#but i am alive and miss you all

[leondaltons]

Hello besties I'm still (barely) alive, life has just been exhausting lately 😩

[novelconcepts]

As gently and politely as I can put this: that post I made about outliving him is meant to be an anti-suicide affirmation. It is not meant to be a blinders-on assessment of reality, of the future boiling down to whether one man lives or dies. It is meant to reassure myself and everyone else that the horrors come, and the horrors go, that nothing is permanent, that hope persists with split knuckles and blood on its teeth. Things are rough. Things will likely get rougher. My eyes are open to that, but in the end, the first thing they want from us is to roll over, surrender, die. And I will not be granting that wish. I deserve to be here. You deserve to be here. We deserve to see the sun rise. And it will. I promise.

[suolainensilakkart]

Emerging from my cave once more to place another Terra on y'all's doorstep as a peace offering ✌️

[crystal-verse]

god i want. an au where it dosn't work. where it's just arr g'raha who's woken up, and he doesn't have all these memories and all these people keep looking at him like they're mourning someone. the world has changed and time has changed and all the people he knows have changed, but he hasn't changed, he was just sleeping, just sleeping, and the world nearly ended several times and apparently he helped prevent yet another end but he has no memory of this. they want him to join the scions. he does not know these people. (he barely knows the warrior of light, now, but did he ever truly know them in the first place?) his little sister is alive and well. she looks at him like a ghost. she's changed, and she's older than him now. he acts bratty and loud and brash to cover up the fact that he does not know anything it seems, and he is tired but he was sleeping for so long, so how could he be tired?

he doesn't know these people. they seem to know him. he wonders if he'd killed someone, when it was him and not that exarch who woke up. he wonders if it should have been him who was "killed" in that way, if it is him that lives and not that man who had known and become friends with all these figures from legend. he wonders if he'll always be fated to be a historian one step back from everything, because he simply cannot be a hero.

[violentdelightshavevioletends]

SHE’S SEEING LIAM😭😭😭

[moeblob]

OC !

[crazyhickofftheirrocker]

Did I hit my head? Or did Lisa Swain actually admit she has feelings for me?

[sharkdays]

"That despite having experienced inhuman suffering, she has nonetheless been able to gain the strength to face life."

[wh0re-for-w0lfstar]

Hi guys, lowkey alive. Sorry I've been kind of not active recently?? I don't exactly have a specific reason I guess but I've js been a bit tired recently. My finals are starting next month and my classes and school works have increased so I barely have any time to actually sit and relax for a while without having to stress about all of that.

I have seen my moots tagging me in posts and all and I love that (and you guys), it makes my day slightly better so tysmmm for that but I don't feel like I have the energy to interact with them as much. Please do keep tagging me in them, I love seeing the notifs but I might not interact with all of them. I am not going to leave the sit or anything completely, I still check it once in a day or two but I'll just be a little less active for a while.

I hope you all understand and I will come back after my exams are over for sure. Feel free to message or drop asks in my inbox, I will still be replying to those (though maybe not as quick as I usually do) and hope you all have a great day/ night ahead <<3

-Vi •𐃷•*

posted: 25th Jan, 2025

[uselessnbee]

what i wish people would also explore more when it comes to Percy is the other side of his feelings about his mom about family and his childhood but this fandom is too afraid to paint Sally even in the slightest bad light (even if it's not bad just acknowledging her flaws because she's a human being and not perfect) that no one will touch on that subject. like yes Sally is the best mom but she also isn't and that's the thing! She isn't perfect! but she tried her best but her best still got Percy hurt and it isn't her fault at all but that's the tragedy of it. i want Percy's feelings about this explored. how he grew up with a loving mom but an abusive step father. how his step father would humiliate him and call him stupid but then his mom soothed him and told him he's not the things Gabe calls him. how Gabe would hurt him and Sally would be there to make him happy and loved but at the same time she stayed with him. i want Percy's feelings explored about how he knows his mother loves him but her absence still hurt him. she would work so much to have money to raise him she did that for him but at the same time it meant Percy was left alone or with Gabe. Sally gave up so much for him, she sent him away to protect him but at the same time he was sent away from his mom. she's the only parent he has because his father is absent and Gabe is not actually a parental figure at all but she's also often absent in his life too and that must have left him with such mixed feelings because it's not all black and white! Sally's love protected him but also hurt him. Percy loves his mom so so so much but there's also this deep-seated bitterness and hurt and anger he never let himself feel and then the guilt for having those feelings because his mom loves him he knows that and she gave up so much for him and she married a monster that abused her to protect him, he knows that but it doesn't make it hurt any less. the mess his emotions are because he knows his mom suffered for him and did it from her love for him but he still desperately wishes she never married that monster that he wouldn't have to have the childhood he had with him that he wouldn't have to live with the trauma he was left with. this all is exactly what makes their relationship so fascinating and also heartbreaking.

or the idea of Percy having weird mixed feelings after Estelle is born because that's his little sister and he loves her with his whole heart and would do anything for her and wants only the best for her but there's also this little jealous monster deep down that wonders why she gets to have a loving mom and a loving dad and a happy normal life but he never got that. why does she deserve it but not him? why couldn't he have that too? doesn't he deserve that too? he was just a child too so why why why??? and then the guilt of feeling that way too it makes me want to scream. emotions are fucking messy and they can be really ugly and they can make you hate yourself and there's no way Percy's feelings aren't a mess when it comes to this and i want to see it explored so badly!

and with Sally too! her feelings about Percy because she did so much and tried her best but sometimes unfortunately your best isn't good enough and it still got her beloved son hurt and she hates it and feels so guilty but she just has to live with that but she can't help to wish it was different. that their lives would be different. better. normal. she can't help but to wish she didn't have to do the things she's done, didn't have to suffer so much just to protect her child. can't help to wish she didn't have to worry so much, didn't have to be so scared about Percy, didn't have to be terrified that one day he won't come back home to her, that she won't be able to hold her son anymore because he will be gone, she just wishes he didn't have to suffer so much, she just wishes and wishes and wishes

and i just wish people weren't so afraid to explore this because it's so heartwrenching and yes if you want something do it yourself but unfortunately i cannot write nor am i able to handle this topic in a way it deserves so i am left only with rambling about it on here thank you

[xluciifer]

The way my Lucifer headcanons still hold true in the newest episode of Helluva Boss has me reeling.

[whispence]

Favorite blasters role?

okay so i might be biased since i only really played whisper (who woulda guessed 🙄) but like it’s kinda fun being the ranger. especially on stuff like oni orb hunts where you could just abuse the hell out of the bosses trying to run away so that they run ridiculously slowly. also bombs. they’re fun. granted your teammates don’t decide to stand over them for no reason and get absolutely obliterated?? 😭

[anonmothgod]

Mystreet is WACK.

Writing a fic set in Mystreet while only watching up to Love-Love Paradise then taking a look at the wiki to see what else happened and holy shit. What did I miss.

Ein? Weird werewolf dude- what do you mean he SHOT APH. She went to fucking HEAVEN??? Then he got killed by having his throat ripped out.

This is the same series where Zane gets put into a maid dress, also have a violent death of someone getting their throat ripped out.

Garroth got turned into a FURRY. Cause he started at Aaron in the eyes. That's fucking hilarous. He peeped the horrors and got turned into a dog for it how is that not funny as fuck.

What else am I missing cause I know there's gotta be some gems.

[ode2rin]

hi... (runs away)

[onsunnyside]

in case no one told you today, you’re so sexy bestie 😌🫶✨ and I love you

[kindahoping4forever]

Ash with Jordan Greenwald on IG