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bethmelrhodon · 17 days
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Me: *got tumblr to start promoting my original works and getting more interaction with others*
Also me: *the thought of putting my creations out there and talking to people scary, hide away in corner and just watch like goblin better*
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anna-scribbles · 2 months
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anyone else up listening to robin by ts on repeat while thinking about how no one who loved adrien agreste ever told him the truth 🤨⁉️ just me?
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seaweedstarshine · 17 days
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To soothe the pain, love, while I don't believe the Doctor - that is 1-12, the others might - ever SAID 'I love you' to River, I am convinced they taught her Gallifreyan just so she'd understand they kept tracing 'I love you' onto the back of her hand at random moments
Awwh! :’) I love the idea of the Doctor randomly tracing Gallifreyan on her skin to express all the things that they can’t say! I’d sort of thought River knew Gallifreyan instinctually with it on the TARDIS screens, but with her connection to the TARDIS being so inherent, maybe there’s no need.
…but now I’m imagining River recognizing (with their lives out of order), that the shapes he’s tracing are Gallifreyan circles. And maybe she’d connect the dots and study Gallifreyan on her own. And then she would understand what he’s writing — and start to take it wrong that he’s writing it but doesn’t have the guts to actually tell her, and she would overthink forever but not actually ask him…
Until the Doctor notices asks why she’s being cold — and then she tells him — and he says he thought she already knew—
(Crying and hugging ensues.)
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suchine-toki · 10 months
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Thoughts about Sakamoto
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The guy is known as the loud fellow in a series like Gintama, that says a lot. But beyond being eccentric, he’s known for his huge heart and his love for money the people. He’s like the heart of the Joui 4 group and his bond with them is emotional and inspiring. His optimistic attitude was the light in the dark times of war.
It's interesting to think that Gintoki, Takasugi and Katsura, a group so united (due to their past, their motivations) would let Tatsuma in. But possibly it wasn't that they let him in, but that he simply made his way and, without anyone noticing, he became part of the group and its dynamics. I think Sakamoto's kindness also helped and perhaps, in a way, he reminded them of their sensei.
Tatsuma's compassion extended not only to his companions, but also to his enemies, as demonstrated in the Rakuyo arc flashback. He didn't intend for his arm to be rendered useless, but he accepted it anyway, as did his friends. Everyone understood that his place wasn’t in the war (although he was very talented with the sword), but in other battles.
His true nature came out in Kaientai arc, in which he meets Mutsu. Here he not only manages to change her, but he also manages to free all the slaves from human trafficking, becoming part of his crew and stealing the criminals’ ships. His ability to change people for the better is also demonstrated with Nobu Nobu later on.
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However, it should be noted that Sakamoto is one of the least developed characters of the main cast. The little information there was about him was always scattered in different arcs in which he wasn’t the focus (even the Kaientai arc was more about Mutsu). We never saw why he learned swordsmanship or how was the internal process of him becoming disabled (if he wanted he could’ve used his other arm, implying he decided not to).
In both Rakuyo arc and Silver Soul arc he was involved in very similar situations, having to be saved in both cases by Mutsu (and whether we like it or not, that makes him look less capable). He never had any real opportunities to shine, and I feel like his character was only superficially explored, when he’d a lot to give. His only role at the end was to improve Nobu Nobu as a person, which was somewhat useless because he died shortly after.
I think Tatsuma would’ve been the perfect character to develop the sci-fi aspect of Gintama, in the sense of exploring other planets and the alien life that exists on them. He could’ve given odd jobs to the Yorozuya (bad um tsss) and thus justify the alien missions, taking advantage of the space travel in the series and, perhaps, giving more development to the Liberation Army, the Harusame and the Tendoushuu from the start.
