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@bread-is-my-life @loadingbnha I had to draw something out of yalls beautiful idea, I couldn't resist. Matching skull face bfs đ
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Im back in the trenches defending another otokonoko from people claiming that they are a trans woman even though they are explicitly stated not to be
#Never look up a series with nuance on tumblr its a mistake#Yall are so nasty to makoto what do you mean he didnt 'commit' to being trans he commited to being HIMSELF#Im not gonna say hes not trans but makoto is not a trans woman hes somewhere on the nb spectrum#You can hc him as trans but dont put words in his mouth he specifically said that hes not a woman or a man#I excuse ppl just starting senpai wa otokonoko but please think critically#Makoto joins hiura as misrepresented as a trans allegory#Hiura is actually not trans at all tho#U can experience gender euphoria and be cis u know u can present as the opposite gender and be cis#I love trans women and i think that people should be allowed to present and be any gender they desire#But please dont act like its binary#These mangas and these characters are specifically ABOUT how its not binary#Open your mind and heart to gender queer and gnc people otokonokos dont always have to be trans#I KNOW we as an anime community have been burned by legacies of transphobia#But its okay hold my hand#If you havent seen any of this vitrol directed at either character consider yourself blessed#Oh and like i said if you hc either AS trans thats totally fine but you also have to accept what the canon is saying too#Sorry for the rant#Uhhh go watch senpai wa otokonoko and read i turned my childhood friend into a girl#Very good queer mangas#senpai wa otokonoko#i think i turned my childhood friend into a girl#makoto hanaoka#Hiura mihate#To restate this is not an attack on trans women this is not an attack on the potrayal of trans women
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like animals â âš
ellie williams x f!reader
youâre ovulating and your partnerâEllieâis looking a little too good
tw: PURE FILTH, not proofread, farmer!ellie, established relationship (gf or married, I imagined married), ellie can carry reader, e can hold onto râs hair, needy reader, multiple rounds of sex, strap described as Ellieâs dick, strap sucking (e receiving), strap (r receiving), oral (r&e receiving), fingering (e&r receiving), muscle kink, degrading, making out, grinding, spit kink, this is straight up filth yall im not fucking joking
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It seeps into your system, spreading quickly when that time arises. It makes you feel hot, insatiable. The feeling erases most common sense and fills it instead with a need. Essentially you act as if youâre in heat.
The moment you knew that time had crept up on you was when you were washing a few dishes in the sink and caught Ellie talking to your neighbor. The sun, the golden rays had been placed just ever so perfectly to shape out her musclesâher tattoo. The one that was shining with your wetness just a day ago?
She was keeping a conversation going between the two of them whilst picking up and moving these bails of hay. Safe to say the water ran over your still fingers as you eyed her, checking her out.
Started with her arms before it switched over to her back. There were times when she was working in the heat of the day, so sheâd remove her top shirt while cooling off. You met her on the porch, handing her a glass of tea and checking in on her. Thatâs when you noticed her fingers. The length, veins, the way she held onto the glass. Truth be told, you barely heard a thing she said.
Walking down the steps? Your eyes were hooked on her back as she put her shirt back on. The thoughts were getting increasingly intense with each passing minute. Just before her shirt completely slipped over her backâcovering itâyou noticed the light scars on her skin. The little scars you planted there after a session not too long ago. Fuck you needed her. Ellie had reached the bottom step when you finally found your voice.
âElsâ?â
She hums, turning around and getting rightfully spooked at how close you covered the space between you two. You made it to the bottom of the steps, pulling on her jean loop to kiss her. Sheâs a bit taken aback but ultimately ends up kissing backâbringing a hand to cup your cheek. Your heart skips when you feel her hand slide down your body, holding and gripping onto your waist.
âMm was that all you needed?â
You should say yes. Yes, youâre done, nothing else, continue workingâ
âNo,â you grip onto her like sheâll leave, âno, Ellie I need more.â
Youâre so blessed when you feel her silly grin, it makes you giddy inside. A laugh breaking from you when she holds under your thighs and carries you back insideâpushing you against the wall. Since waking up with a fuzzy mind already, all this making out did was send you into outer space. Something Ellie loves to talk about when you sit out on the porch at night, looking at the stars.
âPlease,â you beg, voice whiny, âplease Ellie, donât tease.â
She had her lips on your neck, engaging in your usual foreplay. It was absolutely maddening, you wanted her fingers in you nowânot whatever this was. Usually itâs nice, but now itâs frustrating you.
You grip her hand that was placed on your hip, pulling it down to your already dripping cunt.
Usually youâd never do this, but this time itâs different. Youâre drunk in your own lust.
Ellie catches on quickly, pulling your garments off and hiking one thigh over her hipâspreading you out for her. She drags her fingers up your heat and chokes on a moan.
âShit youâre soaked, likeâholy shit.â
You loose your mind when she pushes a finger though. Nails dig into her shoulder and your lips are dropped open in a shaky gasp. Her fingers, her lips, her sweaty hair and skin, her arms, her thighs, the way the pants sit on her waist, her ass, her voiceâeverything about her was turning you on.
You came embarrassingly quick. Mightâve been a new record. The moment your eyes opened this morning you felt as if you were already on edge, rubbing your thighs together to try and get some of the edge off. But you shouldâve known nothing would except her.
She laughed a little, drawing her fingers out and wiping them on her pants.
âLove you,â she mumbles, pressing a kiss to your lips and wondering back out onto the porchâleaving you panting against the wall.
Little did she know that didnât sedate you, it only fueled the fire.
You met her in the barn later, catching her when she was staring to feed the horses. The way she had you this morning had crept up when she came into view and reminded you yet again of how attractive she was.
âDo we need more horse feed soon? Looks like we just have two barrels left.â
She looks back at you, momentarily stopping her scoop of the feed, âyeah sounds good. I can put the order in tonight.â
âI can do it, itâs no problem.â
She stood full height, looking to you with a bit of confusion in her eyes, âwhyâre you out here?â
To see you.
âDoing an inventory check.â
She hummed, moving along to feed your third horse. You stood there, shoulder leaned against the barn wallâeyeing her move around and do the chores youâre very similar with. She noticed, eyes changing in color after a bit when she realized the intent.
She tossed the scoop back into the barrel before her hands pulled your hips towards hers as she leaned in for a quick kiss. She had an arrogant smile, one that made you feel things. You reached a hand into her hair, pulling her back down for a kiss after a kiss after a kiss.
Next thing you knew you were being pushed back into the small tack room, shoved back against the table. She had you sat up on the table, legs wrapped around her shoulders as she ate you out. Your sounds filled the room, reaching her ears and transforming into a melody so beautiful it made Ellieâs throb. She moaned herself from your sounds and the way you tasted on her tongue.
You could almost cry, it felt amazing. It was like rain on a hot day, cooling you off from the warm that filled you. Sheâs holding your legs wide, arms wrapped around them so you canât close them on her head. And fuck itâs driving you crazy, because any jolt of your hips has her muscles flexing.
âElsââ you gasp, eyes dazed, âplease.â
She had her eyes locked onto yours, her pupils blown wide just like yours. Only took another movement and you were coming on her tongue, head falling onto the wall behind you. It feels good, it always feels goodâbut now, each orgasm has increased tenfold. She stands to her full height, bringing a hand through her hair to brush it back and out of her face before reaching to help you. It was like it was practicedâlong fingers gripping your chin, tipping it back so she could kiss you and let her spit (with the taste of you) fall onto your tongue.
You stand on wobbily legs, mind running around from the enactments just before. She had you wrap your arms around her shoulders as she sets your clothes back on straightâsharing kisses in between.
âMm, my lips are all swollen nowââ you complain, but despite that youâre leaning back in for another kiss.
âYou can tell me to stop,â she says, voice rasping near your ear.
You should. It was only noon. The last thing this farm and the both of you needed was the two of you going at it once again. The absolute last thing needed was you finding another way to meet her in the middle of a task to distract her. Nobody needed it, and yet it happened again.
You had met her near the house, seeing her talk to someone sheâs introduced you to and yet youâve forgotten the name. Heâs an older man, near his 70s. Faintly you recall Joel, Ellieâs sort of father figure, introducing him to you as well. Due to the missing name, you gave him a polite smile instead and asked how his day was going. He was on his way eventually, hopping back in his truck and driving off.
âWhat did he need?â
She waves it off, resting her hands on her hips, ânothing, whatâd you need?â
It had happened all too quick and before either of you could fully grasp it you had her spread beneath you, hot moans escaping her from the way you had her writing in pleasure. It flowed almost naturally. Just bringing her down with you when you reached the house. It was near her office, just outside the door.
Her leg was hiked up, giving you room to lick her all over and to easily move your fingers into her cunt. She was just as drenched as you were earlier, the sessions you shared only teasing herâso now it was your chance to give back. You needed her. Each time she made you come, she was up and out the door immediately after. Now, you were going to make her stay, she couldnât wiggle herself out.
A hand was gripping your hair, pulling you into herâwhile the other was draped over her face. Her skin was flush, hot to the touch and tan from the sun. Some areas were tan, her farmers tan was quite obvious. She felt like she was on cloud nine in many ways. The way you looked beneath herâeyebrows furrowed and moaning against her, red lips, watching you pump your fingers into herâit drove her insane. Her hands gripped you tighter, force put into it this time.
âS-shit, come on,â she says, voice scratchy, âyou can do it better, I know you can. Fucking come on.â
You tried, genuinely feeling like you werenât doing somethingâbut whatever you did, it broke her over the edge. She came with a loud, stretched out cryâhips pushing against your tongue and fingers.
âO-oh, fuck. Fuckfuck, so good.â
It sedated you enough. The post-orgasm would help you feel relief. Any pent up energy, the type that ran through you like molten lava at just the sight of her, would decrease. Not vanish entirely, but a good chunk of it would decrease.
The reason why it didnât vanish entirely is because just as you were making dinner, Ellieâfresh out of the showerâhad come to wrap her hands around you from behind. Kisses were placed down your neck, moving to bite as she then pressed her hips into you.
âFeel that,â she asks with a teasing grin.
You hum, moving your head so she can kiss you on your neck some more. Itâs embarrassing how quickly you get turned on yet again. Youâve come two times from her and leaned down under her to make her come a total of one time as well. You should stop, but yet again she found a way onto you this timeâand who were you to stop it. You never wanted the feeling to stop.
The feeling of her skin on yours is intoxicating, and the first time you felt it today. Her tits on yours, her hair brushing your forehead, her thighs brushing yours. Her smell too, brought you to feel all the more bothered. She smelled heavenly, in many ways. The way she smells right out of a shower is the best moments. You genuinely look forward to it as if hinted at the beginning of the soft section of the day.
Usually, anyways.
âDeeper, come on.â
Her fingers, the one youâve been eyeing all day, were gripping your hairâforcing you to take her strap deeper. You had beautiful unsheathed tears in your eyes, looking like diamonds with how you were looking up at herâthe lamp lights reflecting off of them.
Youâve been gagging, nails gripping into her thighsâand she hasnât let up. Knowing youâre enjoying it if the slick dripping onto the floor wasnât a sign enough. She lets you lead it for a second, vision dark and full of lust as she watches you bob your head on her length.
âYeahâyeah, just like that,â she says with a tone that makes you squirm, âsuck my dick.â
And you do, until itâs covered in your salivaâenough for her to slam you onto the kitchen table. Your chest is pushed against the cold woodâmaking your nipples stand to their full attention. She grinds her length over your underwear, slipping it and letting it get caught touching your clit. It was all purposeful, she wanted you to beg for herâact like youâre in heat.
You do, no shock. Hips grind back on hers, tears in your cheeks as you try and hint.
âShh, no crying, tell me what you want.â
âFuck me,âyou whisper, voice cracking, âplease Els.â
She slides your under garnet to the side with her thumb, before pushing through. Your bottom lip drops open in a prolonged silent gasp. It stings so good, spreading you wide and open. It does something to your mind when she leans back and it pulls you back with her. Ellie groans softly from that, just from seeing how tight you are.
âDamn,â she drags her fingers around your entrance, âso fucking tight even though Iâve fucked you senseless just the other night.â
You nod, pushing back, âplease Ellie, please fuck me I canâtâI need you, please!â
She finally does, settling a rough pace from the start. It shoves your thighs against the table side, and they act like a barrier. With it keeping your hips steady and set against a lineâit makes her thrust all the more powerful. Your nails dig lines into the wood, tearing it up as you cry.
Itâs so good. So good you can barely care to try and think about anything. The water bill, the burnt foodânothing. Nothing but her. It was so good.
From her side, you were laid out in front of her like a buffet on the table. Your ass moving with each thrust, it was hypnotic. She couldnât keep her eyes away. Close to that was your face, half turned and shoved against the tableâbody sliding with each quick thrust. You practically bawled when you came, her length being grounded against that spongy spot while her fingers worked circles around your clit.
You legitimately thought you saw stars, mind dizzy as you came down from your high. Ellie was panting behind you, a dork look on her face as she stares down at the way you still grind back on herâdespite having just come.
âYou can tell me to stoââ
âNo!â
It was going to be a long night.
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ââ fear not the road untaken .
Sunday hadn't spent long with the Stellaron Hunters before boarding the Express, but the memories he'd made with them were priceless. One quiet day in the Express's cabin, while reflecting on his experiences with the Hunters, you appear to visit him.
astral express!sunday x gn!stellaronhunter!reader
contains: sunday used to be a stellaron hunter, teasing, FLUFF FLUFF FLUFF THIS IS THE CUTEST THING IVE WRITTEN SO FAR, SUNDAY IS DOWN BADDDD AS HE DESERVES TO BE BITES FIST I MISSED THIS SO BADDDDD, not established relationship sunday just has a massive crush on you
word count: 2.06k
a/n: happy drip marketing yall. you all get a sunday fluff piece. as a treat. also yes i am completely and totally sane. (THIS IS THE MOST SELF INDULGENT FIC IVE EVER WRITTEN I AM SO SORRY GUYS)
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âSunday, weâre going out to Belobog for a bit. Wanna come with?â
Heeled boots still in the midst of a step. Feather-like hair shifts and tousles as he turns his head. At the invitation, gold melts, sapphires glitter, and a gentle smile warms his lips.
March is a blessing, he thinks. She is bubbly, kind, and always manages to light up whatever room she steps into - in that regard, she is not too unlike his beloved sister. Although her ability to plan ahead leaves much room for improvement, he cannot deny that it was her presence that made his transition into a Nameless much easier than it wouldâve been.
Although, truthfully, heâd expected more resistance from her - out of everyone, she seemed to be the most traumatized by the Charmony Festival Disaster, and she also had more of a distaste for Stellaron Hunters than the others. But surprisingly, sheâd come around to him, and welcomed him into the Express with open arms - and a lot of food. He swears, every time sheâs come back from a trip, itâs another sweet or drink shoved into his arms - not that heâs complaining, though.
âThank you for the invitation,â he begins, then rests a hand over his chest as a reflex. âBut Iâm afraid Iâll have to refuse. The last expedition has left me rather exhausted - and as you know, I donât fare well in cold weather.â
Dan Heng nods in understanding. Heâs never been a man of many words, and for that Sunday appreciates him. He rather likes straight-forward people, who arenât afraid to say their mind - perhaps thatâs why heâs grown to adore both the Express and the Hunters so much.
âIs there anything you want us to bring back?â pipes up the Trailblazer, dog-like eyes shining as they lean over March. âLike, sweets or whatever?â
Sunday bites back a chuckle. Somehow, word had gotten around that Sunday had quite the sweet tooth. He doesnât know who started it or how they found out (he has his suspicions on March), but ever since the trio has been dragging him around to various planets and encouraging him to try the local desserts.
He wonders if heâs gotten cavities yet. He hopes not.
Maybe he should check again, at a later time.
âThat Rye Bread Iceberg you brought last time was rather enjoyable. Iâd like to try it again.â
March and the Trailblazer brighten at his words. âOkay, on it!â
Dan Heng only hums his acknowledgement before turning to leave the parlor car. âLetâs go,â he advises the others. âYou know Seele doesnât like to wait.â
Sunday has never personally met this Seele (the Trailblazer describes her as a crass but kind-hearted warrior), but her fury is enough to whip both March and the Trailblazer into shape. It isnât long before the trio is waving him goodbye as they descend into the frozen planet, and he also bids them farewell.
And then it is just him, and the conductor.
A small sigh leaves him as he sits down on one of the many couches. He wasnât lying when he said he was exhausted. Fighting - or any physical activity, for that matter - isnât exactly his strong suit. Even during his time with the Hunters, heâd stayed behind the front lines, acting as a pseudo Kafka with his carefully crafted words and tuning abilities.
Thatâs one of the few things about the Hunters that he prefers over the Express - they didnât force him to hike through deserts and jungles and mountains and Xipe knows what else. All they did was throw him off a skyscraper in the name of the script (heâs pretty sure Elio just wanted to see if heâd actually fly or not).
Sunday blinks, realizing just what had just passed through his mind. Then he sighs with a smile, leaning back into the red plush of the couches.
Only a few months since his fall, and heâs already beginning to think as weirdly as the rest of them.
âSunday, are you alright?â
Sunday glances down to see the conductor waddling by his feet.
Pom Pom is⌠strange, no doubt - for whatever reason, Dan Heng fears them and has advised Sunday to not anger them at all costs. Their past is shrouded in mystery, but Sunday finds himself drawn to the conductor. Perhaps living most of his life in a fever dream like Penacony has warped his perception of what is normal and what is not.
âIâm fine, thank you.â He shifts on the couch to make room, but the conductor shakes their head.
âAre you sure? Pom Pom saw you laughing to yourself,â they fret, tapping their nubby hands together anxiously. âHave you been sleeping enough?â
Sunday crosses one leg over the other, and rests his hands over his knee. âIf youâre concerned about my transition from Penacony to reality, be at ease. The Hunters have practically beat a proper sleep schedule into me.â
Pom Pom yelps in shock. âB-Beat?! They beat you?â
âNot literally,â Sunday hastes, instinctively reaching out a hand to calm the conductor. âIt was more akin to⌠ominously threatening checkups. Although, there was this one time-â
He sees the look on Pom Pomâs face, and decides to stop it there. He fears they might break out sobbing if he continues.
âNevertheless, rest assured that I am sleeping at an appropriate time,â he finishes reassuringly. His practiced smile pays off as the conductor gradually calms down, albeit worry about the Huntersâ methods still lingers.
âAlright, if you say so, Sunday.â They look around uneasily. âDo you want anything to drink?â
Sunday waves his hands hastily. âNo, I am alright, thank you-â
âHeâll have some tea.â
Pom Pom jumps with a shriek and Sundayâs wings puff up. A familiar laugh ghosts his ear, and immediately Sundayâs face brightens.
âWhat- What are you doing here?!â Pom Pom quickly hides behind one of Sundayâs slender legs, hugging it like a lifeline. Sunday places a hand on their head to calm them as he turns to the hologram with a warm smile.
âAt ease, conductor, theyâre a friend.â
Your holographic form glitches in and out of reality. Thereâs a thin blue filter over your appearance, but other than that, everything is the same as he remembers.
âHey, angel,â you coo, leaning your elbow on his shoulder as you sit besides him. Its weight is not the same as it would be in reality, but the presence is enough - a small, barely noticeable tingle that has his heart fluttering and his wings following in suit. âHowâs life as Nameless? Do you miss us yet?â
Sunday laughs gently. âIt has only been two weeks since I left the Hunters. Iâm afraid I havenât had the time to miss you all.â
You pout playfully, sticking out your tongue.Even though parts of you chip away and reappear, and your form isnât stable, Sunday canât help but be as captivated by you as he was when he was still among the Huntersâ ranks. Where the projection fails, his tinted memory fills in.
âSilver Wolf misses you, although I doubt sheâd actually say it,â you say, taking a lock of his hair and twirling it around your finger. âHas she visited you yet?â
Sunday stutters a bit before weakly batting your finger away with his wing. âNo, Iâm afraid she hasnât.â
âHm.â You smile at his attempt to brush you off. Letting go of his hair, you instead opt to tug lightly at his cheek, earning a squeak from the Halovian. âThatâs weird. Maybe she was too shy to speak up.â
âI-â Sunday rubs his cheek when you finally let go. Embarrassingly, his wings jump to shield his face, an unfortunate reflex heâd yet to curb. âI suppose she wasâŚâ
He hears you hum, and he lifts a wing to peek at you. His cheeks feel hot - no, thatâs an understatement, the entirety of his body feels as if heâs in a fireplace.
âGive her my regards,â he finally breathes out, thanking the Aeons for his training in keeping his composure. Sure, it ultimately fails whenever he looks at you, but at least heâs able to fix himself quickly enough⌠or at least, he hopes thatâs what it looks like.
âYou didnât answer my question though.â Propping your elbow on his shoulder again, you rest your cheek in your palm. âHowâs the Nameless life treating you?â
âItâs chaotic,â Sunday admits with a fond sigh. He relaxes into the couch once more, feeling himself sink into the plush. Briefly, heâs tempted to lean his head on your shoulder, but given that youâre a holograph, he holds himself back. âBut itâs fun. The Nameless have been kind, and the planets Iâve visited⌠Itâs nice, to see the universe as someone other than a wanted criminal.â
âWow. Thanks.â
Sunday would apologize, but considering that itâs you heâs talking to, he doesnât feel the need to. After all, youâve said worse to him, and him to you.
âYou know what I mean,â he chuckles. âTo be honest, though, the Express and the Hunters arenât so different.â
He hears Pom Pom squawk indignantly, and again he ruffles their fur to calm them. Turning ever so slightly to your hologram, he gazes at you with adoration and fondness swelling his heart.
âTo the both of you, I am forever grateful. If it werenât for your kindness, Iâd be rotting away in an alley somewhere. I wouldnât be where I am today.â
All distaste for the Hunters fades from Pom Pom as they giggle bashfully. âAw, Sunday⌠You donât have to thank us. We were just doing what the Nameless do.â
You nod in agreement, reaching through his wing and poking his cheek again. âConductorâs right. No need for thanks, birdie.â
âStill-â Sunday makes a sound like a startled bird as you poke his cheek harder, squishing it against the rest of his face. Underneath his coat, his primary wings strain with the urge to flutter and twitch, while his secondary wings are held back by sheer willpower. The only sign that they want to flap so badly is with the tiniest of tremors.
âNone of that,â you chide him gently, tapping him lightly on the plush of his lips. âWeâre just glad youâre happy - right, bunny?â
âWhoâre you calling bunny?!â Pom Pom protests, steam puffing out of their head while steam threatens to escape Sundayâs face for completely different reasons.
Before you can reply, however, your form begins to glitch out, flickering in and out of reality at a higher frequency. With an annoyed click of your tongue, you stand up.
âLooks like Silver Wolf isnât happy,â you comment, brushing off imaginary dust from your clothes. Taking one step so that youâre fully in front of Sunday, you lean in so that your projected nose barely brushes against his. âI have to get going now. You have my number, so text me if you need anything, okay? Or if you want to catch me up with your travels, you can always call me.â
Sundayâs voice feels lodged in his throat. With a subtle gulp, his Adamâs Apple bobbing ever so slightly, he manages to speak with an even voice.
