#both duos in denial of their true feelings

[alexmae79]

Felix and Oswald going to a “ friends outing “ on Valentine’s day ( date ) and coincidentally sees Cuphead and Bendy at the place they’re having dinner at for the same reasons and ends up becoming a double date

[keyotos]

if this was a movie

summary — your book trope w/ hsr men!

includes — dan heng, gepard, blade, sampo, & jing yuan

tana's words — i watched project x and let me tell you I WANT THOMAS SO BAD. something about a skinny nerdy white guy will ALWAYS GET ME. and then it inspired me to write different tropes bc project x is very 2010s trope type shi

also check out my note at the end!

dan heng

⎯ you guys are: grumpy x sunshine

⎯ i feel like out of all grumpyxsunshine duos you and dan heng would be the most chaotic grumpyxsunshine because to some extent the both of you are equally as unhinged.

⎯ if you ever need someone to pull you back when you get too erratic? leave it to dan heng! if dan heng needs someone to make him not sound as assholeish? leave it to you! you two balance each other out in the most perfect way

⎯the two of you reminds me of that one tiktok sound where it's like

"that's just the way he sounds, he has an asshole voice. tell him he's okay."

"everything's great."

"dude."

⎯ you two are my FAVORITE kind of grumpyxsunshine couple because you two are both so chaotic??

⎯ your energy is just so bouncy?? like you can bounce all over the place and you're just so energetic and he's over here like meh...

needless to say, he does appreciate your energy. most of the time, he usually fuels it (he says something purposefully boring bc you always refute his his boring response). your entire being makes him smile (which is rare), and that's why you guys work out so well.

and to add to my point, dan heng is just as important to you as well. you have a lot of energy, which is a good thing, but sometimes it can lead to distraction/erratic behavior/etc. dan heng is always the person who tugs you back to earth. he's your rock in every situation: he's the logical reasoning behind your ideas, he's your pragmatist, and he's your gravity, keeping you still and calm when needed.

— and i also wanted to indulge more in my hc that you and dan heng are so chaotic together

he doesn't shut down your ideas. he just adds logical reasoning to them. those are two very different things. if you have a good idea (you usually do) that sounds reasonable (it doesn't even have to be extremely reasonable either), he'll full on encourage it.

— so you could literally have the most random and out of pocket idea ever, and as long as you back it up with some evidence (doesn't even have to be good), dan heng will approve. i think that's true love.

⎯ such a chaotic duo like you would sacrifice yourself for the world but HE would definitely sacrifice the world for you.

gepard

⎯ you guys are enemies to lovers

⎯ ik a lot of people expect like friends to lovers or something softer but NO you guys are enemies to lovers.

⎯ gepard is so HEADSTRONG and STUBBORN which is why i think he’s the perfect person for the enemies to lovers trope. like ofc his love is going to be so sweet and kind later, but the beginning…

you two are both going to be very determined and you will both fight for what you believe in. that passion makes you two such a good couple, and it also makes your love exhilarating and ongoing, bc that stubbornness you two share will never go away.

you guys definitely have silly little banter and those moments where you guys accidentally brush hands and you guys both blush. lingering touches that may insinuate another feeling that gets you hot

⎯ but you two are like stubborn af. so no confessing anytime soon! it would definitely be a slow burn romance because of your stubbornness and you two are just in denial

⎯ i want to talk a bit more abt you two being enemies: i guess you ideals differ because gepard is so devoted to his orders while you are more of a carefree spirit. you’re more of a rule breaker and he’s more of a rule follower.

⎯ at first you would have rather died than ever spoke to him. his uptight nature and the way he acted so proper utterly pissed you off. serval would have to be the only way you could converse w/ gepard w/o biting his head off

⎯ in the end, after some forced proximity, you two would def be developing some feelings.

⎯ with enemies to lovers, there will be lots of pining. which is why i think enemies to lovers is the perfect gepard trope.

since he’s captain of the silvermane guards at such a young age, he probably doesn’t have a lot of experience in the relationship department. so he’s stuck dealing with being hopelessly and utterly in love with you

everything abt the enemies to lovers trope describes your relationship. the initial hatred, the touches, the PINING, the middle ground.

⎯ after you guys have like a hot make out session i think all the feelings will be cleared up (LMAO)

blade

⎯ your trope is: second chance romance

hear me out: you guys both met in the past because you two were both stellaron hunters. however, the paths you two chose were different. you two were so in love with each other, but destiny had other plans.

now we are in the present, where blade sees you once again, and all his feelings come crashing back down into him. everything he’s suppressed about you: your face, your smile, your laugh; it’s all coming back up

⎯ ARE YOU GUYS SEEING THE VISION!!!!

⎯ you guys make your first encounter, and (depending on your own scenario) it either ends in longing or pain. blade hasn’t seen you in (probably) years.

when you end up spending more time together, the tension is THICK. old feelings are obviously not gone. body language is all pointing to you. breathing gets faster and why do you really want to kiss him????

⎯ something abt intense pining and sexual tension just gets me y’all

there’s obviously past feelings in the air, and none of you want to acknowledge it. so, you two suffice on brushing each others’ hands when you walk past each other, long stares from across the room, and watching each other’s every move.

between the both of you, you would make the first move. it’d be like an accident; it would be one of those movie scenes where the girl/guy asks, “is this weird?” and the guy goes IN and he’s like “not at all.”

⎯ and then the next day you both are freaking out bc what if fails like last time??

idk something about longing and missing someone dearly just screams blade to me. the thought of someone on your mind 24/7. blade having you on his mind 24/7??

sampo

⎯ you guys are: fake dating

⎯ i’m a little on the fence but hear me out

⎯ you two agree to fake dating because it’s both mutually beneficial. it would be no strings attached. plus, you would be able to get away from that one guy who keeps flirting with you, and sampo has evidence that he can commit to something.

⎯ but when does “no strings attached” turn to more?

suddenly, the once friendly arm around the shoulder makes your heart beat quicker. the wink he always gives you makes your stomach explode with butterflies. the friendly offering of a rose makes you blush more than you should.

you aren't the only one affected. sampo swears he feels his heart skip multiple beats after he hears you laugh at one of his jokes. when you took his hand into yours once (it was an act to fool others), his heart nearly stopped in his chest. and suddenly he finds himself making more quips and trying to get closer to you, even though he knows the risks.

⎯ now, you both are left confused with your feelings bc BOTH OF U DON'T WANT TO MESS IT UP.

⎯ you both did not think it would turn out this way. before this, you were friends making a beneficial agreement. you guys were fine.

⎯ that is a lie. i just lied. you guys always had some thought about dating each other. sometimes sampo looked a little too good, and sometimes sampo found your eyes a little too mesmerizing…

back to present time. there is so much tension to the point where you both want to explode. and then there are thoughts. maybe you want sampo to be your boyfriend for real. maybe sampo does want commitment. scratch that, because he doesn’t want commitment. he wants you. he just wants you, and that’s all.

⎯ now how do you confess? or do you just hold in the feelings

jing yuan

⎯ CHILDHOOD FRIENDS TO LOVERS. I WILL NOT BE ELABORATING BC THIS HAS BEEN IN MY HEAD FOR A WHILE.

⎯ ik he was training hard asf in his childhood, but that doesn’t mean u couldn’t have snuck in (i haven’t got far enough in the game to know if you can or not LOL)

⎯ you guys are cute little buddies, because the both of you probably had no friends! and bc of that, an adorable bond formed between the two of you.

growing up, that bond would remain unchanged. even though you lived down w/ everyone else while jing yuan was living seclusively, that never stopped you from seeing him

honestly, you thought you were always going to be best friends. but when someone asked you if you were ever going to get a boyfriend, you realized that the only person you could really see yourself with was jing yuan.

⎯ teenage you had a CRISIS. like you were freaking out after you uncovered your recent revelation. bc you can’t see yourself w ANY GUY EXCEPT YOUR BEST FRIEND??? YOU WANT TO DATE YOUR BEST FRIEND????

⎯ you think you are the only one that feels this way but it’s a LIE. bc JING YUAN FEELS THE EXACT SAME WAY.

after his training, once he rests, his mind constantly flutters to you. sometimes he scolds himself for not focusing on criticism or improvements because he’s too distracted by the fact that you’ll be coming over that day. his thoughts are literally you.

⎯ there was a period in time where you both thought about confessing, however, the whole fiasco w/ his mentor got into the way of that. it was messy, it was sad, and it was not a good time for the both of you. bc of that, you two both set back your feelings due to personal reasons (you wanted him to be emotionally better, he didn’t want to be a burden).

it was years later when you two confessed your feelings for each other. you two were both looking at a photograph of the both of you when you guys were younger, and you confessed you had a crush on him back then.

bro goes, “i have a crush on you too.” and you were like, “haha we should’ve told each other,” but then you’re like PRESENT TENSE!?!?!?

⎯ eventually it is a happy ending in the end! obviously. hehe.

tana’s words ⎯ sorry this was a little vague 😭 if you would like for me to elaborate on some of these scenarios, lmk in my ask box!

[transmigrationisunderrated]

So, I've been having this stupid overelaborate idea for a binggeyuan au for a hot minute now and I'd like to get it off my chest

Basically, Bingge goes out to find his kind shizun, as Bingge does, and finds Shen Yuan.

In the trip, he loses Xin Mo, so he's stuck in the modern era with (anti) fan Shen Yuan. He doesn't fully clock Shen Yuan as the kind Shizun from the other world at first but he has his suspicions.

Meanwhile, on Shen Yuan's end, he was going to go out and pester Airplane about his writing when he opened his door, saw Luo fucking Binghe passed out on his doorstep, saw a weird computer screen pop up in his vision, and panicked. Yup, the system is here too and it's attached itself to both Shen Yuan and Airplane.

Airplane is assigned the role of 'narrator' by the system, allowing him minor invulnerability and the ability to track the story. Airplane is freaking out because if this is anything like the stories he writes for himself, they're fucked, and if it's anything like the stories he writes for money, they're fucked, literally.

He's particularly worried about his only friend/greatest critic because Shen Yuan and Luo Binghe are both marked as the protagonist and antagonist. The cumplane duo can discuss this with each other but they're forbidden from sharing it with anyone else.

Shen Yuan is worried because, "How can I compete with the Luo Binghe, you dumbfuck author!" and Airplane is worried because, "Cucumber bro, my idea of a good story is a tragedy!" "I'll say." "No, bro, I'm serious, I mean a tragedy!"

Shen Yuan's life starts to fall apart; his eldest brother dies, his parents distance themselves from him, his chronic disability starts giving him more trouble than usual, generally shitty life stuff that would work to leave a protagonist sad and miserable. Add the fact that the PIDW world is starting to blend into their world and Shen Yuan is going through it.

Oh, but that's not even the peak of the iceberg. Luo Bingge figured out that Shen Yuan is somehow the same person as the kind Shizun and is clinging to him. However, Bingge is a wee bit fucked up and he wants exactly what he wants, not some off brand of it. Thus, he starts nudging Shen Yuan to act a bit more like the Shen Qingqiu he encountered, convincing him to grow his hair out, convincing him to wear more green, buys him fans.

