#but also I'm just a hopeless procrastinator

[erraticprocrastinator]

I really need to write. I really want to write. I just need the motivation to start and stay on track. Please help.

[mariii1]

( ʃƪ˘ﻬ˘)(˘ ε˘ʃƪ) What's your sexuality (like)? 18+ (´ε｀ )♡

..........sooo i need to get out of the pattern of making time based promises, I've lied every damn time 😭😭 We'll see when the next pac will come out since im probably gonna do a lot more choices. Let me know if this resonated!

1. There might be something taboo you're holding back. You might not have delved a lot into your sexuality which isn't inherently bad but there might be a specific part you feel ashamed about. For some you this is about a fetish or your orientation for others its just shame that comes from purity culture/r@pe culture. To get rid of this is different for most, for a lot of you time and gaining more experience in life in general will help you feel more comfotable and for others you may need to take a more active role in getting rid of your conditioning. Y'all might be like me where your into our want to get into fetishgear like latex and maybe want to learn bondage but you may feel isolated in who to talk to and where to go. Getting past these anxious thoughts and actually doing your research is what's gonna help you, you might be procrastinating on this because of your own internal conflict.

2. Lord have mercy...You DO NOT want a romantic relationship or a family 😭😭 its coming through stroonnggly. I think some of y'all could be aro and don't know it. People might've told you you're cold hearted or weird for not wanting to date. For some this is toxic because you don't communicate that you don't want romance to people, which ya needa start if you don't. Yeah some of you in this group might have problems being honest either with yourself or other people. There may be pressure to fit in when there's no real harm if you don't, in this case at least. A lot of you don't believe in traditional relationships or just have no desire for romance. A lot of you are planning to be childless when you're older and if you're thinking about getting sterilized, it might be something to start thinking about seriously.

3. Oooohhh someone KNOWS fr what they want. You have this huge boundary and expectations of what you want and this couod for anything: hooking up, sex with a partner, casual dating, etc. Because of this though you might not have been in a relationship for a very long time. You're very headstrong about this and want a fair and equal relationship. I'm specifically getting a lot of femmes in this pile who are fed up with cis men. I don't have any other comments for you, you seem set in this mindset and if its working for you, great! 👍🏽

4. Me 😜 JK tbh i might be your type for some of y'all the same way I think Che Guevara is finee😩 I'm also getting hopeless romantic from this pile but ive never seen that stereotype as something positive and I feel like in this case you guys pine after people a lot but don't try to make any moves. I feel like you could have multiple crushes currently ir multiple ppl u got ur eye on but you haven't even said hi or anything to them yet. As a fellow introvert and someone who's just starting to try to make friends I get it, but it's time to get out of this mindset and just make the first move even if ppl don't like you or they don't turn out as great as you thought.

Rainbow divider @enchanthings

[anaid-queen]

ok so

there's a million things to talk about in Blitzo's calendar

like the fact that he's still taking riding lessons ?? (i mean good for him!), his use of emojis, his drawing style (that isn't even just one style but, i suspect, just him trying his best at any point and that's it, we all should aspire to that tbh), him trying (failing?) to have specific "fuck days", who wrote (and/or who crossed out ?) "I ❤ Moxxie" on the right because that seems sus in every way, that tree (??), and of course, his dedication to having The Talk with Loona (by which i mean he procrastinated it for more than a week which is insanely relatable)

[i'd also talk about his full moon drawing but i'm already planning another post that will touch upon that so i'm leaving it out here]

but there is one thing in particular i am very curious about

and that is that "horse" (i assume it's supposed to be one bc 90% of all that he draws are dicks or horses (add guns and you'd have Blitzo in a nutshell but i digress)) in the bottom left corner

like....... is that supposed to be Stolas????

i mean. long neck? check. top hat? check. creepy mouth beak mouth? check. stars above him?? check.

like. like. fellas is it gay romantic hopeless casually transactional to draw your transactional fuckbuddy as something that's (to you) sacred / godly / perfect in every way??? like hello -

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Meet the Heads:

Anusurjya Borah

A third-year Psychology Hons. student who’s a hopeless romantic and whose love of life is words, this author’s sole ambition in life is to own a cottage in the mountains and have a black cat named Salem.

However, forced to be in this grind for success in life, she finds escape through dance and the culinary arts, and the worlds of Holly Black, Benjamin Sáenz, Madeline Miller, anime, and Asian drama series. In moments when she needs a reconnect to the world she inhabits in real life, the works of Murakami, Vuong, and Hosseini are what ground her back in.

A perfectionist and a procrastinator, the only thing that truly drives her at all times, anytime, is the desire to live to the fullest. Perhaps that is why the words that have been a constant in her life are: To Be, or Not To Be? That is the question after all.

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Shifa Neyaz

Hi!! I am Shifa, a second year English Honours student. I am one of those people who has tried every hobby in the world, but through the years only some have stayed with me, those being reading, writing, crochet and fitness.

Writing is and has been one of the biggest parts of my life and I believe that it has had a big hand in shaping me into the person that I am today. It has been my support system, creative and emotional outlet and my escape from reality all at the same time.

What got me into writing in the first place was reading. I once randomly bought a dork diaries book in 6th grade and have never turned back since. From Fantasy writers like Cassandra Clare and Holly Black, Romance writers like Lynn Painter and Emily Henry to all-time-favourites like Jane Austen and Charlotte Brönte, I have read and loved every one of these writers' works.

Enough about my hobbies (hehe), if I were to describe myself in a few words, I'd say I am the loudest person in the room, I am the biggest cat-lover, I have a smile for everybody and I absolutely love watching and reading anything and everything that comes under the category of Rom-coms.

I'm so excited to be a part of Expressions and can't wait for everything that's to come!!

