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Eek I’m the one that asked about requests, so excited you’re taking them!
My idea was fem!reader x whichever marauder you want (not Pete sorry not sorry) where the reader is flirty but not in a hitting on everyone and pickup lines type of way. It’s in a she’s very friendly, likes to give out compliments just cause she wanted to, and is just warm and open to people type of way.
Ngl im a sucker for some angst with a happy ending so if that somehow works with whatever idea you come up with that would be cool but no pressure!
I hope this sounds like something you’d wnjiy writing but again no pressure at all<3
I hope this has that kind of vibe you were going for! Thank you for being my first request - I'm very excited and very nervous for this. ♡
Sunshine Incarnate
Remus Lupin x fem!reader
1.8k words
cw: fluff, angst
“God, she’s such a fucking tease,” Sirius sighs, leaning back in a plush armchair in the library.
“Who is?” Remus asks, not looking up from his book.
“Her,” he answers, gesturing toward you. “Little Miss Sunshine herself.”
Remus’ gaze shoots up, first looking at Sirius and then at you. You were talking with some Ravenclaw boy, absorbed in the conversation and oblivious to the rest of the library.
“A tease?” Remus asks.
Sirius hums. “Whenever you talk to her, she gives you these eyes. Then she’ll give you some flirty comment and walk away. Fucking. Tease.”
“Don’t talk about her that way,” Remus growls, still not looking away from you.
“Remus, you’ve experienced what he’s talking about though, right?” Peter asks. “She sits next to you in Herbology.”
Remus has experienced the eyes that Sirius is describing. When you talked to someone, they had your entire attention. You were fully engaged. He’d also been on the receiving end of your compliments before as well; he replayed them in his head when he was feeling low. But Remus would be an idiot to ignore that you did this with everyone.
“Oh my god, I love your hair like that!”
“That’s brilliant! You’re a genius.”
“I haven’t read that book before. Is it any good?” “Yeah, It’s my favorite.” “Yeah? Tell me about it.”
It’s who you are. As Sirius had called you, you are Little Miss Sunshine. You brightened every room you entered and made everyone feel important. Remus didn’t think there was a single person in all of Hogwarts who didn’t like you. How could they?
“Remus?” Peter repeats, tossing a crumpled piece of parchment at him.
“Huh? What?”
“Wormy asked you about Sunshine’s eyes and you zoned,” James says. He’s busy working on an essay that the rest of the group had already finished.
“Of course. Yes. Although I think it’s called active listening,” Remus says, sounding more irritated than he intended. “Something you could work on,” he adds on in a grumble.
“My ears work just fine, thank you very much,” Sirius says.
Then his face lights up and he waves at you. You had briefly turned away from the Ravenclaw boy and Sirius’ wave caught your eye. You wave back, excuse yourself and make your way to the Gryffindors.
“Hi!” you say cheerfully. “Remus, that sweater looks really soft.”
His face flushed at your words. He could barely mutter out a thanks.
“What’re you working on?” you ask, standing next to Remus. You’re looking at the pages of the book he’s reading, hoping to see a title at the top of the pages but there’s nothing to go off of, not even a diagram to say if it was a Herbology or Charms book.
“That damned Potions essay,” James answers.
“Good thing you’re not too shabby in that class then,” you say with a smile. “Can’t be too difficult.”
James looks up from his essay to return your smile. “It’s not. Just annoying to do.”
“Annoying to do is my Divination dream journal!” you reply with a giggle. “Like I need a teacher knowing what happens in my subconscious.”
“I’d like to know what happens in your subconscious,” Sirius says, now leaning forward.
You give him an eye roll. “Become a Divination tutor and maybe. Remus, did you do that Herbology worksheet yet?”
“Uh, yeah. Yeah, I did. Yesterday.”
“Shoot, I was hoping we could work on it together. You’re so much better at Herbology than I am.”
“Oh, it’s not too difficult,” he says, briefly looking up from his book to give you a smile.
You’re already looking at him with those eyes and a smile. Butterflies take flight in his stomach. He has to look away quickly, despite not wanting to.
