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Happy 1 year anniversary to Mr Sherlock Holmes! Here's a litttleee celebratory comic from me
#sherlock & co#sherlock and co#writing these tags on the 29th of september#which is when john and sherlock ACTUALLY met <3#so there you go#uh once again shout out to candy for letting me talk through some of my processes#it helps immensely and i really wanted to be sure i was getting across what i wanted to with this one#speaking of which - usually i yap a lot in the tags of these bcus i love talking about art#for this one...im not sure i want to comment too much#because i'll be here forever and i think most things can speak for themself#but let me say this one thing#for the first five pages i was drawing john on paper and sherlock on the computer exclusively#and then bringing them together..#uh it really made me think of paul and harry. recording on opposite sides of the world. brought together by the power of editing#its not a particularly emotional scene but i hope ive infused it with. something.#anyway thats it from me#if u want to ask about any particular aspect i would love to yap about the process but i'll just leave it here for now or i'll never shut u#happy 1 year podpals#patsart#oh yeah i will say i did have to take quite a bit of liberty with the audio in order to do what i wanted. forgive me#or dont idc
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I really do think looking at bad writing is one of the best ways to learn about writing in general, especially for beginners.
the thing is, writing in general is highly subjective- a good sentence will be good in different ways to different people, or not impress someone at all.
a bad sentence? most people can spot bad sentences easy, especially if it is presented to them as 'here's an example of a bad sentence, let's unpack why.'
bad writing can also be very funny, which I think is again often more engaging than 'here's a work of literary genius go analyze it'. Like here's some bad writing from lightlark3:
The moment it was out of Horus’s grip, his body became bones. The flesh turned to ash. He became a corpse.
it's dumb as hell, but I think could foster a solid discussion when you ask 'why? what is the author intending to say? what about it makes it feel 'clunky'? How would you write the same idea?'
#truly pointless posting of just. thoughts in me head#“of course you'd say that guy who has a special interest in bad writing” okay but I think it's true#thinking about chatgpt and writing and just going 'goddamn I wish I could help the youth with writing bc it can be so fun'#'analytical skills are so important in general especially with writing and reading and I think this is a fun good way to introduce that'#I don't do full on breakdowns of examples of bad writing that much in reviews vs more in context talk...#but I do hope I do a good job of trying to explain my thoughts and how I got there and how things can be viewed from many angles and not ju#t that things are bad but why. sometimes I feel very repetative when I explain stuff but then i think what if my vid is the first time#someone is exposed to some concept. I don't want them to learn 'this trope sucks' i want them to know why and how it fails and what it is#i guess....... rambles. I don't think I could be a teacher esp not go to uni again but its a thing I've always been passionate about#bc I have this dumb naive idea I can communicate with people and help them understand things#I also just want to be a positive influence on people's lives. idc online but I used to co-run dnd for mixed age group#and I enjoyed being that aspect of 'after school club adult'. I didn't have a lot of adult support as a kid so it's nice to be that!
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More than just the Demon.
#ffxiv#digital art#zenos yae galvus#venat#endwalker spoilers#will forever be fascinated with this man#look guys look- the literal embodiment of wol's wings of hope LOL (and me going hehe about that and footfalls)#the part of me that adores digging into the nuance of character writing (intentional or otherwise) is just latched onto zenos#and venat-- they cant just give us two characters who get really important 1v1 duels#and ask really important questions#and love the MC and are willing to risk themselves so unconditionally#and have them not live rent free in my brain#--and maybe this tiptoes into the realm of crack theory so beware there will be a lot past here--#but I cant help but think zenos is akin to an oracle or warrior of light but was tempered/corrupted by zodiark#or some strange happenstance of varis (who shares visual traits to golbez before 6.0 ever came out and the dark mana burst)#and carosa (who it seems zenos got his looks from- and he already looks like he has ties to venat and argos like minfillia does)#was he a result of the eternal chess match between the two parties' machinations? or just some strange twist of fate?#another day of him being “emet's successful experiment” (again- intentional or no) making me thonk#theres something so strange about the final days dreams and how dark aspected he is- that his void abilities are more tied to him tbh#yet his mannerisms beyond just what he's been through almost reminds me of light corruption and the uncanny calmness#we see in most beings associated with the light in any significant way and like second phase eden shiva#he almost has all the marks of someone who shouldve already had the echo or blessing of light but for one reason or another#was unable to hear hydaelyns call#of course it doesnt help i mentally associate him with connections to zero and how she was corrupted before she was even born#and durante- who states uncanny ability and connection with light and darkness and yet favors dark magic more#i simply live with the idea that zenos' soul was an eternally faithful companion to wol's and#this time the cardinal sin of separating the pair finally happened to rather dire consequences lmao
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One of the things that makes me feel crazy on DMC5 replays is the way V phrases his request to Dante.
