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Idk Iâve shared this before but whenever I see it, it reminds me: minors and young people, I know the current trend is to share information about yourself as like an âinfo tagâ or whatever the term is, but itâs far safer and generally better to just limit what you share. Pronouns and a screen name and maybe your country
Hey. Minors following me. Internet safety is key!! NEVER include these in your bio/byf:
Medical diagnoses - this is nobody's business but yours. You don't owe anyone an explanation for why you are the way that you are
Trauma - same reason as above
Triggers - people can use these against you! Don't give people tools to hurt you. No one has to know what tags you block. Just block tags to stay safe!
Age - age is okay for adults to include but is iffy when you're a teen. Predators want this information, don't give people more than they need. Just state that you're a minor, that's all that anyone needs to know.
In general: stay safe. If you're not comfortable with every stranger out there having access to this information, you shouldn't post it on the internet.
Play devil's advocate and ask yourself about what would happen if someone searched for your information with intent to hurt you. You do NOT owe anyone an explanation!
#I honestly have a lot of thoughts about the current trend in internet circles of feeling#like you need to share specific info about yourself#maybe I can write abt it sometime idk#ramblings#spa
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Simon gets a message from reader while heâs on base. Itâs a video. The thumbnail looks like a blurred image of a store isle
Once he has a moment to himself, heâs able to sit back and finally check out what you had sent.
The camera pans down to show yours and simonâs two year old daughter. She has half a mini chocolate muffin clutched in her little baby fist and chocolate smudges on her nose and bright pink cheeks. Sheâs standing, staring at something out of frame.
The camera is a bit shaky and Simon can hear you trying desperately to hide your laughter.
âBaby,â you say, âbaby, look at me.â You bend down to bring the camera closer to your daughter, who only turns to look at you for a second before going back to staring at the same spot out of frame.
âWho is that?â
Your daughter raised one of her chocolate covered hands to point towards whatever it was that had been captivating her the entire video. âDaddy.â
Simon hereâs more of your pained stifled laughter and the camera follows your daughterâs gaze, revealing a cheaply made Halloween grim reaper statue, with dusty purple robes, a plastic scythe, and a hilariously misshapen skull face.
He reads the accompanying texts that had followed the video.
[She just started saying âdaddy daddyâ over and over and it took me forever to figure out what she was talking about]
[for a second I thought, âoh is he here?â]
[Im so dense lol]
[she really misses you ]
[I miss you too]
The next text was a picture of your daughter fast asleep in her car seat. Now cleaned of chocolate, she had replaced her muffin with a giant plastic rat that she hugged to her chest like a teddy bear.
[she refused to leave without it]
Simon smiles. It had been a long time since he had a family. People who loved waiting for him to come home.
Your texts had been sent hours ago, and he felt bad about not responding all day.
[thatâs unfair. My mask is made of much better materials]
[I miss you both too. If everything goes right I should be home by Monday]
[and donât call yourself dense]
Simon thinks for a moment, something eating at him about that video
[I wish she didnât know about the mask. I donât want her to see me that way]
You respond quickly, making Simon feel worse about his delayed reply
[Dont worry about that honey. Sheâs only two, and I think she only saw you wear in mask once once or twice. Sheâll forget in a month.]
[She doesnât see you as anything other than her daddy]
[her daddy and her jungle gym]
[lol yes that too]
[Im sorry I donât have a lot of time. Iâll try and call you tomorrow]
[ok Im heading to bed now anyway]
[goodnight I love you â¤ď¸]
[goodnight I love you too â¤ď¸]
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â f1 boys and the moment they go âfuck itâ
Ë â LANDO NORRIS
youâre both a little drunk, but sober enough to know what youâre doing. he loves testing your limits, so he makes a bet with you over something trivial, promising a âprizeâ if you win. when you win and smile victoriously, he laughs and says, âi guess i owe you something special, right?â you nod, ready to receive whatever it is. he leans in, eyes shining, and whispers, âi hope this counts,â before giving you a kiss that feels playful and intense at the same time.
Ë â GEORSE RUSSELL
youâve always had a fun friendship, where you could joke around and have fun with each other all the time, and tonight was no different. youâve been teasing him all night, playfully testing his limits. heâs been patient, smiling, until you say something that pushes him over the edge, âoh you want to kiss me so bad right now,â you say playfully as he wouldnât stop looking at your lips. he looks serious for a moment and you think he doesnât like what you said, but he just gets even closer, his voice low and intense, âyou have no idea how much,â before leaning in and kissing you, finally giving in to what heâs wanted for so long.
Ë â SEBASTIAN VETTEL
you're alone in your room while music plays. you thought you were alone and he was in the living room, but he was silently watching you sway, mesmerized. he always admired you from afar and never hid it, but at that moment, something changes inside him like never before. he thought a lot before doing it, but it was only when he stopped thinking that he finally did it: he approaches, puts a hand on your waist and, without saying a word, pulls you close, holding you as if you were the only two people in the world. you were startled by his sudden attitude, but you quickly melted in his arms as he hugged you and pulled you even closer to him while your lips were danced together.
Ë â CARLOS SAINZ
youâd never argued before, but at that moment, your nerves were on edge; you were both frustrated with each other. the room fell silent as the tension shifted, and he was staring at you, breathless. you tried to look away from him, but something about him held you back; he was a mess. suddenly, he closed the distance, pressing his lips to yours in a kiss that spoke of all the unspoken emotions between you, finally letting everything that had been bottled up come out.
Ë â CHARLES LECLERC
he watches you from afar as you talk and laugh with another guy, and even though he knows he has no claim, it still stirs something primal in him; he just couldn't stop staring at you, and you noticed it. later, when you're alone, you tease him about it and ask him why he couldn't stop looking at you like that. he knows you were having fun with the situation, but he wasn't. you thought it was no big deal, but for him it changed everything. "i hated seeing you with someone else," he finally admits, serious as he stares at you. you look at him for a few seconds and smile, he smiles back and takes your face, finally kissing you - and claiming you his.
Ë â LEWIS HAMILTON
itâs late and youâre saying goodbye after spending the whole day together; he loves being with you, but he hates the time to say goodbye. it feels like time passes so quickly with you but so painfully slowly when youâre apart. he also knows that you hate goodbyes, so youâre lingering at the door, neither wanting to part. he takes your hand, holding it a little tighter, his thumb gently stroking your skin. âmaybe⌠i donât want to say goodbye yet,â he says and his eyes shine at you. he leans in, finally pressing his lips to yours as he places his hand on the back of your neck and the other on your waist.
Ë â OSCAR PIASTRI
itâs late and youâre both tired from the party you just attended. people have started to leave, but youâre too busy with each other to care. youâre in the garden of the huge house, sitting on the grass and admiring the stars. he looks at you laughing at something he told you, your voice soft and open, and something inside him snaps. his heart starts to beat faster as heâs mesmerized by you. he blurts out, âsorry, i canât pretend anymore,â and pulls you closer to him, his hands shaking with anticipation and desire as he finally takes your face carefully and kisses you, completely melting into the taste of you.
Ë â LIAM LAWSON
he loves listening to you and always listens attentively. but lately he hasn't been able to hold himself back: whenever you start talking, he has to look away or think about something else, because he's on the verge of finally giving in to you. you have a surprising effect on him that he's never felt before, and today was no different: while you're talking, he suddenly goes quiet, his eyes fixed on yours with an intense gaze. "sorry," he murmurs, "i know you're saying something important, but i just⌠i can't concentrate when you're so close." he's also surprised by what he just said, but he doesn't wait for an answer, pulling you into that kiss he's been holding back for so, so long.
Ë â MAX VERSTAPPEN
youâre both running to take cover from an unexpected downpour, and youâre both soaking wet, laughing and out of breath. he looks at you, hair drenched and eyes shining as you laugh, and realizes he canât contain himself anymore. youâre the most beautiful and charming person heâs ever met in his life, and he canât hide it anymore. heâs afraid of losing you; of losing the opportunity to finally be with you. so, without saying a word, he gently caresses your cheek and smiles with you before pulling you into a passionate kiss, with the rain running down both of you. in that moment, he felt like he was floating. in that moment, nothing else mattered, it was just you and him in the world.
#lando norris x reader#lando norris imagine#george russell fluff#george russell x reader#george russell imagine#sebastian vettel x reader#sebastian vettel imagine#carlos sainz x reader#carlos sainz imagine#max verstappen x reader#max verstappen imagine#liam lawson x reader#liam lawson imagine#oscar piastri imagine#lewis hamilton x reader#charles leclerc x reader#lewis hamilton imagine#charles leclerc imagine
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For Cryinâ Out Loud
pairing: post-outbreak! joel miller x afab! reader
how to help the palestinians and what it means to write for the last of us characters
word count: 7.9k
description: living with joel is complicated, especially when you canât sleep due to nightmares. when you find yourself in his bed, you canât help yourself. but joel sure can. give him a day to mull it over.
warnings: pretty slow burn, kinda forced proximity, kinda angsty, unspecified age gap (donât like it, donât read it), joel gives you tons of nicknames (darlinâ, kiddo, etc.), discussions of nightmares and possible mental illnesses, some fluff, reader isnât really described, joel is kinda a gaslighter, heâs also a bit pervy, unprotected p in v (wrap it yâall), oral (f! receiving), dirty talk, joel like worships you!!!!!, joel licks his fingers clean, giving genitalia pronouns, joelâs a big boy. think thatâs it. lemme know what I missed!
authorâs note: I really enjoyed writing this. the idea is pretty simple but I love domestic jackson!joel. I promise iâll try to switch it up soon and write something that isnât jackson!era lol. support your fav fics by reblogging and commenting!! thanks love ya <3
For some reason, you always find yourself standing at the threshold of the front door when you cannot sleep.Â
The air was especially brisk tonight. You wrapped yourself in a gray chunky sweater you found in the lost and found in Jacksonâs thrift store, hoping to regain some warmth. Your bed may have been comfortable, but it was the place where nightmares usually plagued you.Â
It was too late to be awake, and you knew that if you were caught, you would hear it from Joel. He always reprimanded you. Every time he caught you up late, it was like your father woke up and found your hand in the cookie jar.Â
The dynamic between you two had changed since arriving in Jackson, and you almost resented him for it. When it was just you, him, and Ellie, you were managing a family unit. Joel was always the protective father, you being the mom or the voice of reason, and Ellie being chaos.Â
When Ellie and Joelâs relationship shifted, he took on a fatherly role for you. It bothered you. A lot.Â
In a moment of contemplation, you hear footsteps coming down the steps behind you.Â
Heâs wearing flannel pajama pants and no shirt, his hairy tummy something you did not see often.Â
âWhat are you doing awake?â He questions, his voice groggy with a twinge of annoyance.Â
You do not feel like explaining yourself, but you knew you wouldnât be able to get out of this situation without a justification.Â
You huff, leaning your back against the door frame so you can get a full look at the broad man. âCanât sleep. Thought staring into the darkness would help.â
He grunts, rubbing the sleep out of his eyes. âHowâs that workinâ for you, sweetheart?â
You could not close your eyes without the haunting dreams that seemed lively and so real. Every night, you had the same recurring ones. You were being chased, hunted, or murdered. Or all of the above. You would wake in a cold sweat, not wanting to shut your eyelids ever again.Â
âHm,â You say, staring back outside for a brief moment, ââWas better when you werenât looking over my shoulder.â
He chuckles, âGet back to bed.â
âI canât, Joel.â
âYou can and will. Youâre no good when youâre tired.â
âIf I close my eyes, Joel, I will just have the same goddamn nightmares I have every night. And I will end up doing what Iâm doing now, which is trying to get some fresh air to forget them.â
âYouâre not gonna forget âem with some fresh air. You just need to⌠get over them.â
The breeze picks up as soon as he says it, almost like the world knew the tension would have to be broken with some frigid air. You retort with, âAnd how do you get over yours?â
"I just accept them," he says, a hint of defensiveness in his tone. "I don't have time to dwell on them. There's always more important things to worry about."
"I'm more tired in the morning when I just endure them." You explain, trying not to cry about it. But you are so sick of them. The same thing every night.
âI get it. One day they will subside, Iâm sure of it. But for now, you gotta-â
You just want him to shut up. At the same time, your mind is trying to remember the last time you did not have a nightmare. The memory makes your stomach churn. âYou remember that one time we were forced to share that sleeping bag? Back in Pittsburgh?â
âYeah,â His tone was wary, âWhat about it?â
"That was the first night I didn't have it." You explain, your voice a bit shaking at the insinuation. You donât want to face the fact that Joel, the man that you have known for going on 10 years, kept your nightmares at bay. The same man who continuously rejected you and told you that he was old enough to be your dad. The same man that told you no, I donât like you like that. I never will. That Joel.Â
âAnd? Why are you bringing this up now?â
"Because every night I go to my bed and I'm forced to face them alone. When you were there... they didn't even bother holding my mind hostage.â
He took another step closer, closing some of the distance between you two. He towers over you and you canât help but stare up at him in awe. Joel has always been a complicated part of your life. You consider him your sexual awakening, honestly, but he will never ever know that. Over the years, heâs only gotten more handsome.Â
But now, he has a curious expression written all over his face.
"Are you saying you want to share a bed with me?" he asks, his voice gruff and low.
You suck in a deep breath, not wanting to answer. You knew that was stepping over a boundary for Joel. He liked his space. He didnât like you impeding on that space, especially. Your bedroom was the furthest away from his for a reason.
"I don't know." You manage to say.
Joel's gaze darkened, his expression was completely unreadable. You wish you could read his mind, but you should be grateful you can not.Â
Because in Joelâs mind, heâs trying to formulate a way to convince you to stay away from him altogether. The wall he has built over the last decade was intentional. He did not want to hurt you any further. He already knew you had feelings for him, but he was an old man. He did not want to drag you into his mess, all the baggage he carried. He looked after you, he shared a home with you, and thatâs it. Strictly platonic.Â
He shifted on his feet a little, unable to tear his eyes away from you. You shook like a little leaf.
"You don't know?" he repeated, his voice a low rumble.
You nod, "I don't know if I want that."
You do want that. But you want more, too. You knew you would be playing with fire. You would just be disappointed.Â
Joelâs temptations are buried deep but they still fester every now and again. Some days he would catch a glance at you getting dressed in the crack of your door and have to take a cold shower. As soon as he felt those emotions bubble in his chest, he would try to distract himself. Maybe he would take a longer patrol. Maybe he would go to the Tipsy Bison and try to find a woman to take home. That one never really worked.Â
âWell, what do you want then? Because standinâ at the door and letting all the cold air in ainât gonna work for me or you.â
You look down at your picked-over fingernails and contemplate your next sentence. You don't want to be heartbroken in the morning when you wake up and he's there sleeping peacefully next to you and you're not... his.
"I want to sleep with you."
Joel was not expecting such a blunt response from you, but he appreciated you not beating around the bush about it. He gestures for you to step out of the doorway so he can shut the door, which you do.Â
He looked down at you, his eyes raking over your face, taking in the exhaustion and uncertainty.Â
"You sure?" he asked, his voice a gruff whisper.
You just nod as he locks the front door. You couldnât believe you were doing this.Â
Joel couldnât believe it either. Maybe it was the tiredness or the instincts he felt to protect you, but he was not mad at the idea of sharing his bed with you.Â
You signal for him to go upstairs, âYou lead the way.â
-
Joelâs room was always off-limits to you. So when you step into his small little world, you take it all in.Â
The artwork around the room was mainly nature landscapes. He had a big dresser right at the room's entrance with picture frames of Sarah, Ellie, and other family members. You were even included in one photoâa picture of you and him on some horses from last year.Â
A shirt littered one side of the bed, so you took that as it was probably his side. Unfortunately for you, it was the right side. You felt a pang of guilt realizing you would probably end up restlessly lying in Joelâs bed if you were stuck on the left.Â
Before he can pull back the blanket for himself, you stop him.Â
âUh, can I sleep on that side?â
He completely halts in his motions, turning his head towards you with a blank expression. âMy side? Why?â
You lick your lips, already regretting this whole thing.Â
âBecause I have had this superstition since I was a kid that I could only sleep on the right side of the bed."
Joel wants to laugh, but he doesnât. He can tell you are at war in your head about the question, your expression practically anticipating his rejection.Â
"Superstitions, huh?" he said, a hint of a smirk playing on his lips."You and your weird beliefs."
You watch as he crosses to the other side of the bed and lifts the blanket. Is he actually letting you have his side? Maybe he doesnât hate you.Â
âYou could also call it a compulsion, but superstitions seem more fun and less like a mental illness.â
He laughs this time, his deep chuckle making you feel a bit more relaxed about the situation. You did not feel like a burden as much. You walk to the right side and pull back his navy blue sheets and blanket. The spot looks warm and inviting so when you crawl in next to Joel, you start to realize that youâre back in the same situation you were in years ago in that sleeping bag. He was so close and warm and you wanted nothing more but for him to hold you and keep you comfortable.
But then another thing came to mind before you could imagine his arms around you.Â
You usually sleep on your right side or back, but now you don't know what to do because you didn't know how Joel slept.
"Do you sleep on your side or back?"
Joel studies you as you fidget beside him, your uncertainty causing him to smirk slightly. It was almost endearing, seeing you be completely out of control of your surroundings. He remembers back when you were traveling with him you had an obsessive need to straighten up everything before you fell asleep. You had to roll yourself up in your sleeping bag the same way every night.Â
"Usually on my back," he said finally. "But I can sleep on my side, too."
