#but any yuri ship can be toxic if you put your mind to it

[kafkas-coatrack]

How am I supposed to sleep when I want to stay up and think about toxic yuri

[coolfire333]

Actually one more rant about a Specific Unnamed Fandom: starting to think some of you guys are a little bit sexist tbh (obviously not aimed at my mutuals or blogs I follow, just something I've seen in passing)

I know there's like triple the amount of male characters than there are women but I feel like I'm actually in the trenches fighting for (female character) some days and the worst part is said character is like literally integral to the plot. Like guys does anyone else want to talk about her. I love the men too but Please.

I also am super attached to minor female background character #3 so I understand the struggle of having to enjoy measly slivers of content of your fave but my god does anyone else appreciate the main women of this franchise. Or any female characters in the story at all. It is so dark in here.

ALSO the double standards when it comes to ships...!! It's all like "ooo enemies to lovers so good the toxic yaoi hits hard" (which ok that's true and valid) but I swear I feel like I'm going to get drawn and quartered by the masses for admitting I like a doomed yuri ship. Like be serious you guys, if these two characters were men this would be one of the most popular pairings in the series, I swear to god you'd be all over it like flies.

I think the reason people really don't like it is that they see it (and any questionably healthy/unhealthy ship involving a woman) as inherently victimizing of that woman and then they rush to be like "oh no it's bad just trust me I am a Feminist". Like if a man can make stupid romance decisions because Evil Enemy Man Is Hot and that's somehow ok then literally what is the difference??

Also also it is so funny to me because I look at an adjacent fandom and one of the most popular ships there is ALSO doomed/toxic enemies-to-lovers yuri, which really tells me that a lot of people's discomfort with my ship might come from a place of "oh noooo we must protect this pure sweet woman from Ms. Evil uwu" instead of a general "eh I don't like this ship", which imo is incredibly sexist and glosses over so much in order to put my fave girl on a little perfect pedestal. Like you guys she's kind and sweet to other characters but she's also kinda evil too if you think about it, literally nobody here is without evil!

If I had to wager a guess too, the fandom I'm speaking about from experience is mostly male while the fandom that likes (toxic yuri ship) has a larger female audience (and also more women characters in general) so uhhh...idk it's kinda telling to me...

Also shoutout to the people making really good genderswaps of the male characters because from what I've seen that also comes from a place of genuine female appreciation. Like ok make them weird women yeah!! I like that :)

Maybe I'm just talking around in circles but idk I swear the double standards are real. Let me post about doomed yuri without fear. Look at me when I talk about female characters in the fandom. It's ok to ship a m/f ship or even, god forbid, a f/f ship. Take my hand. Expand your mind to female characters more. It's good for you.

[poppyknitt]

You are literally what that anti post was talking about. "You can only ship these things to cope!" And you're going to be the arbiter?

Ok first of all i dont even remember rbing that because it was 4 or 5 am for me and my cat had just woken me up. Second of all:

let me be clear. i don’t send hate mail, i don’t harass. i don’t like it when people ship horrible things publicly in ways that imply they are good because children — i was one of them — can see those ships and assume the abuse they’re experiencing is normal. It’s not the intent but that’s a genuine thing that happens because kids and teens are fucking stupid. But: I don’t tell individuals what to do with their time or harass or bully or anything.

As an adult with sexual trauma from both irl and the internet, i find it uncomfortable and bad to share things that cause harm irl in a positive light. Why? It makes vulnerably-minded people think they’re normal and healthy relationships and topics and thoughts etc. The only time it should be accepted is in the eyes of an unreliable narrator because that’s the POINT of unreliable narration — to mislead the reader/viewer.

Sure, these people shouldn’t consume dark topics if they’re vulnerable to suggestion, but it’s the fact that showing things like abuse and incest and pedophillia positively without acknowledging what they are can cause massive damage to other people that’s bad at all. You don’t like it when people throw horrible insults, right? You don’t like it when people cause psychological damage to others, right? What is normalizing toxicity in the minds of others if not psychological damage?

I don’t care if you proship.

I don’t care if you post it.

Just be clear that this is not something that should be done irl/you support irl.

Sure, these people shouldn’t consume dark topics if they’re vulnerable to suggestion, but it’s the fact that showing things like abuse and incest and pedophillia positively without acknowledging what they are can cause massive damage to other people that’s bad at all. You don’t like it when people throw horrible insults, right? You don’t like it when people cause psychological damage to others, right? What is normalizing toxicity in the minds of others if not psychological damage?

In a day and age where no one has any media literacy, we have to be careful when we post things until this gets fixed.

If you can’t be bothered to put a trigger warning and/or disclaimer about your darker work, you’re an ass. Doesn’t matter what kind of “darker” it is.

I have this stance about folks who don’t trigger warning their abuse fics and their toxic yuri/yaoi fics or whatever. (not fully sure if thats considered proship)

I have this stance about folks who don’t disclaimer their videos for flashing lights or violence.

Just because you can do something that can cause pain to yourself or others doesn’t mean you get to do it without warning others in your presence.

