#but i do feel like sometimes labels are a bit funky

[messrsrarchives]

anon secret

okay well i know im homosexual in a way but how do u know what kind of gay u are this is prob a dumb question but uhh uhmm

not dumb at all hello !

i don't, nope. i generally just,,, go by queer? because trying to figure out that label stressed me out. and being trans as well and going through that journey is very much like,,, my gender identity is Me and my sexuality is an Extention of Me so i don't mind not having an definitive label for it

HOWEVER ☝🏻 something that did help me is coming to terms with the fact attraction varies. i didn't go by bi for so long because my attraction wasn't the same to all genders and i was convinced i was faking it which is,,, silly. generally? i'm not too fussed with labels i just like who i like and call it a day

[lesbicosmos]

Hi! It's ghost-husbands, just can't ask from that blog. For the ask-game, #8 for Charles, #11, and #21 C:

hii ty for the ask!!

8. headcanons for charles

he's a huge queen fan. you're telling me this guy was half-indian, bisexual (even if he probably wasn't aware of it) and grew up in 80s england and WASN'T obsessed with freddie mercury? wrong. eventually they get a radio in the office and whenever bohemian rhapsody comes on he tries to sing all the parts, much to edwin's confusion and amusement

he really missed going to concerts after he died but barely ever went to any because it wasn't the same going alone and he knew edwin wouldn't enjoy it, but once crystal joins the agency they go ALL the time it's their favourite thing to do. charles loves not having to pay for tickets anymore lmao

he tells dumb dad jokes all the time. he's only managed to make edwin really laugh twice but he'll be damned if he doesn't keep trying

as well as his parents, he often checks in on the kid he died to save too. he never regretted his decision for a second, but seeing him happily married with kids makes it all worth it

him and jenny quickly become friends. idk i just think they'd get along. she'd think he was an annoying little shit sometimes but like... affectionately <3

11. ooh personified animal

i think a pigeon would be hilarious, especially in london. just The dumbest and bitchiest bird you'll ever meet. has beef with the cat king. is Literally Everywhere All The Time. just funky little pigeon man.

21. something in the show that made you happy

like...all of it. boring answer but it's true

i mean there are specific things, mostly the characters. they're all so distinct and individual and cool?? especially the female characters, i love that they're allowed to be a bit fucked up but still loveable and not villains (except esther and maxine obvs)

also so many people have said it but the way it handles queerness not like it's something other. like edwin still manages to have his realisation and coming out arc without it feeling like that's the only aspect of his character? i love queer shows that are like screaming gay in ur face (like heartstopper) but idk just the way it's so casual, and the way there's no labels or anything? like it's not a big deal or a shock that jenny's secret admirer's a woman, and charles's reaction to both edwin's coming out and his confession is so calm, like obviously it's a big deal but he's so chill, there's no jokes made or anything it's just pure love and support and i love that so much

and that's not even getting into how much i love the visual style of the whole thing

but yeah, the entire show made me happy. it also made me sob several times but that's all part of it. i love shows that make me cry.

[infamous-if]

I don't know why but I love this ask so much so what outfits do the LIs typically wear? im ready to faint over how G and Victoria dresses up

Sooo I made collages and basically like an essay i went a bit overboard (oops)

So I thought hard about what the ROs look like and my biggest thing was that I wanted to make sure the gender selectable ROs still have their own unique presence and they're not some interchangeable variable. Gina and Griffin dress pretty differently and have a different identity, especially when you consider what it means to be a woman in the music industry (some context changes in the story if you choose Gina instead of Griffin, some of her actions are out of her feeling like she has just as much right to take space in a male-dominated art form, especially given that she is also married to Victoria, a woman)

Griffin does not have this problem since he's 1) a man and 2) he and Victoria present heterosexual

GRIFFIN/GINA

(Griffin on the left/Gina on the right, both in the middle)

G either dresses like the textbook definition of a 'rockstar' with the leather and fishnets and ripped jeans and all orrrr like a 18th century era gothic victorian butler. Literally no in-between.

For both Gina and Griffin, having so many tattoos becomes part of their image. Griffin wears a lot of muscle tees while Gina wears a lot of sleeveless tops, halter tops, corsets, anything that really enhances their arm sleeve.

The middle is the Victorian Butler style I mentioned lol, since they both dress like that as their "formal" attire or for shows. A lot of ruffles, very 18th century gothic. One thing is that I feel like Gina wears more red, she wears more tight fitting clothes, lower cut clothes. Griffin's shirts are also pretty revealing, very much low-cut V's, muscle tees that show the side of his whole chest. G isn't shy about the human body and they've gotten shirtless on stage many times (both male and female/ think Victoria from Måneskin.)

That slowed down a bit since Misfit Alley went mainstream. Their label and team had them tone down a bit to be more digestable to the masses.

Their hair is long for both female and male. Griffin keeps his in a loose knot/bun at his neck, and Gina does the same, but also a single braid down her back (sometimes).

Some things that they wear often: a lot of rings, G has knuckle tattoos and they wear a lot of jewelry. They have a signature leather jacket that's pretty roughed up, wear a nose ring, and pretty scruffed up boots.

SEVEN

Female Seven and Male Seven dress pretty similarly. Seven dresses more grunge and Kurt Cobain was the direct inspiration for Seven's style. Female Seven also dresses a bit like an art teacher lol

A lot of oversized clothes, slouchy, worn bigger, muted colors, a lot of layers. Female! Seven wears a lot of long skirts, cardigans, funky patterns, big boots. They dress pretty much the same both on and off stage.

At first male!seven was going to have short cropped hair but it doesn't suit him. His hair is more like:

very messy and such yeah. female! Seven keeps her hair down, kinda messy and looks uncombed (seven is very clean i promise lmao)

Things they wear often: Seven sometimes fingerless gloves, part of it because they can cover the tattoo of MC's initials, but sometimes they forgo it completely. Sometimes it's a whole arm sleeve. Surprisingly, Seven doesn't have a LOT of tattoos, it's more dainty, tiny meaningful tattoos scattered around their body.

AUGUST

August is like Seven in that they wear big, slouchy clothes but where they differ is that August is more academic and put together. They also like to wear the art teacher skirts. Scoopneck sweaters, cargo pants, and they prefer long-sleeve and long bottoms, usually they don't have much skin showing.

Things they are always seen wearing: headphones around the neck, they dont go anywhere without them.

ORION

Orion is pretty self-explanatory. He wears mostly slacks, sleek boots and a vest. Very professional dressing. If he is going to wear something casual, it'll be something like the right. Still fancy pants, but a clean black shirt. You won't really see him in anything less than 'business casual.'

Things always seen wearing: a watch lol

SEBASTIAN

I don't know how else to describe Seb's style as anything other than just basic. A T-shirt and jeans and he's good to go. Even the images I chose are a bit too stylish for him. Like, he's really just a basic guy. He doesn't think too hard on his outer appearance. Literally just...a Guy.

Even funnier when he's surrounded by people wearing fishnet tights and chains and a bunch of patterns and accessories like he stands out, oddly enough lol

The image in the middle isn't exactly how he looks in my head, but pretty close. Just a very unassuming but kind looking person. Also his hair is like that, just golden blond.

VICTORIA

Victoria has a very classically simple style. Sleek lines, tight dresses. It's not too out there, unlike G. Very simple. She dresses a bit like the second picture for G's shows, a bit edgier and leaning a little into the flamboyance. She tends to set trends and is looked at in Hollywood as someone pretty stylish. Victoria's body type is on the curvy side, more the farthest right than the other three, a bit bustier. She's a simple but effective dresser.

She loves heels, loves a square neck (farthest right). she loves a good form-fitting dress lol

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IK its a lot but i would be doing this whole story a disservice if i made them boring dressers! so im not sorry !

