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[mashmouths]

if you told me "fearnot (between you, me and the lamppost)" was originally intended for the hannah montana movie i'd believe you

[spiceberrie]

Connor McDavid for the send me a a character ask?

YESSSSSSSSS MI BEBE thanks beloved all according to the keikaku. for all intents and purposes i do not have a nickname for connor i just call him connor and i HAVE been accused of crypto hating him before but that's all in the past. this is all said with utmost affection and/or bewilderment.

first impression

none. i was a nicojacker since iirc december and then i dilly-dallied for like a Month...

i kept seeing davo referenced in stuff and then I was on a electrumqueen binge and i went Omg.......? so funny to think that nowadays there's more intersection between Chucky/Ekblad than with connor LOL i had no impression whatsoever <3 i followed mostly pens fans and they all either ignored him or apathetically derided him which JUST and FAIR but i was a newbie who knew nothing so i wanted to understand 1) why was he so good 2) why was his particular blandness more infuriating than all the similar blandness i had perused and 3) omg what is UP with edmonton??? I didn't know anything!!! I didn't care about him until i had read like 60 TKNP / NHJH fics and that was kinda it until i got bewitched by BLAAHAJ 💔

mostly i have a few dumb posts that got 100+ notes where i was trying to understand his childhood and his family and his mythos and everything. it seems silly to say it now but i bought into a lot of stuff that makes me LOL nowadays

impression now

mi bebe... my kitten... i am not like an affectionate person most days IRL and i am very stoic! truly! and i get embarrassed letting any of my UNIRONICAL and REAL feelings through bec it's ridiculous to feel actual endearment regarding immoral millionaires etc i know the rapport! but i do get endeared pretty often LOL he's very ridiculous and very transparent. nouveau riche king of shilling and selling out... i like his cloutseeking endeavors but mostly i like how he doesn't do it for any obvious insidious reasons other than money and plugging his ackt well-rounded ambitious fiancee. straight-forward! to compare, i think chuck had considerably more generational wealth at his disposal so he's more public relations aware and media savvy for his world domination goals etc connor just wants to get paid 🙏

idea for a story

estradiol would fix him. omegaleon would also. i have tons of wips i just get exhausted aughhhhhhh... current idea is 997 where he goes to Vegas after and it's not about love or affection rather it's about the HOCKEY WORLD CUP and the NORTH AMERICAN TEAM and JACK EICHEL trying to parse whether he hates or kinda... likes... connor? which is a strange realization to have 5 years in but still. i think we need to explore uh non conventional relationships in the sense that loyalty or affection aren't top priorities for most millionaires. and the matter of love is more pragmatic i think... and it's not about liking each other either. or understanding everything that's on the mind of the other person. and all my connor ideas are rooted in his natural & ridiculous deflection through the eyes of the people overcomplicating him? idk i'm very into STOICISM. and jack eichel having a wag who's a hockey player who doesn't hate that he won first despite jack himself expecting the resentment and it just not coming bc apparently davo does THERAPY now

unpopular opinion

he is not as miserable as people think he is LOL he just has a monotone and hates emoting publicly. he's fineeeeeeeeeeeeeee

favorite moment

TT-TT all of them... i giffed so much connor this season and it required transcribing and captioning and watching things 1000000 times. and i loved it all 👍 if i had to pick then that one interview where he talks about the curse of being him or the ones where they cajole him into talking about ekky.

