#but also this is my main source of procrastination so idk

[blubushie]

Wall anon here, get ready for another one though this one is pretty off topic? Idk brain works weird and made me think of this

(I'll try to format this time, throw a brick at me if it's unreadable please)

It's so wild to me seeing the differences in how the TF2 fandom sees the mercs vs how professional* TF2 players, whom I will call the player base, see the mercs (*3rd party competitive)

I think that we all know how much the fandom loves medic and puts demo aside. Though this seems to mostly be the fandom, from my personal experience with the player base, people love demo! Well love playing him.

It's a whole opposite of Tumblr and twitter and whatnot, nobody gives a shit about the story or any fan made stuff past sfms, the player base loves demo and soldier and if you made them play medic even for a second they would combust on the spot.

I've seen at least 10 "who do you main in TF2?" polls on here and the top 2 answers are always medic or pyro, I think that this is because Tumblr TF2 players lack skill but that's just a theory. I know that if I held a poll like this with people from the player base the top answers would be soldier, demoman or scout.

If I may go a bit off topic back to the theory that Tumblr users are bad at TF2, there are only 4 people from the player base that I know who have Tumblr accounts:

My boyfriend who has an inactive account and is considered very shit by everyone (myself included)

Friend of my boyfriend who barely has time to play and has an infamous record of dropping 7 ubers in 30 minutes

A guy who as far as I know has been stuck in the lowest division for over a year (not a good look)

And myself (I'm procrastinating so much on actually playing the game and getting better ffs)

Back on topic, I feel that playing the game with actually good players would change a lot of Tumblr's boring ass headcannons.

I, a medic main myself, used to hate scouts with a passion but after a month of playing with actually good scouts my whole view on scout has changed, I love scouts!! They're my friends!!

After playing competitively my view on a lot of classes has changed, actually. I have mad respect for demos and soldiers because of the high skill that those classes require, from good aim to good game sense and also rocket/sticky jumping and much much more that I won't bore you with.

They're very skilled players playing those classes, it makes ya think about the mercs they're playing a little differently, especially if you're on a new team and don't know each other's names so you call everyone by their class (the amount of times I've been called med or medic instead of my name is uncountable)

I feel like a lot of my headcannons are influenced by the people I play with and our experiences together

And I think that's neat

This has been wall anon, signing off with another fucking wall of text and most likely exposing who I truly am behind the anon mask, whoops?

Oh yeah and reminder to throw a brick at me if this is hard to read lol

God this is so fucking true. Also just generally people only engaging with fandom and not even refreshing on the source material. Spend a few hours mulling over all the comics and videos and voicelines and watching gameplay videos to get an idea of these characters or don't talk to me LMAO

[maochira]

Idk how to explain this properly but my Blue Lock brainrot has been fading for a while (weeks before my Baki brainrot started) and I feel like I'm kinda... getting bored of it? I haven't been excited for a new chapter in idk how long. I look at the spoilers/leaks when they're posted and then I procrastinate actually reading the translations for weeks. (Could also be because I don't care much about Hiori and there's been much focus on him lately, which is cool though.)

Every time raws for a new Ao Ashi chapter come out I'm super excited and happy but with Blue Lock I just feel... meh.

I also noticed I've been exposing myself to stuff in the bllk fandom that doesn't appeal to me or even bothers me but then instead of blocking it away I just. Don't. Instead I tend to rant about it to friends (usually in a joking manner.) But even with that I'm just putting myself into this negativity that probably affects me more than I realize.

And idk what's going on with Tumblr but most of the time I don't even get my mutuals' posts on my following tab anymore? I have to scroll through the for you tab where I mainly get shown stuff I don't care about (fandoms I'm not in and/or smuts) no matter how often I press the dismiss button.

I've often thought about blocking tags and even other blogs (I block blogs only sometimes) but never really did it consequently which resulted in me seeing more and more stuff that doesn't appeal to me. I know ignoring and blocking is the better thing to do so I'll try to do that more often.

I want to create more stuff that I enjoy to make up for the negativity in my brain, but with my mental health it's kinda hard. I do have some art almost finished but I don't get to write often anymore. And writing is my main source of joy in this fandom :']

[gloomzi]

RULES ☆

key:

italicized if it's a preference

asteriks if there is a note at the bottom with further context

what i will write :3

canon x canon, canon x reader (if you send a request and want your reader to have specific attributes, tell me, or i'll make it as neutral as possible), canon x oc for friends

readers of any gender (request specific pronouns please! neos, any pronouns, he/they, she/they, whatever floats your boat! if you give no pronouns and no indication of a gender for your reader such as f!/m!/gn!, i will default to they/them or dm you if you're off anon)

queer relationships, het relationships*, polyamory, monogamy, open relationships

dom, sub or verse readers/dom, sub or verse canon characters

most kinks are okay (including stuff like blood, impact play and weapon play) so feel free to get specific in my inbox

neurodivergent or disabled readers (if it's something i'm unfamiliar with i will do research and try my best, but please feel free to leave me pointers in your request to help me!)

oneshots, short series (think 2 or 3 parts), drabbles, headcanons

what i wont write :3

no rape (dubcon is on thin ice), drugging, abuse*, yandere, pregnancy, pedophilia, student/teacher (even if its a college student) or large age gap pairings

nsfw for underage characters

no scat/piss/emeto, no cnc

no comfort works for csa/sa, self harm or eating disorders (writing this would probably trigger me, sorry)

long x reader series

further info :3

you must be +18 to request nsfw or interact with nsfw content (you will be blocked if i catch you breaking this rule)

i wont write verbal/physical abuse between the main pairing but i wouldn't mind doing it as something the reader or the canon character have dealt with in the past (whether that be from a parent/ex partner/friend doesnt matter, you can specify in the request). if the canon character has been abused in their source material i will also include this ofc.