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Attrija

Helllooooo! I am a second year Political Science student. I am a cat mum and I love reading classical and feminist literature. I love the book The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath and I think about the fig tree analogy almost everyday! I mainly write confessional poems and I discovered my love for writing serendipitously. Writing is an inseparable part of my life. I mainly write in order to feel truly free. I love exploring and experimenting with different genres and writing styles. I have read and thoroughly enjoyed Camus, Dostoyevsky, Brontë, Austen, Fitzgerald, Dickens, Wilde, Woolf, Tolstoy and Kafka. I also love watching romcoms and F1 in my free time. You can find me talking in the reference library of lsr with my classmates about feminism, absurdism, art and politics in general. I can never leave my room without a book in my bag, it just feels incomplete!

I love expressions to the very core and I am so grateful to be a part of this beautiful society <333

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[mygeekcorner]

Fine I'll give you some more book asks since you acted all pathetic and reblogged it again and begged for more: 18, 25, 30, 42, 43, 50, 51, 55, 61, 67, 68, 80, 86, 99, 100, 102 (lol), 104, 117, 118, 124. Also you must answer them all in one sitting (no drafting) otherwise the curse of the procrastinating tumblrina will fall upon you

Hahahaha omg yes, brilliant, love it, love you

18 your least favorite book ever

I mean there have been a fair few bad choices I've picked up along the way. But that I actually finished?

I really do think it might have been Twilight. Granted I did go in expecting to hate it, but it still managed to be blander and worse than I thought it had any right to be for a series with such devoted following.

25 a book by your favourite author

I said this in another answer but I don't really have favourite authors like that anymore. There are many good authours out there and I will read a series or two but I don't go looking for their names like I used to. But so far I guess Erin Morgenstern is a 2 for 2 author with very beautiful prose in both The Night Circus and The Starless Sea

30 your favourite middle grade book

So I've already talked about Narnia, HP, and my love for Eva Ibbotson but that was pretty much what I read back then. So I'll just mention Which Witch? by Eva Ibbotson as well. I don't remember many details from it, but I do remember that I laughed my way through it, which is never a bad thing.

42 a book that made you want to scream by the time you got to the end

I remember A Storm of Swords by George RR Martin made me call you and scream at your answering machine lol

It was bad enough that the Red Wedding happened, but then right after we've seen the massacre the next chapter is from Aryas point of view again and it's her and Sandor reaching Riverrun and she is So Close to being with her family again, to being safe. But he is mean and harsh and won't let her run off and if I remember correctly he takes out his fucking axe and hits her in the head with it. And that's how the chapter ends???

I mean obviosuly he hit her with the blunt side and only enough to knock her out, but we have Just Seen how you can't trust anyone, and then she's with this big mean killing machine who she doesn't get along with, and he hits her with an axe??? Fuck man! Rude-ass bitch is what Martin is. But what else is new, you know?

43 a book that you have read more than three times

Harry Potter. And yes, I am well aware about how much we're all hating on Rowling now, please don't misunderstand me. But I had read the first 3 books over 30 times before the series finished. I used to re-read them about once a year. There is not a single book that even comes close to the amount of times I've read them. No, not even Narnia.

50 a book that made you cry a LOT

The Glass Lake by Maeve Binchy fucking wrecked me when I read it in high school. Like it is off to a pretty grim start with a mother leaving her family and them thinking she killed herself as is, but then it gets even More emotional. I remember this one chapter that just left me sitting there shellshocked for the better part of an hour, those of you who have read it will know when.

51 a book that you found underwhelming

Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen. I know! I'm sorry! I love the movie and bbc miniseries as much as the next hopeless romantic but the book just kind of... didn't live up to it? Reading it you can kind of tell that it is her first novel and certain things are a bit rushed and clumsy. I still enjoyed it, but I was expecting to love it, you know?

55 a book with a satisfying ending

Chronicles of Narnia: The Last Battle. Them dying just felt right to me. Not that I wanted them to die-die of course, but the way that it happens? Yes. It all came full circle and I always found a certain comfort in the way he let them die and stay dead (to our world).

None of this rising from the dead bullshit. Just tell a good story and wrap it up like a neat little bodybag. Only cowards let protagonists rise from the dead. Looking at you JK, yes even when I first read the book.

61 your favourite horror novel

Ok so reminiscing on books I read as a kid has me thinking, one of the books that really had me Scared for real when reading was probably The Witches by Roald Dahl. And like yes, I know, it's a childrens book. But it's a Scary childrens book. And I was a Child. I just remember the horror as he found out he was stuck in a hotel infested with child-eating witches *shudder*

67 your favourite historical fiction novel

Rhett Butler's People by Donald McCaig, I really enjoyed Gone With The Wind, but this published fanfic/spinoff/prequel to that is just so good. It made me care for the characters in a whole new light all over again. And he always was my favourite out of all the original cast so it was nice to have some more ideas about what he had done before Scarlet threw that first vase at him.

68 your favourite piece of classic literature

Can I say Shakespeare here or did it have to be written as books-books? I'm deciding books-books is the premise so I guess I'm putting down Jane Eyre by Charlotte Brontë. I don't like the ending, but after the book mentioned in #86 a bit further down it is better now. And I think it's the classic I've come back to the most so...

80 a book that reminds you of a loved one

The Demon's Lexicon by Sarah Rees Brennan that @hobbitsus lent me in high school was just a blast to read and I remember it fondly. And the whole story is just so very Her from when we were growing up which adds to the love.

86 a book with an insane plot twist

The Eyre Affair by Jasper Fforde. Yes again with me bringing in published fanfic of classic works but the whole premise is so good! There are people who can jump into books? There is someone who manages to jump into an original manuscript, thus changing all the copies of the book? There are detectives working on putting the original Jeyen Eyre back into order when this happens to her? And that is the reason the book ends the way it does??? Amazing.

I never quite liked the ending in Jane Eyre, there is this bit that just seems to come out of nowhere to me. In this book? It's because Detective Thursday was there doing whatever she wanted. This fanfic makes the original work better. But the way it twists to do so? 11/10

99 a book with a strong female protagonist

The Deed of Paksenarrion by Elizabeth Moon gives us all that Girl power Asexuality Forge your own path representation and I am here for it. Does the last book feel like the same series as the first book? Not even slightly. But the books are still a fun ride and I recommend anyone wanting to read about a farmer's daughter running away to join the army and then being actually good at her job give it a try.

