#but hey u know what? dont let me tell u what to do🙄

[criminal-sen]

This is my latest Mayuri song (but could also stand in for whatever poor little meow meow is holding your life together) I love the mix of disco and totally dissonant like... fucked up Electronica (girl help idk Music Snob words), really gives it a manic vibe that exactly expresses the state of my brain on most days:D

[diorsluv]

casual , part 11

“ but we’re ”

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next chapter notes ) so… i was going back over old chapters of feather and i realized they used to be SO short??? like why did i suddenly start making everything longer but for the sake of the plot and my sanity i’m ACTUALLY going to be reverting to my old ways this time (not lying!!!!) and it’ll be easier for me to get chapters out 😭

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[jazzyblusnowflake]

OMG hi…I really like your art and was wondering if you wanna be mutuals??????????? Also tell me about your MD ships :3c

honey we are dating- .....okay yknow what- HI PRETTY & TALENTED LADY- yess i will absolutely love toooo 🙈💕💕💕💕💕

also lets see uhhh okay this is an excuse for me to just... expload-

keep in mind not every ship is meant for all of you so dont badger me about stuff that ISNT CANON or YOU DONT SHIP. contrary to whatever you believe, when somone posts about THEIR ships, nobody wants to hear about you NOT shipping it on THAT EXACT post.

hang in there, this gon be a long one >:p

First off we are starting strong with Nuzi- Biscuitbites obviously thats a given- these two just have too much to be said about why and how they make eachother the best version of eachother, whether they ever became canon or not- they fit like puzzle pieces- they lessen eachothers negative traits by being their for eachother.

next is Vuzi- Violentviolet, they are my favorite kind of enemies to lovers 😔 but its also tragic smh. kinda pissed off at how V always does something good in Uzis favor only when she is LITERALLY PASSED OUT- either in the camp ep on the bus or in Alices lab. like damn ofFUCKINGcourse Uzi wouldnt know she cares about her 😭😭😭

envuzi- Violentbitingbiscuits, i love these goobers with all my heart- they deserve the best 😔💕💕💕💕

envy - [does this poor ship just NOT have an exclusive FINDABLE tag name??? im calling them GoldenMemories...], i like to think that if they were in the manor still, and nothing bad had ever happened, these two would be comforting eachother in the healthiest way possible. V needs someone like N and N is just adorable like that uwu

Next we have JxTessa/Jessa- [calling them Fancyblades cuz why not-] J deserves some closure for the shit shes gone through smhhh 😔, its a tragic yuri of J loving and wanting something she probably already accepted she couldnt have, and even then she gotta deal with Ns ass being the favorite one regardless of how hard she tries to be perfect... sighhh i wanna imagine them in a future where Tessa was spared as the only human and J could save her 😭😭😭😭 Tessa might have loved doing mechanical stuff or wore black to hide grease/oil stains on her clothes from her parents and wore gloves to hide her oily stained hands- i want her to have a scene of wiring drones back to life and saving them and saying something like "hey there, you made it! dont worry, ill take care of you, youre my friend now :3" or something //dies//, also before anyone says it- even if Tessa was a teen in the flashbacks- romance is not exclusive to ADULTS, teens can love eachother without having sexual stuff involved. no she was not their MOTHER figure, she was their FRIEND who liked to fix robots for herself to not be alone in a house where her own parents literally chain her up as punishment. i dont even know why im arguing about this, people headcanon or make aus about characters NOT being dead all the time and if Tessa was alive for as long as J thought she was, Tessa would have been a perfectly fine adult either way. so counting this, yes shes canonically considered an adult when Cyn tries to imitate an adult humans body 🙄 makes as much sense as everything else i guess-

next ones i got is NorixYeva/Neva- Solverlilies- i just think theyre neat 😭😭😭 and once again, like everything else in this franchise- they are tragic yuris 😔 damn liam im finding a pattern over here 🤨 anyway, i like to think they either got closer in the lab experimentations or were already close when they were working as WDs in the campsite area for the humans. obviously canonically they were probably straight or just not into eachother romantically- [Nori either u have the worst taste men or Khan just fucking lost it after you died-] but also on the other handddd.... they have 2 hands and they are robots, i want them to kiss like two barbie dolls and im gonna make them do just that-

DollxLizzy/Dizzy- Bloodypink, wost fucking ship names ever, i cant find shit on them with these tags and it makes me angry >:/ at this point 2/3s of my ships are just tragic yuris smh, Doll did not deserve any of the things handed to her, even if she went about doing some things the wrong way i wish Lizzy didnt just abandon her- but then again, Doll did kinda abuse Lizzys trust and Lizzy got scared of being close to a serial murderer so.... morality calls this a draw? 😭 im crying... i wish someone was there to help Doll... sigh... i like to think Lizzy would have waited for Doll to just come back at some point... oh well, thats why AUs exist :"3 //sobs in the corner//

DollxUzi/Dollzi- Bloodybats, this ship is so underrated to me... they could have been... so much more. but why weren't they? did Yeva abandon ever getting close to Uzi when she was a kid after Nori died? did Uzi and Doll just never play around together as kids when their mothers were so close? were they ever close and something went wrong as they grew older? at worst they could have been like sisters together, and at best maybe more than friends. i just dont know what happened here, like Yeva could have tried to keep an eye on Uzi, maybe Uzi could have found Dolls powers so cool before having them too- i dont know theres literally tons of possibilities- but if Doll deserved to be saved or cared for by anyone, at least one of them should have been Uzi... sigh.

ThadxV- Killingblonde, yall this is... the cutest shit... ever???? like from here on out we kinda go into the more or less crackship territory but these two are adorable- Dumbass yet wholesome jock boy that just wants to keep his queen happy 😔👌👌👌 He and Uzi would have so much to talk about on "crushing on literal murder bots that stabbed and almost ate us" its literally love at first stab smhhh 😫💕

ThadxSam- Smokyjock ???? for some fucking reason??? i dont know what my brain did here man- i just like the trope of someone getting under Thads skin- like pair up the healthy sports loving gym boy with the lazy but wholesome dumbass that does drugs or is always just sleep deprived and Thad is always trying to just... take care of his ass and make him take care of himself but he just WONT SMHHH-

okay some more or less crack ships down here:

ThadxN: it speaks for itself. its too adorable and youll go blind from the light of wholesomeness-

ThadxNxUzi: Uzi will die here from the overwhelming wholesomeness... oh bonus if its just a 4s polycule of ThadxNxUzixV i mean i know im pushing my luck but.... random crackships go brr- V and Uzi will complain but love their dumbass golden puppy partners-

ThadxUzi: i think they could have been close and Thad caring about her as a childhood friend turned crush sounds just too cute for me 😔

LizzyxUzi: another random ass rivals to lovers or some shit idk what this is, Lizzy would pay Uzi to kiss the fuck out of her i dont make the rules-

ThadxLizzy: in some cases where they are NOT headcanoned as siblings or cousins, i think they have a good energy of wholesome jock bf and girly queen cheerleader lol, Thad is just a good bf eitherway-

DollxUzixLizzy: the gals would not leave a single second of silence for the small gremlin i swear to God- [Uzi is gay as FUCK for her gfs, absolute girloser unit with her gorgeous but crazy gfs]

okay for the end i have some characters that arent ships but i wish they could have become closer as friends or work out their issues...

J and N- too much abuse and toxicity here, i wish they could talk together more and see they have a lot of things in common- maybe a full line of dialogue from J without threatning N in every sense of the manner would be nice for a change =_=

Doll and V- again, a bit morally ambiguous to ship a character with the murderer of your family, esp when said murderer hasnt expressed regret lmao, but i wish they could at least be friends... Dolls disdain for the murder drones pushed her to end up the way she did. maybe if she didnt do it alone she would have been alive by now. so i like to think what would have happened if she and V could have made up- not necessarily Doll forgiving her- but at least having the space to grow and understand why they did they things that happened.

Cyn and literally ANYONE- i want the solver to be SEPARATE from Cyn- i wish Cyn would have still existed somewhere down there and was savable- i wish this poor child AI had a happy ending to her by connecting with the others as ACTUAL siblings... goddamnit 😔

aaaand thats it for this fine ass day 🫡 yall are welcome to ask about any of these- boy the tags are gonna be.... a lot.

[stasia123]

Jude bellingham

Summary: trying soft launching your relationship with Jude and jobe ruining it.

