#but I'm starting to really love myself and my life I guess
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mishalikessoundsandcolours Β· 9 months ago
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Here's a bit of me and two of my friends singing Ashes To Ashes karaoke :D It was just a really happy moment so I wanted to share itπŸ’–
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moonchild-in-blue Β· 3 months ago
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I haven't really done much art for tumblr (at all) lately, cus life, but! Here's a lil something I've been working on (it's a Xmas gift) πŸ’™
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(also peep that lil January calendar painting πŸ‘€ i did mini squares for each month for myself, because I need to have a physical one always, and they each have their own colour πŸ₯Ί)
#sometimes i forget i'm a painter lol#this is just the base so i'll still add some cool stuff (colours and some gold leaf details hehe)#usually my thing is more flat/less busy painting (with more mixed media) but i've been digging this vibe lately#my art account is completely wiped cus i private everything earlier this year (same with personal)#but i wanna start posting again. not just old stuff but actually *make* something new everyday#like a little challenge i suppose#since i'm not currently working in my field and have being going through a bit of a rough adjustment period about ✨things✨#(plus the whole depresh spiraling)#i barely have been making any art at all that isn't just sketches/silly stuff#i miss painting. i miss making murals and working on an actual project etc#now that *some * things have been settled AND i finally have my own space i feel a lot more keen on working on it#i know i hardly ever talk about that part of my private life cus i do wanna keep it somewhat separate from here#but i guess i'm in a good mood and kinda ready to admit some stuff#??? that didn't make sense#i'm feeling hopeful for next year and have a semblance of a plan. That's what I meant there you go#i can already feel myself cringe cus everytime i share these type of things something ALWAYS bites my ankles#and that's why i hardly ever share anything at all with anyone ever until it actually is done or underway#which is! not good! i'm aware! but. ya know#ANYWAYS. rant over. look at the pretty colours and ignore my rambles#hmmmm my band crush guy (platonic) (guess who) (πŸ•ŠοΈπŸ₯) said my name and loved my super insightful question and i'll probably dream about it#(and the other really liked it too. MY BABE. it was kinda silly so very unexpected)#(okay i think this is buried deep enough to not make myself look like a 12 with a stupid crush) (hehehehehe)#darya does art#<- sure in the art tag it goes#blue#(it was a coincidence! i've never done anything exclusively blue before actually!) (in this capacity i mean)#traditional art#abstract painting
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sysig Β· 4 months ago
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Challenge level: Impossible (Patreon)
#Doodles#Spoiler alert: I was in fact not normal about it lol#You can tell those first two are old by comparison for how short my hair was at the time lol#From back in July! I guess I just hadn't been drawing myself much there for a bit huh#As for that last one I swear I Promise I drafted this in September it's not a reference I'm just actually genuinely Like This lol#I didn't choose this life etc. etc. lol#From the top!#Burst of inspiration wherever could that have come from hehe <3 What could've happened in July that made me want to draw I wonder hehehe#Bit funny considering I fell off posting - not like the inspiration stopped! And what I Did draw was Very lol#I still have some of it in an ever-present photoviewer because I like being able to look at it at any point <3#Still inspired! Still want to do more studies!! So pretty β™₯β™ͺβ™«#Sleepy thoughts - I had my Pkmn Diamond/SoulSilver field dex/guides for all of like two months and then they were packed up again#And this was Before the Pokemon burst! Sheesh sheesh#I love my field guide dexes they're so neat and well-made ahh#I have got a couple craft projects still back-burnered - those papercrafts to do with Pokemon are still on the list!#A little Pokedex-notebook is so fun.......And I have Pokemon stickers that I could put in it or on it......ah........#I do want to! I will at some point the energy will return to it eventually#Alright so the main course lol#Went fabric shopping for plushies because yes I Am determined to Make Thing! Another that's been a bit backburnered - but I will!!!#I do still really want to it's turned out pretty good for far :) But while I was shopping!!#We did the usual small talk thing with the store employee like ''Oh what are you buying this for'' that whole back-and-forth#So I explained that I was making plushies and needed the tear-away stabilizer to draw the embroidery outline on#In my head I was being very tempered because while /I/ know that I'm making a Max plushie not many people are familiar with him (wrongly so)#Lol#So we continued and he was like ''Oh cool I've made some patches with embroidery :)'' so I asked of what and he lead with CotL's crown#And then-#Look Zarla's work was Already on my mind with Max as my project I was in a Delicate Way already do you really expect me not to talk about it#The answer was no and he walked away with a Vargas recommendation in his pocket I hope he enjoyed it lol#And I got my fabric and started work on Max's face it's fine it all worked out in the end it's all good it's great lol#I Was encouraged to come back with my finished project so that's on my to-do once I get him in a presentable state haha
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breadcrxmbs-reblogs Β· 27 days ago
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dude i really didn't think i could get more depressed. this shit sucks lol
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a-god-in-ruins-rises Β· 3 months ago
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#am really starting to wonder if women are even capable of experiencing friendship?#i can think of two totally platonic male friends in my life that i would consider myself β€œcosmically intertwined” with#like honestly i'd almost say the love i feel for those two men is deeper than any love i have ever felt for any girl#and i think it will remain that way until i find my wife#like....those are my bros#they're my brothers in a very real sense#i guess i'm realizing that this shit is a huge pet peeve for me#i think male friendship is a beautiful and sacred thing#and i think it's legitimately fucked how women just dismiss it#and there are so few good representations of it in popular media#we've got what....frodo and sam and achilles and patroclus?#but of course both of those are actually secretly gay too#and i'm being a bit facetious#like i'm sure women have friends#but then why do you have to dismiss/sexualize male friendships?#and like yeah yeah it's just a joke/it's not that deep/let people ship things/etc#sure whatever it's not even necessarily about this particular post#this is about a broader attitude -- one i mostly find in women -- and i know these people act like this about irl male friendships too#i've had it happen to me and a friend irl#and it's one thing if it's just a β€œship” but i know many of these people insist that their β€œship” is actually true/reality#it feels perverse when a group of girls are not-so-secretly spreading a rumor that you and your friend are gay for each other#and i'm a bisexual dude so i don't even have anything against gay sex#and i also have had fwbs so i don't think friendship necessarily precludes the possibility of sex#but when it is just a genuinely purely platonic friendship with no sex/romance#but people insist it is sexual/romantic it feels especially wrong and vile -- and it starts negatively affecting the friendship itself#like honestly that's what happened between me and him and by the time he shipped off to boot camp we were already barely talking#because he was made to feel weird about the closeness of our friendship by stupid girls spreading rumors#so yeah i guess i'm bitter about it
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thebeautifulfantastic Β· 1 year ago
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#been thinking a lot about how whenever i have a dream or an idea marinating in my brain for long enough it then becomes something that i am#determined to pursue. and that no one can really dissuade me from#it simply becomes a permanent part of my creative direction in life#i guess you could say that's kind of the same thing as having a special interest but not QUITE#like for example. what i'm thinking of right now is my desire to start a band#and i come up with a lot of crazy ideas on a day to day basis but a good amount of them end up being simply fleeting or dictated by my mood#the ones that stay though... those are the one that actually HAPPEN#i've wanted to sing in a band for at least a year now#to be honest it's probably been longer but it's been at least a year of me being consciously aware of it#and it just made me realize. this desire has stuck around in my brain for quite a while now#and i think that means it is going to happen someday#i don't know exactly how yet because the way i originally thought it might happen (me going to music college) didn't work out#but it's been a year and i'm still thinking about it and keeping my eyes open in case i meet the right people to make music with#i know from experience that when i put my mind to something i WILL get it done#in the sense that i will surprise myself with how stubborn i can be when it comes to not stopping chasing my dreams#and i've had big goals in the past that i did achieve because of this#i'm also like. surprisingly adaptable??? i only recently learned that about myself but i be pulling Plan B's out of my sleeves#so that's all to say -- i'm choosing to believe that i will start my band someday and it will be better than i can imagine right now#and in general i'm choosing to believe that the things i truly love and truly want in my life will only become more clear over time#even if i'm confused and lost at times NOW... if i keep moving forward in time it will all make sense#and a lot of times situations do work out exactly the way they were meant to but in the most unexpected of ways#i don't know how coherent this all was but yeah#starting a band is only the most recent example#belle speaks
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neverendingford Β· 12 days ago
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#tag talk#I hate that my queue is posting so much right now. 25 a day is too many I think. I really wish I were down to 10-15 instead#but I've been living on tumblr so much until work starts so I've been seeing more art so I've been queuing up a ton#so I apologize but that's just how my blog is gonna run until I get busier irl again.#when I get busy living my real life I'll drop down to like 10 a day but until then my queue reflects my time spent here.#idk. it's nice to hit the point when I realize I don't have time to keep up with my dash anymore and I start unfollow lower priority blogs#but for now I'm way more active here until I can transition to finding in person activities#so yeah. deal with it I guess. Lotta new followers who have each followed me for wildly different things.#like.. sorry to all the cute furry art lovers. I'm trying to transition over to more body horror shit.#sorry to the body horror and Hannibal lovers. you still have to put up with cutesy furry art if you wanna stay here.#idk. we all contain multitudes. at least you can trust I won't be reblogging basic bitch meme shit#it's still always gonna be art shit on this blog. that at least has been consistent since 2015#what that art is? Who fucking knows. but it'll always be art in some form or fashion.#or educational shit. some of that too.#idk. my mind is a mess right now and my blog will reflect that. I am what I am. I try and communicate myself honestly and truthfully.#I try. that's the best I can do.#oh oh oh. my brother and I went for a walk along the train tracks and we met a guy trying to drive his car down the alley alongside it#he was stuck because there was a heap of tree trimmings piled in the middle of the alley so we helped him move them.#well. I helped him move them. my brother is a little more skittish than I am and didn't want to get his shoes muddy.#my brother is the kind of person to buy shoe protecting spray (which I didn't even know existed until he bought some this morning)#I don't give a shit. I've gotten concrete and mud and paint on my vans. he's too ocd for that tho.#anyway. poor guy was lost as hell. there's no road connecting to that alley for like.. at least three miles. I checked when we got back home#the trail was clear past the branches though so he got back on the road safely. but damn he was lost as hell.#I love frequenting alleys and bridges and washes because you see such interesting stuff.
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predictableshame Β· 1 month ago
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been caught in one of those terrible "not good enough" spirals about my writing lately
#this isn't a plea for pity so don't give me any#I guess I just feel like#unappeciated. god that sounds so conceited#tsk tsk craft I've spent my entire life perfecting and I'm not even that good at it#I know I really shouldn't but I get so jealous over authors that write indulgent schlock getting more attention#I KNOW IT'S BAD. and I write that too so I can't be too harsh. it's just like#writing is everything to me#and people really don't care all that much about what I do#especially when it's serious#or longer. or complicated. or has something to say#most people just won't read that#or less people do I guess#it's difficult feeling so dejected and it's difficult not feeling jealous of authors who get lavished with praise for absolutely nothing#when I've spent my whole life- MY WHOLE LIFE!- being good at only one thing and confident in only one thing and I'm not even that good at i#or confident in it. I guess. I'm in no place to whine#I get plenty of attention as is. I know that. every few weeks someone will leave a lovely comment in my inbox or replies#and people care about me as a person and not just a creator#so I really shouldn't complain. it's just#well I'm just not a very good person. I guess that's what I'm trying to say#and I do resent others for my feelings of inadequacy even though I know it's not their fault#I always catch myself thinking β€œwhat more could I do? what more could I possibly do to earn that love?”#the answer is nothing because I'm being vain#and I'm being envious of other's success when I should be happy for them. or at least not care and only focus on my own improvement#but it's hard!!!! it's HARD to put so much work in and not feel appreciated! and to keep thinking β€œwhat could I do to be seen?”#like there's some secret ingredient I'm missing#anyway. all this to say that I've felt really unhappy with my work and myself lately and that I'm a very vain and greedy person etc#well. whatever. you can really see the vil fan in me when I start going on like this
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kamaluhkhan Β· 3 months ago
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WE DESERVE A SOFT EPILOGUE, MY LOVE.
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pairing: vi x firelight!reader word count: 2k summary: after years of thinking her dead, ekko brings vi to the firelight base. you don't really know how to react when the girl you grew up loving is now a woman you know nothing about and still, somehow, feel everything for. warnings: arcane level angst + lesbian yearning. reader is referred to with she/her pronouns. reader has tattoos and a star-shaped birthmark behind her ear (y'all know vi loves a nickname and i thought 'stargirl' was v cute so i had to make it work). fic gets slightly suggestive at the end ;) author's note: happy act iii release day!!! i wrote this instead of working on my thesis oops. in my defense, vi has sparked something in me that i simply cannot ignore. i'm also working on a werewolf! pitfighter!vi x vampire slayer!reader fic (set in the same universe, just with a slight twist) sooo that might be done before part 2 of this fic (which is where the smut happens hehe). anyways, thank you for reading!
inspired by that quote: "i think we deserve a soft epilogue, my love. we are good people and we've suffered enough" by nikka ursula
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even after all these years, vi is still the first one to notice you.Β 
her eyes widen as she hesitates to pull away from ekko, but you clear your throat to catch both of their attentions.
