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Long Haul
Written for day 2 of @stevieweek | Companion piece to Wallpaper Rating: G | WC: 1,150 | Tags: Eddie Munson POV, Coming out, MTF Steve Harrington ao3 | Divider credit
If Steve and Robin both have to be there to break this big news to Eddie he knows it must be something really bad.
That's how it always goes, bad news. He's told to sit down and listen while the grownups talk at him. Not to him, no, he didn't get anyone actually trying to talk to him until Wayne.
Still, Eddie tries not to look like he's ready to throw up while Steve and Robin stand in front of the couch. The way their hands are clasped together, and with how straight and tense they're standing, Eddie can't help but think of the fucked up twins from The Shining.
The thought makes him laugh, but the laughter only heightens his anxietyâ which is then heightened even more when Robin shoots a Look at him that he can't quite figure out.
"Stevie⊠sweetheart, I can't read your mind. If this is bad news, I'd really rather you just tell me." Eddie shifts uncomfortably. The fingers of his right hand fidget with one of the rings on his left, spinning it around and around. "I can take it, whatever it is."
The look Steve gives Robin drops a bowling ball right into the center of Eddie's chest. Steve has tears in his eyes, and he's shaking, and fuck . This is very fucking bad.
Eddie wracks his brain, tries to think back on what he said or did. Maybe there was something he didn't do that he was supposed to do and now Steve is dumping him over it. Really, it was only a matter of time. Steve is good, so fucking good, and Eddie never deserved him in the first place.
And of course Robin's going to be here for it, because Steve dumping him as a boyfriend means Robin is dumping him as a friend. They're a package deal, you don't get one without the other.
"Eddie!" Robin's voice breaks through his mental spiraling.
Eddie clears his throat, drops his hands between his knees again and looks at the two of them. "Sorry. Sorry, yes. I'm here."
"Did you hear⊠any of that?" Robin asks.
Eddie flushes, opens his mouth, digs for anything that one of them might have said.
Steve takes pity on him, and Eddie is graced with one of those patient smiles. Itâs that soft smile that got him through the hell that was physical therapy. "We're making him nervous, Rob."
"You're nervous, too," Robin reminds him. Still, she gives Steve's hand a squeeze before stepping to the side. It's one on one instead of two on one, which does help the knot in Eddie's chest loosen a bit.
"I can take it, Stevie," Eddie says with a small smile. "Whatever it is, just⊠lay it on me."
Steve glances at Robin, then back at Eddie. His hands have that fine tremor to them again, so he wraps his arms around himself and tucks his fists against his sides.
"I've been thinking⊠and I've talked to Rob, and⊠I don't⊠I'm notâŠ" Steve stops, has to take a few slow breaths.
This is it, the death blow. The last glimpse of the sun before it gets snuffed out, removed from Eddie's life forever. Eddie wants to close his eyes so he doesn't have to watch, but if this is his last sunrise he doesn't want to miss a second of it, either.
"Eddie, I'm not⊠I'm not a boy." Steve shifts on his feet and swallows loud enough for Eddie to hear it. "I don't want to be a boy anymore. I thinkâ no, I know I am â I'm a girl."
Eddie can only blink up at her while Steve explains it, explains lip gloss and nail polish and old girlfriends. She talks about how she's given this a lot of thought, really, and if Eddie doesn't want to be with her anymore she understands.
Eddie's listening, really he is, but the relief is so instantaneous that he can't help but start laughing, quietly at first and then louder.
Steve stops talking and looks at Eddie like he's lost his mind. "What? What is it?"
"No, no, baby, I'm sorry. I'm not laughing at you." Eddie rubs both hands over his eyes, wiping away unshed tears. "I promise, this isn't about you." He reaches out for Steve's hand and pulls her around the coffee table to sit down on his lap.
"Why are you laughing?" Steve asks. The hurt in her eyes has Eddie sobering up immediately.
"I thought you were breaking up with me." Eddie brings a hand up to tuck Steve's hair behind her ear. "I thought that was why you brought the reinforcements. Maybe you were afraid I would lose the rest of my mind or somethin'."
"What?" Steve shakes her head and touches the jagged scar on Eddieâs jaw. "Why would I be breaking up with you? I love you, Eddie."
Eddie catches Steve's hand, pulls it to his lips to kiss over her knuckles. "Because you're the best person on the goddamn planet, and I don't deserve you."
"Eddieâ"
"I'm serious, Stevie." Eddie wraps an arm around her waist to pull her that much closer. "You're amazing. You're smartâ don't try to deny it, I've seen that beautiful brain of yours in action." He gently, so fucking gently, taps in the middle of her forehead to emphasize his point. "You're funny, you're so goddamn brave. You have the biggest heart in the world." He cups Steve's cheek, and she leans into the touch. "You're the best thing that's ever happened to me, and I still can't believe how lucky I am."
Steve's lower lip trembles just a little, and Eddie can't help but brush his thumb over it. "Even now?" she asks. Eddie hates the uncertainty in her voice. Steve Harrington isn't ever uncertain, unless it's about D&D or Lord of the Rings or some other nerdy shit that the kids try to throw at her.
"Are you kidding?" Eddie brings his other hand up, to hold her face between his palms. "Yesterday morning I woke up with the most gorgeous guy in Hawkins in my bed, and tonight I get to go to sleep with the most beautiful girl. That's⊠amazing ." He shakes his head and brings their foreheads together. "I love you, Stevie. No matter what you do, no matter what you change, I'm in it for the long haul. You're it for me, baby."
"Fucking sap," Steve says wetly, but she's smiling when she says it, when she leans in to kiss Eddie again.
It's a kiss full of love and hope, that speaks of a future that stretches out in front of them, just waiting for them to decide what they want to do with it.
It's a kiss that has Robin murmuring "Dinguses" under her breath before sneaking out the front door to give them privacy.
#stevieweek24#transfem Steve Harrington#Steddie#Steddie fic#Steve Harrington/ Eddie Munson#MTF Steve Harrington#kintsugi_kid ao3
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hola buenaaaas!!!!
I just wanted to say that I love ur art sm it makes me so happy đ and one last thing, since you've been giving fics recs, do you know any that focus on mikey & leo (2012 specifically?
plus i wanted to recommend this one :) it's short and itâs about Mikey struggling to peel an orange while theyâre in the farmhouse, I thought you might enjoy reading it https://archiveofourown.org/ works/48755596
chaooo
holaa!! :D i have some that are also from here ! but i just went ahead and separeted them :] (not all of them focus on leo and mikey exactly but i still love how they are written đ„č)
Big Brother by orphan_account
AU where all the brothers hatch from eggs at different times! The chapter of Leo and Mikey in specific brings me so much happiness to my heart i reread it when i feel really sad
Mama Leo by Virgilisspidey
Casey asks why the brothers jokingly call Leo "mama leo" and they talk how they all actually appreciate Leo as a parental figure
Let You Down by Windify
Leo talks about what the toxins from s02e10 "Fungus Humongous" made him see
Brother, Interrupted by taizi
The brothers get Mikey back
Three Times Leo Was There For His Brothers by SpectrumWriting
The title says it all
Two Halves of a Whole Heart by HolyKingWasteLand
Mikey seeks out his older siblings whenever he doesn't feel great
Imaginary Friend by 00Cat00
Imaginary friend Leo AU
caught in the riptide by angelmichelangelo
Rewrite of s04ep16 broken foot where Mikey gets caught in the blast
Casey is having a hard time, okay? by roasted_breadstick
Casey is so confused as to why everyone calls Leo "mom"
All that I am, or hope to be by roasted_breadstick
5+1 style fic of Leo taking care of his brothers
The coldest oldest and his burdens by newtlovesyouso
Leo is sick. Mikey is not
Atlas by boshinya
Leo has a different definition of "fine"
An Excursion by FicklePencil
Leo and Mikey have a mission
Knock three times (and Iâll be here) by VaguelyVibrant
Trans siblings! Mikey helps Leo realize some stuff
Leoâs Guide To Dealing With Little Siblings by AL_2424
AU where the brothers are different ages
After-effects by Belphegor
Mikey recalls a nice memory
Chopsticks by orphan_account
Mikey finds Leo making chopsticks. Made me cry
in a perfect world by SoSoda
AU Mikey can see the ghost of a turtle child
Mama by NamelessArtist
Mikey has always seen Leo as a mom, but heâd never admit it
Nail Polish by Jupiter_Daydreams
Trans leo! Leo and Mikey paint their nails
Everything is Fine (Even When It's Not) by CamsthiSky
Leo gets injured and wakes up to Mikey's teary eyes
I have no hold, no way to control by Airheart
Mikey comes to Leo for support when Leo is barely holding it together himself
Mockingbird by pomedamian
Leo's an insomniac, Mikey has nightmares
In the Middle of the Night by orphan_account
Mikey runs away...?
Being Difficult by orphan_account
Sometimes Mikey hated being the youngest
Do I Deserve It? by SceneNerd
Mikey and Leo's fight brings to light some concerning revelations
Hold On I Still Need You by Justcatie07
CW for suicide attempt
#again pointing at the please read the tags sign#this made me realize theres a lot of fics where the bros call leo mom lmao#AAUGH Y GRACIAS POR LA REC đ«đ«đ« đ„đ„đđ«¶#ask
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15. downtown.
the evil eye doesn't always work, and there's millions between me and you! so just sing to me about eggplants or anything, except for how tired we are...
sketched some familiar (and unfamiliar) faces of the Black Organisation (in civilian clothes)
click below to find out some more details about them! minor warning for mild spoilers up to chapter 15 :)
point of interest: they're all somehow from former east bloc or once-soviet countries
Chianti, Sniper
chinese (?), under 30 years old
VERY short, has a complex about this
she's got the nickname 'Key' but if you call her that without her consent she will throw you
her tattoos are butterfly-and-eye themed (you might see that she's got two tattoos in the drawing, teehee). also, you cannot tell me that the reason for her canon tattoo ISNT a bullet with butterfly wings reference
says "lol" and "lmfao" in casual conversation
might have gotten corrective laser eye surgery (or something similar) - the tattoo on her eyelid might indicate a slightly more long-lasting problem
âTry me again, asshole!â she shrieks, âIâll stab your dick, too!â
has a girlfriend(?) who gifts italian designer products
vague sibling relationship with Cognac; they're either bickering or they're besties or they're teaming up to gossip about others
âSheâs a gamer.â
Korn, Sniper
has a very hoarse voice, possibly resulting from some chronic problem? possible that he doesnt talk much because of this issue
around 45-50 y.o & mongolian
i gave him a wife because i think he deserves someone normal and sane to return home to. according to Vodka's 'accidental' namedrop, she's called Sarnai (the name means Rose in Mongolian <3). also, he's implied to become a father soon
Chianti called him Eeyore in this chapter and it might be one of the funniest things i've ever written. i actually love their dynamic in canon so much that it's a big part of my inspiration for this fic; they just feel so much like they have a life outside of their mandated Black Organisation Cameo Appearance
he and Vodka practice ARB
i sent my friend that picture and he said "this man looks like he's never put any real effort into how he dresses and, in fact, never will" - and honestly? yep.
Arrack, Assassin (?)
arab, though exact national origin is relatively hard to clock (Jenever only figured it out because she remembered Shiraz indirectly referencing him)
was mentioned in Akai's notes from 29/7/2010 >:3c
has a very polished appearance, sculpted muscles type beat
mean slut, "mad dog", self-described bastard. VERY flashy fighter, but also "doesn't care if he loses so long as you're hurt worse"
has some pretty normal Star Wars opinions tbh
"resident fuckboy" / "fuckboy-in-chief" -- context clues indicate he might be a honeypot assassin (like Akai speculates in his notes)
generally easy-going despite being unsettlingly intense, but has a very short temper when Shiraz is brought up. (his degree of Shiraz-obsession probably outshines Jenever's tbh)
he's a one-off B.O. member who shows up in a spin-off comic or something, but you literally cannot introduce a character like that and expect me not to sink my evil little claws into them
Sambuca, "Audiovisual manipulation, back-up IT expert"
slavic & eastern european (exact national origin not yet divulged); around 50 y.o woman
wore a metalcore t-shirt to PT
Gin's previous main IT crow. was part of Tequila's Tokyo office at the time of Teq's death; planted there mostly to train
perfectly faked all of Jenever's and Red's credentials to get them into the japanese police institutions. also seems to be in charge of editing Crows out of CCTV footage. overall, really important behind-the-scenes security/cleanup job
her arms are covered in disparate stick-and-poke tattoos. motifs are not unified. a lot of the words/letters are in cyrillic (not visible in the art bc of leather jacket, sorry hehe)
seems to have a phobia of guns/firearms
Cognac, Hardware & Demolitions
south-east asian (exact national origin not yet divulged)
around 30ish years old. not THAT short (like idk 169cm?), but has major gremlin energy
HORRIBLE frosted tips hairstyle situation
vegetarian
wideset body, physically quite strong but has a vaguely soft appearance
remembers Rye sparring with their team a few times. seems p keen to gossip about him (and anyone, for that matter)
"I am literally a whole bisexual!"
gave his denim jacket to Red Label back in Afghanistan (Arrack was soooo mad about this, probably bc they have matching jackets or smth)
#dc-crows#original character#detco fanart#crows 1: soldiers#supplementary material#detco oc#black organisation#detco fanfiction#detective conan oc
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đ„ alicent!!
oh ho!!! my unpopular opinion about her is what makes her interesting to me: she's a bad person.
the whole point of hotd is that no one on either side of the dance is a purely good or purely evil person. they all have flaws and nuances and they are all three dimensional people and they are all saddled with the yoke of patriarchy, dynasty, imperialism, legacy, etc. all the things that make the iron throne the exact sort of endless death pit that it is.
alicent had horrible things happen to her. she was abused, taken advantage of, mistreated. she has had an ugly and difficult life shaped by the people who should have been caring for her.
and she also perpetuates her father's cycle of abuse with her own children!! she actively wishes and enacts harm on her childhood best friend, on the future queen of the realm!! she has all the tools at her disposal to change the narrative of her life and she won't because she can't.
that makes her an incredibly tragic and painful character. she is imo incredibly well written as both a victim and a perpetrator of abuse. the fact that she is sitting in her gilded cage and polishing the bars instead of trying to slip out from between them is both tragic and infuriating. that's the point. the cyclical tragedy of her miserable life is perpetuated by her own hand. that's why it's sad!!
i've been so disappointed by both people who like and dislike alicent because i feel like so many people just want to root for soccer teams instead of meaningfully engage in the story. yes, she suffers. yes she is in immense and terrible pain. no, she is not the virgin mary. no, she is not a catholic saint.
"But there is no mysterious virtue in Justineâs suffering. The martyrdom of this Christ-figure is absolutely useless; she is a gratuitous victim. And if there is no virtue in her suffering, then there is none, it turns out, in her virtue itself; it does nobody any good, least of all herself." <- i already have this in my justine/alicent comparison but it really rings sooooo true for me wrt like her own attitude toward her suffering and self-punishment and the comfort she takes in perpetuating her own oppression and imposing it on others
like, the child weaned on poison considers harm a comfort! it's just silly imo to act like alicent doesn't want the people around her to suffer. like she doesn't take pleasure in torturing rhaenyra and her husband(s) and her children.
and it's also so upsetting to me when people are like "ha ha alicunt deserves to burn in hell what a dumb bitch!!" because like... i'm serious she is a very well written and nuanced character and she makes me so sad and i can understand not liking her but if you just want to call her an annoying stuck up bitch like you are being willfully obtuse. you are purposefully watching this show with your eyes closed and your ears plugged.
"hurt people hurt people" is like sooooooo trite and overplayed and like we get it we all watched house md but the thing is that it is true!! people who were victims of abuse go on to abuse others that is what generational trauma is! how can you look at alicent and just expect her to like. fucking what. fucking what!! do you want her to do??? you want her to like invent DBT and then put herself through it??
also i've talked to you about this lol but there is no happy ending for alicent ever. like she simply cannot escape the narrative that she has spent her whole life cocooning herself in and smothering everyone around her with. she is never going to end up with rhaenyra, or criston, or find self actualization. she is doomed like capital D fucking DOOMED like old valyria. ring of fire baby. black earth. i love her so fucking much.
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So, what do you think about Bendy and the Dark Revival?
I realize this gets posted at a weird time, but my dude, this month of December has not been great and I'm functioning on 3 braincells. I genuinely want to replay the game, but I haven't yet. You are getting the mad ramblings of a fan who has 19 other things on mind.
Regardless, I think I still like the game. It was fun, I liked the odd story, and even though I don't think everything works, a LOT does. A little extra lore is great, and I do like what they did with Joey in this game (he's still a lying asshole, but it was nice seeing him in a more helpful role. And it makes sense why. He's still a lying pos.). Audrey is wonderful in my opinion, if a little lacking in self-preservation here and there.
I was upset years ago that the game was delayed, but I really do think releasing it all in one go instead of chapters was actually beneficial to the game. And personally, it was nice getting a nice chunk of "STORY" instead of it being parsed out bi-annually. The extra time also meant there was more polish put in, and lil easter eggs that were fun (no I'm not bringing up the poem).
There's a decent amount of consistency in characters in order to figure out which ones are Important to the Story, and also ones that are just Important to the Character's Story. I do like what they did with the Ink Demon, even if it is a little basic in my opinion. First time he spoke, I just said out loud "Oh FUCK, that's a DEMON." Props to Sean Crisden for a phenomenal job, and to the game designers who made a properly scary demon!
There's a few things I could complain about the game, but in all honesty, they're things I thought of AFTER I finished the game. Somehow I got lucky and I didn't have any technical issues playing the game, and for me, it ran smooth as butter. Dark...Inky Butter.... My husband, who only plays it because I told him he'd like it, really enjoyed the game design and had a fun time playing it. (This is a man who thinks Dark Souls shouldn't have a difficulty level and Legend of Zelda final bosses are too easy. So do with that what you may.) I enjoyed it just a tiny bit more than BATIM, just from gameplay.
Is the story a little odd? Yes. This answer is already too long and I've written about the story before, so I will not bore all of you. I do enjoy checking out theories and wild guesses though, so I'd recommend that to you. I still like it in an odd way, and I'm curious what the next game might entail. Wilson... Deserves his own essay of rambling thoughts. As does the whole love triangle that is Joey Drew, Nathan Arch, and Alan Gray. Like... That alone is fucking weird and makes me so curious.
I enjoyed the game. Hell, I still enjoy the fan community of Bendy despite this game's rocky history and build-up.
Now Merry Christmas.
#batdr#Bendy Essays#I'm calling it that from now on#I swear#some people make spreadsheets about shit they like#I make essays that make academics concerned.
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Bethesda: The Art of Releasing Broken Games and Calling It Innovation
Alright, itâs time to take a stroll down memory lane, but this isnât a happy memory. Itâs more like a nightmare I canât wake up fromâa tribute to Bethesda, the illustrious game publisher known for their uncanny ability to release games that are as broken as the promises they make. Youâd think after all these years, theyâd have learned something. Spoiler alert: they havenât.
Letâs start with the Elder Scrolls series, shall we? I mean, whatâs not to love about a game where you can literally steal a personâs pants right off them while theyâre talking to you? Truly a hallmark of âimmersion.â You ever tried to walk down a street in Skyrim? Good luck dodging the army of invisible NPCs, teleporting guards, and horses that can defy the laws of physics. And donât even get me started on the famous âI used to be an adventurer like you, then I took an arrow to the kneeâ line. Great voice acting there, guys. So good that it became a meme before the game even hit its first patch.
And letâs not forget about Fallout. Ah, the post-apocalyptic wasteland where you can take on the role of a vault dweller, battling mutated freaks and... oh, whatâs this? Glitches galore! Want to walk into a building? Forget it. Youâre just as likely to phase through the walls as you are to find a raider waiting to shoot you in the face. I canât even count how many times Iâve seen someone stuck in a wall or NPCs having full-blown conversations with themselves like they just dropped their last brain cell into a puddle of radioactive goo. âYeah, this is fine,â I think, as I watch the game unfold like a poorly written sitcom.
And the bugs! Oh, the bugs. Iâm not talking about the creepy crawlies in the wasteland or dragons flying through the sky in Skyrim. Iâm talking about the bugs that make you question your life choices. When your character suddenly decides to moonwalk into the stratosphere after taking a sip of Nuka-Cola, it really makes you appreciate the artistry involved. Who needs polished gameplay when you can have the sheer joy of watching your character literally fly off the map? Itâs like they forgot to build a game and instead just built a sandbox for players to break in their own special ways.
Then thereâs Fallout 76, which, letâs be real, deserves its own special section in this rant. If you thought the previous Fallout titles were a dumpster fire, then 76 is the raging inferno with marshmallows roasting over it. How do you mess up a game about exploring a post-apocalyptic world and make it feel even more empty than the actual apocalypse? By removing NPCs, of course! Because who needs engaging storytelling when you can have a barren wasteland full of âquestsâ that feel like they were pulled from a bad online forum? Ah, yes, nothing says âimmersive role-playing experienceâ like reading notes left behind by people who actually knew what a game should look like.
And can we take a moment to appreciate how Bethesda tried to sell us on the idea that multiplayer in Fallout 76 was going to be revolutionary? News flash: no one wanted to play with strangers in a game designed around single-player storytelling. The only thing 76 did was remind everyone how badly Bethesda misjudged their audience. Watching people attempt to interact in that game was like watching a group of toddlers trying to figure out how to stack blocks. Spoiler: it doesnât end well.
You want to know the best part? They released Fallout 76 with a $200 collectorâs edition, and it came with a bag that was so poorly made that fans rioted over it. Because nothing screams âpremium productâ quite like a flimsy bag that looks like it was made from the leftover material of a discount Halloween costume. Good job, guys! Youâve managed to turn a beloved franchise into a punchline and a meme factory. âYou had one job,â I mutter to myself as I watch another Bethesda game unravel like a cheap sweater.
And letâs talk about their bug fixes. Oh boy. The legendary âpatchesâ that somehow manage to fix one thing while breaking five others. Iâve seen less chaotic systems in a toddlerâs toy box. They could announce theyâre rolling out a âmajor patchâ to fix the game, and all I could do was sit back and wait for the inevitable chaos to unfold. âWe fixed the freezing issues!â they cheer. âGreat!â I respond. âNow I can enjoy the game while it crashes every fifteen minutes!â
And yet, somehow, despite all of this, Bethesda continues to thrive. They put out games that launch in a state worse than a train wreck, and people still line up to buy whatever garbage theyâre selling next. âStarfield is going to be great!â they say. âThis time theyâve really learned their lesson!â Sure, buddy. Iâm sure theyâve learned absolutely nothing at all. If the launch of Starfield doesnât turn out to be another catastrophic failure, Iâll eat my hat. Or my console. Probably my console.
So hereâs my advice: if youâre thinking about buying a Bethesda game, save yourself the trouble. Just buy yourself a pack of gum, a used toaster, and a bunch of random junk. At least then youâll get something that doesnât crash, glitch, or drive you to the brink of insanity. Youâll have a better time cleaning your bathroom with a toothbrush than you will playing their latest masterpiece.
Until next time, stop playing bad games.
â Ezekiel
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I may be getting back on my Raven bullshit. But maybe not because it's, believe it or not, tangential to where my mind is right now.
Long story short, I'm thinking about Dove Going to Therapy (let's be real. the girl Needs it) and trying to figure out who that therapist is that sees the mystics/etc. in canonical DC comics and browsing my "panels" tag because I SWEAR I reblogged it... except I keep getting distracted because that tag has a Lot of good panels in it.
Has lots of Raven, of course. Because it's my blog, why wouldn't it?
Longer version: I know in the last chapter of DDD (it's mostly written, just not Polished yet), Dove has this moment where she's like "I deserve how much this hurts, I don't deserve to be here with you guys, and I'm dangerous, so you need to send me away!" To which Robin basically replies, "This is the best place for you right now, and psych wards aren't qualified to handle demi-demons."
And, I mean. All the rest of DDD happens. Dove Desperately Needs Therapy. (I don't say that to disparage her; I say that out of compassion, because getting the right therapy does help you heal and move on from things and learn how to cope with trauma/anxiety/etc.)
Between the time of writing that scene (I think it was written when I was 19ish?) and now, I found out that there IS a psychologist (psychiatrist?) in DC (or maybe it was Vertigo?) canon comics that the pages show treating Zatanna. So like. Homo magi, massive amounts of power, danger and daring adventures, if someone could treat Zatanna, surely that someone could handle Dove? And the treatment room seems to be magical; maybe it could handle Dove's powers getting loose if the conversations turns Too Emotional?
I'm trying to figure out How That Works when she's an illegal immigrant with no social security number, and thus no health insurance, and also part demon and the other part is a mystical race that doesn't exist anymore? I'm definitely thinking too hard about the logistics here. But I want to figure out Who That Therapist Was so I can research if she's something I can add to Dove's canon.
As I mentioned on Dove's blog when I was headcanoning whether Dove would get Sieara certified as an Emotional Support Animal: I know that as a teenager, Dove wouldn't be comfortable at ALL talking to a stranger about her Problems^tm. If they tried to send her then, she'd just clam up and withdraw the whole time, and eventually fall silent and just be able to nod or shake her head. It wouldn't be productive at all. (Hence the final decision that even though Sieara functions as one, she wouldn't get the Official Letter. She'd never need it, anyways.)
But as an adult, I could see her being able to open up to someone eventually. It would certainly take a few sessions to build trust before they get into the Deep Down Stuff, but like. I think it usually does to get to the heart of the matters, let alone the Healing Parts. Maybe Srentha would go with her? Be in the room with her and everything? At least for the first few months. I imagine Raven might be willing, but would probably have to leave because of All the Emotions in that place. (Therapy can get... intense.)
But even though Srentha gets a job (temporarily) in adulthood, he and Dove don't exactly have secret identities. It would HAVE to be someone who can treat the hero population. With the extreme levels of dangers and emotions and the sheer mystical WEIRDNESS in Dove's life... and also, it would have to be someone she can talk to about her father being a demon and All the Issues that Come With That. And losing Azarath. Her mother's spells. Just, weird shit that a normal therapist probably doesn't know how to approach.
(Hell, none of my therapists have known how to approach my emet*phobia or dyscalculia. I've had to figure those out for myself. I can't imagine they'd have any idea how to tackle magic powers.)
....I can't seem to find the pages with Zatanna in therapy, actually, and now I'm doubting I've even reblogged them.
