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angelgrace-demonface · 2 years ago

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a man stands hunched over his bathroom sink, staring through hot tears at his gaunt reflection. His tears flow freely over his cheeks, flushed from misery and the bitter battle to overcome said misery. He takes a shaky breath, and whispers,

“I will be alright. I am going to be fine again. I swear, I will one day feel whole once more.”

He, of course, is referring to the most humiliatingly painful and smelliest shit that he’d just taken after a long night of food that was way too spicy and drinks far to heavy.

He made his choice. Now he must pay the price.

#this came to me in a fever dream #i thought it. and the words poured out of me #i.... dont know what kind of day im gonna have after this one #but i dont think it'll be super #ethanspeaks #unfortunately #my heart goes out to all who have experienced this torture #be it having been in this situation or just being unlucky enough to stumble across this #sibling dearest if you read this remember. tumblr is nota reflection of who i am #i swear

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scarycranegame · 2 months ago

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EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP AND READ THIS.

THE CURRENT VOTE COUNT IS NOT THE FINAL RESULT.

IT WILL TAKE SEVERAL DAYS TO COUNT ALL OF THE VOTES AND DETERMINE WHO WINS THE ELECTION (POSSIBLY MORE IF A RECOUNT IS NECESSARY).

IT IS VERY LIKELY THAT THE FINAL RESULTS WILL NOT LOOK LIKE THE INITIAL RESULTS.

STOP DOOMPOSTING AND LEARN HOW THIS SHIT WORKS.

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sidereon-spaceace · 7 months ago

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I start drawing a mermaid and am suddenly transported back to being 9 years old

#ramblings #i was super into mermaids as a kid but i dont think any of those drawings are still around #but anyways I had an idea for Mermay which I missed but it'll still work for Pride Month so fuck it we ball

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icewindandboringhorror · 8 months ago

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finally finished all of one character's entire quests/optional dialogue/questions/etc.... 100,000 words... .... aughhh

#Given some of it IS lines of code and stuff but like.. minus all that it's still probably at least 85 - 95k words hhhhhh #AND I have to do this for another 3 characters. Then a few partial quests for 3 others. THEN the other random misc stuff in the game #(like there are public areas in the city like a park and a forest that you can go and do a few things at. and chat with a few random #townsfolk that aren't actually full characters or anything. And there's a community board where you can #browse some of the random job advertisments or silly things that happen to be posted around #and also pick up a few odd jobs of your own to help earn coin to buy gifts for the npcs. etc. etc.)#Originally I was thinking like 'ah I'll make a short little game just to try it out! :3 It'll take maybe a few months!''#haha........................hee hee........................................hoho #Also evil that it would have been done already if I didn't totally drop itand stop working on it for like 5 years randomly #i could have made 5 years of steady slow progress gradually. instead of like 'one initial idea dump + about a month of art and writing'#...... 5 year break..... 'sudden mad dash to try to get probably 400.000 words written in a year or less' lol #I just really want to be done and have something out there already so it can lead to doing other things in my world..!!!!!! T o T #Like this can be an introduction and then maybe from that I can make other games. or short story anthologies. or other such things #But there needs to be some initially not very complex easy to interact with starting point first I guess... if that makes sense #That's part of why I stopped posting worldbuilding lore dump stuff as often because its' like.. massive walls of novella length #text are much more inacessible to engage with than like.. ooh a game! and there's characters! so its more approachable! and theres #visuals! oo! and the text is broken up in small bits line by line with other things in betwen! oo! etc. etc. lol #Not that THIS is even very accessible. I think dialogue heavy interactive fiction/visual novel type stuff is pretty niche and considered #boring or tedious compared to something with more ''gamplay'' like where you can actually move around in a world #and shoot things or whatever lol. But its an inbetween point. something SLIGHTLY #more accesible for now. Since i just dont have the budget or means or ability to make some skyrim type thing obviously LOL #Though maybe if theres any interest in the visual novel that could lead to making other things too. or at least I hope. I have a VERY cool #idea for a more ''gamey'' type of game that is a super fun concept and etc. but I would need to hire at least 2 people to make it.. ough..#I could do all the writing and probably half of the art. But I think I'd inevitably need a 3d artist and someone who can Code For Real hbjh #the system for ren'py (the thing I'm making a visual novel in) is not that complicated if you stick to just simple dialogue and stuff.#Making a whole moderately sized 3d game with minigames in it and a bunch of quest features and etc. would be out of my simplistic scope #''just learn it yourself!!' ... i barely manage to eat and sleep reliably every day lol... i do not function well enough to spend months #learning that many new skills. I already have a lot of of things I'm good at (not in a braggy way but just factually like.. i already have #a wide variety of different things under my belt).. at some point I have to just be happy with what i CAN already do and focus on that #and admit I need to get outside help sometimes ghjbh... NO more new skills/hobbies!!! ... ANYWAY

