#but i cant help but liking angst
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Homosexual Turblo and Angst Turblo
I don’t know how to caption this
#wreck it ralph turbo#turbo#turbotastic#Just some random doodles#wanted to draw a fruity turbo for y’all#we need more fruity turbo fanart#and the angst#that’s for an au#will eventually post about it#when I’m brave enough#shitpost#wreck it ralph#wir#turbo wir#i cant stop drawing him#send help#sad Turblo apparition#1 like = 1 hug
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evil win! the ones plotting for your mysterious death are uncle and nephew!
#persona 5#persona 4#goro akechi#tohru adachi#uncle Adachi au#this came from the idea of apophenia#which means connecting dots that aren’t there#every time I see these two in fanart I go ‘wow . Adachi is so uncle coded here. akechi is totally his nephew. everyone is thinkign this’#false. my au has not reached enough eyes#so I just idk wanted to draw them next to each other to inspire further apophenia in both me and perhaps my followers lol#i was inspired by someone who like. literally just drew them beside each other and I was like. yeah i could do that#NO I COULDNT. NOT EASILY#my brain was like ‘you should do a comic abt how Adachi can’t help but see his sister in akechi bc they look almost exactly the same’#and there was a lot more angst in the arsenal as well#took me forever to just. draw this. like literally I thought I was gonna go insane#i cant. not. draw. a comic. or something with the vaguest of stories it is SO HARD idk why#so this was definitely a struggle. hope y all like it
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Do you have any thoughts on freehoun?
#hope this Helps <3#EAT EAT EAT#for realsies they are like….the secret 3rd thing between bestfriends & dating In my mind#not quite either#i dont have much to say about hl2 barney#also#i do like everything ppl do with them..#every dynamic like best friends & haters & angst ers & lovers#i j stick to silly stuff bc it makes me joyous & spin in circles#also i cant write angst or anything deep#oopsies#half life#hl1#gordon freeman#barney calhoun#my stuff#half-life
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remember this message from aventurine?
yeah, so I wrote that scene.
To Aventurine's luck, he was rescued from the Nihility, the end, by a knight of Beauty. How lucky… He lives to see another day. Another assignment, another project, another trip which will all get blurred in a haze, memories merging together like melted crayons his mind too blurry if he ever even tried to recall.
A single drop of water slithered down his back under his satin shirt. His face was covered in a thin sheen of sweat, trembling, hands shaking with terror mirrored in his wide open eyes. The hill of his throat bopping as he gasps for air. The sheets felt too heavy, too warm, too suffocating. Another night he woke up drenched in sweat. Another nightmare where the air left his lungs, he was alone, they weren’t there, no peace of death, no calm embrace of sins forgiven and a new life beginning. The air scratched against his throat, rose thorns dragging along the sides of his windpipe poisoning his vocal cords, his words dying there before they could be vocalized in yelps, wails, or even pleadings. His chest rises and falls down in weak attempts to make his heart calm down, to stop it from jumping out of his chest and making him less of a human than he already thinks he is. Red crescent moons scattered inside his palms are sending aching pain to his nerve’s ends, he stares forward, he doesn’t pay them much mind- he cannot, the pain could ground him but he is too out of it. out of his mind, out of his body, desperately clutching onto the sheets, the branches of this existence, of this reality. Palms sweaty with the ending of the nightmare still trapped in his tense hands, the bitter taste on his tongue the flavor of nihility. The eyes that glow in the dark, that he would’ve sold in his past if it got him something… money? freedom? If such a thing even exists. Those same eyes like boiling water overflowing and, with salt and regret fall down the hills of his cheeks. He cannot control them, the tears, it is his body’s weak attempt at regulating his emotions. He has been running, every gamble, every manipulation, every flashy smile… it is him running from his past and back to it. his legs would give out underneath him if he was standing, knees too weak, feet too swollen, burning him up from inside. Settling more in the now, he feels the guilt dripping off his teeth, snake toxin that colors each of his smiles and paints his every pretty praise… did he truly do it just to see his family once more? throwing it all away for that… what would they think of him provoking an emanator, throwing this precious life away for the ones who have passed on? anger. White, hot anger, he regrets it. they wouldn’t- he never should’ve done it. they would want their little boy to persevere. to continue on. to stop gambling his own life. what is he worth if he won’t wager that of which has little matter to him? what blatant lies… the one who does not care for his life doesn’t clutch his chips in his hand for dear life. sadness. The ends of his hair stick to the back of his neck like ropes and chains that once bound him. or perhaps strings with which he is controlled. No one controls him. or perhaps this… glamourous, extravagant persona of Aventurine does. He needs to make a change. Cut the strings, control his own body, his choices, he can do better, he will do better… maybe he will dare to want to do better… in regards to himself. the various nightmares that keep his nights restless and his body frail keep coming, he exhales a heavy breath hoping, praying, that this is the last one. that this never-ending torment will end. Now his back aches from sitting up like so, or is it the weight of his job and his curse the ones which make it bend so? He has betrayed himself every day. putting the flamboyant clothes on and wearing it like a clown suit, parading around… except if someone gets close enough and sees the little Kakavasha hidden deep, far inside.