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Tell us about Youâre In My Veins !
[This one was from a âWIP Ask Gameâ a while back where I listed titles/placeholder names for my current WIPs and yâall got to ask me about any that interested you! I donât have the link anymore but yeah, context sjkgjdg]
CW: thereâs a snippet at the bottom of this ask which has some suggestive/raunchy connotations. No direct actual smut (thatâs already happened prior to this bit at the end đ) but this is very much an argument about their sex life
Hoooo boy where do I start with this one? Itâs one of the ones thatâs been stuck in WIP hell for the longest goddamn time. Not even because I donât like it or anything. The bits I have written of this one are still pretty solid, if anything they need some minor polishing (I was awful at paragraphing when I started this and it shows lmao 90) and itâd prolly still be post-able. But at this stage Iâm not 100% sure exactly where itâll fit into the Creeping Shadows timeline. I know its somewhere mid-to-end of Balmorra, and definitely before Voss but you know...thatâs an awful big gap rn :â) Iâm sure Iâll figure out where it goes eventually, but till then its stuck in WIP hell đ hahaha Anyway the first draft of this was meant to be like make-up smut but in true Aria fashion, she had to ruin it by deciding ânope Iâm not ready for feelings yetâ and she turned it into a fight (but that said, it does end with Aria seriously reflecting on said feelings even if the overall âtoneâ of it is that she hates that sheâs having them đ€Łđ€Ł) so itâs a milestone for their relationship which does, in the end, lead to them actually fixing it for real later on down the line. As a joke I like to call it âmake up sex but backwardsâ bc thatâs basically what ended up happening with this one I canât remember if the rules of this ask game said to include a snippet but I kinda feel bad this one was sat in the askbox for so long so have a lil snippet as a treat đ
>> SNIPPET STARTS HERE, last warning that it gets a lil suggestive from here on out! also quite a lot of swearing, this is very much a loversâ spat and both of them went for the THROAT XD <<
Vanoâs jaw tightened. âNice to know you were so concerned with my safety. You know, just a simple âhey Va, Iâm not dead but I canât be with you right nowâ would have sufficed!â The Mirialan growled, sitting up on her hands, her eyes narrowed into a dangerous glare. âAnd just for the record, I'd GLADLY die for you, even though you don't fucking deserve it.â âI never asked you to!â Aria snapped back on impulse, not thinking of the effect the words would have on Vano. âI never asked for any of this. I never asked for you to pad after me like a helpless Kath pup!!â The Marauder drew back, and Aria felt the reaction to her words sting Vano like a slap to the face. âWell, I never asked to fall in love with a self-centered bitch either, but here we are!â she yanked her robes back on sharply and sat back on her haunches to glare at Aria. âThe only thing I'm sorry for, is that I was stupid enough to think that if I gave you enough time, this would be more than just fucking to you!â âI never promised you flowers and poetry, I told you it was just sex and you kept crawling back anyway!â Aria shouted after her as the Sith stormed away, grabbing her discarded equipment as she passed it. âFine, then you can find someone else to go to bed with, because I'm DONE with you!â âYou always say that, and a week later your head's between my legs again!!â she retorted, knowing the Mirialan had left the ship when no further reply came. The Jedi sank down onto the pillows and choked on the involuntary sob that left her as Vano's last words spun in her head like a swarm of angry hornets.
Thereâs some more filler/exposition-y stuff between this snippet and the last line but it feels prudent to mention the last line is a bit of internal dialogue (I seem to do that on occasion, first this oneshot, then Strikhedonia...guess its a writing quirk now? /jk) from Aria and itâs just: I hate how much I need you!!
#bold of you to assume i know what i'm queuing#WIP ask game#swtor sort of#subterfugeverse#creeping shadows fanfic#aria/vano#i don't wanna clog their character tags with this one since there's nothing *direct* here but i will tag the ship for organisation purposes#owo#mildly n/sfw#no actual smut in the preview but they are directly yelling @ eachother about sex so#i'm gonna tag it just to be safe lmao#tw: sex mention#tw: casual sex mention#anyway getting aria to admit she has feelings?? not today no siree#she clearly *DOES* but this bitch is so in denial she won't even admit it to *HERSELF* at this point nevermind poor vano lmao#ofc we all know they *do* sort it out eventually but this is very much bang smack in the middle of the *worst* part of their 'relationship'#where its very much one-sided and still casual sex with totally-no-feels-at-all-nuh-uh-never from aria's side of things#XD#thank you for the ask!#and once again profusely sorry it took so long LMAO#swtorpadawan
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a continuation of the Strell-Varricon correspondence
sent from Veteris to 3rd Legionâs Meridionalis Barracks alongside the letter to Arcadia, written during the epilogue of Book 3
The previous letter that did not reach Maldai, as well as the beginning of this entire series of semi-fanfic novellas, begins with Book 2Â (there is no Book 1 welcome to the trash heap), if youâd like to hop on the fantasy evil Roman Empire very very gay murder elves trying to take over the world train.
Dear Maldai, I wrote you a letter during the midpoint of the journey to Veteris, which I have reason to believe did not reach you. In a way, perhaps that was for the best. Many things happened in Altae that left me in doubt of who I was, and now those things are past. I am no longer in need of the advice or the answers that I sought. Perhaps there will come a time to speak of things more; but not, I think, in a letter. As I am writing, the Trials have been over for eight days. I am Acolyte Initiate Iria Strell now as much as I was Corporal Specialist Iria Strell--I was discharged as a Corporal after assisting in the Highlands with the takedown of the Rat and Wolf Clans, and the Heretic Raven. That much, I am proud of; how close we came to failure, I am not. Talvus passed the Trials as well, and he has disappeared to do magical research. Perhaps the strangest thing to happen is, I believe I am to follow. Talvus and I developed delayed explosives in the Highlands from what Talvus knew about reservoir theory, and from the rubble and cartilages of the arcanum cannons we had left to observe. Talvus did almost all of the work, but the original idea--if overloading energy in a reservoir would make it explode the moment stabilizing runes are disrupted, then why not purposefully make overloaded reservoirs that could detonate by cracking the stick--that was mine. And I knew what we did well enough to explain the basics of it alongside him. I am fairly certain Professor Aulo Acari thought I was lying to his face when I told him I hadn't studied any of this before Talvus gave me a crash course on the journey back from the front. However, I believe I impressed others enough that I might be given the chance to continue this research. I have been thinking a lot about what you said, about how I could best serve the Empire. I did not realize the true extent to which Talvus was exceptional--I should have realized, seeing all the innovations Talvus has come up with over the years--but I did not realize how many people in the Capital would know his name, or know of his graduation record from the Academy, or how quickly his talents would get him noticed once more. But I also did not realize the extent to which I was skilled at more than just fighting. My brother called me 'bookworm' when I got back, to which I almost laughed, as I did more following him around and bothering him then just reading up on things he mentioned to try to impress him as a child than any studies of my own. But he was right. I learn easily and intuitively, and I grasp concepts more quickly than I suppose most other people do, which I just--I assumed everyone thought and learned like I did. There was a test of mental aptitude that I was so convinced, a few hours in, that everyone else had already finished and was laughing at me for how long I was taking, and yet even with all of the mistakes that I made, I managed to complete it far faster than average, and faster than all but two; one of which was Talvus, of course, the other someone that Talvus himself said was smarter than him. I think it is engineering that makes the most sense to me. I have been thinking of it ever since the water mill. I developed my own switchback valves for another project, to control fluid flow and pressure in a precise manner that led to a great success. I think--I know--that these techniques can be combined to create a marriage of magic and technology. If I can succeed in developing any one of the various ideas I have, that act alone might do more for the Empire than fighting in any one battle. I have already produced proof of concept that magic can be cast without a caster. I am proud, of what I have done. I did it alone, without Talvus, when everyone thought it was impossible, yet I still did it. I do not believe I will be returning to the Army. I am waiting to hear if my hopes are correct, if I have captured the attentions of the correct people, those who might guide me to places where my work might contribute, rather than my blades. You are perhaps the one person that I feel safe to share this with, uncensored: my injury has not healed into something that I can ignore. It does not effect my fighting as much, so long as I am careful, and I have been doing the exercises necessary to build up supporting muscle, but I feel a stiffness in the mornings when I awake, and there are days where it takes me upward of an hour to be able to move. The doctors I have consulted say that there is no hope in this getting better, just hope that it might not get worse. I cannot in good conscience return to place in which I will put my fellow soldiers in danger if we are ever caught by surprise in the night. I have not informed my parents yet, as I do not wish for them to worry, and besides, I have been so busy. Please do not mention to Arcadia that my injury has anything to do with why I am not returning; she has been taking Goraiâs injuries very hard and blames herself, and I have been keeping a cheerful tone to her in my letters, not even through any intended deception but because I was unaware of which of the emergent symptoms might be fleeting and which might stick. I used myself as an example after the Battle of the Guns as someone had taken an injury that medics said that I might never fight again, yet I was still fighting. I do not want to take that hope away from her. I amâI can still walk. I can still fight. Better than ever, the fighting bit, because I've kept my practicing up, so I have nothing to complain about, I just...face consequences now as well, if I am not careful. Besides, I do believe that even if I were whole of body, that this is what I should be doing with my life. I hope that I would have matured enough to swallow my pride and my selfishness and have made the same choice had I not been forced into it; but at least I know that I can go forward fully committed to this new path. I thank you for everything you saw in me, and I promise I am not letting your training or your blades go to waste; I will practice every morning so long as I can stand. Besides, I think it is your more subtle training, that of discipline and creative thinking, that I will be putting to use as time goes forward. Give my best to the others. I hope that you and Gorai are healing well. I know this is not my place to say, but I also know--or at least, I suspect--that Arcadia is too well bred to express any such discontent that she might have. But she is a warrior, perhaps of the greatest potential I have encountered. She deserves more than just training recruits. If there are any chances for missions, places where she could utilize the fullness of her talents--well, I am not too well-bred to say it. Her heart lies in fighting for the Empire. She can fight. She deserves the chance to prove it. May that you be well, Iria
#gay murder elf bachelorette#in their footsteps we shall follow#my writing#book 4 is going to finish tomorrow#and I'm preparing a proper entirely in-character novella for that one because it was hella fun#this is a letter that I had mostly written at the end of Book 3 and just sent Jeremy a description of#but I figured it actually deserved getting polished up and written out#and I'm posting it mostly as filler before I post Book 4#all of the links are in order under my writing tab
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in which youâre prince harryâs personal bodyguard.
a/n: hi angels! iâm SO EXCITED to be finally sharing this story, and iâm really proud of this piece! like itâs genuinely one of my favorites iâve ever written and one of my babies, so i canât wait to hear what you all think! this story is inspired by gold rush by taylor swift, and this story immediately came to me once i heard the song. so, enjoy and please reblog and leave feedback!Â
thank you to my best beta and friend tina @sunflowers-stylesâ and miss zoey @serendipitystylesâ who screamed with me when i just started writing it, ily both!Â
WORD COUNT: 24.7k of prince!harry x guard!yn (itâs gonna be a rollercoaster <3)Â
WARNINGS: ANGST (genuinely a lot of it), smut, mentions of death and diseaseÂ
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âEyes like sinking ships
On waters so inviting
I almost jump in.âÂ
With a slight groan, you were taken out of your slumber by the sunlight that was seeping through your curtains. The birds were chirping away quite loudly this morningâacting like there werenât people who were sleeping at seven in the morning, but early birds get the worm, right?
You sat up, stretching your arms towards the ceiling as you let out an inhumane sound that was very âunladylikeâ before freshening up in the restroom. After putting on your regular and daily uniform: black slacks, white crisp shirt with a black tie, and black formal shoesâyou opted out on wearing a blazer since you were going to be out for most of the dayâbefore you headed towards the kitchen that felt like miles away because the Royal House was huge.Â
The chefs were already up, bright and early, ready to feed the Royal family. The aroma of French toast and sautĂ©ed vegetables filled your senses, making your mouth water.Â
âMorning, everyone!â You greeted happily once you entered the kitchen.Â
âGoodmorning, Y/N!â The chefs welcomed you into their kitchen in sync. You softly smiled, walking over to the fruit basket at the edge of the marble counter, grabbing a banana and orange before walking over to the island and leaning your elbows on it as you watched the chefs cook.Â
You always loved watching them work on their art, it was quite mesmerizingâthe way they sautĂ©ed the vegetables, tossing the contents into the air was always something you loved ever since you were young. They were always so proud and humble about their work, presenting it with a satisfied smile as satiated empty stomachs.Â
Suddenly, the side door opened, revealing Maria tugging on the wagon that carried basketfuls of fresh vegetables and fruits. You quickly walked towards her, grabbing the basket from the wagon to set it down on the counter. The baskets were always quite heavy, and you always made sure to help her out every morning since she wakes up at sunrise to pick out and wash the produce for the day.Â
âThank you, my dear,â Maria said, smiling.Â
âOf course, Maria. These are beautiful.â You handpicked vegetables and fruits. âOne day, Iâll wake up earlier to help you out in the morning, so youâre not all by yourself,â you suggested. Maria was like a mother to you, and you truly looked up to her ever since you started to remember things. You never really knew who your real mom was because she had passed away when you were just a year old, so you saw Maria as a motherly figure.Â
You remembered when you first visited the Royal House; your father, Josiah, used to be a stableman and would bring you to work with him every day, occasionally letting you ride on the horses with him if it was allowed. Josiah and Maria had a mutual liking towards one another, but neither of them had acted upon it. They had just simply acknowledged the fact they had feelings for one another. So, you were around Maria a lot, and it wasnât forced because you genuinely took a liking towards her and she started becoming a female figure in your life that you never really had.Â
âOh, youâre so sweet, but thatâs not needed. I know how exhausting your day is, so get those few extra hours of sleep, okay?â She raised her brows at you, and you chuckled, nodding your head at her. âAnd besides, Iâve actually got some helpâŠâ she trailed off in suspense.Â
It was your turn to raise your brows at her. âReally? And who might that be?â A tint of pinkness hit Mariaâs cheeks as she looked down, occupying herself by taking the produce out of the basket.Â
âJustâŠNathaniel.âÂ
âNathaniel, really?âÂ
âYeah, heâs nice, yeah? Handsome. Funny. Kind,â she started to sound like she was convincing you, but you really didnât need all that much convincing because you actually knew him.
âI know Nathaniel, but thanks for the little recap,â you joked, chuckling as Maria blushed. âSo, do you like him?â You asked.Â
âI meanâŠI donât know. Maybe,â she admitted shyly. You gave her an encouraging smile because you knew that she was only shy to confess the truth because she had been in love with your father.Â
âGoodâthatâs good. Well, if you are taking a liking towards him, donât run away from your feelings,â you told her sternly as if you were the mother now. âYou deserve to be happy and in love!âÂ
âSuppose youâre right. I just feelâŠbad.âÂ
âDonât be. He would want you to be happy, I promise,â you reminded Maria.Â
You could definitely understand why she felt bad about the fact that she was interested in Nathaniel. Maria and Josiah were in love, once upon a time, but ever since your father passed away two years ago, due to his heart condition, it was difficult for Maria to move on from the love of her life. With regret wilting down on her face, she asked herself why she didnât bother to do anything about her love for him, and she didnât know if it was the right thing to do to be interested in someone else. However, you constantly reminded her that Josiah wanted you two to have a great life, containing a lot of love and laughter.Â
Looking at the wall clock above the chocolate brown cabinets, you realized that it was a bit past seven, so duties for the day were calling. You kissed Maria on the cheek, telling her that youâll see her during lunch before bidding the rest of the staff goodbye as you headed out of the kitchen
Your clad black shoes clicked against the shiny and polished tiled floor, echoing the corridor of the Royal House as you walked towards the West Wing of the house; the staff and employees all lived on the East Wing, and it was quite a walk from one end to the other.Â
Knocking on the tall and heavy door, you heard absolute silence on the other side, which wasnât abnormal. So, you knocked once more, hearing no movement before you allowed yourself inside of the bedroom of the Prince.Â
As you expected, he was sprawled out onto his large bed, too large for one person, with his curls covering his forehead. His mouth was slightly agape with puffs of breaths coming out as he was in deep sleep. You opened the long curtains, letting the sunshine enter his room before walking over to the side of his bed, placing the two fruits on his bedside table so he could fuel himself as heâs getting ready; you gently tapped him on the shoulder.Â
âYour Highness, Itâs time to wake up,â you softly said. With no response, you shook his shoulder a bit harder to get him out of his deep slumber. âYour Highness, itâs past seven.âÂ
The Prince groaned, eyes still closed as he began to writhe around the bed. You took a step back from the bed, waiting for him to wake up fully before greeting him. He buried his face into the pillow, refusing to budge, as an exhausted muffled groan came out of his mouth.Â
Once his eyes were fully open and he was aware of his surroundings and consciousness, he turned his head towards you, giving you a look as if to momentarily remember who you were; you gave him a smile to start off his day.Â
âGood Morningâagh!â You let out an unexpected squeal, cut off by the Princeâs large arms wrapped around your waist, bringing you down onto the bed with him. His lips immediately attacked your neck and face, peppering your skin with his affection. You laughed softly, trying to keep your voice down in case anyone heard you, but you couldnât help it because it tickled. âYour Highness!â You pushed his body away from yours, and you knew he only pulled back because of the name you had called him.Â
He pouted, looking at you with puppy eyes. âI told you to stop calling me that, Princess,â he joked slightly.Â
You raised your brows, mouth slightly open as you playfully patted his chest. âAnd I told you to stop calling me that, Harry.âÂ
âThen Iâll stop calling you that once you stop calling me âYour Highness,ââ he said in a mocking tone before he raised his brows to see what you were going to respond with because he knew that you loved being called âPrincessâ even if you were far from actually becoming one. You two would have these playful arguments on which nicknames to call one another, and âPrincessâ and âYour Highnessâ were both a bit of an inside joke now.Â
You simply just rolled your eyes. âNot fit to be a Princess.â Harryâs arms wrapped tighter around your waist as both of your heads rested against the same pillow. You loved mornings like these, and although it was unusual to be sleeping in different rooms, it had to happen under certain circumstances.Â
âYou definitely are fit enough to be a Princess because youâll be mineâŠsoonâŠone day,â he lightened up the air, pressing a kiss to your cheek and forehead. âPerfect for me, I swear.â You smiled admiringly at the Prince, feeling incredibly grateful for him and his presence.Â
For five years, your love for him had only increased when you thought that your heart couldnât get any bigger. But Harry somehow made it happen; he filled your beating organ with so much love and devotion, making you feel so overwhelmed with happiness that you felt like you could burst any minute. Youâve known Harry since you were a little girl, but you didnât play with him much since you had to stay close to Josiah. But when you did, you two would always go riding together; it was an innocent and pure friendship, and even when you were younger, you would find yourself missing your friend, who just so happened to be the Prince of the country.Â
Five-year-old Y/N simply understood that he was a Prince, but you understood it just like the Disney movies. So, you and seven-year-old Harry would play Prince and Princess for fun. Every morning you would tell Josiah to dress you up in a pretty dress because your âPrince was waiting on the West Wing,â as you said.Â
As the years went by and you two played less of Prince and Princess, but you and Harry were still inseparable. He was your best friendâstill is, and you couldnât be more happy that you two had never drifted off into the fog that vanishes every afternoon.Â
With how close you were to Prince Harry, you realized you had feelings for him when you were thirteen, and it wasnât until you were twenty when you two got together. Harry had told you that heâs liked you since he was seven, and fifteen years later, he finally had the balls to tell you. Typically for some, it wouldnât be the most ideal relationship since your blood didnât bleed royalty, but youâd rather have him in private rather than displaying your relationship to the entire world, especially his family.Â
The bubble that was his room, was your hideout. The sanctuary where you felt most comfortable because it was where he slept in, as his scent roamed around the room, making it feel like home. You loved how you immediately felt safe and calm when you opened his bedroom room door, especially when you saw him peacefully sleeping; it was your favorite thing to do.Â
Harry didnât mind, either. He knew how brutal his family could be if they ever found out about your relationship with him, and no matter how much he wanted to shout his love for you from the top of his lungs to the world, they truly didnât need that because the only people who were the most important in this relationship were you and Harry. As long as the two of you knew that you were in love with one another, thatâs all that mattered.Â
He was there for you for most of your life, and with a clueless mind, you didnât know where you would be without him when your father had died. Since Josiah was working for the Royal Family with your occasional help, you had thought the Queen and King were going to kick you out because you had no place or purpose staying in the Royal House. But luckily, Harry quickly proposed the idea of you being his personal bodyguard. Someone who just followed him around while making him seem less lonely because the other men that were his guards before rarely said a word to him when he was out.Â
The Dutch and Duchess, and especially the Queen, were a bit skeptical, but let him have his way to avoid any sort of resentment in the future. You were ecstatic and thanked him profusely for letting you stay at the Royal House, but he brushed it off, telling you that he wouldâve asked a million times more until they said yes.
 So, for two years now, youâd been Harryâs personal bodyguard, and you thought it was the easiest job. One, because even if you werenât his bodyguard, youâd protect him with your life, putting yourself in front of him when chaos would come his way. Two, he made the job seem fun and it didnât even seem like a job because you two laughed and messed around from time to time, not actually doing work. And three, who doesnât love working with their partner?
âIs that a promise?â You tested him, seeing if he was willing to promise you that he was going to marry you. It didnât seem possible if you were honest. Either he would have to run away from home or you two wouldnât get married at all, and just stay together, which you wouldnât mind either.Â
âThatâs definitely a promise. You know meâdonât say shit just to say it,â he said, a smug smile on his face.Â
âOkay, well. Whenever that day comes, Iâll be waiting to become Mrs. Styles.âÂ
âPrincess Styles,â he corrected, and you breathed out a chuckle, shaking your head a tad bit as you surrendered your argument on him calling you that.Â
You snuggled closer to him, enjoying his presence and warmth; and for a moment, you had forgotten yours and Harryâs responsibilities for the day; you just enjoyed this small and quiet moment you two had together that only usually happened in the mornings. But you cherished them nonetheless.Â
Nearly drifting off to sleep, you jolted to stay awake. You looked at Harry to see him looking at you with a small but fond smile on his face, eyes gleaming ever so brightly as the sun gently cast its light through his window from above his bed.Â
You gave him a quick kiss to his lips and nose before getting out of his hold, earning a groan from him. You stood beside the bed, smoothing out any wrinkles that creased on your clothing.Â
âCâmon, we have so much to do today! Plus, weâve already exceeded morning bedtime hours.â You grabbed his arm, tugging him towards the edge of the bed. He sighed, resisting as he pulled back.Â
âDonât wanna do anything today. Just wanna lay in bed all day with my Princess.â His words came out muffled as he spoke into the pillow. Your cheeks heated up as you held his arm; you wished that youâd get the chance to spend the entire day with him, doing nothing instead of keeping a distance from him throughout the day. But alas, being with him for most of the day was still what you considered a wonderful day.Â
âLetâs go,â you softly insisted. You kneeled down onto the floor beside him, pecking his face all over. The left side of his face was smashed against the mattress, but you could see the smile forming onto his face as you kissed his cheeks. âGet up, dreamy.â You used your nickname on him, and you realized that was a bad idea since you were trying to get him out of bed.Â
Harry suddenly perked up, smirking before he turned around to lay on his back. He pulled your arm, hauling you to lay on top of him; you giggled once you landed on him, and he connected his lips with yours, kissing you passionately and sensually. Your legs were straddling him, and you unconsciously ground against his sleep pants, feeling his bulge grow harder and bigger. Harry softly moaned into your mouth, slightly bucking his hips upward towards your center.Â
You pulled away, about to tell him that you couldnât do this right now, but once you saw his flushed face and swollen pink lips, not to mention his aching hard-on that was rubbing against your thigh, you decided against it.Â
And Harry knew you all too well to know that you were going to say something but held back. So, instead, he grimaced and wrapped his arms around your waist before trailing them down to your ass, giving it a squeeze over your pants.Â
âThink we got time for this?â He raised his brows teasingly at you, and you bit your lip.Â
Grinding your hips against him was your way of giving him your answer, your mouth met his ear as you whispered, âAll the time in the world for you to fuck me.â You nibbled on his earlobe before moving your lips down to the spot under his ear, resulting in a moan slipping out of his mouth.Â
He flipped you two over, now his turn to hover over you. The Prince gave you a certain look that you knew all too well; it was a look of certainty like he had all the time in the world to have his way with you, and he definitely wasnât going to shy away from it.Â
âWanna feel me? Think you could handle me?â He challenged teasingly. His voice was low, raspy, and deepâmuch deeper now since it was morning and heâd just woken up. But the way he spoke sent a shiver down your neck, making you jerk, causing a mess in your panties.Â
âKnow I could handle you. Iâve been handling you for years now,â you smirked. A flushed tint rose onto Harryâs cheeks; he always seemed to feel himself get giddy over the fact that you two had been together for years, and hearing it come out of your mouth made it much better.Â
âLetâs see about that.â He began to kiss down your neck and body as you relaxed into the pillow, completely enjoying his lips and body on you.Â
And just like all the other days, it was going to be a long morning. But the early birds get the worm, right?Â
Harry headed towards the dining room where his family was eating breakfast. They all looked up at him suspiciously, like they knew about his morning escapade with his Princess, and he was nearly gutted because they had gotten caught, but they simply just looked at him and continued eating.Â
âMorning everyone,â he relaxed, clearing his throat as he took his seat, unbuttoning his black suit jacket; a light pink button-down shirt clad on his tattooed torso. The servers that had been serving them for decades, Mariah and Deborah, poured him a tall glass of water and set down his mug of coffee. He thanked them, and they gave him a smile, always surprised to receive a âthank youâ in the Royal House. But Harry wasnât snobby or arrogant, he had manners and was polite.Â
âA bit late to breakfast, Harry, and you didnât show for morning tea,â the Queen herself had pointed out. Elaine hadnât even made eye contact with him, she just continued eating as she sat at the head of the table.Â
Harry froze for a moment to look at his sister to see if sheâll help, but Gemma just raised her brows, not knowing how to back him up.Â
âSorry, Nan. Couldnât sleep last night, so I slept in a little bit,â Harry lied.Â
âHmm, and where was that bodyguard of yours to wake you up? Isnât she supposed to wake you?â She wondered, but by her tone, it was like she knew already; and Harry really hoped that wasnât the case.Â
âUh, yeah. She did, actually, and I told her to give me a moment. Guess that turned into forty-fiveâŠâ he curled his lips in, containing the smirk that was begging to show through. His cheeks formed a tint, and he quickly grabbed his glass of water to cool down and to cover his flustered face.Â
The two of you had stayed in bed longer than anticipated, and when it was only supposed to be a quickie, Harry took his time with you the first round but decided to go two more rounds, fucking you hard until your teeth were biting the sheets and screaming into the pillow. You had to cover all of the marks that littered his neck, but the others that only you were able to see were casually resting under his clothes.Â
Harry shifted in his seat, remembering how your eyes looked up at him as you kissed down his body to wrap your lips around his cock. His mind was spiraling, immediately thinking filthy things your mouth and body could do to him; that was until Gemma had kicked his foot under the table that got him out of his head.Â
He looked at her, flicked his head at her, a way to ask âwhat was that for?â She tilted her head towards the Queen as Elaine was still talking to Harry.Â
âOkay, just wanted to make sure sheâs doing something right. If not, you let me know, and weâll have her removed from the House,â she advised quite sternly.Â
âThereâs no need for that, Nan. There hasnât been a problem for the last two years sheâs been my guard, so there certainly wonât be,â Harry explained quickly. He didnât know if his eagerness sold his disagreement, or if it helped his case with his secret relationship with you. But he didnât want you to leave his side, let alone, leave the House. He wanted you here, and if having you in private was the only way, where you two had to sneak around and kiss behind closed doors, then he didnât mind that.
