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kitwilsonsass · 2 years ago
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Lawl filming a dude who always wears a mask without it on and trying to spin him as the disrespectful one.
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mackenzielovee · 3 years ago
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hiiiii angel!
I have a request for rafe x reader x jj.
In which Barry uses the reader as a collateral after rafe accumulates late payments for the substances he consumed and jj steals the 25K from him. The reader has been hanging out with both boys since she has a strong connection with both. Barry has been watching them all three interact over the last month and finds the reader as the perfect way to make them pay for their mistakes. Barry confronts both boys and right when he’s aiming to shoot the reader either JJ or Rafe get in the way and take the shot instead ( you can choose who) and the other boy promises to take care of the reader and protect her from all dangers. Meanwhile the other one is bleeding himself to death while giving his life for reader. This idea was so random but I’m so obsessed!!! Please please please! I’m so excited it would mean the world to me<3
a/n: hey baby! thank you so much for this request. I actually loved writing this and i hope i did it just the way you wanted! please let me know if you enjoyed it! ily<3
Warnings: swearing, talk of drug abuse, gun play, gun fire, blood, mentions of death,
Word Count: 5.5k
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protection - rafe cameron
It's a warm day out on the Cut. As you walk through the tall grass and slap away a mosquito that landed on your arm, you think about how JJ is going to want to swim once you get the boat out into the water, and you forgot your bathing suit. You hope Kie has one that she left over at John B's, maybe you could steal it.
Faintly, you hear the hum of a dirt bike as it gets closer to you, but you think nothing of it. You're holding a six pack of JJ's favorite beer in your hand, excited to get the day started. You, JJ, John B, and Sarah all planned to take the boat out for a joyride and a day on the water. Kiara's working and Pope is preparing for his scholarship interview, an excuse that made JJ call him a nerd.
You hear the bike start to approach you, so you turn to see who it is. You've never seen anyone with a bike this close to John B's house. You don't recognize the guy under the helmet, but you don't really have time, because he pulls the bike in front of you and stops, scaring the shit out of you.
"Hey there, sweetheart," you hear, and immediately know the voice of the slimy drug dealer himself.
Barry removes his helmet and smirks at you, eyeing you up and down. You look disgusted with him, not sure what he wants with you but knowing you want no part of it.
"Get out of my way, Barry," you snap.
Barry's an asshole, always has been. One of your other good friends, Rafe Cameron, buys coke from him on the regular. You've been trying to get Rafe off of it and even went so far as to see Barry to get him to stop selling to Rafe, but it didn't work out. Barry just called you 'princess' a lot and then told you he'd lose a fuck ton of money if Rafe ever gets clean.
"I'm afraid I can't do that," Barry laughs, but it's sarcastic, "Are those beers up for grabs?"
You instinctively pull your occupied hand back, away from him so he can't grab it.
"No," you say, trying to side step him. He hops off his bike and walks in front of you, quickly boxing you in.
"Listen, sweetheart, it's nothing against you. But I'm gonna need you to get on the bike," Barry's voice is thick, making you swallow your anxiety.
You wonder if you screamed for JJ, would he hear you? Or would Barry rip your throat out before any noise even came out?"
"Not a chance," you reply, trying to keep yourself calm.
Barry snickers, then brings his beady eyes back up to yours. He steps closer, making you step back, until your back hits the bike and you had no way of getting away from him.
"I'm gonna say it one more time," he tells you, "And then it might have to get ugly. Get on the fuckin' bike."
Your heart is beating a mile a minute with no idea what this man wants with you or where he's taking you, but you know better than to go anywhere with him. You shake your head, sure words will fail you right now. Barry just sighs, then reaches up to his back and pulls a gun out from his pants. The beers fall from your hand to the ground, splitting open and spilling out on the ground.
"Oh, now, that's just a big waste," Barry uses the gun to point down at the beers, "Get on the goddamn bike. Now."
You don't see any other option; essentially it's live and get on the bike, or die right here, less than half a mile from John B's. You can already imagine the memorial JJ will build for you when they find out this is the spot you died in. Somehow, it comforts you. Only a little.
"Why are you doing this?" you ask him quietly as you turn to face the bike.
Barry watches as you sit down on the back of his bike, then uses the gun to slowly stroke up your bare thigh. You can smell his breath as he leans in to speak to you.
"Your boys both owe me. Big time. So, I'm taking the one thing I know they'll pay good money for," he smirks, then hands you his helmet, "Don't want you to get hurt, sweetheart."
You want to throw up every time he calls you that, but instead, you grab the helmet from him and put it on. You look back, hoping maybe, for some reason, JJ had wandered out and would just so happen to see you. All you see is trees. Barry hops on and starts up the bike, then turns back to you again.
"Now, you're supposed to hold on here," he tells you, wrapping your arms around his waist, "But if you feel so inclined to move your hand a little south of that, well, I don't mind at all."
You gag and loosen your grip on him as much as you can, not wanting to touch him any more than you have to. He starts up the bike just as his words sink into your mind. Your boys both owe me. What does that even mean?
Barry takes off, not bothering to go any slower with you. It's a pretty short ride back to his place, but feels longer to you because of how sick you feel. Every thought goes through your mind; he's taking you back here so he can kill you in private, he's going to rape you, sell you to some old Kook who will keep you in the basement. All sorts of things you think of, none of them good.
When you get back to his house, he stops the bike and you immediately jump off. So does Barry, who winds up just throwing the bike down in the grass. You throw the helmet down too, not caring if he wanted you to do that or not.
"What are you talking about?" you snap, watching Barry act surprised by your outburst, "Who owes you money? What boys? Why me?"
Barry rolls his eyes and shakes his head, then reaches over and grabs onto your wrist. You try to pull away, but his grip is firm.
"Don't fucking start that shit with me," he snaps at you, "Get in the house."
His tone scares you, and even though you know you shouldn't, you obey. You just want to know why you're here and what the hell is going on.
You walk up the stairs to the porch and sit down on the couch, the same one Rafe sits on every time he buys from Barry.
"Tell me what's going on," you say once you're seated.
Barry picks up a blunt from the table and lights it up, silently holding it out to offer you some. You shake your head and scrunch your nose up, disgusted with it. That makes Barry grin.
"Rafe owes me money," Barry states simply.
You raise your eyebrow, "So?"
Barry looks over at you, giving you the 'are you serious?' look. He sits down in the chair beside the couch, taking a long drag off his blunt before he speaks again.
"So," he says, "Did you know JJ stole 25k from my house?"
Your expression falters and your jaw drops, telling Barry you know nothing of it. That almost makes him feel guilty for scaring you so bad back there, if you were totally innocent. But he needs his money, and you're his one way ticket to it.
"JJ wouldn't do that," you say, not being able to stop the hesitation in your voice.
"Really?" Barry snickers, "Well, he did. And since both of them boys seem to be wrapped around your little finger, you and I are gonna become best friends until I get my money. Understand, sweetheart?"
You glare at him, now understanding what he wants with you.
"So, I'm just collateral," you confirm, watching Barry's lips turn up around his blunt when you speak.
"Exactly," he smiles, "Now. Do you have your phone with you, or did you drop it when you spilled my beers?"
You huff at him and roll your eyes, then lean over in your bag and pull it out of the front pocket. Barry snatches it quickly, then asks you what your code is. You tell him, knowing if he can just get the boys here fast, you won't have to be alone with him anymore.
