race (2001).

In this movie, they mention Christianity maybe a dozen+ times, tell people that they need to be good Christians (not, like, a known christian character telling that to a known christian character, but christian characters telling this to people whose religion they don't even know, and I think at one point to a Jewish character)(which in my opinion, comes off as being like 'person = christian, you need to be a good christian to be a good person' because they specifically weren't saying 'to be a good person', they were saying 'to be a good christian', but were talking about non-Christian specific stuff. Eg people should be kind, should help one another, should donate to charity, not be selfish.) They also mention bible verses multiple times, and at one point show someone who is christian being a bad christian/person (cheating people out of money, threatening violence) and he calls out "if god didnt like me doing this, he'd show me a sign" and then his business is destroyed by some completely separate events at that moment.

So, after that last part happened, (they mentioned god more times after too), I said something like "this movie is VERY christianity focused, it's making me a little uncomfortable" or "this movie is VERY christian, its making me a bit uncomfortable".

This morning, I just went downstairs, and my mum was like "hey, your comment last night really hurt me. I am a Christian, it is part of my identity. How would you feel if a movie mentioned Allah a few times and someone said 'wow this movie is so Muslim, it's making me uncomfortable.' Or if a movie had three trans characters, and someone was like *horrified and disgusted look* 'this movie has trans characters! that makes me so uncomfortable. they even mentioned HRT.'

me: I mean, the Allah thing would be wrong. But with the trans thing, that's not the same, people arent trying to literally outlaw Christianity.

Mum: Yes, it's not the same, I know it's not the same since trans people are a minority. But I have seen a lot of mockery of Christianity, and I can't even tell people I'm christian nowadays. I mentioned trans people because that's part of your identity, the same that christianity is part of my identity.

--

So that's the main parts of the convo that I can remember. I feel bad about making my mum SO upset, because she started crying during thisss, (and then I started crying because she was crying). But I am now unsure about whether or not I was wholly in the wrong for what I said. So I'd like other people's opinions.

Point to consider: If I had been watching a movie from a Muslim majority country, and they mentioned Islam in those ways, I wouldn't consider it odd at all, and it wouldn't make me uncomfortable. The movie takes place in and is made by the USA, which is a majority Christian country, even more so in the early 2000s, so it makes sense they would mention god and bible passages that much. So thats a point for me being in the wrong and being uniquely and problematically anti-Christian and anti-religion.

Please feel free to reblog with your opinion, write it in the replies, or send me a message or anonymous ask if you want a more 1 on 1 convo or don't want to be identified since this is a whole discussion about religion.

[dhdhhehdndbdbd]

oh. just kind of realized that i didn't love like you i shouldve. looking back at those texts; i am everything to you; you are just a burden to me. thats a harsh way of saying it. but i didnt love you like you deserved.. get hurt so much you eventually turn into the red flag, i guess..

i dont blame myself for pursuing it at the beginning. i think i was so tired of being hurt, so tired of being the one led on, so tired of being the one to be crushed, so tired of being used and hurt. i wanted nothing to hurt me again.

so when i found you, i guess i went searching for someone i knew wouldn't hurt me. even if it meant i wasnt all the way in, even if it meant that i didnt reciprocate what i had to. i was tired of being the one hurt.

i hurt you.

i needed a reminder that someone could love me; that someone out there was good, and could be good to me. even if it meant that im now the one hurting others.

maybe it wasn't right of me. maybe i shouldnt have continued it... but i couldn't stop. i mean, it was only 3 months. i know you will be sad and i know it will hurt but at least i didnt take up more of your time. we didnt spend real money, we didn't make any real decisions for each other. we're not married, there's no kids, etc. there's still a lot of hope out there for us.

its not right to expect you to be sitting there whenever i want to call. just because im lonely and i miss you. its not right to you. of course id like to check up on you and see how you're doing but i also need to respect you. (although, ive made it clear to him that if he needs space, i will go away. i think for now hes okay with keeping contact because there's the chance we will get back together).