[skullvins]

Inspired by a friend we're doing coroika queer hcs under the cut

Goggles: he/him aro queer guy. Probably like quoiro he's a bit in love with everyone

Specs: he/him transmasc bi ace

Headphones: she/her, it/its if she's feeling funky. transfem pansexual

Bobble: genderfluid, mix of all sorts of pronouns, changes most days. Wears a bracelet with different colour beads depending on the pronouns of the day just to make it easier for friends

Rider: transmasc aroflux gay guy he wears a million layers at all times

Army: he/him transmasc bi lesbian, gender fuckery makes it hard to define his attraction as strictly gay or straight

Aloha: he/they transmasc enby, bisexual, acespec, scores major bitches (he wishes)

Mask: they/he enby, likes men but hasn't got time for that shit, acespec

Skull: he/she bigender aro queer, also polyam, kills it however he dresses tbh

Avi: shoutouts to Avi. he/him aromid queer

Gloves: he is so transgender and so homosexual, he/him

Emperor: he/him trans guy, bisexual

Prince: he/him trans guy bisexual BUT he's aro as fuck teehee

Npacer: cis woman, any pronouns. Fucks with gender and what terms she likes. Bisexual

Eging Jr: transmasc bisexual, a he/it

Laceless: queer, defo likes men. Little cis boy

Vintage: he/him, likes xe/xem over text sometimes if he's close with you. non sam aro transmasc queer. qpp moment with skull

Omega: she/they, weird girl who's not so girl these days. doesn't label her sexuality but would probably say bi just to shut you up if you ask

Double: I think it's funny if he's cis, bi tho

Red sole: aroace arogender girlypop, she/her

Fierce: he/they, a homosexual

Justice: he/they/it/she/some neos, robogender lil man tbh. non sam aro

Jet: the woman ever. she/it, aro, qpr with justice

Hive: transmasc, I see this man using a shit load of pronouns too. Chronic men liker, arospec

S3 era

Braids: bisexual she/her transfem

Sunsun: he/him, gay as shit

Horn: she/they lesbian

Shady: he/she bigender, every eliter is bigender. woman liker. he's a guy who's a lesbian for men does this make sense

8 bit: she/it/he transmasc enby. Gender is unexplainable. arospec. in some kinda qpp vibes thing with shady

Ocho: the gayest little man you've ever seen

Wire: he/him aro trans guy

Barreleye: he/him transmasc bisexual also I'm a barrelbraids enjoyer tbh

Shellmet: wow queen, you're so aro, she/her

Smallfry: a fish

[gaypastabake]

Hi um, hello < ]:3

this is just a place I compile all my current blog information n all that, so uh enjoy I guess

I constantly and routinely update this post and my bio because I like obsessively sorting things and removing little things I dont like about the way my stuff is presented, so on the chance that your'e wondering why things keep changing or getting deleted then thats why.

sometimes I will do the same to older posts aswell

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{Fandoms I have posted art for (to date)}

-Mario + Rabbids

-Borderlands (only once though, that may change)

-DnD

-Furry related art

-Pokemon/Pokemon mystery dungeon

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Ask box: open!

I'm generally open to all asks that aren't just spam or are completely unrelated to anything i've ever posted, I also will NEVER take NSFW asks even if I can have a bit of a suggestive sense of humour.

Please feel free to ask anything you'd like about my work, I do especially encourage people to ask about my characters because I like to infodump

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[#sillypastabake]-> art that is meant to be silly and simplistic, usually characters drawn in a silly and simplistic way

[#sweetpastabake]-> art that was made to be aesthetically pretty or tell a story devoid of my typical unserious style

[#seriouspastabake]-> art that contains or implies darker subject matters (cw: gore, mental health, trauma, etc.)

[#spicypastabake]-> art that was made to be a bit on the suggestive side or contains my slutty slutty sense of humour (cw: sexual content, suggestive humour, 18+ content), please note I will never post anything overtly explicit or containing any nudity, I am too shy.

[CONTENT WARNING] on the rare chance that I do post mature/suggestive content, if you are a minor please DO NOT interact with any posts labelled with 18+, sexual content or any such mature labels. some stuff im still not sure whether it qualifies for an 18+ label but out of comfort im going to slap a mature tag over posts that are mildly suggestive. Please be aware of this, thank you.

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Not tolerating sexists, racists, homophobes, transphobes, p*dophiles, z**philes, people looking to involve me in political discourse, or any other kind of harmful/toxic behaviour or belief, I don't wish to associate with that sort of thing so could you maybe just stick to your side of the internet if at all possible thanks. Preferably, like, never talk to me if at all possible, thanks.

This is my sort of haphazard way of making a DNI, but I don't really like DNIs that much so you're getting this instead.

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Wizard cats name is Pasta, that is my Fursona if you couldn't tell. she's monster kitty, hence the funky lil horns

She will occasionally pop up on posts, so say hi to her

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[neurodivergantizzetwitch]

intro post :3

hiii! im [insert name here]: a stereotypical AuDHD trans girl who still hasn't settled on a name yet-- my life isnt... going well rn, but tumblr makes it a bit more bearable and every little bit helps.

im a trans fem, more specifically i like the term demigirl- which feels like it fits me. im also ace(ish), by which i mean im ace but pretty sex favorable- just don't experience sexual attraction. im also very gay and have the best partner in the whole entire universe (they said they were gonna join tumblr soon- so ill at them here once she does.)

oh yeah and my brain is funky. im a peer reviewed (and officially dxed, but im an advocate of self diagnosis) AuDHDer- which informs basically everything i do. i also have a bunch of the mental illness stuff, and have struggled w it a lot. idrk or care what the exact diagnosis is, spend enough time around insane ppl and you learn a lot of the specific labels are pretty arbitrary and a lot of symptoms are shared- i just describe myself as fucked in the head or legitimately insane

also im never consistent w tags- sorry. maybe one day ill try to be but uh... yeah not today. i do tag for potentially triggering content tho- and try my best to be consistent w it, so if you're sensitive to the following and want to follow me for some weird reason id reccomend blocking them:

#cw sex mention, #cw: substance abuse, #cw: abuse #cw: child abuse, #cw: gore, #cw: sh, #cw: si, #cw: disordered eating, #cw: bigotry, #cw: disturbing content,

id also say in accordance w the previous thing i sometimes say things about my life that are "dark" in a way that can cross a line, i don't mean to do this- and i want to respect everyone's boundaries- but accidentally sharing super dark shit is smth i struggle w.

im a committed anarchist, and i will unabashedly post in accordance w those views. i haven't been able to help people as much as id like to bc of the whole being a minor in a fucked up situation with no money energy or time thing, but im trying to do more. If anyone reading this has suggestions- lmk.

i also like a lot of shit. like A LOT of shit- and i get REALLY obsessed w it too, so it is not out of character for me to start posting a bunch about smth i had not known existed until i got obsessed (as mentioned, AuDHDer). what ill post about is just kinda based on what im feeling that day and my interests, but heres some of my favorite things that im enamored w in no particular order:

games:

mtg

minecraft

hermitcraft (which yes is minecraft and no isnt a game but shut up)

hollow knight / skilkskong 🤡

celeste

metroid

nitw

botw

hades

books

cosmere

the locked tomb

percy jackson

the sandman

six of crows

the hunger games

lotr

spec fic, especially non-traditional spec-fic

shows/movies

spiderman across the spiderverse

made in abyss

hazbin hotel

hunter x hunter

the owl house

Pan's Labyrinth (& other Guillermo movies)

miyazaki movies

wes anderson movies

animated movies & shows

cinematic/classic movies (not neccessarily old just like the literary fiction genre of movies)

weird/offbeat movies and shows

music

coheed and cambria

mcr

jhariah

girl in red

will wood

pinkshift

jack off jill

paramore

mother mother

the cure

chloe moriando

bauhaus

cardiacs

dead kennedys

lena raine

siouxsie & the banshees

milk in the microwave

mitski

penelope scott

sungazer

45 grave

other interests/hobbies n shit

drawing

d&d

writing

painting

guitar

bass

drums

singing

music production

game design

coding

animation

character design

video production

poetry

theater (yes im a fucking theater kid did you even have to ask that)

musicals

even though im solidly gen z, i havent really grown up on the internet the same way. some weird combination of my parents' disapproval of it, social anxiety, autism, and not being allowed to use it for years means that ive had this fear of posting stuff on the internet. for so many people like me the internet has been a place to escape and be themself, to me it's more often than not just a reflection of a reality that seems just as scary and ostracizing.

the thing is... i dont have a lot of friends. i dont have a large community really. and i think though there are some ways in which my aversion to social interactions including those on the internet has been helpful, there are other ways it's really isolated me- both from my peers and a broader community of people.

so im trying to put myself out there a little more. this stupidly long intro post is i think just a way for me to commit to that for myself. ive been so scared of doing it all my life, right now i think i just need some sort of outlet to be myself. who knows? maybe i'll even meet some new friends.