Face claim: Alexandra Saint Mleux(she’s so fucking gorgeous)

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Thanks jobe for ruining our soft launch…

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[pumpkinsy0]

Headcanons for Two-Bit and Tim EXCEPT:

1. Their both girls

2.Two-Bit is shorter than Tim (like under 5’5)

3. TWIST! Two-Bit is the short masc to Tim’s tall femme.

(Totally not projecting the fact that I’m short and lean more towards masculine…)

Bonus points if you throw in some Dallas too because this trio should never be seperate

fawkkkk it, fem tim=tiana, two stays two, dallas=dahlia

•tbh tia would never b straight feminine, at most she kinda crosses that line w some of her things she does BUT GENERALLY SPEAKING??? not that much of a feminine queen, genderqueer???? oh yea,,,,oohhhhh yeaaaaa😈😈😈, dare i say that is what couldve made two more interested in her, perchanceeeee genderqueer tia is what got two to explore being more masculine???? hmmmmm

•two would b less upset about being short ONLY IF that means shes eye to eye w tias boobs, HAS to b eye to eye. tia knows two does it too, imagine that one clone high scene where ghandi kept staring at joans boobs and thats it, but maybe if tia was a lil tipsy, she’d b fine w it and play into it

•tia has to dress two or else it just looks like two raided her dads closet for anything that looked even remotely cool (THATS EXACTLY WHAT SHE DID!!!!) tia can DRESS u guys need to know that

•two is a chubby woman dont let anyone tell u otherwise anon, shes short but shes still pretty strong and can pick tia up (BARELY but she can do it so hey). tia gets a lil jumpscare when she does bc shes literally forced to fall into twos arms and two is so short tias scared shes just gonna straight up fall

•i can push my tia w a raspy voice and fem two w a high pitched voice agenda!!! sometimes dahlia catches two practicing pitching her voice so its more lowered, and shes never forgetting it

•two can get tia to sit in her lap and bc of their size difference it literally just looks likes tia is just sitting down on a chair, two will literally disappear and her legs r numb, but at the end of the day shes winning, lucky bastard🙄🙄

•two bit is mexican to me and she plays around too much, she thinks shes such a comedian making aunt jokes bc ppl call tia, tia, instead of tiana. tia is so sick of it, like yes two bit, that joke was funny the hundredth time around, PLEASE say it again so i can laugh😐. and here comes dahlia saying the joke too, now its DOUBLE unfunny, GET OUT!!!!😒😒😒😒

•two calls tia a LOT of pet names, like a LOT a lot, tia doesnt mind it, but tia does NOTTT like it when she does it in front of guys, tia needs to look intimidating to them to b respected she needs to seem like a threat, two coming over and calling her, “mi vida” or whatever

•”here babe wear my ____” and then tia can barely fit into it, but twos probably into it that sick sick FREAK. that feeling only last for like 3 minutes tho, tia can accidentally rip it a lil just by moving

•two is both jealous and into the fact that tia is stronger than her, two tried impressing tia w those bunching bag games that shows how strong u r, she was a lil too short and partially missed it💔💔💔

[thecynthh]

smart ass - M.S pt 5

synopsis - matt’s not doing to well with his schooling but is determined to get his degree and pass his classes. one essay which is a huge part of their grade haunts him with a bad mark, luckily y/n is willing to help him

notes - NOT PROOF READ, lowercase intention smut near the end, aftercare cus thats what matt specializes in, cuddles

a/n - uhm idk if yalls could tell, or if u knew but i’m a virgin and have never kissed anyone so 🫣

leave some suggestions for chris or matt fics for me to write pls as well :3

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present day a few days after their second study session

y/n pov

matt s 🐼

hey message me when ur leaving ur house. 8:46

btw we r ordering food to the house cus i dont wanna get gas. 8:47

text me what u want from CFA. 8:47

you

what in the flying fuck is CFA? 8:49

matt s 🐼

uhm hello? kid, how do u not know what CFA is???? 8:49

you

abbreviations like this is what's wrong with our generation… 8:50

matt s 🐼

kay ur so weird omfg. 5:50

CFA clearly means chick-fil-a smartass 🙄. 8:51

you

oh well then 😋. nuggets and waffle fries please 🛐🛐. 8:52

and sunjoy btww. 8:52

matt s 🐼

ew u like sunjoy? 8:53

you

u like rootbear don’t talk to me ✋. 8:52

and let me in pls im already outside :). 8:52

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i sling my bag over my shoulder and leave my car, waiting outside the large house with thrilling anticipation as i wait for matt to open the door. I see the fluff of his brown locks and a sweater similar to the one i’ve seen him wear before at school. i dont know why i get giddy when i see him, i dont know how we went to only speaking when madi was around too greeting each other whenever we see each other in the halls or cafe or even in our shared classes.

matt and his brothers were some of my closest friends now, after madi introduced me to them at a party, both of us got insanely drunk and made me call off crazy drinking ever since. all i remember from that night was the way matt took care of me while i was in a very vulnerable state and didn’t take advantage of me. i haven’t told anyone but madi about what happened to me when i was younger, and i’m glad she’s still taken her promise to heart, the only thing that telling her about my past shit did was make her and i closer.

i see matt in full view after he opens the door, “hey!” i say with a cheery expression despite how late it was for me.

“heyyy, thanks for coming by the way, even though you had a shift earlier.” he says sheepishly, before i left for work he messaged me begging to have another study session because he had more questions about the essay part of the exam. “oh hey lemme put your stuff in my room, just chill on the couch before the food gets here.” i pass him my backpack and laptop as he begins to walk down a hallway to make it to his room.

i move through the small entryway and become more apparent in his brothers view, “heyy y/n” nick says moving up to me for a hug, i take in his embrace.

“hi nick!!” i say excitedly. other than matt, ive hung out with nick a lot too, madi always has him over at her apartment, and even the three of us have made it a plan to meet up at our favourite bakery and talk for however long we want too a couple times a week. out of the little over a month i’ve know the triplets, nick has made a huge impact on me, and i felt safe around him, as well as chris and matt.

he lets go of me while i walk over to a slumped over chris on the couch, when he realised i was here he sits up on the edge of the couch. “sup chris,” i dap him up doing a little bro half hug with him.

“always nice to see you y/n,” he says as our arms unfold from the middle of us. i take a seat next to him with a comfortable amount of distance between us. matt returns not too long after i greet everyone. He sits down between chris and i and nick returns from the kitchen with a pepsi, root beer, bottled water and a lemonade, passing out everyone's drink knowing what each of us would ask for. matt and i give nick a thank you as he nods his head after.

nick stationed himself on the elongated part of the couch settling in with his fluffy blanket, he puts on a stranger thing episode and we all sit watching the tv. it only takes another five minutes of the episode for the doorbell to ring through the house. nick gets up immediately scurrying to the door with his fluffy blanket wrapped around him as he talks to the delivery man, thanking him and making small steps to see the rest of us. he comes back with two large bags of food planting them on the coffee table in front of all of us, before grabbing a tray of drinks after going back to the entrance.

“thank you for paying matty,” chris says, rubbing up again his brother with his lips pursed and now shoulder to shoulder with his older brother. i giggle at the sight, copying chris.

“mmmmh thanks mattyyyy” i say resting my head on the peak of his shoulder, pursing my lips as well and copying chris’ weird voice.

“you’re a fucking weirdo chris,” matt says in a disgusted voice flicking the other head that was very close to his face. “and you're welcome y/n.”

i laugh at chris’ overly dramatic reaction to what matt did to him. still giggling a bit at the sight of matt completely ignoring his brothers reaction, I say “just tell me how much i own you.”

“eh, don’t worry about it, it’s on me, plus save up for that new laptop you were talking about. i know how much you want it,” i blush slightly.

“aww thank you then,” i wrap my arms around him and squeeze him, he hands me the food that i asked for and retract back onto the couch.

“by the way, what time are we planning to stay up till? i told madi that i’ll tell her when i was heading home.” i saw looking at matt.

“well its kinda late so if you wanna stay in the guest room, im fine with that.” matt says, moving his head towards me, then breaking eye contact with the tv screen.

“im ay okay with that if you wanna stay over! plus you know your way around the house,” nick says giving his approval to matts idea of staying over.

“mhm im chill with it,” chris simply says.

“uhh yeah then, i'm down, thanks!”

we eat then say goodnight to nick and chris before we go to matt's room for some studying.

i lay down onto his bed as he walks over to his bathroom to change into some comfier clothes. while hes in there i start to think about our first study session when i found out matt had a crush on me. i thought it was very cute, but it made matt awkward on our last study night. i’m glad that he's eased up now, i just acted like i didn’t know anything and didn’t want to push on how he was feeling because I knew it would make his anxiety worse.

i come back to my senses seeing matt reappear from the bathroom door. we stayed on track for studying for an hour and a half before we eventually put on brooklyn 99 on in the background and talked.

“so, the retake is in a couple days, you think you’re ready?” i was hopeful he would be good by then because tonight felt very productive. I quizzed him on a couple of important ideas while he was playing with a baseball, throwing it up and down in the air. i learnt that he understands stuff better when he is doing something with his hands, it keeps him focused.

“hm, i’m not too sure, maybe another study sesh the day after tomorrow so by friday i’ll have all the stuff we went over fresh in my mind.” the baseball still gets thrown up and falls down in front of his face, with his hand waiting to catch it before it smacks him right on his nose. “thanks again for this,” i hear him catch it one more time before he moves his hand away from his face and looks at me just to the right of him. i'm hovering over him slightly, his eyes glow the brightest in the slight illumination from the lamp we always use when we study.

“yeah of course matt, you're my friend anyways.” our faces mirror each other, his eyes roam my faces while his hand holds the side of my face.

i toss my hair to the side of my head to lean down to kiss matt, he immediately returns the kiss enveloping my bottom lip with his. i moan into his mouth feeling him push me down and dominate me. one of his hands rests on my hip keeping me down as i pull him down with my legs letting him top me. most of his body is pressed down to mine, i lift my hips to give myself some kind of sensation i desperately crave for.

“fuck, i’m sorry are you okay with this?” matt says when he disconnects us.

i cup his chin bringing him a little closer, “i really fucking like you matt, please don’t stop.”

a smirk grows onto his face, “i really fucking like you too, you’re lucky i do.” he becomes more unserious pecking little kisses amoungst my face making a very loud “mwah” sound with each of he presses into my skin.

“matttt” i say through my sour looking face while he shows his affection.

“okay, okay, i’m done. but uh, how about we kiss again, didn’t get a good feel of it the first time.” he says with a knowing smirk on his face. i use my hand to weave through his brunette hair pulling him towards me again, we share a more passionate kiss, with knowing and love rather than lust.

it doesn’t take us long till things got more serious, his lips attach to my neck instantly sucking multiple hickeys into visible spots on my neck, moving down to my collar bone and eventually to the full and plump part of my boob. this is where my dream stopped last week, ive been trying to ignore it for the longest time but being in the moment now after thinking about it in my head makes it feel even more surreal.

his hand sneaks to the bottom of my fresh love shirt that i took from matt’s drawers when i found out i was sleeping here his fingers feel the hem of it. “is it alright if i take your shirt off?” he says with a quiet voice, almost afraid of what i’ll say.

i quickly nod in reply but that doesn’t seem good enough for him.

