#but i feel like. everytime i think abt him it feels like im being torn in half like . i put him on so incredibly high of a pedestal i

[nomaishuttle]

uninstalled all the dating apps which ws like 8nof them . in the morning ill tell the guys i was talking to that i overestimared how ready i was and hopefully theyll understand andnjust drop it

[cat-vase]

man!!!! i see ur posts and go hm... makes me wanna think about oscar and julien more ... i dont think abt them ENOUGH and everytime i see ur posts im like well ok i shouold amend this

SO TRUE!!!!! Glad you like them too!!! :D Here's some stuff from September <3 <3 The tense might change a lot, I reread it to try and fix it but it still might be kinda wonky.

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It's day fourteen of Julien living with Oscar at the shelter and, quite frankly, it could be going worse. 

Julien's latched onto a quarter-used notebook Oscar found him, and most days he'll be found sitting outside on the curb with it. He'd sit there for days if Oscar didn't physically drag him inside to eat and sleep. Julien mumbled something about being used to being hungry once, and immediately was grateful he couldn't be understood. 

That was the only time he was grateful for it. 

He had torn the beginning of the journal out, looping his name in big cursive letters for the new beginning. He doubted anyone would take it; it wasn't like they'd be able to get anything out of it. But he kept it close and wrote his name, his full name, all over it just in case he forgot someday. He wrote everything he could remember down: where he used to live, what he used to do, where he was now, and what that fucking room looked like. He wrote about it in excruciating, painfully long detail, so he'd never have to think about it ever again. If you looked five centimeters to the left it was blue. If you looked ten it was purple. The glow pulsed every two minutes and thirteen seconds. It was burned into his vision and he had to close his eyes a lot. It made him dizzy now that there were other things to see. 

"Hey, Julie," Oscar says from behind him. Julien jumps and tears his eyes away from the couple he was watching across the street. He thought the building might be a dentist's office. 

"Bonjour," he mumbles. Oscar liked to know he wasn't spacing out. "Hi," he tried again. It didn't sound right. 

"Come on," he said, and Julien knew he had to stop for the day.

"Allons-y," he said before standing up so Oscar knew. He had written it down ages ago. Teaching yourself a language while just becoming a person again was hard and he was sure he wasn't doing it right.

Julien balanced his notebook against his leg, flipped to the first page, and scribbled his name down again in fast, scrunched-together letters. It made him feel better. Oscar peeked from behind him while he did it, and it made Julien realize something. If he could manage to remember how to say it, that was. 

"Oscar?" he says to get the other man's attention. It works. "Comment tu t'appelles?" 

Oscar looks at him in confusion, like normal, and Julien tries to find the beginning word in his head. Why? No. Who? Kinda. 

"What, uh..." He hopes it's the right one. He doesn't want to hold them up too long. "What is your name?" 

Oscar looks at him in confusion again. Dammit. 

"It's Oscar? Are you okay?" 

Julien groans at himself and runs a hand down his face. He was blanking on the important word. 

"Name, your- The-" 

What was nom de famille in English? 

He pointed at himself. 

"Julien Beaumont." 

Pointed at Oscar. 

"Oscarrr..." 

He drags out the end of the sound and opens his hand in a "continue" gesture. 

"Oh!" Oscar says, and Julien mentally cheers. 

"Mayworth. Not as cool as yours, I know." 

He has no fucking clue what Oscar said at the end, but that wasn't an issue. 

"Mayworth," he parroted, and he pronounced the "r" way too hard and dropped the "-th" at the end. Oscar found it endearing. 

Julien opened his notebook to a page he had memorized, and scribbled Oscar's last name near the top, next to his first. Oscar had never wished to know French more than right now. 

"D'accord," he mumbled to himself, before closing the journal, and looking up at Oscar. "Merci," he spoke clearer. 

"Yeah, yeah. Figures you should know." 

Julien, again, had no idea what he said at the end. Whatever. Problems for later. His voice sounded relaxed enough. They needed to go eat. Oscar Mayworth. It... suited him.

