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neuvillette doesn’t care for spending money on niceties.
he cares even less about the holidays. he finds the blatant consumerism to be exhausting, the constant pressure to always give, give, and give more, as if he should pretend to care about every person he’s ever spoken to while they pretend to care about him, fake smiles and forced pleasantries like it would cost them a limb if they did anything else. it’s nothing but a façade held up by the sweet coaxing words of material culture.
but when he sees the warm yellow of the string lights reflected in your eyes like the dancing shimmer in a snow globe, he caves in.
his expression softens as he willingly lets you drag him around the christmas market. the air smelled of overpriced fried spiral potatoes from a nearby food stall, and the sky above your heads are lit with a million tiny little starry lights, pieced together by strings hooked on the walls to either side of you. and stretching as far as his eyes can see is the crowd, decked out in hats and mittens and for archons’ sake, reindeer antler headbands.
it would not have been his activity of choice for his sunday evening, but who was he to say no to you?
a surprised gasp escapes your lips as you tug excitedly on his sleeve, pointing at the store window that has every single possible ornament one can think of. your feet are leading the both of you there before he can even react, and the next thing he knows is the strong waft of warm air hitting his face when you pull open the door.
an oversized christmas tree sits in the middle of the store, the branches bending under the weight of hundreds of ornaments, ribbons, and glittery gift tags with people’s well wishes written on them. neuvillette barely takes his eyes off of you for one second and you’re gone, his arm suddenly feeling empty as you’re already far down the aisle, picking up and examining every ornament that catches your eye like a child being shown the entire world’s supply of candy.
he’s not one to like crowded and overheated places, but the lovestruck smile remains permanently etched on his lips as he squeezes through the crowd to find you. noticing him coming, you hold out your arms to show him the ornament you’re holding like a kid proudly showing off their drawing.
“look! it’s soooo cute!”
you spin the little plastic dog around to give him a better look. it’s a clever looking golden retriever with a red santa hat and a string of colourful christmas tree ornaments around his neck.
“it is very cute, love,” he admits, not missing the way your contagious smile seems to grow bigger. he wonders how people around you haven’t started smiling yet.
your eyes slightly widen when you flip the price tag around, quickly putting the ornament back into its place. “oh,” you exclaim softly, more so to yourself before launching into a self-reassuring affirmation, “i don’t need this i don’t need this i don’t need this-”
“y/n.”
neuvillette’s voice cuts off your muttering and you halt in an almost cartoonish way, blinking at him in question.
“you can get anything you want.”
“but it’s twenty dollars-”
“it’s on me.”
your mouth drops open in surprise, but only for a second before you quickly gather your composure.
“it’s so overpriced though, we already have so many ornaments at home-”
“love.” he cuts you off again, this time with a warm hand to your cheek so you could look at him, “you can have anything you want.”
you almost melt, and it’s definitely not from the store’s heater on full blast.
“really?” you eye the little dog again, tempted by such a cute thing but still hesitant. you never liked when other people spent money on you. the happiness from seeing the adorable little face is not worth the marked up price and the guilt that comes with having people buy things for you.
“anything you want,” neuvillette repeats. he probably will not rest until he sees you happy with the small golden retriever toy in your hands.
and so you do. he does not hesitate when the cashier tells him the total price or when he taps his card on the pinpad. even with the million lights on the tree and overhead, all he can see is the bright twinkle in your eyes and your grin as you thank him yet again for indulging you.
neuvillette doesn’t care for spending money on niceties, unless it is you on the receiving end. he would gladly give all the money he has without a second thought just to see your smile, so beautiful and so radiant that it puts the star on top of the tree to shame.
and that night, as you snuggle into him under the blankets, the little christmas tree in your home has a new friend.