[popentertainmentmusic]

SPINNING GOLD (2023)

Starring Jeremy Jordan, Wiz Khalifa, Jason Isaacs, Jason Derulo, Jay Pharoah, Michelle Monaghan, Dan Fogler, Sebastian Maniscalco, Winslow Fegley, Ledisi, Sam Harris, Caylee Cowan, Chris Redd, James Wolk, Tayla Parx, Lyndsy Fonseca, Peyton List, Pink Sweats, Casey Likes, Alex Gaskarth, Michael Ian Black and Vincent Pastore.

Screenplay by Timothy Scott Bogart.

Directed by Timothy Scott Bogart.

Distributed by Hero Entertainment. 137 minutes. Rated R.

Neil Bogart was a larger-than-life legend in the music business, even if very few people other than music nerds like me still have a clue who he was.

Bogart ran Casablanca Record and Filmworks, which after a very rocky start became the most successful independent record label of the 1970s. Bogart worked with and/or discovered such acts as KISS, Donna Summer, Gladys Knight & the Pips, Bill Withers, The Village People, Parliament/Funkadelic and Joan Jett & the Blackhearts. He worked hard, lived hard, partied hard. He ran up monumental debts and threw legendary parties. He ran afoul of music biz execs and the mob. All of that before dying way too young at 39 of cancer.

It's a fascinating, under-explored story about the highs and the lows of the music business in its glory days. Bogart’s son Tim has long felt that it was important to tell his dad’s story and has been working to get his dad’s story on film since the 1990s. (Early on, Justin Timberlake was in talks to portray Bogart, although eventually he had to drop out because his musical schedule was packed, and he could not fit it in.)

Now, finally, after decades of waiting, Tim Bogart has gotten his father’s life story onscreen. He did it in a way that his own dad would appreciate – going the independent route and taking on the tough work (screenwriting and directing) himself, and basically willing it into existence.

“Getting that story out… is… moving for me,” Bogart told me in a recent interview. “I do think this is a great parallel in the perseverance and the dream I had in making it.”

Bogart has captured a fascinating look back at the wild west days of the old music world, sex, drugs and rock & roll back when it was safe and normal. Like many recent music biopics, Spinning Gold is a mix of hard reality and fanciful romanticization. Sometimes it feels like a serious gangster drama of the 1970s, at other times a jukebox musical with some damn good music provided by current singers playing the legends of days past.

While most of the celeb singers have the voices to pull off the roles, they mostly look almost nothing like the performers they are playing, such as Donna Summer, Gladys Knight and Bill Withers. Also, a personal note to Wiz Khalifa, in 1976 almost no one had nose piercings, not even someone as wild and funky and willfully out there as George Clinton. So you may want to take those things out when portraying a real-life character from another era.

However, I suppose this is not supposed to be a tribute act. The song is the thing, and mostly the re-recordings of legendary hits of the 1970s work surprisingly well.

Holding it all together – the ringleader of the film portraying the ringleader of Casablanca – is Broadway and TV star Jeremy Jordan (Newsies, Little Shop of Horrors, Supergirl) who can access both Bogart’s showmanship and hard-nosed determination. It’s a fascinating bit of myth-building.

“That was kind of Neil's vibe,” Jordan told me in that same interview. “He just wanted to make you dance and wanted to entertain. He was a showman.

“He's writing his own ending, and it is really kind of beautiful and magical and different in that way,” Jordan continued. “We don't feel tied to ultra reality, and this is the exact perfect way that this happened. It doesn't have to be [real] because it was sex, drugs, rock and roll. It was the journey as opposed to the actual truth of it all.”

You could say that about the 1970s in general.

Spinning Gold is spinning some fascinating tales of life on the periphery of superstardom and the high you reach by going all in and creating some genre-defining art. Plus, it’s got a great beat, and you can dance to it. What more can you ask?

Jay S. Jacobs

Copyright ©2023 PopEntertainment.com. All rights reserved. Posted: March 31, 2023.

[jestersdlc]

Don't mind me, just gonna scream in the void for a sec, but of ranting and rambled mess of thoughts, better to get em out after all! Minor vent under the cut, no need to read it!

Its just gonna vibe till Tumblr inevitably eats it!

OKEY DOKI THEN

Sometimes it sucks to be ROMANCE REPULSED

I like romance, don't get me wrong, its not for me and my very aroace self but its cute, in theory

But sometimes, Sometimes i can't STAND IT it just makes me feel icky to read or see

And its NOW of all times, 2 days before valentines I'm feeling repulsed, like WHY NOW

I wanna write cute fluff for a oneshot, but brains like NOPE

And SURE it's potentially gonna be...awkward for me to write cause imma be bumbling through making an UNKNOWN a-spec bean dealing with ROMANCE and a DATE

things i can't relate to

Its bad enough whenever i try to write one of my beans Soleo (non fandom bean) cause he is an AlloAllo Cis Harpy Man, and I am debatably ONE of those things

Idk, Idc, labels are whatever sometimes (there is a REASON I have Starboy Moon as apathetic Man rather then just Man like Solar, Mkay? Mkay.)

Here's Soleo for anyone curious

ANYWAYS

I want to write Moon figuring out his date with Solar but I am not having it rn it seem...I WANT THE CUTE BUT BRAIN SAYS NOPE

...still have no clue what their date will be...

And I was trying to deal with plot details for the SolarMoon blog (in progress....) cause imma have lore and PLOT and it will have a timeline of major stuff to back it up (with lenience for some stuff...cause Fun)

But also...I WANT TO GRAB MOON AND SHAKE HIM LIKE WHY YOU LIKE THIS

He don know what he is so I DONT KNOW what he is, he's spec, I know that, where? NO CLUE so he gets to go through questioning that and potentially being lightly pestered via asks cause feelings are funky, feelings are hard

but i still want to SHAKE HIM like beans.....beans why you do this, why you always having crisis's on me whyyyyyyyy

And....to make things more fun, asides that I cant DRAW for a few days :' D I need to rest my hand...so that sucks

So imma just...not write romance or deal with rom stuff rn, leave the beans to bean for now cause....my heads just getting fuzzy rn so backing away, and lurk with frens for a bit (quietly existing with frens is just...so nice sometimes, just vibing and watching em be happy...its nice)

And when I am feeling up to it, I am going to piece by piece pick apart the physiology, perhaps some psychology and mayhaps tied into real world inspirations and ways to expand on them and their existence of the Ghost Leviathans

But for now...I think I'll just go watch Spiff's video of when he beat all (at the time) fnaf games in one sitting ^-^ Ranting complete! ✨

Now into the void I go :3

[parasitescholar]

Weekly Recommendation: They Might Be Giants (the band)

Hello there! My queue ran out and I didn't realize....... it has been a month..... I sorry............

Anyway! This one is near and dear to me. Also gonna be full of links so warning ya now. They Might Be Giants was my first albumn, my first band, the first way I bonded with my dad as an adult and a person, and not as a parent. I had a CD player and borrowed CDs, a few burned with sharpie to label them, a few with the original inserts and all. This is the official playlist of some of my favorites, though it's not all of the songs I love (none of the kids songs on here, and Here Come Science slaps. There's an entire animated version of the album I watched over and over on dvd.)

I feel like I'm less qualified to talk about music than other media, because I don't play any instruments. After switching from the piano teacher I liked to an old witch (I assume she had magic. Mostly I remember her for the painful singing. Please let me do that you are not good at it miss.) I quit. Though I can mimic tunes well, I lost the ability to read music quickly. But I can tell you about this band and my history with it. So this is maybe the only music recommendation you're gonna get. But it will be very long, and I guarantee you will like 1 song of theirs.