i wouldnt mind writing stuff like codependency or like kill for each other type shit, but there's a fine line between like. guy who kills somebody in defense of their partner bc it makes sense for the story/their character (think characters like adrian chase for example) vs making a character who doesn't rly kill people do that bc then it comes across more ooc and sometimes even yandereish...if that makes sense.

please give me an idea of what you want in a request, don't just send "character x reader" (give me a scenario or at least say like "fluff with [insert character]").

im not the fastest writer unless im really excited about a prompt, please be patient. thanks to adhd i can be a bit of a procrastinator, but if you sent a request please feel free to ask for progress updates (just give me the specifics of what you asked for so i know it's yours). depending on how busy i am irl, if i have writers block and how many requests i have, writing might go faster or slower.

i'll try to do things first come, first serve, but if somebody sends in a new idea that really excites me i might write theirs first even if yours came before theirs bc i have adhd brain and i can write things faster when i'm rly hyped about em

erm idk if anyone cares but im a self shipper so yeah perhaps fics with my f/o's will deranged (in a loving way), if you want a list of my f/o's for those concerned with stuff like sharing, here is a list of mine, i don't mind sharing tho <3 my content is aimed towards selfshippers and i wouldn't wanna exclude anyone who shares so much love for the same lil guys as me

some characters i wont write x f!reader/m!reader for, please check this list before requesting (this is not an issue with any straight/bi/other interpretations of these characters, it just has to do with my comfort level and how i interpret that character)

like i mentioned before, i have adhd and i am specifically unmedicated at the moment, which means sometimes i'll write a lot more of one fandom than the others i'm into. this does not mean you can't request a different fandom! i will always be multifandom, i will always love my past fandoms, it just might take me a bit longer to write your request.

at the end of the day i just wanna keep things fun, writing has been a hobby of mine for over a decade now, so pls try to be kind to me and i'll be kind back! if any of these rules are unclear just send me an ask and i'll try to clarify!

[incorrectikesenquotes]

welcome~

Thanks for checking out my blog! I go by Riza, and I manage this incorrect quotes blog for Ikemen Sengoku! 

I have completed every route in ikesen (as of the release of Keiji’s route) and one of this blog’s traditions is that the profile picture is always that suitor with the latest EN release... with a touch of magic on their nose. uwu

I also play Ikemen Revolution, Ikemen Vampire and Ikemen Prince, which is why you might see some of that content here.

shenanigans: 

Ask and submission box are open. 

I accept [read: in need of] quote submissions, but if it’s already posted then ofc I won’t post it again (unless I forgot)

also i would really appreciate it if the quote/chat had a source in it 

You’re free to ask anything as long as it’s,,, answerable??? lmao idk what to do with weird asks so pls dont lol

Though I’m game to talking and chatting~ I don’t bite I’m just really awkward most of the time lmao

I have a writing side blog for Cybird games : @dreamscapesin1582 . Although this is my main blog so whenever I reply there, this name will be the one showing. Also, I’m accepting requests atm~

as you may notice, the posts are not subtle on the swearing.

feel free to suggest how i can improve my blog~

also most followers may know that i am also fickle on the activity, but i am a young person and young people are very susceptible to a disease called procrastination 

i’m more active on twitter! it’s @rizaaa_bx

here’s a carrd about me

enjoy your day~

[legumelupin]

hi friends, this is just another casually nighttime rant and im putting in a trigger warning (tw) for mental illness, prescription drug mention and for undiagnosed mental illness. and also want to say that if this post at all causes issues or proves to be a source of ignorance, please let me know but i just need to yell about this (instead of writing my rough draft of course)

so it’s been my belief for the last several years that i have undiagnosed ADHD and i never want to say anything because i know that’s it’s simultaneously over diagnosed and grossly under diagnosed. but in all honesty, ive never been able to focus on one thing for a long period of time (without the use of stimulants b/c yes i have taken prescription drugs w/o a prescription b/c i’m a college student with procrastination issues and who can’t stay on the same topic for more than 20 minutes at a time, if that. please understand that i didn’t do it without purpose and that i don’t glorify the need/use of medication at all.) and i feel like im constantly buzzing and the moment i get bored of school work, i zone out or i do something else. 

like idk how to explain it, i know ADHD isn’t just being hyper or anything but i just can’t sit still and focus on literally anything. even when i write fanfiction, something im very invested in, i take breaks every few minutes because i think of something else i want to do instead before realizing that i do in fact still want to be writing. and i put off the simplest tasks all the time in favor of doing nothing productive like playing video games or scrolling through tiktok and i feel like such a failure and so idiotic because i know i can do good work because i have before but every time it’s a struggle. 

this time im trying to chalk it up to the fact that i don’t know much about plants or fungus because my main focus is human and molecular biology but even when i wrote a paper for an anatomy class, i had literally glue myself to a chair and keep my phone of out reach but i still found something else to do like going to the vending machines even when i wasn’t hungry just so i could get up and do something else. 

i just don’t know wtf to do because i don’t want to seem like im glorifying ADHD or anything and i want to seek help for it but idk how to bring it up to my mom and jesus christ i just want to be able to do the work. i literally sat here writing this instead of doing my homework because it was something else to do. and i fucking like scream shouted five minutes ago in utter frustration and i’m..... just so tired. i just want to be able to do the work. 

if this was ignorant, if there’s a tw you’d like me to add, if there’s anything at all with this that made you uncomfortable please let me know and i will either fix it or delete this point. 

[erunapendleton]

1, 4, 13, and 47 for the Fic Meme!

1. When it comes to my comfort zone probably something very fluffy and disgustingly saccharine romances haha. I really like kinda dialogue-heavy scenes and vulnerability between the leads! i sort of write like sweet moments that remind me of my relationship, because idk a lot of the couplings i like don’t have a lot of fics for them, so i want to fill the gap with sweet stuff!