“Okay,” you say, bouncing on your toes. “I’ll see you later.”
As you walk away, Peter hits Remus with a roll of parchment.
“Are you daft?” he whispers, unsure if you’re out of earshot yet. “She was flirting with you.”
He shakes his head. “No, she wasn’t.”
“She wanted to work on Herbology homework with you.”
“Because we share the class? And I’m smart?”
“You’re daft,” James confirms.
The rest of the afternoon and into the evening, Remus is replaying the conversation. Had you been flirting with him? Actually flirting or being your kind self? Even if you were flirting with him, you’d certainly stop as soon as you found out that he was a werewolf. Sunshine incarnate could not be with someone who turns with the moon. He was Moony for goodness sake. But she had complimented both his sweater and Herbology skills in one conversation with only James also receiving a compliment. How had he earned two compliments over Sirius? With all of your kindness and Sirius’ natural charisma, you two usually bantered like an entertaining yet sickening tennis match.
“You know, the things I would do to her if she said the word,” Sirius says, bringing Remus out of his thoughts.
“Still on about Sunshine, are you?” James asks.
“Still on about Evans?” Sirius retorts.
“Would it kill you to shut up and stay away from her?” Remus snaps.
Sirius and James shoot him a confused look. He had been mostly quiet since leaving the library, but it was Remus. He just did that sometimes.
“Stay away from her?” Sirius repeats. “From Madam Sunshine herself? Why would I do that?”
“She’s the sweetest,” James adds with a smirk.
“Yeah, I know,” Remus grumbles. “She doesn’t need you assholes to bring her down.”
“I’m not bringing her down,” James says defensively.
“Just leave her out of your… fantasies.”
“Why?” Sirius presses.
“Just, it’s… it’s you,” Remus says, gesturing wildly.
“Yeah, and?” Sirius asks, leaning forward toward Remus with narrowing eyes.
“You’re messy.” Remus pauses. “We’re messy.”
“So we’re all staying away from her?” Peter asks.
“I, uh, I guess so.”
Remus couldn’t tell his three closest friends to stay away from her because they were messy and not include himself, possibly the messiest of the group. But, god, he wanted to be close to you. He wanted to hold you and be held by you. He wanted to kiss your perfect smile that was ever present on your perfect lips. He wanted to be the reason your gorgeous eyes lit up. He wanted you to look for him in the room. He wanted you to be his sunshine.
Sirius shares a knowing look with James and Peter that Remus misses. Though he had tried to be subtle, his friends know when Remus is down bad, and he is for you.
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In Remus’ presence, you’re no longer a topic of discussion. The boys successfully steer all conversations away from you. Remus doesn’t think anything of it, assuming they actually listened to him and are staying away from you and all your perfectness.
That is, until you walk over and sit next to Remus at lunch. You set your books down gently and give the boys a smile.
“That’s our cue to leave. See you in Dark Arts, Moony,” Sirius says with a grin. James and Peter follow him away from the table, leaving you alone with him.
“That was… weird,” Remus mumbles, watching them leave before turning his attention back to you.
He tries to hide the confusion on his face, but you see it anyway.
“Did you not… did you not ask me to practice nonverbal spells with you?”
Remus stares at you blankly. “No?”
You pull out a piece of parchment and hand it to him.
“I got this at breakfast.”
It was a note, in Sirius’ handwriting no less, asking you to meet at lunch to practice spells. When he looks up from the note, you are biting your lip with a hopeful look on your face.
“Even if it’s not from you, would you mind practicing? I’m rubbish at them and, well, you’re great at everything.”
Remus feels his face heat at the compliment.
“You’re not rubbish at them.”
“No, I really am! I try them all the time and they never work! I’ve tried to levitate notes to you in Transfiguration and the stupid notes never lift more than a centimeter off the desk!” you ramble.
“Notes… to me?”
It’s your turn to blush. You had never successfully passed a note to him. The notes that never made it to him often had compliments on them; the most recent had been to ask him to Hogsmeade. But when you continuous failed to get them to him, you had taken that as a sign from the universe that it wasn’t meant to be, but you weren’t one to give up easily. Maybe you were misreading the signs and you needed to go to him for help. So when you received the note from fake Remus, you were over the moon.