100 your favourite gothic novel

ok so in like my mind Gothic should be Old. Old as balls. But I will also admit to Wanting to read books that old more than I Actually read them. So I will be cringe enough to just go with Interview With The Vampire by Anne Rice cause that's the book I loved in high school and the internet lets me classify it as goth even if it doesn't feel right

102 your favourite dark academia read

What even counts as Dark Academia though??? I feel like it should be an ancient and heavy-ass tome but most things I read are quite modern? Can I say The Mists of Avalon by Marion Zimmer Bradley? Like the book took up a good part of my backpack when I read it in school, that should count for something right?

I liked the way it spanned three generations' worth of stories and all the mysticism going on. It was my first Arthurian fiction as well which felt very Big and Impressive at the time.

104 a fluffy, sweet read

A Hundred Pieces Of Me by Lucy Dillon was a really comforting and nice read that I liked way more than I thought I would when it comes to chick lit. I think of that book whenever I try to pick out a vase now lol

117 your favourite anthology

So do we count fairy tales here or no? Cause I kind of want to say Bland Tomtar Och Troll which is that swedish collection of childrens stories that had the most exquisite art in it and I was especially obsessed with the story about the mermaid Akmea who saved the beautiful sailor, or the one with the kindly white lion who showed up in someones yard.

Sidenote: I went through these old books to find the pictures since google was no help and one has an inscription wishing me a happy 4th birthday, and one has me trying to write my name and it is the most stiltedly awkward penmanship ever and my gosh that's the cutest thing 🥺

118 your favourite short story collection

Hoo.. I don't read a lot of those but when I was in high school they would give out little paperbacks called "Färdlektyr" with assorted short stories and poems and I always looked forward to that semester's edition, does that count?

124 the book you’re currently reading

I started on The Forest Of Stars by Heather Kassner a while back, and realised that the first 5 chapters do not live up to my hopes and so have not read anything since I had to put it down at the end of a lunch break OTL

These were a lot to do in one sitting! I did take a short break for dinner, but otherwise I did do it all in one go, please be happy? :*

[amoonytalks]

0.2 - trying to start a conversation about love and failing miserably

It's 3 o'clock (afternoon) as I write this. I have been procrastinating for days now to start putting this post together, even though I have some bits of it well established in my head and the only thing left to do is to actually sit down and write it. Its a mix of procrastination and not at the same time, but I think the context in general is useless here. What matters is that I'm writing now, if it really matters, if someone is really going to take the time to read a random girl complain about love.

Love. Its probably one of or my favorite subject in the world. I cant explain it, but I have always been fascinated by all the issues surrounding love. We tend to be dazzled by what is unknown. Not that love is actually unknown to me. In my depressed daydreams, I sometimes thought that I didnt deserve love, but nowadays I recognize that I have been and continue to be surrounded by it. Love is in the little things. We have a habit of trying to define simple things in ways that are mostly unnecessary, and love is one of those things that, despite being everyday and natural, trying to put a definitive concept on what love is seems offensive, because love can be many things. If I were to ask a group of different people what love is, we could analyze how each person tends to have a unique vision for various reasons. That is what fascinates me. Love is something Im so curious about that I can hardly help the excitement I feel when I'm asked to talk about it, and I even end up stumbling over words trying to put something together that makes sense to others.

On this blog, we'll still be talking a lot about love, in all its forms and colors. You can be sure of that. But the kind of love I want to talk about today is romantic love. I'd also like to make it clear that if you came to this post expecting an in-depth, scientific analysis of love, sorry, but you can leave. This blog is more about the daydreams I have when the night turns into dawn and baseless philosophical theories. It's more about me than anything else. But I still talk because I believe that somewhere in the universe you would read this and identify with it, or at least welcome it. I have a lot to say and little to add, perhaps.

Im 16. Im still a teenager, going through moments that are probably less stressful than the hormonal upheaval that a 13-year-old goes through, but which are still a bit complex. Nowadays I have a group of friends who make my school career less hopeless than it could be, and honestly, even though I'm not the friendliest person in the universe, I feel comfortable with them. Not as comfortable as they probably feel with each other, given the variety and ease with which they deal with certain subjects, but there is still a sense of comfort, I guess. Anyway, whether you are 16 or not, it's not hard to imagine that there's an incessant search by people in this age group for love. My psychologist says that all our feelings are much more intense at this stage, and love is not so different. Passion, fever, everything is much more intense now than for people who have lived longer.

But its just that in this part of life there we have a false feeling that we had experienced every possible emotional level, but love can be seen very new, because you will rarely truly experience it at a young age. As we grow up, our feelings become more complex, but in contrast, we become more & more mature in dealing with them. But, this is in theory. In practice, we are still the same star mass we were when we born, just with more experiences. But experiences dont always form maturity in certain people. Look, its easy just analyze the amount of ignorant and immature beings we find out there, on the streets, on television and even in positions of supposed power (yes, elon musk. I'm talking about you. you're like a cry baby. or as clarice lispector would say: you're like a hair in the soup). This ignorance is projected into various scenarios, affecting the world in a certain way.

Well, we are still talking about love. We all know that immature people end up hurting people, and you probably know (or you are the person) who has already had a major disappointment in love. They say that breaking a heart in love is one of the most painful feelings in the world, just like losing a piece of yourself. That sounds crazy to me. Dont get me wrong, if you are that person with a broken heart, I would never take away the value of your feeling. Its not crazy that you feel bad about having your heart broken, what I find crazy is the fact that someone, in their merely human and mortal existence like you, can hurt something as precious as a heart. If I were to elaborate further, I would add that my perception of romantic love in certain scenarios is closer to pain than to a positive feeling. Im not going to go into depth, at least not in this post. But if you are wondering why my view is supposedly pessimistic (it's not), know that I say this without ever (fortunately) having experienced disappointment. But if you're the person who had your heart broken and found my speech unfortunate, if it makes you feel a little better, know that I've never experienced romantic love. In any way.