This is because of the sheer amount of genres TMBG manages to cover. This bop about the sun is immediately followed by the correction in a ballad correcting it's wrongs. Though they tend to follow alt rock and ska sentiments (like this song my dad sang every time he made bacon) They have love songs, rap, and total nonsense. More than anything they like to experiment with sound. Lyrics are nice, but words are also just noise, and if it sounds good it doesn't need to make sense. Fingertips is one long song or 21 very short songs, things that could have been part of something bigger, but never made it to that stage. That said, they have some songs with actual deep themes. (And also one about underwater cows)

I feel like my playlists shows the albums I grew up with: Flood, Apollo 18, and Mink Car. Those were the songs I played over and over on my cd player, that I choreographed stupid dances too (Oh god cringe) that I thought about making LPS music videos of (oh god even more cringe) Before I turned 21, TMBG played in my city, but it was at a bar, and I couldn't go. My dad called halfway through the concert, and put on speakerphone so I could hear a distorted version of half a song. This year, I got to go to the concert for real, though only after it got cancelled three years in a row. (Covid, covid again, then a car crash yikes. Everyone lived luckily) Luckily, they played Flood, the actual first album out of the ones I had. It was really cool. Give their music a listen, find some funky tunes with lots of horns (The live horns were very good) and tell me your favorite nonsense. This is a bit unhinged but I can't really describe why I like music. It makes me bob my head, and sometimes think deeply, and sometimes fall asleep. It means childhood, it means car rides with my dad, it means standing for way too long but enjoying it anyway.

See you next week if I don't forget again. <3

[skiplo-wave]

To the worried anon, the report is mostly targeted at the Pfizer bivalent booster vaccines. Both the first and updated one. Everyone reacts differently to vaccines. But it's also worth mentioning that even in the flu shot, there are risks of the same heart inflammation. You can go on the CDC website and it talks about them talking about studies of sudden serious cardiac events while it's being labeled as safe for people who have heart disease. From the time that those shots was first administrated to 2022 season, they did not report all serious reactions to the flu vaccine. You would probably have higher numbers then the COVID-19 vaccine side effect reactions. They also don't always tell you how many changes the vaccine goes through, the same as COVID-19 vaccines. And if you noticed if you got the flu vaccine in the past 4 months, you may have felt foggy headed and tired. That's because they pumped those shots up due to the bad flu season they predicted that was going to happen. Even I felt a bit funky. Perhaps they should put that on their studies if they can't find something wrong with the bivalent booster. Who's to say it's the new flu shots that are linked?

You also have to imagine that with any vaccines, our body is going to have a immune response and it's going to work hard hence why we sometimes feel so tired every getting a vaccine. You immunity starts to fight and it may raise your heart rate.

Just like they don't mention they have a flu shot called "Flu Blocker" which is for people who are allergic to shots. Ask your local pharmacist about it. You have to have a reaction to find out they have one but at that point, the patient is to scared to take it. My thinking is why not give them to it as a first option if they never had it before and scared to get a reaction? Also it's worth mentioning that there are risks to even getting COVID-19 because even that can scar your organs. I know someone who got it and it damaged their lungs. This was before the vaccines was ready. They are still on oxygen even after 2 years. Influenza can do the same thing or even change your body chemistry up.

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[apompkwrites]

So I was thinking right, never a good thing, and then Kingscholar and Bucchi emerged from the deep recesses of my mind.

ok so Kingscholar has been in mwezi miji for a long time, and over that time, they probably physically changed a lot; they've probably grown taller. Depending on what type of work they've been doing, they've probably become a little toned. Stealthier, new and old scars aren't hidden like they would've been back with the Elders, their face has slimmed and matured, and I imagine almost every one of the residents of mwezi miji , know of Kingscholars little secret of being in the royal family.

I don't think they would care much; it's like that one town/village secret or crypted that everyone knows, but they don't really tell, and most people don't want to ask why they left as if they're willing to leave a pretty cushy life then it must've been pretty bad.

I imagine that when they first got to mwezi miji anytime a new visitor or guest, they sort of needed to hide or find a way to hide their face because I'm sure almost everyone has heard and seen the Lost posters of them, however as they age they defer a lot from that original poster and the following posters trying to guess what they would look like as they got older aren't always accurate, Kingscholar laughs at the inaccuracies sometimes. Still, they no longer need to hide as much. Of course, if it's royal guards or someone closer to the royal family, they'll hide as the chances that they'll get recognized increase, and they'd rather not.

When they got an invite to NRC, they were confused, why them??? the self-image issues aren't fully treated yet, but with the council of the other villagers and the twins, they did some maths knowing that when they left, Leona was still in NRC and would probably be graduated by the time they entered. They ended up accepting, they would be using Atiena's last name instead of Kingscholar, and Atiena would be labeled as their parent, many other people have their first name they'll be fineeee right.

the Registration/Dorm matching thing I forgor what it's called they got put in Savanaclaw, cool, fun, funky, and they turn to go sit down and shock horror, holy fuck, that's Leona, why is he still there what, and he's looking not happy, send help, they are in desperate need of it, so they go to sit down trying to hide their face with their hood and look down as they walk past only for Leona to grab their arm with a vice grip muttering "we're talking later." it a not so enthusiastic tone.

so afterward, he's dragging (name) around, trying to find a place to talk; they pass through a very crowded area, someone bumped into him, and his grip loosened a bit. He felt their arm leave his grasp, he turns around to grab them again, but they have vanished; he tried looking to find them, but they were gone, and he couldn't use their scent since there were so many people.

Turns out they hid behind the first person they were able to, and guess what it was Bucchi(Name). Alarmed by the person hiding behind them, they turned around and was like, "wtf", and Kingscholar just explains it as they pissed off the dorm leader. Bucchi found great entertainment in this and asked how tf that happened, kingscholar just shrugged, "idk" and said that they needed to hide, Bucchi, in their rebellious phase(/j) and looking to piss off a person in authority, said, sign me up, and that's how they became besties in 5 minutes of knowing each other.

every day in Savanaclaw is a stealth mission for Kingscholar(Name). They have, in fact, almost walked into their room with Leona waiting for them inside; they always open it a slight bit before realizing Leona is there before both Leona and Kingscholar(Name) book it, Leona does because Kingscholar always runs away from him. He knows that they'll do it, and he's trying to catch them, but they always manage to just escape him.

Leona chases them around because he wants to interrogate them; I feel like he would hold off on telling the elders or Falena about (Name) because he wants to know why exactly they left like they did before he did; he wants to know if there was a solid reason that they should know, he wants to know if he needs to tell Falena immediately and (Name) runs because they just aren't ready to face their brother at the moment and also their first instinct when they are being stared at or chased is to be on guard, hide, and run

of course, there is a time and a place for the chase between the siblings; if it's class it probably wouldn't be happening because Leona is skipping also because they have different classes, if they're walking to class, they both just don't try though (Name) is on guard and ready to bolt, lunch/dinner is off limits don't even try, conversations are awkward though

There were times Leona caught (Name), though Bucchi(Name) has always conveniently been there and managed to get (Name) out; it's a talent, and it's show-stopping

I don't know what else to add. My brain just emptied lmao here is what I was able to extract from the recesses that they emerged from

also off-topic, but I just learned that Rook has 5 brothers, 3 older ones and 2 younger ones making him a middle child, meaning Hunt(Name) has 6 brothers I-

waaaaah ok ok first off love talking about mwezi miji my lil babies <333

yes, everyone in mwezi miji, at the current time we have the fic, knows of lil kingscholar's royal background. the flyers were the first to be distributed in an actual timely manner to the outlands, mainly because the elders don't like associating with them and involving them in "civilized" matters (that's what they say, anyway).

but everyone in mwezi miji also knows that something has to have happened for kingscholar to run away. just a lil hint at the new chapter i plan to write, the twins, nuru, and atiena all know about lil kingscholar's reasons for running away. and because atiena knows about it, the rest of the village understands that it is a private matter but still welcome the lil lion with open arms :D

as for the invitation to NRC, that's another aspect that i will include in the fic! maybe to the next chapter but probably the one after. yes yes lil kingscholar would be extremely confused about why they're being invited to NRC.