“words smart ass, i need words.” he says with a little bit of a condescending tone to his love tainted words.

“yes matt, you can take my shirt off too.” i say with a small giggle following after it.

he lifts the fabric to uncover the same white lace bra i was wearing while i slept over at his house by accident. “mh, i’ve been dreaming about this for a while ever since i saw you in it that morning,” he kisses the lace that travels to the small connecting piece of fabric between the two cups of my bra.

“and i know you heard what chris said to me that morning, yet you still acted like nothing was wrong.” he moves his hand to my upper back placing his hand onto my bra strap, “hey, can i take this off?”

“mhm,” my lips sealed trying to conceal my response to the amazing feeling of his hands on my body, he undoes the clip on my back with skill and purpose. the touch of his fingertips grant goosebumps to my skin in a very arousing manner.

he pulls the dainty clothing article off my arms and throws it to the floor benign absolutely amazed by my tits, they weren’t much but it seemed like matt was under a spell, he latched his lips just above my nipple to give me more hickeys, he sucks and soothes repeating this multiple times before he eventually dips down to my nipple, i feel the rush of arousal arching slightly off the bed.

i moan in response to the new sensation, i’m not exactly a virgin, but i haven’t done anything like this in a while, let alone at all for god sake. he massages the other boob, playing with the nipple with his hand the opposite of the one his mouth is very focused on.

he finally comes up for air after a little bit teasing, my thighs rub together and sits up to rip his shirt off to match my level of revealing skin, off goes his sweats as well leaving him in just his boxers, “matt, oh my god” i'm out of breath and very needy.

he continues a trail of kisses down to my clothes pussy, he looks up at me while holding the stretchy waistband of my pants, i give him a vigorous nod knowing what he was asking for.

he slides them completely off leaving me in just my underwear. he plants another sweet kids over my clothed heat which milks another desperate moan from me. “matt wait-“ he immediately comes up from my bottom half and lays beside me listening to me.

“hey we don’t have too if you don’t want too, i’m down if you just wanna go to bed in the other room, or even if you just wanna stay here and cuddle for the rest of the night.” he says before i can go ahead with what i was thinking.

“no, no i really want too it’s just, i haven’t really… done this before.” i tell him, he seems almost fully unaffected by my words.

“that’s fine, i’m here to make you feel good,” he places his hand nearing my core again, he rubs my panties over my clit moving down to feel the very apparent wet spot. “wow i’ve barely touched you and your so worked up,” his voice was sultry with a hint of a condescending tone.

“m-matt please” i struggle to say feeling the pressure he's putting down onto my throbbing clit.

“i’m gonna take these off now, okay?” he says with his fingers wrapped around the thin string of my thong that’s barely covers anything.

he slips them off admiring the sight in front of him, i almost get self conscious wanting to cover myself up with his blankets. his head dips and his hands pant onto my hips and one on my inner thigh. his tongue makes very sudden contact with my clit, he sucks and swirls his tongue around it, feeling the very heavy pressure i arch my back slighting leaning forward into his face.

his finger creeps and teases my hole before he fully plunged it into me. i heavy moan escapes my lips, “quiet now princess, can’t let nick or chris hear you.”

he continues his movements stimulating both my clit and hole at the same time, “more, please” i say with a pleading tone. he removes his finger from inside of me and replaces it with his tongue and mouth. he absolutely devoured my pussy giving me as much pleasure as he could, his mouth moving back to my clip and he slid his finger back into me moving it at a moderate pace.

i don’t try very hard to conceal my very loud moans, as soon as matt enters a second finger into my dripping cunt, i release with a pornographic moan, squeezing his head between my legs. “holy shit matt,” he licks up all of my hot cum and comes back up to kiss me.

“mmh you did so well for me, you ready for me now?” i say a needy yes while he goes back to sit back on the his headboard. he removes his boxers with such haste letting his cock spring out with a bead of pre-cum leaking out. “i wanna watch you ride me, you control the pace and how deep you wanna go.” he whispers into my ear.

he lifts me on top of him, kissing him passionately while i grind down onto his twitching cock. he lets out a guttered groan “okay, let’s do this cause i could bust just from looking at you.”

he lines himself up and holds my hips while i sink down onto him. his so thick and long, i feel him in ever existing crevasse in my cunt. “fuck yes” i say letting out a heavy breath.

“holy shit you’re so tight-“ he says between his monas and hard breathes. i begin to move myself up and down slowly, whatever pain that came at first quickly moved to pleasure as i speed up my movements.

my tits bounce every time i move up or down, my movements are set at a constant pace, “matt, i think- i think i’m gonna cum.” i say, feeling his dick twitch in my pussy again.

“come for me baby, give it to me,” he says, taking me by my love handles and moving me up and down a little faster. i came hearing his words letting out a couple of breathy moans, he follows soon after me. i feel his thick long ropes of cum fill me up and come back down dripping onto his cock.

matt does a couple of slower pumps in and out of me to ride both of us through our highs. he picks me up as if i weigh nothing and puts me down beside him laying down onto the bed.

he goes into the bathroom to retrieve a small cloth and comes back to wipe me down. he does a couple of strips to pick up as much extra cum he could. i feel him hit my clit and i whimper loudly, “oh god, i’m sorry, i know your still sensitive.” once he’s finished he goes into the bathroom and cleans himself up.

fishing his boxers from the ground he slides them on and grabs my underwear and a large t-shirt from his closet. he hops onto the bed putting on my underwear and pulling me up to put on the shirt.

“mh thank you,” i say tired and groggy.

he plants a kiss onto my forehead “anything for you smart ass.”

he comes under the covers and wraps his arms around me, intertwining our legs. we sleep peacefully until the morning

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[ichigomis]

hey, um can i request some hcs with sakusa, the twins, iwaizumi, tsukki and shirabu having a so that's shy but who's love language is touch, like their so gets easily flustered by displays of affection but they don't want to stop hugging etc, sorry if it's quite too much😅 you can remove some char if you want, thank you❤

HAIKYUU BOYS WHEN YOUR LOVE LANGUAGE IS PHYSICAL TOUCH BUT YOU'RE SHY ABOUT IT

with: sakusa, atsumu, osamu, iwaizumi, tsukki, shirabu

note: hi nonnie this is so cute~ i was 🥺 all throughout writing this egwurhgief —fluff!

part one - part two - part three

❊ SAKUSA

the two of you are cut from the same cloth, you both are putty over physical touch but get all shy to ask for it

the headache of just dealing with you two smh

anyway, in some way you’re shyer about it than him wherein he’d just straight up deny wanting attention than ask for it lmao

when ur feeling touch starved though, you’d initiate cuddle time by tapping his arm or tugging on the sleeves of his shirt

at first, he would always be so confused and would awkwardly hug you

but after a while, he started getting the hang of your little habit and he’d carry you to the sofa or the bed for cuddles 🥺🥺🥺🥺

when he initiates cuddles though you get much more flustered

you'd stay there dead silent and stiffly hug him back fniernreivr

at first, it was awkward but now u just enjoy hearing his breathing and heartbeat and he loves seeing you quietly snuggle in deeper into his touch he loves u so much im not even kidding

some days though, especially after a long day of practice, he’d run up to you and hug you and you’d just stay there... frozen... for a good few seconds then hug him back

would definitely start laughing uncontrollably while cuddling because of how stiff or blushy you are pls this man as if he wasn't a flustering mess as well 🙄

❊ ATSUMU

WILL HUG AND KISS AND CUDDLE AND CODDLE YOU WITHOUT YOU EVEN ASKING ESPECIALLY IN PUBLIC AND HONEY YOU ARE IN FOR A RIDE IM SO SORRY

always has a hand on you no matter the situation, he either slings his arm on your shoulder, holds you by the waist, or has his hands on your back pockets please

when he does that though you get all blushy and you tug at his shoulder and he immediately understands

as much as he thinks it’s so cute when you get shy and blushy, he’d transfer his hands somewhere else instead and asks if you’re more comfortable now

loves giving surprise back hugs !!!

you always either a) shriek in surprise or b) squirm in his touch, but never push him away :')

“tsumuuu i’m working...”

“well then let go,” he'd say teasingly, knowing well you would never do so (ahaha we be simps like that i don't make the rules)

“mmmm...”

“mmm?”

“dont wanna....” you mumble, and he brings you in closer </3

he knows you're shy about this and would never push you out of your comfort zone, but encourages you to speak up when you want cuddles !!!

❊ OSAMU

first off he gives the best hugs, hands down

he knows that whenever you snuggle your head deeper into his chest you need more cuddle time and he willingly gives it

no words exchanged, this man just knows you that well !

teases you a bit though when you get shy to ask for more cuddles but it's all in good fun :D

“okay time for dinner,,” he'd say, pulling away from your hug

you’d groan and hold him tighter and he’d just laugh, “what are you? a koala? come on...” he’d push you away and you’d pull him back in

“alright, tell me what you want.”

“samu...”

“you have to tell me what you want or else we’re heading to the kitchen for dinner,”

you'd groan blushing furiously, “cuddles.” you'd say under your breath

he'd move his ear closer to your lips teasingly, “hm? what was that?”

“i want... more cuddles,” you mumble.