It was because of this that I had the idea to start writing this post while doing the dishes. Its not something unknown or that I suddenly discovered, but it still left me in a state of shock for a few seconds. I'm pretty sure that I'm still very young and that love will still come, but it was a strange shock to realize that among all my friends and acquaintances at my age, Ive been lucky (or unlucky) enough never to have been graced by romantic love. On the other hand, whenever people ask me if I ever liked someone, I say yes. But the reality is that I havent really feeling the feeling of what love is suposed to look like. I have come very close to it, so close that remembering the feeling causes me distress. Because it was painful, like I have already say (but I have that pessimistic view of love even before that). It was like having my pharyngeal pathway blocked by thorns. This whole thing about love not hurting is a lie. Love hurts, just like all other feelings. Even joy can be painful, because while you're feeling it you know that it's going to end and one day your happy moments will just become memories. That could be considered pessimism, but I see it as a way of facing reality.

I believe that never having felt love is also a bit of a misnomer. Everything I know about romantic love comes from stories. And trust me, I have heard a lot of them. As I said at the beginning of the text, Im completely obsessed with this subject, and I think part of this interest started when I saw people talking about it so much. Im curious by nature, but for as long as I can remember I've had people around me treating me like some kind of therapist, what creates a feeling that they can be free to tell me their most secret confessions. Also, It must be because Ive always been an extremely considerate girl towards others, in the sense that Ive always been very fond of being silent and consequently thinking too much, what creates in me a feeling of empathy. The more you think, the more you acquire the ability to be a good analyst. Analytical people give good advice, apparently. I leave that as a tip to make life easier. The more you analyze, the more you know, the more you know, the easier it is to deal with the world. But knowledge, like love, can be very relative.

“The more I knew, the more I wanted to know. He had mad appetites that grew more eager as he fed them” - the portrait of dorian gray (book good as hell)

It's already 6pm. I had more to say, but this text has tired me out. Ivee realized that I go round in circles for too long and in the end I dont even know what Im getting at. I think its because this is still my first post, so unfortunately I still feel a bit stuck… But let's get back to it, so you will have to follow me to know what my big conclusion would be.

Actually, you don't have to. There's no big conclusion. Thats exactly what love is. You start trying to fit words together to try to explain it and in the end you get nowhere. Or it would, if I wasnt so tired. Tomorrow I have a chemistry work at school to present, so I could use that as an excuse, saying that Im only going to close my computer to study. But I definitely wont. I hate chemistry and Im going to study what I need to 5 minutes before my presentation. Normally Im very involved in schoolwork, but this time Im not in the mood for several reasons. One of them is that I have lost patience with my more intimate relationships at school. The same subjects tire me out. Talking for a whole morning about love and sex has become quite exhausting… What the hell?

Love… I genuinely couldnt care less. I lie. I genuinely couldnt care more. Because talking and listening about love every day is definitely taking its toll on me. These days I've started to crave love more than anything else, because it seems so good, the new always seems either good or scary. And when it becomes scary, I feel angry, because instead of making fake scenarios like the ones I usually like to make alone in my room, love comes up like a damned curiosity and Im left trying to dismember a feeling that seems impossible to understand, and not knowing something causes me either stress or fear. I know I shouldn't be afraid of love, but just knowing doesnt make me stop feeling it.

Knowledge is relative. Love is relative. And what could be more interesting than relative things? I wish I had more time to study about love, but school drives me crazy with its unfortunate content load. Anyway! As soon as I have more time, I'm going to study love from a scientific point of view and form my own philosophy. And I will write about it. But until then I will write about other things, obviously, but in my view no other post would be cooler than one about love. Or maybe. I have several ideas.

[gillyweedgrl]

Current Tag Game

Asking me things is dangerous, you almost always get more than you bargained for, but here goes nothing...

Tagged by @thegalwhorants, sorry this is so late, I apparently had my notifications turned off 🤦‍♀️

Current Time: 12:51am and I should definitely be in bed.

Current Activity: Watching Ossan's Love HK and procrastinating going to bed.

Currently (Avoiding) Thinking About: The final episode of Venus in the Sky that I both desperately want to watch and don't want to end and the upcoming finale of Kiseki on Tuesday that I'm also dreading. I don't like endings, okay. I also have a lot of thoughts about Only Friends but there's too much of a pissing contest going on between the lovers/haters of each character/pairing (and the show overall) right now that I'm picking my battles.

Current Favourite Song: I've had Counting Stars by Gawin Caskey stuck in my head all week, I've listened to it on repeat several times. In general my current music fixation is on foreign stuff, mostly Thai and K-Pop and I have go-to playlists for both that I listen to pretty much every day at work.

Currently Watching: Venus in the Sky - Is it fantastic? No. Do I love it anyway? You bet. Am I ready for it to end? Never, I HATE endings! My Universe - Watching this bi-weekly so that I can watch each 2-episode story arc all together. The standouts for me so far have been You Are My So(ul) Mate and Lucky Love. *I'll be watching The Camp Fire tomorrow night later tonight. IFYLITA - I have so many feelings about this masterpiece and no comments. They nailed it. Even the ending, which I mustered up the courage to watch, it was beautiful and sad and hopeful, and I want season 2 right now. I'm sure others have better articulated thoughts about some of it's best points such as Bright and Nonkul's impressive performances, the beautiful cinematography and of course, the HANDS! Kiseki: Dear to Me - I came for the mafia and stayed for the cameos, I LIVE for the cameos! Both couples are great but damn are Chen Yi and Ai Di giving me major side couple syndrome. You Are Mine - Quirky and crazy and cute, loving it. I'm also watching Ossan's Love, the Hong Kong version, and am halfway through ep 7. I can't help comparing it to the original (which I just finished last week) but I'm loving it so far and have twice as many eps to look forward to.

Current Favourite Character: Right now I'm loving Siu Muk from Ossan's Love HK, he's such a sweetheart and he's pining so hard for Tin it hurts my heart. I want him to get his happy ending. My all time fave though is King from Bed Friend, hands down. That man went through the wringer for Uea and the heart eyes he makes whenever he looks at Uea make the hopeless romantic in me weak at the knees.