“Oh, yeah. Just little comments about lessons. Nothing too important,” you lie.
“You were trying to give me notes…” Remus mutters, still in disbelief that you were writing notes to him in the first place, even if they were ‘little comments.’
“Yes?”
You’re not sure what gives you the boldness, but you dig through your bag again and pull out some of the notes. You’re not sure why you kept them, but you did.
“Okay, little comments, yes. About the lessons, not really.”
You hold out one for him to take.
You mastered teacup to gerbil quickly. You’re amazing!
“That, uh, that should be the first one.”
His hands are shaking as he reads it over and over.
“You kept them?”
You nod, a little unsure. He reaches out and takes the rest from your hands. You feel your blush grow as he reads each other. It’s only a slight comfort that his blush is also increasing with each note.
He looks up at you with a curious expression that’s topped with hopeful eyes.
“You were going to ask me to Hogsmeade?”
You open your mouth to speak but words don’t come out. You nod.
“If the offer still stands, I’d, uh, I’d love you. I’d love to. Ahem. I’d love to go to Hogsmeade with you.”
You’re certain your face is as red as his.
“This weekend then?”
“Yeah,” he breathes.
You lean in and kiss his cheek, your own boldness surprising you yet again.
“We can, erm, work on nonverbals later. I’ll see you later, Remus.”
He watches you leave the Great Hall in a hurry. His hand slowly comes up to touch the spot where you had kissed him. Maybe, just maybe, you had been flirting with him.
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“How did that go, Moony?”
“You are bastards. All of you.”
“How did it go?”
“She kissed me,” he says, still blushing furiously.
“I told you!” Sirius cheers. “I told you he was projecting.”
“Projecting?”
“Mate, you called us messy. I mean, yeah, we are, but it’s your tell.”
#marauders fic#marauders#remus lupin fic#remus lupin fluff#remus lupin x you#remus lupin x reader#requests#marauder-misprint
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Things Karlach says
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Karlach excitedly saying, “heya soldier!” every time you walk to her.
Karlach mumbling under her breath “gods damnit” as she rubs at her chest
Karlach smiling wearily and quietly saying “I’m alright, soldier. Swear on the damn engine itself, I’m alright.”
Karlach whispering “thank you, soldier,” with tears in her eyes as you hand her the last piece of infernal iron she needs.
Karlach asking with a hint of fear and excitement after you visit Damien, “will you do the honors?”
Karlach being speechless after hugging you for the first time and staring at you open mouthed.
Karlach breathing shakily, “can I touch you?” as she approaches you that night.
Karlach groaning deeply into your kiss and again when you pull away. “Fuck, solider.”
Karlach, pulling you on top of her as she sits down and kisses you again, growling, “come’ere, we’ve got ten years to make up for.”
Karlach, tipping her head and gripping your hips with a bruising intensity, moaning wildly as you kiss down her neck and begin to leave marks in your path.
Karlach asking “is this okay?” as she flips you over and settles her hips against yours.
Karlach letting her tail wrap around your thigh, making space for her to work, praising you, “doing so good for me, so good.”
Karlach chuckling against your back in a hoarse voice when you wake up, “good morning, darling. How are you feeling?”
Karlach kissing a line down your shoulder, muttering, “we need to get up soon. Unless you want to see Lae slice a hole in our tent because we’re taking too long.”
Karlach leaning against a log by the fire with one leg propped up and her arm resting on her knee, saying “heya solider, come sit with me” with a smile.
Karlach crying for the first time since you met when you tell her that you love her, “I love you too. Gods, that feels so good to finally tell you.”
#karlach imagine#karlach fanfic#karlach baldurs gate 3#karlach x reader#karlach x tav#karlach bg3#karlach#karlach cliffgate#karlach cliffgate x reader#Karlach cliffgate imagine
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Ahh gotta ask for more of this
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I don't remember if you've mentioned how long you'll think it'll be, is a shorter one or a longfic?
Thanks💕💕 💋
Awesome! And I think it's just going to be a longer-ish one-shot. Like 15-20k? Idk! I'm at about 5k rn.
