#but I want to. but also it's getting too close to a revenge rebound in the intrusive charlastor thoughts that are tormenting me

[lovemongerer]

I'm attached to my modern insert but can't imagine shipping them with lucifer because that's charlie's dad, I couldn't possibly do that to my best friend

[ashwhowrites]

Hey so happy ur requests are reopen, do you think you could write a story along the lines of Eddie only getting with you to get back at steve for something. Like you and steve are bestfriends like brother and sister, but eddie thinks that steve likes you so as revenge he hooks up with you. He said it was a one and done thing just to rub it in steve’s face, but he can’t forget abt you, so he tells steve what is going on and steve tells him that he never liked you as more than a friend but you find out what eddie did to you. Angst with a happy ending if you can, thank you!!

Love angst that makes my stomach turn 🫡

Never proofread

I hope this is what you were looking for <3

~~~

Steve has been best friends with Y/N for years, growing up as neighbors, and parents who held way too many dinner parties. Whenever Steve felt sad, he turned to her. Whenever she felt alone, she turned to him.

When his world fell apart because of Nancy, she stood by his side just a little bit more than usual. Many figured she would become his new rebound, but their relationship was and would never be like that.

His eyes were still set on Nancy, and Y/N's mind was stuck on Eddie.

She thought it was a stupid high school crush. That when she graduated, he would be out of sight and out of mind. That wasn't the case, not when Steve suddenly became acquaintances with the guy.

Eddie despised Steve and everything about him. He hated the way Dustin saw him as this amazing hero. That the girls would fall at his feet and that he never struggled with being seen as a freak.

Eddie hated Steve the moment he became the king and made high school hell. It was a grudge he never let go.

Dustin idolized Eddie and he knew it. It made him feel special and he never felt that before. And Eddie couldn't handle the jealousy he felt when Dustin ranted about how amazing Steve was. It drove him insane. Eddie didn't see where Dustin saw the good in Steve. He was an asshole and a bully. All the things hellfire was supposed to be against.

Dustin also had this thing where he couldn't shut his mouth. Every bad thing Eddie had to say about Steve was delivered straight to the man himself.

Steve tried not to let it bother him. Eddie couldn't even make it to graduation years in a row. Why would he let a loser like that affect him. Steve kept his mouth shut and never said a word. Until Eddie had some words to say about his breakup with Nancy and that's when he snapped.

~~~

Dustin thought the feud between the two boys was hilarious. He truly didn't think the hatred was real, just bickering back and forth. So he didn't think anything of it when he told Eddie that Steve said he would never get a girl anywhere near his trailer and his freak show life. He could hate on Steve all he wanted, but he was just jealous of King Steve's status with the girls.

Eddie didn't like the way the words hit him. He was always insecure of the fact he didn't know how to talk to girls or the fact that no girls ever wanted to talk to him. He was embarrassed to be past his teenage years and not having much experience with anyone else.

Eddie didn't like the taste in his mouth, too close to defeat. He wanted to hit Steve where it would hurt the most. Show how much better Eddie can be than him, especially with girls.

So once Eddie set his eyes on the girl that followed Steve around like a lost puppy, he knew what he had to do.

~~~

Eddie's plan was simple. Come right in between this new girl and Steve. Maybe take her out, make her forget Steve's name, and have her scream Eddie's at the end of the night. That would show Steve just how well Eddie could have a girl in his freak show life.

~~~

Y/N felt like her eyes were half way out of her head as she watched Eddie walk up to the video counter. She turned fast, smacking Steve's arm.

"please, please, please help him." She whispered, her body was already on fire and she hadn't spoken a word in Eddie's direction.

Steve rolled his eyes and bit his tongue. Shoving Y/N aside as he welcomed Eddie to the store with fake politeness.

"Welcome, Munson. How can I help you on this beautiful day?" Steve snickered

Y/N felt herself rolling her eyes at Steve's rudeness. Trying her best to stay out of Eddie's eye sight.

"You can help me by sending the pretty girl back over here." Eddie smirked. Enjoying the way Steve's eyes glared over Eddie's figure.

Y/N felt her body freeze, was he talking about her?

Steve turned around with a small smile, apology in his eyes as he moved away from the counter.

She swallowed and slowly walked back up to the front, standing across from the boy.

"Hi, how can I help you?" She breathed out. Her fingers playing with the loose strands on her jeans. Trying to keep her eyes moving all around so it didn't seem like she was staring at how beautiful he was up close.

"What kind of movies do you like?" He asked with a smile, Eddie knew he had the eyes girls melted for and a smile that could get him what he wanted. He was praying it wouldn't let him down now.

"Um comedy and horror." She squeaked out.

Eddie sighed in relief. Thanking God he wasn't going to be stuck watching a chick flick.

"perfect, me too! I was hoping you could give me some recommendations on horror."

She felt herself nodding before she even knew what he asked.

"absolutely" she said, walking around the counter and over to the horror section. She tried to keep herself calm and collected.

That went out the window when Eddie stood right behind her, his breath against her ear as he reached over her, pointing to covers of films and asking what she thought.

She shivered with every answer. Giving out her honest reviews on the films.

She felt her knees growing weak when he whispered, "which ones have the best sex scenes?"

She tried to get her mind to not think of Eddie watching sex scenes, rubbing himself over his jeans.

She coughed and wiped her hands over her jeans, her mind racing in many directions. She swore the room was getting hotter by the second.

~~~

Steve watched closely as Eddie practically rubbed himself against her. Crossing his arms as he felt the anger in his stomach. He didn't trust Eddie around her. She was too sweet and too nice for a guy like that.

Steve watched as she took him back to the counter, scanning the movie and placing it in a bag.

"there you are, enjoy" she said with a smile.

Steve watched as Eddie leaned over the counter, his finger reaching for a piece of her hair. He whispered something Steve couldn't hear, but he watched as Y/N gulped and giggled.

~~~

Eddie enjoyed the way he could feel Steve's eyes burning into him.

Watching as the girl in front of him struggled for words. That would show Steve that Eddie wasn't nearly as bad at this as Steve thought.

Eddie left with a wink in Steve's direction, Y/N's number in his hand.

~~~

Y/N raced out the front door once she heard Eddie pull up. She was incredibly nervous, but Eddie asked her to come over to watch the movie. A movie filled with blood, sex, and murder. What did she get herself into?

She smiled when he opened the door for her, a wink in her direction once she settled in the seat. Eddie walked over to his driver's side door, his eyes looking up to see Steve watching from his window.

Neighbors? Oh that's even better. Eddie smirked as he nodded in Steve's direction.

~~~

It didn't take long for the effects of a sex filled film to hit them. Eddie felt himself shifting every second, and Y/N couldn't help but clench her thighs repeatedly.

All she craved to do was jump on his lap and taste his tongue.

His rough jeans against her bare thigh in her skirt. His arm was thrown over her shoulder, his smell surrounding her.

She felt her breath hitch when his free hand landed on her thighs, his fingers tracing shapes as it traveled up her thigh.

She shivered when she felt his lips making their way down her neck, a soft whisper of her name as he sucked on her skin.

It didn't take long for the movie to be forgotten about. And it didn't take long for the moans to be coming from them and not the movie.

~~~

Eddie felt accomplished as he dropped her off. He couldn't wait for Steve to find out all about their night. The hickies on her neck could give Steve the hint of what happened. He opened the door and watched as she got out. Trying his best not to think of how her thighs were covered in her own wetness.

Once he closed the door, he went to say goodnight. But his eyes caught Steve once again watching from the window. As Y/N began to walk away, Eddie grabbed her hand. Yanking her into his chest as he smashed his lips on hers.

He smirked as she whimpered and easily fell into him. He adored how pathetic she was as she clawed at his chest. He slipped his tongue into her mouth, opening his eyes to look up to see if Steve was still watching.

Once they needed air they pulled away, Eddie dropped his eyes back down to her as she took a deep breath. A dazed smile on her face.

He bid her goodnight and waited for her to enter her house before he got in his van. A wink sent to Steve as the boy continued to watch the scene from his window.

Eddie definitely got in his head.

~~~

And Y/N was stuck in his head.

Their movie night was three nights ago and he hasn't spoken to her since.

He felt himself thinking about her way more than he thought he would. He didn't expect to think about her at all. It was supposed to be one night, one fuck, and that was it. So why is he feeling guilty that he never bothered to call?

~~~

Y/N spent her third night in Steve's room crying over Eddie. She felt like an idiot. She felt like she made herself appear too easy. It was one date and she slept with him, of course, he is going to think she is easy.

She was embarrassed by how fast she gave in. She didn't know a single thing about him but allowed him between her legs without a second thought. He got what he wanted, and that's why he never bothered to call. He didn't like her, he just wanted something from her.

Steve felt bad for her. He knew Eddie was up to no good when he asked her out. This exact thing is why Steve would never give Eddie a chance to prove he was a good guy. He wonders what Dustin would think if he knew how shallow his new best friend was.

~~~

With an apology on his tongue, he walked into the video store. His stomach felt tight as he looked around the store for her familiar face. He didn't see her, but he saw the familiar pissed-off look across Steve's expression.

"Looking for another movie? Or pick up another girl to fuck and dump on the side of the road?" Steve snapped.

The anger in his voice meant Eddie won, but he didn't feel as good as he thought he would.

"I came to talk to her, is she here?" Eddie asked, trying to look around.

"Oh talk? We didn't think you knew how to do that since you never bothered to call." Steve argued, crossing his arms.

"I see she filled you in." Eddie declared. Exactly what he wanted and yet, all he felt was shame for taking advantage of a nice girl.

"Just go," Steve said, shooing Eddie off.

But Eddie stayed. And Steve felt the anger burning all over again.

"Why did you even do it? Do you know how hard it is to have a girl like that? She's funny, sweet, kind, and a damn good person. Now she can't even see that part of herself anymore because she feels so used and cheap. You ruined her for what? Thought she was hot and wanted a quick fuck? The least you could have done was fucking call, coward." Steve snapped.

"I did it because of you! Dustin told me all about how you said I could never have a girl interested in me, in my trailer and freak show life. I knew you two had something going on so I wanted to show you I could bring your girl to my trailer and fuck her. I was angry and it was dumb. I hurt someone that did not deserve to be used as a pawn. I just want to apologize." Eddie admitted. He realized he liked the girl, but in the end, he would never be good for her the way Steve would have been.

"You're right, I didn't deserve to be a pawn in your little feud."

Eddie froze when her voice snapped from behind. Turning around slowly to see an incredibly pissed-off look on her face.

"I'm sorry," Eddie said, making sure he looked right into her eyes.

She sighed and walked out the front door. He looked over at Steve, confused and sad all written on his face.

"Her and I are friends, and that is all. Go after her." Steve advised.

Eddie nodded as a thank you and raced out the door, finding her leaning against the wall.

He walked up to her slowly, her eyes watching his boots inches away from her feet.

"I don't like Steve." She mumbled, the front of her shoe kicking his boot.

He smiled at the small action.

"I've been told, and I'm sorry for the intentions I had, it was wrong and I apologize, over and over. It was stupid to use you. I thought Steve liked you and I just wanted to be better than him. But I'm not. Steve would never use a pretty girl for his own selfish reasons." Eddie confessed. Dustin was right to see Steve as a hero. Eddie was easily the villain in this situation.

"I don't want to say it's okay or I forgive you, because neither is true. But I've always had a crush on you, and I hate that I was so easy." She scoffed at herself.

"You aren't easy, and I never once thought that. I was there too! If sleeping with me made you easy, then I am easy too. I'm kind of a slut." He said, enjoying the way a small smile crossed her face.

"Yeah, you kind of are. Scooping me out and asking for a movie filled with sex? What a whore." She teased. He laughed along with her.