You swallow, trying to picture yourself sleeping. For some reason you felt the urge to have control of the situation, dictating exactly how he has to sleep, too. "Can I... I'll sleep on my side if you can sleep on your back? Is that okay?"
Joel had to suppress a smirk at your request. You knew he was trying to hold back a snarky remark. Instead, he surprises you.
"Sure, you can sleep on your side," he agreed, shifting his body weight onto his back, "ân I'll sleep on my back. No big deal."
You turn to face him, tucking the pillow further under your head. You can tell his eyes are heavy from exhaustion. You know it's time to shut up, to go to sleep, but you feel the need to say something else to him. Sometimes your brain concocts questions and statements and you know you shouldnât say them, but your mouth betrays you. Â
"When was the last time you had a girl in your bed?"
Why the fuck would you ask that? You think to yourself. It fell out of your mouth like drool.
Joel's eyes widened at your blunt question, surprise and a hint of embarrassment coloring his expression. You knew he was probably just expecting you to lay here next to him, maybe roll around a bit, then sleep. But instead, itâs an interrogation.
He took a deep breath, his mind rattling around as he tried to think of a response. He didn't want to admit what his genuine answer was to you, but he too could not help himself.
"Why do you want to know that?" he asks, his voice steely.
You hate that he even responded because now you needed to defend yourself.
"I uh, don't know. I don't know why it matters."
Joel chuckled softly, noting that you probably just had a case of word vomit. You always told him you were infamous for putting your foot in your mouth, especially in awkward situations.
"Curiosity got the better of you, huh?" he asks, rubbing his face with his hands. âYou just canât help yourself, sweetheart.â
He shifted slightly, rolling onto his side to face you, his gaze studying your expression.
You smirk, grateful that he's letting it slide. When he turns onto his side and he's at eye level with you, your face drops a bit. He is ruining the vision in your head. Heâs throwing a wrench in your plans.
"You're supposed to be on your back, sir."
Joel couldn't help but chuckle softly at your comment. He knew he was supposed to be on his back, but the new angle allowed him to see you better in the faint moonlight.
"Don't worry," he said, a hint of humor in his voice. "I'll turn back over in a minute. Just... enjoying the view for a bit."
You roll your eyes, lifting your hands from under the covers and lightly hitting his arm. You knew he was just fucking with you now.Â
"Okay, for that, I want to know the answer to my stupid question."
Joel let out a low laugh, the sound rumbling deep in his chest. He shook his head, amused by your persistence. You start to think about it and you have never really seen him bring anyone home. Maybe it had been a very long time and he was embarrassed.Â
"Alright, alright," he said, a hint of resignation in his voice. "Last time I had a girl in my bed..."
He paused for a moment, his eyes dropping to the covers, his mind racing to find the right words.
"Go on..."
Joel took another deep breath, his voice dropping even lower as he spoke.
"It's been a long time, kiddo," he admitted, his voice pierced with a bit of shame. "Almost ten years, if I'm being honest."
Your eyes widen in surprise. "No way... You've never just... got it on with someone in bed?"
Joel's face flushed with embarrassment at your blunt question, a mix of shock and slight irritation flashing across his eyes.
"Jesus, you really don't hold back, do ya?" he muttered. He shifts a bit, trying to get comfortable in a different way. He hadn't expected the conversation to turn so personal, so quickly and he did not want to face you anymore. He was mortified.Â
You mentally slap yourself in the face.
"I'm sorry, I am just tired and delusional. Uh, you don't have to answer that."
Joel could practically feel the humiliation radiating off you and he too felt the exact same way. You knew how to add to an already awkward situation.
"No, no, it's fine," he reassured you, his voice a bit gentler now. "I get it. You're tired, and your filter has taken a backseat."
"Yeah, exactly..."
He shifted on the bed, turning onto his back again, his gaze shifting to the ceiling, avoiding your curious stare.
You could not help but stare at his side profile. A prominent straight nose. His downturned lips are surrounded by some fine lines that show his age. He was a beautiful man now, but you canât help but imagine him back in his 20s. He had to have been a hit with the ladies back then.
Joel could feel your gaze on him, studying his face. And while you were not scrutinizing him, he felt like a commodity in a museum or something. He forced himself to keep his gaze on the ceiling, refusing to meet your eyes.
"So⌠ten years and no sex?â
You could seriously, not help yourself.
"Correct.â He grumbles, still not meeting your stare.
"Damn, Joel." You mutter, adjusting a bit to sit up a little more on your pillow. "I seriously thought you were sleeping around the whole time we have been in Jackson.â
He finally turns your way, a bit of offense on his face. âWhy would you think that?â
You shrug, not wanting to insult him. But thatâs how you formulated your grudge towards him. It was easy to just chalk everything up to problems with random women you have seen around town.Â
âYou just give off the energyâŚâ
âWhat?â
You huff, laying back on the pillow. âI donât know, Joel! I feel like when Iâm around you all the ladies think youâre handsome. They stare.â
âThey are staring because youâre always following me around and we arenât married or⌠together. They think we are odd.âÂ
You had never heard such things around Jackson, but it does sort of make sense. Everyone was probably just confused because you two lived together but were not a couple. You can admit it is bizarre, but it just did not feel like an option any other way, in your mind. So Tommy gave you two a bigger house and you set up separate rooms.Â
But in actuality, Joel secretly told Tommy that he did not want you too far from him. So when Tommy couldnât give you any other houses nearby, Joel just told him that you two would be roommates.
âWell fuck âem.â You mutter, trying not to sound too offended by the thought of people gossiping about you two.
Joel just nods. You settle by tucking your arm under your pillow. You yawn, the exhaustion now taking over your body. You watch Joel grab a pair of reading glasses from the side table and a book. You decide not to bother him, especially because he probably wanted to just read himself to sleep instead of being interrogated by you any further.
You close your eyes and eventually fall asleep. The deeper you get, Joel notices how your breathing pattern changes. When heâs finally ready to get some shut-eye as well, he watches as your body crawls closer to him. Your arm swings over his stomach and rests on his forearm. He is so shocked he does not move a muscle.Â
You adjust some more, not knowing what you are doing. Your leg creeps up and tucks right between his. You snuggle your face right into his chest. The only movement Joel decides to make is slinging his arm over your shoulders to pull you in tighter.Â
Itâs the first time in years that you two slept soundly, with no interruptions. No nightmares, no sudden intrusions, nothing. Silence and snores fill the room and thatâs it.
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When you wake up, itâs slow and gradual. Your brain hardly computes that youâre laying on top of Joelâs shirtless frame, until your hand runs across his warm tummy.Â
You crook your neck up, looking at the handsome man you are spreading across.Â
His lips are slightly ajar, letting out hardly-there snores. They are so pretty and pink and you cannot help but touch them with feather-like fingertips. You would feel so guilty waking him up-
His eyes slowly open taking notice of your actions even though you tried not to stir him. Your eyes fly open in shock, but he does not seem very annoyed. He smiles.Â
âMorninâ darlinâ,â He says in a deep sleep-laced voice. You smile back at him, loving that he decided to call you the nickname you always got giddy over. You press your fingers into his chest before replying.
âI didnât have a nightmare.â
His hand comes up from your shoulders and tucks some hair behind your ear as he stares down at you, âThatâs good kiddo. Iâm glad you slept well.â
The intimacy is almost too much. The way this is how it would be if you woke up to Joel every morning. It sends your brain into overdrive and you force yourself to ruin it a bit.
âWoulda slept even better if you didnât talk so much in your sleep.â
Joel froze for a moment, his cheeks immediately flushing pink with embarrassment. He sits up a bit more, adjusting to the brighter lighting in his room. He knew he had a problem with talking in his sleep. Ellie used to talk about it all the time. He dreaded hearing what he was saying while curled up next to you.
"Uh... what did I say?" he asked, trying to maintain his composure.
"Something about it felt so good to be pressed up against someone, I don't know..."Â
You could not help yourself and started to laugh. You knew you were going to get a rise out of him.Â
Joel's face flushed an even deeper shade of pink as you started to laugh, clearly amused by your joke. He could feel his heart racing in his chest, his mind racing as he tried to come up with an excuse. He was just dreaming, it was not about you.Â
"W-what?" he spluttered out instead of making an excuse. "I didn't... I didn't say anything like that."
You have a shit-eating grin on your face and you press your hands on his chest to prop yourself up. You enjoyed watching him squirm.
Joel's eyes flickered down to your hands on his chest. He sickly thought they felt so right placed there. He imagined what you would look like fully mounting him.Â
He tried to keep his expression neutral, but you could see through his stone-cold exterior.
"You're messing with me, aren't you?" he grumbled, a hint of suspicion in his voice.
"Fully fuckin' with you." You giggle, hoping he is not really that mad at you.Â
âYouâre a brat.â
You move your foot slightly, running it up his leg. It sends shockwaves up his body, having you so close and moving around so seamlessly.Â
"No, you said something about how beautiful, alluring, and incredible I am. Said I was the girl of your dreamsâŚ"
"Yeah, right," he said, a hint of playful sarcasm in his voice. "You expect me to believe that?"
"So, you don't believe me?"
"No, I don't believe you," he says, his voice stern but playful. "I think you're a dirty little liar, trying to play me for a fool."
"A dirty little liar, huh? Well, it's good to know that you don't think I'm beautiful, alluring, and incredible." You giggle at his acknowledgment, knowing he caught you red-handed.
"Oh, I never said that," he smirked, a hint of teasing in his voice. "You are all of those things, darlinâ. But you're also a dirty little liar who likes to play games."
"So you think I'm beautiful?" You crack, the biggest smile painted on your face. You donât even care that heâs calling you a liar because it does not matter. Joel thinks you are beautiful.Â
ââCourse I do.â
You push yourself up onto your butt, sitting crisscross next to him. He secretly wishes you were still curled up on top of him.Â
âYou always this nice in the morning?â You ponder, your fingertips starting to toy with the hair on his stomach. He tries not to pay mind to it, letting you have full access to touch him.Â
But itâs driving him insane. The way you look freshly woken up, completely enamored with the idea of him calling you beautiful. You have some puffiness under your eyes and your lips are more swollen than usual.
âI am always nice to you.â
You let out a scoff, âNo, youâre not.â
He notices the shift in your tone and starts to get defensive, âNow youâre just lyinâ.âÂ
Joel always loved to gaslight you in these situations. You knew better than to let him get away with it, especially now. âNo there was that one time you told me you did not like me and that you would never like me. How you are old enough to be my dad-â
âBecause I am!â
And thereâs the wall. The only constant in you twoâs relationship. He was so good at throwing it up when feelings were being expressed. When vulnerability was presented, Joel could not help but reject it.Â
âAnd the worldâs fuckinâ ended, Joel! Big deal!â You almost yell, moving your hands from him.Â
Why does he already miss your hands?
He huffs, crossing his arms over his soft chest. âWe have had this conversation for the last 10 years.âM not sure why we keep rehashing it.â
âAnd every time you turn me down itâs another fuckinâ stab in the heart.â
âYou know why we canât,â He practically growls. You can not stand to even look at him anymore with your bitterness and irritation taking over.Â
âWhatever, Joel.âÂ
As soon as you say it, youâre already leaving his room and heading to your own. When you slam the door, you hope you have made your point. You want to scream and punch a hole in the wall, but instead you just furiously stomp around the room and grab your clothes. You had patrol at noon, so you needed to get to the mess hall before breakfast was over. You try not to cry as you strip down and get dressed.
Joel sits in bed, reeling. He hates that it has become a conversation every six months. He hated that rejecting you always sent you into a spiral of hating him for extended periods. Itâs not that he did not want you, it was simply just not in the cards. He was too old to be in love. He was too old to play house with you. He just could not submit to the idea of leading you on, especially because you had so much more life to live.Â
He finally works up the courage to get out of bed and put on some clothes. He opts for putting on his typical jeans and thick flannel. It was getting colder and he knew by the end of the winter, you would end up with half his flannels anyway, so he had to enjoy them while he had them.Â
You storm downstairs, going to the back door for your boots when you spot him in the kitchen.Â
âYou got pat-â
âYes.â You respond quickly, shoving your foot into your shoes. He stands behind you with a mug full of tea, watching your every move.Â
âWho are you-â
âJesse.â
He was asking his usual questions, which you were not in the mood to answer.Â
âHey, can you-â
You snap your head back at him, giving him the glare you gave him as a warning usually. By now, he takes it as a hint and backs off. But not this time.Â
âCan I what?â
He rolls his eyes, âCan you fuckinâ not be a brat about this?â
You wish your glare came with knives. If that were the case, Joel Miller would be dead on his kitchen floor.Â
You are so thrown off by the question that you just watch him get angrier when you do not respond.Â
âAre you serious, right now?â You press, keeping your voice from cracking.Â
He brings the mug up to his mouth, taking an obnoxious sip. When he pulls the mug away, you notice how steaming it is. âYou always pull this shit-â
âNo, you do! You do this shit to me every fuckinâ time, Joel. You sweet talk me, make me feel comfortable, have me lapping everything up in the palm of your hands, and then you snatch it away. Then have the audacity to get mad at me!â
You are yelling now and it is throwing him off. Joel knows better than to interrupt you like you do to him. You were the kind of person who would calm down if you felt heard.Â
The way he knew you down to your core made this all so painful. Because if he was not so stubborn and true to his convictions, he would have fucked you the moment you touched his lips this morning.Â
âI ainât tryinâ to make this harder than-â âToo fuckinâ late.â
You think back to the moment last night when you knew you were going to hurt your own feelings by sleeping with him. You knew better, yet here you are, still blaming him for your stupidity.
He stands there, still holding his mug, staring you down like a wounded doe who got pierced with an arrow. He feels guilty like he misled you. Before he can say anything, you are lacing up your boots and leaving out the front door without another word.Â
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All day long, Joel wanders around the house trying to get rid of the pit in his stomach. Nothing works. A shower. Reading a book. Cutting wood. As soon as he tried to use laundry as a distraction, he reached into his hamper and found one of your t-shirts. He held it close and smelled it, trying to wrap his head around how he got here.Â
You spend all day, silently fuming on horseback with Jesse. When he tries to get you to open up, you ice him out and tell him to focus on the trail in front of him.Â
You get back by sundown, the sun setting making it a lot chiller than you expected. You decide to take the long way home, wanting to avoid being home for as long as possible. You were not ready to face Joel, let alone share a space with him. But unfortunately, during your patrol, you fell into some mud and needed a shower. The more time it spent on your clothes and body, the grosser you felt.Â
You open the front door, announcing that you are home. It was a habit you and Joel developed after you both pulled guns on each other during late-night arrivals.Â
You hear Joel mumble something from the living room, but you do not stop to listen and continue on your way upstairs to the bathroom.Â
You strip down as soon as the door is closed, tossing your muddy clothing into a hamper in the corner. You would get them washed and hung as soon as you shower off.Â
You hear Joelâs footsteps creaking around the upstairs hallway as you scrub your body with homemade soap and warm water.Â
When you start to dry yourself off, you hear Joel grunting something in the hallway. You wrap yourself in a towel and peek your head out the door. Heâs on his hands and knees wiping something off the hardwood. âWhatâs goinâ on?â
He looks up at you, your body only covered in a bleach-stained blue towel. It makes his head spin. He canât even be mad that you tracked in mud.Â
He swallows, gripping the cloth heâs using tighter. âYou got mud everywhere.â
You step out, not even really thinking about the fact that you are not properly dressed in front of Joel. You were still mad at him, anyway. Who cares what he thinks?
âSorry, I couldâve cleaned it up.â
He returns to wiping the wood, âItâs fine, I got it, kiddo.â
You accept his response and move on to your room, but the draft you leave behind drifts to Joelâs nostrils. Your soap smells like lavender and it always sends his mind racing when you are fresh from a shower. He clears his throat, trying to get through the emotions filling his chest.Â
But itâs been like this all day. Youâre all around him even when youâre not physically here. How can he get away from you? Why is he trying to run in the first place?
Heâs on his knees in your hallway, cleaning up your mess, sniffing the air you leave behind because heâs fucking in love with you and he cannot help himself anymore.Â
Joel starts to think about how peaceful he felt having you next to him last night and how he would love to feel that way every night. For once heâs not thinking about what everyone else would think. For once heâs thinking selfishly and caving into every desire he has ever pondered about you. How would you feel under him? How would your lips feel pressed against his pulse point?Â
His body was on fire, thinking about you.Â
You are fiddling with some clothes in your dresser after you flick on the overhead light. You do not hear him come into your room behind you.Â
You are so wrapped up in your own thoughts that when he clears his throat to announce heâs in your room, you scream. Loud.Â
âFor cryinâ out loud, woman!âÂ
You grip your towel tighter when you turn and see him standing at your mercy.Â
âJoel, what the fuck?â You yell, gesturing to the fact that you are practically naked. He does not care, of course, and his ears are ringing from your piercing scream. He gathers himself as you shift back, trying to create some distance from him.
He is trying not to gawk at the fact that your grip on the towel against your chest is only pushing up your cleavage. Heâs biting back everything. âCan we talk?â
âTalk about what? The fact you crept into my room when I was trying to change? Are we past boundaries now?âÂ
You are pissed, trying not to rattle off another million things to discuss with him. Heâs only really talking about one thing.Â
He scoffs at your last statement. âBoundaries were already out the window when you crawled into bed with me last night.â
Silence fills the room as you completely stop breathing. The anger you originally felt dissipates.Â
âJoel-â
âI ainât doinâ this back and forth anymore,â He starts shifting in his spot, unsure if he really should be doing this. âI canât live how I've been livinâ. Somethinâs gotta give.â
You furrow your eyebrows, confused.Â
âYou are the one who wonât give, Joel.â
As soon as you say it, he practically drags himself over to you. Completely destitute. You have never seen him look so desperate before. You can tell that heâs been at war with himself ever since you left this morning. His eyes never lied.