“aww, you should've just said so, baby!”

loves sitting you on his lap so he can see you all blushy and have easy access to pepper your face and head with light kisses

in public, he’s pretty chill. would never do anything you’re uncomfy with but will hold your hand or offer his arm so you could hold it :')

❊ IWAIZUMI

was so confused when you would stare at him with furrowed eyebrows... you were actually just thinking of how to say you wanted cuddles

he’d wrack his brain for why you were acting that way and tries to remember if he made you mad in anyway waaaaah pls just hug him

eventually, ask you what's wrong and you’d stutter about having a long day and just wanting to be held

okay so this man picks up on non-verbal cues pretty easily but sometimes he just overthinks things when it comes to you bc he doesn't want to hurt/upset you in any way !

once he understands what you want, he’ll pull you in his ripped (had to put that ehehehe) arms and hug you tight

yeah and you're both blushing as if it's the first time you're holding each other

also gets really shy but he’d rather be extra brave with you than see you pouting out of nowhere lmaooo

i'm talking about tight bear hugs and his hugs are just so cozy i-

like atsumu he'd encourage you to speak up when you want something from him

you two have practice exercises for this smh where he'd instruct and encourage you to tell him u want cuddles before doing so

hajime iwaizumi (27) athletic trainer coming through i guess

❊ TSUKKI

you saw this coming, yes, he'd tease you about your shyness but of course, it's just him being head over heels for you

“come here,” he’d pull you in and whisper to your head, “why are you getting shy? it’s stupid”

this mf is also getting shy but ofc he would never tell you that 💀

you gotta speak up honey it’s just how it is

would sometimes initiate cuddles but would never do it in public, he'd rather have you by his side with your hands constantly brushing against each other and to be honest you love that too 🥺

loves resting his chin on your head. especially when you're studying or reading so he can see what you're doing

will observe you and your body language like it's homework. so he easily gets that you love displays of affection but just really shy about it

would start testing out his "theories" by checking where you're comfortable or what actions get you flustered

surprisingly his little experiments work!

he just wants to make sure you're comfortable and feeling loved, bc he feels sometimes his words don't express this enough 🥺

❊ SHIRABU

as much as he loves you he sometimes gets ticked off when you don’t tell him what you want

think back to that time he was silently telling goshiki off and semi got kinda scared lmao

he’d stare at you like that and you’d just give up and tell him you want cuddles

and he’d oblige and pull you in without saying anything, you don’t say anything as well because a) you’re far too flustered to and b) he’s kinda scary when he’s quiet like that lmaooo

sometimes when he’s studying with you, he’d unconsciously touch your arm and pull you in and you just turn ted as a tomato imo

he sees how flustered you get and actually enjoys your reactions so he does it a lot

always always puts your head on his shoulder, he knows you can get quite shy about these things so he thinks that this action is subtle yet intimate

loves talking to you while you're cuddling, he'd just blabber about anything or nothing at all

and it actually helps you calm down and distracts you from the shyness you're feeling

of course, he knows this and that's why he does it in the first place :')

p.s.: haahaha the way it took me about a week to post this im so sorry~

» m. list

[eternallyhyucks]

annoying things enhypen would do

pairing: enhypen x gn! reader

word count: 617

genre/warnings: fluff , none

—note: sorry for not writing in so long!! i have break soon, so hopefully ill be able to write then :)

— also these are all jokes, i mean no harm by anything i wrote here!!

𖤐 ྀ

heeseung

smirk all the time.

all the damn time.

have u guys seen that one video of him at a fansign🙄let me beat him up rq one sec😇/j

i can imagine him coming home after a while and you’re all excited to see him bc he’d been gone for so long

and when u go to hug him, hes all

“😏😏😏missed me😏😏😏”

BOY IF U DONT STFU

simply just walk away and he’ll run after u like “wait y/n😩i was joking ill pretend ur not obsessed w me”

u love him nonetheless

jay

buy too many things for you

i was watching hometown cha cha cha and this reminded me of the police guy buying the main girl’s friend a bunch of gifts LMAO

it would start off as cute and ur like “omg jay u didnt have to” and then hes like “it’s okay i like buying you things😁”

but then it’d be a random tuesday and he will pull out something you casually said u wanted 2 months ago and ur like ???????????

“jay why”

“u said u wanted it”

u have to give him a pep talk

“jay i love u AND will continue to even if u dont buy me so many gifts”

jake

laugh while ur trying to be serious

ive been thinking about this since niki did the heartbreak anniversary thing & jake broke into a smile for a second when niki got close to him LMFAO HELP

you could be telling him off for smthg and this mf would be like🙂

“LITERALLY WHY ARE U SMILING YOU BROKE THE OVEN JAKE”

“idk ur cute when ur mad”

u would wanna give him a nice punch in the face but also sit and give him a fat hug bc hes so freaking adorable

either way he’d win tbh

sunghoon

tease you

for everything.

similar to heeseung but instead smirking, he’d run away or dodge u if u go to hug him

i already know he’d be the type to lean in to kiss you and then smile and move away as soon as you lean into him

“oh my god u want me so bad”

“IM GONNA PUNCH YOU SO BAD”

“do it😏”

sunoo

hes too nice

it’s not annoying but sometimes u need someone to tell you that you look like an ugly rat but he wont do that

smfh sunoo

“hey how does this look”

“u look amazing as always☺️”

and u appreciate it but DAMN

at some point you’d do ur makeup ugly or dress in a weird and random combination just to see if he says anything

and he wont

so u yell at him to tell u when u look ugly so u dont walk out looking all gross

jungwon

outsmart u

with anything

he seems like the type to brag ab getting a 98 if u got a 92 but i feel like he would also end up helping or giving you answers later

he would also do ANYTHING to prove his point

you could be in an argument and he would end lives just prove that he’s right

just let him, he’ll never stop

niki

making ur mom jokes

at everything

i do this all the time so is it really annoying🤨🤨

“hey can u pass me the remote”

“ur mom passed me the remote last night😏”

“niki what does that even mean”

ur mom joke supremacy

©eternallyhyucks

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[mull3ts]

— 2021.

hey shawties <3

another day, another slay. TAKE THIS POST AS A TUMBLR WRAPPED EXCEPT IM DOING IT AHA. anyways, this year was rather eventful 🤨 i hope you've all had a good year, MINE WAS LIKE A SOLID 8/10 THERE'S GONNA BE TWO MAYBE THREE IMPORTANT THINGS THIS POST IS GONNA CONTAIN SO LETS START.

1. I graduated :D

bWAHAHHAHHHAHHAAHAH i finally graduated college like a total girboss. ik what you're thinking, i WAS IN COLLEGE?

y e a h

i girlbossed, got by bachelor's of science in psychology, and am now an assistant professor in abnormal psychology thEn after i finish a semester of assisting in that i was offered to teach forensic psychology :D because i got a minor in, yk it doesnt matter aNyWAYS SO YEAH THAT'S, THAT'S WHAT I'LL BE DOING.

2. IM GETTING MARRIED???????

yeah ik that sounds really weird to say and to type out, bUT IM GETTING MARRIED????

idk when to tell yall but here we are 🙄 IM MARRYING YOUR PADRE THIS FEELS REALLY WEIRD TO TYPE OUT WTF anywhosies but now his era of always going to tiffany makes sense now. IK WHAT YOU MIGHT BE THINKING, MADRE??? WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN??? WHEN DID HE PROPOSE??? it happened like on my birthday i cnant. anywhosies- it's happening. in the spring. because I LIKE HOW IT LOOKS OUTSIDE IN THE SPRING AND I HAVE THIS FILM THING CALLED EKTACHROME 100 SPEED AND ITS FUCKING PRETTY. SO I WILL BE A MARRIED WOMAN, IN THE SPRING.

I FEEL SO AMAZED YET ODD, IS 22 YOUNG TO BE MARRIED? I HAVE NO CLUE IM JUST YOLO-ING. SOMEBODY ASK ME A FUCKING QUESTION TO MAKE SURE THAT IM SURE ABOUT YOUR PADRE BECAUSE YES I DO LOVE HIM SO VERY MUCH OH MY GOD THIS IS HAPPENING TO ME.

i need to breathe 🤨

tO cLARIFY THO I AM NOT LEAVING RIGHT NOW, I WILL PROB MAKE MY DEPARTURE FROM THIS BLOG IN A FEW MONTHS SO DONT WORRY! :D

3. the blog.

whAT'S GONNA HAPPEN TO THE BLOG??? LUCKY FOR YOU ALL WHEN I MAKE MY DEPARTURE FROM THIS BLOG IN THE SPRING/SUMMER, THE BLOG IS JUST GONNA GET REBRANDED :D the one and only, @je-no will be the admin of this blog, SO YOU'LL GET CAM, SHOW CAM LOVE SHE'S GREAT, SHE'S MY BBGORL YALL, MY IRL WIFE GO SAY HI TO HER CAMILLA MY BBYGORL, MY SLUT IF YOU SEE THIS I LOVE YOU WHAT A BISEXUAL ICON SHE IS I DONT KNOW WHY I MENTIONED THAT I LOVE HER anyways all that's prob gonna change about is the url, layout, and admin. the url is gonna change to @/mull3ts SO IF YOU SEE THIS BLOG BECOME THAT YK WASSUP.

ikik, MADRE WE WILL MISS YOU, I WILL MISS YOU TOO. so for that very reason the @/earth-to-that-asian url will become a side blog that i'll still check every now and then if you still wanna contact me from the grave or ask if i have a kid or got a divorce, but im sure cam will prob give you abi life updates. she'll queue all of those beautiful drafts i have and still give you more of what's expected, nct dilf and stepbro so you all will still be fed with quality content.