Sheets rustle behind him, grounding him even more in the present, anchoring him further in his body and out of the darkness of his dreams. “another one?” the baritone voice quietly asks, strong arms embracing his torso and his hand clutched onto them for… dear life. a hand presses against his damp forehead, seemingly checking his temperature. The thick, swallowing, dooming silence now cut with breathing of another that came to his awareness. Another set of ribs expanding and contracting against his own. A heart beating, pumping blood in rhythm with his. “I will draw us a bath.” The arms threaten to move away, and Aventurine grips them tightly refusing to let go, he turns back facing the man his eyes pleading, begging him to not go. “Veritas…” the man’s eyelashes flutter a few times before the indigo hair moves with a nod. “I’m here, Kakavasha. Right here. We will go together.”
#was going through some of my prev posts#& under this one i said i wanted to write this#and then i just did...in one sitting#dk if anyone did this yet#but this is my take on it#and also i could never put just angst. i always try in some way to provide comfort in the end. if u dont like the comfort bit just skip it#ig?#aventurine#kakavasha#dr veritas ratio#ratiorine#raturine#golden ratio#aventio#i cant help myself when writing either of them to not include the other one#they go hand in hand for me#hurt/comfort#angst#fluff#hsr#honkai star rail#its about 800 words#aventurine x dr ratio
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he's a broken man
#OHHHH YEAG FORGOT TO SAY!!! ZIGGY IS MY HC NAME FOR SK#2 me i think the decades he spent in the basement being forced to train really messed him up. idk#is that too serious of a thought to have about these silly lil guys?#but he spent decades alone and feeling like a disappointment (and to me) destroying his physical and mental health to try n train n improve#n it all just really really sticks with him#sk cant make it all better. as much as they want to. but they help him a lot#and they learn really well how to read him. bc he has a habit of not asking for comfort and trying to deal w stuff alone.#and sk sees through that#anyway#sorry for the angst#rhythm heaven#karate joe#space kicker#punch kick toe#my art
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Watching "Bad Territory" and "Paths Unknown" from a mental health perspective really dials up the angst. It's so obvious that the Batch all really need therapy and it's sad to see them all struggle. So much has changed over the past year for them and by season 3, the cracks really show more than ever. Because they're so used to the solider life, pretty much all of them, particularly Crosshair, internalizes their pain to the point of self-destruction. They don't want to talk about it and it affects all of them.
Hunter's inability to keep his squad together after Order 66 happens takes a big toll on him. He directs all his energy at Omega and losing her in season 2 really pushes him over the edge. Instead of talking about it, he begins to act more recklessly. Hunter also has to deal with seeing Crosshair get turned against him and choose that at the end of season 1. There's also a lot of guilt he probably feels about leaving Cross and seeing the Batch's numbers dwindle. Going back to Omega, she probably gave him something to hold on to. She gives him a purpose despite all the guilt and pain he feels.
Crosshair is the most sensitive of the Batch in my opinion. He internalizes a lot and holds on to it. He lets it fester and I think he does so much more Hunter. Omega is the only person he feels comfortable enough to be truly vulnerable around. He has his moments with Hunter, but it's not on the same level as Omega. But even with her, he's so haunted by what happened to him that he doesn't want to talk about it. He also deflects a lot, putting himself down or lashes out to protect himself. One of the reasons why I loved the meditation sequence is because he slowly begins to find peace of mind. That's really going to help him when he eventually opens up.