and leona would def immediately recognize lil kingscholar. although he wouldn't remember their face, namely because they haven't seen each other in so long and lil kingscholar has changed so much, but he would recognize their smell. its a bit muted because of mwezi miji but it's there and it's sending leona into a spiral. it's that familiar smell that makes him homesick, all because he hasn't seen his beloved sibling in a while.

but lil kingscholar wouldn't want to talk to leona when he requests it. and i love the idea of them meeting lil bucchi because of it :O like lil bucchi just wants to piss of authority, especially royalty.

leona also just wants to talk. he wouldn't want to tell falena or the elders especially, like you said. he wants to get to the bottom of what happened. he wants to know why his sibling ran away. why falena was reduced to nothing but panicked wheezes and cries when he went home in his first year of NRC. but lil kingscholar won't let him know. and i'm sure it'll get to a point where he's extremely frustrated by it :(

[otaku6337]

so i know its more than three but i got sorta carried away

✍ 🛠🎶👀🤲⌛💔💞(i feel like it must be eraserhead but maybe it's not????)

i really enjoy your writing, please keep it up!!!!!

It's absolutely fine!! I'm definitely not complaining (honestly I'm just pleased I got an ask ^^; )

but anyway-

✍ 🛠🎶👀🤲⌛💔💞

(excuse me whilst I open yet another tab so that I can check the questions-)

Right! So!

Nope, no beta reader here - I'm personally very stubborn about the way certain things Vibe, I don't really have the time, and I like to post immediately after I write. Plus I write straight into ao3 so sharing it with someone would be a pain, honestly.

I write straight into ao3!! I have been called cursed for this before, but apparently I'm defiant. Honestly it's mostly just for the formatting - and I only *sometimes* lose things so it's fine, right?

In all seriousness though, I do also use WordCounter to copy-past my OSs/chapters into for wcs on the go, and I update my Google Sheets spreadsheets multiple times a day :D

I absolutely listen to music whilst I write!! I also watch YouTube, admittedly (split screen is my life yall) but I listen to music a lot. More than a specific song, I'd say that the channel Valiant has an awful lot of the things in my main playlist. Oh, and for like six weeks straight last year, when I was binge-writing, I listened to Unlike Pluto's Technicolour Daydream album on repeat. For six weeks straight. I can't think of anything *but* writing if/when I listen to it now ^^;

An up and coming wip... Not sure if it counts, but I'm just beginning to really get into the Big War Arc for Kidilante, was literally writing up some of the next chapter before I came to reply to this, and I'm super excited!! There's going to be some plotting and angst and a bit of fluff too - oh, and some cliffhangers that may or may not turn out how people will hope :D

In case that *doesn't* count, I am planning to write a follow-up to my "macabre fic" as I labelled it, a prequel OS where we find out more about how Izu got his funky vaguely-demonic powers from, with some hints as to whether it's actually a Quirk or not ;)

A snippet... Let's see, I'll dig something cool up :D

Okay so I went with one for kidilante and one for macabre as I listed them both for the previous Q (and vague cw for some bloody imagery in both of these, just skip the next two paragraphs if you're worried!):

Kidilante:

He whips around, and his Dad is on the ground, crumpled, bloody, and no, no, this isn't right.

Izuku doesn't see red (he doesn't need to, when there is already so, so much fucking blood-) because he's busy moving, a blur of grey and white and black and red, knives in hand and capture weapon rising and his throat burning with panic or a scream or something because there are villains standing over his hero and they had smiles and reaching hands except now they have bloody wounds, thrown to the side, kicked in the throat, whatever it takes to get them away, get them gone. He needs his Dad. He needs to protect his hero.

Macabre:

His skin itches, right along the bottom of his rib cage, where if he presses it feels like his ribs will push right through his skin in a way that would be a relief, not a terror. (When Izuku truly lets himself dwell upon it, he can feel how it is like claws curling around the bottom of his ribs, digging in, trying to get out-gone-free, no matter what happens to him in the process-)

I feel the need to say that I actually write quite a bit of fluff too? And the comfort part of hurt ^^; These bits are just particularly cool and I already have them!

Anyways-

I don't know if I necessarily have a comfort character but, yep, Zawa's my favourite! His pov is always great to write, and I just really enjoy him as a character, particularly in his dynamics with others. He's also a bit more relatable than a lot of bnha are for me, so, you know :D

Timeframe varies a *lot*. I would say that one good weekend day of writing I could do a chapter or short-ish OS (so like 3-ish k) but most days aren't that productive, and on a workday I might only write 1/4 of a chapter or shorter OS. So call it a few days for most things? If you're talking longfics though, I've been writing the Kidilante universe (main fic is like 450k or something off the top of my head?) for like 2.5yrs, or I wrote a 65k-ish fic in three months, around OSs and stuff!!

Perspectives broke my heart. It really, really did. I spent a few months thinking about those boys, then three months writing them, and I had a very specific song that I most associated with them that is on one of my main commuting CDs. I couldn't listen to that song without getting emotional for another four or so months after I finished the fic.

But, hey, I think I've got through most of my grieving now. I was able to write one of the alternate endings for them (a far less sad one!) earlier this month, which was lovely to do.

Right that ended up very long and rambled, sorry!! But I hope that was interesting for yall, I really enjoyed doing it ^.^/

[threeleggedart]

from discord: 2, 3, 9, 19, 22

2. Is it easier to draw someone facing left or right (or forward even)

depends on if the characters asymmetrical but generally dont have problems with either + i flip my canvas to check for inconsistencies. forward is weird because depending on character design its either super easy or a nightmare (ie any characters who were never meant to be viewed facing forward)

(next one was a text doozy so making this a read more!)

3. What ideas come from when you were little

this ones gonna be weird bc i dont think i can be sure on a lot of these lmao

bio/zoology + monster stuff definitely came from childhood interest, i likea tha critters :) i wanna say my interest in bots/mechs + funky inanimate object stuff too? i did play metal slug a lot as a kid and a bunch of childhood favs were mechanical characters. also ive found fanart of putt putt, captain underpants villains, and the brave little toaster in my childhood journals lmao

oc -wise, selena herself (and vicks) also are funny in their own ways. i can say for sure they were always distinct ocs in my mind but i never actually Materialized them till very very recently. selena was based on a childhood pokemon trainer oc (but noot entirely self insert? its hard to describe) and vicks is kind of. a catharsis character for me. i have been thinking about making an entirely split oc from vicks recently bc the character i view in scenarios i want to visualize has been vicks, but i dont really wanna anymore bc she deserves to be her own deal now

...i also would argue probably the reason why mws huge cast + me just being able to. establish how they interact with each other so quickly also came from childhood ocs i never put down on paper or knew how to articulate as characters. its something im very weird about bc i straight up had a "cast" of fundamental ocs (proto-selena was one of them actually) from childhood to high school that were so personal to me i never wrote or visualized any of them bc Crinj they were just for lil ol me lmao. they liked to hang out with each other :)

finding connections between my fixation on my current characters and stuff i thought about as a kid is a thing i think about a normal amount teehee

9. What are your file name conventions

stupid and goofy but still understandable to infer what it is for personal stuff, labeled straight for work stuff. "sketchbook" files have scratchpad in the name, pieces that include characters that arent my own usually include the persons username, and annual based stuff have the year

i like to be sillay but also i am a freak about keeping my files organized lmao

19. Favorite inanimate objects to draw (food, nature, etc.)

sid industrial machinery is really fun for me, buildings tend to be too basic and geometric for me to enjoy drawing... i wanna do more extremely stylized furniture and prop stuff (i really like those drawings that are character inventory layouts), i actually do wanna make fake object assets for my settings eventually bc i love that kind of stuff. bottles and containers are aesthetically pleasing but havent figured out rendering the sweet spot ive seen other drawings hit, at least for me

environments are something i wanna do bc those pics of super expansive landscapes with either huge structures or so open you can see the horizon stretch for miles are really cool, but still in the general learning process so itll be a while before i can even try reaching for that effect

22. What physical exercises do you do before drawing, if any

:)

i sometimes do a little wrist wriggle or crack it a bit, or ill wring my arm/shoulder, but unless my arms got a weird feeling i dont really do too much...

i squeeze both my biceps with my hands too sometime bc thats actually where i normally experience soreness from drawing

[juditg800]

“시작(Start),”by South Korean artist Gaho, is a song I find exceptionally wonderful. The reason I like it, primarily has to do with the context in which I first heard the song being played in. The song is part of the original soundtrack of a K-Drama titled Itaewon Class. The K-Drama is about an ex-convict—Saeroyi—who must find his way back into society after being given the chance to start over and try to fulfil his dream. The song plays in the background of moments in which Saeroyi shows determination and trudges through obstacles in order to achieve his goals. While my story is different from Saeroyi’s, I still find the song relatable. It has to do with the universal feeling of defeat and needing motivation to carry on. The song itself feels motivational. It has served as a pick-me-up on many occasions. 