when he said the facking dog sleeps butt to butt with him between lauren

favorite relationship

2997. obviously. duh. that's his wife. he's bluebeard. but i love love love love love lk1 management of his life and what she did with the place (all his choices). 997. 9719 as in chucky. 1997 as in the mar brainwashing that happened to me. 1497 because a swedish dman DID fix him. i liked 1697 much more before but minch couldn't give less of a fuck nowadays so I switched to 9734

favorite headcanon

ok picture this. connor is a cis woman. she's very terrible to both of her boyfriends. just very non ethical non monogamy vibes. she crashes Chucky's house during the ASG so she can poke and prod at the fight he had with Leon. she CAUSED the fight bec Leon said smth to the effect of, Well, you're not Connor when Chucky poked and prodded into WHY da hell he was such a jealous insecure prick about NON EXISTING MATTERS, You don't do this with Connor, and like, word, but the reason why Chucky isn't Connor is bec i have a strong and stable belief that polyamory is best done when you understand that affection can't be evenly spread out in a equal manner and that the difference in dynamics is ackt what makes it so interesting 👍 so it isn't about Leon trusting Connor more (valid) it's just because the terms of that rotation are different than the terms of the rotation he has with Chucky 👍 as in they don't have the long-running aspect to fall back on and mostly because Connor isn't very adept to answering for her crimes and Leon is trying his hand at holding Chucky ACCOUNTABLE 👍 but the headcanon proper is that Connor does a photoshoot with Auston and they wear like matching unisex shirt with shorts but she's BABY BLUE and he's POWDER PINK bec the NHL is relying on magazine editorials w shapeless agender clothing to GROW THE GAME!

[riosnecktattoo]

Invitation to a Beheading my beloved

my insane phase! what a time

well I read this excerpt from the book Invitation to a Beheading randomly:

In spite of everything I loved you, and will go on loving you―on my knees, with my shoulders drawn back, showing my heels to the headsman and straining my goose neck―even then. And afterwards―perhaps most of all afterwards―I shall love you, and one day we shall have a real, all-embracing explanation, and then perhaps we shall somehow fit together, you and I, and turn ourselves in such a way that we form one pattern, and solve the puzzle.....we shall connect the points, draw the line, and you and I shall form that unique design for which I yearn.

and my brain instantly pictured Brio in this kind of scenario but was like What if Rio was the headsman? and I stored it for ages and then chapter titles started to come to me first actually.

I love titles so much that sometimes the title of a thing is the only reason I write something. So I really loved Invitation to a Beheading since the excerpt was the inspo, then the chapter title 'Bluebeard's Wife' for Part 2, what with the bloody chamber energy of the warehouse.

Then I had no idea how to finish the fic actually but then I knew I wanted Rio to say Get on all fours and then Part 3 On All Fours started to take shape.

I honestly don't know where the fucking-while-covered-in-blood with a fresh corpse next to them came from tbh. Like I know I got very drunk when I wrote Part 2 but I can't remember the inception of 'would be so sexy if they were drenched in warm blood and fucked' lol. Maybe from a 2x01 gifset where Rio is bloody. I can't recall.

I know that I cut a whole bit from Part 3, after he asks about her tattoo, about his chain being a St. Christopher pendant his mum gave him and him kinda making it clear she had passed, and I know I cut some other stuff where Beth snooped around pictures of his family. I think I wrote a small bit where she looks at the picture of his Mum and Dad on their wedding day and he got prickly about her seeing it, but while I liked it I was getting stuck and couldn’t move past it so just cut it all.

Fic Secrets

[joshuahyslop]

BOOKS

The last 10 books I’ve read:

1. Down The River - Edward Abbey I love Edward Abbey’s writing. I can’t imagine he was someone who was very fun to be around though. He seems like quite the curmudgeon and I don’t agree with some of his opinions, but I love his writing. This book is a mix of journal entries and essays. A lot of the entries took place while he was rafting down different rivers in America. Someone once described Abbey’s writing as Thoreau mixed with Hunter S. Thompson and I think that fits.

2. Beloved - Toni Morrison This was the first book I’d read by Toni Morrison. I’d been at a music festival in St. Stephen in 2019 and I’d heard a few quotations of hers that really moved me. I’d still like to check out her essays but I was somewhat surprised to find that I didn’t really enjoy this book. To be clear, it’s very well written and there are parts of it that I think are important to read. But large portions of the book revolve around a romance and that’s pretty much the only genre of book that I don’t enjoy. It’s not a romance novel per-se, but the romance aspects of the book didn’t hook me.