Wrecker had to become more mature and the voice of reason for Hunter. While he has his jokey moments, he's much quieter and reserved. He knows he has to be strong for Hunter, just like Omega is for Crosshair. There's something sad to see the most jolly and upbeat characters become more quiet and serious. It shows just how dark things have become.
Speaking of Omega, she's not ok. Between her past and whatever else she went through on Tantiss, there is a lot going on in that little head of hers. She feels guilty for leaving the other clones behind and she went through/saw some very bad stuff. However, she's neglecting her own mental needs for two reasons in my opinion. #1: she's trying to not worry her brothers. She knows her absence affected them. I can imagine she doesn't want to feel guilty about putting more stress on them. #2: she's trying to be strong for Crosshair. Crosshair is the most outward with his mental struggles because it manifests as psychosomatic tremors. That and he pretty much lost all hope after being imprisoned. Omega selflessly puts her own needs aside to be there for him because she knows he's hurting more than he says he is. But how long will keeping up a brave face last for our little sunshine?
I really think "Identity Crisis" will force many of these characters like Cross or Omega to finally open up. They can't hide it forever. Crosshair in particular will have to confront his trauma if he wants his hand to slowly heal. It's a long journey though.
If we compare the Batch in CW vs. TBB S3, it's crazy to think how much they've changed since then. They're all struggling deeply. However, they have each other for support and sometimes, that's the best place to start for healing.
#star wars#the bad batch#tbb crosshair#tbb hunter#tbb omega#tbb wrecker#tbb season 3#the angst guys#its so painful#youre telling me that this all happened in like a year?#why do the showrunners wish to torment us?#i cant do this#please send our boys and sweet bean some extra hugs#they're not ok#and they need help
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How fucked would it be if Billy was around during that Justice League episode with the Justice Lords? Like, not even as a member of the Lords but as one of the people saying they’ve turned into turbo tyrants and trying to oppose them?
Lil lobotomized orphan
#my mind doesnt shut up#angst#lobotomy mention#lobotomy#i know hes not in the shows until JL:U but let my mind work#worse if his was specifically to make him mute on top of becoming docile like everyone else#cant even use his magic to help him or heal up#im sorry but also not for saying this#shazam#billy batson#jlu#justice lords#jl#dc
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Amphibia is proof that the best character writing tip is to make everyone at least a little bit problematic
#this is why all of my OCs are horrible people in one way or another#this goes for relationships too#lum1ty is cute and all but nothing about it ever destroyed me nearly as much as even the most tame scene between any members of#the calamity trio. and ik it's because the relationship between those 3 is what drives the story while lum1ty is a romantic subplot and all#but my objection is: that's precisely the problem#it's supposedly meant to be the fluff amongst the angst. a refuge from everything else that happens in the show#plus it's not the MAIN main relationship of the show - the main relationship is between Eda Luz and King#but... i genuinely believe divorcing lum1ty from the rest of the story does them a disservice. imagine how could it would have been if#they let amity be a little bit worse. deeper into the emperor's coven or something. with a more intense rivalry w luz#characters in toh just need more Drama imo especially luz's friends#hunter is great *because* he's Dramatic#this isn't toh bashing. i love toh. i just can't help but feel it's an example of characters being too... *nice*#cant remember who said that the only thing worth writing about was the human heart in conflict with itself and#im sorry but you can't convince me a character like gus or willow is just as much in conflict with themselves as like. idk. hop pop.
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guys if i wrote a multi-part au fic that was nat/reader based on the song crush by ethel cain would yall read it or nah
#would be completely self-indulgent ngl#like kinda innocent!reader x badboy!nat#i cant help it every time i hear that song I imagine nat bro idek#would probably end up posting it on ao3 as well or sum idk#reader patching nat up after she gets into a fighttttttttttttt#nat protecting reader from somethingggggggggggg#slow burn/angst/eventual smut#broooooo nat being readers first time and being all sweet n shit despite everyone saying she would be a tool or whatever#so many thoughts bro#nat scatorccio#nat scatorccio x you#nat scatorccio x reader#natalie scatorccio x reader#natalie scatorccio#natalie scatorccio x you#yellowjackets x you#yellowjackets x reader#yellowjackets#yapping
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"Do you think we're soulmates in every universe?"