Additionally, I like the singer's voice and the way in which the instrumental is simple, yet builds up and occasionally sprinkles in something different throughout the song. The instrumental, in my opinion, tells a story. Even without the lyrics, the instrumental emits the same emotions as with the lyrics. To elaborate, the song starts off with an electric guitar playing a quiet and repetitive pattern while utilizing the palm-muting technique. To me, this is representative of a mundane day to day life in which someone has their dreams buried deep inside, and does not believe they can become a reality. Then, individual strings of another guitar are slowly plucked, without the palm-muting technique, in an ascending matter. This reminds me of someone who is starting to be hopeful and starting to slowly move towards fulfilling their goals. Shortly after, the guitar unleashes its full power and sound. It is no longer quiet or hesitant. This is evocative of a person finally believing in themselves and wholeheartedly working towards achieving their dreams. In short, I like this song because of its deeper meaning and because the instrumental works very well in expressing its intended emotion without the lyrics.

“Blurred Lines” by Robin Thicke, is one of the few songs that I dislike. I dislike it because of its misogynistic lyrics and the nonchalant way in which it is sung. The lyrics make me very uncomfortable as they dehumanize and objectify women. In general, I’m not drawn to its worldly and superficial lyrics. While I do usually prefer for songs to have a good message or deeper meaning, I can sometimes enjoy songs that are labeled to have “nonsensical” lyrics, but a catchy tune or good instrumental. “Blurred Lines,” however, does not win me over in that aspect either. To me, the instrumental feels a bit boring. I admit that it has a funky groove to it, but I do not like that the song utilizes the same couple of seconds on repeat for four minutes and twenty-two seconds. The song is on the longer side for a pop song. I believe it could have benefited from a slight change in between the song to keep the listener interested. 

Additionally, the way the song is sung upsets me in the context of the lyrics. The singer shortens some words and gives it a “lazy” feeling, which I dislike. This “lazy” and casual style of singing makes Thicke seem entitled. He claims to know what women want. He believes himself to be irresistible by claiming that he knows “you want it.” This leads me to believe that Thicke does not respect women. The lyrics of the song are catered towards a very specific group of people. I do not fall within that category of people and instead, find it offensive and unrelatable. In short, I find neither the lyrics nor instrumental of the song enjoyable.

[reversecreek]

pops hip n winks at the dash. haaaaiiii. me again. i’ve honestly missed playing lana fr a while she’s one of. my most treasured muses bc she’s jst a silly n vivacious ball of sunshine or alternatively? a train wreck depending on which way u turn her in the light..... i actually hv two playlists made fr her n one is rly old bt it’s more like. songs that Remind me of her which u can find here n then here is more like. stuff u’ll most often catch her blasting on her record player as she dances around in her underwear w the curtains open. OH and here is her pinterest 🍓⚡

* kristine froseth, cis female + she/her  | you know lana jameson, right? they’re twenty-three, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, a few hours? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to play that funky music by wild cherry like, a million times this year, which makes sense ‘cause they’ve got that whole cherry red gym socks worn with nothing else, doodling penises in the condensation of a stranger’s car window, a bumper sticker on the back of a convertible cadillac that says ‘scrappy doo is a filthy slut’ thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is june 2nd, so they’re a gemini, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( nai, 24, gmt, she/her  )

HISTORY:

lana grew up in a big house in albany, NY. i picture it w dark oak floors n lots of light furniture. albums framed on walls. mayb some rolling stone covers too frm way bk when of the bands her dad’s label signed. kind of like… a rock star palace w no evidence of children at all. i think i described it best in one of lana’s self paras once when i said the garden ws “as big as it was unloved”

lana’s mum victoria (vic) ws a music journalist w a pretty fruitful career ahead of her when she met lana’s dad richard (rich). his record label ws jst starting out, founded on the coattails of his wealthy best friend’s (jensen peters) investment w his other best friend (who he jst calls knoxville). it rocketed to success when they signed poppy injects, a rock band w an electric stage presence, n vic ws drawn to the glitz n glamour of a man tht ws at the helm of his aspiring industry. their love ws very impulsive, all or nothing right frm the start, n it ws almost like she ws mre in love w his accomplishments n what he represented than him.

(DRUGS TW) anyway so jameson records repped a few rock bands bk in the eighties, altho poppy injects r who they’re mostly known fr, namely bc of hw brightly they crashed n burned. they were a big chart success bt the lead singer hd quite an intense struggle w heroin (wsnt rly subtle abt it either while he ws in the public eye as u cn probably imagine frm such an on-the-nose band name) n he ws always in n out of the papers. it eventually brought down his career n it ws a big publicity nightmare

lana pretty much… grew up around figures like this throughout childhood. real characters who wld kind of… b extremely volatile n destructive abt their troubles. the jameson house was an open one as welcoming clients went n a lot of parties took place there. a lot of the time musicians wld b snorting lines in the kitchen when she wnted to grab a bowl of cereal fr breakfast n it was just. a very strange environment fr a child to grow up in. more zoo than home. more shaken snow globe than resting place. (END OF TW)

(ABORTION REFERENCE) her parents always kind of jst… didn’t like her much. her older brother caleb ws unplanned bt they sort of welcomed the surprise more bt… quickly realised they weren’t cut out fr parenthood n then when lana came as another surprise 3 yrs later they didn’t even try to hide their resentment abt the situation. her mum ws actually booked in to have an abortion bt cldnt go through with it at the last minute. once when lana ws a kid she asked her why she’s so cold towards her she jst turned her head frm her dresser, looked at her, told her abt this n said “idk why i didn’t go”. lana didn’t kno wht to say to tht so she jst left her room n closed the door (END OF REFERENCE)

(DISSOCIATION TW) bc of the intensity of her parents ignoring her growing up lana adopted this sense of like…. she didn’t rly kno what it ws bt it ws a delusion of sorts where she thought she ws a ghost bc she gt this strange outside feeling. she’d jst sort of… drift around the halls w no-one acknowledging her n sometimes she ws jst convinced she wsnt actually there or they cldnt see her n she ws jst haunting the house frm a previous family. (END OF TW) her imagination festered an explanation out of smthn she didn’t understand essentially. lana used her imagination to do this a lot growing up. it ws kind of like the band aid she slapped over everything. after all she wasn’t alone if she was sword fighting imaginary pirates dwn the hallway with a poker from the fireplace. 

the one saving grace tho tht sort of?? gt her thru this n made her feel Seen ws caleb. lana quite genuinely hs always thought the sun shines out of her older brothers ass like she jst thinks. he’s the best person in the entire world. wld b rly bewildered if anyone questioned tht. he wld always look out for her n cut the crusts off her sandwiches (he’d cook fr them most of the time bc their parents were too busy/didn’t care to) n sometimes wld even sleep at the bottom of her bed curled up like a guard dog. it ws always lana n caleb n his best friend tommy against the world in tht house (tommy lived next door bt was always over bc he had very strict parents tht he found suffocating)

(ARMY MENTION) SO when tommy announced tht he’d signed up to the army (bc of pressures from tommy’s military dad to fulfil some kind of stupid “legacy” tommy didn’t even care abt) n caleb said he was going with him lana ws understandably…….. completely blindsided. she ws rly upset tht they were leaving n was kind of like “wtf why are u doing this like what do u even think this is gna solve” etc n begged caleb not to leave her there on her own n jst to not sign up in general bc tommy had to bt he didn’t listen. 