Current WIP: I'm shotcutting some scenes from Cutie Pie/Naughty Babe and Kixx x Kiss x Kiss, I've got a folder full of photo edits to do from an event back in June (that no one but me needs me to edit therefore I have zero motivation to do so) and I have some 30+ drafts right here I could finish and post but my brain, and the lack of seretonin at the thought of doing that, says no.

Tagging these awesome peeps, but only if you're up for it: @taikanyohou, @forcebookish, @burnsuncomet, @lutawolf

[ayoharuko]

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The most important thing that you need to know about me is that I have ADHD, in other words. Inattentive ADHD or ADD, in simple terns I have attention span, distractibility, forgetfulness, and procrastination problems.

So if I open my requests please take note that your requests will take at least 5 days or less to finish, I apologize for that.

I mostly write Fluff and Angst, but when I'm in the mood I'll write some lime or full on Smut.

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Let's all try to be respectful to each other alright? :)

~:Fandoms I currently write for:

Genshin Impact (All the guys and girls, the kids I will only write them platonically)

Yu Yu Hakusho (Team Urameshi including Koema, all the guys expect the Toguro Brothers, all the girls expect Atsuko)

Luxiem

Iluna Boys

Xoleil Boys

Shxtou

Haikyuu

My Hero Academia

Love and Deepspace

~ More will be added ~

Strictly tropes I don't write:

Incest

Abuse

♡ MasterLists ♡

Genshin Impact

Danganronpa

Haikyuu

My Hero Academia

Luxiem

Yu Yu Hakusho

Love and Deepspace

~ More will be added ~

♡ !More About Me! ♡

I have a Cat named Fuwa!

I'm a Wanderer, Xiao & Lyney Main! (I decided to take these 3 because I don't wanna choose)

I have a slight obsession with Otome Games (LnD, Obey Me, TOT, ARR, Mystic Messenger- etc)

I play lots of games besides Otome ones. (Examples being: Twisted Wonderland, Genshin Impact, Honkai Star Rail, Minecraft, TheSims- etc)

My first Anime Crushes were Yoko Kurama from YYH and Tomoe from Kamisama Kiss (Till now I have a thing for long hair or just white hair in general..)

I'm a HUGE Extrovert, I loves talking :D

I have a Twin Brother, his just as annoying as me :3

I'm a huge hopeless romantic ♡ (That causes me to get heartbreak all the time....)

I'm Filipino, so if you are too; Feel free to drop an ask in Tagalog!

Thank you for reading this far! I hope you guys will stay with me on my writhing journey :3

Make sure to also check this pinned post from time to time, because sometimes I might add a few more things.

But don't worry, I'll post a note if I've added something new :)

[silversatin2105]

uh- i feel embarrassed to ask but- can you do a match-up?? kinda interested i am straight pronounce She/Her Age: 15/16 Personality: i like taking care of kids, i can be very picky depending on the day, i like baking and cooking, i like cats, especially black munchkin cats, i draw, make bio's for my oc's, you'd see me everyday at least drawing 3 drawings full to the brim, i love plushies, i can be extremely jealous, but i don't get angry or make any outbursts, i'm very affectionate but very shy to show any, i care for my family and i'd cook with my mom, can be very childish, i like to go out and maybe do some shopping, i love LOVE playing volleyball and going tot he pool, my favorite food to make is spaghetti squid, which is just like normal spaghetti but there are slices of sausage in a form of a squid, i love to watch anime on quiet days or when i'm bored, mainly like to watch 90's anime or jut old anime's like Ohshc and HxH and sakura the cardcaptor, stuff like that, on a daily basis you'd find me listening to music, i like pop, rock and indie music, my favorite artists are laufey, beabadoobee, lyn lapid and Grentperez, and grimes, on negative days, i look in the mirror a lot and look at every flaw, but i mainly drown myself in music until i feel better, and after i start romanticizing flaws in my appearance and if i still don't like it i ask if i am pretty to be reassured, i love extreme tempurature's mainly the cold, i'm delulu and a hopeless romantic Style: i love long skirt's also because i've worn them since i was young and never worn pants nor to plan to, not due to insecurity but jsut because its uncomfortable for me-, i love oversized jackets, i like to wear puff-sleeves, really just like lady-like stuff, cottagecore. royaltycore, ligh/dark academia styles, i have straight black hair that reaches to my back, i have very faint freckles and a dot on the right side of my face next to my eye, i'm a light bold peach color on the lighter side, i'm half mexican and i like flower patterns, i LOVE LOVE sweet scents like strawberry and vanilla scent's all the sweet fruity scents, i love matching outfits that match the seasons, i love lacy socks and dresses smol traits i have or do: when i meet new poeple to stars a conversation to lighten a mood or say something funny i say "so how are your taxes going" because it'd be funny to ask it out of no where, when i like someone i'd be looking at them, or asking about they're family to get to know them and i'd be very awkward tot he point, i fi get a chance to talk i'd talk a lot and them stop and it'd be dead quiet awkward, if i see a motorcycle i'd look to the side of the bike and see which brand it is, i LOVE sports cars, i want to get one:)) i admire design, and plan to be an architecture a landscape designer and an interior designer, i love sleep over's anyone who is a true friend, i'd cherish and i'd buy gift's for them out of nowhere (got betrayed by their ex-bestfriend and is still coping since it happened the ending of the year before) gets excited when mention going camping i hope i did well, this is my first time doing this kind of thing on a personal level:)) you don't have to do this request,t hank you for your time!!

Hi

Sorry for the delayed response, I had to think on this one deeply and as a result I fell into procrastinating but anyway lets get into the match up

Your Match is

Takashi Mitsuya:

He and you share the trait taking care of children as he looks after his siblings, I could imagine you helping him make the evening meal at some points during the week

Your love of plushes would lead to him from time to time sewing you cat shaped plushes especially after seeing you bothered by something.

He would assure you that you are perfect in your own way by reminding you to stay true to yourself

Your varied clothing styles such as cottagecore, royaltlycore exc leads him into many nights of creativity as he would make sure you had custom outfits that echoed your personality, He even looked into a way of incorporating your favourite scents into the outfits IE Strawberries and the like

He may be a member of a gang and that entails owning a motorcycle so it makes him happy that you automatically knew the brand of his bike.