"Should I send them a picture of you holding up a newspaper? Don't they do that in all the hostage shows on TV?" Barry laughs to himself, looking up at you for confirmation.
You shrug, not wanting to speak to him any more than you have to. Barry rolls his eyes.
"Them boys really put up with that attitude?" he snaps at you, "Goddamn, I could never. You better straighten up, honey."
You just stare at him, deciding it's best if the two of you don't speak. Barry hits send and then tucks your phone in his pocket.
"That should send those two idiots running," Barry laughs, taking another hit from his blunt and then looking over to you again, "You sure you don't wanna try this? Might help you fucking relax."
You glare at him once again and then shake your head, looking away from him. You can tell out of the corner of your eye that he stands up, but when he grabs your chin and forces you to look over at him, you gasp.
"Straighten out, or I'll do it for you," he says, then roughly releases you.
You sigh and sit back on the couch, praying that at least one of the boys will arrive soon. Barry sits back down in his seat and tries to strike up a conversation, pretending he hadn't just manhandled you.
"So, which one are you gonna choose?"
Your head snaps over as you stare at him, trying to figure out what the hell he's talking about.
"What?" you ask, your voice giving away your confusion.
"You know," Barry shrugs, "They're both, like, crazy in love with you. So, if I have to shoot one to teach the other a lesson, which one would you pick?"
You roll your eyes, "You're fucking crazy."
Barry leans forward and stares at you, blunt hanging from his lips. He slams his hand down on the table in front of you, trying to get your attention.
"They stole from me," he shouts now, "Both of them. Someone's going to fuckin' pay for that."
You just nod your head, hoping he'll just shut up now. You don't want to talk about how they stole or Barry teaching either of them a lesson. You just want to go home. You should've never been walking by yourself in the first place. Then again, you never dreamed some psycho with a gun would come along.
"I think it'll be JJ," Barry continues, "You seemed pretty bummed on Cameron when he refused to quit his shit. But, you know, take your pick. Drug addict or thief. Man, it's like the Bachelor or some shit up in here."
Your eyes roll so far back into your head that you swear you can see your brain. When you look over at him, he's still laughing at his own joke.
"They're going to pay you back, and then you're never going to see any of us again," you say confidently. Barry just laughs.
"Yeah, okay, sweetheart."
You look over form the porch when you hear a noise, then sigh with relief when you see Rafe's truck pull up. He's driving fast, too fast, and he hops out of the truck the second he gets within running range of the porch. He doesn't even bother to close the door behind him.
You try to stand and go out to him, but Barry grabs your arm and keeps you down on the couch.
"Easy," he tells you, reaching behind him and pulling out his gun. He sets it down on the table in front of him, and you take note of how his expression changes from laughing to pissed off.
Rafe runs up to the porch and swings open the door, and that's when Barry releases you. You stand and rush to him, feeling Rafe sigh in relief as he wraps his strong arms around your little body. All of your anxiety melts away as you know you're safe now. Rafe would never let anything happen to you.
"Please tell me you're okay," Rafe whispers against your head, squeezing you tight.
"I'm okay," you confirm.
He pulls back from the hug and starts checking all over your body for injuries anyway. He holds up your arms and scans those, stopping his finger over a bruise you already had. It happened on the boat with JJ.
"I'm fine," you repeat to him, laying your head back on his chest. You really just don't want him to let go of you.
"What the fuck, Barry?" Rafe yells, his voice echoing through your ear as you have your head pressed on his chest.
"Afternoon, Country Club," Barry stands and smirks, watching the way you cling to Rafe.
You don't look at him, you just close your eyes and breathe Rafe in, not wanting to remember where you are. In your mind, the two of you are hanging out and eating lunch at the club. You always love going, especially on windy days when his scent travels from across the table. You love the way he smells.
"I'd like to change my answer, sweetheart," Barry tells you, ignoring Rafe's confused glance, "I think this one might love you back, Rafe. How sweet."
Rafe instinctually tightens his arm up around you, keeping you pressed up against him.
"I swear to God," Rafe starts, "If you laid one hand on her-"
"I didn't, Jesus," Barry groans, "I wish you cared about getting me my money the same way you care about saving this bitch."
You don't react, not even slightly. You don't care what Barry thinks of you. You just never want his slimy hands to touch you. Ever again.
"She's not a bitch, man," Rafe's voice goes quiet, "And I'm going to get you your money."
Barry laughs and then pretends to cry, "Boo who, she's not a bitch. I don't care, bro. I gave you shit on two separate occasions-"
"And I gave you my bike as collateral!" Rafe shouts back.
"That piece of shit ain't worth half what you owe me," Barry spits, "Your girl liked riding on it, though."
Rafe's chest tenses against you, and then you feel him bring his hand up to stroke your hair. He's trying to keep you as relaxed as possible.
"Y/N, go wait in my truck," Rafe tells you quietly, pulling the keys out of his pocket.
"Oh, no, no," Barry smirks, reaching out and snatching the keys from Rafe, "You think you're the only person I called here?"
As if on cue, the porch door swings open again and JJ walks in. Your eyes open and you see him, his expression worse than you've ever seen him.
"You got her?" JJ points to you, but he's talking to Rafe.
Rafe just nods, tightening his grip around you again. You open your mouth to speak, but watch as JJ charges toward Barry and punches him square in the nose.
"What the fuck did you do?" JJ shouts, watching Barry tumble to the floor, "If I find out you fucking hurt her-"
Barry laughs from the floor, wiping blood from his nose, "Easy, bro. You two are so damn worried about this chick."
JJ's chest is expanding and then contracting every five seconds, telling you his adrenaline is going crazy. You know he's ready to punch him again. Barry stands and picks up his gun from the coffee table, pointing it directly at JJ. You try to push forward to stop it, but Rafe keeps his grip tight.
"Now," Barry says, spitting his blood onto the floor, "You bitches are gonna pay up."
"Barry, I'll get you your money, man," Rafe promises. When Barry moves and points the gun at Rafe, he quickly tucks you behind him. He gives you one of his hands to hold onto, while the other one goes up to stop Barry from shooting.
"Yeah, when?" Barry yells, "I told you, Cameron. It's not just me you're screwing with."
Rafe nods his head, doing his best to try and calm Barry down. JJ looks over at you, mouthing 'are you okay?'
You nod at him, your expression clearly giving you away. You're scared, and he knows it.
"I know, bro," Rafe says, "Some people still owe me from the party Friday night. I'm going to get it, I just need some time."
Barry laughs sarcastically and lowers the gun, "Oh, yeah, for sure, man. You know what, take your time, Rafe."
Rafe's expression changes, knowing Barry doesn't mean it. He just wonders what that means for getting you out of here.
"The girl stays with me until both of you are paid up," Barry tells both of them.
"Like hell," JJ mutters.
Barry, who is still pissed about his nose, turns around and hits JJ in the head with the stock of the gun. You watch JJ stumble back, and without hesitation, break from Rafe's grasp and rush over to him. Rafe reaches out to try and grab you, but his grip isn't good enough.
"JJ!" you say, grabbing onto him as he stumbles. He wraps his arm around your shoulders, allowing you to help him stand.
"Shit," JJ mumbles, gripping his forehead. He pulls his fingers back and sees blood.
"Damn, darlin'," Barry grins at you, "You really do love them both."