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hearts401 · 2 months ago

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We need to start treating bad writing like bad art and im not kidding

#now theres a lot more nuance to this #because “bad writing” is SUPER general #so i have to add a disclaimer #i dont mean propoganda. i dont mean biased and biggoted #i mean writing decisions u dont like!#ppl are very quick to just sit there and shit on writers #its okay to not like an ending. its okay to not like how a character was treated #and its okay to be mad about it if u like them very dearly #but at the same time sometimes we're a little too mean.#and sometimes they deserve it #but sometimes it's a little mean #this is. in truth. because of the lumine ending #on webtoon #its pissing me off how ppl are getting super upset and being rude to kabu #even tho so many ppl are explaining its because she grew out of the story. she didnt have passion for it anymore #she gave us an ending! you dont have to like it but stop acting like just because she COULD write more that she HAS to write more #art is tiring. sometimes you lose passion for it. sometimes you dont do it perfectly #sometimes your idea of good isnt the same as someone else's #i dont like romance for example. several tropes will turn me off it #but some ppl do #sometimes you make a pretty shitty plot or make plot holes #and yeah those arent super great to read!!! but a story is an art. its all different #its not all good and its not all bad #its made from a persons head therefore it'll reflect a person in a way #i just think its important to remember that writers are not machines #artists and writers aren't actually as different as everyone treats them #we're all making art. we're all making mistakes. i just think we should be a little nicer about it #its okay to criticize. but can we be nice about it #also i dont like the “professional author” argument #picasso was a famous artist his paintings are in meuseums and there's still people who don't like his art. i dont think its fair to go

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allgremlinart · 10 months ago

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do you guys think that if I started to singlehandedly drag the Bone (1991) fandom back from the brink of vanishing off the face of the Earth Netflix will un-cancel the animated series ...? everybody get their dad on here*

#only thing is I dont think it'll get super popular on here since most of the relationships its focuses on are familial or platonic.#like there is practically zero slash potential in those books how am I supposed to get Tumblr interested 😐#*my dad loves Bone so like I'm assuming its a big dad comic

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blueskittlesart · 2 years ago

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do you think there's ever going to be an official botw manga?

if there is i NEED them to hire me to make it

#i am currently getting a sequential art degree. nintendo PLEASE #anyway i dont think botw lends itself to the formula that himekawa tends to use for their loz mangas tbh #i think it could be done. and i would kill to do it. and people would SCRAMBLE to buy it #like i know EXACTLY how i would write a botw manga. down to the letter.#so it's definitely possible. but i dont think it'll be the same type of manga that himekawa usually does #i think they might benefit from getting a new mangaka for it tbh but himekawa is super recognizeable among fans at this point so idk #asks

