#but i havent really drawn anything since then that i want to post

[jioruk]

hello 3 ty the tasmanian tiger fans

[lopsidedtreetrunks]

Happy 10th birthday to The Song Ever

[skeletalheartattack]

just give him some time to come to terms with it. he'll be alright.

[Referencing this post]

[lunar-fey]

[usuratongaychi]

Drawings + Rants + Headcanons/Naruto AU

i finally had some time to draw my versions of tean seven (minus kakashi). im gonna detail more of my AU later in the post but here are the designs and some notes.

For sasuke, in one of my other posts i had the theory that sasuke keeps his hair short to avoid resembling itachi, and thats why it is longer in time skip, because he is coming to terms with his trauma and still loves itachi. I also gave him similar creases to itachi, just from stress.

tbh im not too sure about this naruto design…but at least he isnt balding like before💀.

for sakura, i actually really like her older design, so i just drew her working. she would have her hair up and i gave her sakura blossom hair pins and eyeshadow.

also i havent drawn in forever so..thats why its messy.

(the rest of this is me rambling on..)

Now for changes i made to the story:

1. Narusasu endgame (yk im a stan)

I would have both of them be joint hokages, so technically both are the 7th. I know Sasuke is referred to as the shadow hokage, but that doesn’t really entail anything. I think it’s important because Sasuke would know just how important reform is for the village and shinobi system, but since people are still suspicious of Uchihas, Naruto would be the face. This fulfills Naruto’s dream, which when you really think about it, his dream was just to be loved, not really to be a politician. Naruto has seen how unfair and corrupt their society is, so he would completely work with Sasuke to make sure things like Danzo and Hiruzen’s corruption, child soldiers, hyuuga slavery and the “Uchiha Incident” dont happen again. I could explain more of this in a later post.

2. I would have Hinata look up to Sakura more, instead of Naruto.

I think it makes a bit more sense, Sakura is brave, outspoken and independent, just like Hinata wants to be. I would have Sakura be her first friend, since she can’t stand to see people be excluded or alone. That leads me into changes I would make for Sakura’s story.

3. Sakura. In the original, I would keep her kind of bratty attitude until things get serious in the Zabuza arc. Seeing her close friends so close to death, while not being able to help much would challenge her to become a protector. This also gives motivation for her to learn healing and medicine when Tsunade comes around. Sakura would be the “rock” or “glue” of team seven, which makes sense because she is the only one of them that came from a stable home.

Sakura initially resents Sasuke for betraying the team, but seeing how dedicated Naruto is to saving him, she decides its worth it to help bring him back. Besides if she didn’t, naruto would just endager himself trying.

4. Sasuke. I would have Sasuke after he realizes Itachi was manipulated into a genocide to protect the village, still go through him “i’m gonna destroy the village” phase, but when Naruto defeats him, they make a promise to change things, so no one else will have to suffer like that. I would also show more of the psychological effects of witnessing Itachi’s murders. One of my headcanons is that he’s pretty thin, since trauma survivors tend to have chronic stomach pains. He’s probably pretty paranoid about others betraying him, so he does it to them first (probably why he pushes naruto away so much). Sasuke is also probably still ostracized or “othered” for being an uchiha, since that is what the village is told about them. People still pity him, but dont come near him.

5. Naruto. 😭I actually made up a whole theory on why Hiruzen didn’t take great care of naruto, bc to me it just doesn’t make sense. it’s kinda a dumb theory and doesn’t rlly have anything to do with canon, but- what if Minato wanted to expose the corruption in the hidden leaf and get rid of the foundation, so as a sort of revenge, or just general distaste for Minato, Hiruzen doesn’t really provide for Naruto. 🤷‍♀️idk. A change I would make is to have naruto mature more to match his age. Like ofc it makes sense for him to act out for attention esp when he was younger, but i feel like past shippuden..he didn’t really mature at all? maybe thats just me. I’ll probably have more stuff to add for him, i’ll think of it later or put it in my headcanons post.

😭im so tired yall i will make a better post later on.