You glare at Barry for the millionth time today as you set your arm around JJ's waist and lead him over to sit down. He sits in the chair Barry had been sitting in and you stand in between his legs, moving his hand away to see his wound.
Barry looks over at Rafe, who has his jaw clenched as he watches you stand in between JJ's legs and clean him up. He watches as JJ's hand lingers on the back of your thigh, his fingers brushing your skin ever so slightly.
"That's gotta hurt," Barry says to Rafe, getting a lot of amusement out of watching the boys squirm over you.
You ignore whatever Barry says as you use the bottom of your shirt to wipe off some of the blood on JJ's forehead. It's not bleeding badly, which you're thankful for. You're almost sure Barry doesn't own a first aid kit.
"Now, JJ," Barry steps over to you two, "Let's talk about how you stole twenty-five thousand dollars out of my house, yeah?"
Barry presses the gun to the back of JJ's neck, making JJ tense up. You watch Barry, bringing your hands to JJ's shoulders and holding onto him, as if to comfort him somehow.
"I'll get it back," JJ says, his voice hoarse.
"You bet your ass you will," Barry tells him, "When will that be, exactly?"
JJ sighs, knowing it won't be any time soon. That money is long gone.
"Can we set up a payment plan?" JJ asks sarcastically.
He regrets it when Barry grabs onto your arm and pulls you away, pressing the gun into your stomach as he holds onto you. JJ stands quickly and Rafe starts to rush over, but stops when he sees the look in Barry's eyes.
"You know, I'm getting real sick of being treated like a bitch," Barry tells them, pressing the gun into you harder, "I want my money. Now."
You let out an involuntary groan at the pain, watching Rafe as he tries to figure out what to do.
"Let her go, Barry," Rafe finally speaks, "Let her sit down and I'll go get your money."
"All of it?" Barry confirms.
Rafe nods, "All of it. Just let her sit down over there."
Barry looks at both boys, noting how pathetic they are. He's glad, though, knowing all he has to do is threaten your life to get what he wants. He just doesn't understand what's so damn special about you.
He releases your arm and shoves you in the direction of the couch, Rafe stepping forward to grab you. He pulls you into him again, leading you over to sit down.
"You all right?" he asks you, taking a seat beside you and bringing his hands up to your cheeks.
"Yes," you reply, nodding feverishly as if to try and convince him.
"I'm gonna get you out of here, okay? I'm so sorry, baby," he whispers as he pulls you into him.
Your breath catches in your throat as he calls you 'baby'. He's never done that before. Your mind wanders back to Barry telling you that both boys are crazy in love with you. You now sit there in Rafe's arms, wondering if Barry's right.
Rafe pulls back and looks at you in the eyes again, "Just sit right here for me, okay? I'm gonna go get the money. I'll be right back."
You nod again, silently promising him that you'll be here when he gets back. As if you could leave. He rubs the base of his thumb on your cheek and gives you a small smile, then stands up. He curses, knowing he doesn't want to leave you here.
JJ steps over to Rafe as he walks toward the door, grabbing his arm.
"Where the fuck are you gonna get twenty six thousand bucks right now, man?" JJ hisses, keeping his voice down for your sake.
"I don't know, JJ, I was thinking I'd walk into the bank and ask nicely," Rafe snaps, "I have no fucking idea. But I have to figure something out, right?"
JJ runs his hands through his hair and exhales loudly, then looks over and smiles quickly at you. Barry watches the boys, trying to figure out what's going on.
"Dude-"
"Just," Rafe starts, already annoyed with JJ, "Stay with her. I'm going to figure it out."
Rafe hates telling JJ to comfort you and be there for you, but it's the way it has to be. No way JJ could get his dirty hands on that kind of money right now. Or ever. JJ nods and starts walking over to you as Rafe thinks about how much money his dad might have in his safe right now.
"You know," Barry starts, standing up again with the gun in his hand, "I'm starting to think you don't really have my money, Country Club."
"Chill out, Barry," Rafe sighs, stepping toward the door once more. The safety of the gun being turned off is what makes Rafe stop dead in his tracks.
"Tell me the truth, Rafe," Barry says.
Rafe slowly turns around with his hands up, swallowing quickly.
"I'm going to get it," Rafe states again.
Barry shakes his head, "You're lying."
Before Rafe can process it, Barry moves the gun in your direction. He looks at you for a second, the horror on your face, and you know your body is frozen. You shut your eyes, not wanting to see it happen. At least you'll die with the boys.
The shot fires fast, but you don't feel anything. You hear a yell, then Rafe scream out, and when you open your eyes, JJ's lying on the ground. Your jaw falls open as you tumble onto the floor beside him, setting your hand on his bleeding stomach. Your hand is soaked instantly, but you don't know what else to do.
"JJ," you cry out, watching his eyes find yours, "JJ, oh, my God."
Tears fall down your face as you stare at him, his eyes glazing over. He's just watching you panic. Rafe comes over and sinks down beside you, not knowing how to help.
"Towels, Rafe," you order, "Hurry."
You spot a random shirt laying on the ground, one you're sure is Barry's and use it for the time being to soak up some of the blood.
"Hey, JJ, I'm right here," you tell him, watching your tears fall onto his shirt. They become invisible immediately, the blood stains swallowing them up.
"Are you okay?" JJ chokes out, spitting blood from his mouth onto the floor when he finishes speaking. You shake your head and try to swallow your tears, but you can't.
"I'm fine, JJ, just relax," you tell him, then look up, "Rafe!"
Rafe comes out of Barry's and onto the porch with towels in his hand, stopping only when Barry grabs onto his arm.
"I was aiming for her, remember that," Barry tells him.
Rafe just yanks his arm away and comes to you, placing one of the towels over JJ's wound.
"Rafe, what do we do?" you ask frantically, trying to ignore the blood that now seeps onto the floor.
Rafe shakes his head, having absolutely no idea what to do. He brings his hands over yours and puts more pressure on the wound, trying to stop the bleeding.
"You have to call 911," you tell Rafe, "Go."
Rafe stares at you for a second, still stunned, when JJ starts to speak from the floor.
"Rafe," JJ chokes, "You gotta get her out of here, man."
"Not a chance, JJ," you say, trying your best to smile at him.
JJ looks over at Rafe again, "Rafe."
His voice is serious, and Rafe knows exactly what he's telling him. He's a goner, and he knows it. But he doesn't want you to watch him die. Rafe nods to JJ, telling him he understands. He watches JJ relax and lay his head back down, then stands up. JJ brings his hand down to yours and wraps his fingers around you. You squeeze, trying to tell him it's going to be okay.
"Go call," you remind him.
Rafe steps across JJ's body and, without speaking, tucks his arm around your waist and picks you up. He knows this won't be easy, and he can already feel his emotions coming up.
"Rafe, put me down!" you shout, your blood soaked hands going down to try and peel his arm off of you, "Rafe, stop! JJ!"
He carries you over to the door of the porch, doing his best to keep his grip tight as you fight with every ounce of strength you have.
"Let me go, Rafe! I have to help him!" you're screaming your head off, and Rafe hates it, but he knows he has to do what's best for you.
He glances back only for a second and sees JJ's shallow breathing, knowing he doesn't have much time left.
"Rafe!" you scream, kicking and thrashing around to try and get away.
"I have to make sure you're safe," Rafe tells you as the two of you reach the truck, "It's what he wants me to do."
"He's going to die!" you scream, "Let go of me! I'll never forgive you for this!"