Surprise, surprise—camilla the great loves dilfs

I'LL EXPLAIN EVERYTHING ELSE WHEN I ACTUALLY LEAVE THO DW :D show camilla love and she will return it by marrying you and calling you her bitch, i promise she doesn't bite, gO TALK TO HER, SEND HER AN ASK RN AT @je-no

m'kay, now that everything is absolutely out of the way, i'd like to thank anyone who's honestly ever come in contact with this blog because it honestly means so much. to all my moots, anons, and everyone ever, from the bottom of my heart—thank you. my heart esp goes out to my shawties who've deactivated, you are never forgotten to me babes. i hope you all have an amazing 2022, ONLY THE BEST FOR THE GIRLS, GAYS AND THEYS—DEMOLISH 2022 WITH THE SHEER FORCE OF DAT ASS

— sincerely, abi.

look at that ass, look at that fucking ass. do you shit with that ass babygorl? dayum shawty u thicc asf gimme sum of that...

happy 2022 <33

[mithliya]

hey i just wanted to say thank you for talking about your SA. i actually had a very similar experience w/ a guy i was really good friends with in high school.

he was my best friend, but i got pressured into dating him by my friends, family, his parents. (his mom guilted me into being w/ him 🙄 practically stalked me til i said yes)

he ended up abusing me for nearly 3 years.

and in that time i wrote stupid notes or letters to him making sex jokes cuz i was a KID. the lawyer we hired blamed me for his actions bc of the letters bc of he did 🤦🏻‍♀️

but even still, some weird part of me misses our friendship that we had before other people started meddling in our business. it makes me feel guilty sometimes, and other times it's relief. iunno trauma is weird.

uh but yeah. thank you for sharing, i know it's hard to talk about and be open with this sort of thing. i just wanted to say that you aren't alone as a lesbian who wrote dumb things as a kid or who missed/misses what friendship you had before your friend SA'd.

i think it's also extremely fucked up for people to judge your sexuality based on the way you tried to cope in the past, let alone now.

just know that a lot of women, myself included, really appreciate you being here c:

hey thank u for sharing ur story with me ❣️ honestly the thing that rly hurt about it looking back is it was in a v vulnerable time in my life. i rly had practically nobody. i lost almost all my friends bc i was suddenly a "whore" for getting raped. i would get these messages on all my social media accounts like "you deserved it" "you were seducing him" "haha hes living a good life and youre cutting yourself looooooooool pathetic!!". my friend group went from a lot of my school (small school but its normal for bahrain) to like ... 4 people in bahrain. one of them was that guy that had a crush on me since we were like 11. he would stand between me n my rapist and went to the principal about it so that i would have lesser proximity and was one of the only people who seemed to empathise w my situation. i felt quite indebted to him n everyone would repeatedly call me an idiot and tell me i should be with him and my mom would say she wishes he could be her son in law or w/e and at one point he started insisting that we are together despite me telling him no we are not & that i dont want to be w him. i gave up on saying no eventually n just went along with all of it. i felt like i was stupid for saying no ??? ppl kept telling me i was n i was like huh i guess i am. never said no again rly, up until the very end where i could no longer ignore it n keep putting myself thru any of that. after leaving that situation i saw how fucked up it was that there were all these obvious signs and me obviously signalling TO HIS FACE that i dont want to be w him, that im not interested in him, that it was further traumatising me n harming my mental health, and also the times where what he was doing would fall under SA....idk i felt stupid for facing one male friend taking advantage of me and then another one doing it soon after right in front of my face n i thought it was somehow different and normal and ok simply bc i wasnt getting downright threatened. but i know if someone else didnt hear my rape story n tell me "uh thats rape and thats fucked up" to begin with i wouldve also probably let that happen again n again too n not thought much about that while getting traumatised until afterwards too.

anyways... im glad that ur out of that situation. im sorry that we have some shared trauma there. shit like this is why i dont even trust "nice guys" anymore fr. i dont think that many ppl can rly understand that sort of situation and i can get how its confusing, bc it was a confusing time for me too. but idk why they think theyd know better than me about my own life either lol

[melangedmess]

love it when you google things like

"how to stop/control maladaptive daydreaming?"

a bunch of articles/quora answers are along the line of

be in the present

my brother in christ THAT'S exactly what I asked you to tell me

let go of the past

thanks for telling me i can simply do this! i probably should've used the "let go of the past" switch under my table before googling something that's maladaptive and is ruining my life gradually.

this is a sign you're a imaginative person and you can harness it to become a writer !

you do understand why it's Maladaptive right? it's not crazy stuff coming one by one, it's going back to the same spot obsessively for months and doing the same things. Plus good imaginative doesn't automatically means you can be a writer (and becoming a writer doesn't mean you're suddenly gonna get published or make any money)

"how to cope with depression?/how to study when depressed?"

make a timetable and stick to it, you'll not be depressed

children can't have depression!

exercise!

drink w a t e r to flush out the depression!

don't think!

find a support system (okay this one is fine but what if i don't have a support system?)

don't listen to sad music (SHUTUP)

let go of the guilt

be in present

"how to control violent urges to hurt yourself?"

yOur bOdY iS nOt pAPeR dOnT cUT iT

these are NOT meant for people who are suffering (but hey if they work for you, good for you and I'm glad). These are curated by people with minimal experience with these things or who don't even believe mental illness is a thing. not everyone has access to healthcare and even if they do, we got discrimination there too!

I wish we had more access to help, education about these things and healthy coping mechanisms.

as of now maladaptive daydreaming isn't considered a mental disorder so people will water it down to "just f o c u s" or "those thoughts aren't real" as if we don't already know that 🙄

[eitelle]

salty dinosaur and munchkin

Prompt: idfk just soft tsukki tbh um have fun loozers

Genre(??): fluff, friends-to-lovers

Pairing: tsukkishima x short gn!reader (if ur not short, just go w it) and DaiSuga

Warnings? None. Just smirk game too strong 😤😩

Ayo Michelle go to school challenge 🤨🙄

A/n: my name is Michelle in case u couldn’t tell 💀 anyways yeah I’m writing this bc I love soft tsukki but like he’s also gonna be a lil shit at one point bc that’s his brand 😤

(That photo 💀💀 also he may be a lil ooc sry)

It was your 57th day of trying to be tsukkishima kei’s friend. Today was the day you finally broke through, the day he finally didn’t be a little shit, the day his long legs, and his cute blonde hai- wait what. You stop in your tracks realizing what you had thought. Tsukkishima- no saltyshima your maybe-friend cute? No. “Snap out of it y/n,” you tell yourself in your head. “We’ve worked so hard to get to this status. I’m not going to ruin our maybe friendship just because I think he’s cute. Wait what do I mean, I can think my friend is cute I just dont have to have romantic feelings for him. Yeah... yeah. That’s what I’ll do,” you think looking constipated on the outside during your little rant, also not noticing the salty dinosaur behind you.

“Rawr,” he whispers in your ear, bending over almost halfway to reach your ear.

“WTF TSUKKI,” you shout taken by suprise, hearing yamaguchis small giggles behind the beanpole. “YAMAGUCHI. I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS,” you say obviously teasing the olive haired teen. As they apologize, rather insincerely in your opinion, you all walk to school together for their volleyball process, tsukkishima in the middle, you and yams on either side of him.

Halfway to school you and yams talking the entire way, tsukkishima quiet as always, yamaguchi asked you a question that took you off guard.

“Hey y/n,” he started off as you stopped to look at him stopping tsukki and him as well. “What do you think about me and tsukki. Like, do you think we’re attractive?” He asks innocently not knowing your maybe feelings for the salty beanpole watching as your face turned as red as a tomato. “Yeah y/n, what DO you think of us?” Tsukki asked with a smirk, obviously knowing how flustered you were. “Uh-um- I-“ you stammer not knowing how to respond without giving yourself away.

“Wait oml is this making you uncomfortable y/n? I’m so sorry I just thought you and tsukki would be cute together since he-“ yams said although he got cut off by tsukki shoving his palm over yamaguchis mouth shutting him up before you could hear what yams wanted to say. “No yams you’re all good I was just a little suprised, that’s all,” you say not wanting to make it a big deal. In your head though you wonder what yamaguchi wanted to say, maybe tsukki liked you? You weren’t sure but decided against pressing it as all three of you continued your walk to school dropping the subject entirely.

While waiting for yams, you and tsukki were chatting (more like arguing) about your friendship status in the corridor. You said that you and him were best friends while he admitted you were friends, nothing more nothing less. But what you couldn’t see was the way the tips of his ears turned red, his way of blushing, as he said you two were nothing more than just friends as you both try to convince yourselves.

Once yams finally arrived he called out to you two, addressing yall as his “favorite couple” effectively making both of you flustered and jumping 6 feet away from each other. As yamaguchi giggles at the sight of you two obviously crushing on each other, you were trying to forget how close your bodies were, or how he looked while smirking down at you thankful everyone else had left. “Yamaguchi, saltyshima cmon let’s go,” you say wanting to end this conversation fast. “Let’s study at my place today ok?”

“I cant study today I have to go work on my serves but tsukki can go,” you heard behind you as yamaguchi pushed tsukkishima towards you. You rolled your eyes at their antics already ahead of the bean pole, pausing slightly for the other two him to catch up. Once you arrived to your house tsukkishima used his long ass legs to get to your door in 2 long strides opening the door for you, knowing how you hated being so much shorter than him. “After you, munchkin,” he said smirking, opening the door for you, knowing how much his nicknames for you pissed him off.

“Alright fine salty dinosaur,” knowing your nicknames for him annoyed him as well, as you walk into his house making your way up to your bedroom. As you enter you both get started on math, helping each other ever so often, and sneaking small glances at each other, never catching the other. Once finally done with all of your schoolwork, being way ahead of tsukkishima because of your lighter workload, you start to doze off accidentally dropping your head in his lap as you napped. Once he notices he carries you over onto your bed, tucking you in and kissing you on the forehead whispering, “you look cute when you sleep. I love you munchkin.” You mumbling “I love you too salty dinosaur” in your sleep not fully conscious but meaning it entirely, as you pull his arm down onto the bed and cuddle him. As he finally gives in he cuddles you back, finishing his schoolwork on the side (bc school is important. Dont do drugs and stay in school kids 😄☝️). Once finished it was around midnight, so he decided to spend the night, his arms around you, his munchkin.