[danothan]

shoutout to @ceeloilights for always having thought-provoking tags on my rambles 👊 i’ve responded to it in a big batch below! it rly does paint a picture for the behind-the-scenes of hal’s family…

(my tags for context to some of these responses):

#i also wonder if jessica wanted to discourage hal from idolizing his dad #so if she kept martin away from him he would somehow forget abt it and lose interest in flying #god how fucked up is that. to keep a grieving son's late father away from him #i hope this isn't disproportionately angsty #i just feel like it's rly fucked up that she wouldn't let him see her when she was literally on her deathbed #hmm actually im looking back on these pages and im wondering if she DID say that #bc it's jack and jim that say hal can't see her bc of his 'broken promise’ #but then it's later ‘hal's fault' that she died of a complication #implying that she got so emotional abt the fact that he was a pilot that it worsened her condition #did jack and/or jim tell her?? did she ask to see hal and they refused?? #like she's DYING could you guys not have lied and pretended that hal kept his promise #she died thinking she already lost her son how do you think that makes hal feel

RESPONSE:

#i mean it also couldve been the family just doesnt have many photos of their dad in general and they thought the only other one they had was #the one martin brought up in his jets when he flew until jim found another pic of martin #but bec hes a child and a mamas boy he didnt want to fuel hals want to leave and become like their dad so he kept it a secret (@ceeloilights)

maybe it wasn’t all of their photos of martin that jessica put away, but probably all the ones with hal! maybe they still kept up portraits or even family photos with him, but the one jim gifted hal was the time he’d ditch school to go hang out with his dad on the airfields. there’s a reminder jessica would hate to keep around.

and that is fucked UP if it was jim that kept that hidden from hal. it always seemed like he was the one caught in the crossfire of everything, but it would make sense considering that when jack didn’t want hal to see their mom, jim agreed despite being torn by the decision. following what his older brother says, trying to look out for their mom, i can understand why he’d do it. but damn does that not make it hurt any less.

this in tandem to hal thinking, “i thought no one understood me. i was wrong” when jim gave him the photo, honestly stings a little. it makes me think that jim is torn between every family member. he’s a mama’s boy for sure, but he cares abt his brothers deeply. he didn’t even seem to choose a side when they fought, he just wanted them to stop fighting.

#i read it as jim just never having the time(seen w jim having to rush back to sue) or appropriate occasion to give hal the gift #but like the ANGST and GUILT of jim stowing the pic away everytime he talks to hal

i think it’s both timing and jim’s internal conflict! the family rarely keeps in touch in general (gee i wonder why), but that guilt of him not wanting hal to leave, the guilt that jim doesn’t want to fuel anything against the promise hal made to their mom… i think it’s notable that the “appropriate occasion to give hal the gift” only happened when she passed (oh god ☹️)

#i always hced hals mom pushing him away bec its her way of coping knowing the ppl she loves will die is by putting distance b/w them #she might know wat shes doing is wrong but she doesnt want hal to miss her either

i think there are aspects of this that are true in secret origins, esp keeping a distance bc of potential grief. but idk if i’d say it’s to protect hal’s feelings of missing her, it feels very much like a selfish (albeit understandable) thing to want to protect him. i always thought her overprotectiveness was the magnetic push to hal’s rebelliousness (“i thought there was nothing left to be afraid of. mom thought there was everything” / “i didn’t understand her. and she didn’t understand me.”)