Please don’t send hate mail without the full story. I’m sure you’re well-intentioned and kind, but this was not a kind way to go about it. I did not reblog that post with bad intent, I am open to discussing this topic and learning more as I grew up incredibly sheltered from shipping in its broadest forms and don’t do it myself because of my own repulsions. If you have criticisms and information for me, please send them with respect and I will respond back with respect. Otherwise? Zip it.

No one deserves to be sent vitriol over something you don’t know jack about when it comes to their side of things.

Please be kinder to people.

also look into the jaws effect. very interesting stuff.

[captaindarksword]

on ship wars

ship wars can be so unbelivably toxic where you smear the people who ship the other ship and the  character in the way of your ship  and try to vilify them

but its worse if there is a difference in race  like aship involving 2 white people vs a ship with a mixed couple and if you the people who ship the one involving a mixed race pairing will claim racism

and it applies when its a same sex ship vs het ship for people will turn shipping the same sex ship as the same as advocacy for lgbt community ignoring the lgbt people who ship the het ship over the same sex ship. 

They will throw around words like homophobia or misogyny to things that arent those things like just not shipping b/lake and y/ang pairing

claiming if you dont ship the same sex ship you are a homophobe saying you would ship it if it was m/f. 

find that the shippers who say that are the ones who only ship bb because it’s two girls

a same sex ship being canon doesnt mean that anyone who isnt a homophobe wont say anything bad about it. It doesnt mean its exempt from being criticism or should be treated as a good thing just because lgbt rep

 a f/f pairing was a last minute retcon thrown in at the last 2 minutes breaking then narrative pointing to the female character  getting back together with her ex  who she broke up due to mutual flaws which they overcame they werent ready for a relationship  with anyone)  eventually and it  required the girl to be ooc

the two girls  were barely friends and barely interacted with each other people needed to make headcanons to support the ship like claiming they talked throughout the entire timeskip when k/rra just sent one letter near the end

the male was able to support the girl the way she needed to  be supported the other girl wasnt  only being able to refer to the girls position as why we need you when seeing her as just that title is her problem

it doesnt matter that its the first show with a same sex ship it doesnt matter that without it the show wouldnt have any canon same sex ships all that matters is the simple question does it fit the narrative is it good writing move . are the characters compatible etc people dont need to support that ship to care about the lgbt community 

this reminds me of the comment about certain extreme section which can be split between otaku yuri fetishists and the sjw ones who see it as advocacy and will automatically ship the same sex pairing over the het one and say the same sex ships are better. like the person saying that its straight enemies to lovers thats bad.

when no its either they support enemies to lovers or dont if you try to differentate based on genders involved you are the bigot.  it doesnt matter that there arent that many same sex ships you shouldnt automatically support a ship just based on the genders involved.  

you shouldnt give support to f/f enemies to lovers than claim straight enemies to lovers is bad

if a het ship gets years of buildup but is thrown away you shouldnt then defend it when you would be angered if it was a same sex ship that was given years of buildup teasing mutual attraction and development but thrown away to put her with a guy 

and you shouldnt use the well side character argument when you wouldnt use that argument to say that a same sex ship shouldnt happen

basically imagine a case where say a main character ( lets say a girl) was given years of teasing mutual attraction etc with a female side character  but then after she gets put on a bus due to being well a side character and wanting mroe focus on main cast the woman ended up being pushed with a male mc

if that would upset you you shouldnt use the side character argument to say the girl shouldnt end up with a male side character.

  you are no different  from the people who you conjured in your mind who would ship the het ship over the same sex ship just because its het.

I imagine that team rwby pairings came out after the trailers came out in part due to it being an all girl team etc and they would see evidence in the most minor platonic of moments

[farfromsugafanfic]

glitteringconstellations interview

Before we get started with the interview, do you mind introducing yourself (whatever name you are comfortable with) and telling us a little about yourself?

Hi everyone! I’m glitteringconstellations, Glitter or GC for short. I’ve been writing fanfiction for well over 15 years now, though I only started sharing it around 2005. I minored in Creative Writing in college and I love writing in pretty much any capacity! When I’m not headcanoning one new story or another, though, I’m either adulting (ugh, adulting) or playing video games. These days it’s mostly Skyrim. I’m fluent in Korean and passable in Japanese and Spanish. I drink way too much pop to be healthy and I hate most fruit (though, give me any kind of melon and I’ll be a happy girl). Oh, and I’m a fledgling figure skater! I’m just a hodgepodge of random hobbies haha!

Q1: What kind of fan fiction do you normally write? Have you ever written fan fiction for other fandoms other than your current one?

A1: I tend to gravitate toward angsty fics. It’s long been my outlet of frustration, to put the character I love in harm’s way. The more pain, the better, haha! Though I do love the hurt/comfort aspect of it. Recently (as in, the last year lmao) I’ve been writing for the Voltron fandom almost exclusively (and sometimes YURI!!! On Ice), but before that I was in the k-pop ficdom (Super Junior, for the most part) for a looooong time, nearly 10 years. I won’t be opening that particular can of worms, though--I have Feelings and Opinions lmao. Before that I jumped around from anime to anime.