As you woke up you woke up to someone’s arms around you, a feeling of safety and comfort washing over you. As you turn your head to face this mystery person, you realize your ‘dream’ about confessing to tsukki and him kissing you on the head wasn’t a dream, it was reality. As you shake him awake he looks bewildered as if he was the one who was asleep (half asleep technically but we don’t talk ab that) instead of you.

“Hey,” you say not sure what to say after last night. “Hi,” he says equally as awkward, both of you still tangled up in each other.

“So-“ you both say at the same time breaking off to let the other speak first. “You go first,” you tell him, not even sure what you were about to say anyways.

“Alright fine. Iwaswonderingifyouwantedtodateme,” he said with no spaces in between, making it seem like one word you not understanding a word he said. “What?” you asked silently asking him to repeat himself.

“I was wondering if you wanted to date me,” he said more clearly, openly blushing this time, the two of you finally separate.

“Yes,” you respond without hesitation looking at him with fondness in your eyes. He leans in slightly, using his two hands to cup your face whispering, “is this ok? Can I kiss you?” As you nod and smile. He leans in all the way and you two finally kiss and you feel like the happiest person on the planet.

Once you two get situated, and go out the door to meet yams you find yourself holding his hand and him grabbing for yours. As your hands meet, they fit like two puzzle pieces. Perfectly.

“Why are you two holding hands... OMG OMG OMG. YOURE DATING NOW ARENT YOU. WOW OMG OMG FINALLY MY OTP IS DATING WOW AHHH,” yams screams giggling and bouncing up and down all the way, bombarding you with questions although you noticed there wasn’t much suprise in his eyes. You didn’t question it though, he knew about both of your crushes so you thought that it wouldn’t be much of a suprise.

Right before you enter the gym to say bye to the boys, tsukkishima uses the two of your hands that are connected to twirl you around like a princess at a ball, eventually pulling you flush against him, kissing you while dipping you. “Tsukki-“ you squeak out, him interrupting you saying, “kei. It’s kei to you, munchkin,” slightly smirking as he pulls you in for another kiss, you saying “kei” with a smile right before.

Yamaguchis pov:

I didn’t actually have serving practice. I should probably start out with that. But I just knew stuff was about to go down that night, the night my two best friends finally got together. I called the entire karasuno team as they loved y/n and cared about tsukki. Well at least some of us did. As we spied on the two studying, suga was snapping photos claiming they would be “useful on their wedding day”, daichi looking exasperated with his boyfriends antics. Finally, they fell asleep and on tsukkis lap to say the least and we all heard as he tucked you in, how you two confessed your love for each other, nishinoya and tanaka whisper yelling “yeah y/n, yeah tsukki, get some!!” As them two cuddled and fell asleep suga took some more photos before we all walked to our houses, never to speak of this spying trip ever again. Well, not until the wedding of course ;)

Extended ending LMAOOO:

As tsukkishima walked into the gym, with the whole team seeing the adorable kiss the two shared (including ukai, takeda, kiyoko, and yachi), nishinoya and tanaka jumped on him, bombarding him with questions and whining as to how the beanpole got a s/o before them. Everyone else was shrieking, the two girls talking about how adorable the kiss was, the guys threatening tsukki to take care you you well before the coaches broke it up, congratulated tsukki and started practice.

Ok that’s it!! I hope y’all liked it and I’m kinda sorry it it’s cheesy and a lil ooc LMAOO but yeah. Leave a like or a comment if u liked it and reblogs really help people see this so do that too pls

[thefeminineurge]

uhm hello!! i was going through the stop asian hate tag and id like to ask you a question because you seem to know a lot about it!!

for context: my father was british, my mother is filipino and i was born and raised in france

i had an english project to do with my friend and there were many subjects we could talk about such as asian hate in america, i told my classmate "i wonder how i would be treated if i was in america" and he told me that i wouldnt have anything to worry about because i wasnt asian and that philippines isnt in asia which made me really offended

i asked my mum for reassurance if philippines is asian and she said yes

i dont know where to place myself in the situation and im questionning my identity all the time, i dont even have a clear grasp on what ethnicity means :[

do i have a right to be offended because of what my classmate told me? im sorry if this is a dumb question :( im just trying to find myself and id like to be educated on these things

its okay if you dont answer!! nevermind ig! this is a weird ask anyway aha, have a nice day or night! <33

hey!!! to be honest, as a turkish person who constantly feels in between of asia and europe, i really feel for you. i am not much educated myself either, but since you asked my opinion, i do think it was offensive. because i think that even though you may not have the so called publicly 🙄 accepted asian features, you are one and the filipino identity is a part of who you are, and no one, no one other than yourself should determine which race you belong to.

i can only imagine how does it feel to be a biracial individual in diaspora, but i do believe that like i said, you shouldn't categorise yourself as the way other people talk. you know that you are asian, that being filipino means that you belong in asian communities, and i think your classmate saying otherwise was kind of disrespectful if you ask me. i know these topics can be confusing, stressing but i hope you can, and should embrace your asian side in peace and represent it in the most beautiful way possible bc its what u deserve, dont let anyone tell u otherwise or lessen ur identities worth<3<3

[just-some-random-blogger]

What a snack

Let it be known i have no idea what joel is like and i have been dragged into this but im not complaining hellOOOO🫦💅✨

First of all [rolls neck]

I used this gif bc he looks really fucking hot ok

HAHAHAHHAHAH IF THAT AINT ME HAHAHAHAHA

Joel dreams of you often. He doesn’t tell you this, refuses to admit it as if the confession of dreams would somehow weaken his defenses.

😫🤌 art

It irritates him. He has learned the brutal, ragged details of loss and having nightmares about the girl he’s fucking is not good. It means that some tiny unconscious piece of him fears for you-to lose you would sting. It is a chip in his armor. A weakness. 

Ah yes. Hes emotionally constipated. Love that for us [whispers] i cant fix him

He lies in his makeshift bed as he stares up at a ceiling speckled with moss and water damage. You’re curled against him, bare ass snug against his thigh. He takes deep pulls from a bottle of dust and whiskey. Between his legs, his cock is soft and damp from fucking you into the mattress. His back smarts from your nails and he doesn’t understand how their sex is so aggressive and yet he finds you in his head afterward. He’s fucked countless people. Never cared. It’s his psyche that worries about you when it should be flat, pulse-less and numb in the dark. 

UGHHHHH THE LAST SENTENCE HITS SO HARD 📢💢PULSE-LESSSSSSSSSSS

He leans over your body, the bottle swishing its dregs of old whisky. With gentle fingers, he maneuvers your hair away from your face, he touches your lower lip before abruptly pulling away.

Not good. 

😫😫😫🫦🫦🫦🫦🤤🥵💗💗💗🥰🥰😭😭 but its SO GOOD BABY

You don’t complain or whine, which he hates. He’d love for you to backtalk him. He’d die for an ounce of sass or bitchiness, but you’re too fucking smart for that. You know what it costs. You know that he’ll use it against you and then chastise you for wastin’ time because this is what they do now. This is how the world works. 

I can sass u (; idgaf

Someone took something from us and I intend to get it back.

Us. 

When did it become us? 

🙄 idiot its always been us and i dont even mean u and me i mean u and yn /////:

“I hate winter,” you grumble, the subtle evidence of your frustration that you’ve been forced out here to begin with.

HEY WINTER IS MAGICAL (i say as a citizen of a tropical country, never once experiencing snow who thinks 25°C is cold HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH)

“C’mon,” he grunts, not even looking. He doesn’t want to. He thinks that if he sees you in pain, he’ll go to you.

GO TO HER 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬👹👹👹👹👹👎👎👎👎👎

“Sure,” you reply flatly. “Probably drag me back home by my ankle.”

Whos going to tell her hes into that?

His lips twitch. They’re making good time, maneuvering rapidly through the dense woods toward the lake. His adrenaline is spiking, his fingers curling as he prepares himself for the inevitable fight. “Hardly, sweetheart,” he replies. “I’d wrap a rope around your waist—pull you that way.”

¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ ┐⁠(⁠ ⁠˘⁠_⁠˘⁠)⁠┌ i told you

“We wait until he goes inside,” he whispers against your ear. You’re bleeding-hot and his hand is secured right under your breast. Surprisingly, your heart pulses at an easy rhythm. You aren’t scared or nervous. You’re calm as can be and really that’s probably why he keeps you around.

And maybe the sex. 

HAND UNDER BREAST

Also L 👎👎👎👎👎 what a man thing to say. eMoTionnAllY conStIpated

You don’t call for him. You don’t scream his name or beg him for help and it’s because you’re too fucking proud and you probably think he’d get fucking mad at you or something, which isn’t the case. 

That's literally you. Thats on the patriarchy. Boo tomato tomato 🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅

“Ss’fine,” you yell back and then the sun catches the silver blade of your pocket knife. It flashes once before disappearing and the blonde Walton squeals.

Girl boss

He’s not sure what to say as you blink up at him—incredulous and a little frightened. WIthout thinking, he darts down and kisses you hard. It might not even be considered a kiss. Just an angry collision of teeth and a hint of tongue. He tries to warm your mouth with his own before pulling away. He didn’t intend to do that.

We love the fact it took a near death experience to get with the programme. Purr. ALSO WARMING WITH THE KISS ME ME ME NEXT!!! [dies] help Cpr!!

He says this like you couldn’t potentially die of hypothermia. 

Lmao HAHAHAHAHAHHAAH

He’s on his knees in front of you—staring like a damn fool. “What do you need?”