120 or 1k - whatever I reach first:
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“Yes!” Eddie exclaims. Potentially unwisely but he’s unable to assess long term repercussions right now. “Yes, yes. Just like you. And… And I get why you haven’t told anyone here.”
Buck’s eyes widen. “I couldn’t! No one would believe me!”
Eddie frowns. Well, okay. He’s not that stealthy, if that’s what he thinks. Eddie figured it out.
“Well, they might…” Eddie says carefully. “But I get it. Not a lot of people know about me either.”
Buck considers this. “But you’re from El Paso?”
Eddie raises an eyebrow. “Uh, yeah? We’re everywhere, man.”
“Even inland?” Buck asks.
What the hell? Is he like, against the South? There are queer people everywhere! The west coast and, like, New York, aren’t the only place with trans people. Also, Texas has coastline. Even if El Paso doesn’t…
“Yes, even inland,” Eddie replies.
“Wow,” Buck exhales. “When did it happen? How?”
What? What does he mean how? Same way it happened to him, presumably?
“Dude,” Eddie says. “I think you’re really high right now.”
Buck blinks. “I am. I am really high.”
“We should… Maybe we can talk about this sober,” Eddie suggests.
“Yes!” Buck agrees. “Yes, I want to.”
Eddie smiles. “Okay. Grreat. That’s… That’s great.”
“Can I… There’s a beach! Can we talk at the beach? You know, privately?”
The beach? Why does he want to go to a beach? Is that a normal place to talk? He’d think, like, one of their places… A coffee shop? A park? Eddie can’t say he’s a big fan of the beach. Not that he’s spent much time at one, but… Well, he doesn’t imagine it’s a super comfy experience for him.
“Uh, okay. Sure. If that’s what you want,” Eddie replies.
“Yes! Please, I’m so excited, Eddie. I’ve never met anyone else like me,” Buck beams.
“Never?” Eddie gapes.
“No,” Buck confirms. “Why? Are there a lot of us?”
Buck is so fucked up right now. Damn.
“Yes,” Eddie replies. “Especially in L.A.”
“Oh! Is that why you moved here?” Buck asks.
“It was a factor, yeah.”
“Wow. Okay, wow,” Buck is grinning. “I’m so happy.”
Eddie smiles. He might have too much LSD in his system to feel the requisite fear for what he’s just done, but he’s happy too. He thinks it’ll be really good to have a friend he can fully be himself around.
🌻
Buck texts Eddie the next morning. Sends him a location. Not even an address. A latitude longitude location. It’s a small, rocky stretch of beach with road access between Los Angeles in Malibu. Strange, Eddie thinks. There are so many nicer options. Eddie wonders if, like himself, Buck is just nervous. Wants somewhere quiet. Again, one of their homes would have worked.
When he parks the truck at their agreed upon meet-up time, Eddie knows Buck is already there. The Jeep is parked, but he’s not inside. He must already be down by the water. Alright. Whatever.
Eddie gets out of the truck and heads down a wooden stair accessway. He sees Buck at the bottom, standing near the water, barefooted and just far enough away from the edge of the water to avoid getting wet from incoming waves. He’s wearing swim shorts and a tank top. Oh god. Buck doesn’t think they’re going swimming, does he? Eddie is really not okay with that.
His hands are shaking by the time he makes it to the stony, uneven surface of the beach. It’s been so long since he’s ever slipped and told anyone. Of his own volition. That person died. And then… And then the next people to find out? They hadn’t wanted Eddie around anymore. So this? This could be a disaster. But it could also be great. He and Buck, they could be really great friends. Eddie thinks he needs that. More than he realized.
“Buck,” he calls out, stepping awkwardly to avoid discomfort on his feet. There are a lot of fucking rocks.
Buck turns around, wide grin on his face. “Hey! Eddie, hi!”
“Uh, so why this beach?” Eddie asks.
“It’s super private, for one,” Buck says. “Out of the way.”
“You’re afraid of being seen,” Eddie says.
“Yeah, aren’t you?” Buck frowns. “I mean, I’ve tried to be so careful.”