He doesn't say "we need your help to stop the demon." He says "A powerful demon is about to resurrect, and we need your help, Dante." The implication seems to be that V needs Dante's help to stop it...but if you've played it before, that's not what he's really asking. V needs Dante's help in order for the resurrection to take place. Because until Urizen is weakened V has no chance of rejoining him, so he needs Dante's help to weaken Urizen so he's primed for merging and bringing about Vergil's resurrection. The "we" V refers to could also absolutely be both V and Urizen in that case, instead of just some general "we" of humanity. So he's not really asking for help to stop the resurrection, but instead to bring it about, hiding the truth in plain sight and careful wording.
The DMC 5 localization can be wonky in some places, but in other places it just shines. "We need your help, Dante." Not to stop it. He never says that. It's to bring about the resurrection itself.
#dmc#dmc5#devil may cry#i will never be over this#the first time i noticed it i just about lost my mind#you see the first time i experienced DMC5 was through watching someone else's playthrough. so the first time i played it myself i already-#-knew the plot. Which means when I got to that scene in my own playthrough I had to basically put down the controller and flail bc#man!!!! man!!!! that phrasing!!!!!!!!!!!#this is also something i've latched onto for characterization of both v and vergil as being good at half truths and wordplay#yeah there's the poetry aspect but v doesn't just do it with poetry. there's the way he phrases it here too#it's not a lie. v does need dante's help.#he just puts it in a way that he knows dante will interpret one way even though he really means it in another#and i love it#man i'm really going to miss v but if they make dmc6 i hope they give vergil some of his characterization/character traits#vergil is a different character technically but they share a base so he can totally have some of those traits!!!!#erurandomness#erubabbles
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how to connect with lucifer ? he’s such a revered figure that I feel there’s a wall between us
he comes across that way, doesn't he? well, i'll be the first to say that the wall is our making, not his. i put him so far above me that i thought there is no way he would want to associate with me but lucifer is a breaker of barriers, of chains, of limitations. he lives in the in-between, the morning star.
i would say to find the aspect of him that you wish to connect with. he is extremely multi-faceted and has mythology of all colors, has all kinds of stories and understandings. there is something of him that draws you to him, focus on that. is it the light he brings? is it the infernal / demonic force of him? is it the roman god that called the stars home? or the angel that rebelled against an oppressive force?
once you identify what part of him you want to connect with, start connecting. i suggest doing this way because he represents so many things that it feels like a lot and that can be overwhelming.
here's what i did: i lit a candle for him ( lightbringer, yanno? ) and told him that i would like to connect with him. that's all i did in the beginning. no spell, no incantation, just an honest request.
after that, i would find offerings to give (things that i associated with the aspect of him i was trying to connect with or things that just made me think of lucifer or just a cup of water when that's all i had. ) or i would pray to him. i suggest you do the same. there are demonic chants you can do or prayers but honestly, i never got much into that. lucifer and i have a big UPG relationship. you can journal and tell him how you represented the aspect you're trying to connect to that day. for example, if you're into the illumination of knowledge then perhaps you tell him of the things you're interesting in learning and how you're going to go about doing them. this becomes a devotional act and he will see this.