Q2: I see in addition to fan fiction that you do commissioned fan art! I’m not an artist myself, so I find it really interesting and cool. Do you want to talk a bit about that? And, feel free to plug yourself!

A2: This is actually a common misconception--I can’t draw to save my life!! I took commissions for fan fiction back in late June as a last resort to pay my rent. Typically though I’m horrible on a deadline so I don’t like to do it too often because I feel terrible making my commissioners wait. The art you’re referring to is the comic spread for The Parting Glass, if I’m not mistaken? I actually commissioned another artist by the name of Cota (@ccooooostuff on tumblr, go check her out she’s amazing at what she does and super sweet!) for that comic with the money I got for my birthday this year.

Q3: Do you write anything outside of fan fiction?

A3: I do! I journal a lot, or I try to anyway. This year I’m hoping to tackle an original novel for Nanowrimo, but more than likely, that particular project will start as fanfiction and we’ll see if I turn it into original fiction or not. I spend more time thinking about the things I want to write than… actually… writing them lolsob. My notes will be this gigantic document but when it comes to putting things together in a cohesive manner? Haaaaaa….haha…. The blinking cursor mocks me, I swear.

Q4: I see on your profile that you are 26. I think when most people think of fan fiction writers they think of someone younger, usually a teenager. Do you encounter younger writers a lot? What do you think of this assumption?

A4: I do encounter younger writers a lot! Surprisingly, though, most writers I know are either in their late 20s or late late teens (say, 15~19). Most people tend to think I’m young anyway just because I look a lot younger than 26, but as far as fandom goes, it doesn’t really bother me if people think I’m younger than I am. Usually I’m pretty forward with how old I am on my profile anyway! But yeah, I’ve been around the fanfiction scene a while. The k-pop fandom in particular had a way of reminding me just how long on a pretty frequent basis lol.

Q5: Why did you begin writing fan fiction? If it was for a fandom, why did that particular thing make you begin writing? And, for your current fandoms?

A5: I used to tell myself stories to get to sleep or on long car trips as far back as I can remember, and most of the time they involved characters from my favorite shows of the day. Pokemon and Digimon were two big ones for me before I hit those fun preteen years. As far as what got me started actually putting those stories to paper, it was born of frustration with shows not going the way I wanted them to, so I’d write the ending I wanted to see. For Voltron in particular, it’s just SUCH a fun sandbox to play in, be it by utilizing the incredible world-building or the plethora of interesting characters to play around with. So many possibilities! *3*

Q6: Do you ever want to be published in a professional capacity one day?

A6: Yes and no. I flip flop on this ALL the time. I’d LOVE to see my stories on shelves, but I’m actually very insecure and sometimes the thought of people reading my stories makes me want to die of embarrassment and sink to the center of the earth. That said, if I win Nano this year, I may run it by some publishers, even if only to get feedback. (Although if you want to get TECHNICAL I am officially a published journalist; I was an assistant editor for one of The Big 3 kpop news sites for a while. The one that starts with S. Also another can of worms.)

Q7: Has writing fan fiction taught you anything? About writing? Reading? The fandom? Etc.

A7: Oh absolutely. I definitely would not be the writer I am today without fan fiction. I wouldn’t say I’m super skilled, but the critique I’ve received over the years has helped me more than I have words for, honestly. Not even just in the capacity of writing fiction; my academic and professional writing has improved too. Also, just like reading anything in high volume, reading fanfic has helped me learn to read like a writer, how to pick out things that authors do that I admire and try to emulate that, and conversely what doesn’t work for me so I can avoid those things.

As far as fandom goes, fanfiction can be quite polarizing, as I’m sure you’re well aware. Just in my experience by and large it can be kind of toxic, to be quite honest. The particular issue Voltron faces that I experienced to some extent in other fandoms but not quite to this degree, is fandom policing. I find that certain members of the fandom (which, in my experience, tends to actually be mostly among those younger demographics, though not exclusively so) see certain topics as morally wrong and therefore anyone who writes those topics are 1) romanticizing said topic and 2) automatically a disgusting, horrible person and they have no problems telling you about all about it. The number one thing I try to put out there in my interactions is live and let live, ship and let ship. If it makes you uncomfortable, that’s okay! But that doesn’t necessarily mean it’s wrong, and it’s definitely not okay to go around purporting hate in the name of “morality.” Sorry, didn’t mean to go off on a tangent there haha...

Q8: What is a piece you’ve written that you’re most proud of?

A8: Just in the Voltron fandom, I’d say the fic I’m most proud of is The Parting Glass, by far. Funny story about that one; I’d never heard the titular song before I came across a cover of it on Facebook one day around St. Patrick’s Day, and let me tell you something. The reaction I had was almost a spiritual experience, it was so visceral. I was in tears when I heard it, and the story came so hard and so fast that I wrote it in 2 days. It stayed with me until I got it down in writing. It was an interesting challenge for me, exploring the grief part of a character death fic while almost entirely omitting the actual dying part. It’s been a very long time since I’ve had such a vivid vision of exactly how a fic is going to go from start to finish and I’m quite happy with the way it turned out. Which is why, when I had the money to do so, I commissioned Cota to illustrate what had to be the hardest and yet my favorite part to write. She brought the scene to life so beautifully too, I’m really happy with how it turned out. Months later I still go back and stare at it!