4. I looked in my notes and I apparently have 9 unrealized ideas lol. obv i’m working on ‘boyfriend’ at the moment, so it has seniority over the other ideas. though another bigger project i have is a Kakyoin/Holly story. The main idea is pretty simple. Basically, he is there for her and her husband’s not and they start an affair. It will probably be a sadder one. No Stands for this one and will have him paint her at least once. I would also like to add another episode of CCH, featuring a toddler Hayato.

13. My boyfriend says this to me a lot because I get in my head and procrastinate a lot all the time - “it’s harder to stop once you start” and that’s the truth! it’s good advice even though i have trouble listening to it ; ~ ;

37. I have an outline for a story called ‘Guys My Age,’ but i’m having so much trouble with it because i don’t know if i’m letting it get bogged down by unimportant stuff or these background fixtures are good, because i’m world-building. AUs are so damn hard, because the audience relies on you for all of the information. there’s no relying on the source material if you move the characters out of their original setting! but GMA is a Josukako story at its core, but with that it there’s a twist. basically, Yukako is a student and falls for the much older Jotaro Kujo. This becomes complicated as her friendship with Josuke becomes more than a friendship and she doesn’t realize the connection between the two men in her life. I have big events pinned down, but I’m struggling with feeling like I’m just moving from Event 1 to Event 2 and so on without it feeling natural. 

Now for my current WIP, ‘boyfriend,’ it’s a fake dating story between Josuke & Yukako of course, but there’s a greater element that I have been discretely hinting at in chapter 1. I wonder if people will respond to this other aspect or find it shoehorned and make the story crowded? or maybe it will be a pleasant surprise and make the story stronger. We’ll find out when I finally finish chapter 2...

thanks for the ask!! 💖

[eedisgirlfriend]

hmm i hate tumblr but i might come back to post abt killing eve and such

[sophocused]

pursuits of 2019 | a 3am ramble

Hi hi don't mind me as I ramble about all the ideas I have floating about my head bc it's the new year and I'm really excited.

tbh actually I think 2019 is the year I wear my clothes that actually show the shape of my body, idk I think, I've been expressing myself well with the colourful clothes, I think a lot of friends associate colourfulness with me now, which is fucking bomb. I dont even remember the days I would wear all black, or all toned down shades. But yeah for 2019, I wanna wear more non-baggy clothing, colourful just the same... I'll probably treat myself to a lil shopping spree sometime late February or mid-March. Ooo or I'll go thrifting againnn sometime then.

As for school that's coming back, thanks to friends I think the textbooks they provided me saves me $250 of textbook money, and I also switched out one of the 2000 psyc courses for anth1210 which I've been told is super easy so I'm gna work hard to get an A+. I also got psyc 2490 which is a more intermediate elective bc ik essays are involved but I really fucking interested in abnormal psychology. Maybe I can learn something about myself. learn how to help others better. how to help myself better. It's an both electives are online courses so oof I need to FOCUS. Dont get sucked into procrastination temptations and also I need to be frequent in talking to and or meeting up with the profs. I just wanna be more involved for once. I wanna show that i care about the course and not just the number being served up to me on my transcript. Bc that's really important to me in order for me to stay trying and giving a fuck about school. I need to see value in what I'm learning. It's not just a way to my degree. It's not just some stepping stone. The content is worth something to me.

So for winter term, I'm probably going to finally learn how to study in public alone. I'll be able to find more spaces too bc I no longer need places with an outlet bc my parents got me a notebook for Christmas that lasts over 10 hours so FUCK YEA it's so light I'm so happy. My back is so happy holy shit. It's going to add LEAGUES of convenience in my day-to-day uni life tbh. Taking it out during class is easy it so smol and it boots up so fast SIGH i didnt even know I wanted one hahahah I didnt think to get myself something like that or save up for it so glad my parents did. But yeah more study spaces means more practice for me to be alone in public man. I still get anxious sometimes. I feel like I'm being watched. 1. I'm more than most likely not bc everyone's doing their own thing. 2. even if they were, their eyes are just wandering like my eyes do when I casually people watch. I gotta train my mind and body dat it's not a big deal.

Anyway, IM LIMITING MYSELF TO SKIPPING NO MORE THAN 3 TIMES per class. Like I swear to god, it's a 3 strikes I'm out typa thing. Maybe I'll put $10 in a thing for everytime I skip, and donate it to a charity or something. Which isn't very good punishment since I'd be doing a good thing aaaa Idk yet. BASTA. No skipping. Fuck. Skipping was the main fucking reason I did ASS in fall term. That and alternating between "I'll do it at school" and "I'll do it when I get home" too often.

Get your head in the fuckin game nina, I dont wanna see another C or B in that transcript. B+ is the bare minimum standard now. Gotta resurrect that GPA.

YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS. My social life is gna suffer a lil. Hi friends who I normally hang out with or see all the time. You will likely only see me once a week 😅 bc ya girl gotta study for her dreams to come true. I wanna ace human phys 2. I wanna ace microbio. I wanna ace anthropology in humanities. I wanna ace abnormal psychology. I wanna get 7 hours of sleep a night at least. I wanna be ahead in my reading. I wanna be up to date with my class notes. I wanna keep all my files organized. All my due dates organized. I wanna be able to work 14 hours a week, 5 days a week, without feeling like it's in the way of my studies and life in general. I wanna be able to see friends at least sometimes, like a lunch date, bc lord knows I've learned that I cant study as much as when I'm alone compared to when I'm with other people.

I'm gonna cook more often at home too, or do something like that, I hadn't cooked since summer bc of how school got, and thanks to my fam for understanding, but I gotta do my part in the house. take initiative. keep laundry folded gdi. I dont like coming home to a room with a mountain of clothes to fold in a corner and a desk where I can barely see my desk. It just drains me. So knowing this, I'm reminding myself the way I like things, where I want things to go, and what I need to do to get them there.

uh ah uh okay something I realized has been extremely apparent for most of 2018. to put it bluntly, I dont see myself as someone other persons could romantically love. Not after christian tbh. before you think it's because I dont like myself, I love myself. I'm so fucking great at loving myself. The thing is, I worked really hard to love myself, and I'm a constant fluctuating work in progress. and thats not even romantically. so, it just feels like that's how it would be if any other person were to try and love me, that's a whole lot of time and effort, and they'd have to want to want to love me in the first place. THAT sounds like I a lotta work. I dont want to put that pressure on anyone??? I think I'm only making half any sense bc another part of me wants to probably say, "ofc there are people who will want to be with u, u acorn". SO I'm gna follow that little voice this year. Last year I shunned it and focused more on platonic love and woo yeah it's so strong, theres nothing stronger.