âOkay,â he whispers, his voice almost a whimper. He wants to explode.
You smile fondly, and duck in to peck at the corner of his lips. The buzzing of your holograph morphs into electrifying lightning, surging into his veins, puffing up his feathers and making all of his hairs stand up and sending his already tapping heart into a frenzy. His body freezes into a statue, and all coherent thoughts melt away into a haze that is both ecstatic and shocked.
By the time you pull away, his wings are flapping erratically and his entire body is dyed in a rosey red. His mouth opens and closes like a fish, but all words die on his tongue and he is left blabbering like a fool.
You laugh again, eyes crinkling so beautifully he swears heâs ascended.
âIf thatâs how you react, I wonder how cute youâll be when itâs the real deal.â
And then youâre gone, vanishing like a sweet dream in a flurry of pixels, leaving Sunday there to dazedly touch his lips, and then where youâd kissed him.
And then he smiles, giddily, and his halo practically glows as soft, love-stricken giggles begin to leave him.
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Breakaway | hockey!Azriel Ă reader
Summary: You're not a fan of a kiss cam. And neither is your boyfriend.
Word count: 1,8k
Warnings: swearing, miserable knowledge of hockey (sorry yall), Rhys being a protective asshole over his sister
A/n: Anyone a hockey fan? No, just me? Okay. Another thing is, that I described university as I know it in my country haha. I hope no one will be confused
Also yes, I did take inspiration from tiktok. I just loved that scene <3
Leaves started to fall which meant your favorite season was starting. You loved anything and everything that came with autumn. The pumpkin spice, moody weather, sweaters, and books. With autumn knocking on your door, the new semester has begun. You didn't mind studying, you actually enjoyed it to a certain degree, but the stress is what always got to you during exams. You were just starting your second year of university, so you knew what to expect. To many that was all. Just endless studying and partying to get their minds off things. You? Not really. Ever since you could remember, fall meant the hockey season started. Were you a hockey player? No, not at all. Ice skating was your passion, just not hockey. That didn't matter, because your brother was the golden child. Rhysand played because your father used to. You would never say it out loud, mainly because it would inflate his ego even more, but Rhysand was a star player. He was so much better than your father and you knew that if he wanted to, he would make it far.Â
 Rhys never acted towards you with any malice other than just a bit of sibling rivalry. He was actually quite protective of you, given the fact you were his little sister. But whatever you did was never good enough for your father. You might study medicine, but Rhys was finishing law. You might figure skate but you were no hockey player. And most of all, you were a woman. And your father despised you for it. You were expected to make it to every game, but no one ever wanted to attend your competitions. You enjoyed watching the games, especially when Rhys met his best friends and teammates at university. The games became so much more interesting when Azriel entered the ice. Rhys might be the captain and the center, but Azriel was a force to be reckoned with, the fastest player in the rink. You became friends with both Cassian and Azriel quickly since you often visited their house to get away from your parents. Rhysand of course was glad but you knew you were off-limits to his friends. Not only was it obvious in how he glared at both of them whenever they made a comment he didnât appreciate. But the first time you met, Cass basically undressed you with his eyes. From what you heard he reminded them often to not mess with his sister.
It did not stop you from developing feelings for him the moment you laid eyes on him. For a while, it did seem he viewed you only as his best friend's little sister. Which you had a hard time accepting. Your relationship changed when you sneaked into a party they had thrown in celebration of a victory last year. You were a first-year, and your first semester at university had been hectic, but living close to your brother and away from your parents was a long-awaited blessing. Having a taste of freedom made you bold. Azriel couldn't take his eyes off of you, you had been like a magnet. He hadn't been the only one as you attracted the attention of another freshman. Azriel might not have acted on his attraction towards you before but seeing you with another man changed that. One thing led to another and you were sneaking out together whenever you found time.
It had been a year and your brother still had no clue. And you intended to keep it that way. You loved your boyfriend, you didn't want to worry about his teeth off the ice as well. Cassian on the other hand suspected, thankfully as you introduced him to your friend, Nesta, he became preoccupied and dropped the matter.Â
''So who do you think will win? And be honest, they're not here, you can't hurt their fragile egos.'' Nesta disturbed your train of thought. You laughed shaking your head. You loved hanging out with her because of how direct she was, always saying exactly what was on her mind. You met Nesta when your university did a charity ballet on the ice of Nutcracker. You got the role of Clara and she was your ballet counterpart. You did not expect to establish a friendship with her, but she was exactly who you needed in your life. You knew she would call you out on your bullshit anytime and you liked her for it. She also happened to be the first person you told about Azriel. She was not surprised, saying that you weren't being as secretive as you thought you had been.
''You know I am still biased since I really want our team to win. The Cavaliers are good and they play dirty. But Cass will probably try to kill Eris on the ice. Given the history and all.'' You gave her a pointed look. Shifting your gaze to the rink, you tried to find number 38.
''Theyâve got no chance against VU.'' Said a guy next to you. You hated when someone butted their way into a conversation. But given the fact, that you would be spending about two hours in close proximity, you had decided for a polite smile. ''I guess so.''
''So how come you've got such good seats? Know someone on the team?'' He chimed in again.
''You could say that. My brother is the captain.'' You answered keeping your eyes on Azriel as he warmed up.
''Rhysand is your brother?''
''Unfortunately.'' You nodded, and his eyes grew in size. ''That's so lucky! I wish I was a hockey player or just knew them. You see, I got these seats because I'll be writing an article about the game.'' You smiled politely again shifting your gaze to the rink when the puck was just about to hit the ice.
As the game progressed, the crowd became electric. All the fans were shouting and your ears began ringing. Velaris Bats were in the lead, but only by one goal and everyone was nervous. To make the game even more enjoyable, there were games for the fans as well. Students competed against one another to win points for their university and win the competition of the tribunes.
The competitions were fun and good entertainment during breaks. But while the game continued the camera was turned on. You laughed at a random do a meme moment, but quickly turned your head back to the ice. You didn't want to miss a second of Azriel's game. Fully focused, you didn't realize that the camera switched to a kiss cam. A guy sitting next to you turned his head to face you and pointed to the TV earning your attention. ''I mean when in Rome, right?'' He laughed as he tried to close the distance. ''Yeah, no, thank you.'' You laughed nervously shifting in your seat.
''Oh come on, it's just a kiss.'' He pressured, and you gave a panicked look towards the ice. You heard Nesta taking a sharp inhale to give the guy a piece of her mind. You were interrupted by shouts of the fans and loud banging on the glass.Â
''Back the fuck off.'' You couldn't hear Az properly, but the message was quite clear, making the guy shift his gaze between the two of you uncomfortably. Az got two minutes for stalling the game which made the crowd boo and your brother yell obscenities as he often did when one of his teammates was sent to a bench. Thankfully during the power play the Cavaliers didn't get a goal in, but it was close. It only enraged Rhysand more which was abundantly clear when he almost broke his stick as the second period came to an end.
Azriel was sending daggers to the guy sitting next to you who looked like he wanted nothing more than to leave. He relaxed when the players left for their locker rooms. You just hoped Rhys didn't look much into Azriel's possessive behavior.
''What the fuck was that?'' Roared Rhys as he entered the locker room.
''I don't know what you're talking about.'' Azriel continued to take off his gear.
''Do not play with me! You could have cost us the game.''
''I was thinking I did you a favor. He had no right to touch her like that.'' He finally faced Rhysand.
''It was a fucking kiss cam.''
''She didn't want to be kissed. And he didn't back off.''
''So what? You made it your mission to help her while you were supposed to pay attention to the puck?'' Spit Rhys. Everyone in the locker room was silent watching the two stubborn players go head to head.
''Yes! And I would do it again.'' Azriel retorted.
''I could have you off the team for this.'' He hissed.
''Rhys-.'' Cassian signed. ''Be my guest.'' Azriel interrupted starring Rhysand down. He wouldn't back down. He couldn't. He knew you could have handled yourself back there. Hell, Nesta was there, too and she wouldn't let some guy do anything disrespectful. He just acted on an impulse. When he looked up and saw your panicked gaze, something shifted inside him. Rhys kept watching Azriel, staring right into his soul when suddenly his eyes grew larger as if recognizing what he should have seen from the very beginning.
''You've got to be kidding me.'' When Azriel didn't answer, Rhys continued, ''Tell me you donât have a thing for my little sister.ââ
''Azriel, I swear to everything that is holly, I will fucking punch you if you don't give me an answer.''
''We are together. Have been for almost a year.'' Azriel never saw anyone have an aneurysm. But if he could guess, Rhysand was a textbook example of how it looked like.
''I take it back, I will punch you anyway.'' And he might have if Cassian wasn't there to catch Rhys. ''Easy there killer. The game is still on. And you might not like it but Az is an asset.''
''I don't want to see you anywhere near her, understand? I know how you are with girls!'' Rhysand snarled.
''You know I can't do that.''
''Then you're off the team.''
''Fine.''
As they returned to the ice, the tension between Velaris Bats was palpable. Cassian was looking between his teammates probably trying to find a quick solution to the problem at hand. Azriel wasn't paying you any attention keeping his gaze on the ice only. You frowned slightly. When you looked at Rhys you found him staring back at you anger oozing out of his every move.Â
He knew.
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Meal Prep
((banner by me! I don't own Horikoshi's works or the lovely art found here))
Pairing: Bakugo x reader (biker!prohero reader, afab pronouns used)
Words: 5k
Rating: M | 18+ (begone, minor extras- it's too spicy for you, Kacchan says so)
Warnings: hand-holding sexy times, first time!Bakugou/reader, food and commitment as a love language, FEELINGS, accidental quirk use, pet names, piv smut, established relationship, wrap it up, this is fantasy
Summary:
Katsuki made you food; fuel and comfort all in one. He wonât let you touch that door handle in the car even if youâre the one driving, and calls you Angel Eyes like itâs your name. Heâs not just the badass of the agency office who stuns you with his strength and resolve; heâs ready and willing to take a step beside you and do life together. And you in turn want to be soft for him, want to give in and let him take care of you. That brand of love made you want to jump his bones.
A/N: It's spice, yall. Someone needs to rein their quirk in, and I'm not naming names (Katsuki Bakugou)
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When Bakugou turned to his side -feeling the hand at his lower back- and went to lift you up on the counter for some kisses, something just... came over you.Â
Your moves were tame at first- rubbing his chest and shoulders at the momentâs reprieve. Just giving yourself sweetly into it. Now with his hands on you, he got really hard really fast, and made some quip about you getting fresh between shared ravishments of love.Â
Sure, you were biting at his lips longer than usual. Sure, you were hanging onto him in a manner far more codependent than you'd ever claim to be. By the look in his eye, he wasn't ever gonna be caught complaining, though. Youâve been stared at and longed after across any room you're in just as wantonly, and he's the first to second your opinion when it matters. He calls you every night he's away for missions, and stays his need to sleep just to be able talk to you while your time zones are flip-flopped.Â
Although, it was rather hungry of you to be so enamored by him today: where even the simplest conversation about the prices of strawberries going up made you fall slack into him.Â
He asks what brought this on~Â
"Just love having you here,â you surmised, âIâ like not doing these things alone."Â
Youâd made the economical offer to cook together and split the bills. Since your diets were fairly similar anyway, you might as well buy in bulk. He was in an indulgent headspace tonight, since heâd been laying on the pet names thick all day; this, his rare day off. Yours is tomorrow, but you were fortunate enough to get off at a decent hour to get the grocery shopping done early- with him.Â
â only Bakugou enforced a strict habit of insisting on taking care of the receipt at the store, but never letting you settle up your half. The âslip of the mindâ he suffered from the first time was no longer an accident, but a routine.
Now, two stacks of four portioned meals each lay side by side prepped in the fridge. Some additional protein packs top your stash to keep on hand between long night drives; small and compact, they help fuel you mid-mission so you donât have another repeat of a blood sugar drop while enroute with a squad of heavyweight heroes making a cross-city trek. Bakugou preferred to pick out treats as a surprise in those meal kits. Trivial as gift giving goes, but it offers some enrichment to your otherwise predictable menu. You havenât seen what heâd snuck in the cart underneath that bag of string beans this time, and just saw their packed away presence in the fridge, teasing you.
But back at the sink where heâd begun to wash up, you ignored their mystery. Now, you just wanted to show him how much he was appreciated.
Yes, something switched in your brain: making meals together, sharing cleanup duties, counting these little moments as blessings and feeling like lifeâs weight wasn't all just on you put you in a mood. You both might not have necessarily gotten too fresh before today, but this wasnât simply a domestic dance with lust.
Katsuki made you food; fuel and comfort all in one. He wonât let you touch that door handle in the car even if youâre the one driving, and calls you Angel Eyes like itâs your name. Heâs sharp and fast to stop you from doing something stupid, and was the loudest voice in the room when your top 20 ranking was announced across the agency conference table. Heâs not just the badass of the agency office who stuns you with his strength and resolve; heâs ready and willing to take a step beside you and do life together.Â
And you in turn want to be soft for him, want to give in and let him take care of you.
He wanted to show you he loved you; down to the grind of meal prepping on a Sunday night. That brand of love made you want to jump his bones.
Your adoring man nuzzles and talks to your neck, "Gettin' sappy again, angel."
He is down bad for you: no matter how sassy he makes the observation soundâ that scratchy, rumble tone doesnât help with your dizzying brain at all.
You offer up your neck a little, scratching along the base of his spine for full, soothing effect.
"Whassâwrong with that?"Â
Bakugou simply purrs back happily.
"Cuz if you start saying shit like that, I'mma start sayin' shit. Shit I won't be able to stop spewing once I start."
"Maybe I don't want you to stop."
He senses your heart peeking through your words. Your eyes carry the message loud and clear, too, though theyâre having a hard time staying open from the headrush.Â
Lifting his heavy head, Bakugou studies you thoughtfully, before stepping into this soft side of yours.
"You don't want me to stop."Â
Of course you donât, so you shake your head.
"You want me to stay."Â
Through a smile, you give your shy agreement.Â
Even more vulnerable, Bakugouâs rare touch of a smile makes its appearance,
"You want me to stay forever? Make sure my lady's fed and happy?â
"Yes," you sink into him, happier than ever.Â
"Looks like I'm staying then. Already made you dinner. Whaddya want me to do next?"Â
"Hmmâ kiss me?"Â
Bakugou leans in to grant you your simple wish- but fully laps at your mouth instead. He means to entice, draw things out, make you want him that much more while giving himself nothing but torture at the same time. Heâs used to making himself sweat; at least this was the fun simmer that didnât burn.
The blonde moans low in his chest when you brush his cheekâs scar with your thumb.Â
"Whaddya want, pretty girl,â Bakugou scoops you in close, memorizing this hot look of need youâre having right in the middle of chores, âWhat, yâwant me to kiss you forever too?"Â
Fixed on his lips -currently teased between his teeth- you give a rare curse that contrasted your sugar sweet demeanor,Â
âHell yes--"Â
Kisses smash between you as sloppily as you want while he pulls you off the counter, over to the couch, and plops you on his lap, where you adjust to a squat over him and followed his persistent pull for you to sit.Â
Pink lovemarks all over your neck, Bakugouâs rough attentions drive his hands to go just about anywhere he wants in a need-driven frenzy. Whether to warm you up or keep himself from perspiring too much? Who's to say.
Suddenly as he growled out his pleasure at your hips fitting up upon his lap, Bakugou fisted your shirt in each palmâ he tugs you deliciously tight as you kiss the daylights out of him.
Through his satisfied chuckles, he thought all was good until he started feeling some pops muffling in his hands.Â
Bakugou knows what's comingâ it's the speed of this onset that freaks him out-
His senses shout at him lightning quick, so it's a miracle that Bakugou immediately threw his hands out, shooting off hot sparks with palms out towards the coffee table- spooking you into a yelp.Â
The panic settled just as soon as it cameâ you stared at each other after the round of pops stopped.Â
Somehow, you were never afraid heâd ever sweat to the point of harming you, so you rolled with it as if he didnât just almost blow you to bits. Must just be excited.Â
Cheeky, you thumbed to your bedroom before mimicking a Dynamight-style âstressballâ in your palm.
"Need your gloves?"
Bakugou rolled his eyes, "Fuck.... Fine."
As if a little coverage on his hands was going to be the end of the world.Â
"I could make a condom joke instead, so be grateful!~"Â
A pruned hand smacked your thigh in protest. âHar. Har.â
As you dismounted him (since you knew he was just gonna be pouty and sulk until he could touch you again), you pulled him up by his neckline so that he followed hungrily behind you and didn't cause a stink over it. In your room, you dug in his designated helmet for his gloves, which he roughly handled and donned while you rounded his strong set of shoulders and kissed him through it across the bits of skin you could reach.
"Can't believe I gotta put these fuckinâ- things on- every time I get hot and fuckin' bothered-âÂ
"We'll figure that out, honey. Hey,â you pull him up to your sightline, âYou still got me?â
Gloved but no less handsome as ever, Bakugou looks far too dazed to try his hand at driving your bike. Better he crash here, with you. He grabs you close; his answer.
â-- then thereâs no complaints here. Itâll work; for now."
He moans kind of high and happy into your kisses on his mouth again. The sound ripples in you, coaxing more love out from your needy fingers and gentle kneading and soft layers that heâs mad he couldn't reciprocate anymore. He voiced this displeasure when he tugged up on your thighs and tipped you onto the bed. Setting a knee between your thighs and capturing a hand in his to pin you, Bakugou firmed up his brows,Â
"Well, maybe I wanna feel you BACK, huh?"
"I get that, Katsu-honey~ we'll-- work on it. Learning curve."Â
One thing the Hero World would be fast to assume about Katsuki Bakugou is that he'd take whatever he wanted from someone making eyes at him; that he'd be dominant and mean and addictive and that one might regret pushing his buttons in the bedroom, because it would be far too much. âBetter not test him, heâd be too rough.â But you hardly think this way, as you have him here:
Here, you look up to him, lovesick and shy, pulling him down because he feels too far away. And tempered as he is when he's in deep, Bakugou reads you and quickly responds in kind. He does kneel over and meets your lips, but freezes like steel as he tries to figure out how to be close but not crush you, despite your yanking for it.
"Katsuki~~"
"I'm not dropping ninety-five kilos aâ dead weight on you, dummy,â he chortled, âNot gonna happen."
"But I want you~~"
"Oh, you want me, huh? Needy girl..." Pets caressing down your cheek, you cup your Katsukiâs arm instead as it trails gingerly down the neck, stopping at your collar, until you force it down its path more towards your chest, and lower.Â
His touch carries very little pressure. Rather, you see him just watching his own movements in a haze- "Pretty, pretty girl."
A thought crosses your mind and you feel confident; if you voice it, heâll answer you honestly.Â
"Have you never dated anyone before, âDynamightâ?"
Without an immediate defense, you're happy to see heâs still letting you guide his hand to slide under your shirt collar and sift along your bra line.Â
Unphased, he answers a gentle -but surprising- ânoâ.
"No high school crushes?" you press, flattered.
"Tch, I went to UA. When would I have had time for that?" Bakugou slides your strap and shirt more to the side as he explores, then kisses the shoulder.
Breathy, you challenge after your happy hums. âKirishima did..."
He only gave a bemused scoff.
âAnd look where that got him. Is he anywhere close to being #1?" asks the #5 ranked Pro Hero.
"No,"
Bakugouâs gloved palms have successfully reached your breasts, pulling the rest up and off with confidence now, eyeing over your skin deliciously.Â
"Guess who is?"
"Y-you~"
"Damn right." Bakugou licks and teases around the space your nipple would lie under the cup, "And yâknow how I did it?"
Sights locked onto him, pulling other side down to sift your underclothes up to his gloved hand's touch.
"I'm a fast learner. That's how you get to be the best. Learn fast, do it right. Gets you results at the top of the board. I'm damn good at learning something I want; 'specially when that something's you."
You canât keep quiet now. Not at this, your forever favorite Pro Hero undressing you with eyes and hands,Â
"Ugh God..."
His hands pawed at every bit of you.
"Name's Katsuki, Angel Eyes. But I'll answer to that if you want~"
Your sexy laugh turned to a moan as he sucked hard at your neck to please you, then worked on getting himself fully topless to match. Once laid back with a delightful little jiggle of everything wonderful, Bakugo's sight lay fixed on you, hands running everywhere he could reach now.Â
For once, he looked a little scattered, unsure what to do next besides pet you and breathe.
You teased a leg up his, and tried prying his hard shell open again, "There's no wrong way to play, y'know~"
"Heh?"
"You look like you're working-" you rubbed your own tits, a handful each, "-trying to figure out your next move. But really, there's no bad option. It's just me."
Understanding, he nodded, but still looked conflicted.
"And I don't bite, promise~" you tried for levity, finally making him chuckle a little and bring life to his smirk.
"Y'might as well, looking at me like that."
"What, this?" you kneaded and pushed your tits together.
"Fuck, me..."
"S'what I'm saying."
Then in a sweet move, Bakugou pulls you up to cradle you by your jawline and kisses you lovingly, then holds your foreheads in place while he takes a couple practiced inhales.Â
Beneath you, you see how excited he is, but also how tense his core has become. It ever so barely trembles.
A muted string of a confession leaves him,Â
"I talk big shit... but... never done this part." âthis part being sex, you now gather- "Sue me if I'm tryna do right by you. I- feels like my heart's literally goinâ a mile a minute here, what the hell..."
"Mine too~" you run a soothing drag of your nails up his arms before smoothing up and over to his waist, "You are doing right by me, though~ just go with what feels right. I just want you, Kats."
"Yeah?"
"I want you,â you assure him with charged-up love and desire for him, â-so bad."
That was seemingly all he needed to clear his head because he fell right down to you, crawling beside you and scooping you up into his arms where he could trail his hand all up the expanse of your back. Somewhere in there, he slipped off your pants and took the chance to feel all up and down your legs with greedy chuckles.
He'd moan what a gorgeous sight and gentle thing you were, his mouth leaving no limb untouched or unpraised. He's also high on the attention you gave him right back, especially when you tipped him onto his back and kissed along the lines of his chest. Bruises and dips mark up his otherwise perfect skin, but you're pleased to have your Katsuki enjoying this if his sighs are any indication of his arousal.Â
Bakugou quirks a brow as he settles back, preparing for you to mount and have your way with him. Consent is king and he doesn't wanna force you to be in a position you don't want.
âYâwant me here?â he asks with hands supporting your waist. âShow me how it's done?â
The sight below you has you ready to pass out on the spot. Heâs handsome and horny and all yours.