His hand creeps up your bare arm, leaving goosebumps in his wake.Â
But then you remember his words from this morning. You start feeling like this is just a moment of weakness for him and that he will regret it later. You had to stop it before it was too late. You did not want to deal with the consequences.Â
âJoel, you said we canât-â
âFuck what I said,â He cuts you off, âDo you want this?â
You stare into those brown eyes, searching for a sign of hesitance. You cannot believe Joel is being this vulnerable with you.Â
But, you do want him. God, you have wanted him so badly for so long. You have searched for him in every man you have ever been with since knowing him.Â
Your mouth opens but nothing comes out. He takes note of your parted lips, every word failing you at that moment.
âDarlinâ-â
âYes,â You finally manage. âYes, I do want this.â
Itâs all he needs. He closes the gap between you two by wrapping his arms around your waist and pulling you into his space. His lips crash onto yours, not wasting another breath of air waiting to indulge in his sickest fantasies.Â
You are all Joel ever dreamed about. He knew that once he caved and physically gave in, his world would be shot and everything would revolve around you. For years it had been a teetering object on a cliff, one nudge would have him falling. He always managed. But now, he was falling head first.Â
His lips move so perfectly with your own. Your hand released your towel and found the tufts of his curls at the base of his head. You did not care that the article pooled around your feet, leaving you completely bare in front of Joel. You have wanted this all along. To be uncovered, to be stripped down to the rawest form. He broke the kiss briefly just to scan your naked body, his forehead pressed against your own.Â
âFuck, you are so beautiful.â
Your heart stutters as his hand traces your stomach down to your hips, all the way down to your ass. He stops there, grabbing a handful.Â
âI need you,â You choke out before pressing your lips to his over and over again. âRight now.â
He mumbles âjumpâ into your mouth and you do so, his hands working quickly to hike you up onto his waist. He carries you to your bed, wasting no time dropping you onto your back.Â
He cannot get enough of your soft, swollen lips. Every time he pulls away slightly, he dives in again even more aggressively than the last time.Â
You are so hypnotized by the way he feels on top of you. In the light, he seems so much broader than he was last night. Heâs still fully clothed, to your dismay. You start to tug at his shirt, motioning him to remove the articles that are in your way.Â
He throws off his shirt before he stands up at the edge of the bed and pushes down his jeans.Â
âJoel⌠I-â
He just shuts you up with another passionate kiss. Itâs all tongue and teeth like heâs trying to melt into your mouth. Your hands trail up his back, gripping onto his shoulders, holding him down so he is pressing against your nude body.Â
âGod, I have wanted this for so long,â He sputters, trying not to sound too desperate. âBeen wanting this.â
Thatâs when his hand reaches down between your thighs and gathers the wetness your slit has to offer. His fingers dance across it, starting from the top all the way to your spongy entrance.Â
âPlease, Joel.â
He loves the lust-laced tone you speak with when you say his name. It almost makes him cum there and then.Â
You watch as he makes his way down your body, peppering kisses from your shoulder to your hip. When he parts your legs, you feel quite exposed. The adrenaline of being so spread for him manifests into a moan.Â
âYou are divine, baby.â
The use of that adjective is so-not-Joel that it makes you giggle. He notes your reaction and decides to sink down into you. When his mouth gets close to your core, itâs no longer a laughing matter.Â
He uses his fingers again, using them to spread open your pussy lips. He cannot keep his eyes away from how dripping you are. âThis all for me?â
âY-yes, Joel.â
âGod, I was a fuckinâ fool for so long. Couldâve had her earlier and I never fuckinâ caved. Such an idiot.â
Him giving your cunt pronouns was enough to have you throwing your head back and shuttering. His touch was magnetic like he knew exactly what buttons to push as he rubbed his fingers and palm over your core.Â
âYeah, youâve been missinâ out. Every nightâŚâ You swallow before looking down at the man that is enamored with your pussy, âE-every night I would lay in this bed, fuckinâ myself just thinkinâ about you.â
He growls at the statement, before teasingly kissing your clit. âEvery night, hm, kiddo?â
âGod, yes.â
Your eyes squeeze shut as he leans forward more and dives in. His nose is pressed firmly against the top of your pussy, nudging forward every time his tongue enters your hole. When that motion became consistent, you began to note the rumblings in the pit of your stomach. A familiar build-up that you managed to get when you were playing with yourself.Â
His fingers move in tandem with his lips and tongue. While his middle and pointer finger slide in and out of you, his lips wrap around your clit. Itâs overwhelming and all-consuming.Â
You do not know where to center yourself, so your hands grip the bed sheets you were completely soaking as Joel pulls the first orgasm out of you.Â
âThatâs it, baby, sheâs cryinâ for me, hm?â
You hardly make a noise, the orgasm is so earth-shattering that you just writhe on the mattress.Â
âOh my godâŚâ You groan, finally able to catch your breath. When Joel removes his fingers from you, you watch as he slowly brings them up to his lips.
When he inserts them in his mouth, you gawk at him, unsure how to react. He watches your expression and chuckles darkly.
âMm, never seen a man enjoy the taste of ya?â
You shake your head. âNever expected to hear those words leave your mouth, either.â
âWait âtil you hear what else I got to say.â
He stands up beside the bed, grabs your hips, and brings them to the edge. He is tossing you around with ease, bringing your lower body flush with his. He yanks down his briefs, revealing himself to you. You instantly take notice of how well-endowed he is. You never thought you would ever be close to his cock, let alone have it lining up at your entrance.Â
âJoelâŚâ You stop him with your small voice, but still welcoming him in with your legs opened wide, âI donât know if it will fit.â
He grins, âIt will, baby. Just relax for me, okay?â
You watch him slide his member along your center, the feeling so blissfully overstimulating. You whine a bit, raising your hips to his.Â
But Joel continues his torture, enjoying the way youâre squirming under him. The way your eyebrows are knitted together, your eyes shut as you grind up into him. Itâs the prettiest sight.Â
âReady?â
Your eyes fly open as you watch him ease his way into your core, the sound of squelching filling the room. You donât think you have ever been this wet for someone.Â
âOh my fuckinâ god, JoelâŚâ
He smiles as he inches in, âSqueezinâ my cock so good, darlinâ.â
When heâs fully sheathed inside, he tests the waters by drawing out slowly. You roll your hips in a circle, trying to feel out every inch of him. He fits, but you know once he starts to move faster, the stretch will become overwhelming.Â
Heâs trying to focus and not blow his load immediately. You look so beautiful below him, your tits slowly shifting back and forth every time he draws back and forth. He reaches out, wanting to feel the flesh between his fingers. God, he craved every inch of you, he realizes.Â
You open your legs as far as you can, letting him hit you at a different angle. The movement allows him to slip in a bit more seamlessly, so when he speeds up his thrusts, you donât feel like you will completely split in half.Â
He brings your leg up to hips, and feeling your soft delicate skin against him makes him lose all sense. His hips snap faster the more you moan out for him.Â
âFuckinâ Christ, girl. I canât believe I was missinâ out on this cunt,â He babbles, âNeed this cunt every day from now on. Gonna have you all to myself every night.â
You are too fucked out of your mind to read into those implications.
ââM all yours, Joel.â
He smiles, slowing down a bit. âKeep talkinâ like that and âll finish a lot sooner than you.â
You sit up a bit, your eyes flickering over his entire body. He notices you checking out his nude frame, which makes him feel a bit more bold. He leans down, capturing your lips in a hungry kiss. You love the way his tongue slips into your mouth so effortlessly. When he opens his mouth, his facial hair tickles your nose a bit which makes you smile. When his hips pick back up to a quicker pace, it sends you gasping into his mouth.
âPlease, Joel,â You whine, that familiar build starts up but this time itâs like a freight train. Moving so quickly down every nerve ending in your body. âIâm gonna cum.â
ââM with you, darlinâ. Soak this dick. Iâm right behind ya.â
His dirty talk causes the crash. Your body practically lifts off the mattress. You cry out so loud you are sure a neighbor could hear you. You try to gain your bearings, but you are panting like you just ran a mile.Â
Joel fucks you through it, but the restriction your pussy is putting on his cock sends him over the edge. His hips stutter into yours, his seed emptying into your spent hole. He just keeps repeating your name as his thrusts slow down.
He has never had such a visceral orgasm in his life. His knees are weak and can hardly keep up his weight. He practically falls on top of you, which does not offend you at all. His warm sweaty body on top of you is almost reassuring.Â
âYou okay, kiddo?â He finally mutters as his hot breath fans the nape of your neck. You just nod, bringing your hand up to his salt and pepper hair. You tug lightly, smiling to yourself.Â
âIâm more than okay.â
He finally sits up, his cock spilling out of you as he adjusts his position. Your hole drips a mixture of cum onto your newly clean sheets, but you could care less. Itâs just another thing to hand wash tonight.
Joel stumbles to the middle of the room, picking up your bath towel. He uses it to wipe himself up before coming over to you. Your legs are still slightly apart so he decides to clean you up a bit. Heâs gentle, knowing that you are probably still sensitive.
Once he finishes up, he crawls next to you as you continue to recover. Your bones felt like jello so standing up to adjust yourself was not an option.
So instead of facing him, you stare up at your ceiling fan as his eyes lock onto every detail of your profile. It brings him back to one night you two shared under the stars a couple of years ago. It was his turn to keep watch so you curled up in your sleeping bag by the fire. He admired you from across the flames, the orange hues lit up every angle of your face. It was at that moment that Joel realized that he could not picture his life without you. You had weaseled your way into every facet of his life and he used to resent the impact you had on him. You were younger, more patient but still stubborn like him. You made him laugh, like genuinely laugh, for the first time since the infection. While you may have been a bit impulsive with your emotions, he envied the way you could say exactly what you were thinking.Â
Joel did not want to love you, but it was impossible not to.Â
You finally look over at him, noticing the softness in his gaze.
âAre you okay?â You pose, scrunching your nose.Â
He gives you a toothless smile, his eyes crinkling a bit. âI just canât wait to sleep next to you for the rest of my life.â
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I think I've reblogged this post before and added this link but I'm doing so again because I think it would be helpful for more people to see it:
it's a PDF about vicarious trauma and guidelines for journalists to avoid ending up with secondhand PTSD from being exposed to graphic images and constant accounts of attrocities, but the advice in it is helpful just in general for engaging with the news and especially if you take part in any kind of activism.
you don't help anyone by exposing yourself to graphic and distressing content constantly, and you certainly don't help anyone by trying to make others feel guilty for not wanting to see graphic images or descriptions, especially given that being exposed to that content can cause longterm psychological harm.
what you do end up doing is risking secondhand PTSD and burnout for yourself, and causing harm to others if you're trying to force them to look at that distressing content
I am actually begging some people to just let some spaces exist untouched by real-world issues and horrors.
Like I've lost count of the amount of times peaceful game or fandom servers have been ruined by people stampeding in with political rants, bitching about world issues, demanding internal activism, demanding vent channels so they can whine about their shitty parents, ect.
Like. Respectfully. Not every single space has to be inclusive of and welcoming of outside topics. The real world sucks. We don't needed to be reminded of that absolutely everywhere.
#đŹ reblog#I have a lot of thoughts and feelings about this stuff and it nearly turned into a very long reblog#but like seriously you do not help anyone by guilt-tripping them and by looking at graphic content constantly#you will burn yourself out and potentially become unable to engage with that topic at all#and by guilt-tripping other people you will make them associate the topic with being told they're a bad person and made to feel guilty#and regardless of whether they agree with you on the topic and want to help#their brain will associate it with feeling like that and make them want to avoid it#and this doesn't mean they're a bad person; it means they're having a completely normal reaction to being guilt-tripped
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PICK A CARD: How You Hypnotize
â¤ď¸ "People are afraid, very much afraid of those who know themselves. They have a certain power, a certain aura and a certain magnetism." - Rajneesh
Disclaimer: This is a general reading, take what resonates. This is a gender-neutral reading, change any pronouns to apply to you.
p1 â p2 âď¸ p3 â p4
âż Pile One (5oW, Strength, 8oC, Judgement)
Do you have Mula (Sagittarius), Magha (Leo), or Ashwini (Aries) placements? Youâre giving off some serious last-one-standing energy. Mula is particularly known for its ability to defy all odds, taking down a âbeastâ that seems far stronger through wit and quick resolve. It embodies the Belle archetypeâwell-read, gentle, and kindâable to reign in even the most formidable challenges. This energy suggests a remarkable strength in navigating difficult situations, using intelligence and empathy to emerge victorious.
Life has tried you, pushed you to the brink, and dangled you over a cliff. All while a crowd of people whooped and hollered, rooting for your demise.
But guess what⌠youâre the one sitting pretty on top of a mountain while everyone else is where?⌠oh, AT THE BOTTOM OF THE FUCKING CLIFF!
I didnât plan this reading to be so⌠boastful? But you deserve to puff your chest out, babe.
Youâve had enemies. Honestly, this isnât common. When the average person hears about somebody having a lot of âhatersâ they brush it off and assume that person just has a big head. However, thatâs your reality. Your energy triggers people so they consider you a threat to whatever they have going on. For some of you, this could be your own family or closest friends.Â
Thereâs a quiet, obsessive intensity behind your eyes. The fire element is prominent in this reading, indicating a deep, aching desire to consume, burn, and clear everything in your path. While you may feel exhausted from a lifetime of battles, your soul thrives on challenges, igniting a fierce determination within you. This duality fuels your passion, pushing you to confront obstacles head-on, even when the struggle feels overwhelming. Embrace that fire; itâs not just a source of exhaustion, but also a wellspring of resilience and transformation.
đľYOU KNOW WHEN TO HOLLLDDD âEM, KNOWW WHEN TO FOOLLDD âEMM, KNOW WHEN TO WALLKKK AWAY, KNOW WHEN TO RUUUUUNNNNNN! đľ
Your intelligence transcends mere book smarts and common sense, creating an incredibly hypnotic aura around you. Your situational awareness allows you to navigate social dynamics effortlessly, running circles around people, and leaving them tangled in their own webs of thought. Youâre scarily smart, a strategic thinker who sees layers others miss. Thereâs a striking contrast between your physical appearance and the cunning nature beneath the surface; you may look like a doll, seemingly delicate and innocent, but thereâs a fierce and dangerous intellect at play. This duality not only captivates those around you but also keeps them guessing about your next move. You also possess incredible enduranceânot just in a physical sense, but in your ability to withstand a remarkable amount of bullshit that would have caused most people to tap out long ago.
People look at you and think, âHow?â How are you still standing, and how did you manage to come out on top? This aura of resilience draws some people in, compelling them to want to learn your secrets. However, not everyoneâs interest is innocent; for some, it morphs into a dark obsession, pushing them to challenge your resolve and see if they can crack your thick skin. This dynamic creates a complex dance around you, where admiration and envy intertwine.
P.S. Even if youâre not Ketu dominant or a Mula native, please watch Claire Naktiâs, The âFinal Girlâ Astrological placement research video, you will definitely resonate. If you comment, tell them AriJackz from Tumblr sent you!
Okay bye, MUAH đ
âż Pile Two (Knight of Pentacles, 2oS, Strength, 7oC (S?), The Star, Judgemental, Short, Melancholic, 4oP)
âHEART BEEN BROKE SO MANY TIIMMESSS
I DONâT KNOW WHAT TO BELIEVEEE
MAMA SAYS ITâS MY FAULLT, ITâS MY FAULLTTT
I WEAR MY HEART OF MY SLEEEEVVVEEEE!â
Itâs not your fault, baby! Bitches are just greedy đ
This is straightforward, youâre a star! You have that undeniable je ne sais quoi, ÂżCĂłmo se dice⌠âEveryone wants to be themâ energy. As a multi-faceted individual, you possess countless layers that draw people in. Each aspect of your personality holds a unique appeal, making it so that thereâs a piece of you that everyone desires. This captivating nature not only sets you apart but also invites beggars who benefit from being near your energy.Â
Youâre not consciously aware of this power and thatâs what makes it great; itâs not manipulated or curated, you just are. In your younger years, you were like a fairy prancing around with a basket of love, giving away pieces of your heart to anyone who looked your way with sad little-kicked puppy eyes.Â
However, the world is full of greedy hands that have no intention of giving as much as they receive. You were born with a heart of gold and encountered these all-consuming energies quite early in life, prompting you to spend your adolescence developing discernment and better judgment to avoid getting burned again. This journey has shaped you into someone who values authenticity and reciprocity, allowing you to navigate relationships with a keen awareness of what truly nurtures your spirit.
Even if you donât feel you have anything explicitly special about you, everyone else sees that you do! In a world where many feel boring and unoriginal in their own skin, your vibrant energy can be a source of irritation for those who struggle with their own identity. Your unique shine serves as a reminder of what they lack, sparking feelings of envy or frustration.
Although, that doesn't mean they wonât play nice in your face while robbing you blind behind your back. You learned this the hard way.Â
âThere's an old saying in Tennessee â I know it's in Texas, probably in Tennessee â that says, fool me once, shame on â shame on you. Fool me â you can't get fooled again.â - George W. Bush
YOU DONâT PLAY. You hold your magic close to your chest and are very weary of possible leeches. This guardedness reflects your hard-won wisdom; you know how precious your energy is and are selective about who gets to share in it. THIS IS HYPNOTICCCC.