ERM i won’t go into it but it didn’t turn out well as u can probably imagine bc the army is a terrible industry n caleb had to return home without tommy. he wasn’t the same after that. (END OF MENTION)

what’d been a rly close relationship before where he ws basically like a surrogate father figure to lana was Not there any more. he ws rly withdrawn n always pushing her away n snapping at her for the sake of getting her to leave him alone. on top of this lana had a lot of shit go down while he was away n rly just shouldn’t have been a kid alone in tht house. regardless lana thought if she kept grinning as wide as she cld she’d convince caleb to join in too. maybe if she seemed fine n happy he’d take the lead. maybe she’d believe it too n start to feel it n everything could go bk to how it was before her world became so different. lana liked the way the sky flipped when she tipped her head back on the swings bt this was different. everything was upside down bt this didn’t make her belly feel like she’d swallowed a butterfly and it wasn’t funny bt still, she kept laughing. always desperate to find something to laugh at n if she couldn’t find it she invented it. as long as ur laughing the world can’t b that bad.

she ws always well liked in school bc she jst tended to treat everyone like they were bffs no matter who like u cld have literally bumped shoulders w her once in the corridor n she’d be like OMG HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII let’s kiss<3 n like she ws a huge notorious flirt w any n all as well as incredibly impulsive n jst. wild honestly to put it simply too bt things like. changed a bit frm 16 onwards. (HYPERSEXUALITY & IMPLIED TRAUMA TW) she jst became far more reckless honestly n like....... jst didn’t rly seem to care after a certain point abt herself too much.... got herself in a bunch of bad situations.......... kind of jst flung herself to the wolves numerous times without any caution abt the way they’d bite. formed a lot of self destructive habits one of which ws cruising craigslist personals fr random hook-ups n like. she literally cld have wound up in a ditch somewhere honestly it’s a shock she hasn’t. despite various dips n inclines in her journey navigating this side of her it’s very much still present in her life to this day n she struggles to kno hw to control herself at points. sometimes she feels like a melting candle tht needs moulding by thumbs until it can form a person again. sometimes she’s only sure she’s real when she’s being touched. (END OF TW)

ANYWAY. laughs nervously. went to college to study dance bc she’s always loved dance in general bt specifically ballet (despite definitely not hving the discipline for it) n honestly this was both good n bad fr her. had a whole string of terrible heartbreaking relationships bc she tends to fall into those hard n fast n they were w a lot of bad people fr like 98% of the time. she kind of learned more abt what love is during her time there tho which is a gd thing bt she still isn’t very good at knowing hw to believe she deserves it so it’s a process. she hd fun tho. threw 498572598475 outrageous n elaborately themed parties. ws friends w pretty much everyone on campus. 

despite a strained relationship w her brother n having to go home to visit n check on him whenever he got rly bad it ws the first time it actually felt like she’d found a home in a lot of rly loving n genuine friendships n lana will never forget hw much that experience meant to her even if she definitely struggled there too. college felt like a place she belonged n then suddenly she couldn’t belong there any more n there was a big sense of floundering in that. like where do u go now when u’ve never known home elsewhere? how do u happily go out into the world if it means leaving ur world behind?

she applied to a dance company in LA n fell in w a pretentious art scene there full of wannabe andy warhols n the like. became a makeshift edie sedgwick to some guy w dyed white hair n the idea his every concept was revolutionary when rly he jst shot her dancing barely clothed splashing around in a random fountain in his friend’s mansion on an ancient film camera. she’d spend her days floating around on lilo’s and prancing in feather boas and racing with glitter leftover frm last night in her leotard w smudges of faint red lipstick to barely make her job on time. always a sexy train wreck bt this time? make it hollywood. 

(IMPLIED ALCOHOLISM TW) i won’t lie to u lana hs always partied way too hard bt then partying way too hard turned into slurping merlot thru a crazy straw shaped like a flamingo at 4 in the afternoon wearing penis novelty sunglasses n it wasn’t quite so much of a party when u were doing it on ur own. this rly snowballed into place in college bt carried on n wound up getting her fired from the dance company bc she turned up to rehearsals drunk one too many times n they didn’t allow fr sloppiness like tht. it was a “professional operation” that didn’t “accept that kind of behaviour” bt lana was jst like ummmmmmmmm that’s totally dramatic btw way to spank me in the town square like i’m gale w a raw ass n back in the hunger games bt ok sure i’m out ig. BOOP! (literally booped the director on the nose before leaving) (END OF TW)

honestly hd no idea what to do w herself after her job fell thru in LA n was pretty embarrassed actually upon sobering up the nxt day. cldn’t bring herself to tell her friends for a hot minute bc she felt like a failure or smthn n she was meant to be living this glamorous life out there being the classic wild n silly n fun Lana Jameson. cldn’t figure out how to repackage it into a funny story tht wouldn’t worry ppl. eventually wound up jst caving n telling her closest besties (shoutout freya n rosa) bc she ws hving a weird time dating losers n randomly living in LA even tho she didn’t kno why she was there any more after losing the job n they were jst like. fk it then. jst come here. we’re in irving. and so? mizz jameson packed her bags....

PERSONALITY:

always smells vaguely of wild cherries or strawberry starburst or jst the candy aisle in general. if she ws a vinyl record she’d b this one n she’d only play good vibrations by the beach boys, dancing on my own by robyn, play that funky music by wild cherry, femme fatale by the velvet underground n (i can’t get no) satisfaction by the rolling stones

the jameson family r pretty well off n bc of her relation to such a big music industry figure she’s hung out w a fair few relatively high rep ppl thru her teens. mostly kids of celebrities n stuff like tht. she amassed a bit of an instagram following #nepotism bt also fr her style (v penny lane-esque in some aspects. lots of fur cuff trimmed jackets bt then also jst…. a wild combination of everything honestly. pastel faux fur coats, seventies style platforms, bright red cowboy boots, pink fishnet tights, holographic stickers of planets on her cheek n glitter used like highlight, 90% of the time a red lip) n bc she’s not gna make ur eyes bleed to look at or anything let’s b real

growing up lana was always a huge social butterfly. knew everyone n everyone knew her. she ws one of those girls tht ws kind of impossible to ignore or forget. very animated, always made u feel like u were the centre of the universe whenever she spoke to u, always made it feel like u were best friends even if ud only spoken to her once.

deliberately puts on tht kind of Magnetic Alluring Act tht femme fatales wear in movies w most ppl. kind of…. is always playing A Role of the person tht she wants to b seen as. hates being sad n always wnts to be happy / making ppl happy. chameleons to situations. feels like she’s performed as the vivacious n fun loving Lana Jameson fr so long tht she doesn’t rly kno who she is beneath tht bt she isn’t too keen to find out. sometimes gets glimpses n feels the urge to close her eyes.

she’s always been rly spontaneous n adventurous. always doing something weird n wild every weekend. she has ten thousand ridiculously absurd n chaotic stories. she’s like oh ya this one time this guy made me ride him with a daddy saddle like i was woody and he was bullseye. he literally made me call him bullseye. or she’s like. oh ya once i had to run barefoot thru a cabbage patch bc this one farmer wanted to have a threeway w me n my friend tht we met off craigslist n every framed photo in his house was a pig dressed up in cosplay bt honestly they were kind of cute n he was sexy aside frm the murderous vibes n the fact he kept calling me babe which i’m pretty sure means he wanted to dress me up next bt like whatever honestly.... she tells jst the most batshit stuff n the person she’s telling it to is left blinking like. wtf.

uncontrollably flirty. insanely confident. cld make a joke out a paper bag n will try. she tends to laugh when she feels like crying n has a smile brighter than a ray of texas sunshine.

likes to roller skate n hs a red pair she’ll glide around in at night lit up by amber street lamps breath sticky w the taste of wine n lollipops probably heading to a random hookups. who needs ubers?

always dapples her fingers thru the breeze when she’s driving in a car w the window down. honestly likes dangling her whole body halfway out too. she almost always has some sort of sweet on her, whether it’s sour haribo cherries or strawberry lollipops.

luvs bowie (ONLY aesthetically) n prince (wholeheartedly) n madonna (completely) n anyone tht’s a vintage style icon w little care fr what ppl think.

daisies n poppies r her fav flowers bc daisies r wild n overlooked n poppies r the first thing u look at in a green field. she’s had like 8472493874 ‘relationships’ n none of them hav lasted beyond a month / hav been terrible / hav seen her being treated badly / she’s cheated on them. honestly it’s like a burning train wreck but u can’t quite tear ur eyes away. often the heart of many sordid gossip scandals.