"Ready when you are~"Â
The line between Dynamight and the man behind the title is blurred as he settles into a cocky smirk. He's proud and never one to shy away from attention- not even this, so it seems.Â
Bakugou chips his chin up at you with his full support.Â
"Atta girl~"Â
You whimper when you grind on top of him at first: not simply at how hot the first pass is for you after so long, but how wrecked Bakugou looks as he exhales with force. It's an effort to will himself still, and you love the look of it on him.Â
Pride surges in you as you sway yourself over him, checking him over and making sure he's comfortable.Â
âYou got me?â
His sights open again, to you in all your glory. Any edge he carries in his waking hours is gone as he's let comfort and ease take the wheel over his nervous system.Â
Bakugou is pretty damn adorable this way, but you'd only ever say so when he's fully confident- not out on a limb trying something this new with you for the first time. Here, you'd build up his confidence and see how he rises to the challenge. But youâll go slow, above all else.
Fingers find renewed life as he squeezes you,
âI got you,â he says in wonder, getting there, âI gotcha."Â
But right before you lifted up to let him shove his waistline down, he stopped you from sitting with a hard hand at your tummy. In a quick switch, he's cursing nervously about needing to wrap it up.Â
Before he could toss you off, you brought his face back to you with a tender hand, keeping him from getting up altogether and bolting for his bag slung somewhere in the kitchen.Â
"I'm covered on that front, hon,â you stifle any laughing at his earnest pursuit, âPlanned a bit ahead- got in with the nurse a few months back."
Bakugou stills, but then his confusion and concern give way to something deeper. Heâs looking at you, awed.Â
"You're on it-?"
"Mhm. I'm all set, baby. There's no one else, justâ just you. I won't stop ya if you'd feel better with one on, just wanted you to know. "Â
Fondness for the hero-turned-friend-turned-lover made you rake your fingers through that mess of blond hair you daydream of petting and bringing out a groan from him all by yourself,Â
"However you want me: inside or out~"
Recognition heats him up more, "You sexy, fuckin' girl..."
Catching you back in his arms, Bakugou falls in love all over again. Heâs sinking into you sideways, hiking your leg up and over his hip and just holding you closeâ your man is all in for this the moment he's submerged in you.
"FUUUUUuuuuuck yehehehessâŚâ
You're overwhelmed and giddy and full, and find that it's not just you who's laughing by the time you make eye contact. It's thrilling and perfect that you're here -doing it- and youâre obsessed with how close you two are in this moment that it makes your relief palpable and light-hearted.Â
After heated kisses to get him to actually start moving, you're turning every laugh into a love-filled moan: a sound that Bakugo chases with everything in him.Â
Eventually the momentum is like a run, fueling him with the more he hears, and is soon tipping you back to settle on top himself-- in charge and letting you take backseat. By how you gawk up at the show of strength, itâs more than alright with you~
"Oh my God, yes sir!!" you squeal seeing him in charge.
"Yeah? Like this, pretty girl?â Bakugou is in his element, despite having just joined the party moments ago, âYâlike your âBackpackâ on top, makin sure you don't move a fuckinâ muscle?"
Each huff and moan he makes glues your sights to the spot- head dipping to where you are slamming together, which only makes him ramp it up even more to give you a show.
âYeah yeah yeah-- oh FUCK, why haven't I gotten my head out of my ass sooner, you are FUCKING incredible!--â
The sounds Bakugouâs making are passionate and raw, even more so as you're close and you tell him so through near tears. Youâre about to cum, embarrassingly fast for you- but then why wouldn't you when the sight of the love of your life is rocking your world off its hinges and sending you into the best headspin?
"Do it baby, do it do it do it~" he growls the freedom deliciously to youâ so you will your hand to let go of the comforter and start rubbing your clit wildly to get you over the edge, till you're bucking up and siezing through relieved sobs.Â
Bakugou almost damn near chokes on his own shock at the feel, yet only slows a little bit while he holds you down, holds you through it. Once youâre reaching up for his shoulders again -your cue that you're ok and settled - he dives down to your level for some hard kisses as a reward.
Somehow he breaks from the haze of you deliriously giggling for him soon enough, gasping out desperate lines that nearly made your heart explodeâ all while going right back to fighting like mad to go over the edge like you did.
âFuck, I love you.. fuck, I love you, fuck fuck fuckââ
The closer he gets, the hand pinning yours to the bed starts to burnâ which takes your attention.
From watching him fuck you to check your joined wrists is more urgent: Bakugouâs forearm is trembling and visibly sweating all down to the cuff absorbing the rest.
Pretty much sobered you right up by the incoming pain, you're surprised, but you fake it in your bliss and rush him along anyway, until he cries out and shudders into your neck as he finishesâ kissing it lightly in thanks muttering all sorts of nonsense you couldn't make out once he sinks onto you- spent.
âFun, right baby?â
Bakugouâs grunting at every little move of his body.
âSâ... Mâdizzy,â he rasps, âSâit always dizzy?â
Under a spell yourself, unearth some spare sass nâ sweetness from your back pocket,Â
âWhen it's good,â you give your valid opinion, your free hand making your mark along his arm to settle him down, âwhen they listen to what you need, nâ when they can provide- even before any clothes come off. I find it best that way, that isâŚâ
Bakugouâs head lolls to the side, pressing a kiss to the tender space just in front of your ear.
âThat it isâŚâ
Your palm is pulsing. Hot. But still, you let him find rest, wondering more if he was ok since he was never EVER this gushy, but as his release turned into relieved laughs, Bakugou bridged over you to blow your hair back with a playful gust of his lips and gave you some more indulgent kisses. Sweet as ever, you kissed him back and pressed into his thumb working over your still joined hands.
"You like me~" you taunted.
"huh?~~â
"Yâsaid you loved me..."
Katsuki giggled, "Shuddup, dummy."
This prompted your tug to free your hand again, hissing when he released and revealed your palm: tinged with an onset of a blister, splotchy with heatâ
"THE FUCK??!!â Bakugou noticed the damage himself, âDAMMIT, why didn't you SAY I was cooking you alive??"Â
At his apology ridden eyes, you didn't want this hiccup to stall the moment you'd just shared. Flexing each of your hands easily, you shook off any look of pain and beamed up at him instead.Â
"You weren't! It just got a lil hot~" he looked at your face again, confused as to why you're not upset at his repeat offense, "BBQ, amiright?"Â
Your no-longer sweetheart growls down at you, textbook Bakugou BiteTM. "NOT. funny."Â
You laughed at the nature of it all.Â
"I'm ok, baby. Whew... Oh my God~"
Your relief is something fuzzy and delighted to you, but knowing how your darling Katsuki gets in his own head about how fiery his quirk can be, you give him a little wink to quell any fears.Â
It works, as your assurances always do. He admires your sated bones and lays another sloppy smooch on you. A silent promise; heâll take a look at your hand in a bit.Â
In moving up your body to reach his shirt to wipe himself with, he slipped out, still hot and heavy (given that he came already) and undeniably turned on- even in this state. You cringed at the mess hitting the cooler air. Hearing your complaint, Bakugou pecked your cheek and nuzzled you back adoringly.Â
"Love you, angel.â
"I love you too~" your easy reply passes your lips wistfully.
A dry ache in his chest, he made to rise and see about getting you two a little more comfortable, feeling that same wetness too and grumbled about washing his damn hands, but you stopped him with a little whine.
"Stay~~"Â
Crimson eyes softening to yours, the boyish charm returns to Bakugouâs otherwise stoic demeanor. It's a sign heâs clearly plagued in an afterglow buzz.
"Cmon, lemme clean us up. I need the fan on."Â
Even colder? Darn his body temp. "Nnng.."Â
He gets up anyway, but promises his return with a chip to your chin, "I'll stay, gorgeous. Told you so. I'll stay as long as you want tonight."Â
When he came back with the wet washcloth, he coaxed you to stand on your own and go take care of yourself, too. The top sheet is changed and re-tucked in before you got backâ mismatched from what remained on the bed before, but you didn't really care.Â
Heâs made himself comfortable in the bed, only slipping on his boxers you can barely catch the edge of from the sheet in his lap. Itâs only made you fold all over again- proof that your boyfriend knows where you keep your spare sheets in the first place.Â
You slipped on a fresh pair of panties in your pit stop, but went hunting for your loose shirt again, not bothering with anything under. This got Bakugo's attention seems,
"What, you cold?"
"Little bit~"
"Mâover here, then," he patted his chest, you joined him, only to have him sneak his arm under your shirt and tease your tits again, "Don't see why you need this shitty thing while I'm around, just gettin' in my way.."
Giggling and sinking into him, you couldn't fault him. He did have to stay gloved for so long earlier. You laid a kiss straight on his cheek while he had his fill of you.
"Happy girl?" he sings down to you.
Happy girl indeed. "Mhm~ Happy Murder God?"
"Heh-yeah,â Bakugou schooled his breaths to sync to you, âI could get used to this."
"We'll figure out the glove thing."
"...M'sorry for almost toasting you.â
âEh- I can handle a little snap-crackle-pop.â
Bakugou snorts, tapping out the jingle beat for ârice crispiesâ on your shoulder. All's forgiven on that front.Â
âReally shoulda thrown those in the washer," he grimaced above you, looking over at the door where he set them back with his riding gear.Â
"We'll get it later," You snuggled down in his arms, happy to take his leftover heat. âWasherâs all yours~â
"Yeah. Yours is better than mine anyway,â Bakugou leans his head fully back onto your propped up pillows. A contented sigh forces the rest of his muscles to lax. â--piece of crap rattles like it's about to blow up. Yer dishwasherâs better too.â
As he chatters away, he played with the ends of your hair absently.Â
âI thought you were my dishwasher?â
Bakugou pauses his twirls, âOi, I never said I was signing up for that! I was beinâ nice.â
âYes, you were~â you kissed his neck to force his rising growl down. Works every time. You're back to snuggling in his arms with a contented sigh. âIâll do them next time.â
âIf youâre fast enough, slowpoke, then sure.â
You can barely make out your washer thrumming in the next room as well as the even more distant smooth jazz channel streaming from the living room, but remembered your earlier mindset and just hugged him tighter.
This, you'd certainly miss when he went home tonight. Feeling this close, this warm together, having shared something really special and intimate that you couldn't take back for the life of you. It might make things even worse when it comes to your attachment to himâ you two are pushing it at the agency with minimal touches unless there's something really scary that forces his walls down in order to comfort you- or vice versa. After all, your affinity for one another is no oneâs business but your own⌠but you typically are satisfied by his more public ties to you in all the ways that matter- mostly to others in your circle and strangers who he threatens to kick if they keep starinâ at you.
But here, Katsuki holding you is second nature. His true nature. He tells you he cares with every returned text, knowing look, and tender touch he keeps limited in shared company- with you as the sole recipient.Â
You can only wish this could be your life everyday. Where you can maybe even start your own agency down the line somewhere; Japanâs first true power couple who can take names like none other. Launch yourselves higher and higher, work yourselves out of a job, and take a retirement in whatever way looks best for youâ
When you get quiet in your thoughts, he even knows your 'hiding' tell. Your pillow tilts down to try and get your attention, finally demanding your eyes with a question laced with clear thinking,
"You meant stay stay,â Bakugou asked gently, â-didn't you. Not just- for the night.âÂ
You softened⌠nodding ever so much. Leaving room, in case he didn't agree.
What you wouldn't give for him to be your meal prep partner till you both retire from hero work- and then some.
Either nothing went through his mind, or one singular anthem bounced around in there, because all Bakugou did to your little melting expression was kiss you softly, turning you back into the bed, and flopping solidly on top of your chest.
"...gimme 30 minutes. Then let's go get my shit. I call the front room work table."
You're over the moon, and your jaw drops on its own. Heâs so ready- barely even thought it through! Or maybe⌠he was always thinking of it, and was waiting on you.
With that excitement flooding you, you peppered his hair full of kisses until he groaned for you to stopâ only after the first ten...
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Kiss it Better Pt:2
Curly x Reader
AN: Holy shit I did NOT expect all the love and support from the original like god damn! People begging for a part 2 and everything (Iâll make sure to tag those who asked for one at the bottom) Like oh my god thank you guys so much! This means the WORLD to me! As a disabled person trying to make his medical issues more accurate it means so much that yall love it and how I write in general! Thank you!
SUM: You and Anya were busy dealing with changing Curlyâs wrappings together. Sharing stories, and just trying to stay positive. Thatâs when you just had to ask. Whatâs going on between her and Jimmy?
Warnings: Jimmy, sexual assault, Anya sharing her trauma so pls take care of yourself, medical gore, medical situations, light violence,
âThank you again for handling Curlyâs medication. Iâm sorry I just-â Anya would try to explain again how sorry she was that she was struggling to do her job. A job you could never blame her for. Sheâs been through a traumatic event of the ship crashing, and already had to try and save a near corpse. She deserves to breathe.
âAnya itâs fine, really. Iâm his romantic partner as well. It be weird if I didnât pick up some responsibility and tried to take care of him. You also deserve time to rest. Youâve done so much for him, and saved his life. Give yourself more credit. Itâs not a sin to ask for help.â You would try and comfort her, as you would grab the fresh bandages for Curly.
He needed a lot of them, and they had to be changed out relatively often. Heâs basically just exposed meat after all. The risk of infection was high, which you were wondering how he didnât even catch any yet, so he needed alot of attention and care.
If only Pony Express had packed more, because the med bay was running out of them fast. Very very fast. Might be only able to maybe re wrap him a few more times now. Had you terrified because as much as you wanted to take care of him you had to leave some bandages for the rest of the crew. In case of another emergency.
You wish you could be doing more.
âWeâre going to undress you. Is that alright?â Anya would ask Curly, who in return would give two blinks to indicate that he consented to being stripped. Was gonna have to be done but it was still so kind of Anya to still ask before hand.
The two of you would soon get to work on changing out his bandages. A very slow, careful, tedious job. One that normally took over a hour to do properly. So itâs time to kill some of that empty space.
âYa know, this isnât the first time over had to wrap up a certain someone because they got hurt. I remember a time when we were at a Ski resort with his family. Someone wanted to try a path that was meant for experts and before you know it someoneâs returning to the lodge with his leg bone sticking out of his pants.â
Anya gave a little âoh myâ as you just laughed at the memory. Curly just adored sports. Especially the winter variety. You felt so blessed that he had a job that paid so well. Well enough that the two of you, and his own family sometimes, could go and enjoy vacations like that.
You wonder if the two of you will ever see the snow again.
âThat sounds rather nice, minus the whole breaking his leg. To share a cabin together with someone. Cuddle for warmth together by the fire place. Sounds really nice.â She would speak dreamily. As if she knew it was simply that. A dream. Something that will never happen again. No matter how hard she tried.
Like something was wrong with her.
âI bet youâll get that moment. When we escape here youâll have a flooding of men and women coming your way. The brilliant woman who managed to fight death and win. Again and again. The most brilliant woman to ever live.â You would praise her, as you were very mindful of Curlyâs catheter. As if that needed to be messed with.
âYeahâŚ..MaybeâŚâŚâ Anya didnât really seem to actually respond. Was like she was just saying words for the sake of words. Had you wondering.
Even before the crash she had just started acting off one day. From being a cheerful woman who was gentle and full of smiles, to being so quiet and scared by the littlest of sounds. Like she expected someone to jump from around the corner and attack her. Any feeling of safety and comfort vanished.
You were worried.
âSay, Anya-â You began to speak, while disposing the bandages safely into the bio hazard bag. â-Is everything ok? I mean duh weâre not doing to hot with being, ya know, crashed and all. But besides that. You just seemâŚ..different.â
Anya seemed to not hear you. She simply worked on checking over Curlyâs body. Hunting down any infections, looking for possible bed sores, monitoring his healing, and getting ready to do the ever so gentlest of sponge baths.
Anya did always get in the zone whenever someone was hurt. You figured she didnât catch what you said because of it.
So repeated yourself, as you stood next to her. Impossible to miss what you were asking, as you would help Curly sit up and just move his joints to better reach with the sponge.
The only sounds in that room were Curlyâs whines of discomfort. Whines to indicate truly how much pain he was in when even the pain killers can numb it.
âAnyaâŚ.I know you can hear me. Is everything alright? Not to be rude but Iâm kinda asking you a question.â You would be gentle, but she still couldnât help but looked distressed.
âAnya whatâs-â You would reach a hand out, to comfort her, but the second it was raised towards her she would immediately flinch. Her startled reaction ended up even making her drop Curlyâs leg on the table.
Oh thatâs gotta hurt.
For a fleeting moment you put Anya on the back burner, and just focused your attention on comforting Curly. How he gave a weak sob from the intense pain.
âShhhh I know Curly Fry. I know. Itâs gonna be ok. It was an accident. You know she didnât mean it. Shhh.â You would kiss his forehead, as Curly had a muscle spasm through his body from the intense shock to his system. So exhausted and in so much pain.
âItâs gonna be ok. I promise. I love you so much. Just think about our future. How we will get off this ship, and have that family. Have our own baby-â
The moment you said baby, thatâs when Anya finally cracked.
Her hands were now covering her face, as she just broke down into sobs. Sobs that sounded so hoarse. Like sheâs done it so many times that her body was just abused from it. Left you so worried and confused.
What the hell is going on here?
âAnya, whatâs wrong? What did I say?â You would gently guide her to a chair, and worked on stroking her hair. Giving her as much comfort as you would to Curly. The same gentle love as he would get. Love she deserved.
It took a while for her to catch her breathe, and you didnât rush it because it really seemed she needed it, but her own trembling body was finally able to quite down.
âI need to tell you something. I need to tell you something about Jimmy-â
You were quick to kneel down infront of her, and was ready to take in every last word she was going to say. Maybe what secrets she held could finally explain why the hell you all were crashed here. Why Jimmy crashed you all.
âJimmy ra-â
Thatâs when the door opened.
As if that bastard had a sixth sense for whenever people were talking about him. That same annoyed expression, same sneer, same empty eyes.
All three of you kinda froze in time now. Looking at him, as he looked back at you all. Scanning you. As if judging to figure out what was being said before entering.
âHeyâŚ.CaptainâŚ.â You swallowed, as you would return to standing. Anya herself remained in her chair, with her head down. Didnât seem she trusted herself in showing any expressions right now.
âWhat were you guys talking about?â He asked, as he seemed slightly on edge. Like he hasnât been sleeping well or had too much caffeine. Just this tension of paranoia was in the air. Like he was worried about something.
âJust about the bandages. Weâre starting to run low, and Anya is just getting worried about having enough.â Wasnât a complete lie. The best lies were the ones with truth sprinkled in.
âOf course heâs wasting our supplies.â He scoffed, before walking over to the table. You were trying to give Curly some respect with grabbing something to cover him up with, but it was like Jimmy wouldnât let you. The stare he gave you, when you grabbed the clean hospital gown, made you just freeze in place.
It was just so full of hate.
It was just so full of disgust.
It was just cruelty in dark eyes.
It was just focused on you. As if Anya didnât even exist right now. Like she meant nothing to him. Nothing but the wind in the air. Something you donât even bother in registering every day. Like how you breathe in air in your lungs.
You donât notice until itâs gone.
âHas he been given his medication?â He would ask you, as his hands would be firm on the bed side. Just seeming to assert his dominance with standing over the man. Like some got over the little people.
âYes Jimmy. Heâs been medicated. We are actually in the middle of washing him. It would be nice if there was some privacy-â You tried to gently hint at, only for it yo fall on deaf ears.
"The crash really did do a number on you. You donât even have a dick anymore. Just holes huh-?â Jimmy would scoff, as that was your final straw. You would give Jimmy a hard hip bump, and quickly covered Curly up. To give him dignity and respect.
âHey-! Watch it! Donât think because you are Curlyâs little eye candy doesnât mean you can go pushing people around-â Jimmy would bark at you.
You didnât feel fear.
Jimmy was messing with YOUR man now. Curly deserved dignity and respect. He doesnât deserve to be called a âset of holesâ no way in hell. No one deserved that and ESPECIALLY not Curly.
âWill you just shut up?! What the hell are you even doing here?! Arenât you the Captain now? Captains are suppose to be doing whatever it takes to help the crew. All youâve been doing is walking around and insulting everyone! Itâs like you donât want us to be saved. Be a Captain and take some responsibility already-!â
The anger that he had for you was terrifying. You swore it was like a switch. He suddenly seemed taller, bigger, angrier, more intense. You felt like you were shrinking more and more. Like you would melt into a puddle under that heated stare.
But you refused to.
For Curly.
âListen here you-â
SLAP
You smacked him across the face. Was like the world went mute. No one was so much as breathing. Just the stares of shock from Anya and Curly.
âGet. Back. To. WORK.â
You ordered, and he listened.
He would hold his red cheek, and walked away like a dog with its tail between its legs. As if he was all talk and no bite. That he couldnât bring himself to be more than an angry voice.
Someone needed to keep him in his place.
âCan this damn ship get any more hectic?â You sighed with your fingers to the bridge of your nose. Just trying to think clearly.
Thatâs when Anya found her voice.
âIâm pregnant.â
You opened your eyes wide, and was frozen in place.
Did you hear that right? No no. No way. Why would she be pregnant? How would she get pregnant? Who would get herâŚ
âOh my god.â
You slowly turned around to Anya with the puzzle pieces falling into place. You finally realized what had happened.
Jimmy never was a responsible man.
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pastorâs wife!reader x perv!ellie
summary: ellie moves to a new neighborhood and is instantly infatuated with her innocent, married next door neighbor.
cw: teasing, dirty thoughts, cunnilingus (r!receiving), fingering, talk of the bible and church. (yall ion know shit bout church but i hope this is satisfying i know some people were excited about this.)
word count: 1.8k
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how fucking unlucky does ellie have to be to move next door to a damn pastor. ellie moved in 2 weeks ago when the pastor was at her door for a âwelcome to the neighborhoodâ visit. ellie has to literally stop herself from rolling her eyes at him when he mentions ellie coming to the church sometime that is until ellie sees someone out of her peripheral vision walking over to the two of them.
ellie feels like the world slows down. she sees a young woman, older than her but still young, walk over to her and the pastor holding a glass container of cupcakes. âhello, these are for you. welcome to the neighborhood!â you say with a beaming smile, handing over the cupcakes. you're wearing a ribbon as a headband and a knee length length dress with knee-high socks on. looking impossibly cute and innocent.
âhi, iâm ellie by the way.â ellie responds smiling a seemingly sweet smile, but there is nothing innocent going through her mind. âthis is my wife,â the pastor said wrapping his arm around your waist. ellie literally cringes, he's like, twice your age. ellie sees you slowly pull out his hold with a strained smile.
âoh well thank you. i have to go back inside. it was nice meeting you two though.â ellie gives a tight slip smile. âof course. donât hesitate to ask if you need anything and i mean anything.â you say grabbing her hand and giving it a squeeze. you and the pastor walk off back to your house and ellie closes the door.
now she might be tripping but ellie thinks that you were hinting at something with that last statement but she probably just imagined it.
that night, ellie is playing a game on her pc when she takes a quick look out the window but does a double take when she sees you in a soft purple underwear and bra set rubbing lotion on your legs. ellie has a direct view of your tits and how they sit just perfect in that bra.
you walk away from the window digging through your drawers, still in her line of sight, to get a cute, short silky night gown. your back is towards her when you go to pull the nightgown over your head, she has the perfect view of your ass. fuck, ellie just wants to bend you over that same bed your senior citizen of a husband sleeps in and fuck the shit out of you until your begging for her to let you cum. you walk over to the window looking directly at ellie, thereâs no mistaking it this time, blushing at her before pulling the curtains closed. she swears she sees a small smile.
ellie is totally dripping wet right now. and shes decided, ellie has to have you.
ellie walks over to you a couple days later while your outside gardening one morning. you look up at her, "hi ellie!" you say standing, taking your gloves off giving her your full attention. "hey i was hoping you could teach me more about the bible and.. stuff." ellie doesn't know anything about this shit or care, but if it gets her in your pants, she's all for it.