#but i feel like jess wouldnt be the kind of person to fully wipe someones traces away lmao maybe #she still let the boys celebrate christmas even tho technically there jewish bec its like a tradition that they love #even if its based off of her husbands beliefs and reminds hal (and prob her) about his dads death #but ig celebrating ur husbands holiday once a year isn't the same as seeing ur dead husbands face everyday in a pic

it can go hand in hand! i don’t think she’d want to forget abt martin’s death completely ofc, after all, jessica is the one to encourage hal to light the candles in his father’s memory despite it being a catholic tradition via darkseid war (which, sidenote, isn’t it interesting that hal remembers his dad as someone that thought church was stupid anyway? i think it plays a lot into hal feeling like his mom doesn’t understand him and vice versa, but it’s smth they do regardless bc of what it symbolizes for themselves). i think choosing that holiday as smth they can use to celebrate martin’s life is a symbol in that way as well. but imagine the anniversary of his death comes around, i don’t think they’d have that same energy of family connection and understanding. jessica would take that HARD. and it’s the same thing with the photos, the constant reminder is different than making the choice to acknowledge it.

and the reason i have this hc is bc it echoes the way she treats hal’s passion. it’s not even the flying, which would ofc worry her, but she doesn’t even like that hal played with airplanes as a kid? she might not wipe every trace of her husband away from the family, but she’s definitely not allowing certain parts of it

i actually forgot i had this panel of her (presumably) explaining to hal why he can’t have his toy planes anymore. like they’re in one big box full of photos, hello?? where are you putting the box jessica??

#also i dont think jack and jim would lie to hal #like jack and hal got a rivalry but telling ur brother that he cant see his mom is like not up there Imao #but ig telling him hes the death of their mom is a shallow blow too (scapegoat hal as always lol) #i always thought bec jack was the one taking care of her it was more like a game of telephone where their mom said one thing and jacks #jealousy and hatred for hal made him think she meant something different or just thought hal didnt deserve to see her

see, the way i was thinking abt it was that it was true that the doctor said anything upsetting would worsen her condition, and it’s also true that hal is an emotional trigger for her. IF they lied, it would be to protect her, as they’ve always done, not to punish hal, and the reason i was wondering if they did was bc i’m curious how that conversation with their mom was brought up. DOES she still care abt that broken promise, even now on her death bed?? or was it that game of telephone you mentioned, where she asks where is hal, and they tell her he can’t see her, all while dancing around the (emotionally triggering) reason why. “jack won’t let you. i can’t let you either.” says more abt their choices than jessica’s. if they kept from him the fact that she was dying of cancer this whole time, i wouldn’t say it’s completely out of character for them to make the executive decision to keep it up.

#its like [jack] wasted his life putting time and effort into something taking care of something with nothing to show #then his brother shows up thinking he can say he cared for their mom when jack was the one by her side the whole time

no like that’s so fucked up 😭😭 bc it’s not just hal not understanding how much jack had sacrificed for their family, the other side of that same coin is jack not understanding that hal couldn’t take care of her bc of how much she pushed him AWAY. good lord i love a well-written dysfunctional sibling dynamic, but i forget how much it hurts me.

#like hal said jack was the one who cared for her he put his whole life on hold to come to her care while hal had to be told shes dying

it’s still insane to me that he had to FIND OUT his mom was dying of cancer, that shit doesn’t just happen overnight. from jack’s perspective, hal was the one that chose to leave the family behind, but hal sees it as never being welcomed into it. jack thinks hal is selfish for living for himself, and the wild thing is that hal is the one that escaped that toxic household. jack’s sacrifice is what makes him “selfless” in comparison, and the resentment that built up from it is hal’s fault, not the long history that created this environment to begin with. he doesn’t question why hal ran away, just that he chose between himself and his family.

and i don’t think hal was the one that didn’t want to come back either:

god it rly is such an interesting familial backstory, especially for dc. i always found it fascinating how hal has more or less come to terms with his trauma PRIOR to active canon, but it still bleeds into his characterization now. and i love that i rly can’t blame anyone, you can totally see where each person is coming from. it’s like putting a bunch of wounded animals in a cage, you know things would be different if it weren’t for the close proximity. but that’s the thing abt family isn’t it 😔 i said it before and i’ll say it again: no wonder hal ran away.

note: none of my firsthand sources of media cast jessica in a charitable light, so i will be keeping an eye out for iterations that show other sides to her. but i don’t think that negates what she’s done, or the effect it had on the boys, or how hal remembers it now. i think it just makes the family a lot more… complicated.