Shen Yuan finds himself falling for Bingge, despite his own panic, denial, and concern. When Bingge shyly confuses his admiration for Shen Yuan despite his struggles, they end up spending a wonderful night together.

Airplane is suspect of his friend's relationship; he wrote Bingge after all and he knows how he'd write a tragedy about Bingge and someone who truly loved him.

He's... he's not wrong.

Bingge expects Shen Yuan to fall to his beck and call, to be yet another wife, unwilling (and unable) to give the same care and attention back.

When Shen Yuan is not perfectly subservient and docile for Bingge, he starts seeing a woman, to make Shen Yuan jealous. See!!!! Bingge totally doesn't need you!!!!

Shen Yuan is. He's coping. He knew what kind of person Luo Bingge is. One papapa and ship them into the harem to never be seen again. Shen Yuan doesn't know why he expected different. However, he does respect himself more than that and politely asks that Bingge not sleep with him while he's seeing this girl. Which. Is the opposite of what Bingge wanted or expected. "Yuan-gege! Don't you want this lord anymore? Is he not desirable? How dare you ignore this lord!"

So now Shen Yuan is moping because he thinks Bingge only loved him because he looks like another and that he's just another bitch in the ditch.

Luo Bingge is pouting because his tried and true methods of seduction aren't working on his new kind Shizun and instead attracting all the wrong people! He doesn't want to be swarmed by many women, he wants Shi- Shen Yuan!

Airplane, watching Shen Yuan and Luo Bingge fall deeper into miscommunication and bitter, hurt feelings: oh. Oh no.

When the PIDW world bursts into their own, featuring a convenient hole into the Endless Abyss, Shen Yuan and Bingge are caught in the middle of it and with it, a pretty nasty argument.

Shen Yuan accuses Bingge of planning a hostile takeover and Bingge accuses Shen Yuan of trying to hold him back.

One thing leads to another and Bingge accidentally pushes Shen Yuan into the abyss.

Whoops.

[come-into-the-fallout]

(Sequel to this. I wrote the good end, how about the bad one? Just Butch for this post, I'll see when I can get around to writing the rest. Enjoy) Content Warning: Alcoholism

[Fo3] Companions React to Lone confessing before activating the purifier [Butch ver.]

Butch

Pounding. The immovable glass wall met his fists with resistance. But he could barely feel it, barely feel the raw scratchiness clawing its way into his throat while he screamed, barely feel the pulsing pain in his hands as he beat them against the near transparent barrier, not while in his hysterics.

"You can't do that! You don't get to do that!"

Denial.

"Come back- Get back here and come back, we weren't finished!" His hands finally yield their barrage against the door as adrenaline trades it place for exhaustion, his body forced to slouch and the cold surface against his sweat drenched forehead as he leans against it will be the closest thing to solace he'll get as he watches you input the code to finish the job.

"Come back! Please."

Pleading.

But the only voice to reply to his calls was the Paladin behind him trying to pry and coax him away from the scene. Those words didn't matter, though. They weren't the honey sweet words of mutual affection muttered from him to you- and you to him with flushed faces, the same words that had so stubbornly invaded his mind and brought both frustrating and delightful fantasies at every chance. They weren't your soft laughs filled with agreement to his declarations that the two of you would tear up the wasteland together and never part, that together you would make not only the best duo to exist but the fiercest force to be reckoned with.

They were words of attempted assurance, but Butch didn't feel any assured, couldn't even pay them any mind when the sight of you collapsing and the muffled thud that followed took over his sights. Even the final scream he let out in response felt muted with how zerod in on you he was. You were gone. Gone. The only one who was by his side after the vault went to shit. His partner-in-crime, and you could've been... partners.

Butch couldn't bare lingering on that thought. Couldn't think clearly, couldn't breathe, couldn't see clearly. If you hadn't been so foolish to chose the moment right before you died to tell him, and if he hadn't been so stupid and just told you about the butterflies and yearning pressure in his chest you caused him earlier.

None of it mattered now. No amount of berating would fulfill his hopes to see you smiling at him again.

He was all alone again. And he never would have expected that thought to bring him to his knees the way it did.

[ Quest completed

Take It Back ]

[ The Aftermath ]

Pounding. Persistent pounding. But not of the noise that had been mixed with desperate yells that day. A feeling. His head was pounding, and he discouraged against any thoughts of wishing that he could barely feel it. Anything to drown out the empty yet so despiar-filled feelings that had burrowed itself into him. Any distractions to make up for the lack of your company by his side.

He couldn't stop himself from wondering. Why? Why did you have to go and do that? You could've left it unsaid, you know. Could've left him debating if you ever felt the same when you were alive. It wouldn't have ached as much. Hurt still, sure, but maybe then he would've been left with enough stability to get up and move on.

But maybe he didn't deserve that. Maybe he deserved this. Treating you and Amanda that way when you were young. Always making some snide remark, always going out of his way to collide his shoulder into yours when passing by down the halls, or cornering either of you with his gang with threats of an altercation. He was an asshole, a juvenile prick. And you were too good for him. That's something he always felt deep down inside but would never confront. But it was true. And maybe that's why fate so bitterly turned out this way.

The day your life was lost was the day a numbness washed through him and tried to bury the grief that'd leave him immobile on the floor crying his heart out for months otherwise. He had trudged back to Rivet City to drown it out further at the bar. Forget for as long as possible anything that had to do with you or him. But he wasn't spared that.

"They can't be gone. They can't be. Not them, not someone as unstoppable as them. They have to be.."

Denial.

None paid attention to the drunken mumbling of the lone tunnel snake. Not as he rocked in his seat, an unconscious attempt to soothe himself.

"They can't be. You have to come back Lone. Please."

Pleading.

Maybe one day he'll get himself together. Leave his place at the bar stool and travel into the wastes again. Maybe to pick up where his companion had left off.

"Come back to me? Back to the Tunnel Snakes?"

Or maybe this will be how he wastes away. Their sacrificial feat being celebrated by many being what causes him to crumble and rot away in some water hole.

"I know I was an ass to you, but.. I can make it better. I can do better. I could be a great boyfriend if you just..."

Maybe some will say it serves him right, say its a lesson to not take what you have left with prickly and uncaring fronts. The only one who was left to stick around, to patch up his wounds when his initial inexperience led to rookie recklessness in a proper scuffle, to care- in the words he would've used; 'the only person who gives a damn about me'. That person is gone, and a chance to meet someone like them again will never cross his path.

"Come back."

[naoxm]

Hello! Hope you are well, and thank you for all your contributions. May I request anything involving Arturo Giles x reader?

Tbh, I lowkey dislike Arturo. But anon asked for an Arturo hcs, their wish is my command

・✦ʚ♡ɞ✦ ・☆⋆｡𖦹°‧★ ⋆

. . . ⇢ ˗ˏˋ [Arturo Giles x Reader headcanons]

When Arturo first met you, he couldn't believe how someone could be this truly beautiful. Ever since he would be stuck with you and followed you around like an obsessive puppy.

You were kinda weirded out about his obsession with beauty, but later on you slowly got used to it and somewhat always listened to whatever he had to ramble on. You even got to know him better.

Later on, he realized how he for one felt something different in his life. He doesn't care if you're beautiful or not. He just loved the way you always act around him. He finally realized that he's in love with you, not in an obsessive way. Like an actual true normal love.

Who's the first person who will notice of Arturo's behavior around you? Obviously it's Whit.(HE'S CALLED THE ULTIMATE MATCHMAKER FOR SOME REASON) And probably J because Arturo actually stopped bothering her for a while.

He was surprised when you were the one who confessed first. (he's still in denial whether he should confess to you or not) He was really happy and pulled you for a hug!

Everyone is completely shocked except for Whit. But as long as you both are happy and healthy they don't really care.

He would do anything for you. See anything you like? He will buy it for you! Feeling insecure about your body? Let him kiss wherever you're insecure off to make you feel better!

Arturo is the type of boyfriend who would shower you with compliments on how beautiful you are, even if you're looking like a regular person in everyone's view.

Would let you pull down his mask if you want to kiss him. But there are times when you kiss him throughout his mask, and it caught him off-guard! He would think about it all night.

Loves to snuggle up to you. Arturo would tell you all about his days while you were sitting on his play and playing with his hair. You guys were like the Yapper x Listener duo.

"Y/N, can you come here and sit down next to me?"

"Hm? Is there something you want to talk about?"

"Yes there is, and it's really important. I haven't told you how truly beautiful you are today.

"Oh. The usual I see. Well okay."

ʚɞ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚༘˚⋆𐙚｡⋆𖦹.✧˚ʚɞ˚

[sinfullyrosey]

[Insert Clever Title]

There aren’t nearly enough fics focused on Yuu/MC/Reader being nonhuman and their interactions with the other human and nonhuman characters. I say that, and yet, I’ve barely written any myself. But I still wanted to contribute, so here are a few ideas I’ve come up with. Feel free to share your own or even use these as prompts. All I ask is to be informed so I can see.

 Lioness!Reader being the betrothed to Leona since they were little and having playdates. Reader loved to playfight with him and would always pin him (like Nala did to Simba). The relationship is basically just like Darek and Odette’s with the whole This is Not My Idea song up until they’re young adults. Leona is in denial of having fallen for you, but can’t help but admire how strong and beautiful you’ve become.

Mushroom Fae!Reader constantly feeling the looming presence of a certain eel follow them around, asking rather strange or invasive questions. It doesn’t help that you’re much shorter than most of the other students, so your legs can’t outrun the much taller student. Eventually, the two of you start to grow closer and the roles are reversed. Now you’re the one following him around and demanding attention due to his greenthumb towards fungi.

Rat/Cayote!Reader having a rivalry with Ruggie, as both grew up poor and had to scavenge for their meals. Reader often would swipe the last sandwich during lunch and Ruggie would pluck every edible plant before you could. However, after you fell ill and were bedridden, Ruggie, surprisingly, left you a bowl of soup, his grandma’s special recipe. After that the two of you become quite the nuisance duo.

((Warning: Gore Mention)) Sea Cucumber!Reader being squeezed by Floyd, only to accidently force them to spit up their organs and other innards, horrifying both him and every nearby student. Reader merely coughs and says they’re fine and can just grow them back, or they can just shovel the old ones back in. Floyd is super over the top gentle towards you after that.

Persian Cat!Reader being one of Vil’s favorite dormmates because of how much you love to be pampered. You’re the most well behaved and spoiled, constantly demanding Vil’s time and attention. You tend to annoy Epel and lose your temper when he picks fights with you, leading to Vil having to scold both of you.

Crow Harpy!Reader absolutely loving any and all things shiny and just swiping jewelry, silverware, and coins from anyone that’s not careful. You eventually taking a liking to Kalim, what with all this jewelry and sunshiny self. He’s more than happy to give you little trinkets and pieces of treasure, while you thank him by preening him affectionately. Eventually, you decide to show him your nest hoard and tell him he’s your greatest treasure.

Insect Fae!Reader terrorizing Jamil, because of course you would.

Orca!Reader terrorizing the Octatrio because killer whales are dicks of the sea and will literally torment their prey for the hell of it and those three need to be taught some manners. Or, alternatively, you work at the Lounge as a bouncer and terrorize everyone else. Either way, somebody is gonna end up your own personal beach ball to throw around.