connecting with an entity, in my experience, is not akin to some huge incredibly movements of religious ecstasy or anything like that. it is very much the little things. i see lucifer in the sunsets, i see him in the dove coos, i see him in the apples i offer him, i see him in my learning and education, i see him in my self-love, i see him in my strength to stand up for myself and in all this, i am connecting with him.
i trust that he is there because he has shown me is through signs, miracles, and associations.
he is the lightbrighter. he will meet you where you are in the dark and he will guide you to illumination. you need only ask him.
if you have more questions or are unsure about something, feel free to ask! i know i'm not very active on the blog but i am around a lot!
EDIT: i also wrote this VERY LONG ask about him too. it might have some insights for you too.
#lucifer#lucifer devotion#lucifer worship#a lot of ppl have said that he's someone who wont take shit which is Very True in my opinion#he doesnt like wishy-washy attitudes and he doesn't want to waste time but he is a lot more caring and tender-hearted tho than other demons#but if you're not serious abt it then he's not going to hang around waiting for you to GET serious & he might actually make u get serious#he'll put a light under ur ass so hot you'll see why he is the prince of hell#imo ... IMO#SOME SAY he also fatherly... i DO NOT see him like that he is much more brotherly to me but if u have issues w father figures? could be smt#if lucifer is too much ... try satan! he's similar in aspects and some put the two together ( i dont )#satan is much more approachable and familiar and fun to be around again IMO#so much of this is IN MY OPINION#hope this helped! im always down to talk about my gods#valentine be normal about lucifer challenge ... impossible
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Ok big weekend for my studying because the last practice test was like. Technically you are supposed to fail and just get a sense of what the test is like. But this practice test is real shit, "you've been studying and you should know how to answer a lot of this stuff by now" level, even if I'm not done with the courses in full. So. Yeah.
#also i'm technically behind on my super accelerated schedule so that's fun 😭#though this test should help me narrow in on what things i need to focus on#and hopefully help me regain some ground by marking off some aspects as not particularly relevant#maybe. i hope. it's complicated.#work#ladyluscinia
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in other news: doctors (of the psychiatric variety) and therapists love me. got invited to participate in yet another study lol
#I know I'm making it out to be a funny thing here but it means a lot to me that my bullshit excuse of a life is of use somehow#I used to donate blood but then I had to start taking medication every day so I'm no longer allowed to do that. nor bone marrow or organs#which.. I get. before it was lithium for a few years now I'm back on anti-seizure meds bc that's the other treatment option for bipolar#(the kinder one imo bc being on lithium sucked ass. between the potential for organ damage and the thyroid issue and the tremors and#the limitations on what medication I could take during migraine episodes.. just not fun whatsoever)#but yeah. love to be studied lol#first it was cell phone usage behaviour and such being tracked for two years#then it was a study abt the effects of covid and resulting isolation on mentally ill ppl I guess idk it was a while ago#then there was that lithium study with the fancy equipment/spool thingie they shipped in from a university abroad for those MRIs#idk I just like contributing to what will hopefully at some point become the basis for some positive change#I often feel like I'm not as hopeful a person these days but this is definitely me investing in the future#if not mine then that of others. could still crash and burn but at least I'm still trying.#and who knows. mayne when I die some day I'll be able to donate my body to science too#don't get me wrong. I'd also love to just rot somewhere in a forest but that's expensive. and if it could help science then why not#not like I'm gonna miss by body when I'm gone. we don't have the tightest of bonds anyhow. just trudging along. two parts of.. something#if my body vacated the premises tomorrow and I was left out in the void where all things non-physical live I don't think I'd mind either#anyway. it's too late and I'm too sleepy to continue this line of thinking even if I do feel a yearning for that disconnect#but I'll leave that wish fulfillment to my dreaming hours. just like those lofty fantasies I've had about about other aspects of life#a day in the life of..#today we breathe and tomorrow we figure out the rest of life. one step at a time#(always we as in the me and the body. sometimes.. once in a blue moon the two align near perfectly and I get a glimpse#of what I might have been or been able to have had all thst shitTM not happened to me. but alas.. sth sth crying over spilt milk)#I will dream and we will rest and maybe tomorrow I'll pick myself up again and finally go bouldering again even if I feel weak and sad#even if I feel much too old to still be around. and too young to feel this tired. oh well. one day at a time
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I don't talk about my spiritual worldveiw type stuff because I have been a wholehearted athaist from a very very young age and have a lot of emotions about it so i feel like I have a hard time being articulate about the subject and come off as an asshole or as disrespectful (mostly because the idea of a god really grates on the autism part of my brain and I can get irrationally irritated because it just. Doesn’t compute.). Which is a shame because I do like talking about it.