Rafe opens the passenger door of the truck and puts you inside, using all of his strength to keep you there.
"You'll be alive, though!" Rafe raises his voice at you, making you stop. He's never yelled at you, not once.
You choke on your sobs as you see the blood all over Rafe's shirt, then all over your own. He buckles you in and closes your door, then rushes around the truck.
"Don't think this makes us even, Rafe Cameron!" Barry yells from the porch. Rafe flips Barry off and then gets into the truck, starting it and speeding off without buckling himself.
"Rafe, stop!" you yell, "I can't leave him there! He's all alone!"
"This is what he wanted!" Rafe yells back at you, stepping further down on the gas pedal.
"I don't care, I don't want him to be alone!" you cry, reaching for the door handle.
Rafe locks the doors and puts child lock on, preventing you from flinging out of the truck. You bang your fist on the window as he does, leaving a blood stain there.
"Rafe!" you look over and scream at him again.
He gets so frustrated he pulls the truck off the path and sets it in park, then turns to you. He grabs onto both of your wrists and holds them down.
"Calm the fuck down, right now," he demands, "Calm down."
You sit back in the seat and do as you're told, but your tears still fall. JJ just gave his life up to save yours, and Rafe doesn't seem to care at all.
"You need to understand that my only priority back there was to keep you safe. I'm sorry about JJ, baby, I am, but staying would've only put you in more danger."
You shake your head at him, almost as if you're disgusted. You let out a sob and then try to wipe your eyes, only smearing JJ's blood on your face. He reaches over and grabs your cheek, pulling you to look at him.
"I'm going to go back there and get his body. You can say goodbye to him. I'm gonna pay off Barry and never go back there. But I'm going to protect you first, do you understand?"
You nod your head under his touch, letting out another sob as soon as you try to breathe in. Rafe brings his hands down to your hips and pulls you toward him, over the console and into his lap.
"Come here," he whispers gently, tucking his arms around you and holding you close.
He knows you're a mess right now and there's blood all over his truck, but he doesn't care. He just wants you to calm down.
"Rafe," you sob, not knowing what else to say. His shirt becomes soaked with tears quickly.
"I know," he tells you softly, "I know."
"He saved me," you say, more just processing what happened, "Oh, my God, he's dead because of me."
"Shh," Rafe hushes you, his heart feeling like it's breaking in two as he listens to you, "It's not your fault. None of this is. Just calm down for me, baby."
Your hands come up and wrap around the back of Rafe's neck as you nuzzle your nose into the front of it. He brings one hand up to stroke through your hair, trying to relax you.
"We're okay," he soothes, his other hand rubbing your back, "Everything's okay."
You two sit there for a while, Rafe just rubbing on you and calming you down, until eventually, you start to come to terms with what happened. He's thankful you're no longer hysterical.
"Let's go get you cleaned up," Rafe whispers against your head once he feels you relax against him.
You pull back and look him in the eyes, feeling his hand come up to wipe blood from your cheek.
"You'll go back and get him?" you confirm.
Rafe nods, "Yes, of course."
You nod your head and then bring your hand up to his cheek the same way he had on yours, observing how soft his skin is. You think about what Barry told you about them both loving you, and how he later told you that you love them both.
"Rafe?" you ask, your voice nasally from all the crying and screaming, "Can I ask you a question?"
Rafe nods, loving the feeling of your skin on his. It relaxes him, makes him feel complete.
"Barry told me he thinks you're in love with me," you say quietly, leaving out the part about JJ.
You watch as Rafe nervously swallows, and then nods his head ever so slightly. You feel your heart swell, not knowing Rafe Cameron could ever make you feel that way.
"It's true?" you ask him, searching around in his eyes for any kind of doubt. There is none.
"Yeah," Rafe barely whispers.
"Oh," you say, watching Rafe's expression change to hurt as you glance away.
He's sure you don't feel the same. When you look up at him again, he's staring intensely at you.
"Is it okay that I love you, too?" you ask him, voice fragile.
Rafe smiles slightly, then watches as you smile too.
"Yeah," he repeats, but with more authority this time.
He leans his head down and then hesitates, making you hesitate as well. You reach up and grab the collar of his shirt, pulling him down to you. His lips make yours feel like they're on fire as they move together. He reaches up and grabs your cheeks, holding you to him. He pulls away after about a minute, staring at you in full adoration.
"I'm so sorry about today," he tells you, keeping his grip on your face, "I will never put you in any danger like that ever again."
You nod your head slowly, "I know that."
Rafe smiles down at you, bringing one hand up to tuck your hair behind your ear.
"Let's go get you a shower," he says softly.
He doesn't make you get back in your seat, however. He just tightens his grip around you and puts the car in drive again, allowing you to hold onto him while he drives. It almost reminds you of being on the bike with Barry this morning. But instead of being completely disgusted, you're completely in love.
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leonstamatis · 3 years ago
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the nicmargo
big spoon/little spoon: ugh augh oh man. nic. he’s only like an inch or two taller which means they could switch but. they don’t.
favorite non-sexual activity: between the bar and blaseball and the garden they don’t really have a lot of free time! i think their favorite thing to do together is literally just watch tv at home or something. cooking is also pretty high on the list they both like cooking together but only if they have the energy for it.
who uses all the hot water: margo. nic showers in cold water for some godforsaken reason though so it works out. (“it’s better for you!” / “even if that’s true, and i’m not saying it is, you can’t go through life like that. it’s unnatural.”)
most trivial thing they fight over: anything. literally anything. it’s like lighthearted and no one is upset but there’s a list somewhere in the bar office of “things you can’t bring up during work hours or nic and margo will scare off all the customers.” it includes things like whether gazpacho is a smoothie.
who does most of the cleaning: nic. margo cleans up after xemself but when it comes to deep thorough cleaning nic is your guy.
who controls the netflix queue: nic prepares a list of options of things to watch and margo vetoes/approves them. it’s equality.
who calls up the super/landlord when the heat's not working: margo and xe’s a regular terror about it. nic sends baked goods as a thank you/sorry about my husband.
who steals the blankets: they both do this. their bed is a regular war zone of blanket thievery.
who remembers to buy the milk: they have to go shopping together because like, nic will remember the milk, but he’ll forget the specific spice margo needs for dinner that night. whereas margo will remember the obscure shit but assume, incorrectly, that they have all the basic necessities.
who remembers anniversaries: nic is better at it but margo REALLY tries it’s just that xe has so many fucking dates and obligations to remember.
who cooks normally: they trade off because they both really really like to cook both together and on their own.
what do they do when they're away from each other: please don’t separate them. they wouldn’t survive. (they’re fine they’re adults they can handle a weekend apart or whatever even if by the end they’re both very “i miss my wife, tails” about it.)
nicknames for each other: ANYTHING. EVERYTHING. margo calls everyone by their last name as a sign of endearment but it’s different to call nic by his last name because that’s also Margo’s hyphenated last name ykwim. husbands. and nic has full permission to call margo anything. mags, maggie, margo, nava, co-captain (affectionate). margo will sometimes go the opposite direction and call nic “Nicholas” to feign being upset.
what would they get each other for gifts: as a rule they don’t do gifts but it’s because they get pretty damn competitive. if nic gets a big gift for margo, margo gets tickets to Paris, and nic puts a down payment on a new house, it goes on and on. they had to be stopped.
who made the first move: nic waited for margo to do it. he fell first but he wasn’t going to scare margo off. margo got there eventually.
who cusses more: margo, but nic can get going if the right circumstances arise (the sportsball is not going his way)
what would they do if the other was hurt: augh. agh. oof. jesus. margo would be very melancholy and morose. nic would try his best to soldier through it but he would be STRUGGLING to keep it together. they aren’t criers but they could for this. god. ow.
