#but I keep getting distracted

[australiansquid]

Heartthrob

[ladybugsimblr]

i wanna go missing

[jv-f1]

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[cowboybrunch]

i will finish this chapter tonight i will finish this chapter tonight i WILL finish this chapter TONIGHT

[wanderingmind867]

I sometimes wonder if i did more back when i had my old tablet. But i realize that sentence seems like a non-sequitur without context. So let me try to provide some context now:

Years ago, I had an old tablet that I was very fond of. I'd been using it for at least four years, and i used it on a daily basis. So i became very, very attached to the thing. But around the same time my mom died, i lost that old tablet. And in a weird way, both events hit me hard. That sounds kind of callous (to equate losing an object to losing one of my only close connections), but they actually were similar.

My mom's death brought out some existentialism and fears of aging in me, and i'm still dealing with those. Dealing with the fact that I have no real friends besides my dad now, and that i don't know how to go on if i lose him (since i'm dependent on him and also have nobody else irl). But losing the tablet has hounded me, too. In a different way, but it's hounded me too.

I can't bring myself to throw the tablet out (because i still want to use it desperately). So it sits in my room, constantly reminding me of it's exietense (and of the fact that i want to use it again). And since i lost it around (at most) a year into me acquiring this account, it means that anytime i worry about being sedentary online nowadays, my mind drifts to wondering: "well, would you do more if you used that tablet?". And that thought sometimes hounds me. So it can be rough sometimes. sigh…

[actuallysaiyan]

Writing...Y U SO HARD?

[rhysdoesstuff]

If you are reading this, that probably means I am not writing. Feel free to tell me to get back to writing, as I really should be doing that :)

[crookedcryptids]

not much going on here just me and the zosan au art i still havent finished

[tubelight-404]

I'm literally so useless, all I do is romanticise and even then I can't do it right. At times I wish for a tragedy to strike me in which I will have to send letters to my lover in secret. In the letters will be bittersweet poems and notes in which I turn over every corner of my heart, completely exposed and vulnerable. I will repeat exclamations of our love and confess how my dreams are haunted with their face, my body plagued with the ghost of their touch and my entire being is encaptured by their essence. These letters are sent via our only entrusted carrier, the only person we dare tell of our forbidden love. Our messenger who will one day betray me and tell the world of my scandalous love and yet as solemn as I am I will still smile towards him and just as he is about to question my intentions, I stab myself with my favourite obsidian dagger, the same one we secretly swore upon during the rising of the sun in previous years. It is then, as he looks into my eyes watching my soul leave my body, that he will understand this life was never meant for me. And I knew it. I knew it would never last, that he would betray me and how I wasn't truly built for love. What happens next doesn't concern me as I am gone. To a next life? An afterlife? Or just an abyss? Who knows? But in the end all that matters is that moments bliss, that short connection and that fleeting instance of humanity. And for me, that is enough.

[pepperediris]

the boops never end.........

[magical-girl-04]

Every note on this post tells a poor soul to get back to work

[jmeldog]

Heg’d be a murderer if it wasn’t for the fact that the person he almost accidentally killed with the powers of Satan was protected by a fucking dragon

[the-dangerous-mute-lunatic]

Live visual of me writing two sentences for Years of Science, and then watching tiktoks for 10 minutes

[histronic-gizmo]

Chapter 3 of my trans Morty rickorty fic is kicking my ass. I know exactly what I'm writing, and i am writing it but I'm off my damn Adderall 😭

[lynnelupin]

I still haven't read Choices yet lol. I honestly don't think I can put myself through so much pain, but let's face it, it's going to happen at some point. I also need to carry on reading the incredible Marginalia, but I got to ch.4 and then ended up running Hinny Microfic so I need to find more time in my life to read that 🤣 And I'm now participating in a ATYD readalong aswell (literally reading it for the 4th time now lol) 😂

For anyone who also cannot stop thinking about dead gay wizards

Here’s some fun and fresh facts for you

The Length of:

ATYD: 526,969 words

Choices: 624,187 words

Crimson Rivers: 720,011 words

The FUCKING Bible: 783,137 words

ALSO

50,000 words is about 200 pages

WHICH MEANS

The shortest of those works is

2000 FUCKING PAGES

We all need mental help

[yoloyeahhh]

so so eepy but in the way where i feel light and giddy and god all i want to do is yap but also im reading a really cool paper on how estrogen impacts neurogenesis and memory and really living my best life if i ignore that i have to eventually wake up tmrw