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theflyingfeeling · 11 months
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fanfic rambling in the tags, nothing interesting really, just me talking to myself lol, okay to ignore or read as you please ✨
#so i've found the perfect prompt list for an olli/allu fic advent calendar sorta thing#but i'm too intimidated by my own expectations and ridiculously high standards to even start writing any of them 😭#honestly these prompts are so insanely cute and fit olli/allu PERFECTLY#like. i'm actually having trouble deciding which ones to use because i want to write them all 🥺💞#but i'm so so scared that i'll just end up writing the same (boring) story over again for 24 times 😔#i wish i could just write without thinking and trying so hard to write a literary masterpiece#when i KNOW it's alright if it's just a silly little story about my blorbos#that's perfectly enough and i know this but my brain's just not having it 😩#also if i were to write 24 independent fics i'd have to keep them short and simple but. that's not how i do fics. unfortunately (for me)#to overcome this i guess one option would be to write just one longer piece with 24 chapters#and somehow try to include the prompt of the day in each chapter 🤔#but i don't want to make this even more complicated to myself lol especially because i'm planning to write AUs for a couple of the prompts#i REALLY want to do prompts (of any kind!!) but i'm just so scared of stressing myself out to another months-long writer's block 😭#fair enough the last time that happened (last winter/spring) i was in a shitty place mentally anyway#and so far i've been happy to be writing on random bursts of inspiration. that's how it's the easiest for me. the words just...flow out#i'm so insanely jealous of anyone who can just create stuff when given any prompt 😭#y'all are super humans to me how do you do it pls spill your secrets#and anyone tempted to comfort me by saying i shouldn't stress myself over this and that i don't have to write anything i don't wanna write:#i knoooooowwww and i appreactiate the sentiment but the thing is i actually DO want to write these prompts 😭#in theory at least. because they really are cute as fuck wth 🥺#the problem is that i can't /force/ myself to write something at the snap of my fingers without a clear idea besides the prompt#and also because i know it can take me days to finish even one story let alone 24 💀#so to even START on this project is a little intimidating 🫣#i just fear i won't have the patience :(#and when i realise i won't be able to finish the project i'll become frustrated with myself#if only i knew how to write shorter one-scenes in order to not tire myself out#but often i find those kind of fics somehow...unsatisfying :(#i'm just a sucker for crafting the context/background for stories. a little flesh around the bones if you will 🤧#okay that's all now i'm gonna go stare at a wall while doing nothing useful for the rest of the weekend byeeee#if you read this far i hope you're having a nice saturday
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ourhouseishaunted · 1 year
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70% of my trigun thoughts are abt how plants (independent and dependant) work and what they symbolize and their relationships with other characters and the world and stuff and the implications of independent plants coming with the earth forces and what it says about how earth has progressed since SEEDS left the planet, 20% of my thoughts are "hope those guys (meryl milly vash livio ww knives) are having fun" and 10% is rotating trimax Rem Saverem around in my head at all times
#i think abt rem a lot for a character that is like important but also isnt materially present in the story much#like idk her relationship with grief and regret and the idea of her looking at the shambles of her life and having to say#'well at least i can start over since theres nothing left for me' multiple times (after alex dies and she joins seeds#and after failing to keep tesla alive and getting a 'second chance' with vash and knives) idk its just so fascinating to me#and her idea of a blank ticket to the future and what it means in terms of how vash shapes his worldview in trimax#where it seems to be about how. death stops all future potential of a person. if they die they can never get better they dont learn#they cant change and experience consequence#like smth i find fascinating in trimax is that vash doesnt kill people but he will let somebody that person has hurt punch them in the face#and he thanks ww for killing to save the colony that one time. hes not opposed to killing/consequence entirely#i think it comes down a lot to how rem behaved in the aftermath of him finding out about tesla. how the potential for things to get better#would have died with him or rem and it would have just stayed horrible#idk idk im Rambling im turing things around in my brain#also man my main complaint with the manga is i wish it focused on the dependant plants more. they clearly experienced a big emotional#struggle esp in the final volumes and i wish we got to see more of it#but also i just like the wacky small town hijinks esp in the 98 anime i love when the main cast is just goofin around. i think they should#get to goof more#trigun#.txt#Dont Look At This Post Man its EMBARRASSING nobody should let me talk abt anything#the secret special bonus tjoughts are about chronica bc she fascinates me but i cant draw her good the way i can draw meryl and rem :(
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edenfire · 2 years
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baby, oh, something's gotta give
I'm working on a little project, so I doodled up this quick harumako for @jessalynny 's fic, Baby, Oh, Something's Gotta Give ♡
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saltyfilmmajor · 1 year
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Sometimes I mourn the life I could have had if I wasn’t queer
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dragontamer05 · 1 year
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Reason #???? Why Iruma is great,
They take the whole trope of a character choosing not to tell others about a thing only to later be shamed for it and treated like it’s a bad thing and chuck it out the window.