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The Lone Wolf
Masterlist // 01
Warnings: Swearing
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Orlaith and I get off the bus and start walking down the road.
"Where are ye going?" Orlaith asks me.
"I'm away de Saint Marie's, ye wanny join me?" I tell her.
"Aye, sure why not?"
"I finished a job last night and didn't get de give Eoghan the card," I say, brandishing a gold colored card, "I need to get paid and get me next one."
"Why do you do this?" Orlaith asks, shaking her head at me.
"Eoghan's letting me stay in one of the rooms at Saint M's. I'm earning my keep, besides, the money's good."
"If you say so," she shrugs.
We keep walking and then I pull her sleeve, to show her the alley we need to walk down. We reach the end and I pull off my school blazer, shoving it in my school bag and exchanging it for my green and grey striped hoodie. I push open the door to the old Catholic school, I see that people are already in, clearly people like to start drinking early, well, if 5 in the afternoon is early to you.
I pull Orlaith to the bar and I slam the gold card on the bar, making Eoghan look at me. He takes the card and puts it in the out box, he then lifts a wad of cash and gives it to me. He begins to tell me that someone called for me, someone who called me 'Malen'kaya Volchitsa.' Only two people have ever called me that...and one's... not here anymore, so I know exactly who's after me. And just in case I didn't, the name she left, 'Cáileach,' was a nice hint. The witch is a smart one, I'll tell you that much.
(Little she-wolf) (Witch)
I take the number she left and smirk at the gold card.
"We'll take two cokes Eoghan," I tell him before going to the corner table by the door, my table.
Orlaith follows me to the table and sits across from me, "Why's a witch looking for you?"
"Because after leaving me for two years she's finally reaching out," I reply.
"Okay...and what the fuck does that mean?"
"What it means is that I'm gonny be leaving for a bit. My sister needs me, and I can't leave her hanging, 'sides, I owe her."
"You have a sister? Since when?" my confused friend asks.
"Not by blood, not by law she's... emotionally? my sister. Yeah, let's go with that. Basically when I went missing two years ago she was there, we bonded, and she saved me. That's all you need to know," I finish.
Eoghan brings us our drinks and we thank him, I hand him back a tenner, he tells me that he'll be behind the bar if I need him and that we'll talk about this job later.
Orlaith and I stay at the table for a bit while we finish our drinks, talking about our day and how much we hate our math teacher. Then Orlaith gets a text from her mam saying that she needs to head home to do homework and have some family time, whatever that is. I wouldn't know, it's been a while since I was at 'home'. It doesn't matter though, this, Saint Marie's the mercenary job fair of a bar, this is my home now.
When Orlaith leaves I head up to the bar and sit on a stool. I look up at the dead pool to see who's been picked this week, the dead pool is fun for me because as a minor I'm not allowed to get picked, I can just sit and watch the chaos. Only downside is that I can't pick anyone, so... I mean it's a two-way street, so I guess that's fair.
"So, what's this witch after?" Eoghan questions.
"Not sure," I reply honestly, "But whatever it is, it must be important. We haven't spoken in two years, and last time we spoke, he was still alive."
"Him as in-" Eoghan begins.
"Yes, he as in my grá cáilte. She didn't even call me then, so whatever this is has de be big. It better be, or I might just hang up."
(Lost love)
"You won't. The stories you've told me- you wouldn't leave her. If you did you'd hate yourself. You can't bring do stóirín back, he's gone, but you can still help her."
(Your darling)
"You're right, it just breaks my heart, I had to find out they escaped from rumors and stories, but I found out that he died by watching it, live on tv. We had so much potential, he had so much potential, but now I'll never know. Glac siad a anam ró-ghasta."
(They took his soul too soon)
"You're right. But now she needs you. So go find out what the witch wants, and try your damndest to deliver," he says.
"I will," I say, smiling at him sadly, "Thanks, E."
"Not a bother," he assures me, smirking, "Mactíre."
(Wolf)
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I dial the number, she picks up after a single ring.
"Wanda, it's been a while," I say, trying to stay happy even though I know hearing her voice again will probably bring tears.
"Fianna, it has," she says, and I inhale sharply. No tears, not now, not yet at least.
"So, what do you need me for so urgently?" I begin to cut the shit.
"I need help. I need a friend, I need a soldier. Are you available for some last-minute travelling?" she says hesitantly. Clearly I'm a last resort, a "break glass in case of emergency" type help.
"Of course, when and where?" I ask.
"I need you to get to Leipzig-Altenburg Airport asap. We'll get you where you need to be from there," Wanda explains.
"Yeah, uh, when exactly do you mean by asap?"
"I mean, like literally buy a last-minute flight and get on it, within the next two hours. It'll be a two-hour flight, I'll pick you up and we'll get where we need to go."
"Alright, fine. I just need to know, what I'm up against. You said you needed a soldier? I need to know what I'm fighting for before starting a war."
"This is... the fight of a lifetime. You'll be fighting for truth and... safety. Who you'll be up against? Some of my closest friends and some of the deadliest assassins in the last thirty years. Now are you in or are you out? I don't blame you if you're out, but it would really help."
Wanda sounds... more than desperate, she's hopeless, she needs me, more than she ever has. I've fought many's a fierce foe in my time, but Avengers? Deadly assassins? That's usually more than a smidge above my paygrade. But she needs me, she's calling in her last favor, she clearly thinks I'm up for it. I hesitate for a second, weighing my options before making a life-changing decision.
"I'm in. I'll be there in four hours, max," and with that I hang up.
Guess I'm going to Germany.
I walk back into the bar and go through the side door that brings me to the lodging. I go to my room at sit on my bed. I'm leaving. I begin to pack my shit, I pull my kitbag out from under my bed and begin filling it with clothes. Leggings, t-shirts, hoodies, leather jackets, everything I might need. I pack all the essentials and then begin to think of how I'll smuggle my brass knuckles through security. I lift my mattress and take out a couple hundred pounds in cash, shove it in my wallet and keep packing.
When I'm all packed I begin to forge a note from my 'mother' for the school so that I can get time off without them calling up people who haven't seen me in over a year and a half. I make a simple excuse of appendicitis, was rushed to hospital late tonight blah blah, they won't really care, the school year's nearly over. I just need something for show so that I don't get called out.
I text Orlaith, letting her know I'm being called out of the country. She questions me at first, but when I explain that Wanda needs me, and I can't let her down she lets me be. She says she'll drop in and pick up the note tomorrow morning before getting on the 212 to Coláiste Feirste.
(Belfast College {It's an Irish speaking high school})
Now I've just got to talk to Eoghan. I tell him to come to the lodging hall, behind the bar. He serves the last couple of drinks that were ordered and joins me in the back.
"I have de go de Germany," I tell him, "It seems above my paygrade, but she needs me and I gotta be there for her."
"Okay... do ye have enough for the flight?" he simply asks.
"Aye, I've got all I need, me kitbag's packed an' everythin'."
"Ye said above yer paygrade. What'd ye mean by that?"
"I'm not just fighting with Wanda's friends. I'm also fighting against a couple o' them."