AINT NO WAY

THIS RAT ASS IDIOT ASKED A PERSON FREEZING TO DEATH WHAT THEY NEED KSSHSJJSJSISKSJJSFFFFUUUUCCXXKKKKKKKKK NOOOOOOO 👹👹👹🤌🤌🤌🤌🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄 ARE YOU FOR REAL SAY SIKE RIGHT NOW PLEASE UHM I THINK THEY NEED A LAW DEGREE?????????? A FUCKING JAR OF PAINT? WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK JOEL 📢💢JOEL JOEL (DEROGATORY)

Jesus. He’s a fucking idiot. 

Yes i had to go back to this line /: rat

He doesn’t know how to provide you reassurance. He understands actions. He understands pleasure. Isn’t the best way to heat someone up through skin contact?

Fucking finally

You got some sense between your brows son

“Skin to skin,” he explains and when he opens his arms, you fall into them. You press yourself against him, curling your cold body inward as he attempts to cover you with his own. He strokes your arms, legs and waist. He maneuvers you around so that he can press his front to your torso. He grips your thigh and hauls it over his hip before pulling the musty blankets over them. He doesn’t want to think about how unwashed they probably are, but they don’t have a choice. 

You say skin to skin as if you haven't fucked /: ALSO MUSTY BLANKET HAHAHAHHAHAHHAH NO UR SO RIGHT BUT ITS STILL SO FUNNY JAJAKKANAJSJSJ

“You almost died,” he repeats. “I could fucking kill you.”

Your tongue darts across your lower lip as you lift an eyebrow. “Ah��so really this is about you.”

yOU TELL HIM BABE 🔊🔊🔊🔊🔊LOUDER FOR THOSE IN THE BACK

“I could kill you,” he growls as he grips your hips and flips you on your back, eliciting a yelp from your lungs. He wedges himself between your thighs, sliding his mouth over your puckered nipple and then your belly. 

“You can kill me,” you whisper and he drops his head to capture your lips. He thrusts his tongue into your mouth, slipping it behind your teeth. It’s a wet kiss–dirty and panicked and i fucking hate you so much because it’s so damn obvious that i don’t. You give him an experimental stroke, thumb pressing into the head. He grunts, jerking forward. 

“I want to feel you,” he confesses and it’s the most honest thing he can say here. Not i don’t want to see you dead ever. Not i really care about you. 

🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤 I CAN FIX HIM I CANT FIX HIM HES SO EMOTIONALLY CONSTIPATED

You smile sweetly before guiding him into the molten suction of your pussy. It takes nothing for him to claim you. He sinks inside, straight to the hilt. He shoves his hips forward so that you’re forced to take all of him. Even when he’s buried balls deep, he leans on his arms, one hand clasping the top of your skull so he can push further. Your nails bite into his ass. You arch.

🫠im saving my last pic i can only put 10 pics

They’re sealed together. Breasts crushed to his chest. Stomachs flattened. He uses his thighs to spread legs wider. He pins you there, enjoying the way your heart snaps against your ribs as if it could buffer his own.

[INCOHERENT]

“Thatta girl,” he coaxes, managing to plunge deeper. Something low vibrates in his throat. Something half-human. He can’t breathe, overwhelmed by the scent and feel of you, and so he sits aback on his heels, grips your knees and forces them against your tits. “You gonna take it for me?”

“What?” you hiss because he’s taunting you –holding you firmly over the edge and shit–he loves that about you. When push comes to shove, you’ll make it known when you’re pissed. He loves the fact that you never screamed for him as you tried to save yourself. He hates it and loves it and he’s really fucked up. 

HES SO FUCKED UP IN THE HEAD GIMME GIMME GIMME GIMME GIMME 🫴🫴🫴🫴🫴🫴🫴🫴

He swallows hard before pressing their foreheads together. “You won’t do that again,” he warns.

No sir but also maybe i will 🥰🫦

You say nothing. Instead, you nod as you tighten around him, heels digging into his lower back. He’s certain you know what he means. He just didn’t want to say it out loud.

😶 yall need to go to therapy

I feel like Joel would be best at ‘you almost got yourself killed and I’m so angry at you but I love you also’ fucking

A/N: Joel Miller x F!Reader. Lack of CPR knowledge. Smut. Hypothermia. I used this gif bc he looks really fucking hot ok

Joel dreams of you often. He doesn’t tell you this, refuses to admit it as if the confession of dreams would somehow weaken his defenses. In the foggy, wooly vortex of sleep, he sees you:

Dead.

Broken.

Covered in spores. 

It irritates him. He has learned the brutal, ragged details of loss and having nightmares about the girl he’s fucking is not good. It means that some tiny unconscious piece of him fears for you-to lose you would sting. It is a chip in his armor. A weakness. 

He lies in his makeshift bed as he stares up at a ceiling speckled with moss and water damage. You’re curled against him, bare ass snug against his thigh. He takes deep pulls from a bottle of dust and whiskey. Between his legs, his cock is soft and damp from fucking you into the mattress. His back smarts from your nails and he doesn’t understand how their sex is so aggressive and yet he finds you in his head afterward. He’s fucked countless people. Never cared. It’s his psyche that worries about you when it should be flat, pulse-less and numb in the dark. 

His gaze slides to you sleeping beside him. Your face is buried in the sweatshirt serving as a pillow, your mouth parted around steady, even breathing. Swamped in moonlight, you’re beautiful—the kind of beauty that would get you killed or worse out there. That’s why I keep, right? Some leftover smugness at having someone like you with someone like me?

He leans over your body, the bottle swishing its dregs of old whisky. With gentle fingers, he maneuvers your hair away from your face, he touches your lower lip before abruptly pulling away. 

Not good. 

***

Being who he is, Joel keeps fucking you. He tries to be a little meaner—colder—but he’s not man enough to release you in order to find someone less complicated to warm his bed.  

You stick by him like a barnacle. A very pearly one. Smooth and shiny. 

“We have things to do,” he declares one morning, the slip of red dawn drifting over your skin from the narrow window. 

“Alright,” you murmur as you roll out of bed and shove on your jeans. 

You don’t complain or whine, which he hates. He’d love for you to backtalk him. He’d die for an ounce of sass or bitchiness, but you’re too fucking smart for that. You know what it costs. You know that he’ll use it against you and then chastise you for wastin’ time because this is what they do now. This is how the world works. 

Someone took something from us and I intend to get it back.

Us. 

When did it become us? 

Fuck.

***

They follow the road at the edge of the forest. The woods stink of loam–sweet and dark. The first snow has powdered the ground.

The cold is wicked, binding his limbs together and reminding him of his age. He’s not really that old. It’s only been eight years since the outbreak (his birthday). 

“I hate winter,” you grumble, the subtle evidence of your frustration that you’ve been forced out here to begin with. Most of the time, he thinks he should keep you at his place when he runs these missions, but he’s decided that you’re safer with him. He doesn’t miss the way the creepy old fucks look at you and there’s no such thing as locks. Not now. Not here.

“Fuck!” you yelp and Joel hears your boots skid, knee cracking on asphalt. “Shit. Shitt.”

“C’mon,” he grunts, not even looking. He doesn’t want to. He thinks that if he sees you in pain, he’ll go to you.

You curse a few more times before your footsteps sound again.

You catch up to him with alarming speed, casting him a violent glare. “What if I’d broken something?”

“I’d come back for you after I handle the Waltons.”

“Sure,” you reply flatly. “Probably drag me back home by my ankle.”

His lips twitch. They’re making good time, maneuvering rapidly through the dense woods toward the lake. His adrenaline is spiking, his fingers curling as he prepares himself for the inevitable fight. “Hardly, sweetheart,” he replies. “I’d wrap a rope around your waist—pull you that way.”

“Cruel.”

“You’ve always known that, darlin’.”

“You’re–”

He freezes and then abruptly grabs you before pulling you against a tree. One of the Waltons is outside their cabin, chopping wood. Behind him, the smoke puffs from the chimney. Black-gray against the too-blue sky. 

“We wait until he goes inside,” he whispers against your ear. You’re bleeding-hot and his hand is secured right under your breast. Surprisingly, your heart pulses at an easy rhythm. You aren’t scared or nervous. You’re calm as can be and really that’s probably why he keeps you around.

And maybe the sex. 

***

It’s fucked. The whole damn thing. 

Joel is covered in blood, two fingers definitely broken. The man on top of him has him in a chokehold and he’s shoving back against him, trying to find some leverage to flip him over. 

He hasn’t heard you for a minute and when he lifts his head, he sees one of the Walton boys—the greasy, blonde one—pinning you against the dock. You’re too far away from Joel as he watches you kick and spit like a feral cat. 

You don’t call for him. You don’t scream his name or beg him for help and it’s because you’re too fucking proud and you probably think he’d get fucking mad at you or something, which isn’t the case. 

So, he shouts your name. Why? He doesn’t know. It bursts out of him as the head Walton punches him in the ribs.

“Ss’fine,” you yell back and then the sun catches the silver blade of your pocket knife. It flashes once before disappearing and the blonde Walton squeals.

Thatta girl, he thinks. The expression feels tender—sweet with pride and he’s so caught up in watching you stab the kid that he doesn’t realize what’s going on until it’s too late. 

The blonde snags your jacket and rolls you both into the frigid lake. 

Joel doesn’t think. He may have roared or bellowed, but he wouldn’t know. He can’t recall. Instead, he plants his hands and snaps his head back into his attacker’s nose. It cracks. Splatters. He feels heat on his scalp and in his hair. The weight on him is gone and he twists, finding his knife a few feet away in the snow. He snatches the handle, flips it and plunges the blade forward. It goes through the guy’s chest—finds bone. He rips it back and does it again. A third time in a more vulnerable spot beneath the bastard’s jaw. There’s blood on his face, but he can’t worry about that now.