“I don’t think anything about this is going to out us, Buck,” Eddie says quietly.
“Right, because it’s a quiet beach!” Buck grins. “You ready?”
Eddie blinks. “Ready to… Talk?”
“Well, yeah. Talk,” Buck says, final word said with air quotes.
Why the air quotes?
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When he has free time at work, and uses it to make me a new paddle >>>>
#les b(ian) honest#he’s making it for himself more than me#but gods damn if I’m not so fucking excited#he said he’s gonna try and make it wider so he can get that whole cheek#he wants to leave behind a lot of marks and for it to have a pretty sound#so he said he’s adding holes…#halp?#I’m so scared and turned on#I love it#todays just been a good day so far you guys#and tonight is gonna be even better!#shrub#dont be a dick#text
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I can’t wait to wake up tomorrow to a dash of
#I HOPE EVERYONE GOING HAD THE ABSOLUTE BEST TIME#ITS SO EXCITING#I am going to be so god damn tempted just to click that show me the post#but I have to remain strong#I can hold out to December right??!??#but I also will be absorbing all the information that doesn’t have to do with the show it’s self#like meet and greet#pre show playlist#vip merch things cause I gotta know what I have got myself into#PLEASE TELL ME SOMEONE GETS THE PRE SHOW PLAYLIST#someone will for sure#I’m so hyped#anyway#goodnight:)))#it’s been a long as fuck day#dan and phil#phan#aiyah rambles
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Spent so much time making sushi for dinner and was so excited to have a funky little sushi roll and eat it like a burrito but then my nori ripped apart mid roll and I had to eat it as a salad and apparently my brain doesn’t like the texture of imitation crab + seaweed and rice rn :(
#bones speaks#bones rants#sad :(#imma put in fridge for twin but man now I gotta make something else for dinner because I haven’t eaten anything else today#and only had like 300 calories worth of food yesterday. getting used to not feeling hungry with-#-consistent adderall use has been kickin my ass lately.#sorry I like never rant on here but I’m so sad I was so excited for sushi and then Texture Bad :(((((#i even put avocado n carrot and salted cucumber ;-; this took so long to make and now I can’t eat it#a tragedy of the highest order#fuck it imma make me some chicken and just season the everloving shit out of it#i may be white but I know how to cook flavorful food and by god am I not gonna eat chicken with just salt. lack of spoons be damned
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he really put the damn mask back on right at the end. like. even then. EVEN THEN!!!
#this show plays me like a damn fiddle. ‘look we’re pulling out all the cool super robot moves now to get you hyped. nothing bad willhappen’#AND I FALL FOR IT. EVERY TIME#god i love this so much. i’m so fucking excited for the last episode#a: bravern#bravern spoilers#t.bbbb#more thoughts coming later ofc theyre just taking a while to process. theres so MUCH#such a treat every week………
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Guess who just bought a keychain of the Jin-eating-burger photo that I won’t stfu about!!!
#thank you eBay 🙏 thank you Wendy’s collaboration 🙏 amen god bless peace on earth#im so low on money but I’m breaking myself for the fucking Jin eating burger keychain/standee 😭 I meannn how can I not it’s literally my pf#Jin really do be eating that burger tho damn that’s crazyyy 🍔🍔#im so excited hehe#watch the package not deliver or smth LMAOOO ID CRYYY#I never use eBay im nervous lowkey 😞#my mom deadass bought it on her account idk why I’m tripping#💀#Jin-eating-burger standee/keychain pls make ur way to me carefully and safely and packaged w care pls…pls….🙏🙏#my first piece of Jin merch omg…#I wanted to get the takaya one so bad but I’m soooo fucking broke lmfaoo 😭😭#me applying for a job and listing my reason for applying as “want money for takaya sakaki merchandise’’#LMFAOO#I’d also like the chidori one so I could have all of Strega#but alas#as long as I have Jin I’m good to go 🙏🙏#if you EVER hear me complaining in the future say “Gio remember you have Jin-eating-burger standee in ur possession’’#and I will immediately stop complaining and instead start counting my blessings ☺️#very excited abt this if you couldn’t tell#im so normal guys i promise#persona 3#persona#p3#persona 3 reload#jin shirato#(posting this from my drafts and I did end up buying the takaya one as well LMFAOO IM DONEEE#the lack of self control is craaazzzyyyy#takajin wedding alter creation upcoming?#IM JOKINGGG
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No one talk to me unless it’s about Warwick
#Warwick#league of legends#arcane#lol#I’m thinking…. so big#idk if any of yall watch the League update videos cause why would you if you don’t play the games but oh my GOF#getting to play Ambessa in league… I’m going to fucking crush#also possible Viktor VGU#I’m so god damn excited for this year in league#please give Orianna a vgu I’m begging rito PLEASE
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Aaaaaaaa tattoo???????????? Maybe??????