Your presence is exclusive; not just anyone gets to brush shoulders with you. This rarity makes people eager to be seen as special enough to get close to you. You have optionsâa variety of choices in friends, partners, loversâand that selectivity only heightens the allure. People yearn to be among the few you hand-select to join your inner circle, hoping to share in your energy and insights. This creates a magnetic pull, as they aspire to earn a place in your life.
If you didnât know this, Iâm telling you now. Look back on your social interactions and the slick words said to you, probably people accusing you of thinking youâre the shit (you are), and youâll see just how much of a star you are.Â
P.S. Some of you are tiny little spitfires. I donât think thatâs important, but I felt inclined to mention it. If so, that adds to the allure. 5 foot nothing but your attitude is 10 feet tall.
Okay bye, MUAH đ
âż Pile Three (Knight of Pentacles, 2oS, Strength, 7oC (S?), The Star, Judgemental, Short, Melancholic, 4oP)
Youâre a storm, baby. I know I got some Adra natives in the cleerrb!
A few days ago, my 59-year-old neighbor and I were walking around the park, it was eerily quiet- no children were playing in the field and the trees were the stillest I had ever seen. Breaking the silence, she told me about a belief in ancient Hindu folklore that on days when the sky is framed in dark, dense clouds and the winds are still- not a single gust rustling the trees- the Earth is waiting with weighted breath for the outcome of a long-withstanding battle against good and evil.
She said that when I woke up the next morning, to check the news and see if a famous politician or some powerful person behind the scenes had died- thus being defeated. I checked; a few notable names had passed but the stand-out thing that happened was a vision I saw in a dream where an ex-friend sent me a letter in the mail admitting to some harmful actions I had growing suspicions about. This finally put my mind at ease and reaffirmed my gut intuition.Â
I donât know how to say this without sounding so⌠metaphorical/poetic, but youâre the person divine consciousness sends to represent the lightâs grand victory. You are the embodiment of a prevailing soul. With all ten swords in your back, youâll get up again and again.Â
Youâre not sent to the world as the Universeâs sparkling trophy because of luck; no, youâre highly regarded because you walked the same path, youâre no stranger to going to war and coming out with more than a few bumps and scrapes.Â
This is not a flashy victory. Not like in the movies where you get ganged up on by bullies, pull out karate moves, whoop some ass, and come out looking like an underdog. This war consists of consecutive, painstaking setbacks and challenges slowly chipping away at your character, leaving behind a shell of a person for you to pick the pieces up and rebuild stronger. Itâs a series of quiet battles fought within, where the scars arenât always visible but the growth is profound. Every moment of doubt, every instance of perseverance, shapes you in ways that arenât always glamorous but are deeply transformative.
You have scars that manifest as art, each one a mark of survival. Artistic souls look at you and see a single tree still standing after a hellish stormâroots deep in resilience, branches reaching for the light. Each scar is a testament to your journey, a story etched into your skin, reminding the world that even after the fiercest winds, life is reborn with greater tenacity to endure and thrive.Â
You carry a thick atmosphere with you, whenever youâre coming the Earth seems to hold its breath to await you. Youâre not abrasive or stand-offish, conversely, youâre quite soft, well-balanced, and can even be romantic at times. But that only emphasizes the sharp, heaviness of your presence.Â
Yea, we all go through shit but do we all come out the other end with an open heart and willingness to live life optimistically? Fuck no đđ.
Somehow... you do and thatâs hypnotic as fuck, my love! Itâs like, hOW?! Even if people didnât see the wars you fought, your backbone poses itself like a warriorâs. The way you carry yourself speaks volumes; it imprints on the minds of others far more than words ever could. Your presence is magnetic, a silent testament to your strength and resilience. Talking is just the bare bones of communication; itâs your spirit, your aura, that truly captivates.Â
LMAO youâre the type to say less than five words to someone and theyâre running back to their friends telling them youâre different from everyone else.
P.S. Your key to bagging anyone you want is your eyes, learn to flirt with your eyes.Â
Okay bye, MUAH đ
âż Pile Four (The Emperor, Ace of Wands, 3oS, Judgement, The Fool, courageous, Spiritual, Observant, Self-assured, Thirsty, Aimless)
Hmmm, youâre a playboy, stay far away from my easily attached heart, DEMON đŤľ.
IâM PLAYING. But for real, you knew the answer to this question before you chose the pile LMFAO.
Youâre just plain sexy! Thatâs it! Youâre vivacious and a smooth talker; you like to razzle dazzle your way into peopleâs minds where your imprint overstays its welcome, making them sick with their lack of permanent access to you.
Youâre a social butterfly, flying from person to person, pollinating them with the attention they yearn for, and then flying off to the next adventure, leaving them dizzy with the need to catch and keep you in a cutely decorated mason jar with poked holes up top. Of course, this would kill you, so stay how you are, beautiful!
This might be a bit explicit, but you have a unique way of stirring peopleâs desires. You donât need to be overtly sexual; itâs your rare lack of fear of rejection that draws people in. At least, thatâs how others see it. In a social world laced with fear, you seem to have an optimistic mentality where, âEvery shot you donât take, you miss.â So you are one of the few humans who arenât riddled with worries about how youâre perceived and peopleâs judgments of your character. What is rare is wildly hypnotic.
People thirst over you, like foaming-at-the-mouth rabid dog ARFF ARFF BARK BARK type of thirst⌠in silence. You are actually way too intimidating to approach. Male or female, socially, people perceive you as high quality and assume you get a lot of attention that the everyday person can not compete with, so they only daydream from afar.Â
Youâre arm candy. Throughout writing this I pictured famous videos of celebrities like Angelina Jolie, Jhene Aiko, and Chris Evans seducing and unnerving the interviewer through subtle actions. Like the other piles, your aura is the dominant communicator and it doesnât take much for you to get a mf barking.Â
People fear youâll break their hearts, but funnily enough, youâve entertained one or two losers in the past and left relationships with a few scars and stories you have to sniffle through to tell. But thatâs okay; those experiences teach us how to discern who deserves to be in our lives and who doesnât. You only let them in because you try not to discriminate, and truly just have a deep passion for connection with anyone and everyone you encounter. Never change, youâre the flame the rest of us moths flock to.
P.S. Discernment and trusting your judgment is a lifelong study; donât beat yourself if someone who you thought had your best interest at heart, doesnât in reality. Count that towards your research, dust yourself off, and try again. Youâre too brave to let a liar stop your ability to enjoy human company.Â
Okay bye, MUAH đ
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pt.4 SILLY LITTLE BAT
pairings ⸺ Yandere! Platonic! Batfamily x Anti-hero! Fem!reader.
sinopsis ⸺ In a Gotham steeped in darkness, Bruce Wayne confronts a past resonating with secrets. As he uncovers the identity of an enigmatic antiheroine, he will discover hidden truths that will stain his legacy. Blood, a symbol of betrayals, intertwines with his fate, revealing that darkness dwells within him as well.
warnings ⸺ Dark Themes, Dead, Religion, murdering,Disturbing Content, Unhealthy Obsession, tw.noncon, Discrimination, Street Fights, Gaslight, Violence, Blood, LGBT Content, Child Abuse, Kidnapping, Implicit Sexual Content, Mental Illness, Addiction, Torture, Corruption, Isolation, Trauma, Phobias, Paranoia
Chapter guide! Pt.1 Pt.2 Pt.3
A/N â English is not my first languageâSpanish isâ I took a long time because I went on vacation, I wasnât inspired, I had a lot of things to catch up on, and blah blah blah. The good thing is that I brought part 4, and just so you know, there are about four or five more parts of the story, maybe more.
I'm dirty, infinitely dirty,
this is why I scream so much
about purity.
Bruce sat on the edge of the bed, feeling the weight of the memories and the silence that now inhabited that room. Every corner of that space reminded him of his daughter's presence, a presence that had been fragile and ephemeral, like smoke disappearing between fingers. He looked at the diplomas and trophies on the shelves, those small proofs of her effort and dedication. He caressed them with the same reverence he used when going through old photographs, searching for something, anything, that would tell him he had done enough, that he had been a good father.
But he only saw the same emptiness in her eyes that he had known since childhood. She resembled him more than he would have imagined. In her dull gaze, in her absent smile, he recognized the same pain that had accompanied him after his parents' death. He realized, almost bitterly, that this darkness was an inheritance, a shadow he had left in her without realizing it.
Bruce ran his fingers over an old photo from her first birthday after losing his mother. That day, Alfred had secretly taken her to Metropolis in a desperate attempt to give her some happiness. But even at the amusement park, where laughter and noise were contagious, her face remained a vacant mask. She wasnât really smiling, as if something inside her knew she would never have the normalcy that other children enjoyed.
With a heavy sigh, Bruce rested his head on the pillow that had been hers, wanting to cling to the scent of his daughter. But there was no trace of her aroma left. Alfred, in an act of rigor that Bruce couldnât understand, had eliminated any trace of her, perhaps trying to close a wound that Bruce was unwilling to let heal. He had reproached Alfred for hours and hours for erasing that last vestige of his daughter. But Alfredâs look, serious and filled with silence, told him what he already knew: maybe he didnât deserve to keep those memories because he had failed to protect the person he loved most.
He closed his eyes, sinking into the pain of each thought that emerged from that dark room. Everything reminded him that, somehow, he was responsible for his daughter's disappearance, as if his own shadows had consumed her. In his mind, images of what he could have done differently began to surface, a parade of possibilities where he was a better father, more attentive and less blind to her suffering.
Suddenly, Titus and Alfred the Cat entered together through the door, coming in silently, as if they understood the weight of that moment. Titus approached Bruce, resting his massive head on his knee, while Alfred the Cat jumped onto Bruce's lap, purring softly. Bruce petted the dog and the cat, finding in them the only comfort that seemed left to him. His voice trembled when, in an almost delirious tone, he confessed to them:
"Maybe Iâm the real killer here. What kind of father lets his daughter get lost in the dark? What kind of monster was I that I never saw her pain? If sheâs dead⌠if my little girl has left this world⌠then I am the only one responsible."
He paused, breathing heavily, as the words he wanted to suppress escaped his lips in a bitter and disturbing whisper. "Sometimes I wish I had⌠had stopped her mother. If she hadnât been⌠if I had raised her from the beginning⌠I could have saved her from so much pain."
The words, though spoken in a barely audible murmur, weighed heavily in the room. He caressed the pillow, almost pleading for the past to change, for every mistake to be undone. The cat purred softly, as if understanding the pain Bruce was trying to stifle deep in his chest. Titus looked at him with eyes full of loyalty, without judging him, but not offering the redemption he desperately sought.
"I would give anything for a second chance," he whispered, his voice broken. "I would give my life to undo every moment that made her drift away. I would give anything to see her smile again, even if it were just once⌠even if it were just to tell her how sorry I am."
The house was silent, and in that instant, Bruce understood that there were no words, no time, no strength that could change the past. He was trapped in an abyss of guilt, with only shadows and memories now haunting him, reflecting his own empty and broken face.
Finally, he could no longer contain himself. Feeling the emptiness in his chest, tears began to fall onto the pillow, soaking it with his pain, as if the weight of his own guilt slid out in every sob he tried to stifle. His face was buried in the memory of his daughter, lost in the pain that tormented him with an intensity he could no longer bear.
It was then that Damian entered, dressed as Robin, with his katana stained with a dark red liquid that could be nothing other than blood, with a sharp and direct arrogance, breaking the silent mourning of Bruce. Coldly, he looked at his father and pronounced, almost with disdain, "No matter how much you cry like a whore, Y/N wonât come back."
Bruce looked up, surprised and hurt, but before he could respond, Damian continued with the same hardness. "While everyone was out in a gang like a bunch of lowlifes and came back empty-handed, I found something you didnât even bother to look for while lying here like a cheap whore." Damian looked at him with a mix of disappointment and reproach, as if he couldnât understand how his father had let so many signs slip by.
"Did you know? I had a relationship with Ivy, that old woman who had the indecency to date my little sister while being an old hag. Plus, she worked as a waitress in some bar wearing little clothes to survive. Like some common bitch. And the last time, she was seen in the subway, with a strange man with psychiatric crazy vibes... surely another one that slipped away while you were lying here." Damianâs words were blows to Bruce, each revelation a testament to how much he had let slip away.
Damian continued, each phrase laden with resentment and questions. "Why did she have to work? Why did she, the daughter of the renowned multimillionaire Bruce Wayne, the masked hero of Gotham, have to depend on a miserable paycheck that didnât even cover the end of the month? And the subway, father, did she really have to take the subway like any unknown person in this city?"
Bruce looked down, unable to respond. Each of those questions was a dagger reminding him how far he had been from understanding his own daughter. He had ignored, or perhaps never wanted to see, the sacrifices she made to survive, the paths she took in search of something he had never given her. Now, with Damian's words filling the silence, Bruce realized he had condemned his daughter to the same fate he was trying to combat on the streets.
Damian watched him, his gaze cold and critical, as the room filled with a tense silence. For the first time, Bruce understood that perhaps he was never the hero he thought he was, and that in his attempt to protect everyone, he had failed to protect the one who needed him the most.
Bruce felt anger bubbling inside him, intensifying with each word that left Damian's lips. "How dare you come in here and say that? You werenât a brother to her, you werenât there when she needed you the most," he shot back, his voice echoing in the room like dark thunder. The image of his daughter intertwined with his rage, each contained tear now fueling his fury.
Damian frowned, unrestrained. "That's how I show my affection; you should be used to it," he retorted disdainfully, recalling that moment when he arrived at the mansion, he had stabbed Y/N with his katana. "I did what I had to do, and I donât have to accept your reproaches. Everyone failed Y/N, even you."
"Donât try to blame others for your own failures!" Bruce shouted, frustration filling every corner of his being. "You werenât there, Damian. You canât always hide behind your arrogance."
Damian crossed his arms, his defiant attitude unbreakable. "And what if I wasn't? At least I didnât hide behind a mask of sadness. Better stop reproaching me and listen to what I have for you." He stepped closer, pulling out a half-open old cardboard box. "I brought you a gift."
Bruce looked at him suspiciously. "What is it now?"
"I went looking for Selina, but she slipped away like a scared kitten," Damian said, mocking the situation. "A waste of time, but I found Ivy in Arkham. She said little about Y/N, which annoyed me, so⌠well, here you go." He opened the box slowly, revealing Poison Ivy's head, the fresh blood still dripping from the edges.
Her face, once beautiful, was now serene, with pale skin and a touch of green that evoked her connection to nature. Her normally vibrant red hair now fell messily around her face, while her eyes, closed forever, seemed almost at peace, as if she had found a breath in the chaos she once inhabited.
Bruce felt as if the world had stopped. There was no horror in his gaze, only an emptiness where anger and sadness collided. "What have you done?" he murmured, his voice barely a whisper, but resignation permeated every word. The life of his daughter, the decisions he had made and what that meant now overwhelmed him.
Damian shrugged. "She was a monster, just like all of us. What matters is that now you have something tangible, something you can show."
"What kind of family are we?" Bruce let slip, feeling defeated. "This family is a failure."
"Oh, so it turns out weâve been a family all this time?" Damian replied, scornful, but his tone was less certain.
Bruce closed his eyes, feeling the discomfort of the situation. "Take me to the apartment where she lived," he said, his voice enigmatic and cold. It was a request that resonated with the gravity of what he had lost, an echo of what he had failed to protect. As Damian looked at him with surprise and a hint of concern, Bruce knew that the truth he would face in that place was beyond any form of redemption. The darkness that had invaded his life was about to be confronted, and he wasnât sure if he was ready for what he would find.
As Bruce and Damian prepared to leave, Titus and Alfred the Cat watched them from a distance. The dog remained alert, his ears perked, as if he could sense the tension looming in the air. His instinct told him that something grave was about to happen. Alfred, with his wise and sharp gaze, seemed to share the same unease, his eyes fixed on the men who were heading toward the dark fate they had chosen.
As Bruce and Damian headed for the door, Titus stepped forward, his expression a mix of concern and determination. It was as if he were trying to convey a silent message, a call to reason that his owners could not hear amid their emotional turmoil. Alfred the Cat, with his elegant stride, approached Bruce and rubbed his head against his leg, seeking comfort for the hero who seemed on the brink of losing himself even further in the darkness.
Turning around, Bruce felt a pang in his heart. He looked at his animals, those innocent beings who had always been there to offer him companionship, and realized that they were aware of what was about to come. In a world where violence and betrayal lurked around every corner, their departure was the beginning of something much darker.
With one last look, Bruce found himself in Titus's eyes, reflecting a mix of loyalty and worry. It was as if the dog knew that the decision they were making would not only affect them but would also drag others into a chaos from which they could not escape.
Damian, impatient, had already crossed the threshold, but Bruce paused for one more moment. "Iâm sorry," he murmured, although he was not sure to whom he was really addressing: whether to the animals who looked at him with eyes full of wisdom or to himself for the path he had chosen.
However, it was already too late to turn back. With one last glance at the room where it all began, and at the animals who looked at him with concern, Bruce stepped into the dark world that awaited them, unaware that soon, everything would get worse. The air was charged with ominous anticipation, and the feeling that tragedy loomed over them like a shadow, deep and inevitable.