Just straight up an Eldritch Horror!Reader that takes on the form of an average, unassuming human. Pretends to be normal and weak to not draw attention to yourself, but eventually it slips out here and there the more comfortable you get towards everyone. Your favorite form of affection is when you just unhinge your entire jaw and gently bite down on someone’s head like some extremely weird form of a kiss. Vil especially hates it because how dare you ruin his makeup and hair you interdimensional potato??? ADeuce are the first to learn of your true form and are used to whatever weird, new thing they witness you doing now. Malleus and Lilia are fascinated if anything, if not a bit curious to know if you could actually take either of them on. You also have full on hurled Rook across the track field at least once since he learned of your true form (he provoked you so it’s deserved).

[livingonfanficseyra]

14. Stolen glances between Kate and Anthony while riding! (Really felt like screaming 'Idiots, just kiss already!!')

15. Sudden shift change -Kate and Mary scene, Anthony looking at Edmund longingly, Anthony and Violet's conversation! 😭😭😭 (If you thought there won't be any angst, now you know)

16. Scenes between Edwina and Anthony! I don't know if I made up this in my mind, but it really feels like he looks at her like he would look at his sister.

17. The angst level is upped again!! (We don't go there because I'm a coward!)

18. Theo Sharpe and Eloise!!! 😍😍😍 Second most anticipated couple in the season! (decision made after seeing that one scene of the duo looking at each other like love-sick puppies!)

19. Penelope staring daggers at Colin! (Did he mess up already?) 🤔

20. The library shots! (Are they trying to kill us?)🥵🥵🥵

Also Anthony, what do you mean by "My honor is hanging by a thread that grows more precarious with every moment in your presence?"

Kate definitely looks mad at you!!

21. HALDI!! This is the shot that I'm so confused about from the entire trailer! If someone has any theories, please let me know!! I hope they don't mess it! 🤞

22. "I want my sister to be happy!" "Can you make her happy?"

Don't try to mislead us, CVD! We are not going to fall for that! (I might be in denial!) 🤷‍♀️

23. Quick shots of Kathony looking at each other longingly, Kathony in the garden looking at fireworks, Anthony walking by Kate both their pinky fingers not quite touching! Ugh!! The sexual tension is almost palpable!!! 🥵🥵🥵

24. Heart breaking as we see Anthony ride through the storm (looking for Kate?)😢

25. A glimmer of hope when we see the shot of Mary, Edwina and Mary dancing with Gregory and Kate in the background, I think!

26. "True love is worth it, no matter what!" Violet is a Queen!! 👑 (We, fans, think so too, Violet!)

Thank you so much if you reached till here!! I'm sure I've missed more than a lot of amazing scenes! Feel free to add more!

Asks are open! Or send me a message!

💖 Eyra

Part 1

[weepingpansexual]

⇢ ˗ˏˋ 𝙏𝙖𝙗𝙞 𝙭 𝘼𝙜𝙤𝙩𝙞 𝙭 𝙂𝙁'𝙨 𝙎𝙞𝙗𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜!𝙍𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙧 ࿐ྂ

𝗥𝗲𝗾𝘂𝗲𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗱?:

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ Yes. by,  @cottonsimp999

𝗦𝘁𝗮𝗿𝘁𝗲𝗱:

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ 05::17::2022

𝗧𝗪'𝗦:

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ N/A

𝗥𝗲𝗾𝘂𝗲𝘀𝘁:

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥  May I suggest a Tabi and Agoti (maybe poly?) x reader when the reader is a family member of gf (sibling or cousin idk-) who’s a demon just like her? Maybe they’ll be conflicted about the fact that they have feelings towards her but then realize that they mean no harm and falls in love with the said reader (the reader may use they/them pronouns. Note: you don’t have to do this ask! Thank you and bye!)

So I decided to write both a one-shot and headcanons for the scenario because this is a really good request! So here you go!

𓆩♡𓆪 

╰┈➤ 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒

When they first met you, they both knew who your sister was. And let me tell you, they we’re in denial that they even tolerated you, not even considering they may have feelings for you.

They knew after meeting you that you were in fact a demon just like your big sister. So knowing this they were very very cautious towards you.

You didn’t exactly know what this new feeling was after first meeting the two males so you did the next best thing that came to mind. Ask your big sister!

“Gf, what’s this warm, happy embarrassed feeling in my stomach?”

“... Ummm, Y/n?”

“Yeah?”

“It’s love. You’re in love.”

You accepted your feelings for the two but doubted they’d give you a chance, like most people they probably don’t like your family.

After you began hanging out with Tabi and Agoti more and more, they began to realize that they were wrong about you, that you were nothing like your parents or family, well besides being a demon like them.

They fell head over heels for you and this time, they accepted their feelings and talked to one another about what to do about them.

���Tabi?”

“Yeah Agoti?”

“We both know we love them, soooo...”

“Who’s “them”?”

“Y/n... Well, what do we do?”

“Well, we can try to tell them”

So then they did just that. They told you, maybe not in the best or most romantic way possible but they told you.

‘Oh... Well, it just so happens that I like both of you as well.”

After a few months of dating they begin to really show their true colors, being more open and less guarded around you and really showing their true selves. 

BEST. BOYFRIENDS. EVER.

╰┈➤ ONESHOT

The infamous demon Y/n L/n, the younger sibling of the famous Girlfriend, you weren’t very close to your mother nor father, but you loved your big sister and didn’t mind Boyfriend although you thought of him to be a little overwhelming at times. You had once again got dragged into another one of Boyfriend’s rap battles, so you and your red-headed sister took your seats on the massive speakers and bopped your heads, Boyfriend was rapping against a tall blue fire looking man, and when the song ended a new duo appeared, a ram looking male and a..... Alien?! You tapped your sister’s shoulder and pointed to the two males asking who they were. 

“Oh, them? Well, the one in the red hoodie is named Agoti, and the other is Tabi... I think.”

You nodded listening but you couldn’t help but stare at the two, you found yourself having butterflies in your stomach and your face turned red and hot, you couldn’t lie, they are very handsome and caught your eye. 

“Hey, Stolzar? Who’s the one next to the redhead?”

“Oh them? That’s Y/n, Girlfriend’s younger sibling”

This made the two males blood boil, but before they could act upon their anger and hate, the sun hit your face perfectly, illuminating your features perfectly, your hair seemed to glow slightly in the lighting and your laugh repeated in their minds, the two couldn’t bring themselves to hate you but they wouldn’t accept they had feelings for the sister of their enemy.

Months went by and you tried to talk to them and they kept avoiding you at all times, you got pretty frustrated with this and confronted them about it.

“Do you two have something against me? You avoid me every time you see me? I’ve done absolutely nothing wrong to you and I don’t give a fuck about my parents and who hates or loves them they aren’t my problem.”

It felt amazing to say this after months of anger and frustration, but you couldn’t deny the growing affection towards the two odd duo, now with your opinion out in the open, it felt a lot clearer to you. 

“W-well, umm”

“We have nothing personal against you, it’s your family.”

You huffed crossing your arms across your chest looking at the two males with a blank expression when inside you felt so embarrassed.  “Well, I’m nothing like my parents, and my sister and I aren’t very close and her boyfriend is a little overbearing at times, so maybe give someone a chance before you place a judgment on them.”

After that, they became less rude and guarded around you and would hang out with you often and make playful and sometimes flirty jokes and gestures but you never took them seriously and thought they were just joking but you didn’t want it to be genuine.

One day about a year after meeting the inseparable duo invited you to the park saying ‘they needed to tell you something important’. They were already there waiting for you on a bench, you waved and approached them smiling the swarm of raging butterflies was a reminder that you did, in fact, love them. 

“Hey, you two! You said you needed to tell me something?”

The males looked at you then each other, Tabi was the first to speak up. “Listen... Y/n... We absolutely love being your friend but...”

You felt your heart begin to sink into your fears, they didn’t want to be your friend anymore, your fears clouded your judgement and made it impossible to think rationally. 

“W-we... Talked about it and we wanted to know if...”

You felt your eyes beginning to water your heart was very heavy in your chest, and your mind was blank but filled with your fears.

“You’d want to... Be our... S/o?”

Now you hadn’t seen this coming at all. You snapped out of your fearful trance and into reality, Tabi was looking down probably in embarrassment and Agoti was rubbing his neck avoiding eye contact.

“...Of course!”.

[cinnamonest]

The slut Kokomi ask- I was literally thinking to myself while wandering around the sangonomiya shrine that, Kokomi when not being a girl boss is definitely sitting in there getting absolutely railed by her little boy toy Gorou, I definitely see her as the brains of the duo, and he really is just a dumb thing with a big dick to her, at first she just uses him as a stress reliever, this is just casual sex to her and nothing more, but to Gorou he believes that she loves him and he already worships her so there’s not a doubt in his mind that it’s love. Eventually Kokomi will have to explain to him that it’s not love, she knew this conversation would be coming but chose to hold off because if it went wrong where else was she going to get good dick? Effectively making her situation worse by letting his feelings fester, when she first tells him he’s taken aback, probably in denial that her excellency would play with his feelings like that and not be truthful with him. At the end of the conversation she’ll probably try to break it off saying that it was her mistake and unprofessional in the first place, and I can imagine him snapping after hearing that, lunges at her and drags her to the nearest wall just to fuck her against it, she’s always encouraged him to be a bit rough because she knew he would never actually hurt her, oh how that backfires on her now, he thinks to himself, “he’s the dominant one in this one sided relationship of his, even if he’s worshipped Kokomi for a while, he gets to call the shots and how dare she think that she can just abandon him like that.”She won’t have time to protest when her face is shoved against the wall with her ass up, by the end of it she truly will be fucked out, every hole was used and abused by her sweet little general Gorou. From that point on, Kokomi may be the grand strategist that leads her army, but behind closed doors she’s just his dumb little cock slut, honestly he prefers her this way, it feels nice to be on the receiving end of all that worship he blindly gave her, he deserves it at this point, at least from his pov.

(I am a firm believer in the wife Kokomi agenda, how’s she gonna walk around in her cute little outfit, her innocent little girly aesthetic, those shorts???? There’s no way she’d last long without getting non-conned by someone, and she’s an army leader???? Gorou thinking to himself: “doesn’t she know that women are supposed to answer to men” I also believe the Gorou has the same kind of sexist mindset as Razor, the, it’s just the way things are in nature mindset)

Y'all this tweet is so cute though

Another follower of the Wife Kokomi Agenda excellent, the one true way

Can you blame her? I mean boy is basically a living bad dragon dildo with that knot, and he does all the moving too! He's the ideal sex toy! I'd use him too ngl. Poor thing, he has such a teeny tiny brain to go along with that massive cock and all 3 brain cells are consumed by Kokomi-ism. Head empty only her excellency

He has a duality, an inconsistency of thought, both sides due to his canine nature. On one hand, worship and loyalty! Like a doggie to its master, he just!!! He could spend all day talking about how much he loves her!! Poor Resistance soldiers, anyone who is like "hey Gorou why do you like Kokomi" is immediately subjected to the standard 4 hour presentation he has memorized and rehearsed to give at any given moment. His tail wags uncontrollably when she comes into a room, his eyes are wide and bright. He has the most obvious crush in the world.

