#but I’ve missed talking about them a lot okay y’all

[dekusleftsock]

Dekus no good, very bad, faceplant into masculinity and internalized homophobia

I made this a thought post from chapter 402 originally, but I can’t let these thoughts fester any longer. Gotta be correct about it 🫶🫶🫶

Alright so when I originally talked about this on a couple of platforms (not just tumblr, tiktok too and a bit on Twitter that has no connection to this account lmao) I feel like people told me that I was “stretching” with my assumptions.

But then Toga’s backstory being told to Ochako was… directly referenced to a queer allegory. And in 394, she directly says that she likes girls. It’s the thing said last, implying it’s something she’s still ashamed of feeling.

This chapter basically confirmed in my mind that Himiko’s blood quirk was the equivalent to the homophobia that was probably in her own household. And in my mind, that means that blood quirk = metaphor on her queer experience.

And then suddenly, the pieces clicked into place.

In 348, Izuku disagrees with Himiko and Ochako’s ideals—not only at the idea of girly romance, but also at unconventional romance.

Ochako has distanced herself due to Izuku’s inability to confront his own feelings. Shown both physically and metaphorically.

Ochako took all the steps to walk away because from Izuku. Because Izuku held her back.

Or more rather, she realized that Izuku was no allmight, but rather just an average boy in need of saving as anyone else. He is someone who’s flaws cannot align with Ochako’s own ideals for a relationship.

Because ochako is weird.

Izuku holds her back. She can’t be everything she needs to be while around him.

And that’s something Izuku’s not going to understand, not like how she needs him to understand.

And Himiko knows who Ochako is on a more fundamental level than Izuku ever will, and that’s okay.

I feel like whenever I talk about these character flaws having to do with Izuku, it almost sounds like I’m bashing him? I swear, I’m not, it makes complete sense as to why he is this way. And there are people (Katsuki) in the world who can have this in a relationship under the right communication, and some people can’t. And that’s just how we exist. That’s okay. We don’t all have to be compatible with everyone.

Back to the main point, the pieces and the people putting those pieces together were starting to see their parallels.

Even the manga placement parallels them, especially with how clever I feel horikoshi can be with his paneling.

Looking down, looking up. Both three quarter angles. Small mouth expression, big mouth expression. And that blush.

Fake smile when unhappy. Falling for someone who is dying, who you’d do anything for, even toe the line of death defending them, fixing them—just because you can’t help but love someone you wish had walked into your life sooner (or in Izuku’s case, accepted into your life sooner).

Someone you’d sacrifice for. Someone you’re violent for. Someone you’d kill for.

Someone you’d rather let an entire population of people die for than live without.

Someone you’re undeniably, unequivocally, selfish for.

And yet Izuku doesn’t recognize his same symptoms of love through Himiko Toga as Ochako does.

Himiko must be dehumanized to Izuku, because if she’s a person, then she is him.

(What’s even more interesting about this panel, is that if the characters were reversed and it was about Izuku’s violent feelings over protecting Katsuki, danger sense would be going off constantly. So toga is the perfect counter, but Izuku is the ultimate weakness.)

So, okay, how exactly do these things matter? How does this have to do with Izuku’s own personal struggle over his masculinity?

I think what’s important to clarify here is that when I say “internalized homophobia”, I don’t mean that he necessarily is beating himself up over the fact that he likes a boy instead of a girl.

I think it’s connected to his fear of rejection, and his own personal issues having to do with remaining a “strong man” instead of a “weak man”.

Izuku may not believe that liking men is anyone’s business but his own, but does Katsuki think that?

Izuku has called his feelings of admiration gross. Not that he himself is an awful person for feeling them, but that Katsuki will be the one to think they’re gross. And he’s worked so hard to get to this point in their relationship, he doesn’t wanna let it go over some stupid feelings.

And this is where toga comes into the picture, his parallels between her, because just how is Toga supposed to know that Ochako isn’t judging her for her feelings? Technically, all of the things she’s said before the final fight between them have only proved the inevitable. That Toga is gross, a freak, a predator, a danger, because she loves a woman.

How is Izuku supposed to interpret being called a stalker by Katsuki? How is he supposed to interpret when people call him creepy for his muttering and analyzation? How is he supposed to interpret being called a crybaby by his idol, Katsuki, and everyone else when he cannot control that?

How can he handle feelings that are out of his control, and still believe that they’re okay?

And at the very least, even if homophobia doesn’t exist in mha, heteronormativity does. Especially shown through Ashido, a straight girl.

None of that is necessarily Allmight, Katsuki, or even Ochako’s fault, because of course they’re just teasing him—but it doesn’t change the fact that it affects how he perceives himself.

So when I say that Izuku has problems with internalized homophobia, I mean that he is afraid of how the people around him will perceive him, than a constant feeling of self hatred due to not liking women.

And when I say that his internalized homophobia is an extension of his masculinity, I mean that because he has no confidence in himself and his more vulnerable emotions, he is unable to accept what or who he is. This ofc affects the people around him, like saying that Ochako CANT be weird because she’s just “so amazingly normal” without realizing that he’s just downplaying who she is and what she thinks, or dehumanizing the most openly queer character in the series because it benefits the perception he has of himself, or even silently rejecting Katsuki’s feelings simply out of a need to “control his heart and control his quirk”.

In Izuku’s mind, the only way to keep Katsuki is to not be the weird kid he was in his childhood. In a way, Izuku is still performing for Katsuki.

[spencerreidsrightsock]

Hi, jade! I have a request a smut about possessive!professor spencer x innocent!reader. Thank you!

Lessons

Summary: You’re auditing Professor Reid’s class for obvious reasons. He noticed you weren’t paying attention so he asked to meet in his office so he could teach you a lesson.

TW! MDNI Lots of dirty talk, spencer being possessive, age gap but it’s legal, facial, loss of virginity, p in v, protected sex, anything else I missed.

Pairing: Possessive!Professor!spencer x innocent!reader

A/N: I hope this doesn’t absolutely suck. Send me req for any other fics y’all want!! Also- writing this in first person pov.

You sat in the second row of Professor Reid’s lecture. You were dazed off, consumed by your thoughts. He was in front of the class blabbing on about something you didn’t care to listen to, since you just audited this class.

You were jerked from your thoughts when Professor Reid walked closer to your chair, “y/n? Do you want to join the lecture?” He said snarky like.

“Oh I’m sorry Professor Reid. I was spaced out.” You say looking up at him and give him an innocent half smile. He starts to turn around before turning back to you, “come to my office after class” he said walking back to the front of the room.

After the lecture had wrapped up you walked quickly to his office. He wasn’t in there yet so you took a seat in front of his desk. As you sat there your mind trailed off, thinking about him, the way he always looked at you. The way he speaks about things.

You were jerked from your thoughts when you heard the door open. Professor Reid walked in and took a seat at his desk. “So, y/n, what was up during the lecture, I know you’re just auditing my class, but you’re usually more interactive.” He said looking at you sternly.

“Oh I’m sorry sir, I’ve just had a lot on my mind.” You said. He looked at you nodding your head. “Well. From now on I expect to have your full attention.” He spits out at you. “Okay sir I’m so sorry agai-“ he cuts you off.

“Maybe I should teach you another lesson right here.” He says standing up and coming to stand in front of you. “Teach you to pay attention during lectures and to think before you prance into my class with one of your mini skirts.” He continues gripping your jaw slightly. You stand up slowly.

“I’ve never done anything before.” You say putting your head down in embarrassment. He brings his hand to your cheek. “I’ll teach you, we’ll go slow” he says leaning to kiss you.

After a few moments he pulls away. He grabs your hand and sits down at his desk. “Sit” he spits out patting his lap. You sit, putting your legs on either side of his waist. He puts his hand behind your head pulling you in for a heated kiss. He slips his tongue past your lips.

Spencer puts his hands behind you to lift up your skirt in the back, he grips your ass slowly massaging it. He snakes his hand between the two of you and starts to slowly rub your sensitive clit through your underwear.

“Oh Spencer that feels so good” you say moving your hips to feel more pressure on your clit. “I’m going to slip a finger in your pussy. Is that okay?” He questions with his hand resting on your cheek.

“Okay” you say moving in for another kiss. He slips his hand beneath your panties and teases your hole. He slides a finger in slowly pumping it in and out of you. “More, Spencer please!” You shout. He obliges and slips a second finger in your tight hole.

He continues to kiss your soft lips. You put your hands on his shoulders gripping them for support. Spencer can tell you’re close, “cum on my fingers y/n” And with that you came. He brings his fingers to his mouth sucking your cum off of them. “You taste so good darling.”

“Fuck me” you say with pleading eyes. “Stand up pretty girl” he says. You stand and slip your skirt and underwear down your legs. He slips off his slacks and boxers. “Bend over my desk.”

You obey him leaning over his desk. He grabs his semi hard cock and pumps it in his hands a few times. “Are you ready?” He asks you leaning down over your shoulder. “Yes” you say.

With that he teases your slit rubbing the head of his cock over you. He slowly slides inside of you. “Spencer oh god” you moan out. “Do you feel good” he says cockily. “Mmm” is all you managed to get out.

“You feel so good around my cock, you’re gripping me so hard” he says his hand landing on your ass. “Faster. Please” you say. With that he starts fucking your pussy at an inhumane pace.

“Oh my god” you say. “I’m so close” you moan out. “Cum on my cock then turn around. I want to paint your face” he spits out. And with that you cum around his cock.

He quickly pulls out of you. You turn around getting on your knees and he pumps his cock just a few more times then his hot cum shoots on your face. “Y/n” he moans out. After you both compose yourselves he gets a paper towel on his desk so you can clean your face off.

You put your clothes back on and he does the same. After you’re both dressed he comes over to you, “anytime you want to learn anything further in the class I’m a text away and my door is always open” he says.

“I’ll remember that” you say grabbing your bag and coming to rest your hand on his chest. He leans in to give you a peck. You turn around going to the door. You unlock it and turn back to look at him shooting him a quick smile.

[inc0mple]

🗝️ ”Keys Are People, Too” 100 Chapter Q&A ⭐️ (ongoing!)

(Last edit: 12/20 10:40 CST)

Hi! :) If y’all don’t know me my name is Inco (it’s not but shh) and I write a fanfiction for Cinderella Boy called Keys Are People, Too. It’s not finished, it’s ongoing and rapidly approaching 100 chapters XD (yes we are like four chapters away but shh rounding) (I PROMISE WE’RE ALMOST TO THE LAST ACT). So because of an ask from @isitamia and, we’ll say the 100 chapter milestone… tada Q&A??

I don’t know how many people are going to engage with this but that’s totally okay :) I love ranting about stuff and I’ve put a lot of thought into this story, so it would be cool to have an outlet to answer some questions where they don’t get forgotten in AO3 comments. And if you guys also have general questions about writing advice/things like that, I am not an expert but I do also like talking about stories.

So please ask! I’m not planning to close this at any specific time—I was thinking y’all could comment questions under this post or via reblogs (I might miss them in reblogs though) and I will edit this post to answer them, and also reply to you so you know your question is answered. This might get like 10 notes and that’s fine haha (I have zero idea how many people regularly read my story beyond the ones who leave comments), but if there are a lot of questions I’ll try to categorize them. Really just a place to drop info for fun :)

Q&A below ⬇️

I tried to make it organized. It's... kind of organized. Kind of.

Plot/Characters

"What key archetype isn't one of the siblings? Do we get to know their archetypes soon?" asked by @spookieee28 12/20

I'm not gonna say the archetypes at this point in time because it risks spoilers. You will find out by the end of the story and hopefully by that points all of the archetypes should be relatively clear. Some have already been mentioned like the chapter "Heralds and Thieves" for Jade and Cooper, I think (?) Cora has been mentioned as the Innocent archetype, etcetera.

"Which character do you struggle writing the most and which feels easier for you, if you have preferences?" asked by @isitamia 12/20

"Do you ever struggle with keeping Cinderella Boy's canon characters in character?" asked by @isitamia 12/20

I'll answer both of these together. Chase is pretty easy for me because I just channel chaotic gremlin energy and it seems to work. Buddy is OKAY although I am struggling right now making him vulnerable while still retaining him Buddy-ish-ness if that makes sense? Deacon is just Deacon... I am sorry, I feel like I don't really do anything to characterize him, he's just there as a sounding board XD I will say- I daydream situations for CB ALL THE TIME which gives me a lot of comfortability with the canon characters and considering what they would do and say and how they would react. I do have a little bit of difficulty characterizing the human keys so I just kinda went like "oh WELL that's because, UUHHHH, the key siblings don't match the keys exactly! That's it that's the answer!" because I felt like Silver wasn't quite Silver-ish and stuff. As for struggling writing the most I have two main answers.

BRONTE. For those who maybe haven't read this but are scrolling through it anyway, or aren't there yet, Bronte is the "human" version of Bronze and I kinda accidentally eliminated him from the story until like... the 80th chapte ror something like that. I had a lot of trouble actually writing his dialogue and scenes with Chase. It just did not have Bronze's snarky energy. So that was tough and I feel bad because I really feel like I did not do him justice :c

DUKE RAVENELL!!!!!! Ravenell hates me. He gives me so much trouble primarily because I just plunked him in at the beginning and didn't give him a real personality beyond a few vague notions. I've really had to sculpt his character as I went and it's especially difficult because Ravenell is intended to do a lot of plot device-ing. He perpetuates a lot of themes in the story and he is a HUGE character foil to Chase, because he often reflects the opposite of Chase's (and Idonea's) values and intentions. I want him to be morally grey and I am constantly fighting a BATTLE with this man to make sure he isn't too likeable or too hateable. I posted on Tumblr like a week ago really just asking for a diagnostic and the response made my day because people are all OVER the place about this man, some people love him, some will never forgive him, some are like "he's alright but there's something off about him and I can't help but distrust him" and others are like "I know he keeps making mistakes but I can't help but trust him" and I LOVE IT. Fortunately I think he's finally in a place perception-wise where I want him. I want the confusion. So badly. Only now I have to continue to fight this stupid tug-o'-war to keep him properly dividing until the end of the story XD

Behind the scenes

"How did you come up with the plot for KAPT? Was it just a little thought that popped up in your head one day, or did you have like inspiration or something?" asked by @xcitrix 12/20

"Did you have an idea for how you wanted the story to end when you first started writing or did you come up with more ideas while working on it?" asked by @lapileaf 12/20

I'mma answer both of these (and any others if they are asked) in kinda the same go if that's alright. In August I was wanting to write some fanfiction for CB, and one idea rotating in my head was, what if Chase went into a nonfiction book? Like he thought it the most effective way to study for a history project, or he saw a mention of Ex Libris, or something. So, completely directionless, I drabbled out the first chapter of KAPT where they find the book in the museum and... adopt it. And then it sat there in my Google Docs for like two weeks while I worked on a different fanfiction, Violets and Chains. I tried to return to it a little bit and got through the first anthology chapter where they're in the Chartesia battle, but that too did not have a plot behind it, I was like "myeh... trebuchets... uh... and now there's a guy... oh maybe they're PRISONERS..." And then brain did not work and I gave up. Eventually got myself together, BS-ed the rest of the scene, and then sat down and essentially ranted to myself about potential ideas until I figured out the plot.