#val chats#I think atheism is really really cool and it actually makes me really happy that there's not a god or a divine plan or anything like that#we're just here!! like though this beautiful miracle of cosmic chance a rock landed in a sunbeam#in conditions so perfect we've never found another planet like it#and there was life!! and one aspect of that life became so complex it was able to perceive itself#and then we made societies and took care of each other and made beautiful and terrible things and advanced and advanced and advanced#just by learning from eachother!#we made vaccines and art and all of that good stuff#and one of those things is ME#like. wow. holy shit. we exist for no reason at all and still i got made and get to experience all of it#how lucky are we#idk it feels less special to me if it was on purpose#the fact that i met the love of my life due to a string of random acts that meant that thousands of pairs of humans had children together#in an unbroken line all the way back to before we were humans the way we would think of today#and now she exists!!!! as a result of that!!! shes here!! and for the same reason im here!!!#and because we were lucky enough to be these self perceiving creatures we need to feel like our lives have meaning!! and so we find meaning#in the fact that we love eachother!! and we love eachother because we're animals and it helps us survive#so many ways it could have turned out and the world turned out this way#it makes me sad when people talk about atheism like its something thats like. always grimly scientific or rationalist#or something ppl who believe in it wish wasnt true#its that way for some for sure but thats never been the way I've felt about it#atheism for me is this tremendously exciting artistic thing that fills me with love and hope and makes me so so greatful to be alive#rejoice!!!! we're just here!!! nothing after!! no plan!! we are animals!!! just animals!! and we've done so much!!! we'll do so much more!!
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there are so many reasons to work out besides looking different btw
#not saying that working out for aesthetic reasons is inherently bad#but working out completely changes my perception of my body even with zero visible change!#it happens even before I notice more strength or stamina!#just taking intentional time to work on my physical well-being reminds me that my body is for function not aesthetics#and that this is maintenance that I'm choosing to do and choosing to have fun with#it's also not just going to the gym (although that does help with consistency)#hikes also do this! so does dancing or swimming!#tldr: who knew that moving your body intentionally and having fun about it is great for mental as well as physical health#this is like remembering that drinking water helps me not feel like trash. embarrassing frankly.#reminder to self#and also. I hope everyone can find some form of physical activity they enjoy that is accessible to them. it helps!!#and this is *just* touching on the mental aspect because that's what I always notice first!#there are so many other good reasons that aren't based on hating one's appearance!#like being as strong and as mobile as poasible as long as possible#and having bones that are less likely to break#and less risk of injury during everyday tasks and a lowered risk for a whole host of diseases etc etc#and again this is not a hot take just some thoughts because I'm working out again after only really taking walks all winter#plus I had pneumonia so my lung capacity is trash but it's coming back!