But dogs can also be... Aggressive when they feel threatened. Even the sweetest, most loving dog knows how to bite. When something tries to take the person they love away from them... Even if that thing is the person themselves... But his doggie brain rationalizes that if he just shows her how much he loves her, she'll love him back. That's how it works.

The best part? It takes the knot a while to stop swelling, so even after she's thoroughly bred, twitching and panting and numb, with dazed eyes and a belly swollen (dogs cum a LOT), they're still locked together, and she couldn't pull away even if she wanted to, the knot is snugly fit inside. It keeps her plugged up so no cum spills out. That way she can be bred with all his puppies and then she'll love him forever. But for now, since he physically can't pull out, he can wrap his arms around her and hold her tight and nuzzle into her neck while she numbly twitches, his fluffy tail wagging back and forth the whole time.

And yesssss I love that he WOULD have that mentality! It's not even really intentional or derogatory, a lot of it is just pre-programmed into his brain. His human side wants to be respectful but... his instinct is to breed. He doesn't so much intentionally see her as a lesser out of disdain or arrogance (he does kinda worship her at the same time after all), so much as he just looks at her, and his brain registers only hips, thighs, waist, tiddy (which is her fault seeing as how much she shows those things off). Thighs that act like cushions for his hips, hips and waist for handlebars and holding babies on the hip, tiddies for feeding, for his pups (and him) to suckle on... How can he not look at her and see a puppy-making machine?? His animal instincts don't pay mind to feelings and all that, it just registers that there is a very much unbred, non-pregnant female who would be very suitable for breeding in front of him. So that instinct kinda takes over any rational thoughts he could have had. And she's supposed to be a puppy machine, in his instinctive brain, that should be her priority, since she's the one that carries them, she should forget about all that other stuff.

Male dogs can be aggressive towards the females, too, when it comes to forcing them to do what they want... to the point of grabbing them with their teeth and dragging them away, too. Especially if the female is trying to interact with another male dog... You can't blame him for getting mad and dragging her away. Or grabbing her and growling when she doesn't do what he wants. He apologizes later, but in the moment it's just instinct. She's the weaker mate, of course she should do what he wants.

Unfortunately, our boy's cum is highly potent... Unlike with Razor where it might be a coincidental chance, with Gorou there's a 100% guarantee he'll end up breeding her with at least four or five puppies, minimum. Poor Kokomi is gonna be a busy mom. No time left for war strategy and all that, only nursing and playing with the... Fish-dog babies.

[oitommothetease]

Invisible String (6/?)

Pairing:  Bucky Barnes x Female reader (Modern AU)

Description: James Buchanan Barnes, the owner of the most expensive-looking club in town and your new apartment. He was a dick and you hated him. What could possibly go wrong when you, the new girl in town, start bartending at his club to pursue your dreams?

Word Count: 2.1k words

Bucky couldn't recall the last time he had a genuine conversation with someone who wasn't his best mates, Sam and Steve. He enjoyed your company and as much as he hated to let his guard down, he wanted to do just that with you. You were everything that Bucky thought he would find repulsive, but he couldn’t help but be attracted towards you. And for the first time he wanted more, he didn't want a one-night stand or a fling with you, he wanted to know you. He admired your courage and bravery, but mostly he admired you. You, with all your stupid yet funny jokes and spontaneity; he liked you more than he would like to admit.

But there was this thing that you were his employee and one meal doesn't count as a date. It was just a meal. But yet, Bucky wanted it to be more. He had never been so intrigued by another person, but it was also clear that you didn't reciprocate his interest. And Bucky would have all of his 206 bones crushed out rather than giving his heart to someone only for it to be not requited. 

So, when you walked into the club the next day, pretending as if nothing had changed, Bucky knew where your relationship lay with him, and he was content with it. Okay, he wasn't content with it, but he knew he couldn't force something that wasn't there. He would choose to be in your life as your boss, acquaintance, or maybe even a friend if he's lucky enough than to not be in your life at all. 

***

When you got settled behind the counter, your mood wasn't that great. It could be because you weren't drunk this time, or maybe because you enjoyed your meal with your boss a little too much for your liking. You wouldn't call it a date, but it sure as hell was a lot better than all the dates or meals you've had with people.

Your good mood was definitely not because of the fact that your mother called only to inform you that this family friend's son is not going to wait around long, and you should at least find a stable job if you can't find a suitable boyfriend. Then she started boasting about your sister and her amazing profession and how she and her husband save lives every day. And you might have had enough of her bullshit and lied that you indeed have a stable job and relationship. None of which is true. 

Bartending only pays the bills, and you haven't had a relationship in years and none of them were serious. You always ran away from any sort of commitment because you knew you would eventually have to introduce your partner to your family and nobody deserves to see that circus, and you told yourself that you're doing a favor to those previous partners by leaving them or as your friends like to call ghosting them. In your defense, dealing with you and your family is more horrific than any scary movie. 

Well, until now because tomorrow your sister and her family are coming to meet your partner and take you back to your parents' place for the weekend. The only problem is that you lied to them about your job and your partner. The worst part is that both of them are pretty non-existent.

"Hey, How are you feeling? " Peter asked you, noticing how you still weren't paying attention to the customer in front of you. 

“Great, not drunk, if that's what you're wondering.” 

“I'm fine," you retorted, glancing at the concerned look Peter was giving you. You quickly took the customer's order and proceeded to make the drink. 

"The last time you said you were fine, you threatened to kill a dude," Pietro interjected, enjoying the faux disbelief that landed on your face. You looked over to Wanda for help, but she just chuckled at her brother's antics.

The rest of the night at work went by as it usually did. Pietro making a sarcastic remark here and there, Wanda countering her brother with a snarky response, you were laughing your ass off watching the duo and Peter awkwardly tried to suppress his amusement. In a weird custom, these three coworkers were the only thing that felt normal. 

By the time you were done, it was mostly you left like always, with the addition of security guards that James added since Rumlow. You wanted to talk to him, especially after the wonderful not date you had, but the situation with him was not under your control anymore and it released from your grasp which scared the shit out of you. If James and you had met under different circumstances, then you would have tried to date him, but with him being your boss and the whole Rumlow thing made everything so complicated, and you didn't have time for any sort of relationship complication in your life. At least that's what you kept telling yourself.

When you were done with your shift and were about to leave, a very familiar voice called for you. You've been trying to ignore him all day and just when you thought you've succeeded, he catches up to you. 

The thing that scared you with James was that you felt safe, too safe with him. You were scared that you were going to become dependent on him for your security, and you hated that. You always despised women who weren't anything except their husband's wife, as if their whole identity was being a man's property. Furthermore, you knew the only thing to be blamed here was patriarchy and men, but you decided that you weren't going to be someone's property, you were going to be your own person. 

And you rebelled a lot to reach here, dyed your hair blue just because your mom told you not to, pursued your dream just because your dad told you to follow a secure nine to four job, left ex-partners because they told you what to and what not to wear. And some part of you knew that James wasn't like that. He wouldn't exploit you and your weaknesses. 

But what you didn't realize was that these were merely excuses that your brain mustered up because you were too scared to be dumped. A long time ago, you decided that it is better to leave than be left. And James — well, James made you feel things that you didn't want to chase. You feared commitment and abandonment too much to go after a guy. 

Your thoughts were brought to a halt when he held your wrist gently and called your name again. Reluctantly, you turned around, pretending to be surprised as if you didn't see him. 

He obviously caught on to you. "Why are you ignoring me?" 

"What?" You scoffed in feign disbelief, taking your hand away from his grasp and setting it on his shoulder. "Why would I ignore you, bud?"

Bud? What the fuck? , both of you thought at the same time.

Carefully, he eyed your hand and then you, "Okay, come on, I'll drop you home."

"No, James, it's fine, I can go on my own." 

"Yes, yes, you are an independent, strong woman but come on," He teased, but you didn't seem to pick up the glint of mischief in his eyes. 

You heard that as a taunt, a taunt your father has told you an ample number of times, that you indeed can never be anything on your own if you don't have a man beside you. While you were lost in your thoughts, James was moving towards his car, assuming that you were following him.

 "But I am," you argued. 

Your voice sounded distant to him, he turned around and walked towards you. "You are what?" 

"I am strong and independent."

"Yes, you are," he agreed as a matter of factly because it was the truth. He had never met someone so strong who would leave behind their whole life to pursue their dreams. He, being the mob boss, and filthy rich couldn't do the same, and he may not tell you this, but he admired you so much. 

Once you got the assurance you needed, you started walking towards his car. "Are you coming or not?" and he followed you. 

Of course, you knew you were strong, but your life had not been going as smoothly as you anticipated. You're stuck in writer's block, your family interference and lack of trust in you hurts like a bitch. You were somewhat crushing on your boss, and you blurted random embarrassing stuff in front of him without thinking. You know, normal crush things. 

When you reached the apartment, he insisted on dropping you to your floor. The car ride was spent in peaceful silence, but the time spent in the elevator was everything but that. No, the fifteen seconds were spent in James fidgeting beside you because he wanted to say something but didn't know how to. 

After you unlocked your door, he finally spoke up. "Um, I was just wondering whether, you know, - I had fun last night and I don't have smooth conversations with people - um, I don't know, I'd like to go out with you again," he didn't finish, but your eyebrows shot up to your forehead and he quickly backpedaled. " Not as a date, if that's what you want. It could be a meal shared between you and your boss. Not that I'm implying that you are obligated to go with me just because I'm your boss. I'm asking this as a stranger, well, not as a stranger but as a friend, I think."

"James,” you spoke softly, and he could feel the denial coming his way.” I had fun too, but you're my boss. This is highly unprofessional."

He signed in defeat and looked at you one last time. There was so much he wanted to say, he wanted to tell you that he enjoyed your company more than he should. He wanted to tell you that he liked you. He wanted to tell you that he wanted to see where this thing would lead with you, but he knew better than that. At the end of the day, you were his employee and if you were to get involved with him in any form, it would only end in your tarnished reputation. So, he nodded, not trusting himself enough to speak much after the clear rejection. "I understand."

"Y/N! “

Both of you turned towards the source of the voice and frowned. He frowned because he was confused, whereas you, oh, you weren't confused, you were furious at the person standing there and at yourself for forgetting about their arrival.

 "Hi, Carol. I thought you were coming tomorrow," you stated, faking a smile, and everyone in the area could see your distressed attempt at looking excited.

 Well, everyone except your sister because she shrieked with happiness and ran towards you to throw her arms around you. Her husband followed behind and gave you and James an awkward smile.

 "I just couldn't wait to meet my baby sister and we'll take you guys back for the weekend."

You guys, James and you thought at the same time. James looked at the side of your face for an explanation, and you kept looking forward at your sister, avoiding his gaze.

Fuck, you forgot about that. How can you forget about that? You mentally cursed yourself and didn't say anything because you didn't know what to do. 

Your sister picked your silence as her cue to talk and pointed her index finger at James, who was standing beside you now. "Is this him?"