Elaine nodded, letting go of the subject before talking to the Dutch, Harryâs father, about some of the duties that needed to be completed today. Harry let out a sigh of relief once the Queenâs attention wasnât on him anymore. He ate his breakfast in silence, thankful that the conversation he had with his grandmother didnât go any further than a bit of scolding; he would say it was going to be a good day if they went a morning without Harry marching off early from breakfast.Â
Breakfast went on quickly after that, thankfully. Mariah and Deborah began to clean the table before setting up a few cups of coffee for his mother, father, and the Queen. Harry and Gemma excused themselves, saying they had a few things to do for the day before they quickly walked out of the kitchen.Â
The siblings rounded the corner and walked until they were far enough before Gemma spoke, not wanting their family to hear their conversation from the echo because of how large their home was.Â
âYou really need to be careful, Hâthe both of you, I mean it. Staying in with Y/N canât happen consistentlyâI feel like sheâs starting to get suspicious. â Gemma started. She had a concerned expression as the part in between her brows creased.Â
Harry sighed, nodding his head. âYeah, sorry âbout that. Weâll try to be more careful. Itâs just hard, yâknow.âÂ
âI understand. I get it, I really do,â Gemma sighed before chuckling as if a realization had popped into her head. âHell, Iâm doing the same thing, but Iâm just better at hiding it,â she chuckled.â It was true; Gemma was in a relationship with one of the serversâSebastian.Â
Theyâd been together for seven years, ever since she was twenty-three. She kept it a secret for three years until she decided to tell Harry, which of course, Harry was ecstatic to hear the newsâonly because he had just told his sister about his own relationship, which you two had only been together for a year at that time.Â
Gemma and Harry were supportive of one another, looking out and covering up for each other because at the end of the day, they were on the same side and in the same situation; neither of them wanted the other to get caught because there would be worse consequences coming from the Queen, and the two tried to avoid those said consequences as much as possible.Â
Naturally, Gemma loved you. Youâd grown closer to her and seen her as a best friend, someone you could always go to and count on. The appreciation you had for her was vast, and you thanked her almost every day for how grateful you were that she was so supportive in your relationship with Harry.Â
âThanks for kicking me back there, though. Didnât need another morning where Nan flames my ass,â he scoffed, shaking his head slightly.Â
Gemma laughed. âYeah, donât know why sheâs picking fights with you. She used to love you, wonder what changed,â she wondered, genuinely thinking what the cause may be.Â
âDonât know what it is, but if you know, tell me because I canât always eat my meals stressed because sheâs always onto me.â Gemma giggled. âAnyways, gotta go. Iâll be at the charity event until late afternoon, and I gotta find my girl. Iâll see you later?âÂ
âYeah, Iâll see you. Iâll wait for you to eat dinner, so youâre not alone. Have a good day, little brother, be safe.â The Styles siblings hugged, a nice and warm embrace that showed much appreciation and respect they had for the other.Â
âYou as well, big sister.âÂ
Harry walked in the opposite direction as Gemma, smiling to himself as his heart felt so full. He was lucky to have a sister that was so encouraging and caring, and he always made sure to give the same love back to her because she needed it. Their parents were always a bit strict on them, but he was sure they had to have gotten that attitude from the Queenâwell, at least his father. His mother, Anne, was a sweetheart. For some odd reason, she didnât show much love to her kids because of Elaine. When they were kids, Nan would always get on Anneâs case about how she shouldnât show them much affection or treat them like babies because they needed to learn discipline and from their own mistakes.Â
Walking over to the East Wing and past the kitchen, Harry headed towards the living area, where some of the staff, including you, were hanging out, waiting for the Royal Family to finish their breakfast. One of his fatherâs guards immediately stood up, making the rest hastily stand up to greet the Prince.Â
âYour HighnessâŠâ The staff greeted in sync; the men bowed as the women curtsied as Harry stood in the doorway of the living room. His eyes found yours, watching you curtsy; and on your way up, your head perked up, shyly smirking at him. Harryâs heart flipped as he puckered his lips to the side, containing his smile; you two would always laugh about these kinds of greetings, and sometimes Harry would greet you the same way because after all, were his Princess. He wasnât one to be formal with greetings, and if it were up to him, he would tell the entire staff to stop greeting him like that, but he didnât make the rules around here.Â
âGoodmorning, everyone,â he greeted back. ïżœïżœHope everyone has a great day. I should get going, though. Y/N?â He looked at you and slightly raised his brows. You walked across the living room and past him, standing before him before making sure to give him a smile. He bid everyone goodbye before you two walked alongside one another.Â
The two of you headed towards the large front door in silence. You occasionally glanced up, but quickly averted your eyes towards the path, and Harry was also looking at you through his peripheral vision, smiling to himself as he saw how many times you glanced up at him. The silver Rolls Royce was waiting for the both of you at the end of the steps with the back door open with his driver, Benjamin, holding the door open. Harry gestured for you to get into the car first like the gentleman that he was.Â
âHi, Benjamin,â you greeted the middle-aged man with a smile.Â
âHello, Y/N,â he responded, tilting his hat down.Â
âThank you, Benjamin,â Harry shook his hand appreciatively. Benjamin had been Harryâs driver for the past ten years. He used to be his fatherâs driver, but when Harry grew older and was able to go to events and out on his own, they assigned Benjamin to be Harryâs driver.Â
âYouâre welcome, Prince Harry,â he slightly bowed before closing the door after Harry slipped into the car.Â
Benjamin drove to the facility where the charity event was held. The privacy compartment screen between the driver and back seat was up; the fancy car seemed more like a movie theater with so much leg space and a middle console between the seats with a blank privacy screen in front of you. It screamed expensive, and Rolls Royce was the company that helped the Royal Family get from point A to point B as their entire underground garage was filled with these types of vehicles.Â
You and Harry had about half an hour to chat and touch one another, so you unclicked your seatbelt, quickly moving towards his seat. He smiled, unclicked his seatbelt before letting you half-sit on his lap, your legs rested on his thighs, and he pulled the seatbelt over the both of you and clicked the metal buckle before pulling the seat belt strap behind him so it wouldnât get in your way.Â
A sigh came out of both of your mouths, enjoying this moment that felt short, but was cherished. You cuddle into his side, resting your head against his shoulder as his arms were tightly wrapped around you. You could feel his heart pounding through his chest, and you enjoyed the sound, knowing it was maintaining a steady heartbeat for you.Â
Harry kissed your forehead, lips delicately brushing across your skin, making you flustered. You looked up at him as he smiled down at you, the two of you smiling like idiots before he took his lips in with yours.Â
âWhatâs it like to grow up always being so beautiful?â He suddenly asked, very charmingly, might you add. He couldnât get enough of you and how stunning you looked every single day; no matter how much you disagreed with him, he always thought you were the most gorgeous person on this Earth.
You smiled, looking, and studying his face. Some strands of his hair had fallen into place against his forehead; you pushed them back, softly kissing his forehead.Â
âCould say the same for you. You always have a beautiful heart and a lovely face.â You grazed his jaw with your thumb, his stubble scratching against your finger.Â
A breathy chuckle fell from his lips. âLove you, my Princess. Dream girl, I swear.â
âAnd I love you, Your Highness. Love you like crazy,â you softly giggled, kissing his jaw. âHow was breakfast, by the way?âÂ
âThe usual. Gemma said Nan is starting to get suspicious, so we have to be careful, canât have too many mornings in,â he explained sadly. You slightly pouted, but quickly covered up your sad expression with a neutral face, not wanting to make him feel bad because he had no control over his grandmother.Â
âOkayâŠâ you agreed, nodding your head.Â
âHey, Iâm sorry,â he said genuinely. âKnow this is hard, but weâll figure it out, alright?â His hand cupped your cheek, gently caressing your soft skin as he looked deeply into your eyes. His green eyes held an immense amount of care and love, just like his heart, and just being in his view of vision was an honor enough.Â
You nodded, blinking back the tears that had quickly formed. âI know we will. Donât mind having you to myself, though,â you chuckled. The corners of his lips turned up as his dimple popped out. You took your finger and poked his dimple, something you had been doing ever since you were younger.Â
âI donât mind it either, but sometimes the sneaking around sucks, doesnât it?â His brows slightly furrowed, clear frustration expressed on his face. You took your thumb and smoothed out his stressed and wrinkled forehead, and he immediately relaxed.Â
âIt does, but if thatâs what it takes for me to be with you, then thatâs how itâs gonna be.â
Harry deeply sighed, resting his head against your neck. You lifted your head up, so he had more room to perfectly fit against you as you wrapped your arms around his shoulders. Butterflies soared in your stomach once you felt his lips against your neck, pressing soft and gentle kisses to your skin. After all these years, his touch still made you giddy while goosebumps rose on your skin. His kisses didnât lead to anything more as they simply spoke the words of admiration and gratitude.Â
âHmm, donât deserve you,â he mumbled against your skin.Â
âYeah, you do. Deserve love and happiness more than anything, and if Iâm the one to provide it to you, then thatâs all I need in life.â He pulled his head back, coming face-to-face with you now as your words had really meant something. Your hand grazed his cheek, feeling his soft but yet somewhat stubbled skin.Â
âI love you so much. Genuinely think my heart is going to explode full with my love for you.â He took your hand that was on his face in his, giving the back of your hand a kiss before placing your palm against his heart. You felt his heart beating fast, hard, and it was all for you. âYou have my heart in the palm of your hand.â His actions were literal, and you loved how he always had a way with his words. âFull of love for and from you.âÂ
You smiled, leaning forward to kiss him as your hand was still against his chest. For the rest of the car ride, you two relished in one anotherâs touch; it felt nice to be with one another outside of the Royal House where you didnât have to hide behind corners or in secret passageways.Â
When the car came to a smooth stop, you quickly unclicked the seat belt and got off of Harry, giving him a peck to his lips before situating yourself in your own seat. Benjamin opened Harryâs door and you let yourself out on your own side, quickly jogging around the car to stand next to Harry.Â
A line of Rolls Royces were parked behind the vehicle you were in previously, and five guards, including you, were surrounding Harry as you all walked inside of the banquet room. You were standing in front of Harry, between two guards, while the other two were slightly behind the Prince, making sure he was safely boxed in between you all.Â
Quite a few gasps were let out once people saw who had just walked in, and the volume in the room had increased. People were starting to walk towards you all, bowing and curtsying to the Prince as he said his hellos to everyone. Straight ahead, you noticed a woman running towards you, and you knew that wasnât safe at all, considering this was a childrenâs charity event and you had the Prince right behind you.Â
âPrince Harry-â her arms reached forward and she gained a little air, jumping a tad bit, but you had immediately stopped her, making sure she did no harm to the royalty.Â
âMaâam, please step back,â you stood in front of her like a brick wall, pushing her slightly as she stumbled back a bit. Her face had gone red, stepping aside; Harry softly smiled at her, waving his hand. You turned around briefly to see if Harry was okay, and a small smile appeared on his face, nodding at you to proceed.Â
The group of guards walked Harry to one of the tables a group of kids were sat at. Harry told the guards that he was okay and that they could stand back until he was ready to leave. The four guards, including you, separated along the wall behind the Prince.Â
You observed the room, noticing that there were a few photographers, clicking away at the charity event, making sure they get Prince Harry in their shot, along with volunteer workers and some parents at the event with their phones out, snapping pictures of him. You watched Harry interact with the children, helping them build legos with an enthusiastic smile on his face; he would high-five them, telling them that they did an amazing job building the ship before taking his phone out and snapping a picture of the wonderful sets the kids had built.Â
Your heart warmed at the sight, and you couldnât help but think about Harry being the father of your children because he would be the best dad; he would treat them so sweetly, spoil them rotten, and support them in letting them be whoever theyâd like to be. A sudden warmth hit your face as you curled your lips into your mouth, hiding your smileâyou suddenly thought about being pregnant and how Harry would be so gentle with you as he touched and kissed your stomach.Â
With your leg shaking as you stood, you were getting jitters as you daydreamed. One of the guards noticed that you couldnât stand still, so he slightly nudged your shoulder with his, bringing you out of your pleasant daydream. You looked up at Earl, raising your brows before he asked if you were okay. You nodded your head, standing straighter and placing your arms behind your back, interlocking your hands as you continued to watch how Harryâs smile brightened up while playing with the children.Â
Harry absolutely loved charity events, not because they gave him good press but because every time he had gone to one, he would forget that there were cameras around him. Being and spending time with the kids had made him so happy, and the children seemed to enjoy their time with him as well, so thatâs all that mattered to him.Â
The charity event was being hosted by a foundation that helped kids who lacked a certain connection with their youthfulness because their parents didnât have the money to get their kids toys or bring them to amusement parks. The foundation was a non-profit organization that simply organized donations to be used towards the children. They hosted toy drives every month, picnics every other Saturday, and sometimes Disney trips every six months if they reached their donation goal.Â
Harry was all for donating to them, and this foundation was one of the five organizations for children that he was a member of and was very active with them throughout. He was very passionate about helping the children out, and he wanted them to have a nice childhood, helping them outweigh the good from the bad. His natural liking towards kids in general very much helped him easily bond with them.Â
After a few hours, making sure every child got his attention, he was ready to leave. He didnât leave without saying a small speech because it was expected; thanking everyone for donating and supporting this foundation, and he also thanked the kids for playing with him, which he earned many cheers from the young ones.Â
Once he got off stage, he made eye contact with you, telling you that he was ready, and you headed towards him, the other guards followed after you. Just like you arrived, the guards boxed Harry in safely as he bid everyone goodbye. Everyone waved as a series of farewells were scattered across the room, sad to see the Prince go. Once you all were outside the venue, Benjamin was waiting by the passenger door. From the three hours Harry had been at the event, news had spread out like wildfire that the Prince was attending the event, so there was a swarm of paparazzi waiting outside the venue.Â
The box of guards that were surrounding Harry closed in tighter since you had to get through the crowds. Harry, being the polite prince that he was, said hi to everyone as they reached out to hold his hand. But he rarely let anyone touch him because of an incident he had six months ago when he had reached over to shake someoneâs hand, but they had taken advantage of the opportunity and harshly yanked him forward, making him stumble. Being frightened by that, he informed his guards to not let anyone touch him after that. He wasnât being obnoxious or a typical âno one can touch me because Iâm the Princeâ kind of guy, it was simply for his safety. You absolutely hated that someone was out to hurt him, and it pained you to see how shaken up he was that day. If the Prince had actually gotten hurt that day, there would be massive consequences for that person, but anyone would risk their lives to feel his touch.Â
Once you were close to Benjamin, Harry let you get into the car first, but Benjamin stopped you. With a confused look on your face, you asked if everything was okay while Harry asked if there was something wrong. Benjamin leaned down to whisper in Harryâs ear, and you furrowed your brows, suddenly becoming suspicious as you watched them. Benjamin pulled back and Harry deeply sighed, shaking his head.Â
âY/N is my personal guard, though,â Harry mentioned.Â
âYes, but this was a direct message from the Queen herself. Iâm only delivering the message, Your Highness. I donât want to lose my job if I donât comply,â Benjamin explains sadly. There was clear stress on his face, saddening him that he has to go against the Princeâs orders, but he couldnât afford to lose his job when he has a family. And besides, itâs the Queenâeveryone follows her orders.Â
âOkay. Thank you, Benjamin,â Harry said, and Benjamin bowed.Â
Harry turned towards you, leaning down to whisper into your ear just as Benjamin did to him. âNan said that I have to take one of the other guards to ride back to the House with me. Specifically said, âHave the other guard come back with Harry, donât care who it is.â She told Benjamin that she wouldnât be happy if heâd let us ride together. Fuckinâ ridiculous.â Harry pulled back, rolling his eyes. You simply nodded, knowing you couldnât comfort him in any way since you were still in public, so you moved out of the way and stepped aside.Â
Harry gave you a quick smile before turning his head to one of the guards, asking if he could join him. They quickly said yes, and safely got into the car. The rest of the guards waited until the car door was closed before walking towards the cars they arrived in. You slipped into the car, the one you didnât arrive in, as you watched the one with your Prince inside drive away and towards the Royal House.Â
Sighing, you looked out the window and watched the road and houses pass by. The Queen had never really taken a liking to youânever really made the effort to talk to you. You were the closest person to Harry, physically, since you were his bodyguard, but all she had ever done was question your actions when youâd been doing your job correctly, according to the instructions and demands from Prince Harry.Â
But the worry and anxieties had increased because Elaine had become more suspicious than she was last year. Had she found out about your relationship with the Prince? You two had been doing well at hiding it besides this morning. And you had been good, denying Harryâs wishes to stay in up until this morning. But every day, it got more difficult hiding your love and affection towards the Prince. The word ânoâ coming from his beautiful mouth as he would stare at you with those captivating emerald green eyes as he would plead to spend more time with him in his comfortable bed; the word completely vanished from your head.Â
You wished the situation was different, but for now, you only hoped that things would get better from here.Â
Once the car was parked in front of the large cemented steps that led up to the front door of the Royal House, Harry sighed, thanking Benjamin for driving him as well as Nico for accompanying him on the ride back. They both bowed, saying âyouâre welcomeâ before Harry let himself out and up those steps. Benjamin quickly reminded him that the Queen would like to see him when he arrived home, making Harry dread the conversation.Â
He walked slowly towards the front door that was opened by two of the front gate guards. Saying a quick âhelloâ to them, he walked towards the Queenâs lair, where she always prevailed when she said she needed to have a conversation with someone.Â
The hallway leading to the double doors always made Harry anxious, ever since he was a little boy. He hated how dimly lit the hallway always was, and he never understood why she never wanted to put lights in this hallway. Probably to match her heart, Harry thought, but immediately took back the thought because he shouldnât think that way about his grandmother, better yet, the Queen.Â
Taking a deep breath, his shaky hand knocked on the door, hearing âEnterâ from the Queen from inside, and Harry opened the door. His grandmother was sitting at her large desk chair that was lined like a gold antique frame and was drinking tea out of her teacup that was passed down from generations.Â
âYour Majesty,â Harry bowed, greeting his Nan. She placed her teacup down onto the small plate, placing her hand out to indicate him to sit down in the chair on the other side of the desk. There were no greetings, not a word out of her when he had entered, and now, she was staring at her grandson with snake eyes, ready to attack.Â
Harry gulped, hands fidgeting in his lap as he sat straight up so she didnât point out any more of the things he was doing wrong.Â
âHow was the charity event, Harry?â She suddenly asked, breaking her silence.Â
âUh, good. Had a lot of fun with the children.â
âGood, good. Anyways, I should get to the point with this, hmm?â She raised her brows as she asked her question as a genuine one. Harryâs face remained neutral, slightly nodding. âI called you in here because I wanted to tell you a bit of news that I found out earlier this weekâŠâ she trailed, taking a deep breath before she revealed her news. âI found out that Iâm dying. I have a tumor in my brain, and the doctors have found it too late. They gave me the option to have surgery where they would try to take it out, but that would lead to very risky complications that I canât afford. So, I told them that I would hold out.âÂ
Harry was shocked. His mouth was open, eyes wide, and speechless. Not knowing how to process this new information, he couldnât believe how casual her tone was when she told him, even her face remained calm like she expected this to happen.Â
âI, uhâŠNanâŠâÂ
âIâve been preparing for thisâIâm getting older, so this was bound to happen already. Iâm making sure the kingdom and our country are safe, and Iâm making sure your parents are ready for the job they are about to accept.âÂ
Harry nodded, eyes welling up. âH-How much longer do you have?âÂ
She shrugged her shoulders. âDoctors said six months to a year, but that could change anytime. We just donât know.â Harry exhaled deeply, looking down at his lap. He felt as if his heart was heavy as he listened to her talk about her diseaseâhow okay she was with dying. Sure, now, he and Nan donât get along very well, but once upon a time, they were closer than ever. The Queen absolutely loved her grandson and was always so sweet and gentle with him, but things quickly changed when he turned twenty-two. The older you get, the more distant they become, he thinks. He sighed, wishing it wasnât like that.Â
âI do have a wish from youâŠbefore I go.âÂ
âAnything,â he answered immediately, and he had wished he hadnât answered so soon because the words that came out of her mouth next was his worst nightmare.Â
âI would like to see you get married while Iâm still alive. Iâm arranging a gala this weekend and Iâd like you to meet some people, you know, you can take your pick or whatnot,â she said with an emotionless face. He always disliked how much she lacked enthusiasm or emotion, and how she talked about things so casually.Â
Elaine picked up her pen, writing out Thank You cards that she was sending to some people in the village.Â
âIâŠwhat?âÂ
âMight I need to repeat that again?â She raised her brows annoyingly, hating when she needed to repeat herself.Â
âI canât do thatâŠâÂ
âAnd why not?â She asked sternly, her change of voice had surprised Harry as she slapped her pen down onto the wooden desk.Â
âBecauseâŠâ This was it; he could easily out his relationship with you, tell her the truth, and it would be over with, but he didnât because he knew that you werenât ready for what was to happen after. Besides, you would have to know if he was going to tell her the truth, so Harry couldnât go behind your back. âI donât wanna meet someone at the gala just to get married right away. What happened to falling in love?â He questioned.Â
Elaine scoffed, waving her hand. âFalling in love, thatâll happen when? Never? Iâm gonna be gone, Harry. Youâd rather fall in love in a yearâs time rather than fulfill your grandmotherâs wish?â Her voice started to increase, echoing, and bouncing off the walls of her office. Harry started to shake his legs anxiously from the volume of her voice and the idea that she proposed, absolutely hating it.Â
The Queen had guilt-tripped him into marrying someone; she had used her disease and lifetime time limit so she could get what she wanted. Elaine knew full well he was going to obey her wishes because thatâs how Harry wasâhe didnât want anyone to feel bad and he certainly didnât want it to come from him. She would ask Gemma, but she had much thicker skin than her brother, so she would turn the idea down faster than Elaine would be able to get it out. But Harry, on the other hand, was much easier to get to.Â
âHarry, Iâm only asking for one thing. When have I ever asked you for anything major?â She crossed her arms, resting them down on the desk. âThis is my dying wish. Wouldnât you want your wish to be-â
âOkay,â he interrupted. His voice was soft as he didnât dare to look her in the eye as he spoke.Â
âGreat, itâs settled. Make sure to get your fittings done before the weekend. You have to look your best.â Harry didnât have to look at her to know that she was absolutely beaming, knowing that she got what she wanted and didn't try hiding her excitement. âPlease close the door on your way out.âÂ
Harry stood up slowly as he was in disbelief. Walking out of her office and closing the door, he started to breathe heavily. Tears were in his eyes and his chest felt heavy as his hands started to shake. He picked at his fingers to calm the shakiness down, but it didnât work. Walking down the hallway, he rushed towards his room, not even checking to see if you had arrived yet, but he couldnât face you, not yet. He had just agreed to marry someone that wasnât you, and you were bound to be upsetâhe would be suspicious if you werenât. How was he going to break this news to you? Hell, he didnât even know how to process this himself.Â
All he knew was that this was not going to end well.Â
Hours later, you were wandering around the house, wondering where your Prince could be. You hadnât seen him since you left the banquet hall earlier this afternoon; and Benjamin had told you he was to meet with the Queen once he had gotten home, but as the hours went by, you hadnât heard or seen him.Â
Quickly walking over to the West Wing, you headed towards his room because that was the last place you hadnât checked. You walked by some of the guards and maids, saying a quick âhelloâ to them as you passed by; it wasnât odd for any of the staff to see you heading towards the Princeâs room because you had done it many times and Harry had instructed you, in front of the staff, that if you ever needed to see him, you could knock on his door.Â
So, thatâs what you did; you knocked on his door, waiting for a word from the other side, but you heard no movement whatsoever. You had checked the entire Royal House from top to bottom, but he was nowhere to be found, so he had to be in his room. You took a look around if anyone was near and once you saw the second floor was empty, you slowly opened the bedroom door of the Princeâs room. And what you saw was as if a tornado had hit his room; a mess was what described his room perfectly as objects were thrown all across the floor, the bed was unmade, chairs and sofa were flipped upside down, and the mirror was cracked in half, leaving shards of glasses on the dresser.Â
You slowly walked in, afraid that someone other than Harry might be in his room, and had purposefully trashed it. There was light coming from his bathroom, so you walked towards the light, slowing your steps so your shoes wouldnât squeak against the polished and shiny tiles.Â
âHarry?â You softly called out. By now, he would have come out because you were the only one allowed in his room without permission, so you were starting to get worried.Â
Once you were close to the restroom, you started to hear sobs echoing the bathroom, filling the room with soft and quiet heartbreaking sounds, making your heart drop because you knew those cries and you knew exactly who they came from. When you were inside the bathroom, you saw Harry sitting against the wall, arms leaning on his knees as his face was resting on his arms as Harry cried and sobbed.Â
Seeing the love of your life in pain and in such anguish, it genuinely felt as if your heart was tearing into pieces or if someone had ripped your heart out and stomped on it. The pain that Harry endured was also felt through your heart as well because he was your soulmate, you both felt everything the other felt.Â
You kneeled beside him, gently calling out for his name once more so he knew that you were right beside him before you placed your hand on his shoulder. Harry didnât have to look up to know that it was youâyour touch, your voice, and your presence before leaning to the side and into your arms, sobbing into your chest uncontrollably. You quickly wrapped your arms around his shoulders, comforting him in the best way that you knew how, and that was to simply hold him.Â
He liked being held and it made him feel at ease, made his mind shut out the noise. You would simply hold him for the rest of your life if your life depended on it, and if that meant keeping him calm and at peace, then you didnât mind.Â
You ran your hand through the locks of his hair, scratching his scalp and pushing his hair out of his face. You kissed his forehead, giving him many pecks in a way to comfort him. Harry roughly coughed and sniffled; you could feel his heart beating radically, so you smoothed your hand down his back, somewhat rocking him in your arms. You knew he wasnât a baby, you knew that, but if it worked with crying babies, then it must work with adults too. And besides, who didnât like to be held while crying?Â
To your credit, it had worked; Harry was calming down and his heartbeat wasnât out of control. He looked up at you through his glassy eyes, sniffling; he looked defeated, and you hated that you werenât there when he was breaking down because it must have gone on for hours. There were visible tears that stopped against the crevice of his nose, so you took your hand and wiped his tears away before kissing his nose.Â
Harry sat up, sitting against the wall as he was before you came in. Propping his knees up, you moved to sit in front of him, in between his legs, so he could know that you were there for him and that he had your full attention. He grabbed your hands, sadly kissing them but in a way, saying âthank youâ for comforting him and making him feel better just by your hold. You rubbed his hands with your thumb, gently caressing his skin as you patiently waited for him to talk to you.Â
He took a very deep breath as if it physically pained him to breathe before he spoke, wishing the words that came out of his mouth were a sick joke, but it wasnâtânothing that came out of the Queenâs mouth was a joke.Â
âI spoke with my grandmother earlierâŠâ he began to tell you that she had brain cancer and that she wasnât going to do anything about it, just live the rest of her life until she couldnât anymore. Your face saddened as Harry explained, simply just listening to him as he spoke. You placed one of your hands around his neck, playing with the curls that sat on the back of his neck.Â
âBub, Iâm so sorry to hear that.â You leaned forward, kissing his cheek before giving you a hug. He wrapped his arms tightly around you, taking in your scent and comfort; he felt better for the time beingâbefore he had to tell you the other part. A new set of tears streamed down his face, unable to hide his emotion now.Â
Once you pulled away, you softly wiped his face with your hand before he spoke again. âSadly, thatâs not the news that Iâm crying over.âÂ
Raising your brows, you looked at Harry with a surprised expression, wondering what got him so sad to trash his room and breakdown in the corner of the bathroom.Â
âOhâŠW-What is it?â You hesitated.Â
You listened, watching his mouth as he spoke. Every ounce of hope had disappeared from your body as Harry explained the situation that he was in, that you were in. He cried, unable to be coherent as possible as his sobs won over his ability to speak a full and proper sentence. It genuinely felt like you were asleep like this was a dream, more of a nightmare. As if all of the plans and dreams you had patiently waited for was thrown out the window in a world record time of a minute, maybe less. The color from your face had completely drained, leaving you shocked, appalled, and hurt. Every word was just another twist of the knife that went straight to your heart as you wished his words would get better to relieve the strong and harsh ache in your chest, but they didnât.Â
Wake up, please, wake up, you told yourself, but this was reality. It was real. Â
Silence had washed over you two after Harry was done explaining the horrible news. The silence was louder than glass shattering, loud and pitchy. Contrasting to the silence outside of your head that laid between you and Harry, the inside of your mind, your world, was similar to the glass, breaking and crumbling into pieces with one hard hit of the enemy.