More ideas have kept cropping up as I've worked on it. There are certain puzzle pieces that are foreshadowed in even teh first ten chapters that I didn't even mean to foreshadow because I hadn't thought of the yet - the plot was generally mapped out but has defintely been refined and added to as time goes on. Eventually you get into the flow of a story and everything just starts clicking into place, like you yourself are theorizing about an external work. Keep in mind that because I am publishing it as I write each chapter, KAPT is a first draft, and I have to hatch out plot points and main parts of the story as I write and make my best effort to recover any loose threads or things like that. It's a fun exercise!

"Do you plan to stick to the story you have already till the end or is there a possiblity you'll have to change some things if we get to know more about canon Ex Libris/Buddy lore while it's still ongoing?" asked by @iwikpines 12/20

There are some new bits of information that are kinda iffy for KAPT, but ultimately because KAPT takes place inside a book most of the Buddy/Ex Libris lore is not applicable. Regarding Buddy's situation I am going to go ahead like I was planning to originally, and I'll add a disclaimer when time permits. I don't think either way throws a wrench in the plans too much but I would rather be confident in the themes I've already set up as opposed to trying to hastily recover new lore in the last third of the story, if that makes sense.

"How did you come up with your ocs? I know some, like Jaime, come from another original story of yours ... but what about characters like Ravenell, Galeus, and Rose? What inspired you? How did you decide their personaltiy, their struggles? Did you take inspiration from yourself for anyone, similar to how Punko took inspiration from herself for Chase? Do you follow any specific process to come up with ocs, like follow a list, scheme, or coming up with hypothetical scneraios?" asked by @isitamia 12/20

A lot of the characters are cameos from a passion project I've been working on for years called IFI (no I will not tell you what it stands for) - Jaime and emma are from there, as well as several others including Alexei, Nishan, Mattheo, Kelitia, Indie (the Marchioness), King Aarius, and King Olivyn. So those are just plunked in and then Jaime decided to become part of the plot. As for the other original characters made specifically for KAPT, they just kinda got plopped in for one reason or another (I wanted Rose to connect to the Chartesia lore, Ravenell to have a foil for Chase, and Galeus because, well, there had to be a king) and then I slowly worked to build connections, themes, and character. Often times I don't specifically sit down and think "this character will be this way", it just emerges naturally from their dialogue, like I'm chiseling something out that was already in the stone like an archeologist, as opposed to carving my own new sculpture. I've always written that way and it makes it difficult when I am required to add structure to my writing or explain why I do things the way I do. I will say it is all VERY inspired from my own life and beliefs; Rose exists as a confidante in the story, and many of her more preachy dialogue pieces are things I'm getting out of my system. So yeah, not really a lot of structure to it, they just appear... and I figure them out as I go... most of my characters are in some way facets of myself or the way I percieve life. As I get more experienced with writing I'm sure I'll be more intentional with them, but for now, they are Athena and I am Zeus.

"How do you post daily" (kind of) asked by @isitamia 12/20

To give an actual answer for this because I know it's a lot to post a 2-4k chapter PER DAY - I am a student and have a LOT of downtime in class where I can't really do anything but write. That is how. Also, I have taught myself to be a prolific writer because that is the thing in my life I can always rely on when other things are unstable.

"How did you extend the story so far? I love the plot and it's kinda insane how you were able to develop it so much, at this point it's a full novel and I kinda live for it LOL. Also how long would you consider one act?" asked by @shyve3 12/20

Two parts to this question, I will answer them both;

I didn't mean to. I am really bad about being concise; I can't. When I write and get passionate about a story there's so much I want to stay and I can rarely fit it into what most people consider a pallatable length. I just get going and... idk... unstoppable force or something lol. And yes KAPT is at least the length of a typical trilogy XD ITS BEEN FIVE MONTHS

Regarding the act question, I ORIGINALLY said KAPT would be three acts, with the first ending when Chase goes down into Rose's "tomb" for the first time, the second ending with the Bronte part, and the third being the final one. It is actually more like four now, with the "second" act split into two at the masquerade ball. We are so close to being onto the actual final act, which should be a 4th of the total fic, so we have maybe 30 chapters left (?) (we'll see lol)

I don't have a specific length, it's just the way the story tends to ebb and flow if that makes sense?

General stuff

"Do you have any advice as a writer?" asked by @iwikpines 12/20

I AM SO BAD ABOUT THIS because I really do just go type type type and words appear. I know there's more to it than that but I've spent a lot of time writing and not a lot of time learning how to write so I have the experience without the actual education behind it. Write what you care about :) I mean NO DUH but like - your best stories will come from the heart. You will find prolificness (is that a word?) in PASSION. If I didn't care about Cinderella Boy or the themes I'm trying to communicate in KAPT would I spent my days writing a chapter a day ABSOLUTELY FRIGGIN NOT I'd be writing a different story. So yeah - write what you love and your audience will find you. What the world needs is a buncha people doing what they love really well because it's what they care about. Also, I didn't include your full comment here, but I am excited to read your fanfiction! <3 Please post it on Tumblr when you also post it elsewhere!

[skzooweemama]

Because this tiktok trend is really old now how would skz reaction to you wiping off thier kisses? Like because it's an old trend they probably wouldn't be thinking that's what you're doing.

gotta keep them on their toes right? i gotchu!!

oh my gosh it’s been nearly a month since i’ve posted anything i- 😭😭 midterms are over now, so i’m hoping i’ll have more time! still working on the rest of the requests i’ve received not to worry 🫡🫡

i hope y’all like this one! i’m gonna be honest, i didn’t have a lot of ideas going into it, so i changed it up a lil from how the prompt was. i think it turned out okay though!

enjoy!

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Bang Chan:

"Baby?" Your boyfriend called down the hall, wandering from the in- home studio to find you in the kitchen making a snack.

You smiled as Chan rounded the corner, with bleary eyes and messy hair. "Hi love, did you just finish?" He hummed and drew you into a hug once he was close enough, burying his head into the crook of your neck. You giggled at his cute behavior and rubbed his back gently.

"Finished and fell asleep..." Chan mumbled into your neck, the sensation making you giggle.

You brought a hand up to scratch at the nape of his neck. "Sounds like you needed it, hm?" Another hum escaped your sleepy boy. "Do you want some of my snack?" Chan nodded, raising his head to see what you were making.

You pulled away briefly to grab the snack (cheese and crackers, a classic) and fed him some. Chan giggled when he realized you wanted to feed him and let you, blushing a bit from the gesture. Afterwards, he pressed a crumby kiss to your cheek.

"Gah! Chris!" You cried out, dramatically wiping at your cheek. Honestly, you didn't really mind, but you wanted to see how he'd react.

Chan just giggled, a shy smile spreading on his face as he pulled you close once again, covering you in more (yet significantly less crumby) kisses.

You squealed out and pushed at his chest, Chan’s laughter mixing with your own as he continued with his attack. “Baby!” You whined, playfully squirming in his hold.

Chan’s arms slipped around your waist and held you fast, his lips trailing down to yours. His warm breath fanned across your face, leaving you completely defenseless. Then he pressed a searing kiss right to your lips, leaving you breathless when he pulled away. You stared up at him, a dazed look in your eyes.

“You’re not gonna wipe that one away now, are you?”

Lee Know:

"Honey? Is that you?" Minho's voice was soft, but it still broke through your post-work haze as you toed off your shoes by the door.

"Yeah Min, I'm home." You called back, shrugging off your jacket and hanging it up. Your scalp was screaming from being up in a bun all day, so you worked on wrestling out the bobby pins while you made your way to the living room.

You freed your hair from its confines just as you came around the corner, finding Minho’s gentle gaze peering back at you. He offered you a warm smile and patted the couch, beckoning you over.

“Hi love…” You said softly, plopping down beside Minho and letting him pull you into his side. You buried your head into the fabric of his hoodie and took a deep breath. “Missed you…”

Minho made a small cooing noise in the back of his throat and pet your hair gently. “Long day?”

“Only the longest… I just keep telling myself that this is my dream job…” You sighed, turning to rest your cheek against his chest.

“That bad, hm? You wanna talk about it?” Minho’s words sent tingles through your body from being pressed so close to him. You huffed out a laugh and shook your head.

“It’s okay, I’m just tired."

"Okay." Minho responded, shifting so he could press a smooch to your forehead.

The kiss was loud and dramatic, and it made you giggle. Without thinking, you wiped at the excess spit his left on your forehead. "Minho! You slobbered me!" You exclaimed, looking up at your boyfriend with a goofy grin on your face.

Minho was staring back at you. If looks could kill, you would be at death's door. It was as if his eyes were screaming at you, beyond offended at you wiping away his love. You couldn’t help but laugh and sat up, pressing your own kisses onto his skin in an apology.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry! Give me another kiss, I won't wipe it off again!"

Changbin:

Changbin, your love, your light, your life, had been annoying you to no end. This morning it had been his excessive screaming, this afternoon it had been his covers of random songs, and now he would not stop trying to teach you his rap parts in one of their new songs. And he was a really bad teacher.

"No, baby! The flow isn't right, you miss this syllable," He gestured to the lyrics written out in front of you, "and it really kills the rhythm. Let's try again!"

"Bin! I don't get it! I'm not a rapper!" You exclaimed, feeling more and more frustrated by his criticisms. Plus his hand writing was so bad that you could hardly read the lyrics in the first place.

Changbin pouted, grabbing your hand gently. “Can we try again? Please?” You groaned and slumped forward in your seat, laying your head on the table for a moment.

“Fineeee…” You said after a moment. Changbin smiled at the success of his pouting and started the track again.

This time, the word flowed from your lips like water in a stream. You didn't have near as much swagger as your boyfriend did while rapping, but you didn't sound bad by any means. When you chanced a glance over to Changbin, he was sitting there with stars in his eyes. You smiled despite yourself as the verse came to an end.

"So? Was that better?" You asked, leaning back in your chair.

"Was it better? That was great! My baby is a natural!" Changbin exclaimed, leaning over the table to press kisses to your cheeks.

You giggled and batted at him playfully. "I'm not a natural! You had to help me, silly!" Changbin stopped his attack and sat back, and you took the chance to wipe at all the kisses he left on your face. "That's for instilling me with false confidence." You snickered, smiling at him mischievously.

Changbin gasped and let out a dramatic whine. "Babyyyyy!! How could you?! Do you not love your Binnie??" You just started laughing, heart melting immediately at Changbin's cute pout.

"Noooo! Wait I'm sorry!" You laughed, getting up from your chair to hug your pouty boy. "I'll give you all the kisses you want, no more wiping them off!"

Hyunjin:

"Yah! Stay still!" Hyunjin barked at you from his seat in front of the canvas, throwing you a playful glare. You sighed and sat up straighter, trying your hardest to stay posed how he wanted you.

"Hyunnnn... my back is hurting!" You whined (because he didn't say anything about staying quiet). "Are you almost done?"

Hyunjin glanced at you again, his gaze softened. You knew he was starting to feel guilty for keeping you sat there for so long. He looked back to the canvas and started to work more diligently.

"Just a bit longer, okay? You look so beautiful, my love. I don't wanna rush..." Your boyfriend responded, his voice much less harsh now.

You nodded and settled in, keeping perfectly still and trying to ignore the burning that was slowly creeping up your spine. You distracted yourself by watching Hyunjin work. His long black hair was pulled up and away from his eyes, which were focused and calculating as he worked. He was just too pretty. It was unfair, honestly, but selfishly checking him out was your compensation so you couldn't complain too much.

Except for the fact that the pain in your back was getting harder to ignore.

You let out a loud, frustrated sigh before finally, finally, Hyunjin put down that godforsaken brush.

"Okay, okay, I'm done for now." He said, getting up and stretching. You did the same, trying to quell the fire in your muscles. "Come here, baby." You looked to see Hyunjin with his arms out, offering you a hug.

"I don't feel like I should hug you after that torture." You said, crossing your arms. Hyunjin smiled and shook his head, walking forward to wrap you up in his embrace anyway.

"Too bad, I missed you~" He hummed, burying his head in the crook of your neck. You couldn't help but smile and melt into him. Hyunjin chuckled and stepped back, brushing your hair away from your face and giving you a loving look. You pulled a playful scowl back onto your face, which made him laugh once again. "You're cute..." He hummed, placing a delicate kiss on your forehead...

...which you promptly wiped right off, jumping up from your seat and making your way to the door.

Hyunjin caught you around the waist just before you could escape. "Yah! That's not nice! Don't wipe away my love!" He exclaimed, a playful lilt in his tone. You began to giggle gleefully, which made him growl in your ear. "Oh, you wanna laugh?"

You squealed as his fingers dug into your tickle spots, and through your laughter you cried out, "I'm sorry! I won't wipe them away again!"

Han:

When you heard the front door close, it was nearing 1am. This was much later than the time that Jisung promised to be home. You'd practically been worried sick, especially since he wasn't answering your calls or texts. But no, clearly he was fine- just ignoring his worried partner.

So there you sat, arms crossed, silently fuming as your lovely boyfriend came around the corner.

Immediately, you felt bad when you saw him. He looked so tired. His big eyes were bloodshot and framed with dark circles when they were usually bright and full of life, and he was a bit slouched as he walked. But still, he perked right up when he saw you, lips pulling into his big, gummy smile.

"Hi baby!" He said cheerfully. His voice would be a sharp contrast to his appearance, if it wasn't for the hoarseness from recording all day. You glanced at the clock once again and felt yet another pang of frustration.

"Hi Ji," You greeted, offering him a tight lipped smile. "Little late, isn't it? Why didn't you answer my texts? I was worried." Jisung visibly deflated at your words as he sat beside you and that made your heart wrench in your chest.

"Ah- it is late, huh? I'm sorry, baby. I got caught up editing tracks with Chan and my phone died. The studio doesn't have Apple chargers anymore, so I couldn't fix it and there's no clock so-," You cut off his rambling with a hand on his arm.

"Ji- calm down. It's okay, I was just worried, that's all. I'm glad you're home." You told him, offering him a smile to assure him that you were being genuine. Jisung relaxed, and you opened your arms to pull him into a hug. "You okay?"

He nodded against your shoulder, holding you close. The two of you sat in silence for a moment before he pulled away and pressed a kiss to your cheek. You gave him a teasing look and dramatically wiped at the kiss, attempting to get a rise out of him.

That did not go over well, and instead of playing along, tears gathered in Jisung's eyes and his lips immediately pulled into a deep frown.

You laughed in disbelief and pulled him into another hug, holding the back of his head protectively.

"Oh baby, I'm sorry! I was just joking, please don't cry! I won't wipe any more off!"

Felix:

"Babe, are you gonna finish up soon? I'm bored..." You whined, laying face down on your boyfriend's bed, phone abandoned beside you. He'd been working on his PC for hours and you just wanted his attention.

"Impatient, hm?" Was all Felix said in response, and you could practically hear the smile in his voice.

You groaned loudly and kicked your legs. "Lix, it's been hours. I'm wasting away over here!" Felix just laughed, his deep chuckle sounding way too teasing.

You lifted your head and scowled at his back, wishing he'd set down those stupid tools and come pay attention to your before you literally went insane. As you glared at him, an idea crossed your mind. There was an old Tiktok couples prank that you had been wanting to try since you started dating... What better way to get back at him for ignoring you?

Felix was hunched over his keyboard at you approached him from behind, focused on screwing something into something else. When you reached him, you leaned forward, pressing your chest against his back, and wrapped him up in a back hug.

"Lix... pay attention to me..." You whispered in his ear, you voice overly sensual. Felix tensed up beneath you, and you heard his breathing pick up in the quiet of the room. "Oh? Was that all it took?" You teased, nipping at his earlobe before returning to your place on the bed.