Your sister looked at you, expecting an answer, your brother-in-law looked at you with something called, please hurry up, I just want to go back to the hotel. James looked at you with bewilderment. 

You sighed and took your boss's hand in yours, who also happens to be the most dangerous person in the town. He complied, holding on to you tightly, running his thumb on the back of your hand in a soothing manner. It felt like the most obvious thing as if your hand was made to be held by him. The thought sent a pleasant shiver down your spine, but you were too stubborn to accept it.

"Yes," you finalized. "This is James, my boyfriend."

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[tiramisuprince]

Logan/Scott - Rising from the Ashes #2

Chapter 2: Barely a Spark

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It's been a week since Logan's outburst.

A month since Scott's last mental breakdown.

A year since they decided to move out to the Canadian wilderness and build a life there in peace.

Whatever life they could have.

More importantly, it's been 3 years since Jean's death.

Three - long and ruthless - years.

The first year left the X-Men in shambles, repairable, but entirely in shambles.

Scott was an absolute mess.

Everyone was.

Yet none of them face the brutal, temptatious, tug that is the remnants of Jean's mental link. It dragged him to follow everywhere she's been. Mindlessly following as if he was only a shadow of the man he use to be and considering how close he was to Jean - how close they were to her - it made sense. Scott, at the time, lived and breathed Jean. Wherever the siren's call beckons, he would follow with no hesitation. Even at times, he would be found staring out aimlessly in the cold dark, standing there in the middle of a hallway, a classroom, the dining hall, or any of the fields outside.

For hours.

No sound.

No sign of living beside the rise and fall of his chest. 

Mind out of reach, yet the body is there taking all the beating from the lack of care.

And Logan went with him. 

Silently following the man after weeks of everyone in the mansion trying to figure out the best way to get Scott out of this state and back to some means of normalcy.

Normal.

What was normal when you're a mutant?

There was no normal when it came to them.

When it came to Jean.

At first, Logan told himself that he was simply doing what Jean would wish for him to do. Watch after Scott, make sure the boy scout didn't cry when he stubbed his toe, not to poke and prod as he always had done. As he always will do just to get a rise out of the ginger-brunet.

Scott was cute when he's angry, is cute. 

Logan didn't know when it had happened, but sometime during Jean's progression into becoming Phoenix led the three of them down a spiraling, yet not so complicated, path of love, lust, and loyalty. His love for Jean outshines whatever attraction he felt towards Scott and Scott felt the same way. Despite that, the perfect duo became a chaotic trio that brought forth so much love, admiration, support, and--.

Logan couldn't let Scott be.

If he's more honest with himself, seeing the dark circles peeking from under the glasses, the withering form of the former X-Men leader, the hoarse whispers for Jean when the man couldn't scream for her anymore. Or the night Logan came across Scott sitting in a bathtub of rising water motionless--.

No.

He couldn't let the man be.

Jean wouldn't want that.

And...

He wouldn't want that either.

It's why, despite his constant denial to himself, he spent the next few years caring for Scott - giving an actual shit for once. 

For - always. 

He always gave a shit. 

Jean knew that too. 

She always knew. 

Maybe that's why whenever Scott has an episode it was always at a time Logan was awake. Or nearby. Or a moment away from running towards the man he cares deeply for. 

Yeah, he won't admit it out loud. 

But, he does, without a doubt, gave a shit. 

Scott might have known it too. 

Every time Logan finds him, he grasps the feral like a lifeline and in many cases this is true. Logan has saved Scott from himself more times than he'd like. He doesn't stop though. And Scott lets him in. Reveals all the vulnerabilities, all the tears, all the shifting emotions, and the fears. All of it. Knowing full well that Logan would sweep the man into his arms and protect him from the world. 

It made sense to them. 

Perfect sense. 

Logan is the last living remnant of Jean Grey.

And he feels the same way with Scott. 

They were connected by one common interest, one common love, and one common grief. They mourn her together, they heal together, and they're beginning to understand how to live without her. It wasn't about erasing their memories of her from their minds, although both men were very tempted into doing so considering the line of psychics at speed dial. It was about turning these painful memories into something beautiful. 

Remembering the joys they all shared; her laughter, her smile, and their first intimate night as a trio. 

All of it into something they could look back on without their hearts shattering again. 

Or Scott trying to join her. 

Or Logan losing himself to his rage for being the one that... 

For being the one that... 

"Logan?" 

His name is said softly, full of tremors and choked with tears. 

Scott needed him again. 

Wiping the exhaustion from his eyes, Logan hangs the remaining dishes into the rack, drying his hands on a striped cloth, before turning around to meet the ruby stare of his companion. 

Friend? 

Lover?

They're still working on it. 

"Yeah? What's the matter, boy scout?"  

His own tone was just as soft, perhaps more so considering how Scott shifts nervously in front of him. Eye contact was already at the floor just as his shoulders hunched forward. Remaining silent, but his body language spoke more than needed. 

Must have been a bad one, Logan thought.

His tongue already clicking at the roof of his mouth.

It meant Scott is withdrawing into his shell.

He doesn't blame him.

They both shared their nights filled with nightmares. 

A part of him does wish that Scott wouldn't regress back to this state, not when they spent 2 years moving passed it.  The other part reminds him that he's the reason why they're both suffering - it was a reminder that stabbed at him like a hot knife threatening to cut him painfully slow. 

Logan ignores the daily annoyance that is his sinking pit of guilt to gently wrap his arms around Scott's waist. Gingerly pulling them close. Brushing his nose along a cheekbone before settling his chin on top the dark red hair. Scott relaxes in his arms. Not instantly, but slowly melts into the comforting embrace. He was no longer tense, but Logan can still smell the remaining tears falling. 

"Sorry." "Don't be."

They both meant it.

[tobi-smp]

God can I be sad in your inbox for a moment your recent post hit me hard

Dude c!Tommy’s too damn empathetic for his own good and I really think that’s why c!clingy duo doesn’t work as well as it used to now

Because Tubbo is a very unempathetic character, and that’s not to bash on him in the slightest. He’s buried his trauma under layers of repression and so he can’t handle ruminating on anything for too long lest he unbox all of that, and instead he chooses to find the next solution. Tubbo tries to solve the problem before being emotionally vulnerable, while Tommy is so emotionally vulnerable it hurts him almost every damn time. They clash in this regard and can’t communicate on that front and so they feel really, really distant.

I (and I mean this in the most narrative, nicest way possible) genuinely feel like the thing that’s keeping a lot of character development stagnant is c!Tubbo’s refusal to talk about anything. I know part of that comes from Tubbo not acting as much, but if he talked to anyone, we’d probably get a lot of progress. If he confronted or talked to c!Ranboo we’d probably see them work together on things. If he talked to c!Tommy we can finally see him acknowledge where he was manipulated and take responsibility for his own actions, and vent a little about his own trauma and get some damn closure. I just want him to talk, man! It would be so cathartic.

I think it's absolutely true that lack of communication is a huge issue in their relationship. they've made a lot of progress recently, and that's due in no small part because tommy has been making the active effort to try to open up to people and deal with his trauma (not perfectly of course, but as well as he's able to in the environment he's in, with the tools that he has, and at the pace he feels comfortable with), and tubbo's own Lack of communication means that other characters aren't Able to give him the space and help he needs.

that said, the biggest issue with communication between these two has been the constant retraumatization.

tommy never had the chance to process his feelings because it was one trauma after the other after the other, and the same could be said about tubbo.

tommy is where he is now after an uphill battle. years of denial and avoidance bring broken by the recognition that he's hurt, recognizing that he needs to get better, but not knowing where to begin or how to get there. his first baby steps were with technoblade, but what actually set him on the path that he's on right now was the month of genuine Peace that he got after dream was locked up.

he went to the prison trying to get closure, which is something he'd never done for anything he'd experienced before. he was Massively set back by retraumatization from that prison visit, but it also put him in the position of being forced to acknowledge that he needs people and that he needs Help.

to open up you need stability and safety, which is extremely hard to come by in this world. tommy's opened up now because he completely trusts tubbo and ranboo no matter what's happened until now, even if he feels Unsafe in the world he's trapped in.

tubbo has avoidant tendencies for sure, and he Absolutely looks for solutions and projects to bury himself in rather than deal with the emotions of the issue. but biggest hurtle to face with that is getting him to the point where he feels Safe opening up. both in that he feels safe facing his own emotions, and that he feels safe in having those emotions received by other people.

it's hard to speculate on what exactly needs to happen for that to come to pass specifically Because tubbo has difficulty communicating. but I don't think the problem is necessarily in terms of empathy. a high empathy person can cut them off from everyone else because feeling that empathy can Hurt. a low empathy person can rely very heavily on open communication because it helps them understand what they can't intuitively pick up.

but to wrap this up, I absolutely agree that they desperately need to talk. but I also think that tubbo not opening up means that he has a need that has to be met for him to get there. there's give and take of course, people can't Help him get there if they don't know what's wrong, but he can't help other people help him if he doesn't even know what's wrong. so ! the problem is the environment, not the people

[urstruly-ghst]

can I ask an angst to fluff hc for the dorm leaders where someone told them that Crowley finally found a way to take their s/o back to their world and now they're already at their home? but in the end they came back because they don't want to be separated from them? I hope this isn't too specific thank you very much!

jdjdjs awee i love that

riddle rosehearts

Riddle hasn't seen his significant other in over a week, he hasn't heard chaos in a week, and he felt terrified on why so

He thought you and the Adeuce combo are planning something big, so he waited to see what that may be, but a month has passed and no words from you came.

When he and the others planned the Unbirthday Party, he asked the Adeuce combo to come clean, and tell them where is his lover.

Deuce stood still and lowered his gaze, while Ace nervously looked away from their Dorm Leader's gaze that could strip your pride fast.

Riddle huffed and asked the explanation, he felt mad that they won't just spit out the truth. As he taps his foot in waiting, Deuce finally had the courage to say what happened to you.

He nodded at the duo and ran to his room, saddened and not coming out to even greet his dorm on the Unbirthday Party. He just felt depressed.

While cooped up in his room, he cries while staring at a simple picture of you both, and he questions your love too. How could you leave just like that?

But even his doubts, he loves you and worries about you more.

Riddle felt terrified, he questions your well being, and since he thought this silence for a month was part of prank, he didn't think you were back to your home world.

No one can cheer up Riddle, not even Trey's sweet tarts, Riddle was just wondering what ifs and crying to anyone that you would come back.

To his surprise, you did come back! A sweet smile on your lips as you hugged him tightly.

He was reunited with the love of his life, and he couldn't help but break down holding you tightly. When you tell him that you're here for good, he pinched himself slightly.

You're here for good, and he couldn't help but cry more. He felt so grateful to be with you in this moment.

leona kingscholar

Leona hasn't seen you ever since that airhead of a headmaster summoned you to his office.

He assumed he sent you on a crazy adventure to do something for him, but it irked him how you weren't showing up for weeks!

He felt somewhat insecure and scared that your are avoiding him, and that you're hiding.

Leona decided he'd march and ask your friends.

But even after that, your friends remained silent. As if they were hiding crucial evidence or something.

He decided to stomp to Crowley or he brought Ruggie to the scene. Either way, he got from a second source, that you went back on a whim.

