#brokenbutnotdefeated

[abeautifuldisaster2023]

Just started this new blog as I lost my other one due to my phone being stolen and I can’t remember the password 😞,

This one will be about my life and my current experiences. I’m 36 years old and I am indigenous . I was placed into foster care as a baby and adopted so I’ve never really been connected to my culture , and never set foot on a reservation .

I’ve faced many struggles in my life , and have dealt with discrimination-hate most unknowingly (I just always thought there was something wrong with me ). I recently lost my child due to forced removal by DHHS and feel the pain immensely . As generational trauma from my ancestors before me faced this .

I have been dealing with hate and discrimination in my town for years , and most recently feel discriminated by our police departments. I lost my apartment while incarcerated for 2 months in our county jail . (And I was arrested by a police officer who said I was intoxicated but never even breathalyzer me , released on bail and re-arrested for the same violation via warranted and unnecessarily jailed ) As a result I lost everything I owned in my apartment .

I was fortunate to have some help from family and friends when I got out , to get me some cloths and moral support.

The case manager at the jail failed to help me with referrals to homeless shelters, or a brap voucher despite my asking , he wanted to wait until we got closer to court date which was 6/20. I was let out of jail unexpectedly, with no where to go and little resources .

My child is in the care of his paternal family and I’m fighting DHHS to get my child back . I have alot of barriers , and over the top requirements to get my child back and DHHS never went over my reunification plan with me , and designated requirements without my input .

I miss my child immensely and I can not describe the pain that I feel , being without my child ,and not being able to be there for him .

( In my eyes , DHHS are certified kidnappers)

They judge by what they read on paper , without getting to know the parent or understand life struggles . Im by no means a perfect parent , but I loved my child deeply and was a good mom. My child is now traumatized by the force removal . He had also just lost his father 6 months prior and DHHS should of done everything they could to avoid removal . (I was on waitlists for counseling and case management for months )

My child was taken after reports of concerns of my “mental health “ after losing my child’s father to overdose in April of 2022 (we were not together )

My story is filled with hurt , pain , trauma , and loss . But I am determined to turn it around and get my child back although facing significant barriers to do so .

[maveric-works-list]

Echoes of Struggle:

A Journey Through Anxiety

In the shadows of despair, I tread,

Each day a burden, heavy as lead.

Twenty miles I walked, my feet worn,

Fired from work, my spirit torn.

Seeking solace in the library's embrace,

But even there, I can't find grace.

For my broken computer mocks my plight,

A year of silence, no end in sight.

Repair shops refuse, their promises vain,

Lies upon lies, my patience wanes.

Stuck in this cycle, unable to flee,

Anxiety grips, consuming me.

Blacklisted from jobs, a bleak landscape,

Locksmiths deceive, adding to my scrape.

Resistors in my pocket, a glimmer of hope,

Yet doubts linger, like shadows lope.

If they work, a chance to roam,

In search of a haven, a new home.

A computer shop in a distant town,

A flicker of light, before I drown.

But for now, in the depths I'll dwell,

Sleeping for solace, in a silent spell.

Eighteen hours of peace, a fleeting reprieve,

In this world of chaos, I seek to believe.

[jmikepatt]

Searching for Strength: A Broken Man's Journey

Searching for answers...

What does the Bible say about being broken?

There’s a difference between a broken man… and a broken loyal man who fights.

They both have a story, but not the same ending.

Proverbs 24:16 "For though the righteous fall seven times, they rise again…

Being broken doesn’t define us… but how we rise does.

Even when we break, it’s the will to fight that shapes our story.

Keep searching. Keep fighting.

In our darkest moments, we find the strength to rise.

Enjoy the day you create.

#JMikePatt #RiseAgain #StrengthInFaith #Proverbs24v16 #BrokenButNotDefeated #EnjoyTheDayYouCreate

[maganeen]

Healed #animationmeme #memes #gacha

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[boutbetties]

@cynister_604 we hope you’re plenty healed by now! We love that you cared about good fashion at a time like that 🙃 ❤️ #brokenbetties . . My new derby pants make me happy. #brokenbutnotdefeated

[corsoanderson]

Found this going through my hard drive from last year photo shoot with @jowwws ! One of my favorite pictures! Foto do ano passado no Japão 🇯🇵! #nagasaki #2017 #brazilian #me #thelovethatremains #beardsofinstagram #beardandtattoos #whenyoulookatyourself #andthereisnothingleft #brokentoy #brazuca #postingformyself #porqueavidaéloucamano #karmaisabitch #brokenbutnotdefeated https://www.instagram.com/p/BqahBvQBn9Q/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=3bu48hfaix6z

[swashindustries]

