#bucky vs depression

[wildestheart4ever]

Browsing through someone’s Jason Todd tag and can literally feel myself getting bummed out by his life/existence as a character

At this point, I don’t care if I’m appreciating this seemingly forever doomed character incorrectly, I’m clinging to happy/silly notions and also - I’m giving him the joy of having a friend/love interest that will never turn their back on him no matter what self destructive tendencies he has towards any relationship in his life

This friend is going to stick to him like a barnacle

That unfortunate isolation of his Robin days? She will walk to the manor on foot if she has to, the character besmirching from his family? She doesn’t like them anyway and will slap whatever idiot has the gall to say that shit to her face

Is she extremely loyal to her detriment? Has some sort of separation anxiety?? Maybe, but what’s a good character without some kind of flaw

Let him be possessive in that she is the one person that he got to keep in his life and is his alone, who is explicitly loyal to him and not Batman - her loyalty and affection isn’t determined by the line of morality he follows

She’ll follow him to hell if he asked type of thing

Anyone who remembers or paid attention to my past attempts of oc sharing, you’d know her as Vanessa Agustin [Forgot the original last name I gave her oops]

Now including character info:

Jason was the first to grow a crush. It was hopeless, there was dramatic pining ala romantic period drama novel - it was adorable. Bruce was genuinely worried he couldn’t keep their vigilant identities secret ‘cause Robin always wound up a blushing flustered mess whenever she came into the picture - he was very relieved when Robin calmed down after a while

It becomes a whole complicated will-they-won’t-they thing ala unfortunate Jason vs Robin [This is far more innocent than his concerns about his place in Bruce’s life as Robin] before she started getting suspicious about the shared identity

Vanessa started getting a crush much later…..unfortunately shortly before Jason’s relationship with Bruce started to grow strained.

There’s a whole scene in my where Robin is brooding on the rooftop of his old apartment building. Conversations are had, her tentative confirmation of his identity and fear of him running away grew, and in a attempt to get him to stick around, she kissed him

It’s a very desperate/hopeless situation

Her family took what money they had and moved after Jason’s death, looking to get her professional help after a depression spiral

She has a younger sister named Naomi

She moved back to Gotham and lived with her uncle before graduating.

Studies online

Subsequently started looking for trouble and fights to get into. Few of the Bats got involved a few times before it was Dick that clocked who she was

Tried inviting her over, you know, in a attempt to friendliness and catching up

She did not vibe with the manor’s current state of erasing any reminders of Jason

Definitely did not vibe with Bruce and his current…..Bruce-ness

She still remembers their last interaction in which she verbally flipped out on him and blamed him for everything at Jason’s funeral

And the unwanted visit to her room she got where he basically threatened her to keep her silence [Mind you, she only had an inkling of their secret] - just the idea of this spiraling grown man waiting for her 15 year old ass while her sister was sleeping on the top bunk still burns at her mind is a level of discomfort I wanted to add on top of Bruce’s violent/angry/suicidal behavior

She probably thought he was threatening her family’s livelihood or something - whether it was true or not will remains unclear to her

Gets into vigilantism. Sorry, no wild curls flowing free in the wind for her, she’s keeping her mane in a tight braid where it won’t become a nuisance. I’m basically giving her Jason’s hoodie/vest, muzzled face combo….. and brass knuckles

[I got the scene of Bucky Barnes whipping someone in the face with a heavy chain link stuck in my head and thought ‘Yes, this is her method: Grab a heavy object and beat someone with it’]

Vibes with Stephanie, her opinion of the Bats lessens even further with their shitty treatment of her and tries protecting Stephanie from the resulting short lived Robin tenure fallout

Jason coming back includes him basically stalking her to see how she was doing, grows very confused to find her living with her uncle [He’ll look into the family situation later] and just……sits on that rooftop across from her building and stares at her

It’s giving very reminiscing of an old crush curiosity, is it still there or is it not? He doesn’t give it further thought

This is a purely self indulgent scenario: She looks for him after his Joker/Batman confrontation. Them in her flimsy excuse of a safe house, her desperately cleaning away the bloody wound of his throat, anxiously reciting prayers - cut to scene of her quietly watching him let out his frustration and humiliation on her sad measly furniture.

Whether she pulls him into a hug or trying to help him come down from that breakdown is still up to consideration of whether or not Jason is the type to allow that kind of thing in this point of his life [Further pointers to his character are appreciated]

Can she say anything? Will her attempts to comfort him be met with animosity?? After all, what’s her affirmations of her continued friendship in the face of his father’s rejection?

Idk what he got up to after that confrontation, I assume he kept his head down and quietly continued with his business

[fallenaphelion]

Discord is my usual plot idea dumping ground, but sometimes I stumble into Tumblr at 3 am in the morning like it’s a Denny’s and I want to talk about my fic ideas but no one is awake to talk to me so I’m just going to ramble to the waiter who does not get paid enough for this and just wants to go back to napping in the break room.

…

ANYWAY!!!

I’ve slowly but surely been sucked back into the Marvel fandom! Hooray!

Specifically, I’ve been revisiting all my favorite time travel fics and my brain has not stopped bombarding me with ideas since.

All that to say that I’ve come to the Marvel fandom with an offering (If y’all are interested);

Summary

Tony Stark dies in Siberia. Perhaps that should’ve been the end of the story. A fitting final act for the villain of the story. The evil former war profiteer billionaire, finally brought down by the righteous Captain America. A man born in fire and blood, drowning in his regrets as the cold seeps through the cracks in the armor he’d been so proud of.

It should’ve been the end.

But it wasn’t.

No, Tony wasn’t getting off that easily. Instead, he wakes up in the cave, before the Civil War, before the Avengers, before Iron Man…

“Fuck this. We’re doing things my way now.”

(Full disclosure: This is going to be a series of works in the same universe. Which means I can split things up to help with pacing and motivation. Unfortunately, it also means my urge to hop around the timeline is a bit harder to control. As it stands, the only thing I have written for this so far is half of chapter 1, and then all 5 chapters of part, like, 7 or something. I wish I was joking)

In any case, if this sounds at all interesting to the fanfic readers of Tumblr, let me know. I would love to hear y’all’s thoughts and suggestions!

Quick note for tags: Somehow, despite planning something entirely different, Winteriron snuck in through the window, assassinated the original planned pairing, and nearly seated itself on the driver’s seat.

A lil breakdown of the current arcs

Part 1: Iron Man 1 & 2 (Tony speed runs both of them while avoiding SHIELD like the plague. And, because the outline looked a bit empty, he went and stole Bucky from SHIELD in a valiant attempt to pretend he was even remotely emotionally stable)

Part 2: Avengers (Tony ends up teaming up with Fury’s little boyband in Manhattan, despite adamantly refusing the recruitment pitch. The Avengers are a sad group of depressed PTSD-riddled individuals that are very interested in pulling him into their family. Been there, done that, bought the t-shirt) (Tony also gets to shoot Loki in the face. Not sure if it’s canon that he was mind controlled, but it is here! So he’s free now, helps fight off the Chitauri cuz it’s already too late, and gives Tony the heads up about Thanos. In his weird, cryptic Loki ways, anyway)

Part 3: An Interlude (The Avengers try to pull this sad little billionaire into their club, while Tony tries to resist what he knows will end up becoming a disaster. Also- The Avengers get a SHIELD funded compound this time! Loki also gets stuck on community service duty for New York. And by community service, I mean Avengers duty. Ends with Tony finally attending a team dinner, tho he’s still not all the way there yet)

Part 4: Iron Man 3 (I’m still working out how Tony meets Harley again, because I love him, but shhhh. Anyway, the entire team, minus Thor and Loki who are off doing their Dark World bs, shows up during the Tony vs Killian showdown to help, and Tony is learning to trust again!)