It took about .5 seconds until Felix was on you, pushing you down onto the bed and kissing your feverishly. You giggled into the kiss, allowing him to cage you in just for a moment before you pushed at his chest. Felix pulled away and looked at you wildly, his cheeks and ears still bright red from when you flustered him.

You held eye contact with him as you wiped your lips with the back of your hand, giving him a wink as you did so. Felix's face was shocked for a moment, but then he smiled. Fuck, you forgot about how much he was on Tiktok too.

"Did you try to prank me? Why don't I make you regret ever wiping my kisses off, then?"

Seungmin:

Today was one of those rare days that you had off from work. It was a small blessing after a hectic week of project reports and visits from your higher ups, and you were thankful to have some time to recooperate. Unfortunately, Seungmin was still working and you wouldn't see him until the evening.

Luckily he forgot to pack lunch today, so you had the perfect excuse to cook him something he liked and visit him at work.

When you knocked on the door to the practice room all he and his members were in, they had all just finished a dance practice. Seungmin couldn't help the goofy smile that took over his face when he saw you, which made you laugh. The boys teased him for a moment as they gathered their things, greeting you kindly when they filed out the door.

"How was practice?" You asked once everyone had left. Seungmin groaned dramatically and flopped onto the small couch near the door. You laughed and maneuvered him so you had some room to sit too. "That bad?"

"'S fine, just hardddd... my body hurts..." He whined, throwing an arm over his eyes. You hummed and patted his tummy, which made him groan again.

"I'm sorry you're hurting, love. Do you want some food?" Your question had him interested, so he removed his arm from over his eyes and looked at you.

"You brought me food?" He asked. You were almost offended at how surprised he looked.

"Duh, you forgot to pack anything this morning. I wasn't gonna let my baby starve!" Your words were teasing, but genuine, and you watched joyfully as Seungmin's cheeks got all rosy. He sat up and scooted towards you, wrapping you up in a hug and pressing a soft kiss to your lips.

It would've been a nice gesture if he wasn't so sweaty.

"Ah! You're getting me all gross with your sweat!" You cried, cringing at the hug and shying away from the kiss. Once he let you go, you immediately began wiping at your lips and trying to rid yourself of any residual boyfriend sweat.

"Oh yeah? You're gonna be like that? Wiping off my kisses?" Seungmin asked, giving you a challenging look. Without a second thought, you attempted to jump up and run away, only to be caught around the waist.

"Wait! I won't wipe them off again! Seungmin!"

I.N:

You considered messing with Jeongin to be a sort of art form, to say the least. He was clever, but he could also be gullible. That made pranks a 50/50 shot with him, either he figured you out immediately or he would fall for it hook, line, and sinker.

Today, you had devised a fool-proof plan to make sure that he would let you have your fun.

Couple pranks were something you had been wanting to try for a while. You didn't want to film them or post them or anything, you just purely liked a good, light-hearted prank and your boyfriend was a decent victim. There was one that had caught your attention back before you had started dating Jeongin, and it seemed like one he was unlikely to catch onto. Until you told him about it, at least.

It all started when you came back from grabbing groceries at the store. Errands were no fun to do alone, but since it was hard to go out in public together with Jeongin, you usually had no choice. It was all better when you got back home, though.

Jeongin had the weekend free from schedules, which was pretty uncommon. It also meant he was there to greet you when you came home instead of you waiting for him. He was sitting in the kitchen doing work on his computer when you came through the door.

A smile immediately broke out across his face when he saw you, his dimples greeting you just as eagerly. "Hi, babe. Need some help?" It wasn't really even a question he needed to ask, because he was already getting up to grab the bag from you before you could answer.

You smiled at him lovingly and set down the second bag. Jeongin set down the one he took beside it, and when you turned towards him, he captured your lips in a gentle kiss. You sighed into the kiss and cupped his cheek, drawing him in closer.

“Hi…” You whispered when you pulled away, still feeling those classic butterflies when you looked into his bright eyes. Jeongin giggled and leaned to kiss you again, just a peck this time, before he turned to start putting the groceries away.

“Was the store okay? I heard-,” Whatever he was gonna say next died on his tongue as he turned and looked to see you wipe your mouth on the back of your hand. “Did… did you just wipe my kiss away?”

You couldn’t help but break out into laughter at his words and the look of pure confusion on his face. He didn’t look remotely offended, just confused.

“I’m sorry baby, it was just a prank!”

“Too bad, I’m never kissing you again.”

“Nooo!! I promise to never wipe off another one!”

[poorslaindoll]

I’m gonna be so fucking real with y’all rn.

So I’ve more or less been casually keeping up with Hazbin Hotel since the pilot days. I did some fanart at some point and did a cosplay once, but I currently do not consider myself part of the fandom (certainly not the hatedom bc y’all are kinda ridiculous). But anyway I’ve seen a lot of the criticisms for the show and have seen the episodes (I’ve also seen all the Helluva Boss episodes and this all applies to that show as well). And while I have a handful of criticisms of my own, none of them involve the amount of cursing in it???

Because like…

I do NOT understand why everyone gets so pissy about the cursing. Like maybe it’s because I’m a homestuck fan and that comic curses more than both Hazbin and Helluva probably ever will combined and I see nothing wrong with it? Like cursing isn’t the punchline like some of y’all seem to think it is. That’s just how some people talk and for the LIFE of me I do not see why people are clutching their pearls about it. Like is there some social standard about swearing that I missed? I know some people prefer to not curse and that’s fine and up to personal preference. But like… Growing up on the internet in the 2010’s alone got me so desensitized to profanity that I literally could not care less when someone drops the fuck word.

I curse like a sailor, most of my friends curse like sailors, and even my super religious mom curses like a sailor sometimes. So every time I hear someone complain about it I’m just like… okay??? Get over it??? I understand that there’s a time and a place for the use of certain kinds of language, but you’d think that an adult show targeted for adults about a place where everyone’s an asshole is an appropriate instance for swearing to be allowed.

Sorry if that comes off as harsh or insensitive for some reason. It just really baffles me and I am so genuinely confused about it all. This isn’t even an "oH tHeY’Re iN heLL" thing either. I just don’t understand and low key feel like I’m either going crazy or just really missing something here.

[idkwhatever580]

I’m sure you could pt. 2

Masterlist

Part 1

Pairings:Natasha romanoff x reader

Prompt: y/n goes with nat as she navigates her way around the red room. (based off of black widow)

Warnings: violence, blood/injuries, trauma probably, red room stuff, swearing. Lmk if I missed any.

A/N: here’s part two!

Here’s the two people that wanted to be tagged in this individually. I can add y’all to the Taglist if you want!!! @alexvausesgirl @rosea-reginae

Y/n’s pov

We’re standing in the streets of Budapest as I look at Natasha for what to do next.

This poor girl just had a “self destruct” mode on her. Like she was an object.

As I watched the life leave her eyes I see a flicker of red. I zone out thinking of what it could be but Nat pulls me with her to get out of there.

Natasha takes me to a messed up apartment looking building and we go up to one of the rooms. Before she goes it she gets a hidden key and whispers in my ear

“Stay here. Whatever you do, do not go inside until I call you okay?”

I nod my head and she hands me a gun to protect myself. I stand against the wall and wait.

As expected they get into a fight, but I really want to go in there. I know Natasha is fully capable of handling Yelena but I’m nervous.

From what I can hear, she’s holding back. If she really wanted to, she’d have snapped her neck in five seconds. But Yelena is her sister. Of course she wouldn’t want that.

It gets quiet and I worry. A lot. But i listen to nat and stay put.

Suddenly Yelena says

“Who’s with you?”

Nat says

“My wife. Y/n you’re okay to come here”

I walk in with the gun still in my hand and I give it to Natasha.

They start talking and I stay quiet.

“You brought it back here?”

“I’m not here trying to be your friend but you need to tell me what that is”

I almost butt in because of how Natasha is talking to her sister. She needs to stop being an asshat.

Then Yelena explains what it is in a bunch of words that are way too big for me.

What I’ve caught is that it’s a gas. And Natasha says

“Maybe in English next time?”

Then Yelena speaks in Russian because she’s petty but I don’t quite understand a bunch of Russian. I know the simple terms. And a few other pet names that Natasha had given me over the years. But not much more.

It’s not like it matters to me anyways.

They banter more back and forth and Natasha starts changing.

She takes off her shirt to show her fresh bruises from her fall off the bridge earlier.

I walk up to her silently and kiss one of them on her shoulder.

I can feel yelenas eyes on us but it fine.

They talk more and then suddenly Yelena brings up the red room.

I thought nat brought down the red room. And she says the same thing. But apparently not.

I look down and realize that it’s been years since she thought she took it down and that there’s probably millions of girls who have gone through the same thing since.

Suddenly we get ambushed and Natasha and Yelena all fit with me onto a motorcycle. Don’t ask me how they did it though. Then we switch into a car. Thank god I was about to fall off.

We barely get away and we are hiding in some vents.

I look over and find some games of tic tac toe and scratches. I trace my fingers along the n and c that were left there.

Goosebumps litter across my skin as I realize she’s been here before. She’s run from people in this exact spot before.

Honestly I haven’t said a word this whole time. So while nat is explaining that she and Clint hid out here for a few days, I grab her hand softly.

I rest my shoulder on hers and she is unbothered. She understands that I need some comfort right now.

We get on the move and end up in a random town late at night. They get drinks and I get a water because I’m dehydrated. They have some banter and Natasha gets up to go get another drink.

Yelena addresses me by my full name probably to intimidate me.

“So. Y/n Romanoff.”

I look up and wait for her to say what she wants to

“You’re my sisters wife.”

I nod my head and she continues

“Which makes us sisters in law”

I once again nod my head. And she asks more questions.

“Do you not speak?”

I shake my head and say

“I can speak. I just haven’t had anything to say”

She nods her head and Natasha sits down and she asks more questions.

“Do you have kids?”

I shake my head and say

“No. I don’t know if we will.”

Natasha agrees and asks the same.

“Do you want kids yel?”

Instead of answering outright she says

“I want a dog”

I nod my head and say

“You’re not into relationships like that are you?”

She shakes her head.

“I don’t know what I am. But I’ve been trying to do some research”

I look her up and down. I knew my gaydar was pinging.

“Aromantic or asexual maybe?”

She nods her head and says

“Something of that nature. I haven’t figured it out yet. But I’m leaning towards that.”

I nod my head and say

“You’ve got lots of time to figure it out. Don’t worry. I’ll support you the whole way.”

She nods her head and looks at her arm. Natasha takes charge and says

“Here. Let me wrap this.”

Yelena hesitates but nods her head and I say

“I’m gonna go to the restroom”

They nod and I leave so that they can talk by themselves.

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Nobody’s pov

As Natasha is pouring alcohol on yelenas injury she says

“Well. You’ve met my wife. What do you think?”

Yelena hums and says

“She seems sweet. She shouldn’t be here though. she doesn’t know what we’re dealing with here”

Natasha nods her head

“I tried to send her home. But she’s hard headed like you. So she insisted. I still tried to send her away but the look she gave me was not one I mess around with.”

Yelena laughs and says

“The infamous black widow, who can kill a man in five seconds, is scared of a girl who looks like she couldn’t hurt a fly”

Natasha has a chuckle too and says

“Don’t be fooled. She’s nice. But she’s crazy. One time Tony pinched me a bit too hard and I reacted and she punched him in the face. She broke his nose”

Yelena laughs at this and says

“Wow. Remind me not to get on her bad side.”

Natasha and Yelena wrap it up as y/n comes back.

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Y/n’s pov

I come back and sit down.

They go back to talking and I rest my head on Natasha’s shoulder and fall asleep.

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I wake up with Natasha shaking my arm. I’m in a whole different place now. Apparently nat decided to just carry me to our sleeping place. And we get up and I follow them out to find mason standing next to a rinky dink helicopter.

We hop on and I just follow their orders. Apparently we’re breaking their father not really father out of jail.

Yelena stays in the helicopter as Natasha goes down. This is so cool.

A bunch of things happen in a flash and now we’re sitting in the helicopter talking about fallopian tubes.

Like we legit almost died from an avalanche and now they’re bickering.

I am staring at this guy. His name is Alexie. He’s big.

He stands up and says

“Who are you?”

I stand up and get up to him to show at least I’m not scared as Natasha gets a bit worried.

She’s scared someone is going to hurt someone. But I say

“I. Mr Alexie. Am your daughter’s wife”

He furrows his eyebrows and says

“Yelena? You are married?”

Yelena rolls her eyes and before she can say anything I butt in and say

“No dipshit. I’m married to Natasha. My name is Y/n Romanoff.”

I kind of shuck the whole bad girl persona and hold out my hand.

He brushes it aside and ignores it. But Natasha doesn’t stand for any kind of disrespect especially towards her wife so she says

“Ah. No. She held her hand out to shake. You shake her hand”

He rolls his eyes like a kid but finally shakes my hand back.

I wipe my hand off afterwards and we start heading to somewhere else.

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The helicopter runs out of gas and we start walking the rest of the way.

I trail behind while the rest of them bicker until we get to Melina’s.

She has pigs. It reminds me of my childhood. When I used to have pigs. My dad would love this.

I remember when my dad brought me to the barn and pointed at the pig that was mine. He handed me some marshmallows and helped me hold out my hand. The way that the pig ate them made me so happy.

Another thing about pigs is they’re very warm and cuddly so if they’re asleep they make great pillows. Like baymax from big hero 6.

(A/N: I used to show pigs in livestock shows and I would sleep on them and feed them marshmallows. So comfy and warm)

We end up awkwardly sitting at a dinner table while Melina sits back down with her iPad.

Apparently this fake family has some serious trauma that they need to work out.

She calls in a pig

“Good boy Alexie”

“You named a pig after me?”

“You don’t see the resemblance?”

I snort a bit at that quip. It was funny.

Then she says

“Alexie stop breathing”

She slides her finger across the iPad screen and the pigs breath hitches.

My eyes widen and I rest my hand on nats thigh.

She starts talking but I’m too busy watching alexie the pig hold his breath to listen.

My eyes tear up a bit and nat finally says

“What are you doing?”

The pig falls over as Melina continues to fucking yap and I squeeze nats thigh tighter.

Melina keeps talking until I accidentally let out a whimper of fear for this pig. So Nat cuts her off.

“I think you’ve proven your point”

She finally lets him breathe and sends him out and I look at her like she’s crazy.

They end up talking a lot more but I can’t seem to snap out of the fact that the reason that girl from earlier died was because of this stuff. They controlled her. She couldn’t do anything about it.

This pig had the same glint in its eye when commanded to do something. Just like the girl. I can’t stand it anymore so I excuse myself to the restroom and go in there to calm down.

I close the door and try to calm down my breathing.

Maybe I’m not cut out for this. God I should have listened to Natasha when she told me to go home. I just wanted to make sure she was safe.

I finally calm myself down at least a little bit and I step out of the bathroom but I freeze when I hear Yelena get choked up

“Don’t say that please don’t say that. You were my family-”

I can’t even hold myself together anymore so I go back into the bathroom like I never left.

I hear Yelena storm off into a different room and footsteps I can only assume are Alexies follow behind.

I have to calm myself all over again and I just sit in the bathroom for a little while.

Natasha’s pov

Yelena just stormed off with Alexie on her tail and im staring at Melina with such anger right now.

“You know you did this to us? You could have done the right thing and helped us when we were girls. But you didn’t.”

“It was my job”

“Your job was to give two little girls hope for a life? And then just take it all away? That’s not a job. A job is something you go to an office for. Where you type on a computer all day. Not ruin innocent lives. And what’s more. You scared my wife.”