Your aspirations of going into design align well and I could imagine you both running a shared pinterest mood board of his clothing designs and your interior decorating designs

In summary:

I have chosen Mitsuya for you on the grounds of you both being very creative, the fact that you are family oriented plays into this paring too as I could imagine you being like a sister to his siblings, I also imagine you helping out with evening meals.

I hope this result is to your liking

Toman Inquisitorial division member Silver

Warning:

Please do not remove original tags in Re-blogs, don’t re-post anywhere else or alter the original work.

[tumblingonair]

Intro :D

Hello!!! I'm Air/Airhead but I don't really mind what I get called here since I basically crash-landed into tumblr anyways ☆ My pronouns are mostly she/her + they/them but I don't really mind any at all!

I am an artist, and I'm not necessarily talking about the shitty looking cats (very fun), although other that I do enjoy writing and I'm aiming to either get better at animation or webcomic creation I guess?

I actually have a pretty wide span of interests but I'll probably list the more prominent ones:

Roblox Flicker

School Bus Graveyard

TDLOSK/ The Disastrous Life of Saiki K

Miitopia (I lost my copy of Tomodachi life D:)

PJSK (sort of uncultured here)

I'm probably only gonna be posting fanart and such if I even remember to as well as silly cats ALSO I have a baaad habit of forgetting to be active anywhere + also just tiring myself out to the point I don't want to post so I just hope this isn't gonna be the only post of mine

I have a very vague idea on how I'm supposed to use tumblr and I also find general interactions pretty scary but I hope that doesn't interfere with anything I do here ☆

Aaaand I really should be doing something important now (Fun-ish fact: I'm a hopeless procrastinator which will probably lead to my downfall!)

So I'm gonna go for now so I hope I come back! byebye :D

oh also in my next post (if I remember) I'll post older cat drawings that were kinda on a daily basis for one week (but in like one post because I already drew them anyways) as well as other pre-drawn ones later before I move on to new ones

[bi-bats]

A J N O S for the alphabet ask game please <3

hello my beanloved!!!! that is a thing now sorry 💖💖💖 thank you for fueling my procrastination forced vacation from writing!!!

A - Ships that you currently like a lot. (They don’t have to be OTPs because not everyone has OTPs.) Friendships, pairings, threesomes, etc. are allowed.

Oh, god. DEF DamiTim, though I think we all knew that. Bart-centric stuff for sure also! Pretty much anything with him in it where he's actually a character and not just a third wheel or a vibrator. @chipmunkery is to blame for the JayBart, but I'm also a BluePulse fan (young justice tv show's fault). JayTimKon and JayTimRoy pretty much always too. Also ngl the new Fionna and Cake show is reigniting my love for Marshall Lee/Prince Bubblegum (though I haven't actually even gotten through the first episode yet).

J - Name a fandom you didn’t think about until you saw it all over Tumblr. (You don’t have to care about it or follow it; it just has to be something that Tumblr made you aware of.)

Danny Phantom. I remember the show coming out, I just didn't think there was ever an actual fandom for it, or that the fandom for it would still be around, let alone as unavoidable as it is now.

N - Name three things you wish you saw more of in your main fandom (or a fandom of choice).

More reverse robins with ships tbh

More urban fantasy aus where the bats are still bats and the fantasy is an added aspect

More Jason having done everything he did for UtRH of his own volition/uninfluenced by the pit, bc even though he regrets it now, at the time he thought he was justified.

O - Choose a song at random. Which ship or character does it remind you of?

Treehouse by Alex G! The Damian song of all time.

S - Show us an example of your personal headcanon (prompts optional but encouraged)

I fr don't feel like pulling up the panels 😂 but Dana teaching Tim how to make soup is canon! The boy can make soup!!! That's for my hc that he's not actually hopeless in front of a stove all of the time, he's just hopeless with flavor and getting things not to be over/undercooked if they're made from raw

[tortoisebore]

hey lovely i’m procrastinating and thought of this question in your version of the marauders what are their zodiac signs? (there is no wrong answer btw)

omggggg i have thoughts but they're a little vague & based on my very surface-level personal knowledge of astrology so don't take any of this seriously

((just doing my main four bc i know them best)

OBVIOUSLY sirius is a scorpio sun. i like the idea of him having a fire moon (feeling things deeply & loudly) and an air rising (bc he's so so cool and fun and interesting), so let's do scorpio sun, sag moon, libra rising (coolest & most insane big three ever i love him sm). i think he's also a hopeless romantic and loyal to a fault and once he knows he can trust someone he falls in love fast and hard, so i'm seeing a taurus venus

remus is the only man ever allowed to be a pisces sun. i think a taurus moon fits him well (warm, creature of habit, desires stability) and i'm 100% convinced his venus is in capricorn (i say as the unfortunate bearer of a capricorn venus myself). i'm sort of stuck on his rising sign though, like my first thought was virgo but then i was immediately like "a pisces man with a virgo rising??? nightmare fuel." maybe aquarius bc he's intelligent and independent but idk that also doesn't sit quite right

((these two are less detailed bc i haven't written/read them as in-depth as i have remus & sirius))

i have always thought james gives 150% aries energy. probably a cancer moon bc he has an innate desire to take care of his loved ones and a leo rising bc he's energetic & passionate & the life of the party

lily is soooooo aquarius sun virgo moon gemini rising. she's ridiculously smart and clever and attentive and curious and caring and i love her sm

[percyjacksonfan3]

Music Tag Game

Finally getting around to answering this one too, thanks @skinnyscottishbloke because I love games like this, I'm just hopeless at doing them when I get the notification. Which means they just nag at me. Like an annoying insect. Until my procrastination can't take it.

Okay, onwards with the fun part! 10 songs I've been listening to lately, in no particular order:

"Not Ready to Make Nice" by The Chicks because I was just at their concert and they were phenomenal

"Love of My Life" by Queen. Both to help with post s2 of Good Omens feels and for titles for the fic I was writing.