âI-Iâm sorry, baby. I shouldâve said something, anything. But instead, I said yes,â Harry bawled through his words.Â
âAre weâŠover?â You asked nervously. The lack of eye contact you were giving him only pained him, but he knew how difficult it was to say that. He took your face into his hands, tenderly cradling your sad but beautiful face.Â
âNo,â he immediately disagreed. âI mean, not if you donât want it to be. I understand why you would, thoughâdidnât even fight for you. Please, let me fix this. Iâll talk to her, tell her everything. She canât make me do this, I have a right to my own words and decisions, right?â You stayed silent. Harry understood why you were quiet as you were still taking in this information and how to process that your boyfriend was to be married in the next few months, but he really needed to hear your voice. He needed the reassurance from you because you always seemed to know the right words, but he knew you needed him more. âPrincess, please look at me.â His voice was shaky, and you glanced up at him through your lashes. âIâm gonna fix this, okay? Not gonna let her walk all over me again. I love you, and itâs time for her to know that.âÂ
You nodded briefly, not able to get the right words out. Harry didnât mind; he took you into his arms, wrapping his strong and tattooed arms around your shaking and frightful body.Â
He held you tight as you both sat on the floor of his bathroom, pretending that everything was going to be okay. But in reality, neither of you knew if it really would be.Â
The weekend had come by too quickly for Harryâs liking. He didnât get the chance to have a moment with the Queen because she was busy with handling errands for the gala; from talking to event coordinators, caterers, and floral arrangements, so she hadnât gotten a moment to sit down unless it was nighttime. Harry practically felt her negligence towards him, always telling him sheâd talk to him later, which left Harry feeling defeated because the more she ignored him, the quicker the days had gone byâcloser to the gala.Â
And to his dislike, it was the morning of the gala, something he had been dreading ever since Elaine had told him she was hosting one. It felt like his world was crumbling; he noticed your demeanor changeâhow could it not. Things werenât the same, and they werenât going to be the same again until he got himself out of the unwanted arranged marriage that the Queen was putting him upon.Â
You didnât mean to act differently around Harry, your boyfriend, or whatever this meant for your relationship, but it was difficult to act like your normal self. You sought comfort from Maria as she told you that this wouldnât be the last of you two; she had a gut feeling it wouldnât be.Â
You had always imagined getting married to him as you two would excitedly talk about marriage and how life would be when you were husband and wife. But Harry was soon to be meeting his wife, and you had to be in the same room as him, possibly feet away from him when he did so. Your heart ached, dropping to your stomach as you felt sick to your gut every time you thought about it.
You were wearing your usual attire but you added a black corset over your white shirt and a black blazer since the gala was a more formal event. Standing in front of the large bedroom doors, you closed your eyes for a mere second, taking a deep breath before knocking, entering right after.Â
Upon your eyes was Harry standing on the block square step in front of the mirror that was placed in the corner of his bedroom. His seamstress sewing the crystals that were loose on his embellished jacket that he paired with white trousers. The gold buttons on the front of his jacket were engraved with his initials, adding a touch of personalization to his attire; along with his white lace gloves, white pearl necklace, and cross pendant.Â
He looked absolutely marvelous, rightfully so, and you couldnât take your eyes off him no matter how heartbroken you were.Â
His eyes caught yours in the mirror, widening before turning around to face the seamstress. âJaylin, I think weâre good, yeah?â He asked, hoping she wouldnât find any more flaws in his suit.Â
âYes, we are. Have a great time at the gala, Your Highness,â she curtsied, grabbing her supplies before heading out the door. You greeted her on her way out, and you earned a smile from her.Â
The click of the door was heard, indicating that it was just the two of you in his room. Usually, you would take advantage of being alone with him, but again, things were different this time around.Â
Harry stepped off the step, slowly walking towards you. His eyes never left yours, piercing through you like fire, and you were going to melt.Â
âHi, beautiful,â he greeted softly, looking you up and down. You slightly grinned, looking down at your feet.Â
âHi, Your Highness.âÂ
He placed two fingers under your chin, lifting your head up. You looked at him with doe eyes, and he couldnât help but fall in love with you even more with just your stare.Â
âYou look gorgeous,â he complimented. Leaning forward, he was about to place a kiss on your lips, but you felt his hesitancy as he pulled away. He hadnât felt your touch, your lips in what seemed like years; completely deprived of your touch, but itâd only been a few days.Â
âThank you. You look wonderful as always.â You grabbed the edge of his jacket, tugging on it to straighten out the material before smoothing your hand over his shoulder and down his arms. Harry sucked in a breath; that was the most youâd ever touched him in days, and he was cherishing every second of it because reality had hit him, and this could possibly be the last time you were ever going to touch him.Â
You sighed, pulling back as you crossed your arms behind you. Harry could tell that you had a million thoughts racing in your head and you were wary of saying them, but nothing you could say would scare him; he was already faced with his biggest nightmare.Â
He walked towards you, taking your hands in his. The softness of your hands juxtaposed to the slight roughness of his that carried multiple heavy rings on his slender fingers.Â
âHey, Iâm gonna fix this, alright? Iâm telling her tonight, and I promise that Iâm gonna be yours forever, no matter what happens,â he reassured, looking ever so deeply into your eyes so you would get the message. His eyes had captured yours, putting you under his spell, so you nodded and believed him. Harry sighed in relief, thankful that you trusted him. âI actually got you something.â He let go of your hands, walking over to his dresser before pulling out a square box from the drawers.Â
Harry was always one to give, always the giver and he loved giving without expecting anything in return. Throughout your relationship, he would always buy you random but sentimental things that he saw at the shop simply because it reminded them of you. The thought was incredibly sweet and you loved the fact that even when you werenât around him, he was still thinking of you.Â
He opened the box, revealing a pearl necklace that had a gold anchor in the middle. It was a necklace that you had thought of getting to match the tattoo that was inked next to your right breast. You and Harry had gotten complimentary tattoos the second year of your relationship, and he proudly got a ship tattoo on his left arm as well as an anchor on his wrist to match with you. Harry was your anchor; he kept you upright. He was the backbone of your ship, helping you slow down whenever you needed a break.Â
âYou were secretly eyeing this when we visited that farmerâs market a few months ago. And since I couldnât go and get this by myself since youâre always with me, I asked Gemma if she could get it for me. Hope this was the one you were talking about,â he explained shyly as he held the box open for you.Â
You were speechless as your heart fluttered. âHarryâŠâ Your fingers delicately grazed the necklace, studying and feeling his gold chain; it was the exact same one you saw at the market.Â
âDo you like it?âÂ
âYes, I doâI love it.â You softly smiled up at him. âD-Do you mind putting it on me?â He immediately nodded, taking the necklace out of his case, and you turned around, slowly pulling your hair to the side.Â
Harry unclasped the necklace; the small skin on the back of your neck was exposed to him, so he leaned down, placing a small kiss on your skin. The action sent shivers down your spine, but you took the touch that youâd been starved of. He put the necklace on as it sat perfectly against your collarbone; and Harry wrapped his arms around your waist, taking in your delicious scent. You felt extremely warm as if you were standing in the courtyard and the sun was casting its light right down your spine, providing you warmth. You placed your arms on top of his, hugging him to yourself as he rested his face against the crook of your neck, tenderly kissing your skin.Â
A deep sigh of relief was released from your lips as you let loose in his hold. His arms were a place you wanted to be in forever; it was a place where you found security and comfort, and the thought of leaving, a chance to never be in his arms, had never once crossed your mind.Â
You turned around in his arms, facing him as you wrapped your arms around his neck, mindlessly playing with the small curls that sat so effortlessly on his neck.Â
âThank you for the necklace, I truly love it,â you sincerely said, reaching up to place a small chaste kiss on his lips. Your lips against his had made Harryâs stomach flip, and he couldnât bear to hide the smile that made you fall so hard for him.Â
âYouâre welcome, my love.âÂ
âDo you mindâŠfixing my corset? Itâs a bit loose.â You offered him a smile, and he nodded. You took off your blazer before he reached behind you to untie the knot that you had tried to make look decent.Â
âI love you, you know that, right?â You suddenly asked as Harry pulled the strings tighter, making you take a big breath in before he started to tie them smoothly without the need to look if heâs doing it correctly; heâs tied your corset for you so many times already that it was all muscle memory.Â
âYeah, I do know that,â he nodded, looking deeply into your eyes. You had practically felt Harryâs doubts and insecurities of your love deep through because of the news that he broke to you the other day. And you figured you werenât being a good enough girlfriend to him and failing to remind him that you loved him and it wasnât his fault for everything thatâs happening. âYou know I love you as well, yes?âÂ
You raised your brows at him, nodding. âMhm. Just wanted to see if you knew.â
He chuckled, finishing up the knot. âYeah, I know.âÂ
He placed his hands on your hips, and you leaned to give him a kiss to thank him as well as just to kiss him lovingly, something you two hadnât done in days. Giving you a smile, he was going to go in for another one, but a knock was heard on the door, making you two pull away quickly.Â
That knock on the door only meant that the car was ready and that Harry should be heading to the gala now. That knock only meant that it was time to face his futureâthe future that was going to fight for, the one that he wanted and not the Queen.Â
That knock only indicated that it would be determined if he was to live with or without you, and thereâs no way in hell he was living without you.Â
Elaine had definitely gone all out with this gala, Harry thought. It was held in a museum that was closed due to the Queenâs personal favors and demands.Â
When a guest entered the gala, they were immediately caught with the gold antique lining on every end of the wall; the high crystal chandeliers reflected off the gold and illuminated the room even further, bouncing off the shiny and polished floors. Long champagne color curtains were draped in front of each window with a historical gold statue pushed up against the window. The dome-shaped ceiling was high, painted to tell the story of the Renaissance. When a guest entered the gala, they were welcomed with elegance, grace, and exquisiteness, prepared to have a gold evening that would only end in secret affairs and tragic events.Â
You led Harry through the room, many guests greeting him with such poise as they tried to get his very best impression. With suits looking sharp and dresses were extra flowy, they bowed and curtsied as Harry politely said his greetings to them.Â
Many of the guests had been mentally and physically prepared to have a proper conversation with Prince Harry, and hopefully get a chance with him on the dance floor, if he allowed it. Everybody wondered what it would be like to walk into the building with Prince Harry on their arm, how they would flaunt and brag about how they arrived with him.Â
During galas and balls like these, the guards were instructed to be present, to be aware, so they didnât need to always be close to the Royal Family. Once you got an approving nod and smile from Harry, you left him be; guests surrounded him, the men were shaking his hand as the women gave him a kiss on the cheek. He was completely soaked up in the attention, everyone praising him for the recent work that heâs done for different foundations and events that he attended recently. Heâd been offered too many invites to grab a drink, or to the dance floor later in the evening, or even to their bedroom when everyone was asleep.Â
Politely and respectfully, he told all of them that heâd see where the night would take him, knowing full well that he wouldnât be able to reject them fully because the only one he wanted to have a drink with was you. The only one he wanted to invite and take on the dance floor, dancing and spinning the night away to classical and soft music was you. The only one he wanted to go to bed with, to make love under the sheets, and wake up in the early hours of the morning to admire how you slept was you.Â
The Queen was sitting on her throne, crown sitting perfectly on her head as she watched Harry for over an hour, interacting with her guests. She could practically hear the conversations that the many women whispered to in his ear, inviting him for a night in their presence, but she noticed how uninterested Harry wasâthe look on his face said it all and how he would politely brush off their question without giving them an answer. She observed how he, quite often, looked over at you, standing against the wall, watching him as well.Â
You were nervously watching him, observing the way he acted around the guests, seeing if his demeanor would suddenly change since you werenât right by his side anymore. It wasnât as if you were jealousâyou were never one to be jealous; it was your own insecurities that made you constantly worry about how Harry could just pack up and find someone else that was much better for him. Everyone always wondered what it would be like to love Prince Harry, and you were the lucky one to know what his love felt like, and you would hold onto that love for as long as you possibly could.Â
Elaine had made her rounds and chatted with several people who were eager to talk to her, and they were lucky enough to get a chuckle out of her. It was difficult impressing the Queen, her own family even struggled to get her approval, so it was a rare sight to see Elaine walk up to someone and initiate a conversation.Â
But that person wasnât just âanyone,â they were that person the Queen had specifically picked out to wed her grandson, someone who was worthy of hers and the Princeâs time. Elaine had asked the woman to follow her, which she immediately complied as Elaine walked through the room, nodding her head at everyone who greeted her, for what seemed like the hundredth time.Â
Harry was in conversation with one of the Dukes when his grandmother had walked up to him, the first time tonight, with someone, who he had never met before, trailing behind her.Â
âHarry,â The Queen made herself known.Â
âYour Majesty.â Harry bowed.Â
âI would like you to meet Venus. Sheâs the daughter of one of the board members for the Water and Power Organization,â Elaine introduced the dark-haired girl.Â
Venus curtsied. âYour Highness.â She smiled, flashing him her gorgeous smile. Venus was pretty, anyone knew that from just a glance. She wore a champagne silk dress that had crystals embedded on her waist, cinching her figure. She added white silk gloves and diamond earrings to top off the look.Â
âPleasure,â Harry simply said behind a smile, masking his anxious and nervous attitude. He knew this was the moment where the Queen would tell him who Venus was and what he was to do while you were standing in the back watching the entire interaction, holding in your tears as your heart broke a little more.Â
âMy dear, Harry,â Elaine started. Harry looked at his grandmother weirdly; she hadnât called him that since he was younger. âShall you accompany her to the dance floor? Get to know each other, hmm?â She suggested, brows raised.Â
Harry was all too polite to reject the poor girl as Venus looked at him with hopeful eyes. He simply cleared his throat and nodded, hesitantly offering her hand to the dance floor. Venus gladly took his hand, and Harry led them under the high crystal chandelier before she put her hand on his shoulder while the other still held his hand. Harry respectfully placed his hand on the small of her back--his actions unsure. Sure, he had danced with many people throughout the years, even while being with you, but this was completely different; this was the woman who he was to be wedded to, and he was sure Venus knew that as well.Â
âThe Queen is very kind. I thought she disliked a lot of people, so I was shocked when she started up a conversation with me.â Venus made conversation to fill the void of silence between her and the Prince as they swayed to the classical music.Â
Harry lightly scoffed to himself. âSheâs the Queen, could do anything she wants.âÂ
âShe told me the plan, and I will happily be your wife, Your Highness, an honor really.â Her voice was light and hopeful. Harry knew that she was a kind woman and anyone would jump at the chance to marry into royalty, but he couldnât deal with this, not right now. Not when youâre standing feet away, containing your pain. Harry pulled away swiftly from Venusâ hold, leaving her confused. âYour Highness?âÂ
âIâm sorry, I-I canât do this,â he told her before walking away and leaving her on the dance floor.Â
The Queen had watched the entire interaction, anger, and disappointment present on her face as she watched Harry walk away and out of the main ballroom. You were about to follow him out once you saw him frantically walk out, but you noticed the Queen quickly trailing behind him. Holding tightly onto your thumbs to contain the shakiness, you stayed put as your mind had begun to wonder if your boyfriend was okay or not.Â
You understood why he seemed upset and stormed off; dancing with someone who wasnât your partner hurt just the same as watching it right in front of you. All you wanted to do was hide away with him, in each otherâs arms forever, but that wasnât reality.Â
Harryâs footsteps clicked against the tiled floor, walking in pure frustration as he tugged on his hair. Tears threatened to spill out of his eyes, a groan slipped from his mouth. He heard footsteps following behind him, and he already knew who those particular steps belonged to. Turning around to face what seemed like the devil itself, he inhaled deeply, holding his breath.Â
âWhat in Godâs name are you doing? You left the poor girl hanging!â Elaine scolded, eyes piercing through him.Â
âNan, I canât do this. You canât make me do this.â His eyes and voice pleaded, begged for mercy as he was asking for a favor as her grandson, not the Prince.Â
âAnd why may that be?â She tested. Harryâs mouth opened but quickly closed, refraining himself to say anything. The words were right at the tip of his tongue and he had told you that he would tell her everything, but when it came to the moment, anxiety and nerves got in the way. But it seemed like the Queen knew exactly what he was going to say because she spoke for him, saying, âIs it because of that girl out there who happens to be your personal guard? Y/N, is it?â Her voice had a hint of sarcasm, and thatâs when Harry knew.Â
She knows, she knows everything.Â
âH-How did-âÂ
âOh, for god sake, Harry. Do you think Iâm naive? Oblivious? Itâs painfully obvious--the way you two look at each other, how you walk so closely next to each other, not to mention, the mornings in. You canât tell me that every time you sleep in, sheâs nowhere to be found too? Hmm?â Crossing her arms, she knew she defeated Harry. There was no way around it and no room for lying because she knew everything.
âWhy didnât you say anything?âÂ
âI thought it was a one time thing, the first time I noticed it--that it wouldnât last long. But Iâve watched it happen for five years, and now that Iâve had limited time on this Earth, I didnât want to see it anymore.â She shook her head in disappointment. âSo, you will marry Venus,â she instructed sternly.Â
âI will not,â Harry bit back, holding his ground.Â
âYou will do as I say-âÂ
âYour Majesty!â Harry interrupted, his lip wobbling involuntarily. For a moment, Elaine had seen the seven-year-old Prince as he gave her big puppy eyes, pushing his bottom lip out as he begged. For a moment, she was about to give in to his wishes, disagreeing to be wedded to a woman he had never met before tonight. If it were twenty years ago, she would have, but twenty-seven-year-old Harry didnât have the same effect on her as he did two decades ago.Â
She loved her grandson, she did. As cruel and heartless as it was, her love for him had begun to slowly dissipate ever since he started dating you, making her a bit more harsh with him as it was a complete switch up from how she acted around him when he was younger.Â
âYou are to be married to Venus next Saturday, and that is final,â she said in an unrelenting tone before she walked away, heading back into the main room without another look back at her heartbroken grandson.Â
Harry was left in the empty hallway on the verge of a full breakdown. His knees felt weak, about to give out from holding him up. Luckily, you entered the hallway, quickly walking towards Harry who looked completely stunned. The bottom of your shoes clicked loudly against the quiet hallway.Â
You placed your hands on the side of his face, frantically worrying. âHarry, baby? Whatâs wrong? What happened?âÂ
He finally exhaled the deep and big breath that he had been holding in since his conversation with the Queen. The absence of your presence had made his breath shudder as he quite frankly couldnât breathe properly when you werenât around.Â
His legs gave out as he couldnât properly stand, and without warning, he collapsed, but you had caught him as you quickly placed your arms under his underarms, trying your best to pull him up. But his deadweight had won, bringing you both to the floor. You caught his fall, somehow maneuvering yourself to be placed behind him, so he wouldnât completely fall on his back. Sitting in between your legs, he turned himself in your hold, burying his head in your neck as he began to sob. Tears soaked your skin as they slid smoothly down to your shirt, dampening the piece of clothing. His hot breath hit your skin as he bawled his eyes out, holding your top tightly between his fist, wrinkling your perfectly ironed white shirt.Â
His wails broke your heart, and you had no clue as to what happened prior to getting this reaction out of him, but it must have been something horrible; something the Queen had said to him as you saw her walk into the ballroom just before you walked out. You only assumed it had something to do with the arranged marriage that she mentioned earlier this week.Â
âBabyâŠplease, youâre scaring me,â your voice was shaky, anxious as to what the reasoning for his breakdown was. Your fingers threaded through his chestnut curls, comforting him in a way you only knew how to do.Â
Harryâs breath stuttered as he sniffled, catching his breath as he calmed down a bit before he spoke. âS-She knows.â Your breath had hitched in your throat, heart dropping to your stomach. The Queen knows everything, constantly replayed over in your mind like a broken record. âShe knew from the very start of o-our relationship thatâs why she started to become so harsh and short with me.â Your heart broke for Harry as he spoke about his grandmother, and you couldnât help but think that you were the one that caused the Queenâs unpleasant tone with the Prince. âBut I am to still be married to the woman in the ballroom. She scheduled it for next Saturday,â he added as his voice cracked towards the end.Â
His words were echoing in your head, and it only added fuel to your terrible nightmare. You thought you had time, time to convince Elaine that your relationship with Harry was serious and that you loved him. But youâre starting to think that Elaine didnât care if he was happy or in love, that she was doing this completely out of spite.Â
âW-What are we gonna do, Y/N?â Harry needed your wordsâhe needed your console, your reassurance that everything was going to be alright.Â
But this time, you didnât have an answer.Â
Your footsteps were the only thing that were heard as you walked through the dark and quiet hallway, leading up to the Queenâs office. She had asked one of her guards to tell you that she requested to see you after breakfast, and your thoughts had been running ever since. This had been the first time the Queen would speak a word to you; the other times had been full of her ignoring your greetings as you curtsied politely.Â
You asked Harry if she knew if he knew what she was going to say to him, but he just shook his head no. Rightfully so, heâs been in quite a gloomy mood, but heâd been more clingy than ever since this was most likely your last week together. You tried not to think about how Harry was to be married to another woman at the end of the week, and that only led to crying into your pillow until the early hours of the morning; Harryâs been the same, maybe even worse.Â
With a shaky hand, you knocked on the door; not too hard but not too soft either. You gulped as you heard Elaine say âEnterâ from the other side of the door. Nervously opening the door, you were faced with the Queen sitting in her chair with her hands linked together as she rested them against her desk.Â
âYour Majesty.â You curtsied, anxiously looking at her for some sort of approval, but all she did was gesture for you to sit down.Â
Once you were sitting rather uncomfortably on the edge of the seat, she stared at you for a moment, looking at you up and down as her glare was rather deadly. You tried not to fidget or anxiously bounce your leg, but her eyes were probing into your soul, and you were afraid of how she may react if you disconnected your eyes from her.Â
âI assume you know why youâre here?â She started. You nodded lightly, not saying a word. âI donât appreciate you and my grandson going behind my back to have thisâŠaffair of yours, especially for years. First, did you think nobody would find out? Youâre in the Royal House, everyone reports things back to me when they see something suspicious, so donât think you were all that sneaky. Second, Harryâs a Prince, youâre aâŠguard.â She said with much emphasis on your title. âDid you think it was going to work out? I mean, heâs a Prince.â She added a bit of a scoff at the end, but her tone was stern.Â
âMy apologies for going behind your back, Your Majesty.â You hadnât a clue on what to say to her other than to apologize because there was no reason for lying only to make the situation worse.Â
âHmm. You see, Prince Harry is to be married in four days. That means you are no longer in relations with him, and since youâve disrespected me and my family, you are no longer needed in the Royal House. You are to be packed by Saturday, and youâll never go close to my family ever againâmore importantly, the Prince. Understood?â She instructed unsympathetically.Â
Your breath was stuck in your throat, your stomach in knots, and your heart didnât feel like it was beating anymore. You were absolutely crushed. The thought of not seeing Harry anymore frightened you; you didnât want to do life without him. You needed him, and unknowing to the Queen, he needed you too.Â
âI asked if you understood,â she said, wanting a vocal answer to seal the deal.Â
Slowly, you nodded your head. âYes, I understand, Your Majesty.âÂ
Elaine leaned back in her chair. âVery well. You may leave now.âÂ
You got up, making your way out of her office, closing the heavy door before you let out a wracking sob, chest heaving up and down. You quickly made your way to your room, covering your mouth to contain the volume of your cries. The fee staff that you passed by had called out for you, asking what was wrong, but you ignored their calls, heading straight to your room where you locked the door and cried into your pillow, just as you had for the past few days. Your heart broke into a million pieces for yourself and for Harry, and you didnât know how you would ever recover.Â
As you were talking with the Queen. The Duchess had found Harry lingering around Elaineâs office, pacing back and forth as well as pressing his ear up against the door.Â
âHarry? What are you doing?â Anne asked worriedly.Â
âMum, please. I need you.â Tears streamed down his face, and Anneâs heart broke as she saw her son so heartbroken. All of the rules Elaine had instructed Anne to do on how to raise her children, like completely stop showing her kids affection, had completely torn in half. And just like that, her child needed her.