Instead saying that it is perfectly alright not to tell everyone (yes even your closest friends) everything. You’re allowed your secrets and being respected for that choice.
That being friends can mean both being able to tell them anything you want/need to but also equally means being able to feel comfortable not having to share in everything and keep secrets.
Which is especially important given a big part of the series is our main character Iruma dealing with having to keep the big secret that he’s actually human and not a demon (and being terrified of what may happen should they find out)
Which comes to conflict when he starts to consider should he tell his friends the truth? Leading to him having a talk with Azz’s mom who basically questions and brings up the whole idea of ‘is a friend someone you HAVE to tell everything too?’
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Some good shit right here.
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orcelito · 5 months
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God, what even is my "reasons this hasn't been updated in 4 and a half months" list anymore hfkshdj
I think we're at: wrote a smut fic, got a new girlfriend, got into bg3, quit my job I had for 8 years, my dad fucking died, got Throat Bleeding Disease, got into crochet, started watching way too much anime, got into Stardew Valley again...
🤔🤔🤔🤔 things sure have been busy, huh?
#speculation nation#One of these 🎵 is not like the others 🎵#well actually 2 of them are negative. but throat bleeding disease was just awful and sucky for like 2 weeks#ONE of these was a permanent and incredibly life changing event that left me traumatized in its abruptness!#im planning on expanding on it a little bit in my end notes. the above list is what im planning for my opening notes.#i know i dont owe anyone an explanation on why it's been so long. but. idk#i just wanna be upfront about it ykno? for people who may have been worried about me and all#also i kind of snapped at someone in the comments of the most recent chapter#after they just commented 'please update' & i was like 'my dad just fucking died so sorry if im not exactly quick rn'#& i feel a little bit bad for that lol. i mean their comment Was inconsiderate. but i doubt they meant anything bad by it.#but yea idk ITNL has just happened to be spanning the hardest year of my life.#from the end of may up until now. god i really hope the Year Of Death is over now.#and i hope this is the last abrupt hiatus due to an abrupt death/trauma in my life.#at 4 months it's the longest one. but that makes sense. given. ya kno. it's my dad.#itll be my birthday chapter. and ill want to hear birthday wishes.#but i guess i just wanna be. understood and heard. i want readers to know about my pain.#i wont go too in depth and all. but i dont want to keep it a secret.#my birthday chapter and my official 'my dad died lol' chapter. what a way to go.
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sp00pypumpkins · 7 months
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Today I wanted to draw a lot before I have to start studying next week but I got blocked by the news I gotta visit family
HALF MY NOTES OF TODAY'S CLASS ARE ABOUT JUST PUTTING ZERO IN AUS AND MAKING A LIST OF LIL DOODLE COMICS
I just wanna draw them in silly situations 😔
#ollie rambles#the sweet home au and spiderdog au are taking me by chockehold like I HAVE SO MANY INTERACTIONS I WANNA DRAW IN SWEET HOME AU#And i spiderman its like one of the few marvel characters i adore U CANNOTNPUT STUFF I LIKE TOGETHER I GO SILLYYYY#I wanna draws specifically in sweet home when catnap learned hownto drive the motorcycle and went onto his “parttime job” and would#sometimes damage the moto but because he wanted to keep the secret of his part time job to his friends and others he goes to Zero To fix hi#moto since zero is also in to get the scientists and bad guys#and even tho it was not zero's speciality he gave up and started learning to fix the moto and then became a pro on it#sometimes wishes even to make modifications but idk if catnap would like that HAHAHS#and i have more stuff about sweet home#for spiderdog au i just wanna draw an unhinged zero(its a mix between the cartoon one and the bigger body one since in this au they are als#an alien)#wanna draw them as doc ock so much unhinged guy who is all goof and silly but has twist of mood sometimes they are spiteful to human for#what they done to them </3#(btw zero in sweet home au mostly just research about the whereabouts and scouts locations where the bad guys are he doesnt#face them directly unless is necesary. he would be scared but he would snap back imediatly if a friend is about to get hurt#but he would be blind by rage and wont stop hurting the scientist evem tho is dead. he is working on his issues HAHA)
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pallases · 7 months
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my prof giving us an exam on content he can’t even do himself <3
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jewishdainix · 1 year