"But I am really sorry. I wish I called, and I wish I fixed this right away and was honest. I wish I did a lot of things. But all I can do now is tell you how sorry I am, and how badly I'd like to start over." He said softly, putting his finger underneath her chin, forcing her to finally look at him.

He sighed in defeat when she stepped back, his touch dropping from her. He nodded his head, accepting the damage was done and that was it.

He turned to start walking to the parking lot, walking towards his van as he looked over at her, she just watched him walk.

He yanked the door open but it was slammed shut. He jumped at the action, finding Y/N there with a smile.

"I'm Y/N, and you are?" She smiled her hand out in between them.

He felt himself smiling as he shook her hand,

"I'm Eddie."

Tags!

@bmunson86 @mxcheese @ladymunson @michaelfuckinglangdon @z0mbie-blah @biittersweet @mirrorsstuff @slightlyvicked @micheledawn1975 @ago-godance @magnificantmermaid @tlclick73 @hargrovesswifee @cityofidek @manyfandomsfanvergent @silky-luxe @lokiofasgard616 @loving-and-dreaming @eddiemunsonsbitch69 @thegemaqua @ashlynnkennedy @strangerthingsstories5255 @harringt8ns @pleasinghellfire @whoscamila

[hughungrybear]

Me watching Only Friends Ep 7:

1. I still think Mew is a sh*tty friend for letting Ray leave when he is highly emotional, high (from drugs) and drunk just to deliver a perfect revelation to Top. That's effed up.

2. Well, look at Sand gaslighting Ray. C'mon, dude. You are at fault too. You know Ray is vulnerable but that didn't stop you from using him to get even with Top. This is the first time I'm feeling annoyed with First's character.

3. <after a minute> Oops, I take that back. Sand apologised and acknowledged his part in Ray's accident. I'm all good now. 😊

4. Oh, wow. Ray's dad IS an a**hole. Maybe he is the reason why Ray's mum drunk herself to death.

5. Oh, Cheum. You naivé little thing. This is what happens when we are too ready to believe in happy-ever-afters.

6. Ooh, Mew the psycho is coming. Can't hardly wait.

7. Oh-oh. Boston figured it out. Nick, you should have created a backup plan for this scenario during your free time instead of wasting your time thinking of how you can get Boston to commit to you.

8. Oh, Nick. You poor, lost sod. This isn't a surprise. Boston has told you time and again that he will not commit. Why did you think you will be different?

9. I got distracted by the quote on Mew's red shirt. "Friends don't let friends go. To Stanfund". What? 😅

10. Well, well, well. I have to admit, Top nearly had me on the first half of his apology. And then he goes on to say that he doesn't care if Mew and Ray f*cked, he just wants a second chance. Boy, if you really don't care, you shouldn't have mentioned it. You were so close to looking sincere 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

11. Mew, I understand the sentiment. But don't go burning your apartment in the process 😅😅😅

12. Puppy dog eyes-Ray is back. 😅😅😅 Sand, you really are in trouble. 😂

13. Addicts always are in denial, Ray. You really should consider getting some help. Also, "chill out and talk about life's problems" is so freaking hilarious and depressing at the same time.

14. Oh, shut up, Mew. You also caused Ray's accident.

15. No, Ray. Stop. Go back to Sand.

16. Boston being Boston. No sincere apologies - just plain a**holery. He did deserved that kick.

17. Let's face it - Nick, Sand did you a favour. There is no redeeming Boston. He will never love anyone but himself. No great loss there.

18. Wait, is there a possible Mew/Nick collab? But Nick is still balls-deep in love with Boston. I don't think he will be up for a true revenge against Boston.

19. So, that's why we had Drake in the first episode? Niiice. Mew, what are you up to? 😳😳😳 Oh, I thought we are going to have some revenge s*x lololol nvm, just stealing Boston's vid.

20. It's official. Psycho Mew finally unleashed.

21. The audacity of Boston to beg Mew not to release his s*x video for the sake of "friendship". Ngl, I laughed. 😂

22. Look out, Cheum. Your friend group's personal issue (Top) is here. 😅😅😅 Also, Cheum spraying water to stop the fighting is 🤌

23. No. Just no. Ray, just stop it. Mew stay the fvck away from Ray. Stop making decisions when you're all emotional/pissed off. That's not gonna end well.

Well, gods damned. Looks like Mew will use Ray as a rebound. Ray will still continue on his destructive path and will drag Sand with him. Also, a possible new love for Nick? Oh, I hope so.

[arsenalgbt]

Aaron and David are really interesting to me but not as a sexy porny couple. I feel like their potential for heart-breaking angst is untapped by evil people like me who would giggle while writing it. I had this asking explaining it all written out but my laptop died and I lost it so now I have to try recreate the magic of it. I see them having very slow and sensual love making scenes to contrast the anger and the hurt and the emotion that exists between them. Aaron feels like David has taken something from him and being mad at Mikel isn't smart because Aaron needs Mikel to be impressed by him and part of that includes his character and how Mikel seems him so he smiles and gets on with things while secretly loathing David. Slowly but surely faking positive feelings turns into him having such feelings for David. They view their thing very differently though, David feels like Aaron has made his transition to Arsenal easier and that Aaron is the reason Arsenal feels like home. Aaron harbours resentment towards David and hates that when he fucks him that he's giving so much pleasure the man that stole his pleasure from him by taking his spot on the team. David signs his contract for a permanent move thinking that Aaron is happy to be a number 2 as long as he's number 2 to him. Aaron tells his agent to get him a club, any club, after he fucks David to celebrate his contract. David thinks it's a welcome fuck, it's a goodbye fuck. David learns about the Southampton move from social media. David is now at Arsenal, throwing himself into work and avoiding getting too close to anyone to avoid getting hurt again. Aaron has what he thought he wanted, no loss on the field even comes close to the pain of letting himself lose David though - 💙🤍KT anon

ASJJDSAJKFKJSDFLA AJSFKASJDFKASJDFAKSFDJKA AJKSFJKDASJKFKJAKJ yeah this is exactly what I'm talking about. ofc, angst with a sprinkle of porn as per!!!!!!! so perfect.

being mad at Mikel isn't smart because Aaron needs Mikel to be impressed by him and part of that includes his character and how Mikel seems him so he smiles and gets on with things while secretly loathing David. Slowly but surely faking positive feelings turns into him having such feelings for David. They view their thing very differently though, David feels like Aaron has made his transition to Arsenal easier and that Aaron is the reason Arsenal feels like home. Aaron harbours resentment towards David David signs his contract for a permanent move thinking that Aaron is happy to be a number 2 as long as he's number 2 to him.

fuck yeah THAT is so poetic. so cruel. so naive. Aaron has to leave for the story to work. by leaving, he gets to experience the void. by leaving, not only does he get his petty revenge, but also a surprise heartbreak. I'm hearing Aaron is actually injured right now? that's a recipe of disaster. David drives down south to be with Aaron on his day off, in his head, in his defence, he's 'helping' Aaron with his training to recover from his injury. Aaron doesn't actually spat at him when David shows up on his front door - the rebound sex is earth shattering though, they make it work with Aaron's injury (David riding him cough). exactly. EXACTLYYYYYYYY

or we can always leave it at that. at Aaron leaving. at David finding out the done deal the here we go from the media. damn.............. the angstification of such a niche ship with approximately 3 passengers............................ thank you for this. amazing!!!!!

PS. LISTEN IT'S TE SECOND TIME UR WRITING SOMETHING EPIC AND EITHER UR LAPTOP/PHONE/TUMBLR ATE THEM LMAOOOOOOOOOOO MAY I SUGGEST A RISK PREVENTION ACTION??????? maybe write it first somewhere safe............. always cmd a + cmd c no matter what........ please I can't............ I need................ I'm so serious...

[jenyifer]

‘‘Twas the night before Only Friends Episode 9 and all the the insane brain of Jenny’s no creature was stirring not even a— wait. Wait. Wait. I didn’t talk about that Atom kid. I know there are plenty of characters I rarely talk about Mew because of lingering uncomfy feelings for an ex that probably make me hate him more than I should, Top who I do love but is connected to Mew so… ehhh? And SandRay who I absolutely adore but feel like plenty of other people on Tumblr have meaningful discussion on those two and my contribution would be meaningless (plz don’t stop writing about them everyone else I have to consume an hour of that content a day so.. keep it up). But Atom and Daddy Dan are important to my BostonNickverse and I’ve yet to dissect them. Hop into the soup pot Boys. It’s time for BRAIN SOUP WITH JENNY.

I hate them.

Oh let me expand on that. Atom is one of those girls who you console about their “shitty” boyfriend then they want to make out because you know… you’ve been such a good friend and they have NEVER been with a girl before. Boston has to see 100% through this but since he is on the rebound from Nick he’s going to give in. I think it’s strange Atom doesn’t go to talk to his sister. They seem to be close in age but he isn’t trusting Cheum just…. Talking to her bestie… fucking her friend… very weird. Can’t trust him. I’d say he was being paid by Mew or Top to fuck with Boston as punishment but Atom’s convo about when did Boston realize he was gay makes me walk that statement back. Too genuine. I also toyed with the idea that Atom had eyes for Boston before but upon watching ep3 again I’m thinking nope. I think Atom will be obsessed with Boston possibly try get get revenge when Boston goes to go save Nick from “Daddy Dan” 🤢

Speaking ofDan I’m all for kink. However what I’m not into is power imbalance. Repeat after me kids “Anyone who has power over you shouldn’t have access to your bed.” Nick needs this job desperately I’ve made an entire essay about this. Also Boston has mentally fried the poor boy so any affection seems like a good idea. Nick is certainly not at fault he is going to be a victim. Now how do I think he’ll react to Boston saving him… not well? We still have plenty for episodes for the recovery and Atom’s revenge. He isn’t in the opening for nothing.

[olderthannetfic]

Regarding “revenge porn”:

This is what happened.

Male writer told female co-writer that an ex-friend was a “psycho” - that she sent him unsolicited nudes for months, even though he told her he was gay with a capital G. He said that he eventually ended up a ghosting this person, but that she kept harassing him afterward. He also mentioned that he let the nudes go on for a long time because she was paying him for commissions and he didn’t want that to end. When psycho ex began giving him kudos on his stories again randomly after some time, he told co-writer this, and lamented about how he “paid his dues”, and had seen “that pasty white ass” enough times already. Male and co-writer laughed but co-writer was like, “holy shit what a nut.” Co-writer was actually worried for male, considering this as sexual harassment, and even thought of him as a victim, who was forced to accept these nudes because he didn’t have the money to get out of this situation and needed the money from commissions.

Fast forward to a falling out with male and co-writer where male ghosted co-writer too. Male began telling everyone else that former co-writer was a psycho as well (I see a pattern emerging), who sent him death and rape threats and stalked him irl. He accused her of being the one to send him the death and rape anons because “it sounded like her”, and even former co-writer was shocked to see that the anons really did sound like her.

So former Co-writer went to first former “psycho friend”, on the hunch that a ghosted former psycho ex could very likely be the one doing all of this. She got on tumblr and told her she better stop pretending to be her and sending death and rape threats in her voice, because she knew about the unsolicited nudes, and she actually had a nude that the male had given her. Why psycho friend believed this, we will never know. Psycho friend denied being the one to send the death and rape threats and Co-writer left it at that because what else could she do. She didn’t have a nude, either, btw.