You lay on the bed, your body still heavy from the forced encounter, thoughts fluttering in your mind like butterflies trapped in a net. The room was enveloped in an unsettling gloom, the air thick with a tension that could not be ignored. Beside you, he breathed with a calm that contrasted with the whirlwind inside you. There was no name, no face to remember; it was just him, the one who had kidnapped you and made you his own, a figure who had taken your life and distorted it at will.
As you stared at the ceiling, the silence became a mirror of your thoughts. Rage and hatred toward your family surged within you, feelings that had once seemed so distant. They didnât understand you, they hadnât been there to protect you, and now, in this strange intimacy, you found yourself wishing to be with him more than with them. Confusion engulfed you; on one hand, there was a part of you longing for affection and acceptance, while on the other, there was a strange pleasure in the situation, a desire to escape the life that had caused you so much suffering.
Despite everything, you missed your mother. Her laughter, her hugs, the way she always knew how to calm your fears. But that maternal figure was slowly fading from your memory, drowned by the anguish of betrayal and loneliness. You found yourself trapped between the desire to remember the good and the hatred toward the past that had brought you here.
As the room remained silent, a dark and almost self-destructive impulse took hold of you. With trembling movements, you picked up a sharp object and pressed it against your skin, feeling a sting that was both physical and emotional. In that moment, you thought about the irony of your situation: you had lost control of your life, and in seeking an escape, you chose to hurt yourself.
The duality of your feelings was heartbreaking. On one hand, you yearned for freedom, to reclaim your identity and the love that had been taken from you. On the other, there was a part of you that felt alive in this new relationship, a twisted connection that kept you captive. The internal struggle manifested in every thought and every action, revealing the complexity of your situation.
You remembered moments from his life, the wounds he carried, and the pain he had faced. Had Bruce ever been so lost, so filled with sadness that he had to do the unthinkable to feel something? The idea that the man you admired could also have been vulnerable struck you like a revelation. You wondered if he had ever cried in solitude, questioning his place in the world, if he had ever felt so trapped in his own life.
As you touched your stomach, an old pain resurfaced. There, beneath the skin, was a scar, a reminder of the time Damian had hurt you with his katana, an act that had been both an attack and a cry of desperation. The brush of your fingers over the wound, although healed, still brought memories of suffering and betrayal, a deep connection intertwined with the pain you felt now. The scar was a metaphor for your life: a wound that would never fully heal, a reminder that pain is part of your existence.
Tears fell more forcefully as you thought about how your familyâs decisions, rivalries, and chaos had influenced your life. Bruce, with his constant struggle against the shadows of his past, was a reflection of what you could have been: strong, determined, but also broken and lost. In that moment, you felt just like him, entangled in a cycle of suffering and confusion.
You allowed yourself to cry, feeling that perhaps in that vulnerability there was some freedom. It was a relief, an act of resistance in the midst of the oppression that surrounded you. As the outside world faded away, the pain of the scar became a reminder that, despite everything, there was still a part of you yearning to break free, wanting to escape this darkness. And amid that sadness, one thought grew stronger: perhaps, just perhaps, there was a way to find your path again.
The man let go of your cheek and, with a casual gesture, lit a cigarette, the smoke dancing in the air like shadows in the dim light of the room. His eyes, fixed on you, had a dangerous intensity. "Do you see this?" he said, exhaling the smoke slowly. "Now you are stained, like Gotham. Youâve been in the mud, and itâs your duty to clean yourself up. This is just the beginning."
He looked at you with a twisted smile, an expression that mixed amusement and dominance. "You have to understand that you canât escape from what you are. The city is a reflection of yourself. And like Gotham, you too need to be purified." With a sudden movement, he offered you the cigarette. "Smoke. It will help you forget the tears."
You hesitated, but his eyes challenged you, a clear message that there was no room for denial. With a mix of fear and despair, you brought the cigarette to your lips, feeling its bitterness touch your tongue. "Donât make me repeat myself," he said, his voice a cold whisper. "I want you to feel the poison, just like the city does. You are part of it now, and you must accept your role."
The pressure of his words overwhelmed you, each syllable a reminder of your distorted reality. "But why me?" you stammered, feeling desperation twisting inside you. "Why do I have to be part of this?"
"Because there is no choice," he replied with disdain. "There never was. Every day, every decision you made has led you here. Weakness is not an option. Look around you; Gotham has no place for the weak. If you want to survive, you need to get your hands dirty. And believe me, there is a lot of blood to clean up."
Your heart raced as you inhaled the smoke, the burning filling your lungs and leaving a feeling of emptiness. "What do you want from me?" you asked, feeling the power he had over you strangling you.
"I just want you to accept your new place. I want you to understand that in this world, death and destruction are inevitable. There is no redemption for the stained, but you can try to fix it⌠in your own way."
He trapped you in a dark cycle of thoughts, where each of his words echoed in your mind like a terrifying echo. You knew he was playing with you, manipulating your emotions. "If you donât clean yourself, you will suffer the consequences. And if you cry for her again, I promise you will pay for it," he said, tightening his grip on your arm.
As the smoke dissipated into the air, the feeling of being trapped became more palpable. You found yourself between acceptance and internal struggle, but deep down, you knew you had to find a way out. However, the darkness around you grew more intense, and each of his words was another chain binding you to this fate you had not chosen.
The air thickened as he exhaled smoke, the room filling with a gray fog that seemed to reflect the chaos in your mind. He looked at you with an intensity that overflowed with obsession, a strange mix of affection and dominance that enveloped you. Despite the tears running down your face, you felt no sadness or fear. You had passed the stage of terror; now you felt strangely alive, almost liberated in your pain.
"My dear," he said in a soft yet authoritative voice, "you must not see this as a punishment. It is a purification. Gotham needs someone who understands its pain, and you are the chosen one." He leaned closer to you, his hot breath on your skin. "You are like a spark in this darkness, and together we can illuminate it. You just have to let the poison flow through you. With each tear, you are cleansing the city."
As he held you, the contact between the two of you was electric, and a part of you began to understand his madness, the way he had woven his dreams of greatness and purification through your own desires for belonging. "Did you know my mother was in Arkham?" he continued, as if sharing a special secret. "She was stained too. In her mind, she fought demons that no one else could see, just like you now. And look where she ended up: trapped in her own memories, in her own shadows."
The revelation hit you. A fragment of pain resurfaced, intertwining with the new knowledge. "What⌠what happened to her?" you asked, your voice trembling. It wasnât sadness you felt; it was curiosity to know that story that had remained hidden.
"She got lost in the darkness of Gotham, just like everyone else," he said with contempt. "But that doesnât have to be your destiny. You are stronger. My mother let herself be consumed by her madness, but you⌠you can take control. Let me guide you."
You fell silent, contemplating his words. The tears continued to fall, but now they were just a part of you, a manifestation of the internal struggle. You knew you were trapped in a dangerous game, but there was something in his promise of power and control that began to seduce you.
"So cry if you need to," he said, caressing your cheek with a touch that was both gentle and threatening. "But donât let those tears weaken you. Every time you feel the urge to cry for her, remember what you are. Remember that the city needs someone like you to cleanse it of the filth."
"How can I do that?" you asked, feeling the echo of his words resonate in your mind. "How can I clean something so deeply rooted in darkness?"
"With determination," he answered firmly, his eyes shining with a mix of fervor and madness. "You must learn to see the beauty in chaos. There is power in pain. With every action you take, with every decision you make, you will be purifying Gotham of its own decay. And I will be by your side, guiding you. Together, we will be unstoppable."
As you absorbed his words, a strange sense of purpose began to take shape within you. Although his love was perverse, there was something in his vision that resonated with you, as if you were destined to fulfill that role. As the smoke from the cigarette faded into the air, so too did your fears, leaving only a cold and clear determination: you were going to take control of your destiny, even if it meant losing yourself in the process.
"No! I donât want you to go!" shouted little Y/n, clinging to her mother's handbag with the desperation of someone who knows something important is about to slip away.
Her mother, a blonde woman with a tired gaze, let out a sigh of impatience. Y/n couldn't quite remember her face, but she knew it hardened at the tug on her bag, and without thinking, she pushed the girl, causing her to fall to the ground with a dull thud. Y/n looked up from below, her big eyes reflecting a mix of fear and pain.
"Stop being silly, Y/n," her mother murmured, struggling to hide the tremor in her voice. She leaned down, trying to smile, but the coldness in her eyes betrayed her. "You know I have to do this... for both of us. Everything I do is for you, even if you donât understand it now."
The girl nodded slowly, but inside, she felt the truthâthat repeated phrase was just a curtain. She knew there was something broken in her mother, something she was too young to fully comprehend but sensed in every harsh gesture, in every bitter word that hung in the air. Something that made her feel alone, even when they were together.
Her mother straightened up, adjusting the bag as if it weighed tons. She raised a hand in a mechanical farewell, and without another word, she left through the door without looking back.
Days passed in a haze of silence and dry tears. Y/n had no idea how much time had passed since her mother left, leaving the echo of her footsteps as the only reminder of her presence. Hugging herself, she spent the nights waiting for some familiar sound that never came.
When she finally opened her eyes, she realized her surroundings had completely changed. She was no longer at home; she was sitting in a cold, unfamiliar room, with gray walls and flickering lights dimly overhead. In the distance, she could hear whispering voices.
"How is it possible that someone left such a small child alone?" It was the firm, serious voice of a man. As her eyes adjusted to the light, she distinguished a police badge on the man's uniform. It read Commissioner Gordon.
Next to him, a red-haired woman spoke in a low voice. "Dad, you can't be sure. Maybe it was just a lie. You know how her mother was: a history of psychiatric hospitals and drugs at home. How do we know she didn't make up the story about Wayne?"
"Barbara, we have evidence that doesn't lie," Gordon replied coldly, his tone tinged with disdain. "We know the paternity test is real."
The girl felt the world sway around her. She listened to every word and felt each comment like a dagger sinking deeper into her chest. Those adults, figures of authority and trust, spoke of her mother as if she were little more than a mistake, something despicable that had left scars on her life. Sitting there, hidden behind a wall and hugging her knees, tears returned to her eyes, a mix of sadness and a terrifying understanding of what it meant to be alone in the world.
"Do you really think someone like that should have had a child in her care?" Barbara said from her wheelchair, her tone full of contempt. "She was probably just looking for easy money, manipulating everyone she could."
Commissioner Gordon frowned, clearly uncomfortable. "Barbara, that's not fair! Even if she didnât lead the best life, she was still a citizen like anyone else, and she had the right to rebuild her life. No one is perfect."
From her corner, Y/n tried to cover her ears, but Barbara's words were impossible to ignore.
"I can't believe it, Dad. How could anyone in their right mind have left a child in the hands of that woman?" Barbara said with a cold, almost poisoned voice. "Someone who clearly had drug addiction problems and who was in and out of psychiatric hospitals. I bet she didnât even know who the real father was."
Each word made Y/n's chest tighten even more. Her mind screamed silently: Stop! Please stop saying that about her! Her small hands trembled as she remembered the moments she had spent with her mother. Her mother, who although had those dark days and her brusque manner, had fed her, tucked her in, and cared for her as best as she could. Despite her mistakes, she had been her mother, and that was all Y/n could understand.
But Barbaraâs words kept filling the room, like a storm of resentment. "I don't know how Bruce can even be involved in something like this. That woman was a burden to everyone. I can't imagine anyone worse as a mother."
Y/n squeezed her eyes shut, wanting to block it out. It's not true. Sheâs not bad. She took care of me. We didnât have much, but she always tried to be there for me. But no matter how hard her thoughts tried to silence the pain, Barbara's words left deep scars, increasingly difficult to heal.
As Y/n remained there, her tears already dry, her thoughts twisted in her mind like threatening shadows. She heard the echoes of Barbara's cruel words and Gordon's, and a silent resentment grew in her chest, almost like a slow poison. She tried to remember the good moments with her mother, but the dark thoughts seemed to drown them out. She was good, she was good... No, you can't say that about her... But those same thoughts tangled with hate and confusion, and the pain grew stronger.
Suddenly, everything turned white. The walls, the voices, the cold metal chair beneath her legs... everything disappeared into a blinding void that enveloped every corner of her mind. And then, there was only her, standing in that white abyss, with a strange weight on her shoulders and in her hands.
She looked down and saw a white armor, shining as if made of shards of moon and shadow. It covered her body completely, with firm, polished plates that fit like a second skin, protecting every part of her. The gauntlets were solid, with sharp and detailed edges, and in her hands, she wielded two katanas whose blades reflected that void like deadly mirrors.
The design of the armor was imposing and terrifying. The helmet resembled a bat, with long pointed ears extending upward, and a dark V-shaped visor that barely revealed her eyes. The lines that ran across her chest and arms formed the silhouette of folded wings, as if that bat awaited to unfold at any moment. The chest was engraved with fine black details, resembling veins radiating dark power. In the center, a small emblem in the shape of a black teardrop contrasted with the radiant white of the armor, like a mark of pain and sacrifice.
In the dim light of the void where she stood, Y/n felt the weight of the katanas in her hands as if they were extensions of her own being. In that moment, the white armor fit her like a comforting embrace, a reminder of the power she now possessed. She looked at herself in a non-existent reflection, feeling that every part of her being was ready to act, to reclaim what she had lost.
With a tremor of emotion and a palpable obsession, she held them to her chest, hugging them tightly. Words flowed from her lips, laden with a burning, almost manic desire: "Soon you will be mine... I will go home. I will be my little girl again."
The echo of her voice resonated in the white void, vibrating with the intensity of her longing. In her mind, an image formed of a home, a place where shadows no longer lurked and where her mother, though imperfect, would be able to embrace her once more. The idea of being together again, of transforming her pain into power, filled her with a fierce determination.
"I will come back for you," she whispered, her voice choked with a mix of tears and a crazed smile. "Nothing will stop me. I promise." The choked laughter turned into a murmur of echoes, resonating in the abyss like a sinister promise, as the world around her began to fade again, leaving her alone with her obsession and her new identity.
In the silence, whispers began to rise, soft at first, but increasingly insistent. One word repeated, muted yet burning, like a spark in the shadows.
K
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The word reverberated in the void, growing more intense, like a kind of dark mantra. And when Y/n could barely bear the weight of those voices, one final phrase emerged, chilling and final:
"Death is the ultimate prize."
You walked through the halls of the old apartment block, your white armor shining in the dim light, like a bat defying the embrace of the night. The echoes of your heels resonated, a dark song reverberating in the solitude of the worn walls.
Your figure, sculpted in gleaming metal, was a silhouette of elegance and mystery, as you hummed a forgotten melody, slipping between the shadows like a whisper of the forbidden. Each step was a heartbeat in the silence, a chilling reminder that there is still life in abandonment.
The portraits on the walls watched you, empty eyes that seemed to come alive, as you moved with the grace of a specter, a macabre dance of light and shadow at dusk.
The doors, worn and creaking, whispered secrets of past stories, and you, guardian of those forgotten tales, advanced fearlessly, seeking what was left behind.
You were an enigma, a reflection of the lost, a shadow walking, dressed in white, in a world clinging to its demons, where the past and present intertwine in a lethal embrace, and the night waits, eager for your return.
You paused before the door of one of the apartments, its frayed wood opening like an abyss, a dark invitation that defied logic. The silence became thick, almost palpable, and the echo of your humming faded, leaving a void that swallowed the darkness.
The threshold awaited you, a portal to the unknown, and a cold breeze, laden with whispers, caressed your skin like a lost lover. Inside, the shadows seemed to come alive, a palace of echoes and laments, where time had woven a web.
Your heart raced, a mix of adrenaline and challenge, as you gently pushed the door. It creaked in protest, like an old ghost, and when it opened, revealed an abandoned world, furniture covered in dust, with withered memories.
The remnants of a past life crowded every corner, and a scent of decay floated in the air, but something more, a glimpse of presence, urged you to enter, to explore the hidden. You peered in, and the dimness embraced you, as if the apartment claimed you as its own.
Each step on the creaky floor was an act of daring, and the walls seemed to murmur forgotten secrets, stories of betrayed loves and lost souls. In the center of the room, a dark, diffuse, and shadowy figure formed among the shadows, like an echo of your own existence, a reflection of what could have been.
You stood still, breath held in the abyss of the moment, the half-open door, a threshold to your destiny, and the silence, now laden with promises, stripped you of fears, leaving only the certainty that in that space, you faced the echoes of your own darkness.
As you advanced, your eyes fixed on a dusty, worn wooden box resting on the small dining table. Something about it drew you in, as if it held a dark secret. You approached and, with trembling hands, opened it. Inside, horror was revealed: the head of Poison Ivy, the green hair still vibrant, a gaze frozen in time. You didnât cry, but a slight tremor coursed through your body, a mixture of surprise and disdain for the brutality that had taken place in that space.
"Normally you enter through the window," you murmur to the air, with an ironic smile on your lips, as if addressing a presence you hoped would appear.
And then, as if the night itself had responded to your call, Batman emerged from the shadows, his dark figure silhouetted against the dim light coming through the window. The air became tense in an instant.
"Who are you?" he asked, his grave voice resonating with a mix of distrust and anger. "What are you doing in the apartment of Bruce Wayne's daughter?"
You laughed, a laugh that echoed in the empty room, filled with irony and knowledge.
"His daughter?" you mocked, your eyes shining with a mix of challenge and amusement. "So Y/n is your daughter. Isnât it curious how things intertwine in this city?"
The silence grew heavy, and you felt his gaze intensify, evaluating every word you had spoken. He knew you had crossed a line, but the revelation had ignited a spark of playfulness in you.