[soouperdoouper]

Hi there!!! Do you like furries, do you have money to throw at furry art? Do you want to be one of my first commissions? Well you have come to the right place! Im opening commissions!

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-Unless ordering a ref sheet, I need a ref sheet of the character you want drawn!!!

-I can get a peice done in 2-6 hours depending on what it is and how quickly we can communicate, but since I have responsibilities outside of art it will probably take me 1-3 days

I WILL RESPOND ASAP!!! I do need to sleep btw-

This character is actually still available to adopt!!!

-4 USD for a headshot sketch, full shaded on paper (grayscale)

-8 USD for a headshot shaded

-15 USD for the bust up shaded

-25 USD for half up shaded

-35 USD for full body shaded

-ref sheets are 50 USD, comes with shaded and unshaded

I ONLY TAKE CASHAPP!!!!

What I will do:

-sfw

-anthro

-YOUR own character

-ask!!!

What I will NOT do:

-nsfw

-zoo art

-feral art style

-illegal ships

-illegal anything really

-skullies, I can't get their faces right-

-ask!!!

I've been on tumblr for awhile but I havent posted before because of anxiety but im trying to get out here and finally do the commissions i've been wanting to do for a year!

[freebooter4ever]

the nice thing about rote 3D work is its mindless - it kind of like doing the dishes. there's room to think, or call friends, or listen to music or movies or hockey cause your brain is just kind of running on auto pilot. an its relaxing because at the end there will be this output that's technically pristine. the other funny thing is since i downloaded a 'trial' version of maya im finding myself missing features from z*modeler. which is totally backwards from when i started in z*modeler and was missing features from ma*ya. i wish i could combine the two, lol.

Anyway, sculpting...sculpting is different. It's more emotional and about translating what my brain is observing. There's no perfectly 'correct' answer, and thats often what stresses me out so much. But the lack of 'correct' answer is also what i love about it.

I need both in my life because the mindless work clears the busy clutter in my brain and gives me a break from the sculpting work while still exercising the same technical skills.

Drawing is similar - the daily doodles i usually post that are fast and sketchy are mindless work. And ive been so focused on trying to find a job and get this portfolio piece done fast...that i have not creatively drawn anything in literal months. Not since december. I had ideas, and i went and forgot about them until i was looking at old sketches the other day and suddenly remembered - hey i never actually did that thing i wanted to draw. When i have a job and a stable income my weekends are reserved for drawing, and i havent been able to do THAT since last june.

I just really really miss having time to myself that doesnt feel like if i am not being productive in a specific direction i am wasting it

[kudzucataclysm]

whenever you want feel free to blather about vincent i am very curious about her

YES VINCENT, IVE DRAWN HER A LOT TODAY HAVENT I….

ive talk abt her before quite a bit, answering an ask here and rambled abt her and francis’s relationship a couple of times and yet-

vincent’s just a plain old drug dealer tbh! one who can be blamed for the way francis IS and is someone who has her finger in plenty of pies in the NEC. she’s frank’s ‘adoptive sister’ and the one who is the most willing to take desmond under her wing when he starts working for CHL.

she’s always been more or less troubled, suffering from depression and ocd since she was a kid…drugs was the way she more or less chose to deal with that in a post 2nd civil war US. shes someone who unfortunately convinced that her life is shit and will forever be shit, thus does nothing to really change or get better despite KNOWING shes fucking up constantly…

the only semblance of control in her life that she feels is when she does drugs and self harms unfortunately 😔 BUT in a weird roundabout way?? she kinda tries to get others to do better than her, especially dez (she’s completely given up on francis rip) and kinda sees him as a baby bird!!…a repressed angry bird ready to explode at a moments notice so yeah while she manipulates him a few times for her own benefit she ultimately WANTS to help the kid out in order to make up for what she COULDNT do with francis

but ye shes a fuck up using humor to cope. worlds worst sister and enabler who doesnt think she can be better so encourages those she cares abt to do so…oh well! hope that doesnt come back to bite her in the ass or anything :D

[intertexts-moving]