lemme know if this is supported/debunked anywhere, but i always thought it interesting how significant it was meant to be that jim got hal a framed photo of him and their dad. yes ofc martin’s death makes it significant, but did hal not have any other photos of him? the line “something i wish i could’ve given you a long time ago” gives a weight to the gift like i’m missing smth, like smth could’ve changed if he had. and the fact that jim was so excited to give it to hal all those years ago that he stayed up until midnight makes it feel even more significant, secretive even

what i’m saying is that i headcanon their mom took down all the photos of their dad bc she hated having the reminder. that’s why it’s especially painful for her seeing hal follows in martin’s footsteps, he’s the spitting image of his father. without him there, even in spirit thru framed photos, it puts a lot of pressure onto hal. i can see this being a part of her coddling and overprotectiveness, how she wants to hold onto what she has left. and i can also see how her later disowning him can reflect putting the photos away, how it seems almost contradictory that she wants to protect him so she tells him to never come back. it’s that duality of grief; she loves him so much that she can’t bear to look

god hal rly grew up in a fucked up household didn’t he, no wonder he ran away

[lizzybeth1986]

Quick Thoughts on TRR Book 2 Chapter 16

• IT’S HAPPENING FAM!

• Since there’s a chance that Homecoming Ball is going to be an absolute disaster, might as well put my crown on now

•

WHAT URGENT MATTER WHICH URGENT MATTER. LIAM YOU SHOULD TELL ME THESE THINGS.

• Maxwell since when was Bertrand a ‘calm presence’ 😂

• “No plots, schemes or blonde-haired barriers in the way!” Bertrand tells me. You sure about that boi? Coz everytime someone says something won’t happen in this book, it fucking happens 😑

• MAXWELL SINCE WHEN WAS ME ACCEPTING A PROPOSAL IN MY WAITRESS UNIFORM A GOOD IDEA

• When in doubt (and in NY getting engaged) dress like a New York skyscraper

• I had thought the Bertrand Savannah story would be over by now, but it isn’t. Far from it. But from what I gather - he seems to a. think that restoring Beaumont House’s glory comes first, b. feel that his love for Savannah (he does mention that he “treasures” her messages) is a distraction, c. deems himself a failure. There are some pieces to this puzzle missing and methinks we’ll find them all only in Book 3.

•

Legit. This right here is how my MC ended up head over heels for him.

• Liam: You radiated…possibility.

I believe at some point in the chapter, Liam highlights this as true not only in his own case, but applies it to how she changed Drake’s, Hana’s and Maxwell’s lives as well. I love that even in this, he doesn’t want to think only of himself. He sees how the MC has influenced his friends as well.

• I love how all our choices in Book 1 have been incorporated in this chapter.

• My favourite sequence in the chapter thus far is when Liam tells us about how he met the rest of the gang. It really does give us an idea of their background and history, and why they all really worked as a team, a unit, a group.

•

The first thing that came to my mind was how Maxwell was the first person to recognize the effect the MC had on Liam, way before even Drake did. He was the first to realise that Liam had found in the MC something he’d never had before, and thought to himself “I don’t want Liam to lose that”. It makes his first invitation to Cordonia that much more poignant, IMO.

• Lol I love how both Liam and Drake’s friendship is comprised entirely of them repeatedly rescuing each other 😂 They’re each other’s Knights in Shining Armour lol.

• OMG I FEEL SO VALIDATED BY WHAT LIAM SAID ABT HIS FRIENDSHIP WITH HANA?? I’D BEEN SAYING THIS SINCE BEFORE BOOK 2 CAME OUT OMG THANK YOU FOR CONFIRMING LIAM xD

• “Even back then…I knew [Hana and I] would be kindred spirits” - PREACH BRUH THATS WHAT I SAID

•

I SAID THAT TOO.

• “[Hana] is brilliant at a great many things…but hiding her feelings isn’t one of them”. AND THAT.