β€œi thought we were gonna question her together.”
ekko wipes a stray tear from his cheek and stands up a little straighter.Β 
β€œyou were taking too long,” he shrugs. β€œdon’t worry β€” she’s clean.”
you trust ekko’s judgement, but you still can’t reckon with the fact that vi is alive. you’d splashed cold water on your face just before to make sure you weren’t dreaming.Β 
β€œi don’t know.” you walk closer until you’re standing arms length from vi. β€œthe vi i knew wouldn’t be caught dead with a topsider, let alone an enforcer.” 
you examine her carefully, and you imagine she’s doing the same to you. vi looks more grown up β€” stronger and sharper. you’d spent so much time in limbo, not knowing if she were alive or dead. you aren’t sure how to react when the girl you grew up loving is now a woman you know nothing about and still, somehow, feel everything for.Β 
β€œi guess the shoddy undercut is a pretty clear give away,” you deadpan.
vi quirks an eyebrow at you. β€œshoddy, huh? you know, your tattoos look like they were drawn by blindfolded children.”
she smiles, all bright and toothy. the scar on her upper lip stretches, achingly familiar, and you decide there’s nothing you want to do more than to bring her into your arms, to bring her closer, so you do.Β 
her hair tickles your cheek as you whisper:
β€œi did those tattoos myself.”
vi chuckles, and you feel it vibrate across her body to yours.
β€œi know. they’re beautiful.” her index finger traces the star-shaped birthmark behind your ear; you shiver. β€œi was just messing with you, stargirl.”
vi was the only one who ever called you that, said you made her life brighter or some other sweet nothing that would effortlessly fall from her mouth.
gods, she was the first one who even noticed that birthmark on your skin.Β 
β€œi was messing with you, too. the hair β€” you look hot.”
you feel her heart beating faster against your chest as she smiles into your shoulder.
she’s here.
she’s not some ghost from your past.
she’s really here.Β 
you’re so overwhelmed by how solid she is against you that you start to pull away, but vi catches your hand before you can fully untangle yourself from her.Β 
β€œthat’s all i get?” she wonders, licking her lips.
you’re tempted, very tempted, to give her more. maybe you would have, until ekko clears his throat behind you.
β€œshould i….give y’all a moment?” ekko asks. β€œi’ll go get the piltie.”
you then remember who vi came here with; she might not be working for silco, but you stand by your suspicions at her bringing a topsider to the lanes.Β 
you slip your hand from hers. you roll your shoulders back as if that would really shake away the hold she’s always had on you.
time has passed. things have changed. neither of you are kids anymore, and you don't have the luxury of indulging in a frivolous crush.
β€œit's fine, e. let’s show them around.”
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β€œstill a night owl, i see.”
vi finds you perched on one of the trees highest branches, surrounded by firelights as you sketch something. you close your sketchbook instantly and place it on the other side of you when vi sits down.
β€œthought you’d be in bed with that enforcer of yours.” 
β€œher name’s caitlyn.”
β€œcaitlyn,” you scoff, shaking your head.Β 
the bitterness you try to hide is all too transparent to vi, who has to bite back a laugh at your pettiness.Β 
β€œyou say her name like you’re gonna hex her. never pegged you as a jealous ex.”
β€œtechnically, we never broke up,” you point out.Β 
a firelight lands on your hand, and you let it crawl up the lines etched on your skin.Β 
β€œif that’s the case, i owe you an apology for cheating on you when i was in prison.”
you frown, but say nothing, your eyes following that same firelight as it illuminates your tattoos.Β 
β€œdon’t worry, i’m kidding!” vi pauses. β€œmostly.”
the firelight flies away, and you huff out an annoyed breath.Β 
β€œwhatever. i don’t care who you’ve fucked, or who you’re fucking. and, you don’t owe me anything. it’s not like we’re anything to each other, anymore.”
vi sucks in a sharp breath β€” she wouldn’t have expected such harsh words from you.
β€œis that why you can’t even look at me?” she finally asks.
you’d been strictly business since you first reunited hours ago. you expertly distanced yourself from vi all throughout the tour of the firelights’ base, and throughout dinner, too.Β 
where’s the girl she’d spend hours goofing around with, who always had a witty response to her sarcastic remarks, who smiled at her in such a way that made her chest glow? where’s the girl who brightened vi’s life when it seemed like the darkness would never leave?
β€œi don’t know,” you admit. β€œpart of me still can’t believe you’re alive. i know that i should be happy that you are, but i keep thinking about everything i could have done to protect you, and powder —”
β€œhey. it’s my job to worry about everyone, remember?”
β€œyou weren’t here.”
β€œi am now.”
she gently moves your chin so that you face her, so that you can see that she’s not going anywhere, at least for tonight.Β 
which is probably more time than either of you thought you’d ever have together again.
vi notices how your eyes flick down to her lips and back up, and she feels something spark in her chest. but then, you shake your head as though trying to wake up from a dream and turn away once more.Β 
β€œthat enforcer of yours —”
β€œshe’s not my —”
β€œwhoever she is, she talked about how we all need to heal. i just keep thinking about what you’ve been through, what we’ve all been through…. how it never really stops. healing would be nice, but it’s hard when you have to keep fighting every day. you remember what ekko said, about why we chose this place?” 
of course, she remembers.Β 
β€œthat if even a seed can survive down here, maybe we could, too.”
Β β€œwe. who’s β€˜we,’ vi?” you laugh, but there’s no joy behind it. β€œwe’ve gotten used to surviving without each other. maybe it was meant to be that way.”
β€œthat’s not fair.” 
β€œa lot of things aren’t fair.” you gesture around at the base. β€œthis β€” this community β€” took blood, sweat, and tears to build and i just know how easy it would be for someone to destroy it all. which is why we fight, obviously, to protect all this and each other, but i’m scared that we can only do so for so long before we burn out.”
you press your knees to your chest and curl into yourself. vi notices then β€” the slump of your shoulders, the shadows beneath your eyes, and just how deeply exhausted you must feel, down to your bones.Β 
you let out a shuddery breath. β€œis it even all worth it?”
vi swallows the tears building in her throat. you had always been the hopeful one, and it makes vi’s chest ache to think about what you must have endured to lose the brightness that had been woven into your being.Β 
that's part of what got her through these past few years, and there's no way she's going to let it fade.
β€œi....i think so,” vi starts, trying to find it within her to be inspirational. β€œmaybe it'll make a difference in the long run, even if we don’t see that now. maybe someone, someday in the future, will be able to not just survive, but live in a better world.”
you raise an eyebrow at her, and vi swears there's a slight smile on your face.
"what?" she asks, her cheeks heating up.
"i'm just...surprised. how is it possible that prison made you less cynical?”
there's a glimmer to your eyes that wasn't there before, something playful, and vi decides to lean into it.
"oh, it wasn't prison," vi says, nudging her shoulder against hers. "see, i ran into this pretty girl from my past and she's this totally badass freedom fighter now, so i think there's some hope in the world."
you snort. "good to know you're still an unbearable flirt."
"i thought you loved that about me."
you laugh, a sparkling sound that vi wishes she could carry with her wherever she goes. it’s contagious, too, and vi finds herself giggling along with you. when it dies down, you rest your head on her shoulder, something you did even back when you were only friends.
β€œi missed you,” she admits.Β 
β€œyeah?” your voice is softer than a whisper.Β 
you lift your head and vi cradles your face in her hands.
vi nods. β€œso fucking much, and i want to prove it. if you’ll let me. please.”
β€œvi,” you exhale. she’s so close now that she can feel you breathing against her lips. β€œi can’t. you’re with that enforcer.”
β€œwe’re not together,” vi assures, bumping her nose against yours.Β 
she leans in ever so closely to kiss you, but you move away.Β 
β€œyou’re still with her, though, and you’re leaving in the morning,” you continue. β€œthings are already so….complicated. i just don’t think we should start something we won’t be able to finish.”
with nothing more to say, you gather your sketchbook and pencils. vi’s sure that you’re not going to bed, just off to nestle into another hiding spot for the night, away from her.
maybe you’re still putting up a cold front, protecting yourself because that’s how you've been surviving in this world where the risk of losing everything lingers, and only gets heavier as you grow older.
but, gods, vi really has missed you, the you she remembers so vividly, the you that shone through just moments ago. she knows that glowing heart of yours is hardened by layers of ice, and she’s determined to make them all melt away.
so, vi gets up, heart beating in her throat, and calls after you:
β€œhaven’t we already?” 
you stop in your tracks. you slowly turn around to back at her.
a moment passes, maybe more. the two of you suspended in time. your eyes are telling her a million different things – you’re confused, you’re scared, you’re tempted, you’re tired – and all vi can do is unsuccessfully blink back more tears because it’s true, how your story together never got the happy ending you deserved.Β 
β€œplease, y/n. if this is our second chance, even just for a night —”
she’s cut off by you crashing your lips against hers.
the two of you were young, really, just girls when you first kissed. it was awkward and messy and though it ignited something in the pit of vi’s stomach, it was nothing compared to this.
she lets you guide her as you please, lets you press your warm body against hers against the trunk of the tree. she lets your lips mold into hers until her lungs are burning.Β 
your chest is heaving as you pull away slightly; vi bites back a whine, feeling empty. but air isn’t what she needs, she’s sure of it. what she really needs is more of you.
you study her like a work of art, like you're committing her to memory in case she slips away. your thumb wipes away a fallen tear, across the tattoo on her cheek.Β 
fuck, no one's held vi this tenderly since, well, you.
β€œyou’re so beautiful.”
vi blushes, becoming increasingly flustered. she'd wanted to make this about you, take care of you in all the ways she'd imagined, but the way you're looking at her, touching her....she's not a religious person, but vi thinks she might have stumbled into her own, personal heaven, with you having some divine hold on her, soft and bright and passionate.
you're kissing down her neck, nipping at her collarbone when you repeat: "you're so fucking beautiful."
β€œyeah, i know. they should build statues of me,” she breathes, closing her eyes and trying to keep upright on weak knees. she squeezes your hips in an attempt to keep herself steady.
you’re the only person vi can recall calling her beautiful.Β 
sexy? oh, yeah. charming? definitely. hot? often.Β 
no one else calls her beautiful, though, let alone makes her feel like it the way you do.
β€œbad at flirting and full of yourself," you tease. "some things really don't change."
by now your lips are travelling lower, and vi doesn't want to miss a second watching you have your way with her. when her eyes flutter open, vi gets a glimpse of something over your shoulder.
β€œhm, i guess drawings are a good place to start.” 
she gestures with her chin, which she instantly regrets as you pull away to follow her gaze, eyes landing on the sketches of her from your fallen sketchbook.
β€œyou weren’t supposed to see those,” you groan.Β "they're personal...."
it's cute, how flustered you get after making vi all hot and bothered.
vi smirks. "personal, huh? had some fun picturing me when i was gone? missed me so much you had to draw me back to life?"
"well, no - wait, yes, obviously, i missed you, but --"
vi cuts you off with a searing kiss.
she tugs on one of your belt loops to bring you closer to her. vi presses her thigh between your legs, relishing in how your mouth opens in a perfect gasp. vi takes the opportunity to bite your bottom lip and you whimper.
β€œdon't be embarrassed, baby," vi mumbles against your mouth, thumb rubbing soothing circles into your hips. "you know i missed you, too. 'cept i'm not talented like you, so my creative imagination had to carry me through some long nights."
β€œis that so….” your hand slips underneath her tank top, and you manage to pull a groan from vi by scratching your nails against her stomach. β€œmaybe you can clue me in to what, exactly, you’ve imagined.”
vi grins triumphantly. she places a kiss on your birthmark before whispering in your ear:
β€œsure thing, stargirl.”