HHHHHHHHHHH

so funny story i saw that post you made some time ago when you were liveblogging the cloak scene, the "did it hurt" scene and it significantly changed my view

also ive never looked at their second meeting that way before. i have many thoughts re: first conversation, first interaction (? is it an interaction when you try to flirt with a stranger up the banister and they ignore you?,,, asking for a friend), but never paid much attention to the ehem conVENIENT "you fall i catch" thing beyond how weirdly interesting it is. since wkx has no romantic/platonic/personal-anything intention at all at that point, but subconsciously is very much drawn to the guy still. but yeah actually, this is kind of spot on. HH oh god fuck im not going to be normal about this. i thought i was insane when i clocked that their first conversation, when wkx starts talking about that butcher and about how it must be impossible for someone to have that level of skill as zzs being in disguise without any traces of it at all suggests, has so many layers already. hes speaking there as if he has perceived zzs without realizing it. perceived him as this guy who has basically made himself into a myth (like wkx himself!) and as this thing completely unattinable for him, a man mirroring him down to his soul and living a life he can only dream of. the yearning!!! ughghguhgg. the complete lack of self-awareness of it!!!! the hilarity of the situation because wkx is right, and he is literally only following a gut instinct, and he has no idea!!! i thought i was overthinking it a little. im glad im not alone there, seeing things in their first interactions that, without ever really being talked about, ripple deep into the story??

and oh a mutual tag! thats a great idea im going to do that too. siren is very much fine, what would you like me to tag you as?

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah yeahyeah ive been thinking abt this all day actually.. like. the subconscious recognition. the like. the inherent understanding the two of them have even b4 they know each other!!! first thing zzs ever thinks abt wkx is the "somehow, in this vast sea of strangers, he still found someone who understood." the first reaction he pulls out of wkx is that hey. huh. i was right? moment when he hears him echo that he was sunbathing. & its so indicative of how they continue on out from there- iirc, wkx never tells zzs he's the ghost valley master. zzs never actively tells wkx about the nails. or any of the other shit they have going on. its the. silent hunch & feeling things out & recognition... like fumbling around in a dark room except they find the light switch every time first try.

& YEAH i havent thought abt it that way b4 but u are SO right... the inherent hilarity of wkx just. really just making fifty educated guesses in a row about zzs and each one of them hitting spot on. the way that yeah the only reason that it. Works. is bcos they genuinely are mirrors of each other& all the things they see abt the other map back onto themselves too..

also GOD. i think abt the cloak scene & wkx's way of interacting w/ zzs so much.. this is. probably bcos i'm disabled (re: chronic fatigue & illness etc.) & i've had variously disabled friends & like... idk. i recognize it!!! the way he is like. "okay. i'm treating you like normal i'm not gonna be weird about it i'm gonna try not to make you uncomfortable about it. but nevertheless if you're in pain i'm going to help you in the most straightforward way possible. idiot. just because i dont treat you like you're glass doesn't mean i'm gonna let you hurt. just because your body is slowly running down like a broken machine doesn't mean i'm gonna treat you like you're made of glass. i want to do whatever i can for you though ok?".....makes me froth at the mouth NFNSDFKSDFD.

[bugflies00]

5. Anything you haven’t drawn yet but want to?

6. Which artists inspire you right now?

7. Favourite works of all time excluding your own?

8. What do you like most about your own work?

19. Favourite character(s) to draw?

20. What works have you drawn fanart of?

5. every day im plagued with visions i never fulfill so im just gonna unload a bunch of them onto you : finishing that clingyduo animatic, finishing the sokeefe art, maybe?? drawing roman sanders again after so long just to see??, a like proper Big dsmp tribute piece but i dont really know what, figuring out my ctechno design & drawing more c!emeraldduo and cbedrockbros, FINALLY drawing ctntduo, and a bunch of other things