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tacocat37 · 9 days ago

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#tw vent #ew yucky vent lmaoo #Love waking up in the morning to my dad #drunk #being accused of things making cry 5 times and hyperventilating when he hells at me for #crying #and saying should be grateful I have a dad #also love how he admitted to me he was shit #i defended him #he told me to stop and he could tell i was lying and that i hate him ( i dont) then later hes said the same thing #(didnt defend him that time) and he got super mad at me for not defending him and called me a bad daughter #he told me he could change if he wanted to but he doesn’t think there's anything to change #he's literally such a narcissistic it's insane #that day was wild #cried 6 times had a panic attack and relapsed after month crazy ass day #what do you mean you could've took me away to Albania without my mother and raised me like a Hitler but you didn’t because you're a good da #he was fine the next day though so idek i feel like i can't complain i feel like such a baby #he's like all you need to raise kids with is love i don't do anything for you guys (me and my brother) i don't know anything about you guys #but i loved you and look how you turned out! (my mother's doing love her shes the best) but also like saying u love me and then yelling at #me and mot caring about my life or putting in effort for me has given me a fucked up idea of what love is #and i also have no idea how to differentiate a good person and a bad person #so thats great lmaoo #i have hope though my mom is amazing a he's not that bad tbh he's gonna give me a really messed up view of trust ik cause i already have it #but it's okay lol I'll fix it all and it'll all be fine I'm still young and optimistic #forgot this also not to shit talk but why are you threatening your daughter if she breaks up you and your girlfriend?? when shes hasn't #done anything to indicate that she wants that in any way? why is it my job to save the relationship you messed up 💀#anyway bye lol peace :3

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barbatos-sama · 18 days ago

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i started feeling rly sick suddenly earlier and it's not going away OTL

#also my mom has been commenting very often about how she never sees me anymore etc etc #but when i asked if she could at least sit down with me while i opened the presents she's giving me she said no #and that she's only gonna drop them off at the door #cause she doesn't wanna see my dad #and i think it's also because i dont want to go to grandmas house tomorrow #she keeps being like it's probably grandmas last christmas before she dies )): why won't you come )):#and i'm like i cannot handle an hour long car ride; she doesn't have internet; her house is disgusting and smells bad apparently #and i feel like i keep needing to remind her that grandma wasn't a very good grandma when we were little #super strict and mean and you couldn't even eat while watching tv #going over there sucked then and it'll suck now #also she's not on deaths door or anything it's getting harder for her to get around but my mom acts like she's on her death bed or something #so yeah i feel like my mom probably views this as a betrayal or something or me choosing my dad over her #even tho i have Never liked going there and haven't gone there in over ten years now #and now mom won't even sit in the living room for a Few Minutes with me so how is she gonna blame me for this lol

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britneyshakespeare · 2 months ago

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the new my scene dolls are so unfair they downgraded madison sooooo much from her original it's criminal. it should boycotted on that ground alone but then... chelsea *___*

#chelsea i honestly think is somehow an IMPROVEMENT on the doll they're paying homage to #barbie is about the same for me. slightly worse than the 2002 but are we surprised. it's 2024 mattel we're talking about #chelsea is so stunning her new long coat PLEEEEASE #like i love her. i have a thought of getting her but she'd be my only myscene doll #i dont want the other two all that much... again POOR MADISON!!!!#and the price point they're going for. woof what do you think im made of money #if i get chelsea it'll be after the price has been dropped and if they sell really well that might not even happen #tales from diana #i wish this first wave of myscene's comeback was giving like bratz in 2022 #super affordable and accessible and available everywhere you would expect #bratz are kinda starting to decline a little bit im a little disappointed in some recent releases ngl #not just the mean girls ones but i think the new playline dolls are lacking some of the oomph #and some of the lines they're choosing for repros are like why #REPRODUCE TOKYO A GO GO ALREADY!!! get the lead out of your pants mga #i have to go to bed but im thinking about dolls #k goodnight

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skrunksthatwunk · 1 year ago

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have just been introduced to a kitten named rascal who lives on my floor and whose babysitters (who are not his owner?) were trying Really hard to goad me into adopting which like. he's a little baby and he's so so so silly and he barely even bit me but like also. this cat isn't yours???? anyway if the owner's giving him up then I might finally have a cat which like AHHHHHG