I'm gna find me a girl. or a mans. depends who I end up meeting first. I know if it's a girl it's tricky bc how do I know if she's into girls too without exposing that I'm trying to find out if she is for the sole purpose of wanting to flirt with her??? I only just recently embraced my attraction in 2018 so it's like... I got no practice in actually flirting with women. I barely have practice flirting with dudes. Anyway ANYWAY, I'm just letting the universe know that if they got someone in store for me in 2019, my arms and mind are open as hell. I'm gna love them so healthily and we gon have such a fulfilling and respectable dynamic. we're gna be so perfectly imperfect bc we gon understand that we're just people and cant be each other's sole source for all kinds of love and energy, that would otherwise be given by many different types or friends and family members even.

WOW I'm really sleepy hmm maybe I'm finally all rambled out.

[usagingy]

Send me numbers..

Wait, these are actually hella cute questions.”

Source: bambwie

— 1. Who was the last person you held hands with? A friend from uni. There’s nothing romantic between us, was just for fun.

2. Are you outgoing or shy? Shy. As. Frick.

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? My niece. She’s precious!

4. Are you easy to get along with? I honestly don’t know. I guess so?

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? Pretty sure they would, yeah.

6. What kind of people are you attracted to? Usually people who are really easy to talk to and who are very kind and sweethearted (is that a word?)

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? HaHaHaHahaHAAHhahaAHAhaha!!... No

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? A good friend from high school. I just have platonic feelings for her, but I still miss her.

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? Depends on how detailed the conversation is. If it’s not super detailed, then no, it doesn’t make me uncomfortable.

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Probably the friend from high school I mentioned in #8.

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? “I was just confused” (boring, I know)

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? 

Nine Point Eight - Mili

Candy Store - Heathers: The Musical

Here Comes A Thought - Steven Universe

Family Party - Kyary Pamyu Pamyu

Holding Out For A Hero - Bonnie Tyler

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? If they’re really gentle with it, then yes. But when people get rough with it then I hate it.

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? I guess so, I’m not sure tbh.

15. What good thing happened this summer? This “summer” only just started, so I can’t really say much, but I hung out with my brother and his friends.

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? I can’t answer this because I’ve never kissed anyone.

17. Do you think there is life on other planets? I don’t see why it couldn’t be possible. There are a lot of planets out there, so it would make sense if at least one sustained life on it.

18. Do you still talk to your first crush? Yeah, it’s cool, yo.

19. Do you like bubble baths? Ooh, I haven’t had one in so long, I can’t remember if I do.

20. Do you like your neighbors? I don’t even know my neighbors lmao

21. What are you bad habits? I procrastinate, I take too long to get ready, I am sometimes too open, I pry a bit too much, etc, etc.

22. Where would you like to travel? Germany, I guess, they have really good chocolate.

23. Do you have trust issues? Yep, trust issues with myself.

24. Favorite part of your daily routine? Going to bed.

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? Excluding more inappropriate areas, my upper body, specifically the front part.

26. What do you do when you wake up? Sit there for a while, ponder life, check my phone if it’s not dead, then get up and do the same thing while standing up.

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? I don’t really wish my skin was different, but if I had to choose one I’d say darker cuz I’m pale af.

28. Who are you most comfortable around? Hmmm, I guess I’d have to say I’m most comfortable around that one friend I mentioned in #8 again.

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? Considering I don’t have any ex’s, no, they have not.

30. Do you ever want to get married? Yepppppppp

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail? Currently it is possible; however, I’m getting my hair cut soon, so it probably won’t be long enough in a little while.

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? None of them. I’m ace.

33. Spell your name with your chin. I’m not even gonna try this right now.

34. Do you play sports? What sports? Nope, what’re sports?

35. Would you rather live without TV or music? Without TV; music is too precious.

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? Several times, yo. I don’t know how to talk to people about that kind of thing.

37. What do you say during awkward silences? Usually nothing. Jk, I will often ask how someone else is doing, but it goes back to awkward silence again really quickly.

38. Describe your dream girl/guy? I’m not sure I really have a super ideal fantasy for a dream guy/girl, but I guess I’ll go for it. Generally I’m attracted to guys who are really soft and kind, usually significantly taller than me, usually with little to no facial hair, and most frequently they have dark hair and dark eyes. Generally girls that I find attractive are around my height, not usually much shorter than me. Usually they have dark hair and dark eyes, are very sweet, but also can be very assertive and driven. For anyone, I’d like to have similar interests, of course, because that makes it easier to have conversations. Also, the main reason I’m attracted to people of certain heights is just because of how it feels to hug people of those heights. (Sorry, this was a long one)

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? GAMESTOP. Just game stores in general, and also the Pokémon stores in Japan.

40. What do you want to do after high school? I’ve already graduated high school and I still don’t know what I want to do after high school. I’m going to uni, originally for computer engineering, but now for theatre and electronic media performance.

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? Not everyone, I guess. I think it’s more on a case by case basis, depending on the severity of the offense.

42. If you’re being extremely quiet what does it mean? Depends. Being quiet could mean that I’m uncomfortable (usually with strangers), comfortable (usually with close friends), thinking deeply about random shiznit, or just don’t know what to say.

43. Do you smile at strangers? Depends on how I’m feeling. I usually don’t look at other people because I don’t want them to think that I’m being creepy towards them.

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? Outer space; the bottom of the ocean is terrifying.