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Why is it more stressful to have a friend review your writing versus an editor?? This might kill me, I think
#probably because my friend knows what a lot of my writing is about#and some random dude I'm paying doesn't have the slightest clue#beyond the personal aspect I think I tend to write purple prose and I'm trying to tone that down BUT I can't#so my poor friend is also probably getting smothered by heavy handed metaphor as we speak#oooughh she's incredibly insightful with her writing advice though so I'm hoping she can help me clean it up before I send it off#lord the horrifying ordeal of being known#shouts into the void
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Where do you get most of your autism info?
oo good question,, tbh a lot of stuff i just know cuz my both my brothers are diagnosed + my best friend growing up has it, so a lot of stuff i just kinda absorbed over the years from my family + friends. usually with factchecking that stuff i just google it and scan a couple sites that look trustworthy to see if it's something that seems widely agreed on or not before i say it conclusively
for specific online sources, i know the autism self advocacy network has a lot of good info, and embrace autism is also good. also spectrumnews.org and autistic women and nonbinary network <- these r all as far as i know but also i havent done like, a full background check on all of them so i might be incorrect
i think the main thing is double checking anything from social media or any article/news story/whatever with big red flags- it definitely varies and most of these things arent like, 100% indicators that something is wrong, more that the source might be biased or ableist or just outdated. but for me big red flags are -> allistic writer/speaker insisting on person-first language (tho thats still very common in psych spaces unfortunately), calling autism a "disease"/"epidemic" or saying it needs to be cured, the puzzle piece logo and "light it up blue" (red instead is the alternative movement for that, it's for autism Acceptance rather than awareness which is the movement with weird ableist undertones (overtones?)), that sort of thing. also checking for things written by autistic people or with imput from autistic people
also academic papers can be super dense (and somewhat ableist tbh) but they also have good information sometimes, so again just checking and seeing if there's other sources for stuff & if those look reputable
+ id say just in general be especially careful with stuff on social media bc ppl will Lie or misinterpret stuff or misremember or whatever and misinformation gets spread very very quickly . but also community is nice & can be incredibly helpful so it's difficult to completely disavow it yknow .
but yeah a lot of stuff ive learned from my family & friends over the years, and dont have super good specific sources for learning that sort of thing other than just hanging out with autistic people and absorbing stuff via osmosis HAHA but i hope some of that helps :}
#ask#impossibleraysykes#for me i already knew a lot of like factual(? diagnostic..? not sure the right word) stuff abt autism bc of my brothers#but it was really talking to autistic friends abt their experiences + watching autistic youtubers and stuff that helped me realize like#OH i DO show these symptoms too they just present differently for me. + work through the emotional + community aspect#but i had a somewhat solid understanding of autism (at least in young white boys lol) so my bullshit radar was like. fairly well developed#by then already + online autism spaces were a lot less misinformation-flooded* so i wasnt just jumping into the thick of it and trying to#sort thru it thank GOD. tho im sure ive definitely internalized some stuff that is just straight up wrong over the years so i try and doubl#check just in case 😭BUT YEAH i hope that helps!!#(*this was in like 2018 idky im talking abt it like it was ages ago lmao. pre-tiktok was a different era tho tbf)
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Hi there! If you're comfortable talking about it, I'd love to hear more about your process creating Armenian OCs 😊 I've been wanting to incorporate more cultural aspects into my characters (particularly in a fantasy context, like dungeons & dragons) but I'm a bit lost about where to start. Ty! 🙏🏻
Hi! When making an OC, I work on 1. Name, 2. Appearance, 3. Personality and 4. Background. The process is the same for all of my OCs, though armenian OCs are influenced by my own experience and life more than the others :^) I go into more details under the cut!
If my main goal is the representation of cultural elements (ESPECIALLY in a fantasy setting), I focus mostly on naming and appearances. On the other hand, for characters that exist in a world similar to ours background would be much more important. I could explain the logic behind this too, but this would turn into a HUGE text and I'm trying to get to the point as efficiently as possible lol
I tried to keep this as short as possible, so if you'd like any clarifications or have any more questions, feel free to send me another ask or a dm! <333
But let's get back to fantasy! So, if I'm making an armenian coded character in a fantasy setting, I always go for an ethnic name. I feel like non-common (by western standards) names fit really well in fantasy worlds. You can also get away with using old/very traditional names because of this imo.
