#but i AM FRUSTRATED

[oilith]

I think almost everyone who was around in tnp should drop dead. From full warriors at least. I'm tired of the same cats over and over again because erins keep recycling characters and refuse to kill anyone. If they'd finally kill squilf or idk, even jayfeather or dovewing or something it'd make more space for actually interesting new cats, because rn, i literally don't give a fuck about the new cats. They are uninteresting, i don't even remember their names half the time, and every other cat is the same personality with a different colour. It's kind of a same problem i have with helluva boss, where i like the idea, but the execution is just "meh". The fact that the erins are kind of trying to one-up themselves with new arcs doesn't help either. I'm tired of reading about some supposedly world shattering event only for firestarclone #122 to swoop in and save the day only for it to repeat again in the next arc.

[squidbulborb]

Today was a wild day, did a lot, yet nothing mattered since i didn't draw anything good. #beyondpissed #selfcare

[flying-fangirls]

Honestly? I feel like they should have pushed the whole Mother Lauren thing to the next year. That way they could have drawn out the scariness and threat to a longer arc, like Strexcorp. A city-wide takeover is kinda a big deal but this arc felt pretty underwhelming. Then the finale could focus on characters instead of action! We could have explored Kevin's past and thoughts about it, Carlos and Kevin's dynamic, the parallels/contrasts between Cecil and Kevin, Tamika and the boy, literally ANY of the many complicated relationship- and character-driven arcs that we'd been following for the rest of the season. But no, instead they tried to cram action and character into the last two episodes and it just made them both worse for it.

[alphacrone]

nobody tells you that 'advocating for yourself medically' often means 'annoying the SHIT out of your provider's receptionists because NO ONE WILL CALL YOU BACK TO ANSWER A TIME SENSITIVE QUESTION

[sittingoverheredreaming]

I get being weary about leaks but honestly the take that it’s better to experience TOTK “as Nintendo intended” is so frustrating to me because I don’t think Nintendo has some great plan about the flow of information about the game, I think they’re giving so little information because they know they don’t need to give much information for the game to sell

I really think the concept of a spoiler has gotten so overblown, and I think that feeds a culture where companies can market media solely based on franchise or nostalgia or whatever angle they can find along those lines instead of putting together anything that tries to sell it based on the actual premise or plot

[hyaeth]

this me rn

[invisiblerhythmcat]

I am trying so hard to rest

but I hate it

I want to live my fucking life. I know it will go better if I rest.

But I just keep seeing the list of things to do getting longer

I have a show in March and I know I have to rest if I'm going to be able to make it. I know I can't teach if I don't rest. I know I can't rebuild my community work if I don't rest.

But everything on my list is specifically about making these things happen and every time I rest, these feel farther away from reality.

I really truly believe I can keep dancing no matter how sick I get, but it sucks how many ways I can't dance or have to dance differently

and it sucks to feel like I'm always going to be behind

and I just want to not have to rest

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[catmask]

the 'all marriage is gay as far as im concerned' except its me watching a man and woman character in a show i like and accidentally saying 'theyre so gay' because i literally forget thats not the word for romance because to me all romance is gay

[letmetellyouaboutmyfeels]

I am incredibly serious right now when I beg you all, please, and if you have Twitter or Tiktok or whatever to please spread the word: click on an author's profile on Ao3.

You want to know if an author has written more? Want to know if they're still writing? Want to see more from them? Want to know if they've written a trope or kink or sex scenario you enjoy?

Click on their name. And look at their profile.

I cannot tell you how many times in the last six months someone has read a new or newer fic of mine and said they (a new reader who has read nothing else I've done) "can't wait to see what you do next!" I've written 50+ fics and over a million words already.

"I don't know if you're still writing..." click on my profile. I am. I literally wrote a 128k+ fic for that ship last month.

"Would you ever do X?" "Please do Y!" I already did. Click on my name and look at my works.

Archive of our Own is a library. It's an archive. Not social media. It is your responsibility to fight back against the laziness that corporate algorithms have trained into you.

Click my author name. Just click it. Just click it.

Before you demand more, or ask if a writer will do XYZ, or wonder if the author still writing, or anything - click on their profile. Click on the author's profile.

I'm not trying to be mean or condescending or anything like that. I'm just exhausted. It's disheartening and frustrating to repeat myself ad nauseam, because someone couldn't take thirty seconds to do the tiniest bit of work to see if I've written lately, if I've written more for their ship, or scan my works to see if I've written what they're asking for. Please. Please. I'm begging.

Click the author's name, and explore before you ask.

[evilovesyou]

Please for the love of god just let me click on the user that something was rb from and see the damn post on that blog

[mushbeast]

we’ll fly together until the stars collide

[vettely]

as someone who is starting a new uni at 23 but is blending in perfectly with the 18-year-olds i'm curious and i need to ask

feel free to reblog and tell me in the tags what age do you get mistaken for, and do you find that to be a bad or a good thing :))

[bizarrelittlemew]

i can't wait to be 30+ and still in fandom and i can't wait to be 40+ and still in fandom and i can't wait to be 50+ and still in fandom and i can't wait to be 60+ and still in fandom and i can't wait to be 70+ and still in fandom and i can't wait to be 80+ and still in fandom and i can't wait to be 90+ and still in fandom and i can't wait to look back on my life and know that i loved things deeply and passionately and was inspired to create and was part of communities with incredible people from all over the world brought together by the stories that touched us

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

[potassiumprincess]

i think marinette is worse at resting when she's sick but adrien is worse at sitting things out if he's injured. i have no explanation, these are just the vibes