Part 5: Dealing with Shieldra (Bucky’s already been liberated from their care, so no Winter Soldier movie. Instead, Tony has been systematically hunting them down now that he’s decided to place the blame of his parents’ murder firmly on Hydra’s head, not Bucky’s. It’s also made clear that while Bucky remembers his Winter Soldier days, he can’t really recognize the people beyond them being targets. So he doesn’t actually remember killing Howard and Maria Stark, because they’re just two more faces among countless other victims. So he’s free hasn’t realized he killed Tony’s parents, and Tony isn’t keen on bringing it up. It’s not super central to the plot yet, tbh, just something I wanted to note)

Part 6: Age of Ultron (To be clear, I hate the movie. Thus, I will be changing it. Tony didn’t want the scepter anywhere near his tech or JARVIS, sorry Vision, so after ensuring it wasn’t in danger of falling into Hydra hands, he let SHIELD take it. SHIELD, being SHIELD, ended up enlisting Dr. Hank Pym for research. Hank ends up creating a murderbot without Tony’s name on it, and Tony gets the closure that the Ultron fiasco really wasn’t all his fault like everyone else claimed. And then he goes after Ultron, because no way is he letting something capable of killing JARVIS stick around long enough to try. I don’t see how I can possibly work Vision into this tho, so until I do figure it out, he’s unfortunately a non-entity in this AU)

Part 7: Social Media Interlude (Lots of background info from previous parts, like what all Stark Industries was doing. And also Winteriron somehow happened. I have no idea how, don’t ask me. Mostly fluff, tho the footage of the Stark murders gets leaked and Tony gets to be the emotionally mature one in the group finally. Very fond of his lil “I’ve known about the murders since before I met Bucky, don’t harass him, he was the gun, not the shooter, etc etc” rant. He does have to wave away his knowledge with hacking Shieldra, which wouldn’t really work, but no one else knows that so shhhh)

Part 8+: I’ll let you know when I’ve figured out how Tony’s gonna handle outliving his past self in the other timeline. But it’ll go all the way to Infinity War/Endgame, dw

If any of this does interest anyone, please let me know. I love hearing feedback!

[steelbluehome]

Okay, maybe it is because this is a bit of sunshine in the depths of depression and anxiety that I have been drowning in since the election, but thos trailer makes me feel better about the Thunderbolts movie and Bucky's part in it.

I'm still worried about the things that worried me when I saw the first trailer. It will be Yelena's movie. That this whole idea of Bucky in congress needs a damn good explanation, as well as why he looks the way he does vs. the way he looked at the end of TFATWS.

But, I like that he saves the civilians from the oncoming car. I like the two lines he has. I like that he seems to be interacting with what seems to be the "main group".

So, I am looking forward to it.

[gay-disabled-characters-showdown]

LBGTQ+ Disabled Characters Showdown Round 3, Wave 1, Poll 8

A character being totally canon LGBTQ+ and disabled was not required to be in this competition. Please check qualifications and propaganda before asking why a character is included. 

Check out the other polls in this wave and prior here.

James ‘Bucky’ Barnes-Marvel

Qualifications:

Missing his arm and commonly headcanoned as gay

Propaganda:

He's Bucket Barnes

Korra-Avatar: The Legend of Korra

Qualifications:

Korra is not only bisexual, having dated both Asami Sato and Mako, but was and still is disabled by the end of the series. She doesn't magically get better from being poisoned, she's forced to relearn a lot of things: how to walk, how to do things for herself, and even how to fight properly. Her physical disabilities are mixed with extensive trauma and PTSD that prevents her from doing her job as the Avatar throughout Book 4: Balance.

Canonically bisexual, has PTSD, and spent a while partially paralyzed and using a wheelchair.

Bisexual badass who ended up going through about 5038309340 traumatizing events, one of which involved mercury poisoning that had her unable to walk for about a year and left her with lasting PTSD and depression (though again the depression is a little less clear wheras the PTSD was obviously intended to be read as such). There was also her shadow self, but it's unclear whether that was a form of psychosis or a literal spirit. In short, she's bi and has PTSD if you want to stick with the more long term, obviously canon bits.

Propaganda:

She's the Avatar, you gotta deal with it! But, seriously, Avatar Korra was the first onscreen LBGT+ character in the Avatar franchise alongside her girlfriend Asami Sato. While limited in what could be shown onscreen, the two were explictly portrayed as a couple in the 2016 Dark Horse comic "Legend of Korra: Turf Wars". Likewise, her disability never quite went away. She still struggled with trauma, PTSD, and learning how to do things for herself again for two to three years in the time between books 3 and 4 that were shown off in flashbacks during her solo episodes.

She's canonically bi and has PTSD, and disability was an incredibly important theme for her in her show's final season.

i dunno I think i covered all my bases in the qualifying bit but also its 3am and i dont feel like typing more

Anything Else?:

The creators of Korra, Michael Dante DiMartino and Bryan Konietzko, fought long and hard for their show, including taking a massive budget slash circa book 4 to avoid firing half their staff. Likewise, they took to Tumblr and other social media in 2014 to state firmly that Korra and Asami were both bisexual and in love. Here's a link: https://bryankonietzko.tumblr.com/post/105916338157/korrasami-is-canon-you-can-celebrate-it-embrace

The qualifications and propaganda paragraphs correspond, @foulfirerebel is the first submitter, they also did the ‘anything else?’ section.

[deansmom]

How to write Bucky Barnes:

1. A slight air of intentional cluelessness, because he's not above playing into people's pity for him (*1, ah... have no idea, sorry

2. Dry humor, not a ton of inflection around most people, and opening his voice/dialect up immediately when he's around his friends and people he trusts. ("I'm Bucky Barnes and I'm here to make amends [tight, awkward smile]" vs "let me get this straight, SAM, yoUR SISTER... was a witch!")

3. He's awkward and clearly still kind of uncomfy in his skin, but is somehow still charming because he’s unintentionally very earnest & easy to talk to (he's also baffled by people finding him charming) see: "how old are you?" "106 [cringes] [looks down at the counter] [laughs as if it was a joke]”

4. Sad Boi Hours, but make it + repressed + ("if he was wrong about you what if he was wrong about me"

5. He has anxiety and cares So Much but he won't say it, he'll just slide a pre packed lunch across the table

6. The most important thing: he's Very Old, and Very Tired, and has Very Little Patience for bullshit. (See the fight scene in TFATWS with Karly where he gets knocked out of the truck)

How to write Steven Grant Rogers:

1. Awkward, earnest and uncomfy around strangers and stick to the cap persona, but around people he’s comfortable with he’s like Bucky but worse (“OH COME ON MY OWN MA COULDA MADE A BETTER CALL THAN THAT AND SHES DEAD GOD REST HER SOUL.” vs “I just want to do the right thing, ma’am 😅”)

2. Verbally combative and doesn’t know when to back off when it’s something he cares about

3. Repressed, but make it deeply fucking depressed (the imposter syndrome is real!)

4. Unendingly loyal and just wants what’s best for everyone but has never had the opportunity to help or actually facilitate that so he’s a little overzealous with it for a while until he gets Bucky back and realizes “…oh. Me killing myself to save you is uh, a bummer? My bad.”

5. Enjoys playing into this idea of who people think he is, but also finds it equally exhausting to be that person because it’s so different from who he is

6. Often feels both his body age and 100+ years old

How to write Sam Wilson:

1. Love language is gently bullying the people who matter most to him (“haha, the white panther 😏��)

2. Trauma from all fronts but he went to therapy… a couple times when it was ordered by his commanding officer. Definitely does not practice what he preaches in his group sessions but nobody needs to know that 💁🏾‍♂️

3. Unfortunately well adjusted, despite the universe’s best efforts to make him even more emotionally inept than the two super soldiers he hangs out with

4. Lots of internal struggles with his identity & his job and balancing his sense of duty with his anger, trauma and resentment from being Black in America

5. Is new to being the most reasonable/stable person in the room (at the VA he’s very transparent about the fact that he’s just like them & is making it up as he goes) but settles into it pretty quickly

6. Extremely competent.

[beyourownanchor6]

Our beloved hellsite runs on ducttape and chewed gum for real like a macgyver thing

I used to watch Smallville with my mom and I have sincr rewatched it a couple times. It's s bad it's camp.

Oh i used to love the cw superhero shows. I fell out around the time they did the heroes vs. Nazi dopplegangers crossover special, because seeing mt favorite heroes all decked in ss outfits was triggering to me as a Jew.

Yeah i totally get that.

Shooting star is the glee school shooting episode. It's the worst example of them butchering a serious issue but there were many (suicide, post partum depression, eating disorders...). Yeah exactly. It is an interesting documentary though. I found it curious how they barely dedicated any time to mark salling. Like usually a documentary like that would milk the scandal as much as it could, but they barely touched on it.

Lol exactly!! And thank you. Yeah me too i'm wearing them right now! They make me look like a bearded Velma. I like that.

Oh i look forward to rambling about the bike riders! Ooh my favorite marvel characters or ships... i like Spider-Man, the Scarlet Witch, Agatha, Bucky, Quicksilver, both Captain Americas, Captain Marvel, Ms. Marvel, Thor... as for ships, I ship Buck and Steve, mostly, but I also like the thought of most of the guys making out with each other. What about you? And lol i still listen to hannah montana often.