"Are we even soulmates in this one?"
#the quotes can go with either one of them i leave that u fellow reader#also does anyone else think about how Ben could have another chance in life and change and be someone new#but he cant and perhaps the only time we felt like he could change was when he's with hughie..but can't have that and he shouldn't want tha#but he does and it pisses him off so mixed with the fact that hes been betrayed by people and experimented on he just can't do it#“ghost is this ship post?” yes it is because hughie wants to save everyone and he does feel for ben despite being a supe#despite being the harsh man who seemingly only thinks about himself he can still see the person who did want to help people once upon a tim#and he wants to help him despite his better judgement#yadda yadda yadda sometime during that they start having feelings for each other#“waiter waiter more angst please!”#soldier boy/hughie#soldier boy#hughie campbell#the boys#ghost rambles#jesus these tags are wild i apologize for anyone who read this far LMAOAOA#also the spelling mistakes in the tags are bad i apologize in advance
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A fic with Regulus as Jinx, Tom Riddle as Silco and Vi as Sirius would feed me like you wouldn't believe
#s2 of arcane is out tomorrow so my two fixations are fusing#regulus having jinx's crash out would be so enjoyable to read#tbh caitlin gives james more than remus so romantic prongsfoot???#regulus black#sirius black#black brothers angst#tom riddle#jinx arcane#vi arcane#silco#marauders era#marauders#sibling angst is like a drug to me#no good but i cant help but want more
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Headcanon that most demon royalty goes to some fancy private/finishing school. But that Stolas was homeschooled with a private tutor. It was one of the very very few requests his dad granted him and for years it was a tressure memory, one of the few times he /got to choose/ one of the few times his dad /listened/ to him. Only to realize when he enters society that it was another isolation tactic. That everybody had already spent years forming social alliances and building their reputations and social credit. And that there was no room for him to break into those circles, that he /did not know/ the proper unspoken social rules. That his wife has spent years building her clout and that he is once again. Alone.
#helluva boss#stolas goetia#stella goetia#Other demon royality#Listen I dont know anything about the world building in helluva boss or if they have any type of schools at all#I am basing this off of other dramas involving rich kids there's always a private school social credit is everything#And stolas has such perfect weird home school kid who does not know how to act around people because they've just never socialized ever#And I love the angst of dtolas's life being a compounding series of isolation and misreading situations only to realize#What was wrong way too late but still clinging to the good memory because that's all he has#And it pairs well with Stella being an excellent socialite#And the angst of stolas being like okay yay! Time to attend events i can do this i might even make friends!#Only to realize he /cant/ and forget friends or allies this means he has no one he can lean on to help with the abuse Stella deals out#Owl in a cage is a very telling song#Vassago once again in the corner vibrating because he'd love to be friends! He volunteers pleaseeee#Stolas gaining a reputation for being really fucking weird but really good at his job and for thinking he's too good to talk to anyone here#Because he never fucking talks to anyone#I imagine the first few years stolas was out in society were filled with just. So many painfully awkward conversations until he just#Stopped trying because what was the point
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Welcome Home Mini Comic: Homewarming
⚠️TW: eyecontact
[Read left to right up+down. No wierd combinations. No, I didn't look up their Homewarming clothing if you're wondering. I messed up.]
AAAAAAH oh boy the love I have for Eddie I CANNOT explain. LIKE HES SO LOVELY OUGHHHH favourite local mailman. <3
Idk if I made correct use of the image ID? I hope I did.
Hm... this was suposed to be a ramble about my guy Eddie but here, have a short fic under the cut.
He is just there. Uncomfortable. Very uncomfortable. The feeling of doom is there. Why. Why is home looking at him like that? What is going on? He wants to go home. He needs to go home. Does he have a home? He has his post office... does that count? Why is home looking at him like that. He needs it to stop. Stop. Stop it. Please. Stop. Oh? Who...? Frank? He can't talk. He realizes vaguely. His eyes go up. Frank... He needs to tell him... His vission is blurry and he feels overwhelmed. He feels... overestimulated..? He doesn't know. He doesn't feel good. Too much... he needs to go home... he needs... he...