So hyped on this @zombieboardshop exclusive colorway of @simply.sherman.ratz pro model from @charactersk8. Available now at Zombie Boardshop 🧟‍♀️ #BrokenButNotDefeated #ShermanTank #zombieboardshop (at Zombie Boardshop) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqVWtmjlxva/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=103wyokih8e1m

[robinflies]

Just finished reading “Educated” by Tara Westover. I can’t put into words what I feel after reading it. What a life. What an incredible inspiration. #educatedbytarawestover #educatedtarawestover #tarawestover #burningheart #heartbreak #brokenbutnotdefeated #desperatelydrawingdaily https://www.instagram.com/p/BpgFvuRHQdK/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=hrm4ibekdc4z

[theprodigaldaughtersworld]

Clay is malleable but has no feelings. As God is making me over I am very aware of my feelings. The feelings of regret as I am looking back over the choices that led me to this season. The shame that permeates the atmosphere when I remember who I was and I have to fight to remember old things have passed away and all things have become new. The joy of knowing He loves me enough to compel me to move forward past the past. To take that step of faith and embrace what is uncomfortable, so that I may not just live out my purpose, but possess the courage to accept that I am purposed. I don't need the validation of many just the grace from One who loves me enough to hold me in His arms and say "Get back on the wheel and begin again". I am His. I am loved. Not forgotten or forsaken. Not thrown away or cast aside. Hidden from the criticism and the naysayers as He plunges me into the fire to purify and solidify me. Knowing that I will emerge whole and victorious. I will no longer be broken and defeated. The enemy will not be able to keep my head hung in shame. I will stand and boldly proclaim my freedom and deliverance. I will declare His word wherever He leads so that other broken people will have the courage and tenacity to be crushed and made over again. #crushedbutnotobliterated #brokenbutnotdefeated #purposedandpassionate #notmeanttofitanymold #alwayspreachingtomyself #hiddengemsarevaluable2

[vincyspeaks]

Keep shining. #brokenbutnotdefeated #keepyourheadup

[crimsonheight]

#brokenwomangingertea #letitsaveyou #ironicteadrinking #brokenbutnotdefeated

[charleyblank26]

https://www.facebook.com/events/124447761575687/?ti=cl https://www.gofundme.com/i-need-a-new-furniture #Halloween2017 #BrokenbutNotDefeated #SarcoidosisDisease #ChronicIllness #InvisibleIllness #WeAreFightingEverydayToStayAlive #BlessedEverydayWeAreHere #WeNeedACure #Hoping4ACure #Snowflakes #sarcoidosisawareness #caregiver #LoveonewithSarcoidosisDisease @charleyblank26

[schizovampire]

The fifth beauty!

[jmikepatt]

Searching for Strength: A Broken Man's Journey

Enjoy the day you create.

#JMikePatt #RiseAgain #StrengthInFaith #Proverbs24v16 #BrokenButNotDefeated #EnjoyTheDayYouCreate

[obiehn-blog]

Oh dang is an alternate title. Just some behid the scenes, the industry probably doesn’t want you to know

[solesrchr]

Reposted from @powerliftingrvt Broke in my SBD belt and SBD stiff wrist wraps. Let me tell you COMPLETE game changer when it comes to my bench press. Here's why I think that: for those of you who know me I've probably mentioned or you were with me when I went through all the testing for abdominal pain. I have a condition called malrotation basically my insides don't look like yours do, it happens in 1 out of 500 babies and it is developmental defect. I also have a hernia in the bottom of my surgery scar from the above when they had to figure out where my appendix was in that mess and I have a mass that's developed in that same scar in the last 3 years- it makes me scared to arch. My Strength Shop belt was amazing- I still love it, it is great for when I need it. However, I've lost a bunch of weight again with current changes to my home life. This new belt is like the Goldilocks where it fits just right to give me enough support to not be terrified to arch. Also, let's be honest the not having to unscrew anything to change tightness is amazing! The stiff wraps were needed as well because my wrists were rolling under the increased weight. I'm so excited to see what the next couple of weeks bring! . Thank you if you read this full long thing. Hope everyone is doing well! Happy Hump Day! . #sbdgear #sbd #bench #benchpress #benchpresswithchains #powerliftingtraining #powerliftingwomen #powerliftingladies #powerliftingmotivation #powerlifter #powerliftinglife #powerlifting #powerliftingRVT #humpday #newgear #duffalobar #findyournewworld #100percentvikingmade #trainlikeaviking #empowermentproject #anxietywillnotwin #malrotationawareness #brokenbutnotdefeated (at Viking Strength Sports) https://www.instagram.com/p/CA_d6SLjwc9/?igshid=4j55mg7gju1c