Anne quickly took Harry into her arms, and Harry sobbed into her shoulder, hugging her tightly. âThere, there, my darling. Youâre alright.â She rubbed his back soothingly. âWhatâs wrong?âÂ
Harry pulled back. âUh, Y/Nâshe's in there with Nan. Mum, she knows everything.â Anneâs eyes widened. âWeâve kept it in for so long, why now?â Harry choked in between his words as his cries had heightened.Â
Anne looked at Harry with a defeated face. Sheâs always known about his relationship with you ever since the beginning. A quite fresh six months into the relationship, Anne had caught you two running around in the courtyard under the moonlight, past curfew hours. Harry suggested sneaking out because that was the only time you two had alone, so you hesitantly said yes without thinking about getting caught. Sure enough, you two did get caught by the Duchess. You relentlessly apologized to his mum, saying you wonât pass curfew hours anymore, but Anne simply just smiled, telling you two to be more careful next time because it couldâve been the Queen who had caught you.Â
As Harryâs mother, she understood the importance of wanting him to live his life the way he wanted to. She always encouraged that he could be whoever he wanted to be, and she would always be there to support it. She didnât want to tell him who to love or who to marry because that decision should be completely up to him. And throughout the years, sheâd seen how much love he has for you while that same love was also being reciprocated. Thatâs all she wanted for himâsomeone who would love and cherish him.Â
âI donât know what to say, darling. Maybe you could talk to her?â Anne suggested, caressing Harryâs arms.Â
âI-I tried before, but she just brushed past me. I donât know what Iâm gonna do.â Frustration was clearly going through Harryâs body as he pulled on his hair, something he does when heâs anxious and frustrated because he was somewhat in control over it.Â
âCâmon, letâs go into the living room.â She grabbed his arm, leading him out of the hallway, but he pulled back.Â
âButâŠâÂ
âSheâll go to you when she needs to. The last thing you need is getting caught lingering around when Iâm sure the Queen doesnât want you two being around one another.âÂ
Anne was right; a mother does know best. Following her wishes, he nodded, trailing behind his mother and out of the hallway, away from his poor girl who was being confronted by the Queen.Â
It was Friday night, and you had just zipped up the last of your luggage. Your room was empty, and it pained your heart that it was your last night at the Royal House, the last time you would ever see Harry.Â
You were due to be out of the Royal House by seven a.m and off Royal grounds at nine in the morning; there was a boat scheduled for everyone visiting the grounds to departure at nine, and you would be on your way to God knows where, but far away from the one person who had your heart.Â
Harryâs wedding was to be scheduled quite early in the morning, around eight-thirty, or so youâd heard from the staff. The entire staff had no clue of your leave, except a few of the guards that were going to escort you out of the Royal House and to the docks. The Queen had bumped into you in the hallways and specifically instructed you to not tell anyone that you were leaving because she was going to tell them that you resigned if they asked. You simply had no energy to argue, to disagree with her choice, so you nodded, not saying a word.Â
You sat on the edge of your bed, completely drained physically and emotionally, and the one thing on your mind was to go to sleepâsleep and Harry, your dearest Harry who you hoped was okay. You got ready for bed mindlessly as a numbness fell throughout your body. You couldnât feel anything but pain, and the suffering youâd endured for the past week had overwhelmed your mind and body, leaving you dazed.Â
Your heart pounded through your ears with every movement as it started to make you feel dizzy, so you laid down on your side, facing the wall while you hugged your pillow tightly while your hand was wrapped around your gold necklace Harry had gifted you. Shutting your eyes, you forced your mind to go to sleep.Â
A few moments passed by, and due to your ears ringing, you didnât hear your bedroom door open and close. But you did feel the edge of your twin bed dip down, making you open your eyes in startelement as the figure behind you engulfed you into their arms, and you immediately relaxed.Â
Sighing deeply, a few tears shed from your eyes, feeling relief from the pair of arms around you; you hadnât felt his arms around you since Tuesday, the day you talked to the Queen. You also hadnât seen him since Tuesday because after your meeting with Elaine, she had found Harry, telling him to stay away from you. Many arguments had come out of his mouth, but Elaine immediately shut him down after that, sternly telling him that he was to never speak to her that way again. Knowing that Harry would break the rule of not seeing you, Elaine ordered for you to not cross the boundary of the West and East Wing as she knew you wouldnât break her rules.Â
The feeling of being this close to one another after three days was such a relief, and it almost felt wrong because of the Queenâs wishes, but you simply couldnât care less because you were in the arms of the person you adored.Â
Turning around to face him, you were immediately greeted with a loving âI missed you so damn muchâ kiss. His lips glided over yours smoothly, but rushed, desperate to feel your touch as his arms never loosened around your frame, needing your body close.Â
âHi, Princess,â he said breathlessly once he pulled away.Â
You kissed the tip of his nose, making him blush. âYour Highness, how are you?â You asked concerningly.Â
âWas doing horrible without you, but right now, Iâm just happy to see you, happy to be in your bed.â You softly smiled, pecking his lips.Â
You were also happy to have him in your bed. Heâd only snuck out of his room to sleep in your bed a handful of times, but he could easily say that itâs the best bed heâs ever slept on because your scent was all over the sheets as well as your body being pressed up against his due to the lack of space you two had. Youâd tease him, saying that you were baffled he would rather leave his king-size bed for your small one, but he would charm your pants off and come back with how he liked your small bed better because that meant you would be closer to him the entire night. A charmer, he is.Â
A silence fell over you both, simply just looking and taking one anotherâs presence in. You had both memorized every inch of each otherâs face throughout the entirety of your friendship and relationshipâevery mark, mole, crease, and wrinkle was ingrained into your mind as it was your fear that you would forget how your handsome Prince looked likeâbut this time, it was different. You two were looking at one another, so neither of you would actually forget what the other looked liked because you wouldnât be able to see him again.Â
You lowered your eyes to your neck, stopping yourself from crying, but it seemed like your tears and emotion for the best of you. A small sniffle came out of you and Harry pouted, bringing you into his chest and holding you tightly.Â
âIâm gonna miss you,â you said against his skin.Â
âCâmonâŠâ Harry said with slight annoyance, lightly scoffing as he was in disbelief of what you were saying.Â
âI mean it, Iâm really gonna miss you.â You pulled your head out of his chest, looking up at him.Â
He shook his head as tears formed in his eyes. His heart was breaking more than it already had, and it upset him how much you were letting all of this happenâaccepting it, more like.Â
âDonât do this.â He looked deeply into your eyes, brows furrowed; you could tell that he looked frustrated and offended, but you didnât know what you could do to make your situation better, so you shrugged your shoulders in defeat.Â
âThereâs nothing else for me to do, Harry. I donât know what you want me to do. I donât want you to resent me for not being close to your grandmother when sheâs practically on her deathbed.â He pulled away from you, laying on his back as he looked up at the ceiling fan, hoping if he looked long enough, he would be hypnotized into another lifeâa life where it involved just the two of you. But he was still in your room and his realities were still coming true. âI donât know what you want me to do,â you added.Â
âDonât accept the fact that weâre not gonna see each other again!â He whisper-yelled, trying to keep his voice down, still not making eye contact with you. How could he ever resent you? For most of his life, youâd made him the happiestâever since you two were kids, you would always find a reason to put a smile on his face and get out of bed in the morning.Â
You sighed deeply, closing your eyes. This wasnât how you wanted your last night to go, and you could understand why he was frustrated, but you really didnât know what he wanted you to do because there wasnât anything you could do.Â
He turned his head towards you, seeing that you were closing your eyes, exhaling through your nose deeply. He turned his whole body to lay on his side, facing you before bringing his hand to your cheek, caressing your skin with his thumb. You opened your eyes once you felt his cold touch, chills rose onto your skin as you looked at him through your glassy and sad eyes; a look that broke his heart.Â
âIâm sorry for raising my voice, my Princess. Iâm justâŠangry and sad.â He lowered his eyes, feeling subdued.Â
âItâs okay, I understand. I just donât know what to do to make this situation any better, but we have to accept that this is our ending. And it may not be âhappily ever afterâ for the two of us, but that doesnât mean Iâm gonna stop loving you.â He nodded as he took in your words.Â
âJustâŠhold me, yeah? Until you have to l-leave.â His voice cracked at the end of his sentence, finding it rather difficult to accept the fact that you wonât be on the same grounds as him anymore.Â
You nodded, closing the inch of space, and wrapping your arms around him. As your face was pressed against his chest, Harryâs chin rested on the top of your head as you two held one another. It was a surreal but heartbreaking moment, but the two of you cherished the last several hours you had with one another.Â
You lifted your head up, only to be met with his chin, and you pressed a kiss along with the sharpness of his stubble jaw; Harry sighed in relief. You hooked your leg around his waist, pulling him closer than he already was, and trailed your lips to his neck, sucking and licking his soft skin. Harry groaned, involuntarily bucking his hips into yours as the feel of your lips had that much of an effect on him.Â
Shifting upwards so you were face-to-face, you looked in his eyes momentarily, taken back by his beauty. He was so immensely beautiful that he quite literally took your breath away. He almost didnât seem real, so tangible, but he was definitely a sight. Youâve had a crush on him for more than a decade, and not once had it minimized into something frivolous or vanished; you hadnât doubted your love for him and you never would. You were always going to have a crush on the Prince until the day you took your last breath when you would think about giving him one last kiss goodbye.Â
Connecting your lips together, you felt like you were home. The peace his lips provided made you melt with every kiss, every single time his tongue glided over yours, or when he bit your bottom lip and pulled back a bitâjust being connected to Harry physically and emotionally made you feel secure, and you couldnât ask for anything more in life because you would be too greedy.Â
In the midst of moving your lips in sync with his, he traced his tongue against your bottom lip, making you open your mouth, a moan leaving your lips. His tongue met yours, swirling and tasting one another as the grip you had on one another had stiffened, pulling each other closer. With your hips slightly grinding against his, the breathy moans that left his mouth, and Harryâs lips perfectly and gracefully kissing yours, the electrifying feeling was more powerful than ever. The spark ran down your back, making you want more as chills ran down the course of your body. You would always want more when it came to Harry; he had that appeal where he would leave everyone wanting for more, but luckily, you were the only one he would be giving it to.Â
You pulled away, completely breathless by his soft and pink lips before you whispered, âWant you, please.â Your eyes were pleading with him to do anything to your body as you just wanted to feel his touch, his body against yours.Â
âSure?â He asked as he always did before you two ever had sex, and you appreciated the thought because it really showed how true of a gentleman that he was before he fucked you relentlessly into the mattress.Â
âMhm. Give it to meâŠone last time,â you sighed, curling your lips into your mouth as your fingers pushed away the curl that fell onto his forehead.Â
He shook his head softly, disapproving of your choice of words. âOkay,â he responded, brushing off your statement as he gave you another kiss, unable to get enough of your sweet, cherry-flavored lips.Â
Soft kisses were pressed against your cheek, trailing down your neck as he gave you a love bite; you threw your head back into the pillow, allowing him more access to your neck. His hands found the hem of your baby pink silk nightgown, bunching the soft fabric up to your waist as he held your thigh up to his waist, softly grinding his pelvis into yours.Â
You sat up and raised your arms straight up before Harry took the chance to peel your nightgown off of your body and on the floor. You laid back down, completely naked, besides the necklace that rested perfectly on your skin, as his eyes bored into you, admiring your figure and being quite mesmerized by you as he always was. Your room was dark besides the soft glow of the moonlight that peeked through the window and casted down at your body, giving Harry a clear and beautiful vision of you.Â
âSo beautiful, my love. Take my breath away every single time I look at you,â he said softly. You shyly smiled under his state, finding it quite intimidating for a moment.Â
Harry raised his arms and reached behind his head to take off his shirt, showcasing his tattoos that youâve traced, counted, and kissed plenty of times throughout the years. His inked skin was something you loved most about him because despite being Royal blood, he still wanted to be himselfânot someone people assumed he was as if theyâd figured out his entire life and personality. Just Harry.
He was outright the most stunning man youâd ever laid your eyes on. You were sure there would be no one like him because there was only one Harry that you loved, only one person that you loved.Â
You reached your hands out for him, and Harry slowly placed his weight on you. His lips sucked and licked the swell of your breasts and nipples, giving each the same amount of attention. You grabbed his face, bringing it up to your lips as you missed them.Â
He molded his lips with yours for a few moments, enjoying your touch before you briskly flipped the two of you over so you were on top now.Â
Harry smirked, hands immediately finding their way to your waist. âMy girl wants to be on top, hmm?â You nodded as you began to take his striped pajama pants off; his cock was hard, sitting against his lower abdomen. You leaned down, licking one long stripe from the base to the tip, earning a raspy moan from your Prince before kissing up his body, making sure to leave a few love bites so he had something to remember you by in the morning on his wedding day. Call it petty if his new wife would see them tomorrow on their night as newlyweds, but rightfully so, he was yours and you had his heart first.Â
You reached his neck, littering his skin as you sucked and licked. âWanna feel you deep. Can you sit up, please?âÂ
âAlways so polite. Of course, I can.â He sat up against the headboard, and you pressed your body against his as his cock laid perfectly between your folds. You could practically feel your arousal dripping onto his hard-on, so you slowly started to grind against his hard length as you feverishly kissed him.Â
A throaty moan came out of both of you as your hands desperately held onto one another, grabbing whatever you both can to really feel each other.Â
âPlease,â he whimpered. âNeed to feel you.âÂ
âLook whoâs being so polite now, huh,â you teased, and Harry giggled. He loved being able to giggle and tease one another during the intimate times you two had together; it made things fun and less serious as you two were able to be yourselves around each other.Â
You sat on your knees to raise your hips before you licked your hand and grabbed a hold of his cock, giving him a few pumps before you lined him up with your entrance. Slowly sinking down on him, your walls hugged him tightly as he graciously filled you up. After five years, he still filled your walls and stretched you out as his thick and long size was something you still had to adjust to. A soft moan left both of your lips once you were fully on him, keeping yourself there for a moment.Â
âFuck, you feel so good. Could stay like this for as long as possible,â he breathed out.Â
You softly smiled. âGive me a moment. Always gonna need to adjust to you, just so big.â You praised him for endeavors, knowing he liked being praised; and he smirked.Â
âAll for you,â he breathed out, making you smile.Â
After a minute or two, you started to move up and down on him, raising your hips until only his tip was inside of you before sinking back down, taking him in fully. He always hit that special spot in this position; with just one thrust, it had you moaning his name out like there was no tomorrow.Â
You squeezed around him, making him throw his head back onto the headboard as he started to guide your hips that were working on grinding and bouncing onto him. Your movements began to pick up, finding a rhythm as you swiveled and grinded on his cock, feeling on edge already.Â
His mouth attacked your tits as his hands squeezed and slapped your ass, leaving a red mark onto your skin, but you loved it, you always did. You wrapped your arms around your neck, hugging his face to your chest as he hugged your waist, keeping you close while kissing the valley of your breasts.Â
His hands gripped your hips, pushing you down so you would stop your movements. You looked down in confusion as big doe eyes looked up at you. Pushing his hair back and scratching his scalp, you gave him a small smile, kissing his lips fully.Â
âW-Whatâs wrong?â You asked once you pulled back from his lips, your voice soft and tender.Â
âJustâŠwanna make this last longer.âÂ
You nodded, agreeing. âOkay.â You didnât continue your movements after that, just simply staying seated on him, keeping him warm as he was tucked in away with your softness and warmth of your velvety walls.Â
âIâll love you forever, yâknow that, right? Not gonna love another soul again,â he confessed sadly.Â
âI know that, and I love you more than life itself. But baby, youâre getting marriedâspending the rest of your life with someone. Youâve ought to love her someday.â As hard as it was for you to tell him that he could love someone else, you knew that it was inevitable for him to catch feelings, especially for his new wife.Â
He shook his head in disagreement. âNo, no. I canât do that, even if youâre telling me to love someone else, I physically and emotionally cannot open up my heart to someone who isnât you.â His eyes were glassy; the moonlight still made his gorgeous green eyes sparkle.Â
âI know, I know.â You lovingly placed a kiss onto his forehead, lingering your lips onto his skin for a moment as his fingers trailed down your spine. âJust know that Iâm gonna love you forever, too.âÂ
âYeah?â He asked, smiling slightly; you nodded. âPlease do. Need your love,â he sniffled, a tear slowly streaming down the side of his face.Â
You wiped it away, leaning down to kiss his nose and lips. âNeed your love too. Can you feel mine? Can you feel my love?â You asked as you began to start moving your hips.Â
A throaty moan left Harryâs lips as he nodded. âYeah, I can feel it all over. Feel it everywhereânever want to not feel it.â He gripped your hips hard, squeezing the flesh as you whimpered.Â
Slowly bouncing on him, you started to revive your orgasm as you started to whine and mewl, desperate to get there. Your thighs were shaking and burning from being on top and grinding on him for so long, and Harry started to see that as your movements slowed down and you had to take a few breaks.Â
âTired?âÂ
âMhm.âÂ
âOkay, I got you, baby. Let me love you.â He shifted down so he was on his back and your body was pressed up against his. âLet me take care of you.â You nodded softly, burying your face into his neck, hiding away from him as you whispered from the movement.Â
Harry planted his feet on the bed, bucking his hips and fucking up into you; it wasnât fast, no, it was slow but his thrusts were hard. He was so deep that you felt the electrifying shock run down to your toes, making you curl them in. Hot breath hit his skin as you moaned out his name before he felt your lips continuously kissing, sucking, and licking his neck.Â
âMy Princess. My dream girl. Gonna love you forever. Gonna miss you, gonna miss this.â His voice cracked, hugging you tightly to his chest as he continued to thrust up into you. âPlease, let me feel you,â he pleaded for your release.Â
His cock was hitting your special spot as you were very close. After a few more thrusts, a few more moans, and a few more words that effortlessly slipped out of Harryâs mouth as he encouraged you to find your pleasure, you let go. Your beautiful sounds were muffled from the pillow and the way you buried your face into the crook of his neck. You were quite overwhelmed as you began to sob, a quarter of your distress was because of how powerful your orgasm was, but most of it was because of how empty you would feel when you had left the Royal Grounds tomorrow morning, and how you wouldnât see Harry anymore.Â
Harry continued to fuck you, riding your high out before he spilled into you, loud and raspy moans slipped filled your ear as he moaned your name and how much he loved you.Â
Once he calmed down, the room was in absolute silence beside the sounds of the gut-wrenching sobs that came from you. You were incredibly sensitive and emotional as you held onto him tight, Harry still inside of you. His heart was breaking as he started to quietly cry with you, which caught your attention, so you lifted your head up to face him. Witnessing Harry crying wasnât your favorite sight to see; it pained you to see him so upset, and you wanted to take his pain away and keep it to yourself so he would be happy.Â
âNo matter whatâŠâ you started, stroking his cheek tenderly. âIâm gonna love you. And even though Iâm not going to be physically next to you, youâre still gonna have my heart and youâll feel how much I love you. JustâŠremember that, please?âÂ
Harry nodded. âAnd youâll have my heart,â he reciprocated.Â
âMhm, and Iâll guard your heart for the rest of my life.âÂ
He pecked your lips sweetly. âI know you know this, but youâre my ship. Youâre the thing that brings me home safely and securely while I lay out in the sun for hours and be completely content and happy with life. And no matter what storm you, or we, encounter, youâre always able to guide us to a brighter part of the Earth. And for that, I will love you forever. Got you inked on my skin permanently and I will cherish the memories and the love you have given me for the past twenty years.âÂ
His proclamations had you in tears, sniffling throughout his words. You knew how difficult it was for him to say those words because it meant that he was accepting his reality.Â
You captured his lips in with yours, sobbing and shaking against them as you cried, holding onto one another for dear life as you two only existed in each otherâs armsâforgetting about the outside world. Your heart had sunk so far into your stomach, making your insides feel like they were in knots. Harry had been your safety net for so long, your source of happiness and love. But now, he was going to be added to the list of people that you had lost; the first two being your parents.Â
The three most important people in your life had sailed a ship far away from you and you werenât able to see them anymore. Maybe in another lifetime, but right now, you needed them.
It was quite ironic how Harry thought you were his ship, something that kept him afloat and content when all you felt was the numbness, the pain, and the sinking of your heart, making the depth of the ocean feel so inviting.Â
A shake on his shoulder had woken an exhausted Harry up. Inhaling deeply before letting out a groan, he opened his eyes to be met with the day ahead of him. If it were any other day, he would be met with his love, looking at him so lovingly and sweetly as you would beg him to get out of bed, but he would pull you to get in the covers with him before spending half an hour of making giggly and sweet love in the morning.Â
But today wasnât any other ordinary dayâŠit was his wedding day, and the person waking him was Anne, sadly smiling down at him as she wore a rather beautiful lilac gown. He looked at her confusingly before taking a look around the room; he was in your room and thatâs when he recalled the night prior. You two fell asleep holding onto one another, whispering lovely words into one each otherâs ear, pretending that the next wasnât happening so you two could be Y/N and Harry.Â
âMorning, darling. I see youâve made your way in here last night.âÂ
Harry sat up, looking down at his body; he was fully clothed, and he smiled to himself at how thoughtful you were to put his clothes back on. But his smile quickly disappeared when he took a clear look around the room. Your belongings were gone and the luggage that was packed wasnât there anymore. A piece of him felt like it was ripped out of his chest, leaving him to suffer and sleep through the nightmare.Â
He sighed deeply, chin meeting his chest. âSheâs really gone, Mum.âÂ
Anne didnât say anything but nod. She rubbed Harry back comfortingly as she kissed his forehead. Sheâs never seen her son so heartbroken before; sure, sheâs had to distance herself from him, but she was always observant of Harry. She noticed that whenever he walked into every room, he had a smile on his face and that was because he was laughing at something you had said or blew him a kiss that made him flustered. So, Harry being so sad and heartbroken was a new kind of Harry that she will have to encounter because for most of his life, he was always happy, never had a complaint in his life, and that was because he had you.Â
âShe left you this.â Anne presented a white envelope, which made his eyes widen, but he immediately took it from her hands. The front of the envelope wrote Your Highness with a heart at the end, making his heart flutter. He looked up at his mother and she smiled at him, caressing his face before planting a kiss on his cheek. âBe quick to read that. The Queen is still expecting you to be married today,â she sighed. âYou have to be ready soonâthe ceremony starts in an hour. Be out of this room before anyone else catches you.â Anne walked towards the door, and before she walked out, she called out for him, making Harry lift his head up. âEverythingâs going to be fine. Trust me.âÂ
With that being said, she left your empty room, leaving him with the letter in his hands and your scent that swirled around the room, making him miss your presence even more.Â
His hands shook as he carefully opened the envelopeâyou even spritzed some of your perfume that he loves so much as he brought the paper to his nose. Unfolding it, the letter was quite longâthe entire pageâand Harry could feel himself already getting emotional over it, but he read it anyway.Â
My sweetest Harry,Â
I am writing this in the early hours of the morning as youâre sleeping peacefully in my bed, hugging my pillow. You look so peaceful when you sleep, did you know that? Besides the occasional snoring, which I donât mind because you know that Iâm a snorer myself, you have this sense of calmness to you when you sleep. It makes me not want to wake you up in the mornings sometimes because you look like youâre at complete peace. But then I miss you too much and want your kisses so eventually, I do wake you up.Â
Iâm going to miss that, waking you up, and having a morning to ourselves where we get to be us. But Iâm also going to miss all the other times we get to spend together. In the car on our way to events, in the courtyard running around like weâre kids, midnight strolls under the moonlight, and sneaky makeout sessions when you would pull me into a random room in the Royal House.Â
Iâm going to miss every single moment.Â
It pains me that I am no longer by your side and we had to part this way. Iâve never felt so heartbroken in my life before, and I thought I wouldnât ever get to feel this type of agony because I was with you. And we promised to not hurt each other, no matter what. But Iâm proud of us because we kept our promise until the very end. We never hurt each otherâwe always talked it out and never left one another to fight oneâs own battles. We were such a great team. The best team.Â
Youâre everything to me, Harry. My whole entire heart belongs to you, and it will always be yours as long as you hold onto it and keep it safe. Thank you for protecting my heart since we were kids. Thank you for always being there for me in a blink of an eye. Youâve truly helped me get me back on my feet when my father passed, and for that, I donât know how to thank you enough. I felt like I'd lost the fight when he passed and I didnât know what I was going to do, but then you reminded me that you were by my side, and for that, we won.Â
It has truly been an honor to know you. To be in your presence. But to be in your heart is the greatest gift that Iâve ever received because you love like no other. There will be no other thatâll compete against you. It will always be you.Â
My lips will remember the way you love, the way you taste. Your lips are my favorite, and I smile every single time I feel your touch because itâs quite unforgettable.Â
You are my heart, my sun, my lover, my best friend, my dream boy, and my forever Prince that I will love for the rest of eternity.Â
Thank you for loving me. Thank you for letting me into your heart, Your Highness.Â
Yours forever,Â
Y/N.Â
With his face slightly damped from the tears that streamed down his cheeks while his eyes were swollen and red, he cried into his hands once he finished reading your letter a third time in a row. The feeling in his chest felt like it was physically tearing him apart as it was difficult to catch his breath, gasping for air through his sobs.Â
All he wanted to do was to hug you, hold onto you for the rest of his life, and he would be completely satisfied with everything. But you were soon to be on a boat, sailing away from Royal Grounds, further away from him.Â
He looked down at the piece of paper, making sure to not wrinkle the last physical piece he had of you. You signed your name off with a heart at the end, admiring your handwriting that he never failed to compliment every time you would handwrite him a note. Bringing the paper to his lips, he kissed your name briefly, exhaling heavy breaths through his nose before pulling away and safely putting it back into the envelope.Â
His heart grieved for you two because neither of you deserved this consequential punishment that broke you two apart.Â
Standing at the altar in front of hundreds of people wasnât something Harry imagined his wedding to be like. He pictured his guest list to be quite small, only the people he truly loved and appreciated. It definitely wouldnât have been in a large venue that held six figures worth of art. And it wouldnât have been Venus walking down the aisle, meeting him in a white long gown with a veil covering her face.Â
He closed his eyes, inhaling deeply as he felt slightly guilty. Harry knew it wasnât his fault as to why heâs standing here, but he would have never thought he would ever be standing at the altar without you walking towards him. You two had talked about getting married and the wedding itself so many times that, naturally, it was the norm. Neither of you were scared of getting married to one another, so there was no need to worry about the other running away from the idea or the relationship.Â
You always talked about wanting to get married in a garden where there would be bushes of flowers surrounding the area, giving the scene a pop of color. You two agreed on only wanting about fifteen to twenty people, most of the guests would come from Harryâs family and friends, and you would invite some of the staff that you had gotten quite close to throughout your life of living in the Royal House. You would ask Maria to walk you down the aisle as you wore a light champagne dress with hints of gold embedded into the dress; you always told Harry you didnât want to wear a traditional white wedding dress because you would be too afraid to stain it, especially if you were going to walk on the grass. Harry didnât mind one bit as long as you were the one walking down the aisle towards him; he would be the happiest man on Earth.Â
But now as he watched Venus make her way towards him, this wasnât the magical night he dreamed of ever since you two got together, and he wished this was a dream so you could wake him up as soon as possible. But you didnât because it wasnât a dream, and he realized that when he shook Venusâ fatherâs hand, giving her daughter away to marry the Prince as she was soon to become a Princess.