Oh SAME! I'm trying to get back into books without sacrificing much of my fanfic time. It's tricky. And you're right, fanfics are basically endless. Besides, there's the added bonus of "we already care about these characters".

P.s.: are these asks annoying you? Are they too long? Would you rather I dm you?

it really does though, and yet we keep coming back lol.

i think my parents said it got "weird" after a while, and i've definitely stopped other shows for that lol, but maybe one day i'll try it out again.

oof, yea that's understandable. i think arrow was the only one i watched all the way through and i regretted that lmao. they all lost me after a few seasons, but superman and lois has been good all around which was a nice change.

ohhh i completely forgot they did an episode on that! the school shooting ep that always sticks out in my mind is from one tree hill. yea i thought that was weird too. i think since that was so shocking and such a sensitive topic they wanted to steer clear of it? but yea you'd think for the scandal they would've been all over that.

i've thought about writing some fic for the bikeriders, but we shall see! oooh that's a great list! i love thor, bucky, venom, scarlet witch, black widow, hawkeye, echo, both captain americas, and...so many honestly 😄 i think my big marvel ships are sambucky and symbrock, but i did start reading some deadpool and wolverine after seeing the new movie lol

ugh yes!! i told myself i need to catch up on the fics i have open and then make a point to read some actual books. my goal is 20 for the year so i still have 10 to go lol.

not annoying me at all! and i am ok with whatever! i put read more incase it's annoying anyone else lol. but i am good with whatever works for you 😊

[durenjtmusings]

@pherryt

Barney, reamed out by Clint, is heartbroken over Nat, and frantically clingy and protective of his family upon their return, plus kinda self-condemning over the Ronin thing, so he retreats from the Avengers to focus on family and trying to heal.

Clint is still the depressed guy he was before the snap, but also feels guilty about not helping out with Thanos, so he steps in to help with the new kids. He spends a lot of time lurking -in the vents, rafters, roof, etc. which draws Bucky’s attention. They eventually do the dueling snipers thing on the practice range, and conversations start. Clint fills in what Bucky doesn’t remember, and they were enemies to lovers that one time WS escaped to New York in 2000 for a month or 2. After one too many suicidal mission accidents, Buck convinces Clint to get some help, leaning on their similar pasts-brainwashing, sniper, etc. [cue renewed Winterhawk if desired] Sam helps with finding a good therapist, and Buck starts ragging on them both over hawks vs falcons.

After Clint and Buck save Barney & fam from some major Ronin retaliation attempt, Clint reconciles with Barney who is better but wants to stay retired. The three reminisce about Natasha, discovering they all loved her, and creating a memorial for her on Barney’s land (a bench with a great view under a nice tree.

[mizkit]

new blog post: art vs industry

new blog post on https://mizkit.com/art-vs-industry/

art vs industry

Elsewhere a friend posted an image of all the upcoming/in development Marvel projects, of which there were…many…like, over 20…and made a comment about whether it was art or industry.

It turned out I had some feelings on that. :)

I think Marvel walks an interesting line between art and industry. A lot of it’s industry, which is fine because it IS an industry. And since I find, IDK, probably 80% of that industry’s product to be entertaining, I’m pretty happy with that. My problems with the industry aspect of it lie in where they are overworking and underpaying the people, especially the VXF artists, who are carrying so very much of the weight of these films, and in where they’re rushing things that could be good and fail to be because of the headlong pursuit of the Almighty Dollar. So yeah, on that front, I find the industry side problematic.

On the other hand, it’s an artistic industry by its nature, in which they occasionally they strive for and achieve Art, and I think those moments, those films, are sublime, and they actively bring me joy: Winter Solider is as good a spy film as there is, and Black Panther is a stunning achievement on basically every level.

But I also get to-my-toes-thrills out of many of the rank commercialism moments: Bucky flipping that motorcycle makes me go whuff every time, I was in the theatre shrieking my head off when Cap finally said “Avengers, assemble!”, and I burst into tears (I am in fact tearing up now remembering it) when they brought all the Marvel women together for that one big shot. That’s what I wanted. Was it art? Hell if I know, but it made me happy, which is what really matters to me.

I think I’m really not very precious about ‘art’, though, honestly. I’m a working artist. I make my own living mostly through industry: I write paranormal romance because it sells and I need to pay the rent and the bills and for my kid’s clothes. Out of the 50+ books I’ve published, I think probably three of them are what I’d consider art, and that, IDK, 60% of the others have moments of the sublime/active artistic beauty and merit. I think the other 40% are fun, and that’s their job. They’re meant to be escapist. Maybe there are some life lessons or really important moments in them for other people. I’d like to think so, but mostly I want to make readers happy for a little while, and I’m told it works.

And that’s what most Marvel movies & tv do for me. If I want Art with a Capital A, I’ll watch something else. I’ll watch, IDK, August: Osage County, which is the last film I went to on purpose that I thought would make me cry (the last one i went to that i DIDN’T think would make me cry which i FRICKIN’ SOBBED THROUGH was IF, holy god, I was not prepared, Jesus H Christ). I’ll watch Portrait of a Lady on Fire, or…IDK, man. There’s plenty of it available if that’s what I’m after. But the truth is, I’m usually not looking for Art. I’m already emotionally ground down and worn out and I rarely want to watch movies that are going to depress me or making me cry or even, honestly, expect me to think all that much, most of the time. Too much of what we sell as Art is bleak instead of uplifting, and man, there’s enough bleak to deal with already.

I suppose the point is mostly that I don’t think art and industry are separate beasts. I think the idea that artists shouldn’t make any money to keep their art pure is fucking nonsense. I think the Marvel films employ tens of thousands of people in artistic endeavors ranging from headline actors to costumers to lighting designers to construction workers and on and on. From that perspective, arguably there’s very little as artistic as a Marvel production in the modern world.

I don’t think that most of the time they’re…they’re not Loving Vincent kinds of Art, where a film about Vincent Van Gogh was turned into a living painting in an act of single-minded dedication and passion, but it’s difficult to argue, in my opinion, that the Marvel films don’t have something to say about the human condition. We love the visual theatrics of the superhero powers, but it was Vision’s line, “What is grief, if not love persevering?” that actually brought us to our knees. Tony’s and Cap’s ability to almost connect and then the frustration of their failing to is what twists our heart. If Rocket’s excavated rage in Guardians 3, and the entirety of Wakanda Forever, offering catharsis to hundreds of millions of people who had suffered a shocking loss together, isn’t art, then I don’t know what the hell is.

So, yeah. I guess I think it’s a false dichotomy, and I get why people are frustrated with the commercialization of the art, but, like. That’s how it works! Comics have always been commercial! Pantheons have always been there to sell you something! Movies are a commercial product! Do I think it’s arguably problematic that it seems like the only movies/tv people are watching (or at least, going to the theatre for) seem to be the big smash-em-up escapism thing?

…no. No, actually, I really, really don’t. I think the problem is that the world is exhausting and movies are very, very expensive, and if you’re going to choose A Thing to spend your probably-very-limited entertainment budget on, it’s completely reasonable to choose The Thing that everybody else is going to see! The water cooler movies! We all went to Barbenheimer! We all went to Deadpool & Wolverine! We’re all gonna go to…I don’t actually know what the next actual must-see movie is gonna be, let’s call it Minecraft bc that seems sure to make pundits mad that people are going to it instead of, IDK, The Bikeriders!

We’re not doing that because we Hate Art, we’re doing it because there’s still a pandemic on and we can only afford a theatrical release film once a quarter if we’re lucky and if we’re gonna go to one at all we want it to be the one we can talk about with everybody else! The rest of it can wait 3 months (or less!!!) until our family of 4 can watch it for the cost of the streaming service that we’re paying for anyway, with homemade popcorn and a pause button for when we’ve drunk our body weight in Pepsi but don’t want to miss any of the movie!

Did I get off track? Yes! Do I feel strongly about this? Also yes! Did it turn out that further discussion with my friend determined we meant different things by ‘art’ and ‘industry’ and am I going to yhave to write an entirely different post in response to that? Also-also yes! Am I going to stop writing now because I can’t think of a good wrap-up paragraph? Also-also-also yes! :)

[builder051]

Happy Sunday! Not sure if this is your kinda thing, if not, totally okay, but would you consider writing a fic where Laura Barton is driving Bucky and he’s sick with the flu and throws up in the car? Have a great day!

This is Powers/No Powers

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Steve's at work. Bucky's bracing himself over the bathroom sink, steeling himself up to make the decision between straightening up and grabbing his toothbrush, or collapsing sideways and curling his body around the toilet bowl. Right now, he's at 50-50. Or more like 33-33-33, if continuing to stand still is an option. He'll throw the extra point to the theoretical asteroid that could crash through the ceiling at any moment and strike him dead. If anyone actually cared to ask, he'd prefer the asteroid.