ive been thinking, maybe this is how cam felt? of course, its not really comparable, since he was selfish and treated me badly, but wanting to continue contact afterwards? yeah, he mustve lost feelings for me but still wanted me around. well, i will not repeat what you've done. hunter has the right to slam that door the moment he feels like it, as i did with you. slam the door and don't look back. leave me here - i am full of love for you, and i always will be, but i must find my own place as well. dont we both deserve to find the ones for us?

im not an evil person. im not a bad person. i think i was hurt and just wanted to try something. i felt love, full and ready, and i wanted to drown in it, because i felt like id been starved. i just went through shit, repeated cycles, self-sabotaged, self-harmed. i wasnt ready to date when we dated. did you heal me? i think in little ways, yes. your love distracted me from the pain and reminded me of what pure, unconditional love felt like. and that i was enough. that someone would stick around for me... why? im not sure why. you really liked me, i guess.

we might. we might go on a date in the fall. maybe he'll come over to my dorm and we'll finally cook and i'll show you my new room. maybe i'll see how it feels then.

but for now its the end. the end of this, the end of us.

ive loved you, hunter. maybe it was not as full and real as it should've, because you were all in for me. (so fast? really?). but even so it meant so much to me. it impacted me so deeply. your love reached an ache, and for a moment, things were quiet. but that moment dissipated as soon as it came, and id be back to questioning if i should be with you. you deserve someone who is as sure as you. i loved you but not enough. i wasnt in love. it was comfortable, it was nice, it was reliable.

hah, thats what you said the last time you saw me. "it was nice".

it was. i hope you heal and i hope you find where you belong one day.

[doscozycats]

Marriage

Without any context its just a word, it has a meaning in the dictionary as any other word.

marriage /ˈmarɪdʒ/ noun

1. the legally or formally recognized union of two people as partners in a personal relationship (historically and in some jurisdictions specifically a union between a man and a woman). "a happy marriage"

For many this "word" has many different meanings. For some, it means family, for some it means restriction, partnership, fear, etc. I am going to write what it means to me. You have to realize that during the early stages of life, we are very much influenced only by our families and what they teach us. Yes, there are school and social circles and maybe some other factors. It's okay if our families teach us one thing and the outside world contradicts this. This formula actually makes us think, and question what is right and what is wrong. However, when our family teaches us one thing and the outside world supports this, that is when it solidifies in our minds. For me, my family taught me that marriage is pointless because it can end in a second. It's pointless because it is a play, it's not reality. The outside world agreed on this. Marriage is pointless because betrayal is always on the table. Why have one when you can have many? Why be honest when you can lie easily and hide the truth? These hurt me so much as a kid I didnt even consider it in my future. I saw myself with cats. No kids, no partner, and just alone. Imagining loneliness in my future was much more comforting than imagining myself with my own family. This future in my head didnt have any expectations. As you get older though life teaches you your rights… My husband showed me what marriage actually meant for me. Marriage is commitment, belief, partnership, loyalty, improvement, growth, comfort and warmth. My dad and the world showed me that kids are a mistake, regret, a waste of money and time, and energy, ungrateful, selfish. My mom showed me that they're everything. You can only give and hope they will receive. I didn't want kids because I felt inadequate. I thought that I couldn't understand myself, life, or anyone. I have emotional outbursts and mental breakdowns. I can't handle tasks over and over again how could I shape and raise a whole ass life. Now I know, it won't be easy but it's a journey. A journey I'll happily go on with my rock. With my everything. With my partner. He showed me that together we can do so much for our future kids. We can show them and teach them so much. I've understood that life would be incomplete for me if I repress my emotions and run away. I want things in my life and I will fight to make them great. I will fight every day to make them better. I will do whatever it takes.