"of course ellie! i'd love to. meet me at church tomorrow?"
ŕźśâ˘ââŕ¨âĄŕ§âââ˘ŕźś ŕźśâ˘ââŕ¨âĄŕ§âââ˘ŕźś ŕźśâ˘ââŕ¨âĄŕ§âââ˘ŕźś
"please give donations to the church, they are going to a family in need right here in our community thank you and have a blessed day." the pastor says. everyone stands and walks around conversing. ellie is standing against a wall in the back of the church, watching you.
you shake hands and smile with gossipy older women. she waits until the church is practically empty and your picking up items left on seats putting them in the lost-n-found, to approach you. "ellie!" you say smiling at her, "when did you get here, i didnt see you through the whole sermon?" "a little while ago, i watched from the back," she says hands in her pocket and standing infront of you, "you look cute" she says looking at your lilac dress.
"thank you.." you say giving her a shy smile, walking over to the lost n found box, with her following behind. you put the random stuff in the box turning around finding ellie really close. "did you enjoy the umâŚsermon?" you whisper staring into her eyes. ellie hums, putting a hand on your waist.
she leans in, her lips ghosting yours. you lean forward before ellie backs up. "i dont really feel like the bible reading today. how bout next week?" she says hand rubbing up and down your waist. you nod, too nervous to talk. "...y-yea, thats fine. ill see you then." you say when you finally find your voice. ellie walks out leaving you there confused and excited.
ŕźśâ˘ââŕ¨âĄŕ§âââ˘ŕźś ŕźśâ˘ââŕ¨âĄŕ§âââ˘ŕźś ŕźśâ˘ââŕ¨âĄŕ§âââ˘ŕźś
everyday the next week, ellie has been going over to your house for an hour to read the bible, with or without your husband there, trying to get closer to you. while you two are sitting on your couch one day, your reading a passage from the book, while ellie's staring at your face, not giving a fuck about what your reading, just thinking how pretty you would look with her dick in ya mouth.
you glance up at ellie catching her staring. you sit the book between the two of you, resting your head on the back of the couch, staring back. then you start giggling, "whats so funny." ellie says setting her copy of the book down too. "your so pretty ellie." you give her a soft smile. ellie blushes, shes not used to people calling her pretty, not even ex-girlfriends.
"thank youďżź. your very beautiful yourself" she says not looking you in the eye. you scoot closer to her, "lets be friends ellie." you say grabbing her hands in yours, looking at her with those bambi eyes. "yea? i would like that, but if were going to be friends we can't read the bible every time we're together." ellie says chuckling.
"of course, how bout we watch a movie?" you suggest standing up, walking over to the tv. ellie knows that the movies you have are probably super PG, so she suggests you go over to her house 'because her tv is bigger'.
you get to ellieâs house and she puts on the gayest wlw movie she has. you two are snuggled on the couch under a blanket when a kiss scene comes on. the scene starts sweet but turns dirty quick. ellie looks over at you expecting to see shock but instead sees you squirming.
"you alright?" ellie asks whispering in your ear. you nod your head quickly. "im ok." you sit there for a couple more seconds, watching the scene before grabbing the remote and pausing it. you turn towards ellie, "i have a confession." you say looking down playing with your ring again. "what is it?"
you take a deep breath before mumbling, "i.. i like to watch girl on girl... videos." ellie looks at you shocked, this was gonna be easier than she thought. "i know its a sin to watch those kind of videos let alone the gay kind. but whenever i watch it, i just feel so... horny." you say, whispering that last part, glancing up at ellie. "im not sure im attracted to my husband... or men in general. and i know you like girls, i saw how you were looking at me from the window a couple weeks ago... so will you show me?"
ellie blinks, shes been trying to stop a smirk from breaking across her face the whole time you've been rambling. "show you what?" ellie knows what you mean but she wants to hear you say it. "show me what its like," you grab her hand placing it on your boob, "to be touched by a girl." she can't wait no more, she has to kiss you.
ellie leans in kissing you deeply, cradling your head slowly pushing you to lay back on the couch never disconnecting your lips. ellie slowly trails her hands from your breast to your waist while pushing her tongue in your mouth. you whimper already soaked. ellie is going too slow for you, you need more, so you lift her shirt up running your hands over her tummy hoping she'll get the message.
ellie takes off your dress straps pulling the dress down under your boobs. you have this cute white lace bra on. ellie disconnects her lips from yours looking down at you, she groans cupping your boob, "you have no idea how sexy you are." she whispers before biting and sucking on your boobs.
she sits up to look at you. your breathing heavy, with your tits covered with spit and bites and your dress askew. "cmon ellie. your taking too long." you say grabbing her hand putting it under your dress. "how impatient.." ellie grins leaning back down, kissing on your neck pulling your panties to the side, running her fingers up and down your pussy feeling just how wet you are. "have you ever been this wet before?" she asks popping her finger in her mouth.
"no, never..." your breathing gets heavier as ellie slides her finger into you curling it. your back arches gripping on the couch cushion, moaning out ellie's name. ellie lowers herself giving you little kitten licks, making you buck for more. ellie latches on to your clit sucking and licking while fucking you with her two fingers.
you chant her name gripping onto her hair. you are seeing white spots, "omg ellie, i-i feel weird.." ellie chuckles coming back up to bite at the sensitive spot under your ear, fucking you faster. "you gonna cum baby, you ever did that before?" she asks biting at your ear. you shake your head, feeling the knot in your tummy burst. you moan out, whimpering as ellie lets you ride out your orgasm.
she pulls her fingers out, popping them in her mouth again staring you in your eyes. you let out a cute mewl. ellie sits up, looking down at you. "how do you feel?" ellie says as you pant with a dazed look on your face. you look at her flustered, wrapping your arms around her shoulder, pulling her down to you, planting sweet pecks on her lips.
âLike i wanna do it again.â you smile.
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click! 3 (e.w.)
SYNOPSIS: you need a roommate, and you love eggplant. [college au]
WORD COUNT: 7.4kÂ
WARNINGS: photographer/roommate!ellie, ocs an artist with a rep and black :3, crack, light smut [masturbation], sexual tension⌠itâs starting, light angst, weed, brief mention of suicide, pretty cute tbh
one. two. four.
A/N: hi stinks :3 iâm obsessed with themâŚ.. taking my time with these two hope yall like it LOL bye
Butterflies are fluttering, birds are chirping, and the crops are watered when you wake. You slept through the entire night, and the beast inside you is satisfied.Â
But the gorgeous scenery in your mind dies in an instant when you recall what the fuck you did last night. Maybe you are a low-down, dirty whore, just like your roomie said. She has the audacity to terrorize your subconscious enough to actually feature in one of your meat-beat sessions. Not only that, but you busted in two minutes to the thought of her demanding you to fix a window that isnât even broken.Â
You⌠are a hoe. How awkward. You just wanted to fight her days ago, and now your pussyâs got a crush. Not you, your pussy. You accepted that you and your cunt are two separate entities a long time ago.Â
You lay in your bed, eyes melting holes into the ceiling; What the fuck is going on?
Ellie⌠sex⌠her asking for head⌠you asking for head from her⌠The math isnât mathing. Ellieâs gay as a bitch, you know that for a fact, but why her? The math has never mathed, actually. Youâre going to fail statistics, speaking of⌠Is statistics considered math?Â
Itâs still freezing in your apartment. Is Ellie still not back yet? Your shared space is never this silent or cold; A rat could be crawling around in search of cheese and you would hear it like a hounddog.Â
You throw your blankets off and instantly regret it; Youâre shocked snow isnât falling from inside your fucking apartment. It has to be negative thirty in this bitch. If Ellieâs asleep, you donât know how she survived the night.Â
Your knees crack as you quietly pull your door open, light creaks from the hardwood sounding your walk to Ellieâs bedroom. You canât imagine how crazy you look, ear pressed against her door, listening for any movement to prove that sheâs alive and not a fucking block of ice.Â
Either youâre hallucinating, or sheâs mumbling in her sleep. Her voice is hushed and croaky, supposedly asking if Spider-man stole her fucking lunch money to pay the Pope back for stealing⌠something; You canât pick up what she said from out here. Your hand flies over your mouth to hide a laugh. She must be exhausted; When did she get back last night?Â
You let her sleep-talk in peace and head to the kitchen to brew your coffee. You really beat off to that bonehead. Go figure.Â
For the first time since Ellie moved in, youâre gone before her.Â
Youâre strolling the icy streets, strutting to your heartâs content, Tina Snow vibrating your eardrums. Last nightâs nut really did something incredible to your spirit; Youâve never felt lighter. One more unsuspecting gust of wind and youâre taking flight, for sure. Your brain gives subconscious Ellie knuckles.Â
You burst through the coffee shop like you own it, silently celebrating when you realize thereâs no line. You order and receive your dark drink in record time, taking a seat by the large window at the back of the shop. What gorgeous scenery!Â
Your cup is almost empty when your phone vibrates on the table. Itâs Maymay! You answer with the brightest smile. âMy babyyyâ â
âBitch, cut the shit! Fuck you! Why havenât you called?â She yells through the line.Â
âWell, uhâŚâ You almost committed arson in your building! âJust⌠just school stuff! You wouldnât know about that, Ms. Celebrity!âÂ
Your best friend giggles, âShut up! Iâm a D-lister at most!â You shake your head in denial; That internship program doesnât understand the blessing that Amaya holds. Her ear is godsend and she comprehends sound like no other.Â
âHowâs the roomie thing going? I havenât heard much!âÂ
Oh, fuck. â⌠Fine.âÂ
Sheâs silent for a second, âThe fuck does that mean?âÂ
Your fingernail snaps between your teeth. âI mean itâs fine, just like I said.âÂ
Amaya hums, clearly suspicious, â⌠Whatever you say, then.âÂ
âYup.âÂ
She snorts. âAnyway⌠whatâre you doing for Chriâ â
âEllie made me bust with her telepathy.â This is not the conversation you should be having in a coffee shop, but if people heard you, fuck it.Â
â⌠Bitch⌠What?âÂ
âI didnât wanna tell you, okay? I didn't! Incel made her way into my fucking brain and I busted! Sue me!âÂ
Silence passes, and then thereâs laughter from the other line. âAre you high right now?âÂ
âNo, itâs fucking nine in the morningâ â
âAinât nothing wrong with a lilâ wake-and-bakeâ â
âI just told you I mentally fucked my roomie and thatâs what you say?âÂ
She sighs, âI mean⌠I saw the picture you sent me. She's not ugly. Doesnât seem like your type, though.âÂ
âSheâs not my type! I thought about her for two seconds on accident and I came! Abby couldnât even get me there and sheââÂ
âWoah, woah, pause⌠Abby couldnât get you where?âÂ
âNot a location, bitch. I couldnât bust!â A sharp gasp from her. Your brows furrow, âWhat?âÂ
âOh, bitchâŚâ
âWhat, Maya?âÂ
You hear the smile in her tone, âYou gotta crush?âÂ
You gag, âFuck no! Have you lost your mind! MyâŚâ You pause and check to see if anyoneâs near. Nobody. You whisper-shout into the speaker, âMy pussyâs crushing!âÂ
Amaya sucks her teeth in annoyance, âGirlâŚâ
âItâs true! You know she gotta mind of her own! I canât do anything about that!âÂ
Your bestieâs snickering to herself, âWhatever you say, mama. But for someone that thinks with her clit⌠you might wanna have a conversation with her. You know her better than anybody.âÂ
Youâre stunned to say the least. You love Amaya to death, but sheâs batshit crazy to suggest that youâre crushing on someone like Ellie. She called you a worthless tramp in broad daylight, for fucks sake. She wasnât entirely wrong, but it still stung a little.Â
You sip your coffee, âI love you⌠I gotta go.âÂ
âMhmâŚâ You hate how sure she sounds. âLove you, too.âÂ
You nervously twiddle your fingers until your first class, the day dragging even more than usual. Mainly due to the fact that youâre wondering if Amaya was right. Your lectures feel like a blur; All you can think about is Ellie. The spot-covered hermit. Squash-loving loser with a decent nose⌠and decent hands⌠and decently toned arms.Â
Your pussy squeezes in the middle of class when you briefly envision them wrapped around you, and it sends a shockwave to your brain.Â
Oh, shit.Â
Raja was sweet enough to cover your shift for you; You canât focus on credit card sales today.Â
The second you enter your freezing apartment, you hear quiet sobs. Ellie sits at the small table as she scrolls through her phone, forms scattered all over the glass. Sheâs sniffling and wiping her face with her hoodie sleeve, and your brows crease.Â
You shut the door behind you before making your way over to her. Not too close, though.Â
âUhh⌠you good?âÂ
âYeah.â Her voice breaks, and something shifts in you. Somewhere in your chest. Whyâre her cheeks so red?
â⌠You sure?â You cringe.Â
âI said yeah.âÂ
She clearly doesnât want to chat. Whateverâs going on, she can handle on her own. She doesnât need coddling, especially from you. Whyâre you still standing here?
âI, uh⌠I found a Snickerâs.â You slip.Â
Ellie finally faces you, clearly confused. Why canât you just shut the hell up for once? Another shift from your chest at her teary eyes.Â
âWhat?âÂ
âI mean, uh, I bought a Snickerâs. Like, candy.â You pull said bar from your puffer pocket. You did buy it for Abby for when you see her to study, but it looks like your roomie needs it more.Â
â⌠Okay?âÂ
You pull out and hand the wrapped chocolate out to her, âYouâre not you when youâre hungry.âÂ
Her eyes switch between your face and the candy bar; She doesnât look impressed. Maybe sheâs allergic to nuts! You knew you shouldâve got the fucking Sour Strawsâ
âThanks.âÂ
You barely register her taking the bar, her cold fingers brushing against yours. Another zap in your brain. She rips it open and eats it in silence. An awkward chuckle from you, âIs it yummy?â You expect her to tell you to fuck off, but she doesnât. She just nods and chews.Â
Your nosiness gets the best of you, discreetly inspecting the forms on the table. A bunch of random names are crossed out in her notebook, a couple of signed forms crumpled up and raggedy. You donât know what any of this means.Â
âYouâre not slick.â Ellie talks with her mouth full.
âHm?âÂ
âYouâre really gonna read my shit like that?âÂ
You take a seat next to her, â⌠I didnât.âÂ
âOkay,â She mumbles. âRememberâŚâ She scratches at her ear, âRemember that booking that got canceled because of the storm?â You nod. She swallows the last bits of her candy. âI was supposed to take pictures of this couple before their wedding, butâŚâÂ
âThey, uh⌠They donât wanna reschedule. Said itâs too hectic because of the holidays and thereâs not enough time.âÂ
You hum, âOkay⌠So, what does that mean?âÂ
âI canât submit my portfolio without those pictures. And it fucked my money up.âÂ
âDamn⌠how much were they paying?âÂ
She scoffs, âA lot. I donât even wanna think about how much I lost trying to get the setup right.âÂ
You ponder for a second, âI mean, Iâm sure thereâs other people who want nice pics. Youâve been hustling this whole timeâ â
She interrupts, âI donât wanna hustle anymore. Iâm⌠Iâm tired. Itâs fucking exhausting doing promotions by yourself.âÂ
You hear the stress in her voice, and you feel for her. Being a full-time creative can be pretty shitty at times. Most times. The amount of attempts youâve had in commissioning in your lifetime is astronomical; Some pick-ups, lots of disappointment.Â
âWhat was the shoot about? Like⌠the scene, I guess.âÂ
Ellie nibbles at her lip, âRomance.âÂ
âBoooring,â You joke. Ellie doesnât laugh, so you cough awkwardly. âYou gotta come up with a new plan, I guess. Itâs all about the grind mentality.âÂ
âYou sound like a misogynist with a podcast.âÂ
You chuckle and she continues, âThereâs no new plan. The portfolio Iâm submitting is based on emotion. Itâs not⌠complete if love isnât somewhere in there. Thatâs how I see it.âÂ
âSpeaking of see, can I?â You arch your brow, âYour portfolio, I mean.âÂ
âNo.â She says plainly.Â
âWhaâ why not? You saw my paintings!âÂ
âTheyâre on the wall⌠in the living room. Thereâs no other choice but to look at them.âÂ
âBro, what the fuck. Youâre not the only visualist in this house! I might have some pointers you could use!âÂ
âI donât need pointers from you.â Aggravation clouds her pupils. You try not to take offense to that, but it doesnât work.Â
âWhy the fuck not?â You glare.Â
Her tone gets louder, âBecause you wouldnât understand it! Why do you wanna help so badly, anyway!â
âIâmââ But you donât know what to say. Why do you want to help? Ellie squints, awaiting your answer, but nothing comes out. Youâre uncomfortable; Itâs suddenly not that cold in here.Â
âWhatever. Forget I asked!â You rise and march to your room. Another slammed door, another pending noise complaint.Â
Ellie hasnât talked to you in days, and youâre not sure why itâs bothering you. Youâve been sending her looks throughout the entire stats lecture, but she hasnât acknowledged you once. Sheâs just scribbling and tapping her ballpoint on her notebook. Her notetaking seems very intense from where you sit, her eyes scanning the board.Â
Does Ellie like math? Or logistics? Or whatever statistics is considered? Curiosity pokes at you; You donât know much about your roommate. Youâve been living together for nearly a month, and you havenât had one valuable conversation yet. What about photography interests Ellie so much? Why does she enjoy disgusting vegetables? When did she get her tattoo? Is she actually gay or are you a dickhead for assuming?Â
Your venturing thoughts makes class fly by; Another successful day of not taking useful notes!Â
Ellieâs packing her run-down backpack and you watch. Sheâs meticulously placing her books on top of each, at least from what you can see from the big hole on the side. Her headphones are thrown on, and in one swift motion, her bag is on her shoulder and sheâs heading towards the door, holding it open for everyone leaving.Â
You swiftly pack and walk towards the exit. Ellieâs too distracted by her phone to notice you turn the corner to watch her. All the students vacant the room, and she lets the door shut. You follow from a distance as she moves towards the staircase, down the steps, out into the quad and onto the open field. She pauses, so you do too.Â
You follow her line of vision, right at the sky. Itâs pretty today: the sunâs peeking out, just barely, from underneath the dark gray clouds, rays of light highlighting various sections of the quad.Â
Ellie unzips and digs in her bag, retrieving the olive-green polaroid before setting her bag down on the frosted grass. She maneuvers around the grass, trying to avoid obstruction from the trees, adjusting her stance, picking the best angle before holding her camera up. One quick flash, and sheâs holding a photo of the sky.Â
She shakes the picture a bit before squatting to search through her bag, pulling out a large binder and placing the photo in a laminated encasing. You canât see any of the pictures in detail, but there must be a lot in there. That binder is thick as fuck.Â
And just like that, sheâs off into the cold.Â
You wonder what else is in that binder.Â
Youâre starving. The second you get that direct deposit, youâre whipping up something fierce. Shrimp and eggplant have been calling your name for weeks; Youâre ravenous for it.Â
You run up to the apartment to snag a granola bar, Ellie already in the kitchen, propped against the counter eating Kraft mac and cheese.Â
You shut the door behind you, âWonderful weather weâre having, isnât it?âÂ
Ellie stops chewing, eyes large and soft cheeks filled with creamy noodles. âHm?âÂ
You walk to the cupboards, mouthwatering for Nature Valley, âItâs just beautiful outside! The trees, the sky! Almost pretty enough to paint, ainât it!âÂ
More chewing. She just shrugs, but youâre not having it, âI wish I gotta picture!âÂ
â⌠Go take one.âÂ
âOh, my fucking god,â you mutter to yourself, âCan I see the picture you took earlier?âÂ
â⌠Howâd you knowâ â
âThe details arenât important! I was thinkiiing,â you rip open the wrapping, âif I canât see your portfolio, I can see that giant photo book you have!âÂ
She glances around awkwardly, âWere you watching me earlier?âÂ
â⌠Well, yesâ â
âWhat the fuâ why?âÂ
âI like seeing people do shit they enjoy.â You shrug and bite your bar. Ellie isnât looking at you, but her cheeks tint, and it makes you grin. Interesting.Â
You chew and swallow, âEspecially talented people.â You inch closer, just barely. âYou should show me some pictures sometime⌠Iâll show you some of my secret creations, too. A little exchange, if you will.âÂ
Her fingers clench around her plastic spoon, and her breathing changes, cheeks even brighter. Her hands are very nice⌠They look so soft.Â
âThink about it,â you say, quieter, just between the two of you, âCall it⌠roommate bonding.â You crunch and adjust your bag before walking towards the door. âI think itâs overdue!â You throw over your shoulder before shutting the door behind you.Â
Youâre not sure if Ellie likes or hates compliments.Â
Closing was so hectic; you donât make it home until one in the morning. Training rookies is probably the worst part about working in hardware; They never know where shit goes.Â
You donât feel tired, though. The drive back home is usually when your exhaustion takes over, but this ride was smooth. Sleep is going to be difficult to come by tonight.Â
You unlock your front door and⌠push. And push. And push again. What the fuck. Somethingâs blocking the door. You fight with the wood until the crack is wide enough to slip through. The smell in the air is very telling as to why thereâs a pile of hoodies blocking the slim opening at the bottom of the door.Â
Your mouth gapes at the sight of Ellie on the couch with no pants on, blunt in her hand⌠blowing Oâs. Her eyes are glistening and lazy when she opens them. You quickly shut the door and kick the hoodies in their original position before the scent escapes.Â
âHey,â she mutters. Goosebumps rise on your arms at her voice.Â
â⌠Why the fuck are you chiefing in this no smoke building.âÂ
She stares like youâre stupid. âDe-stressing.â
âDeez-fucking nuts! Ellie, weâre not gonna have a place to sleep if we get caught. Bitch ass Carol doesnât play that shit.â You hate your landlord with every fiber of your being. The second anyone accidentally breaks a rule, sheâs on their ass like grass. You canât imagine how sheâs going to react if she sees Ellie being disobedient on purpose. Youâll both be living out of your car. Fucking hag.Â
Your roommate sighs and crosses her legs, boxer shorts riding up her taut thighs. Alright, okay. She pats the empty cushion next to her.Â
âI'm bored.âÂ
âOkay, what about it.âÂ
She taps the cushion again. Your heartbeat spikes for some reason. âRoommate bonding.âÂ
You gawk. Ellieâs never been this relaxed in your presence. Her posture is incredibly comfortable, leaning back against the propped pillows, manspreading. Why is it attractive?