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? Usually the need for food, but sometimes the need for cleanliness.

46. What are you paranoid about? Way too many things to list here, so I’ll list a few. Abandonment, rejection, the feeling that there is a hole in my clothes, the feeling that people are watching and judging everything I do, the feeling that I’m going to unintentionally hurt people or things, etc.

47. Have you ever been high? Nope.

48. Have you ever been drunk? Nope.

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? Not that I can think of.

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? Brown with yellow letters.

51. Ever wished you were someone else? Too often, yes.

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? I’d like to get rid of my envy and jealousy.

53. Favourite makeup brand? Don’t have one.

54. Favourite store? Pokémon store.

55. Favourite blog? Don’t have one.

56. Favourite colour? YELLOW

57. Favourite food? Curry rice with creamy crab croquettes.

58. Last thing you ate? Beef curry rice.

59. First thing you ate this morning? Haven’t eaten yet, but it’ll probably be Life cereal.

60. Ever won a competition? For what? Won a couple Pokémon tournaments. One made me a gym leader for a League, another got me a New 3DS XL.

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? Nope.

62. Been arrested? For what? Nope.

63. Ever been in love? Yepppp

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? And this is where I’d put the story of my first kiss. IF I HAD ONE.

65. Are you hungry right now? Yessssss

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? Considering I don’t really have many tumblr friends (I think?) I like my real friends more.

67. Facebook or Twitter? Facebook

68. Twitter or Tumblr? Tumblr

69. Are you watching tv right now? Nope

70. Names of your bestfriends? Jay, Natz, Xixi, Frances, Aleigha, Kirbs, Dani, Hunter, Marissa, (the list goes on and on, I can’t decide on just a few best friends)

71. Craving something? What? Takoyaki!

72. What colour are your towels? Brown

72. How many pillows do you sleep with? Two (2)

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? I used to, but since ya mentioned it, I might start doing it again.

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? At least 20, question mark???

75. Favourite animal? Tie between monkeys, foxes, and rabbits.

76. What colour is your underwear? Idk, it changes everyday.

77. Chocolate or Vanilla? Depends on the quality. Usually vanilla since too much chocolate gives me a stomach ache.

78. Favourite ice cream flavour? Strawberry banana, but since it’s really uncommon I usually settle for mint chocolate chip.

79. What colour shirt are you wearing? Yellow

80. What colour pants? Blue

81. Favourite tv show? Steven Universe

82. Favourite movie? Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? I haven’t seen either, I’m trash

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? Same as above

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? Same as above above

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? Dory

87. First person you talked to today? Friend staying at my house

88. Last person you talked to today? Friend staying at my house

89. Name a person you hate? I don’t think I hate anyone, that’s a really strong word.

90. Name a person you love? Kaia (my niece)

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? Nope

92. In a fight with someone? Not right now, I think? If I am, I’ve forgotten.

93. How many sweatpants do you have? Quite a lot, but I don’t wear them.

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? Too many, probs over 15, but I only regularly wear two of them.

95. Last movie you watched? Psycho-Pass: The Movie

96. Favourite actress? Emma Watson

97. Favourite actor? Does John Mulaney count?

98. Do you tan a lot? I straight up burn, so nope

99. Have any pets? Nope

100. How are you feeling? Neutral in general

101. Do you type fast? Depending on the situation.

102. Do you regret anything from your past? Toooooo muchhh

103. Can you spell well? Sometimes

104. Do you miss anyone from your past? Lotsa old friends.

105. Ever been to a bonfire party? Yeah, not really a fan of them.

106. Ever broken someone’s heart? I think maybe once or twice? I don’t know about many people liking me.

107. Have you ever been on a horse? Yeah, but it was when I was super young so I don’t remember what it was like.

108. What should you be doing? Probably applying for scholarships.

109. Is something irritating you right now? Only my intrusive thoughts, but that’s all the time.

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? Pretty much every time I’ve liked someone, yeah.

111. Do you have trust issues? I think this was answered already, but yes.

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? The last person I cried full out in front of was my mom, but I have had a couple tears run down my face when in the dorms at uni.

113. What was your childhood nickname? Gingerbread, Gingersnaps

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? Yep yep

115. Do you play the Wii? Yesssssss

116. Are you listening to music right now? No, but I should be.

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? Hell yeah

118. Do you like Chinese food? Hell yeah!

119. Favourite book? Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix

120. Are you afraid of the dark? Yes, but only if I’m unfamiliar with the area.

121. Are you mean? I don’t know? Sometimes

122. Is cheating ever okay? Nope. Never. Absolutely not. If you cheat, I have big problems with you.

123. Can you keep white shoes clean? I probably couldn’t lol

124. Do you believe in love at first sight? Not really? But it depends. I’d say it’s possible upon the first meeting, but not by just seeing the person. I think truly falling in love with someone purely based on their appearance is rather shallow and difficult to do.

125. Do you believe in true love? Kinda? I don’t really believe that there’s one specific person that you’re destined to be with, but I do believe that people can develop a strong enough connection with each other that it could be considered true love.

126. Are you currently bored? Somewhat, but it’s rare for me to not be somewhat bored.

127. What makes you happy? Long hugs with people I care about, snuggles, some video games and anime, having deep conversations with friends.

128. Would you change your name? I don’t know what I’d change it to, so no.

129. What your zodiac sign? Libra

130. Do you like subway? Yeah

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? If I like them back, then try to make a relationship work out I guess. If not, I try my best to let them down gently and comfort them if possible.

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? I think this was answered before as well, but friend mentioned in #8.

133. Favourite lyrics right now? The entirety of Here Comes A Thought.

134. Can you count to one million? Yeah? I’m not sure what this question is supposed to mean.

135. Dumbest lie you ever told? “Yeah, I’ve done my homework *has homework on computer screen*”

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? Closed. Open feels too insecure.

