#brain so full I can’t sleep

[firewoodwander]

My brain is so FULL with wanting to write, it always gets like this around this time of year, either winter is my Writing Time or it’s because I have so much other shit to do, anyhow what a shame it is that I have so many DEADLINES

[wastingstarsss]

Actually it’s late and I need to be asleep HOWEVER I AM HAVING THOUGHTS about Rumbelle. I feel like we’ve all just collectively glossed over the fact that Rum and Belle were separated for 30 years. That’s a long time dude. And no-no-no- they weren’t just separated. He believed, fully, wholeheartedly believed, that she was dead. FOR THIRTY YEARS. He mourned her, he grieved for her, he kept his love for her locked away inside for all those days and nights. And then Belle, sweet, sweet Belle. She spends a bit of time adventuring and getting out there and good for her! I love that for her! She deserved that. And then she gets trapped. How long do you think she was in Regina’s castle, stuck there wondering, will she ever see him again? And then she is amnesiac for 28 years. Do you think, when she woke up from the curse, do you think she thought for a moment that she was dreaming- that she was still in that little cell, locked up and alone and thinking of the man she loved? Do you think she’d thought of him so often that when she woke from the curse and saw him there, that she thought he was just another dream? And then the mental fog lifted and she realised oh- oh- he looks… different. His curse has lifted- who lifted his curse? But does that matter? Does it even matter? Because she’s been holding her love for him inside for so long and she just has to let it out, she has to tell him no matter the consequences. She finally found her way back to him, she won’t let that go, and Rumple? Sweet, grieving Rumple, he hears her say that she loves him and it’s like oh. He can let himself believe it this time. Not many people are lucky enough to get a second chance but he not only has that, she’s essentially been bought back to life, it’s like she’s been reanimated and given another go at it. She was dead, not physically but in his eyes she was dead, and suddenly she’s not anymore- and she’s with him, alive and saying that she loves him. And it’s so true in her eyes and in her hands, in the way she touches him so gently, in how she’s not afraid to be with him. To be soft with him.

Ugh it’s just… 30 years, dude. 30 years. For some people that’s half a lifetime.

[freeuselandonorris]

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[carsickcrow]

self portrait / outfit of the day. werewolf boygirl. this is flipped from what i actually look like because i forgot that things on my right are other people’s left…

[ghost-proofbaby]

does your entire existence ever just ache so much you wish you could disappear

[mazojo]

I want to die

[machiavellli]

what’s up with me and plane crashing dreams. perhaps my life long obsession with the show air crash investigations is hitting or smth

[sparfloxacin]

hi, your Olli/Allu delivery is here!! 🥰💕

AAAAAAA thank you!! 😭💕

aren’t they the cutest, I wonder what Olli is thinking about 🥺 💗

[sorchathered]

I swear with how often I say “I’m not as dumb as I look” you’d think one of these days I’d believe my own BS. Jesus take the wheel the blonde is blonding tonight and I clearly need to just give up and go to bed.

[asteria-argo]

It’s 1am and for some reason my brain has decided to be stressed about dnd

[pepprs]

currently.

[hafwen]

Tonight when I went in our room to sleep Timmy was sleeping on my husbands head which which is so bittersweet because that was Ollie’s spot

[minakoainosupremacy]

I’m sad, I’ve had a bunch of fun cool ideas sitting in the back of my head since like new years which I wanted to use for rare pair week, but like life has been kicking my ass so I didn’t have time to even start anything and now it’s over :( guess they will just keep living in my head until next year

[flutterby5]

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[mcnuggyy]

Hard time sleeping and ran out of melatonin :-(