[its-a-hil]

extremely long poem-like excerpt from my diary last may under the read more you should definitely just scroll past it

gonna go to bed now.

i read all of my diary entries from junior year

i am so fucking annoyed by past sahil like god she just… doesn't know so many things about herself i want to give her such a big hug fuck

also stuff with <friend name redacted> and <friend name redacted> and all of that and it's just … really melancholic

also also apparently google decided it's time to just reset all of my google accounts in firefox?????????? very confused ugh

i need to go to sleep

and i need to tell her everything not just bc it would directly improve present me's quality of life, but bc i i want her life to be better i want her to go on e so much earlier fuck please i want her to not be broken i want me to not be broken i want this all to work i want my heart to be functional i want someone to rest their head on my chest and vice versa i want to not have all of this fucking hair on my body i want to never have to worry about what time it is i want to be warm im so cold my head feels stuffy i need to sleep

i know it's never productive to imagine the effect of a single change on my life but but what if i knew what if i watched eva and someone told me shinji was trans codded (assuming i even kin her at all) what if bna was out by that time or if i had played bandori and saw so much of myself in aya and hina and maya or if i had watched monogatari or if i had considered the reasons why i kinned shouma or if or if or if please why does everything in the past always feel so inevitable or a product of chance it's always one of those two

the only reason i watched monogatari was bc of that egoist002 channel putting klk music and also having that katanagatari amv somewhere and even then it took nearly a year for me to start monogatari and another half year to understand that gender was a thing and another two fucking years to be honest with myself god im still so mad about when dad said that he was upset that i said i was in denial when i told him i didnt want hrt like what the fuck im fucking sorry that i, a fucking 19 year old, didnt know what the fuck i was doing with regards to a subject that never made a ton of sense to me maybe transitions like that have to happen slowly because i can't do things instantaneously everything i do is always studying and convincing it looks like the end product comes out instantly, but it doesnt it takes so long i have to workshop everything and the more scared i am the longer it takes i was so scared i am so scared no that's not right im not scared im scared of a lot of other things, but not this im scared of some reactions to it but not it itself how can i be scared how can i fucking be scared of feeling like a person with agency over my life you dont fucking understand dad you either dont know how it feels to coast and hide and conceal your tears from yourself or you just dont seem to process what that means for me i hate cars i hate destinations i want to walk slowly i want to take note of every bird, every flower i want to linger in quiet moments forever i dont want to materially affect the world im too selfish for that i want to stop, and have everything else pause around me i want to watch, and think, and imagine i want to write, and teach, and study i dont want to work i dont want to drive i dont want to make money or use money i dont want to have to interact with it at all in my life why cant i just be why cant i just breathe and drink and eat and run and climb and talk to the people i care about why does everything have to be about money why does anything have to be about money i hate it its all so wrong it ruins even things that i should care about and enjoy i like messing around in spreadsheets but contextualize that as a money spreadsheet and i  will have such a mental block against opening it

where am i i feel like ive lost an important thread right trans

i want bigger breasts i want brighter hair i want to pass barrring that, i want to be unapologetically visible i want kids to see me and think of me as a monster who they have to listen to bc im their teacher i want to tell them about me i want to tell everyone about everything and listen to their everythings too im sorry

why is that it okay i actually need to fall asleep now why am i listening to prince of doom again fuck okay gn i guess bleh

[purplecraze]

Beauty and the Beast AU 33

orange-plane-boy — 11/03/2021 1:33 AM

"Mh...Tomorrow its chirstmas eve thinking about..." he murmred chainging topic

purplecraze — 11/03/2021 1:36 AM

"oh- yeah, it is..... uhm, what should we do? is there any thing you used to do with Mela to celebrate?"

orange-plane-boy — 11/03/2021 1:39 AM

"Before losing our home, if we had some money she used to bake, and if we were lucky we even had meat for dinner" he smiled "At midnight i would open my presents, most of the times it was just winter clothes hidden as a presents, but time to time i would get some toys too; chirstmas was a bit more boring, she mostly would take me to the mass" he laughed "....when we lost our house, we would go eat at the canteen, they give free food on chirstman, they even had little fruit cakes"

purplecraze — 11/10/2021 4:39 PM

"Opening presents at midnight and going to a mass will be pretty difficult.... I mean, you can--....." Fugo thought the rest of that sentence over. "....no.. you can't, I want to be there when you open them." it seems that after last discussion he was just a bit more comfortable with acting selfish.