Q9: Do you notice any stigma surrounding fan fiction or fan fiction writers?

A9: Without a doubt. People hear “fanfiction” and they think one of two things: the pudgy neckbeard who lives in his parents’ basement, or the rabid tween/teenage fangirl. It’s a rather unfortunate stereotype, because some works of fanfiction are truly works of art, more masterfully crafted than some novels I’ve seen published. Yet they get dismissed simply on the basis of being fanworks and not “original” (which, let’s be real, nothing is truly original anymore). One such example that comes to mind of a beautiful fic is those glittering instruments in the EXO fandom, which was based on the real-life destruction of the Library of Alexandria. If you can find a copy of it floating around the interwebs I HIGHLY recommend giving it a chance no matter what fandom you’re in!

Q10: If so, how do you feel about this stigma?

A10: Like I said, it’s really a shame. The thing, too, is that as young girls we’re often shamed for the things we’re passionate about, like boy bands and, well, fan fiction, while boys don’t get that kind of shame to such an intense degree (at least, not about the usual suspects, like sports and girls and such). Not to say that it doesn’t happen, but there’s something terribly sad about seeing more young people afraid to talk about a hobby that makes them happy because they’re afraid of being perceived as weird or gross or something like that. Hell, even to this day I have very few friends from outside the fandom sphere that know I write fanfiction, because they still talk bad and make mean jokes about fic writers. It’s such a silly thing, because a lot of famous works are derivative fiction and people don’t even realize it! So I hope the day comes soon that we can get over this silly stigma and just enjoy what people share (for free!! Seriously!! FULL NOVEL LENGTH WORKS. For FREE.)

Q11: Is there anything you’ve ever wanted to talk about or be asked that no one has asked you about or given you the opportunity to talk about? (And if so, feel free to answer/talk about it).

A11: I really had to think about this one! I couldn’t really pick one topic that I’ve really wanted to talk about that I haven’t already discussed, but no one has ever asked me if I was okay with having fanart of my work. Which I would answer with a resounding YES. I am more than okay with it QuQ

Oh, I guess I do have something!! It’s unrelated to writing (well, I guess it could be related, depending on how you look at it) but since I have your attention, if you’re an American citizen GO OUT AND VOTE. The midterm elections are one week from today in the USA and it’s important you go vote!! I won’t tell you who to vote for (a third can of worms I’m not opening up. WHY DO I HAVE SO MANY WORMS) but I assure you, your vote matters, now more than ever. I believe in you!! Go vote!!!

Q12: What is your prefered site for writing/posting fan fiction?

A12: These days I prefer to use AO3. It’s a work in progress, but it’s far and away the superior fic platform of the time. Back in ye olden days (circa 2010~2012) Livejournal was my platform of choice, and FF.net before that. A surprising number of people prefer to post their fic on tumblr, to which I say, are you out of your flipping MIND?!?! Tumblr is soooo temperamental, I can’t tell you the number of times I’ve had to restart a post or go into the HTML editor because the rich text editor decided to be stupid. Noooooo thank you. I’ll stick to AO3 thanks ahaha!

Check out Glitter’s Tumblr and AO3.

Interviewer Note: Glitter used her free question to encourage everyone to vote and I would just like to stress the importance of this, especially if live in the US. Young people are the demographic that votes the least, despite being the demographic that will have to live the longest with the outcome of the vote. If you are currently not registered, please register as it is important for all of our futures. And, remember the deadline for the upcoming US election is Nov. 6th, so make sure to get to those polls and/or turn/send in your ballot. If you need information on how to do any of these things, do not hesitate to reach out to my page and I will point you to trustworthy resources. 

[inkanspider]

The situation about rev on AO3

So, I think some of you guys who follow the oumota tag have at some point heard or seen something of a person named Rev. Rev is an author and oumota fan, and one of my closest friends. A few days ago, a person on Twitter posted a really nasty tweet about them. And today, I saw a post here on Tumblr on how another person replied to Rev’s original post about this entire thing.

I’m hopefully not going to make an entire essay about this thing, but there are a lot of things these two are totally lying about. Rev was kind enough to not mention the Twitter user by name, but I can’t promise that I will be just as kind, because this person is horrible and someone I hope you never have to meet.