Melina scoffs and says

“It was a pig holding its breath”

“You know it was so much more than that. You know that pig created a hell for Yelena and so many other girls. She was set free by chance. And it is my job now to set them free by choice. Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to make sure my wife is okay”

I get up and walk to the bathroom door and knock on it.

“Y/n? Detka? It’s me, please let me in.”

No answer.

Melina walks up to me and says

“She might need some space.”

I nod my head and go to the living room and pick up an old picture book.

“She shouldn’t be here you know?

I look up from the pictures and say

“I know. I tried to get her to go home but she wouldn’t budge. She’s smart. She knows what she can handle and what she can’t. But I just hope she knows the gravity of what we’re dealing with.”

“I’m sure she does. She loves you. You know that? It takes a lot of effort to love someone that much.”

I smile and say

“And yet that kind of love flows so freely from her.”

I look back down at the photo album and flip a page. I reminisce about a fake Christmas we had. It was so fun.

Melina takes a small step back and looks down. Then the bathroom door opens and I step away from her to check up on y/n.

Y/n’s pov

After a while in the bathroom Nat knocks on the door. I hear her but I just don’t have it in me to answer. I feel like I’ll break down if I do.

I stay in the bathroom for a little longer and I finally get up and stand in front of the mirror.

I give myself a silent pep talk and splash my face with water. And then I dry it and open the door.

Nat is next to me in an instant asking

“Are you alright?”

I look down and just hug her tight. I squeeze my eyes shut and just hold onto her tightly.

I know Melina is watching us but I don’t care. She can stare all she wants I need this.

I thread my fingers through her hair and grip it tight. Then I tuck my face into her neck.

“I know. I know detka. I’m right here for you. I’m sorry”

I shake my head softly and then pull away.

“Don’t apologize”

We stay silent for a few seconds and I take this time to really admire her. Really take her beauty in.

Melina has gone by now.

I move some hair out of her face and say

“You’re beautiful you know that”

She smiles shyly and I say

“Talia?”

She looks at me knowing I only use that name when I’m deeply concerned or really want her attention.

“I love you. You know that right?”

Nat nods her head and I say

“Good. Because you need to know it. I love you from the bottom of my heart”

Nat smiles with a guilty face and says

“I still dont think you should go.”

I close my eyes softly in defeat and say

“If you really do not want me to go with you. Then I will respect your wishes. I can surely stay here in this house and care for the animals while you’re gone.”

Nat smiles at me and says

“I thought you’d say no.”

I send her a watery smile and say

“I could never say no to you. But if I stay you have to promise me…”

I get a bit choked up and she says

“Promise you what?”

I let a tear slip and say

“Promise me that you’ll be safe. And you’ll come home to me”

“I always do”

I shake my head and say

“I know you always do. But that reassurance is not enough this time please promise me”

She looks down and says

“I know how you feel about promises. Your father always broke promises so now you never ever make a promise you can’t keep. And I cannot imagine a world where I do not come home to you. But I cannot make a promise that I cannot guarantee I’ll be keeping.”

A few more tears slip out of my eyes and I shake my head at her and say

“Damn you Romanoff.”

She lets a tear fall too and says

“I can however promise you this. I promise, that I will be the safest I can be. I will never stop trying to come home to you. And I will use every ounce of energy I have in my body if it means I get to come home to you even one more time”

My lip quivers a bit and I nod my head but before I can say anything she continues

“I need you to know that I won’t let go. Not now. Not ever. Because it always has and always will be you at the end of the day. So if I have to expend every fiber of my being just to see you one more time so be it.”

I start full on crying now. She is saying part of her vows. She holds me close and says the rest in my ear.

“And lastly I vow that when death does decide to take my hand, I will hold you with my other.”

I nod my head and hold her again. It takes a while for me to compose myself again and I pull away from her.

I push her shoulder and say

“You made me cry god damnit!”

Then I laugh a little and she says

“It was not my intention. I just wanted you to remember how much I love you”

I smile and nod my head then I whisper

“I love you too”

Then I start giggling and Nat asks

“What’s the matter?”

I smile and say

“Mine doesn’t sound as good since you had to go and say that stuff”

She giggles with me too and says

“Yours sounds like music to my ears. It fills me just as much”

She kisses me and says

“I’m gonna go try and find Melina okay?”

I nod my head.

“I’m gonna go find Yelena and see if she’s okay”

Nat nods her head and walks off and I go in the direction I thought she went.

Natasha’s pov

I watch y/n leave and turn around and see Melina.

I go to her and see how she has a tear running down her face.

“Tell me, how did you keep your heart?”

I don’t know how to respond to that so I think and say

“Pain only makes us stronger. Didn’t you tell us that?”

I sigh and say

“What you taught me kept me alive”

She takes that in and then says

“I’m sorry I already alerted the Red Room. They’ll be here any minute”

I look at her with wide eyes and then turn my head down. My tears fall freely now. And I nod my head knowing I’m going there now.

Y/n’s pov

I get to the door where I hear Alexie and her talking when suddenly a bright blue light flashes and damn near blinds me.

It gets loud as if helicopters or planes are flying around the house and I open the door slightly and see Yelena. She shakes her head to signal that I shouldn’t go in there.

I nod my head and look down to see Alexie on the ground with about fifteen darts in his chest. That explains the thud.

She opens the door fully and walks in gun at the ready so she can make sure it’s clear.

Then she whispers

“Stay close. And stay hidden.”

I nod my head and follow her slightly. I follow behind her in the hallway as she checks to see if it is clear.

She looks down and I follow her eye sight and I see Nat unconscious on the floor. I almost gasp but someone might be here so I pull back and hide around the corner.

I cover my mouth so I don’t say anything as Yelena investigates further.

All I can do is listen so I try to use my hearing as best I can.

I hear her take a few steps and then stop and then someone else’s footsteps come from the other direction.

They speak and say

“I’m sorry”

It’s Melina. She shoots Yelena with a widows bite and Yelena falls back to where I can see her.

I am frozen in fear but I just pray that she doesn’t think I’m in this spot.

But I’m never that lucky am I?

Even before she steps to me she says

“And as for you…”

She turns the corner and says

“You really didn’t expect me to leave you here? I’m not that stupid.”

She holds up her arm to shoot me with another bite and I say

“Wait! You don’t have to do this Melina.”

She squints at me and I continue

“You can do what you should have done all those years ago. You can let us go. You can save us”

She tilts her head and says

“It is too late for that now.”

I close my eyes knowing there’s no way out of this and she shoots.

The pain that courses through me before I pass out is horrible.

If this is even a fraction of what that girl back in Budapest felt I can’t even imagine what she actually went through.

Then everything turns black.

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I wake up in a weird hospital room. I try to get up but I’m tied to the table and I look around and see Yelena being drawn on by someone. She says

“This is a much less cool way to die”

I lay back and give up on my attempts to escape.

The “doctor” starts whirring a device I can only assume is to cut our fucking heads open or something.

Then suddenly. Yelena says

“What?”

I look at her and so do the doctors.

They approach her so I try to distract them

“What are you going to do to us?”

And they go back to their work. I let out a sigh of slight relief.

I look across the room to see Yelena being approached by these doctors again and she is reaching for something. I see her grab a knife.

God I hope this works

I just sit there and watch her go into action. She immediately cuts the closest doctor and starts fighting the rest.

She got stuck with a needle but she just pulls it out unfazed and goes and cuts me out of the straps and I thank her and follow her.

She grabs her vest and says

“You couldn’t have told me sooner?”

I look at Yelena and say

“What’s happening?”

“Melina is on comms with me. I’ve got you”

I nod my head and follow her as she continues to talk to the earpiece.

Then after she wipes the marker off her forehead and looks in a hallway she says

“Yeah sure. Easy”

I follow her eyesight up to the air vents and says

“Vents? Again?”

She smiles at my comment and we get in and I struggle and say

“What is it with you guys and air vents?”

We keep moving until we get to another place and Yelena opens the vent and drops down like Nat always does.

Then she shivers and says

“That was disgusting”

I giggle and drop down in the same way and say

“Hmm. I felt kind of cool”

Yelena smirks and says

“Great. My poser sister married a poser wife”

I smile and we continue on our way.

She goes to the wall and I nod towards the guy and say

“Let me”

She hesitantly nods her head knowing if anything goes wrong she can step in. But I handle it perfectly by using a move Natasha taught me.

He’s out and she drags him to scan his hand to let us past.

We step into a room that has security cameras and I see Dreykov slap Natasha.

That bastard. I’ll kill him.

But I tilt my head when Natasha has a cocky demeanor.

She’s playing a game.

He doesn’t know it. But I do. And when she plays games. She wins.

He slaps her again and she keeps talking but the cams don’t have volume so I dont know what they’re saying.

Yelena pulls me away from the screens to continue on our way.

We go and find the red vials that are an antidote to the chemical subjugation.

Not a good enough reason to use those big words if you ask me.

Yelena speaks to Melina and says

“Melina I’ve found the location of the vials”

And she relays the information to me

“Melina said that she’s had a slight setback and we will need to get to the widows.”

I nod my head and we move on.

We start running to wherever they are and then she says

“Fantastic I’m headed to the widows now”

I look at her and she said

“Melina just blew up one of the engines. We’re crashing. But it’s controlled.”

I nod my head

She opens the door to get to the widows and they’re all gone.

“No”

“Where are they?”

“Dreykov called the widows. He’s in trouble.”

I look at her and say

“That means that Nat got to him yes?”

She nods and says

“Which also means we need to get to them faster because if we don’t all of those widows are going to kill her”

Yelena grabs a bomb and wraps the vials around it.

I widen my eyes and we bolt.

We get there after a shit ton of turns and each of the widows are having their turn on my wife.

Yelena pulls the pin and throws the bomb in the air as Natasha never stops fighting.

I am frozen as I can only watch what is unfolding.

The widows come to and Natasha is on her knees knowing she is safe now.

I run to her as the girls are waking up from whatever chemicals had them controlled.

There is something in Nat’s shoulder and Yelena comes once and pulls us away.

Nat pats her shoulder and Yelena says

“That looks like it hurts. Okay I take it out on three ready?”

Nat nods her head and Yelena just rips it out with no warning and nat grunts really loud.

“I’m sorry”

I close my eyes a bit and just hold onto Nat’s hand.

This one girl speaks in a different language and I just look at them all. And nat responds.

“Get as far away from here as possible. You get to make your own choices now”

Then an explosion goes off and we are kind of lulled back into reality. Natasha speaks

“We gotta get out of here”

Yelena says

“Are you coming?”

“Yeah I’m right behind you”

I stay with Nat as she goes to Dreykov’s desk and does some tech stuff. I look at her and she says

“You need to go with them”

I shake my head as she logs in with his ring and I say

“Absolutely not. I can’t leave you again.”

She shakes her head and lets me stay.

I watch the screen as thousands of pictures of girls flow into a drive for Natasha to take.

Then I look over and she has to break her nose back into place and I say

“Shit. Are you okay?”

She nods and says

“I’ve been worse.”

Then the drive is finished and she pulls it out and grabs some leftover vials and says

“Let’s go! This thing is going down and it’s going down fast!”

We have to jump out of the window and I grab onto her as she grabs a wire. She points to Melina and Alexie getting into a jet.

“Go!”

I look at her and say

“I love you”

She stops for a second and says

“I love you too. So much”

I nod and then I run to the jet while Natasha finishes her business.

I get to the jet and it immediately falls and is going through an explosion.

Melina says

“We need to go back”

Then a soldier lands on the windshield and Alexie throws something at it.

I am being thrown around in here and Melina says

“We’ve lost control!”

I sigh and shake my head.

I’m going to die.

We crash and everything goes black.

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I wake up and everything is hazy. I look around and see shrapnel falling from the sky but I don’t care. All I am looking for is Natasha. I look for any signs. And then suddenly I see something flailing around.

It’s not a something.

It’s Natasha.

And the taskmaster fighting in the fucking air.

I scream

“Nat!”

But it’s no use. It’s not like she can hear me anyways.

They land on the ground and somehow don’t fucking die.

Damn what kind of a movie am I fucking living in

I go to get up but my leg is killing me. I didn’t even notice until just now.

I look at my leg and see my ankle is broken.

I groan and all I can do is watch them fight.

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I watch as everything unfolds.

The Red Room crashed into the ground.

Natasha ran to Yelena.

The family all came together and all I can do is watch.

I watch Natasha and I wonder if she has even thought of me yet.

I can’t hear her but suddenly they all start looking around.

Natasha looks frantic as she starts yelling.

She’s yelling my name.

Thank god

I try to get up and I use a chunk of Red Room that’s next to me to stand up but when I go to take a step the pain is excruciating and I scream out

“Gahh!!”

This alerts Melina and she points to where I fall over.

Natasha runs to me and cradles me in her arms.

I look up at her and say

“I was beginning to think you forgot about me”

I laugh softly and Natasha smiles at my inability to be serious.

She leans down and says

“I’d never forget about you.”

I tear up and say

“You did it.”

She sniffles and shakes her head

“No. No we did it.”

I nod my head

“Nat?”

She looks at me and I look at her and we both know what I want.

So she leans in ever so softly and kisses me.

This kiss is different. It feels like the one we shared on our wedding day. The one we shared when we proposed. It’s a big moment kind of kiss.

But it also is different to all of those memories. It’s like a reunion. Like on a romance movie when the lovers get separated and come together again.

When I pull away I look into her eyes and say

“We need to go.”

She nods her head and says

“Come. Let me help you”

She picks me up and I roll my eyes.

“I could walk if I tried”

She rolls her eyes and laughs softly knowing this game and says

“I’m sure you could.”

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A/N: oh my lord this took fucking forever. Im not gonna lie I actually thought I would decompose before I finished. It got to the point where I just pulled up the black widow movie and started writing shit down almost exactly how it played out 😭🤦‍♀️

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(I’m right here babes!!!)

MANAGER HAS MATCHING HOODIES WITH THE TEAM 🗣️🗣️🗣️

They have lots of matching things actually, matching shoes, jewelry, pajama sets, mostly the managers doing. Like there’s so many pictures of them walking around with matching tops and bottoms on cuz you better believe she’s like “Y’all match with me today or i’m gonna start a war.” (I mean they were gonna do it regardless)

Something also tells me that the manager is secretly good at basketball and just doesn’t tell anybody 🫣 Idk she strikes me as one of those people who’s like “you don’t know a lot about me.” like okay mysterion

Manager learned Croatian for Nika and I will take NO OBJECTIONS. They’re always talking shit and cussing each other out in Croatian as well, and sometimes the camera picks it up and people try to make out what they say on the court.

But like imagine when the manager first spoke it to Nika and told her why she was learning it, I swear my heart would melt. Manager is just so considerate and what’s to make her girls comfortable and started learning it thinking that it would make Nika feel a bit more at home 🥺 Hold on I’m gonna sob in a corner real quick

Manager has tea about staff members (mainly previous ones) and spills it with them team 100%. Any drama that happened within the staffing the girls know about.

I can imagine how those conversations start

“I wonder what happened to (staff member)” and the manager is just like “girlllll…”

“Tell us, SPILL IT NEOW🗣️🗣️”

The shit talking between the team is so fucking funny

Manager ranting about a previous co worker and the team is just eating that shit up.

“Talking like my outfits affect my work ethic, NEWS FLASH BITCH! If it was such an issue the other staff above me would’ve said something years ago when I first started. I’ve been here bitch.”

