#but i just cant help but wonder

[wiltking]

i try not to talk about my family much here but over the past few years my dad has fallen hard down the alt right violent conservative pipeline (russian edition. which is really the same thing as extreme US right wingers) and i just cant remove myself from knowing how deeply and increasingly focused that movement is on anti-trans rhetoric and what type of shit he must be listening to day in and day out every day. because thats all he does. and sometimes it makes me angry, sometimes sad. sometimes afraid for reasons i wont get into. but every time i see a new clip, a new article, promoting casual, passive, intentional violence against trans people i have to think about him and what he might be thinking about me. but thats a slippery spiral even on the best of days so im gonna go back to drawing and writing the most unabashedly transsexual visciously transgender unapologetic tranny faggot art i can squeeze out of my body because its all i can do. its really, genuinely, all i can do to keep my sanity and peace and my life held together by my own terms

[shiraoyagi]

hot take ??

the only reason people say that "mafuyu and tsukasa have nothing in common" when presented with mafukasa parallels is because they equate mafuyu and tsukasa being similar to "tsukasa has depression" because the fandom equates mafuyu's personality to being depressed and nothing else.

it doesn't help that people (primarily younger people in the fandom) who DO believe in mafukasa parallels end up making the mistake of portraying tsukasa as depressed because as of right now he is not (although it's possible he was in past because of his Very Unclear Middle School Backstory but that's irrelevant)

anyways, mafuyu and tsukasa are narrative foils because their core personalities are built off of the concept of wanting to make the people around them— especially their families— happy.

they both developed personalities at a young age based on someone they looked up to. for tsukasa, it was seiichi amami's performance that inspired him to be a star— a hero that could cheer anyone up. for mafuyu, it was her mother taking care of her that inspired her to be a nurse— and you can see the similarities from there.

for mafuyu, her identity would first come into conflict when her mother expressed her want for mafuyu to be a doctor— suddenly, "everyone's" happiness didn't match what she wanted to do, leaving her in a state of disorder and eventual depression.

for tsukasa, his identity was something he nearly forgot in its entirety at the start of the main story— becoming arrogant and fully absorbed in a hero persona, forgetting the kind person he truly is. furthermore, his current character arc seems to be foreshadowing that what "being a star" to him is going to be called into question— maybe it is something more than just being the main character that saves everyone.

their insecurities are incredibly similar.

in mafuyu's first mixed, mafuyu feels insecure towards ichika because unlike ichika, she feels as if her lyrics have no genuine meaning to be expressed to other people— despite them being her very real feelings. this is brought up again in her second mixed as well.

in tsukasa's third focus event, something similar happens. when watching seiichi's performance, he thinks that his acting is "real" and feels inferior towards him, which is ironic because tsukasa has been method acting this whole time. when tsukasa is acting out rio or bartlett or really anyone at this point in the story, it's not just those characters— it's a reflection of his traumas.

just like mafuyu, tsukasa undermines his passions he's poured his feelings into because someone else's work is more genuine in his eyes.

now, then, foils have many similarities and parallels (and i could honestly list a lot more), but how i define them is that they usually have some kind of major branching difference that MAKES them foils.

for mafuyu and tsukasa it's pretty straightforward.

mafuyu's people pleasing behavior comes from external expectations and pressures— her mother's demands.

tsukasa's people pleasing behavior comes internally, from himself— if he can't meet his own standards, if he can't be the perfect big brother or the perfect star, then he is nothing.

and even then, there's some overlap.

tsukasa's behavior was indirectly encouraged by his mother praising him for being a "good big brother" over the phone instead of asking him if he was okay while home alone.

mafuyu's terrified to be herself around other people because she doesn't want to worry or bother them— she doesn't want to be a burden— and projects her mother's expectations onto them, not realizing that they would prefer the real mafuyu if they knew the truth.

and the concept of mafukasa being foils is most perfectly and blatantly portrayed in these two cards.

mafuyu, the marionette, sitting limp on the floor— puppeteered by her mother's demands and donning a mask to hide her true self.

tsukasa, the jester, standing above everything else— puppeteering silenced plushies— his feelings. he's not being completely honest with himself, and he doesn't even realize it.

mafuyu has cut her strings and ripped her mask in half. she has acknowledged her true feelings and expressed them to her mother, even if she had to run away in the end.

tsukasa has not yet cut his.