Just like Rev, I too joined a server about oumota a number of months ago, a while before Christmas last year. I don’t remember if I joined before Rev, but I remember I adored their writing and I loved being in this server. The people liked my stuff and soon I had people who wanted to talk to me. Around and right after Christmas, I had a group of friends I talked to almost daily. And Rev was one of them, even if our timezones made stuff difficult XD

But then one day, I started to notice that the entire atmosphere in the server changed. People started to break some of the rules daily, including two of the mods (the Twitter-user and the other peron here on Tumblr). One rule was to not post character hate, which was very logical and good. But soon enough, people started to post lots of hate posts about Kiyo, saying all kinds of horrible stuff. One of my friends is a big Kiyo-fan, and she was really bothered by this. Another thing I personally together with Rev was put down for was the heterophobia (and yes Auz, it is a really thing and you guys need to quit with your bullshit about it). It was apparently okay to personally ship F/M, but not post anything about it. But yuri and yaoi ships was 100% okay for some reason (sounds like the shit homophobes say: it’s okay to ge gay, as long as you don’t show it)... One of these things was that accoring to them, Ouma and Kaito are 100% gay. But nowhere in the game is that stated. Yes, it’s IMPLIED that Ouma might like guys, but we don’t know for sure. Which is why some people ship him with females, same with Kaito.

The last straw about this was when I was personally attacked for liking Junko. I and another friend mentioned in one convo how we liked Junko. I was personally told by THE NEW SERVER OWNER, that he was going to squeeze me to death just like he would to Junko. Auz and company said it was supposed to be a joke, but the server owner never apologized or said anything himself to clarify this. I was never close to him, so I had no idea what kind of humor he has, and he should have known it. My friend was also semi-attacked for defending me, which was what made us thinking about leaving the server entirely.

The reason these people are attacking Rev is purely because they don’t like them. Rev was different from them, liked different things than them. Rev has NEVER done anything to harm anyone, and you guys who actually read their works or even properly talked to them can see that for yourself. Yes, it’s one thing to write something and another to like it outside of the internet. But Rev is nothing but a supporting and caring person. Auz and the Twitter-user claim that Rev is both homophobic and transphobic, but that’s the total opposite of what Rev are.

And about how we were going to spam with art of “triggering” stuff (aka stuff they didn’t like, they are easily triggered), that is without any context, which is something they apparently didn’t care about when they banned us. So for the rest of you guys, I’ll tell you:

We who were banned, before it happened, had done a server just for us to vent and have fun like we couldn’t do in the oumota server. We talked about how we all wanted to leave the server, but we also joked about how we should make a raid as we leave. Keyword here is JOKED. You got words of this, but instead of talking to us you instead banned us without any warning. You had no context for this, which gave you false signals. You banned us on false grounds!

So for you guys who might be reading this, please listen to me: these people are lying about Rev. They somehow also claim that genderbends are somehow transphobic, which I have really hard imagening. Like, genderbends is just that they are opposite of their canon gender, while trans is that they don’t identify with the body they are born in. If you really are grossed about genderbends, simply ignore it. People don’t like the same thing, and you are able to just scroll past stuff you don’t like or agree with.

And listen here Auz (yes I’m calling you out now): it’s totally okay that you don’t like what we like and post. But don’t you DARE threaten Rev or any of us others. We have been nice enough to ignore you guys for the last few months. And what do you guys do? You lie and call Rev something they are not. Simply for drama, which was also supposed to not be okay in your server according to your own rules (but it looks like they never mattered anyway). You banned us yeah, but you could have at least been kind enough to let us be. Returning the favor, what’s that? And for that part about Rev being homophobic:

I DARE YOU TO DM ME AND GIVE ME PROPER EVIDENCE ON HOW REV WAS HOMOPHOBIC. But I think you won’t... Because you probably don’t even care about the truth, but only what you believe in.

And if trans hc in the nsfw-channel wasn’t okay, then you should have banned others too, but one of your mods comes especially to mind. 

You are also supposed to be an adult too, yet you never acted like one. You didn’t stop and thought of what maybe made us act the way we did. You never stopped the server owner from harrassing me and my friends. And you never stopped him from from postign that discusting thing on Twitter. If anything, you made it worse... Hope you are happy with yourself, because I will never tell people to join you guys or even visit you. I hope people come to their senses and realize you guys are toxic and not worth being with.

Sorry for the ranting guys, but I couldn’t stand people lying about this. Rev is too important to me and my friends, and we can’t have people going around and lying freely like this...

[lemedy]

also: 🔥fandom/fanfic/shipping/something along those lines

A couple:

- Bigger fandoms are always a mess. Always. It’s not just the Steven Universe or the Yuri on Ice or the Volton etc etc fandoms, they are always a clusterfuck. It’s inevitable when you have that many people with different opinions and values all thrown in together. Best advice I can give for avoiding drama is find your own small corner with people you like, and stick to it.

- People really need to stop pretending they have any actual idea how an episode or movie or whatever is thrown together. No, one story-boarder on a show probably isn’t responsible for a plot you don’t like. No, two co-creators on a show will likely be working together and bounce ideas off each other, and it makes no sense to put one up on a pedestal and praise as goddess or whatever, while muttering under your breath about the other one being a toxic influence who should leave the project.

-The concept of queer-baiting, or just ship-baiting (since I’ve seen the term also used for het couples) is so over-used that it honestly feels meaningless now. It used to mean something very specific, now it’s ‘my ship didn’t get together so that means it was baiting’.

- I don’t mind break-up or angst fic because I get bored with fluff/happy stories after a while. Sometimes the soul craves sadness, people.