(Random but I feel like Paige is one of those people where, if the manager is telling a story, and she told Paige already, Paige it doing commentary the whole time manager is telling the story to the others.

Manger: She’s constantly eying me up and down everytime she sees me. Like the other day she went “You are just all sorts of unprofessional.” like bitch???

Paige: Now Mind you!!! This bitch is worried about what the manager is doing, YET she just started her position and is already talking shit about her SUPERIOR, who has been here for years.” )

Sometimes the manager doesn’t tell the girls outright who it is if the staff member is still there, but they’ll figure it out quickly.

-🐹

BABYYYYYYY I MISSED U AND UR RAMBLESSSSSS HELLOOOOOO!!!!!!

oh my gosh, and matching rings!!!!!!! idk why i've been obsessed with the thought of the entire team being dripped tf out but i feel like they'd also have big ass matching rings

lowkey... because her sister is rly good at basketball and she def taught her some tricks so she'd definitely have some skill yk, and everyones like "WHATTT, what can't y/n do?????" (literally nothing she's barbie)

the whole croatian thing is SO REAL BECAUSE YES!!!! she's not quite fluent but she's almost there bc nika teaches her sm, and the shit talking thing is so real

i feel like they do most of their shit talking on the bus, but they do it quietly cus they don't want geno to hear but like.... he does (he just honestly doesn't gaf) and she's spilling everything

oh and kk and paige are very active listeners, the head nodding and the gasping pls like "SHE DID WHAT??"

[lopsicle]

Okay,like a couple minutes ago I learned that it is actually trans day of visibility today soo woohoo! Kind of hard to celebrate in this shithole called the UK though, so I’m going to hide on tumblr and talk about which characters I think are trans coded or just Headcanon as trans because it’s my day I can do that now heheheh-

Also, I’m just tryna do a little thing for trans visibility day, I like being opaque, I ain’t trying to start any arguments, if you see a Headcanon you disagree with, just scroll. And if you think I’m biased towards transfem characters, it’s because I am and I ain’t apologising for that, they’re underrated in terms of fandom and obvs I’m transfem so I love them and relate to them more. Transmasc characters still will be on this list though as there’s so many that I love.

Characters That I Think Are Transgender Because Fuck You

Number one: Hunter Noceda (The Owl House)

This was probably the easiest and hardest pick for the list, for a couple reasons. Number one, I don’t think there’s a single person who agreed this pathetic wet cat is cisgender. Whether you think he’s transmasc, transfem, something else entirely, he ain’t cis. It’s clear why the fandom clung to Hunter as the resident trans character, him having a secret identity via The Golden Guard (seriously, any character with a secret identity is immediately trans, I don’t make the rules), the overconfident attitude mixed with deep insecurity and his arc about finding a way to ‘like who he is right now’ in Thanks To Them really just sealed the deal. Other little details like how his hair cuts helped him find his new identity did not help his case.

While I personally think he’s transfem, and am just using he/him because that’s his canon pronouns, Hunter is one of those characters that a lot of people can identify with which is what The Owl House is really about so I kinda had to include him on this list. The reason it was a hard decision is because holy fuck, every single character in this show is trans. Deciding between him and Amity was the hardest choice of my life because transfem Amity is heavily underrated and I love her, but you really can’t compete with Hunter, he’s had an amazing influence on the fandom and the character has probably helped a lot of people come to terms with their identity.

To summarise, Hunter is a great character, I miss him everyday, I miss The Owl House everyday, he was cool as fuck and a lotta people identified with him.

Anne Boonchuy (Amphibia)

This is one that I feel is heavily underrated, and that’s coming from someone that took two years after the show ended to watch Amphibia. With Amphibia, pretty much all of the human characters are Headcanonned (is that a word?) as some part of the trans umbrella but Anne is the one who does not get enough attention, especially for a main character.

At least to me, Anne was very transfem-coded in the show, everything from her raggedy appearance, to her essentially assuming a new life in Amphibia to the arc about accepting who you are to THE SONG ABOUT ACCEPTING WHO YOU ARE-this was the most in your face, trans-coded rep I could ever ask for. But she is criminally underrated in terms of being viewed as trans rep even though I’ve found her story one of the most compelling in terms of trans coded storylines in nearly any piece of media I’ve ever seen. Give Anne more attention, she’s literally the best. Marcy and Sasha are cool too but Anne’s writing deserves so much more praise than it gets.

Dipper Pines (Gravity Falls)

If you haven’t realised it yet, this entire list so far is just one massive fuck you to Disney because fuck Disney. Dipper was the closest we got to having a canon trans main character in a mainstream animated show and it was taken from us, fuck Disney y’all. But still, Alex has all but confirmed Dipper’s identity as trans masculine, you can see remnants of that arc with him learning that he’s a man in his own right and masculinity being something he can define for himself, the whole thing about Dipper actually being a nickname, and him bonding with the men in his life, like Stan.

Even though I didn’t notice it when I was a kid watching the show, rewatching it now with the knowledge of Dipper’s identity makes the experience a bit more personal, I can see bits of myself in Dipper and I think that’s the whole point of his character. Watching it as a kid you can relate to him because of his sarcasm, his bluntness, his comedy but also because of how heroic, adventurous and curious he is, he’s basically the idealistic role of the viewer. But as you get older and think more critically about him, you can see more of his flaws and that makes him so much more real and so much more relatable. Obviously being trans isn’t a flaw, that was just me doing a side tangent because Dipper means the world to me and is only the standard of writing a cartoon protagonist in some ways, I just think he’s a really cool character and Disney robbed us.

Also Pacifica is transfem because TfT couples are hecking adorable

Sallie May (Helluva Boss)

Guess who just realised that (other than Dipper technically) I haven’t put a single canon trans character on this list. Headcanons are better, I don’t make the rules, but Sallie May is amazing. No matter how critical you are of Helluva Boss, one thing it unapologetically does well is queer representation. The amount of characters that the audience can relate to makes it almost addicting to watch as you get to watch these characters live their best lives. Well, their lives are kinda fucked but you get what I mean, they just get to live as queer people, most of the time.

And Sallie May is proof that trans people will eat up absolutely anything, even if it’s a whole thirty seconds of screen time of a trans character. Being fair to her, Sallie May eats up every moment she gets on screen, her dialogue can be equivocated to just a middle child acting like a middle child and I think it is partly that, I feel like we have a lot more to learn about Sallie May and in turn her sister Millie. At least I hope we do, Millie’s writing needs to improve, their family dynamics can be so interesting because every other one of their siblings is a boy, their parents can be judgemental, I feel like even if Sallie May can be a bit taunting to her, those two are probably really close, especially since Millie is one of the people Sallie May would have to go to for girl advice.

To summarise, since I went off on a bit of a tangent, Helluva Boss brings out the worst in me, give Sallie May and Millie more screen time, they’re the best, we love healthy sibling dynamics.

Double Trouble (She-Ra)

Jesus, they’re hot. Anyway, the first non binary entry on this list, the fabulous Double Trouble who stole the entire show from the moment they were introduced. Throughout the entirety of the last season, I can remember just waiting for the point that they’d show up again and nearly screaming when they did.

Double Trouble was one of the most charming members of the She-Ra cast and became effortlessly iconic, conning every single character, playing both sides of a war so that they’d come out on top, and they did win in the end. DT basically had zero consequences and even got to flirt with Sea Hawk when they were reintroduced so they got a win really. Double Trouble was mean, condescending and a liar and I love them so, so much, them being a shapeshifter is just absolutely perfect and fits their character so well. It was nice to see Non-binary rep in a cartoon and have it not immediately be cancelled, looking at Disney and thank God it wasn’t because She-Ra really wouldn’t be the same without this manipulated, child of a bitch

Crowley (Good Omens)

You know the gender’s hitting when you don’t even know what the fuck the gender is. Crowley is a delight of the character from the moment they’re introduced to the end of the show, which nearly broke my heart since I watched it just recently, if anybody would like to send me tissues, that would be greatly appreciated.

From my vast research of one google search, I’ve concluded that they’re gender is up to viewer interpretation which is actually what mine is too so I can respect that. This literal demon stole the show whenever they were on screen, whether it was David Tenant’s acting, the moments we saw softer sides of him, her pinning over Aziriphale of them just being an actual demon, Crowley is a wonderful piece of representation and I hate that because it makes me sad, let them get together, please.

KFC

Not to be confused with that one place that makes pretty good chicken, I’m talking about the protagonists of two of the best RPGs ever made, Undertale and Deltarune.

For those unaware, KFC is the trio name of Frisk, Undertale’s protagonist, Chara, Undertale’s narrator and Kris, Deltarune’s narrator. Despite them being the main characters, they’re not characterised too strongly as you are in control of them for most of the game, minus Chara who specifically says you aren’t in control of them. Due to it being canon to the games that you are playing as these characters, the Internet started a rumour that they are whatever gender you want them to be, which was just never true. Undertale is packed with trans representation, and these three are no exception. It’s the whole reason I added them to the list actually, just to get the message across if anyone was unsure; they’re all Nonbinary.

Frisk and Kris, despite only having glimmers of their true characters in the game, are still very lovable and intriguing with their actions. Even just the idea of these two being controlled, which is more of a heavy theme in Deltarune, is enough to make you interested in their characters, especially when Kris starts fighting back against you. This entire section is just gonna be a couple paragraphs of me fighting back the urge to yap about Undertale lore so you’ll have to forgive me. Chara, being the only one not under your control, has a much stronger character through the lines of dialogue from them or said about them, the latter usually being more interesting as it gives you insight to their tragic life.

Undertale is one of my favourite and given the amount of rep it’s given us, I had to pay homage to its own main characters on this list. Even though I’m hungry cause now I’m thinking about KFC.

Jake Peralta (Brooklyn Nine Nine)

I think it’s been a year since I finished tumblr’s favourite sitcom and while Jake was lovable, he didn’t stand out to me too much. Still, this guy suffered from that overconfidence but riddled with insecurity personality which lead to him being inevitably headcanonned (it’s a word I decided) as trans masculine. I don’t know what the correlation is between those kinds of characters and the transmasc headcanon, maybe it’s the desire to present as being that confident, maybe it’s being that confident but still held back by struggles about your gender identity but that’s neither here nor there.

What is here and is there is that this show was amazing for trans people, even if only in small ways and Jake was no exception to that. He was funny and watching him grow through those eight seasons gives you one of the most satisfying and heart throbbing conclusions to a TV show, largely due to his presence as the main character. Even though it’s not canon that he was trans masculine, the Headcanon is so popular that I had to pay homage to him and add him to the list.

Jack Kennedy (DSAF)

Is this fandom so dead and so unpopular that I couldn’t find a good gif? Yes. Am I gonna talk about it anyway because I love these games and I want an excuse and this is my day? Yes.

Anyway, Jack Kennedy was the main protagonist of the Day Shift at Freddy’s games and if you don’t know what those are, there’s a 50% chance you had an alright childhood. DSaF is obviously a fan game of the more well known horror franchise Five Nights at Freddy’s and I think they are some of the best fa games ever made. They’re hilarious, they’re so low budget it’s insane, it can give you the hardest tonal whiplash of not taking itself seriously to one of the hardest stories you’ve ever went through seamlessly and I don’t even get a fuck. The story told by these games is done so well and evokes so many emotions but one important thing it’s done is actually be really great for queer rep.

Despite it being played for more of a joke in the earlier games, the two characters Jack and Dave Millie clearly have romantic chemistry and that was so important back when the games released since they became so mainstream due to being attached to a popular franchise. Many fans headcanon Jack Kennedy as being non binary, which is a label that I think really works for them, mainly because it fits for the protagonists of roleplay games to be non binary. I can’t explain why, it just makes presenting the character to the audience so much easier and makes them a lot easier to play without having to worry too much about the gender of the character.

Anyway, Jack’s a self described asshole with a noble goal, and playing as them really gives you a feel of their character and makes you understand why this little known indie franchise snuck into so many people’s hearts.

Bridget (Guilty Gear Rising)

You know I had to end off the list with one of the most iconic, canon, transfem characters out of there. Pretty much every single transfem has heard of Brisket and not a single one has played Guilty Gear Rising, I had to look up the name of this game just before this to make sure I got the right one.

Bridget has recently become a meme on the Internet, with every other transfem having her in her pfp, Bridget became a staple in the community. As stated, I can’t talk too much about her character but seeing the Internet come together to just appreciate this one transfem character, despite their being obvious hate and pushback and claiming her being canon transfem was a ‘mistranslation’ (to my knowledge) was actually really heart warming.

I didn’t really get trans day of visibility too much, I was happy for it, thought it was cool we got a day but it didn’t really help us all that much. But the more I thought about Bridget is the more that I saw just how good it can feel when people come together. It doesn’t have to be a movement or a call to action to save trans people from another bill trying to wipe them out, which is just depressing to listen to, it can just be as simple as joking about this character that barely any of us know. That level of community made me understand what this day was actually about; finding common ground and letting at least one other person know that they’re not alone, that there’s so many people just like you out there, that went through the exact same thing as you did at some point. And to let you know, those people turned out fine, so you’ll be okay too.

Happy trans day of viability everyone, even if this list only reaches one person to let them know they’re not alone, I’ll be happy with that.

Anyway, ignore the emotional stuff there, here’s my honourable mention of

EVERY SINGLE SPIDERMAN, SPIDERWOMAN, SPIDERPERSON, TO EVER EXIST, THEY’RE ALL TRANS, YOU CAN’T CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE

[dollfaceksj]

i really hope taehyung has calmed down and ready to hear them out :(

i hope so too!

a/n: hi. i have realized and decided that it’s time to end toapp. #36 (the next drabble) will be the finale.

i just wanna thank you guys for this amazing journey. i’ve had so much fun interacting with you guys and writing this story, just making shit up as i go. i had no idea how this story was gonna go, how y’all would receive it, every drabble i just hoped for the best. it’s insane to think toward the end toapp had 400+ regular readers. that’s so crazy guys!! thank u so much

i hope u guys will still interact with me even when this finishes!!! and i hope you guys look forward to my upcoming fics. i’ve already brainstormed several other fics that i know y’all will love! i can’t wait to share them with you.

i might still do side-drabbles like what jk did in those 2 months, more events we’ve already seen but from other povs, maybe drabbles that happen in the future. i’ll see !

thank you for everything.

lots of love,

clover. 🍀

ps: listen to the outro of scott street by phoebe bridgers when u read this drabble trust me. i bawled like a little bitch.

taste of a poison paradise | jjk (m) #35

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WHAT SHOULD YOU DO?