Later it was revealed that at least one of the Male’s rebound friend’s was sending anons in other author’s voices across the entire fandom trying to start shit. This rebound friend also accidentally sent a blacklist of sorts to a friend of Co-writers - a list of all the people who associated with co-writer (purpose unknown, but it was later revealed that male considered former co-writer a transphobe and a racist, and was adding everyone who associated with her onto this blacklist). Co-writer is not a transphobe or a racist, and is actually married to a Latino and has a trans son to boot. It was also revealed through another friend, the evidence of this rebound friend admitting and bragging about sending these anons in other author’s voices. This got out but male doubled down, accusing co-writer again of being a racist and a transphobe, and now I think he’s friends again with nude sending woman. He’s also still friends with rebound friend, even though they were caught red handed in all of this and could be the one sending the death and rape threats as well, to try and get attention from male (this male used to be a top writer in the Thrawn fandom, which is why so many folks wanted to get close to him. He’s not really popular anymore, and blames the ex co-writer for his current failings even though it’s clear his fics have become… “lackluster”, to use another person’s description for them).

Anyway, so yeah, revenge porn sounds exciting, but it’s really just another case of a man lying to cover his tracks (it was also revealed that the nudes might not have been as “unsolicited” as he pretended they were, as many folks chimed in to say that they knew HE used to send nudes around). He likes calling women psycho when he’s ready to ditch the friendship and even sent many an anon calling ex co-writer a “psycho” (he really likes that word). Anyway, Fuck the patriarchy and Fuck this guy imo.

--

[cyandelightz]

Permanent Plotter Call + Relationship Seeking Info - BUZZO of LISA: the Painful + Joyful

Hi there. By leaving a like on this post, that'll signal to me that you have an interest in planning out a long-term relationship dynamic or more in-depth plots here with this character! I'll drop by your direct messages or leave stuff in your ask box and offer you the same option. (Even without that, you can also contact me easily via the Isola group discord or by Tumblr's messenger - but if you like this post I'll also be more than happy to welcome you into my Discord DMs for discussions too!)

Overview

Buzzo avoids meaningful personal relationships like the plague, because the only one he's ever had ended horribly. Unfortunately for him, I have other plans, and he's gonna need to get out of that shell of his for them. That being said, please be warned that while he has a polite outer personality he can use with people, he's generally a total weirdo to the core. Obsessive, scheming, and mired in poorly-managed grief, with a penchant for blood and torture - it would take a particular type of person to want to actually get close to him. This means that it's likely gonna need to be a gradual process.

Enemies

This is actually harder than you might expect to achieve. You'd need to suffer some major misunderstanding or cross someone he actually cares about to gain this curse. (And keep in mind he doesn't actually have anyone he cares about at present.) And it is a curse - if sufficiently provoked, he will chase you to the ends of the world as a persistence predator, waiting for you to get tired so he can pin you down and make you make a life-or-limb decision for his own amusement. In general, his enemies are people who he perceives as having some kind of major moral failure. This can stem from a misunderstanding, for certain, but still. He doesn't just hunt people down for no reason.

Friends

It's hard to say what kind of people could end up being Buzzo's friends, really - character development could end up with him in a lot of odd friendships just by continual proximity with the same people. That being said, he doesn't seek people out, and the people who would seek him out are - well, unusual. The people who he'd appreciate most are people he can see himself in. Traits he'd look for in a friend are justice-seeking sadism toward those they believe have some kind of moral failing, revenge-seekers, those interested in the undead and occult (or who are undead/occult/monstrous), especially open-minded people, people who make him feel he can talk about his past and his worries (GOOD LUCK), and generally people who don't mind him being a total weirdo. It might help if you, too, listen to weird music - that's at least SOMETHING to talk about.

A long-overdue Rebound Partner

Waaaaay past the due date, but it might be one of the most helpful things going forward - if you can work a miracle. Let's list out some requirements and some things that would help. - You need to be friends already, and very close ones. Buzzo doesn't label his sexuality, but it's very close to being demisexual. And he can't do dating - it kind of ruins the dynamic that would actually get him to open up to someone. - You'd probably need to be attractive to him even past that. He's not necessarily fully straight but he probably prefers his partners more feminine than himself. Most girls and more feminine guys, yes - more macho men and very butch women, less likely, just due to physical preferences. -He has a mild preference for willowy frames, dark hair, and goths, but those are optional. (Being a cool monster or undead of some sort would also score some points.) - He is SO dedicated to Lisa (his dead childhood sweetheart) that it would probably take him a while and some thinking to realize he's caught feelings at all.

Transgender Mentors

I'm gonna be real this "guy" is a fucking egg and could really use some trans people to surround "him"self with. Get this chick some estradiol. Let there be a new funny blue pill in those hands. Buzzo needs some joy in their life and I'm not talking about the mutagenic kind.

[the-cat-and-the-birdie]

What do you do when you feel like a character in your fic is acting too out of character?

I kinda try to do two things based on if the reaction they're having is necessary to the plot or not

If the OOC reaction isn't neccessary:

I go back to the point where I think they started acting out of character and I write down what emotion they're feeling

If I can, I go back to the source material and try to find a scene where they're feeling that emotion (or something very close to it)

Then with a pen and paper, I try to watch them and their reaction, writing down anything that I've noticed

From there I try to incorporate some of those things or I'll rewrite the scene based on the canon scenes I watched

Example: I need to write a scene where Hobie is mad, but I don't want him to over-react. One of the canon scenes we have of him mad is when Miguel is yelling at Miles and Gwen. He's in the back being quiet, mainly glaring at Miguel. He stops pacing for once and looks like he's biting his tongue. From that, I can guess that he's more of an quiet angry person rather than a yeller, so I rewrite the scene for him to be more cold than outright angry.

If the OOC reaction is necessary: (like you're writing a yandere fic for a character canonically known to warm, happy, etc)

This one is a bit harder for me ngl

I would try and put the canon character next to the OOC character in my head and ask myself 'what would it take to get my character from canon to OOC'

Basically trying to think of an event I can add into the story that would better justify their actions, or 'push' them in that direction.

Going back to the source also helps here to find things that either trigger them or make them happy.

Example: I need to write a scene where Miles is mad, but Miles is usually shown either happy or sad in canon. However, ATSV shows us that Miles gets upset when he's being condescended to (like Peter calling him kid), when his family is in danger, or when he's been betrayed.

He also gets really annoyed when people make assumptions about what he's doing or paints him out to be hiding something (like with his parents - telling his dad to 'get off his ass' lol) - and he gets MORE annoyed when someone is not lying, but answering really vaguely and hiding something (like Gwen was doing)

So from there, I can add in any of those things in order to justify his anger. Like if Miles is supposed to have this huge argument with his S/O, maybe I can add in the S/O making negative assumptions about him sneaking out, which is enough to make him pissed and irritated. Or have the S/O trying to hide something from Miles, which makes him feel left out, which makes him feel angry. So in the story it'll look a little less OOC cause it's hitting on the same trauma from canon and pushing him into the reaction I need lol.

---------

And if all else fails, you can just make a scenario/emotion flow chart. You write out the scenario, write out two reactions, pick which one the character would do, and repeat.

Example:

Scenario - Pavi getting cheated on.

Getting cheated on either makes you ----> Sad OR Angry

He's more likely to be Sad and sad people who are cheated on usually ----> Move On OR Get Revenge

He's more likely to Move On and people trying to move on usually ----> Rebound OR Avoid Their Ex

He's more likely to Avoid His Ex and people avoiding their exes usually ----- (etc, etc, etc)

That way you can kind of narrow down the types of reactions they're most likely to have.

IDK is any this made sense but I hope it helps!! Thanks for asking :)

[smartrelationshiptips]

Ex_Boyfriend Sleeping Around After Breakup: Tips For Moving On

There are many reasons Ex Boyfriend Sleeping around after Breakup with his partner. It could be to get back at her for cheating because he is not over the relationship or just because it’s fun.

One of these things is talking about your ex on social media and in-person to friends and family members. This can lead to nothing but trouble and hurt feelings from both sides when they find out what you have been doing behind their backs.

Ex Boyfriend Sleeping Around After Breakup: Some Thing

Many people have a hard time getting over a breakup, and it can be even more difficult when the person they were with was sleeping around. It is important for those struggling to find closure after their ex has been cheating on them to think about what will make them feel better in the long run.

The best way to get past this type of betrayal is by forgiving oneself and moving on with life. Holding on to the past and feeling resentful will only make matters worse, and these feelings can eventually turn into depression.

After taking the time to think about what is best for them, Those who have been cheated on should be able to move forward with their lives.

For some people, this may mean blocking ex boyfriends from social media sites, cutting ties with all those close to their ex and finding a way to make new friends. This may not be easy, but the healing process needs to begin.

Ex Boyfriend Sleeping Around After Breakup: Tips For Moving On

Many things should never be done after breakups, and one of these is promoting how many sexual partners you have had around your ex.

Do you ever wonder what your ex is up to? He’s been gone for a while, but he still pops into your mind at odd moments. You’re looking through old pictures, and you find one of him with his arm around some other girl.

You see him on Facebook, talking cheek-to-cheek with someone that isn’t you. It hurts. The good news is that this feeling will eventually fade away if you put in the time and effort to move on from the relationship. Just don’t make these five mistakes when trying to get over an ex:  

1) Stalking their social media accounts

2) Constantly asking friends about them 

3) Keeping reminders of them 

4) Catching yourself thinking about them

5) Using their old belongings

You’ll be surprised about how much power you have over your own emotions, hun. You can move on, but only when you decide to do so. Don’t put it off for too long, though – NOW is the best time to start moving on from your ex.

Is it wrong to sleep around after a breakup?

No. It can be therapeutic if you are in a good place.

It is natural to have thoughts about sleeping with other people after a breakup if you are a woman. It has been said that when women sleep around in the aftermath of a breakup. They do so to fill the void left by their ex.

There is no such thing as “rebound sex” for men because they are not biologically programmed for monogamy and would sleep with women even if they were single. The truth is that both sexes experience post-breakup sex differently.

Also Read: Why Does My Ex Husband Want To Sleep With Me

Why do some guys sleep around after a breakup?

This question has many answers, but the answer I am going to focus on in this blog post is because they are hurt. Some guys sleep around after a breakup as a way of dealing with their pain and sadness.

There are some reasons why a guy might be hurting that you can help him through, such as by being supportive and encouraging while he works through his feelings. The best thing for both parties involved in the relationship is to work together to make things better.

Some people believe it’s because they are so blinded by anger and hurt that they want to hurt the person who broke their heart or even revenge on them.

Others say that sleeping with someone else distracts them from the pain of being broken up with and can help them get over their ex-girlfriend faster. There are many reasons why men might sleep around after a breakup, but what matters most is how you feel about his behaviour afterwards.

If you’re not into him dating other girls, then he probably should stop before things get too serious between you two. But if this doesn’t bother you at all, don’t let it ruin your relationship!

How soon is too soon to sleep with someone after a break up?

It’s natural to want to fill the void of loneliness with someone else after a breakup. But when is it too soon? The answer varies depending on the person and their situation, but some general guidelines can help you determine whether you’re ready for a new relationship or not. 

The first thing many people think about is how much time has passed since the Breakup – generally, six months or more is considered enough time for most people to move on from their past relationship. Additionally, it’s important for both parties involved in the potential new romance to have been single long enough. If one party has just broken up with someone else, they might still be too emotional about the last break up and therefore not emotionally available for another.

Sleeping With An Ex Good Or Bad Idea?

You May Like:

Can’t Sleep After a Breakup: Best 11 tips for falling asleep When a man waits to sleep with you

What does it mean if my ex sleeps with me?

If you’re in a relationship and your ex sleeps with you, it may not mean anything. However, if they do this regularly, it is important to think about what the “ex-sex” means for you. If one person has moved on and the other hasn’t, then the sex might serve as an emotional crutch for the one who still loves their ex.