[tumbledryiing]

Some ask thingy that looks fun to do

Thanks to @oceanblue-and-forestgreen​ for tagging me in this :) 

Do you want/have any tattoos? If yes please describe them (if you’re okay with sharing) I don’t know yet. You see, I would love a small, block minimalistic one, perhaps on the inside on my wrist, but I’m yet to find a symbol that is both aesthetically pleasing and has true meaning to me. I think at this stage I’ll just stick to jewellery; at least I can change that when I get bored of it 

A fic that you’ll carry with you forever? There are actually a few, to be quite honest. Obviously the Hat Fic because that scarred me for life, and My Immortal because not only did that become a meme amongst my friends and I, it’s also something the internet (in a rather perverse way) loves to hate. However, there’s a fanfic (actually a fanfic series) I read from the One Direction fandom called Texting, and it was one of the first fanfics I ever read, even though I’ve never been part of the 1D fandom. Even Lovers Drown is a fic that I read right when I first started watching Dan and Phil, and made me fall in love not just with the story, but with the whole concept of fanfiction and fandoms and also made me ship Phan and was instrumental in me joining the Phandom. Text Talk is another fanfic that drew into a fandom, however this time it was the Marauders fandom (a “sub-branch,” per se, of the Harry Potter fandom, which I’d been a part of since year 3) and the ship was Wolfstar. This one probably holds the most room in my heart because not only is it a good slow-burn which you can read anytime, but also my best friend and I never fail to talk about this one whenever we catch up. 

Is it better to be hurt than to hurt others? It depends. I’ve been in both positions in my life, and neither are fun: when I was the one being hurt, I felt weak and powerless and like I couldn’t do anything. When I was the one hurting others, I felt terrible and would lose sleep over it. Overall, however, it’s better to be hurt than to hurt others; when you’re the one being hurt, it’s a lot easier and healthier to either cut ties with the ones hurting you or to stand up for yourself in a polite, yet assertive way, and end up making good quality friends and earning the respect of your peers. If you’re the one doing the hurting, people won’t want to be around you, and you’ll have to live the guilt of knowing that you hurt another a person, maybe even in a way that leads to them having severe mental health issues. Tl;dr: It’s better to be hurt because there are ways that you can fix that in a non-toxic way. And when you hurt others, at the end of the day, you just end up hurting yourself.   

Swearword(s) you refuse to use? The only one I can think of off the top of my head is c*nt. In my opinion, it’s a revolting word, however where I come from, I’m in the minority... I’m Australian 

If you could get away with killing one person, who would it be? Probably Trump. I would someone that I (thankfully used to) go to school with, but they’re not in my life anymore, and besides, why kill one insignificant teenager when I could kill modern Hitler?  

Do you have any special talent? No. I’m not special.

Favourite time (to be awake)? around 1 in the morning. I don’t often stay awake until then because I already struggle enough waking up for school as it is. However, when I do, it’s great; the world is so still and quiet and nobody knows what you’re doing. I also once made a sandwich at 1 in the morning and ate it. It was great.  

Write me a summary of your day? I get up. I go on my phone. I put on my school uniform. I do my make-up. I arrive at school around 1-2 minutes late and completely piss off my teachers. I sit awkwardly next to the one friend in class that I have, or I sit silently next to a different kid in class that I want to be friends with, too anxious and socially stupid to make any sort of legitimate conversation. In Maths, I sit by myself. At recess and lunch, I got to the canteen and by myself some unhealthy food, while simultaneously lamenting how fat I am before either a) sitting in the toilet writing b) helping out the librarian c) practicing my trumpet in the music department or d) watching Yuri on Ice with my one friend. I then go to rowing training, where I feel useless and fat, and then I go home, shower, eat dinner, and then go on Tumblr or listen to music instead of doing homework. I go to bed. Throughout the day, I am reminded that my behaviour is problematic and self-sabotaging, however I do not change it bc I am problematic af. Stay away from me.    

Would you be cool with meeting up with me when I travel the world (late summer 2017- summer 2018)? I would be cool with it. I don’t know you very well, but I would love to get to know you. The only issue is that when Northern Hemisphere peeps have summer, Aussie are in the middle of Winter, which, for my school at least, is one of the busiest times of the school year. But we can work around that :) 

Who’s your favourite character of all time? All time? You can’t ask me that! However, the character I relate to most, and therefore is my favourite, I guess, would be Hermione Granger, particularly Hermione in StarKid musical parodies. 

What do you think everyone should know? I think everyone should know that their actions and words do have consequences, whether intended or not, and that if we were a little more open-minded and a little less judgmental and a little nicer to each other, then the world would be a much better place for everyone.  