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neverendingford Β· 4 months ago
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#tag talk#watching media not in English is honestly so fun. my brain loves trying to pick out sentence structure and individual words#as someone who was obsessed with writing and learning codes as a kid it's unsurprising#I've realized that I very well could finally become multilingual and it's a really exciting thought#I just wish language learning apps didn't suck so much. I very well might have to start keeping a notebook for vocabulary#but I've been watching Puerta 7 and listening exclusively to music in Spanish for about the past week#and next year my brother and I are gonna take Spanish together at the community college once we move#cause he wants to travel internationally and maybe live abroad so language learning would be super useful#he's not as good with language as I am but that'll just mean I get to help him with it#anyway. I think I'm gonna dig out a notebook and start planning how I'm gonna do this#I really really wanna get good enough to read books and articles in Spanish. cause reading is cool and great and builds vocab#I think this is only possible now that I've been medicated for a while.#like. I wish I could have done this years ago but I accept the fact that I've been on a journey#and chasing your dreams is only possible once you're in a position to do so. my brain was too fucked before.#so external motivation was the only way I could make progress. whereas now I have the ability to internally motivate.#I can do dishes. clean my room. fold laundry. make food. and finally learn a language in my own way.#I wish language learning apps didn't fucking suck so doggamn much. they're really the worst. even as a kid I hated Rosetta Stone.#I needed to find my own way to learn and I'm still figuring it out but I will. I know I will.#I will be successful and I will chase the things I love in life and even if things go wrong I will work to improve my life#and part of that self actualization is learning the language I've grown up with and yet never learned. and then I can learn other languages#because I genuinely wanna learn a lot of languages. hell I taught myself a little bit of spoken elvish as a kid. it's in my blood I guess.#being monolingual is genuinely distressing for me tbh.#shit I should ask my sibling for book recommendations and I can buy something to start pulling vocabulary from.#for now I can pull words from songs or tv. that's a good starting point. even if I prefer the aesthetic of studying a book#except first I'm gonna fold my laundry and change my bedsheets#bye y'all
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s-4pphics Β· 3 months ago
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the call. I (sevika + vi)
SYNOPSIS: reddit: a place for thought-dumping and being horny [college au] WORD COUNT: 9.5K WARNINGS: this was supposed to be dark but its very crack-ish, sevika and vi play rugby(kinda minor plot tbh), oc is a crazy redditor and wears skirts, STALKING, 90% SMUT MDNI(fingering + phone sex + munching + mult orgasms + dirty talk, tensionnnn) brief mentions of grief and loss bc me, recreational drug use, JUST TOXIC, abby makes an appearance later A/N: WROTE THIS WITH MY BABY!!! @trackinglessons art by lottie my love my light my everything this is a product of #OVULATIONWEEK and the #ARCANETAKEOVER
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller Β  Β  Β  3y
no one likes me.Β 
i [f18] don’t have any friends. at all. i don’t have anyone that’s not family that likes me and sometimes im convinced my family regrets keeping me adound. i just moved cities for uni and haven’t been able to have a valuable conversation with anyone and im starting to think i’m the reason why. to be honest i’ve always been the β€œweird” one or whatever ppl at school called me. but i don’t think im weird at all. I think i’m nice but ppl treat me like a germ lol they just stare and whisper to each other but i know they’re talking about me
does anyone have any advice on being more approachable? or whatever i’m not even sure what to call it tbh.
kewlio313 β€’ 3y
Everybody’s weird in college! You’re young and finding yourself. Join some organizations and put yourself out there! It’ll work out kidΒ 
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 3y
Β Β Β Β Β i wish there was a chess club lolΒ 
Margie β€’ 3y
how do you go about approaching people?Β 
Β Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 3y
Β Β Β Β Β Β i just walk up and start talking about myself
Β Β Β Β Β Β Margie β€’ 3y
Β Β Β Β Β Β Okay… and what’s their reaction?Β 
Β Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 3y
it’s different every time. sometimes they just leave, sometimes they laugh then leave, other times they’re outwardly mean. one guy told me to β€˜shut the hell up bitch’ and i immediately wanted to commit a federal crime(not murder)
Β Β Β Β Β Β Margie β€’ 3y
Β Β Β Β Β Β Goddamn lol. Maybe u r weirdΒ 
miKrophone β€’ 3y
shut up hoe
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β ?? :/
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller Β  Β  Β  2y
Advice Needed
how do you know if you’re mentally ill?
hello fellow redditors. lol. i’m finally back… very odd first term i think i got ghosted or whatever it’s called by some dude on the hockey team but yeah i plotted homicide. i’m pretty sure that situation sent me into a spiral. i think im sick.Β 
i’m not sure what’s going on with me but my thoughts have been really dark recently. not necessarily suicidal or harm inflicting(on myself) but… yeah… prettyyyy dark. idk. it’s weird what my brain conjures up sometimes. i guess im curious why my brain thinks the way it does. i’m not a bad person and i know that, but my brain makes me believe that i am. idk what to do at this point. i’ve never been to a professional and tbh i don’t think i should because i don’t wanna be admitted somewhere lolΒ 
kewlio313 β€’ 2y
Welcome back kid. It’s often better to seek help even though it can be fucking horrifying, especially in adulthood. Get help and you’ll be fine
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β and if i’m not fine? what do i do then?Β 
Β Β Β Β Β kewlio313 β€’ 2y
To be frank, I'm not sure. I’ve been through alot and even I don’t have clear direction on life. I’ve been allowing my intuition to guide me for some time. Just try it and see what happens. Rooting for you
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β thank youΒ 
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller Β  Β  Β  2y
Advice Needed
am i a lesbian?
i [f19] think im attracted to females. i can’t stop staring at their tits. i always assumed my middle school peeping was from jealousy or whatever the hell twitter said but now that i’m grown i think i wanna fuck girls. or like. girl adjacents??? idk the terminology or whatever.Β 
PetersJoker β€’ 2y
go eat some pussy and find out
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β no fuckhead
kewlio313 β€’ 2y
… Girl adjacents? Females? Are you actually 40?Β 
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β is this a dig
Β Β Β Β Β kewlio313 β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β You crack me up. Have you experimented before?Β 
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β i never passed a science class
Β Β Β Β Β kewlio313 β€’ 2y
     … Alright.Β 
Β I meant hooking up. Have u kissed a girl before? Slept with one? Or whatever you youngins say these days?Β 
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β no. i’m not a slut lol i hardly go outsideΒ 
Β Β Β Β Β kewlio313 β€’ 2y
Finding out what you like isn’t being a slut. You’re in college for fucks sake. Find you someone to lay with, ya loser.Β 
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β or i should just shoot myself. less complicated then sex
Β Β Β Β Β kewlio313 β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β Maybe so, but they’re equally as messy.Β 
ButchesForChrist β€’ 2y
Questioning is usually the first sign. Lol
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β fuck me
Β Β Β Β Β ButchesForChrist β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β Well
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller Β  Β  Β  2y
what does sex feel like? (wlw)
[f19] just watched scissor porn for the first time. what the fuck was that. (i need it)
MisandristInTraining β€’ 2y
the work of demons aka men
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β i drink their blood
Β Β Β Β Β MisandristInTraining β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β Lmao
OnHorseback β€’ 2y
Feels like dying but emotionally β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β i wanna die physicallyΒ 
Β Β Β Β Β OnHorseback β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β I’m sure some dirty fuck can set that up for you
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β lit
kewlio313 β€’ 2y
Welcome to the dark side.Β 
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β flirt a little harder oldheadΒ 
ButchesForChrist β€’ 2y
Ready to come out?Β 
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β of where
Β Β Β Β Β ButchesForChrist β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β Bitch…..
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller Β  Β  Β  2y
home sweet home.Β 
hello found family. been mia bc fuck school but i’m back… and i think im a sadist.Β 
does anyone know where rugby originated from? i like watching large women be physical w each other and i wish they would harm me in similar ways. pls push me to the floor and stomp me out(specifically directed to one pink head) i’ve been thinking dirty things all day i need her so fucking bad. is this why ppl r so obsessed with sex? bc of hot people? i get it now. i need her to bend me over and put her cleat on my neck
lezziesthatembezzle β€’ 2y
good morning to u too bitch
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β big muscly girls pls rail me from da bckΒ 
Β Β Β Β Β lezziesthatembezzle β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β someone muzzle this thot
Accuntress β€’ 2y
A dyke’s pride and joy: large women.Β 
kewlio313 β€’ 2y
This is crazily your most normal post. Missed ya. Do well in school
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 2y
     :3 🩷
[deleted] β€’ 2y
The cards are in my favorΒ 
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β would you like to sex through private message?Β 
Β Β Β Β Β [deleted] β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β What the fuck you crackhead
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller Β  Β  Β  2y
Advice Needed
sex addiction while a virgin?Β 
is this possible? i shouldn’t have watched ppl with big clits trib. quite criminal. even more criminal when i’veΒ  imagined the girl i’ve been following around for the past 2 weeks doing it to me
[deleted] β€’ 2y
is this who we are….Β 
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β obviously.Β 
kewlio313 β€’ 2y
This is my last straw.Β 
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 2y
Β Β Β Β Β hugs xD
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller Β  Β  Β  6mo
i’m confessing.Β 
idc anymore. i don’t give a FUCK. i am in love. i [f21] am in love. the deepest kind i think. love at first sight truly. it’s the kind of love that’s painful. it kills and leaves behind trails of misery if betrayed or lost. whenever i see her, i cry from happiness. her joy is my joy. her hurt is my hurt. our hearts are forever intertwined no matter the distance. i’m writing this for her. if you ever see this: i love you, darling. there’s not a second that goes by where you’re not at the forefront of my mind. i’ll treasure everything we’ve built thus far, and promise to never take it for granted. i hope to die by your side.Β 
i love you. i love you so much.Β 
even if we’ve never spoken.Β 
kewlio313 β€’ 6mo
Yup… she’s lost it, folks. Very deep sigh.Β 
Β Β Β Β Β ButchesForChrist β€’ 5mo
Β Β Β Β Β That’s part of being a lesbian. She’ll live. Trust me
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β€œViolet! … VIOLET!”
Why’s Sev always so loud in the goddamn library? The receptionist already has tacks on her behavior chart like some kindergartener. β€œI heard you! Jesus Christ, I’m sitting right fucking next to youβ€”β€œ
β€œI wouldn’t haveta fucking scream if you woulda answered me when I asked 3 days ago! Are you coming on Saturday?” 
How does she tell Sev fuck no bitch I don’t wanna go in a polite manner? It’s the first weekend after Christmas break and quite frankly, she's already sick of being on campus. Vi loves her friend to death but holy fuck does she wish she had an off button.Β 
β€œJust come the hell on and stopβ€”β€œ
β€œDude, Iβ€”β€œ
β€œYou know it’s not gonna be fun if you’re not there! Half the bitches are comin’ for you! Plus… I think you could use a fun time after… y’know.” Sevika softens β€” only a bit, she's still Sevika. Hard ass.Β 
She does know. At this point, who doesn’t? Her last year of university started on a bad foot when her family home caught aflame with her little sister and father still inside, but the icing on the cake was when her long term, blue-haired girlfriend sent her the can we talk? important text. Now she’s single with corpses for relatives(she thinks her sister would’ve found that funny). Her teammates returned to campus with her; eyes mournful and hearts sunk to the bottom of their stomachs, so prepared to shield and coddle when needed. Sev was one of them: through every breakdown and anxiety attack and hungry but nauseating night.Β 
β€œI’m not tryna bring up old shit. You been through a lot and deserve some fun. That’s all I’m sayin’. Get your last bit of jitters out before the season starts.” 
Vi nods. She gets it. Losing her sister was just as much of a loss for Sev as it was for her, but somehow, she was able to ease back into herself. Become… normal again. Socializing takes so much energy outta Violet, now. She’d rather go lift or go sock the shit outta rich person. In some ways, she wishes she had as much willpower as her friend.Β 
She knows why Sev wants her to go. New pussy, new me, her and Abby once told her, but she’s not in the mood to smash right now. She’ll probably start crying if they don’t kiss both her cheeks before her nose like… Ugh. She shivers in disgust… and extreme longing. She misses her ex like crazy.Β 
β€œI know. I’ll, uh, think about it.” 
β€œM’kay… now what the fuck is epitactic theory.” 