And Frank gets it and goes to tell Wally that he wants to leave. Leave? On homewarming? Why? What's wrong? Because something has to be wrong if Eddie of all people wants to leave. So he goes check up on him. Of course he does. Barnaby close behind because... Why does Eddie want to leave? They don't know. But he isn't looking great. He is staring. Shaking. Sweating. Crying silently. That doesn't looks good.
Wally gets it. He would like to do the same. Because Home is now looking at him. Because of course it does. Just... staring. Meanacely. He feels the dread. A chill goes down his spine. Home... what did you do to Eddie...?
Barnaby, fortunately, catches up somethings off with Home. And that means Wallys distressed. So he puts a paw on his shoulder and asks Eddie. He doesn't answer. He tells him what he's going to do as he puts his arm to support Eddie and help him walk so he can go home. He is worried. Wally is worried. Frank is worried. Eddie doesn't look good. He shakes. He won't stop crying. He looks... terrified..? He tries to loose up his shirt. He needs to breathe. He can't. But he is. The others realize a bit too late that he is hyperventilating. Wally does only when he sees Eddie's legs wobble. But then he just... shuts down and goes limp. What. What. What. Why. Why. What. What. No. No. No. What. No. Wait. He can help. Yes. Bed. Bed! He needs... yes, yes! He in bed now. He better? What? What? He better? Please... He opens eyes! He better! Low sugar? More sugar then! He bring sugar. Yes. He better now?
Eddie tries to calm Wally with his words. He doesn't know what just happened. He just... sat down at that couch and suddenly was at Wallys bed, all neighbors worrying sick over him. What happened? He just... has this feeling... something changed.
#wally darling#i hate u#why dont you have eyebrows#why cant you not smile#you make my life so hard my little single bean on a plate#sally welcome home#doesnt appear here because i dont like her design (drawing her is a pain in the arse)#eddie dear#my beloved#i hopw everything bad happens to him but also please no#i love him so much#frank frankly#is such a nice guy#the way he worries over eddie OuGh#i know theyre suposed to be romanticaly involved in canon but until thats on screen my aroace ass says they all aroaces#they all love each other platonically very much tho. they very good friends.#a group romance/sex negative aroaces is what they are to me#yea...#barnaby b beagle#the best guy ever#howdy pillar#he is such a nice guy#hes on the background because he was with Sally and Julie while the others were over Eddie#he was supoused to help eddie stand up but barnaby took his place because made most sense#jullie joyful#is there for one (1) single panel but there she is#tw: eye contact#welcome home#home welcome home#welcome home angst
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I was originally going to color this in but I decided I wanted to spend my time working on something else instead
very self indulgent hunter doodles again...it comforts me a lot to draw this stuff shdjkeksk
I really like the idea of hunter going through recovery and nsh being there to encourage them
it's hard when your body doesn't work right...but people who love you make it easier to work past that
#rain world#egg doodles#eggmoon creations#no significant harassment#rw hunter#angst#comfort#also i like the idea of nsh employing the use of other creatures around their can to help out#i think sigs might eventually go overboard and have an army of lizards lol#like sigs cant stop adopting little creatures#hehe
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Here is the first part of the fantasy Bojere au!
This is going to be a series of stories with illustrations inspired by @tulinentuherrus ‘s fantasy designs!!!
Stories and illustrations by me! I hope you enjoy!
#my art#kidvoodoo#käärijä#jere pöyhönen#bojan cvjetićanin#bojere#my writing#fantasy au#something so familiar#this is the obligatory childhood friendship lol#don’t worry like all good fantasy stories there will be tragedy and angst hehe#but of course with a happy end#this got so far out of hand ngl#at first it was just ‘I’ll draw a pic of Ellu’s cool fantasy au designs’#and now I have a multi chapter cinematic universe mapped out and in the works….#I LOVE MY FRIEND’S COOL IDEAS AND I CANT HELP MYSELF LOL
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typical 9 year old behavior (i'll put him in a microwave)
#batfam#batman#dc#dick grayson#dc robin#robin#robin dc#bruce wayne#i love drawing batman like a blob#batman dc#dc batman#dc fanart#dick grayson fanart#fanart#art#mimi art ( ◜‿◝ )♡#are those enough tags help#that is IN FACT batmans cape#im a believer of bruce being a decent dad (my heart cant take the angst)
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