137. How tall are you? 5′ 7″

138. Curly or Straight hair? Straight

139. Brunette or Blonde? Brunette(?) I don’t know what this is asking, but I find dark hair attractive.

140. Summer or Winter? Winterrrrrr. No bugs and no sunburn.

141. Night or Day? Night, it makes it feel like emotions are heightened.

142. Favourite month? Never thought about this, but I guess February.

143. Are you a vegetarian? Nah, I like chicken too much.

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? Milk chocolate. Dark chocolate is too rich and makes my stomach hurt. White chocolate has a flavor that I think does best at complimenting other things, like fruit. Individually I like milk best because it’s flavorful, but not too rich.

145. Tea or Coffee? Coffee, but only if it has a lot of sweetness mixed with the bitterness.

146. Was today a good day? Today has barely started, but it seems like it’ll be a decent day.

147. Mars or Snickers? Snickers

148. What’s your favourite quote? "My vibe is like, hey you could probably pour soup in my lap and I'll apologize to you." -- John Mulaney

149. Do you believe in ghosts? No? Idk, I don’t think about that stuff.

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? “The recommended dietary intake of potassium ranges from 500 mg to 700 mg per day for infants between 6 and 12 months.”

[sevxra]

22 Question Tag !!

tagged by @solstxces 

1. nickname — severa, sev

2. birthday — august 5th

3. zodiac — leo

4. height — ~5′2″ / ~157cm. (a smidge shorter than that)

5. location — united states

6. occupation — a frustrated university student

7. hot or cold? — hot, because warm weather is pleasing. I hate the cold.

8. last thing you googled — err, I literally googled an inches to cm conversion for a previous question lol

9. song stuck in my head — yubikiri genman

10. recommended movie — coraline, watch it before bed ;)

11. amount of sleep — it depends. either I get a good 8+ hours or I live off 6 because I can’t sleep

12. lucky number — /shrug emoji/

13. favorite song — don’t have one.

14. favorite instrument — I always feel that cocktail part effect when people bring up violins; maybe because I used to play it

15. aesthetic — idk, people associate me with the color red and a bunch of angsty ideas, so do with that as you will

16. favorite author — I haven’t read a book in forever, can’t say; there are book series I wished I could finish such as “The Name of this Book is Secret” and the final(?) book of “The Program” series (romance f*cked it up though). I only had one book to go for each of these. But like, there was this book I read in high school that’s almost imprinted on my brain because the plot was so weird. It was about these two girls (one an*rexic and one bi*nge eater) who get sent to this conversion camp type thing to get their dis*rdered e*ting “corrected” and they worked together to bust out of this place. Oh right, it’s called “Thinner than Thou”. It’s f*cking weird. Umm, but I also love Lemony Snicket’s “A Series of Unfortunate Events” simply because of how depressing it was and the writing style (a similar writing style iirc is also used in “The Name of this Book is Secret” hence why I recall it at all despite remembering nothing about the plot and once scene about the main girl calling the main guy over the phone and using morse code via the way the phone rang).

17. things you are doing right now — procrastinating on writing 5 page paper due in two days. I only have a semblance of an intro written and I have 0 clue what I’m doing since the point of the paper makes no sense to me. Also, bc I can’t figure out how to incorporate these sources into it either.

18. fandoms that have peaked your interest — fe:fates and fe: awakening has slowly been creeping back into my mind, but I’ve always been into them. As for new fandoms... nothing. I don’t involve myself in fandom.

19. how has pandemic been treating you — professors are constantly giving me weekend exams and hw over break periods to the point i want to swear in their faces for being inconsiderate (one professor didn’t even let me make up a quiz I couldn’t take bc of a f*king power outage I couldn’t control)

20. one fact others don’t know about you — /shrugs/ 

21. what is your favorite dere type — I love writing tsunderes 

22. rate your life from 1-10 (worst-10) — my life is more depressing than it sounds overall, so i give it a 6.

tagging: take it from me

[stolenfootprints]

Hi lovely 🌻 I'm going to be a junior and I've followed your blog since I was a freshman and I see how good you are at your studies Do you have any back to school tips?

haha honestly i feel like the main reason i am such a good student is because i have pretty bad anxiety and know this so i don’t let myself procrastinate or i will stress out and break down. Like not turning something in on time and doing it will gives me a lot of stress. 

That aside, some other tips (idk if you are in college or high school so if some of these relate only to college and you’re not then just ignore them or save them for if you do go):

USE YOUR PLANNER. like i seriously can’t stress this enough. I take mine with me to every class, meeting, study sesh etc and i write down everything. never assume you will remember to write something down later, keep it neat and organized!!!

Go to office hours, write all your teachers office hours down in your planner somewhere or save them to your phone and do not hesitate to go to them. Not only are teachers normally much more helpful during office hours but it also kind of gives you a leg up in the class because you are showing your teacher that you care and put in the time and work outside of class to. If you are in high school this can also translate to not feeling scared to talk to teachers outside of class and ask for help!

Make lists, write the tiny things down to (feels good to check things off and will make you feel more productive aka less stress)

Study breaks!!!!!! I personally do not study well in the library because it is too distractionless(?) and then i get stressed (lol see a theme here?) if i am studying or doing homework for a long period of time i focus and work hard for a certain amount of time (depends on the day) and then i will get up and walk around the block, or walk downtown for coffee, or do some yoga etc and then i am able to come back to my work with a clear head and continue working instead of getting too stressed/burnt out and quitting

Find a place that you work well where you can go when you have a lot. This might be the library, or a cute cafe downtown, or the park etc. for me it in a little cafe/bakery and i will go get some soup and tea and i can work for a while there. I tend to work in my room normally but then if i can’t focus there or have a lot to do i will go to my fav cafe and it helps me a lot!