β€œGirl…” 
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller Β  Β  Β  12mi
Advice Needed
how crazy is it to ask for a threesome from two ppl that don’t know you?Β 
[f21] i’m currently in my campus library watching my girlfriend study with her teammate from my stiff ass beanbag and i need them both like crack. how do i bring intercourse up without making it awkward or uncomfortable? help asap pls
also i might c her this weeknd she’s going out and i wanna go
CreamTeam β€’ 5mi
Wait … so is she your girlfriend or not?? 😭😭 
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 2mi
     we have a complicated relationship🩷
Β Β Β Β Β ButchesForChrist β€’ 1mi
Β Β Β Β Β Aka she’s stalking her. Scroll down a little
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 30s
Β Β Β Β Β stay out my businessΒ 
Β Β Β Β Β CreamTeam β€’ 1s
Β Β Β Β Β What the fuck
kewlio313 β€’ 2mi
I thought we were better than this, honey.Β 
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 30s
Β Β Β Β Β you prob are. im not
Β Β Β Β Β kewlio313 β€’ 4s
Β Β Β Β Β Deep sigh.Β 
Your phone drops from your jittery hands and into your lap, screen glowing with every disappointed reply from fucking Kewlio who you’ve grown to love. You like to call them a friend. A faceless, emotionally intelligent, oddly attractive friend who you’ve never met.Β 
The love of your life is right there, as always. Exactly 34 steps away, past the shelves littered with history novels and biographies, sat at the table surrounded by Liberal Arts textbooks and her star-littered laptop. Black jacket, black shirt, ripped black jeans, hair dyed black: that’s new. Still streaked with pink and somehow you’re even more hungry for her. She’s looked a mess recently: beaten and bruised, coming to class with black eyes and bandages across her pretty nose. It makes you wanna burn down the entire Arts and Sciences building with everyone inside of it.Β 
She’s annoyed with Sevika, you can tell. They’re talking about something. Maybe her sister, rest in peace. Or piss if she sucked. Whatever. A small part wishes you listened a little closer when she talked about Jinx(weird ass nickname, but okay) so you’d know exactly what to ask. She can take out any aggression or sadness on you anytime. In here, outside. You’d drop β€˜em for her wherever.Β 
Kewlio is a dirty liar. You’re not a stalker. You’re a fan, an admirer, a lover. Your girl’s simply unassuming… How the fuck is that your fault?Β 
She won’t be like that for long, though.Β 
Vi lost her cleats a few days ago. Her black and blue ones that are worn the hell down and hanging at the seams, but she loves them. Wears them almost every match despite how unsteady they make her on the field. They’re her lucky charm, besides you, of course.Β 
Her lucky charm found her lucky charms.Β 
And by found, you mean broke into her gym locker with the code you memorized 2 years ago and snagged β€˜em. She should really get those locks changed before someone takes something important.Β 
The explanation of how you found her cleats exactly? You’re not sure and you’re not dwelling. She’ll be so relieved that you found them that it won’t even matter. Might even drop to her knees and praise you like a God. Is she religious? One of the minor details you don’t know about her.Β 
But you’ll find out soon enough. No worries at all.Β 
You wonder how Caitlyn is doing.Β 
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Rabbit holes are either your best friend or worst enemy. Today, they’re straddling the fence. Your brain never shuts off when you're in a crisis. You’re ovulating, overstimulated, and searching for a cure from someone you’ve never said hello to.Β 
The internet can solve your problems though. Especially if they’re sex-deprived millennials. Their long-term lack of human contact makes for some hilarious stories and useful what-not-to-dos.Β 
how to finger a vaginaΒ 
vagina g spot where is it
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can lesbians do analΒ 
is mommy kink a trauma response
Reddit searches are always on your side. All answers to the world at the tip of your fingers. You love the media! Squirting is not pee evidently. PornHub comments are not a reliable source. You should ask your girlfriend if she squirts.Β 
Caitlyn would know. Fucking BITCH!
how to make girlfriend come
Mansplainer misogynists geeking about making their wives do housework while they sit on their asses and flirt with young Discordians. β€˜I clap and she appears’
…
You should craft a bomb that only targets cis-het men because what the fuck is going on right now.Β 
how to make girlfriend cum
β€˜[M48] I’ve never made my wife climax and we’ve been together for 15 years and have 2 children’
Your eyes are fucking burning. Is it bad to wish death on a person? Cursed imagery. Your fingers attempt to salvage the last bits of your sanity.Β 
how to make girlfriend orgasm wlw
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am i crazy quiz
insanity quiz
You’re normal you’re okay you’re literally fine.Β 
mental illness signs for lesbians
what does dying feel lik
β€œMa’am.”
You gasp sharply. Librarian. Fuck oh shit
β€œHi. We’re, uh, lockin’ up, so…” 
You’re still at the library. How much time has passed? How many rabbit holes have you fallen into? Where’s your girlfriend? Her and Sev are gone… 
But you know where to find your g-spot! Hooplah!
β€œOh yeβ€” Yeah! Uhh… bye.” You stand so fast you get whiplash. Your backpack beats against your back when you adjust the straps on your shoulders. Headphones on, music blasting, and just like that, the world is off and you’re on. Right into the darkness of the city.Β 
You love a stripper’s playlist in times like these.Β 
You love Reddit in times like these.Β 
You walk and walk with an extra skip in your step. Time to drive Kewlio crazy.Β 
r/AskReddit
u/artkiller Β  Β  Β  1s
guys im happy
the joy that i feel rn is unmatched. i love my life. im so excited for the future. thank you god and or universe for these blessings
And post. Nothing could wipe the smile off your face. Nothing nothing nothing you love it here! You love school. You love your girlfriend and her friends and her sport!
β€œOofβ€”β€œ
β€œAHβ€”β€œ
Your back connects with the angles of your hardcovers and fuck you hope your laptop survived that drop. There’s not nearly enough cushion in your bag to cover that fall fuck your life you hate everyoneβ€”
β€œYOU FUβ€”β€œ
β€œHoly fuckin’ shit I’m so sorry are you okβ€”β€œ
And your mouth zips. Oh…
Oh.Β 
Your girl’s in running shorts. Squeezing her thighs good β€˜n tight and she glistens with sweat, brows pulled down in concern as she eyes you from above. If the sun was still out, the rays would dress her head like a halo. A heavenly sight. You’d die here… but not before a drop of her sweat falls on your face. You need that at least once. Zooweeemaβ€”
β€œAre you okaβ€” fuck, gimme your hands, up ya go, c’monβ€”β€œ
Oh she’s talking. And grabbing you.Β 
Your hands are warmed by skin and your spine tickles when you’re pulled to your feet like a feather. The pain in your back and shoulders don’t fucking matter anymore. Life works in mysterious ways, doesn’t it?
β€œHi, Vi.” 
β€œI’mβ€” hey, uh… do we know each other?” 
We love each other actually!Β 
β€œNoβ€” I uh, sorry! I go to watch your matches and all that. Kinda a fan… Sorry if that’s weirdβ€”β€œ
β€œNo no no no, not weird at all. Uh, very flattering actually. β€˜Preciate it.” 
You’re gonna fucking pass out.Β 
β€œAre you okay though? Nothing hurts, right?” And your knees wobble when a squeezing hand lands on your shoulder, gauging you for pain. No pain. Just deprived. Needy. Desperate. Touch me some more.Β 
β€œM good.” 
β€œCool…” Her hand drops and you nearly screech like a banshee, β€œAnd your name? Sorry bout tβ€”β€œ
You interrupt with yours and she smiles. Nice to meet you, she says with gravel and your heart grows another heart inside of another heart. Holy fucking you’re boutta
β€œI like rugby.” 
Kill yourself. You’re boutta kill yourself.Β 
Vi’s eyes widened before nodding in agreement, β€œYeah… me too. If it wasn’t obvious enough. It’s a great… stress reliever.” 
So is sex, according to Sexcopedia.edu. Do me.Β 
β€œReally? It looks painful sometimes.” 
She sighs with tension, β€œIt is. We gotta lot of aggressive people playing against us so we have to always… do more. I guess, I dunno. But whenever I’m mad it’s great. Very useful.”
β€œAre you mad often?” 
β€œAre you studying psychology?” She pins with an arched, slit brow, but her eyes remain light and friendly. It’s funny, she doesn’t appear to be this approachable with her grunge-ness.Β Β 
β€œNah. I need to, though. Could do me some good.” 
Her laugh is hearty. Genuine. β€œShit, me too. Help me out.”
β€œDo you wanna be my friend?” 
She seems stunned and you don’t know why. Doesn’t banter create friendship? Whatever. Fuck it. She can say no. You don’t care. You still got her shoeβ€”
β€œGimme your phone—” 
Your heart drops to the floor, through the concrete, right into the center of the Earth’s crust waiting to burn and cease to exist. She’s got you figured out. You’ve been exposed and she’s gonna fry you in the middle of the damn street
β€œβ€”I’ll put my number in.” 
… Oh.
You meticulously make sure your notis are deleted and OFF before handing her your device with the keypad on display. Her fingers are pretty and nimble. Flexible with how slender they are. Pretty hands. Pretty, blue veins and you're instantly reminded of her ex. You hate the color blue.Β 
She hands your phone back, β€œThat’s me. Hit me up when you get… wherever you’re going. And lemme know if I need to cover your medical expenses for spinal cord surgery.” 
You laugh. Really fucking loudly and she flinches, but smiles after. She’s so fucking cute! Is this flirting?Β 
β€œY-Yeah, I will.”
Her head tilts fondly, β€œCool.”
β€œCool.” 
She gives you one last look before plugging her earbud in to continue her jog. You check her contact to make sure it’s real and fuck you have her fucking number! Fuck fuck fuck fuck
You leap like the happiest frog in the pond when she’s out of your line of view and a sharp pain whips through your shoulder blades.Β 
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller Β  Β  Β  3mi
lads i just got proposed to. spring wedding in sweden
number collected. so it begins.Β 
kewlio313 β€’ 48s
Christ help us all.Β 
CreamTeam β€’ 10s
Ring pics.Β 
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 3s
Β Β Β Β Β cawk ring pics***
Β Β Β Β Β CreamTeam β€’ 1s
Β Β Β Β Β Should’ve fuckin known. I hate you genuinelyΒ 
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller Β  Β  Β  30s
when’s a good time to text the girl you’re obsessed with?Β 
[f21] soooo i’m laying in bed lookignat her contact and idk what to do. i’ve fantasized about this so many times and now its in my lap… im so used to shit going wrong that idk how to react to it going right. it’s kinda late but i really wanna talk to her but idk she might be sleep or whatever.Β 
should i scale her building and check if she’s awake? :(
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Vi doesn’t know why there’s a pit in her stomach. She sits on her teammate’s fluffy rug with a smoked out Sevika who patiently waits for her green light, but it hasn’t come. She feels an oncoming breakdown and she needs a babysitter just in case.Β 
β€œFinish this for me?” A roach floats in front of Vi’s face before she pushes it away.Β 
β€œNo.”
β€œBuzzkill.” 
Sev and Vi sit in silence for 12 seconds before the roach is stolen and hit by the latter. Sevika snickers. Vi drops her head on the couch and exhales her worries through clouds. Stressed, anxious riddled, maybe not the best headspace to get high but fuck it.Β 
β€œWhatcha thinking about?”
She shrugs, β€œEverything.”
β€œTalk ta me. What’s happening.”
Vi’s face burns when her mind plagues with you. Your giant bifocals and smudged mascara and acrylic-stained hoodies. You had a backpack on… Could be a student here. You might be a freshman. Vi hates making assumptions about strangers but you seemed a little… 
Immature? Your eyes were too shiny to be a senior.Β 
β€œYou’re gonna laugh…” 
β€œI’ll always laugh at your stupid ass,” She snickers. β€œWhat happened, though, seriously.” 
Wafts of smoke curl around her words, β€œI almost bulldozed a girl earlier.” 
Sevika scrabbles to her knees with a slack jaw, β€œWHAT THEβ€”β€œ
β€œOh my fucking god can you be normal forβ€”β€œ
β€œBITCH BULLDOZED? WHAT THE FUCK FREAKY ASS BITCHβ€”β€œΒ 
β€œNOT LIKE THAT!” Vi scoffs, β€œI went on a run and bumped into her! Fucking WEIRDO!”  
Sevika slumps back on her ass, clearly disappointed, β€œβ€¦ Oh.”
Vi tends to the roach until her fingertips burn, stubbing out the burnt paper on Sevika’s ashtray. When she looks up, she finds a very intrigued looking fox. Here she fucking goes.Β 
β€œShe hot?”
Vi’s sigh is littered with agitation at her friend while she laughs, β€œI hadta fucking ask! Tell me! She smell good?” 
β€œI don’t fuckin’ remember! We talked for like… 2 minutes!” 
β€œ2 is enough time to check her out. Show’a hands, how fat were her tits? Like this?” Sevika mimes holding watermelons that are too goddamn heavy and Vi cringes.Β 
β€œYou fucking disgust me.” 
Sevika relaxes back onto her elbows, legs extended in front of her. Her brow quirks when she catches Vi’s gaze drop to her waist, β€œMeh. You like that about me.” 
β€œSometimes. Not when I’m in a crisis.”
β€œMeeting a girl is a crisis now?” 
β€œYes! I don’t fucking know, she was…” 
Honestly, Vi’s unsure how to describe you.Β 
β€œDoes she at least go here! You’re not giving me shit to work with.” 
β€œI DON’T KNOWβ€”β€œ
β€œDON’T FUCKING YELL AT MEβ€”β€œ
Vi groans with her palms in her eyes, β€œShe just asked to be friends. She told me she watches us play and that she’sβ€”β€œ
β€œBack the fuck up,” Sevika raises up again, β€œDo you not see what’s happening here!” 
β€œβ€¦β€Β 
β€œYou’re actually fucking stupid, wow,” She scoffs, β€œYou know she set all that up, right?” 
β€œβ€¦ What in the fuck are you talking abouβ€”β€œ
β€œShe ran into you on purpose! She’s a fan bitch!” Sev reaches for her phone on the coffee table, β€œWhat’s her Instagram?” 
Vi whines, β€œI don’t knowβ€”β€œ
Before Sevika can cuss her out for the 40th time, she bursts, β€œI GAVE HER MY NUMBER!”
β€œβ€¦ Did you get hers?” 
β€œβ€¦β€Β 
β€œBROTHERβ€”β€œ
β€œShut up! I’m not… I don’t flirt! I don’t know how, not anymore! She caught me off guard honestly.”