3. The Naked and the Dead - Norman Mailer This was the second book I read as a part of my book club. I wasn’t really sure what to expect. All I knew was that it takes place during World War 2 and that Mailer was apparently a controversial character. For the most part I liked this book. The soldiers all swear but Mailer writes it as, “fug” which is a minor issue but it does make it more difficult to take the book seriously. I felt the plot dragged a bit as it’s over 700 pages and it’s also fairly anticlimactic but the beginning and the middle were enjoyable. 

4. Talking To Strangers - Malcolm Gladwell I’ve read a bunch of Gladwell’s books and I’ve listened to one of his podcasts a lot as well. His books read the same way he talks. You can hear his emphasis (often illustrated in italics in his writing). If you like that, you’ll probably like this book. He’s a good story teller but I have to read him in small bursts. The italics can bug me. It’s petty, I know, but there you have it.

5. The Plague - Albert Camus Another book club selection. To say reading this book during a global pandemic was eerie is an understatement. A pandemic breaks out and a town is quarantined. A lot of people die and the medical professionals are at a loss. There’s a lot of interesting theories and insights into human behaviour during a pandemic. It ran frighteningly parallel to our current situation for quite a lot of the book, and didn’t paint a very hopeful picture for a quarantine during the fall and winter. If you’re an anxious person I’d recommend waiting until after COVID-19 to read it.

6. The True Secret of Writing - Natalie Goldberg I won’t spoil it and tell you the secret. You’ll have to read it yourself. Another lovely book by Natalie Goldberg. I’m a big fan of her writing, her instructions on how to write and her incorporation of her Zen practice in both. 

7. Colourless Tsukuru Tazaki - Haruki Murakami This was a new one for me. For the first time, I didn’t enjoy reading a book by Murakami. It’s not that it’s a bad book or poorly written or anything, it’s just boring. Nothing really happens and some of what does happen is very confusing. The main character, Tsukuru is supposed to be sort of bland. All of his friends names translate into colours but not his name. So he’s colourless and lives a fairly colourless life. It is what it is, it’s just not for me. I’m glad this wasn’t the first book of his I’d read.

8. What We Talk About When We Talk About Love - Raymond Carver A little while ago my wife and I watched Birdman again and this time it struck me that the play that Michael Keaton’s character has adapted for the stage is a short story by Raymond Carver. I’d read other collections of short stories by Carver before but I hadn’t read this one. So I checked it out. It’s classic depressing Carver. So, if that’s what you’re in the mood for, pour yourself a drink and enjoy.

9. Hyperbole and a Half - Allie Brosh Quite a while ago my dad gave me this book and asked me to return it to his sister. My aunt and I live in the same city so he thought I’d see her before he did. But then days went by and this book just sat on my bookshelf, unreturned. I bumped into my aunt a while ago and mentioned I had her book and she asked me if I’d read it. When I told her that I hadn’t she said to give it a glance and to hold on to it until I had. So, today I read it. It’s very funny and unlike any other book I’ve ever read. It’s sort of part book part comic book. Good stuff. But now I really have to give it back.

10. Bluebeard - Kurt Vonnegut It occurred to me recently that I haven’t read as many of Vonnegut’s books as I’d thought. I was going through my list of “books I’ve read’ and was surprised to find only three or four titles by him. I’d even read his son’s book, for goodness sake. For an author whose writing I so thoroughly enjoy, why had I read so few of his books? I couldn’t find an answer that I liked well enough, so I bought this book without knowing the plot and got reading. I’ll probably buy another one soon and do the same thing. As expected, I enjoyed this one. It’s not amazing, but his writing is unmistakeable and I sure do like satire. If you do too there’s a fair chance you’ll enjoy this book. Or, maybe not. So it goes. more soon, -joshua