• In one fell swoop, Pixelberry made “With a Little Help From My Friends” parts one and two canon 😂😂

• Pixelberry also made @toglidethroughlife fic “This Love” partly canon with a way way happier ending if you’re a Liam stan xD

• This reminds me of that time when they made the abdication suggestion (and the MC’s response) that we saw in @violetflipflops “I Will Wait” canon too.

• “I didn’t realise that being a good ruler meant taking the reins for myself. Not until you.” Yes yes YES.

• MC you’re a shitty dog owner. You didn’t even notice your dog has been missing for the last few days? Whaaaaaa?

• He called me queen of his heart 😭😭😭😭

.• YES LIAM YES YES YES I’VE BEEN WAITING TO SAY YES SINCE CHAPTER 16 OF BOOK 1

• GUYS DID YOU NOTICE WE GET A ROMANCE MEGAPOINT ONCE WE GET ENGAGED???

• Back when I played the chapter I assumed the megapoint meant this LI would be exclusive for you from that point on…but alas. Looks like that isn’t the case. I do think we’ll see this megapoint next chapter with the others too. Maybe.

•

What he means is “sorry, Joy, I don’t think your little eyes can handle the smut”.

• Soooo this time’s diamond option is purely sexytimes, with a side order of Lady Liberty trivia. (the lightning one sounds ominous and symbolic of Liam in some ways). I’m okay with that because I really liked the non-diamond journey that preceded it, I thought that was a beautiful way to retrace their steps to the very beginning of their journey together.

• Also. As I have said before. Cordonian men have a thing for pinning their women to walls 😂

• This comes up if the MC speaks about Lady Liberty being struck by lightning 600 times.

Liam says the MC represents possibility. The MC says this. The Bad is gonna happen fam. In the Finale 😭😭😭

• Yknow there are several ways this could go down:

1. An assassination

2. A coup

3. Possible leaking of Constantine’s involvement in the conspiracy, leading to people losing their faith completely in Liam. It would take a great amount of effort for Liam to win his people’s trust, all through no fault of his own 😭

I hate option 1 but at least I hate it the least 😭😭😭 I’d much rather Liam get heroically injured than emotionally and publically torn apart like that 😭😭😭😭

• MADELEINE KNOWS SOMETHING.

• MAYBE REGINA KNOWS SOMETHING TOO IDK. MAYBE EVEN ADELEIDE KNOW SOMETHING. OR NOT. IM SO CONFUSED.

• If you reject Liam’s proposal, the resulting behaviours from the MC’s side are highly problematic:

1. She does it NOW when this man is on his one knee with a ring. Imagine how much more poignant and beautiful this admission would have been if they let you say it way back at the balcony. Imagine having the opportunity to tell Liam you love someone else at that point, seeing him conflicted, sad, confused - BUT AT LEAST he knows the stakes and knows it involves you finally going to the love interest of your choice in the end. Imagine him saying “I’m hurt, and sad, but that’s not what matters. What matters is that we clear your name.” How much more poignant that scene would have been. How much richer would it have made Liam’s story with you even if you weren’t pursuing him. It would allow him to maybe explore other options with other people. And it would be completely in character for him to let go that way. The MC, Liam and all the LIs would have wound up all looking good. Having it stretch out this far and crushing him like this is great drama but it makes the MC look like a complete tool. ESP when Liam offers her a duchy and her response is to be happy. HAPPY. “Sure I trampled your heart on my high heels but LAND. TITLES. MY OWN COAT OF ARMS. YAY. Who cares about you boo?”

2. Having the option of kissing him, and having sex with him, even though you have rejected him. Sure, Liam tries to make us feel better about initiating by bringing up the way Cordonia secretly does relationships, but in this case they don’t have consent from the LIs. She’s telling him she wants to have sex with him, at a time when he is vulnerable, desperately in love, still not over her, shocked and confused. That’s manipulative on levels I can’t even begin to describe. There should have allowed Liam to pull a Zig here, not continue placing her on a pedestal. Zig wants the TF MC, and he makes his feelings very clear to her while playing pool, but if she chooses to cheat on her LI with him he makes it very clear how absolutely callous that is on both him and the other LI. It makes it clear that this choice - taken with no one’s consent, and obviously focussed just on her own needs without caring whether other people will get hurt in the process - is wrong. He lets her know her behavior was terrible. Liam would have been well within his rights to tell the MC that too.