Leona was in denial, he was angry, growling angrily and always not believing that you went into the mirror again.

He didn't do much, he just stared. Leona believed that if you really wanted to, you could've stayed.

Bit by bit, he became lazier and snarky.

Yet, he didn't expect a sudden tackle on his stomach while he was napping. Leona clicked his tongue and was about to make a nasty remark until he opened his eyes and saw you.

Leona couldn't stomach in as he saw you, gleaming with that familiar mischievous in your bright eyes. He smiled and couldn't help but cuddle into you.

He hopes that your stay lasts, and when you confirm that you are here. He just never lets your figure go, he just wants to savour each and every second.

azul ashengrotto

The Monstro Lounge was booming with life, ever since your arrival, it somehow became more busy.

No one knew why, but he did not complain on the booming business. He always hoped that it will boom into success.

However, his only complaint was how you didn't appear into his office for a few weeks on end. But, again, he assumed you were just making sure you don't bother him.

While it made him uneasy, he wanted to know why you seemed to be... quiet. Why is that, he didn't know.

Instead of asking your friends, he just went to Ramshackle, but to his horror... You weren't there, and Grim was just in the middle of the room. As if he was missing something.

He demanded some answers to Grim, to which he replied that you went back because Crowley found a way. Azul felt saddened and infuriated.

He took Grim under his wing, as it was the only remnant of you or somewhat associated with you that isn't easily lost.

Even though he was busy, Azul kept taking breaks into a sad breakdown in his octopot, crying his eyes out as it hurt that you went out with no explanation.

Azul just had a cycle, work, bury himself, cry, repeat. This happened for weeks, that it started to concern the others.

But, no one dared to approach him, until one faithful day, someone did approach him.

Azul was about to lash out, until that voice rung in his ears. That voice that called him so sweetly.

He didn't care if he was crying ugly tears, he dragged you into his pot hugging you so desperately.

kalim al-asim

Kalim was busy, another party was planned, and he had a hectic schedule.

After Jamil had his Overblot episode, Kalim tried and tried to be more participative in the events rather than dumping it on him.

So, he kind of drifted from his own world, but he didn't forget to pester you on days when you come up.

What he didn't expect was you not showing up on the party, he felt somewhat sad. I mean, he worked hard for it!

So, he tried to search for you, asking others if they had seen you, all came up empty.

While Kalim was searching, he heard Ace and Deuce sighing sadly. Then, Ace spoke out his dismay on your sudden leaving.

He stood still, and yelled at the two first years, startling them in the process.

Kalim, tears fresh in his eyes, asked if it was true. When they confirmed, he nodded and cried, causing Ace and Deuce to just panic over the Dorm Leader.

After that event, Sacrabia barely had parties now. Jamil grew concerned, but he knew what grief can do.

Kalim decided to be more isolated and just stay put, as if he is hoping this was just a dream.

While Kalim seemed so moody, Jamil knocked politely on the bedroom door before pushing someone into his room.

He looked at the visitor, and he froze. Just as he was about to question you, you just hugged him. Tightly.

For the first time in forever, Kalim was quiet with you, as he savored the way you just said you're not leaving again.

vil schoenheit

Vil doesn't know why you just got summoned by that chaotic of a headmaster, but he stayed out of it for your privacy.

He didn't notice your absence, after all, his shoots and busy schedule lately caused him to be out and about.

Vil won't notice you being gone until a few good days after his latest shoot, he expects you to just smile radiantly and swoon.

He expects some sort of praise or compliment from you, be it text or in person. But it never came.

He thought you were out with friends, he thought you were busy, he assumed many things. That was until he lost excuses to make for you.

He rushed to Ramshackle, only to find it barren once again. No traces of you, no traces of Grim.

Horror filled his guts as he rushed to the main building, to the office, asking and demanding what happened to you.

Crowley explained the mirror found your home, and you have gone back home. At that moment, Vil was a lost for words.

Anger and sadness plagued his mind in ways he wish he can explain, but he was lost.

Vil then lost sleep over you, worrying and thinking of you, to the point he lost care for himself (by lost care, he meant less time for himself)

Rook can notice how distraught his Queen is, and he knew that all he can do is wish on a morning star that you would come back.

To Vil's surprise, you did come back. Running into his arms (in private), and crying how you aren't leaving him.

Vil was stunned but the way his tight arms around your being, you knew, he was happy. But he did scold you, after all, it was rude of you to just leave.

idia shroud

Idia hasn't seen you in forever, you haven't visited Ignihyde in ages. He thought that you finally got sick of hanging out with him, so he sulked and buried himself deep into his coding, a coping mechanism.

Ortho also worried for your being, so he inspected the school for traces of you, to turn up barren.

Ortho worked hard for his brother, hoping to see you both happy. While he gathered data and facts, he reported it to Idia.

Idia like always, started to doubt the relationship and ask if this entire thing was worth it. He just felt insecure how fast you left him.

Idia dismissed Ortho's report and decide to just stimulate a render of you, in hopes he would feel better.

While testing out the stimulation, Ortho actually found you coming back! He wanted to surprise his brother, so while Idia was testing the stimulation, you stood in front of Idia.

Each time Idia reached out to the media, you would hold him. At first, Idia thought it was his robot. When he was about to check and finalize things, he saw you.

He froze on his spot. Before shakily hugging you tight, asking if this was just a cruel dream. Only for you to shake your head, clearing any of his doubt.

malleus draconia

He was actually there when you decided to go back home, as he was in the mirror room to check on something.

Crowley barged in with you in tow, but your eyes widened as you saw your lover, in the room.

Crowley explained his intentions with you, and by then, you also explained your side and desire to go back.

Malleus felt his heart broke, but he respected your decision, as he knows your love for your home.

So, after a few moments of contemplating and goodbyes, you entered the mirror. Gone and back home.

Now, his nights felt lonesome once more, his walks now feeling boring.

He still does his nightly walks, it was his fond memories that force him to.

He knows he shouldn't, as it could hurt, but Malleus prolonged his walks around Ramshackle. As if envisioning you were still there, he claims your presence is strong around the area.

Though Malleus knows he cant bring you back, and he knows wishes can come true, he forbade himself to even consider that.

He should respect and turn around, as your decision is finalized. What he never expected was a change of heart of yours.

While exploring the Ramshackle dorm, he heard running and panting towards him. He felt alarmed, but before anything could happen, a sweet voice called his name.

Malleus stood still as arms wrapped around him, securing him into an embrace. He felt loved, but confused as to why you changed.

Then, a sweet whisper of words came from you, and that's when he felt as if nothing else can compare to that.

[life-rewritten]

Fish Upon the Sky Episode 1-7 (The Problems with Walls; An analysis on Duen and Pi)

I swear, if I could just settle down, stop running away and actually analyse FUTS the way I usually do. I would have so many essays by now on how authentic and deep this show can get with some of its characterisations. As I  write this FUTS essay that has constantly been plaguing me and making me frustrated that no one else is seeing these themes, I realise again sadly how this director has sadly failed to show the vision of what he wanted for the series.  An essay on how DuenMeen and MorkPi mirror each other so much with their themes, it sounds crazy to think that they do because their storylines on the surface seem different at times. Still, also their love interests act differently towards them, and they have different dynamics with them. But that's what's so great about meta and mirroring in TV, especially in shows that aren't meant to be seen as deep or purposely filled with hints and clues to break down. Fish upon the Sky is one of those shows. It struggles to find a balance between wanting to be more profound and showing exciting themes vs pleasing and appealing to the audience, using humour and other exaggerated performances/narratives to do so. However, the writer of Fish upon the sky novel has always had her works struggle with these issues and themes. Jittirain always writes emotional stories about unrequited love, with different lessons, ideas, or characterisations that people fail to understand or truly value because the meta/depth of their personalities is hidden or misunderstood by their own directors. This is what happened in  2gether; this is what also happened in Theory of Love.

A Misunderstood Duo

In order to really understand how grand the narrative the show is failing to truly flesh out is, you need to understand that Pi and Duen (the two main characters of the show) are the narrators of both their own stories. Pi's is Fish upon the sky whilst Duen is Leech upon the sky (😂😂) but what's great is that you can already see the mirroring/similarities just by their titles. Even though their insecurities and worries seem different, it's the same theme for them;  both struggle with love because they secretly have a lot of self-deprecation and hesitancy from how people have treated them. It's not as noticeable when you see Duen's characterisation/storyline, but if you truly focus on the themes of his narrative without being distracted by the loud comedic routine he has, you'd see that his biggest insecurity, that he tries to be defensive and act like he doesn't care about is his dumbness. He genuinely feels weaker/inferior because he's known as being dumb to everyone around him. He struggles to process anything that is complex and requires more depth or thought.  It's played for laughs because he relishes in the idea that people feel exasperated by his actions. He acts like he doesn't get bothered by how people perceive him because he's still seen as socially acceptable, unlike Pi, who's actually bullied and alienated from society because of his own 'flaws'.

But you can see that it's all a façade when it comes to Duen, just like with how Pi handles his own insecurities and trauma to do with his perceived flaws. It's why Duen chooses to lie to Meen that he's a dentist. He didn't want him to see him the same way others do. This already should show that he doesn't actually enjoy being seen as dumb, but he has walls up to make it seem like he doesn't care. He knows he's constantly being compared to others, but he can't change who he is (just like Pi didn't also want to change how he looked or acted to please people at first). So he jokes and tries to see a positive in being that way; he starts to want to slack off and cheat off others when it comes to work. He stops taking University seriously and repeats classes constantly because he always fails. That is until Meen shows up, and then he starts to want Meen to believe he's something more. Why?

But in case I haven't repeated it enough, Duen is like Pi, whose insecurity is easier to see since we watched him get attacked and bullied for it immediately in the first episode. It's Pi's true thoughts and opinions we see in the show as the audience, whilst Duen's story is hidden with comic relief and unseriousness. They both try to act like they're okay with what they are being judged by in society. Thus, they act confident, they're both loud, they're selfish, acting like they don't care how people see them. Preventing others from getting to hurt them by making it look like they are in control of what they have and use that to their own advantage with others.

They both stay heavily in denial about their true feelings in general, but primarily with the critical focus; the people who make them question everything about their flaws that come into their life and frighten them the most. The ones that break down those facades; make them automatically want to run away whilst being unable to stop showing and escaping their true feelings whenever they're in their presence.

The Use of Humour and Sarcasm 

So what we end up with is a narrative with two incredibly annoying and flawed characters who are seen in the audience as exaggerated caricatures for comic relief and shallow storytelling. And it's brilliant because both their unlikable/loud, selfish personalities are just fake walls built, so they don't crumble and get affected by how society views them or wants them to act. So you see, there's the issue that people keep misunderstanding about these two stories, especially about these two brothers. They're realistic; they're flawed because they've been affected by society and the environment around them. They're acting like how anyone who's been hurt before would act, they have built up walls, and they've decided to just stay by themselves and let that guide them in everything. They deal with their issues with sarcasm and humour to reduce the seriousness of the situation, so they don't appear weak or let anything hurt them.  