On the other hand, if neither person wants to have sex with each other anymore but is stuck in limbo because they can’t move on from each other emotionally or logistically yet, sleeping together might be more understandable.

If your ex slept with you, it doesn’t necessarily mean they want to get back together. It could be a sign that they’re trying to see if there’s anything left in the relationship or that they just wanted to make sure the sex was as good as when you were dating.

The reasons can vary widely and are not easy to discern without asking them for some clarification. Your best bet is to try and move on from any emotional attachment and focus on how this will affect your future relationships.

Conclusion

I have good news and bad news. The bad news is that your ex-boyfriend was sleeping around after the Breakup, but the good news is he’s not in love with anyone else! You can still get him back because his libido will eventually fade, and he’ll want to be monogamous again. Best of luck getting him back!

[thatgirl4815]

The Flaw in Ayan’s Plan (Ep 4 meta)

The show makes a point of showing how confused and shaken up Akk is by his feelings for Ayan, but I think all of those befuddled feelings go both ways—it’s just harder to see in Ayan’s case. Thankfully, last episode made it even more clear that Ayan is deep in his feels for Akk and he doesn’t quite know how to reckon with that. And Khaotung is brilliant enough that he portrays that confusion beautifully even despite Ayan’s confident exterior.

I also just happened to realize that up until that rebound kiss in the bathroom, Ayan has always been the one making light of the flirtation. But after that kiss, all of his suavity is gone. I think Akk could interpet Ayan’s confusion and uncomfortableness in one of two ways. Either he’s always made a point of getting close to Akk but never actually meant to act on it because his feelings don’t go beyond manipulative flirtation OR he legitimately feels something for Akk and that moment has just solidified it.

What’s interesting about it is that Ayan totally could have played it off like he has with everything else, but for the first time, he feels just as shaken as Akk. I’d like to imagine that Ayan has always planned to use Akk to get to the school, but a few specific moments have indicated that just as Akk is slowly working through his feelings for Ayan, Ayan is slowly coming to accept that all of his flirtatious advances at Akk aren’t as superficial as he once intended. One of them is the scene with the sticky notes. I don’t want to kick a dead horse here, but that sticky note scene is the strongest indicator of everything Ayan is working through in regards to Akk. Akk’s name is being put on a board used to get to Suppalo and avenge Ayan’s uncle, but as they’ve grown closer, I don’t think Ayan necessarily likes the idea of turning on Akk. Ayan has no problem being everything Akk expects him to be; that is, he has no problem burning Suppalo to the ground. But doing so would damage whatever little bit of trust they have formed. That trust never showed so clearly as in this scene:

Ayan is very comfortable with who he is. He’s also comfortable with bottling up all his pain over his uncle’s death. But we know these bottled emotions are what’s slowly doing him in, as shown in the last scene on the bleachers and in his conversation with Thua about his uncle. He’s so used to bearing this burden alone. The only thing that will ever make it easier is getting revenge. That’s what he’s convinced himself—that getting justice is what his uncle deserves…and at a much deeper level, that it will finally ease all the pain he’s been trying to work through. In that sense, it’s as much for his uncle as it is for himself.

And the scene where Ayan cries to Akk is so groundbreaking because Ayan’s letting Akk in. There’s no front, no suavity, no facades. He’s crying and in pain. What does Akk do with that paired with everything else he feels—and wants to feel—for Ayan? There’s such an interesting push and pull between wanting to hate someone and starting to care for them. How much of it can Akk trust as real, and how much of it is just Ayan’s manipulation? And more importantly, what makes Akk so committed to upholding the school’s rules? It’s interesting too that Akk asks Ayan why he yielded so easily, as if he wanted him to stand up to the teachers.

Akk’s insecurity about his sexuality is something else I could get into, but that’d just be straying from the point. I will say though that I think his insecurities feed into his role as head prefect. He has to be perfect and abide by a set of rules that are not necessarily set in writing, but are expected of someone in his position. It’s just more pressure he puts on himself. All of that will have to come to a head sometime soon.

[beep-beep-robin]

screaming at the idea of a dark academia steddie au (still in the 80s)

- steve being the one that lives in a deteriorating old apartment one winter because his parents cut him off, almost dies from the cold before eddie comes and gets him out of there

- steve being impressed by everything eddie knows bc he‘s used to being around pretentious know-it-alls and eddie isn‘t like that at all

- now listen it isn‘t dark academia without a little murder. sorry not sorry. hear me out - what if billy was in their friend group and they "accidentally" killed him because he‘s an asshole. and eddie gets pulled into it bc he‘s in their course

- said friendgroup obviously contains robin, nancy, steve and now eddie

- steve‘s the one that‘s used to showing off with his material possessions (and girlfriend, aka nancy) because he thinks that‘s all people really want from him, the only people he lets somewhat close being his friends, but only robin truly knows his real self (before eddie comes along)

- for robin i‘m thinking eleanor from do revenge. pretending to be rich so she fits in, but also just fascinated by the actual classes and everything they‘re studying. steve used to help her out with money, that‘s what made his parents cut him off. bonus if she has a huge crush on nancy and she‘s the only one that sees her as an actual person from the beginning whereas the guys just see her as ooh a girl for a while at the start usually (aka camila in tsh)

- jonathan as eddie’s dorm neighbor. he‘s chill and usually has good advice, knows basically everyone on campus but has his own separate group of friends (including argyle)

- nancy as the groups it girl. always dressed to impress, but upset that no one truly wants to get to know her. her and steve are the campus��� hot couple, everyone knows them, wants to be them. but they have their issues, which come out once eddie‘s in the picture. she likes robin, maybe a little too much.

- eddie as the new student. originally only interested in his studies, because he really doesn’t want anything to distract him - once he’s distracted, it’s over - is immediately intrigued by the group, befriends robin, that‘s his in. get‘s sucked into the whole murder mystery, which forces them all closer. watches steve and nancy‘s relationship crumble, both of them needing support that the other one can‘t give.

- i‘m thinking wild parties in old buildings, dark furniture, secret glances, hungry kisses, denial. oh lord give me the denial. jealousy, rebounds, steve and nancy hooking up again -

- bonus points if eddie lives with steve for a while. and they get closer. steve has nightmares, terrified of the police finding them out, they share a bed? SLOWBURN though. very important

- listen i haven‘t thought about what they‘re studying but if they have a theatre class……. i neED steve to help eddie cover himself in fake blood for a play and just stare for a bit bc oh shit he‘s hot

- nancy gives robin a makeover, robin hates it, but loves spending time with her. robin supports nancy through her downward spiral after the murder and gets her out of it, with the support of eddie and steve.

- think long nights, windowsills, shared cigarettes and deep talks. the terrifying feeling of being known as a murderer to the person you love more than anything mixed with the knowledge that nothing will ever be the same again

[brownbitchshit]

Okay Theory time....

1. I think Simon and Marcus meets before the term begins. A little flirt here and there and that's it. Marcus clearly likes Simon and Simon is sort of interested but he is still heartbroken over Willhelm so he tries to keep things friendly with Marcus.

2. Then the term begins, Wille and Simon meet again. The love and longing is there and Wille wants him back. So we see lot's of longing and yearning from both.

I think Wille is doing everything he can to win him back and simon is failing to ignore him. At this point it's a will they, won't they situation. But they are getting close. Wille is suffering a little but situation is improving. He is being open about them more and more.

3. Wille becomes aware of Marcus even though not about Simon and Marcus. I don't think he finds out about their little flirtation during break. So Wille is still on mission winning back Simon.

4. But then...Simon gets to know about the video, probably by the courtesy of the queen or maybe the queen threatens him because after the photo above we see a scene in the trailer where Wille is standing alone in the music room and some instruments are scattered on the floor. And Simon says, "They don't want you to associate with me".

5.So then comes a period of angst again. Where Simon has lost all his trust and Wille is hurting.

In this scene they both flinch. Simon tries to avoid Wille and Wille looks guilty. Meanwhile Wille's mission to destroy August and Monarchy is going full well. He is just now a little bit more broken and hopeless.

6. Because of Wille's betrayal, Simon does a rebound with Marcus. He was already interested and Simon needed a distraction. In this costume party Wille gets to know it. And he is heartbroken and angry.

7. In his rage Wilhelm confronts August and threatens his mom to abdicate or something. And then he nearly pulls his trigger on August. August breaks down and apologizes and talks about wanting to kill himself. Simon gets angry and scared to see Wille's this side and runs away. Wille catches upto him and apologizes as he realizes he has taken the entire revenge thing too far. Forgives August, makes up with Simon.

8. Then they have a few days of bliss (an episode at max probably). Simon and Wille gets back together and does lots of romantic, sexy and cheesy stuffs. They also get forgives August and August sort of become their friend. And Wille finally finds a place for himself there among his friends and boyfriend

9. But then Cristina comes to collect her debt as in to punish her son for the threat he sent out. Wille gets taken away. Simon gets heartbroken and sniffs his sweater and etc.

10. Now either the series ends with another cliffhanger with Wilhelm being taken away and Simon and Wilhelm being separated once again. Or.....Wilhelm comes out/abdicates/both to the entire Hillershka. At least this is what vibe this scene gives me.

Again I could be absolutely wrong but this is what I think.

[muichiroslover]

Disclaimer!!

This fic includes a Manga spoiler

From the manga “Tokyo Revengers” if

You aren’t that caught up and don’t

know the events then you’ve been warned!!!

Also this fic doesn’t follow the exact

timeline of Tokyo revengers!

Without further ado then

[spoilers from the Valhalla arc]

G/n= gang name

(Also yes i lazily borrowed characters from Genshin💀) + trust me to the end guys😭

Part 2

Part 3

Part 4

Part 5

Part 6

The wind blew and your hands shook as you looked down at your boyfriends cold turning body, it felt like the world around you was spinning, your ears were ringing and your hands stained in the god awful red color of blood

“Kei, Kei please- please you-you have to get up, come on come on baby” you said in a shaky tone as your boyfriends head laid in your lap, his eyes barely lidded open, it was a cold day

He reached his hand up to you, it landed on your cheek as you put your hand over it in a desperate try to keep him here with you

Tears cascaded down your cheeks as your mouth clenched in anger sadness and grief

“I’m sorry...I thought I could do it..” he said hoarsely and you shush him telling him to save his energy until the ambulance could make it

He laughed, his laughter turning into a fit of coughs as blood shot out his mouth

“I’m not making it out babe..” he says and you shake your head “shut up Keisuke you always say the worse things at the wrong time” you cry as you hold onto the cold hand on your cheek

He smiled up at you, fangs showing and all as his eyes began to go dull

“I love you” he says and your eyes widen noticing how his hold on you started getting limp

“Kei! Kei I love you so much! I love you too so-so please d-dont do this” you pleaded and he slowly closed his eyes as he muttered one last thing to you

Your eyes widen as his hand goes limp on your cheek and his eyes fully close, he laid peacefully on your lap as the world fell silent

You didn’t get to grieve long as your vice captain ran up to you, pulling you

“Come on y/n! The cops are coming quickly we have to go!” He shouted, you seemed lost as he dragged you away from your beloved, Kazutora taking your place as he looked at you apologetically

“Come on boss!” Kazuha groaned as you weren’t exactly cooperating, tears streamed down your face as you turned around as you and Kazuha bolted to your motorcycles

You got on quickly as you started your engine, your team following quickly, you took once last glance at Baji and Kazutora as you gritted your teeth and drove off as the sounds of sirens approached

As you drove your head felt as if it was spinning and as if the sky itself was about to collapse on top of you, and you couldn’t stop it

Your mind just kept thinking of him

Baji Keisuke

Your beloved since childhood, no matter how much it hurts he’s gone now, he won’t ever sneak through your window at 3am to sleep

He won’t ever come over when his moms not home so you can cook for him

He won’t ever come over again to tell you about another stray cat he saved

It will never happen again

And that’s painful

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

It had been about 6 days since the bloody Halloween incident, your members could see the way you would seem lost or empty during meetings

The way your eyes would loose focus then tune back in at the last minute

They felt helpless as their leader seemed to fall apart in front of them

You sighed as a knock came at your door, you got up from the couch of your house and opened the door to see your first division captain

“Xiao, whats the problem?” You ask as you invite him in

“Someone wants to meet with us, he originally got thrown out of Toman and is asking to join up with us” he says as he stands in front of your body that had just sat back down

“Alright, who is this person?” You ask

“Kisaki Tetta I believe was his name, he was accompanied by a man named Hanma as well, he was at the bloody Halloween incident as Valhalla” he explains, you stare at him

“Okay, where did he wish to meet?” You ask and he hands you a paper that had an address on it

You stare at it blankly then look up

“Who’s free?”