Harry and Venus stood in front of each other as she held his hands tightly, feeling that she needed to hold up his hands because he wasnât holding onto her at all. Venus nervously gulped as she looked at the Prince; he wasnât making eye contact with her nor the Priest. He was looking down at his shoes and the doors that she had entered as if he was impatiently waiting for someone to burst through those doors as he didnât listen to a word of what the Priest had said.Â
âHarry, do you take thee, Venus, to be your lawfully wedded wife, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, til death do you part?âÂ
The moment was finally here as Harry blinked his tears away, knowing two words were going to change his whole entire life.Â
Your heart was beating fast as you struggled to hold onto your belongings with your two arms. You rolled two suitcases that sunk their wheels through every crack of the wooden and old dock as you walked; your duffel bags took every other bump, struggling to remain on your luggage, making you stop once again to place it back in its rightful spot. Towards the side of the dock was a schedule on what time the faerie was arriving for departure, and you had about twenty minutes to spare if there were no delays.Â
It was a quite gloomy dayâunfortunate that Harry had to have this kind of weather on his wedding day, but maybe that was Mother Natureâs way of expressing her sadness with you.Â
You looked at your small gold watch on your left wristâan accessory your father had given you when you turned eighteen as he told you it was your motherâs and that she used to wear it all the time. The small watch made her feel powerful, independent, and a grown woman who had grown up from the beaded bracelets she used to make when she was younger. It was a piece of your mother that you got to keep with you wherever you went, so you cherished it with your whole heart.Â
When it was nearing T-minus 5 minutes, you gathered your bags and headed towards the boat where every passenger crowded around. There were quite a few people and you hoped that the boat ride off the Royal Grounds was a quiet and smooth sailing ride because with the headache youâre enduring from crying and your heartbreak, you needed silence.Â
One of the members of the faerie stood on the edge of the boat with a megaphone raised to his lips. âAttention! People who are boarding for the nine oâclock departure heading West of the Royal Grounds. We seem to have noticed a last-minute complication with the engine, which will delay us for about another thirty minutes. We will update you all if we need to switch boats, but for now, hang tight and hang around. Visit the Royal gift shop and get yourself a crown!â He finished his announcement as everyone groaned as you chuckled at everyoneâs reaction. You didnât mind the delay because it meant that you got to stay on the same ground as Harry for a bit longer, even though you werenât able to see him.Â
You headed towards a bench that overlooked the ocean and set your bags close by you as you grabbed an apple from your tote that you snatched from the kitchen on your way out of the Royal House. There were little kids running around with balloons in their hands while their parents tried to chase them, telling them to be careful or theyâll fall off the dock.Â
Suddenly, a little boy jogged towards you, nearly startling you. âHello, are you Y/N?âÂ
You raised your brows, leaning your arms on your thighs as you wondered how he knew your name. âWhy, yes, I am. And who might you be?â You asked in a friendly tone.Â
âIâm Russell. This is for you.â He handed you a bouquet of a gorgeous arrangement of daisies.Â
âThese are lovely, thank you! Did you pick these out yourself?âÂ
âNo, I didnât. I was told to give them to you. Your husband wanted me to give it to you!â He exclaimed excitedly.Â
âReally? And who might my husband be?â You amused him, not thinking seriously about his statement. But he suddenly pointed behind you, making you turn around in suspense.Â
There he was, your Prince, smiling down at you as you looked up at him in pure disbelief. He looked dashingly handsome in a silk hot pink blouse and a floral embroidered black suit that suited him very well. You took a moment to observe him, trailing your eyes down to his hands, only to find his left ring finger bare. His face looked too happy to be married to someone who wasnât you, but his smile looked as if it was relieved as if his worst nightmare had come to an end. He was relaxed, the complete opposite of the trepidation that he held for weeks.Â
Your observation was coming to a conclusion, and once you realized what was happening, you matched his smile as you stood up.Â
âYour Highness,â you curtsied, making him giggle.Â
Before he could explain to you why he was standing in front of you with no security, he turned to the little boy who had helped him. âRussell, thank you for delivering the flowers to my wife.âÂ
âYour welcome, Prince Harry!â The little boy bowed excitedly before running off to his mother who was waiting and watching on the sidelines.Â
Once Russell was safe with his mother, you turned back towards Harry. âYour wife, huh?â You raised your brows, teasing him as you masked your giddiness. You intertwined your hands behind yourself, containing yourself from reaching out and grabbing him.Â
âYeah, my actual wifeâsomedayânot the one that was walking towards me earlier.âÂ
You smiled softly, still lost on why heâs in front of you. âWhat are you doing here?âÂ
âI left. I ran away from the altar. I couldnât do it, Princess. No matter how mad the Queen would be, I couldnât marry that woman,â he explained. You exhaled in relief, tears pricking your eyes. âI felt guilty, yâknow? Never have I imagined standing at the altar without you. It wasâŠweird and I didnât like it.âÂ
âHow did you even manage to do that? To run away?âÂ
Harry slightly chuckled. âMum helped me.âÂ
âReally?â Your eyes widened as you were in shock.Â
âYeah,â he answered, explaining to you what happened thirty minutes prior to him racing to the dock to find you.Â
When the Priest was reciting the vows, he waited on Harryâs promise to marry Venus. But Harry had turned his head to look at his mum before earning a nod of approval. He turned his head back to Venus, and she had some sort of look of understanding like she knew Harry clearly hadnât signed up for this weddingâto marry her. Harry gave Venus a small smile that apologized for what he was about to do before turning to the Priest and telling him that he couldnât do any of what he had said. The guestsâ chatter had increased, some softly gasping as they wondered why the Prince wasnât complying with the marriage.Â
He let go of Venusâ hands, heading towards Anne to give her a kiss on the cheek. Anne had sneakily handed him a pair of keys to one of the Rolls Royce cars, and he smiled in appreciation. He glanced at Elaine, not even bothering to say goodbye to his Nan, but Elaine had a few words herself, so she grabbed Harryâs wrists before he walked down the aisle.Â
âWalk out those doors, and you wouldnât even be considered a Prince anymore, you are not allowed back on Royal Grounds if you walk out, and you are no longer going to be part of this family,â she warned, eyes piercing with such disappointment.
He gave Elaine one last look before yanking his arm out of her hold, which earned a loud gasp from the guests. Elaine looked around at the people who had watched the two, and she felt embarrassment heat up in her cheeks.Â
Once Harry walked out the doors, he jogged to the front of the Royal House where Gemma had closed the trunk. He took his sister into his arms, hugging her tightly and gratefully.Â
âThank you, Gemma. For everything,â he said, giving her an extra squeeze. She patted his back before pulling away, giving him a smile.Â
âIâm proud of you, H. Now, go and get her. Iâve already flagged down the captain and told him to delay the boat for thirty minutes, so you should hurry before the other passengers start to fret. And the boat you two are going on should be ready by the time youâre there.âÂ
He smiled. âThank you, again. Iâll see you soon? Iâll call you from wherever I am.â She nodded, telling him to reach out soon. âYou take care of yourself, alright? Donât take shit from her. You and Sebastian deserve to be with each other.âÂ
âI will. I wonât. And yes, we do,â she answered in the order Harry said, making him chuckle. âNow, go. Youâre making her wait.â She patted his back once more before he got into the car.Â
With one last wave, he was off to the docks where the love of his life was waiting for him.Â
âSo, here I am,â Harry said with a smile, arms opening as he presented himself. You smiled widely, giggling. You were still in shock how he simply gave up his family and his position to once rule the country for you. You knew he would do anything for you, but this was more than anythingâthis was leaving his family for good, walking away from being connected to royalty. And he left it all behind. For you.Â
âHere you are,â you breathed out a chuckle. âI can't believe youâre here. That you didnât marry that woman.âÂ
âYou know I couldnât do that. Youâre the only one I want to marry, the only one I wanna see walk down the aisle, wearing a beautiful champagne gown.â You were slightly taken back, tears glazing your eyes; he remembered the small detail you had told him about not wanting to wear a traditional white dress to your wedding. âSo, youâre not the Prince anymore, hmm?âÂ
Harry shook his head. âNope. Not gonna leave me to find another Prince, are you?â He joked, raising his brows. You playfully slapped his chest, but he caught your hand, bringing it up to his lips as he placed a chaste kiss on the back of your hand.Â
âCourse not. Iâve had a Prince of my own for the past five years.â You unconsciously reached towards him to straighten his jacket. He pulled you forward by the hand that he was already holding, and your chest was pressed together against his with your faces inches away from one another as you looked up at him.Â
âOur six-year anniversary is coming up soon. How should we celebrate?âÂ
âHmm, now that we have all the time in the world, wanna go on vacation? Iâve been dying to go to Italy,â you suggested, and Harryâs eyes lightened up as if you had suggested the greatest idea ever.Â
âI would love that. Where in Italy are you thinking about? Because Iâve been thinking of the Amalfi Coast. Think about itâŠdriving along the coast, cliff diving, swimming in the ocean. Sounds nice, huh?â You nodded your head at his plans.Â
âSounds amazing. Maybe we couldâŠget married there?â You suggested another plan hesitantly, testing the waters to see how he felt about it.Â
âYou wanna get married? Next month?â You nodded your head. âAre you proposing?âÂ
âOnly if you say yes.â You wrapped your arms around his waist, kissing his chin.Â
âYou know I will.â A tint of pink hit his cheeks as he smiled down at you.Â
He leaned down to place a tender kiss on the tip of your nose, and when he pulled back, your eyes sparkled with such love and happinessâa gleam that heâs missed seeing in your eyes, and a gleam he would make sure was always there as long as you two were together.Â
âWell, in that caseâŠYour Highness, my love, will you do the honor of becoming my husband in one month?â You asked with a hopeful and playful tone as you couldnât contain your smile.Â
âOf course, my Princess. Wouldn't wanna be by anyone else,â he answered as you softly squealed.Â
Harry placed his hands on your jaw, gently bringing your face to his. His forehead rested against you as the tip of your noses touched, giving one another an Eskimo kiss. Your lips merely brushed together so delicately as you smiled once you felt his touch. With one last small touch, Harry kissed you with such passion and devotion as you two moved your lips in sync. The kiss spoke every beautiful and exquisite word in the dictionary that it wouldnât be enough to describe how tenderly and passionate he kissed you, and how much love your heart held for him.Â
 Neither of you cared if there were bystanders, wondering why the Prince was kissing someone in the middle of the Royal Grounds, in public. But there was not one hint of care because you two were together, and this kiss indicated whatâs to come for the rest of your lifetime.Â
He pulled away, and you were so caught up in the sensation and the feeling that you didnât realize that he had stopped kissing you. When you opened your eyes, you were met by your favorite green eyes that stared at you with a big smile on his face, dimple indenting his face.Â
âI love you so much, Princess, you have no idea.â His words were slow, hoping to engrave them into your mind so you wouldnât forget it.Â
âAnd I love you, too, Your Highness.â He smiled, pressing a quick kiss to your lips, too quick for your liking.Â
âNow, câmon, we have a ship to catch.â Harry grabbed one of your bags as he held one of the duffle bags on his shoulder. He informed you that you two were going to take the family ship and that his belongings were already loaded on the ship.Â
You nodded, grabbing the other luggage and duffle bag. You turned around, taking a look back at the Royal House that peeked behind many buildings and trees. This was the end of the story, and it was time to start a new one. You were able to close the book and set it down while you reflect on the memories you had made in one house with the one person who had your heart.Â
Sure, you donât know where you and Harry would be settling down; maybe you two would constantly move around and travel the world since neither of you got the chance to do so, but whatever the universe had in store for you both, you were glad to do it with Harry by your side.Â
âHey, are you coming with or what?â Harry called out, making you turn around. A smile that was brighter than the sun was plastered on his face as his arm reached out in front of him, palm facing up, telling you that it was time to leave. That it was time to start a new life together.Â
You smiled, walking towards him as your eyes were glossy. Taking his hand and intertwining your fingers with his, he held your hand tight as you two crossed the ramp that was securely resting on the edge of the dock and the edge of the boat.Â
You leaned against the railing of the boat, looking out at the deep ocean that you once felt like you were drowning in. But once Harryâs arms wrapped around your waist, chest pressed up against your back while his lips attached to the skin behind your ear, you no longer felt like your ship was sinking. It was smooth sailing and immensely happy.Â
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Behind the Keyboard: Volume 4
Behind the Keyboard is a series of interviews with different Schittâs Creek fanfic authors. The series will last as long as there is interest (from authors) and capacity (from me). If you are an author from the Schittâs Creek fandom who would like to participate, send a DM to this account. Â
Each author was given ten questions. The first five questions are the same for every author, the last five will vary.
Remember, this yearâs Reading Challenge begins July 15, so polish up those MFL lists.
Letâs meet our next author:
@blackandwhiteandroseâ
How many fics have you written?Â
As of the current moment I have 85 fics posted on A03 (and one thatâs finished and waiting for me to figure out a title). The actual number of fics Iâve written over the years would be considerably higher, though.
When did you publish your first fic on AO3?Â
April 6, 2020
Describe your writing process from âOh, I have an ideaâ to pushing publish on AO3. Â
Saying that I have a process is giving a whole lot of credit I do not deserve. LOL Generally it goes something like: * get an idea (could be a title, dialogue, or a scene)
* take like, three sentences worth of notes * just start typing * ask my CFOs (chief flailing officials) to take a look and see if it makes any sense/is worth continuing * repeat as necessary until I feel like itâs finished * get the beta eyeballs (and thank them profusely) * post and hope for the best
Tell me about your most recent fic? What do you love about it? Is there anything you think you could have done better? Â
Despite being a totally not sportsy person, I love sports AUs so I was very excited to try writing one. Iâm really happy with how breakaway came together and let me do a different version of Hockey!Patrick.
(I also just think itâs fun to have friends who are willing to entertain all your dumb questions about a subject youâre clueless on and will help you get it right.)
If I were to have done anything differently/better it would have absolutely been an epic, multi-chapter fic that covered their whole relationship. Unfortunately, thatâs not how my brain works, but maybe there will be a prequel one day. What advice would you give to someone whoâs thinking about publishing their fic for the first time?
Very honestly, Iâd say âjust do itâ. You really never know if something is going to hit or not, but I think itâs better to try something and toss it out there and hope a few people like it than just wanting to do it and never going for it. But, very seriously, before you hit post, have someone else look it over. Ask someone who will be honest with you and tell you things like âthis sentence is unnecessaryâ or âI have no idea what this meansâ or âI donât think you understand how commas workâ (all comments I have received!), etc. As writers, we know what weâre trying to say, but someone who isnât in your head is a very, very valuable resource when it comes to reading. The best idea in the world wonât get the attention it deserves if itâs hard to read.
Whatâs one thing that youâd like to say to your favorite Schittâs Creek character?Â
Iâd love to be able to talk to Season One David or just-moved-to-Schittâs Creek Patrick and say the same thing to either of them, âJust wait. You have NO idea whatâs coming.â
When did you start writing?Â
I remember reading a story Iâd written aloud in 4th grade, so at least since I was 10. But I wrote my first fanfic in 1999.
What is the favorite scene youâve ever written?
There are several very strong contenders for this one, but I think I can narrow it down to two:
Patrick & Nico at Rose Apothecary in Where He Is Now or David listening to Robert talk to Helen in beloved - it was the first time Iâd made myself ugly cry while writing.
Are you interested in writing original fiction?Â
Yes and no. I have long dreamed about it, but at this point Iâm not sure itâs something I would/will actively pursue. Do you write for any other fandoms? Which ones?Â
I do, I also write for 9-1-1.
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Can I have something super soft and sweet with Andrea? I need some content from my cottagecore husband. You can decide whatever you want to do with it!
The Perfect Day [Andrea Marowski x fem!Reader]
Word count: 2.3k
Warnings: fluff
A/N: thank you for making me write this lifesaver <3
The soft chirping of the birds woke you up. You stirred lightly, a smile coming across your lips as you felt the soft lavender scent over your young husband skin. You slept holding hands, your forehead against his chest as your eyes got used to the bright light outside the window.
The soft cotton sheets clung around your naked bodies along with some heavier quilted duvet, legs tangled as he breathed slowly still deep into his slumber.
You observed him into his simplest nature, he looked so much younger when asleep, his features perfect as kissed by the gentle morning light.
You slowly moved your hand away, he frowned but with time you mastered the art of leaving the bed without awakening him. He huffed, face buried into the pillows as he rolled onto his stomach covering the warm spot you left. Your hand gently onto his soft hair caressing them away from his face. The time seemed to be something unknown to you.
After adjusting the covers over his shoulder you shivered into your nakedness, your hands grasping onto your white nightdress pulling it over you to cover your frame before adding up a burgundy cardigan belonging to Andrea to protect you against the goosebumps your body suffered for leaving the warm comfort of his presence.
You stepped into the kitchen quietly, breathing in the soft smell of a new day. Your hands went immediately to unveil the dough that was covered by a cloth and you left to raise during the night, it was now ready to be baked and youâll have your warm bread for the day. Andrea spent the day before picking up the mature fruits from your trees, so it was easy to wash them and cut them while you put on the pot for your morning tea.
You hummed softly a song that Andrea was rehearsing with his violin for few days, now helplessly stuck with you, your hands unveiling the pie you prepared the day before cutting some slices.
Before anything else you moved away going to your garden standing barefoot onto the cold stone of the steps, you hugged yourself enjoying the view before slipping on some comfortable shoes and settling the table. The summer day was amazing and the morning breeze made the heat unnoticeable. A white table cloth with fresh flowers and then your started going back and forth from the kitchen to the garden bringing dishes and plates
You blinked surprised as little Anthony, the 14 years old son of the local baker, passed by with his bike waving at you. He blushed as you just looked so calm and relaxed.
âGot the mail and the newspaper Mrs Marowskiâ he said as he hopped off his bike to hand it to you. You picked one of the peaches you got into a basket nearby handing it to him I return âThank you Anthony, have a good dayâ
He smiled and nodded vehemently as he rushed off back to his duties.
You looked down onto the mails: an invite to a concert in London, something from your parents, something in polish coming from Andreaâs family and a voluminous yellow envelope that was coming from Andrea's favourite music shop in London and by the weight you could tell it was some new music sheets. Also a note from your seamstress telling you that the new winter coats need the last fittings.
You were about to check the first page of the newspaper as a loud meowing made you jump.
Andrea was standing in front of you, soft khaki pants with a loose white shirt, your cat draped onto him, a beautiful grey British short hair who was staring at you.
âDid Laszlo woke you up?â
âDid you doubt it?â Andrea asked with a chuckle as he leaned closer to you, a kiss resting onto your lips as the cat jumped off his arm.
âI hate to wake up on an empty bed, even if your table setting is the bestâ he assured as he smiled at you tangling you into another kiss.
âMh, the teaâ you just reminded yourself as he chuckledÂ
âOne more, one moreâ he begged between chuckles stealing another kiss before letting you go inside and he proceeded to give the annoying boss of your cat the food he deserved and demanded.
He sat on the chair enjoying the soft breeze as you brought a small tray with the tea to complete the set up.
He hummed softly opening the package coming from London gleefully as he admired his new music sheets.
âYour presence is required to see a new concert, I think they want to show off to have you as solo violinâ you said showing him the invitation while sitting with him. He admired you, he stared at you with a soft smile âI will have to hear my agent firstâ he said as he meant you. You always had a good gut feelings and often kept him from taking random impulsive decisions.
âThereâs something from your family tooâ you added and he smirkedÂ
âYou read it firstâ he said as he was helping you with polish and you sighed softly using one of your butter knives to open the letter. His hand quickly went to your cookies taking one happy bite as he still stared at the music on paper.
His eyes darting up only to look at you focused onto the paper scribbled by his parents and you nodded explaining to him a letter that was mostly about every day updates
âThis wordâ you signalled as he leaned in lightly in to read it as there was only one point you didnât seem to grasp not even by the words before or after it.
He chuckled loudly almost chocking onto the crumbles covering his mouth with the back of his hand.
âWhat?â
You asked as he blushed deeply.
âOh no, they hated my knit work? Is it that?â
He shook his head as you frowned at him waving that letter expecting an answer before your mind went onto the worried train of thoughts.
âIt meansâ he licked his lips, eyes shining âIt means pregnancy, not literally it is a more discreet way to say it, more like expecting something, but they mean that, my mum wants to know when she can call herself grandmotherâ
You blushed deeply as you looked down, you are such a young couple and youâre actually enjoying this phase, now it is not like every little delay of your period didnât make your heart do the backflips, but to be asked so directly felt weird.
âDonât worry about it, she means it in a good way, they adore you and they keep saying how you brought some sense into meâ
He smiled taking your hand gently kissing the back of it.
âWe have Laszlo for now it is more than enoughâ he joked to light you up and you giggled âIndeedâ you said as you looked around finding the cat running after some butterflies. Andrea always complained that Laszlo hated him, Laszlo was your cat even before the polish man came into your life, but truth to be told they were best buddies: the cat would always check where he was and Andrea was the first to always feed him.
âI was thinking we could go to town today, I promised Ursula to play for her tea party with some friends coming all the way from Edinburgh and maybe we can go past the bookshop and buy some flour and whatever else. I could plant some pumpkin seeds, I love your velvety pumpkin cream for autumnâ
You smiled as he really canât wait for the colder season even if that meant to see you more dressed and clothed he also loved to nuzzle with you in front of the fire.
âAgreedâ you said and he smiled proudly as you handed him the letter from your family and he sighed softly but proceeded to read it like you did with his.
He was way better at English, but mostly spoken English, he still hated to read and you picked books for him too even if he always puppy eyed you into reading for him.
He read quietly the letter as you ate some pie. He frowned lightly as he spelled out loud some words, sometimes he did it to learn the difference from a word that he knows and how it was written.
When you both drank your tea and he finally indulged into the local news he hushed you to get dressed âYou take the longest to get ready, Iâll clean upâ he said winking at you making you huff and roll your eyes playfully.
So you did, you went to wash yourself and braided your hair into an updo hairstyle, a light white dressy shirt and a long pleaded skirt for you as you also prepared the clothes for him.
As you redid your bed and he walked inside after clearing up the kitchen you couldnât help but adore him into his little routines, the way he shaved and got prepared, the way he wore the clothes you figured out for him with happy delight. He loved how you looked after him, he felt loved, the small attentions like that one put him at rest, he relaxed and he felt babied and he loved it.
He picked the case of his violin handing it to you using it to pull you closer and steal another kiss. You chuckled as he leaned in to kiss you again, and again, and once more.
âAndreaâ you whispered as he chuckled softly kissing you once again, he smelled so good, his skin soft and perfumed thanks to his aftershave oil.
How could you resist him?
âTwo minutesâ you whispered leaning back down the violin over your vanity to be able to wrap your arms around his neck letting out a soft yelp as he fell over you on the bed.
Useless to say that it wasnât two minutes and not even twenty, your trembling legs around him and the way you guided him to give you just what you wanted from him always drove him crazy.
After a short nap you really had to begin to get going, he helped you to dress up slowly zipping up your skirt and you had a new rush of pleasure just by buttoning up his shirt covering his chest peppered with hickeys.
You locked the house and he pulled out his black bike putting the violin box in the basket on the front along with your white one âI prefer when we go with oneâ he complained but you chuckled âyes, but if we buy few things we will have to go by walkingâ you made him notice and he sighed nodding.
He waited for you as you pedalled your way to the town centre, he was swaying in front of you and you raced a bit against each other until the stone bridge that welcomed you there.
âSee you at Ursulaâsâ you said and he nodded leaning in to kiss you one more time, he indulged into that kiss a littlest as he opened his eyes slowly, a smile playing over his lips.
âMy wifeâ he said, sometimes he repeated it like he had to remind himself. You chuckled as you kissed his cheek and you go parted.
You knew Ursula liked to pared Andrea off, you let her do it, she came with time to like you, she saw how much good you did to Andrea, how much balance you gave to him, his behaviour was stable, he settled down.
You stopped to the local grocery store taking up some spices, some cinnamon in particular as you knew how much Andrea loved it on sweets, few little cooking and baking items you missed and then off to the bookstore.