#i wanna cat SO BADD #but also i dont think this is the best environment to have ANY non-tank pet tbqh #and i dont wanna have to give him away if my housing situation changes bc my parents house wouldnt work #(one of our dogs has a pretty strong prey drive and i dont wanna risk it)#also the poor guy seems a bit skittish and i think the 2 big dogs would scare him #and then there's the 'is he my cat or your cat' thing w my roommate #i think the answer would be hes my cat bc shes more ambivalent but she can actually take him home so like #and ive pretty much been banking on going home after college anyway so like??? in the long term where would he go???#but also my dogs are getting older.. maybe by then they'll be gone and that problem'll go away #but hell my room there's bigger than my dorm room so even if we kept him in there it'd be a better space than here #it'd be a step up #ugh idk. i think it's a bad idea to have a cat in rooms this small in general. but i don't wanna see him go to a shelter either #like he's young and cute so maybe it'll be easier for him but he's also not super cuddly with strangers as far as i can tell #idk... im worried about him.... poor little rascal #like one of the girls mentioned being mean to him and i dont want him to be mistreated #like shining lights in his face and stuff #idk... sigh......#im considering transferring schools at some point. worst case scenario is i go somewhere they dont allow pets and i have to #either find a foster parent or give him away completely #but i really dont wanna have to do that if i can help it. i never want to put a pet that loves and depends on me in a situation like that #much less me like id bawl my ass off #but if theyre treating him bad then even if my situation isnt perfect wouldnt taking him in be in the right anyway?#but how long does that stand for? until i can find him a better home? ughh

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rearranging-deck-chairs · 2 years ago

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babe you gotta do something abt the big wet kitten eyes. youre aiming for menacing with the words i get that but it just doesnt quite have the effect youre going for with the big wet kitten eyes

#call the whole thing off and go get drunk in her tardis together cmon we can salvage this #heres my proposal: send those daleks back to where they came from. cybermen too yeah you desecrated the corpses of authority we get it #it had emotional resonance but now we're done with them #then you get yaz here. dont need to do much for that just do the dancing a little bit longer and she'll be there right on time #you put the doctor in the tardis. no need to get her out of that dalek #it's sorta tradition at this point anyway just keep her in there for funsies she'll hate it it'll be great #send yaz to her room under threat of murdering. i mean you dont Have to do that but i think youre gonna so. just getting ahead of it #find the doctor's ginger stash while she yells at you and gets herself Out of the dalek #get super fucking wasted #beat each other up so bad yaz can barely tell whos who in the morning #cry. ask about tecteun. have sex abt it. any order #whoever wakes up first is responsible for breakfast #this is totally still fixable trust me you can fix this #(<- in denial)

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ubike-official · 5 months ago

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date back on for sunday now. His friend is okay. thank god. And uhhh, yea now we're finally be fr about the "hey we met on a dating, lets be so fr about what our experience has been" uncharted territory besties. we're not at "so what are you looking for?" but i already essentially told him my approach is to just really try getting to know ppl i find interesting and letting a spark develop from there w/o pressure. kinda like in school where you consistently see people in casual settings. and he thought it was a good plan so uh. here we are.

#basically he's had no luck and only like 2 matches (excluding me i believe) and all those people just never responded to him #which must be so funny bc now theres like. me. where i have seen his id. know his govt name. address. dob. and vitals. like. crazy.#and he's seen mine too ofc. equality. and uh. sounds like he's never dated. never had any bug feelings for anyone despite wanting to fall i #love so bad. which is... interesting. i feel like he has liked ppl and not recognized that it's a crush. nit just wanting to be friends but #imma hold off on sharing that until further developments.#i basically told him that I've had a very different experience. not to like brag but like most women will have better luck on apps (also hi #profile kinda sucks. all 4 photos look like a different person. his like actual answers to prompts aren't bad. they're good. thats what mad #me think 'oh i think i could rlly get along w/ this dude' but he'd attract a very niche type of woman)#which i also. didn't fully say. bc time and place. it'll come up but not right now. but yea so i told him that like. ive gotten many matche #but a lotttt of it is super low quality. lot of wasted time. so like. yea. we all have a bad time on dating apps till someone sticks and we #dont. we basically have both admitted to having idealized people in the past and getting the ick irl. and yea. building some good common #ground. ive always wanted to ask to ppl ive gone out w/ what their experience looks like but i feel like thats not smth to talk abt till #later on and I've never wanted anything past a 2nd date before so. yea.#although my first date did tell me but she was poly and like much more open to talking abt that than most monogamous ppl would be