ALSO specifically ANIMATIC ideas here is a list of ones that have plagued my mind for some as long as two years : burning pile (mother mother) with c!crimeboys i have had this particular one on the brain since literally early 2021 i have every frame planned out in my mind but i just cannot seem to do it, jack's lament (the nightmare before christmas) with c!wilbur THIS ONE is pretty specific but Oh it could be so cool, rasputin with c!wilbur just to have some fun, they're only human (death note the musical but specifically this version https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nrZolM3uCds) with c!emerald duo, money money money (ABBA) with c!beeduo this one would be very silly just antics and ctubbo being a gold digger LMAO, hang on little tomato (pink martini) with c!crimeboys OH THIS ONE LET ME TELL YOU THIS ONE HAUNTS ME IT'S SO SWEET BUT ALSO SO SAD, and finally history has its eyes on you (hamilton) with pogtopia c!crimeboys obviously because i have the illness and i never left 2020 <3

6. this is mostly mcytblr artists and some of them havent even posted since like 2021 but to name a few @/pigsteprap @/copepods @/miniaturekeytar @/wolfythewitch @/birdiebrunch @/corph1a @/somedeimi and @/winter-mornings all have really really cool art you should check out ^__^

7. my brain is fried currently so normally i would make you a list but i can only think of like. monet's nymphéas which is basic yeah but i really really like 'em. also vermeer's milkmaid . also a lot of romantic art cause its my favourite :] but im just too tired to think of examples

and also a lot of the art of the people i just listed

8. oh this is hard i dont really. mhmmm. i guess i like? my colouring? idk man

19. ill let you take a wild guess on that one

20. oh god. well obviously dsmp. otherwise sanders sides, kotlc, warrior cats, harry potter (sorryyy haven't for years though), and probably others here and there but those were the main ones

anyway keep the artist asks coming guys i really like them cause they require like proper thinking more than the other silly asks (which are also cool !! dont get me wrong)

[six40seven]

September 16-18th

I didnt go to school. I told Niki i was feeling too sick to and she just nodded and said it was fine. Just by her body language i could tell she was distracted by something else and i didnt want to bother her more then necessary. I wanted to say thanks to all the people on here sending kind messages and concerned asks. I am okay. I was just a little rattled these last few days and well, of course today. I havent slept in almost 32 hours. There is no way in hell im closing my eyes and waking up somewhere strange again with no recollection of how i got there.

This doesnt make sense, and i can tell youre telling me in your head “Ran you need to sleep.” And i know you’re right but it was just horrifying. I have a hard enough time remembering what i do when im awake. Why would this suddenly start happening to me. Its unfair. I was doing fine. Now im not, and i dread falling asleep again. Im too afriad to ask Niki to instal a lock of sorts so last night and the night before and really any time I’ve been feeling the urge to sleep.. well I’ve began to tie my foot to my post. ITS NOT TIGHT. I just dont want to wander off again.

Fall break is soon. I mean sorta. I attempted to attend school online the second day home after the ordeal but my connection was too shit. I guess its the trees blocking the signal. Or maybe the mountains. Speaking of trees, i havent left my house since that day. I dont want to risk whatever happened happening again, worse while im awak. Not that i think it will but the way the trees just… tempt me sometimes. I cant risk walking to the bus or walking even out of my house. WHEERE i use to consider it a blessing to not live in the town houses, i now regret never moving closer. Fuck. Its been so long since I’ve been outside im worried my skin will fall off my body and ill die if i spend one more day barred in my room.

Its okay, for the most part. besides the natural (?) urge i have to be outside all the time. Ive sort of forgotten to document much these o past few days. But i dont think anything else significant happened. As far as related to me. Niki didnt come back the first night and i spent all that time in ym room with the blind drawn and the lights on. I was afriad if i turned the lights off i would nod off. I ended up watching YouTube and Netflix on my laptop as well as cleaning my entire room.

Usually my room is a trash heap, i like it that way, its like having my own nest. But that first night. I couldn’t stand all the things and i pretty much Ed cleaned everything top to bottom in less then 3 hours. I found a few interested things while i was doing that, including but not limited to: a box full of my old Polaroids and camera, a stuffed animal i thought i had lost which went back onto my bed, and a total of 20 spare dollars made mostly out of 1 Dollar bills and quarters.