At the very least they could have had Liam bring the polyamorous option up and THEN state “but hey, you shitty person, we don’t have Drake/Hana/Maxwell’s say on this yet”.

This isn’t in any way comparable to the Liam/Madeleine/MC situation. Liam was in a forced arrangement, one that he had been clearly manipulated into. Liam had Madeleine’s explicit consent, and got the MC’s as well, before moving forward. Plus he never intended to keep the arrangement with Madeleine, hoping to break it when the MC’s name was cleared (a promise he acted upon and fulfilled immediately, might I add). Here, the MC and Liam are free, as are the other LIs, and they have nothing holding them back. And as I mentioned earlier there is no explicit consent from the LIs, the way there was with Madeleine. Liam is a guy who stayed ridiculously faithful to the MC from the moment she entered the competition, didn’t even look in the direction of the rest of the competition when he was well within his rights to. Ignored Madeleine to a large extent the whole duration of their engagement. Basically ONLY lavished attention, love and devotion to the MC. What about this guy screams “yeah let’s bang without consent from the ppl you’re actually in love with” to you?

• Liam is not the one with the problem here. Nor is the player. The problem is the writing and the game.

• This is an obvious attempt at cashgrab. Now that we will begin to go official with our LIs, how are we going to buy ALL the exclusive LI scenes the way we’ve been doing so far? They can’t completely diverge the stories the way they did with RoE (RoE could afford to do this because there were other characters and storylines we could find ourselves invested in, so restricting it to just one LI in Book 3 was okay), nor can they do what they’re currently doing in TS or ES or LH because the relationship dynamics in this book are vastly different. So they bring up this piss poor excuse so that they can still manage to make sex scenes with the LIs possible even if you’re supposed to be going official with them by the end of the book. Ick. All it does is leave a bad taste in my mouth.

• Other stans I hope you get your sexytimes soon!

[icharchivist]

yo!! dunno if u already answered that, but what do u think abt hxh 1999? honestly, i watched 2011 before 1999 but i... love 1999 a bit more. i really love this dark atmosphere and somehow i rlly love the voice actors too? also. the beautiful filler arc, god that was so feels!!! .. i rlly love the 1999 version haha. if u already answered that, feel free to link ur answer >.o and if u havent, im rlly curious abt ur reply!!!

Ahhh heya :3 

I hadn’t watched 1999 yet but i admit i’m. Not exactly found of what i’ve seen so far. I saw a few scenes here and there, mostly thanks to tumblr, or some scenes people showed me. 

In term of ambiance and atmosphere, i understand why people love it - i’m myself not exactly fan of all of the color palette of 2011, but I don’t get into 1999′s either soo i’m a little torn about it. I think the animation is really great for 1999, and it has some nice fillers i guess. 

 The Voice acting is really great but I personally really love the 2011′s voices too much : i’m seriously in love with the 2011!Kurapika’s voice and even if i find the 1999′s voice amazing, it’s not the same. Leorio, in 2011, is voiced by a seiyuu who’s work i’m a fan of, and the VA of Gon and Killua make such a good job I have a hard time with getting involved in the new voices. Hisoka’s va was incredible in 1999 (for the record, he ended up voicing Pariston in 2011), but I find the 2011 version to be closer from the character and far more threatening. (the only reason i’m actively mentioning the VA is that i watched the musical and got accostumed to their voices, but it still doesn’t work as much for me)

But I’m a manga purist. I’ve always been a lot more based on the manga and I admit i really cringe to major changes, even if they’re not bad.  (hell i complain about the very few things 2011 changed all the time. I seriously complain all the time. Even changes that are actually cute like how they added the 50 hours in the tower, i still bitch about it and how the slight change they made to canon to make it worse lessened the impact of a latter scene.).