β€œWhat's her name?” 
Vi sheepishly mumbles your title; it’s slimy the way it curls on her tongue. You were so nice and now she’s setting you up to be pestered by her best friend.Β 
It’s silent for 3 minutes, only the pittering of Sevika’s fingers on her device while she hunts for you. Another 4 pass before she tosses her phone in annoyance.Β 
β€œYou sure you weren’t hallucinating? Nothing’s poppin’ up.” 
β€œYou’re so annoyβ€”β€œ
WHO THAT IN THE BAAAAAAACK, WHO THAT IN THE BAAAAAAACK
Vi’s phone screen glows gray with an unsaved number across the top… One with their area code… Sevika watches the number scroll like a hawk. The smile that grows on her face is crooked. And knowing.Β 
It’s 11PM. It’s not you. It couldn’t be you.Β 
β€œThat’s your ringtone?” Sevika snorts.Β 
β€œShut up.” Why’s she so anxious all of a sudden? Her sweaty palms aren’t enough to stop her from reaching for the device, though.Β 
She answers and puts you on speaker.Β 
β€œHello?” 
β€œβ€¦Hi. It’s me.” 
Sevika’s brow lifts in questioning. Is that her? She mouths and Vi nods. Her eyes roll when her friend whispers, cute voice.Β Β 
She’ll never say, but Sevika’s presence re-energizes her. Makes her a little more playful, so she teases, β€œMe who?” 
A beat of silence passes before you start mumbling to yourself, β€œI’m gonna fuckin’ throw up is this the wrong perβ€”β€œ
Sevika’s hand flies over her mouth to smother her laughter while Vi coddles you; laughs that she’s joking and that she was waiting on your call. Her cheeks burn when her teammate throws her an accusatory look.Β 
β€œDo you mean it?” 
β€œMean what?” 
β€œThat you’ve been waiting on me?” 
Before Vi can answer, Sev raises up onto her knees and mimes fucking somebody from the back, face slack with faux and exaggerated pleasure. She ignores the sinful jolt in her tummy and flings a throw pillow right at her face.Β 
β€œYeah, β€˜course I was…” 
And then it’s silent again. Her muscles freeze with every deep breath you take over the phone. Sevika waits expectantly, talk to her, she says with flapping fingers.Β 
β€œWhatcha up to?” 
β€œβ€¦ Uhh… nothing?”
Your laugh is featherlight, β€œAre you asking me?” 
β€œMaybe?” 
Sevika’s had enough of the tomfoolery. She wiggles over and hits the mute button with a heavy slam. Leans in close while she whispers,Β 
β€œDude, she’s tryna fuckβ€”β€œ
β€œNo, she isn’tβ€”β€œ
β€œYes she is, dodo, did you hear how she was talkin’?” Her tone heightens in pitch, mocks seduction, β€œYou were waiting on me, baby?β€”β€œ
β€œH-Hello?” Your mumble is drenched with insecurity. Sevika doesn’t give a fuck.Β 
β€œSee?” She nearly screams, β€œShe’s DJin’ right nowβ€”β€œ
Violet shoves her back before unmuting, β€œSorry, m’here…”
β€œβ€¦ Was it a bad time to call?” You’re quieter now. Ashamed sounding. Embarrassed.Β 
β€œNot at all! Sorry, I was smoking earlier, makes me lose my train of thought.”
β€œIt’s okay…” 
β€œYou make it home safe?” 
β€œMhm. I was about to fall asleep but then I remembered to call, so…”
Vi catches her smile before her friend can bully her for it, β€œSo, you called…” 
β€œYes,” said excitedly. She can hear your smile. Very puppy-like. Cute. Vi jolts when Sev starts snoring obnoxiously fucking loud. She flicks her forehead.Β 
β€œIs someone there with you?” 
Both their eyes widen. A sharp hand raises to slap Sevika, but she flinches before it lands, β€œSorry. Just my stupid ass roommate.”
β€œHi, Sevika.” 
You’re oddly calm…. But why wouldn’t you be? You had no other intent for this phone call other than keeping your promise. They still share a look though; a brief flash of intrigue and skepticism. How’d you know…
It’s not pondered on for long by Sevika before she sings, β€œHey, sweetheart.” 
You sound like the wind has knocked outta you. β€œH-Hi.” 
Sev singles for Vi to pass the phone over to her. She obliges with a hard stare, β€œI was just passing through, but while I’m here, I gotta couple… questions. That good with you?” 
β€œYes.” 
β€œGood. You single?”
β€œMhm. For forever, sadly.”
β€œGreat. Are we at the same school?” 
β€œDuh. I’m at every match. We’re, uh… graduating together if everything goes as planned.” 
So definitely not a freshman. Just when Vi thought it was impossible to finish college without a chip on your shoulder. You seem to have made it through just fine.Β 
Despite Sevika’s reputation of being cold-hearted and abrasive with wicked flirtation skills, she speaks to you like you’ve been in her life for years. Gentle. Inquiring. She lays flat on her stomach with her feet kicked up behind her, β€œWhat’s your major?” 
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β€œArchitectural engineering. What’s yours?” 
β€œYou’re so smart. β€˜M doing mathematics. You should tutor me when you getta chance.”
β€œSure. Just lemme know when. I’m always in the library, so.” 
β€œWell, what a fucking coincidence, so are we! You coulda dropped by and said hello if that was the case.” 
β€œI’m trying to do that now… Am I doin’ okay?”
β€œJust fine actually. Aren’t you sweet.” 
β€œI taste sweeter.” 
Sevika drops the phone on the plush rug beneath them. Sits upright with urgency. Gawks at Vi whose jaw is nearly in her lap. There’s hardly any air in her chest. She squabbles for her phone and ensures that the volume is all the way up. Holds the device right in between them.Β 
β€œβ€¦ Swear? I don’t think that’s possible.” Sevika hums at you, holding her roommate’s gaze while her tongue traces over the dryness on her lip.Β 
β€œYou could find out… Both of you can if you wanna.” 
β€œβ€˜S that easy?” Sevika rasps, and Vi flinches when her breath hits her mouth. Leans in a bit closer to feel more on her face.Β 
β€œWhy do you sound like that?” Vi huffs at your genuine curiosity. You’re so fucking cute, fuck.Β 
β€œBecause you’re turning me on, hon,” Her gaze washes over Vi and her skin burns with trails. β€œBoth of us.” 
β€œOh… cool.” You exhale unsteadily. They can’t help but laugh at you. β€œCool?” Vi repeats.Β 
β€œYeah. Awesome. I’ve never done that to someone before.” 
β€œYou a virgin?” 
β€œYup.”
β€œFaceTime us.”
β€œI have a Samsung.” 
Both girls explode into laughter, β€œWe’ll call you, then, Jesusβ€”β€œ Vi sends an eager finger towards the small camera before you mumble,Β 
β€œWho says I’ll answer?” 
Sevika tuts, β€œYou don’t wanna watch us kiss?” 
β€œI’d rather watch in person.” 
Sevika throws Vi a look and she’s instantly reminded of Abby. Usually, that glance β€” filled with an equal amount of tenderness of filth β€” is shared between her teammates and she’s forced to endure whatever nonsense they plan to take out on somebody together, but now she’s here. Sevika’s including her in such a sacred ritual. She’s suddenly skittish, β€œYou’re killing me, baby. Whatcha doing this weekend?” Sev quiets, timbre amorous.Β 
β€œPlaying Overwatch.” 
β€œFuck that shit. Come to Kappa on Saturday. Everybody’s goin’.” Sevika snips down at Violet, and she whines while her fingers dig into her roomie’s tank top. A little closer, and they’re kissing. Just an inchβ€”
β€œWhat’s Kappa?”
Vi giggles, β€œHouse,” Sevika mumbles against Vi’s mouth, β€œFrat house. Right off 16th. It's bright blue, can’t miss it.”  
β€œβ€˜K, I’ll go. See ya there.”
β€œWhβ€”β€œ
Three dial tones break through the smoke in the air before the screen goes dark, both girls left stunned and… very tempted to track your location. Maybe pop a titty for your RA in exchange for your room number. Wouldn’t be the first time…
… Is that too much?Β 
It could be, but you didn’t hesitate to drop bomb after proposition, and the selfish part of her heart can’t help but think you wouldn’t mind two ravenous strangers at your front door. The knowledge that they’d give you everything you needed would be enough for you to allow them entry.Β 
And the way Sevika’s staring at her… Craving, but careful. She’s so patient.Β 
It’s been such a long time β€” two years since they’ve had any physical connection. Drunken nights, quickies in the locker room showersβ€” the distractions from grief were all put on the back shelf when Vi got into her relationship. Sevika’s a sleaze, not a homewrecker β€” most times, so she kept her hands to herself out of respect, no matter how many times Violet would catch her staring where she knew was off limits.Β 
Vi can't get to you, but she can get to Sevika.Β 
So she yanks her close, dissolves the space between them as their mouths collide with heat and a newfound ache for you in the middle. Sevika’s just as rough as she remembers β€” pushes her down so her back molds to the floor, entangles a cinched hand in her hair to pull and expose her neck to the attacks. She’s got blotches and teeth marks on her throat β€” the unrestrained and possessive and her stomach flips. She gasps at the ceiling when her nightshirt shreds under a forceful hand.Β 
She hasn’t had the heart to have sex in months β€” propositions were turned down on dozens of occasions because her mind couldn’t focus on enjoying. Every second of euphoria gets overshadowed by hollow, unforgiving guilt.Β 
You sparked something in her with your forwardness, that curiosity that left her aching to read your mind. Her best friend, too, evidently.Β 
Every movement is fast. She crawls down her torso with intent β€” fangs sharp where they leave blood down her sternum. Vi’s fingers pry Sevika’s shirt off, her tongue separating from her waist for mere seconds before reattaching. An eager hand fondly moves her friend’s hair out of her face.Β 
You want it? Sevika’s eyes read.Β 
Yes, I want it, please. Vi says aloud. Eager with a twisting hand in her scalp.Β 
Sevika sends waves through Vi with every wrestle her tongue devotes to her clit. She can’t think of anything but Sevika and you and both of you at the same time; on top of her β€” you sat on her face while Sevika’s fingers drove inside her. She wants her tongue inside you; unrelenting and feverish until you scream and soak her tongue in your sweetness.Β 
Sevika eats like she’s hungry. She eats like she misses having her like this and that wounds Vi up tight; it sends shockwaves down her legs. Makes her twitch, but Sevika forces her still with a tight grip on her waist.Β 
Vi curses with fluttery eyes when a finger β€” then two, circles around the entrance that aches for a stretching.Β 
They’re heaven sent when they push in. She’s getting fucked like she’s hated and she loves it. She deserves to feel like nothing; her walls are selfish where they encase the digits that bring her to the sun, massage against every sensitive ridge just how she needs. Her mouth spills with whatever energy she has left within her; slurred and drooled fuck yes yeses. She can barely conjure a warning when her core locks tight, right before she explodes.Β 
There’s wetness everywhere while she pulses through her pleasure, thighs squeezing around Sevika’s head with every satisfied moan that vibrates on her clit. Tells Violet to give her more and to take it take it take whatever she gives her like she knows she can.Β 
It’s not until Violet starts sobbing and Sevika’s mouth is dripping wet that she pulls out and separates from her completely. She kisses her pussy gently before shifting to help unlock Violet’s knees. She shivers with every peck that’s trailed up her torso to her chest to her neck.Β 
Sevika laughs when Vi does, choked and clogged, but elated and genuine. It’s been so long since her body’s felt this light.Β 
β€œYou needed that. Ya look better already,” Sevika cackles. β€œCan you stand?” 