Appearance, like facial features, clothes and hairstyles also help to bring some parts of the real culture into a fantasy world. With facial features you have to be very mindful to not make a caricature on accident. Despite being armenian I am not safe from this also - I have to think not only about the way I perceive the character, but also about how others perceive them too. For example, Minas (my PC for da:tv and bg3) originally had a big, hooked nose and a unibrow, but I've decided to get rid of a unibrow because both of these features combined reminded me too much of some nasty caricatures about Caucasians I've seen in Russia. Despite there being real armenians, both men and women, who have both of these features, I didn't want to play into a widely spread stereotype and strengthen it with my presentation of the character.
With clothes I am also very mindful about NOT using 1 to 1 copies of actual traditional clothing - I personally find it to be in a poor taste. Clothes are a real part of someone's very real culture, treating them as a fancy thing for some fantasy wizard to wear is wrong, imo. Though elements of ensemble, its embroidery and a silhouette, jewelry and hairstyles are good things to use in a character design! I personally like mixing and matching different elements until I find something I like :^)
Other than names and appearances, if I want to hint at a character being armenian, I add traditional instruments, dances, weapons, foods, maybe even some armenian collocations or words for them to use. In a fantasy world their personality can be whatever I want it to be, just like their background. Because there's no Armenia in a fantasy world, it's important to remember that all the "armenian" characters are actually just armenian coded or armenian inspired. I basically let only the cultural aspects build and affect the character, and not the historic and social aspects (though when you're making an OC that exists in the real world, these aspects are EXTREMELY important).
#sorry it took me some time to gather my thoughts. i was going too much into details and the answer was getting huge lol#tl;dr: focus more on the visual aspects of the character and their hobbies and preferences#don't go into historical and social background because it won't make sense in a fictional world anyway#personality can be literally anything#i hope this helps!!#ask
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Yes, you are exactly right about totk!! A lot of my own complaints come from the story (or lack thereof). To be honest, it's a rare LOZ game that has a particularly complex or nuanced story, but in my opinion, the best ones more than make up for it with their characters.
My favorite game that I've played is Skyward Sword, and I desparately want to play Wind Waker, because the both of them have such fun and compelling characters that I don't really mind the simplicity of the narratives (and Wind Waker even hints at nuance the other games won't dive into!)
Tears of the Kingdom tries to use plot driven storytelling, but... expects us to be far more invested than most of us ever really are. There's hints of character driven story in there, but it all just falls flat in the end and feels really superficial, ESPECIALLY when you look at how they treat the women in this game. Zelda is JUST the sacrificial maiden (again) whose only autonomy comes from choosing to give up her autonomy. Mineru is JUST the smart character who magically technobabbles the solutions. Purah is JUST the scientist that tells you where to go. Most indicative of Nintendo's attitude in this, to me, is with Riju. The way they treat her, it's clear they want her to fill the role of the sexy one, but they know that won't go well if they go all out because she was canonically a young child in the last game. Still really gross, Nintendo you're not subtle.
All this to say that TOTK thinks it's more clever than if is, and fails to pull its own weight in any meaninful way.
All of this!!
I’ll add a bit more that I forgot to add:
Yea usually zelda games have simple plots overall (with some expectations of course) but they do make up for it with memorable characters, etc, etc…
My favorite zelda game is Ocarina of Time cause of the lore (also gameplay of course) and the how interesting it is to me and the overall themes it goes into being tragic and relatable, even tho the surface story is simple overall.(the hero of time games being my favs cause of the story driven nature yet also have fun gameplay) Also other games like skyward sword having a good engaging story with good characters (Groose is the best), wind waker being a simple coming of age story, but also having the king and ganondorf both cling on to the past, etc.