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Fitz: if I had a nickle for everytime one of my kids was told my identity while I was unconcioud I'd have two nickles, which isn't a lot but it's weird that it happebed twice
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jonoosaarchive · 1 year
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hi i am a secret klk shipper (anti friends.. plus i dont want harrassment over a fake ship) and i just wanted to say i am *obsessed* with your art. its all so soft and lovely and just wonderful!! id go on a reblogging spree if i could. much kudos to you! i hope your day will be lovely :D
UUEEE THANK YOU 💗💗 that means so much i'm so happy you like it 🥹 and dw i appreciate the intention!! i'm sorry you have to keep it a secret, i completely get it ;-; but in case you ever decide to not keep it a secret anymore, the fandom is full of nice people and they all stand up for each other, i felt nervous at first but because of that the anti's comments don't bother me anymore :D , have a lovely day as well!! 💗
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roachemoji · 1 year
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#bo posting#talky#ive been writing so much the last few days and as great as it iss#i miss drawing so much#i enjoy being creative and im so happy i get to do this for someone i love dearly#but DAMN i wish i could just draw#and im also stressed out because i decided i wanna keep this project private...#like im gonna delete links n posts n stuff to it i dont wanna post about it anymore#this is a gift to someone i love and i wanna keep it between us#and i aughahdkashd#i feel SHITTY like im keeping a secret#but this is special and important#Im scared that im making people jealous because i havent been very present since the whole fiasco with my medication#and the fact that my sleep schedule is far more consistent because im trying to time it be awake when my friends in later timezones#are actually online?#Which makes it harder to stay up late#like i get ready for bed at 11pm lmao#im trying so hard to spend time with everyone equally#or plan a head so i try to have movie nights or eat dinner or talk with friends before other plans if i can spare the energy#because i DONT want them to feel left out or like im prioritizing other people#but i still worry that they might feel that way and im too scared to talk about it#because theres a mountain of other fucking issues#and ive dug myself into a hole of things i havent beenable to talk about#because ive been drugged out of my mind and am only just now in this very moment realizing how present i am mentally#AHHHHHHHAJHKFSHJASKDHKJ#maintaining friendships is so fucking hard for me and i hate it so much#it shouldnt be this hard but it is!!!!!!!!!!!#i shouldnt struggle with balancing my time between people but it feels like such a task and i feel so shitty saying that#i love my friends but i feel like a bad friend
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One of the really nice things about this fandom is how there's space to open up discussion about trauma in a way that can make a person feel seen/heard in a non-judgemental way (without the worry of being a burden/upsetting people)
The characters in this story each have their own traumas, each caused by different factors and dealt with in different ways. And they're really well written.
It gives people who come from heavy trauma something relatable beyond the typical hero story where all that trauma is buried and ignored, or resolved in some way that seems good narratively and gives a happy ending, but is upsettingly bad to someone who's experienced that same kind of thing. (And don't get me started on media where the PTSD character's "happy ending" is death)
It also gives people who haven't experienced that sort of trauma meaningful ways to understand it better, and discuss it. One of the main reasons I don't talk about my problems much is because I know how awkward it is for people to hear about. They don't know what to do in that situation, and I really can't blame them. It's probably very jarring to hear about.
It...feels like there's more equal footing, though, in this fandom. Because it helps those who haven't been traumatized understand what it's like, and gives space to interact with the characters experiencing it. It bridges the gap. It gives both sides something to add to the conversation.
I think what makes me uncomfortable discussing it normally is that I feel like as soon as my experiences are brought into a conversation *I* hold all the reigns and it leaves very little space for others to voice their thoughts add to it. It's hard to open up and feel welcome when you're worried about how voicing your experiences affects those around you.
I've seen some incredible observations/takes from people analyzing the characters. I've spoken with people who haven't experienced what I have, but have played this game and seem to actually understand what some of my experiences might have been like, and have valuable insights. It feels... really nice to not feel like an aspect of my life is some horrible little secret that needs to stay hidden.
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