[ryssbelle]

N2 Floyd in the first movie

Sad little man got himself captured :(

He also gets punched in the face, but that's neither here nor there lmao

Also sorry for not posting for a fat minute I've been busy XD

Bonus: What John and Branch be doing

RIP in pieces John Dory, you were a brave troll and will be missed

I've got some more doodles of them going through it in the first movie, maybe we will see them soon teehee .

[star-spangled-man]

this is me when billie hits those notes in chihiro and the greatest if you even care

[sunlit-mess]

sick(?)

[rudeboimonster]

~help your local rat get stable housing~

edit post nov 2023: I GOT THE HELP I NEEDED THANK YOU SOSOOSO MUCH

dramatically sprawled out on the floor

so i gotta move for the third time in that many years. unfortunately between health problems and the General State of The Economy, I have been unable to find work to be able to save any money. i have no choice but to leave the entire state. i thankfully have somewhere to go, however I need help getting there. i've been trying to do the math to get what I need to its lowest amount possible, but even that is still at least $2.5k.

after this move, i should be able to get things more stable and I might even have a couple job prospects lined up in that area, but right now I'm really scraping the bottom of the barrel funds wise and desperately need help.

if you're able to spare anything, i've set up a goal through kofi so i can track it publicly. i have trouble asking for help but i really need what help i can get. thank you, so so so much.

[altschmerzes]

if the only time you bring up A Secret Third Thing is when someone has suggested generally celebrating or uplifting platonic/queerplatonic fictional relationships in spaces that ordinarily obsess about romantic ones to the exclusion of all else perhaps consider why you’re doing that and also stop.

[buwheal]

godddd when autism is a disorder that effects me ?! blasphemous.

[spineless-lobster]

The way thanatos watches the styx because he sees it as competition, especially because it brings zagreus back instead of him and the way patroclus sits by the lethe fighting the urge to drink his sorrows away and failing on occasion is something that can be soooooo personal

[a-crystalclearsquid]

AM I READING THIS RIGHT?

AM I INTERPRETING THIS RIGHT??!?!?!?!?!?!?@?@?

SOMEONE ACTUALLY TELL ME IF IM WRONG AND THIS IS ME BEING DELUSIONAL

[yeonbam]

I was giggling about how joke was STARVING. said that "yes" to "will you be my boyfriend" already halfway through that kiss like OK GODDAMNNN.

but then I made myself sad thinking about just how much he probably thought, at many points throughout that very day, that this moment wouldn't happen, that he wouldn't get to see Jack again, or ask him who he likes. like he was ready to throw away his whole life into stealing Jack's freedom and that was ALL he wanted, not daring to dream of anything more, not thinking of himself worth, not believing his feelings were returned to that extent.

the light way he said "I almost died today" at the end of the day was dismissed as a joke (another disguise) but the weight of truth within those words was SO LOUD. A confession is literally woven into the unsaid bit��� "I almost died today...(for you)" because he truly did almost die for jack. Something could've happened the Very First moment when he was spying on the house, something worse could've happened inside that ice box, something even worse could've happened in that dinner room full of powerful big names, and in the end, without Nang, there's no saying if he would make it alive. he let all his friends out early, even prepared his last wish and said it to hoy, he was READY to die but returned from its gates, victorious.

of course he couldn't wait. he never thought that moment would come and now that it did, he couldn't let it slip away lest it is Another dream he loses grip on.

[felassan]

this post is just some info on yesterday's DA:TV Fandom party at SDCC. :>

What was this party? [Here] is a post with the pre-event information that was made available. [Here] is a pre-event article that contains an interview with the organizer. And [this article] on the event contains some additional information, like on the versions of this party held in previous years, which helps for context. There was no new DA:TV information of note from the party

Links to Fandom (the company's) Twitter account, their Instagram. If you look at these (including on the Instagram Stories), you can see some pictures and stuff from the party. for those interested in watching a video version of some of these, Ghil Dirthalen posted a video recording that she made last night of Fandom the company's Instagram posts [here]. there are also more pictures and stuff from the party that you can see if you click through to [some of] the source links below here in the rest of this post.