"uhm... we could make a cake together, aside from the cookies. a fruitcake...

and we could play Christmas carols together, on the harmonica and piano?"

orange-plane-boy — 11/10/2021 4:44 PM

"Its ok, mom was religous, me not so much" he giggled

"We can open presents the chirstmas morning! And playing together sounds fun too!"

purplecraze — 11/10/2021 9:55 PM

Fugo nodded. "Anything else you'd want to do?"

orange-plane-boy — 11/10/2021 9:56 PM

"Mhh..dunno, we dont have a lot of hours before it gets dark" he sighed

"Unless we split things between the eve and chirstmas"

purplecraze — 11/10/2021 9:58 PM

"well, there's no adults around to tell us no. we could also celebrate all days between the 25th and the 6th."

orange-plane-boy — 11/10/2021 9:58 PM

"Ohh true!" He giggled

"A chirstmas week! That sounds so cool!"

purplecraze — 11/10/2021 10:16 PM

The younger chuckled a bit. "Not too sure if I can keep you entertained for so long..."

orange-plane-boy — 11/10/2021 10:20 PM

"Pff its ok" he smiled

Breakfast done he colleceted to plates and left them in the sink

"We can chill too, i like chill with you"

purplecraze — 11/10/2021 10:21 PM

"chill? how?"

orange-plane-boy — 11/10/2021 10:22 PM

"Dunno umh...you could read for me? You have a lot of books but they are too hard for me!"

purplecraze — 11/10/2021 10:27 PM

"oh..." Fugo mused about the possibility, seeming to like the idea a lot.

"uhm... sure~.. what kind of books would you like?"

orange-plane-boy — 11/10/2021 10:28 PM

"Uh- i dont know- i-i didnt really read a lot" he giggled awakrdly looking away

purplecraze — 11/10/2021 10:31 PM

"then uh.... any kind of stories you like?"

orange-plane-boy — 11/10/2021 10:32 PM

"Umh...fairytales maybe..? I-i mean thats what people mean with stories right?" He blushed a bit

purplecraze — 11/10/2021 10:43 PM

he nodded. "Mela used to tell them to you too, right? there should be a few fairytale books around"

orange-plane-boy — 11/10/2021 10:44 PM

"Yes!" He chirped happily

It felt a bit sad that mela raised fugo more than his actuall mother

purplecraze — 11/10/2021 10:46 PM

"then, I'll look up on some. and I could read you a few christmas themed stories this week."

because mela was just that nice, or mrs fugo was such a bad mother, you pick

orange-plane-boy — 11/10/2021 10:47 PM

"Yay!" Narancia sounded actually really happy at the idea, maybe it was him being childish, or maybe he really wants more excuse to spend time with fugo

purplecraze — 11/10/2021 10:50 PM

Fugo was a bit relieved too. he craved Narancia's attention desperately. But he just didn't know how to keep the conversation going or stop it from turning negative and depressing. reading out loud would allow them to spend time without awkwardly fumbling for conversations.

orange-plane-boy — 11/10/2021 10:51 PM

"Umh...if you find something, can we start today? Since we dont have anything to do anyway.."

purplecraze — 11/10/2021 11:04 PM

"-!" fugo held his breath, his cheeks coloring from Narancia's eagerness.

they had agreed to make cookies, but honestly Fugo preferred to do this...

he got up.

"alright. Then meet me in the parlour."

orange-plane-boy — 11/10/2021 11:05 PM

Narancia nodded happily, going to the parlour, he looked happy, almost jumpy and skipping around

purplecraze — 11/10/2021 11:11 PM

the parlour had a comfi and intimate mood to it. after 3 years, the scent of expensive brandy and high class cigars still lingered subtly. the chairs looked comfortable enough to take a nap in and the hearth was burning diligently

orange-plane-boy — 11/10/2021 11:12 PM

"Ohh here its so pretty!" He exclamed sitting in the comfy couch

Indeed it was a nice spot for a nap, he would take note of this

purplecraze — 11/10/2021 11:20 PM

it took some time for Fugo to show up, which was explained when he did show.