"Everything, Everywhere" by Noah Kahan because Stick Season is a brilliant album (honestly I could list all ten songs from there)

"Castles Crumbling" by Taylor Swift bc it's my fav vault track from Speak Now (Taylor's Version)

"Lighthouse" by Kelly Clarkson because her entire album chemistry is brilliant

"Fast Car" by Luke Combs bc it's been on the radio every time I drive to work no matter what station I'm playing

"From Eden" by Hozier. Again for Good Omens related reason.

"Proud Mary" by Tina Turner because it freaking slaps.

"Hold On" by Wilson Phillips because my best friend got married this summer and we watched Bridesmaids and I have been cranking that song ever since.

"Send Me On My Way" by Rusted Root because I rewatched Ice Age a while ago and that song also still slaps. Plus there's a commercial on TV that uses it playing rn and it's fresh in my mind again.

I'm just going to go ahead and tag @yourstrulytaaay, @bebx, @onionessence, @evaookami but then also anyone else who wants to do this <3 you have my full permission to tag me because I love seeing these

[petits--oiseaux]

Hi Dear🩷✨

This is Anon 2 - Timing reading. I'm sorry to bother you, but if you have any free time would you be able to give me an update timing reading on my love life whenever you’re free, please? 😫🥺

I paid someone for one and I got scammed. The reader never replied or refunded me money and I just feel hopeless really. I just want to know what's happening because I'm seeing everyone else winning and I'm truly happy for them, especially you🥹🩷, but I just want to know when its my time if that makes sense?

Congratulations and Happy Holidays to you and your person!!

Thank you so much for everything once again!🩷✨🩷✨💖✨🩷

Hello my love! I'm sorry I missed your ask back in July. It's FOREVER ago and I promise it wasn't purposeful <3 Also really sorry that you were scammed. That is so frustrating and sad. Hopefully I can help!

I pulled cards for a short term timeline, for a long term timeline, and for road blocks that may influence the time/progression. Photo credit goes to Biddy Tarot . I have her travel deck which I used for this pull but the cards are kinda dirty and I didn't want to take pictures of them lol Plus, I'm procrastinating so making a pretty thing was fun.

As always, life & free will can change these predictions. This is as of today's energies and higher selves.

Short Term: High Priestess reversed & Seven of Wands reversed

TL;DR: February-April

There are a couple of interpretations for actual times. In tarot, wands can indicate Spring time. The High Priestess is card number 2. The first thought I had was "second month of Spring" or April.

Then I looked to see what signs The High Priestess & Seven of Wands represent and it includes Pisces and fire signs, respectively. Pisces season starts in February (2nd month of the year) and Aries is the first fire sign of Spring (March & April)

On a spiritual level (getting to the reversals), here are some things that may need to happen prior to this timing to make the timing more likely: Take time to meditate on your worries - this can include guided meditation (lots of great ones on YouTube), walks, writing, singing, or praying. Anything that makes you feel at peace and forget about external stimulants. The high priestess in reverse also reminds you that not everything you see on the surface is true. Remember that while people you know seem to be finding their people, they all have their own stuff going on internally/behind the scenes. I'll use myself as an example: I am HAPPY and feel really lucky to have found J. Yet, nearly every day I have at least one thought surrounding "omg, what if he decides I suck and leaves??" It doesn't take away from the happiness, but just something to remember as you observe others. Remember you have your own story to build! The seven of wands reverse is here to tell you to keep being yourself <3 Your beliefs are yours. Your excitement is yours. You are yours! You don't have to be anything other than what you are in order to be happy and attract the people meant to be in your life.

Long Term: King of Pentacles & Seven of Cups reversed

TL;DR: July 2024-April 2025 (sorry it's such a long long term lol)

This is also based on a couple of factors. Cups can indicate months as well as summer time. The easiest interpretation for this is the 7th month (7 of cups reversed), July, which is summer in the northern hemisphere. Pentacles can indicate years and the winter time. However, since the King does not have a number like the seven of cups, I don't think multiple years. I am really leaning toward the course of this next year and a few months. I went into April of 2025 because the King of Pentacles has Taurus energy. The other signs represented by both cards are Scorpio, Leo, & Aquarius which fall into this time frame.

Spiritually/personally: there may be a personal (financial?) goal you're training to obtain right now and you may need to focus on that for a little longer before this timing comes to fruition. Being methodical and writing down plans can help! This King of Pentacles energy also tells me that if this timing happens on the longer scale, you're going to be set up for success. The Seven of Cups always reminds me of indecisiveness/overwhelming options, even in the reverse. Take time to reflect on the choices and try to reduce the number of options. You have everything you need to choose within yourself, Anon.

Road Blocks: Two of Cups, Four of Wands reversed

So, why might one timeline happen over the other? My first feeling is that there might be someone who comes in that feels like they may be your person, but the relationship is a little unsteady, communication is so-so, and you're just overall unsure about it. If this happens, trust your gut. It's okay if this person is not your person because the one meant for you will be coming! I know the feeling of longing for someone to love and love you back, but I also know the feeling of finally finding someone that feels right. You deserve only the best. If it is not another person coming in, I do think it is some conflict in relationships (whether colleagues, family, or friends) that will have you pre-occupied. Remember the guidance from above as you move through these conflicts! They work in context of this reading as well as overall advice :)

<3

[astralscrivener]

Re: The Fic Ask Game

20. 43, 77, 86

you don’t gotta answer all of these, I just wanted to give you options 🥰❤️❤️

Also bonus! #5 cause I want you to be able to hype your playlists if you’d like to 🥰❤️❤️❤️🤝

I love you E❣️🥰❤️❤️❤️🤝 have fun darling! 🥰❤️

5. have you ever made a playlist about something you were writing as an elaborate means to procrastinate when you could have been actually writing and if yes drop a link, son

since these are fanfic asks i will drop links to fic playlists!

stealing our own place in the sun: season 4 | season 5 | season 6 | season 7 | season 8

at skyfall

secret project #1

secret project #2

20. what is your favorite trope to write?