Fanservice is all fine and great but Idk, i’m in here because of the manga storyline, not exactly for what’s added in general. I don’t actively like fanservice. It makes me roll my eyes more than anything. 

From what I’ve seen, there’s a few things I don’t exactly like. Killua is a little different and everytime i see something especially in the early arcs, I feel really like it’s not exactly the Killua I like. There’s seriously scenes i’ve seen of him in 1999 that I can’t stand and that I don’t find endearing at all, especially in comparaison to his manga’s counterpart.

While I understand that the story felt the need to add, say, Gon’s breakdown after Hisoka saved him in the forest and Kurapika’s meltdown after killing Uvogin, I think it’s a little overkill in comparaison to how the manga handled it. (That being said the Kurapika’s meltdown is at least well, based on some details that even the 2011 anime overlooked. I can see it happen. But I still prefer the subtility of the 2011 anime that fits much more the manga’s tone. And it’s not that it’s absent, it’s just that it’s subtle. For Gon’s though, I really think this is ways too much.)

And I’m sorry i’m terrible, but i’m not exactly found of most of the leopika fanservice? A few things i’ve seen plays a lot on tropes i don’t exactly like, and it’s not like 1999 includes the scenes from the manga that made me love them to start with. (which is also so unreal to me bc once someone told me a lot of people say they like Leopika only because of 1999 and i’m just like. What. No. Why. The manga is great it doesn’t need..... *waves* this. I like the concept say of the phonecall at the end of the show to be sweet (even if... kinda laughable to me) and i like Leorio worrying about Kurapika or Kurapika smiling at him (okay that I can get behind) but some stuff....... I just can’t.)

And mostly I admit I grew a little irrited at this version after a lot of people i’ve seen tried to bring down the 2011 anime in regard of the 1999 anime, and usually that’s the worst because if it starts to seriously irritate me, i end up turning this irritation on the show rather than the fans (usually if i really dislike stuff, this is because of how it had been compared to stuff i like). Because like, the 1999 anime is really not sticking to canon all that much, the changes it does to the characters ends up affecting the storyline, that they want it or not, and that’s the kind of things that usually tickles me the wrong way. (and in the wrong way also when 2011 does that don’t get me wrong, but it’s not as much as in 1999.)

One day I’ll need to seriously watch the show and maybe those stuff will be better for me once in context and once I will be detached enough from the manga to get into it, but so far i have ways too much irritation over it. One of the only scene I really liked in the 1999 vers more than 2011 so far is Kurapika’s reaction to the auction for the eyes, but that’s it.  I’m glad they kept some stuff like the door trials that the 2011 anime completely glossed over, and that at least this version of the anime respected Leorio as a character (fuck you 2011), and at least adapted the first chapter correctly.

But overrall, everytime i see something about 1999 I cannot disconnect from the manga and I cannot get into it. I’m too much of a canon!purist for that and I love to think too much about the implications and stuff the manga is hinting at, and i don’t like how some changes just, change the narrative around or change those hints. (which is a problem i also have with some scenes of 2011, but like, i complain about maybe 5% of the 2011 anime, the stuff that angers me in the 1999 anime takes...a  lot more of the anime.)

Then again, I know it’s because I love the manga too much and think too much about it. One day if i am in a mood to disconnect from the manga, i’ll try to watch 1999. It’s just another interpretation. Hell I enjoyed watching the Musical while it was not exactly in the spirit of the manga (.... then again the Musical didn’t pretend to be as such), so i should seriously give a try to 1999. 

I don’t think i’ll ever get to really think i prefer it to 2011 though since I care about canon much more than fanservice and filler. 

But I know that’s just me, I know that’s because of how and what i like about the manga to start with. I totally get why people love 1999, I truly do, this is a great show.

I just personally can’t. 

Anyway, take care!