"sorry for the wait." he muttered while carrying a stack of books.

orange-plane-boy — 11/10/2021 11:21 PM

"No problem!" He said as he got himself comfy

He glanced the books, even those looked so fancy

purplecraze — 11/10/2021 11:25 PM

"uhm..." and he then realized his error for having too many options, checking between them. "chrismas, christmas...... do you know The Cat on the Dovrefell?"

orange-plane-boy — 11/10/2021 11:26 PM

"Uh nope!" He exclamed

"I know the one that wears boots tho!'

purplecraze — 11/10/2021 11:28 PM

"ah, the puss in boots. they have it too, but let's keep it in the christmas spirit for tonight. also, The Cat on the Dovrefell isn't actually a cat~"

orange-plane-boy — 11/10/2021 11:29 PM

"Uh? Then what it is?" He asked curious, see, it wasnt that hard tk get his attention

purplecraze — 11/10/2021 11:49 PM

Fugo smiled and made himself comfortable in one of the arm chairs, opening the book and reading in a clear voice.

it was a story about a man who had caught a pollar bear and wanted to offer it to the king as a christmas gift. on his journey to the palace, he wanted to spend the night somewhere. but the farm where he asked for shelter had it's inhabitants terrified. every year on christmas eve, trolls would come down the hills and raid their house.

the man still decided to stay in the house, together with his bear. and in the night at 12 am, the trolls came, eating all the food, destroying the furniture and wracking loud havoc.

some of the trolls were convinced that what was sleeping on the ground was the farmer's cat and they started bullying it. but it was actually the pollar bear who went wild and chased all of the trolls out.

the next day when the man continued his journey, he could hear calling in the hills that the other trolls should never go to that farm, because they have this huge feral cat.

orange-plane-boy — 11/10/2021 11:59 PM

"ooh" he giggled "Those trolls must be a bit stuoid to dont see the difference between a cat and a bear....or really drunk"

After saing that he chirped again "My turn now!"

purplecraze — 11/11/2021 12:01 AM

"there was a lot of beer involved, I'll bet~

hm?" he lay the book down on the table, having had assumed that Narancia would have prefered to listen over reading. "Alright. which will you read?"

orange-plane-boy — 11/11/2021 12:12 AM

"Ah! i dont have to read it i have it all here!" and pointed his head.

"Ok so the story its named Snow White and Rose Red! But its not that snow white, its another one. but there is two bears here too...Anyway!"

he got back in track

"ok...So, once upon a time there were two sisters, one was blonde and shy, she liked to read and bake, the other was brunette and outspoken and she loved to play outside the house. They lived alone with their mom. one cold winter night two big bears knock at the door, asking the girls if they could rest there for the winter since they didnt found a place to hy..hibernate..?

so the girls and their mom took  care of the bears for the whole winter and became friends with them!

as spring started, the bear leaved, telling the to watch out for the evil dwarf. and indeed they found the dwarf some days later, his beard stuck in a tree, the girls cutted it to free him, but the dwarf started to attack the girls! But then the bears saved them! and umh, turned into a princes somehow...? because the dwarf cursed them...?

A-Anyway they got married and lived happy ever after!"

purplecraze — 11/11/2021 12:15 AM

Fugo laughed. "that's very cute~" also because he could sort of see Narancia's train of thought to how he remembered this story and how the girls' personality seemed slightly familiar.

orange-plane-boy — 11/11/2021 12:28 AM

"It is!" he smiled

"Your turn again!"

purplecraze — 11/12/2021 12:25 PM

Fugo had a soft smile on his face as he took one of the books once more and browsed it.

He found one and started reading a story about a snow queen who had send hail to bewitch a boy. the hail had pierced his heart and had frozen it, making him treat his childhood friend badly. right after that, he disapeared.

despite the childhood friend having been treated badly, she set out to safe him.

she experienced a bunch of adventures, like an old lady inviting her in her house but wouldn't let her go and made her lose her memories. or her meeting a prince who resembled her friend and who gave her a carriage to ride in and continue her search. and the carriage got attacked by bandits and the girl was captured. but the daughter of the bandit leader liked her and helped her escape.

when she told the daughter what had happened, she could tell her the snow queen must have put a spell on her, and that her friend hadn't been mean to her because he disliked her.

the daughter gave her a reindeer to ride further and she eventually found the snow queen's castle.

the snow queen was bullying the boy and making him clean her ice palace, which slowly made him freeze all over.

the girl found him in the end, but the boy was cold to her and didn't recognize her. still, she refused to let go of him and cried warm tears. some of the tears fell on his heart and thawed the hail that had frozen it.

together, they escaped the castle on the reindeer's back and went home

orange-plane-boy — 11/12/2021 12:54 PM

There was something about Fugo's voice that sounded just right, it was clean and smooth and overall Narancia enjoyed it, giving him some sort of comfort.