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unopenablebox · 1 year ago

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i made a longer more irritating post about this that i deleted but ive been getting intensely sleepy between 6 and ~10pm lately so i decided to try actually going to bed around 8:30, since 🌸 is out of town and i'm often up until 2 bc im staying kind of synced to their schedule and am usually very sleepy

entirely predictably the result of this was that i fell asleep instantly, woke up at like midnight, and now it's 3:20 and i am simply not going back to sleep

#also i had a super involved nightmare about being physically assaulted by a bunch of knife-wielding paleontology undergrads #implied to have been whipped into a shared 'dinosaur delusion' by a different imaginary person who hated me for interpersonal reasons #in the dream i never actually learned what their beliefs were or why it implied they should attack me and this is now very frustrating #paleontologists aren't even one of the academic fields i have a really obvious victim complex about!#box opener #this sux. i dont really want to eat anything bc i think it'll kind of fuck me up even more sleepwise #but instead im just. lying in the dark. online #no idea if going to sleep soon and waking up at work time will be read out like i got [~4.5+3.5] h of sleep or. just that first one

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famewolf · 1 year ago

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going to be spending the day with my mom for the first time in a long while. she wants to get me new shoes and is bringing over a whole box of stuff from Costco that she got me and my husband.

even though I'm on the cusp of 30, she still likes to be a mom, and I'm forever grateful for it. might not have any of the rest of my family after I was disowned but I've got my mom and my little brother and that's all I could ever ask for

#[static]#i didnt tell her about how stressful last week was but she called at random this weekend to talk about my brother with me #and then she mentioned she was going to costco and wanted to pick me up some stuff which ... she's learned at this point to not ask #because i Will say 'no' or 'dont worry about it' or 'im fine!' and as she was telling me for the tenth time ... it's something that brings #- her joy. to provide things for her kids when she's able to so that they can breathe a little easier knowing there's food in the pantry #and she's been begging me to let her buy me shoes for like ... 2 years but i keep saying no fkjghd i definitely need them but -#- help makes me want to crawl into my skin and die #but my combat boots are toast and theyve definitely Not been helping my knee situation #like our relationship was super complicated during the first couple of decades of my life but we've been working it out now as adults #anyways i think it'll be a fun day! she wants to stop by a local farm to look around and we always have fun just hanging out

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ichigosoju · 7 months ago

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#i cant believe i could've almost been his girlfriend!!!!#im sad that he never asked me and never waited ....#because i know me and im dependable and devoted #i go all in if i love #but instead he .. fell in love fast and quick and i get it. i get why he fell for her i really do so i dont blame him #but... they only lasted a month then they broke up #she left. and i get that she and i are different people #but i cannot fathom how you can have HIM and leave him #i cant even imagine my life without him. he is genuinely all i think about #and she left.... !!!!! i cant understand that (from my pov. she is her own person i know)#i just wish he'd stuck it out and given me a chance (bc he did feel those things for me he said that)#i know the heart want what it wants but oh how i wish #i would've been with him until now. i would've never have left him #i wish i wish he didnt do that bc now he's even more heartbroken and i know it'll just be harder for me to maybe prove myself to him #(btw this sounds super selfish but this is only me venting my feelings!!!)#im still here for him. i've never left. i've been so so patient. isnt that worth anything?#most of the time it feels like he doesnt even appreciate me :( at all #i just cannot believe that HE once upon a time wanted ME to be his gf #if things just had gone a bit differently i would've been so lucky to call myself his #and him mine... that's so crazy to me #that's my dream...#i dont wanna give up on him bc i love him sm i cant imagine any other way my life can go #but.... i cant push if he isnt even replying... i cant bother him too much #then im just crazy #and my anxities arent even letting me message him at all #bc even if i asked if it's ok and he said im not bothering him #im convinced i am. i mean it really seems and feels like i am doing that #so i just cannot even message him..... which makes my life so empty i wanna cry #sometimes i wish i'd never met him bc my love for him has ruined my life now that i cant have him

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