Bucky glares at a dent in the tube of toothpaste. Mint. Better than bile? His mouth tastes like salty snot that keeps dragging thickly toward the back of his throat, threatening to gag him if he doesn't keep a conscious hold on his swallow. Peppermint. It's Steve's toothpaste. He hates the flavor at baseline. His own spearmint and tea tree is tolerable, but the stairs to get to the ensuite... definitely are not.

Somewhere out in the living room, Bucky's phone begins to chime. Not a call, please not a call, he thinks. No. The tones are short. It's a text. Two texts. He knows who the probable sender is, then. Backwoods cell towers and sharp country air aren't always kind to cell signal. A single message is often split into two.

"Coming," Bucky groans, wrapping an arm around his stomach and limping toward the coffee table. He forgets to turn off the light in the bathroom; the helpless look he gives it over his shoulder doing nothing to assist. The couch is far too large an obstacle to navigate around again. He's already so close. And he's curious about what Laura has to say. More curious now than nauseated. And that's saying something.

Good morning, the first message reads. Then, I have coffee money. And gas money, too.

Bucky sighs. He wonders if she's left the farm house's long gravel driveway yet. Laura's not one to dawdle, so he may already be too late to tell her it's not worth the trip. Sweet of her to think of him, and usually her charm and coaxing do the trick to drag him out of the shadows, but today? Drinking coffee sounds about as thin and slippery as pouring lighter fluid down his throat. Worse than toothpaste. And probably more disastrous.

His hand shakes as he picks up his phone. Sorry, Bucky manages to tap out. I'm sick.

Laura doesn't hesitate with her response. What kind of sick? Do I need to worry?

Bucky sighs. He could write her off as being nosy. But he knows better, and he knows her intentions better than that. Head is fine, he answers quickly. Then he wrinkles his brow and regrets his wording. No, headache. Bad. Flu, maybe.

I got it, Laura writes. Don't worry.

"Mmph." Bucky lets out his breath. His nose drips, either watery mucous or fever sweat. Disgusting either way. He swipes it with his sleeve. Then his phone buzzes again in his hand.

I can be there in an hour. Take you to urgent care?

Bucky swallows down sourness again. Just the idea of the VA waiting area sets off his sense of distaste. Not sure it's worth it...

I don't trust the VA. Laura must be reading his mind. The kids' doc always has sick appointments. There can't possibly be enough patients around here to keep him busy.

Bucky stares at the message for a moment. A pediatrician? What is she thinking? He's not a kid. Maybe he needs handling like one sometimes, but... Bucky shakes his head, which hurts. Do you think I should?

There's a pause, then Laura's reply lands. Yes, she writes. I think so. I just have a feeling about this one.

Bucky's fingers tremble. Ok, he taps, grateful for the autofill offering him the choice response.

On my way.

Laura's there in 45 minutes. Bucky doesn't ask if she chose to speed on the highway. More than likely, she was further down the route than she admitted when she texted the first time. She knocks politely on the townhouse's front door, respecting Bucky's dislike of the doorbell.

It takes Bucky a minute to be ready to leave. Does he need a jacket? A box of Kleenex? Nothing extraneous. Shoes, though. Probably necessary.

"Sorry," he mumbles when he opens the door.

"Oh, James," Laura says softly. "Don't worry about it."

She reclines the passenger seat a few degrees and pulls out the seatbelt so Bucky can settle in the car before they get moving. "You ok? Feeling ready?"

"Um. I guess?" James wishes he felt more sure. His stomach seems to be wedged tightly between his lungs, constricting them against the tight slats of his ribcage. He swallows, for safety's sake, but the flow of gunk coating his esophagus remains in limbo, refusing to break off and go down all the way.

Laura takes her seat behind the wheel. "Tissues in the console. Bags in the glove box. And both kids and Clint have barfed in this car before, so whatever happens, it won't be revolutionary." She grins.

"Hm." Bucky gives a small nod. "Ok."

"I've changed diapers in the trunk before. And took the bleeding dog to the emergency vet in the back seat." Laura holds a straight face, then breaks into a wide smile again. "That was on a blanket, though."

It's two miles of loops and stoplights out of the suburbs to the main drag, then just a blitz and a turn to the expressway. Bucky feels Laura's eyes on him as she excellerates and moves the vehicle into the center lane.

"Doing alright?"

"Uh." Bucky's jawline feels fairly numb, but the touch of his knuckles under his chin clacks his teeth together, and that gives him a little faith. "Enough."

"You're going pale on me," Laura says. "Keep me in the look, ok?"

"Yeah..." He's fine. He's been going pale for months, Bucky thinks. It's the depression; it's the staying inside. He'll let Steve take him to a corporate golf scramble or something.

Bucky's gut moves uncomfortably. Scramble. Stupid. What is a golf scramble, anyway? Whacking balls down the green with frying pans? Bucky tries picturing it to distract himself. Probably after catered brunch...

"James?"

"Mm?" Bucky jerks his head up, and his stomach goes into free-fall as pressure builds behind his sinuses.

"I can hear you grinding your teeth." Laura reaches across him to open the glove compartment. "I have supplies. I'll pull off at the next exit. It's actually a trailhead with a place to stop and enjoy the view, so there's grass and gravel and every thing."

Bucky can't force out a sound. He can't draw breath. He manages to blink, and excess fluid drips down from the corners of his eyes.

Laura bats what appear to be several folded paper footballs out of the glove box. "Ugh. Sorry. I forgot Clint did that..." She pinches one by the corner and starts to shake it. Some of the folds release, and Bucky recognizes the crumpled Walmart logo.

He recognizes the horrible feelings inside his body, too. Bucky's too hot; he's prickling all over. He tries taking the bag from Laura, but overshoots and slaps it out of her hand. He struggles to do whatever he can to contain the mess he knows is coming, and he presses the still flat bag over his mouth like a crinkly handkerchief.

Sick slips everywhere, up Bucky's face to cover his cheeks, and down across his chin. The bag isn't absorbant in the slightest, and he's holding it too tightly against himself to let it be a barrier between the mess and everything else.

The second heave spills into Bucky's lap, and stinging bile spreads up into his eyes. He squeezes them shut and lets out an involuntary moan.

"James, it's ok." Laura puts her hand on Bucky's knee, which is drenched. "I'm pulling off right now."

Bucky feels the car swerve, leaving smooth asphalt and grinding to a slow stop in what can only be a parking lot in desperate need of repaving. The movement doesn't agree with him in the slightest, and it elicits another retch from deep within him.

"Breathe," Laura reminds him.

Bucky tries, but he inhales a bubble of mucous, and he breaks off hacking.

"It's ok." Laura thumps him on the back. "James, it's alright. I know you're feeling really bad."

Bucky forces out a sharp cough that moves his entire body, and he finally gets a gulp of bitter flavored air. "S-sorry," he gasps.

"No talking," Laura says gently.

Bucky breathes again. Then twice more. He strains against his seatbelt in an enormous dry heave, but only a thin line of saliva comes up.

"Keep breathing."

"'m done," Bucky whispers, his voice cracking. "'m done. Have to be done."

"Ok." Laura massages between Bucky's shoulder blades. "Why don't you give me that, then." She carefully takes the pitiful, dripping bag from between Bucky's fingers.

"O-oh." Bucky's eager to give it up, but he feels terrible for her to have to handle it at all. "I'm sor--"

"Hey, no apologies." Laura taps the button for the center console with her elbow. "There are tissues in there. Probably fast-food napkins as well." She gives Bucky a sad smile. "Why don't you start mopping yourself up, if you feel up to it? I'll get this in the bin where it belongs."

Bucky manages to get a single Kleenex wadded into his eye socket by the time Laura returns. He almost doesn't notice her reappearance, except that she starts piling napkins over the thighs of his jeans.

"Didn't get very far, I guess..." Bucky spit-talks, then wipes his mouth unceremoniously on his shoulder.

"No expectations." Laura expertly scoops away most of the visible dregs of Bucky's stomach contents, wads up the napkins, and drops them out the driver's-side door. "I'm littering. Don't tell anyone."

"I puked in your car," Bucky half laughs, half groans. "Don't tell anyone that."

"Mmm..." Laura tilts her head to one side. "Say to the doc that it happened before we left your house?"

Bucky hesitates. Catches her eye. Laura wears a dubious smile, but her eyes are genuine.