That's why I love this narrative of FUTS, it's meta and more profound than people think, but because the director doesn't do the best to show it, it can get lost in all the exaggerated humour. For example, with Pi, because he's socially anxious and always overthinks how people think of him (due to his past experiences of being abused and hurt by being ignorant of how people thought of him), his world is wildly exaggerated in his head. The way he narrates the story is played for laughs and is a very telling and realistic representation of how overthinking is expressed in his mind; it's overdone, loud and nonsensical at times. That's what social anxiety does; it makes you cry about one stare, one laugh, one action someone does, it makes you panic over the most minor things, and Pi does that with panic and boisterous, sarcastic humour from the start of the show.

Hence his story also has exaggerated humour because he deals with his issues with that fake jokes and sarcasm. So the show also exaggerated humour too when we are in his perspective.  This is actually similar to Duen's breaking the 4th wall narrative style of his storyline. As with Duen, whose narrator of his story mocks and laughs at his actions ironically. When really that is just literally himself fighting with his inner voice about his true feelings about Meen. He breaks the 4th wall because he's internalising his own emotions and dealing with them as a skit; the narrator is his true self ridiculing him for not accepting that he has feelings for Meen and that he's not as bright/cool as he thinks he is. So if we understand this and notice that the narrator makes fun of him constantly and jokes about his actions, you'll realise that Duen sees himself that way too; he sees himself as a joke. He doesn't see himself as suave and carefree; he actually mocks himself internally for being dumb and being gross.

Pi: The Need for Protection and Avoidance 

So already, just from breaking it down with this point of view, Duen and Pi mirror each other so well, and their narratives because of this focus on the same themes and ideas of self-discovery. Both are flawed characters with a lot of vulnerabilities and pain that they refuse to deal with properly. An id ego defence mechanism catalysed because of their past experiences and protection of their mental space. They both stay in denial, hurting who they love by refusing to let them get to see them without the walls down and more. Pi hates that he loses control with Mork and refuses to let Mork have his heart because he believes Mork is too good for someone like him secretly.  He knows he'll be the one damaged. Hence the choice to intentionally misinterpret his brother's metaphor on the vaccine analogy and view it as the complication with getting with Mork. Let me try and use this to break down his mindset with why he chose to still choose Nan even though he knows (he does know) that he wants to be with Mork romantically. Listen to the analogy his brother uses. He mentions the iatrogenic vaccine, a vaccine intended for a patient that starts helping the patient be well but actually causes more harm than good. The end result is because of the incompatibility of the vaccine and the time it takes for those results to show up in the patient and make their lives affected in a negative conclusion.

 A vaccine ironically is meant to be an antidote, something that saves people, that helps and makes them feel better. And that's what Mork says he wants to be for Pi, it's romantic, but once his brother announces a different version of a vaccine, Pi jumps with that analogy and believes that's the truth about Mork and him that makes sense to him, than seeing it positively. So with this analogy, we can break it down this way:

The Iatrogenic vaccine was too different and incompatible with the patient. Which is what Pi believes about Mork. Remember, Pi doesn't think  (because of what people have told him) that he deserves loyalty and love from people better looking/capable than him. He sees Mork in this light from the start; he views Mork as a rival because Mork is good looking, popular, strong and cool, basically things that are not associated with Pi to others.  So Mork and him are incompatible in Pi's mind.  This is why Pi constantly asks Mork why he wants to be close to him. He just doesn't understand it.  

Second, the Iatrogenic vaccine starts off good but causes damages in an irreparable way to the patient. It's the patient that ends up being affected by this vaccine interaction, not the vaccine that caused it. Before Wan starts this vaccine conversation, he discusses how people around his hospital are patients primarily because of heartbreak; they come in with damaged mindsets, broken hearts and self-harming injuries because of being hurt by love and letting themselves be vulnerable to that. All Pi hears is people hurt themselves over the pain of heartbreak and being abandoned. That's the complication if he does finally trust Mork. Especially after Mork and him get to be close, it'd be just like with everyone who has gotten to know him in the past, who stayed by his side as 'friends', once they learnt about him, what they said is that he wasn't worth being loyal to. So many people used and deserted him, and it almost broke him. This is why Pi grow the walls he has now. Even though Pi is chasing after Nan, he's not expecting an answer from Nan that's positive; Nan is a fantasy, something he can use as a goal to want to keep chasing and distracting himself from that singleness and loneliness he felt at the start of the show. This is why he's doing all of this; he just wants a distraction from the mess of his life. But to Pi, Mork? Mork is real. He's serious; he's someone who Pi actually truly will be damaged by if he's hurt and left by him; he's someone who Pi truly loves and is real to Pi, it's terrifying, and so he rather just avoid that because of the risk of a complication. To be that patient tricked by the vaccine and left to deal with those consequences all alone? Yeh, no, he can't do that.  Pi sees him as a friend and doesn’t want to end that because that's the first thing in a while that has made him feel actually happy being himself and accepted. Being friends with Mork makes him feel safe. So again, it's selfish, but it’s all about him preserving what he already has with Mork rather than damaging it.

Those complications are exactly that result if he lets Mork in romantically and Mork sees his true self and leaves like everyone; it’s not Mork who’d be hurt. It’s Pi who’d have nothing more to believe in if he lets himself be that vulnerable. Again Pi is thinking with his head when it comes to Mork; there’s a massive risk if someone takes the wrong vaccine, that person is damaged because of it. Pis journey with Mork is the same thought process that friends to lovers have. The fear of losing each other if they cross that line, of taking things too far and ruining the foundation they had that made them safe. The fear of the love being false as it always has been from others.  Pi thinks he likes Mork because how can he not? However, Mork is always there, making it hard for him to think. He associates Mork with niceness and protectiveness, but that doesn’t mean he has to accept him romantically, and Mork sees right through him and is fond of breaking down those walls he put so high up to ensure he doesn't get hurt again. Mork is the one pushing Pi further away from him the more he clings because Pi doesn’t like losing control. Same as Duen. And Mork doesn’t let him just figure it out without manipulating everything; the more he does that, the more Pi feels manipulated and tricked into wanting Mork as a partner, and that's too scary for Pi. This is why it’ll be massive when he finds out who Mork truly is on his phone as the guy from nearby faculty.

Duen: The Need for Nonchalance and Ignorance

Duen is the inversion with his storyline; he tries to look cool and better to Meen,  refusing Meen to see him when he's worried, anxious or insecure because he himself shuts off those emotions whenever Meen triggers them. He doesn't want to face the truth, that he hates being seen as dumb and not being seen as a hero to Meen. He lies to Meen because he's trying to keep him by his side without actually letting him see his true self. After all, if he does, he also may judge or leave him too (guess what same as Pi's worries with Mork. Mirroring!).  Duen tries to act unaffected just like Pi does with Mork because again, they both know once they break down and give in, there's no turning back, they will be exposed, and the' truth' about them (which they believe and see about themselves) will push the people they truly want by their sides away.

So instead, they grapple for control by faking lack of care and feelings for their partner; they refuse to apologise quickly and refuse to give in easily to them to further their relationships, increase their trust and let them in. They refuse to let go of their fake personas and fake masks and walls they've built and try hard to hold onto the facade, which hurts Meen and Mork in the end. They both push and pull and show signs of vulnerability and romance only when they're alone with no one else around (like the tent scene with MeenDuen and the after school night scene with MorkPi outside). They show worry, devotion, and they show that they want them by their side. And these are the moments when we actually get to truly see who they are without their walls, their fake personas unshed, and their niceness, their care and protectiveness over them exposed.

Wan: The Comparison and Norm

When we're first introduced to the show, Wan is mentioned almost immediately as we see Pi's struggles. Because of Wan's reputation, people choose to crowd around Pi, and it's sad, but I also think Duen also had this same issue, just a bit different. With Pi, it's about his outer appearance, his beauty standards vs society's. It's exposed to him he lacks those, but it's his intelligence similar to Wan that makes people stay by his side at first.  He also studies dentistry as Wan studied Medicine, viewed by societal standards as impressive and praiseworthy. Pi is used by people who want to both get to Wan and want to profit from his brain and abilities. Duen is the inverted version of this; he is seen as handsome and cool and aloof, a bit messy, but the reason why Meen first leaches onto him is his street smarts and survival skills with social interactions, he knows the right people, he is seen as cool by others including Pi, but he's also seen as dumb. He's failed repeatedly, unlike his brothers at trying to obtain a degree.  So he has the outer appearance but lacks the next valuable thing in society's opinion; brains and the ability to increase your status by your talents and skills. Duen lacks that; he doesn't have any specific things about himself that he can fully be proud of. He's not highly talented, he's not intelligent, and he's also not viewed by women as extremely attractive or awe-worthy. He nonchalantly takes on this persona; he chooses to block any worries about things being serious because he lacks the smarts to think of things deeply or ponder about life's questions.

He's insecure, however, about this, and you see it when he tries to join in with Wan and Pi when they discuss vaccines and love. As Pi transforms for Nan, his lie is that he's well of without other people in his life like Mork; he pretends he's okay being seen as loud, not friendly, selfish etc.  Duen's own lie to Meen is that he is a version of Wan, of what people think Wan is; intelligent, put together and reliable. Because what Duen wants from Meen all the time (he doesn't realise he already has this devotion from Meen for just being himself when he's not trying) is for Meen to want to rely on him since that's precisely what Meen keeps telling him he likes about him, or wants to learn from him; street smarts etc. Duen likes being seen as a protector, a hero, a helper etc., to Meen. And that's why he stays adamant with his lie and refuses to let Meen truly see him below the surface.

Like Pi, he also doesn't want to admit what he knows and has fought to accept, which is, he loves Meen and wants him by his side. It's the fear of losing what he has with Meen that makes him do what he does, which is the same reason Pi also keeps rejecting Mork; it's the fear of losing him. And that's the ironic thing about Pi and Duen, they're ironically trying to preserve what they love, but because of scars, insecurities and walls, they're hurting the ones they love by just refusing to be their authentic selves. It's ironic because they think being themselves is the worst option. Yet, on the surface, they act like they're fine with who they are, they're loud about being carefree of what others think of them, they're okay if these two leave them, but in reality, their worst fears are admitting that they agree with what people see in them as flaws, that they also hate themselves for that. That's heartbreaking because they fought so hard to keep loving themselves, to keep believing in their worth, but society made them genuinely think that they're wrong. And it's painful but realistic.

Again they're all similar and mirror each other. I just want people to understand that FUTS is a deep show; I know the director doesn't do the best job with what he's been trying to show, but it is deep; there is thought at times put to it in the profound moments. In the moments where both Pi and Duen aren't being fake and are their true selves, you'll notice that the jokes and humour slowly reduce whenever they are true; the narrator also reduces for Duen because he doesn't struggle as much with his feelings for Meen like he did at the first time. All the stuff that happens in the show is on purpose, even if done messily and poorly. People love to hate on the show. It has a lot of flaws, I know, but it's not the worst thing; it has deep characters that are incredibly flawed and hurt (even Mork, who we still hope will get to understand his story) it has people that act one way on the surface but hold deep scars and pains below whilst wearing a mask. The characters are unlikable because they are realistic to how people with self-sabotaging habits and deprecation act. That's why I like this show. And I'm sad I wasn't writing out more all about the meta and moments I've enjoyed so far. Anyway, I'm grateful this show has been shown this year; it definitely made me ponder my own ideas about how I view myself and if I have walls up around the people I love. I think many people do relate to Pi or Duen somehow, and it's unfortunate that the director doesn't help us feel the same way about the narrative when it's actually a great BL story to unravel and watch.

