#but i have to do this

[dan-or-daniel]

SPECIAL EDITION

[gorobeh]

I know.

I know I'm not working hard anymore. Have not been work hard for the past few weeks, and I know its bad. My medical entrance exam is 4 days away, and I am not working hard. I am not revising. But I know I won't get scholarship to the college that I want this year, I know even if I study 18 hours a day these four days, it will go to waste, so why work hard? I am not going to make it anyway.

But I have a feeling that I will regret it soon. Maybe while getting out of the exam center, I will realise that I could've done it. Maybe while sitting on my exam desk I'll realise that had I only persisted a few weeks I could've had my dreams come true. The day that results will be published, maybe I'll see that some of my friends actually made it. And I usually do better than them. Maybe I won't know how to react, or maybe I would be sad, my dad would try to cheer me up, but I can already see his disappointment right now. My mom would call me and try to comfort me, but I know. I know it will be because of me that she'd have to continue to stay far from home and work do hard. It would be my fault that my dad's dream to start building a house would be delayed.

And me? I would definitely be sad, but I would've already expected it. So I'll try sleeping in all day, watching movies, and feeling miserable. Then my dad would get angry for sleeping all day and doing nothing. That's how Asian parents are.

So, I've already planned my rise up, even before my downfall. I will confide to gardening. I will give away my smartphone, and in exchange get a "dumb phone". That will surely save me from spiraling down through the rabbit holes of swipes. I will maintain a journal (or maybe come to tumblr to keep records), and I will take it slow. Slow is nice, I like slow. I will cover my syllabus slowly, and comfortably. I will make a routine, and pray. It will be okay.

It will be okay. I think.

[shinygalaxyperson]

New week, new @galladrabbles for the magical Ian series!

Thank you @mmmichyyy for this Rain ☔☔ Prompt!

The day seems to never end, Ian is getting more and more impatient.

Something is wrong, he can feel it now. 

Outside a storm is coming, like a messenger of bad news.

When the class is over, Ian runs.

The more he gets closer to his friend's house, the more he knows something bad happened. 

He should feel his aura now, but he can't find him anywhere. Where is he?

When Ian arrives, he understands: the house is no longer here, nothing left but ashes.

Rain on his cheeks, little Ian drops on his knees. 

Or maybe it's his tears.

[maomaomeow]

Biggest interview of my life soon. I'm gonna die. Sooooo nervous. I need this job so bad. Please please please let it go well.

[just-french-me-up]

'ao3 needs a like and dislike button'

what you need, my algorithm-rotten minded friend, is a grip

[bearvverine]

me and gang at the haunted house

[gaytommykinard]

"you don't like mpreg?" i don't even like fpreg

[copepods]

crazy how 4 hours of work will literally take up my entire 15+ hour day. who allowed this

[mayhemchicken-artblog]

in the hour or so it took me to draw this op turned reblogs off

EDIT: reblogs are STAYING OFF. op was right and correct and i have never regretted making a post as much as this one. if you want to reblog my art you can reblog something else from my blog. or commission me, lord knows i deserve financial compensation for the nightmare this post has put me through

[theblob1958]

people are saying do it scared, but you also gotta do it alone. you'll miss out on so much you want to do if you wait til someone will do it with you. do it scared and do it alone.

[some-pers0n]

I'm always entertained by people doing those "canon VS fanon" memes where both are misunderstanding characters to such a violent degree 'cause like

[skecherss]

@batbirdies honestly this SOUNDS like something your Jason would say

[yiga-hellhole]

me when i have like 20 notifications in the span of five minutes and when i go check its just the same guy rapidfire liking and reblogging posts

[cornpapers]

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again