"Yeah," Bucky agrees gratefully. "Yeah. That's... yeah."

"Done deal." Laura pulls out another wad of napkins and gingerly reaches up to wipe Bucky's face. "This'll probably do it. Then do you think you feel up to getting back on the road?"

"I... I think so?" Bucky feels... not better, exactly. Better than he did. But disgusting nonetheless.

"There's a rest stop, a nature preserve, and a National Park before we get to Paris. As it exists on the map, with, you know, buildings and such."

"Ok." Bucky nods slowly. He gets her drift. "I think I can manage that," he says.

"Ok, then." Laura offers Bucky half of the napkins in her hand. "Let's manage it together."

[tobiasdrake]

Captain America and the Winter Soldier Bucky Barnes vs. Iron Man.

Oh my god, what a finale. So much smaller in scale than the airport fight, but so much more powerful. Fewer fighters, but a more lopsided fight with a clear right and wrong side made no less tragic for its clarity.

The thing about Captain America vs. Iron Man is that it only really works if Steve is the protagonist. This is because Steve is the underdog here. He and Bucky are both fighting an uphill battle to not die immediately when Iron Man starts unloading firepower.

Iron Man vs. Captain America is a no-contest stomp. But Captain America vs. Iron Man? That's rough. That's a skin-of-his-teeth battle for the ages.

Again, the music is depressed and mournful. As Tony refuses to let up, as Steve and Bucky chip away at his armor more and more, using the silo's close confines to try and bring him down to their level, the music is haunting.

Emotionally, this is a fight that sticks with you. The fracturing of a toxic friendship in defense of a stable one.

(Steve's a good friend. He's doing exactly what you should do when one of your friends it being toxic to another: Back up the friend being picked on, even if it means breaking your friendship with the abuser. Kids, you can learn a life lesson from this fight!)

Like. They could have just made this about the Accords. But then it wouldn't have been as emotional. This is deep and personal, and that hits so much harder. Tony is experiencing temporary insanity and has taken leave of his senses due to a traumatic experience. Tomorrow, he'll probably wake up and go, "Oh, shit, I really screwed up." But tonight? Tonight, he has to be stopped.

And he has to be stopped while piloting a near-indestructible mobile weapons platform. It's the worst-case scenario from the Iron Man 2 birthday party come to life.

This is easily one of the most heartstring-tugging fights in the MCU. The fight may conclude with one party defeated, but there are no winners in Zemotown.

This fight is art.

[foeofcolor]

hi this is totally random but you're a bit of a hawkeye fan right? i havent been in your blog a lot so correct me if im wrong lol

i wanna read his comics, where do you think i should start? i usually read it at readcomicsonline.com!

Sorry I took so long to answer but here's a few ones I think are good! SOLO/ SOLOISH

HAWKEYE (2012) The most well known Clint run! It's 24 issues and very good! But it can get heavy at times and there is actually a lot of buildup/backstory to why Clint is the way he is in that run, this isn't the standard for him, this is him in depression. @bobbimorses 's post here explains it well.

HAWKEYE : FREEFALL It's very short, 6 issues only and has the kind of pseudo leftism you'd except from comics at this point sometimes but other than that? It's great! We also haven't heard from Clint post freefall and next time we see him will be in the August THINDERBOLTS 0.0

HAWKEYE ( 2003 ) OK. So this run is also just 8 issues (See a pattern here??) and fair warning : It has the 2000s brand of casual racism and misogyn . But this is a really good example of pre matt fraction Clint! Also you don't really need to read the last 2 issues but they're a ok add on. Also there's a character called Gaylord and I STILL think that's funny.

HAWKEYE : BLINDSPOT Essential!! Just 4 issues iirc and it's! very good and explains the lead up to the 2012 series!

HAWKEYE (1983) VERY IMPORTANT!!!

TEAM BOOKS/ TEAM UPS

NEW AVENGERS : REUNION This happens during/after the whole civil war fisaco but you don't really need to know much about that to read this. All you need to know is Clint died, then when Clint was dead Cap died, Clint came back to life and was offered the shield, he said No, then bucky got the shield, then Bobbi came back to life and turns out she had been replaced by a skrull before her supposed death.

HAWKEYE Vs. DEADPOOL it's just fun!

HAWKEYE MOCKINGBIRD Clintbobbi, need I say more.

WEST COAST AVENGERS   The og run!! It also has the clintbobbi divorce and I thinkkkk this is the one with the tw for rape? You can also read the new run but it’ ok? Not really essential.

THUNDERBOLTS ( OG ) Clint leads this team for a while!

You can pretty much pick any old avengers comics after #16 and there’s soild chance that Clint’d be in it tbh.

Also, for his first appearances check out this list (by @/bobbimorses) and this list (by @/soloavengers)

MISC. ISSUES I LIKE 

Captain America #179

Avengers Annual #9

[sushi-rat]

I don't know where the idea came from exactly. But I have a headcanon that Thor struggles a lot with his identity as a destructive god who grew up in a war-based society.

Bucky has a particular arc in the MCU. Bucky, after being forced/tortured to be a brutal weapon with not even a real name, finally starts remembering his life, remembers and falls in love with Steve, heals from his hypnosis and mind control, and seems to find safety in being gentle, being presented and treated more delicate and peaceful. I particularly love gay-jewish-bucky's posts about soft Bucky (not @ them as this post has little to none to do with Bucky or them). Bucky doesn't want to be dangerous, he often covers or takes off his prosthetic as he still needs room to learn how to trust himself, he doesn't want to fight. He's done and tired and would rather sit at home under a fluffy blanket, in some cozy, loose pjs, and cuddled next to Steve. (I reject most of Endg*me and onward)

I like to also apply this sort of arc to Thor. He's very much a kindhearted, loud, caring person who does mature and takes the time to learn and listen. A lot of development and maturing happens in Thor 1 when he goes from battle-driven and practically blood-thirsty to understanding life of beings and that killing an entire race for the acts of the few or the acts of the past is unjustifiable. Problem is, he started off as a self-absorbed killer primarily due to Odin and the glorifying of conquering in Asgardian society, the fact that Odin is known for his acts of violence and control over separate colonies, that brute warriors are prioritized over the more physically weak like Loki, ect. While Odin showed fury over Thor's brash actions and harshly punished him, it has been shown that Odin never really took any steps to teach Thor true peace, especially with things like the control over colonies which was addressed in Ragnarok to have been happening in the background, Odin's talk to Thor in The Dark World where Odin says that mortals' lives are fleeting and therefore should mean nothing to gods which, most likely, that sort of talk about other races has been a part of the boys' upbringing, and Odin telling his stories of victory since the boys were young and fueling them on seeking glory. The true extent of the bloody history of Asgard is touched upon more in Ragnarok with Hela's upbringing and in the comics (I own the Thor vs Gorr series and there's a part where Thor goes to a Nexus for research and the librarian is very hostile and mentions how an entire library section about murders and bloodshed is mostly full of Odin's/Asgard's "adventures"). All-in-all, very war-driven society that Thor grew up in, so of course he knows destruction better than anything.

Later he gets to uncover lies, he loses everything, and shows a distancing and tiredness when it comes to fighting. One of the few things I agree with in Endg*me is how all of the remaining Avengers show a distancing to fighting, so much to the point they distanced from each other. Thor was genuinely depressed and consciously attempted to repress or ignore everything previous, and tried to build some semblance of peace out of what little he had. He has seen what true war is. What he grew up with, that glory, was Odin having perfect control and power over his enemies and beating them to submission. Fighting Hela and losing your home and people in the process, fighting Thanos and losing people that you love, feeling guilt over not being good enough when you fail, he now knows what TRUE war is like. And it broke him. So much so, he doesn't jump at the opportunity to fix everything and he worries over failing again.

I feel Thor's feelings about battle and his change could've been addressed better in anything released after Infinity War, falling into a similar arc as Bucky's: being a weapon (though for the 2 characters, it was much different situations with different levels of willingness- in Bucky's case none at all) but ending up in a situation that makes them crave being softer and non-threatening.

