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[mashmouths]

if you told me "fearnot (between you, me and the lamppost)" was originally intended for the hannah montana movie i'd believe you

[riosnecktattoo]

Invitation to a Beheading my beloved

my insane phase! what a time

well I read this excerpt from the book Invitation to a Beheading randomly:

In spite of everything I loved you, and will go on loving you―on my knees, with my shoulders drawn back, showing my heels to the headsman and straining my goose neck―even then. And afterwards―perhaps most of all afterwards―I shall love you, and one day we shall have a real, all-embracing explanation, and then perhaps we shall somehow fit together, you and I, and turn ourselves in such a way that we form one pattern, and solve the puzzle.....we shall connect the points, draw the line, and you and I shall form that unique design for which I yearn.

and my brain instantly pictured Brio in this kind of scenario but was like What if Rio was the headsman? and I stored it for ages and then chapter titles started to come to me first actually.

I love titles so much that sometimes the title of a thing is the only reason I write something. So I really loved Invitation to a Beheading since the excerpt was the inspo, then the chapter title 'Bluebeard's Wife' for Part 2, what with the bloody chamber energy of the warehouse.

Then I had no idea how to finish the fic actually but then I knew I wanted Rio to say Get on all fours and then Part 3 On All Fours started to take shape.

I honestly don't know where the fucking-while-covered-in-blood with a fresh corpse next to them came from tbh. Like I know I got very drunk when I wrote Part 2 but I can't remember the inception of 'would be so sexy if they were drenched in warm blood and fucked' lol. Maybe from a 2x01 gifset where Rio is bloody. I can't recall.

I know that I cut a whole bit from Part 3, after he asks about her tattoo, about his chain being a St. Christopher pendant his mum gave him and him kinda making it clear she had passed, and I know I cut some other stuff where Beth snooped around pictures of his family. I think I wrote a small bit where she looks at the picture of his Mum and Dad on their wedding day and he got prickly about her seeing it, but while I liked it I was getting stuck and couldn’t move past it so just cut it all.

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[joshuahyslop]

BOOKS

The last 10 books I’ve read:

1. Down The River - Edward Abbey I love Edward Abbey’s writing. I can’t imagine he was someone who was very fun to be around though. He seems like quite the curmudgeon and I don’t agree with some of his opinions, but I love his writing. This book is a mix of journal entries and essays. A lot of the entries took place while he was rafting down different rivers in America. Someone once described Abbey’s writing as Thoreau mixed with Hunter S. Thompson and I think that fits.

2. Beloved - Toni Morrison This was the first book I’d read by Toni Morrison. I’d been at a music festival in St. Stephen in 2019 and I’d heard a few quotations of hers that really moved me. I’d still like to check out her essays but I was somewhat surprised to find that I didn’t really enjoy this book. To be clear, it’s very well written and there are parts of it that I think are important to read. But large portions of the book revolve around a romance and that’s pretty much the only genre of book that I don’t enjoy. It’s not a romance novel per-se, but the romance aspects of the book didn’t hook me.

3. The Naked and the Dead - Norman Mailer This was the second book I read as a part of my book club. I wasn’t really sure what to expect. All I knew was that it takes place during World War 2 and that Mailer was apparently a controversial character. For the most part I liked this book. The soldiers all swear but Mailer writes it as, “fug” which is a minor issue but it does make it more difficult to take the book seriously. I felt the plot dragged a bit as it’s over 700 pages and it’s also fairly anticlimactic but the beginning and the middle were enjoyable. 

4. Talking To Strangers - Malcolm Gladwell I’ve read a bunch of Gladwell’s books and I’ve listened to one of his podcasts a lot as well. His books read the same way he talks. You can hear his emphasis (often illustrated in italics in his writing). If you like that, you’ll probably like this book. He’s a good story teller but I have to read him in small bursts. The italics can bug me. It’s petty, I know, but there you have it.

5. The Plague - Albert Camus Another book club selection. To say reading this book during a global pandemic was eerie is an understatement. A pandemic breaks out and a town is quarantined. A lot of people die and the medical professionals are at a loss. There’s a lot of interesting theories and insights into human behaviour during a pandemic. It ran frighteningly parallel to our current situation for quite a lot of the book, and didn’t paint a very hopeful picture for a quarantine during the fall and winter. If you’re an anxious person I’d recommend waiting until after COVID-19 to read it.

6. The True Secret of Writing - Natalie Goldberg I won’t spoil it and tell you the secret. You’ll have to read it yourself. Another lovely book by Natalie Goldberg. I’m a big fan of her writing, her instructions on how to write and her incorporation of her Zen practice in both. 

7. Colourless Tsukuru Tazaki - Haruki Murakami This was a new one for me. For the first time, I didn’t enjoy reading a book by Murakami. It’s not that it’s a bad book or poorly written or anything, it’s just boring. Nothing really happens and some of what does happen is very confusing. The main character, Tsukuru is supposed to be sort of bland. All of his friends names translate into colours but not his name. So he’s colourless and lives a fairly colourless life. It is what it is, it’s just not for me. I’m glad this wasn’t the first book of his I’d read.

8. What We Talk About When We Talk About Love - Raymond Carver A little while ago my wife and I watched Birdman again and this time it struck me that the play that Michael Keaton’s character has adapted for the stage is a short story by Raymond Carver. I’d read other collections of short stories by Carver before but I hadn’t read this one. So I checked it out. It’s classic depressing Carver. So, if that’s what you’re in the mood for, pour yourself a drink and enjoy.

9. Hyperbole and a Half - Allie Brosh Quite a while ago my dad gave me this book and asked me to return it to his sister. My aunt and I live in the same city so he thought I’d see her before he did. But then days went by and this book just sat on my bookshelf, unreturned. I bumped into my aunt a while ago and mentioned I had her book and she asked me if I’d read it. When I told her that I hadn’t she said to give it a glance and to hold on to it until I had. So, today I read it. It’s very funny and unlike any other book I’ve ever read. It’s sort of part book part comic book. Good stuff. But now I really have to give it back.

10. Bluebeard - Kurt Vonnegut It occurred to me recently that I haven’t read as many of Vonnegut’s books as I’d thought. I was going through my list of “books I’ve read’ and was surprised to find only three or four titles by him. I’d even read his son’s book, for goodness sake. For an author whose writing I so thoroughly enjoy, why had I read so few of his books? I couldn’t find an answer that I liked well enough, so I bought this book without knowing the plot and got reading. I’ll probably buy another one soon and do the same thing. As expected, I enjoyed this one. It’s not amazing, but his writing is unmistakeable and I sure do like satire. If you do too there’s a fair chance you’ll enjoy this book. Or, maybe not. So it goes. more soon, -joshua