âHello helloâ you said as the old man there greeted you âThe books you ordered arrivedâ he said as he moved his shaky legs into the back of the shop bringing you the easy books in polish you ordered to practice some reading. You smiled looking at them as Andrea gave you the titles of books that made his youth and also few new ones for him. You added to that stock a new cooking book and few novels for Andrea and his English. The old man was the sweetest, he kept the booster open no matter the weather and politics and he always made sure to find anything you might be looking for.
He helped you tie all your buyings together onto the bike so after paying you just pushed it walking through the town, just enjoying a good time around giving yourself time until you made it to Ursulaâs home.
Well, you called Ursulaâs but Janet as always there even if her presence was always quieter you teamed up with her most of the time letting Ursula enjoy her time with Andrea.
You smiled stopping in your track as you heard the soft sound of the violin, you closed your eyes breathing in, like you could enjoy the music through the air.
You adjusted your dress and smiling to yourself, the moment sinking in slowly.
Your husband, your life, the idea of coming back home together, cuddle on the couch, listen to his words, having his honey eyes on you.
A natural smiled appeared on your lips.
After few moments you decided to keep going, you pulled your bike letting it rest against the fence, Janet appearing at the doorstep to welcome you in.
Your perfect day.
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chasing love - one
Genre: mafia!au, smut, arranged marriage
Warnings: blood, kidnaping, basically violence, smut
Word count: 3.2k
Pairing: mafia leader!changkyun x fem!reader
A/N: yes another mafia lmaoo, but this will definitely have more parts. actually i had this au written for a very long time in my drafts so i thought iâd post it.
You greeted all the new guests with a smile while looking for your parents, who were talking to other guests. You walked to them, hoping you wouldnât get interrupted by some auntie telling you how much youâve grown up, since the last time she saw you. By the time you reached them they were already bowing goodbye to the guest.
âDad the priest has arrived and Uncle Minho is asking for you.â You informed him and he nodded, leaving you alone with your mother.
Well actually not really mother. Your parents had passed away in a car accident, before you could even start collecting any memories with them and your biological fatherâs brother â your now father â adopted you and now you called them mom and dad. They were just like your actual family.
âYou look beautiful, y/n.â Your mother smiled and you smiled back while looking down on you. You were wearing a baby pink silk dress with some accessories and your hair was lying with wavy curls.
âThank you mom, but so do you. Still looking all young,â you said making her chuckle and playfully hit your arm.
âStop it, will you?â She rolled her eyes playfully. âCan you go to up to Mirae and help her a bit with the preparations, Iâll come get you two when itâs time.â She continued and you nodded, mumbling a âsureâ before walking up the stairs to the brideâs room.
You knocked twice before walking in with a big smile, but you were rather greeted with an empty room.
âMirae?â You said and silence answered you.
You opened the bathroom door but nothing. Where is she? You walked further into the big room and your face fell into a deep frown, when you saw Miraeâs wedding dress on the bed. You immediately walked to the bed and your eyes found a folded paper next to it.
No. No she canât do that. Not today.
With shaking hands you picked it up slowly opening it, scared of confirming your biggest nightmare.
Dear Mom and Dad,
Iâm sorry I havenât told you this before and Itâs probably too late to fix anything, but I canât marry Changkyun. I tried to force myself but the feelings arenât there anymore. I fell in love with someone else and, before I couldâve done something that couldâve hurt him more I decided to leave all this behind. Donât try to find me, Iâm happy.
~ Jeon Mirae
You stood there for a while, slowly letting your arms fall next to you, grasping the letter tightly. It took you a moment to realise what just happened, but when it did it came crashing down on you like a tsunami. You blinked a couple of times, still unsure what to do as anxiety started taking over you.
You opened the door, running through the hallways trying to find your parents as you placed a hand against your forehead, but before you reached the stairs you ran into a bigger figure making you stumble back. You looked up, your eyes meeting the ones, you wanted to see the least right now.
âY/n, Iâm sorry I didnât see you.â He apologized, his icy expression not leaving his face, as always.
You looked at him with widened eyes, still grasping onto that piece of paper. His eyes scanned your face and he tilted his face.
âWhy are you crying?â He suddenly asked, making you sniff. You were crying?
âIâŠâ you started still at a loss of words. âIs everything okay?â He asked, now frowning.
âMiraeâŠâ you said, getting his attention now. âWhatâs with Mirae? Is she okay?â He was clearly confused on whatâs going on.
You nervously looked around, going through a panic attack.
Youâve been walking on heels for years now, but suddenly you couldnât even stand on them. You needed to sit down with your wobbling leg. How will you tell him that?
âY/n what happened to Mirae,â he said again louder, stepping closer and you gulped, suddenly scared of him.
âMirae, she...is not in her r-room,â you choked out, hands shaking when you held up the letter. Changkyun looked at the letter then back to you before grabbing it as his eyes slid from left to right.
Slowly the letter slipped from his hands and landed on his neatly polished shoes. He stared into nothing, before coming back to his senses. You expected him to at least show some emotions, but he just stood there with a clenched jaw. His eyes met yours and you both looked at each other for a solid minute.
âShe did what?â Your father yelled out standing up, making the chair fall to the ground.
âWe canât cancel the wedding,â Changkyunâs father said, shaking his head. âWhat will the people say? They will look down on us.â He added.
âIâm so sorry Minho, If I had known she would do thatâŠâ he trailed off and your mother placed a hand on his shoulder.
Changkyun didnât say anything, while sitting on the couch. His cold eyes looked into nothing with his hand rubbing his jaw.
You sat on the bed still looking at her million dollar wedding dress. Their voices faded and your eyes went back to the letter and you sighed silently. When your name fell, you looked up confused on why you were relevant in this conversation.
âRight, why canât y/n marry him?â Changkyunâs father said.
âWhat?â You blurred out, instantly covering your mouth with your hand. âI mean...How can I do this? This is not my place,â you explained and your mother walked to you.
âY/n right now is not the time, please do us that one favor. Everyone is outside waiting.â Your mother spoke up and you looked over to Changkyun, but he didnât seem to care what was happening, blinking a couple of times you looked down. âPeople will look down on us y/n. What image will we bring across? They will take us a joke,â she added and you frowned, deeply in your thoughts.
âY/n, you wonât regret this decision, I promise you that,â Chanwoo, Changkyunâs brother said this time.
You looked up into the mirror and here you were in a wedding dress, that wasnât even yours, just like the place as Im Changkyunâs wife. Your heart pounded against your chest as your father walked with you to the hall. You liked Changkyun, maybe more than you were allowed to. You didnât know when those feelings took over your heart, since it was pretty obvious that your families would form an alliance of the clanâs, but the moment Changkyunâs family asked for Miraeâs hand in marriage, your heart broke into millions of pieces. You were honestly still hoping somewhere deep in your heart that it wouldâve been you. That it wouldâve been you he fell in love with, but who were you fooling? Mirae was always the prettier one out of you two, always the one everyone liked more. She had all the friends and the lovers. How could you even think you can compete against her? Of course he would choose her, of course he would choose a pretty, outgoing and loveable wife. All these years you pushed your feelings aside and now that youâve finally mastered hiding those feelings, youâre becoming his wife. You wanted him to be yours secretly for so long, but not like this. Not as a replacement of his actual love. Not as his last option.
âIâm so sorry,â your father spoke up, making you look at him. âYou donât deserve this y/n. Youâre not supposed to clean after your sister's mistake,â he continued clearly ashamed.
You stayed silent, not sure what exactly to say. âIf you donât want this, tell me now. I will manage something.â He seemed disappointed in himself.
You shook your head squeezing his arm. âAccepting someone else's daughter and actually treating her like your own kid is not easy. Despite Mirae being your real daughter you always treated us fairly, always making sure I have everything she had. I never felt like an orphan, thanks to you dad.â You smiled as he looked at you with teary eyes.
âYouâve never let me down, now itâs my turn.â You added and he pulled you into a hug.
âYouâre not an orphan and neither are you someone else's daughter,â he said after placing a kiss on your forehead. âYouâre my daughter. And after today my only daughter.â
You sighed giving your best holding your tears back so you wouldn't ruin the make up as a smile spread over your face.
âIâll make sure he treats you right, y/n.â Your father said and you nodded. âI know you will.â
If it wouldnât be for Changkyun holding your hand, they would be shaking like crazy and when he slid in the ring you almost scoffed. This wasnât supposed to be the finger the ring should be on, this shouldnât be the hand he should be holding, this shouldnât be your dress and this shouldnât be your husband, but now it was.
You looked around the big room. You were in here once, because of your sister Mirae, but now youâre here as Changkyunâs wife. A sigh left your lips and you leaned back against the headboard, closing your eyes.
So this is your life now?
It was still hard to believe but it was best for you to get used to this, since you would only hurt yourself. Your eyes shot open at the sound of the door opening and you instantly sat up at the sight of Changkyun walking in.
He walked to his dresser, taking off his watch and tie without looking back at you.
âChangkyun,â you started clearing your throat as you stood up from the bed.
âIâm sorry all this happened and I know that I wasnât supposed to be here today. This is not my place but it happened and I promise to not bother you at all.â
He turned around blankly staring at you and you gulped, clearly uncomfortable under his piercing gaze. You were about to speak up, but he suddenly walked into your direction making you stumble back, falling back on the bed.
âIs that all?â He asked and you shuddered at the harsch tone.
He grabbed your wrist, not as harsh as his tone, and pulled you with him to the door and the next thing you knew was him closing the door in front of your face. You stood there for a while, before you realized what just happened.
He threw out of his room.
You couldnât believe you were standing in front of your husband's room, after he just kicked you out. Tears started gathering at the corner of your eyes and all you wanted to do was fall to your knees and cry. You knew that you wouldnât get the love and affection from Changkyun as a husband, but if you knew that he would straight up throw you away like a piece of shit, you wouldâve definitely reconsidered this marriage. You wouldâve saved you from this hell. You couldn't spend the rest of your life like that, not with your own husband treating you like a complete stranger. The thought of living like that just brought more tears into your eyes. You wanted to go home, to your father. You wanted to go back to him. You donât want this life.
âY/n?â You suddenly heard someone call your name and you froze, scared to turn around and face whoever was standing there. You slowly turned around looking straight into Chanwoo's eyes.
âDo you need anything?â He asked confused as to why you were standing here in the hallway at almost midnight. You blinked a couple of times, panicking inside and thinking of a plausible answer.
âUh noâŠthank you,â you stuttered. He nodded slowly looking to Changkyuns door then you. âWhy are you not going in?â He asked with an raised eyebrow and you opened your mouth just to close it again, left with no answer.
âHe kicked you out didnât he?â He sighed and you looked away, clearly embarrassed at the fact that you got kicked out from your own husband.
âThat jerk,â he mumbled and started taking steps towards the door, but you immediately grabbed his arm. âNo please donât say anything to him,â you said and he frowned.
âY/n, he canât do this. Let me talk some sense into him,â he said and you shook your head. âChanwoo, please just...donât.â Your begging made him sigh again and he took a step back.
âWhy are you doing this?â he asked you after he walked you to the guest room.
You stayed silent not knowing the answer to his question either. Why were you doing this? Better said why was Changkyun doing this? Why does he hate you so much? Was it really your fault that your sister decided to run away? That you got talked into marrying him?
âHe doesnât deserve you,â he said, shaking his head. âIâm sorry you got into this situation.â His last words before he disappeared wishing you a good night.
You sat there for a while and before you knew the tears started running down your face.
You opened your eyes as you felt someone gently shake your shoulder. âMiss, good morning,â a woman smiled and you knew she was one of the workers here. You sat up and blinked the sleep away, before you realized you didnât have the chance to change, still sitting here in your wedding dress.
âBreakfast is ready in 30 minutes. Please freshen up, Iâll bring you your clothes.â She informed you and you nodded still in the process of waking up.
When she left you sighed and fell back into the bed. You barely got any sleep, all you did was cry and miss your parents. What were they doing right now?
After recalling last night you stood up and walked to your, well Changkyunâs room and thank god he wasnât there. You quickly got out of your dress straight to the shower and the moment the warm water hit your skin you closed your eyes. You felt your muscles relax, especially after yesterday where you slept in a dress in the most uncomfortable position. After a while you heard the door open and you remembered the worker telling you she will bring you your clothes.
âPlace my clothes on the island next to the bathtub, please.â You said, but when you heard Changkyuns voice you almost jumped out of your own skin.
âI donât have your clothes,â he said and you heard shuffling before he disappeared again and you thanked all the seven seas that your shower glass was dimmed due to the warm water. The moment the door closed you let out the breath you were holding in. Of course this would happen with your luck.
You slipped into your heels before walking down hesitantly, still ashamed of what happened back in the room. When you walked into the dining hall you saw an unfamiliar girl sitting next to Changkyun while pinching his cheeks.
âYouâre so skinny gosh, what are you guys feeding my poor baby brother?â She said playfully and you remembered Mirae telling you he has a sister, but she lives in the states due to work which meant she was rarely even here. Her eyes landed on you and she smiled.
âOh hey, arenât you Miraeâs sister y/n?â She asked and you nodded slowly. âUhm, yeah thatâs me.â Why was she mentioning her name?
Her next words felt like a slap into your face. âWhere is Mirae though?â She asked, still smiling and everyone fell silent. You didnât dare to move looking away to Changkyun, but he clenched his jaw. Chanwoo slapped her arm and she frowned.
âIâm sorry y/n, she just arrived and we didnât had the chance to tell her.â He explained and nodded to the seat next to Changkyun with a smile.
âJoin us.â
âDidnât tell me what?â She asked looking at her parents, but Chanwoo silently gave her a sign that he would explain everything once they were alone.
To say the least â the breakfast was awkward. Changkyun didnât even finish his food before he excused himself for work and honestly you didnât feel like eating at all, so you just had some fruit to not completely come off as rude.
The moment you walked upstairs you let out a sigh, happy that you had the most awkward moment behind you, but when you heard your name you looked up.
âIâm sorry for what I said in the dining hall. I didnât know all of this happened, I was just assuming you were here to visit Mirae.â Kyuhyun's sister carefully took a step closer. âIt was so insensitive of me to speak without thinking,â she scoffed and you shook your head.
âOh no, donât worry about that. You didnât know, since you just arrived today. Itâs fine,â you smiled at her and she took a deep breath. âOkay good, I was so scared that you might be upset.â She laughed. âOh and Iâm Gyuri.â
How weird is it that you were just now finding out your husband's sister's name. Mirae never really spoke much about her or the family at all. She was mainly focused on Changkyun, but here and there said something about his family. You knew his family too, exchanging a couple of words on galas and events, but more than the basics you werenât that informed about them. Especially Changkyun, he was always a mystery to you, with his secretive persona. You were always curious on how Changkyun was with Mirae, since he didnât seem to be a romantic and affectionate person, but she didnât really give you any details.
After Gyuri offered you to always talk to her when you needed something, you thanked her and headed back to your room. You closed the door behind you and leaned against it, but before you had the chance to drown in your thoughts your phone on the dresser started ringing, showing up your fathers contact.
âHey dad,â you said and for the first time after your wedding you smiled that genuine.
âOh wow someone is extra happy,â he chuckled at the other side of the phone.
âI missed you dad.â
âI missed you too y/n,â he said and you could hear the car engine in the back.
âAre you going somewhere?â You asked leaned against the dresser. âOh yeah Iâm on the way to a meeting, so I thought Iâll just quickly have a talk with you.â He explained and you nodded. âI see, but donât overwork,â you reminded him and he chuckled.
âYeah yeah donât worry. How is Changkyun?â
Your smile faded as you remembered everything that happened yesterday. âHe is good,â you said, but he sighed. âThatâs not what I mean, Iâm going to see him in that meeting anyways. How is Changkyung treating you y/n?â He asked more specifically and you bit down on your lower lip. âDonât worry dad he is good to me.â
Yeah youâre lying, but things will change and then it wonât be a lie...right?
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I Found My Light (Kakashi x Reader)
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2
A/n: Sound the alarms! Itâs my first ever writing post! Iâve had this written for a while tbh, and I feel like Iâm ready to start getting into this.
Summary: A late-night walk turns into a rekindled friendship.
Word Count: 2300
Warnings: fem!reader, SFW (but might not be later lol)
You opened your eyes for what seemed like the thousandth time tonight. Staring at the white ceiling, you sighed. Sleep seemed to evade you recently, a side effect of the recent dreariness of your life. You found yourself living the same days over and over again. Because of this, the line between day and night started to fade.
The moon was full tonight, you noticed as it shined brightly through your open window. It was the perfect temperature out, warm but chilly enough to feel comfortable wrapped in your blankets. You love listening to the occasional sounds that occurred outside, the noise of leaves rustling in the wind being your favorite.
Your gaze left the moon and landed back on your ceiling. Why is something as simple as sleeping so hard? Gods, all you wanted was an escape. With a huff, you pushed the covers off of you and sat up from your lying position. Trying to force yourself to sleep would do more harm than good right now.
You make your way to your dresser and pull out your favorite pair of black joggers. You love them because they are tight on your ankles, loose on your legs, and have a cinched band at the waist. They are perfect for any lazy day. You slip them on over your underwear, you never go to bed with pants on, and exchange your sleep shirt for a cropped black hoodie made from the same soft, elastic material as your pants.
You turn to face your large standing mirror in the corner of the room to assess your appearance. The all-black look was your favorite, especially since it will help you blend into the night. Your hair was a mess, so you decided to put it up in a loose bun on the top of your head and pull out some strands to frame your face. It felt good to not look so polished and put together. Your jonin uniform was not the most comfortable piece of clothing, especially with the way it hit your figure.
You walked out of your bedroom and across the kitchen to the front door of your apartment. One foot after the other, you slide into your sandals and grab the key to your apartment hanging on the hook next to you. With that, you leave your apartment and head out into the night.
You walked the streets of Konoha at a gingerly pace. It was probably around 3 a.m. at this point, and there wasnât a single soul on the street with you. You make your way past the line of shops on the main street, including your favorite bakery where you'd treat yourself to a lemon square after coming back from a long mission. You thought about that lemon square a lot when you were out risking your life, embarrassingly enough.
A couple of turns later and you found yourself heading towards your favorite place in all of Konoha, a little area of woods towards the perimeter that contained this amazing koi pond. Although it was nighttime and the fish wouldnât be as active, you still want to check to see if you can watch any. To your surprise, your favorite koi, who you nicknamed âNishi'', was out and swimming around by himself. You sit criss-cross in the grass and watch as he glides through the calm water, almost putting you in trance. Nishi didnât look or act like the others; He was black with white, almost silver-looking spots and he was less frantic in nature. You sway from side to side as you watch him, thinking to yourself about how you would like to be more like Nishi.
âYou look cute watching the koi.â You heard a soft, yet unwavering voice declare behind you.
âHoly sh-â You almost jump out of your pants at the unexpected presence. Surprised, you quickly turn your head around to see whoâs voice that could possibly be. To your disbelief, there lies a figure perched up by a tree a couple yards away from you. Their feet were crossed, legs extended, one hand in the pocket of their pants, the other holding up what looks like a copy of Icha-Icha, head turned towards you, and wild hair moving with each passing breeze. How did I not notice him?
âOh Iâm sorry (y/n), I didnât mean to startle you. I figured you knew I was here because you walked right past me.â He brought his hand up to scratch the back of his head and let out a small chuckle. âGuess I should have made my presence known right away.â
Still in disbelief, you get up and slowly make your way towards the figure, stepping into the shadow of the tree to see him more clearly. As you approached you immediately recognized the silver-haired jonin.
âKakashi?â You say confused. âWhat are you doing out here? Itâs late.â
âI could ask you the same thing.â He states, closing his book and setting it down next to him on the grass. He looked different. He looked⊠quite hot actually. The jonin uniform you usually saw him in was traded for a pair of comfortable-looking grey sweatpants and a tight, black tank top that connected to his mask. He wasnât wearing his headband either, just keeping his left sharingan eye shut in a permanent wink. As you observed him, you couldnât help but notice that he was doing the same to you.
âI suppose you're right.â You smirk and let out a small chuckle. âI couldnât sleep so I figured that if I was up I should take a walk around the village to clear my head. This is my favorite spot, so I guess I just naturally ended up here.â You exclaimed, still standing in front of him.
âIt looks like you and I are having the same issue,â he states plainly, âI came out here a little while ago after tossing in my bed for an hour. I hate trying to force myself to sleep; Itâs a battle I never seem to win.â His eyes averted your gaze and moved to his now empty hands in his lap. You couldnât help but notice a hint of pain in his voice and it tugged at your heartstrings.
You know about the things Kakashi has been through, as it was pretty common knowledge to all jonin in your mutual age group. You were pretty close with his friends, Gai, Kurenai, and Asuma, but Kakashi always seemed to keep everyone at an armâs length. He also was an Anbu for ten years, which didnât help the disconnect either. Fortunately, he was relieved from his Anbu position a couple weeks ago, and gradually you have been seeing him a bit more here and there. Though, this is the first time you are able to have a conversation with him in what seems like forever.
âWell,â you sighed, âI guess we have lost the battle together. We must be pretty shitty jonin.â You stated flatly.
Kakashi squinted his eyes and you both laughed. You couldnât help but take a mental picture of his face at this moment. You really enjoy seeing him happy, as it makes you happy too.
You canât kid yourself, having a chance to talk with Kakashi alone feels like such a treat. Little genin (y/n) would be ecstatic right now. Of course you had a crush on him back then, who didnât?
âYouâve always had a natural talent for connecting with people,â Kakashi mused, âI havenât talked to you since we were teenagers, and here I am laughing with you like weâre long-time friends.â
You could feel your eyebrows furrow at that statement. Yeah sure, you werenât at his apartment every week for Sunday brunch, but you did have a history.
âKakashi,â you started, âYou are my long-time friend. Just because we drifted apart doesnât mean I donât care about you. To be honest, I was relieved when I found out you were no longer going to be a member of the Anbu. It wasnât good for you.â You stepped closer and sat down next to him, leaning back on the tree stump. The grass felt cool under you, sending a small shiver up your body.
âI suppose youâre right,â Kakashi stated, quoting your words from earlier. âIt amazes me that none of you gave up on me. I feel like I am undeserving of everyoneâs effort.â You were baffled by his honesty; Kakashi wasnât known to be much of an open book. It upsets you so much that he feels this way as you couldnât imagine not caring about him or any of your other comrades in the village. The faces of your closest friends flashed through your mind and you grimaced at the thought of losing them.
Not knowing if you should, you felt compelled to reach over and hold Kakashiâs hand in yours. It's cold compared to the warmth spreading from your fingertips. Hmm, I wonder how long he has been out here. Giving his hand a small squeeze, you look at him in his onyx eye. âTrust me, Kakashi. You are deserving. You are deserving of a great life and people who care about you. I know the world may seem dark, but I promise that a light is always glowing. No matter how small or dim, itâs there.â
You stare at each other in silence for a moment before he changes the position of his hand and intertwines his fingers in yours. The change was small, but it ignites a feeling in your stomach you couldnât describe. Slowly, you felt your cheeks flush and you turned your face to look towards the sky in hopes he wouldnât notice. You knew this action was him telling you that he accepts your words, and thanks you for them.
You spent the next hour sitting under the tree together, you looking up at the stars and him looking at you. Your intertwined hands fell between your bodies, resting on the cool grass. You felt him start to graze the back of your hand with his thumb, sending a tingling sensation up your arm. It felt so good to be touched by him, even in such an innocent manner.
A strong breeze ran through the air and hit you suddenly. You began to shiver at the quick change in temperature, realizing that you should have dressed warmer if you were going to be out this long. Yet, you couldnât have anticipated the situation you are currently in.
âAre you cold?â Kakashi questioned with a hint of concern.
âYeah a little bit,â you answered honestly, âbut I donât want to go back home. Iâm not really tired yet.â Truthfully, you didnât want this little moment of shared bliss to end. You started to feel like you found your escape, and you refused to be torn away from it so soon.
âNeither do I,â he confessed, âCome here.â He released his hand from yours and slid his position higher up on the side of the tree. He then spread his legs and patted the ground in between, inviting you to sit.
You felt your face get hot again, as the position he was offering you was a very intimate gesture. There was absolutely no way you could refuse his offer. One, because you were freezing and, two, young (y/n) would never forgive you.
You got up and sat down carefully between his thighs, leaning until your back met his chest. He then wrapped both of his arms around you, one around your shoulders and the other around your waist with his hand resting on your stomach. The outsides of your legs met the insides of his and you felt an immediate warmth there. Lastly, your head tilted back and rested upon his left shoulder, with his face nuzzled against your temple. You both fit together like two pieces of a puzzle, no part of you feeling any discomfort against his strong body. Engulfed in his smell and warmth, for the first time in a while you felt completely relaxed.
âThank you, Kakashi.â You looked up at him with a warm smile.
âAnytime.â He breathed, voice muffled by your hair. You wondered if he truly meant that. I mean, after all, this is the first time you have interacted in a while. Yet, the connection you felt towards him was unquestionable.
Does he feel the way I feel?
âHey,â you began, âare you tired at all?â
He flexed his arms and held you closer to his chest. âNot really,â he answered, âIâm enjoying this moment too much to be tired.â You smiled, and there was a pause.
âIsnât this odd?â you questioned again.
âWhat? You and I snuggled under a tree in a random corner of the village alone at 4 a.m. after we havenât interacted with each other in years?â he questioned sarcastically, âNot at all.â
âKakashi!,â you laughed, gently nudging your elbow into his ribs as he laughed along with you.
âYeah itâs a little odd,â he answered honestly, âbut Iâm not going to question it. I found my light, and now Iâm enjoying it.â He nuzzled his face into your hair and breathed deeply.
Completely and utterly relaxed, you let yourself succumb to the heaviness of your eyelids. Truthfully, this has felt like the longest day in the world and you are happy to end it this way. The sound of Kakashiâs breathing and the rise and fall of his chest acted as your personal sleep machine. Itâs priceless.
Before you completely drift off, you swear you could feel the soft, pillowiness of Kakashiâs lips graze the skin of your temple, a soft hum escaping from them.