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

You rode your motorcycle with a blank expression as Xiao, Kazuha, Chongyung, and Beidou rode behind you

“Y/n are you sure this is a good idea? Mikey must’ve kicked him out for a reason, shouldn’t we at least check with-“ Kazuha began as he aligned his motorcycle with yours

“Kazuha, eyes on the road” was all you said as you sped up, he sighed as he followed you without any other comments

You guys stopped in front of an abandoned warehouse as you hopped off your bike

“This isn’t sketchy at all..” Chongyung says and you sigh as you step into the warehouse, your members following close behind

As you stepped in you saw two boys standing in the center, one with glasses and one unbelievably tall with tattoos on his hands

You walked in until you stopped in front of the two boys

It stayed silent until you sighed putting your hands in your pocket

“So, you say you want to join g/n?” You ask bluntly and the tall guy laughs throwing his head back

“Straight to the point, I like her!” He says and your eyes don’t leave Kisaki’s

“Yes, I wish to make g/n stronger, with my help and the extra members I believe we can make g/n the strongest gang in Japan” he says and your dead eyes stare blankly at him before you smile

“Alright, welcome to the gang” you say

“Huh?! Y/n?!” Kazuha says grabbing your shoulder, your head falls back as you two make eye contact, the silence deadly

He lets you go as you turn your attention back to Kisaki and Hanma, both of them smiling or more like smirking

“I’m Hanma, this is Kisaki, glad to be here boss!~” Hanma says extending his hand to you, you look at his hand that had the word “Sin” on it

“Glad to have you” you say as you shake his hand

And with that the mini meeting ended and you began to head home, you parked your bike on the side of the house and opened your door, you closed it and as soon as you did someone pinned you

Your eyes met with red ones

“Kazuha” you spoke and he backed off

“Let’s have a chat” you say

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

You stood in front of the entirety of your gang on the stage of your little meet up area, Kazuha sat on a crate one step below you and Kisaki and Hanma stood on the slowest part of the stage

Your members talked in whispered voices as they talked about the two boys

“Alright alright quiet down” you said after finishing a conversation with Kazuha, crossing your arms you began

“These two boys, Kisaki and Hanma are now proudly apart of g/n” you say loud and clear with no expression to your face

“What??!”

“Weren’t they there during that day??”

“Why would they join?”

“Quiet” you say and in an instant the whispers stop

“I hope you treat them with respect and how you would treat any other member, they will help g/n grow and become stronger” you say and nobody says anything

“With that, I end this meeting, thank you all” you finish as everyone begins to disband, you watch as your second division captain, Beidou signals you over

You nod at Kisaki and Hanma as you step down and jump off the stage, you follow her to a closed off area and with a second glance she looks at you like your crazy

“Y/n?? What’s all of this? We can’t trust those two, I don’t know why but I get a bad feeling please reconsider this..” she says to you and you stare at her blankly as your ears perk

You sighed

“Beidou, this was my decision alone, I didn’t get manipulated and I’m not tricking anyone, I genuinely don’t even know what to do with g/n anymore so I accepted Kisaki and his group to larger our numbers for now, please trust me and trust Kisaki”’ you say and her eyes widen as her mouth falls open

“Wha-“

“Alright I’m tired Beidou, please get home safe” you say and with that you left a bewildered Beidou alone at the wall as she watched your leaving figure

The weeks had continued as normal, you and Kisaki getting close enough to the point that you would invite him over your house

Your members had noticed your sudden closure with Kisaki and were worried that you were looking for someone to comfort yourself over a certain persons death and found the worse possible candidate to rebound to

So imagine there surprised when you announced you and Kisaki had gotten together, everyone tried to talk you out of it, everyone

“Y/n please, I know your grieving but Kisaki??” Xiao says and you sigh as you run a hand through your hair, tears brimmed your eyes

“Xiao please, for the first time since Baji’s death I feel comforted, safe, loved, please can you guys see from my point of view for one second” you say looking up at him as a tear rolled down your cheek

Xiao opened his mouth then closed it, he repeated this action once or twice before signing, with his eyebrows furrowed he looked at you

“Alright Y/n...just please don’t do anything stupid” he says and you smile at him