BELIEVE HIS SIDE OF THE STORY 92,3%

DISMISS HIM IMMEDIATELY 7,7%

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you chose:

BELIEVE HIS SIDE OF THE STORY

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“do you want me to leave?”

he stares at you with the biggest eyes in the universe

how does someone just have big black eyes like that

like

the things he says

can be so dirty

and his gaze can be so intense

but now

when he’s

pleading

and being pathetic

his eyes are the biggest in the galaxy

he’s so beautiful

you wonder if he knows that

you sigh loudly and rub your hairline. “you’re so lucky you know your way with words.”

he blinks at you a few times and drops his shoulders in relief, you hadn’t even noticed they were that tense

“i’m just telling you the truth.”

you merely hum in response and nod your head absentmindedly as you glance over at the plate of cold chicken quesedillas now

“do you want me to heat those up in a pan for you?” you ask quietly, not sure where to go with the conversation now

when you don’t get a response, you glance in his direction

he’s just staring at you with an unreadable expression on his face

“jungkook?”

he shakes his head slowly. “do you believe me now?”

your brows pinch together in confusion. “yeah, i believe you. were you not telling the truth just now?”

he shakes his head again. “i’m not talking about just now i’m talking about me being in love with you.”

oh

right

yeah

you said you didn’t believe it

do you believe him?

your own feelings for him keep getting in the way of your rational thoughts

because you just want to believe him, even when your common sense still doubts it

“yeah,” you start, “i believe you.”

then, a soft smile creeps onto his lips. “okay.”

you reach for the plate but jungkook stops you by gently taking hold of your wrist mid-air. “i think you should just go lie down in bed. after what just happened, you just need a moment. i can tell you’re pretending to be okay.”

you blink at him

and the sincere look in his eyes

and the slight pinch in his brows

almost makes you tear up again

“i’ll clean the kitchen up, just,” he pauses as he lets go of your wrist, “go. i’ll be right there.”

you slowly nod your head and start walking out of your kitchen, heading to your bedroom

you lie down in your bed and stare at the ceiling, the events of barely 20 minutes ago playing on repeat in your head

taehyung

you miss him

you need him

you’re lucky jungkook was there to talk some sense into you

you should go to taehyung when the storm is over

and come clean with everything and just

beg for his forgiveness

and now that you think about it

you wonder

why it’s taking jungkook so long

??

you get up from your bed and slowly make your way to the kitchen

you peek your head around the corner of the door and that’s when you see

jungkook, standing by the sink

the mess taehyung made earlier on the floor has been cleaned up

and it seemed like jungkook was halfway through with the dishes

but now he’s just leaning against the sink with his hands and his head held down

what is he doing?

you wonder what it is until you hear a soft sniffle

you walk into the kitchen. “jungkook?”

he quickly sniffles again and wipes his cheeks before looking at you

you walk in further. “hey,” you whisper as you place your hand on his shoulder, soothingly rubbing it

he’s quiet for a few moments before he breaks down

“he’s my only friend and i betrayed his trust. you can bounce back because of your history with him but me? he’ll never want to see me again.”

oh

he sent you away because all of that panic that he had earlier concerning taehyung he couldn’t show

he had to swallow his own emotions because he had to calm you down

but it’s dawning on him real bad right now and you need to be here for him like he was there for you

you shake your head and move your hand over his back, rubbing it gently. “you’re crazy. he could never hate you, kook. like you said, he’s mad. it’s okay, we’ll catch him one of these days and talk it out. taehyung is the gentlest soul i know. he just needs some time to cool off.”

he sniffles quietly, his round nose so red and his big eyes puffy. “it took you so much convincing to believe me. what if he doesn’t believe me at all?”

“jungkook, taehyung knows you better than i do. he’ll know to believe you. i’m sure of it.”

he sniffles again and slowly nods.

“okay? here,” you say as you take the sponge out of his hand and rinse his soaped up hand. “let’s just go lie down for a bit. we’ll eat later.”

( ♡ )

the storm has finally let up the following day

and you need to do one more thing before you bite the bullet and face taehyung

you raise your fist and slowly knock on the door

you wait a few moments before it swings open

“hey, you.”

you smile at him. “hey, yoongi.”

he steps aside and invites you in

you quietly thank him and step in

“what’s up?” he asks as he heads into his living room and you follow him

“we uh,” you start as you nervously look around. “we need to talk.”

he halts in his movements and slowly turns to you. “oh. okay. would you like something to drink?”

you shake your head and gently take his soft hand into yours before leading him to the sofa

you both sit down and he’s staring at you with confused eyes. “so?”

you take a deep breath and finally glance at him. “yoongi,” you start, “you’re amazing. you really treat me exactly as a man should and i’ll always be thankful for that. you were never pushy, you were never condescending or overstepping. you just,” you pause for a moment to find more words but you kind of get stuck

it’s quiet

and he’s just staring at you

when the silence stretches out for longer than he likes, he decides to do something

his frown turns into a neutral expression. “finally chose jungkook, have you?”

oh

your eyes go wide and your throat goes dry.

fuck

“what?”

“i don’t like how you think i’m stupid, y/n.”

wh

what is he

what is

what is going on

you blink at him. he clearly is unimpressed with your attempts at letting him down slowly

oh no

you really don’t want to start panicking

“yoongi, i just–”

“hey, breathe. your veins are almost popping out of your throat.” he brings his finger up to tap your pouty lips

and it’s true, you were actually holding your breath

“i’m not stupid, you know.” he uses his thumb to rub your bottom lip. “it’s been rather clear that you’ve had feelings for jungkook. i was just waiting for you to realize.”

you frown at him. “how?”

“the camping trip, our first date, the parties, the clubs. your attention was always just centred around jungkook. i thought you were trying to get over it so i told you i’d make you realize you don’t need him but clearly you’ve realized you do and i get it.”

oh

okay

you are not going to cry

nope

you blink a few times to keep your tears in their fucking place. “aren’t you mad i used you to forget about him?”

at this, he’s quiet. he just blinks at you for a few moments before answering

“no, i’m not because i’m guilty too.”

you tilt your head to the side. “what do you mean?”

he sighs softly. “i uh,” he says as he shrugs his shoulders. “i did the same to you. i wanted to forget about sooyeon.”

wow

you didn’t actually think that was the case

well

he did mention he knew what you were talking about

and that he was okay with not getting into anything serious

but it’s strange hearing this from him now

because he just seems like the type of guy that has everything figured out

mature and collected

but you suppose after all, he’s human too

you nod slowly. “i see.”

he brings his hand down to rub your shoulder. “have you told taehyung?”

at this, your heart stings

you want to cry

“um,” you say with a shaky voice.

he frowns. “oh god,” he mumbles. “what happened?”

you explain what happened in short so you don’t bawl in front of him

“oh, shit. i guess it’s my fault, then?” he rubs his hairline. “i’m sorry, i didn’t think he’d rush to you like that for a simple cold.”

you sniff. him saying that makes you realize taehyung really does care for you

“you should go talk it out with him.”

“what if he doesn’t want to see me?”

he shakes his head. “don’t be absurd. i don’t think taehyung has ever even considered spending a day without at least hearing for you. he’s probably counting down the minutes until he sees you again.”

ugh

he really knows what to say

you slowly nod and rise to your feet. “i’m gonna go to him right now.”

he gets up as well. “okay. just breathe and you’ll be fine.”

you sigh and turn to fully face him as you wrap your arms around his waist and bury your face in his chest, inhaling his scent

he hugs you right back, stroking your head and rubbing your back soothingly

“thanks for everything, yoongles.”

“nope,” he chuckles, “your privileges have been revoked. you don’t get to call me that anymore.”

you huff and smack his back which he laughs at

you pull back and pout at him

he chuckles and pecks your nose. “we’ll talk again soon,” he says

and you can’t help but smile

“absolutely.”

and with a final squeeze, he lets go of you and walks you to his front door

“you’re rushing me out. i bet sooyeon is coming over,” you joke as you open his front door

he’s suddenly quiet for a moment. “would that make me a bad person?”

you laugh and hit his chest. “jerk.”

he chuckles and watches as you leave, leaning against the doorframe with a soft smile on his lips.

well then

until our paths cross again, yoongi ♡

(wrote this entire scene whilst watching yoongi live on weverse to say his goodbyes after the enlistment news bitch im so fucking emotional rn shut the fuck up)

and now

it’s time

to go see taehyung

you make your way to taehyung’s home

and take a few breaths

trying to calm yourself

you need to calm yourself

you can do this

right as you raise your fist to knock

the door swings open

and you almost slam your first into taehyung’s face

luckily you stop yourself right before that happens and tae stares at you in surprise

“oh,” he quietly says. “i was uh…” he scratches his head. “i was just on my way to you.”

oh

oh :(

you swallow thickly and watch as he steps aside to let you in

you walk in and your body wants to automatically fly onto his bed like you always do but you settle for the couch right now

he follows you and sits down on the coffee table to be able to face you instead of sitting down next to you

it’s quiet

real quiet

“i’m sorry–”

you both apologize in unison but you frown at him. “why are you apologizing?”

he blinks at you like you’re crazy. “because i was way out of line, y/n.”

he catches the quiver in your pout but doesn’t comment on it. “i always told you i’d never judge you but airing you out like that was the opposite of what i promised to always do for you. it wasn’t okay.”

you scrunch your nose a bit as you feel yourself getting emotional again

“so, you don’t hate me?”

he blinks at you like you’ve gone crazy. “are you insane?”

you press your lips into a thin line, hoping to hurt yourself so you can focus on that and not getting emotional

“taehyung, you sacrificed so much for me and i couldn’t even listen to the one thing you didn’t want me to do. i’d wanna kill me.”

he sighs quietly and shakes his head as he looks down at your fidgeting fingers. “oh, don’t get me wrong. i still wanna kill you but what i did wasn’t cool. i just,” he pauses as he tries to think of what to say.

“i didn’t mean to give you a ‘gotcha’ moment with that sensitive information but it was more my way of saying ‘i told you so’. you just make me so mad sometimes.”

you bite on your lip to stop it from quivering

“and the fact it’s been going on since the camping trip and i just, i thought about all the times you just lied to my face. you’d never done that before. we’ve always been honest with each other, you know? never in a million years did i think you would lie to me like that.”

you look down at your hands, realizing you’ve been picking at the loose flesh around your nails

“i’m always just thinking ‘it’s okay, she’s young’ whenever you screw up because you are. but i’m young too. and i’m scared too.”

it’s enough to have you silently crying again

he’s completely right

all of that pressure he’s been carrying with him

and he always looks so

careless and free

is that why he’s always drinking until he can’t fucking stand?

and he never ever once held it over your head

he never once pointed out that he carries all this pressure of keeping you safe and protect you

and you’re just a selfish cunt

“i know. i’m sorry, taehyung. i really am. it just,” you stutter as you shakily sniff for air, “it just happened.”

he glances up at you and nods, handing you tissues from his nightstand

“he needs us, taehyung. he needs you. he told me everything. he was just a boy.”

taehyung sighs as he puts the box of tissues down in front of you

you tell taehyung the storyline of you and jungkook

without the events of … yesterday and the day before that for obvious reasons.

and he doesn’t say much, just silently nods

it’s quiet for awhile as you both just sit there, not saying another word

until

“have you caught feelings for him?”

your breath hitches in your throat and your heart is beating in your ass

you make eye contact with him and he’s staring at you with a neutral expression

you furrow your brows and try to stop the involuntary quiver in your lips as you slowly nod to his question

he gently sighs and runs a hand through his hair. “does he know?”

you wipe your tears with the tissues. “yes. he confessed to me first.”

he then looks at you with a surprised look on his face. “jungkook told you he has feelings for you? jungkook?”

you blink at him, confused at the surprised tone in his voice. “well, he told me he was in love with me.”

he tilts his head to the side. “and you believe him?”

you shrug your shoulders. “not at first. and definitely not after hearing the mia thing but,” you pause for a moment. “he told me the full story and i don’t think he lied to me once as he did. so i do believe him now.”

he rubs his smooth chin with his fingers and slowly nods. “have you told yoongi?”

“yes.”

he leans back on his hands, his head tilted back as he stares at the ceiling. “where is jungkook now?”

you cough

“um…”

he lifts his head to look at you with a raised brow.

“he’s uh,” you glance at the front door. “he’s in the hall.”

taehyung blinks at you like you’re full of shit. “he’s here? in the hall?”

you slowly nod

taehyung stares at you for a moment longer before rising to his feet and walking to the front door

he swings it open and looks around the corner, just to see jungkook’s shadow at the bottom of the stairs

jungkook walks up a few stairs to see if it’s you but he makes eye contact with taehyung

and taehyung is just staring him down

jungkook quietly sighs and walks up the stairs, right up to taehyung’s front door

you watch from the couch, gripping the wet tissue in your hand still

jungkooks nose is still red

and his eyes are puffy

but neither of them say a word

just stare

at each other

until they suddenly kiss each other?

KNDKEJFKEJDKSJD

🍀 i’m just joking

they’re staring each other down in silence

until taehyung suddenly grabs jungkook by the collar of his shirt, knuckles turning white because of the tightness of his grip

jungkook just lets him

you shoot up from the couch in an instant, panic surging through your entire body

just as you’re about to call out taehyung’s name in hopes of stopping him

he pulls jungkook into a tight hug, maybe a little too tight

jungkook simply rests his chin on taehyung’s shoulder

and wraps his arms around him. “i’m sorry, hyung.”

they just hug in silence for a few moments until taehyung speaks up again

“you better not ever fuck her over or i swear i’ll have you jumped.”

jungkook chuckles and pats taehyung’s back. “i thought you were of the opinion that you should beat me the fuck up?”

is he insane

not the time for jokes, jungkook…

taehyung pulls back from the hug and stares at jungkook for a second with a frown on his face

…

before cracking his famous sheepish box smile. “i should but i know i can’t take you in a fight.”

LMFAOOOOO

what???😭😭😭😭

you snort and it makes both of them look at you

you suddenly feel like you’re being watched by the fbi or something the way ur standing there like 🧍‍♀️

taehyung lets go of jungkook and walks up to you, staring down at you with a furrow in his brows

“dumb people should never laugh.”

did he really just say that in the tone of that one nicki minaj tiktok audio😭😭😭

you pout and slap his chest

he chuckles and pulls you into a tight embrace, resting his chin on top of your head and not caring he’s suffocating you with his chest

but you simply keep your face buried there, inhaling his scent

and he literally just feels like home

he then says;

“good thing you’re dumb or else my life would’ve been really boring.”

to be continued

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[ellabehavior]

You’re on your own kid ~ Rafe Cameron ☼

Summary: Rafe and you have been best friends since you were young. However, now that he got his new girlfriend you suddenly realized that you could possibly like him more than simply as a friend.

Pairing: Rafe Cameron x Fem!Reader

Warnings: anxiety, mentions of drinking

A/N: Its been a while yall, but i’m back!! I hope y’all enjoy :)! ( i hateee this but i hope y’all love)

angst to soft!

-

Summer went away,

You’ve been best friends with Rafe since as long as you can remember, but last summer was the summer where everything changed.

The summer before your first year of college.

School was back up and you were also starting to look at Rafe with a different eye. He was taller, tanner, smarter, he’s growing up.

Still the yearning stays.

Everytime you’d pass Rafe in the hallway hed give you a short smile but never really acknowledge you.

You missed last summer when you guys would hang out everyday, tell eachothers every little secret, and have the best deep conversations at 2am.

You knew at this moment that things might never be the same again.

I play it cool with the best of them.

For the first time in months Rafe contacted you, he invited you to go to a party with a lot of people from your school.

When you arrived, that’s when you seen him with her.

He had his arm around her neck and her long blonde hair rested on his lower arm.

I wait patiently, he’s gonna notice me.

“It’s ok, It’s ok” You whisper quietly while gaining the courage to go up and talk to Rafe.

As you walk up to him he gives you a half-hug due to the blonde on his right.

“Hey Y/N i haven’t seen you in a while.” He grins.

“Yeahhh, I guess i’ve been busy yknow with all the test and s-” Immediately you get cut off by a high pitched voice.

“Rafeyyy cmon let’s go play some games this is boring.” She says with a pout.

“Mkay babe. Bye Y/n” The boy said walking away without a glance at you.

It’s ok we’re the best of friends, anyways…

About a week after the party Rafe finally calls to check up on you.

“Hey y/n.” He drowsily says .