[tender-rosiey]

hey dear (yeah im deffo addicted to your writing) just checking on you i hope your doing good and taking care of yourself. I would also like to drop a one shot request of Chuuya falling for mori's god-daughter (also an executive) who has an ability which allows her to summon and control demons while singing but she ends up getting captured and goes missing for 2 years then one day they find her and he confesses to her after she gets rescued (rlly fluffy). thanks in advance love Safiyah <33

❥—Cassiopeia 

❥—Chuuya Nakahara x Reader 

❥—Fluff 

ᴀ/ɴ: i am glad you enjoy my writing and i hope you are doing great as well; hopefully you like this one too 🥺💘 also let this cure your hearts after the last one- also the chant is inspired by Obey me ❣️

“Chuuya, I would like for you to meet my daughter.”

Right then a beautiful and fair lady came out of the door. Chuuya beweildered by her beauty went silent; such a beautiful creature existed?

“Y/N, meet Chuuya; he is one of the best executives here!” Mori introduced you smiling, to which you wave your hand to the ginger and smiled warmly “Hey Chuuya! Pleasure meeting you.” Chuuya smiled shyly and waved back “S-same here..”

Mori then smirked and questioned “Chuuya what’s the matter? You seem rather uncollected.” The said male waved his hand around in denial as he was stopped by a giggle from the lady beside him. “You are quite cute; I hope we get to know each other more.” You said before exiting for your mission.

Chuuya let out a sigh of relief putting his hands on his knees as blush crept onto his face. He made a total and utter fool out of himself; Isn’t he the strongest executive? Why was he so damn shy around you? The thought started clouding his mind until Mori snapped him out of his daze and asked “Are you perhaps interested in Y/N, Chuuya?”

Damn right he is. You were so sweet and kind and that just hit bullseye in his heart. Ever since then he would take almost any opportunity to be with you and talk with you. You were slowly getting to know each other better.

You have been together through tears and giggles and pain and sniffles. He knows you deeply and you know him just as well. After all 3 years of friendship isn’t a minuscule period of time; there multiple moments he had seen you in that made just how much of a wonderful person you are even clearer.

You got along with everyone.

Akutagawa, you both were like best friends and would tell each other everything. You were one of the few he accepted help or their company and you were always a great duo in battle.

Kouyou, the woman that took him in adores you. What more could he ask for? Kouyou helped you and guided in your times of unknowing what to do and how to do it. You were sisters and she valued you deeply, she would always hang out with you and talk with you about anything and everything.

Mori, the man who you addressed as your father. Despite Mori not being biologically him but he treated you as such, as if you were his daughter. He gave you all his love and made you feel appreciated and took care of you.

Seeing your kindness towards your allies Chuuya was dazzled, how could someone so sweet and kind be in the Mafia? His thoughts were completely erased when he saw you in battle.

Multiple screams, all saying the same thing “Beware of the Port Mafia’s devil!” Chuuya was wondering about who are they referring to, was it him? He suddenly heard someone singing behind him.

“Hear me, denizens of darkness, you who are born of shadow and you who give birth to it. Hear me and do as I command! I, Y/N, call upon you to send forth one of your number! I summon the demons of chanting despair!”

That voice, it sounded so angelic but the words were venomous. He turned around to be met with the sight of you floating, eyes glowing purple as demons from around you rose from the earth and attacked all the men in front of him.

‘Woah..’ He couldn’t be more in love. Your elegant movement while fighting were a sight to behold. Your voice was enchanting yet deadly, he would be grateful if it was the last thing he heard before his death.

He loved how there was a total difference between the way you treat your peers and your enemies. Did he really deserve if your feelings were mutual? It was new for Chuuya to doubt himself. But there wasn’t any route to choose when his heart now belonged to no one but you and that made him helpless before you.

“Look at the stars, Chuuya !” Right, you loved looking at constellations, and he loved how the stars shined and danced in your eyes as if they were their ball room.

He looked up and saw a weird look star, maybe a constellation? He then pointed at it and asked “Y/N, what constellation is that?” You smiled brightly before answering “That’s Cassiopeia! It represents love.” You then turned to the ginger finding him close to you and somehow both of you involuntary moved closer, slowly about to close the gap between you.

“Hello Y/N.” You both jumped and looked at the owner of the voice to see that it’s Mori. Chuuya saying every cuss word in his mind while you both were as red as roses, however Mori was grinning mischievously. It’s nice being a party pooper at times.

However that’s all in the past.

 Now you were gone, no one knew where you were taken and if you were even still alive. 2 years too long for the ginger, too long because of his suffering and sadness through them.

When he first found out you were taken he was devastated and went on searching everywhere with the mafia men; everyone in the Port Mafia was searching for their Y/N.

At the night he found out he couldn’t sleep, and wanted to start the search as soon as possible but days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months and then into years. Chuuya was starting to lose hope but still searched. Everyday he thought of you, he would drink wine and anything to wash it all away.

Even now after all what happened and the two years that had passed since then they still didn’t stop searching. He didn’t stop searching.

He was walking down the streets returning back from a mission as he came across a warehouse, it looked rather sketchy so to quiet down his thoughts he entered it and his eyes could not believe what he saw.

You all beaten up and bruised. Body looking as weak as a stick and something to silence your screams and chants on your mouth, his body loved involuntary and hugged you tightly quickly freeing you from the chains that hampered you from fleeing from your misery.

He sent the location to the Port Mafia and now everyone was going to come and make who did this to you pay. He picked you up and as he looked behind him he found Mori with wide eyes barely himself believing that indeed you were alive.

The old man took you from the hands of your savior and inspected your face, those who did this to you will go through hell. “Chuuya take her back.” Mori said sternly and Chuuya nodded, he wasn’t going to let you go out of his sight again.

And there he was with you on a bed, multiple tubes sticking to your skin and a oxygen mask. You looked really weak and pale, but it didn’t stop him from loving you. He loved you even more because you managed to live through that and made it back to him at the end.

Chuuya fell asleep as he was waiting for any sign of your awakening, and you woke up instead adjusting to the light and your surroundings. This wasn’t the dark and frightening warehouse you were in...you were finally saved. After two years of misery you were finally saved.

You looked to your side to find the ginger fast asleep alongside you, you smiled softly and gently played with his hair. Chuuya felt something on his head and slowly woke up to see you pulling your hand away, but he held it tenderly and put it back.

“I have to tell you something when you recover, Y/N.” He said as he was enjoying the feeling of your touch. “Why not now?” You questioned while he looked up at you with a smile and mumbled “because it’s something you need to be told outside of this white chamber.”

And so as time passed you were finally back to how you were. He blindfolded you and led you to a garden and went behind you. “Chuuya where are we?” You wondered while he chuckled and took your blindfold off and said “See for yourself.”

Your eyes were now looking at the garden you last saw Chuuya before your disappearance, but right now there was a picnic set and surrounding it were petals on a shape of a heart and candles lighting up the the space. He then pointed above and looked at you.

 There it was, the constellation of love, Cassiopeia. He placed a hand on his heart and softly said “Love is what I feel for you. Very deep and strong love.” He walked towards you and held your hands between his bringing them up to his lips and placed a light kiss to them.

“I never stopped loving you, and from the moment I saw you took my breath away, you made me the prisoner of love and the poor who seeks for your love and touch. Everything about you is beyond description, I can’t find the words to describe it and I am afraid that it had already eaten me up. I am afraid that now you are the only who can calm the beast of love and adoration that only wants you and won’t accept anyone but you. So will you please give me a chance and let me show you how much love my heart feels towards you?”

A smile made its way into your face and vision getting glossy. You pulled the ginger towards you and connected your lips as gentle as one would touch a flower’s petal. The light of the stars shining on both you, it looked like a scene from a movie.

A portray, a beautiful portray, that could be drawn by millions but never be as beautiful. And Cassiopeia was the witness of their true and never ending love.

“once I believed

love poems were foolish

now I read love poems

just for the sake of it

and yet perhaps I want

to reach a higher state of poetry

I don't know if that's right or wrong

but such a feeling persists anyway

and sometimes irritates me

provoking outrageous desires

once I believed

love poems were foolish

yet now I do nothing

but dream about love“

-from “Exhaustion” by Nakahara Chuuya

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do not copy or plagiarize or you will be reported

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c!tubbo is not the only unhealthy factor in c!beeduo's relationship; it's a joint effort.

guys if you're going to be c!beeduo crit you gotta. you gotta be critical of the full duo not just c!tubbo hello??

(from here on out i'm dropping the c! tags this is all in reference to the dream smp characters)

i think i've seen two posts talking about how beeduo's relationship isn't healthy and there is a lot of unprocessed trauma and events that need to be reconciled between the two

only for the post to lead into like. heavy tubbo crit!

like guys, you realize ranboo is not some harmless little meow meow uncapable of making his own decisions? he's NOT ignorant! he's very capable!

where tubbo has kept secrets and also toyed with ranboo's memory by conducting experiments, ranboo is not incapable of saying no?

he's not ignorant! i really feel as if these posts view ranboo as if he simply doesn't understand, but as ranboo has said, there is a mutual understanding of... not telling each other their secrets.

however, i really think ranboo has even less of a leg to stand on about his secrecy, because it's been shown many times that ranboo is someone who stays in denial, which means he knows he really SHOULD be telling tubbo these actions he's made in secrecy. he falls back on the notion that they're both keeping secrets on purpose, though. however, he knows that's not true.

like you can pull all of this from subtext from where he's reassured himself many times over that shitty things he's done weren't actually shitty.

besides the point though, like

these posts don't talk about how ranboo has been made aware of all snowchester's actions and he has had the ability to have a say in what happens at snowchester, where tubbo cannot say the same for any actions ranboo has taken much less anything regarding the syndicate. which makes sense, of course, like obviously he wouldnt be comfortable there, but he doesn't even know ranboo is part of it or that it even exists. see the problem here?

theres a level of inequality on both of their parts, but they never speak about it. and like, ranboo does this... intentionally. i genuinely really can't say whether or not tubbo does? like in terms of... being aware he should tell ranboo. ranboo definitely knows that he should tell tubbo, though. you can tell in the way that he denies it. this is and has been a key characteristic of ranboos character for... a while.

so i just feel discouraged when i don't see anyone like... being critical of ranboo if theyre going to be critical of beeduo's relationship?

i know this post is lacking the tubbo critical part, but i just. MMM. wanted to talk about how it is not only just... tubbo who is "unhealthy" here. it is a joint effort due to the lack of communication between them both.

TLDR;

if you're going to be critical of beeduo's relationship, be critical of them both. if you're making a critical tubbo post just label it a critical tubbo post, not a critical beeduo post. because it takes two to tango and ranboo plays a part in the unhealthiness surrounding the twos relationship as well. he's not just some poor baby who's fallen victim to tubbo.