#borifle

[furiousfinnstan]

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[lame-cameoliob]

Kallus' motivations are so interesting

I just need to get these thoughts out so I’m throwing this ramble here:

Now, this may totally just be me thinking too much (fork found in kitchen) but I feel like when it comes to how we tend to think about Kallus’ characterization, the implications of Kallus’ experience on Onderon are very overlooked. 

So he goes to Onderon with “the boys”-- which, the term “the boys” has its own set of implications about how Kallus must have really cared for those troopers under his command but I digress– and on a patrol they’re attacked, yada yada, we all know the story. 

But Kallus becomes fully paralyzed. He doesn’t describe the extent of his paralyzation but given that he had to watch as his squad was “finished off one by one” it’s pretty fair to assume that he could not move whatsoever. The fear that any person would experience in that situation is completely indescribable, that is genuinely some shit straight out of a night terror. 

He is– as we know– spared (albeit we don’t get exact details (did the merc try to kill him but reinforcements arrived before he could? Did the merc think that Kallus was already dead? Secret 3rd option?)) and he makes a full physical recovery, but there is no way in hell that he is not coming out of that encounter with some crazy PTSD. 

There’s not a whole lot of info on Imperial mental health services but I don’t think it’s a longshot to assume that they are probably close to nonexistent.

So the empire now has… an ISB agent with field experience… with untreated PTSD… where said PTSDs inciting incident pertained to a Lasat… and they’re looking to make an example out of Lasan……….. Are you picking up what I'm putting down here…...?

If you aren’t; it is BY NO MEANS a wild assumption to say that the Empire– essentially– weaponized Kallus’ PTSD, given that he would be less likely to question the moral atrocities happening on Lasan since he was already biased against Lasat as a whole. 

Now, we don’t really have a solid grasp on what Kallus’ exact role in Lasan was since he’s  kiiiiinnnd of an unreliable narrator– I mean we’re given the line in Droids in Distress where he takes credit for giving orders during the siege, but Kallus routinely just runs his mf mouth whenever he’s throwing hands so it’s like…  that could either be the truth or a crazy exaggeration, we as viewers have literally no idea what’s going on there– but it goes without saying that Kallus is obviously not excused from his participation just because of (likely) untreated mental illness, but that is literally like the whole point of his character so like we all knew that

Now, after Lasan, Kallus does something really bizarre for an imperial to do; he accepts the borifle given to him through the Boosan Keerah, and even though he doesn’t know about the cultural significance of that, he still takes it upon himself to learn how to use this weapon. I think that literally any other imperial would have tossed that shit out on sight, so I think it does kind of imply that Kallus did have a good deal of respect for Lasat culture.

Now we can all recall how Kallus is so annoying and also batshit insane whenever he fights Zeb for the first season and a half of rebels, and ME THINKS that this is because he wants to prove to himself that if he were not paralyzed on Onderon, he could have saved the members of his squad. He had to sit by and watch them die, and I think that he just wants the vindication; now you may be thinking, But Emma, he beat the Lasat who gave him his borifle, why would he still be obsessing over this– say it with me now– he is mentally ill. No victory will ever be enough to prove this to himself. Point blank period. 

(edit:) He is for sure operating from a place of extreme predjudice and bias but I think it's worth noting that he’s not operating under the usual xenophobic imperial mindset that other species are automaticaly lesser than. (end edit) This weird obsession that he has in seasons 1 and 2 deels like it's mostly there because he wants to outwit and outfight Zeb (and the rest of the Ghost crew… but especially Zeb) (edit: Though it is 100% influenced by Xenophobia-- his mental illness and xenopobia DO coexist!!)

And after the Honorable Ones???? It’s literally never brought up again. He chills tf out so hard after that it is high key uncanny. And like, yes duh that is because– for writing purposes– that’s the beginning of his redemption and they want viewers to root for him as fulcrum, but it also implies that after finding common ground with Zeb, and understanding where he’s coming from and who Zeb is as a person, he realizes that he’s been CRASHING TF OUT for basically no reason. 

And he is SO QUICK to switch sides?? Like, he is fulcrum at least a decent time before the beginning of season three. The whole point is that the second he asks questions and delves deeper into what the Empires motivations are he is disgusted enough that he doesn’t just drop everything and disappear, no, he became a spy for the rebels because he wants to help. I feel like that just goes to show that, at his core, Kallus is a good person. A deeply confused, and hurt, and misguided person, but a good one. 