So, you drop your bag and unzip your puffer before plopping down next to her. She says nothing, just extends the lit herb to you. You look between her and the big B. âThatâs a fat doinker.âÂ
â⌠Right.â Ellie puffs once more before attempting to share.Â
You push her cold hand back softly, âI donât smoke.âÂ
âOkay.â One last long pull from her, and sheâs putting out the grass on the ashtray. âDo you wanna play checkers?â She exhales around smoke clouds, cold air blowing in from the barely cracked window.Â
â⌠What.âÂ
âI said do you wanna play checkeâ âÂ
âAre you a lesbian?âÂ
Your eyes widen at your own question. Interrogation? Fuck. Ellieâs looking around the warm space blankly as if sheâs trying to register what the fuck you just said. Youâre a fucking asshole.Â
âE-Ellie, Iâm sorry, I dunno why I askedâ â
âCan you not tell.âÂ
âWell, yeah.â You stutter, â⌠But I thought it was like⌠fucked up to assume based on uh, appearances, or whatever. I donât have good gay-dar, so.âÂ
âIâve been called a carpet muncher since I was eight.âÂ
â⌠Fuck, really?â She nods, face flat. Your fist extends, silently asking for knuckles, âMe too! Thatâs whatâs up.âÂ
âI almost killed myself.â
Your fist drops with your expression. âOh⌠uh, damn⌠Sorry⌠Iâm glad you didnât, though, real shit.âÂ
âWhat does love feel like?âÂ
This conversation is giving you whiplash. âAre you one of those fake-deep potheads? Like, you believe in flat earth and all that other bullshit?âÂ
Ellie blinks dumbly, âUhh⌠I donât think soâŚâÂ
âWhy do you ask?âÂ
Ellie points at the wall, at one of your paintings. Two women laying on a bed of grass, completely at peace, surrounded by colorful flowers and butterflies. A small smile spreads across your face, recalling how excited you were to show your first girlfriend what you made for her birthday.Â
âLove feels like you're getting shot⌠but not in a bad way.â You ramble. âItâs like⌠like, fuck Iâm really gonna die without this person next to me type shit.â You think back to when you made the painting on the wall, the memories of your younger self so deeply infatuated with another person for the first time. It felt eternal back then, souls interconnected.Â
But then your eyes travel to the next painting, right below the latter. Complete void, no color, no life, just darkness, and your expression falls. The faceless girl trapped in the center of madness is calm, though, accepting her doom with grace.Â
âThat makes it worse, thoughâŚâ You think of Dina and how you fought. How nasty it got. How disgusted she seemed with your presence. You almost want to cry as you relive it. âWhen they leave⌠something inside you really does die. That space never really gets filled again. Youâre just kinda⌠stuck with a hole until you croak over.âÂ
âWhat if they donât leave?âÂ
They all leave. â⌠Iâm not sure yet.âÂ
Ellie hums and it goes quiet for a moment. You wonder what sheâs thinking about.Â
âAre you a lesbian?â Your roommate throws back at you. You laugh, âAre you asking if I eat coochie?âÂ
Ellie nods with a giggle. You stiffen; This is the first time youâve heard her laugh. The hairs on your arms stand upright at the sound.Â
âAs a matter of fact, I do!â Ellie laughs harder, head resting against the back of the couch. You watch the apple of her cheeks heighten. But then the wind blows harder than normal and they drop. She's blank again. âThe heaterâŚâÂ
âWhat about it?âÂ
âItâs brokenâŚâÂ
Fuck. âDid you put in a maintenance request?â Her head shakes.Â
âUh⌠why not?âÂ
âBecause I heard you masturbating and forgot.âÂ
Your heart, stomach, pride is at your feet, â⌠What did you just say.âÂ
Ellie finally looks at you, eyes doe-like, guilt swimming in them. âIâm⌠Iâm sorry! I was sleeping and I woke up to pee but I couldnât because you wereâ â
âEllieâ â
âIt kept⌠buzzing, and I couldnât move! I kept asking
myself how is her stamina this fucking good! It didnât turn off until like⌠an hour later! I almost pissed in my bedâ â
Your body heats at her confession; She thought about your stamina? You place a hand on her shoulder to ease her, and she stops. âItâs okay. I just⌠Yeah, this is awkward⌠We gotta submit that request before that next blizzard or weâre fucked.âÂ
Ellie mutters in agreement, but sheâs not listening. Sheâs eyeing your fingers, the ones resting on her shirt. If you move your thumb an inch, youâll touch her collarbone.Â
âWe, um⌠We can send it in the morningâŚâ She whispers okay, and your fingers curl around the fabric. A sharp inhale from her, and you sigh. Her warm breath is hitting your wrist and youâre trying not to squirm. You watch her chest rise and fall at a steady pace, eyes flicking between yours and your hand.Â
You watch her and she watches you, hand inching up until youâre tracing the warm skin under her tee. Your nail scratches her collarbone, just barely, and the muscles in her thigh jerk. Nope. Not happening. You pull away and stand.Â
âThis was⌠youâre funny.â You stare at your feet; You never took your shoes off. âUh⌠bye.âÂ
âBye.â Her voice is flat. Fuck, fuck, fuck, you fucked up.Â
Your shoes go flying and you rush to your room. Youâre not sure if you slammed the door or not; The pounding in your ears is too loud.Â
Ellie fucked up. She knows she did.Â
I heard you masturbating and forgot? You left over an hour ago, and sheâs still replaying that moment in her mind. What the fuck was she thinking? She wants to peel her skin off and her stomach is in knots. The ghost of your hand is still on her. She was freezing before you came home, and now sheâs overheating.Â
Ellie thinks sheâs done a good job of acting normally around you after that night. That doesnât mean she doesnât think about it. All the time.Â
She hates how, every night since it happened, she listens for you. When you come home in the wee hours of the night, the devil convinces her that youâre aching and desperate, dripping and ready to get yourself to the peak you crave. Youâve been working so hard; You deserve to wind down.Â
Itâs sick, she knows. She masks it well, but every time you're home, sheâs hot. Roommate bonding, youâd said. Why did you say it like that, though? You sounded so alluring, like a siren preparing for a kill.Â
Maybe sheâs reading into it too much. You're a flirt and youâre good at itâŚÂ
Itâs either hot or cold with you. Compliments, or cursing. Admiration or judgment. Thereâs no middle ground, and itâs driving her crazy.Â
Why did you have to touch her? You couldâve kept your distance like youâve been doing, like you did in the kitchen. You gave her a chance to run at arm's length.Â
Ellieâs thoughts are racing; She needs to smoke again, but sheâs too distracted to spark. That ache between her thighs is overpowering.Â
Her eyes travel over the painting that captured her attention a few weeks ago. A small self portrait of you. She commends your attention to detail, but still, youâre so gorgeous in person; Thereâs no comparison.Â
Two deep breaths, and her hand is shoved in her boxers, fingers slippery in seconds. She keeps her eyes glued to the painting as she rubs her clit in quick circles, the bud increasing her sensitivity.Â
Itâs like the painting moves with every squeeze of her walls: she can almost see your animated eyes rolling into your skull, your pink tongue out, drool dripping down your chin. And your voice⌠Itâs tantalizing when you want something. She can almost hear you now: itâs so good, right there, I love when you touch me like that.Â
Fuck, she wants your hands on her. Everywhere. Anywhere you want. Sheâs breathing so loud; She hopes you dozed off by now, even in your noticeably restless state.Â
But what if youâre not? What if you forgot something in the living room, or need a drink of water before bed, and you walk in and see the mess you make her? Her hand moves faster at the thought of you angry, disappointed that she couldnât keep her hands to herself. Sheâll never say, but something wicked happens in her underwear when you're fuming. She likes how expressive your eyes are.Â
Her free hand flies over her mouth as her stomach tightens, the beats in her clit and heart synced. She's so close. A few seconds, and she groans into her hand, the walls melting around her when it finally crashes. Tears jerk in her eyes as she rubs herself through it, riding it out for as long as she can.Â
The hand on her mouth slides under her shirt, cold fingers prodding her nipple as her orgasm descends. She gasps into the cold air, trying to catch her breath. She palms her clit and her walls twitch. She tiredly plops onto the couch, hand still in her underwear, eyes glued to your portrait, scaling the wall until she revisits the depiction of you and your first girlfriend.Â
The idea Ellieâs been sitting on for the last few days crashes down on her again. Youâre soft, despite what others may say. You seem like a lover.Â
Itâs Friday. Rent is due. Fuck.Â
You just got paid, and now more than half of your earnings is in your landlord's pocket. You havenât even been grocery shopping yet.Â
Ellie has, apparently. It smells so good in the kitchen. You take back whatever you said about her and her cheffing skills. That soup was delicious; You secretly hope she cooks more. She can get down⌠a little bit.Â
You wipe the tired from your eyes and make way to the kitchen, and your jaw drops, stunned in your spot by the fridge. Empty grocery bags are stacked on the counter, and Ellieâs frying shrimp and eggplant.Â
âHi⌠you didnât eat last night. I heard you talking about eggâ â
Your whimper, followed by several guttural sobs interrupt her greeting, hand flying over your mouth. Ellie simply stands by the counter with wide eyes, fork in hand.Â
Ellie thinks youâve stopped crying, âUh⌠I just wanteâ â
More loud sobs from you. Snot dribbles down from your nose and Ellie cringes, tearing a piece of paper towel and handing it to you. You take it graciously and blow your nose.Â
âThis is,â sob âthe best thing a-anyone,â sniffle⌠sob âhas ever done f-for me.â
Ellie just nods and flips the eggplant. You canât control yourself, arms wrapping around her waist, sobbing into her back.Â
âI, um⌠Consider it a peace offering, I guess.âÂ
âI take back,â heave âI take back whatever dumb shit I said about you before you moved in,â heave âYouâre so⌠fuck you, Ellie!â You hug her tighter.Â
âQueers gotta stick together.â She mumbles.Â
âLike wet pussy lips!â You wail, fat tears seeping into her t-shirt. She snickers to herself, âGet a plate.âÂ
You sniffle all the way to the cupboards and set the tiny table.Â
Chef Butch. Thatâs Ellieâs new name around these parts.Â
For someone who supposedly âhates eggplantâ, she seasoned and fried the fuck out of it. Get this bitch on the Food Network!
Youâre full and energized before leaving the house for once. You donât even need your morning coffee.Â
âHey, uh⌠can I ask you something?â Ellie calls from the table.
You pause dish scrubbing to look at her, âMhm.âÂ
âItâs kinda⌠a big deal.â She mutters, eyes flickering nervously.Â
â�� Should I sit down, or?â
âItâs not bad. Itâs just⌠I donât know.âÂ
You rinse your hands and set the last plate on the rack to dry. You grab a clean towelette and sit across from her. Ellie canât meet your eyes and her cheeks are fiery. You smirk.Â
âNeed help with something?âÂ
Her head bobs, eyes glued to the table.Â
âThen ask me.â You lean closer. Ellie whispers your name. A deep sigh from her, lips parting around her question.Â
âDo you wanna model for my portfolioâ â
âOf course Iâll help you send nudesâ â
Confusion paints her face, âWhat.â
ââŚWhat.âÂ
âWhat did you just say.âÂ
âNothing.â You shrug, face burning.Â
âYou can say no. Itâs not that serious.â That guarded twinge in Ellieâs voice has returned. You donât like it.Â
âYou think Iâm pretty?â You tease with a pout.Â
âWhat.âÂ
âYou think Iâm sooo hot and sexy that youâre gonna make me the star of yourâ â
Ellie blushes, âYouâre not the⌠star of anythâ â
Your hands wave excitedly, âIâm so honored! Iâd love to! When do we start!âÂ
Ellie sighs, massaging her temples, âDo you have work on Sunday?âÂ
âNot anymore!â You do a little dance in your seat, âWhat am I gonna be doing in the pics, o ye camera master?â Her ears are so red. Why is she so fucking nervous? Youâve already accepted!Â
âJust look like youâre in love.âÂ
â⌠Oh.âÂ
Ellie grimaces at your tone, âListen, I only have two weeks to finish this submission. I havenât had any luck finding people to help me out!âÂ
You pause, âIs this why you buttered me up with a buss down plate?âÂ
â⌠Would you hate me if I said yes?âÂ
âFuck, Ellieâ â
âIâm desperate!â She exclaims, âBut I also donât wanna just ask anybody! I need the photos to be believable! And you kinda⌠you kinda get it!â Ellie points to the painting of you and your first love.Â
The silence is thick as you explore her face. Her forestry-filled eyes are nervous, but thereâs a glimmer of hope in her pupils. You like it; Her orbs look brighter. Greener somehow.
âI wanna see it, then.âÂ
âSee what?âÂ
âYour big ass binder⌠and your portfolio!âÂ
Her eyes roll. âPick one.âÂ
âWooow, youâre really gonna ruin another opportunity for roommate bonding? Thatâs wild. Alright.âÂ
âPick one.â Sheâs stern with her demand⌠You like that, too.Â
You smirk. âShow me your portfolio.âÂ
She crosses her arms over her chest. âYou see it when itâs finished. After the pictures are done. Take it or leave it.âÂ
âOkay, damn,â You give up, âSo⌠what do I gotta do for prep?âÂ
âNot much right now. I have to set up my equipment and all thatâŚâ She glances around the living room, âweâll talk about the rest later.âÂ
ââKay.â You twiddle your fingers together before the biggest light bulb shines over your head.Â
âI also get 40% of the earningsâ â
âFuck no.â She says with a small grin. You pout.Â
You knew something was wrong when Abby randomly invited you over to study⌠on a Saturday night. You donât know how sheâs a STEM major; You havenât seen her with a book since youâve met her!Â
The second she opened her door, something was off. Itâs been days since youâve seen her and she barely reacted to the grilled cheese you brought. Her answers have been curt and sheâs not laughing at any of your jokes. Your Cheetos are doing a great job at soothing your anxiety. You want to comfort your friend with whateverâs bothering her, but youâre not sure how.Â
So, you talk. And talk. And talk about Ellie.
âIâm not gonna lie,â You crunch, comfortable on Abbyâs beanbag. âIâm kinda excited! Iâve never done a photoshoot before.âÂ
Abby shrugs from her work desk, voice monotone, âI mean, just be mindful. Itâs obviously not a game for her so you needa take it seriously.âÂ
Your brows furrow, âWhat do you mean?âÂ
âYour roommate slash crushâ â
Your head shakes, âI donât have a crushâ â
âSlash crush,â Your friend emphasizes, âasked you to be a part of probably one of the biggest creations of her life. If that photo book or whatever is as important as you say, itâs not just a âphotoshootâ for her.âÂ
⌠Nah, youâre still confused.Â
Abby scoffs, âA photoshoot about romance and youâre her only model, making you breakfast, and whatever else sheâs done! How much does she have to spell it out for you?âÂ
âI donât understand why youâre yelling!â
âIâm not fucking yelling! Iâm watching out for you before you do something you regret!âÂ
You sit up straighter, âAnd what does that mean!â
âWhat have you been saying this entire time? I donât wanna live with someone I fucked!â She mocks, âIt seems like yâall are pretty close to that.âÂ
You stare pensively, âWe havenât fucked and weâre not going to! Youâre doing the fucking most!âÂ
âYeah, whatever.â She continues to scribble.Â
âAbby⌠whatâs wrong?â You clumsily stand from the bean bag. âIâm so conâ â
âYou wanna know whatâs wrong?â She snaps, pen slamming on the desk. âEvery time we see each other, you talk about her! Iâm sick of hearing about⌠whatever the fuck you have going on at home, quite frankly! We canât even joke around because youâre so pressed about someone you donât even like!âÂ
Youâre going to cry; You can feel it. Abbyâs never been this upset with you, âWhy did you wait so long to tell me this? I wouldâve stopped coming to you a long time ago!âÂ
âBecause I cared and didnât want you to feel by yourself while Mayaâs away! Thatâs why! But now, itâs likeâŚâÂ
A tired sigh from her and she gives up, hand waving dismissively, âTalking about this shit is pointless. Iâm going to bed. Shut the door behind you.â Abby rises and brushes past you, switching her lamp off and climbing into her warm bed. You allow your tears to fall as you gather your belongings, gently shutting her door behind you and attacking your face with your sleeve. You hate crying in public.Â
The elevator ride feels much longer than it shouldâve been as you weep. The doors shutter open, and you can see the weather is not on your side. Itâs pelting bullets outside; You knew you shouldnât have walked.Â
âYou got a ride?âÂ
You look over at the security guard perched behind the front desk. Fuck all feds, but Stanleyâs cool. You shake your head.Â
âYou canât walk home in that. Driving is also dangerous but,â He shrugs, and you sigh. You pull your phone out of your pocket.Â
âHey, Siri⌠Call Chef ButchâŚâÂ
âCALLING CHEF BUTCH.âÂ
Stanleyâs warm laughter eases your shoulders.Â
DING!
You unlock your phone and smile at Ellieâs text, rising from your chair.Â
âAlright, Stan. Pray I donât turn into Frosty out there,â You throw over your shoulder.Â
He laughs, opening the heavy door for you, âI will! Get home safely!â You throw your hood over your beanie, easing past him and nearly being blown away by the fucking wind. How did Ellie drive in this shit!
You somehow manage to follow the view of your car, pounding on the passenger window to get Ellie to unlock it. You miss your step on the curb and fall face first into the seat. You hear Ellieâs laughter.Â
âYou alright?âÂ
âYup! Fucking peachy, thanks!â You stumble in and slam the door with the wind, out of breath, body melting from the heat. âYou couldnât have parked a little closer?âÂ
â⌠No.âÂ
You stare at her through the snow in your lashes, âEllie, take us home, please. Iâm annoyed and going through a fucking breakdown, like I canât be outside right now. Iâm gonna pass out!â
â⌠You wanna talk about it?âÂ
âNo.â You spit.Â
âAlright.â She puts the car in drive, but her foot is still pressed on the brake.Â
âI just canât believe this shit right now!â You ramble anyway. âYou think you know a person, like, fuck! This is stupid!â You punch the glove compartment.Â
â⌠What happâ â
âLike, fuck! Fuuuck! Like what the fuck!âÂ
Youâre screaming your head off and Ellieâs just watching, face flat as ever. It makes you scream louder. But your wails pause when your eyes flicker downward. Veiny hands clenched around the steering wheel. Your screams suddenly sound like whimpers. Whenâs the last time you had sex?
Is it sad that the thought of Ellie choking you out is easing your meltdown? This is the worst day ever!Â
âIâm gonna rip my fucking face offâ â
âWhy're you staring at my hands like that?â
âWhat the fuck, Iâm not staring. Be quiet.âÂ
Your roommate grins like a fox, âOkay.âÂ
The carâs moving and so are your eyes, all over Ellie, wherever they can reach. Youâre pissed and horny and you need a shot.Â
âYou ever get the urge to strangle the fuck outta someone?â
âMhm.âÂ
You ponder, âHow does it feel to smoke weed?âÂ
She shrugs, âIt feels good.â
âHow good? Scale of one to ten.âÂ
â⌠Thirteen.â
âBetter than sex?â You ask quietly. Your brain is elsewhere, locked on the bulging blue veins in her hand, following the lines through her hoodie.Â
She ponders, â⌠Yes.âÂ
âYouâre biased, though. I canât trust you.âÂ
âStop staring at my hands like that.â Her low voice is like a kick in your back, spine slightly arching in your chair. Youâre glad sheâs looking at the road; Sheâs making you go into heat and she doesnât need to see it. Maybe Abby was right about you being a fucking hypocrite.Â
âOr what?â Your tone is icy, and she licks her lips.Â
âIâll pull over.âÂ
You shudder at her boldness, âPull over.âÂ
Your car jerks to a stop and you jolt forward, eyes still glued onto Ellieâs mouth. One kiss⌠It isnât sex. Itâs just kissing; Who doesnât love kissing? Youâre alone and warm and itâs gorgeous outside. It would be just a kiss. Just one, just one.Â
Ellieâs staring at you, eyes reminiscent of the storm outside. Flurrying and dark. Her tongue swipes over her lips again, and your gut swirls. âStop staring at my hands.â You suck your bottom lip in your mouth when her breath hits it. Sheâs leaning forward and so are you. Just one kiss, thatâs all you need.Â
Your pussyâs talking and sheâs loud⌠Literally meowing for her.Â
âIs that a fucking cat?â Ellie whispers, nose brushing yours⌠She can hear that? How horny are you?Â
âDude, thatâs a cat! Thereâs a cat right there!â Her gasps shock you, and you peer out the window, finding a small, dark spot in gusts of white snow. There is a cat!Â
âOh, my fucking god! Ellie, what the fuckââ Youâre pushing the door open and she grabs your arm.Â
âWait, youâre gonna fucking fallâ â
âWe canât leave her, sheâs gonna die out here!â You rush out in seconds and youâre slipping like a cartoon character on a banana. Youâre kissing the air to lure the kitty over, but she just cries. Sheâs probably starving!Â
âCâmere, baby, câmon!â You hear Ellie muttering curses from behind you. After almost busting your face on icy concrete, youâre finally close enough to scoop up the shivering ball of fur, and youâre sobbing as you wrap your scarf around her tiny body.Â
âEllie,â you choke, âWe caâcanât leave h-herâ â
âOkay, okay, stop crying, where is she?â You hold up the bundled fabric and Ellie gently takes her, shoving her in her hoodie before grabbing your wrist and guiding you to the car. Ellie hops in the driver's seat, the car filled with desperate meows and your hysterical sobs.Â
Ellie cranks the heat and holds the wrapped furball, softly cooing at her.Â
âWhereâs your mama, hm?âÂ
Meow!Â
âNo mama?âÂ
Meow! Meow!
Youâre wailing, âSheâs a fucking orâorphanâ â
âCan you be quiet.â Ellie snaps.Â
âOââyou sniffle harshly, âOkâokayâ â
âHold her, I gotta drive. Weâre going to Petco.â Ellieâs zooming down the street, whipping and swerving. Youâre almost positive she ran a red light.Â
âI know you donât like small animals, but c-can we keep her, pleaseâ â
Ellieâs lip curls, âItâs not that I donât⌠not like themââ She rambles on, but youâre so focused on the baby in front of you. Poor thing looks so tired. What if sheâs sick? Oh God, she wouldâve froze to death if you didnât stopâ
You blabber to her between choked whimpers, âI love you so much, weâre gonna get you safe, donât worryâ â
âOh, my fucking god,â Ellie sighs softly beside you.Â
Pheromones will have to wait. Youâre a mother now.Â
After your emergency pet escapade, you and Ellie sneak the cat past the complex security and into your apartment. If anyone finds out â if Carol finds out â youâre fucked⌠and unhoused.Â
Small meows are filling your ears. Your babyâs full, at least. Poor thing was horking down minced tuna in the car. Her teeth are so small and cute. She looks like sheâs going to doze off soon.Â
You watch as Ellie sets up her little area in the living room⌠Right next to her fucking photography set up when the fuck did she do thatâ
The corner of the living room is fully decked with maroon and ebony backdrops, Ellieâs sticker-littered camera resting proudly on its stand. Thereâs a⌠big ass umbrella-looking thing towering over the setup and a stool on the dark floor cover. Thereâs a small, white briefcase on it, tied down with a padlock. Itâs either a gun or her portfolio.Â
âBring her over here.âÂ
Your gawking gets cut short as you cradle kitty over to Ellie, handing her over so she can lay her on the small, paw-shaped bed. Sheâs purring; Your heartâs melting.Â
âI see you havenât changed your mind.âÂ
Ellieâs tucking your baby in, âAbout?â She hums.