β€œFuck off, gimme a sec.” Vi shoves playfully at her chest.Β 
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller Β  Β  Β  3s
guys.Β 
i love being a liar. it makes me feel alive never let a bitch tell you lying is wrong it literally makes life so much easier!! wishing everyone a good night.Β 
everything’s going as planned. just one more tally on the board and we’re set
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller Β  Β  Β  20mi
Advice Needed
it’s been 24 hours and my girl who’s not my girl has been texting me nonstop.Β 
[f21] hello. im in a crisis but a good one? if that’s possible. long story short im in love but not dating the girl im in love with yet. i took some of y’all’s flirting advice and i think it worked. im betting my life that yall do witchcraft. i barely said anything to her and now she won’t me😝😝😝 and tbh… i think her friend won’t me too!!!!! she’s always asking about my day and asking if i ate and if id wanna eat with her but i always decline bc im not ready physically mentally like i’m gonna combust the second she walks up to me i barely survived our first interaction…… but her friend invited me to a party tomorrow night…….. wtf do i wear to that i’ve never been outside before LOL
might get a train ran on me…… WE’LL SEE FRIENDSΒ 
adding her undies to the shrine🩷 yaaaay
CreamTeam β€’ 14mi
bro is she your girlfriend or not? It’s been years at this point.Β 
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 12mi
Β Β Β Β Β yes i mean no or yes :)
kewlio313 β€’ 7mi
Wear something that you wouldn’t wear to your parents funeral. Good luck dearΒ 
Β Β Β Β Β artkiller OP β€’ 5mi
Β Β Β Β Β i would whore out if my family died
Β Β Β Β Β kewlio313 β€’ 2mi
Β Β Β Β Β Good God.Β 
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What does genuine happiness feel like?Β 
You’re unsure how long you’ve been on your beanbag, but Violet and Sevika have been laughing since you sat down. They’re so relaxed around each other, content with silence. Accepting of failure.Β 
You’re not a jealous person at all. Far from, actually, but something furies from within whenever you see them β€” or people, in general, gleeful; the desperation to feel. You haven’t had the privilege. Maybe that’s why you cling to whatever you have with Vi. She has birthed a wanting inside you. A desire for connection after spending decades comforted by the sound of your own voice. Or comments under your posts.Β 
Violet makes you happy. And Sevika might, too. Just as long as she doesn’t get too close to your light.Β 
You’re standing right behind Sevika. She can’t see you, but Vi can. Her fear is swiftly overshadowed by delight. She greets you with a smile that makes your heart throb.Β 
Sevika’s gaze wanders down to your legs, that remain exposed despite the weather,Β 
β€œYou’re not cold?” She asks. Not exactly the introduction you were expecting, but that makes you giddy. Vi must tell her about you!Β 
β€œYes,” You say with ease, β€œY'all should come to my room. It’s warmer there.” 
Vi nods after gawking, 2 books immediately tucked to her chest with her bag on her back. Sevika just laughs. She gets it. You like that.Β 
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r/AskReddit
u/artkiller Β  Β  Β  1s
Advice Needed
how do i mentally prepare for sex? (virginity)
literally fucking freezing walking to my room rn with two burly butches that i want to throw me around and i think they’re going to bc they’re not talking to me but the y are very close i don’t want them to see my screen guys im about to have a threesome pls fucking help me
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β€œCute room.” Violet says, inspecting your horror movie posters and stuffed animals.Β 
β€œThank you.” You smile.Β 
I hid the 14 polaroids of you that I had taped to my door. Hope that makes you more comfortable!Β 
β€œIt’s just you in here?” Sevika chimes, eyes glued to the small bed up against the wall, right next to your PC setup. You should ask if they game afterwards.Β 
β€œYes.” 
Violet takes her jacket off and hangs it on your doorknob.Β 
β€œAlready takin’ off your clothes?” You plop down onto your freshly made mattress. Both girls look very stiff in your space; Is that normal? Maybe they’re nervous.Β 
Both girls laugh the same. β€œNot like that. It is warm in here.” Sevika follows in Vi’s lead, removing her hoodie and her undershirt is squeezing her and yup those arms are still there those muscles are popping out yup yup yupβ€”
β€œYeah. I can’t sleep in the cold.” You pat your bedspread for them to sit… and they do. On either side of you. Vi brought her notebook and pencil. Sevika brought her heavily ringed hands.Β 
She scoffs, β€œMe neither. Immune system is worse than a newborn’s.” 
β€œDo you get sick easily?” 
β€œYes. I just got over it last week.” 
β€œDamn…” 
β€œAlmost got me sick,” Violet pins playfully, skimming through her pages. She erases before rewriting. So so so so smart; too bad both her answers were wrong. You’ll show her the way soon enough.Β 
β€œCoach would hate me. Her star pupil’s under the weather, what ever shall we do,” Sevika mocks and you both chuckle.Β 
β€œThe season starts next week. Y’all nervous?” 
β€œNoβ€”β€œ β€œYesβ€”β€œ
β€œI’m nervous for games, not practice,” Vi corrects, β€œI can’t find my fuckin’ shoes.” 
β€œWhat shoes?” 
β€œMy cleats. My sister got β€˜em for me a while ago, wear β€˜em every match for good luck. I don’t remember where I fucking put them though.” 
β€œAww, β€˜m sorry.” 
Sorry for keeping them in my closet.Β 
β€œS whatever. Just gotta get new ones.” 
Small talk is boring as fuck, but it continues between you and Vi. Sevika’s quiet as a mouse; every glance in her direction is met with hooded eyes. She’s very focused on your nightstand drawer. Can she see what’s inside it? You hope so; Maybe your unworn thongs will motivate them to move this along.Β 
β€œAwww! Wait, you used to play soccer?” 
You already know all this. It’s on her fucking Instagram for fucks sake!Β 
β€œOn the junior team when I was like… 10! I wasβ€”β€œ
Trash. I kept tripping over the fuckin’ ballβ€”
β€œβ€”And forgetting to tie my shoes. It was a hot fucking mess!” 
Yup. Same as the caption.Β 
The laughter between you finally quiets. You count 12 seconds in your head. You raise a hand to place it on the Hello Kitty bandage directly under her eye.Β 
β€œWhat happened here?” 
Sevika’s breathing is very calming.Β 
β€œGot in a fight,” Vi mumbles. Poor things embarrassed! β€œGot socked in the eye.” 
β€œSorry,” Your hand rests in your lap, β€œDid I hurt you?”
β€œYou’re good… still stings though. They gotta good one in.” 
β€œHow’d it happen?” 
β€œDon’t remember honestly.”
β€œOh okay.” 
The conversation ends. Another 12 seconds.Β 
β€œSo… Did you guys fuck after I hung up?” 
Sevika smiles and Vi chokes in shock. They’re so different. No wonder they’re so close.Β 
β€œIβ€” sorry, thought we were studyingβ€”β€œ
β€œWho said we were gonna study?” You stare at Vi quizzingly.Β 
β€œNo one did. We mighta fucked.” Sevika shrugs nonchalantly.Β 
β€œOh… was it fun? Whatever it was.”
β€œAsk her.” She nods in direction of the girl whose face is beet fucking red. How cute!Β 
β€œVi… was it fun?” 
Her eyes droop to the pencil in her hand before flicking it nervously.Β 
β€œβ€¦ I guess.” 
β€œYou guess?”
β€œThat’s what I said.” 
β€œβ€¦ Okay.” 
Vi sets her book and pencil on your nightstand before releasing a stuttered sigh.Β 
β€œTell me what happened if ya wanna,” Softness wafts off your tongue.Β 
Vi swallows, β€œI… uh…”
β€œMhm?”
β€œWe… I didn’t…”
β€œI gave her head til she cried.” Sevika whispers right in your ear; tickling against your lobe and you’re suddenly winded. Vi’s legs twist until one crosses over the other.Β 
Gave… Oh…
This isn’t new information. You’re 79% sure Sevika was Vi’s first kiss… or you heard something like that in passing, so why does the sudden confirmation make you wanna hide? Curl into your blankets and shield yourself from both of them?Β 
β€œOh… fun.” Your face burns underneath the skin.
β€œVery.” 
β€œYup…” 
β€œYou’re shy now? After all that?” Sevika almost laughs when your eyes drop to the floor.Β 
β€œIt’s uh, easier to talk when no one’s actually there.” 
β€œWe coulda been if you’d answered the fucking phone.” 
β€œβ€¦ Sorry.” 
β€œIt’s okay, baby.” 
Sevika’s captain of the team for a reason; a leader by nature and Vi allows her to despite her anticipation. She's much closer now, the respectful distance she kept up upon arrival now completely shut, her shoulder touching yours, nearly straddling your leg.Β 
There’s a light tickle on your thigh; Sevika’s index finger barely grazes the skin exposed beneath the hem of your skirt.Β 
β€œYou’re so stiff,” She whiffs tender against your neck and you choke a noise.Β 
β€œI’m … β€˜mscaredtobreatheβ€”β€œ
β€œDon’t be scared,” Sevika’s whole hand caresses your knee, eases you into her, all while Vi mouths at your neck. β€œHere, wanna know a secret?”
You release the air in your lungs, β€œSure…” 
She’ll never tell, so I will. Your head bobs so encouragingly.Β 
Vi told me something after she showered that night.Β 
With every buttery brustle against your shoulder, Vi’s hands gently attack wherever they can reach; the plush of your hips, on your thighs, grabbing at your tummy over your hoodie that takes up too much fucking space for her liking. You can’t stop squirming with every taut pull at the pit of your stomach.Β 
I was sitting on my bed and she came in, and she smelled so good. I was trying to roll up again, but she took my tray and put it on my dresser… 
Roll up? Tray? What what what the fuck is she sayingβ€”
And she got on her knees in front of me… and she looked so fucking cute just staring up at me like that, like she’d do anything to make me happy… She’s sweet like that if she’s in the mood.Β 
She said β€˜may I practice on you, please?’… And I said okay… So she pulls down my underwear and treats me so well. You wanna know who she was practicing for?Β 
Yes, yes, pleaseβ€”
It was you, baby. She kept telling me how good she wanted to make your first time.Β 
A strained noise chokes from your throat, and Vi smiles against your ear before her lips close around your lobe and it’s too much they’re too muchβ€”
Uh huh, and her tongue felt so fucking good on me. Almost impressive… and she loved every second of it.Β 
Please… please, I’mβ€”Β 
Listen to that, Violet, she’s so fucking cute, isn’t she?
So sweet, too. Bet she tastes so fucking good.Β 
She’s so hungry for you, baby, Sevika coos at you, Gonna stop teasing and give us what we want?Β 
You agree obediently β€” desperately, with every thrumming cell you can use at the moment.Β 
Vi’s benign hand rests on your cheek to turn you towards her before kissing you softly. A gentle peck before she pulls away. It’s overstimulating; Vi kissing and touching you like you’re made of glass while Sevika sucks large bruises on the side of your throat. Your nails dig into the muscular thigh that hardly shakes at your grip in attempts to ground yourself, but they fail because you’re about to faint.Β 
Your sun kisses you deeper, holds your face tighter to keep you where she needs to tongue at your lips. You’re trying to keep up with her, to use the muscle like she uses hers, but you’re falling behind. They don’t seem to mind, satisfied with the fact that they’re gonna devour you regardless.Β 
And when Vi lays you back nice and cozy against your pillows while Sevika kisses all over your face, you know you’re fucked.Β 
β€”
Sevika and Vi take turns kissing you.Β 
It’s a messy and uncoordinated mess of teeth and saliva, mainly because of you, but you like it. You love it. You hope they do, too. The warmth of their bodies beside you resonates deep in your core. Whenever one of them pulls away, the next is more than open to take her place, over and over. Your thighs are already shaking.Β 
Your hoodies raised up thanks to Vi’s wandering hands, tucked right above your rib cage. Your stomach jolts when a feathery finger teases at the band of your skirt.Β 
β€œYou ticklish?” Vi mutters against your cheek.Β 
β€œβ€¦ Nope.” 
β€œYes—” She swipes the same finger against your exposed skin and you jump with a giggle, β€œyou are. Liar.”
β€œFuck you!” 
β€œYeah… I really, really want to.”
She doesn’t give you time to think of a response; just kisses you one last time before climbing onto her knees. Meanwhile, Sevika’s struggling to get comfortable in your bed. She’s essentially on top of you, both her legs wrapped around one of yours.Β 
β€œFucking β€” small ass mattress! I forgot how much I hate these!” 
β€œS-Sorry! Couldn’t afford anything else β€” mmh!”
Sevika reconnects your mouths while the bed dips beside you. Then there’s lips on your tummy.Β 
Laughter explodes outta you; Sevika can’t help but laugh into your mouth while Vi nibbles at your pudge. Her grin glows on your skin before her tongue glides on your hip. Her attention stays there; sloppy noises from above and below, your gasps swallowed with every bite Vi gives you.Β 
You hardly register her pulling your skirt down. You’re just colder. And fuzzier in the head. Sevika breaks away to ask,Β 
β€œHow wet is she?”
Huhβ€” oh she’s not talking to you yup yupβ€”
β€œCome see.” 
Sevika rises from position and you’re even colder. When she whistles at the spot on your underwear, your thighs squeeze shut… for 000.3 seconds before she pries them open again.Β 
β€œStop I’ll fucking cryβ€”β€œ
β€œCry about what? That’s so fucking hot. You’re so cute, baby.” 
β€œBro I wanna dieβ€”β€œ
Sevika rolls her eyes, β€œBust one last time at least, damn.” 
β€œCan we make it quick please I’m already on the vergeβ€”β€œ
β€œOf cumming?” Sevika purrs.
β€œOf suicideβ€”β€œ
Vi’s in hysterics. You shouldn’t be this fucking funny. She watches you and Sevika go back and forth with tears in her eyes.Β 
You bite, β€œWonky ass foreplayβ€”β€œ
β€œI’ll strangle youβ€”β€œ
β€œI’ll like itβ€”β€œ
Both of you are fucking stupid. Neither of you notice Vi tugging your panties down. She almost starts drooling at the sight of your pussy. Swallows down the lump of saliva before it can drip down her chin. You’re wet and throbbing and pretty and you smell like heaven.Β 
You gasp when two curious fingers separate your sticky lips; strings of slick cling to Vi’s digits. Sevika watches with an insatiable hunger.