“Rafe? It’s 1:00am what are you calling me for?” You voice concerningly

“I just miss my bestie that’s all” He laughs.

I hear it in your voice,

You're smoking with your boys.

I touch my phone as if it's your face.

“Rafe are you high right now?” You almost shout.

“Yes, Maybe, No.” He giggles.

“Rafe do you need me to come get you?”

You rush to grab your keys and your wallet to go pick Rafe up.

“No i’m here with my girlfriend.” He says.

You stop in your tracks, immediately getting a sick feeling in your stomach as soon as those words come out from his mouth.

“Oh Okay, we’ll I’ll talk to you some other time okay?” You suggest.

And with that he hangs up the phone without a goodbye.

I didn't choose this town,

I dream of getting out.

There's just one who could make me stay,

All my days.

As a kid you and Rafe would always talk about how when you guys were 25 you’d move to London together, and to this day that’s still your biggest dream.

You hate this place, it’s full of people who will be rude to you just based off of how you grew up.

Surprisingly Rafe is now dating one of those girls, Lily.

From sprinkler splashes to fireplace ashes

I waited ages to see you there

I search the party of better bodies

Just to learn that you never cared

You promised yourself after last time you would never go to another college party, but here you find yourself at one that Rafe invited you to.

You would be lying if you said you’re here because you wanted to party, you’re waiting to see him.

You see Lily off in the crowd dancing, She’s perfect. You understand why Rafe would pick her. Her hair flows perfectly in the wind, her makeup is never less than flawless, and even though you want to tell yourself that she’s ugly, she’s one of the prettiest girls you’ve ever seen.

As you study Lily you see Rafe come up from behind her and hug her.

You're on your own, kid

You always have been

The whole night Rafe didn’t even bat a single eye at you, so you left.

I see the great escape

So long, Daisy May

I picked the petals, he loves me not

Something different bloomed

Writing in my room

I play my songs in the parking lot

I'll run away

You tried to distance yourself ever since the party, finally realizing this crush is starting to form into something you don’t need right now.

It’s been exactly 2 weeks since you’ve gone no contact with Rafe and if there were 20 stages of grief, you’ve been through 30.

All you want to do is call him, text him, or tell yourself that maybe he’s just using Lily as a distraction because he really likes you.

“Why is it never me.”

From sprinkler splashes to fireplace ashes

I called a taxi to take me there

I search the party of better bodies

Just to learn that my dreams aren't rare

It’s a cycle.

Another party, Another slap in the face.

You can see the other girls also looking at Lily wishing they could be with Rafe.

The realization kills you to know that it’ll probably never be you in that spot with all these options he has.

You're on your own, kid,

You always have been.

It’s a drunken night, and you’ll definitely regret this.

“Rafeyyy babyyy” you slur.

“Y/N? Why are you calling me in the middle of the night?” You can tell he is worried in his tone.

“I don’t like her. She’s rude, you deserve better.”

There is a long pause and then you hear someone speak, “He’s never liked you babe. You’re nothing compared to me, and you know that.”

The phone hung up.

From sprinkler splashes to fireplace ashes

I gave my blood, sweat, and tears for this

I hosted parties and starved my body

Like I'd be saved by a perfect kiss

It’s been hard to do anything since the altercation.

Eating, Getting up, Going to class, Socializing, and pretty much everything feels like a chore.

You’ve tried so hard to get his attention yet he never seemed to care.

And of course as a mean girl, Lily decided to tell everyone about what you said to Rafe. Of course he apologized for what she said, and for what happened but that didn’t stop the whole school for coming at you for a whole week.

The jokes weren't funny, I took the money

My friends from home don't know what to say

I looked around in a blood-soaked gown

And I saw something they can't take away

You received a text message late at night, usual for Rafe.

Rafe: Hey, i’m so sorry for what Lily caused. You’re my best friend and I realized nothing is worth loosing that, me and her are over now after a long talk.. Can we please hang out? I miss you.

Fuck. This is what you’ve been longing for all these months and it finally is here.

You: Yeah sure, Sleepover? my place tmmrw? ;)

Rafe: Ofc. I miss you. Cya.

Cause there were pages turned with the bridges burned

Everything you lose is a step you take

So make the friendship bracelets

Take the moment and taste it

You've got no reason to be afraid

The anxiety levels are high waiting for Rafe to come over, it’s been so long since you’ve had a real conversation through all this time of him being with Lily.

You start to wonder if he still likes Starwars, or if his favorite dancing song is 22 by Taylor Swift.

You then hear a knock on the door.

You're on your own, kid

“Hey!! Can I come in” he says.

“Of course.”

Then the catching up, the apology’s, and the stories start up.

It’s just like last summer.

Yeah, you can face this

While Rafe is telling one of his stories, you start to feel a pit of anxiety in your stomach because you know what you have to do.

You’ve gotten ready for this moment, practiced it in the mirror about 50 times to make sure your facial expressions, or your tone doesn’t sound too weird.

You're on your own, kid

“Rafe.” You stop him mid conversation.

“Yes?” he says with a quirk of his eyebrows.

“All these months i’ve been so distant but really all I wanted was to be near you, since last summer you’ve been the only thing on my mind and maybe you don’t feel the same way but-“

He cuts you off with a kiss to your lips.

“I’ve been waiting since the 8th grade for you to say that” He says as he pulls away.

“So all that practicing in the mirror was for nothing?” you giggle.

“Guess so.”

You always have been

[wonysugar]

haii guyss…

i feel like it’s been a while since i actually TALKED here? hope you guys are doing okay :] i know some of y’all are already thinking “where is part two of wonder why i’m bitt—“ LET ME EXPLAIN MYSELF i’m just coming on here to tell you a few things that i feel needs to be mentioned,,

so! i want you guys to know that I’M SORRY FOR BEING SO INACTIVEEE writing has gotten a lot harder over the course of the last few months and that i’m really trying:(( life has gotten busier, i have a lot less time to even open google docs in the first place, let alone to actually sit down and finish the million drafts i’ve startedfjksfm and not only that, but i just, feel like i don’t like writing as much anymore?

before you potentially panic!! i’m not deactivating or anything lmao, i think i just need a bit more time to find a pace i’m comfortable with, if that makes sense? basically, granted it’s my complete fault, i’ve committed to writing MULTIPLE wips and as much as i wanna finish every single one of them and post them for you guys to enjoy them, I DON’T LIKE THEMMM I NEVER DOOO… i’m burnt out mane it’s like everytime i write something anymore i just hate it and never wanna talk about it again, yknow? (hence why i kinda don’t find the will to answer asksfkskd but i promise i see all of them and they genuinely all make me smile thank you) THAT WASN’T THE CASE WHEN I STARTED THIS BLOG! i liked writing, i thought it was really fun and partially the reason why i think i borderline HATE it now is because i feel the need to always perfect my fics and have everybody like them (which will obviously never be the case, and i need to come to terms with the fact that my stuff is not for everyone, and that it’s okay!!) basically, the fact that i kinda have a platform now is a bit scary and pressuring considering and i always feel bad that i can’t seem to keep up with your guys’ demands and i’m really sorry but i need time to adjust i think?!:&;&

so all i ask of you guys is that you please please pleaseee bear with me as i’m trying very hard to keep content coming for you guys and that i’m trying to keep that flame burning; if you’re curious about whether or not i’m working on something in particular, please just check my wipsfksmdm seeing all of the asks about sequels is kinda stressful and i always feel bad for taking too long to write them WHICH LEADS TO ME RUSHING THEM I’M SORRY:(( and also i’m gonna be emptying my inbox today so that it’s kinda like a fresh start? feel free to drop your ask again if you really want it answered, i’ll try my best to! :] and say hi i miss all of youfjdkfm

thank you for your time and patience aahh i didn’t mean for it to be this long #notreadingallat, but yeahh it really means a lot to me and i’m sorryfkendn thank you again mwah i love you all, take caree

[worldofheroes]

I’ve Missed You

tom cruise x wife!reader

summary: tom arrives home for a week break during his promo tour, and things get heated - in a good way.

warnings: 18+, language, protected sex, daddy kink

wc: 1.3k

a/n: y’all I’m so sorry… I’m trying to write for other people/characters but my only ideas right now involve tom. 😫 and apparently I have a daddy kink for/with him.

Your phone rings one evening, and when you go to pick it up, you see it’s Tom calling.

“Hey you,” you say with a smile.

“Hey sweetheart,” Tom says, a little sleepily.

“Didn’t get a lot of sleep last night?” you tease.

“No,” Tom chuckles. “The fans are so wonderful, though. Makes me excited for the movie.”

“That’s great, Tom. You’ve worked really hard on it, and everyone’s gonna love it.”

“I love you.”

You giggle. “I love you too. Now what’s up?”

“Well, I have a week off before I need to be in New York, so I thought I could stop by the condo and spend some time with you.”

“You act like I own this place,” you laugh.

“You mean to tell me you don’t?”

“When can I expect you?” you ask him, rolling your eyes at his comment.

“I’ll be getting in around 5pm on the fourth.”

“Mm, sounds good. And we can make up for not being together on your birthday,” you tease.

Tom stifles a groan. “Sweetheart, you can’t talk like that.”

“What? You’re telling me I can’t flirt and tease you?” you ask in a cocky tone.

“Stop,” Tom pleads in a hushed voice.

“Oh, are there people around? You don’t want to get a hard on with them around? You’re embarrassed that even just by talking to your wife you get turned on?”

“Y/n,” he says sternly.

You laugh. “Okay, okay, I’ll stop. I’m sorry, I just haven’t had you in so long.”

“It’s been under a month.”

“Still too long.”

You hear some voices in the background.

“I have to go, sweetheart. I’ll text you when I’m on my way from the airport.”

“Okay, baby. I love you.”

“I love you too.”

The call ends. You go and take a shower, making sure you shave every inch of your body so Tom has a treat when he gets back.

The next evening, you get the long-awaited text.

Hey sweetheart. 25 minutes.

The 25 minutes seems to take about 30 years, but you eventually hear the door open.

“Hey,” you call out, walking to the door.

“Hey,” Tom says, meeting you in the living space with his bags.

You walk up to him and give him a hug, holding him tight.

“I’ve missed you,” you mumble into his chest.

“I’ve missed you too,” Tom says, kissing the top of your head.

“It’s good to have you back, I wish I could’ve joined you.”

“You’ll join me in New York, right?”

“Do you want me to?”

“What kind of question is that? Of course I want you to.” Tom kisses you.

“Okay, I’ll go,” you smile.

“Good. We’ll get you a real nice dress that’ll look good pooled at your feet,” Tom kisses you again.

“Thomas,” you scold.

“Didn’t you say something about making up for the fact we weren’t together on my birthday?” He starts to pepper your face and neck with kisses.

“I think this is a new personal best for you, Cruise,” you say with a laugh.

“What do you mean?” he asks, starting to touch you too.

“I think we talked for a good 30 seconds before you turned horny.”

“Mm, I can’t help it, sweetheart,” he whispers against your skin.

You giggle. “So are you going to take me to bed?”

“Say no more,” Tom growls, picking you up.

“Tom!” you yell as you’re practically thrown over his shoulder.

The next thing you know, you’re tossed onto the bed.

“Tom!” you yell again.

He crawls on top of you. “You started this.”

“I don’t think so, I just said we need to make up for being apart on your birthday.”

“Practically the same thing, don’t you think?”

“Actually, no,” you laugh.

“Mmhmm,” he hums, pulling his dark shirt off.

He then helps you get your shirt off, and he goes back to peppering your skin with kisses.

His right hand slides up your torso and lands on your breast. He starts to massage it.

“Oh,” you moan.

Tom presses his pelvis against yours. “You like that?” he whispers in your ear.

“Mm,” you nod, caressing the back of his neck.

“Good,” he growls, pressing harder against you and slowly grinding against you.

“Stop being a tease,” you complain, running your hands along his biceps.

Tom smiles at you and swiftly rids himself of his jeans, followed by helping you rid your shorts.

He continues to kiss you while he palms your clothed core.

You moan against his lips, and as you do, his tongue makes its way into your mouth.

Your grip his shoulders and force yourself harder against his palm.

Tom groans into your mouth. One of his fingers slips past your panties and starts petting your clit. You gasp at the sensation.

Your hands wander his body to find his cock, which is already hard as a rock. You make your way into his boxers. You wrap your fingers around his hardness and start to stroke it, causing Tom to falter.

“Sweetheart,” he moans.

“It’s only fair,” you whisper.

As Tom kisses you, he reaches to the nightstand to find a condom. You buck your hips against the hand that is still there.

“Wait a minute,” Tom mutters as he still struggles to find a condom.

“Dammit,” he says, breaking contact with you to move closer to the nightstand.

You giggle.

“No giggles from you,” he lightly scolds as he finally finds a condom. “Damn we’re low.”

“Oh, I didn’t know or I would’ve gotten more,” you say.

Tom moves back over you. “Don’t worry about it,” he says, giving you a kiss. “Now take those panties off,” he orders, taking his own boxers off.

You nod and pull them down. Tom pulls them the rest of the way off and tosses them over his shoulder.

You try to make contact with Tom as he rips the condom wrapper open.

“This is now my second time asking you to wait a damn minute,” he says with a small smile.

“I want you now, Daddy,” you moan, knowing that calling him “Daddy” is going to make him lose his mind.

“Fuck,” he mutters under his breath as he rolls the condom down his shaft.

“Daddy, please,” you beg.

He presses his tip against you. “What was that?”

“Please, Daddy. Please, fuck me senseless.”

Tom grins at you, then leans down and kisses you as he pushes his tip into you.

You gasp.

“That’s just the tip, sweetheart,” he mutters.

He continues to push into you, and you moan with pleasure.

Tom pushes all the way in and stops.

You open your eyes. “What?”

Tom smiles. “I love you.”

“I love you too,” you say. “But I think we were in the middle of something.”

“Oh, you mean this?” Tom asks sarcastically, starting to thrust his hips.

“Oh!” you exclaim as his cock slams back into you.

He is going as deep as he can each time he enters you.

“Tom,” you breathe.

“What did you call me?”

“Daddy,” you correct yourself.

“That’s better,” he growls. His pace quickens.

“Oh, Daddy, I’m gonna come, oh shit,” you say.

“That was fast,” Tom teases.

“Daddy,” you whine.

“Wait,” he growls. He goes even harder, which you didn’t even think was possible.

“Oh,” he moans, mouth agape and eyes closed. “Come for Daddy,” he says in a strained voice.

A few seconds later, you release, clenching down on Tom’s cock. Tom groans and comes in the condom.

“Fuck,” he says, slowly thrusting his hips.

You’re only able to get out a small whimper. He pulls out and discards the condom.

Tom then leans down and kisses you. “You’re absolutely beautiful.”

You smile. “You’re very handsome.”

Tom lays down beside you and pulls you close. The skin on skin contact makes you melt in happiness.

“I’ve missed you in my arms,” Tom whispers against your hair.

“The promo tour is almost done,” you remind him.

“I know, and I can’t wait for it to be over so we can lay in bed all day.”

“Mm, that sounds nice.” You roll over to face him.

Tom kisses you gently. “Maybe we can have a little preview this week.”

You smile. “I’d like that a lot.”

[what-gs-watching]

“What good did love do, Doctor? When did it ever help?”

So I spent last week at my parent’s house finally pulling off the surprise birthday party I’d been planning for months for my mother and I was there for farrrrr too long and I ate waaaay too much and I only had six days from when I got home to get my head right and ready to start a new job after nine effing months of doing nothing. 