"How do you know who I am?" The question slipped from his lips, but there was no fear, just an unsettling curiosity.
"Gotham has its secrets, Bruce. And I, like you, am part of this darkness. The identity of a hero or heroine is just a game of shadows, and in this game, you and I know how to move between the lines."
You stood firm, the tension between you palpable, as the echo of laughter still resonated in the air. Batman's figure, always imposing and enigmatic, seemed to waver at the revelation that in this dark labyrinth, he was not the only player.
The tension intensified, and Batman took a step forward, approaching you with an intense gaze.
"How do you know about my daughter?" he inquired, his voice brusque, each word laden with frustration. You remained firm, crossing your arms, letting the silence settle between you.
"Oh, Gotham speaks, even in whispers. The city has a way of revealing what heroes prefer to hide," you replied disdainfully. "Your life, your secrets, are more exposed than you think." He frowned, anger crackling in his eyes.
"What do you know about Y/N?" he demanded, his voice low and threatening, as if waiting for you to throw down a challenge.
"I know you didn't want her. That you left her in the shadows while you dedicated yourself to your personal crusade," you replied, irony dancing in your tone. "That girl grew up without a father, and you, the great hero of Gotham, preferred to be a myth."
Rage etched itself on his face, but there was something more, a hidden pain surfacing behind the armor of his anger.
"It's not that simple, and you have no idea what I've done for her," he retorted, his voice tense, each word like a blow.
"Really?" you asked, flashing a mocking smile. "What have you done? Cut off her partner's head, the only person I love, just to extract invalid information? What a great father."
An uncomfortable silence settled between you, as the air vibrated with unspoken emotions.
"You are not one to judge me," he declared, his voice tense. "You know nothing of what I've sacrificed."
"Maybe not, but I know enough about the void you've left," you replied, undeterred. "And I know Ivy was there for her. You, the hero, vanished while others took on the role of father."
The anger shone in his eyes, but there was also a spark of recognition. He observed you, assessing the courage that led you to challenge him.
"And who are you to come and point fingers? A lost anti-heroine in her own struggle?" he shot back, his voice laden with contempt.
"I am what Gotham needs," you replied, confident. "A reminder that even heroes like you can fail."
The discussion turned into a power struggle, both of you clinging to your truths, while Poison Ivy's head remained a sinister reminder of the choices you both had made.
Suddenly, Batman's fury exploded like lightning in the darkness. Without warning, he seized you by the neck, lifting you with surprising strength. The air became scarce, and the pressure on your throat made you feel vulnerable, although the mockery never left your expression.
"Where is Y/N?" he demanded, his voice charged with rage and desperation. The shadows moved around him, intensifying his figure, which seemed more monster than hero at that moment.
Despite the iron grip, you kept your gaze fixed on him, challenging him, feeling the adrenaline pulse through your veins.
"Are you that worried about her whereabouts?" you replied, a mocking smile barely hiding your disdain. "Maybe she's hanging from a hook in a slaughterhouse, who knows? That would be an ironic twist for a girl who grew up in the shadow of a hero, donât you think?"
His eyes narrowed, anger and helplessness battling within him. You leaned in closer, feeling the pressure on your neck, but that only fueled your defiance.
"Don't laugh about this!" he roared, tightening his grip slightly. The fury in his voice was palpable, but something deeper kept him on edge.
"Me? Laughing? You, the great Batman, scared for your daughter's life?" you shot back, never breaking eye contact.
The tension was becoming unbearable, but there was something fascinating about the game you were playing. He was caught between rage and fear, and you, in your shadowy game, fed off his anguish.
"Do you know something? You're losing yourself in your own legend," you continued, while he held you in the air. "I'm sure you once dreamed that she would have died in that alley with her mother."
In that instant, something in his expression changed. The anger slowly faded, giving way to a deep concern, though he still held you firmly.
"I warn you," he whispered, his eyes locked onto yours. "If you lie to me, I won't show mercy."
You laughed again, though the risk was imminent, as your heart raced.
"And what will you do?" you challenged, your voice trembling but resolute. "Threaten me with your dark past? I'm here because I know the truth, and I do not fear your shadows."
Bruce's patience evaporated like smoke in the heavy air of that apartment. With a sudden movement, he hurled you towards the table, the impact resonating with a crash that reverberated through the walls. Your katanas slipped to the floor, leaving you defenseless. The furniture creaked under your weight, but adrenaline kept you alert, your instincts sharp.
You quickly rose, shaking your head to clear the confusion, while the anger on his face transformed into determination.
"I don't have time for your games, Kerosene," he shouted, stepping forward, ready to fight. "If you know Y/N, tell me!"
You steadied yourself, smiling defiantly as you positioned yourself, preparing for combat.
"Do you really think you'll throw away the only one who can help you?" you replied, feeling the pulse of challenge coursing through your veins. "I'm offering you a chance to know the truth, and you choose to fight. Very typical of you."
With a swift movement, he lunged at you, throwing a direct punch. You dodged, making an agile turn, but the atmosphere became a whirlwind of force and speed.
You charged at him, hitting him in the side, feeling how his tense muscles responded to your attack. It was not just a physical fight; it was a clash of wills, an explosion of repressed emotions.
"Youâre an idiot if you think you can scare me!" you yelled at him while he tried to immobilize you. You twisted and managed to sidestep him, landing a blow to his jaw that made him stagger.
Bruce quickly regained his footing, his eyes blazing with fury. He advanced again, his movements precise and calculated, while you played with speed and agility.
"Stop!" he roared, his voice echoing in the enclosed space. "I just want to know where my daughter is."
"And I just want you to stop living in your hero fantasy," you replied, with a defiant laugh as you dodged another attack. "The truth hurts you, Bruce, and you prefer the fight over facing it."
The exchange of blows continued, the sound of fists colliding and the creaking of breaking furniture filling the air. The room became a battlefield, with the table as the central stage of your struggle.
Bruce, with a mix of skill and strength, cornered you against the wall, but instead of giving up, you seized the closeness. With an agile movement, you pushed him back, making him lose his balance.
"Are you going to keep this up? Destroying whatâs left of this city?" you said, breathing heavily but not yielding. "Or are you going to listen to whatâs really at stake?"
His eyes were now inches from yours, the fury and frustration of his search fueling the spark of the battle. Both of you were willing to fight, but deep down, you knew there was something deeper at play than just physical strength.
The battle continued, becoming increasingly intense and violent, like a whirlwind of unleashed fury. You launched at him, landing a blow that hit his chest, but Bruce responded with a punch that made you stagger; the force behind his blow was terrifying. The rage emanating from him was palpable, and with each attack, both of you took the struggle to a new level.
The apartment walls vibrated with the thud of bodies colliding and furniture being dragged. The sound of shattering glass echoed in the air as you crashed into a table, breaking it into pieces.
You got back up, a piece of wood in hand, and threw it at him. Bruce dodged it, but the fragment smashed against a lamp, exploding into a million shards. The light flickered before going out, plunging the place into an unsettling darkness.
Both of you moved like shadows through the chaos, and sweat and blood began to mix, the air filled with a metallic smell that only intensified the battle. Bruce landed a punch on your jaw, and you tasted blood in your mouth. You didnât stop; with a cry of defiance, you responded with a series of rapid blows, each one stronger than the last.
You darted to his side, using your agility to hit him in the ribs. The impact made him stagger, but before you could capitalize on the opportunity, Bruce spun around and kneed you in the abdomen. The air escaped your lungs, and the sharp pain made you fall to your knees. However, you didnât give up.
With renewed determination, you got up and threw a direct punch to his face, hearing the crack of his skin upon impact. Blood spurted from his lip, and the fact that you had hurt him only fueled his fury. With superhuman strength, he pushed you back, slamming you against a shelf, which gave way and collapsed on you. Books and personal items scattered across the floor, covering the place in even greater chaos.
But there was no time to stop. You rose amongst the debris, feeling the adrenaline pumping through your veins. With a leap, you charged at him again, landing a blow that left a mark on his face. Rage and pain intertwined in the air, and both of you were on the brink of madness.
The room had turned into a battlefield, with blood staining the floor and walls. The apartmentâs decor, once a refuge, lay in tatters, as if Gotham itself had decided to yield to the brutality of your confrontation.
Bruce, with his determined gaze locked on you, lunged at you again. Both of you were exhausted, but the fight was a necessity, an uncontrollable impulse that kept you standing. His fists and your movements were a wild dance, and amidst the chaos, both of you knew that the outcome of this battle would not only define the present but also seal your fate.
You charged at him, landing a direct blow to his stomach, and when he bent forward, you took the chance to hit him in the face once more. Blood spilled from his nose, but he countered with a knee strike, and the impact resonated in your bones.
The fight continued with increasing ferocity, the room transforming into a wreckage. Every blow exchanged resonated like thunder, but it was the moment when Bruce landed a punch to your side that made you fall to your knees again, gasping for air. The pain was intense, but there was no time to lament; rage and frustration drove him to push onward.
Seeing the opportunity, Bruce lunged at you, and with a rough movement, he lifted you off the ground, holding you by the neck and raising you into the air. You struggled, feeling the pressure increase, the air escaping your lungs. The room blurred around you as you began to lose control.
"Tell me where Y/N is!" he shouted, his voice echoing in your mind like a refrain of desperation and fury.
You were on the brink of passing out, your eyes clouding, but amidst the confusion, you managed to maintain lucidity, though it was becoming increasingly difficult. Bruce's hands were like a yoke around your throat, and the feeling of suffocation intensified with every passing second.
The pressure was unbearable, and you fought to free your neck, to breathe, but it felt like trying to break chains of steel. Your hands struck his arm, but he wouldnât relent, becoming more focused, more desperate.
Finally, with a titanic effort, you managed to reach your helmet, and in a twist, you pushed him back, but the pressure of his grip was too much. It was then that, in a last-ditch attempt to free yourself, the helmet slipped off your head, falling to the floor with a dull thud.
The light of the apartment filtered back into your vision, and it was at that moment that Bruce, seeing your face, stopped dead in his tracks, the expression of his fury transforming into horror.
The face before him was not just an adversary; it was a reflection of his own daughter. The reality crashed against him like lightning.
"...Y/N?"
A/N ââââ I WANT TO EMPHASIZE THAT YES, WHAT HAPPENED BETWEEN THE DOCTOR AND Y/N IS REAL. And yes, it's necessary; you'll understand why by the end. Furthermore, Ivy's death has always been planned. In the next chapter, a female character will appear who, I warn you, will be a victim of the Waynes, and the scene will be a bit graphic and very grotesque.
I want to add that this chapter is very, very, veeeery weak because Iâm very tired, not very inspired, and dealing with other things. Iâll try to do better for the next one and bring you a chapter of better quality.
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THAT GIRL IS...POISON!!!
Overstimulation, slight somno, You play with his nipples. Not proofread
A/n - hello! I know I havenât been posting that much recently because Iâm on a small tumblr break but I still decided to schedule this post so I hope everyone enjoys it!
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Sweetheartâhahh fuck! Donât you think youâre going too ngh-fast, Ohh fuckkk!â His moans escaped in a mixture of desperation and pleasure, his voice husky and filled with desire as he struggled to maintain his hold on your waist in an attempt to steady himself properlyâFuck, Satoru felt so lightheaded and dizzy, his thighs trembled as he weakly tried to recover from his pasting orgasms which was theâŚthird one?? In a row.
It wasnât really your intention for it to be this way. Dealing with difficult coworkers all day was challenging enough, but having to cover a shift last minute because of someone else's absence made things even tougher for you. So least to say when you finally came home from work you were sooo frustrated and had to let off some steam and you donât know what, but something came over you seeing your pretty boyfriend, shirtless with his grey sweatpants hanging low by his hips, revealing a glimpse of his mouth-watering happy trail and v line in the kitchen cooking dinner for the two of you. Itâs like it triggered something inside of your brain.
And that's how you found yourself on top of him on the living room couch, his snowy-white hair tickling his forehead, damped with sweat as he gazed up at you with half-lidden eyes in a mixture of exhaustion and desire. His sticky cum from the last three rounds marinating inside your cunt as you continued milking him for the forth, sure your thighs were quivering and aching but itâs nothing compared to the overwhelming amount of pleasure you got from fucking your boyfriend like this. Your feet gently rested on his toned thighs as you bounced up and down on his cock, trying to cum once again and get him as stimulated as possible.
His jaw fell slack and his eyes rolled back repeatedly in sheer ecstasy at the lewd sight of you fucking down at him like thisâsure Satoru loved being in control and fucking you absolutely stupid as you drooled and cried into his expensive bed sheets while he pounds your sloppy little cunt from behind but thereâs just something about seeing his feisty, persistent little girlfriend being so demanding and treating him like your personal dildo to fuck yourself on made him lose his mind. He loved it so so much.
He enjoys being your dildo to cream onâeven if heâs on the verge of literal tears right now from the overstimulation of you bouncing your ass on his twitching, overused cock. he didnât even had the power to try and get you off from his oversensitive dickâall he could do is lie there and take it. You wonât lie, you carried a lot of pride in having the strongest a whimpering and moaning mess alll because of you.
âBabyyy, Goddd! youâre so fucking crazyâ his voice cracked as he flashed a fucked out smile at you as you ran your fingertips along the defined ridges of his abs before trailing them upwards to his chestâfeeling every bit of muscle from his body that you could possibly reach. âYou look so shit!- fucking beautifulâ.
âYeahhh? Oh you look so pretty like this too toruuuâ you cooed, his cock was filling you up so well, just the way you wanted. You raked your hand over his chest, groping it before you accidentally did something. Which made his cock jump inside of you, throbbing and pulsatingâyou felt it and it made you questioned, why you never thought about it before?
âWhatthefuckâHoly shitt nghhâ he groaned out, a lump forming in his throat.
You pinched both of his nipples, twisting and toying with the hardened bud before he lets out a high-pitched whine, his ragged breaths quickening as he came, spilling whatever bit of cum was left inside his balls into your already stuffed and leaking pussy, the action catching you off guard, causing your back arched slightly, the overwhelming pleasure consumed you as your rhythm got sloppy. You quickly chased your high following himâhis gooey cum coating your sensitive clit and dripping down all over his balls and sheets as his balls throbbed with his release, his seed getting fucked so deep inside you as you continued bouncing on him.
His pretty pathetic whimpers and moans were like music to your ears, you were actually starting to feel bad but you were soo desperate to cum, you had toâeven if you already did it about four times. It felt so fucking good and seeing Satoru like this made you even hornier.
You moved your hand down to rub your clit, feeling the intense pleasure building up as three of your fingers carefully circled the sensitive bundle of nerves as Satoru weakly looked up at you, if it wasnât for his bright ass blue eyes peaking out faintly, you wouldnât have even noticed. He had no power or energy to do anything, itâs like your pussy snatched his soul from his body and heâs just laying there lifeless but with his cock still throbbing with need and joy.
âMmm fuck baby, Mâ gonna cum on your cock again, gonna make a creamy little mess on you toruâ you moaned out, your head falling back as you squeezed a handful of your bouncing tits, he whines eagerly at your exclamations. The pit of your stomach flutters as you came undone on your boyfriend's cock once again, your juices leaking all around his shaft as your pussy squeezes around him like a vice, at this point, Satoruâs cheeks were so flushed and feverish.
Your body collapsed onto his with his cock still nested and marinating in your warm, cum-filled pussy as you brushed the stands of stray hairs that veiled his eyes before planting a sweet, gentle kiss on his forehead. There for no doubt that Satoru wasnât asleep right now, you could just tell from his breathing patterns and it was sooo adorable to you.
Maybe youâll give him some time to wake up before round five orrr was it six? starts again.
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STITCHES QUINN HUGHES
pairing quinn hughes x doctor!reader
SUMMARY when quinn suffers a shoulder injury, heâs forced to work with you. word count 1.2k words
warnings mentions of injury and physical pain, workplace romance, teasing, forced proximity (?), fluff
note first quinn fic in a while!! (even tho it's a bit on the shorter side đ) missed writing for him
MAIN MASTERLIST QH43 MASTERLIST
THE CROWD CHEERED as the Canucksâ focused, ready to take back the lead. You watched from the medical bay, eyes following the puck and scanning for any signs of injury. As the new head of the medical team, this season was a make-or-break for you, and you knew you had to prove yourself capable of handling any situation under pressure.
Then, it happened.
A bone-jarring hit echoed through the rink. Your eyes shot up to the screen just in time to see Quinn Hughes take a brutal check into the boards, twisting in a way that made your stomach lurch. He went down hard, clutching his shoulder. The teamâs medical staff rushed onto the ice and helped him off, and a few moments later, he was hobbling into the treatment room, face pale and pained, still gripping his shoulder.