“Of course not Xiao, I’m not stupid” you say and he hesitatingly nods as he takes his leave from your house, you listen as the door closes and you sigh as you wipe your eye and grab your cup of coffee sipping it

~~~~~~~~~~~~

“It’s been quiet still, no gangs are trying to brawl or anything” Chongyung reports to you and you nod

“Good, then I suppose we can take a break, I heard a festival was around the corner” you say to him and he nods

“Yeah there is, are you going with Kisaki?” He asks leaning back on the chair in your house, you put your foot on the bottom of the chair as you slam it to the ground, you stare at Chongyung before smiling

“Yes I should ask him if he would like to go” you say and he looks at you before nodding agreeing with you

Chongyung was one of the few who didn’t question your relationship with Kisaki, not because he wasn’t worried but because he trusts you with every fiber of his being, you don’t do things for no reason

If this was what you wanted who was he to say otherwise?

“Then I’m gonna leave now, tell me how your date goes with Kisaki” he says as he gets up from the chair, you nod as you get up and walk him out

“Bye then” you say and he waved as he leaves, you go back in and sit down as you pick up your phone and dial a number

“Kisaki hey, can you come over?” You speak into the phone cheerfully as the boy on the other side of the phone hums and hangs up

You put the phone down as your blank stare shifts to your room, getting up you open your bedroom door, you look at the photos of you and Baji that were still hung up and the pictures of you Mikey, Baji ,Draken, Kazutora, Mitsuya and Pah chin as kids, life was so easy back then

You grab one photo of Baji smiling and smile at it, you kiss it once and then begin taking off all the pictures from your bulletin board

You open a draw and throw the pictures in and close it, you grab one picture, it’s of You Kisaki and Hanma and hang it up

You stare at it before there’s a knock on your door, without a second glance to the bulletin board you leave the room and head towards the door

You opened it and smiled at Kisaki, he looked at you as you stepped to the side to let him in, he walked in and sat down on the couch as you followed and sat next to him

“So what’s up?” He asks boredly and you beam at him

“Let’s go to the festival together” you say and he looks at you with a slight raised eyebrow

“Pleasee, it’ll be fun I promise” you say with a kind smile and tilt of your head, he sweat drops as he looks away

‘I guess I have to put up the act..’ he thinks as he looks at your gleaming eyes, awaiting his answer

He sighs

“Alright we can go..” he says and you grin at him as you grab both his hands in yours

“Thank you love! I’m so happy right now.” You say, your smile never faltering, eyes closed, grip tight around his hands

“Yeah..” he says and you let go as you turn around your smiling falling

“Oh!” You say as he turns around staring at your soft smile “what’s your favorite food? Ill make it for you” you say and he makes a face, like disgust

“Uhm, Anything is fine” he says and you nod

“The festival starts at 6 tomorrow, don’t be late! I’m serious Kisaki!!” You reprimand as you push him out your door as he groans

“Yeah yeah, 6pm got it..” he says and you smile at him as you hug him and let go before he turns and leaves and you close the door

The house falls silent as you stare blankly at the door, you turn around as you head to your room

[laddieseddiemunster]

Hiii can i request an poly lost boys x reader (the boys think she cheated on them 《the didnt btw》 and so they cheat on her and she finds out. How will they react when they find out She didn't cheat on them?

This is my first Poly, so let me know how I did. Fyi, there is no happy ending to this.

This is long by the way

You Cheated On Me? (Poly!Lost Boys x Fem!Reader)

Warning: angst, manipulation (sort of), slight violence, some nsfw

The boys all had a mixture of feelings going around in their heads. disappointment, sadness, but mainly anger. you had cheated on them, or so they thought.

You were originally supposed to meet them at the boardwalk, but you told them that you’d be late because you were going out with a friend. They didn’t think too much of it...at first.

It was until they accidentally saw you near the carousel with your friend. They also noticed that your friend was a guy, so instead of trusting you the boys decided to watch and see what you guys were doing.

At first, nothing happened that was out of the ordinary. You two were just talking. But then, from what they could see, things started to take a turn. Every single one of the boys could tell that whatever conversation you were having with your friend was very deep and personal. they could tell by the facial expressions both of you were making. You looked sad and concerned, and your friend looked sad and only sad. The boys tried not to stare at the two of you because there’s no way you’d cheat on them. Right?

Then all of a sudden you planted a kiss on his cheek. Now the boys were steaming. Their vampire blood was boiling inside of them. Even if it was just a kiss on the cheek, that’s enough to make them jealous. Marko was close to running up to the two of you and ripping him off of you. He kept his cool because he wanted to see how far you’d go with this. Not that Marko would ever want you to cheat, he just wanted to what would happen next just in case he’d have to throw it back in your face later on.

David was calm and collected on the outside, but on the inside he was getting pretty jealous. He wanted to rip your friend apart. Especially when he hugged you and wrapped his arms around your waist. That just made David more angry. He hates when some nobody touches what is his.

Dwayne was a bit angry, but he was more hurt. He tried to tell himself that he was just overthinking everything because he knew you’d never cheat on them. But when he saw you kiss your friend on the cheek, Dwayne was starting to think that this wasn’t just your friend.

Paul was a mixture of anger and sadness. He didn’t know what to feel. From what he could see it looked like you were cheating on them, and that thought alone hurts his non-beating heart. He thought he could trust you, but now he’s starting to think he can’t.

During all the mixed emotions, an action from your friend made them all snap back into present time. All of a sudden he pulled you away from the hug and kissed your cheek, like you had kissed his earlier. Now each one of the boys were ready to throttle him. No one touches what’s theirs except for them. Both of Marko’s hands were now in fists, and if it wasn’t for you being there he probably would have killed him right then and there. David was now more than furious, and he started his motorcycle and drove out of the boardwalk. The rest of the boys followed him because they knew that when David starts to drive away, then they must follow unless told not to.

When the boys got to the cave, David immediately sat in his wheelchair, and the rest of the guys took a seat somewhere around him. The three of them knew David long enough to know that he was going to have a say in this situation, and it was not going to be pushed under the rug.

“She cheated on us,” David said, still in disbelief.

“Maybe she wasn’t,” Paul said trying to convince David and himself that they were wrong. “She wouldn’t do that.”

“Oh, come on!” Marko scoffed. “We saw it first hand! She cheated!”

“Why would she do that to us?” Paul asked, feeling more hurt than angry.

“She doesn’t love us like we thought she did,” It hurt Dwayne to say that, but that was the only conclusion.

“I wanna kill the guy that she was with!” Marko said kicking some dirt on the ground in frustration. “And I’m going to!”

“Should we just...break up with her?” Paul asked with slight pain in his voice.

“No,” David finally spoke. “Not yet.”

“Why not?” Dwayne asked, thinking that was the logical and right thing to do.

“We should get her back for this! She deserves to feel the pain that we are feeling right now!” David said standing up from his chair.

“What do you wanna do? Kill her?!” Paul asked hoping that he was wrong.

“No!” David quickly replied. “Let’s get revenge.”

“Revenge? What kind of revenge?” Marko asked. Even though Marko loved you, he was angry, and when he’s angry he loves some good tasty revenge.

David thought for a moment before coming up with the perfect way to get back at you. “We’ll cheat on her.”

“Cheat on her?” Dwayne asked completely lost.

“Yeah. We can get four girls up in here, and she’ll come and catch us. But then, we remind her that she cheated on us, so then she’ll be just as hurt as we are. Maybe even more,” David said completely satisfied with his plan.

“Wait a minute, David. That doesn’t sound right,” Paul said. Even though Paul was definitely a lot of crazy things, but a cheater was not one of them.

“What she did to us wasn’t right!” Marko practicality yelled. “I say she deserves this! Who knows how long she’s been cheating on us!”

“Right!” David exclaimed. “And if any of you don’t want to do it then go try to get an apology out of her! Because she obviously doesn’t love us enough! Or else none of this would’ve ever happened!”

The other boys knew that David was right. You didn’t love them, if you did you wouldn’t have cheated. Marko was up for the plan right when David suggested it. Marko wasn’t too fond of the idea of cheating on you, the thing he really wanted to do was kill your friend. No one touches what’s his and gets away with it. David was furious, but also disappointed. Even if David wasn’t always good at showing it, he loved you very much, and to see you cheating really hurt him. Paul was pretty heartbroken at this point. He’s not the kind of guy to go look for a rebound after a breakup with someone he truly loved. He just kind of tries to smoke it off. Doesn’t always work. Dwayne was still hoping that all this was a big misunderstanding, but the proof was there, and he couldn’t deny it.

The boys knew that you’d come straight to the cave after hanging out with your ‘friend’, so they had to work fast. David didn’t really care who he was going to cheat on you with, he just wanted to get revenge. So, the guys found the first four girls they saw on the beach, and hypnotized them with their mind tricks to get the girls to come back to the cave with them.

Marko wanted to get revenge, but he was more interested in killing your friend. He could feel the heat and anger building up inside him whenever he thought about your friend kissing your cheek. Nothing could satisfy Marko more than killing your friend in the most violent way possible.

Paul feelings were all a bit mixed up. He felt sad because he’s in love with you, and not this chick that he picked up from the beach. Instead of rejecting the girl, he locked his lips with hers and kissed her hard. The slight anger he had in his system struck and all of a sudden, he wanted you to feel the same way he was feeling. Paul slipped his tongue down her throat hoping you would happen to walk into the cave right that second. The girl only pulled him closer allowing Paul to massage one of her breasts. He didn’t love the girl one bit, but revenge never felt so good in that moment.

Dwayne felt like he was going to puke. He never thought in all his years that he’d been cheating on his girlfriend. He swore that he’d never do it, but look at him now. The girl he chose had her face in the crook of Dwayne’s neck leaving hickeys all over his skin, and he wasn’t rejecting her. He couldn’t deny that she was pretty, but it wasn’t you. Dwayne wanted you, but you obviously didn’t want him. The girl was basically throwing herself at him, and he wasn’t giving her any of the attention back. Dwayne was hurt, and he didn’t want this broad. The girl tried to unzip his pants, and that’s when Dwayne had just about enough of this. He grabbed her shoulder tightly and told her to stop, but she didn’t listen. She just whined and tried to unzip his pants again, and then Dwayne decided that a midnight snack sounded pretty good at the moment. So, he grabbed her by her shoulders and dug his fangs into her neck. He sucked all of her blood until she didn’t have any left, and then he took her outside the cave and left her body out in the canyons not caring at all if someone would find her.

David took the girl he chose, and went to one of the open bedrooms in the cave. The girl got completely undressed, but David decided to leave his clothes on. He didn’t really want to have sex with his girl, he just wanted you to walk in on him cheating on you. This girl threw herself at David just like the other girls did too with the other guys. David let her basically do anything she wanted. He didn’t care about her one bit. He let her make out with him, give him hickeys all over his throat and chest, and he even let her undress him so she could give him a blowjob. David didn’t give her any attention though. He barely touched her. He was angry and wanted nothing more than for you to catch him doing something he shouldn’t be doing.

Marko barley even looked at the girl he chose. All he could think about was killing your friend that you ‘cheated’ on them with. The girl kept trying to kiss him and touch him and at first he let her, but after so many times Marko was sick of her. She kept pulling on his jacket too hard, and kept trying to take off his pants. Marko was about to kill her, but then he realized that she doesn’t deserve it. After all she was in a trance. So, Marko just dropped her off at the beach and ended the trance. For once, Marko let someone live, but that was because he had his eye on another target. Marko looked all over for your friend, and when he found him, Marko attacked him immediately. Luckily it wasn’t in public, so no one would see. Marko had no mercy for the guy. He did everything he could to make your friend suffer.

“You think you can touch my girl?” Marko chuckled while gripping the guys neck making his gasp for air. Tears ran down your friends face as he tried to stop Marko from choking him to death, but the grip was too strong. Marko smiled when he realized that he was successful in killing your friend, but then Marko’s smile dropped. He looked at the name tag on his victim’s work uniform. It said [insert your friends name]. That wasn’t just any friend. That was your friend that happened to be gay. You had known him for years, but you were never able to introduce him to the boys. You only told them his name.

Marko had never felt so ashamed in all his life. He basically just killed your friend for no reason, and not even that. He cheated. They all cheated. But you didn’t do anything. This was all a terrible misunderstanding, but they assumed too quickly. Marko’s heart was in his balls. He really screwed up. If the sun was out he’d let himself burn. Marko jumped on his motorcycle as quick as he could. Maybe if he could get to the boys before you did, you would never find out about this.

After seeing your friend, you waited by the beach assuming the boys would pick you up. They didn’t. You didn’t think too much of it though. After all, it could have been some miscommunication. So, you got your car and drove to the cave. You were excited to see the boys since you hadn’t seen them all day, but that changed when you walked into the cave.

The first thing you saw made your heart break. Paul was making out with some random girl on the couch. He had his hands all over her, and her top was off.

“P-Paul?!” Your voice cracked. “What are you doing?!” They both separated immediately. Paul’s face had drained all color. Even though he knew this was going to happen, he hated seeing how sad you looked.

Then you saw David walk out of one of the bedrooms with a half naked girl next to him. Your heart was shattering. Especially when you saw that David had a smile on his face.

“You’ve arrived, y/n” David said with a smirk.

Tears were starting to cover your vision. Paul and David were cheating on you?!

“Baby! Wait it’s not what it looks like!” Paul said regretting this whole revenge idea. He tried to hug you, but you shoved him away.