"Thats one its really pretty" he smiled "Im glad they got back home safe!"

He then thinked a bit about the next story to tell

purplecraze — 11/12/2021 12:55 PM

"you know any more? I can read you another if you'd prefer?"

orange-plane-boy — 11/12/2021 1:13 PM

"I know one more! Its not really chirstmas-y, but mom used to tell me this a lot" he smiled

"So, once upon a time a little girl; she lived with her evil step mother and sister in a poor little house; the step mother would make the poor girl do all the house work, but she was really kind and never complained.

One of the tasks she had to do was go in the forest to the river and wash all her sister and step mom clothes.

One day as she was doing this, she found a poor naked old lady trying to wash a dress covered in tick mud.

The girl offered to help her, and she scrubbed, scrubbed and scrubbed for hours, till no mud was left!

The old lady thanked her and wore the dress, turning into a young beautiful fairy!

She smiled at the girl and to thank her she casted a spell on her! Everytime she laughed, diamonds would fall from her mouth, and everytime she was sad, she would cry pearls.

The girl happily got back home, leaving a trail of diamons on her way back.

When she got home she said 'mom! A fairy blessed me!'

But the woman was jealous, so she yelled at her daughter 'go in the forest and find a fairy and get blessed too'

In the forest the step sister found the old lady too, but when the ladt asked for help, the girl, who was super mean and lazy was like 'old hag cant you see im waiting for a fairy?!'

The old lady got mad, because fairies are really petty, and turned into her real form, scaring the girl and then cursed her, than everytime she would hichup toads and frogs would jump off her mouth!

The mean step sister got back home crying, and so she hickhupped, leaving a trail of frog behind.

Meanwhile, the king, that was in the forest to hunt, found a trail of diamonds, and following it she found the kind little girl, suprised of her gift and since his wife, the queen, never had babies, decided to adopt her, so she lived happy in her castel, not having to do hard work anymore"

purplecraze — 11/12/2021 1:18 PM

"Ah, I know a similar story, I think this is a variety of Mother Hulda? it's a German fairy tale."

orange-plane-boy — 11/12/2021 1:22 PM

"Maybe! This version is how my mom used to tell me" he smiled, at this point he was laying down on the couch instead of sitting

[dekusleftsock]

Yeah but.. bro I honestly don’t believe this is burying your gays.

It’s the same reason the Katsuki death DIDNT. MAKE. SENSE. It’s the SAME THING.

Their endings don’t make sense with their characters at all! Toga has always been a character that lived in defiance of tragedy, why would it make sense for her to die? That goes DIRECTLY AGAINST the message of her character! That you are not TRAGIC for being DIFFERENT! There are people who will love you, and we need to create a world in which we can all exist!

Katsuki’s arc also never made sense which is why I KNEW he would live! Izuku and him still have thoughts and emotions that need to be talked about and ADDRESSED. He still has to talk to allmight, izuku can’t live in a world without him. Make it make SENSE.

Actually you don’t even have to make it make sense, he’s still part of the land of the living, he’s being saved by edgeshot, jeanist, and wash.

And the sacrifice ITSELF makes sense to have. You need both so, hey, why not a fake death? A character everyone has seen do selfish things for selfish reasons, becomes selfless in the name of their love.

A character everyone has seen be selfless over and over again is selfish in the name of their love.

For Katsuki and izuku, it would ofc be Katsuki going into heroics solely to win/be the best/get the money, only to learn to sacrifice to win for his childhood friend that was always sacrificing for others. The one he was SUPPOSED TO HATE.