âThe shoot.â You whisper.Â
âWhy would I?â She faces you and stands. You shrug nonchalantly, but your mindâs racing. You probably found someone worthy of doing it.Â
Ellie inches closer, looking down at you. âConsider it roommate bonding⌠Featuring adopted cat child.âÂ
You giggle. She's staring at your smile, all over your face. Into your eyes. Yours flicker down to her mouth. Either you're hallucinating, or sheâs leaning closer. One kiss wonât hurt.Â
âUmâŚâ She whispers, gaze dropping to the floor. âEarlier I was gonna⌠say something.âÂ
âWhat is it?âÂ
She shrugs, â⌠I forgot.âÂ
âOkay.â Youâre whispering now. Sheâs staring at your mouth. Her eyes are hypnotizing; There's a universe in them. A forest with trees that grow for eternities, miles and miles of green meadows.Â
âYouâre staring.â She mutters.Â
âSo are you.âÂ
Ellie wants to say something. You can see it. But she doesnât, and neither do you. âGotta get up early⌠Iâll see you tomorrow?â Her voice cracks.Â
Youâre cheesing and your hearts in your throat. âYes. See you tomorrow.âÂ
One last toothy grin, sheâs gone into her room, door shutting softly for the first time. You exhale like youâve been holding your breath, already missing her presence.Â
Youâre giddy when you finally climb into bed. You canât help but think that Ellie is, too.Â
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How easy you are to need
Joel Miller x f!Reader
Summary: Joel notices that the peaceful life in Jackson has its consequences. he is not happy about it (based on this wonderful ask!)
Tags: TONS OF ANGST, but also FLUFF, established relationship, ahh intrusive thoughts (how much i hate them), Joel is probably ooc but i don't care anymore, also he's soft and insecure and vulnerable
Warnings: body dismorphia and lots of self-loathing on Joel's side, at one (two?) points borderline on smut ( ͥ° ÍĘ ÍĄÂ°) hihihi, swearing, drinking (just mentioned), suggestive stuff bc apparently i can't help myself đ
Word count: 8K ! (8028 specifically woah)
A/N: the next fic will definitely be shorter bc i really need to start caring less about the quality of my work, it takes way too long for my liking. buuut anyway as always đśi hope yall will like itđś this is my birthday gift for you guys đ
Joel looked at himself in the mirror with furrowed brows.
He pulled in his stomach and tried to zip his pants. It still fit, but barely. He undid the zip, turned to the side and looked at his reflection again, just to make sure.
Yeah. This pair was definitely loose until a while ago.
He glanced at the door, but didnât hear you coming, so he sighed and looked in the mirror again. Joel was never particularly muscular, but he could no longer see those thin lines which accentuated his torso before. There was also a bit of fat above the hem of his jeans, and his frame seemed somehow heavierâŚ
Good thing his left ear was directed to the door, because he heard the moment the water in the shower stopped running, which meant you were coming back from the bathroom. Joel spared himself one last wary look and zipped up his pants before turning around to your shared bed where his shirt lay discarded.
He was putting his arms into the sleeves when you entered. A couple of light steps, and then Joel smiled when he felt your arms wrapping around his torso. He glanced over his shoulder at you.
âYou took your sweet time in the shower,â he pointed out, and he could feel your smile when you pressed your face to his back.
âWe finally have hot water, so Iâm gonna use it every chance I get.â
âYou left some for me?â
You huffed a laugh and went around him, moving his hands away and starting to button his shirt yourself.
âThere would be, if you took a shower with me.â
âNext time, sweetheart,â he chuckled and leaned in to kiss your forehead softly, combing his fingers through your wet hair. He hummed. âYour hair smells nice.â
âItâs that shampoo Ellie didnât want.â You shook your head with a smile. âI have no idea why, itâs fantastic.â
You buttoned up the last button and smoothed your palms over his chest and down, lastly resting them on his waist. Internally Joel furrowed his eyebrows, wondering if he could always feel this fold when you put your hands in that place.
âYou look handsome,â you whispered, looking up at him with twinkling eyes and such a soft, love-struck expression on your face that Joel felt his throat constricting. Everything but the sight of you faded from his mind, and he joined his hands behind your back, pulling you closer into his chest and basking in this precious smile you blessed him with. âEspecially with the bed hair.â
âItâs your doinâ, you know,â he murmured in response, nudging your nose with his and reminiscing how you tugged and raked your nails through his hair the night before. âYou gotta be careful with it, sweet girl. If you continue doinâ it, mâgonna go bald soon.â
You hummed noncommittally and leaned against his chest, standing on your tip-toes. âIâll take it under consideration. No promises, though.â
Joel lifted his hand to the back of your neck and kissed you slowly, reveling in the soft sigh that left your lips. You rested your palm above his heart, leaning forward to the point that you would fall over if he wasnât supporting your weight.
But Joel held you tight and close to his body, gladly steadying you as you deepened the kiss, once again tugging on his graying hair in that way he adored. He wanted to tease you about it, but his thoughts strayed to the image of his body again when you lowered your hand from his chest to his side.
âYou remember that tonight is this party?â you asked suddenly, pulling him out of his thoughts. Joel gave up pondering about his physique and sighed heavily at your question, pressing his forehead to yours.
âYeah, I remember. Regrettably.â
âI donât want to go, either,â you whispered with guilt, as if someone would hear you both. âBut Tommy really wanted us to come and⌠Just donât make me go alone.â
âHey, darlinâ.â Joel took your face in his hands and looked deeply into your eyes. âI promised, didnât I? Mânot gonna leave you there on your own.â He leaned in and pressed a soft kiss to your lips, smiling against them. âAnd mind you, I gotta make sure no one will try to seduce and steal you away from me.â
You giggled, and you were standing so close that Joel could feel your eyelashes tickling his skin. He held you close when you tried to take a step back, and your lips collided again.
âThat is the one thing you donât need to ever worry about,â you murmured quietly into the space between you two. âHow could I even look at other people when I have you all to myself?â
Joelâs reflection in the mirror flashed across his mind again and a small wave of uncertainty rippled through him, but it quickly disappeared when you opened your eyes and looked at him with this raw love radiating from them. Your every word, every affectionate gesture only confirmed his conviction that you meant every word you said.
So why did he still feel so uncertain?
*****
Life in Jackson was perfect. Considering the state of the world right now, living here was like winning a lottery.
Joel had a lot to be thankful for, he was well aware of that. No longer had he any fears or sense of guilt about going to sleep and leaving you and Ellie defenseless if something were to happen. He didnât have to count rations anymore, worrying that the kid would be forced to march all day hungry. There was now no need to keep a watchful eye for new clothes if someoneâs worn off, ripped or got soaked from walking in the rain, posing a threat of you or Ellie catching a cold.
Back in Boston it wasnât much different, though he and you had at least a bed to sleep in, as uncomfortable as it was. But there was never enough food for all those people Fedra kept there, and the winters were cold as hell, leaving at least one of you a bit sick every year.
None of those things were keeping him awake at night anymore. The only people he had to take care of â you and Ellie â were safe and comfortable. None of you had to starve or freeze, and you all didnât have to continue walking across the country for days and days without end, struggling to survive.
Maybe that was the problem.
Joel wasnât stupid. He knew that those luxuries he had an access to now were at the root of his problem. Before you all settled in Jackson, you were constantly on the move, fighting for your lives in one way or another, so of course he was⌠leaner and more fit back then. It was never something he paid attention to, though, never something he concerned himself with.
But now you three were living here, surrounded by more people than Joel could count, and he couldnât help but⌠notice things about them.
Especially about all those men and women who looked at you in a different way.
Due to the nature of the party Tommy invited them to â mainly consisting of dancing and talking in the biggest bar in Jackson â Joel had a lot of time to ponder about his situation, all while nursing his drink and looking at you from across the room with his elbows resting on the table.
You were chatting with one of your friends near the counter, laughing and smiling so beautifully. No matter where Joelâs eyes strayed, they always came back to your person, as if you were the moon against the pitch black sky, reflecting some imperceptible light.
Some guy he knew by sight â Chuck? Bart? â walked up and tapped you on the shoulder, and from what Joel could tell, he was offering you a drink. He was standing way too close, though, and you took a step closer to your friend, shaking your head. Chuck â or Bart â persisted for another half a minute, but eventually shrugged and shuffled off, his movements tense.
Joel didnât move. He knew from experience that youâd let him know if you needed his help.
As if sensing his gaze, you turned your head and sent him a radiant smile. He mirrored it, lifting his glass slightly like he was toasting you, which made you do the same before resuming the conversation with your friend.
His smile disappeared as soon as you stopped looking at him. Joel sighed and rubbed his eyes with his fingers, feeling a headache coming from the dull lights and loud chatter all around.
It were moments like this when it hit him just how old he was compared to you.
You were a sweet, young thing. Funny, sharp, drop-dead gorgeous⌠No wonder some people were seeking your attention. That guy was just one of the half a dozen he saw or heard about since you moved to Jackson.
Joel knew you were a loyal sort â God, he knew that, he knew you for so long now â but every time he saw you talking to someone else, his treacherous mind started to wonder if he wasnât somehow keeping you chained to his person.
It was probably alcohol talking, but Lord, if he wasnât reminded of how old he was compared to you every time he saw you next to your peers. You still had so much life ahead of you, and he was pushing sixty, for fuckâs sake. Before long heâll be old and decrepit, unable to bring something useful to the table or help you in any way, and youâd still be as pretty as ever, trapped in a relationship with an old man.
For example, that guy â Chuck, or whomever â was way closer to your age, had handsome features, and Joel knew for a fact he was working at tree felling, so he had to be muscular, too.
Joel was once, too. Once.
He subtly ran his hand across his stomach under the jacket, his brows furrowed, and leaned back on the bench to get rid of those damned fat folds.
He sighed and downed the rest of the liquor in his glass, trying very hard not to think about it, not to put himself down like that and let those cruel thoughts fester in his mind, but no matter what, he couldnât stop comparing himself to this guy, and also⌠how you looked next to him.
Shit. What if he was doing you more harm than good by continuing to stay with you?
âI could pickpocket you and you wouldnât notice.â
Joel looked up, abruptly pulled out of his thoughts. You were standing over his table with your head tilted and still that beaming smile on your face.
âWhat are you thinking about, handsome?â
He opened his mouth, glanced in the direction of the bar, and closed it. There was no sign of any of the people you just talked with.
âNothinâ,â he replied, maybe a little too dryly, so he quickly changed the subject. âYou havinâ fun?â
âYeah, itâs nicer than I thought.â You looked around and then spotted the empty glass on the table in front of him. âDo you want me to bring you another one?â
âNo, thereâs no need,â he grumbled, but you had already put your drink down and sent him a wink.
âI'll be right back, baby.â
Joel hissed your name but you just looked over your shoulder with a smirk, swinging your hips provocatively to the music and ignoring him completely. He sighed heavily, slumping in his seat.
He needed to get his shit together. Fuck his insecurities, he didnât want to take his frustration out on you when you were nothing but a ray of sunshine in his life, always so good and affectionate.
Joelâs thoughts came to a sudden stop when he searched for you in the crowd and noticed another man, this time one he didnât know, swinging his arm over your shoulders while you waited at the bar. He tried to read your body language from here, but you didnât seem particularly uncomfortable with the manâs actions. Joel furrowed his brows, a pit of uncertainty forming in his stomach again... but then you threw the manâs heavy limb off your shoulders and went back to Joelâs table as soon as you got the drink.
âThanks, darlinâ,â he murmured, taking a large gulp despite telling himself earlier that he was done drinking for today. âWere you okay back there?â He pointed his chin towards the bar.
You sat down next to him and smiled innocently. âWhatever do you mean?â
Joel knew you long enough to recognize when you were teasing him, and he smirked despite the doubts swirling in his mind.
âWas that guy givinâ you any trouble?â he asked lazily, deciding to play along.
âWould you beat the shit out of him if I said yes?â you asked with your eyebrows raised, and Joel shrugged, acting nonchalant.
âProbably.â
You giggled and bumped his shoulder with yours playfully.
âThen no. Peterâs a good guy. Just a little,â you seemed to be looking for the right word, âuhm, persistent.â When Joel sent you a dubious look, you rolled your eyes and made a face. âHeâs politely hitting on me, but doesnât get that Iâm not interested. He works at the same place I do.â
âIf he keeps makinâ you uncomfortable, thatâs not very polite.â You squinted at him and Joel lifted his hands in fake surrender. âMânot sayinâ anythinâ. You can take care of yourself, I know that.â
You hummed melodically and glanced at the bar, then back at Joel. Then back at the bar again where that Peter guy stood. Joel noticed you biting the inside of your cheek, so he gently nudged your knee with his.
âWhatâs on your mind, sweet girl?â
âMaybe you could help me make it clear that Iâm taken?â you blurted out quickly, making him crack a smile and chuckle under his breath.
It was so very easy to forget about all the problems in the world when you were there, sitting right next to him and warming his soul and body with your mere presence.
âCome âere,â he breathed and tugged you gently to sit on his lap. You faltered, but he gave your hand another light tug, and finally you let him guide you, putting one arm around his shoulders and making yourself comfortable.
Joelâs hand mindlessly went to rest on your thigh and he rubbed it comfortingly. That Peter guy, as he noted with satisfaction, was staring right back at you, eyeing the way your body was pressed flush against Joelâs with a twisted face.
Once the eyes of the both men met, Joel leaned in and kissed your neck, keeping eye contact the entire time. Peter turned away, taking a large swig from his glass.
Joel felt your muscles relaxing, and you giggled adorably next to his ear at his antics, hiding your neck between your shoulders when he nibbled at your skin lightly. Then your hand covered his, the one lying on your thigh, and stroked his skin lovingly.
Maybe Joel was keeping you chained somehow. Then again, he was but a selfish creature after all. He didnât know if he could bring himself to ever truly let you go.
*****
The next few days â which then turned into weeks â Joel spent wondering. Mostly about what to do with his predicaments.
He had a couple of them.
The first problem was the nights. They became more difficult since he noticed⌠details about himself that werenât there before, and which bothered him more and more with each day.
Joel used to love the nightfall, especially since you all settled in Jackson. In those evening hours no one bothered him, he could finally relax, spend some time alone with you, and later collapse on the bed to get a good-night sleep.
Well, not anymore.
The bedtime unexpectedly became the most stressful one for him. He was so fucking mad at himself, because laying down and having a chance to hold you in his arms was something he treasured for the longest time, but now his own insecurities stood in a way of it.
You loved cuddling and being close to him in your sleep, and Joel was never bothered by it â hell, he initiated those moments more often than not. But now he started noticing more and more how this layer of fat on his stomach moved and looked like when you draped your arm around him or snuggled closer to his chest, and it became all he could think about.
It bothered Joel so much that he started wearing a t-shirt to bed, even though he hated it with all his passion. When you asked about it, he lied that heâs cold, but in reality he was always sweaty by morning. It didnât seem to make any difference to you, though, and you didnât shy away from pressing your body close to his, and even slipping your hands under his shirt when you were spooning him. Some days Joel was waking up with you lying on his chest or having your arm slung across his belly, and every time it caused a lump in his throat.
He knew you didnât mean anything bad by it â for Godâs sake, you probably didnât even have any idea that he had a problem with himself â but what once was a wonderful start of the day, now became a bitter reminder of all those things he was insecure about.
Recently he built a habit of waking up before you â he did it often before, but he always stayed in bed and waited for you to open your eyes, too â and carefully disentangling himself from your embrace. It wasnât like it didnât feel wonderful to be enveloped by you in this way, but once he stirred awake, lying still was a herculean task. No matter how much he tried to ignore it, his skin was itching and buzzing, he was sweating from nerves and a lot of horrible, self-depriving thoughts were flooding his mind.
So once he woke up, heâd go take a shower, trying to be a little bit louder than necessary in hopes that youâd already be awake when he gets back â so that he wouldnât feel so guilty about not laying back down next to you.
The second of his problems was that you began to watch him more closely.
He didnât know when it started happening, but in hindsight he realized it was just a matter of time â he was acting weird, after all, and you knew him too well not to notice anything.
A couple of times in the last few days only, Joel caught you staring at him in silence. Your eyes were solemn and your forehead sad, though you were quick to smile and act like nothing was amiss as soon as he turned your way.
You must have known something was wrong, but Joel didnât ask about it. Honestly, with all that was happening in his own head, he didnât want to know.
But at the same time it was as if nothing odd was happening. You were your usual self, a blessing in Joelâs life, and you still sought to be close to him and spend as much time together as possible. You still told him you loved him, surprised him with unexpected gestures of affectionâŚ
Just like today â you hugged him from behind while he was dressing up, started kissing his shoulders so tenderly and murmuring sweet nothings into his skin⌠In those moments Joel could almost forget about everything that was nagging him. It was easy to believe that you still liked the way he looked, that he was deserving of you, when you treated him with nothing but overwhelming love.
But the itch in the back of his mind never really disappeared. Even though he wanted it to.
Those thoughts filled his mind while you were sitting on his lap, telling him some story from work in a soft voice. You two were at Tommyâs, waiting for him to get back from helping his wife with something, and the day was so beautiful that you all went out onto the patio in front of the house to enjoy the unusually warm weather for this time of the year.
Joelâs hand was on your thigh, stroking it absentmindedly, while he nodded to whatever you were saying, but for the life of him, he could not focus.
Has your physique changed as well? Joel didnât care about those things, of course, and in his eyes you were as breathtaking as ever â maybe even more, since so many of your worries disappeared and he got to see your smile more often. And you still felt perfect under his hands when he was holding you at night, still looked like a goddess every time he got to admire your naked body.
But even though he wouldnât have cared either way if you gained some weight or looked any different, his body still bothered him.
You rested your head on his shoulder, and Joel fixed his attention to the wind-blown tree crowns in the distance.
Maybe he should start exercising.
Joel never liked the idea of waking up early and running down the streets in a sweat-soaked t-shirt, or going to the gym where everyone seems to stare and judge you, but it was never necessary.
With how much traveling, heavy-lifting and working he had to do, he never concerned himself with the way he looked. Hell, these things are the last on your mind when youâre fighting for your life in this god-forsaken world. But here, in Jackson, it was different. Life was good, and you were happy. And as stupid as it sounded for him, Joel wanted to look good for you.
Maybe he should ask Maria to assign him to extra patrols. He already volunteered for the morning ones, but perhapsâŚ
âYouâre quiet.â
Joel didnât realize you stopped telling your story. He pressed his lips together and his hand on your thigh stilled.
âSorry.â
âNo need for that,â you reassured him quickly. Then you cupped his cheeks and lifted his head gently. âI donât mean ânowâ, though, I mean⌠lately, in general.â Your eyes were flickering across his face, like you were hoping to read the answer from his features. âIs there something you wanna talk about?â
No. Hell no. It was bad enough that Joel himself was aware of his issue, he didnât want to make it even more noticeable by pointing it out to you.
Which reminded him â he moved his torso away from you only a few millimeters.
âNo, babygirl,â he answered. He brushed some hair behind your ear, smiling softly even though inside he despised himself for lying to you. âEverythinâs fine.â
You didnât seem convinced and still were studying his face with concern. Joel resumed petting your thigh, wanting to put you at ease. He could worry about himself, but he didnât need to concern you with his problems, too.
âI promise,â he added. âDonât worry your pretty little head about it.â
That look in your eyes didnât disappear, but you hummed and dropped your hands. It didnât take a genius to know you didnât believe him.
âIf you say so,â you answered at last, and then covered his hand on your leg with your own. âBut remember you can talk to me whenever you want. About anything.â
Jesus, your kindness was only confirming his concerns if he was the right person for you. Joel shook his head with a crooked smile.
âYouâre gettinâ sappy.â
âItâs because Iâm worried,â you shot back without skipping a beat, swatting at his chest with the back of your hand. âAnd youâre not making it any easier.â
âThereâs nothinâ for you to worry about,â he repeated, trying to keep the irritation out of his voice. But he failed.
You pressed your lips together and then made a move to get up from his lap without a word. Joel held onto you delicately, not letting you stand up.
âWait, darlinâ,â he sighed, rubbing his eyes with his fingers. âDidnât mean to say it that way. I just⌠feel tired. Sorry.â
Your eyes softened when you took in the regret and weariness on his face. Joel felt your fingertips on his jaw, but before you could question him further, Tommy returned from the inside of the house with a grin.
âAge is a heavy burden, eh, olâ dog?â he teased, apparently having heard the last bit of their conversation. The younger Miller placed three bottles of beer on the table, and winked at you. âThatâs just how it is for us now. Enjoy your youth while you still can, punk.â
Joel felt a sharp jab in his ribs, not unlike being stabbed. He couldnât find it in himself to look at his brother, less alone laugh at his teasing.
Of course Tommy didnât mean anything bad by it, but his words were just a bitter reminder of the ever-present pit of Joelâs stomach.
The weight of you on his lap suddenly felt a lot lighter, and he himself felt so, so very heavy and tired.
Old.
Joel could feel your eyes boring into his face, but a second later you turned to Tommy, taking the burden of filling the uncomfortable silence.
âItâs already started for me. Sometimes I feel like my bones want to kill me prematurely.â
âMâsure Joel wonât let that happen. Heâd fight your skeleton if you said itâs botherinâ you.â
You snorted and shook your head, but your smile faltered when you turned to Joel again. He almost broke down right then and there from the guilt and tightness in his chest.
And the dark feeling inside him just grew when your eyes stayed sad and concerned for the rest of the day.
*****
It had to end.
Joel could no longer pretend everything was alright like he wasnât dying on the inside every time you did as much as hold his hand. He felt horrible about lying, avoiding spending time together and denying you affection he knew you so loved receiving.
If he was being honest with himself, he wanted this affection, too. Undisturbed with self-doubts and guilt.
He fucking craved it.
Those last few weeks, his evenings were mostly spent away from you and the warmth of your shared home. The nights, on the other hand, when he would sneak in and quietly lay down next to you (but just a little further away), became full of intrusive thoughts and wallowing in self-loathing.
No matter what excuse he came up with, you were persistent in holding and being close to him during the night, and Joel discovered that the only way to prevent you from doing it was to come to bed after youâve already fallen asleep.
But it was a damn torture.
The worst part was when he was coming home to the sight of you lying amongst the tangled sheets and blankets in his bed. No matter if you were drooling or a pillow has imprinted itself on your cheek, every time this sight made Joel weak in the knees. You looked like a gorgeous, priceless painting, and it pained him to disrupt your rest with his arrival.