oh god. it always ends up boiling down to "things are getting really dangerous and i don't know who we can trust, but if no one else, i trust you." the sheer fucking DEVOTION of it all. the only certainty in a world full of uncertainty. the anchor against the tides of chaos. it's SO. IT'S SOOOOOOO

(the "let's go undercover as a prisoner and the guard assigned to them" trope that i also always gravitate towards falls under this, imo)

43. how did writing change you?

it gave me an outlet. i have a lot of emotions all the time always and a lot of them very negative and writing has given me an outlet for them. sometimes i make a character go through bad things just to beat the shit out of them until i calm down. sometimes i make them go through bad things to get the catharsis of seeing them overcome it (the more hurt, the sweeter the comfort, and i love comfort). sometimes i make them go through things (usually emotional things) similar to what i'm going through so i can kind of walk myself through processing it. and sometimes i want to write a villain so i can get all my evil evil evil thoughts out onto the page without actually hurting anyone. except my blorbos and ocs. sorry to my blorbos and ocs. it will happen again

77. how do you write kissing scenes?

i don't

but the real answer is it's HARD. i struggled for a long time and then i got some really good advice and i cannot for the life of me remember where it came from. it might have come from a romance writing class i took for my mfa. it might have come from some blog, maybe tumblr, maybe elsewhere. or it might have come from nico beta'ing my fics. but the point is: the actual kiss is not the point

it's about the buildup. it's about the intimacy. it's not the physical action of the barbies smashing faces, it's the little touches as the people kissing pull each other closer, the little noises they make, the surging and swelling emotions inside of them. if two random people kiss and we just see their faces mash, it's not exciting. but if we watch them hesitate, if we watch their lips brush and they pull back, briefly, nervously, before surging back in for each other, THAT'S the good shit

anyway i hate writing kissing scenes

86. which season best matches the mood of your wip(s)?

oh god. gut reaction is fall or winter. on occasion spring or summer. i can come up with a justification for pretty much any season but fall and winter came to mind first. fall is a season of change. things are dying and decaying. it's a gorgeous time of year, it's my favorite season, but there's always a bittersweetness to it. and something about it feels dangerous. it's getting colder. the nights are getting longer. it's building towards the longest night of the year on the winter solstice.

and then winter is a time of freeze. everything is dead, slow, hibernating. things honestly seem kind of hopeless. but gradually the days start getting longer. resolve starts building back again. many characters are Going Through It, and there are always a few unaffected, maybe even strengthened by the cold and stillness to be the backbone of the group, carrying them through until spring comes again

where was i going with this

fanfic writer ask game!

[slow-drowned-angels]

Stress Modeling

I am not a professional in this field, I am just an anxious person who likes plots. These are not meant to be exhaustive, but merely explore my own experiences.

When I first complained about high anxiety levels, I was recommended to go to a Student Anxiety Program run by my university. There, they referred to a graph of Stress vs Performance which looked like this:

Aside from the inherent issue of judging my quality of life through academic performance (productivity), this graph didn't really make sense to me in a few other ways. I didn't really ever feel "stressed but not so stressed that I could still comfortably work" and often I was so stressed past overwhelmed that I was able to work again... because I was forcing myself to meet a deadline and mentally hurting myself in the process. At the time, my stress vs productivity graph felt more like this:

("Avoidant" is like "This thing causes stress so I don't want to think about it because I don't want to be stressed." Personally, it's a big factor in my procrastination.)

Given my experience, I really didn't understand how there was an "optimum" amount of stress.

Because my "optimum" was really fucking painful. It turns out, that's because my brain skipped through that entire first section really quickly! It would dump me right at "overwhelmed" with very little warning:

(Yes, this mechanical engineering major has made a stress-strain curve for their own brain.)

So my real problem was that I couldn't access that part of the stress-productivity curve. Very few stressors would cause really high stresses. Note: Other people may have the "Expected" stress-stressor curve, but still experience a stress-productivity curve like mine. They are not necessarily dependent on each other.

I also had a higher-than-normal "zero stressor" stress, which I always called my "ambient stress." It was never really identifiable what the cause was, but it would make me unable to relax or fully calm down.

I did 2 years of therapy and took a fairly extensive CBT group therapy course and things were not really getting better, even though I had some tools which helped with certain situations. However, it's near impossible to CBT your way out of anxiety when it is not thought-based (and if it was somehow thought based, I couldn't get to the thought easily). Meditation and deliberate relaxation helped, but only while I was meditating -- afterwards I'd be the same amount of anxious as before. I used a whole schedule of breaks and tricks to get myself to work when I needed to and rest when I needed to, which allowed me to survive through school, but really not much else.

All of this made me really interested in trying medication for anxiety. And it works! It allows me to actually experience the "optimum amount of stress for productivity" (which btw doesn't hurt) by moving my stress-stressor curve down towards the "expected" line.

For when I'm wondering which peak I'm are experiencing (the "optimum" or the "oh fuck"), here's a comparison:

"Optimum" Peak:

Able to focus on the work in front of me, without worrying constantly about other things

Maybe tired or feeling the pressure, but not panicked or overwhelmed with the amount of stressors

"It's a lot, but I got this, let's go!"

Fueled by desire for completion, if not interest.

"Oh Fuck" Peak:

Constantly worrying about other things. May have to constantly use CBT or other coping methods to avoid these thoughts.

Feeling depressed or hopeless

Panicking, overwhelmed

Often sets in close to a deadline

"If I don't get this done, something terrible will happen"

Fueled by fear of consequences

These will obviously be different for different people, as different people respond differently to stress and have different base states.

So uh. Yes it actually exists and it's fucking wild that so many people can operate like this without medical help.

Also @ anxiety programs... You Are Working With Anxious People. Showing Them That First Plot Is Not Helpful. Please. It made me feel like I was the only one who was struggling this much with anxiety and stress... when it turns out I actually Had More Stress.

*Judging quality of life using productivity as a proxy is fucked but also I live in a world where I have to have some amount of resistance to stressors in order to function! Being constantly anxious even with minimal stressors wasn't good for my well-being either.