I’m starting on Monday and I’m super anxious about it, and everyone is posting about what’s going on with Doctor Who so obviously I decided to let Ruby and 15 turn my brain off for a bit, it’s the least they can do. Maybe that was a mistake, because woooooof y’all. I’m devastated that the season is already over. 

And as such, we def need to talk about both of these episodes at the same time. 

The Legend of Ruby Sunday / Empire of Death

Wherein, The Doctor and Ruby show up to UNIT to finally ask about the old woman they keep running into on their adventures, and immediately very purposefully fall into a trap. 

I have to say, as much as I love 15, baby boy has NOT been very observant this season. He’s caught up in having fun and showing his feelings and all of that is fantastic and beautiful but if this had been 10 or 11 they would have been mulling over this situation the entirety of the season and I probably wouldn’t feel so much like I just got whiplash. 

Like, the internet has been telling me to think about this random ass lady, instead of seeing the Doctor trying to puzzle her out in his downtime. And that’s the first time I’ve really thought to myself, ‘this is incredibly unlike the doctor.’ But we’re going to let it slide, because he’s otherwise charmed the pants off of me.

There was a lot I was definitely about in these episodes, in no particular order - 

OBVIOUSLY, the Rose / Ruby bonding. Absolutely adorable. They immediately gravitated to each other and I love that. It’s so sweet. And I’ll take ANY scrap of 14 I can get, but 15 asking ‘how’s your uncle?’ really made me greedy for more. Couldn’t my girl Rose given like, even the smallest cute little anecdote? Like ‘oh, he’s really into gardening right now…’ or something? Gimme like, even the littlest bit. I neeeed it. But fine. 

15’s outfits. I’ve loved all of the stuff they’ve put him in all season but HELLO that leather jacket and the cozy sweater he had on in the mish mash TARDIS? Gorgeous. Beautiful. I want to buy it right now.

Also, the mish mash TARDIS itself, and the little kiss 15 gives it at one point. Love all the random throwbacks inside that little thing even if I don’t know most of them because no, I never went back and watched the original seasons, so sue me. I’m pretty sure I spotted 11’s little scanner tv thing though, and I love that. I miss Matt Smith. 

And the Doctor lashing out and punching the wall and huffing and puffing and screaming and then Mel giving him a kick in the ass. I’m going to keep talking about how I love that 15 is actually okay with showing his feelings, but I do think he got too lost in them. We all been there, boo. But like, you heard that sick TARDIS sound (that’s going to haunt my dreams) and you were just like ‘oh I’ve heard that before’? BOY you are so distracted. 

Anyway, I’m vaguely aware there’s background on Sutekh that I should probably google if I want to fully understand the situation, but I’m not gonna do it. I accept that it’s the god of death and the doctor fought it once and banished it to the time vortex, but I have to say, I find the rest of the storyline a little bit weird. It hitched a ride on the TARDIS and traveled with the Doctor for basically untold amounts of time and no one ever noticed? And it’s appearance is NOT related to 14 casting that salt at the end of the universe, even though it was pretty clear that the rest of the random god appearances were? 

I guess I’m willing to accept all of that, but gang. Here’s the thing. After all of that time traveling around and watching the Doctor do what he does (and admittedly trying to sabotage him by planting harbingers? I guess? Wherever they went?) you’re still not going to kill him right off when you finally hatch your plot? You KNOW he gets out of things. You know he literally gets out of everything. You’ve watched him wiggle his way out of shit because his adversaries have given him an inch but you’re like ‘it’s fine, that won’t be me, because I REALLY need to know who this random human’s mother is?’ 

Nah. Nah nah nah. Like, maybe if you had really tried to kill him and he got out of it, I’d be like, ‘okay fine’ but that death cloud was half-assed and they beat it on like, a moped. 

If we’re going with real scary gods that have literally the power of basically everything, I’m gonna want their actions to make sense. 

I also have to admit that when the Doctor was monologuing about how the whole thing was his fault, when he said about all of the things he’s done “I thought it was fun”, I found myself thinking about how he really has been playing a game of his own devising and maybe he…shouldn’t. And it felt like maybe he thought that, too. Like, when is it gonna be enough for him? 

The point is, It’s super sweet that Ruby got to figure her shit out, they got me I cried at all of that, but the whole thing did feel a little disjointed to me. Which is fine, because now I’m sitting here like, ‘yo I need more’ but there isn’t more, not for forever, and clearly that’s how they get you. The arch wasn’t a cliff hanger really but also it kind of was and I’m unsatisfied. Maybe that’s the point. 

And I do now agree with Tumblr that the most interesting thing in all of this is how 14 and Donna reacted to the death cloud, and their reconstitution, and the realization that Rose was at UNIT during the entire thing - that’s going to occupy my brain for a really long time.

At the end of the day, eight episodes was not enough. But I’m SO  endeared to 15 and I love the direction the show is going, haters can hate all they want but Doctor Who was always weird and it was always for outcasts and it’s beautiful and stupid and silly and wonderful. Wonderful and perfectly imperfect. 

Friends, this season came at a time I really needed it. I'm thankful it helped me through my forced work hiatus, it's part of the tapestry that kept me going. And that's the good that love does. Doctor Who, I love you.

[sugarcoated-lame]

hi friends! 🧡

idk if anyone will actually read this, but i just wanted to pop in and say hi because i know i’ve been super MIA as of late! i don’t normally talk about my personal life much on here, so i’m not gonna go too deep into it, but honestly it’s been a rough few weeks/month for me.

i have a chronic illness that’s been flaring up recently, so physically i’ve not been feeling the greatest, and my mental health has also been suffering because of that along a few other stressors i’ve got going on right now, and my anxiety has been pretty awful. to top that all off, my dad was also just in the hospital for two days (he’s okay now!! 🥹), so this week has been stressful as hell!

so, i’ve been giving myself a very much needed break to be with my family and take some time to take care of myself and prioritize my mental health, hence why i haven’t been very active on here, and probably still won’t be for the next few days

to anyone who’s sent me any asks or DMs, or tagged me in any tag games or anything recently, i promise i see them and i will get to them! i love and miss all of my lovely friends and moots here so much, and i can’t wait to be back and interacting with y’all, and get back to reading all of your amazing fics (and hopefully getting something of my own posted soon too 😬). sending everyone lots of love, i’ll be back real soon! 🤍🤍

[idkbishsss]

About the Daryl Dixon show

I have very different opinions and these are MINE opinions, so please read below knowing that. I will be talking about points I see people make a lot btw. Also spoilers for the show. ALSO, I haven’t seen the show yet. I’ve only seen episode one this is just about spoilers and leaks. If I get anything wrong I apologize. If you want to talk I’m welcome! Please keep it civil though🙏 My asks and dms are open to conversation as well:3

(This may see unorganized and stuff. Sorry)

First and foremost. Why the Isabelle hate? I keep seeing people say she was a bitch and stuff, but she never came off that way to me. Maybe im missing something(please feel to tell me if so. I don’t care for spoilers)

Okay I’m going to cover a few things then get into the kiss and why I don’t think it destroys Daryl’s character🙏

“He would go back to his family. He wouldn’t stay there” He does TRY to go back but then a CHILD, that he’s very close to gets attacked. Of course he’s going to save the kid. It’s a kid. It’s also pretty hard to get back home me thinks.

Also I see many people making it just about who he’s “in love” with. HE WOULDNT ABANDON A CHILD THATS GOTTEN CLOSE TO HIM??? (“What about Judith” He knows Judith has other people and is safe. Judith can also fight and most of the people around her can too. Unlike these new people. I’m also sure he misses Judith dearly and wants to see her again.)

Also even if Daryl didnt go home because he fell in love. Let’s think what happened last time he went home and away from someone he loved(Leah) So yeah, maybe he doesn’t want to lose people close to him. (Which is something that’s effective him a lot) Maybe he’s experiencing complex emotions about how he feels which is why he’s not leaving. Again it’s also REALLY hard to leave.

“He wouldn’t fall in love with a woman hes know for 2 weeks” Did y’all not see Leah… he saw that girl 2 times in a year and was head over heels😭(I know I know. She was bad. Ngl I’m thinking about posting a rant about her) Also fall in love is a stretch. No I haven’t seen the episodes but I’m sure most of everyone has only seen spoilers.

“What about Connie” I love them don’t get me wrong but they aren’t canon. Heavily implied? Yeah. But feelings can change. And Daryl has VERY complicated feelings😭 (I AM A SHIPPER BUT PLEASE. Just calm down about that one. It makes it more shipper war than actually criticism of the show. Same goes for Carol and Daryl shippers. Also this doesn’t go to all of you, just some of you)

Okay as for the kiss. Do I think Daryl would fall in love again? Yes, but he’d be scared of showing it to the point where he does something LIKE kissing someone in a way where it seems weird. He’s lost a lot of people who he never got to show love and affection. People he loved/cared for that he didn’t get to show affection for. Since then he let his walls get lower and be more comfortable with things (notice how he treated new people in s1-s2 and how he treats them s10-s11) People like Rick Carol Maggie and more helped him see that he CAN be affectionate. (Which is why I think he was so comfortable with people like Leah at first. He clicked with her and he was okay with being close with her. No I don’t like there relationship BUT it is a good canon example even if not perfect)

But I don’t think he was in love with Isa(using nicknames here). I think he just cared for her and didn’t know what to do or how to deal with it. I think he also knew he’d go back and lose her at some point. Again, he’s lost a lot of people, and most those people he didn’t show much love or affection. If you think about that you can think about how maybe he wants Isa to know that he does care for her in some way before he leaves or before she dies. I’m sure he’s affected about everything that’s really happened to him. That shit changes a person and how they act.

“He’s never said I love you to anyone but Carol” I honestly think this a valid statement. I do think it would take time for him to build that up and REALLY feel comfortable with someone. But I’ve known people who are like that and then one day they just click with someone. Or then impulsively do things like kissing or saying I love you. Even if they really don’t fully mean it. I don’t know if Daryl said that to Isa, but to me it would still make sense to me.

I think so many people think these words “I love you” have to have a deep meaning where you really do love them. But sometimes the meaning is just that they seem right in the moment even if they aren’t perfect. Or they just have a different meaning to a person using them. Daryl doesn't love one person the same.

Also Daryl’s changed A LOT from s1. Even from s11. I don’t like how people are comparing them like he’s stay the same all the way through (not everyone just some people)

Someone said he didn’t really say yes to dancing with Connie in s11. But they were in a safe space where Daryl could fully think about his emotions without everything else in the world going on. Those two situations are very different.

also the nun fetish comments are wild. I think falling in love with a nun or just kissing a nun is not a nun fetish. (I will give the nuns cant fall in love points ofc. I’m not stupid)

Now do I think Daryl and Isa are cute? Not really. I’m not a big shipper BUT this is my opinions on it right now.

I wanted to go into more (Leah and his relationship with others) And the whole “he’s choosing them over people he’s known 10+ years” but… that one is just so clearly lying bull shit(sorry that’s mean) But I won’t go in to any of that, it’s a separate rant on it own.

At the end of the day, it’s just a kiss. (Also 95% sure she dies so. You don’t have to worry about him falling in love affecting him ig. We all now how the writes handle most deaths)

And who knows maybe in the next season or a new show they explain it better. Maybe I’ll see the episode and I’ll change my mind completely!

also sorry if this comes off mean or like condescending. This is really just my opinion and I think some people (not all) are being really overdramatic (also… stupid. Okay that was like one person on twitter BUT THEY WERE SAYING WILD SHIT. Shit I won’t repeat😭)

You cannot like the kiss and not like the show and not like the way they are going with Daryl’s character. I’m not saying you’re not allowed to have opinions on it. This is just MY opinions🙏 (I’m also a little tired of seeing hate when I just want to see some fanart of twd sometimes on my tumblr timeline LMAOOO)

Thank you for reading, again I’m open to a civil discussion. If you’re just going to be hateful, please don’t😓

[mines-camren]

THE FIRST MEETING

Part 1

Summary: Just my take of Kate Martin and Caitlin Clark Meeting for the first time.

Rating/warning: none

Kate Martin POV

The pain was like nothing I’ve ever felt before. I was screaming like my life had ended and in that moment it really felt like it had. At a women’s Iowa basketball practice before my freshman year I tore my ACL. I’ve never had to deal with a major injury in my basketball career before, let alone a season ending one.

It was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to go through but strangely it was also one of the best things that could have happened to me. Being redshirted that year and being on the bench really taught me how to be a team player and root for my teammates success. In High school I had a bit of an ego with being one of the best players and team captain, so being sidelined that year was new to me.

But it kept me humble and motivated me to get in the gym and get healthy again. By the time my sophomore year came around I was back in the rotation and getting playing time.

“Hey Martin!” coach Bluder called, “come over here for second, I gotta talk to you.”

We were finishing up a practice and I was a little nervous to be called out but kept cool as I walked up to her, “What’s up coach? Is everything okay?”

Coach was straight to the point, “We have a recruit coming for an official visit next week, her name’s Caitlin Clark and she’s someone we really want to lock down. The coaching staff and I were hoping you and some of the other girls on the team could show her around campus, maybe take her to a football game. We really think she might be the missing piece to this team.”

I had not heard of this supposed 5 star recruit but I didn’t wanna let coach down so I accepted, “Yes of course coach, the girls and I can do that! Anything to make the team better.”

“That a girl,” coach said, “I knew I could count on you, you’re starting to become a real leader for this team.”

With that, practice had ended so I walked to the locker room to change and ask my teammates if they have heard of this new recruit.

“Hey guys, have y’all heard of a girl named Caitlin Clark?”

Gabbie was the first to answer, “yeah she’s like the number 1 high school recruit in all of Iowa.”

Monika added, “the girls a point guard that can shoot from long range bit of a sniper with great handles and court vision.”

McKenna looked at me and laughed, “wow Kate I can’t believe you haven’t heard of her.”

“Well damn my bad,” I say as I finish getting dressed. “Since y’all love this Clark girl so much I’m sure you’re gonna be excited to hear this but we all our going to be her tour guides when she takes her official recruit visit!”

“Wait, really?” Gabbie said and Monika added, “We can’t mess this up guys, she’s a five star recruit. We don’t get a lot of those around here.”

Hearing Monika say that stung a little but she was right, programs like Iowa don’t get many opportunities like this and Coach was counting on me.

“Okay,” I said, “we are gonna show this girl such a good time that she won’t even think about going to any other school!”

“Oh yeah, how are we gonna do that miss captain Kate?”

“First of all thank you for calling me captain,” I flash a smile and a quick wink at Monika, “second we take her to a football game hopefully they win and third we take her to an after party where she will have the time of her life. She’ll commit to Iowa by the end of the week.”

McKenna was first to criticize my plan, “what if she doesn’t even like football or partying like you Kate, not everyone is a frat boy.” She laughed and that earned some giggles from Gabbie. I tried my hardest to glare at them but it didn’t work out.

“Okay so it’s not the best plan but it’s honestly all we got,” Gabbie said, “I think we should just be ourselves and don’t try to make her feel pressured in any way. I can only imagine the kind of pressure she’s under already.”

“Yeah you’re right,” Monika said, “we gotta make her feel comfortable.”

I clapped my hands together to get their attention, “okay great talk ladies!” I grabbed my bag to head out. “I’m glad we are all on the same page, I’m gonna go see y’all at practice tomorrow.”

As I got back to my dorm I contemplated on goggling Caitlin Clark but I decided not to. All I needed to know is that she’s crazy good at basketball and she’s considering playing for our team.