He tried to volunteer for evening patrols, because then heâd have a real reason to come home late, but not only Maria didnât want to pair him with anyone during those hours â she also suspended him from all patrols whatsoever. Joel was understandably furious, but the damn woman threatened to tell Tommy about it if he kept being âa stubborn pain in her assâ. She sent him back home, murmuring something about spending more time with you, which he tried to pretend he hadnât heard.
Joel sighed, sitting up on the edge of the bed and hiding his face in his hand.
If Maria of all people could see that there were some problems in your and Joelâs relationship, then you had to notice, too.
Christ, he was the worst.
Joel didnât want to push you away, of course not. He wanted to stay with you more than anything, but that desire did nothing to diminish the guilt suffocating him. For some time, he felt like the luckiest man alive, having the privilege to call you his and every day come home to you. But now with all those little things he started to notice, he felt like a fraud.
It wasnât even about him not deserving you anymore â it was that you didnât deserve this fucking treatment he was giving you these past few weeks.
Fuck, he had to tell you the truth. About the patrols, sneaking out, distancing himself, all of it. He couldnât bear lying to you a day longer.
Joel stood up and pulled his sweaty t-shirt over his head. He wrinkled his nose at the smell and patted himself under his armpits and on the back, then reached for a clean one.
Heâll figure it out. He just needed some time to come up with a way toâ
âMorning, handsome.â
Joel flinched and turned around quickly, not having realized you were awake, but whatever excuse he had in mind, it fell dead on his lips.
You stretched with a groan, reaching one arm high above your head and rubbing your eyes with the other hand. A sleepy smile danced on your lips when you looked back at him with sparkles in your slightly puffy eyes, and Joel didnât have any other word to describe you than âetherealâ.
âWhat are you doing?â you asked groggily, relaxing against the pillow and looking him up and down.
âUhmmâŚâ he hesitated, clutching the t-shirt that was in need of washing close to his chest. His gaze was drawn to the window. âGoinâ out, actually. Iâve got some workâŚâ
âNo, you donât,â you interrupted him and swung off the covers from his side of the bed. âGet back here.â
Joel looked at you with surprise.
âWhat?â
âYou heard me, Miller. Get your ass back on the bed.â
He crumpled the shirt in his hands, hesitating, but his eyes softened as soon as he looked back at you and your raised eyebrows â like you were challenging him to just try and refuse you.
But how could he, when you looked so pretty lying in his bed and demanding to have him close to you? How could he ever deny you anything?
With a defeated sigh, Joel started putting the t-shirt back on, but the sound of you humming in protest stopped him. Your face was grumpy when he glanced up.
âNah. No shirt.â You extended your hand in his direction, making a grabbing motion. âCome here.â
Joel didnât move. âWhy?â
You rolled your eyes and dramatically flopped down onto the pillows, looking up at him with an adorable pout.
âBecause itâs been a long time since I got a chance to admire my handsome, sexy man,â you answered with sincerity, and then grinned. âNow come here. If you ditch your shirt, Iâll consider ditching mine.â
He still didnât move. You were patient, but when it became clear that he wasnât going to do anything, you sent him a small, sweet smile. âIf you get cold again, I promise to do something about it, love.â
Joel physically felt his heart softening at your words and at the sight of you.
With a silent sigh â and only a split second of hesitation â he took off the t-shirt and quickly laid down on his back next to you. He felt a bile rise in his throat, though he had no idea why, and it became almost choking when you shifted closer to him, putting one hand on his chest.
âYouâve deprived me of this beautiful view for too long,â you whispered, kissing the place below his collarbone, and then going up to the base of his neck. âI missed seeing you like this.â
âThereâs nothinâ to miss,â Joel muttered, not moving a single muscle. He had his hands entwined on his stomach and to look in your direction was the biggest effort anyone could demand from him now. âWe sleep next to each other every night, sweetheart.â
âYou know what I mean,â you breathed into his neck, leaving love bites wherever your lips strayed. âYouâre going out so early these days. And you work late.â
âPatrols,â Joel grunted with gritted teeth, his muscles tense and breathing ragged as your warm palm caressed his waist. âSorry.â
âYou work too hard, love.â You sat up and swung one of your legs over his lap. Joel actually shivered when you took his hands in your own and placed them on your hips. âLet me help you relax.â
Oh, fuck.
Jesus fucking Christ, Joel was sure he was going to drop dead at any second now.
âDarlinââŚâ he began, but you made a noise in your throat and leaned in to kiss him deeply, pressing your body to his. Joel loved when you initiated those moments between you two, and you looked so fucking hot sitting on top of him â but for the life of him, he could not relax.
âIt hits me every once in a while how lucky I am to have you,â you whispered in such a sweet, adoring voice, like you didnât hear him. You pressed your lips against his stubble again, igniting every inch of his skin with your touch. âLet me enjoy you. I love you so much, you know that?â
âIâŚâ
I love you, too.
Lord, he loved you so much. Why was it so hard to return your affections, then? Why did he feel like the biggest crook by letting you love him?
Joel let out a shuddering sigh he didnât know he was holding when you pressed your lips to the edge of his jaw, before capturing his mouth in a kiss. It was sweet, but heated at the same time and, without even thinking about it, he found himself wrapping his strong arms around you, bringing you closer to his chest. You smiled against his lips and murmured something he didnât quite catch.
A groan escaped him when you bit his lower lip lightly, your soft palm going down, from his chest, to his stomach, downâŚ
He couldnât do it.
Joel abruptly rose to the sitting position and grabbed your wrist, his eyes sad and painful.
âIâm sorry, babyâ he said with furrowed brows, gently setting you aside and off his lap, before standing up quickly. âIâm so sorry, babygirl, I love you, I promise, but I canât⌠I donât feel good today. Iâm sorry.â
âJoelâŚâ you started, but he shook his head, putting his t-shirt back on and turning away from you not to let you see the absolute wrecked expression on his face and wetness in his eyes.
âIâm sorry,â he kept saying, feeling like heâs about to throw up from the nerves and the burning shame. He cursed himself internally, wanting to turn around, to take your face in his hands and kiss you deeply, but he⌠he... âIâm soâŚâ
All strength left him in a blink of an eye and suddenly he slumped on the bed, hiding his face in his hands. Joel desperately tried to get a grip on himself, but his chest felt so tight, and all the worry, all the guilt and fear, and self-loathing came crashing down on him all at once.
âMâsorry, darlinâ,â he whispered hoarsely, his lips trembling and that damn muscle in his cheek pulsing when he felt the mattress dipping and your tentative touch on his face.
âNo, no, baby, itâs alright,â you started saying quietly, trying to take his cheeks in your hands, but he didnât let you. âOh, Joel⌠Come here.â
You gently pulled him into your arms, guiding his head to rest in the crook of your neck. Joel hid his face in your skin, realizing with dread that his own shoulders were shaking.
For Godâs sake, he needed to stop, he needed to put himself together and not show any weaknessâ
But it was you. It was your warm embrace and your loving hands brushing his hair, and your quiet whispers while you held him. It was your kindness and understanding, and stubbornness coming from love. You werenât someone he had to hide from.
So he let you in. He let you hold him.
âJoel, please. Talk to me,â you spoke up after some time, and though your tone was soft, it somehow sounded too loud in the silence of the room. âI need to know whatâs going on with you, youâre worrying me.â
âNothinâ is goinâ on,â he answered out of habit, not even moving a muscle. âI just⌠fuck, sorry.â
âStop apologizing and talk to me.â Joel pursed his lips, while you massaged his back gently. âWhatever it is, weâre gonna get through it together, okay? Itâs gonna be okay, love, I promise.â
He planned on telling you. He wanted to tell you and get it off his chest, but⌠he wasnât ready. Not now. Not when he broke down in front of you, for fuckâs sake.
But you deserved to know. If not to help him, then at least to make you aware of what youâve gotten yourself into. It wasnât fair to keep you in the dark and at armâs length because of his absurd fears.
He wetted his lips and inhaled softly, but no words came out.
You gently lifted his head and Joel immediately squeezed his eyes shut, knowing there was no way heâd be able to say anything if he looked at you.
âYou can tell me, baby,â you whispered sadly, touching the side of his face. âAnything. I promise everything will be alright.â
Joel was silent for a couple of moments, before he swallowed and took a deep breath, trying to calm down his pounding heart.
âI donât have any extra work,â he started very quietly, so his voice wouldnât break. âI was lyinâ to you, and I⌠Iâm so sorry about that. I donât get sent on any patrols now, actuallyâŚâ
He shook his head and sighed heavily, faltering. He knew that wasnât the problem, and although lying to you was one of the things he was guilty of, it wasnât what started all of it. And you mustâve known it, too, because you kept looking at him, not saying anything.
âThe thinâ is, I⌠God dammit,â he murmured, turning his head away from you and hiding his face in his hands, still keeping his eyes closed. âI canât⌠I donâtâ I have a problem with myself,â he finally blurted out, not even caring now if you understood his muffled words. âI keepâŚâ
Fuck, man, just say it.
âIâm⌠Iâm not as fit as I used to be,â he murmured, not moving an inch in fear that youâll spot the wetness on his eyelashes. âI donât want to do you harm, darlinâ, keepinâ you from⌠Jesus, I donât know. From livinâ your life, happily and to the fullest.â
âJoelâŚâ You whispered with pain in your voice. âIs this what it is about?â
Joel shook his head, letting out a shuddering breath, still as quietly as he could.
âIâm old,â he said with tiredness he didnât know he had in himself. âAnd you⌠Youâre so pretty and young, IâŚâ He lowered his forehead onto his hand, rubbing his temple. âI would like nothinâ more than to spend the rest of my life with you, darlinâ. But Iâm afraid Iâm not⌠not good for you. You could do so much betterââ
âHey. Hey, none of that.â You forced his hands away from his face by cradling it in your own palms. âThereâs no one else Iâd rather share my days with.â
Joel just shut his eyes tighter, trying to contain the tears that started to gather in them.
âI know, sweetheart,â he whispered. âBut in a couple of years Iâll be⌠God, Iâll be fuckinâ sixty, and youââ
âDo you really think I care about that?â you asked softly, brushing your thumbs under his eyes, but he shook his head, like you didnât understand. âJoel, I love you more than anything in this world. And I know you love me.â He heard the faintest smile in your voice, and it made him feel so, so terrible with himself â that you were trying to make him feel better when you shouldnât have, he shouldnât have been another one of your worries⌠âSo whereâs the problem? I want to be with you. Only you.â
Joel pressed his lips together and before he could stop himself, he draped his arms over his lap, like he was trying to hide the evidence of his insecurities from you, even though his torso was already covered by the t-shirt.
âYouâre young and beautiful,â he repeated, still unable to find strength in himself to look you in the eye. âAnd Iâm anythinâ but. I just donât wannaâŚâ
Joel didnât know what else to say.
He didnât want you to leave. He didnât want to spend another night apart from you. He didnât want to push you away.
âJust donât want you to be unhappy,â he finally murmured.
You let out something between a short chuckle and a stifled sob, and your fingers found Joelâs, still wrapped around his stomach.
âDo I look unhappy to you?â you asked, almost in disbelief. Joel finally willed himself to glance at you, if only to see for himself â which turned out to be a mistake. Your eyes were sad and teary, but not full of hurt or distaste like he feared, and you still had this faint smile on your face. He quickly turned his head away and you mustâve realized how you looked because your hold on his fingers tightened slightly. âNot right now. In general, did I ever do something to make you think Iâm not happy with you?â
âNo,â he answered quietly, not even having to think about it. âBut it doesnâtâŚâ
âI told you before, how can I even look at anyone else when I have you?â you spoke up when he faltered. âYouâre beautiful to me, Joel, even if you donât believe me right now. Youâre amazing and kind, youâre fucking hot, and yeah, maybe youâre stubborn at times, but I love you so much, and every day I find another reason to fall for you all over again.â
Joel met your eyes again, looking for any hesitation or deceit â but he didnât find any. As always, you were sincere in everything you said.
He realized, with another wave of tears threatening to roll down his cheeks, how much he missed your affection that he alone deprived himself from. How much he longed for this intimacy that once came so easily to him.
âMâsorry,â he muttered at last, lifting his hand to your face and trying to ignore those damn tears spilling from behind his eyelids. âNever doubted you, babygirl, but I just didnât know how⌠how to tell you.â
âItâs okay, Joel,â you nuzzled your cheek into his palm, planting a kiss on the inside of his hand. âItâs alright, câmon here.â
Not letting go of his hand, you tugged him gently and leaned back on the pillows. With great effort he refrained from fighting you, and instead let you pull him down, laying his head on your chest.
And in an instant, everything was alright again. The moment Joel heard your heartbeat under his ear and felt your gentle hands on the nape of his neck and his back⌠it was like coming home. This feeling of warmth spreading across his limbs made him feel safe for the first time in weeks.
It was so long since he fully let you hold him.
Maybe thatâs what heâs been missing.
âI adore you, Joel Miller,â you whispered into the top of his head, holding him close to your heart. âAll of you, and just the way you are.â
Joel couldnât help it â a small smile crept onto his lips.
âCalled it,â he murmured. âYouâre gettinâ sappy.â
You snorted and kissed his hairline. âI think you need it, handsome.â
âMaybe I do,â he conceded, not moving his head from your chest, and sighed tiredly. âDammit, missed holdinâ you like this, babygirl. Mâso sorry.â
âDonât be,â you countered, but he continued.
âI just didnât know how to talk about it⌠How to tell you that I feel bad. About⌠the way I look.â
Joel felt your hands on his cheeks, and although he really didnât want to move from the position he was in, he let you lift his head.
âI love the way you look,â you said quietly, in a tone that made Joelâs old heart flutter. âAnd our bodies change, thereâs nothing wrong with that. If anything, Iâm really happy that both of us can enjoy this kind of life.â You leaned in and nudged Joelâs nose with yours, closing your eyes. âEvery change of our bodies is a sign that weâre finally safe after all weâve been through.Â
âBut you look gorgeous as ever, sweet girl.â
âMâglad to hear it, Mr Miller,â you teased, but then your smile turned wistful. âBut you know, I was insecure about my looks, too, not sure if you noticed. My stomach and thighs, and,â you rolled your eyes, âwell, my butt.â
Normally Joel would throw a playful remark, or try to make you giggle, but this time he stayed silent. He just listened to your soft voice, drinking in your features.
âIt worried me for some time. But you still put your hand on my leg when I was sitting with you, and you never shied away from telling and showing me,â you stressed this word, a teasing note in your tone, âhow much you like my body.â
ââCourse I do,â he murmured quietly, lifting himself on his elbows and leaning over you despite your huffs and efforts to keep him in place.
âSo I thought that maybe you didnât care about this extra weight, or even didnâtââ
The rest of your words were swallowed by Joelâs lips when he kissed you deeply and hungrily. So many strong emotions were swirling inside his chest, he didnât know anymore what to do with himself. At first you tried to continue your train of thought, but soon gave up, erupting into giggles when Joel latched his lips onto your neck and wrapped his arms around you in an attempt to bring you in even closer.
âI didnât care,â he was whispering into your skin, leaving a trail of wet kisses in his wake. âI donât.â
âThen you seeâ Joel, stop it!â You squealed when he carried on with his assault, not giving you a second to gather your thoughts.
âMâso lucky to have you,â he whispered while peppering your face in soft kisses. âThank you, babygirl.â
You finally managed to free your arms, and you cupped his face in your hands with a huge grin that Joel decided he wanted to see every day. Another adorable giggle escaped you when he snuggled his scratchy cheek into your palm.
âI know it will take time,â you said gently, but firmly, looking deep into his eyes. âBut no matter how long itâll take, I will make you understand how incredibly attracted I am to you.â Joel hung his head low to hide a bashful snigger, and your smile grew. âUnderstand?â
âYeah, yeah. Understood, maâam.â
âGood.â You pulled him closer to plant a slow kiss on his lips, and asked seductively: âI can start right now, if youâd want to. I donât want my handsome man to feel insecure about any part of him.â
God, he loved you so much.
Joel hid his face in the crook of your neck again, his heart squeezing with adoration and disbelief at how it came that heâd been blessed with someone like you.
âYâknow what, sweetheart? I think itâd do me good.â
#joel miller x reader#joel miller x you#pedro pascal#pedro pascal x reader#the last of us fanfiction#the last of us#joel miller#joel miller x y/n#joel tlou#i will actually be taking a break because i have uni stuff to do which i REALLY neglected on behalf of this fic#i really got carried away with this one and the final scene took me so long to write omg#i really tried to approach this topic with respect and understanding and i very much hope it's alright#soft joel miller#joel miller fluff#the last of us fic
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Yandere company Bros
The eldest brother
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â CW: Yandere tendencies, unhealthy coping methods, obsessive/possessive behavior, Judas needs a hug, internal company conflict
Synopsis: ăYou were a new intern for hire at the grand Acer international company ran by the Kinzen family. And you stood out amongst your colleagues by being capable, ambitious, and dedicated to the craft! All the qualities of a true corporate slave which may have attracted some unheeded attention from the future inheritors of said company itself. Ultimately you ended up getting sucked into an internal family succession battle between the youngest and the eldest brotherâŚLetâs just hope you make it out in ONE PIECE.ă
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ăEldest brother! Judas was never the type to believe in love at first sight. Despite his father always ranting on about how he fell for his strict mother at first glance. He never truly understood what it meant to feel a romantic love for someone. Throughout his highscool and college years heâs never had a crush or been in a relationship for that matter.ă
ăBut all his reservations went out the window when he saw you, a well put together newbie walking past the doors of the well established business owned by him and his family. Encompassing an essence that of a fresh summer breeze which completely disarmed him.ă
ăTruly he thought he worked himself to death and was blessed with the sight of an angel who came down to take him away from his mundane life. Of being in his mother, Isidoreâs shadow as a prominent businesswoman. Known across the world for her cutthroat business conduct.ă
ăEldest brother! Judas was at a loss for words as you stepped up to him with those bright attentive eyes. And offered to help take on the loaded stacks of papers he was lugging into his office with an altruistic smile. The fact that he knew you didnât know who he was at that time and was this naturally sweet. As opposed to everyone else who usually try coming to his aide with ulterior motivesă
ăMade His motherfucking heart grip at the enclosure of his rib cage at how you just politely interjected yourself in his space to go ahead and take half of his work load off of him. while he was stunned stupid too flabbergasted to even utter a sentence.ă
ăThis socially stunted stoic man was trying his best to keep his mind afloat as heâs never been affected by such intense emotions before in his 23 years of living. He didnât know how to act as he tended to isolate himself from his peers. In turn for studying business till his nose bled and working himself up the corporate food chain.ă
ăEldest brother! Judas resembled that of a black cat who was looking in pure awe of his new fixation which wasnât work or studying. His pristine appearance was now unkept with hairs falling flat in his face from how caught off guard he was. Finding himself mindlessly trailing after the new bubbly intern in long strides.ă
ăWhen yall reached his office he struggled to find the words to thank you. But his haywire brain opted to abruptly encase your hand in his and bring it towards his bleeding heart. as he gave you what seemed to be a death stare inherited from his mother but in reality was an expression full of gratitude, obsession, and adoration.ă
ăCongratulations youâve unknowingly seduced the eldest heir of the Kinzen family. And thereâs no take backsies.ă
ăEldest brother!Judas is the type to be more or less clingy with his darling. Always calling them to his office to ask for âhelpâ on some assignments. which caused onlookers to give him surprised exchanges. Since the famed hermit workaholic never came out of his dumpster fire of an office to request help of any kind.ă
ăHe just loves seeing you breathe in his general direction. It makes him impulsively grip at the sides of ball pen till it damn near snapped in two. From how His heart is was overflowing with so much pure and genuine infatuation for you.ă
ăThe eldest Kinzen was a ticking time bomb since he always kept everything little thing bottled up inside and never had anyone to confide to unlike his youngest brother Dexter who was a social troglodyte.ă
ăSo as time progresses Judas spends each and every waking moment fantasizing. About what it would be to show you all the admiration that he feels for you. To convey how youâve turned his world upside down and to emphasize how utterly precious youâd be underneath him due to size difference ahem his management. Working alongside him as his lovely equal/assistant manager.ă
ăOnly one strand of restraint was holding him back from pouncing on you as if he had no good sense. But it was waning with how his meddlesome brother Dexter kept interfering with yâallâs pleasant time together.ă
ăEventhough he may have been born with a diamond spoon he was never the one to indulge in it. Not that he could since his mother Isidore was a hard fashioned woman with a strict traditional upbringing. She instilled in her sons that what you earn is what you keep and how there was nothing such as free handouts in the world.ă
ăAnd yet since he was the eldest, Isidore made sure to remind him how it was his responsibility to steer his brother in the right direction. Taking her words to heart he always made an effort to accommodate his brother to an extent.ă
ăIn their childhood days whatever Dexter wanted something from Judas. The eldest willingly gave in to him since he could be fussy if he didnât get what he wanted. But once he noticed the eyes Dexter made at you whilist making you laugh from his charm.ă
ăSomething snapped inside Judas. He didnât like the way Dexter was trying to put dibs on you in his subtle hand placement on your waist. He despised how happy you sounded from the half baked jokes of the Youngest. He hated how easy it was for Dexter to strike up a conversation with you and be in your general presence without need for work excuses.ă
ăDonât look at his brother look at him sure he may not have the best social ques or a way with words but heâll treat you right. Judas will take care of you as if you were a queen to the throne of his heart.ă
âIâll be good, Iâll be perfect just for you⌠All I want is for you to look at me, focus only on me, Please donât look elsewhere with those eyes of yours. I just wanna be yours. So choose me, not him.â
ăHeâd seldom show you in the most intense ways possible, the depraved man heâs become. Falling weak to his needs to hug you, to kiss you, to embrace you, to show you all the love that he can possibly show you. Within his iron grasp since youâre the one thing that heâll never give up to his youngest sibling no matter how much tries to tempt you away from him.ă
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I promised a rumble rundown, so thatâs what Iâm gonna do. Letâs gođ also here's the yt vid i used lol
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0:14-0:17
Paul says, âHello, Darrel. Long time, no seeâ and then immediately starts checking him out with that upside down smile, ik what u think abt đď¸đď¸
0:24-0:27
âIâll take youâ yeah Paul Iâm sure u will đ Darryâs cold af w the staredown tho, itâs unfortunate that Pony and Soda have do a full head turn to look at each other like âIKKK he ainât j said thatâ
0:27-0:31
DALLAS MY GLORIOUS KING ARRIVES,, shirtless??? And the crowd goes mildâźď¸ Pony also gets popped in the face and down he goes, it was so good that he was here for just a little bit, everyone say bye now bc the next time he shows up in the fight u wonât even know itâs him Iâm deadass
0:48-0:55
Soda is ripping into this guy right, my babyâs a champion!! And then gets up and kinda⌠walks past Steve getting his ass beat lmao. He even puts his hand on Steveâs shoulder to steady himself as he goes byđ
He just misses the mean double gut punch Steve tanks like the unit he is, because Steve GRABS THIS MANâS PUNCH and RIPS one across his face, it was beautiful. Masterclass in the ring Iâm afraid
0:56-0:58
Okay. I need to give yall the play by play for this single two-second sequence because it was genuinely the greatest clip of cinema Iâve ever seen in my life.