Alrighty kids, I know with that with these things you’re supposed to write questions of your own and tag different people, but tbh, I’ve just got back to school, and I’m tired and stressed and I can’t be bothered. I’ve had fun answering these questions, and if you want to do, you can answer these too. Once again, thanks to @oceanblue-and-forestgreen for tagging me, and you should go follow them bc they’re awesome! Thanks, and good night :)

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Me: *laughs* Most of the time, yeah. It just bothers me when I end up being one of them. I like t' think I'm better than that most days but, aha... what was phrasing you used? "Ego the size of a small country?" Maybe that really just makes me a narcissist *snorts*

X: Did I say that? =smiles innocently= I must have been having an off day, 'cause I'm pretty sure I meant the size of a small continent. :) X: Don't feel too bad about it. Shit happens. And even if you're the bad guy, you still gotta live with you, so no sense beating yourself up over it. Just do better. Haha. Which I see you're trying. That's all you need.

Me: :> Cheeky vixen. Not that I'd have it any other way XD Me: And ye. Working on it. Live and learn.

X: That's my name. Don't wear it out. Or do. :P X: Seriously, though, I'm glad you're doing okay with it. And you're taking a surprisingly healthy approach to it too. :)

Me: Just the healthiest health nut to ever health their way to health. Me: Emphasis on the "nut" part. :)

X: You're that alright. And I mean that in the most loving way.

Me: Ye I know ;)

X: I'm in the mood to write something ... waffy. It'll probably wear off.

Me: Hey I'm game if y'want to lol

X: I bet you Lavi is looking at you like you lost your mind. Haha. I don't know how fit him into waffy. :P

Me: *snorts* Nah we just kind of accept each others' certain brands of instability and duet over the rubble of what may have at one point resembled sanity, its cool :)

X: Okay, then, O Duo of Agreement and Tranquility. How do you propose we get Lavi to be waffy? Because I'll write the starter first thing in the morning if you can name me a situation. Haha.

Me: Okay, to be fair, I'm finding more than one definition of waffy and yes he is giving me a look at some of them but he's not saying no haha. So if y'wanna make sure we're on the same page that'd be great.

X: Like romancy! Haha.

Me: Okay, I figured but I had t' be sure lmfao. Me: Save the "Wait are we talking about the same thing here or..." bumble pffft.

X: I'm now curious. What other definitions are there? X: And which ones did he not say no to? :P

Me: *snorts* Ask Urban dictionary. Me: http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=waffy Me: And mainly he gave me a look because a lot of them seem to put emphasis on yaoi and yuri and last he checked LaviLena was a very Het ship and he was vERY confused for a moment lmfao.

X: Pffft. Calm down, Lavi. Just talking romancy. Haha. Though it's probably gonna be toxic romancy, knowing us. So maybe waffy isn't the right word. How about ... hm ... I'll have to think of one. Kissy? X: Bah. X: That's still too cute.

Me: Don't hurt yourself. *laughs*

X: Then you're stuck with kissy. How you like them apples?

Me: I prefer peaches. Me: ...now I want fruit.

X: No. B| X: You get nothing for being a smartass. X: Especially not peaches. X: Or kissy. X: S'it.

Me: I'm gonna get peaches just because you said no. Me: No one can stop me now.

X: Fine!

Me: And while I procure peaches I am going to contemplate the kissy long and hard until I think of something.

X: I said no kissy, jerk. X: =sticks tongue out at you=

Me: :p

X: ... Do you actually have peaches? Because I kinda want one now too.

Me: PFFFT. Me: Only canned. Me: Which is just not the same if we're being at all honest.

X: I have a can too actually, funny enough. It's mixed with pears. X: And no, not the same.

Me: Ironically pears was the other thing I thought of saying in response to the apples.

X: It's a fruit orgy. X: I meant salad. X: Damn auto correct. X: Pfft.

Me: ,,,I'm not sure whether to believe that was auto-correct. *snorts*

X: You totally should. =shakes head no=

Me: I'm just glad I wasn't eating anything yet because I would have choked and I don't want "died choking on fruit while reading the words 'fruit orgy'" on my obituary page.

X: But why not? That would be one sick obituary. X: Also life and death in the same breath. One of those fruits can get pregnant. X: ... X: Okay, I wish THAT was auto correct. X: All of it.

Me: I'm framing that on my wall. Me: Forever. Me: #NeverForgetFruitOrgy2k17

X: I demand kissy payment for the memorable moments. X: Wait. I said I didn't want kissy. X: Right. So I could reject it. X: That's right. X: =snorts like a priss=

Me: Don't toy with the poor boy's nonexistent heart, he's only got like... none. Me: ...I'm never gonna be able to eat fruit salad with a straight face again. Me: or probably any fruit for that matter.

X: I am, legit, so pleased with myself. I can't even put into words how pleased I am with myself. Just. So pleased. And to think that auto correct was going all "fruit orchid?" No, bitch. Orgy. I meant what I said. Haha.

Me: Which one of us has the ego again? *smiles wryly*

X: I am an adorable little girl that knows no bad words and what is an orgy? =blink, blink= X: Is that like an instrument? X: Sounds a bit like organ, doesn't it? X: And speaking of organs ...

Me: *snorts* Me: Here it comes. Me: ...that's what she said. Me: Yep I'll just escort myself out now.

X: ... I rubbed off on you!!!! X: And here I was gonna make some heavy handed comment about reproductive organs.