He sat down, wincing as he did so, and looked up, his blue eyes meeting yours. He offered a slight nod, even managing a tight smile. âGuess it was just a matter of time, huh?â
You returned his smile, feeling sympathetic. âSeems like it, but letâs see whatâs going on.â
You placed an ice pack over his shoulder, trying to ease some of the swelling. âIâll start with a few checks to see what kind of injury weâre dealing with. Let me know if it hurts too much.â
He gave a small nod. âIâm tougher than I look.â
Carefully, you guided his arm, checking his shoulderâs movement. He was trying to play it off, but you could see his face tighten in pain. âQuinn, donât push through it,â you said gently but firmly. âIf it hurts, I need to know.â
He let out a shaky breath. âAll right⌠yeah, it hurts a lot more than I thought it would.â
âThank you for being honest,â you replied, moving his arm back to a resting position. âFor now, letâs get a scan to see whatâs really going on. My guess is youâll need some time off the ice to heal, maybe a few weeks.â
His expression fell, and he let out a quiet sigh, his gaze dropping to the floor. âThat long?â
You nodded, keeping your tone reassuring. âItâs tough, but this is about protecting your long-term health. Weâll take it step by step.â
He nodded, visibly frustrated. âCanât say Iâm thrilled, but I guess I donât have much of a choice.â
The next morning, Quinn showed up for his first official rehab session. He wore a hoodie, his hands stuffed in his pockets, his posture closed off and frustrated. You recognized the look; a mix of vulnerability and irritation. Being benched was the last thing any player wanted.
âReady to get started?â you asked, offering a gentle smile.
He shrugged, though his attempt to hide his irritation was clear. âI donât know if Iâd say ready, but Iâm here.â
You chuckled, leading him through an outline of the exercises. âTodayâs going to be mostly small movement work. It might seem light, but this is where it all begins.â
You guided him through gentle exercises, keeping it easy to help him regain strength in his shoulder. He followed along, sometimes gritting his teeth when it hurt, and you noticed him stealing glances your way when he thought you werenât looking. Heâd fidget whenever your hands brushed his shoulder or arm, you could see he trying to distract himself from the pain.
After the session, you began to reorganize the room. He leaned against a table, watching you. âSo, howâd you end up working with a bunch of stubborn hockey players?â
You laughed, glancing at him. âGuess I like a challenge.â
He grinned, looking amused. âWell, you found one. Weâre all terrible patients.â
âIâm beginning to see that,â you teased, crossing your arms as you met his gaze. âBut I donât mind it.â
Over the following weeks, Quinnâs rehab sessions became a regular part of your day. You fell into a rhythm together, moving through the exercises, slowly adding tougher movements as his shoulder improved. Sometimes you talked about nothing in particular, just enjoying each otherâs company. Heâd walk in a little more relaxed each day, his mood visibly lifting.
One morning, after a particularly tough session, he sat back, wiping sweat from his brow. âI donât know how you put up with me,â he said, half-joking. âIâm probably driving you nuts.â
You leaned against the table beside him, crossing your arms. âHonestly? Youâre one of my better patients. Some guys complain non-stop.â
âGuess Iâm saving that part for later,â he replied, smirking. Then he paused, his smile fading a bit. âBut seriously⌠thank you. You make this bearable.â
Your gaze softened. âIâm glad to hear that. Itâs hard to be off the ice, but Iâm here for you. You donât have to go through this alone.â
He nodded, his gaze lingering on you. âI can tell you actually mean that.â His voice was quiet, almost as if he were afraid of ruining the moment. âMost people just want to get us back on the ice as fast as possible for the pay. But youâre different.â
Your cheeks warmed at the sincerity in his words. âI care about what I do. And itâs easy to care for passionate people.â
His expression softened, and he looked at you, something in his gaze you couldnât quite place. âMaybe you can remind me next time Iâm feeling sorry for myself.â
âDeal,â you replied, smiling. âBut you owe me for all this extra therapy.â
He raised an eyebrow, a slight smirk appearing on his face. âAre you saying Iâm high maintenance?â
âIâm saying that youâre lucky Iâm patient,â you shot back, feeling a strange, excited flutter in your chest. His playful expression softened, and his eyes focused intently on you.
âIâll remember that,â he said quietly, his gaze holding yours a little longer than necessary.
One evening, after the facility had mostly emptied, you were finishing up some paperwork when you heard footsteps approaching. You looked up, surprised to see Quinn lingering in the doorway, looking as though heâd been debating whether or not to come in.
âDidnât expect to see you here,â you said, setting down your pen.
âDidnât expect you to be here this late either,â he replied, slipping his hands into his pockets. âDo you ever stop working?â
You smiled. âNot when Iâm invested in a patientâs progress. And you, Quinn, are making a lot of progress.â
He stepped further into the room, a hesitant smile on his face. âThatâs good to hear. And I guess part of me wanted to say thanks. For everything.â
You raised an eyebrow. âYouâve already thanked me a hundred times.â
âI know. ButâŚâ He looked down, gathering his thoughts. âThis isnât easy for me. Not being on the ice, not doing what I love. But you make it easier.â
The air felt thick, and his gaze met yours, soft and vulnerable in a way you hadnât seen before. You felt your pulse quicken, and before you could stop yourself, you said, âMaybe when youâre cleared, we can celebrate with a coffee; you owe me after all.â
A flicker of surprise crossed his face, but it quickly melted into a warm smile. âIâd like that. More than you know.â
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#quinn hughes x reader#quinn hughes#nhl x reader#nhl fanfic#nhl imagine#quinn hughes x you#quinn hughes imagine#quinn hughes fluff#quinn hughes angst#quinn hughes smau#nhl x you#nhl fic#nhl#hockey#⡠isaadore
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I was around 14 or maybe 15.
It was winter.
I had come into highschool an hour earlier, and I was wandering around the halls.
Suddenly, I see something fluffy and green on the ground, I bend down to take a closer look at it. It was a tiny humming bird, its eyes; closed, its little feet and beak; covered in what seemed to be cobweb. It wasn't moving. I thought it had already passed away, and I was just about to look for some toilet paper to at least give it a propel burial.
But then I saw it move.
It was small. I wouldn't have seen it if I wasn't kneeling right next to it. But it was a movement.
So I cupped it in my hands. It was so small.
I asked the confused kitchen lady for some water and sugar. But her look softened when she saw what I was holding in my hands
I got outside, where the light was brighter, and with much care I removed most of the cobweb from its beak. Its feet and wings were completely tangled too, it couldn't move.
A classmate of mine told me the bird was suffering and that we should not prolong it. That we should grab a rock and end it right there. But I refused to.
The bird was alive. It's heart was beating.
The hummingbird was scared. Its eyes were still closed.
But the moment I put the sugary water close to its beak... It started drinking!
And boy, was it hungry!
After a few moments it had already opened its eyes.
I texted a girl who lived nearby. We used to be friends, but we drifted apart with time. It was the first time in months I had texted her.
But she answered.
The bird was eating, but it still couldn't move and it was still covered in cobweb, so I got right back to workingm
With the help of a really small stick and much patience, I started untangling it's feet. It didn't look like it was hurt.
I thought that at the moment it was freed it would try to escape. But it didn't. It patiently waited until I finished removing all of it (it took a long time because I was also taking a lots of breaks as to make the situation of being handled by a giant stranger while you are completely defenseless less stressful).
Once it was free and it had drinked enough water... It stayed with me.
I had put it in one of the pockets of my jacket so it was warm, and it looked like it liked being there. It cuddled inside and got into my sleeves when I took it out.
The girl I texted before came to school with a box, a syringe, some fabric and more sugar.
We looked for sticks on the ground and put it inside the box, along with the fabric and we put the little guy in there.
We were about to enter to class and my classmates were worried for the bird. Would the teacher let it inside?
But she was a biology teacher, of course she would.
We put the box under her desk, to make him feel safer. Everyone remained quiet that class.
I had already texted my mom telling her about the bird and that I would take it home to take care of until it got better.
But it wasn't necessary.
In that same class we heard some sounds coming from the box, everyone went silent as the bird flew away.
It was a little confused for a moment, but it found the window right away. And just like that, Pou was free.
I think about it often. I later learnt that the night before two hummingbirds had gotten inside and were flying around. The teachers assumed it was a mother and it's kid. It seems like the smallest one had gotten stuck in the ceilings, tangled up in the cobwebs, fallen to the ground, and debilitated because of the cold.
Tell me a soft memory
#animals#birds#pou wherever you are i hope you are warm and fuzzy and surrounded with flowers with sweet nectar#you can always come back#I'll update with pics if i find them#crow speaks#crow saves
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mm, yummers!
#roblox pressure#pressure roblox#sebastian solace#sebastian pressure#pressure fanart#gore tw#spicy art#felt the urge to paint blood and well :3#i actually have a lot of thoughts about his feelings about eating people (and they aren't good) so this is just for funsies
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We Thought You Died?!
Billy became a hero in 1959, and he was a hit. He was extremely popular. Captain Marvel was a beloved hero. As for the Squadron of Justice? They were beloved too. They, plus Captain Marvel were the superheroes of that time. They were the flipping blueprint for being a hero, especially Captain Marvel. Then the bubble formed in 62, and they just disappeared off the face of the earth and everyone thought he died.
Then, out of nowhere, they just reappeared.
News channel: *showing a clip of Marvel*
Grandson: *tugs on Grandmaâs sleeve* âGrandma, that looks like the hero guy the teacher are making us learn about.â
Grandma: âAmazing. He looks just like the real thing.â
Yeah⌠People didnât really believe it at first. Though, to be fair, all the Fawcett heroes have been gone for over sixty years.
Old Man: âItâs disrespectful is it what is. Just because you have the same powers doesnât mean you can dress up as a dead hero.â
Old Woman: â I just feel bad for the families. To see someone dress up as your dead husband or wife and then go around pretending to be them? Disgraceful.â
It was then the Justice League got involved. They really couldnât have these people running around like this. Not only that, but some of the imposters are lethal. Not to mention that there are people in the Justice League who used to know the Fawcett heroes. They were friends with them for Christâs sake. So thatâs why unanimously, they went and confronted these guys.
Supes: *hovering over Fawcett*
Marvel: *helps a cat out of a tree and sees him so he flies up*
Supes: *disapproving look* âI hope you know that if youâre trying to be a herââ
Marvel: âOh my gods, your suit is awesome!â
Supes: âThank youâŚ?
Marvel: âAre you a new hero? Whatâs your name? Are you from Fawcett or are you gonna join us here?â
Supes: *computing, still stuck on the first question*
Meanwhile, Flash and Minuteman were arguing which then somehow spiraled into them getting tacos. Batman and Robin, and Mister Scarlet and Pinky are just fighting. And Bulletgirl and Wonder Woman had a civil conversation that actually got them a lot of information.
After sorting out the entire misunderstanding that they were all imposters, things thankfully got lighter.
Marvel: âOh my gods, Jay, youâre an old man! What happened to your long luscious locks of beautiful brown hair?â
Barry: *holding back a laugh* âLong luscious locks?â
Jay: âOkay, it was not long, luscious, or beautiful. He just insists on calling it that to embarrass me.â
Marvel: âBut itâs true! Or it was true.â
Jay: âNo it wasnât. I had perfectly average hair, thank you very much.â
Yeah, Billy met up with some of his old friends, and they were all ecstatic to see their eight feet tall, golden retriever who just wanted to make the world a better place.
Marvel: âSo your not an hero anymore? Then what happened to the JSA?â
Alan Scott (First Green Lantern): âWe disbandedâŚâ
Marvel: âWHAT? Why?â
Alan: âWell, we were getting old. We needed to retire.â
Marvel: âOh yeah.â *sounds a little bummed*
Alan: âI mean, thereâs now this thing called the Justice League? Wildcat joined them. So did Mr. Terrific.â
Marvel: âThat sounds like a ripoff of you guys!â
He joins anyways. So do the other Fawcett heroes cause they might as well. Thatâs when things go down hill once more because the JL are forced to remember that a couple Fawcett heroes, mostly Spy Smasher, kill people.
Batman and Spy Smasher: *tied up the Joker after beating up his goons*
Spy Smasher (SS): âAlright, letâs get out of here.â *pulls out a gun and puts it to the Jokerâs forehead*
Batman: âWhat are you doing?â
SS: âIâm ending thisâŚ?â *cocks his gun*
Batman: *slaps the gun away* âNo, youâre not. Heâs going back to Arkham.â
SS: *pulls another gun out* âYes, I am. Are you seriously telling me you donât want to permanently end this guy? Iâve heard people call him a terrorist.â
The two then duked it out and the Joker still went back to Arkham anyways. Spy Smasher was so salty, not that literally anyone could blame him.
Marvel: âWait, so people donât kill villains anymore?â
SS: *sitting next to him, bandaged*
Wildcat: âNope. Nowadays, you got to turn them into the police and let them break out again. I know itâs stupid.â
Marvel: âBut what about the mass murderers? What about the Black Adams or the Captain Nazis? People who have done messed up stuff?â
Wildcat: âTo jail they go. Why do you care anyways? Itâs not like you killed any of your villains.â
Marvel: âWell, I didnât, but I gotta ask because Smasher is trying so hard not to physically claw off his own skin at the thought of these guys just breaking back out.â
Safe to say, getting used to the modern world, took some getting used to for everyone. As for Billy, he chills with the gang at the old folks home, reminiscing about times as if heâs aged with them.
Also, like, genuinely, their disappearance would show up in top ten unsolved mysteries vids because genuinely, they just disappeared with no trace.
Billy also doesnât know what to think of the many memorials he finds of himself and the other Fawcett heroes around the country.
#billy batson#dc captain marvel#shazam#captain marvel dc#fawcett city#fawcett comics#fawcett#batman#bruce wayne#spy smasher#minute man#wildcat dc#green lantern#alan scott#jay garrick#the flash#superman#squadron of justice#shazamâs squadron of justice#alan armstrong#barry allen
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so you want a coach?
tw: mentions of dubious consent
fine, if you want to put yourself in harms way i can't stop you, let this post be a warning.
a lot of you guys think that sending nudes is special
"im willing to send nude bodychecks so its ok!"
no, it's not
they won't be satiated with that
nude bodychecks are something that is demanded multiple times a week. some coaches dont even care for nudes because in reality they're waiting for you to fuck up, because then they have a reason to punish you.
90% of the time, this will be harming or humiliating yourself in a sexual way. slowly they'll push, making these punishments more extreme and sometimes even more public
and now you feel bound to this person because they have multiple naked pictures of you at their discretion
you try to say no and back away
"but you'll spiral"
"sorry, i thought you cared about being skinny"
your weight loss isn't their main priority
a person with an ed is vulnerable, so they use that vulnerability to make you tied to them send them sexual things as a form of punishment
and in return they watch you lose your curves and slowly become even more attracted to you as you start to look more and more like a child
running this blog has made me come across people like that. constantly. it's the same formula every god damn time
but if you being skinny is really worth sacrificing your entire identity, then go ahead
- anon
#@n@ coach#ed coach#ana c0ach#light as a feather#ed but not ed sheeran#tw ana bløg#tw 3d vent#3d not sheeran#tw ana rant#@na motivation#34t1ng d1s0rd3r#tw ed ana#3d f4st
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After reading a few of the notes I have a surprising amount of Thoughts here so I'm going to make my best attempt at organizing them here instead of arguing with people directly lol.
On the one hand, a lot of people going off about how "this is why we're in the middle of a media literacy crisis" etc. and idk it all sounds to me like "Society is doomed: This one guy said something stupid online". Like you should be extremely skeptical of any narrative that tells you that a handful of people online having extremely bad opinions is evidence (or even THE CAUSE) of any form of widespread societal decay, and it's a very easy trap to fall into if it happens to play into your confirmation bias unfortunately. Also I don't really think we're in a "media literacy crisis". There have always been A LOT of people who engage with media like this, you are just more aware of them now because of social media. There is no media literacy golden age we're falling from grace from.
On the Other hand. A lot of people talking about how there's actually no problem here because you can read however you want and it's okay to skip paragraphs and skim and skip ahead and read out of order, and that thinking otherwise is ableist because a lot of ND people have trouble with big walls of text etc.
And this one comes off to me like something that's like. Technically true on principle but being brought up extremely disingenuously. Like yeah it's your right as a reader to read however you want, but. There's a pretty big difference between "I had to skip this paragraph because the prose wasn't grabbing me/playing nice with my ADHD but I didn't want to stop the book there" and "I skip long/slow paragraphs on principle"
For me it's the same thing as the people who keep bringing up D&D "rule zero". Like yeah it's your right as a player to ignore the rules when you think doing so would benefit the experience, you're not harming anybody, no one has the right to tell you to stop doing it. But if you find yourself constantly doing it, at some point it kinda just exposes a fundamental disconnect between the experience you want from a game and the game you're actually playing, and you should consider if you wouldn't be better served playing a different game or just doing a different activity entirely.
Similarly, as a reader you have the right to read your books however you want. Skip ahead, read out of order, do whatever. It's your time, you decide how to spend it. But if you find yourself constantly skipping paragraphs, or reading just the dialogue, or feeling bored out of your mind when a chapter is more than 30 minutes of reading, that is a pretty clear sign that what you're reading just isn't clicking with you, and you should just drop that book and consider if you wouldn't be better served by reading a different book, or a different author, or a different genre. Or, if it's like that with EVERY book, you should just consider if you wouldn't be better served by reading something different like poetry or screenplays or graphic novels or just doing an entirely different hobby.
Also another thing I find disingenuous about the people saying there's nothing wrong with this and OP is based as hell actually is that like. She calls herself a book critic and her whole shtick is doing book recommendations and shit. Idk if I saw a self-professed music critic who talks about how they've made a habit out of always skipping songs that are over 3 minutes long, or how when it's a slow song they just skip to the chorus I'd say they're probably not doing very good music criticism and they have no business recommending music to anyone.
Do they know that reading is not mandatory? Nobody is forcing them to read?
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Prompt: tommy breakdown after buck goes through something traumatic, not right after. When buck is all good, tommy starts to shut down, and after a while buck notices and comforts him. Okay thats a long one sorry lol
This is probably not exactly what you wanted, but hopefully it's close enough! This fic features lots of snuggles.