"What? Naw- What the fuck Fianna!"
"Look, she needs me, Eoghan, I can't just leave her."
"You're not fighting them assholes."
"Yeah, I am, Eoghan."
"Naw you're not."
"You can't stop me. I tol' her I'm in, and I'm going," I say, standing up and throwing the strap of my kitbag over my shoulder.
"Fianna, ye can't just leave to fight those dickheads," he stands up.
"I'm away," I say firmly, walking out the door.
"Get your arse back here, now!"
"You're not my da, Eoghan. You can't make me stay."
"I might not be your da, but I'm the closest thing to a father you've had these past years. You better treat me with a bit more respect."
"Maybe," I shrug, "But I'll stick with this for now," I say, throwing up my middle finger before leaving the bar. The taxi I called beforehand pulled up and I got in.
"The airport," I tell the driver.
"Right," is the simple reply he gives me.
I get a text when we're about halfway to the airport.
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I click my phone off and look out the window at the familiar city I've grown up in. All my life except a year was spent here. When I wasn't here I was with the twins, me becoming who I am, them becoming who they are... or were, and then I left them. Not by choice. Not on purpose. But I still left them.
But now I've got Wanda back, and while I don't know how long I'll be with her for, it will be good to see her. If only I could've seen him one last time before I left, spoke to him one last time, made sure nothing was left unsaid. Instead I'm here, he's gone, and I'll never know how things could've gone if perhaps I never left.
The driver stops at the airport entrance and lets me out, I pay him the fare and he takes it with a smile. I grab my bag, close the door, and go into the airport. I go to the desk and ask if there are any last-minute tickets to Leipzig-Altenburg I could get on. While there was a seat I could take, it cost a little more than a pretty penny. Luckily I had enough to buy it and went through security immediately. I opted for a pat-down rather than the metal detector and thanks to my damn good hiding spots the woman didn't find my brass knuckles.
I wait for the half hour before my flight and board along with the others. I get to my seat and sigh. A two-hour flight isn't long, it's just boring to sit through, no one to talk to and not long enough to sleep through. I just sit there messing on my phone for a bit, making faces at the baby looking through the gap between the chairs a couple rows in front of me.
When the plane finally lands I prepare myself. This is it. I have to fight Avengers. I have to fight deadly psycho assassins. But first. I have to see Wanda. For the first time in two years. For the first time since he died.
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When I leave the airport I scan my surroundings and all the cars parked there. I stop when I come across a van that could be owned by no other, a white panel van with what I'd consider an iconic license plate: L: T34MC4P, I know that it's gotta be my ride. I go to the passenger side and knock on the window, the door opens, and I'm promptly enveloped in a hug.
"Someone order a conriocht?" I sat into my sister's shoulder.
(Werewolf)
She laughs and hugs me tighter, "I did, you little volk."
(Wolf)
I look at her with tears in my eyes, smiling sadly. She looks back at me with a similar expression and we just stay there in the embrace for a moment.
"Okay," I say, finally pulling away and wiping my tears away, "So who's ass do I have to kick?"
She laughs, wiping away her own tears, "No one's just yet. We gotta get there first, so get in the back."
"Back of a van?" I quirk an eyebrow, "Are there seats of does this look like a kidnapping?"
"There are seats, but they're laid down. Scott is sleeping on them, and I thought you'd want to stretch before we get there, human or not."
"That's fair, but the second I shift I'm gonna be stuck with Lu, you know that."
"I can get her to ease up, but you're stuck with her, you have to learn how to get along with her, okay?"
"Yes mom," I mock, "I'll see you on the other side."
I salute her before opening the back door, seeing a middle-aged man sleeping on the seats. Must be Scott. I climb behind the seats and lay down, shifting to the Mactíre, and as expected I hear Lu.
Lu is like a voice in my head, she's the canine and lupine instincts that got transferred during the experiments. She talks to me, mostly degrades me for my logic and emotions, planning things out rather than acting on instinct and figuring it out on the fly.
"So, she returns," Lu mocks.
"Yes, I've returned. Wanda needs help, she needs me, needs us to work together," I reply.
"Wanda? Wanda needs us?"
"Yes. And we're gonna work together. Right?"
"Yes. Of course. Anything for Wanda."
"Good. Now we're gonna be driving for a bit, so what do you suggest we do?"
"Sleep. Sleep is good. Sleep builds energy."
"Okay Lu, we'll sleep. But when we're fighting I need to take control, okay? I need to be able to focus."
"Okay Fi, you take control."
"Thank you."
And with that I begin to drift out of consciousness.
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All My Friend’s Are Heathens; Part 8
Chapter 7 is here
Master list is here
Author’s Note: Introducing an AU Lexa as Commander_Springtime, who’s character is based off a quote from Bob (that I can’t find) that said he missed Alycia because they would talk about flowers all the time.
Summary: Bellamy is going all out for this fake dating Clarke thing and the Delinquents are being, well delinquents.
*Flower Children chat*
Iliad: So listen
If I was to, hypothetically, be fake dating someone would bringing her roses be too forward? 
Should I stick with sunflowers?
Daisies?
Commander_Springtime: Are u drunk?
Iliad: HELP ME LEXA YOU’RE MY ONLY HOPE
Commander_Springtime: What’s happened to you?
Iliad: That’s a long story
But seriously, I need your help
Commander_Springtime: *SIGHS* how serious is this hypothetically fake girlfriend?
Iliad: Our fake relationship has been pretty steady
Commander_Springtime: College has screwed with your brain, Bell.
Iliad: Accurate
Commander_Springtime: Get her some of her favorite flowers
Iliad: Well great, now I just gotta find blue Lisianthuses in the middle of November!
Commander_Springtime: your fake gf is basic
I feel u could do better
Iliad: Not really
But thanks!
I owe ya one
Commander_Springtime: I take payment in the form of scented candles and edible arrangements ;)
Iliad: You have enough candles, Lex
Commander_Springtime: U SHUT YOUR WHORE MOUTH BELLAMY BRADBURY BLAKE
U COME INTO MY HOUSE AND DISRESPECT ME LIKE THIS???
COME FIGHT ME!!!
Iliad: Another time maybe ;)
*Blake Siblings chat*
TheSuperiorBlake: Can I take ur car to go get pizza with Raven, Harper, and Monroe?
Iliad: I
THINK
TF
NOT
YOU
DEMON
CHILD
TheSuperiorBlake: I’ll be careful!!!! 
Iliad: Over my dead body
TheSuperiorBlake: What if Raven drives?
Iliad: Doesn’t Raven have her own car? Why does she need mine?
TheSuperiorBlake: She’s overhauling the engine
Harper rides a bike everywhere 
& Monroe’s car is a piece of shit
ur my only shot at pizza
Iliad: Well have it delivered
TheSuperiorBlake: U know my beef with the delivery guy!!
Iliad: You need to let that go
Forgetting the extra cheese on your pizza wasn’t even his fault
TheSuperiorBlake: he called me a bitch and threw my tip back at me!!!
Iliad: You handed him a fistful of loose change from the bottom of your purse, O.
I’d throw it back at you too
Iliad: Besides, I need my car tonight
TheSuperiorBlake: Don’t tell me ur tutoring Echo again?
Iliad: Yeah O, my unrequited love for Clarke has damaged me so badly that I’m running back into that witch’s arms after she ripped my heart out and fed it to the birds.