Like you said totk thinks it’s clever and fails to deliver on making us invested in a meaningful and exciting narrative, in a way it’s using tropes from previous zelda games like oot, botw, SS and link to the past without even knowing why they worked in the first place. While failing to reuse tho tropes in a more unique way like previous games have done. It’s true there are hints of character driven story it’s just ignored or mentioned in a half assed way.
Also like I said in the post the lack of consequences with the main story at the end, like Link’s arm just being restored even tho furry rauru had said it was beyond saving, and zelda being recalled back to normal, so her “sacrifice” was not worth it at all (master sword is also worse somehow like wtf zelda)
I’ve also noticed the way totk treats the main women it’s very not good, like you said with zelda she’s just sacrificial maiden turned into a dragon, mineru being exposition dump lady cause that’s all she does tbh, also has the worst Sage ability in the whole game, etc.
zelda being the worst one. (Tbh botw/totk zelda is mixed overall she’s overrated) cause she’s dumb as hell didn’t even recognize that Ganondorf and Calamity Ganon could be related, she does nothing until furry rauru and sonia are dead. Also being a terrible princess, she didn’t even do any meaningful things to hyrule’s rebuilding efforts other than build a school and some small memorials and fuck around doing whatever the hell she was doing pre totk. Also she stole links house damn it.
there’s also the way the gerudo are treated in the zelda series as a whole, but that’s a whole other topic others have done better at that. Like with totk and botw (mostly totk) being helpless yet also warriors needing help from hylians to even survive in their own home?! Like how ingame they explain that zelda of all people was the one to help them get to know the desert and how to survive better wtf? And the secret heroine side quest end, how it’s just some random hylian guy to be the hidden 8th. (There goes the 7 sages and the 8th being the hero of time theory)
Also the way the botw events are treated. they just pretend that none of the ancient tech never existed at all and refuse to mention anything about botw, only in small passes. And the side quest with the Hateno school mentioning the original calamity.
The depths having potential to be better but we’re just empty and massive instead, I like the bargainer statues those are cool as an concept. And the sky islands being boring and copy paste the same few islands throughout.
Holy shit this game makes me write entire essays of complaints. I’m sorry if I repeat myself I’m terrible at explaining stuff at times.
Now I’m going to play the zelda games I’ve never finished to cleanse myself of totk.
#totk critical#totk criticism#totk neg#loz#also the constant repetition of the same few events over and over again#Sage cutscenes being the worst offender#also don’t get me started with the hero’s aspect and the stupid lore implication of it#puppet zelda had more personality than real zelda and that’s just sad#ganondorfs amazing design in totk being wasted on the worst and most boring version of ganondorf to date#some amazing character design wasted on shitty writing that’s just sad#this game legit makes me go on long ass essays cause of how much this game disappoints me#I wish that zelda team listens to these criticisms and makes a better story in the next zelda game#but the future of the series is definitely concerning if they keep going like this#as a big fan since 2011 I hope the series gets better in the story and lore department#I’m critical cause I care it’s not cause of nostalgia ( a bit tho)#this game feels like a terrible oot/botw fanfic au#I did a let’s play of this game half of it was me saying my criticisms about the game without spoiling much#i just couldn't help myself
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so like. if you have low self esteem is that just it? i grew up hating myself and so that’s just it forever? I never get to really truly feel good about myself?
#maybe the weekend wasn’t as restful as i’d hoped#in some aspects it was#but god. as im making new friends I’m in this really weird situation#where rationally there can be no other explanation for them wanting to be friends with me other than that they just want to be my friend#but like. something in me just cannot accept it like i just feel fundamentally not worthy of that kind of friendship and affection#it happens on here too#can therapy really help with something like this? it seems unsolvable
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bitching abt my partner again so i can get it out of my system and not let it fester
had a Discussion yesterday and i said how i didn't like that i, someone who naturally wakes up early and has to go to bed around 11-midnight to get decent sleep, have been spending the last few months either sleep deprived or forced to use sleeping pills to sleep, when he sleeps in til fucking noon, even on the two days we both have off and can, yk, spend time doing things in the morning together, and then he complains that we never do anything outside (bc we live in florida. anything after noon is just a fucking sauna.)
anyways. i ask if he can start waking up earlier. he says he'll wake up at 10 today. i go, ok, thank you, but what does that prove? that you can do it once? i've been changing my schedule for months. i want to hear that you'll try to do it consistently. (And 10 isn't early anyways, but i didn't say that). he insists he's going to do it. makes sure i see him set an alarm in front of me and everything. so anyways. 10:01 i get a text that he's going to sleep a little more.
man.