Tommy stayed calm when he heard a firefighter had been seriously injured and air support was needed. He didn't panic when Chimney was the one to start relaying information to him and the flight medics. Even when he heard the words âFirefighter Evan Buckley of the 118â and âimpaledâ he focused on getting the bird from point A to point B.
When he landed the chopper, Tommy stared straight ahead and let the medics do whatever needed to be done to get Evan ready for transport.
He thought he heard Chimney ask if he should really be the one flying right now. He wanted to say, âWho else is gonna do it? I'm the only pilot here.â
Instead, he simply replied with a yes, then took off with the knowledge that his Evan was being worked on behind him.
He didn't ask how the patient was doing. He didn't listen to whatever the medics said. He did his job and got them to the hospital.
He didn't see Evan's injury until the surgeon met them at the helipad. A large metal rod sticking out of his abdomen. His turnouts had been pulled off of him, undershirt cut open. Blood, both dry and fresh, covering his body.
He had a pulse. Tommy did hear that.
But he looked lifeless.
He looked-
Tommy stopped himself from going there. He heard his coworkers say something about sending another pilot to pick up the chopper. That Tommy should go to the waiting room. He was the emergency contact anyway.
Tommy went. Sat and waited and waited, staring at the white and mint green wall in front of him. At some point, the rest of the 118 filtered in. Then Maddie, Karen, and Athena.
Eddie was on one side of him, Maddie on the other.
He looked down once to find coffee in his hand, but wasn't sure how it got there or who gave it to him.
Eventually, Evan came out of surgery. A success, the doctor said. It'd be a long recovery, but he'd make it.
The first time Evan opened his eyes, Tommy was beside him holding his hand. When Evan's face lit up into a smile, Tommy felt like his whole world just got put back together.
He stayed by Evan's side throughout recovery. Had to be forced into going home for a few hours every couple days for some real food and rest.
Tommy wasn't one for using his sick time, or his vacation time, so he used up what he could once Evan was home so he could continue to care for him until he was fully healed.
It took time, but eventually Evan got to the point where he could return to work on light duty. He couldn't go out on calls, but he could help around the station. After a couple months of barely leaving the house, he was more than ready to deal with paperwork, and cleaning, and cooking.
Three weeks after that, he was fully cleared. In one week, he'd be going out on calls again. Everything would be back to normal. When Evan called him with the news after his doctor's appointment, Tommy had congratulated him. Had picked up a cake after work and they'd celebrated together.
And then Tommy stayed awake all night long.
Evan curled up beside him, softly snoring with his breath hot on Tommy's side. Tommy's hand rubbed up and down his back all night. Right over his newest scar. He had a matching one on his abdomen. Right where the rod stabbed through his body and almost took his life.
No, Tommy didn't sleep that night.
He felt nauseous the next day. Evan noticed, of course, because Tommy was obsessed with his risotto and could barely get half of it down.
âYou okay?â Buck asked as they cleared the table.
âYeah, I think I might be getting a cold or something,â Tommy reasoned. âSorry.â
Buck smiled at him even as he raised a hand to Tommy's forehead. âYou don't have to be sorry for not feeling well. I don't feel a fever.â He moved his hands to Tommy's cheeks, then his neck, then ran his hands down his arms. Tommy knew the drill. The mere mention of not feeling one hundred percent would send Evan into a spiral, even if he did try to keep his face as nonchalant as possible.
âYou feeling any congestion? Sore throat? Chills? Fatigue?â
Tommy took a step forward, rested his hands on Buck's cheeks and leaned in, pressing a kiss to his forehead. âI'm okay, Baby. Probably just tired.â
When they went to bed a few hours later, Tommy slept. For a couple hours, at least. He wished he hadn't though, because the nightmare he had felt more graphic than seeing Evan get taken away by the surgeon.
He woke up in a cold sweat, gasping for breath. Thankfully, Evan was out like a light. Tommy got up and headed into the bathroom, turning on the sink to splash some cold water on his face.
He grabbed a washcloth and wet it, wiping the sweat off of him. Then, he pulled off his sweatpants and put on a new pair before getting back into bed.
Once he was back under the covers, he reached over and scooted his hand underneath Evan's body, nudging him until he turned and laid nearly half of his body directly on top of Tommy.
Tommy tugged the covers up until they were over Evan's shoulders, then he wrapped his arms around him and held him tight.
Evan smacked a couple times, burrowing his head further into Tommy's neck. Tommy closed his eyes, breathed him in. Felt Evan's heartbeat against his chest. Listened as his breathing evened back out.
He closed his eyes, but he didn't fall back to sleep.
The next day they both had work, but Tommy ended up getting distracted so many times that his captain wouldn't let him fly. Tommy couldn't even argue with the decision.
They next day, when they both got off shift, Evan arrived a little later than Tommy with burritos in hand.
âThey're from your favorite food truck,â Buck told him with a smile. âYou haven't been eating much lately, so I wanted you to have something good.â
Tommy didn't have the heart to tell him that the thought of eating made him feel like throwing up. He choked down every single bite of his burrito, then managed to pull Evan into the bedroom for a nap.
Well, sex first, then a nap.
As he laid on Evan's chest, one arm curled up beside him and the other over Evan's pec, he glanced down at the scar. How it raised ever so slightly from the rest of his skin, bright pink against the white.
His chest ached. His eyes burned. The call that he'd forced in one ear and out the other repeated over and over now. âWe need an ETA on air support on the Marriott fire downtown! Firefighter Evan Buckley of the 118 has been seriously injured. He fell and was impaled by a metal object. Goes through to his back. Unclear at this time if any major organs were hit, but he's losing a lot of blood and his heartbeat is irregular.â
Tommy didn't realize he'd started crying until Evan stiffened underneath him.
âTommy?â he asked, his voice soft but concerned. âBabe, what's wrong?â He tried to move them so he could look at Tommy, but Tommy just clung onto him tighter.
He squeezed his eyes shut, sucking in a stunted, shaky breath. âNothing. S'nothing.â
âWell th- that's obviously not true.â He ran his hands through Tommy's hair, then over his shoulders and down his back. âCome on, talk to me. Please.â
Tommy gave himself a second to calm down. He wiped his eyes before he slowly sat up to face Evan. Evan scooted up the bed so he was leaning against the headboard. He took Tommy's hand, moving his head to meet Tommy's eyes as he tried to look away. âTommy.â He gave his hand a squeeze. âPlease, I'm worried.â
âI... I was so scared.â He breathed out the words like he was admitting to some wrongdoing. âEvan, when you... When I heard it was you over the radio, I was terrified.â
Buck pulled Tommy toward him, wrapping him back up in his arms. âI knew something was wrong. I talked to Cap about it. He said not to push.â
âI was trying to be strong for you. I'm not the one who got hurt.â
âYou don't ever have to be strong for me, Tommy. You're allowed to feel things.â
Tommy leaned back enough to be able to look at Evan. âI just put myself in survival mode,â he said. âIt was all about getting you better. I could focus on that and not worry about anything else. But, now that you are better- which I'm very thankful for- it's... it scares me. I don't ever wanna see you like that again.â
âMe getting the all clear is what did it, isn't it?â
Tommy nodded. âI think it's always been there, the fear. But it definitely got worse as soon as I found out.â
âWhy didn't you tell me, Tommy? We're supposed to- to share stuff like this with each other.â
âI didn't want you to think I wasn't supportive of you going back to work. Because I am supportive of it. I know you're excited, and I'm excited for you. I just- I really love you, Evan.â
Buck smiled. He leaned over and pressed his lips to Tommy's in a chaste kiss. âI really love you, Tommy.â
Tommy pulled Evan to him this time, holding him in his arms. âI have no doubt that you'll be as safe as you can possibly be,â Tommy said, his hand finding its way to the scar on Evan's back. âBut I'm gonna be worried for a while.â
âI think that means you care,â Buck teased.
âI really, really care.â
âI like that you care.â Buck smacked a kiss onto Tommy's chest. âIf it helps, I worry about you every time I hear you're going up.â
âYeah?â
âYeah.â
He thought about it for a second. âIt does help.â
Buck smiled against his skin. âGood. You think you can sleep now?â
Tommy scooted down until his head rested against the pillow, his and Evan's legs tangling together. âI think I can try.â
#bucktommy#911#evan buckley#tommy kinard#i don't love it#but I wanted to finish it up before my eyes completely give out on me#everything is a blur!!
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May I request a situation where Kento suddenly turns corrupt in a way that he loses all respect and simply wants to sexually take advantage of fem!reader? Just fucking her rough like a rag doll. Whether it be a curse or aphrodisiac (that can be up to your amazing imagination) But of course, thereâs consent and miss reader has a ball with it.
Ohhhh! This is what I needed to break back into writing JJK. But I feel like there's defiinitely some work out there where Kento rough fucks his s/o thanks to a curse or aphrodisiac and I was struggling to write something that felt fresh. This might be a little softer than what was asked because while I'm ok with writing degradation, I think Kento would struggle quite a bit with this.
I hope I've done this justice!
Warnings: MDNI, degradation, derogatory name calling, CNC, objectification, dacryphilia, free use, rough sex, S&M
Use Me
It's a quiet evening as your husband brings you a warm cup of coffee, pressing a kiss to you head as he sits next to you. He stretches and lets out a breath, relishing the peace, and puts an arm around you, drawing you closer for comfort. You sip quietly and appear lost in thought. Ever observant, Kento quirks an eyebrow at you.
"Something on your mind?" To his surprise, your eyes flick up to his over the coffee cup and a blush starts to dust over your cheeks and nose. "What's with that face?" Kento smiles, flattered at the sight and puts a hand on your wrist to lower the coffee cup. Your lips twist into an embarrassed smile and you shake your head, looking away.
"It's nothing I was just thinking about something." You sip and put the mug down on the table. Kento notices the way you hold yourself, the slight tension in your shoulders and the way your eyes look like you want to divulge a secret but were unsure if you should do so. The hand on your wrist slides and he lays his large, warm, hand over yours.
"What is it sweetheart?" He brushes away some stray strands of hair from your face. You bite your lip doubtfully, then decide to spill the beans. "Kento, there's something I want us to...try." You say in a strange tone, like you're still weighing the cons. Kento nods, encouraging you to go on.
"It's...related to sex."
This catches his interest. "Oh?"
"Yeah. It might not be something you're into."
"Try me." He reassuringly pulls you against him, allowing you a grateful moment of privacy as you hide your face in his neck. You clear your throat and continue.
"I want you to take advantage of me. Sexually."
"Am I not already doing that?" Kento jokes but you shake your head, your hair tickling his skin.
"I mean...I want to be used. Objectified. Degraded. Made to feel like I'm just a toy for your entertainment." You pause and he feels you take in a deep breath before continuing. "I basically want you to reduce me to being holes that you use for your pleasure and nothing more."
Kento's heart pounds in his chest as you word your request. "You want me to use you like that?"
"Yeah. And like, I don't want you to be gentle either. I want you to be rough. Like leave bite marks all over me. Don't have sex with me. Fuck me. Roughly. Hard." The blood in his veins grows hot and he pets your hair.
"Are you sure?"
"It's something I always wanted to try. Not that I don't like how it is now. But. I didn't know how to ask." You feel his lips nuzzle your ear and his hands reassuringly stroke your back.
"Sweetheart you know I'm willing to try a lot of things. But I never want to compromise your safety or well-being. I can be rough if you want. But you need to tell me if it's too much. I can't stand the thought of doing something that'll hurt you."
"You won't hurt me. And we have our safe word. I promise to use it." There's a moment of silence as Kento imagines how this would go. You're his favorite person in the whole world, whom he loves and respects. But at the same time, this idea has him incredibly aroused, the thought of using you to his will and forcing you to submit to debauched acts that he's never allowed himself to think about.
He presses another soft kiss to your forehead.
"If it'll make you happy then all right."
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You whimper as Kento bites your lower lip hard enough to draw blood, wiping away the blotch with his thumb. He's unrecognizable to you. You've only seen him like before for a specific scenario; when he's hunting down a curse. It sends a skitter of fear through you but also brings forth a strong rush of arousal that makes your cunt clench in need.
"Now remember slut, you're mine to be used. And I'm only letting you rest after I've fucked and filled you to my satisfaction. And if I hear you complaining, know that I have better uses for that mouth. Now on your knees."
You kneel, keeping your eyes trained on the floor, feeling your heart pounding at what was about to happen. Kento roughly yanks your head up by your hair. "Open."
You part your lips then gasp as he shoves his cock without warning, sliding the hard flesh down your throat. You try to relax your muscles, choking in relief as he comes up then repeats the action. You're on the verge of gagging before he gives you reprieve. Saliva drips from your mouth as he gathers your hair and pushes back in, holding you firmly in place until your nose hits his pubes before thursting forcefully, grunting at the slickness of your wet, willing mouth.
You feel your breathless from the effort of keeping him in your mouth, feeling him nearly touching the entrance to your throat, tears streaming from your eyes as you struggle to accomodate all of him. When he finally pulls out you take in a thankful breath of air, spluttering from the freedom.
"Pathetic. Can't even deepthroat cock. What good are you?" His hands wrap around your throat just hard enough to give you that dizzying light-headed feeling as your brain is deprived of air before letting go. He pauses, watching you writhe on the floor to catch your breath. Once it steadies, he commands you.
"Crawl."
Turned on and feeling debased, you get on your hands and knees and start crawling on the floor, your ass jiggling with each movement that you make. You hear footsteps then squeal as Kento's hand slaps the soft flesh. You freeze as the sting ripples through you before Kento jerks your head back by your hair.
"I didn't say to stop crawling. Stupid whore. Who said you can stop just because you felt a little pain?" He brings his hand down repeatedly as you pathetically begin to crawl again, sniffing as you go.
"Crying when you know this all you're good for? Stop acting like you're above this." He leaves your ass smarting, red and pulsing from his abuse. His calloused hands grab your fleshy cheeks and spread them apart and he chuckles darkly. "Don't tell me you're turned on."
You whimper as you feel him insert a finger into your moist hole, probing forcefully before withdrawing. "Just when I thought you could sink no lower. You really are nothing but a basic piece of meat just hoping a cock will fill you and make you feel like you have a purpose."
His finger withdraws and he pulls you up abruptly, his hands harshly squeezing your breasts, pinching your nipples aggressively and earning a keening noise from you, your whole body feeling a sensitive blob. He twists and pulls, and you squirm in his grasp, causing him to growl and grip your chin, his fingers digging into your skin.
"Stop acting like you want to escape." He firmly spanks your pussy and your body jolts from the surprise, a cry leaving you. "You crave this. Want this. Because deep down, you know there's nothing more you want than to be a glorified fucktoy. That's all. You're a vessel to hold my cum, if I decide you're worthy enough to receive it."
He pushes one of your breasts up to his mouth and suckles roughly and you can feel the edges of his teeth skimming along the sensitive peaks. Kento releases it and does the same for the other, and just when your senses start to calm down, he sinks his teeth into the nipple, just hard enough for you make a noise of pain. He smirks.
"Oh. So you do have a limit." He bites the other nipple with similar force and you let out a broken sob. "Tsk. You're not very good at being a fucktoy are you?"
He shoves you to the bed and you fall on the soft mattress. You hear the clink of chains and see him securing handcuffs around your ankles before securing the free ends to the bedposts, angling your legs so that they're spread apart wide. Your wet pussy is exposed to his feral eyes and he licks his lips at the sight of the glistening membranes. He flicks your clit cruelly, enjoying the way you twitch and struggle.
"Oh you're dumb aren't you? Haven't you learned what happens when you try to avoid me?" He spanks your clit again, and your eyes roll back into your head as you try to separate the confusing blur of pain and pleasure that shoots through you body.
"Why is it that the more pain I give you, the wetter your dumb whore cunt gets?" The resounding echo of his palm on your wet folds gets louder with each slap until your clit is swollen and red from the repeated blows.
"Look at that. You actually want more after all that." Before you can process what's happening, Kento shifts on the bed and plunges his hard cock into your pussy. The stretch makes you sob because you weren't quite ready for him, the push slightly painful, but as you adjust to him, the feeling fades. His movements are harsh and selfish, swiftly bottoming out each time and hitting your cervix, setting a brutal pace that has you feeling like you might black out.
You let out a shocked squeak as his thumb starts to manhandle your clit, brushing over it in savage strokes that bring you dangerously close to the edge. Strings of incoherent noises spill from your lips, sounding more and more animalistic as your brain turns off all rational thought and begins to fill with need. You just wanted to orgasm, then have the satisfaction of Kento's seed filling your wet channel, to feel him soften inside you before the next round....
You let a quivering wail as your orgasm hits and Kento huffs in satisfaction as he feels your walls clenching him as you cum. Your feet thrash against their restraints as the ripple of orgasmic pleasure rocks your body. "You can't help it can you? Being a cumslut?"
His hips start to pick up pace and slam into you as he chases his orgasm, his breathing becoming ragged, hands digging into your skin hard enough to leave bruises as he uses your hole to satisfy the raging, primal need that's fuelling his actions. His movements become sloppy and the edges of his vision start to blur.
"Here it comes. Your reward. Try not to spend it all in once place." With a final thrust, thick ropes of cum start to fill your insides and he shudders with the satisfaction. A moment passes before he pulls out of you, leaking his seed as he withdraws. You lay spent and exhausted on the bed.
Kento finally breaks character and crouches over you. "You didn't use your safe word."
"I didn't need to."
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