I also think a good, secondary tie-in for this sort of development for Thor is the fact that he is a god of nature. He is the God of Thunder with an ability to also create/control storm events like lightning, a tornado as seen in Thor 1 which could prolly be extended to controlling wind, and many people headcanon that he could control rainstorms due to the associated lightning + thunder abilities. Thor is not a God of War or Destruction or Battle. His powers lie within nature, nature events that can be destructive but can also be peaceful and kind; the rain that waters the plants, the soft thunder that people often love and even listen to ambience of to go to sleep at night, the beautiful strikes of lightning that many are obsessed with, the breeze to cool a hot day. I feel many gods of nature are treated much more gentle, and this could be a really good note towards Thor's character: a god of nature that grows up learning nothing but war, coming to a point where he wants to have the opportunity that other nature gods have that he never got. He's known for being good with animals in the comics so maybe he starts a routine to feed the animals in his area, he learns to control his powers and can bring a gentle rain to water the nearby plants and even aid his own garden, his powers give him an exceptional green-thumb, he plays with the village kids by letting them ride the wind- literally, entertaining people with tricks with his lightning similarly to how Loki shows off the fireworks his mom taught him in the Loki series. Even his amazing strength he uses for helping to build the houses of New Asgard, or lifting up a horse to help carry it back to the stable.

I just really like the idea of Thor becoming softer and maturing past the oppressive destruction of the Old Asgard, paving his own way and bringing a new hope and light to a new, peaceful, Asgard

[quietlyimplode]

Natasha Romanoff Masterlist of Fic Recs - Version 2.0 - Page 1

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Updated June 2021

This is not an exhaustive list (and in no order whatsoever) of the brilliant fic that is out there. Please let me know of any i have missed or any recs to put in and I will endeavour to add it. I have not included warnings or ratings. Please make sure you look at the tags, judge for yourself and as always take care of yourself first. (17 authors under the cut)

The Irish Mayhem @the-irish-mayhem

White - part of Perfection of Duality Series - the making of Natasha Romanoff. One of my favourite fics in the world. I will love it forever.  -    25/25

Perfection of Duality- part two - Natasha - Natasha in shield - 4/?

Mypedia @sebuttstianstan

anything that bleeds - Natasha - Natasha is a sub. Don’t let that fool you, Natasha’s backstory with bdsm elements. 21/22

Shadesfalcon @shadesfalcon

Like Real People Do - Clint/Nat - ‘Do we have song?’ Iterations of what’s the ties that bind them together.    1/1

Whether you ask it or not - Clint/Nat - Natasha gets poisoned - and has the line ‘“’Night, little dragon. May your fires ever burn hot upon your unsuspecting foes.”    1/1

Sometimes winning means you’re the last one standing - ot6+everyone - don’t play ‘never have I ever’ without some laughs and trauma rearing its head   1/1

I am good - Clint/Nat/Laura - Clint brings Natasha home for the first time.   1/1

Careful She Bites - Clint/Nat - don’t confront Natasha about the handcuffs. Just don’t.  2/2

What happens here stays here - Clint/Nat- Natasha can’t remember Budapest.  1/1

Koren M- cybermathwitch

I’d Make Room for you - Clint/Nat/Laura - perspectives of each other are important. 1/1

Course Corrections - Clint/Nat/Laura - taking care of each other 2/2 snippets into conversations/life Course Corrections (Age of Ultron Fix-It Fic)

As if you have a choice - Clint/Nat - Natasha gets pregnant. They know they can’t keep it. 3/3

The weight of us - series of 11 - my fav is ‘Seeing Red’ and ‘Sharp and Sweet’. Clint/Nat shield days

Red Flag Warning - Natasha - red is a warning colour. Clint should know.   1/1

Edgeofthegalaxy @natasha-romanoff-deserved-better

buried in your bones, i see it in your closed eyes - Natasha dissociates and its a long way back Clint/Nat 1/1

Origins - Young Natasha in the red room, of learning morality and goodness. 1/1

But even the strong can fall - Natasha goes silent on a mission, Clint knows something is very wrong. Clint/Nat 2/2

Just a Kid - sometimes Natasha doesn’t realise how messed up her childhood was. Sometimes she needs to be told. Nat/team 1/1

Collateral Damage - Natasha comes home from a mission; Tony needs to patch her up. Tony & Nat 1/1

Daughter of Rohan @natrasharomanova

Living Louder - Clint/Nat - break my heart. Origin stories.   21/21

Beside you (sequel to living louder) - Clint/Nat - shield falls. Clint and Nat find each other in the aftermath.

It’s still raining - Clint/Nat - everything happens when it’s raining.  1/1

You are a piece of me, I wish I didn’t need. Clint/Nat/Laura/family. Clint brings Nat to the farm for the first time. Healing ensues.   1/1

Impossibilities- Clint/Nat but with Pepper/Maria/Darcy and Jane - Natasha is pregnant?   1/1

Wake my spirit Cold - Clint/Nat - Christmas throughout the years -    1/1

(We could be) infinite - Clint/Nat - ENDGAME FIX IT. The soul stone split in two. No one dies.    1/1

I am not the only traveler who has not repaid his debt - Clint/Nat - ENDGAME FIX IT. Natasha dies but is alive in a multiverse. Clint dies in the alternate. They meet in the middle.     1/1

Sugarfey @sugarfey

Chrysalis - Natasha - this is how it goes and how she came to be.  Ashes series  1/3

A walk on part in the war. Natasha - Drakovs daughter is ‘saved’.  Ashes.  2/3

World on Fire - Clint (/Natasha) Clint has a history and can play the guitar.  Ashes   3/3 - my favourite part.

First Name Basis- Clint/Nat - getting to know you.    1/1

Right where I used to be - Clint/Nat - it’s Natasha’s birthday, Clint uses this to get to know her better.    1/1

Once was lost - Clint/Nat - slow burn, Natasha offers herself to him once.    1/1

Expresso is not an option - Nat/Maria - ‘you could destroy shield in a heartbeat, couldn’t you?’

Thursdays Child - Nat/fury - fury mentors Natasha-from afar.    1/1

Shelter - Clint/Nat/liho/lucky - Lucky puts one big paw on Natasha’s knee and looks at her as though she hung the sky with pizza -   1/1

Almost home - Natasha - find a mooring and settles -    1/1

Long spaces 3/3 - Natasha/Clint - natasha and Clint fit together - all the broken pieces. .  3/3

Inkvoices - @inkvoices

Smile for the living - POST ENDGAME - Natasha is brought back.     1/1

In deed- Clint/Bucky/Nat. In which dogs and deeds are discussed.    1/1

Driver chooses the music. Clint/Nat - get in the car.

On Names - Clint/Nat- she goes by many names -  1/1

AlwaysLera

Fallout Patterns - what happens when your mind is a nuclear bomb? Nat/Clint - sex is not always sex when trauma is as deep as hers -   14/14

Breathe me with your hands - Clint/Nat - navigating sex -  1/2 One Red Thread Series- Nats pov.

Hold you by the edges - 2/2 One Red Thread - Clint’s pov.

Ghosts that we knew - Clint/Nat - aftermath of the avengers. Natasha navigating the world when Clint safewords out. 15/?? Unfinished.

How the day sounds - Clint/Nat - thanksgiving throughout the years -     14/15 (?fluffy)

You were a kindness - Clint/Nat - a perfect look at the trauma of being brought in. Let herself be nothing but a branch. Let herself be nothing but stardust. Stardust could not be hurt. Stardust could not be used. Stardust could not be held.    1/1

Crashing, understanding, blinding, tumbling - Nat/Tony - plane crashes - tony takes care of Natasha whilst blinded -    1/1

Two plus two is five - Clint/Nat - how do you test a concussion? Two plus two is five in large quantities of two.   1/1

Into the dark (song fic) - team after harrowing mission watch Clint and Natasha dance - 1/1

The ocean carry you home - team- pepper is pregnant, Natasha doesn’t cope well with the news. Yellow blue bus.    1/1

Enigma731 @enigma731

Something just like this - Clint/Nat - Clint is depressed. Natasha doesn’t know how to help.    1/1

Going to the Chapel. Clint/Nat - get married in Budapest and have sex.

September - Tony/Nat bonding - Tony makes a memory machine to cure ptsd, Natasha helps.   1/1

Everything Costs - Clint/Nat- Natasha keeps getting hurt on missions, Clint wants to know why.  1/1

That’s way you showed me (I wasn’t quite so alone) - Clint/Nat - 3 christmas’ -    1/1

Prompts (some lovely short 1 shorts) - team assorted -   13/?

It starts with Time - Natasha - Natasha goes looking for her family -   1/1

The war I can’t win - Natasha/Clint - Clint gets injured. Natasha is his support.  1/1 (it mentions Occupational Therapy this is a winner)

We are not shining stars - Natasha/Laura + Clint - Clint dies (fair warning) it’s all Natasha can do to cope.    1/1

Unpack your heart - Clint/Nat - in the beginning they left post it notes -   1/1

Hearts and Bones and Blood - Natasha/Clint - Clint saves Natasha from mental health services when she first comes to shield. Because sometimes she gets lost in her own head.