You really hit your head in that car accident.
TheSuperiorBlake: SO U ADMIT U LOVE CLARKE
Iliad: I’m going out with Lincoln tonight, be good while I’m gone.
TheSuperiorBlake: ur not my real mom!
Iliad: Thank God! I would have hated carrying you inside me for 9 months only to watch you turn into a road raging psychopath who runs over old ladies for giggles.
TheSuperiorBlake: THAT WAS ONE TIME
Iliad: Twice actually
TheSuperiorBlake: u pretentious whore
Iliad: Love you too, O.
*Linctavia FOREVER chat*
TheSuperiorBlake: I need u to convince my brother to let u drive tonight so I can take his car
Trikru: convince him to let me drive him where???
TheSuperiorBlake: u guys are going out tonight
Trikru: since when?
TheSuperiorBlake: he just told me he needed the car to go out with u tonight
Trikru: it’s news to me
TheSuperiorBlake: -_-
*The Terrible Two chat*
Trikru: Dude r we hanging out tonight?
Iliad: Why would I hang out with you tonight? I’m still not over what you let my sister do the other day.
Trikru: But Octavia said we were hanging out???
Iliad: Well we’re not
Trikru: then why did u tell her we were?
Iliad: Leave it alone, Lincoln
Trikru: Somebody has a date he doesn’t want us knowing about, huh?? ;)
Iliad: Lincoln :) You :) Son :) Of :) A :) Bitch :) I :) Will :) End :) You :) So :) Help :) Me :) God :)
Trikru: :) :) :)
*Iliad added Nurse_Griffin to join the Operation_Fake_Out chat*
Iliad: All set for our “date” tonight?
Nurse_Griffin: Did u send a bouquet of flowers to my house???
Iliad: Yeah
Do you like them?
Nurse_Griffin: How did u find so many in November??
Iliad: Don’t tell Kane but Roan knows a guy who sells everything from pirated dvds to exotic flowers out of the back of his van.
Nurse_Griffin: Um, he isn’t the one who dropped them off at my place, right?
Iliad: Hell no! I bought a vase at hobby lobby and left it at your door on my way home from work.
Nurse_Griffin: That’s a lot of work for a fake date, Bellamy.
U didn’t have to do that
Iliad: But you like them?
Nurse_Griffin: Yeah! They’re beautiful!
Iliad: Then nothing is too much for my fake girlfriend ;)
Nurse_Griffin: I should have started fake dating u awhile ago ;)
*Blake Siblings chat*
TheSuperiorBlake: U UPSIDE DOWN FRUIT CAKE UR NOT HANGING OUT WITH LINCOLN TONIGHT!!
TheSuperiorBlake: u lied to my face
my trust in u will be forever broken
all i wanted was pizza and u betrayed me like this
u monster!!!
TheSuperiorBlake: answer my texts u miscreant!
Bellamy?
Bell?
Brother mine??
TheSuperiorBlake: BITCH U BETTER RESPOND TO ME OR I WILL TEXT U THE ENTIRE NIGHT
*Operation_Fake_Out*
Nurse_Griffin: So where are we eating?
Iliad: I think this should be a trial run, you know, before we let them catch us, so it should be somewhere they’re less likely to be. How about that new place, Polis?
Nurse_Griffin: I’VE BEEN DYING TO GO THERE
I HEARD THEIR FOOD IS TO DIE FOR
Iliad: Perfect
Also, I’m outside
Nurse_Griffin: Only u would be 10 minutes early for a fake date
*Delinquents group chat*
Greenbean: Mom and Dad haven’t answered any of my text messages
Jaaaaaaaasssssppper: MAYBE THEY DIED IN A FIERY CAR WRECK AND NOW WERE ORPHANS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Trikru: chill dude
they’re not dead
i-make-it-go-boom: then why aren’t they texting back??
bellamy always texts us back
he’s the most reliable person we know
Jaaaaaaasssssssppper: In peace may they leave the shore, in love may they find the next,  safe passage in their travels, until our final journey to the ground, may we meet again.
HeadbandWonder: May we meet again
MillertheKiller: May we meet again
TheSuperiorBlake: wtf is wrong with u guys???
Jaaaaasssssppper: Now that the period of mourning is over I CALL DIBS ON BELLAMY’S TV
MillertheKiller: I GET HIS ROVER
TheSuperiorBlake: Like hell u do Miller! If bellamy really is dead I get his car!!
MillertheKiller: So u can run that one into a ditch too?
I don’t think so!!
U don’t know how to take care of a car like that
i-make-it-go-boom: Wait
Why is lincoln so sure they’re not dead?
TrashPrince: HIGHLY SUSPECT!!
Greenbean: u know something lincoln?
Trikru: No
I’m just saying it’s highly unlikely they’re dead
TrashPrince: U SIT ON A THRONE OF LIES
i-make-it-go-boom: start talking lincoln
*Trikru has left the group chat*
i-make-it-go-boom: THAT BASTARD
TheSuperiorBlake: don’t u worry
I’ll get him to talk
*Operation_Fake_Out*
Nurse_Griffin: tonight was really fun 
Iliad: Yeah it was :)
Nurse_Griffin: tho u didn’t have to pay for the entire dinner
we could have split the bill
that steak was hella expensive
Iliad: I’d cut off my own arm for another piece of that steak tbh
Besides, what kind of fake boyfriend would I be if I didn’t treat you right?
Nurse_Griffin: So tomorrow... u wanna go see a movie or something? I’ll buy the tickets if u buy the popcorn?
Iliad: Kinda cliche to let them catch us at the movies
Nurse_Griffin: Maybe we need some more practice, you know, to really sell it.
Iliad: Careful, Princess, or you might fall for me ;)
Nurse_Griffin: In ur dreams, Blake
*Griffin Family ft. Officer_Kane chat*
Nurse_Griffin: I think I might be falling for Bellamy
DrGriffin: Is that so?
Officer_Kane: You’re just NOW realizing this?
Nurse_Griffin: Wait... u guys know?????
Officer_Kane: we have eyes
DrGriffin: Clarke, honey, you are many wonderful things, but subtle isn’t one of them.
Nurse_Griffin: DID EVERYBODY KNOW THIS BUT ME???
Officer_Kane: By everybody do you mean the reckless delinquent children who have been pulling illegal stunts since the ninth grade in an attempt to push you into Bellamy’s open arms?
Then yes
Nurse_Griffin: -_-
DrGriffin: Don’t worry about them. You take your time to figure out your feelings and act on them when you’re ready. 
Officer_Kane: But for the love of God end that boy’s suffering soon! I need him to stop asking me for romantic advice while I’m on the night shift. 
But, you know, take all the time you need. This is about you.
DrGriffin: Nice save, Marcus
*The Terrible Two*
Trikru: How’d the date go, buddy?
Iliad: I told you to let it go man
Trikru: Come on man
It’s me
We talk about chicks all the time
Iliad: You better not be here to talk about some side chick you found at football practice because I will damage your god-like features if you hurt my sister you toadstool!
Trikru: No side chicks, promise
But srsly how’d the date go?
Iliad: Why are you so sure I had a date?
Trikru: Because u lied to Octavia about where u were tonight
Were u with Clarke?????
Iliad: Why would that be a thing, Lincoln?
Trikru: ‘Cause she was mysteriously absent from the group chat at the same time as u
Iliad: Why don’t you ask her yourself? I don’t keep tabs on her.