Outlines are everything when it comes to a paper. Step one for me is to always just get something down on the work document and just start typing ideas or fact or topics i want to go over or whatever it is down and then working that into a paper

I have never had much of an issue with procrastination but during times that i do i will break the assignment into different parts and give myself a due date for each (say i have a paper due in a week, on monday in my planner i write that my sources are due, tuesday i do research, wed i do an outline etc etc) it makes it seem less huge and therefore easier to complete

Take care of yourself (especially during finals week and times like that) Your brain and body are not going to function well if you don’t give yourself sleep, water, healthy food, and breaks!!! Sometimes it is better to quit something a little early so you can get some rest or go make yourself a good healthy meal

Reward systems, if i really don’t feel like getting things done but i have things to do i will tell myself if i get something done i can go get a cookie downtown with my coffee later

Hopefully some of this is helpful to you!! Good luck babe!

[perfectionistincrisis]

Day 90  (Life these days in general..Part 1)

Wow 90! So i don’t usually count every day and all. Usually count the days all over again when I sit to post. I felt like blogging today! nothing about the specific day but just life in general. me blabbering :) 

hmph so lets see what do i have to say.

Okay so um. well ever since Ramadan was over i never really got back to sleeping at night and all, usually stay up till fajr. i did sleep though for like um around 3 nights but anyways that didnt work out. now this went further to me staying up even after fajr um not willingly though but mostly cause i couldnt sleep. like i used to try but i couldnt. and then it was cause i used to work out after fajr. well then i kind of was able to fall asleep after fajr so yeah i mostly stay up till fajr but um till i ‘pray’ fajr i mean and after praying tahajjud i get really lazy and pray fajr a bit late. just a bit. Oh my gosh! i talk so much... all i wanted to say was i go to sleep after praying fajr nowadays Ughhh the end! but today i have to - i repeat - HAVE TO - stay up. its not an option but more like an obligation cause i didnt work out today but i have to or else that “roughly” losing 1 kg per week thing is going to get screwed! 

So yeah you can see. i am SO lazy. that even if i HAVE TO do something, i will delay it till the last moment - a perfect procrastinator :) 

Oh also today was so ()*$&Q%(&%)(*@()$)W($. I had an appointment in the morning so had to get up, turns out i have some mild UTI ._. but the doctor doesnt think that is the reason why my labs say bacterial infection. so now i have to see a hematologist. like UGH i really am sick and tired of going to docs -_- 

Oh what else about my days. Oh ya! So Idk I get really scared when i think of studies. Its kinda like i feel really useless and worthless. like i dont know anything, i dont remember anything and all that. SO theres this fear and for that i decided to revise everything this summer and well also i need to start doing it anyways cause of the international exams ill be having to give. Ill talk about those in another post some other time when its relevant but for now. its just that. im so worried ill be in a mess when uni starts, cause i dont remember anything i learned in med school. plus feeling low because of it and all. Like i really need to build up a LOT & LOT of confidence and the only way i can is by actually knowing my shit & that is by spending some time studying and all. it would really help me a lot - and by help i dont mean ‘help academically by nailing it when uni starts’ but i mean “mentally”; to boost my confidence and all and since its all in the hospital now, i really need to be confident and have a strong personality and believe in myself and all or else im dooomed. 

ok so yes i try to spend time studying. that makes working out and studying my priorities. working out is something i can not do overnight and that is why im kind of doing it better than the studying. Although im very very lazy about working out too though. What drives me to try my best doing both of these is that if i dont, it will eat me up! make me depressed and feel low and i dont want to knowingly do damage to myself considering the weekly mood swings and episodes of extreme darkness i experience anyways and its out of my hands to control that. 

so yessss, i work out and whenever i do, i make sure its THREE hours. like i said earlier, i prioritise time more than the speed of the treadmill but i try to increase it though a little but not much cause i always keep thinking of last summer when i got diagnose by rheumatoid after i used to do 4.5 hours of treadmill a day at a quite moderate speed, not so low. 

also i dont workout everyday duh, i try my best to do at least 3 days per week, 3 hours each day. and the other times, i study. i use ‘first aid for usmle 2017′ as the main source and ‘pathoma’. and yeah dr google :) 

Other than that, i go outside for shopping. i mean the past month weve been going for shopping a lot, sometimes even 2 or even 3 malls a day cause my brothers going to leave soon and theres so much to buy and all. well now almost have everything pretty much. so i dont go outside every single day since last week but before that id go every single day.

other times i spend with my mom, i mean shes working like 24 7 gosh so like i stand next to her or sit and stuff and just idk do nothing or talk sometimes, and laugh and blabla. 

oh i kind of like staying away from my phone. its peaceful. i mean not like i even so anything on my phone other than go through like 4 social media apps - insta, snapchat, tumblr and twitter. just randomly scroll scroll scroll switch app and repeat scrolling xD but then like when youre literally away from the phone, it feels good :) although idk whenever i sit to study i automatically take the phone, i mean scrolling through apps doing nothing is actually WAY more interesting than even attempting to read a line from the book ._. so i kind of need to turn off my phone sometimes, but mostly i end up scrolling :) :) :) :) 

Aha so thats pretty much what i do entire day. lol ? What is it that i do ? :3 nothing ik :) 

i am not currently really interested in watching any series all day. i only watch series while im on the treadmill! 

GOD I talk so much, i still have so much to write about but i gta go now! :) 

xox

[b-icetea]

tagged by the most awesome @octobig! i don’t think i’ve ever been asked to do something like this so kudos to you :D

Rules: Tag 10 people you would like to get to know better.