As was previously reported the other week, Jason Derulo headlined the party (like as in a gig). Here's an image of him there [source] (the him singing DA stuff part was a joke tho btw hh). They considered having an orchestra because of DA's musical score but they got Jason Derulo

One of the party props was a big background of the DA:TV key art [source]. Here you can see the DA:TV logo on another backdrop. [source] This tweet contains both of these backdrops from a different angle

There was also an archway prop based on this DA:TV key art, and big screens which projected images from the game (including of Varric and this screenshot) [source]. It looks like these images were also projected to television screens? [source]

This tweet contains the questions and the answers to the DA-themed scavenger hunt (transcription of this at the end of this post), as well as a partial look at the map layout of the party

This is how photos taken in the DA themed photo booth look (this DA:TV screenshot was the backdrop) [source]

There was a VIP section at the party [source]. Gary McKay, the General Manager of BioWare, was there [source], as were John Epler and Zach Mendez (Lucanis) [source], Ali Hillis (Harding) [source], Nick Boraine (Emmrich) [source], Kari a BioWare Brand Director [source], Jessica Clark (Neve) [source] and Corinne Busche [source]. Erika Ishii (Rook) also visited but got kicked out of VIP hh [source]. Some cosplayers from the DA community were also personally invited by BioWare & PR at EA Games and attended! like Ladytoxie as Bellara ^^ [source, two], and some celebrities also, such as Doug Jones [source]

Ladytoxie mentioned that they will be posting a Vlog of their experience and coverage of the event, "probably next week" [source], having documented it at the time [source] (tysm!!)

Ladytoxie reported that it was a good, memorable experience and that everyone was lovely [source]

There was supposed to be some DA:TV-related pins and lanyards being handed out at the party, but these got stuck at customs, so there wasn't any goodies being handed out [source]

Links to some more images from the party: [one], [two], [three]

Scavenger hunt text (questions and answers) transcription:

"Clue 1: Step up to spot the flames where Fandom's 20-year tale burns bright, celeberate twenty years of worldbuilding where this terrifying Dragon Age wiki takes flight. Answer: Archdemon Clue 2: Follow the path and find the shining blue gem, discover the wiki of this Dragon Age elven hedge mage for your chance to win! Answer: Solas Clue 3: Search for the place where steel balls ricochet, where the flippers dance and the wizards gather to play. Find the wiki of a dwarf and son from the House of Tethras, known as a Dragon Age rogue with his crossbow, Bianca. Answer: Varric Clue 4: Venture to where 360 degree views are spun, where fans share your favorite #/fandom20 with props that are comically fun. Scan the QR code to reveal this order of warriors who defeat the Blight, and with the invasion of darkspawn, they put up a legendary fight. Answer: Grey Wardens Clue 5: Finish your scavenger hunt quest where Dragon Age lore comes alive, a photo booth adventure where fantasies thrive. Pose in a setting of this wiki's southern continent vast, two moons overhead, in a world built to last. Answer: Thedas"

[source]

[bericas]

isaac & scott / mason & theo | sometimes all i think about is you

[meterrrvolt]

years in despair

[daisybell-on-a-carousel]

"Jason was the happy robin" this, "jason was the angry robin" that. Let's all be fully honest here Jason was the lonely robin

[sunshineandlyrics]

You will not believe the nerve of this fan ..

This fan and her sister were staying at the same hotel Louis was staying at in Santiago, Chile from 23 - 25 May 2024, hoping to see him there.

She made 3 tiktok videos to explain that one of Louis' security guards harassed and intimidated her.

She said her sister had never been to the hotel before and so they went exploring within the hotel on Thursday 23 May 2024.

They were walking around the common areas and apparently got the floor 1 (Louis' floor) by accident (she mentions that the hotel’s elevator card is supposed to only let you go to your floor but somehow they managed to go to this floor). So they walked for a bit and when they were going back they found two guys coming down from the elevator (it seems like they didn’t know they were Louis’ bodyguards at the moment but I think they knew).

The guys were alerted and started questioning them about why they were there and said they will report it to the hotel. The fans said there was no need, that they were leaving anyways and apparently one of the bodyguards (one that speaks Spanish) insisted on going with them to make sure they were back in their room. The fan doing the videos thought it was too dangerous so she refused (she said she felt harassed) and she will report it to the police if they didn’t let them go. She helped her sister get into an elevator alone and then she left for the lobby with the bodyguard following her. Once in the lobby he spoke with someone from the hotel and I guess he left because then she went to her room.

The fans later asked to talk with some people from the hotel to report the bad attitude and they were expecting a better response. The hotel said it was a situation between guests, that they would make a report just to have it written somewhere but that they didn’t recommend going to the police because it might get the fans in trouble for going to a floor they were not allowed in.

Oh, and she apparently met another fan who mentioned that this same guard has had other “aggressive” encounters with fans so she wants others to stay safe.

Thank you @timetohealit for the English translations.

Part 1 x

Part 2 x

Part 3 x

Another person in Santiago chimed in about what happened at the hotel on Friday 24 May 2024 x:

*subway = hotel's underground parking