The only thing of real interest was the Polaroid camera. I thought i lost that thing years and years ago. I only know i had one at all because i have some older pictures pinned places and tucked into my phone case. Theyre all of people i dont really know but i like to think i do so i can carry some part of them with me. They must have been important to me at some point yk. So i decided to look through and sort out any of the Polaroids i remeber or anything like that. These are my findings. I’ll explain them after i show them to you.

starting at the left top and going left to right. It reads Nov 1st 20##. all of these are from when i was a kid. maybe when i was in 4th or 5th grade? Im not entirely sure the exact age i was. The photo shown is a picture i must have taken of some sort of important journal entry, i cant really read it but at least if i ever needed to remeber taking a picture.. I remember, thanks past me.

The next one, in order, is a picture of two shadows. Maybe three. Probably me. Maybe Niki… or Eryn. we were close when we were kids and hes in two of these already. So ill just mention him. idk if he will be okay with me talking about him on here. I dont think he knows i have this account. hopefully he doesnt find it. Not that i would care very much. He just doesnt like me. The caption is just a date. oct 3rd. no year. I wonder when it happened? sometime in my childhood probably. I havent used this camera in years and years. I lost it so long ago.

The third is a weirdly saturated picture of a park in my town. The bigger town. Its just weird. And the caption says… evacuating or something. Its sorta weird. also Niki might have taken this picture because her name is on it too. Seems like her type of thing. from what i remeber as a kid, when we still lived in the big town, she was into weird saturated pictures. Something about scene. I dont know really.

The fourth is on the second line of pictures i found in the Box. On the bottom left. It says July 20## again sometime in my childhood. It shows aforementioned Eryn crouching ont he ground showing something to everyone. Or the viewer. I can see myself, or younger me. Younger me off to the side. Someone else took this picture. I dont remeber this happening. But it was important enough to keep so there it is. Thats pretty much it.

The fifth, wow thats a lot of numbers. Its got a smiley face :) on it. and its a picture of the lake. Yk the one bordering the left side of the bigger town. Its one of the smaller more muddy parts so its all gross. Probably from a hike that i wanted to remeber with Niki or something. I loved the lake when i was a kid. It was fun to swim in but after… after awhile i stopped going and then it closed because of something weird and now you can only go hiking near and around it.

The sixth. A picture of me and ****** hugging. Eryn in the background. It reads Eryn & ##### July. Its a cute picture. I dont know… who ****** is? Yeah i dont know. but i must have known them at one point because thats them. Yeah. They look familiar in the worse way and i pretty much threw that one back in the box as soon as I could. I dont like lookign at it. My stomach hurts when i do.

The seventh. And last a picture of a cat. Even when i was a kid i also apparently liked cats. It reads Spring 20##.

So yeah. I just wanted to say im glad i was able to find them and document them somewhere. I also thought while im explaing photos and stuff ill go into a little detail about what i discovered from that night. Posted on here.

The first piece is clearly a path somewhere in the forest. If i were to say, somewhere further in the mountains, near where the older remains of mines are. The only thing wrong about this piece is that…. When i posted it, theres no wya for there to have been snow. So either the photo is altered in some way, which is unlikely, because from what i can tell it was posted in the middle of the night. Or it was actually snowing wherever i was. even though all the previous days it had been raining.

The next picture looks like some sort of underground tunnel, lined with bricks and ending in step leading up to a barred and maybe locked? I dont know, barred iron gate. I have never seen that place before. Ive been in a lot of abandoned buildings that I’ve found near here but I’ve never seen something like this. The only explaination i can give for the location is possibly a sewer enterance somewhere in the basement of one of the older buildings, not from the big town but rather from the smaller town nearer to my house. Again, it looks like its snowing. Which makes no sense in any context, since it was snowing when i woke up (even though i said i thought it was) and because if this was underground where would snow be coming from? The title says… I heard you. Im here. I dont remeber this. Obviously. and i dont know who i would have.. heard? It doesnt make any sense.

The third picture… i dont have much to say. It looks dark. Maybe its related to the second picture, maybe its on the otherside of the gate. But I’ve never seen a place that dark before. Especially if it has walls. which I think it does. so it must be in a building somewhere out in the forest. Sorta supports my abandoned building theory. Or abandoned mine shaft? I have no idea. But the capture is clearly a long hallway. the caption says something is wrong. No duh. I am clearly self aware even if i dont remeber. I wonder if i act different..