For toga and ochako, toga is selfish with her love in every way possible. She is cannibalistic, a deviant, she took what she wanted because she didn’t see another way she could be free. And then ends up sacrificing herself, GIVING blood instead of taking it, for the one she loves. And ochako could have very well defeated toga, killed her even. She could have stabbed toga in the back the second she had the chance to and all the suffering toga was causing would’ve been OVER.. but she didn’t. Ochako acted selfishly so that she could save one person over the rest of the heroes (notice how while toga was causing chaos she never thought or cared about how Izuku was dealing with the clones lmao)

Notice how the selfishness and selflessness for Katsuki and Izuku vs Ochako and toga are flipped. In bkdk’s case, Katsuki sacrifices before Izuku is selfish. In togachakos case, Ochako is selfish before Toga sacrifices.

And what do you know, bakugou fucking LIVES. Incapacitated? Yes, but he’s ALIVE. This story isn’t some tragic sapphic love story, it lives in DEFIANCE of the tragic tropes that queer antagonists have always had.

And it literally tells you this in 393, where she DIRECTLY REJECTS the idea of being any of the villain names they give her. Carmilla, the tragic sapphic love story, being one of them.

IF, AND I MEAN IF, horikoshi was ever going to do a bury your gays moment, he would have already done so with bakugou. But yet he lives, and I don’t know how Toga will live but she will. It IS a win.

Togachako shippers I love you but yall should probably stop acting like a blatant example of the bury your gays trope is a win

"She sacrificed herself for her it proves their love was real!" or she could have lived and they could have become a couple. That would have proven that too, man.

[flower-zombie-rob]

This my friends is what you call reading way too far into something you hate

If you dont like jse, fair enough. But you dont have to shove into the main tag that you think hes an evil malicious knieving clout chaser for... doing a charity event??

Youre upset because a man who held a charity event is sad he didnt reach the goal... what? You are upset, because he mentioned feeling sad that his charity event didnt reach the goal? Wouldnt you be? If you held your own chariry event and set and goal that wasnt reached would you really be saying you wouldnt feel an ounce of dissapointment?

And this is way overanalysing one sentance. "I wish that bigger youtubers had participated to help out with my charity event, some who said that they would chose not to" is not the same as "boo hoo other charity events did better than mine boo hoo i want money". he didnt even mention the other youtubers charity streams like teamseas and matpats saint jude stream, for all we know there could easily have been like massive youtubers who said theyd endorse it and just didnt show any sort of support for anyones charity events. He couldve been showing some shade to felix, his personal friend, for not getting involved in the charity stream. He couldve been referancing anyone but your mind jumps straight to the worse-case scenario because you dislike someone and their fandom. And he didnt moan and whine about not hitting the goal to guilt trip the audience, he just states hes still proud of the amount they have but it doesnt match some targets theyve hit in the past and he feels some people he was in contact with about it didnt contribute as much as they couldve.

Get off your high horse and stop overanalysing people who are just talking about their feelings. And clickbait? Youre really complaining about clickbait as if mo other youtuber but sean has done a clickbait new years video? CRANKGAMEPLAYS LITTERALLY MADE A VIDEO CALLED "GOODBYE" THAT LOOKS LIKE AN "IM QUITTING YOUTUBE" VIDEO TO SAY GOODBYE TO 2021. I could easily overanalyse everything marliplier says in his videos and make him out like a selfish awful person, or twist crankgameplays words to make him a malicious evil person if i didnt like him. Why even put this in the main jse tag unless you yourself are "clout chasing" like you claim he is. I could easily twist your intentions as much as you can twist recontextualised words in his videos.

How about you just leave the "jse stannies" alone and get on with your life. If you dont like jse or its fandom, dont watch his videos amd dont interract with his fandom. Im not a fan of shane dawson and i hate his fandom, am i going to start posting in their tag about it? No. Because i dont like him and i have better things to do with my time than ruin some shane dawson stans day. Dont post in his tag if youre so above him and his fandom. Just go on with life and enjoy stuff rather than hate watching and stirring up shit.

And im not even going to put this on the persons post because im just so done with people who randomly love to twist peoples words when they havent done anything wrong. People really are giving this man more evil credit than hes probably capable of.

Im so baffled on hos someone can do a charity event and youre mad at people because they donated to charity. I mean come on man. Be better.