PLOTS:

TBA bc she’s only jst arrived in town i won’t lie to u all but i’m gna whip things up on here anyway n link in chat w updates at some point........ that said? lana is insatiable n it isn’t rly unlikely tht she cld’ve bumped into ur muse in a grocery store aisle n somehow a wild spontaneous adventure spawned frm that alone.......... if u have any immediate ideas we can discuss 😋

[zosonils]

surely post some autistic ferb things for us all,,,,,,

hell yeah anon!! here’s an absolute hell dump of Ferb Autism Indulgence Things because i have really been wanting to get my grubby little autistic hands all over him lately

his special interests are engineering and tetris [which is the game he’s internationally ranked in!]

he stims vocally by humming or repeating other vocalisations, but rarely with actual words

if he’s too nervous to vocalise/just not in the mood he goes for small hand movements to stim like clicking pens or tapping his fingers

he does flappy hands/arms when he has a lot of excitement to release! otherwise he prefers to stick to smaller/more subtle motions for a variety of reasons

he only repeats actual words as echolalia, almost always off of either phineas or perry! that thing they do where perry chatters and the boys mimic it and they all just loop off each other for a while is absolutely an echolalia loop for all of them [yes even the platypus]

a very epic headcanon i have is that owca agents are typically labelled as having therapy animal training to give them some more wiggle room with showing intelligence, so perry is officially a therapy platypus for the flynn-fletcher kids, especially the boys. ferb does the aforementioned echolalia chatter thing with perry and also just generally finds him extremely comforting to hold. of course perry’s figured out all of ferb and his siblings’ needs by observation and makes sure to subtly be as comforting as possible for his kids, especially if they’re having a meltdown and need to hold someone who won’t try to talk to them

ferb genuinely dislikes communicating verbally, due to a combination of general social anxiety, struggling to translate his thoughts into words, and finding it physically uncomfortable to talk. it’s not serious enough to prevent him from cracking a joke or vocalising his thoughts every once in a while, but he prefers to be nonverbal as much as possible and communicate through gestures and body language

throughout the series he only ever speaks on his own terms and as much as he’s comfortable with, so it comes out without issue, but if he’s forced to talk when he doesn’t want to or while he’s under stress he struggles to string sentences together and stutters really badly. fortunately he’s got nice friends and a great family so this issue rarely presents itself, although it comes up sometimes during the school year in battles with pissy neurotypical teachers over oral presentations

over time he starts to work past the discomfort [genuinely, it’s on his own terms as opposed to masking to get allistics off his back] so that by the time he’s an adult he can hold an entirely verbal conversation for a decent while before it drains him, but he still tends to avoid speaking if he can

phineas instinctively understands ferb’s silent emotional cues, a lot better than he understands most people’s [but that’s a whole other infodump lmao], and unless ferb actively indicates that he wants to talk for himself phineas usually speaks for both of them and translates any of ferb’s less neurotypically obvious signals

phineas and ferb made The Ultimate Fidget Cube as one of their daily projects [they were being mass produced for an hour or two and then something or other happened, there was a mobile phone and an avalanche of instant noodles, long story short only the handful they made for themselves and their friends are left now] and neither of them go anywhere without it

ferb doesn’t have any specific comfort/security objects but he feels significantly more at ease if he’s got some kind of tool in his hand or within reach [or, failing an actual building-stuff tool, anything he can hold and Do Something with, like a pen or his fidget cube or a video game controller], and is a lot more stimmy with his hands and generally anxious if he isn’t holding something

perry performs the task of comfort item better than any inanimate objects but platypi aren’t allowed to come to school even if they’re very polite :(

believe me the brothers have tested this numerous times

school is stressful for ferb because it fires up his sensory overload and is usually where he’s forced to do some neurotypical shit that upsets him, but his friends always have his back and linda and lawrence are definitely super involved in making sure their kids’ needs are met and respected by their teachers, so he manages pretty well unless something really bad happens to set him off

he’s susceptible to sensory overload, mostly with bright lights, sudden noises, and being touched. the light and sound involved in many of his and phineas’ projects is alright because he usually designed them and knows exactly when they’ll come on and what it’ll be like, but if he doesn’t have that prediction available he freaks out easily. being touched [especially without warning] is the absolute fucking worst and he almost invariably flips out if someone unfamiliar tries to touch him or he’s hit with an unexpected sensation he doesn’t like

he only rarely has meltdowns because he’s good at self-regulating when he needs to and his friends and family know what does and doesn’t fly with him, but when he does they’re often triggered by either sensory overload or being forced to talk

when ferb starts entering meltdown territory his verbal skills are the first thing to shut off, and if it gets worse he usually stops communicating altogether and enters a really bad dissociative state that he won’t come out of until he feels safe again and can be carefully brought back to his senses

standard procedure for ferb meltdowns is to get him a weighted blanket and some tea and a perry if you can find the slippery little bugger, let him snap back to reality at his own pace, and once he can communicate his needs again pay extra close attention to them until he calms down enough that he can properly self-regulate again

his favourite sensations are weight/pressure, the funky bumpy shit perry’s tail has going on, and anything soft!

most of his clothes [including his usual outfit in the show] are tight-fitting but made out of soft fabric for maximum comfy

the blanket on his bed is a weighted one, but if he’s too far from his room or it’s too hot to be comfortable under a blanket sometimes he’ll just find the tightest spot he can wedge himself into without getting hurt or stuck and squish himself in there to calm down a bit

his favourite food texture is crunchy stuff, and he samefoods with particular cereals and sandwich combos that rotate every few months when he finally gets tired of the exact same breakfast and lunch every day and wants slightly different identical meals

while he’s fine with variation from day to day, he’s very firmly attached to the summer/weekend formula of wake up > cereal > big idea > where’s perry > [building montage] > mom holy fuck > sandwich > [having fun montage] > our fuckoff massive contraption has vanished somehow > oh there you are perry > snacks > nondescript vibing > dinner > bed time, and if this schedule gets significantly thrown off it really bothers him

ferb shows his emotions more subtly than neurotypicals, which can make him seem hard to read, but his external emotional range is still extremely distinct - he just expresses it in atypical ways sometimes!

one of his most notable atypical emotional cues is that thing he does when he’s startled and he pulls his hands up - he does this in we call it maze when candace falls over on her skates in the beginning, split personality when busting candace scares him, lost in danville when he’s worried another capsule might fall on him or phineas, and the phineas and ferb effect during how do i do it when milo’s exercise bike crashes, just to name a few instances! this boy has Unique Emotional Cues and i love him for it so much

he’s better at reading emotions than phineas [as low as that bar is], but sometimes misses more subtle cues and doesn’t quite trust his ability to read anyone aside from phineas, candace, and his closest friends

he’s been aware that he’s neurodivergent ever since he was diagnosed as a little kid [he was first diagnosed with autism when he was extremely baby, not even three years old, and had it continually reconfirmed as he got older] and he’s been entirely happy with being autistic for as long as he’s known what that even means, with this only being reinforced as he found siblings and made friends with other autistic kids :)

good lord this is such an infodump i’m sorry i just love my son so very much and have been feeling particularly self indulgent today ;<;