Anyway, thats all for the last few days. I probably will end up attending school tomorrow. Niki isnt home yet, its near the end of the day so if she isnt home by now im assuming shes staying overnight at the office. wouldn’t be the first, wont be the last. I might get a snack before trying not to fall asleep a third night in a row. If anyone wants to chat with me, ill be open to the distractions.

[screamingay]

Do you have any OCs? feel free to talk about them if you do What was the first piece of media you engaged with on the internet? Are you still interested in it? What's something you made or did that you're proud of? What's something that made you smile this month?

ooh this is so fun tysm!!!

i do have some ocs! ive been working on them on and off since high school and i still dont have an overarching story or anything for them but i'll go over the basics if anyone's interested o.o

the basic premise is a group of friends who start a band called good question, but ive always considered the main couple of this universe to be renee and pj (who i just renamed a minute ago dont worry abt it) even tho they aren't really in the band. the band is made up of alysha on lead guitar and vocals, juan on drums, and anis on bass, with meg as a roadie and sati as their social media manager (and also regular manager). calypso is the newest addition to the group, they're the youngest and im not entirely sure how they'll fit in but i think they're just gonna be a younger college student or something. ive sketched and drawn everyone in the group, some more than others, but i'm still really working on their designs and physical & personality traits and backgrounds and all that. i know that pj likes anime and sati & anis are exes and alysha is an amputee and renee is jewish and all kinds of stuff but i haven't really fleshed them out as much as i want to eventually. lmk if ur interested in hearing more abt them bc it would definitely encourage me to work on them more hehe

i dont really remember what my first internet media was, but i feel like it mostly started with youtube and stuff like charlie the unicorn. my first fandoms were book series, the hunger games and hp and the mortal instruments and all that, and im absolutely not into most of it anymore except the hunger games i still think they're brilliant

i'm definitely proud of some of the stuff ive made! i havent been working on my skills as much lately but my gf has been inspiring me bc i love drawing her body <33 so other than those drawings of her in my top posts rn and that taz comic i did a while ago i like these too

lots of things make me smile!! getting this ask made me smile! also harper got her first tattoo and it happened to have my lucky number in it and my cat is so cute so im happy every time i get to see him and i saw the sun set on bare trees in front of dark clouds a few days ago which is one of my favorite things to take pictures of <3

thank u again for all this!! i love sharing things abt myself and idk if this was like a chain or what but i might send it along to someone else anyway bc it's so nice ty

[unwellcryptid]

hi. im an artist who isnt really an artist so much as a guy who happens to draw.

i also have a myriad of illnesses and conditions that fuck with my ability to do that, or to enjoy it.

ive been having a very difficult time making anything i wanna make recently. i say recently, but it wasnt that recent honestly- back in, what, 2020 or 2021, i developed a repetitive strain injury in both my arms, afflicting the muscles responsible for closing my hands and the down motion- both things you kinda need to do when you draw.

i should clarify that i didnt develop this because i was drawing excessively- i cant say ive ever drawn excessively, i dont think im capable quite honestly- but because of how i held myself at all times all the time for basically my entire life.

the RSI (abbreviated for repetitive strain injury because thats A Lot To Type) is responsible for my chronic pain. i hear some people can recover totally from an RSI, but alas i am not one of them.

i started drawing in 2016, and i had decided very strictly to draw Something every single day due to instruction from the artists i learned from, and i had largely done that.

but part of my (attempted) recovery from my RSI was not being able to draw. i knew, before it even began, that if i stopped drawing for very long, i would have an extremely hard time picking it back up.