“No! Don’t touch me!” Tears were now escaping your eyes. Paul hated seeing you cry. Especially when he was the one making you sad. Dwayne grabbed you and held you. He knew that he was in the wrong as well, but he couldn’t stand to see you so broken. You accepted Dwayne’s hug until you noticed some dark purple hickeys on his neck, and you did not make those.

“Get away from me!” You yelled at Dwayne pushing him away from you. “Why are you all doing this?! I thought you loved me!”

“Well we thought you loved us!” David yelled no longer having a smile on his face.

Marko got to the cave and jumped off of his bike. “David! We have a real problem here!” Marko was about to continue, but then he realized he was too late. You were already there, and he knew that you were never going to forgive them.

“Did you do it too?” You asked Marko with a whimper. Marko couldn’t look at you. He couldn’t believe that they could make such a mistake.

“Y/n, don’t act like you didn’t cheat on us!” David yelled scaring Marko’s pigeons.

“David stop! She didn’t cheat on us!” Marko yelled feeling more and more like a dick.

“What do you mean?” Dwayne asked hoping that this was all just a bad dream.

“Her friend that she was with earlier. The one that I went to hunt. That was [insert friends name].” All the boys hearts sunk. They knew that your friend was gay, but they didn’t know that was him. David was no longer angry with you, he was now angry at himself. This was his plan after all, and you hadn’t done anything wrong. He yelled at the two other girls and told them to leave, he couldn’t believe what was happening. Paul felt like staking himself. His heart shattered along with yours. Dwayne couldn’t believe what was happening, and he had no one to blame but himself.

“What?!” You shouted at Marko. “You killed my friend?!” Marko didn’t answer. You walked up to him and slapped him across the face as hard as you could calling him every name in the book. Calling all of them every name in the book. Marko didn’t move. He felt like he deserved it.

“Y/n...we didn’t know,” David said trying to calm you down. “We thought-”

“You all thought I cheated?!” You bellowed. “He told me his dad had just passed away! And I hugged him and gave him a kiss on the cheek to comfort him! And he gave me a kiss on the cheek as a thank you for always being there for him!” That explanation just made the boys feel worse. They should’ve just asked you what happened, but they didn’t do that.

“We’re sorry!” Paul said. “We-We didn’t know!”

By this point you were sobbing. “‘Sorry’ isn’t going to work this time!”

You wanted to punch all of them and scream until you lost your voice, but you felt so broken that you could barely stand up straight.

“I never want to see any of you again! This is over!” And with that you ran out of the cave. None of the boys ran after you. They felt too ashamed to even talk. You deserved better than them. No matter how much they wanted to get on their knees and beg for forgiveness, they all knew that it was hopeless. They broke your heart into a million pieces, and they weren’t going to be able to get you back.

[ramp-it-up]

Some Nights

Pairing: Lin-Manuel Miranda x Reader

Word Count: 4.2k

Warnings: Minors DNI, Explicit language, SMUT, explicit hetero sex, same sex explicit sex (f x f), oral sex (f giving/receiving), alcohol induced sex, feeble alcohol hitting, sex under false pretenses, drinking, cheating, lying. All the relationship revenge type angst.

A/N: This is supposed to be a sweet little “breakup to make up” smut prompt ask.  My mind took this waaayyyy left and... well here it is. This is a mess of broken hearts, rebounding, and revenge sex. Please do not read if this is triggering. This is not smut lite.

Also, I know the timeline is wonky, but in this AU In the Heights does not interfere with Lin and Chris touring with FLS.

I MUST thank @einfachniemand for the invaluable advice on the Billie love scene. Could not have done it without her. 🥰

------

8 months later, March 2012

You were with Lin on the rooftop, one of your favorite low key, low cost activities, and the late March air was cool.  The moon was full, and the music from your iPod was right.  Lin-Manuel was keeping you warm in his arms and a blanket that he’d brought.

It was so romantic.  All was right with the world. You thought.

“I’m going to miss you when you are on tour, but the month will fly by and before you know it, we’ll be back up here.” 

You smiled up at him as he held you, trying to keep a brave face because  Lin was leaving in the middle of the week for Barcelona.

“Yeah… about that…” He sat up, moved away from you and cleared his throat.  Then, he looked at you. 

“I think we need to take a break.”

You weren’t sure you’d heard him correctly when he said it.  The smile on your face was frozen in place.

“What?”

“Well, I was talking to Chris...and… Well, I’m not sure that I want to shut myself off from the possibilities in Spain…”

You took a second to process, then you got it. You couldn’t believe what you were hearing.  

“Chris told you to dump me so you can go be a hoe in Spain?”

Lin shook his head and frowned.  

“No, no… it wasn’t like that. Chris loves you.  He just asked me some very tough questions about us being apart for a month, and I- I don’t want to hurt you…”

You got up, and grabbed your bottle of wine.

“Might as well do it now, instead of later, hunh?” 

“I think it’s for the best. I’m sorry….”

You were numb. 

“I can’t believe I stuck by you through all the starving artist bullshit, rooftop dates instead of going out, streaming movies instead of seeing shows....”  

You stopped, because you were getting heated, and when you got heated you cried, and you refused to cry in front of Lin.

“To expect you to stick by me for four weeks while you’re in Spain is too much to ask. I guess..” 

You straightened your spine and held your head up.  

“I guess I know that this wasn’t what I thought it was.”

“Have a nice life Lin. When you leave, do not knock on my door. Just go straight to hell.”

-----

Fuck Lin Manuel Miranda

His damn hair, fucking long eyelashes, the little dimples he gets when he gets that little smirk on his fucking stupid beautiful face.

The view from beneath him. Those goddamn lips.

Mutherfukin Lin Manuel Miranda.

You’d let him charm his way into your heart and into your pants. And damn, what he had in his pants gave you so much joy. 

The fact that you were crying was not for Lin.  You were crying for being too trusting and too liberal with your heart.  

You weren’t going to let anyone have a chance to break it again. 

Yes, that was the reason. 

You didn’t miss Lin at all.

-----

Mayra gave you the long weekend to be pitiful, and then you had to get back on your grind, and moving on with your life without Lin.

Your best friend since middle school felt guilty because she’d introduced you to him, a friend of a friend, one night at a bowling alley.  

You and Lin had hit it off immediately. Very immediately, in fact, and were inseparable for a solid 8 months.

But despite feeling bad about it, Mayra wasn’t about to let you mope around and waste your life missing him. And she was right.

Lin left for Barcelona on a Wednesday, and by Saturday night, you were out with Mayra, mingling and meeting new people. 

Mayra’s scene wasn’t your scene, but everybody was nice, fun, and attractive.  You weren’t really with it, but you’d be damned if you were going to wither away in your room.

You had just finished dancing with Mayra and her friends and you needed to sit this one out. 

The 6-inch heels you were wearing and the blazer over lingerie top look was not a good combination for vigorous dancing.  

You were hot and your feet were killing you.

You nursed your drink and watched your bestie having fun, when someone approached you.

Gorgeous lips, caramel skin and stunning brown eyes sized you up. 

Why is it always the eyes? You felt something that you weren’t too sure about.

“I like the way you make that pink push up bra look intellectual.”

Curious and amused, you looked into the brown eyes and laughed.

“I’m Billie.”

She extended her hand and you shook it. You knew what kind of bar this was, but you weren’t expecting this. 

“Can I buy you a drink?”

“Oh.  I’m, I’m not…”

Billie flashed a gorgeous smile at you.

“Relax. You’re cute, but I can tell, you ain’t ready for this yet.  I just had to come say hi, though.  Drinks....As friends?”

You accepted and spent the night dying laughing at your new friend’s witticisms.

----

The next week, you were chilling with Billie at the crib, along with a bunch of other folks that Mayra had invited over.  

You were on the roof, telling her all about Lin, and you started to cry again.

“...And then he just, breaks up with me because he wants to go to Spain and fuck Spanish FLS groupies…..”

It was about the 10th time that you’d cried about it. You were tired of hearing yourself.  Billie just rubbed your back and listened. 

“I would never put up with that from a man. And you shouldn’t either.”

 When you started sobbing, she apologized. 

“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to…”

“It’s…... okay….”  you gasped, trying to calm down.

She hugged you, rubbing your back and pressing you close.  

You felt some kind of way and pulled back.

“Bill… I don’t want to lead you on.”

Billie just smiled that gorgeous smile. 

“It’s cool. No stress. I’m just here to listen. Let’s go back downstairs.”

You nodded and rejoined the party, feeling more comfortable with Billie than before, partly because she was giving you some space.  

You couldn’t help but sneak glances as she mingled with everyone at the party and when your eyes met. Whew.

Who knew?

----

The next week, you were in your apartment with Billie again, this time, alone.

You’d invited her over, because she was quickly becoming the person you most liked to talk to and you hadn’t really talked in person since the previous weekend.

You gave her a glass of wine and settled down onto the couch, comfortable in your tank top and sweatpants.  Not seductive at all.

Billie looked cute as always in button down blue silk shirt and jeans with her hair up. 

“I want to apologize for last week. I just vomited my emotions all over you and you were nothing but amazing about it.”

Billie laughed. She was so damn beautiful.

“I told you no worries!”

“Can I ask you a question? Why are you doing all this for me?”

Billie took a drink and set her glass down on the coffee table. She leaned back on the couch.

“Do you mean do I have any ulterior motives?”

“Yeah.”

“Oh, no question that I think you are attractive, and that I would love…”  

She shook her head and straightened up.

“But, I’ve fallen for enough straight-but not so straight women to know that I should let you make the first move.”

She bit her lip and you put your wine down because it was making you warm.

You reached for and grabbed her hand. You shifted it to entwine your fingers with hers.

You kissed her palm and drew her closer to you, her hovering over you on the couch. She didn't move, forcing you to bring your neck up to kiss her lips tentatively and softly. 

You wrapped your arms around her waist and brought her body down to rest next to yours on the couch and looked into her eyes. You ran your hand down the side of her body, feeling all of her curves. And you moved to kiss her again. 

This time her soft lips opened to accept your tongue and you played hide and seek, exploring.

You pulled back to look at her again, giggling now, a smile plastered on her face. 

“I’ve been waiting for you to do that for two weeks,” Billie whispered in your ear before kissing your neck. 

Her fingers rubbed teasingly at the skin where your tank top had ridden up, and rotated around to your ass, fingers slipping into the back of your sweats. 

You moaned softly as she tugged your earlobe between her teeth and then kissed along your jawline.

You wanted to feel her, so you brougt your hand up her side to feel her breast over her shirt, and found it warm and soft to the touch, except for the hardening nipples that you gently played with.

Looking into her eyes, you saw the desire there and leaned over to kiss her again. She kissed you back harder, pushing her hands deeper into your sweats and cupped your ass with both hands, kneading your flesh tenderly.

You wanted her to touch you at your core, but her teasing fingers never seemed to get there. 

Next, she moved one hand from your butt to pull up your tank top, exposing your nipple to the cool air of the room.

She took your breast in her hand and squeezed it, thumb running lightly over your nipple. You moan and leaned back while putting your hands in her hair.

Billie moaned and ran her thumb over your nipple and teased them until they were achingly hard and sensitive. 

When she leaned down and kissed the top of your breast, making her way slowly, oh so slowly to your nipple, it caused your pussy to ache and throb while soaking your panties.

You groaned in frustration as she continued to tease you for a while before her mouth reached your nipple, moaning around it and sucking gently at first before picking up intensity. 

Her hand moved to the front of your pants, tracing your wet lips through your panties but applying no pressure. 

You were a moaning, quivering mess as you rocked against her fingers, trying to get what you needed.

Billie separated from you to take off her shirt, smiling at you as you shed your clothes. 

She looked over your body and brought her eyes up to yours, smiled into them, and took your face in her hands.

Next, those hands roamed down your body, circling slowly, grasping gently here and there, teasing you to a soaking wet mess on the couch cushions.

“Please!” you whispered, squirming in agony.

Billie chuckled and held your gaze as her hand finally rested in your core, lightly pinching your clit between her fingers. She just played with it as you moaned beneath her.

“I love watching you like this,” she whispered as she teased you some more. “Do you like it?”

She looked so cute as she asked, but all you can do is nod and bite your lip.

She smiled at you and lowered her head to your skin while you watched intently. She kissed and sucked at the skin on your stomach and thighs, looking up to establish eye contact again and again.

You whined and tried to keep still as she neared your core and gently opened your thighs. She looked at you for the longest time before her mouth met your pussy and finally licked through your folds.

You shuddered, already almost cuming as you waited for more.

She kept eye contact with you as she sucked your clit gently, humming while you quivered in her mouth. She then traced her tongue around your entire cunt, kissing and sucking those lips gently, but expertly.

Finally, she manipulated your clit with her tongue, and alternated that with inserting it far inside you as she could go.

When she sucked hard at it, you came, feeling like you never had before.

Somehow, you wound up on the floor in her arms. 

And the night had just begun.

 -----

May 2012

You walked home slowly from the subway, trying to think of a good reason not to get there. 

You felt like throwing up, knowing that Lin would be there on your rooftop with the rest of FLS. You did not want to face him.

It had been almost two months since you last saw him and you were having fun with Billie. She stopped you from wondering just who you were. The love you had for her was real.

But there was some reason, which you did not want to name, that caused you not to want to see Lin. 

You saw his face often enough when you awoke, in that space between dream and reality.  That was sufficient torture, aside from having to see him in person at an event that was supposed to be fun.

But Mayra had started to harass you two weeks ago.

"Come on! You've got to be there on my birthday. I’ll make sure Lin doesn't bother you, but UTK won’t come without him and I’m trying to get that D again.  I need it to survive. Don't you love me?” 

She pouted at you and when that didn’t seem to work, she resorted to outright threats. 

“I’ll never speak to you again if you don't come.”  