Trikru: Come on Bellamy! It’s me. You can tell me if u went out with Clarke.
My lips are sealed
Iliad: I’d rather throw myself into the sun
Trikru: Be like that
But I’m telling Octavia my suspicions
Iliad: You’ve got literally nothing on me
Trikru: Don’t I? ;)
Iliad: Good night, Lincoln.
Trikru: TELL CLARKE I SAID GOOD NIGHT!!!!! :) :)
Iliad: You’re delusional
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Happy New Year everyone!! Its been a while since I’ve written and it’s simply or rather not simply been because the latter half of 2017 was whirlwind. It happens. I helped plan our high schools 20th reunion this past September, Kiddo was struggling with turning in his work on time and grades were suffering because 13 year olds…amirite? And then the holidays of course. I ended up having emergency surgery in December to remove the LapBand that I only had for 18 months. The good thing was I had lost 100 lbs, the sad thing was it almost killed me by slipping, and even worse I still owe $7,000 on that surgery and lord knows what the bill for this will be. I didn’t eat for 10 days and well the icing on the cake was a tree hit my house on New Years Eve. Clearly in  a past life i angered the gods and apparently their time to shine was fourth quarter of 2017. It wasn’t all bad here’s a trip down memory lane for the year before i get to the reason for my post.
  January: My first visit to Chicago!
January: Stood up to the Patriarchy and marched for Human/Womens Rights
February: Finally saved up enough money to paint my house. Now its not thescary house on the hill!
March: The Harlem Globetrotters ❤
March: The Harlem Globetrotters come to Mics school to help stand up to bullies
April: We scored tickets to the Playoffs
May: Taught myself how to install a light
June: Got to see my grandpa
June: Family Reunions Cousins
July: Lost a childhood friend. Honor the Moon
August: Fake Bachlorette Party- Level Epic
September: Niceville 20th Class Reunion
October: Happy Halloween!
November: Freedom is a beautiful thing, Welcome home Pat!
December: Finally! 100 lbs!
December: Part 2 emergency Surgery
December Part 3- The damn Tree
So now that that is out-of-the-way onto the Getting Rid of 100 Things. When I saw my friend on Facebook post it, i had to pause and i thought hmm how would i do this. The woman who posted it is full of wisdom and always inspires me to think so i knew not to take this lightly. Sure we can look at it physically throw away 100 items. Easy. But I thought I could mix it up to just try to improve my life in general. Yes, there will be a physical purge at some point but i thought it only right that my first thing to “Get Ride Of” is UNREALISTIC EXPECTATIONS.
It’s a new year. If you haven’t been constantly reminded of it by all the New Year New Me posts on Facebook then you’re lucky. I don’t normally make resolutions because I have a hard time committing to anything. Hell, I’m surprised me and my shadow still hang out. But I bit into the hype as one does and mixed in with having my LapBand removed and the fear of gaining weight i decided to sign up for a Women’s Half Marathon in November and that I was going to go on a low carb diet to get these last chunk of lbs off. I figured that i would lose 23 lbs in a month (WTF) AND RUN. Can I tell you that a week in  I was sticking to the diet, worked out but jumped on the scale and i was 15 lbs heavier. Now before you oooh and gasp I need to remind you that prior to this I had emergency surgery, had not eaten for 10 days and then was on a liquid diet for a week so in that time I lost 25 lbs. Its only natural to gain it back for the health of your body as nourishment comes back to sustain you.
But I wasn’t reminding myself of that. I had failed. I gained weight back (which after weight loss surgery, it becomes your biggest fear) i had jumped into bad habits of thinking negatively, I stopped telling myself nice things in the mirror, I criticized my body who really did work very hard this year. I ate sad high protein food and punished myself when I didn’t lose 5 lbs overnight. I found myself crying and depressed and basically had resigned myself to dying alone, undiscovered for years on my couch. Yes I have a flair for the dramatic and it gets the best of me from time to time.
When I saw my friend post the #GetRidOf100Things i sat and thought and came to the idea that my first trash out for the new year was to get rid of the negativity. And that meant, for me. to Get Rid of Unrealistic Expectations. Not only as it pertained to my health, but overall when interacting with people. So ill break it down in the areas where I think this could benefit.
UNREALISTIC BODY EXPECTATIONS: Yes run that half marathon, do it for fun for camaraderie, do it for the adventure. Do not get mad if you don’t finish by a certain time, half to walk a little or are the last one to finish. Do not feed yourself sad food that makes you feel even sadder. Yes make better food choices, portion control, but if you want a piece of pie eat the damn pie. There’s no such thing as bad food enjoy the moment in moderation. Understand that a 23 lbs weight loss in a month isn’t healthy. When I had the LapBand I lost up to 1-1 1/2 lbs a week and i was ok with that. Eventually it got me to a 100 lbs weight loss (OK 85 now that I’m eating again) but if I was happy with a lb then, why all of a sudden is anything less than 7 lbs a week unacceptable?! Who wants to live like that. Stop setting myself up for failure of the heart and mind, I’m not going to win Miss Hawaiian Tropic and I’m OK with that.
UNREALISTIC RELATIONSHIPS: Honey if he’s just not that into you, there is nothing you can do to salvage that. This year I held onto, clawed and grabbed and tried to feed an unhealthy relationship because we had been friends for 15 years. I figured if the moon aligned right, i won the lottery, dressed pretty, was agreeable and the moon rose over Capricorn (whatever the eff that means) that it would just come together and guess what? all the sweetness in the world couldn’t make that work. In the end this person couldn’t even call me on my birthday and refused to sit with me in the hospital while i was waiting emergency surgery. Lesson here: You can’t get blood from a turnip. And I’m done trying to sell myself the story that i can. Next time ill read the room early and leave in time to enjoy the day.
  UNREALISTIC TIME CONSTRAINTS: If I can do it I will, if i cant oh well. It is what it is
    UNREALISTIC FUTURES: I have a vivid imagination. Oftentimes it gets the best of me and I go dark. Like real dark. I tend to think about the things that i don’t have and spiral down from there. Well circle back to me dying on the couch. In this scenario, I’m 38 years old, I’m unmarried and a single mom of one child, a dog and a cat. Often i think about how my son is almost a grown adult and will be going away soon to college or start his life. I imagine he wont call or come home often (even though he’s been raised better) and my married friends and family are all far away. I’m too old to date (nonsense) and I’m going to end up old and alone and no one is going to hold my hand as i leave this good earth. What the actual macabre shit brain!? So I’m going to try my best to not doom and gloom myself to the point of insanity. The next time I’m home on a Saturday watching TV and the cat is in my lap and my kid is upstairs ignoring me it’s just what it is. It’s not an indicator of what is to come and i will not in fact die on the recliner alone with the cat eating my face……you see what i did there? this ones gonna take work 😉
UNREALISTIC COMPARISONS: I will refuse to compare my journey with others. I will not look at Facebook pictures and get sad because my life isn’t like XYZ or that I cant buy a car like XYZ or that i wish i could buy those expensive xyz like XYZ. Not gonna do it. Its poison and leads to ungratefulness.
  And that’s it. For my first throw away I am going to choose better health and get rid of Unrealistic expectations. What 100 things can you get rid of? I’d love to hear!
  Get Rid of 100 Things: Chapter 1 Happy New Year everyone!! Its been a while since I've written and it's simply or rather not simply been because the latter half of 2017 was whirlwind.
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