Favorite place: uhmm ... my bed, probably? ideally with my laptop, some music, and cats in it. aside from that probably the grand canyon tbh. I’ve never been such in awe of a place before than when I first visited that one

Relationship status: in a relationship with the bestest, most nice man in the whole entire world. I didn’t think that such a genuinely good person existed irl and am glad to have been proved wrong <3 

Favorite color: i really love red, if i can, i buy every small thing (laptop bag, yoga mat, scarf) in that color. I also really like this dusky kind of pink that’s around? and mustard yellow. god, all three together would make for a really terrific outfit, hot damn

Pets: three cats called Flecky (bf’s cat, he has zero imagination, a calico), Remus (after the coolest DADA teacher, a ragdoll), and Dreamy (also came prenamed, I mainly call him Bohne, though, a maine coon, very fluffy)

Last song I listened to: Nancy Mulligan by Ed Sheeran

Favorite TV show: uhhhhm. okay, a toughie ;) Doctor Who, Brooklyn 99, SKAM (omg I didn’t think it was gonna be this engaging), Sense8, Stranger Things, Star Trek (DS9, Voyager, Enterprise), Grey’s Anatomy (yes, I’m still hanging in there), Parenthood, I guess I just really like weird shows where people are talking fast and arguing a lot? idk what to tell you

First fandom: Harry Potter :) first thing I was obsessed about, first fic I ever read, first fic I ever wrote, might not be quite as into it as I used to be but I’ll never forget all the time I put into that fandom <3

Hobbies: reading, watching shows, recently writing again (yay), gaming, trying not to freak out over my general failure at life (I tend to procrastinate so much I don’t do stuff until it’s almost too late, sometimes resulting in panic attacks that could have been prevented if I just had done the stuff during the copious amounts of time I had to do it ...)

Books that I’m currently reading: I’m in the process of rereading Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell and Little Women by Louisa May Alcott because I wrote my master thesis on these books and can’t find the sources for several plot points I included so yay me for that ...

Favorite book: Wow, that is also super hard, uhm. Okay I’ll try to limit myself to a few: 1) Harry Potter 1-7  by J.K.Rowling, simply because they were with me while growing up and I loved all of them to bits, 2) all books by Rainbow Rowell, she seriously is an awesome writer that writes such relatable prose and makes me laugh and cry whenever I read something of hers, 3) The Disreputable History of Frankie Landau-Banks by E.L. Lockhart, because it made me laugh and because it was really, really clever and I have been thinking about it a lot since I read it; actually also her book We Were Liars, which was so weird and good, 4) All the Percy Jackson, Magnus Chase, Heroes of Olympus, and Apollo’s Trials books by Rick Riordan, because you have to love him for his wit and genius when it comes to making mythology approachable to kids, 5) also Beth Revis’ Across the Universe series because I just loved the world building and there is not enough good Sci-Fi out there if you ask me, OKAY I ONLY HAVE FAVORITE AUTHORS NOT BOOKS LEAVE ME ALONE

Worst thing you’ve ever eaten/tasted: when I was studying abroad in Manchester some Asian exchange students were celebrating the mid-autumn festival and offered me something I think was called moon cake? It had a hard boiled egg in it and was kind of oily? in any case I really wished I could spit it out but forced it down somehow

Okay, I don’t think I can come up with ten people but I’ll try. This was fun my dudes, so maybe, if you want to participate too, you could? <3 

@slagginbitch, @curvycurlygirly, @fistelie, @ravenmare222, and @pikuna

[words-writ-in-starlight]

Quick question. How does one actually make a resume? I need to get another job and no one in my family is being helpful about it even though it will be our main source of income and I havent technically had to build a resume since 2015 and I am freaking out a little bit.

Okay…not gonna lie my dude, my resume is pretty thin on the ground (I’m in college), but LET’S SEE WHAT WE’VE GOT.  (Also I am procrastinating my thesis which is VERY MUCH DUE IN TWO MONTHS, so take my life advice with, like, a fistful of salt.)

First, take a couple deep breaths.  Everyone has to learn how to do the resume thing.  You’re not alone in feeling out of your depth, I’m on a campus of 400 right now and every single person agrees with you.

So, okay, the main point of a resume is to sell yourself.  The most important thing here is that you probably have to balance truth with…generous exaggeration.  Obviously don’t claim you can do something you don’t know how to do, because that’ll bite you in the ass.  But hey, do you make photosets or gifsets for Tumblr?  You are a Photo Editor, slap that shit on your Skills section.  This post talks some more about how millennials and people who’ve grown up in the Internet Age have the edge on that.  Make sure to lean on your ability to learn new skills–I am an Excel expert not so much because I took a class on Excel, but because over the summer I attended a research fellowship where everyone sucked at Excel.  So I Googled a motherfucker and now I’m real good at Excel and teaching my biochem teacher how to do a double-reciprocal plot.  If you don’t know how to do something now, you can definitely learn–pitch that.  This post has some more stuff about learning to sell yourself.  Master the elevator pitch for why you yourself are great for the job.  If you’re like me, you’ll probably have to tell your anxiety and self-esteem issues to suck a dick every five minutes, BUT DO IT ANYWAY.  You are great.  Your resume is intended to inform the rest of the world of this incontrovertible truth.

NOW.  The resume itself.  Some basics of the resume structure include:

Cover letter (this is your opening pitch–make it good, especially since an employer might have hundreds of resumes on their desk)  (this is the WikiHow page, which has some good examples for format)

Resume body (this can be chronological, meaning listed by date, which is more traditional and will appeal more to older readers, functional, meaning listed by task, which is more practical for someone who’s either been out of work or who’s changing careers, or combination, which is pretty much what it says on the tin)

Experience/Skills (THIS IS YOUR TIME TO SHINE, USE THOSE TWO POSTS UP THERE AND ALSO THIS ONE, INCLUDE PROFESSIONAL SKILLS AND ALSO INTERPERSONAL SKILLS)  (YOU’RE GREAT–REMIND THEM)

Activities (YES THIS INCLUDES EXTRACURRICULARS) (THIS CAN EVEN INCLUDE D&D)

Education (include the where and when, also your GPA might help if you did really well)

Awards, if applicable (I myself do not have anything whatsoever to put here, but if you do, props, do it)

Personal Interests (look dude, if they’ve gotten this far, they want to know if they could tolerate working with you–this is your opportunity to convince them)

This is a good walkthrough on formats for all those various sections.

Iiiii think that’s what I’ve got, pretty much.  IDK man resume-writing is the literal worst and I feel for you, BUT I HOPE THIS HELPED.