β€œWhat do you like?” Vi whispers, and you shrug.Β 
β€œI dunno, I’m new here.” 
She rolls her eyes, β€œI mean what do you do when you touch yourself?Β 
β€œI don’t do that.” 
β€œNever?” Both girls exclaim.Β 
You shake your head. β€œI tried once and nothing happened so I just ate spaghetti and went to bed.” 
β€œWere you wet?” 
Vi’s forbearing with her inquiries, but still, you’re on the fucking spot and you might start sneezing from anxiety. They’re too patient with you; Maybe you’ve been misreading how they were in bed this entire time. You were expecting them to be knuckles deep in every available hole by now.Β 
You’ve never been so nervous, and for you, that’s saying a lot. β€œI don’t remember, it was years ago.” 
β€œYou’ve never used toys or anything?” 
β€œI… No.”
Sevika stares at Vi, and Vi at Sevika, and you at the wall.Β 
Your thighs twitch when velvet nuzzles at them, Vi’s voice deep as the ocean. β€œI’m gonna try something, tell me if you like it and I’ll keep going… okay?” 
You can’t formulate a response but your head bounces in approval. A finger applies the gentlest of pressure on your clit and you expel a wheeze.Β 
β€œOkay?” Sevika hums from above you, a hand easing underneath your hoodie to massage your breast.Β 
β€œYe-ahβ€”β€œ
β€œSit up for me, honey,” She whispers and you obey so she can creep in behind you, your back resting against her chest. Both her hands rub at your chest this time, her fingers massage your nipples while Vi strokes your clit in slow, teasing circles.Β 
β€œHow’s this feel, babe?” 
β€œGβ€” good! Great… h-hooray?” How do pornstars dirty talk so eloquently? You’re literally fucking dying right now. Sevika laughs to herself in your neck and your chest burns.Β 
β€œYeah? And this?” She utters right before pressing in, flicking you from side to side and your core squeezes tight. You’re dripping and she watches so closely.Β 
β€œOh fuckβ€”β€œ
β€œThere she is, good girl, just feel what she’s givin’ you.” Sevika rasps against your shoulder.Β 
You are feeling and it’s too much for your body to comprehend. Your brain’s never been this focused on one thing. On one feeling, especially one this enjoyable. It’s so good it’s so good you love your fucking girlfriendβ€”
β€œTell me when you’re gonna cum?” Vi says against your soft skin
β€œUhh…? Iβ€” oh godβ€”β€œ
β€œGetting there, baby? Feel how tight you’re getting? I can see it.”
2 ragged inhales and your eyes roll back and your jaw slacks and your nose tickles oh shitβ€”
β€œYeah, yeah, give it to me, c’monβ€”β€œ
ACHOO!
Your thigh squeezes shut when euphoria overtakes your entire system; thighs clamping shut around Vi’s wrist while she giggles and rubs out your pleasure with ease because she’s stronger than you. Your initial efforts of staying as silent as possible were in vain because you’re squealing your little head off. Sevika rests back on her hands and watches like a hawk while you thrash and clench and leak all over her roommate’s hand.Β 
β€œGood job. Felt nice, hm?” 
You struggle to nod because you’re still cumming so hard and her fingers won’t cease on you. Your thighs stick together with your wetness.Β 
β€œI’m still eating you out, you know that, right?”
Your whines of approval sound wounded.Β 
You couldn’t see it, but when Vi finally pulled her hand from you, slurping noises swiftly followed, alongside Sevika’s hums of satisfaction.Β 
Mentally preparing for your burial.Β 
β€”
Vi might be obsessed with you.Β 
She’s back in her original position between your thighs β€” with Sevika this time because she’s greedy β€” and fuck she’s never been so antsy to give head. She loves it and she loves getting it even more… at least she thought so. The aliens could come crashing down from the clouds and her first focus would still be getting you to soak her face.Β 
You’re fully undressed now, minus a sock; its twin slipped off some fucking where but she couldn’t give a fuck. She’s so desperate to touch you again. It plagues her mind; stuffed with everything that she’s learned about you thus far. You sneeze before you orgasm for fucks sake that’s the cutest shit ever β€”
Can I?
She’s asking you and you’re whispering yes, please and fuck you moan so pretty when she first glides her tongue on you. Sevika allows her to ease you into the feeling, but she stays close enough to see every drop of slick that glides on Vi’s tongue. You’re so noisy and she loves that. All she can think about is how loud you’d be with your face in her pillow and your hands behind your back while she β€”
Vi! Violet! I’m cumming again!Β 
You’re a fucking dream. An insane fucking freaky ass dream.Β 
If anyone were to walk past your room right now, they’d be appalled at the ruckus that permeates through your space; sloppy sucking noises and encouraging praises and dehumanizing name calling that makes you grind your hips faster. You’re nearly riding her fucking face.Β 
Vi wishes she could see you in entirety; memorize every thrust and wriggle you give into her face, drowning her in your scent and juices and everything she could ever want in this moment. You’re exactly what she needed; a pliant distraction. You turn her mind off so easily.Β 
Sevika’s greedy and selfish as she raises one of your legs up with ease. You fall back onto the mattress with your back arched to the skies, a cracked wail squeezing from your lungs when another tongue smushes against your clit. Sevika sucks hard at your clit when Vi’s tongue swirls down to meet your entrance. The eager muscle wastes no time to shove inside and catch whatever bursts from you.Β 
She moves on autopilot; eases one finger past your pulsing heat and your legs start to shake. The digit curls deep inside, plunges into you with vigor and determination to get you there, hits a spot that almost lands her a kick in the back of her head, but she catches you; curls an arm around your thigh to keep you still.Β 
And the night β€” or afternoon or morning, none of you remember, continues like that until you’re drained completely dry and your body contracts from memory.Β 
Hours pass when Sevika and Vi finally start tonguing each other down for your viewing pleasure, and it starts all over again.Β 
β€”
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u/artkiller Β  Β  Β  1s
2 butches are sleeping next to me rn… 
never let a hoe tell you to stop following your dreams. i’ve been following mine for almost 3 years and now they’re sleep next to me….Β 
#HAPPYPRIDE
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wistfulenchantress Β· 11 months ago
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EDIT: this has now, as of this edit, reached over 2,000 notes. And I have started doing the things. My life is still far from perfect, but I genuinely do scroll through all the replies and reblogs and watch people get other people to help and reassure me and check on me and it makes me feel so much more loved than i normally do. i'm even going to bed earlier because you said i should. i love all of you so much, and i owe you 2,053 times. all my love, witch.
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ok here goes. i haven't taken enough care of myself recently. so here we go
if this reaches 100 notes i will start doing yoga again, to help with my anxiety COMPLETE (how you guys are insane)
if this reaches 200 notes i'll start studying more and putting in more effort COMPLETE (o my gosh)
if it reaches 500 i will actually try my best to exercise for the right reasons, instead of random bursts of self-hatred/body hatred COMPLETE (i posted this yesterday evening)
if this reaches 700 notes i will try my absolute best to fix my sleep schedule COMPLETE (ok this is insane)
if this reaches 1000 notes i will be more honest with my therapist COMPLETE (dammit you guys ilysm but this is gonna be hard)
if this reaches 2300 notes i will be more honest with myself about why i am turning to tumblr for this kind of thing and write a poem about it. (this one is a joke since i think 5000 is impossible, and i will write a poem for you guys anyway. i love you) (i’ve now changed this to a more reasonable goal - one really close to what i have now - because honestly i want you guys to succeed because the fact that people are still on this post is insane and it makes me smile.) AND COMPLETE! (i love every person who interacted with this post so much it isn’t even funny. all my gratitude and adoration, witch)
this ends at the beginning of may. you can spam i guess i have 35 followers it prob wont even reach 100. but go ahead, tumblr, do your thing. lol
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m-a-d-e-l-e-i-n-e Β· 2 years ago
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I know that I wasn't ready at the time and it's really unhelpful to just dwell on things you did in your past that you can't change, but man it's sometimes hard not to think about how much I regret just not having gone to a four-year university right after high school so I could finally get away from home and my current situation that was and still is making me miserable and then proceeding to fail my community college classes because I was depressed
#hard not to feel like a total fuck-up eh#i guess everything comes full circle#i'm just really tired of it here man#i feel like there's nothing for me here and that i've just kind of been letting myself endure the same shit for years now#like i've lived in the same house since 2012 and the same bedroom since 2014#time for a change#my family's really not great and i guess my mom can be alright but my dad and my brother are just straight-up rotten people...#...and i would just really love to be away from them for good (even though my parents are divorced and i hardly see my dad)#i just really don't have anyone here so of course that's isolating and has made me really yearn for a change#i mean i have a few friends but i don't really fit in with them or see them very much so i don't really get included in anything...#...and then when we do have a plan to do something usually it just ends up not working out because no one's free at the same time#and i know i suck too because a couple times ago i said i couldn't hang out but really i just didn't want to hang out with them#i guess that's not a good sign though because why wouldn't you want to hang out with your friends#plus why is it that every 'friend group' i've had in my life has been exactly like this and full of people who don't care about me lol#on a different note pretty much everyone in my town and even in surrounding towns is or seems stuck-up as hell lol#like we get it your parents are rich great no one cares#i'm normally overly sentimental and nostalgic but if it were possible for me to just leave here right now i would in a heartbeat#i remember when i was a high school senior i got accepted to this school that was across the country and it's like shit...#...maybe i should've just forced myself to get over my fears and gone there#my plan now is to actually complete another year of CC classes (i'm basically just starting over) then transfer to a four-year#but i'm gonna try and not fuck it up this time#i'm seriously still angry at myself for having totally wasted an entire year but can't change that now either#sorry for another stupid teenage angst sounding rant#i like to get things out sometimes even if it just falsely makes me feel like i actually accomplished something#personal#txt#rants#vent post
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alonetimelover Β· 1 year ago
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pairing: (ex)Harry Styles x Ginger Spice's daughter!reader x Max Verstappen
fc: Sabrina Carpenter
summary: They broke up and she decided to disappear and write a heartbreaking song. Through this process her old friends from F1 were with her. With one two-time World Champion getting closer and closer.
warnings: swearing, cheating, Harry is an asshole in this (sorry!)
a/n: Long? Oh yes. It's a long one. But also my first F1 related fic, hope you enjoy!
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f1 Is there a better way to start 2023 season than with YN YSN (sweetly called the tiny boss of Red Bull Racing) in the paddock? We say there is NOT! Welcome YN, we hope you have the best time with us!
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yourinstagram thank uuuuu!
danielricciardo THE boss is here!
landonorris *heart eyes*
charles_leclerc Welcome back, YN!
ynupdates oh how i missed her face
ynsmybestie 5 months without even a photo of her finger online... it was a draught
ynsmymama yn's a vroom vroom girlie?????
ynsmybabie F1? is she a fan? tiny boss? what is going on?
β€· ynupdates I feel like I'm the only one that knew. YN is Christian Horner's (red bull racing boss) step-daughter.
β€· ynsmybestie isn't his wife ginger spice?
β€· ynupdates yes! she's YN's mum. how do you guys not know that?
β€· ynshands maybe because she's using her grandma's surname and not her mother's?
formulafan49 so we're getting las vegas content in bahrain? this sport is getting out of control with all those celebrities attending
β€· landonorizz why are you being bothered by somebody that knows almost everything about formula 1? go be mad somewhere else
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yourinstagram hiiiπŸ’› took a break and wrote a song. you're losing me is out now! i love all of you my pathological people pleasers.
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danielricciardo be a happy song with me?
β€· yourinstagram running to you right now
β€· landonorris bringing mum's biscuits
‷ maxverstappen1 I'll bring myself 😊
β€· danielricciardo you lot weren't invited, but come in... I guess
landonorris you're the only person I'm not mad at for making me cry, ynn
β€· yourinstagram you've heard the song before, lan
β€· landonorris shhhh
β€· danielricciardo it won't make her fall in love with you, norris
β€· landonorris fuck you man
maxverstappen1 πŸ’›πŸ’›
ynupdates WHAT IN THE HELL HAPPENED HERE
ynsmybestie I won't recover. I fucking won't recover
ynsmymama I'm gonna die... its so sad. its heartbreaking. I'm losing myself
hArrysbtch woah, my heart cannot take this
harrysmoustache firstly, break my heart and take it, yn
harrysmoustache secondly, why is the whole f1 here? wtf
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harryupdates In his latest interview Harry was asked about his private life - especially his relationship with YN. After the question of "do you feel like you throw a great love away?" Harry answered with "I don't know. I don't regret a lot of things in my life but that's [the relationship] probably one of them." You can read the interview via the link in our story!