(this had happened before, in smaller ways. if i didn't draw for a week or two, drawing was a major struggle and i enjoyed it way less, so i didnt draw as much. i almost had to force myself to draw just so i could build a pattern to enjoy it again. the RSI recovery was worse, i wouldnt be able to do anything for months, even if i wanted to.)

and as i predicted, when i stopped drawing for that long, i found it nearly impossible to pick drawing back up. this struggle has continued to this day- ive never been able to draw every day anymore- not helped by the fact the RSI never went away, so drawing can be physically painful if im not careful- but it isnt ONLY the RSI messing me up.

i realized i formed a very strained relationship to creating drawings itself.

its kind of hard to talk about, because i feel totally alone in having this problem. every artist ive ever known or even heard of has all said the same thing, that making art is part of who they are. theyve been doing it naturally, even if they havent been drawing since childhood, its still an easy and simple thing for them to do. most talk about how art got them through depressive episodes and bad parts of life, or how it helps them work through their emotions, or how its part of them recovering energy after a long day.

its none of those to me. drawing has always been a strain, a second step i take in my creativity that i work very, very hard to do. it takes energy, it causes pain, and usually it didnt help me with my emotions. that was never the point of me drawing.

i suspect the reasons why im struggling with art are complex and varied and i feel like its almost impossible to talk about with artists. they never get it, especially not professionals, especially not healthy ones.

so i guess i made a tumblr blog about it. because i wanna talk about it, and the best i can do is make my own space for it.

im not gunna post art here, but the plan is to post about art, and about how i'm handling it, about why i'm feeling this way, and how i'm doing with it day-to-day. i think that might help

[sickknotdoom]

i feel like one of the biggest reasons these blogs are ignored is because while you claim to only post constructive criticism, many asks that get answered on these types of blogs range from "barry should be drawn fatter" to "its so weird that kitty has self inserts" i think those are two drastically different tones to take and the second example is decidedly not constructive criticism. perhaps you'd have more sucess if you actually practiced what you preach? because good points are lost in a sea of genuine unhelpful toxicity that im sure no one wants to sift through. at a certain point, it just becomes bullying.

i do my best to provide my own insight in situations like this, i try hard to explain the aspect of the comic at hand, my opinion on it, and why i feel that way. with the anonymity of the ask feature, its really easy to be impulsive, i know from experience. and thats why my responses to asks are a decent length continuation of the point they bring, rather than just "i agree end of post". if you scroll through my blog youll see what i mean by this.

ive never seen an ask criticizing the mere existence of kneebys self inserts, the closest thing to that i can think of is the howial anon criticizing the ship name being based on allys supposed deadname (al) rather than being howially or something. i have self inserts of my own in my own stories i write and never share, i wouldnt judge someone just for having a self insert at all.

i understand i might come across as rude or brash due to the lack of nuanced discussion and media literacy in the fandom, but my intent is to be constructive. i provide ways to potentially improve the comic or reading experience, like giving side characters more screen time, working on barrunis writing, or the option to skip a batch of potentially triggering pages with a single click.

i feel the need to emphasize i dont condone any form of harassment towards anybody. if you harass someone because of this blog, you are part of my issue with the fandom. nobodys really doing anything bad except people that go out of their way to harass kneeby or the clowns, which. i havent seen and hope to never see. i just feel like the comic needs to be worked on since its supposed to be a social commentary on the american healthcare system that caused the trauma of kneeby and many others, and if a social commentary is of low quality, it wont get the attention it desperately deserves as people will just dismiss it as a bad edgy comic or whatever.

i appreciate your input.

[merryfae]

I like the psychoanalysis of me because I talked about being a lurker online. Maybe - just a thought - people like me avoid direct interaction because social media is a perpetual hellhole where people like you will judge a person's character (as gullible or averse to conflict resolution) based on one (1) whole response made with the intention of explaining a perspective on the Lily Orchard debacle. Seriously wild. Talking on the internet is not the same as talking irl. It's very easy to get dogpiled in online conversations. But thanks for being patronizing.

And yes. I like cartoons. I like cartoons Lily likes and like cartoons she dislikes. I said I've been following her since her early brony days. It's kind of inevitable that people who stumble into all of this would be fans of cartoons given that no one outside of cartoon fans online would have even heard of her. Why would a non-cartoon fan watch her videos???