What Girls are Made of - Nat/team - 5x Natasha has unconventional means of flying.    1/1

Ghost Towns - Clint/Nat - Natasha has memories implanted in her head, shield medical and Clint try to help.   1/1

The glass parade - Steve /Natasha - he watches her become different people.  1/1

Slipsthrufingers

Cleanliness Is Next To… - Nat/Clint- Or Five Memorable Showers Clint Barton and Natasha Have Had, and One Time There Was a Bath Instead. -  1/1

The more you know - Clint/Nat - this is what they learn first (or Natasha is not what is written in her file) -  1/1

Perspectives - Nat/team - perspective and interpretations; what do you see?

OracleGlass

safe as houses - Clint/Nat - what makes them go to a nonshield safehouse?

The clutch of circumstance - Clint/Nat- he helps her start. 1/1

Ranni

Voluntary Procedure - Clint and Natasha agree to be mind wiped. The others are not happy - Clint/Nat/Team 6/6

Stronghold - Natasha and Clint shut down their various safehouse. Clint/Nat (team) 1/1

Spy Vs Spy (recced by Anon) - Clint & Coulson & Natasha - Natasha Romanov was the most beautiful person in the room and nobody asked her to dance. 2/2

Paperairplanesopenwindows @paperairplanesopenwindows

On the first day of Christmas - Clint/Nat/Laura- Laura wants to celebrate, Clint and Nat aren’t so sure - 1/1

A little to the left - Clint/Nat/Laura - she’s Natasha but a little to the left (POST ENDGAME) -   4/4

Family Togetherness Time - Clint/Nat/Laura - Steve gets concerned about Nat and turns to the people he thinks can help. 3/3

Eauline

In every lifetime I choose you - Nat/Steve - Natasha gets captured to get to Steve. 11/11

MillyVeil

Burn baby, burn. Clint/Nat - Clint saves Natasha from heatstroke. 1/1

Teamwork - Clint/Nat - fuck or die, Clint’s not ok but Natasha is. He doesn’t understand. -   2/2

Other people - Clint/Nat- she’s up for some monkey sex until she’s not.    2/2

altheterrible @altheterrible

Shining white in the sun - Natasha - Clint dies, Natasha tries to cope. She doesn’t do it very well. 7/7

tastes - team - different tastes in points in time - 1/1

strix_alba

places to go, people to be- Natasha - Natasha gets to decide who she really is after the fall of shield 1/1

[mslaevateinn]

Laevateinn’s Stucky Bingo Masterpost

My masterpost for the @stuckybingo​

Name: Laevateinn Card number: SB022

It’s a blackout with twenty squares and five adoptables! I made ten moodboards (some with ficlets), used five Round Robin entries and the rest is split between short stories and longer fics!

Square filled: B1: Writing format: Outsider POV Work: Lady's dads are getting married Rating: T Major tags: pov Natasha, Wedding, Canon divergent from Endgame, Set in a universe where Steve didn't go back, Tony is alive, Natasha is alive, Steve and Bucky retired Summary: Finally, it's the big day. Follow Natasha and the boys' dog Lady on this joyful day. Word count: 1.9k

Square filled: B2: First date Work: Stucky Bingo September 2021 Round Robin Rating: G Major tags: AU Coffee shop and cafés, AU No Powers, Meet Cute, Pets, Fluff Summary: Steve's job in a coffee shop is suddenly made better when he meets his new favorite customer, a glowering man who goes by J.B. Word count: 350

Square filled: B3: AU: Set in a different country Work: Once upon a time, in a faraway land... Rating: G Major tags: Mermay, moodboard, mermen Steve and Bucky

Square filled: B4: Writing format: Third person Work: Lazy Morning Rating: T Major tags: pure fluff, Domestic, retired Steve and Bucky, Alpine is a little devil, Inspired by Fanart Summary: After a bad night, all Steve wants is to be able to be there for Bucky. That starts with breakfast. Word count: 1.9k

Square filled: B5: Brock Rumlow Work: Unpleasant encounter Rating: G Major tags: Politics, Modern AU, moodboard Summary: Bucky did not expect his second public outing with Steve to turn out like this.

Square filled: I1: AU: Fantasy setting Work: New York's oldest families Rating: T Major tags: Vampires, AU: Fantasy setting, Masquerade ball, moodboard Summary: Every year, New York's oldest families reunite for a night where rivalries are put aside. Not just any families, however, only the ones with … certain gifts. Word count: 400

Square filled: I2: Visiting the moon Work: We went on the moon! Rating: G Major tags: Moodbard, spaceship, Moon, married and retired Steve and Bucky Summary: Shortly after they come back from their trip to the Moon, Steve and Bucky print some pictures to put in their home.

Square filled: I3: Stark Tower Work: Happy New Year! Rating: T Major tags: Mistletoe, Stucky through the years Summary: It’s the new year, and there’s mistletoe everywhere. Bucky reminisces. Word count: 858

Square filled: I4: Rivalry Work: Captain America vs the Winter Soldier Rating: G Major tags: Hockey AU, Modern AU, Russian Bucky Barnes, Olympics final, moodboard

Square filled: I5: "I can do this all day" Work: Stucky Bingo October 2021 Round Robin Rating: M Major tags: AU: Modern Setting, AU: No Powers, Mechanic Bucky Barnes, Pre-Serum Steve Rogers, Halloween Costumes, Party, Established Relationship Summary: Not even exhaustion from Bucky's job as a mechanic can stop his boyfriend Steve and him from donning a creative couples costume for Tony's Halloween party. Word count: 314 (my part)

Square filled: N1:  Helmut Zemo (replacing Major injuries) Work: Stucky Bingo November 2021 Round Robin Rating: T Major tags: AU: Apocalypse, Established relationship, Minor injuries, Bucky's pov, Steve and Bucky VS the rest of the world Summary:  They’ve been together forever, but now that there are only a few people left in this hellscape of a planet, Bucky’s even more grateful for Steve Rogers. Word count: 300 (my part)

Square filled: N1: Friends with benefits (replacing Depression beard) Work:  What are 'friends with benefits'? Rating: M Major tags:  Flashbacks, Post-Avengers (2012), Pre-Captain America: The Winter Soldier, Angst, Hurt No Comfort Summary: A team-bonding moment leads Steve to realise something about his relationship with Bucky during the war. Word count: 1.7k

Square filled: N3: Free Work: The Pianist Rating: G Major tags: Musician AU, Modern Bucky, Pianist Bucky, Political animals inspired Summary: Steve decided to get a drink at a bar to relax… then found himself instantly drawn to the pianist as soon as the man stepped on stage. Word count: Moodboard + 325

Square filled: N4: Kink: Shower sex Work: Valse à trois temps (chapter 2) Pairings: (fic) Steve/Bucky, Steve/Natasha, Bucky/Natasha, Steve/Bucky/Natasha Rating: M Major tags: Presumed dead & Undercover missions, polyamory, canon divergent after CACW, shower sex, oral sex Warnings: discussion of past abuse, and canon level of violence in the fic in general Summary: Bucky, Natasha and Steve transfer to another safehouse. The boys have some alone time, Natasha is sick, they finally talk and get a lead. Word count: 5.9k (chapter)

Square filled: N5: Voyeurism (replacing Legacy) Work: Going swimming was worth it, in the end Rating: M Major tags: Swimming pool, locker room, college AU, voyeurism, Darcy pov Summary: Darcy is on her way home from the swimming pool when she hears something strange coming from the men’s locker room. Word count: 1.3k

Square filled: G1: AU: Mythical creatures (replacing AU: Soulmates) Work: Just spread your wings and fly Rating: M Major tags: Moodboard, Fairies, Villain of the week, crackfic, Steve and Bucky are changed into fairies, they have a lot of fun with the new bodies Summary: “We’re fairies!” “Well, yes. I thought we established that long ago.” Or, In which Steve and Bucky are turned into fairies by some wanna-be sorcerer, the team freaks out, jokes about fairies are made, and the boys discover some fun advantages to their situation. Word count: 1.3k + moodboard

Square filled: G2: Kink: riding Work: A lacey surprise Rating: E Major tags: Bucky's birthday, Fluff and Smut, Lingerie, Plugs, Dom/sub Undertones Summary: Bucky’s day starts slowly. He awakens with the sun on his face, warmth surrounding him. The sheets are soft on his skin and he feels rested. -- Bucky's birthday starts slowly. It continues peacefully with Steve in the morning, then with his friends for lunch and in the afternoon. The evening starts as a relaxing one too, but that was without counting on Steve. Word count: 3.6k