âGoodnight, (y/n)â
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Queue Hilary Duffâs âWhat Dreams Are Made Ofâ. This kind of feels like the beginning of something. Should I continue? Idk if my writing is even good. If you read this, PLEASE let me know if you have any feedback. Again, this is my first story and I would greatly appreciate any feedback, advice, suggestions, etc.! I canât believe Iâm uploading, ah! - Klara
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Wish upon - Bucky Barnes x Reader
Title: Wish upon
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader
Warnings: None
Summary: You were close when Wandaâs grief took over and she inevitably started controling an entire town, including you. Being her closest friend, though, instead of simply playing along, you were given a normal life of your own, with a daughter and husband whom you knew very well but never thought you had feelings for. Months later as you try to figure out your emotions for Bucky, the man seems to be trying to find every reason to stay close to you. Including asking you to join him when heâs ready to follow Sam in his adventures.
âIs that... Is that what I think it is?â you blinked several times, head tilted as you took in the object your husband was, full of pride you could clearly tell, holding and showing off to you.
âYou bet it is. Polished, glittered or bedazzled, I can never tell the difference it's equally sparkly anyway, but above all ready to deliver justice. It's finally finished. Right on time at that.â he set the small pink and sparkly shield on the kitchen counter, right next to the baby bottle you'd just filled, because he knew just as well as you did that it was honestly the only way you'd keep looking at the toy and hoped that you'd like it. Which you did, sure, but not in the way Bucky hoped. âWell, what do you say about it?â
âI say that it would certainly deliver justice, no doubt by dazzling the bad guys first and foremost. Besides-â you tore your eyes away from the toy to narrow them at your husband âJust on time for what?â
âHalloween, of course.â he shrugged casually as he slowly made to reach for a piece of the potatoes you'd cooked to have on the side for dinner, but you noticed him and slapped his hand away, earning a not-so-innocent smile in return âI mean... What else is there else to talk about, of significance, in a small town like Westview besides holidays and who the new otherworldly couples in town are. The second having little to no point when one's wife can read minds, amongst so many other things, and said one is a metal-armed 106-year-old.â he sighed, raising his metal arm which he usually kept covered when outside âHonestly, I don't know who're gonna get called out on it first. Wanda and Vision or us.â
âWe're handling it great. Besides, oh well a 15 year old gap is so overrated anyway. I tell you, 106 is the new 30, don't you worry a second, dear. You don't look a day over that.â you smiled sweetly, leaning in to peck his lips as he grinned.
âAh yes, coming from the woman who last time we fought you told me that it's time to stop mourning over my buddy Rexi the dinosaur cause they're all gone now.â he said with a raised eyebrow and you shrugged.
âI don't see what you mean, I was still right.â you brushed him off, checking once more the temperature of the milk âBesides, getting off track here? You still haven't explained to me how that lovely and sparkly shield is of any use to us in Halloween?â
âWell, not us, obviously.â he turned to, according to everyone including him, his little princess âJean of course!â he picked one of her hands and let her tiny fingers wrap around one of his as she let a giggle when he kissed her belly âIt's all you've been talking about with Wanda these days. Her boys have their suits already in mind, it wouldn't be right for Jean to not have hers. It's her first Halloween anyway, even if she can't do any proper trick or treat yet.â
âI'm well aware of that, seeing as I've been planning all of ours suits. And no-â you raised a finger when you saw him raise an interested eyebrow âNo, I'm not wearing the skirt version of it. Besides, what we're talking about here is Jean and I still fail to see how a shield will be any part of our little Phoenix's suit.â
âWell, because it's Halloween and she's- Well, she's part of this and she'll- The shield is part of the suit, honey. Obviously. I don't see what confuses you so much as to-â
âAnd I don't see what confuses you so much that you'd make a shield for her, beautiful as it might be, even though it has no place in all of it. Especially after I made it quiet clear on what costume will be.â you pointed out, baby bottle back on the counter as you crossed your arms over your chest âHonestly, I would rather her have a sparkly version of Sam's redwing before incorporating the shield in her phoenix look.â
He let silence fill the room, save for your daughter's adorable baby noises, before he finally spoke in all seriousness âNo, no you wouldn't. You hate that thing too... It was the main reason that made me ask the question, like when you realize you've met your soulmate.â
âI-â only half a pause before you nodded âYeah, you're right. I hate it... although I can't really remember how it looks like sometimes to be honest. Huh weird.â you let out a breathless laugh, frowning nonetheless.
âOh how I'd wish for that sort of blessing.â he huffed âIncluding its owner.â
âHush you love him!â you hit his shoulder âAnd, well, that's still all besides the point. Because Jean is not going to have a redwing or shield to her phoenix look in any sort of way. Maybe next Halloween if you wanna choose the costume, fine by me. But this year I am following through with my plans and not changing my mind.â
âPlans of what? Her being a phoenix bird? I get it, it's all magical and what not but-â
âNot just any phoenix bird, geez weez, do you not even listen when I speak, Mr Barnes?â you shook your head with a roll of your eyes.
âWell, sometimes it gets impossibly hard when you look as stunning as today, Mrs Barnes. Sadly all words fade away and as I am captured by your beauty all I can seem to hear is kiss me. How can I not comply?â he said so innocently and with such an adorable smile you couldn't help your fond one in return.
Seeing such adoration and love written all over your face had your heart on overdrive again, as if it was the first time you realized you were in love with him again. It was incredible how you could barely remember that moment whenever you thought about it, however you didn't care. You couldn't find yourself to care when looking at him had your chest fill with warmth, a pleasant buzz all over your body and no weight dragging you down. He made things more simple, having his love and having him by his side made life have meaning and your future full of hope. It hadn't been easy, that much in a way you could remember, but you knew it was worth it because he was worth it. You wanted to give him all your love, wishing that it could live up to the one in his eyes for you in return, so that he could understand what you did from the first moment you met him: he deserved it.
And even if- you couldn't explain why you thought so, but even if there were ever people that would willingly leave him behind, even if you'd never understand that, you were ready to show to him that you could and would be with him till the end of the line. This love you had in you for him had sealed the deal long before you even knew about it.
If anything, you were more than willing to live in this small town, heavens in these four walls of your house, so long as you had him by your side and were able to give him all the love you didn't know you had for him.
You shook your head lightly and gave him âSweet talking me will get you nowhere, darling. Or rather-â you paused, smirking at him âIt might get you in one place. The bedroom.â you grinned when you saw his eyebrows raise in interest âTo get Jean's suit. Cause I remember I have some adjustments to make.â
âBet you do.â he huffed like a little child âCause she'll be a bird and not a superhero who-â
âNot just a phoenix bird, Buck. The phoenix, that's different.â you pointed out, making him frown.
âHow is that different? And what... is the phoenix?â
âWell, it's-â you started but paused abruptly, frowning at your own thoughts âIt's actually-â you blinked several time and let out a nervous laugh âFunny thing, I... can't remember. Wow that's... it happens all the more often lately.â
âCan't be important then, right?â he brushed it off casually even though you kept frowning in deep thought which for some reason didn't lead anywhere âCertainly no more than Jean's suit that it... And how we could incorporate a shiel-â
âNo.â you cut him off before he could get to complete his sentence âNot gonna happen. I've already got everything planned, you're not going to ruin my plans.â
âIs this how it's gonna go every Halloween now? Us fighting over what Jean's costume will be until she's old enough to choose herself?â
âOh dear, of course not. It's not fighting when you don't stand a chance against me in the first place.â you shrugged innocently and he tried to look stern by narrowing his eyes at you but you smiled and pecked his lips before speaking âI mean, you could never say no to these pretty eyes, could you?â you batted your eyes at him and he very fast, much faster than last time, sighed in defeat and nodded his head âBesides, you don't have to worry. Next Halloween we'll make her a costume that incorporates the shield too, happy?â
âAlways.â he breathed out with such ease that it took a few seconds for you to not openly stare at just how much relaxed he looked, how he truly meant it and how shockingly different he looked while admitting it compared to only a few months ago... months, you weren't sure of the time anymore but truth was that you didn't care, because if there was one thing you could remember was that he had not always been like this and to have him truly happy made everything worth it.
âHowever-â he cleared his throat, as if noticing how you'd zoned out âThat doesn't really solve the problem. Having to compromise, you know. Why should any of us have to? However, if we were to have more than one option...â he trailed off, leaning in closer without any regard for your personal space, not that he needed to, as you narrowed your eyes suspiciously at him âSay... if we were to have more than one options then things wouldn't be this hard, right? Just... to make it easier on ourselves?â
âMake it easier... how exactly?â
His hands found your hips, earning a small giggle from you as he pecked your neck once, twice and three times before he kissed your cheek and the temple, whispering in the end âLet's make more.â it earned a squeal from your as your eyes widened but he grinned even more widely âCome on, think about it. A little boy or maybe another baby girl, Jean would make a great sister. And we wouldn't have to argue about the Halloween costumes. Besides... would be a fun process either way.â
âYou have to be kidding me.â you gave him a serious expression but his hopeful smile- no, scratch that. His smile that was bordering that of an idiot, if not lovesick one (but you were on the same boat on that), didn't fade in the least bit âOh you have to- Alright, Mr Barnes, how about you learn how to feed your daughter without making a mess first and then you can come and talk to me about a second or third one hm? Cause, good as you might be at changing diapers, it ain't just that.â
âShe just makes a mess because she enjoys to laugh at my expense, just like you and Sam.â he pointed out and you fought back a smile âAnd- Hold up a second... did you just say third? You think you're gonna let me ask for a third one too?â
Your eyes widened when you realized that he was really considering the prospect before your lips parted, you being ready to retort-
Only for no words to be uttered after that from your lips. The only sound being a deep intake of air as you were startled awake. Soon followed by a groan as you took in your surroundings and realized you were sadly still in your room. Sadly? Really? You didn't know if that was the case but even if it was, you didn't want to think even more about it. You buried your face in your pillow, not ready to face the day yet because... who were you even kidding? You wanted to go back to it. If not that fake reality, if not the playhouse that Wanda had built out of her grief and had dragged you into it as well - and maybe you hated yourself for how part of you did want that - then at least your dream would be nice.
It's been months and yet it feels as if it's been just yesterday that you were all released from her control. How could you not feel that way after all? When you were awake, the fake reality you'd thought your life was constantly on your mind, and when you were asleep even if you were not thinking of it, you were dreaming about it. It was constantly on your mind. And as if the experience itself, mind-control and all, hadn't left you with a few mental scares to add to your already existing ones to take care of, then the realization of the truth that lay within your own heart, was more than enough to keep the events replaying on your mind day and night.
To put matters simply: when you had followed your best friend, Wanda, after seeing her so distraught, leaving SWORD, you had never thought you'd find yourself playing house with a fake copy of one and only James Bucky Barnes thanks to said best friend. But while there was a chance for that, you never thought there was a chance that you'd realize you had feelings for the man all along.
Your life had been different there. Maybe because you were always close with the other Avenger, who knew. While there were times where you'd experience Wanda's grief, her nightmares from time to time came to haunt you at night just like it did with the rest of the town, your life was mostly... good. No, forget that, your life was nearly perfect. You had everything you wished for and things you didn't even know you had wished for. Maybe deep down you had always wanted it, a normal life, peace and calm, a kid whether it was yours or not... Bucky. You had probably always wanted him but didn't know it yourself, no doubt you were too busy crushing over Steve.
If only your current self could see your past self, or at least self of barely a year ago, you'd have smacked some sense into your stupid self who thought Steve Rogers was the only man you could ever have eyes for. While you had come to be very close with the Captain and ended up doing almost everything together, everyone thought there was much more to the two of you, that it hadn't even occurred to you to think that Steve wasn't really the one you wanted. Maybe you had convinced yourself so, in a way that now that he was no longer there you were more shaken by the fact that you were not shaken by how he had decided to live his life with Peggy in the past than his absence itself.
You had not felt any sort of betrayal, nor that you were suddenly all alone, certainly not as if anything was missing from your life. Granted, you had plenty to think about most of the time, day and night, but that didn't change things. You wished Steve had had a happy ending and you would on the occasion miss him the way you'd miss... a brother. You were always calm, no worries or fears, content with the fact that you knew he had been happy even if it was away from you because, in a way, you wanted it to be that way, it was natural. However, the mere thought of someone else leaving, someone that you thought far too often about, made your heart leap to your throat and your stomach tie in knots. The mere thought that Bucky could leave the way Steve had done made your throat close in a painful way and your eyes burn with tears, making you realize just who mattered the most.
If, again, Wanda plucking the truth about your feelings for the man to give you a life with him wasn't proof enough.
Your phone buzzing made you jump once more, eyes landing on the device on the nightstand. Reaching for it you were not surprised to see the messages that were pilled in your inbox. All from the same specific someone. A specific someone you had found yourself speaking with all the more often lately. Each time successfully managing to make you smile in one way or another, without fail.
Good morning. :)
Did I use that one correctly? I keep forgetting them, no matter how many times you show me.
And show him you had, just like that there was an option for him to choose from different ones instead of having to type them, but that was still work in progress. So even if Bucky learning emojis was a memory that you'd cherish forever, it wasn't the only important one at the moment.
On second thought, it's a bit too early.
You're probably still asleep. Nevermind. Sorry for bothering you.
And then more, shortly afterwards.
I only wanted to know if you're alright, that's all.
Anyway, hope I didn't wake you up.
He, much like everyone else, thought it was hard on you to deal with Steve being gone so he did his best to keep in touch and being as selfish as you were, you didn't bring yourself to tell him the truth that you cared more to know about how he was and wanted the contact for that. Maybe he was also worried about you after Wanda's mind-control too. But if Sam's words were anything to go by, then it was all an excuse for Bucky to stay close with you. You didn't let your hopes get up for that reason though. You could gladly take whatever you got without wondering.
Again it was followed not much later by another message.
I've actually got something to talk to you about. Something happened, though you could already know if you saw the news. Can I come over to talk with you? I need your opinion on the matter.
And shortly afterwards came.
I've already got your favorite breakfast. To make up for, probably, waking you up. :)
The next one had taken longer, he had probably been waiting for an answer all that time. You couldn't help but feel bad about it. That and the fact that the reason behind you not replying earlier was because of how immensed you were in your fantasy life with him that you had not told him a thing about.
(Y/n)... are you sure you're alright? It's getting late even for you.
Truth was you had more trouble waking up after having a dream of that time. But you couldn't tell him that. And then there was the latest one.
Alright, I'm coming over. I really hope you're not dead in there. I'm not going to let you hear the end of it if you are. Oh dear, I sound like Sam right now. Forget I ever said that. Both of it.
Before you even had the time to think about what he could mean, because no you had really not seen the news yet, let alone type back a reply, the door to your bedroom burst open. It earned a squeal from you as you looked with wide eyes at Bucky standing on the doorway. You weren't even surprised how you hadn't heard him, not when he already had keys to your apartment and could easily sneak up on you. Not that him surprising you was what you cared about at the moment. It was, and you could only admit it to yourself, more important how you looked at the moment â and having just woken up you weren't sure just how attractive you looked â than anything else. Especially when Bucky looked better than ever with that new haircut that you were sure he'd gotten on purpose, just to test how much your heart could take.
âI thought doors existed back in your days, Barnes. Maybe knocking was an option too.â
You saw him let out a sigh of relief, shoulders relaxing âWhat would have been the point if you were dead? You wouldn't have replied anyway.â
âBold of you to assume I would miss on another chance to lecture you about the proper use of emojis, Mr Barnes. Even death could not stop me.â you broke into a grin and he chuckled.
âWhat, did I really mess it up?â he asked with a small, far too adorable for your own good, frown.
âOh no you got it just right.â you said softly, adoring the proud look on his face before you added âHowever, I've told you, you don't have to type them anymore. There is an option on your keyboard with that kind of stuff for you to-â
âEh alright, alright I get it. I suck at it. I'm not even gonna try using them anymore.â
âWha- No!â you whined softly âNo, Buck, I didn't mean that. Come on, you're good. You just... have a lot to learn still.â you shrugged âThat's all. We didn't do great at first either. Nobody really got emojis a first, but you'll get the hang of it.â
âBut you still think I am a grandpa when it comes to technology. And my age doesn't help on that case either.â he shrugged, as if he meant it casually as a joke but you could see a small hint of self-consciousness there as well.
âNonsense.â you said softly, finally throwing the blankets off you âYou're far from a grandpa, Buck. In fact, I strongly believe that 106 is the new 30, and you don't look a day over that.â the words were out of your lips before you could even think about it and when you realized what you'd said, your smile flattered a bit. You were glad his back was turned to on that second that he didn't notice. You cleared your throat, sobering up âBesides, new things are not everyone's cup of tea anyway.â
âUh yeah...â you notice the relaxed, and almost happy, look fade away from his face as his eyebrows pulled back into a frown. He looked down for a second, leaning against the doorframe with his hands in his pockets âThings do change. Sometimes faster than we can adapt to the new world around us.â
âAlright, unless you're channeling Charles Darwin right now, which I don't think you are, care to explain to me what's wrong? Because... I am guessing something is, judging by your expression.â you got up and approached âIs this... about the shield? I- I don't know if Sam giving it up is that much of a good choice however... he must have his reasons, right?â
âWell, yes, but- this is not just about that.â he sighed, finally looking up to meet your eyes âSomething happened and I've been thinking about it, I wanted your opinion on it. You know it matters to me.â
â...And? There is more to that, come on. Tell me.â you knew him too well and you hadn't even realized when that happened too âYou know you can... Always.â
âI do.â he paused for a moment, holding your gaze before he let a soft sigh âIt's just, I am going to go find Sam and... I want you to come with me. If you're up for it, I would like you to be there with me... maybe?â
âYou know... I should punch you just for doubting whether I'd follow you or not. But just because it won't lead anywhere for me-â you smirked at him âBuy me dinner too and consider yourself excused and me up for any challenge. Strongest Avenger at your disposal, Mr Barnes.â you patted his shoulder, enjoying the deep chuckle that came from him. Even if his next words made the air get caught in your throat.
âIt's a date then.â
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MK-S: Another set of Candeloro role play journal entries!
Feb 20: It is done. Through much of our financial offerings and to reward our patience, Those That Breath Of Poison Mist have completed their cruel work. As needed necessary as the deed was, I cannot help but feel some form of pity for the Rat King and his followers; Vile beings they were, yet I cannot help but feel that even they deserved to die in battle, rather than the fate of clawing at their throats as the air they breathed turned foul and treacherous (Oh, I like how that line turned out. Air âturned foul and treacherousâ, much cooler than just âthe poisoned air/mistâ.) Perhaps it is just my honor as a [Warrior? Adventurer? Explorer?] (Is explorer honor even a thing? I donât think I ever selected an actual backstory for this. Note to self: Determine that later.) But alas, there was no choice. I was but one Warri (I just did this literally a sentence ago. Iâm going to have to stop putting that off and make some sort of dictionary glossary of terms that I can reference.) against a legion, and to lose one battle is to lose the war itself. (Yeah, electrical fire would definitely win in a fight against the house. And despite being a mermaid, I donât think Oktavia has any water summoning powers. Itâs funny, for all the magic everyone here has, none of us actually have the ability/magic-power to readily handle a house fireâŠheck, weâre more likely to start one. Iâd say Ophelia is more likely given her flaming head, but Iâve seen Oktavia have some careless moments every now and again, and honestly, Iâve done some careless stuff toâŠwhere was I again? âŠOh yeah, showing honor towards fallen foes.) I had hoped for an honorable duel against this vile villain. But now? Now he is just another body, indistinguishable amongst the rest of the dead. (Not looking forward to the cleanup of dead rats, but it has to be done.)
Feb 28: A stranger arrived to our land today. Save for her headpiece, she was dressed as any of us might. She came with claims of distant ancestors who once called our lands home. The strangerâŠalright, Iâm going to break character for a moment, so I can just get this all written down first.
We had an unexpected guest drop by today: Another Domesticated Witch. And since Iâm still waiting for the walls to not be toxic, and Iâve been itching to write again, I figured I might as well let this double as a journal/diary. Her name was Klarissa; yeah, just like some of Oktaviaâs familiars. (I wonder if Witch/Familiar Names, wherever they come from, come from a finite source. If not, then thatâs still a fun coincidence.) Oh! I can work that in! Her being some sort of foreign ruler from the land Oktaviaâs familiars come fromâŠideaâs really rough, and needs some serious polish/rewriting, but I wanted to jot it down before I forgot.
She didnât have a last name though, which is unfortunate for her. She seemed really uncomfortable when Oktavia asked for her last name; I think our lovable mermaid forgets how fortunate she is that her Witch Name came with one. At least I think she can relate to Klarissaâs old name issues; from her expression, Iâd guess that she ended up with a similar aversion to her old name. Iâm guess Iâm lucky that âMami Tomoeâ doesnât give me an identity crisis. (Or maybe Oktaviaâs unlucky? I guess it depends on what the average Domestic Witch goes through; weâre still only in the double digits for saved girls, so I donât think thatâs a large enough sample size to know if old name aversion and negative reactions are common or a rarity)âŠI got sidetracked again.
Anyway, long story short, Klarissa took an impromptu trip expecting to find family, but apparently weâve since bought and moved into their old home. Took her a moment to get the idea, had to explain there was no âAnthonyâ here. (No idea how she was going to explain the name change to him if she found him here. She gave me a funny look when I brought that up. Guess she never really gave it any thought.) Weâve offered to let her stay a night or two in the guest room. If we werenât all witches and magical girls, Iâd say that would be a really dumb idea, letting a complete stranger into our home. Thankfully, it seems my thoughts are just falling soundly into motherâs paranoia, and not justifiable suspicion. (If she tries to hurt Nagisa or Yuma in our sleep though, I will kill her without question, hesitation, or mercyâŠwow, being a witch and a mother really does change your outlook on certain things.)
Now, how can I incorporate her visit into this story? I did hear part of a conversation when I walked by the guest room. Couldnât hear the other end, and it almost sounded like a one-sided conversation with someone named âPhilâ. Iâm just glad this girl has a friend somewhere; being a witch with no one at all would probably be horrifying. I digress. Anyway, what to name her in this? HmmâŠwell, I call Oktavia âLady Seckendorffâ, so I guess I can use âLady Klarissaâ for-
Had to leave and lost my train of though. There was a loud noise from the walls. Better not be a surviving rat, we just paid good money to have those things killed. And I donât want our guest to know we had a rat problem, or that I delayed an exterminator to role play while killing them (wow, thatâs a bit messed up when I write it like thatâŠand yet I donât mindâŠheh.) Klarissa was surprised/woken and kept asking where her hat went, but I sent her back to bed and told her weâll find it in the morning. Speaking of, Iâm off to bed myself.
March 1: Found Klarissaâs hat; for some reason, it was covering the wall hole I used to get in. Guess someone thought it a good idea to cover up the hole. Or maybe her hat walked over and was poking around in it. Saw some sort of tendril/tentacle thing retract from the hole and into the hat really fast when I picked it up. Turns out âPhilâ is some sort of Familiar of hers that she keeps in her hat. Itâs like a pocket dimension, similar to Homuraâs shield, or something like that. She wouldnât elaborate much, (as if a Familiar is more complicated than being a Familiar) though she did say sheâd like to come back to visit in a few months. She also apologized in advance if Phil did anything funny to the walls as some sort of âgiftâ. (I didnât say anything, but it might have just been eating rat corpses. Hereâs hoping; that would save me a cleanup. No idea what a familiar could leave as a âgiftâ.)
Iâll be going into the wall again tomorrow so I can finally get back into character. Still going to use âLady Klarissaâ as a char-
Again with the wall noise. Yeah, Iâm checking that spot first thing in the morning. I think I decided on making maps while checking for more chewed up wires. Not as dramatic as hunting down the scourge of the Rat King, but beggars canât be choosers. Well, off to bed tonight for the adventure tomorrow!
March 2: What in the actual fuck?!?
March 5: Wow, was that really all I wrote three days ago? Yikes, I even swore. I never swear. Let me just strike that out. Yeah, I have no idea what Klarissaâs Phil familiar-thing did, but yesterday was impossible. Literally impossible. I was going over to where I heard the banging sound inside the wall the other day, go straight, take the left because itâs the only turn possibleâŠ
This time there was a right path too.
Let me emphasize that; there was an interior to a wall, where there was NO WALL! I even got Nagisa to feed me a set of tape measures taped together to check; thereâs at least a full 20 meters of wall that DOES NOT EXIST in this house! This isnât even some type of Labyrinth thing, it just defies the laws of physics in every way I can imagine.
March 6: Nagisa and Yuma asked me when the next âAdventurerâs Journalâ would be. (Guess thatâs what their calling it, but I reserve the right to figure out my job title myself at a later date.) I told them Iâm not quite sure with the new interior wall defying space-time. (Honestly our house is probably now worth a fortune to physicists. Ah, who am I kidding, it would totally be confiscated for government research. Can you imagine the weapons that could be developedâŠ(okay I wrote that as a joke, but then I realized it could be used to make actual bottomless magazines, and that was too entertaining to not write down.)
They both made it clear they care more about my safety than my stories (God bless my girls, they are so sweet!) but they did bring up a good point: I truly do have something I can explore now. A region I can properly map out. Iâd need to make some road signs so I donât get lostâŠ
Actually, the more I think about it, the more Iâm starting to come around to the notion that this might be a âgiftâ after allâŠ
Well, âThe Gapâ seems to have expanded, and by decree of the House of Tomoe, I, Candeloro, shall undertake this task personally. (Oh, it feels so good to get back into character!)
MK-S: Weâll, I hope you enjoyed that set of Candeloro journal entries: she had to break character for quite a bit of it, but this was more or less just background setup for Klarissaâs visit, for the narrative purpose of Phil making a cool setting for these journal entries.
I have fun when writing these things; Iâm essentially role-playing Candeloro, role-playing an adventurer. And that allows for some fun in-character meta commentary whenever I catch myself making a mistake while writing, such as the accidental use of âWarriorâ after I personally just said Iâll need to figure that out later. This is also the first time Iâve actually sworn in any post Iâve made, but I figured it was an appropriate reaction to seeing something that shouldnât exist in your own home.
I also had fun with Candeloroâs perspective on Klarissa trying to hide the fact that sheâs Candeloroâs (niece?) and Oktaviaâs daughter. (Just realized the Reverse Witches AU donât know about familiar babies yet. Or is that not the right title where Anthony didnât remove the despair in time? I know we had one in which it was Sayaka, Candeloro, and Ophelia, but I canât recall the name of that one, assuming I didnât get the AU names mixed up.)
Well, I hope this was fun to read! With the rats dead, we now have Phil supernatural shenanigans, horrors, and adventure set up in the walls.
GOD I love these, its such a fun read
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