No addressing of Stockholm or other fanfiction that reflects Lily's interest in incest (which I have unfortunately read and can confirm is not some edgy fanfic about bad people who get their commupence - it has countless pages of sex scenes between adults and children/family members where the worst the tone gets is "ha ha, aren't we such a whacky family"). No addressing of the bestiality that Patch was commissioned for. No addressing of her proclaimed love of the bg sister incest romance. There are older fics of hers that allegedly contain (child) incest, but I havent read those, so I won't claim to know exactly what's in them. Regardless, I reiterate that these are relevant to the discussion given that they directly reflect positive feelings toward incest (which is the subject of part of the allegations against her) and other paraphilias. Looking at a claim that a random youtuber is guilty of COCSA is very different than looking at that same claim waged against someone who has written COCSA content and expressed interest in incest.

I also want to note that SOME people not having problems with Lily does not negate the experiences of others. A person can be perfectly pleasant to one person and a complete asshole to another. There are a thousand reasons why someone like Mikaila might not speak out in these circumstances that don't have anything to do with Lily not being an abuser. I once again pose the question: why would SO many of Lily's former friends have these issues with her? If it's really all on them, why has Lily miraculously drawn all of these people to her that have the same exact problem?

I'm sorry if you don't believe the screenshots compiled on that Google drive. No one can prove they're real with certainty. It's one of those "you had to be there" things. There are no links to anything -- many of the blogs and posts Lily has made over the years have been deleted. The meme provided was part of a recurring series Lily did THAT I REMEMBER, but sure, there is no direct evidence of that either so 🤷‍♀️ Names and dates on many of the chat logs aren't present. Also true. The reason I talked about Tara's tumblr was for that very reason -- THAT was clearly real and interacted with Lily et al at the time. Once again, on the Lily Orchard gossip blog there is literally a link to this blog -- it's still up! I chose to explain why I thought the screenshots were real based on things that we KNOW are real.

The fact is, providing proof of something on the internet will never be an easy task. People would have needed to archive her old content on the wayback machine or something AS IT OCCURRED or before it got deleted to actively prove it. In Brittany's case, she would have had to screenshot messages before any accounts got deleted or the messages thenselves got lost to the ether. So a lot of this discussion hinges on whether or not you believe the screenshots that have been compiled. Given just how much is compiled in those drives, I'd question why anyone would go out of their way to fake THAT MUCH content, but I recognize that's not enough to prove anything.

It's like I said in my initial post - I can't prove anything without a doubt. I didnt set out to do that. My goal was simply to explain why I (and many others) believe the allegations against her since it can all seem like a mess of information from the outside looking in. It's based on what I've seen of Lily over the years - from the lies and inconsistent stories to the way she talks to people online to the fanfic she reads and writes. These small behaviors combine with the consistent stories shared about her to present a clear image of a fairly abusive person. I do not have a compilation of the years worth of stuff that has clued me into this -- I don't have personal stakes in this, so why would I? This is just my take, which is what OP asked for.

Either way, if you came to a different conclusion when looking at the information that has been provided, that's fine. Once again, my only intention in responding to this post was explaining why I believe what I do.

aight fuck it time to get canceled

i'm sure i'll regret this later but i'm feeling brave today

i've looked through all the lily orchard "proof" and honestly like. almost none of it holds up. the screenshots with no names or faces especially.

now i'm willing to have respectful discussions and look over some of the proof again, but what i've seen so far has not convinced me. oh, she's... a little rude sometimes? that's all i've really concluded.

i know there's no reasonable way courtney would have any sort of proof of what lily (allegedly) did. it is courtney's word vs. lily's. we literally have a he-said-she-said here.

and watching lily's video. honestly. i am more inclined to believe her, but that's cause i'm the "pics or it didn't happen" type of person. i need proof.

i'm gonna reiterate this cause i know you're all coming with your pitchforks now:

i know that there is no reasonable way for courtney to have proof.

i'm not gonna give anyone who just yells at me or insults me any attention. i want to have a respectful discussion. i want to know why the "proof" is... well, proof of anything. i want to hear your takes. i am open to having my mind changed. i want to know why you think the way you do, because looking at this logically... there's nothing here.

[cheriboms]

tmw ur friends ask why u brought some weird little orcs to entmoot ¯\_(ツ)_/¯