Square filled: G3: Don't do anything stupid until I get back Work: The nicest house around Rating: T Major tags: Christmas Lights, Super soldiers shenanigans Summary: Putting up Christmas lights outside of the house should be easy for two supersoldiers... right? Word count: 462

Square filled: G4: America's ass Work: Stucky Bingo March 2022 Round Robin Rating: T Major tags: Retirement, Missions Gone Wrong, Self-Esteem Issues, Pranks and Practical Jokes Summary: When a mission goes wrong, Bucky takes Steve up on his offer to do something neither were planning. Word count: 350 (my part)

Square filled: G5: Letters Work: Three little letters Rating: G Major tags: Eurovision, Musician AU, Ireland, Romania, meet cute Summary: Steve was nervous. It wasn’t the fault of the competition. No, that… he didn’t mind much. He had already won by being chosen back home. No, what was making him nervous, was another contestant. Word count: Moodboard + 200

Square filled: O1: Natasha Romanov (replacing Spies) Work: Stucky Bingo April 2022 Round Robin Rating: T Major tags: Avengers Family, Battle, Wizards, Crack Treated Seriously, Fluff and Crack Summary: During a battle against a wizard, Steve turns a little green, and Bucky wonders what's gotten into his man. Word count: 350 (my part)

Square filled: O2: Long distance Work: Only a week and a half? Rating: G Major tags: Pining, Postcards, moodboard, Modern AU Summary: Steve sorts through his mail and finds a letter from Bucky who is visiting family. Word count: Moodboard + 285

Square filled: O3: AU: Cap Bucky Work: Aye Aye Captain Rating: G Major tags: Pirates AU, Captain Bucky, moodboard Summary: The adventures of Captain Barnes and his motley crew

Square filled: O4: Disguises Work: Stucky meets Destiel... sort of Rating: T Major tags: College AU, Halloween parties, Couples Costumes, Stucky meets Destiel, fun and fluff Summary: Steve, Bucky, Natasha and Sam are invited to the Odinsons Halloween party. Shenanigans ensue Word count: 2.2k

Square filled: O5: Kink: nipple play Work: Threefold Pairings: Steve/Bucky, Steve/Natasha, Bucky/Natasha, Steve/Bucky/Natasha Rating: E Major tags: established relationship, polyamory, Dom/sub dynamics, Femdom, service top, impact play, fluff and smut, 2+1 sort of, Nat pov, art, soap art, embedded images Warnings: N/A (but read the tags on AO3 if you have squicks) Summary: Three hits to the heart son And it's poetry in motion Three hits to the heart son And the last one sings in me * * * When people have been and seen as much as Natasha, Bucky and Steve have, their relationship is bound to be special. Follow the trio as their find out how they can take care of each other through kink. Summary lyrics from "Three Hits" by the Indigo Girls. Written by Amy Ray. Word count: 9.5k

[magnificent-buckless-butt]

This was free serotonin episode! [Tfatws episode 5]

Idk what I can say about this episode like, it was just all the scenes I've been dying to see since episode 1, one after the other.

Sambucky vs Walker. First of, holy shit the cinematography. The mood, the camera angles, Wyatt's acting... Incredible! Second, holy shit the fight. You know how damn good Marvel is at hand-to-hand combat? But at the same you know the bad guy can't ever win? My dudes, I was stressed. For real. I almost stopped breathing when Bucky was out and Walker was trying to murder Sam. I might have screamed out of fear when he ripped the wings. 1000/100, never been so invested in a fight before.

Regarding the conversation prior to the fight: Sam really went all his way out to empathise with Walker and even help him. We stan one hell of a kind Cap.

Torres makes a come back. Always appreciated.

Sam said "keep the wings." No sir, I do not like the idea of you being Cap without also being the Falcon.

Walker got sent home. We really thought they'll defend him, who knew? But seeing him in this situation was so fucking good. (Tho he was right in the way he is the product of the military.)

Was that Comtesse Val the cameo? Idk who that actress is but the lady is consoling Walker which is the last fucking thing I want to see. She's the real villain of the show.

Bucky delivers Zemo to the Dora Milaje. Ayo calls him White Wolf again but asks him not to come back to Wakanda for a while. Bucky is humble. I hope this put an end to the fucking discourse.

He's asking for a last favor: for them to welcome Isaiah?

Sam went to talk with Isaiah alone. Isaiah mentioned the tetanus so we're really looking at the Tuskegee Experiment here. Also "my boys were captured and the army considered them doomed but I went there alone and saved them?" Yeah, just say you pull off a Steve Rogers in Azzano but since you were black it didn't end up the same way. Not even subtle and I liked it very much.

Bucky casually showing up at Sam's doorstep. The Wakandan favor is new vibranium wings for Sam, I call dibs on it.

Also, not even gonna mention how I ADORED every second of all those scenes. We really got domestic sambucky and it cured my depression.

"Sharon is Power Broker" theory is reallyyyyy tempting now ngl

Walker having the nerves to lie to Lemar's parents. But also, Lemar's sister seems like having none of his shit.

Sam's training montage. I, um, might have stared at those biceps. Also those fricking acrobatics? CAN SOMEONE TELL ME IF THAT WAS ANTHONY MACKIE? CAN THE MAN REALLY DO THAT?

In short: it was a very calm episode, felt like a nice refreshing breathe. And it ruined my business in fanfictions because I got everything I wanted. Good job Marvel.

[shadowglens]

3, 12, 18, 41, 42 for delaney/johnny and lyssa/bucky 🤓

3. how do their friends feel about their relationship?

delaney/johnny — i feel like most of del’s friends were incredibly skeptical. vik and panam were both less than happy about the development, especially panam who saw how badly johnny leaving del in the direct aftermath of mikoshi fucked with her. judy and misty were much more open to the idea, and kerry was caught in this weird spae of being close friends with both of them but knowing neither of them were particularly healthy people ahdfsgjfgsd. it takes a while for most of del’s friends to warm up to johnny, and there’s always a certain level of uncertainty with people like vik and panam. 

lyssa/bucky — most of their friends are pretty supportive of the idea. most of their inner circle (steve, nat, sam) had seen it coming a mile off and were excited for them, whereas it was a bit of a shock to some of their less close friends. tony wasn’t happy about it just for the sake of causing drama. livia was very excited to finally get the chance to talk about lyssa’s love life! 

12. how do they act in public vs in private?

delaney/johnny — pretty much the same, maybe a tiny bit softer in private. johnny gets stuck in this weird mindset where he feels like he needs to put on a bit of a facade i public, whereas in private he can let himself be vulnerable with del. there’s definitely no shame with these two about pda or being overly overt about their relationship in public though - anyone who comes within a certain radius of them will easily be able to tell their in a relationship.

lyssa/bucky — much more reserved in public! bucky likes his privacy and the old man in him likes to reserve all his proper affection for in private. lyssa isn’t too fussed either way, but is more than willing to go along with whatever bucky wants. 

18. how long was their flirting phase?

delaney/johnny — fairly long. they didn’t become an official couple until about 6~7 months post game, because johnny was an emotionally constipated asshole who ran away the second he got his body back, and del was so depressed and death-ridden that she left night city with panam to get some sun and fresh air. even when they reunite there’s a lot of fighting and flirting before they eventually reconcile. 

lyssa/bucky — most of the time they spent together before the snap was just as friends, with maybe some internal attraction brewing but no actual flirting. bucky was focused on healing his mind, and lyssa was didn’t want to interrupt or overstep. once things go back to some semblance of normal and they both realise that there’s more than friendship between them (or at least, the potential for it) the flirting starts. in all honesty, they make the shift from friends to partners pretty quickly. 

41. how do their flaws clash?

delaney/johnny — terribly! they are both so fucked up and have such toxic coping mechanisms! its a mess! johnny is self destructive and arrogant and selfish, and del is prone to vices and needy and far too quick to bite back. it takes them a long time to find a place where they’re not just ruining each other more, takes a long time to unlearn some bad habits and accept a good thing when its given to them. 

lyssa/bucky — both of them tend to carry guilt and hide within themselves a little, which was a bit of a problem in the beginning when neither of them were very inclined to open up, but lyssa’s stubborness and bucky’s curiosity eventually got the better of them. apart from that, they’re pretty similar and don’t tend to clash too much.

42. why do you enjoy writing them?

delaney/johnny — cause they’re an absolute mess adhfhfd. they’re codependent and fight constantly but also love each other so much. it’s a fun combination!

lyssa/bucky — because they’ve both spent their entire lives as tools to be used and cause destruction, and are both trying to learn what it means to be soft and loved and have room to rest.