#but I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DOOOOOO

[sealrock]

achille's stubble mod is busted and his haircut needs fixing so he looks naked rn, but he somewhat survived the DT update

but now I'm conflicted on whether or not to change his face ugghhh

[pinkanonhopes]

feeling bored but also not great physically so i don't want to do anything........ bad combination

[top-shelf-tender]

{{Inside you are two wolves: one wants Husk to give Angel the proposal of his dreams, the other wants Angel to flip the script and give his scrungly babygirl an incredible proposal. They are both gay panicking.}}

[pandora-writes-one-piece]

I have chapter 7 of Law's story to post but it's 6500k of A LOT going on... I'm considering splitting it in two 🤨🤔

[molar-bear-sims]

very slick, bea... 🤨

[hevcrap]

Lately I feel an inescapable emptiness about myself.

[yo9urt]

twiddles my thumbs nervously

[pandaspwnz]

so.

we might have to put down my youngest dog Lily. She just turned 5 but a few months ago she started limping so we took her to the vet and found out she has arthritis. No big deal, she's on daily painkillers, seems fine. Then she starts limping again and wouldn't really stand or walk very far, and we take her to the vet wednesday and get a shot of a painkiller that should work better over time, since her regular painkillers weren't doing enough to manage it. Thursday she seemed to be doing better again but then suddenly friday evening something happened and it. got. bad. she limps constantly, legs shaking badly, hind legs won't support her weight, won't take more than 4 shaky steps without sitting down again. We were in contact with a vet over the phone saturday and sunday to figure out if it was urgent or something that could wait til monday (since in the weekend just stepping a foot in the door would be 2200 dkk (around $320). We had given her her regular pain meds, even though we were supposed to cut down on half of it after the shot, but clearly she needed it. The vet over the phone says we can give her some regular strength paracetamol and if that manages her pain well enough, we can wait. So we get her more painkillers, she takes them, it seems to help a little. Meanwhile my mom was willing to be carrying Lily to where she needs to go, but I dug out a cart we had in the basement so Lily could ride on that and spare my moms back and Lily's own little legs.

So today, monday, we got an emergency visit at the vet and the vet says it is. bad. they're overbooked and busy but she said she wanted to see Lily right away and went and made sure they could squeeze Lily in for an x-ray and bloodtest.

So we leave her at the vet to get the x-ray and go home and a few hours later we get a call and it turns out Lily has completely torn her cruciate ligaments in BOTH hind legs. We don't know if they went at the same time because somehow?? this little fucking terminator has said. NOTHING. No howls, whines, screams, anything. Nothing.

Only option is surgery. But it is SO expensive. Getting one leg fixed is 24000 dkk ($3.5k), but since it's both they can do it for 38000 dkk ($5.5k). And that's not touching the 6000+ dkk ($875) diagnosis fee we paid today, or any medicine for treatment post surgery. We thankfully have insurance which will cover a total of 29700 dkk ($4.3k) UNLESS we/the vet can say there's a chance she tore her ligaments in two separate incidents, in which case they'll give us that amount twice, once for each leg. I don't know how it works, don't ask me. It's fucking stupid.

Thing is, we live paycheck to paycheck. At a push we can scrape together 15700 dkk ($2247) which we already spent some money on today for the diagnosis fee on, and we have 3 other pets we need to take care of. If we spend all the money we have and then some on Lily and something happens to the others, we wouldn't be able to do anything. So basically my dog's fucking life is depending on if the vet can somehow tell us, either truthfully or by sticking their necks out for us, that the ligaments tore in two separate occasions. Otherwise we just can't afford it.

Which fucking sucks and makes me so angry because she can get the surgery and there's a really good prognosis!! It's like an 85-90% chance she'd be completely normal once she's all healed (it would only slightly increase the risk of getting arthritis, which she already has a little of anyway). And it has to come down to fucking money.

And we are not. at all. willing to do surgery on one leg at a time. Absolutely not. We are not going to have her suffer for so long just because it would make it easier for us to somehow pay for.

Anyway, we have a surgery booked for monday (which is in a whole fucking week!! that's so long from now!) but we don't even know yet if she can have it. We're expecting a call from the vet who saw us initially so we can find out if we can say it was two incidents or not. We'll know at the latest on wednesday and if not, then we just. have to put her down. because of money. we don't want her to be in pain. but man this just fucking sucks. she's my little baby and I don't want to lose her.

this was taken on the way home from the vet. (yes she's fat we know, she's on a diet and already lost 1.5kg)

please send good vibes

[umbracirrus]

Oh boy I have an angsty little listener x Cicero fic idea and ahhhhhh I'm tempted to write it I tell you-

[allpromarlo]

what in the kentucky fried fuck was that

[shiningwonho]

guess who tried to download tinder and when she tried to verify her account, got banned insteeeeeeeeead

[manybrokenquills]

Is it weird to have a crisis as your best friend (who you care for deeper then just in a friend type of way) is sleeping beside you??

Like they actively have their hand around my waist and their face in my chest and I am crying???

God, I love them.

[practically-an-x-man]

argh the adhd is really getting me today. the longest i've been able to focus on anything all day has been ~20 minutes and that was just copying down some text onto the edge of a canvas

[dameronswife]

thinking about that ar.ace text post about not wanting to call yourself single/wishing there was another way to phrase it that didn't have the implication of being ~available, and now I'm thinking about how relatable it is if only because I genuinely don't count myself as single

[witchwhaat]

I'm this 🤏🏻 close to just cutting my hair short and seeing what happens

[pfhwrittes]

alright wish me luck, i'm going into the trenches*

(*crossposting the tradieverse over to ao3)

note to self: move the tradieverse over to ao3 at some point