This continued every day until the party.

Being trapped on a rooftop with Lin for three hours wasn't your idea of fun. 

Anymore. 

And to top it off, Billie had to work tonight. This sucked big time. But you had decided to be there for your friend.

"She better know I love her, " you whispered to yourself as you stepped out on the roof.

You were greeted by Chris almost as soon as you arrived. He enveloped you in a bear hug. You stiffly hugged him back. You still felt some kinda way.

He held you away from him. 

"You look good, girl, long time no see!”

You nodded at him stiffly. “How have you been?"

"Oh, you know, promoting and stuff. The Spain trip was good."

You nodded again and looked around the roof.

“He told me he would stay away from you.”

You looked back at Chris. “Who?”

“You know who.”  You just smiled tightly and looked down.

“What’s up with you?” His voice was suspicious.

You looked up and stared him straight in the eye, not wanting to be intimidated.

“I don’t know Chris? Just maybe you told my boyfriend to break up with me so he could hoe around Europe with you guys. That was a little annoying.”

Chris raised his arms in self defense.

“Wait a minute, Missy.  I did not tell him that.  What I told him was that if he could not definitely, without a doubt, be true to you, that he needed to be straight with you. If he had any doubts at all. That you deserved better.”

You just look up at this big, sweet man and willed yourself not to cry.

“Oh.” That was all you could say.

“But maybe I shouldn’t have said anything because he fucked that whole conversation up and wound up sulking the entire trip. All of his freestyles were about you, you know.”

“I don’t care Chris, because you’re right.  He did fuck up. I’ve moved on.” You held your chin high.

Chris smiled at you. “Too bad for Lin. Your new man is a lucky guy.”

You smiled back. “My new woman is a lucky girl.”

“Oh.” That was all he could say. He recovered quickly however.  “Well, if you’re happy, I’m happy.”

“Thanks friend.” 

You smiled and gave him a hug, feeling better about a lot of things. Lin Manuel Miranda was a world class idiot.

You grabbed a red solo cup full of something and stood at the railing looking over the city.

"Heyyyy, what's crackin'?" 

You turned around to see Utkarsh  standing behind you. You smiled at him.

 "Hey UTK! What it do?"

"Well, give me a hug. I’ve missed you, too. Mayra won’t let me near you since we’ve been back, I don’t know why.”

You knew why. You hadn't really wanted to see any of the FLS guys since you and Lin broke up.

You hugged him. "She’s probably jealous of our love." You smiled at your friend.

“Right.” Utkarsh smiled at you. Then he frowned. 

“Wait, why would she be jealous?  She said she and I were just friends…” 

You laughed at his back as he went to find Mayra.  Well, you’d manage to wingman without even trying.  Your job should be done for the night. You turned around to leave, running right into Mayra.

"Happy birthday, Bitch!" You squealed and hugged her.

"Thank you, boo! I didn't think you would actually come! I'm so happy!"

"You mean I had a choice? I seem to remember some very specific and lethal threats if I didn't get my ass on this roof tonight."

"No, it's because you love me." Mayra made a face at you. 

"But seriously though. The roof is big enough that you don't have to be near Lin if you don't want to. Try to have a good time."

"Girl, I'm going to have a blast! As long as there is booze and music, I'm good to go." You lied to your bestie.

"Okay girl, do you want me to stay with you so no one will bother you?" 

You knew what she meant.

"No girl, I don't need a bodyguard. Have fun, mingle, be a good hostess. I'll be fine."

You pushed Mayra away from you.

You sighed and walked toward the bar. Before you made it there, you were enveloped in Shockwave and Jelly Donut. They both hugged you, making a sandwich.

"Guys, I can't breathe!" 

They released you, laughing. Shockwave got right to it.

“You know It killed Lin when you two broke up. He was a bitch in Spain."

Your heart clenched. 

"Listen, I don't want to talk about it. I'm just here to have a good time for Mayra. Can we just chill with all that?"

"Okay, okay. I had to try. I know he's an idiot, but..." Sully barreled on. Andrew started poking him in the side. 

"What???”  Andrew gave Sully a look and he was chastened.

“Sorry love. We'll let you go mingle.”

"Yes, thank you." 

You felt like getting good and drunk. You looked at your phone and saw that there were two and a half hours left of the party. Might as well start now. You downed your drink and went to get another.

You ran into Arthur. He winked at you as you apologized. 

"No worries, you better eat something if you are going to drink like that. You can't hang with the big boys like me."

You rolled your eyes and finished the second drink. 

“You’re skinnier than I am, tuh.”

“That’s not what I’m talking about when I say big boy.” 

You looked at him in shock, and then burst out laughing. You loved these guys. Too bad Lin got them in the break up.

You sighed and began working on your third drink.

--------

Lin spotted you when you first stepped on the roof. He moved out of your line of sight and watched as Chris talked to you.

Geez, you were fine as hell. The dress you were wearing was everything and the heels made your ass pop. Damn.

He went and got a drink, still watching you. He felt like a stalker. Chris came over.

"I tried to get her to talk to you, but she wasn't having it." 

They both watched you and UTK talking. 

"Man, you are an idiot. You're lucky you're my brother, or I would kick your ass for letting that go."

“Thanks, my guy.” Lin’s reply was dripping with sarcasm.

“Any time. Next time listen with your big boy brain before you do something that dumb.” 

Lin was ready to fight. Luckily, Chris left. Then UTK came up, talking shit.

"Lin, you douche! How could you be so dumb, man?” 

They watched the Jelly/Shockwave/You sandwich.

"Leave me the fuck alone." 

Lin moved to the other side of the roof where Sully came up to him.  Lin put his hands up.  

“Before you say it, I'm going to stay out of her way. I'm not trying to ruin Mayra’s party. Just about two hours to go."

“Good, because you have fucked this one up royally.” Sully shook his head as Lin stalked off.

----

After some drinks, you started to loosen up and have fun. You danced with Mayra and all of FLS minus one.

You thought you saw Lin a couple of times out of the corner of your eye, but when you looked, he was gone. Every time that happened, you went and got a drink.

By the end of the night, you were looking at the sky and trying to sober up.

"The sky is beautiful tonight."

You jumped. Lin was there, watching you. You just looked at him and started back downstairs.

"Don't leave, please. Let me talk to you."

He followed you down to your apartment.

"You said all there was to say. I'm done."

You put your arms around yourself. All of a sudden you were cold. You stared Lin down, but he didn’t budge.

"What do you want, Lin?"

He sighed. This isn't going to be easy, he thought. He looked into your beautiful eyes and decided to go for it. There was nothing left to lose.

"Honestly? I want you back." His heart was in his throat as he said it.

You closed your eyes. You couldn't go there. No matter what your heart was doing in your chest.

"No. No, you do what you did and you want me to come back? To trust you? You promised you wouldn't hurt me. I can't with you Lin, I just can't."

His heart actually hurt.

"I'm so sorry…. "

You didn't let him finish. 

"Please! Don't give me the same tired old clichés every dude gives their girl when they fuck up!"

You were far from cold now. 

"If I took you back, what's gonna happen the next time you go on tour? I am not a yo-yo Lin!"

Lin reached for you. "It's not going to happen again, I've learned...."

"Don't fucking touch me! You have some muthafuckin nerve!"

Lin kept moving toward you.

"Back the fuck up! Don't come near me! Get off of me!" 

You began hitting him when he took you in his arms.

"Tell me that you don't want me to hold you, that you don't want to be with me. Tell me you don't miss us, this. Tell me that you don't want me to and I'll leave you alone."

Lin pressed himself against you, and you stopped fighting. You melted on the inside. The alcohol had you loose. Suddenly you had a thought.

"Fuck it. You're right. I have missed you." 

You moaned as he put his lips on your neck. You wanted him so badly. 

"Let's go in here." You nodded toward your bedroom.

Lin's heart leapt and he gladly followed you.

You attacked him when you got inside. 

"Whoa, hold up...."

"No, let's do it. Don't say anything or I will change my mind." 

You turned around, pulled your dress up, got on the bed and bent over, ass in the air. 

"Fuck me, Lin. Please."

Lin was confused. One minute you were fighting him, next you were begging for it. But he wasn't going to argue. He wanted you too bad. He moved your panties to the side, took out his hard cock and quickly and roughly entered your warm, tight goodness.

The stretch hurt a little, but it was welcome. It had been a while since you had taken a cock and Lin’s was your favorite. 

You became wet rapidly, and although you wanted Lin to hurt you as a sort of penance, it felt amazing.

"Ohhh, you feel so good. Shit! I've missed this. So tight for me…” 

Lin moaned through his dick wanting to explode.  He hadn’t had anyone else since you, for about three months.

"I said don't talk!" 

You were trying to blank your mind of what you were doing.

Lin felt like right now he was in heaven, and heaven was you. Lin shut up and started giving it to you harder, just like he knew you liked. He smacked your ass, hard.

"Yes, yes, yes. Oh yes!" 

You quivered, especially when he smacked it. Forceful Lin was one of your favorite Lins. Damn. You savored the contact as Lin, all of his manhood, hit your spot. 

It felt so damn good after so much emotion and time.

To Lin, all that mattered was you right now. He fought not to come until he felt your body pounding with your orgasm.

Almost as soon as it was over, you turned around and looked at him. He looked up from buttoning up his pants and smiled. You could tell that he was thinking this was the beginning of your reunion. 

You leaned in and gave him a good, long kiss, preparing to give the greatest acting performance of your life.

"Goodbye, Lin. That was just what I needed. Have a good life."

His goddamn adorable face registered confusion.

"What? What do you mean?"

"This was closure. “

The way his face changed broke your heart.  But he’d broken yours.

Lin was stricken. "But,I love you. That's why I...."

You interrupted him. 

"It's not you, it's me. I needed that to get you out of my system. "

You looked at him coldly, a mess on the inside.

"That's not all we have. We love each other!” Lin was trying to make sense of the situation. 

“You're telling me that after this you don't want to get back together?" He couldn't believe what you were saying. 

"As far as getting back together, we're not. This didn't mean anything; I am drunk off my ass and I had a lapse in judgement. It's not going to go any further."

"But you love me, I know it." He reached for you.

You moved out of his reach and toward the door.

"I told you, I can't, I won't let my guard down again with anyone. I can't love anymore." 

Lin was looking at you with his mouth open.

You straightened your dress and left your room, ignoring the fact that Lin was calling your name. You were ready to be alone.

There, outside your door, was Billie.

-----

Tagging:  @theatrenerd86 @sebastianabucknettastan @imatyoursurrvicesurr @riiyy​ @ivycomet @sillyteecup  @ohsoverykeri  @theselilwonders  @lonelydance @jbrizzywrites @curtainremote @delaber @honeysucklechocolatedrippin​

[sugarnspicewrites]

Ackerman's Lover

A/N: Sugar here so this is my first book that I have published so fair warning. Btw y/n is going to be 21 and Levi is 25. We'll be updating hopefully every Friday and Spice will and the new chaper in our masterlist after posting. Hoping you all will like this story and feel free to interact with us to let us know your thoughts.

Masterlist

Chapter 1

“So today, I need to prove that I’ve got what it takes and put everything I got into joining the survey corps”, I say to myself. I have wanted to join the survey corps ever since Shiganshina happened and to finally get revenge on the titans that killed my family. I get out of bed, shower, and put on my uniform, getting ready for the day. I walk out of my room and make my way to the cafeteria. I look around the room and see my friends waving at me to come join them. I don’t have a lot of friends. I only have two close friends Maya and April.

“Hey Y/N! Come over here, we got you a plate since they were already closing up the food station. How are you feeling today?” said Maya. April was looking at some of the other cadets sitting at the table across from us.

“Damn, doesn’t he look good” said April, staring at this one tall man with broad shoulders and a stern look, crossing his arms.

“Thanks, I am good Maya, how are you?” I asked. “No problem, I am good too”, said Maya. I finished eating and we headed to the training field where Commander Shadis was yelling at the rows in front of us. He yells at mostly everyone and we break ranks and get ready for hand to hand combat.

Near Shadis is a tall man, blonde and a shorter man next to him with raven black hair walking over to the cadets to observe us. Maya and April partnered up and I had no one to partner up with until this guy came up to me and asked if I wanted to spar with him. He had powerful green eyes as he smiled at me. I agree and we get into stans.

“Also hi, my name is Eren”. He waves his hand and gets back into stance.

“Hi, my name is Y/N” I say and also wave.

“Don’t worry I will go easy on you” says Eren. Hmph, I think he’s really gonna regret that. What he doesn’t know about me is that I am very skilled in hand to hand combat and love a challenge. He pounces at me and swings with all his force. I immediately dodge it and hit him in the side. He groans and turns back around to kick me. I grab his leg, bringing it up in the air and knocking him down and pinning him to the ground.

“You tap out?” I ask as I pull his arm back more, making him groan.

“Yeah…I tap out”

“HMM?! I didn’t hear you?!”. I continue to twist his arm and he yells in pain.

“OKAY! I TAP OUT!” he yelps. I get off of him and put a hand out to help him up.

“Thanks”, he rubs his shoulder and we get into stance again.

“This one looks promising, what is her name?” says Commander Erwin, as the three move closer to you and Eren.

“Tsk, I hardly think so, all she did was lift his leg and pin him to the ground” says Levi.

“Her name is y/n l/n, she is #1 in the ranking, very skilled in hand to hand combat, very intelligent, and is an excellent cadet”, says Shadis.

“Hmm, what regiment is she planning to join?” asked Commander Erwin.

“She is planning to join the Scout regiment,” said Shadis.

They continued to watch them as they went at it again. Y/N did not hold back and went full force once Eren came. She dodged Eren’s punch, She rebounded and sent a right hook swinging strongly across his lower jaw . Then, dodged his shoulder that swung back at her to hit her in the face. She got his arm and twisted it back and keened into the center of his back, throwing him forward and almost falling down. Stumbling, she took the opportunity to pull his leg from underneath him and pin him to the ground again holding him in place till he tapped out. Meanwhile the commander and Levi leave to observe the other cadets.

“Man, you are really good, think you could teach me some of your moves,” Eren says.

“Definitely, do you want to go another round?” Y/N says.

“Yeah, let's do it!” Eren exclaims.

As they continue to fight, Levi and Erwin go back to base to discuss who they will choose to be in each of the regiment’s squads.

**

Thanks for reading and if you guys would like to be added to our taglist for Ackerman's Lover just let us know! ~ Spice