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hArrysbtch suddenly a six year lasting relationship was a mistake???
hArrysbtch ehh, harry. i kinda feel that the breakup (from Harry's side) happened a long time ago. there is no sparkle anymore
hArrysbtch now let me start on not mentioning her name like EVER "my last partner" her name is YN, why he can't just say it? it's been going on for years. since they started dating really...
harrysmoustache that wasn't the best interview
ynsmymama about 'you're losing me': "every artist has their imagination that they write down and then release. sometimes it's good and sometimes it should be kept private. i'm not the one to size it up." THAT WAS FUCKING LOW
β€· harrysmoustache as much as I love him that was petty af
β€· hArrysbtch especially when almost all critics named this song one of the best LYRICALLY and MUSICALLY in the last few decades
ynshands "I don't know if you can be ready to move on from a longterm relationship. it's definitely harder than from something that lasts months or two years." THIS MOTHERF****R IS TALKING ABOUT NOT BEING THE ONE TO MOVE ON BUT HE DID WHILE STILL BEING IN A RELATIONSHIP??????
β€· ynsmymama this is called audacity
β€· harrysfan49 cheating was never confirmed, was it?
β€· ynsmybestie yes, it was. right after harry's "announcement" yn posted a story with lyrics from 'illicit affairs'. i think that's enough of a confirmation.
ynsmybestie yeah, here he comes again not being able to fucking say her name. those 6 years meant nothing?
β€· harrysfan92 maybe he doesn't want to share his private relationship online
β€· ynsmybestie i don't understand that. you're loving a person for six years, claiming them the love of your life, but saying the name is hard? he never mentioned her in interviews (my closest friend, my partner, someone I love). he couldn even show up at her birthday party because he had a photoshoot. just to point out, the drivers showed up in London, even though they had a race in Imola the next day.
β€· harrysfan87 you guys are toxic. just gonna blame him for the breakup? unbelievable.
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ynupdates YN AND LANDO AT THE NIGHTCLUB IN MONACO!!!!!
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ynsmybestie NO FUCKING WAY
ynsmybestie SHE LOOKS SO HOT
ynsmymama the way he looks at her ??? 🫠
ynsfan92 find somebody who looks at you just like lando looks at yn. YOU CAN'T
β€· ynsmymuse have you seen how max looks at her?
landofan92 do I need to change my bio from norizz to yesrizz?
user39 yeah, moving on quickly when her exboyfriend is talking about how he adores her
β€· ynsmybestie where??? because i only saw how awful he was to YN from the moment they broke up
user02 yeah, move on quickly and go trough all the drivers
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lando.jpg yn showed her favourites
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danielricciardo LIAAAAAR. SHE LOVES ME MORE.
β€· yourinstagram of course
β€· lando.jpg i love your sarcasm
maxverstappen1 πŸ’›
yourinstagram not my fault you were the only ones available for photos
β€· maxverstappen1 I don't mind
β€· lando.jpg neither do I
β€· danielricciardo I DO
β€· charles_leclerc I DO TOO
ynsmybestie hot
ynsmybestie but also i see you YN with favouring Max and Lando, i see you girl
ynsmymama why I've never realised how hot those two are???
ynshands is there a thing she does badly?
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ynupdates YN and MAX VERSTAPPEN at the bar tonight in Zandvoort, celebrating Max's win!
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ynsmybestie SEE? you defend the girl, you get the girl!
ynsmymama i mean i was rooting for them but i am still speechless
ynshands YAS PARENTS
maxfan85 after the race that he had, tying to yet another record and getting a girl? is there a thing he can't do or can't have??
ynsfan93 sooo, do we say they're together orrr?
β€· ynsmybestie i mean, look at them. i have many friends but i'm not that cozy with any of them
β€· ynsmymama i vote early stages of dating. yn's a touchy person in nature so you know, it can be that
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part 2
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yxngbxkkie Β· 2 months ago
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just a fight (b.c)
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hello!! it's been an extremely long time since i've posted any fics on here (or written them)! but i finally got the inspiration to write one for our lovely chris 🀭 i saw a tik tok from the new album intro and came up with this idea. i hope you all like it πŸ₯°
feedback is greatly appreciated πŸ₯°
It's about the fourth time in an hour that Chris has checked his phone, the frown on his lips staying there as there's still no texts from you. He releases a sigh before attempting to refocus on the task at hand; recording.
The two of you have been in an argument for the past two days. Longest time the two of you have spent angry at one another. You didn't argue often, so Chris is becoming a bit panicked when you don't text him on the third day.
β€œHyung,” Changbin's voice snaps Chris from his thoughts, turning in his chair to face the younger member. β€œIs everything okay? I've never seen you this spaced out.”
Chris provides a fake smile, going to reassure him that everything is okay when his phone vibrates. He picks it up immediately, his heart dropping a bit when it's not you. He swipes away the notification without any thought, not really in the mood to converse with anyone.
β€œI'm okay, I guess,” he mumbles, setting his phone back on the desk. β€œUhm, Y/N and I had an argument three days ago and…” Chris trails off, biting his lip to stop himself from crying.
β€œHave you tried calling?” Changbin asks, motioning for the other staff to give them a minute alone.
Chris blankly stares at the computer screen, moving the mouse around idly. β€œI get sent to voicemail,” he tells Changbin, not moving his gaze once.
β€œI'll try calling. This can't go on any longer. You can't work like this,” Changbin sighs, standing up from the couch. The younger member pulls his phone out of his pocket, finding your contact before calling your number.
Chris can hear the phone ringing, his heart beginning to beat a million miles a minute in his chest.
β€œBin?” Your voice comes through the receiver, causing Chris to gasp lightly. He finally looks over towards Changbin, seeing him hold his phone out.
Take the phone. He motions, holding the device out to him. Chris hesitantly takes the phone as you continue to call out for Changbin.
β€œY/N?” Chris calls out your name just after Changbin leaves the studio. He can hear your breath hitch at the sound of his voice, and he begins to think you might hang up. β€œB-Before you hang up… can we talk? Please?”
Silence fills the space as he waits for your reply. He swallows the lump in his throat, wondering if he's fucked up one of the good things in his hectic life.
β€œI'm really sorry, y'know? I've always had the habit of keeping shit to myself. You can ask the guys,” he starts to apologize, staring at your contact name. β€œI was doing really well on keeping you in tabs of everything, but these past few weeks have been pretty stressful. And, I know that's not a great excuse, but being cooped up in the studio hours on end has brought me back to my old ways. I should've told you what's been going on, but I promise, if you don't leave me that I'll change. I don't want to lose you.”
His heart is in his throat as he waits for you to say something, anything. When he hears you start to cry, his first instinct is for him to run to your apartment. β€œBaby–”
β€œHow are you so perfect?” You whisper loud enough for him to hear. You sniffle and clear your throat before speaking again. β€œI should be so mad at you, Chris. But, you– you make it impossible to stay mad.”
β€œI'm sorry?” He mumbles, furrowing his brows in confusion.
A chuckle comes from your end, and his heart skips a beat. β€œIt's okay. Uhm, are you busy? Is it okay if I come to you, or,” You offer to meet up, making Chris's heart race.
β€œY-Yeah, no, yeah, you can come by. I'll let the front desk know. Text me when you get here?” He asks, a smile coming to his lips for the first time in three days.
β€œOf course, handsome. I'll see you soon, okay?” You reassure him.
~
You're nervous as you walk into the JYP building. You know everything's going to turn out okay, but for some reason, the nausea is still there. The receptionist clears you through, and you step into the elevator. After pressing the button for the floor Chris is on, you decided to take some deep breaths.
Your phone vibrates in your hand, seeing a single heart emoji text from Chris. Your heart flutters in your chest, beginning to believe that everything will be alright. The door to the elevator opens up, and you step out, walking in the familiar direction of the studio they're using.
When you round the corner to go down the slim hallway, you find Chris standing at the studio door. You stop in place, meeting his dark eyes. The first thing you notice is the bags under his eyes. A frown comes to your lips at how exhausted he looks.
β€œBaby,” you mumble and start walking towards him.
β€œYou look good,” Chris smiles at you, his eyes a little glossy. β€œI missed you so much.”
Both of you wrap your arms around one another, embracing tightly. You tightly grip the shirt he's wearing as he takes in the scent of your perfume.
β€œI missed you, too, baby,” you sigh, combing your fingers through his hair with your free hand.
Chris holds on to you as if you'll disappear once he lets go. He moves both of you into the studio before shutting the door, giving you some privacy.
You pull away from him, keeping your hands on his forearms as you look back up at him. β€œEverything's gonna be okay, okay?” You reassure him, gently stroking his arms.
He nods his head, clearing his throat before wrapping you up in his arms again. β€œI honestly thought that this was the end, y'know?” He mumbles into your neck, kissing the skin lightly.
β€œI'm in love with you, Chris. I don't ever want this to end,” you tell him while massaging the back of his head.
His hands slip under the hoodie you're wearing, a breathy sigh leaving his lips at the feeling of your soft skin. You bring your hands to his face, making him look at you before your lips meet his.
Chris moans into the kiss, his grip on your waist tightening. β€œGod,” he mumbles, pulling away for a quick second. He reconnects his lips to yours, putting some more passion into the kiss. β€œI love you.”
You can't help but giggle, resting your forehead against his. β€œYou make me feel like I've got a high school crush, you know that?” You ask him while placing one of your hands to your chest, feeling how fast your heartbeat is.
β€œI feel the same about you, baby,” he grins, dimples on full display. Chris grabs a hold of your hands as silence fills the room. He intertwines your fingers, keeping his gaze on them.
β€œYou okay, baby?” You ask him quietly, squeezing his hands. β€œTalk to me.”
He lifts his head, the smile still there, and he nods. β€œI'm okay. I'm just– really happy that you're back and that we're okay,” he releases a deep breath, bringing your hands to his lips, peppering the backs of them in kisses.
β€œI'm afraid you're stuck with me,” you joke with him.
β€œI wouldn't want it any other way, baby,” Chris pulls you close to him, capturing your lips in another kiss.
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tagging: @strawboorybunny @reddesert-healourblues @spacegirlstuff @like-a-diamondinthesky @prettymiye0n @foxinnie8
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kyri45 Β· 3 months ago
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Not me abusing the asks to both share my love for the bioparents AU AND rant about the panels because none of my friends are in the LMK fandom and I'm suffering here so TAKE MY LOVE AND APPRECIATION ABOUT YOUR ART I guess x)
So first of all
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I am a SUCKER for that kind of leaning in frames I'm going to print that and plaster it on my wall THEY ARE EVERYTHING /hj
I almost jumped of my chair when this one popped up YOU FED US GOOD its so worth the angst train incoming. Of course the panels before and after were equally as amazing but if I start going about every single panel we're still here in three days AT THE VERY LEAST LOL
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Of course this one made me laugh like please their little faces
Using that to point out how much I love ALLLLLLL the silly faces you put in your comics I'm munching on them every single time they're crushy like chips or something just. Nom nom. Yummy.
Poor Nesha (Nesha? Nezha? Neja? I have no idea on how to write his name I already forgor LMAO) needs to be payed more. He tries to save MK and ends up dealing with two lovesick teenagers demons who have no concept of time/place/occasion apparently. Poor him. He gets a pat on the head for his troubles
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And of course just the "NOPE I'M KEEPING HIM" mode and honestly we should have seen it coming- Red son was planning to courtnap him and didn't sleep in the past 5 days so he's not having any bullshit YOU'RE NOT TAKING HIS NOODLE BOY AWAY-
Could bet he spent so long thinking about the cournapping in the 5 past days his brain just cannot process that yeah maybe you need to let him down you're just going to drag him in more troubles- Either that or he's just going full protective mode. Both options are good anyways sooooo :)
We stan a protective boyfriend in this house.
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And finally I'm SOOOOO hyped about whatever is coming next like I know that technically we're supposed to suffer but please I climbed up the angst train so many times now I'm just enjoying it by that point lol. It'll just make the following fluff even more worth it
Also I cannot wait to see MK's plan about the contract I'm so curious I'm dying I love you boys but I really want the plot to progress you can go back to kissing later lol
Finally, thank you for creating this AU. It's stumbling randomly upon it on my tik tok fyp that dragged me into watching Lego Monkie Kid and really THANK YOU FOR THAT. It's such an amazing show I CANNOT BELIEVE I didn't discovered it sooner so really thank for having created this comic because else I could have missed LMK and that would be just saaaad
Fun fact: since I had never interacted with LMK the first time I read your comic, I for some reason thought Macaque was a female (and I probably would have thought the same of Wukong if he wasn't called... well, Wukong because I randomly stumbled upon the myth's Wikipedia page at some point in my life XD). The shock I felt when I heard Macaque for the first time in the show because his voice was soooooo not what I expected x) I'm still laughing at myself to this day
So yeah, from the bottom of my heart, thank you, and I can't wait to see what you're going to pull next :D Wish you allllll the best <3
(I can totally wait, of course, it's just a figure of speech. Take your time, I could wait forever for the next chapter)
ahaha thank you for such a lovely comment!! Glad the scene gived "MINE" vibes as I was planning ahah.
Youu're welcome! It's an honor to serve this fandom. *bows*
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