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#moon’s writings 🔖#favoniuslibrary#i’m violently ill rn#me and who WHEN#all my friends have got bfs WHY AM I STILL SINGLE#there’s such a nice christmas market in my city#but i am alone#and sad#:D#genshin impact#genshin x reader#neuvillette x reader#neuvillette fluff
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On days when everything feels too heavy to bear and you feel like drowning, please treat yourself with care and patience. I know it is hard, I know you are tired, but being harsh with yourself will only make you feel worse. We are moving towards better days 🤍
#i am yearning for someone to say this to me#but i am alone#so i am saying this for those who are alone as well#friendly reminder#important#take care with care
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pixie-like pandora to me doesnt mean shes a crystal girl, it means shes a chaotic androgynous trickster fae that speaks in cryptic phrases and has questionable fashion
#shes weird!!! make her weirder everyone!!!#also i hc her as being a tall girl#but i am alone#pandora lovegood#pandora rosier#marauders era#marauders fandom
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i feel so weird and gross i need to be around people but i don't wanna say anything i just want to sit together
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I would love to go out and get drunk with someone tonight
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I just want someone that’ll never get sick and tired of me. I isolate because people eventually get fed up with me and do better when I’m not around
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everyone sh. shutd up im cooking smthn
#genshin impact#venti#what am i cooking?? no idea#oh this isnt canon? dont care leave me alone#i remember thinking years ago how badass it would be to have to fight all the archons in reverse order once u get to celestia#like. not that they want to. but celestia or the heavenly principles control them not thru the gnosis but thru their thrones#dont. dont think about it too much i do NOT have enough brains to keep up with accurate lore details#i just want to see venti having lied about being the 'weakest' archon. that bitch has a fucking church theres no way. also gap moe is hhh#fitting to have your first major ally end up being a final-ish boss fight#zilly art
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Captains Log
11:08 am
This is the calm before the storm.
I do not remember his name; it's not really important. He's bound to arrive any moment. The stupid bastard. But maybe not as stupid as me. For if I have to run I don't know if I'll make it far in my Crocs.
Every sound I hear on the road is a threat. It could be him.
I was scared the first two hours waking up. Strangely I'm closer to being at peace. I don't know why.
#dramatic reading#hi I will be reading for the role of anxious twenty something#this is me trying to keep my mind off things#because the electrician is fixing things in my house today#but i am ALONE#and i am nervous#and generally very irritated#for reasons too stupid to admit online#but please pray for me#because i suffer from anxiety and this is rocking my shit
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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#yuji itadori#nobara kugisaki#fushiguro megumi#itafushikugi#inside me are two wolves one is dead on the floor bc this took ages and the other one is screaming from the rooftops bc i am so PLEASED#im so . im so happy w this im in love w flat markers and chisel brushes im sorry fr ever being frustrated with the harsh angles#opacity down square chisel....layers upon layers of polygons...#i love u so much the effect is a treat to play with#hard shapes thin lines my beloved i think ive struck a good balance between sharp n smooth vs textured render#idec that these kids took probably 12 hours each#worth every minute worth every second#nobara's hair here alone is some of my best work idec#god i love. making things tht make me happy i know how to draw i love when i make smth tht makes me say wow im good @ my hobby
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One of the perks of living in Gotham is that occasionally you’ll walk past a Wayne having the most batshit insane conversation anybody has ever had.
Walk past Dick Grayson on the street and hear him say into his phone, “I don’t think he’s anti-vax, but Superman is definitely not vaccinated.”
Stand outside of the downtown WE building and see Tim Drake walk out with his tall friend only to pause and say, “Hold on, I just got the mental image of Lex Luthor pregnant. Thanks for that.”
A lucky few who ride the same subway line as the newest Wayne edition, overheard Duke tell Stephanie that living in Wayne Manor is, “Alright, but when I moved in Jason and Damian gave me a knife and said I had to kill Tim. Said it was tradition.”
“It kinda is. Did you do it?”
“No!” Duke says, to the relief of the overhearers. “Get this…he stabbed himself.”
“…yeah, I should’ve guessed that.”
The downside to living in Gotham is literally everything else.
#the second best thing about living in Gotham is overheating the robins have the most batshit insane convo you’ve ever heard#overhearing*#Duke showed up at Wayne Manor was given a knife and when he told Tim about it#Tim took the knife and stabbed him self (a little) and then shouted to Bruce that Duke stabbed him#because and I quote ‘they won’t leave you alone until you do it’#Duke was just like: WTF am I getting myself into here#batfam#Gotham#dick Grayson#Tim drake#Duke Thomas
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I’m in the South. I’ve got ears to the ground. Republicans are SWEATING at the prospect of Kamala being nominated. They’re not sure Trump can beat her.