#I reached out to a tattoo artist last night and she got back to me this afternoon#and I’m !!!!!!!!!!#I’ve never gotten this far#I’ve just dreamt about it for years#and never actually taken the next step#and I haven’t like booked an appointment or anything#but I’ve contacted her and confirmed her books are open and she would be interested and on my basic description about what price range#holy shit#my whole chest tightens up and I like panic response any time I think about it#and my friend had to sit on the phone and encourage me to hit send on the email#and I don’t know if that’s a sign I should just not do it but also I’ve wanted one for so long but do I actually or just the idea of one????#but also!!!!! I’ve had so many fucking god damn needles in my life#it would be kinda nice to finally have some that I CHOOSE#anyway!!! maybe getting a tattoo this winter????#maybe????#I haven’t booked or anything yet but#I rlly like her art style and her books are open during the window I’m home#idk how to navigate this around my mom while I’m home but#I think I’ve almost settled on a black line cecropia moth on my upper inner left arm#anyway I’m freaking out and I can’t tell if the terror out ways the excitement or what I’m actually afraid of#I’m not gonna get it before thanksgiving for sure bc that’s too much attention for the once a year we’re all together#and if I wait until mid December then my sibling will be home to go with me too tho Ik my friend would go with me if he’s home too#but anyway anyway anyway anytime I think abt this for longer than a few seconds my brain shuts down and I can’t breathe so#first I gotta parse what that reaction means#Im a rambling sam
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YALL I GOT A DVD PLAYER AT WALMART AN HOUR AGO AND STARTED CRYING WHEN I POPPED IN THE BARBIE IN RAPUNZEL DVD
#oMFG I REALLY GOT HIT HARD WITH THE NOSTALGIA JUST FROM THE GOD DAMN DVD MENU 😭😭😭😭#also picked up a few movies while I was there cuz that 10$ and under bin was calling my name omfg#but the old Barbie movies were hitting so hard on just the dvd menus alone I’m so excited!!!!#even popped in Barbie nutcracker cuz I forgot how it opened and I just ughhhhhhhh they were geniuses for putting stage curtains up#and I am so gonna be going back again soon cuz I saw they had a Scooby foo collection and TMNT COLLECTION TOO#LIKE BRUHHHHHHHHHHHH I LOVED WATCHING THAT ON YTV BACK IN THE DAY#my god I am never gonna ever want to leave my room once the movie collection starts to grow#and they had some collections in that bin too I was losing my shit#it was hard choosing between taking home the Batman collection and the cluesless mean girls and she’s the man feature collection#but I’ll come back again for mean girls cuz they had a few copies in that bin#my god I am going to be such an irritating person talking to people about my dvds lmao#and it’s gonna get even worse when my second copy of happily ever after comes in cuz my old one was so fucking scratched it would skip#well more like freeze and then skip at the scene where the evil queen’s brother is trying to kill Snow White by turning her into stone#and I’m def gonna be looking up more dvd discount stores in my area to find more dvds for the things I’ve liked#maybe if I’m lucky I’ll come across a movie that’s out of print!!!!!
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i do not know if i ever sent this to you. i have posted it. i hope you like it Princess.