I dunno, this is just a really long winded way of saying that Kallus is the perfect example of an imperial pawn. Like the Empire is an incredibly effecient indoctrination machine that exploits people at every turn, especially their own soldiers, and I think that Kallus’ relationship with that indoctrination along with his own motivations is just super super interesting and I think about it literally all the time

[seth-shitposts]

Yall I stand firm on the headcanon that the bo-rifle and the meteorite are the only items Kallus had ever been gifted.

And that that changes once he joins the rebellion. But before that,

Zeb is tending to Kallus’s wounds post-zero hour. And Kallus is a bit more than a little out of it, after the intensive torture he had gone through and everything else.

Kallus actually tears up a little. And zeb says that it's okay, he's safe and kallus, utterly exhausted, says that he lost the meteorite.

Zeb: the what?

Kallus: the warm rock you gave me.

Zeb: you *kept* it? Why?

Kallus: aside from the bo-rifle- *realization hits* I LOST THE BORIFLE *sobs a bit*

Zeb calms him down a bit and then kallus continues

Kallus: I've only ever been *given* two things in my life, Garazeb. And that meteorite is ultimately what pushed me to scrap together the small amount of courage in my body to follow through with everything. Of course, sure, I didn't need it once I got the truth. The answers. But i- it was important to me...

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Sorry have to leave for work-

I'll probably flesh this out into a serious one shot later though.

[fis-paprikas]

5 Favorite Songs Right Now

ty @b1uetrees for tagging me 💖 in no particular order:

1. Security -- Amyl and the Sniffers

2. Lilac wine -- Jeff Buckley

3. Pipanonna -- Valentino Boskovic

4. Abstract (Psychopomp) -- Hozier

5. Werewolf gimmick -- The Mountain Goats

im tagging @zevranunderstander , @borifle and @its-yashas-strong-arms mwah no pressure

[totallytranstazertoastedtatortot]

Once you get this, you have to say five things you like about yourself, publicly. Then you have to send this to ten of your favorite followers 🖤

I know you don't usually do this kind of thing, but it's worth a shot (:

Oh! Well I’m always in the mood for spreading positivity and self love. I’ll send it to as many people as I can think of!

Things I like about myself:

1. I’d like to think I’m pretty smart

2. Have always been creative, and a quick thinker

3. I admire the time and effort I’ve put into loving myself more, even though I still struggle sometimes

4. I love how my work allows me to feel like I’m making a difference in people’s lives

5. I love the people I’ve chosen to surround myself with! I like to think that says I have good judgement.

It’ll be faster to tag people so let’s see… @nerdyyetclassy @demi-demilich @borifle @phraven @tabletop-nightmare @thekatfuzz @laura5407 @xenogaydechronicles @transxenoblade @firebrde

[nsewell]

tagged by @keclan mwah

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i got tragic hero typical. the outfit styles for this one were sooo fun and i was able to finagle a pretty accurate representation of how i dress mr. toad looking ass.

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[demi-demilich]

Served major cunt at pride today with @borifle 🥰

[bearboyboy]

Is.. can I post half jokingly about feet kink here?? Is that???? Am I good??? Here’s Alex thinking Zeb (accurately) clocked him as a sub with a feet kink

Zeb and Alex were drinking one night in the tap cafe. It was one of the nights where they felt good laughing about how annoying it was dealing with the other when they were on opposing sides.

Alex complaining about while commending Zeb’s ability to land blows that left him with yellow and purple bruises for the next two weeks. Also complaining about how hard it was to type on his datapad while hiding a sprained wrist from his higher ups. Zeb complained about the scorced fur he had from time to time when Alex got a good hit with the electro-staff part of his borifle. Both laughing about their previous misery

“I’m glad you weren’t sparring regularly back then.. I don’t know where we’d be if you could fight like you do now back when you were still a bootlicker.”

😨 The color drains from Alex’s skin and his face lights up in shock.

😳 “W-what?” He mutters out, feeling his freckled cheeks heat up in embarassment, the blush reaching his ears.

🤨 Zeb gives him an odd look before laughing. 😄

“Have you never heard that? Well it basically means you suck up to authority. Like there was a time you’d ‘lick the boots of Thrawn if he told you to’ sorta thing”

😮 “..oh… funny..” 😐

🤨 “What were you thinking?”