Let’s prove them right.
#us politics#kamala harris#us news#joe biden#2024 presidential election#go vote#I want to see him in a prison jumpsuit. it’ll match his face.#I am FIRED UP#if we get off our asses and vote he’ll be a thing of the past#that alone should be motivating#I’m gonna lose followers posting stuff like this#but I need the anti voting crowd to tell me what the actual plan is#do you have a candidate in mind or are you just waiting for something better to come along#we have 3 months
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i don't want to be alone.
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no makeout monday for me...
#woke up wanting to makeout like reallllllly badly#but i am alone#its my blog ill whine if i want to#also i just made up makeout monday but tbh make it a thing
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john “big stretch” price
simon “make it fit” riley
soap “just the tip” mactavish
kyle “give me one more” garrick
#i feel as though i am wholeheartedly correct and will not share my research with any of you#but i am also half asleep and thought of this list ina cold sweat so LEAVE ME ALONE#!!!#mw2#call of duty#task force 141#mw3#141 task force#141#rachel speaks
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the thing about latinoamérica is that it's the most beautiful wonderful place on earth. there's a spinal cord of mountains running through, and at their feet you have everything from deserts to forests to jungles to glaciers. the lungs of the world are here, and so are the eyes into the sky. there are animals like axolotls and vicuñas and llamas and condors and jaguars. and the people are the most clever, the most resilient people in the world. you have cultures that are thousands of years old that have been resisting colonization for hundreds of years and in several cases successfully fighting back and even gaining territory. you have people who have lost their loved ones decades and decades ago who are still fighting for justice. you have a rich history of solidarity and struggle and you can sit with people in a circle passing a mate around and they will tell you of all the times they put everything on the line for a better world. there is an entire island that inspired revolutions around the world and that has been resisting a blockade for 60 years. there are communities building autonomous, revolutionary structures right now. and really it's not a surprise that there's so much grit and strength here because it would be inconceivable to be born and to live in this beautiful place without fighting for it.
#regular normal thoughts on my morning jog#when left alone for >30 minutes i always end up waxing poetic about nuestra america like this btw sometimes i am not even alone when i do it#anyway. when che said el revolucionario verdadero está guiado por grandes sentimientos de amor he waa being so real and he meant this#personal.txt
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Just had a friend show me a conversation in a fan discord about Suvi as a Black American woman in the context of the fallout from the election. And honestly? Yeah. The blueprint is simple: Black women are expected to put their own priorities and emotions on hold to show up for everyone else's battles and hold endless space for everyone's feelings while simultaneously weathering attacks on our character (oh she's so angry/aggressive/violent/rude) and authority (she's a woke hire/affirmative action quota/nepobaby) without complaint. We're expected to save the day under nigh-impossible circumstance, and with fewer resources and support that is AT BEST, conditional.
So yeah, relistening to Suvi's speech in The Witness hurts now. Because that's exactly the feeling I'm wrestling with, and what I see mirrored in the Black women around me. We are exhausted and angry and sad. Those voter percentages are a betrayal of "we" that was promised by other marginalized groups when speaking of the interconnectedness of our liberation. And the unexamined expectation that we immediately rise from the depths of our despair to prepare for the next fight is a cruelty. Suvi isn't real, but if this helps lend empathy toward actual Black women in the world, then I'm glad.
#worlds beyond number#the wizard the witch and the wild one#there's a reason I spent so much time scrapping with fans misremembering plot#always with the aim of painting Suvi as 'the bad/mean one' universally responsible for any party friction#i've clocked dozens upon dozens of threads maligning her and nitpicking every choice she makes#and holding her alone to a ridiculous standard of behavior#while rooting for her to experience enough pain/loss to bend her to their preferred trajectory#and dismissing her emotions as Citadel programming unworthy of consideration#it's just more fucking misogynoir at the end of the day#i saw a post calling her an abuser for not being *nice* enough to Ame when she arrived at the conclave#and all i can think is 'why do you need her to mask her VALID emotions for others' sakes?'#and then i remember she's a black woman#and i get really tired for her (and me)#don't worry#i'll return to funky lil shitposts and art reblogs soon
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