#uhhhhhm no you HAVE NOT SENT THIS TO ME BEFORE?!?!#I literally am speechless#I’m not super talky right now#but even if I was I feel like I’d still be fucking speechless#like I already said I love your writing 🩷#and it fucking BLOWS ME AWAY when people write about me or use me as an inspiration#like????????? what??????? me???????????!#I’m going to keep this close to my heart and look at it whenever I’m feeling down#I don’t remember if I said that already but it’s true#I need to get a journal or a cute box to put things like this in so I can just grab it and look through them when I’m feeling shitty#one thing I needed to say is the fact that you shared this with me now of all times??? is kinda crazy to me#idk if it’s a coincidence or if the universe/God/whoever/whatever is trying to tell me to go back into music and singing#not going to go into it too much but I’ve been looking at my life a lot lately#and I’m realizing I’m not getting any younger…. I know I’m still young but if I don’t do something soon -#my life is going to completely pass before my eyes and I really really don’t want that#I’m *finally* going to get mental help soon (long story but I have to wait a few weeks)#and once I’m actually mentally stable I can focus on what I want to do with my life#so I’ve been thinking a lot about my performing arts background and then randomly a get an email from a choir director I know#asking if I could please join the choir for their Easter performance cause they could really use my high notes#and she just kept complimenting me and it felt really nice ☺️#then when I went to the first rehearsal I sat next to this girl and we were singing a part and the first sopranos go up to a high A#and I can hit it easily but most of them couldn’t so it felt like I was going this mini solo lol#but she asks me what my range is and I told her that back when I trained I could sing queen of the night which I think goes up to an F6#and she was talking about how impressive that is#and it made me think about if I actually trained and got back into it how good I actually could get#I don’t mean this to be like ‘look at me look at me I’m so good’#it just feels nice to have a little bit of a direction again#who knows if I’ll actually go down the music path again but it does sound damn exciting#I miss it with all my heart - I miss singing and performing and acting… I even miss music theory#anyway rant over and i ran out of space but thank you so much I seriously can’t thank you enough 😭🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷
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I’m gonna shit out my entire ass no one told me bg3 wasn’t available on the ps4
I guess I’ll go fuck myself then smh
#my laptop can’t run it#and I don’t have a ps5 or Xbox or whatever so I’m shit out of fucking luck I guess#I was so excited to play it too god damn it#now I have diarrhea#so when I say shit out my entire ass I mean shit out my entire ass
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feeling profound loneliness in this airport this morning 😔✊✈️
#fucked up i haven’t flown alone in 6 years and now my brain associates airports with the excitment of adventures with my ex#on the verge of tears bc i’m leaving pickle for 6 days and my baby is going to be so sad and confused#airports bring the emotions out of me god damn it
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if I was a relevant trigun character I would say something like “I think wolfwood is one of the sweetest people I know” and he would probably get real ‘mad’ at me or upset and think im just not getting it or that I live in a bubble but i give the audience a knowing look because well i truly believe it! And it’s the wisest thing I’ll say. And Aalso it is true. c : and also my name is hash the slingin slasher
#I think I would want to threaten order as a crime!!#the knowing look is similar to the fourth wall zuko smile#or perhaps when dogs give you a side eye and it is circular black and white#this is just something I think about so much (the part where nick is sweet)#that last thing started as a discord buddies joke and now I’m getting so excited thinking about being named after hashbrowns ??!😳#but that sounds like Vash FUCK!!!!!!!! GOD DAMN IT ALL!!!!!!!#trigun#nicholas d wolfwood
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#worn the fuck out#I’m sure my artist friends are already mourning a world that gave a shit about compensating their labor#I’m not great at drawing#but god damn can I argue#…but I can’t argue well enough to get people to give a shit about workers#to stop trotting out unfitting platitudes about ‘technology advancing’#there’s nothing futuristic about finding new and exciting ways not to pay artists#this is the only industry where ‘obsolete’ human labor POWERS the automation#the pictures are SO pretty that prompters can make a king’s ransom pushing out a remix#if the source art wasn’t mind blowingly gorgeous then these AI merchants would’ve fallen flat#‘thank you for the gorgeous samples! eat shit and die’#I thought I could make people see how fucked this is#but they think slapping More Technology on something is Progress
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