Me: *side eyes Lavi* ...rubbed off on someone anyway.

X: He wishes.

Me: Well according to him, there are likely many reasons he is attributed to a rabbit, including but not extensively limited to his propensity to run away from Kanda's explosive temper. Me: *snorts and shakes head*

X: ... That was a bust. Also kinda like a bunny. So he's right there. Haha. X: Who is Bunny? X: Now that you mention it.

Me: My fiance.

X: That makes a lot more sense. X: My apologies. I will stop making sleepy innuendos. Haha. X: Coffee at midnight ain't a good idea.

Me: *snickers* You're fine. Its actually been really lifting my mood. I mean just talking to you in general but comedy is always good for the soul.

X: In that case, hold my beer and gimme that mic. It's stand up time. Pfft.

Me: Don't hurt yourself. *snorts* But yeah I'll hold your beer. U go.

X: =sits back down= X: I got nothin'.

Me: Best show. Me: Roaring applause. Me: Oscar award.

X: Ahem. You mean standing ovation? X: =taps foot=

Me: Yeah that.

X: Flowers on stage? And chocolates? X: And ... fruit baskets?

Me: *snorts*

X: I hate the fact that that sounded vaguely dirty.

Me: "Vaguelly"?

X: =hits you with a dictionary=

Me: That's fair. Me: But... Me: *opens up a page and holds it out* Me: I think the word you were looking for is "Overtly".

X: I think the word I was looking for was "Maimed."

Me: ...well that doesn't sound right.

X: Sure it does. Will describe you to a tee if you persist. X: =grins sweetly=

Me: So was that supposed to be a vague threat or an overt one...

X: Realistic. B|

Me: Glad we cleared that up.

X: We're just all about the definitions tonight, aren't we? I mean, fruit orgy, fruit salad, life is too short to care about these distinctions. X: It's all tasty anyway. X: =coughs=

Me: I have concerns.

X: Oh?

Me: Many concerns. Me: Self-explanatory concerns.

X: Start the list, I'll stop you when I feel like addressing them.

Me: Well first off. Me: Plants are asexual.

X: Imagination begs to differ. X: Anthropomorphic plants have interests. X: And they're not always wholesome. X: I don't see what your damage is.

Me: Second of all. Fruit salad is typically cut into chunks. That's like making it with a disembodied limb.

X: You're just jealous that the peach likes the green pear more than you. X: It's in chunks 'cause the clothes are off. X: I think. X: Yeah. Let's roll with that.

Me: ...if you could only have heard the wheezing sound I just made.

X: Did guy imagine a grape stripping to porn music? X: Because your life isn't complete until you imagine that.

Me: Did now. Me: Third... Me: Okay y'know what. Now I can't unthink that.

X: You're welcome. X: =sticks out grape leggy=

Me: If I have to suffer you're going to suffer with me.

X: Oh, lover peach!

Me: THIRD.

X: Yoo hoo! X: I'm sorry. Am I distracting you? X: I totally don't mean... X: Oh, wait, the grape's taking off its stockings.

Me: How would a fruit orgy even work, is what I want to ask. But then I remember fruit stems and center seed holes and I probably answered my own question. Me: You're welcome. Me: This is it. Me: This is the height of intellectual debate. Me: Fruit orgies.

X: And the banana appears on the scene. X: To give our discussion more subject matter.

Me: I'm done. You win. There is no distinction between a fruit orgy and a fruit salad.

X: Point, set, match. X: Although, I'm not sure who the winner is. X: I will never be able to eat fruit salad again.

Me: Really? I will.

X: ... Of course you will.

Me: Of course I will.

X: You are so extra. I love it.

Me: I just live to see people's baffled expressions when something like fruit salad makes me laugh uncontrollably. Me: And hey, more fruit for me. Me: Its not gonna eat itself.

X: ... No it's not. I hear that's very hard to do. Gotta be a gymnast. X: That banana might actually stand a chance.

Me: Its a shame that, despite being agnostic, I still find it in myself to believe in Hell, because there's probably a place for me in it and I don't like hot places. Me: I'm pretty sure fruit orgy counts as reasons why I probably make the list.

X: ...Based on that somber take on your future, I imagined what you must have thought. And it wasn't petty. X: Tsk tsk.

Me: I've gone down a road of no return.

X: By the House of the Rising Sin. X: No typo.

Me: Sounds about right.

X: And in that exhilarating note, I'm going to bed. (Always leave them wanting more.) X: I assume that kissy proposal shall be waiting On my desk at 10 AM sharp? X: And Gai forbid you mention fruit.

Me: Will you be mad if its there at 9:59?

X: No. But I will be if it's 10:01.

Me: Then yes ma'am.

X: I wanna say one more vaguely dirty thing. But it might be too much. Haha.

Me: Only because it'll inevitably be followed up by another. *smirks*

X: I was just gonna innocently retract my earlier statement. You can mention fruit in your proposal. As long as whip cream is involved. X: Thank you! And good night! X: I'll be here all week.

Me: Cheeky vixen. Me: Goodnight and sleep well!