#i also asked him to wash his hair more often bc he has REALLY nice long hair but its always fuckin greasy#unless he has some formal performance or i ask him to wash it#and he said hed wash it tonight and like. thanks. but like. can you maybe stsrt doing it without reason or me having to ask you#like a fucking toddler#anyways my hopes arent high#and its so fuckign pathetic that ill be thrilled if i come over to see him and its washed#honestly.#every day im closer and closer to just. breaking up#i love him. i reqlly do#but i think i love what he could be more than what hes actually willing to be#and its so upsetting#bc its judt.#if he says he wants me to do something#i fucking do it#i got a fucking minimum wage soulsucking job bc he said he thought having more steady income and a routine would help me#and it does. but he also complains now when i have to sleep at 9pm so i can get up for morning shifts#but he also complains when i work during the times he has off#and its not like. a controlling way at all. for the record. trust me on that#its just the like. Frustrating way. like suck it up and cope buttercup i am the one who is dealing with more right now.#in that situation at least#this got long but#you see my point#its just. so upsetting.#and again. i love him#i do#hes great in so many aspects and he has the same goals and its all so Good#but. god. fuck.#is this really what i want to deal with for the rest of my life when i know i can be perfectly happy and fulfilled in life without a partne
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If Ais potentially finds MC at the beginning and brings them to Kuras, I wonder if Kuras directs patients that are beyond his abilities to the Seaspring as a last resort as their final choice...
#just replayed the demo bc reasons#and i was considering that Kuras respects Ais and Ais helps out there#i didnt consider that maybe some of the diseased folks etc might be funneled in that direction.#presuming kuras cant fix Everything.#only background i haven't playtested an MC for yet is the hound... my unnamed is my primary and the alt is gonna be alchemist.#and bc i miss my er ocs... i did twins again#im just so Thoughts about this game for the next two years. love that for me 😭#Ais and Kuras being friendly is so weird to me. like if Kuras thinks Leander and Aid are trustworthy it makes me more comfy with them#altho watch my easy trust in Kuras get sliced to shreds in game lmao#like Kuras has been to the Seaspring... he knows what that shit is. and is apparently comfy with it enough to not hate Ais#unless Kuras is secretly some sort of terrifying sadist and Im making a critical error in trusting his perspective#I genuinely love Ais a lot and Im hoping it isnt like too terrifying with the Groupmind stuff... 💀#i like that Ais seems to want MC to keep their identity and maybe accept their own monstrous aspects#but also one fear what if groupmind gets greedy the more Ais likes you#over here praying for poly route with ais and vere for one of my MCs tbh#also angel lore. are angels connected to a singular god concept?#unnamed is from a temple etc. and theoretically was manipulating worshippers into Enlightened states with their touch#before they grew to fear the power when it was exposed as a curse. eventually seeing themselves as a monster at the beginning of the demo#i just really need to know if there are multiple religions and the placement of angels therein...#like they mention an abbess at the senobium.... so like. nuns? is this just monotheistic faith for humans...?#where does the veil and fogfall fit in? if so many places for humans are destroyed with few cities theoretically...#I'm assuming youd have all sorts of superstitious faiths cropping up qnd ofc cults. like monster worshipping cults and random ones#tag rant sorry it's 3M and im in Thoughts#im terrified I'm going to get obsessed with backgrounds for these MCs that wont work with the setting. trying to keep them flexible
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