😅 “n-nothing”

[totallytranstazertoastedtatortot]

@demi-demilich @borifle it’s Tooka

Happy black cat day!!

Here are some black cats I've drawn through the years

[gavyvavy-archived]

21 through 26 for the CR asks 😚

*cracks knuckles* Okay sarah I see you.   I’m just gonna answer them in sets. My favorite PC’s from Campaign 1 and 2 is the warlocks. I absolutely adore Percy because I’m here for that found family shit. And Fjord is baby.... I’m here for that found family shit! (Which TMN does VERY well) Also maybe I’m a sucker for warlocks with British accents I dunno. My favorite C1 NPC is.. oh gosh. I’d say Gilmore but I feel like its that love for LGBT rep (lookin at you Allura/Kima) and the fact Ringleader has interacted with him. But actually from a story stand point I’d say Kaylie, she’s such a fucking important character to the development of Scanlan and in turn the party because of how he leaves and how he comes back and I feel the story wouldn’t be the same if Scanlan hadn’t left to go spend the much needed time with her. My favorite C2 NPC is the Gentleman without a doubt, I love Pumat for the same reason I love Gilmore and its just that fact that those shop keepers play such a solid stable place for the party but the Gentleman- I feel like the way Matt had him set up was, he was going to be another stable point of interest for the party but that all got turned tits up and he’s become such a caring person??? Like Idk how to explain it but like hes trying man LMAO. (y’know we talked about it B) )

Honorary best villian goes to Thordak cause I feel his character was pretty straight forward and flat but shout out to the parent of Ringo. I’ve been sitting here looking at the Antagonist list and I got nothin, I don’t think I had a favorite C1 villian, I just found the end to their arcs fucking awesome. (looking at you Ripley and Kevdak)

C2 ON THE OTHER HAND. FUCKING UUUUUUUUUUUUUh I HATED Avantika with my whole ass heart and probably foamed at the mouth at her demise. FUCK Lorenzo BITCH ASS. WE LOVE ONE HOT BOI. But if I had to choose one it would be Vokodo cause from the point of view of a player and as a DM I think Morkoths are FACINATING. I love it when mental stress is put on a party is such a way its such a great puzzle. Also I think we also all know that Vokodo was step one to what ever fucking nightmare we have coming our way so I tip my hat to him. 

[galpalaven]

@borifle replied to your link “The Curse of Blackwood Castle by galpalaven”

I already feel invested in the story you’re telling here �� I played fawkes first, cause my nb ass is predictable, and I like their inner monologues a lot. it feels really similar to how I think in my own head lmao. (also very much a fan of the ‘but there’s only one bed’ trope ��) The prose is good too, but I feel like there should be more choices throughout. the long pages of text are fine but I feel like I’d be more engaged with it if there was more interactivity maybe? idk but it’s really cool!

YEAH I KNOW i had like jfksdl 2 weeks to make this I didn’t have time for as many choices as I wanted and will be going back in and adding more choices eventually

[demi-demilich]

@borifle

passenger princess? No, I’m the passenger knight. I’ve sworn an oath of homoerotic loyalty to the driver and will protect them until my last breath. I will carry out her road rage. I’m why the front passenger seat is called shotgun

[lesbinewren]

wtf happy birthday zoe!! 🌈✨

thank you!!! 💫

[kimabutch]

okay so “you had your time, you had the power/you’ve yet to have your finest hour” from radio gaga by queen gives me MAJOR m9 vibes 😩💕

NICE NICE NICE I’m always a fan of Queen + CR. 

That line kinda makes me emotional, because so many of the M9 are trying again for the second or third time and trying to get it right again. Their best is yet to come. 

Come yell at me about the songs that remind you of Critical Role! I’m making a giant playlist! (Song masterpost | CR music tag)

[totallytranstazertoastedtatortot]

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Milb (mutual I'd like to boop)

[kirkwallshero]

@borifle i did the same in my very first play through as well!! i felt soso bad, when i did it tho cause like alistair is meant to do great things! and i looove hawke and their story (da2 was my fave which is why i love hawke lmao) i always thought of it making more sense as a tragedy if that make sense. but IM STILL REGRETTING IT CUZ I DONT WANNA THINK ABOUT HOW THEIR LI IS GONNA FEEL ABT THIS SHIT