He runs to the lake. 

***

“C’mon, girl,” he whispers frantically as he performs CPR. Your lips are cold as a fish belly. Your lashes wet and stuck together in clumps. He presses against your chest so hard that he worries he’ll break a rib. 

You weren’t even under that long.

He pumps and then pinches your nose and breathes into your mouth. C’mon. C’mon. C’mon. 

You twitch. Yes. You choke. Better.

“That’s it, darlin’,” he urges.

Your eyes fly open as you sputter, coughing up icy lake water that dampens Joel’s jeans. Relieved, he sighs, placing his hands on your shoulders to keep you from moving too quickly. His fingers have begun to smart, the knuckles swelling to purple.

He’s not sure what to say as you blink up at him—incredulous and a little frightened. WIthout thinking, he darts down and kisses you hard. It might not even be considered a kiss. Just an angry collision of teeth and a hint of tongue. He tries to warm your mouth with his own before pulling away. He didn’t intend to do that.

“Joel?” you rasp, lids drooping heavily.

“You almost died,” he states in a flat voice. Should he comfort you? Reassure you that you’re fine? He’s not sure how to do that. He’d done it before with Sarah, but–

He shudders, stuffing that thought somewhere he’ll not touch.

“J-Joel.” Your teeth are chattering in your mouth. Your eyes slightly unfocused. “Mm cold.”

“Well,” he replies matter-of-factly. “We can go in the cabin and figure that out.”

He says this like you couldn’t potentially die of hypothermia. 

***

Inside the house, a fire still burns. It’s orange-yellow as a Texas peach and his mouth instinctively waters. He hasn’t had fresh fruit in a long ass time. 

Your fingers are curled into his shirt, your cheek pressed flat to his chest. You’re freezing—stiff and unyielding as a corpse. He places you on the rug in front of the fire before scouring the house for blankets and sheets. When he finds them, he makes a nest on the floor and then crouches down behind you to rub your shoulders. 

It doesn’t seem to do much because you’re still trembling. Your hair is soaked and your clothes–

Jesus. He’s a fucking idiot. 

“Lift your arms,” he murmurs, but you keep on shaking, seemingly unable to move them. He does it for you. He gets your jeans off, mindful of the areas where bruises will begin to form. “Did he hurt you?”

“S’nothing-g bad.” Your words are staggering into each other like you’re drunk. Not an ideal sign.

He scrubs a hand over his face, his beard. He exhales sharply as he watches you stammer and ripple like a ribbon in the wind. 

He’s on his knees in front of you—staring like a damn fool. “What do you need?”

Your hands fumble in the blankets, your expression puzzled. Shit. What are the symptoms of hypothermia? Confusion? Exhaustion?

He says your name softly and you make a broken noise that startles him.

He doesn’t know how to provide you reassurance. He understands actions. He understands pleasure. Isn’t the best way to heat someone up through skin contact?

He wrenches his jacket off before finding the hem of his shirt and tugging it over his head . He unbuckles his belt, shimmies out of his pants. You stare up at him, your eyes glassy and red. 

“Skin to skin,” he explains and when he opens his arms, you fall into them. You press yourself against him, curling your cold body inward as he attempts to cover you with his own. He strokes your arms, legs and waist. He maneuvers you around so that he can press his front to your torso. He grips your thigh and hauls it over his hip before pulling the musty blankets over them. He doesn’t want to think about how unwashed they probably are, but they don’t have a choice. 

He settles as you relax against him. Your heart pounds a brush faster than before. Good. 

“Rest,” he instructs. “You’re okay.”

It’s the best he can do.

***

It takes a few hours for you to return to yourself. You pull away so you can stare up at him. He tips his chin to hold your gaze, his hand finds your cheek. “You almost died,” he says and, suddenly, he thinks of the dreams he’s had. He thinks of you gone from him, vanishing into the dark where he can’t find you. 

He’d saved you today, but the next time? Surely, there would be a next time and—

“Thank you.” You lean into his touch, nuzzling your nose into the creases of his palm. Not as distressed as he would like.

“You almost died,” he repeats. “I could fucking kill you.”

Your eyes widen. “Why?”

“It was a stupid move.”

You frown. “Was there another option I had?”

“You could’ve not come with me.”

Your tongue darts across your lower lip as you lift an eyebrow. “Ah–so really this is about you.”

Of course it damn well is. It’s always him. He can’t afford you getting yourself stabbed or beaten or drowned.  

“I could kill you,” he growls as he grips your hips and flips you on your back, eliciting a yelp from your lungs. He wedges himself between your thighs, sliding his mouth over your puckered nipple and then your belly. 

You wiggle, lifting your legs to wrap around his waist. 

He kisses the scar beneath your ribs and then the top of your cunt. He licks the warm crease between your folds just to tease you before he climbs back up.

He plants his arms on either side of your head as he bears his weight above your body. He’s hard, his cock full and bobbing against his belly. He feels your small hand drift over his hip, the wiry hairs at his groin before it wraps firmly around his shaft. It jumps in your hand, desperate for you in a way he doesn’t mean to show.

“You can kill me,” you whisper and he drops his head to capture your lips. He thrusts his tongue into your mouth, slipping it behind your teeth. It’s a wet kiss–dirty and panicked and i fucking hate you so much because it’s so damn obvious that i don’t. You give him an experimental stroke, thumb pressing into the head. He grunts, jerking forward. 

“I want to feel you,” he confesses and it’s the most honest thing he can say here. Not i don’t want to see you dead ever. Not i really care about you. 

Just feel. 

You smile sweetly before guiding him into the molten suction of your pussy. It takes nothing for him to claim you. He sinks inside, straight to the hilt. He shoves his hips forward so that you’re forced to take all of him. Even when he’s buried balls deep, he leans on his arms, one hand clasping the top of your skull so he can push further. Your nails bite into his ass. You arch.

“Fuck,” you rasp, breath hitching. “Fuck–oh my god.”

They’re sealed together. Breasts crushed to his chest. Stomachs flattened. He uses his thighs to spread legs wider. He pins you there, enjoying the way your heart snaps against your ribs as if it could buffer his own.

“Thatta girl,” he coaxes, managing to plunge deeper. Something low vibrates in his throat. Something half-human. He can’t breathe, overwhelmed by the scent and feel of you, and so he sits aback on his heels, grips your knees and forces them against your tits. “You gonna take it for me?”

Your eyes roll back, cunt contracting around him. “Yes.” 

Not loud enough. He spanks you between your legs, right against the tender flesh wrapped around his cock. It hurts both of them. You whine and reach for him. Yes. Yes. Yes. Joel. Please. 

He eases himself out to the tip before driving forward. The force knocks you up the floor, causing your back to scrape against the wooly blankets. Another sharp thrust that punches a gasp from your throat. You shut your eyes, holding your legs open for him as he continues. It’s rough in its own way. Not the worst he’s done, but his strokes are deliberate and powerful. He fucks you hard enough that he can hear it. The slick noises that accompany every stab of his cock.

He has half a mind to say what he’s trying to through sex. When he’s nearing the end, he lowers himself over you, broken fingers pinching your chin. The pain in his hand welcome, adding a bite to the act itself. “Look at me,” he murmurs and you open your eyes. He fucks you and fucks you and every slam of his hips makes your lashes flutter. “Look, darlin’.”

“What?” you hiss because he’s taunting you –holding you firmly over the edge and shit–he loves that about you. When push comes to shove, you’ll make it known when you’re pissed. He loves the fact that you never screamed for him as you tried to save yourself. He hates it and loves it and he’s really fucked up. 

He swallows hard before pressing their foreheads together. “You won’t do that again,” he warns.

“Do what?”

Another perfunctory snap of his cock.

“Fuck–Joel.”

You’re shuddering in his arms, walls spasming around him. You’re one screaming nerve of sensation. You almost died. 

“You won’t do it.”

You say nothing. Instead, you nod as you tighten around him, heels digging into his lower back. He’s certain you know what he means. He just didn’t want to say it out loud.

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second date tomorrow but am on my period :(

I went on a first date recently and it went great :) we never ran out of things to talk about, we laughed a lot, and by the end of it we had some pretty fun sex. I’m not sure what kind of relationship is going to come out of this (if any) but even if it’s just fwb, I’m fine with that because it’s been a long while since I’ve had/been ready to have sex and recently…I’ve “been in heat” is a good way to say it 💀 and it wouldn’t be the worst to take a pit stop with a handsome funny guy along the journey to find love if its just fwb.

The second date is tomorrow and Ive just woke up with my typical “guess what, bitch” spotting signaling the heavy flow is about to start. Which means, it’s probably tomorrow. Probably due to the PMS but I’m so fucking bummed. SUPER. Did I mention it’s been a minute since I’ve had sex? Besides the fact that I REALLY wanted to have sex with him again, I don’t know when to tell him given that he’s probably also expecting to have sex? Would it be almost rude to spring it on him on the date tomorrow? Or should I tell him in advance to maybe reschedule to tonight or after my period? Or would that be super fucking weird because I don’t know what we want from each other yet?

I don’t want to reschedule because we met on a dating app and I feel like the second date is important in really taking someone’s attention from the app. Like “hey! This is going well! No need to keep looking!” Also, I think period sex is too much for someone who you just started seeing - I’d be okay with it if he was but even if he said he was I’d have my doubts if he was just being polite. I know we can just fool around a tiny bit in other ways but…idk. I don’t want to lose steam.

Just feeling so let down. Being a woman is a rip off 🙄 help

Edit: DO NOT SEND ME PMs. I DONT NEED TO AND WONT TALK TO YOU PRIVATELY 🙄

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