Paulâs got Darry out of frame and heâs confident, dare I say cocky. Heâs doing the universal hand signals for âCmon, hit me bro.â
And Iâm gonna say this next part softly. Lean in and listen to me:
When I tell u that Darry clocks Paul in the face, I donât mean he just clocks Paul in the face. Darry rises like a phoenix from the ashes and swings so hard that everyone around him can feel the aftershocks. Paul has just experienced the equivalent of a steel boxing glove to the dome. Teeth are flying. Paul will have no recollection of this moment for the rest of his life. Take a look at this.
Alr now we back up because YOU CAN SEEEE THE MOMENT OF REALIZATION. This man starts BAILING. The minute Darry spins back, Paulâs got bug eyes, all âHold up. Wait a minute. He really âbout to clock my shit.â He did not want that smoke NEARLY as much as he thought he did, and ykw? I donât blame him đ¤ˇââď¸Â
Letting yall know that I had to go back and slow down the playback speed so that I could bask in the glory that is Darrel Curtisâs behemoth of a punch. Geologists are losing their minds wondering how volcanoes are erupting and mountains are shifting, unaware of what just happened in Tulsa, Oklahoma.
1:00-1:03
Dally bitch slapping a dude is a great way to kick off the one-minute mark, and a good kick to the ribs just for funsies ig. U go girlđŤś
1:04-1:07
Hottest Two-Bit has ever looked sorry
1:19-1:21
Alr Dally is literally picking people up and WWE rocking their shit as he slams them to the ground. That kid was dropped neck first. How did Pony not have to write a sequel.
1:22-1:24
Just an entire sequence dedicated to Soda mewing even as he gets bitched in the face. Itâs alr tho, he got his get back
1:47-1:49
Istg Iâm not tripping, u listen and u can hear Pony screaming for Darry yall I thought this was supposed to be a good time, Iâm actually sobbing
1:55-2:01
STEVE CLUTCHES UP??? DEADASSSS that was the CLEANEST three-shot KO Iâve ever seen, then he body flips the guy behind him??? I WASNâT FAMILIAR W UR GAME, RANDLE đ
2:09-2:15
The Socs are kind of getting ready to retreat at this point but rq we gotta check in on the exes, Paulâs getting clowned on again lmfao.
This man tried to kick Darry, then when Darryâs got his foot and is getting ready to spin him like that pigskin, heâs PULLING on Darryâs HAIR??? Man, just leave đ ur cooked. And the last time we see him, heâs CRAWLING AWAYđđ at least STAND UP
2:24-2:27
Ponyâs getting washed in a 6v1 it ainât his fault this time, bless up. Luckily my goat Darrel Shaynne Curtis Jr. pulls up and literally starts throwing bodies. Absolutely spectacular that I get to live in the same lifetime as this movie.
2:30-2:32
Darryâs asking, âPonyboy, you okay?â and some NOBODY tries to grab Darryâs shoulders. Who do u think u are???
3:35-3:45
Greasers get the Wđ
So in conclusion I think we can all agree that if u are locked in an iso with Darry, just offer up ur cheek and get it over w. Ur not getting the dub. Roll down ur sleeves and go home, ur benched.
Sorry this is messy af, I'm just having fun rn LMFAO
#the outsiders#the outsiders 1983#the outsiders movie#the outsiders darry#darry curtis#the outsiders ponyboy#ponyboy curtis#the outsiders sodapop#sodapop curtis#the outsiders dallas#the outsiders dally#dally winston#dallas winston#two bit mathews#the outsiders two bit#paul holden#the outsiders paul#the outsiders johnny#johnny cade#paul x darry#darry x paul
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Cult Tips for AFTG writers
notes from the resident ex-cult pastor
If youâre in the cult, there is nothing bizarre abt whatâs happening and in fact the normal stuff that happens outside of it is whatâs bizarre to you. Target? Weird. McDonaldâs? Even weirder. I can like guarantee Jean and Kevin never had McDonaldâs until they left the Nest.
When you leave, youâre gonna be paranoid as fuck. All the time. Ngl at least for weeks but sometimes for years. Nightmares and insomnia 24/7. Hallucinations too lmao Riko is in every corner of empty rooms and you can hear his voice echo in the confines of the lockers.
I see a lot of Jean wanting to go back to the Nest, but not a lot of Kevin wanting to go back. He definitely struggled, 100%. In fact when he was in the pits of agony from his broken hand, was when he probably wanted to go back the most. Cult is home, cult is safe. Four walls youâve always known and while itâs a cage at least itâs dependable. They hurt you but by god it always works out and the reward of pushing through this tragic incident is greater than the terror it caused in the first place. Itâs a gift, actually. A gift from Riko. He saved Kevin. Cults save you. Cults make you wanna return to them like damn homing pigeons bruh. Give me more shattered hand Kevin screaming at Wymack to let him go back home and having a breakdown when heâs denied fics thanks
Piggybacking off the last one: cults are saviors; youâre nothing without them and they make sure you truly believe that; that everything that is done to you is for you and youâre blessed for it to be happening. Youâre lucky even, to be allowed in it. Everything is as itâs supposed to be and order must never be challenged, because it works, and youâre the Edgar Allan Ravens, and this is the most honorable place you could be. All the pain you go through is you earning the right to be saved and to prove your worth every day on court. Only the worthy are honored.
You justify everything that happened and you will start fights and get angry with people who try to correct you and tell you it was wrong what went on.
On the other hand, you blame yourself for everything ever that happened there whether you were at fault or not. Hurting others, hurting yourself, gaslighting the fuck out of yourself over things maybe you couldâve prevented and over things you never couldâve stopped. The guilt is crippling and it eats you alive and haunts you.
Thereâs a lot of shame too. I see more guilt written than shame but shame is a huge portion of emotions that cult survivors have. Shits embarassing dude like âgod how did I end up thinking this wack ass shit was normalâ đ Shame comes later in the healing process usually, itâs after you have come to terms with shit thatâs happened and you understand it. Looking back, you go âJesus fucking Christ that was a red flag what the hell. Shouldâve left then, or then, or then, or thenâ and then youâre just plain fuckin embarrassed.
Please look up how hive minds and brainwashing are created and work; also Stockholm Syndrome; understanding these would be incredibly helpful tbfh.
Diets are big; everyone eats the same thing; food is used as a reward and a punishment.
Hype hype hype. They whip up a frenzy of one singular emotion and use that to push you into a blind hysteria because youâre more suspectible to their influence when youâre out of your mind.
Drugs. Depends on the cult. But yeah these little bitches can be a huge factor for shit and can help with the brainwashing and hysteria and stockholm. Sometimes you donât even know youâre being drugged or poisoned until you leave.
OH I ALMOST FORGOT. Dehumanization and then being treated like a person again can be traumatic as fuck yall!! Holy shit! Sometimes it feels worse than being dehumanized!
EDIT AGAIN: you donât know what mental illness is !! Cults donât fucking tell you these things lmao. if you show symptoms itâs your fault. Kevin being depressed his mom died was gonna get blamed on him and he was never going to be told grief is normal and itâs okay to be insanely sad. Jean also never got told his anger was correct or his trauma responses to being raped were realistic! They just got blamed for any reactions ever that werenât neurotypical !! that is all; do with that what you will.
Idk if I think of anything else Iâll write another one but thatâs all for now; I havenât slept much lmao đŤĄ
#aftg#all for the game#edgar allan ravens#jean moreau#kevin day#riko moriyama#riko was a cult victim too yall#smh keep seeing people forget this#tetsuji moriyama#cult stuff#psycho analysis of aftg#kinda#itâs close enough#castle evermore#aftg fanfic#cultpastorkevin
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bad dreams
PART ONE: some people are ghosts before they are dead. pairing: jake "hangman" seresin x f!reader next part a/n: it's been two years! the words don't come as easily anymore but i'm still trying! i hope yall enjoy!!!
Sometimes a drink isnât just a drink.Â
Sometimes quiet isnât quiet enough.Â
Sometimes an ache of something â too raw, too familiar â echoes in your gut and leaves you with no choice.Â
Theyâll never believe you, you remind yourself, sometimes over and over and over again. Theyâll never believe you when you say you had no choice.Â
But sometimes you just donât.Â
Sometimes the pangs of sadness reverberate so violently through your chest that you shake into a shape that canât even be termed human. Sometimes the claws of darkness climb up through your throat and speak for you in a voice you donât recognize. Sometimes your feet move, step after step, carried by a will you donât know as your own.Â
Sometimes you end up at a bar, ordering a drink you hate, and feel your mouth salivating for it as your stomach churns.Â
Penny slid the amber-colored liquid across the length of the counter, sloshing the drink up the sides of the tumbler but never past the rim. Her eyes carefully scan up and down your form, and even as you drop your head away from it, you can feel the weight of her concern settling on your shoulders.Â
âHavenât seen you out and about in a minuteâŚâ She said as she accepts your card across the counter, as much a statement as it was a question.Â
But you didnât have any answers for her.Â
With a brief shrug, you finally looked up to meet her eyes. âI had some leave.â
âDo anything fun?â Bless her heart for asking.Â
âNo⌠just caught up on some sleep, thatâs all.âÂ
You could see in the gentle lines creasing on her forehead that you werenât getting that one by without suspicion, but if she had any plans of stopping you before your first sip, she didnât show them. She grabbed a bowl of peanuts, set them on the counter in front of you, and gave you one last smile. âAlways glad to see you.â
For the first time in a long time, you looked around a cloud of unfamiliar faces and believed her. Maybe you recognized a few buzz cuts here and there, but the majority of the excitement rattling around the old beach shack bar came from groups of sailors you had never seen. There must have been a recall on pilots, surely something you had received a memo about at some point in the last few weeks, but checking your email hadnât exactly been top priority.Â
Turning back to Penny, you pulled your cigarettes from your pocket and offered her what you could manage of a half smile before pulling your drink from the bar and wandering toward the back porch.Â
The sun had only just set as you settle into one of the deck chairs out back, thankful that the few pairs wandering around you pay you no more kind than you pay them. It isnât silent, certainly not as the waves continue to pound the shore line, but it is quieter and that would do for now.Â
You manage to take your first sip when a rowdy group of pilot-types begin ascending the back stairs, tripping over themselves to make it out of the sand. You manage another as they quiet themselves down and make it to the back door and another when the tall blonde at the back of the group met your eye with an appraising look. He doesnât seem to mind when you return the look, in fact, if it were possible with an ego as large as his already seemed to be, he continued into the bar with his head held a little bit higher.Â
You shouldâve known that was a mistake then, but your mind was elsewhere as you worked your way to the bottom of your glass.Â
You knew for sure that it was a mistake when he walked back out with a two drinks in hand.Â
âHey.â It was a smooth offer, even youâd admit that, passing you the drink in his hand and giving you a similar, yet far more in depth, look up and down.Â
There were still a few sips left in the glass in your hand but you accepted the drink and set it carefully down on the table next to you. As his eyes scanned you, you downed what was left in your glass and reached for your new drink. âHey yourselfâŚâ
âDo we know each other?�� Thereâs a quirk in his eye as he asks. Something almost playful, something almost fun.
It takes you about a second to complete your read on him, and another half a second to accept that this is what your next few minutes looked like.Â
âYeah, Iâm the woman of your dreams or something Iâm sure.â
The laugh that bellows from his chest seems to catch him off guard. Any drop of composure, anything he put on just for the approach, washed away in an instant as the true laughter breaks through.
âI was being serious,â he sighs at the end of his laugh. âYou actually look familiar.â
âYou donât.â
âWell, I just got back.â
You shouldâve ended it. You shouldâve known right there and then that it wasnât worth your time. Other pilots were never worth your time.
Then he smiles again and you just couldnât help yourself. âTrust me, we donât know each other.â
âYouâre sure?â His smirk curved up at the edge, a challenge.Â
One pointed stare and a mirrored raise of your brow was all it took and his hands shot up in a playful dance of surrender. His bright smile accompanied it and you swore you felt something far too light bubbling the darkness sitting heavy on your chest.Â
This was a mistake.Â
âHangman.â He extended his hand your way, offering a shake as he laid his call sign on the table, confirming what you already knew his day job to be.Â
You didnât take it, sipping at your drink instead, watching as he bit back laughter and pulled his hand back. He had pulled back just enough to offer you a way out, you could tell that was his intention at least. He was giving you space to tell him off entirely, and everything about him, from the perfectly manicured hair to the broad shoulders to the boots on his feet, told you to back out now.Â
But his smile was telling you something else entirely. And you met him there.
âIs it a good story?â
He tried to hide his satisfaction with the question, doing his best to hold something else in as well as he turned his head to the side and shrugged in a play at indifference that just didnât suit his ego. âDepends who you ask.â
The porch had emptied out as the sun set completely, leaving just the two of you. So when you leaned your head from left to right and shrugged, he nearly lost it laughing again. âI guess Iâm asking you.â
âIâm very quick.â
âArenât all of you very quick?â
âTheyâre quick, Iâm very quick.â He gets one laugh out and swallows the rest. âQuite a few have been left behind when they canât keep up⌠or so the story goes.â
That almost makes you laugh. Almost. âNot a very good story.âÂ
âWell, no one asked you.â
How long had it been since a smile bubbled to your lips so naturally? It was barely there, and you certainly did your best to hide it with your drink, but it was a real smile. A natural smile.Â
He must have seen it too, offering you yet another chance to meet him halfway. âI didnât get your nameâŚâÂ
Your smile isnât fading. âI donât have a name.â
âNo?â He laughs.
âNope.â Another sip of your drink brings you painfully close to the bottom.Â
âYou work on base?â He tries a new line of questioning, anything to get more than a few words in a row out of you.Â
Your head feels a bit heavier than it should as you weigh it back and forth before offering a non-committal hum. He repeats it back to you in question and you sigh, offering him an answer. âYeah, sometimes.â
âSometimes? You donât look like a civilian?â
Part of you canât help but wonder what that means you do look like, but you donât bother. Shaking your head, you answer, ânot a civilian, just complicated.â
âI can do complicated.âÂ
That seemed to be whatever you needed to push you the rest of the way over the edge. A reminder from the echoing voice in your head, from the clawing darkness in your gut.Â
This was a mistake.Â
He didnât know who you were, he didnât know what he walked himself into. This wasnât fair to him.Â
And it certainly wasnât fair to you.Â
Pretending was fun. In some of these darkest moment, distraction was the only thing keeping you sane, but it would never last. You knew it could never last.Â
You came for a drink, something to wash the bad taste in your mouth away long enough to sleep through the night. You didnât come to ruin someone elseâs night. It just wasnât fair to either of you.Â
âIâm sure you excel at it, Lieutenant.â You mock with a heat you hadnât been able to muster when he first gave you the chance. âLook⌠this has been a fun few minutes but if youâre looking to have another fun few minutes tonight, youâre wasting your time with me.â
âI disagree.â The offer on the table wasnât there anymore. He gave you a chance but you were in it now, you could see it on his face. That smile. He was feeding off the back and forth. He liked this.Â
Fuck. This was a mistake.Â
âWell, Iâm glad I can be a source of entertainment but Iâm serious.â Additional heat but his smile never melted. He didnât just like this, he liked you.Â
âSerious is a strange name for a woman as pretty as you are but if thatâs what you go byâŚâ
You couldnât help the small turn of a smile this time, you beat it down with heavy fist but he could still pull it out of you like it was nothing.Â
âShould I try guessing your name?â Heâd give anything to keep your smile going. Anything he could. âNormal name? âparents tried to be uniqueâ name? you kinda look like you could go either way.â
And as much as you knew you should back out, something light, something you barely even recognized in your chest, kept beating and you kept going. âWell your parents named you Hangman, so I donât know if youâre really allowed to talk.â
Heâs halfway through a sip of beer and sputters at your words. As he catches himself and wipes his lips, he smiles again, âitâs Jake, actually.â
âJacob or just 'Jake'?â
âI donât think parents name their kids just Jake-â
âYeah, Jake is a pretty stupid name.â
âI meant just 'Jake'-â
âI honestly canât tell anymore if your name is Jake or Jacob now-â
The rumble of laughter is cut short, like wind to a flame.Â
A group of sailors roll out the door, drunkenly hanging off each other and locked into the chorus of whatever song had been playing through the walls just a minute ago. The three of them barely notice the stairs theyâre falling down, so for a few seconds, your heart stays where it is in your chest. But the seconds fall quickly through the hourglass when the taller of the group stands to full height and a roughly 15 degree angle and turns back to where you and Hangman are sitting.Â
A mustache and a face you know right away.Â
âHoly shit, Ghost?â
Now silence and the crashing waves is all you can hear.Â
Jakeâs head turns in realization, matching your face, ever so slightly older, to the pictures of previous top gun classes they had been scanning through just days ago. Few are lucky enough to hold the title of best of the best, and you were one of them. Or you had been.Â
All Jake knew now was that you didnât fly fighter jets anymore. âShit.â He says almost silently.
It was a mistake. At least you could leave knowing you were right about that now.
âBradley BradshawâŚâ you hum, taking the last swig of your drink and finding your feet. âNow thatâs a pretty unfortunate name.â
Jake wants to laugh with you as you pass by, but you arenât laughing and when he notices how quickly youâve abandoned your smile, he canât find it in him to laugh again.Â
Rooster musters up a half-hearted and mostly drunken apology that you wave your hand at, figuring heâll forget he ever saw you by the time the sun re-emerges. He tries again as you step past him but again, you dismiss him. âDonât worry about it.â
It isnât until you find the stairs that you turn back to find Jakeâs waiting stare. âThanks for the drink.â
He nods, unable to find any other semblance of words.Â
And you carry on, hoping the bottle of liquor in your nightstand can calm the nerves boiling under your skin at the mere mention of your call sign.Â
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Daily Vibe Check 11/18
As discussed before, we will continue to focus on the OT7s and what we are doing, what we can do, etc..
Current state of affairs within our collective:
9 of Coins + Queen of Swords
I want you to pay attention here because this is important. As stated before yesterday, a lot of us get very discouraged on twt bc we are exposed to EVERYTHING all at once while still not seeing everything from a broad perspective. Know that if your tl is full of disappointment and people leaving the boycott, this is unimportant and a minority to our collective. The majority of people are being proud of all of what we have accomplished thus far, and standing our ground by stating the facts: SM has not done anything we have asked and they have no given us any reason to trust them. We are strong. Pay no mind to those who say otherwise.
What we need to be doing right now:
The Emperor + 4 of Coins + 2 of Wands + Ace of Pentacles + The Lovers
There are 3 major topics here. First and foremost: Save money. Something is coming that will involve needing to save it for something which I will touch on a possible reason why in a bit, but particularly the 4 of Coins and the Two of Wands are kind of telling me there will be something that needs to be decided on and prepared.
2ndly with the Lovers an added factor in here in combination is that we need to be preparing whatever this is as a collective and with careful deliberation to move forward as a united front. The Emperor says there will be something to confront and maintaining a unanamous decision to specifically have 1 targeted outcome is important. We must remain in communication and with the greater goal in mind. Do not stray or get distracted.
Finally, we are going to need to real in our intentions. We are in a manifestation period in which our actions will start quickly accumulating new results. All three of these things tie together in a way, but each is individually important. We need to protect our mind and hearts from detriment and maintain ourselves so that we can see the blessings in the first place. Some of us are anxious and too nitpicky.
Some of yall blame Riize every time they speak vaguely. Some of yall take their words the wrong way or in a bad way. We need to understand things factually and matter of factly. Once again- if we know anything, it's that they still want Seunghan back. Spirit is saying to not listen to words- but actions. They may be speaking- but how are they speaking? In english? They may be dancing. How are they dancing? Leaving a gap? Pay attention to ACTIONS. NOT WORDS. It is simple and clear once you do this.
What do we need to be careful of right now?:
6 of Wands + The Tower
This is a clear indicator of winning the battle but not the war. We may be hearing some good news. We may get some decent statements. We may even feel like victory is upon us. But the moment we relish in this and forget what we are doing, it will all become useless. Until the WAR is won (Seunghan being PHYSICALLY ON STAGE and SM filing actual lawsuits against OT6), the war will not be over immediately. We MUST remember that. This relates to the earlier message about preparations, which we will get into now.
What do we need to do upon Seunghan's official return announcement:
The Hierophant + Justice + Judgement
This is very strong energy, and guides want yall to know that this is truly the key to winning the war. The "what comes after". Although we want SM to protect Seunghan, there are certain things they will not do right away. We will need to take matters into our own hands to a degree.
This has to do with taking legal action or thwarting malicious plans and intentions. In short, I will let yall know that when Seunghan returns, more death wreaths will probably be sent and protests may occur. In order to combat this, we MUST be on top of things and act FIRST. Immediately upon his return, we HAVE to spare no expense to do everything we can to block. This means sending congratulatory wreaths instead of funeral ones, so many that no more can be placed in the area, possibly to other centers as well. We have to be two steps ahead in our thinking. Completely drowning out OT6 in their own country is what will also be important. Wherever they leave comments, we need to be leaving happy ones and downvoting theirs. Our numbers are bigger. We just have to be proactive.
This is just an example, but there can be other events and situations. We need careful survailence of the situation in Korea to make sure we have all of our bases covered and come out as the party that is the most just* and overwhelmingly dominating the situation with that true justice and correct morals.
We also cannot waste any time say "I told you so" or inciting discourse. We make up which anyone who loves Seunghan and we focus together in protecting him.
Things we need to remember:
5 of Cups + 2 of Chalices
These are the same suit and element of water. Here, the cards are saying that again- we need not wallow in depression and disappointment. Things appear to be worse than they actually are in reality. Notice how the girl is crying with her two cups behind her- and then the TWO CHALICES pop up right there??? Those of us who appear to remain are the actual ones contributing the most to this cause. The loss of heads is irrelevant because it was those of us who are still here who were carrying most of the weight together. We are FINE. Remember this.
Bottom of the decks:
6 of Pentacles + 5 of Wands
This is alluding to the money thing again. We need to be gathering funds and donations quickly for a very ravenous battle. At the same time, we need to understand who exactly our enemy is and fight THEM. There are clear solutions to our problems. We need to put our heads and wallets together to solve them here.
To be clear about the money bit- we do not need to be donating right away, but I do believe anyone who is able and wants to should start setting some aside for quick access when the time comes.
Oracle:
If we are relating this to our overall situation, this card is a hint as well as encouragement. This is a time to be loud, bold, and be seen. Especially at events. It's a good omen, please heed the words you read!
Final Notes:
I know this is a time in which you may be seeing a lot of people leave, but this is an illusion. Most of us are still here. Understand and KNOW that.
To those on the fence or who have left the cause: i ask you, what is it? What exactly has SM done for you to trust them with an account and statement they made in 5 minutes? That's what I want to know.
In the end we are fighting for the same things. To see Seunghan, and for his protection. If you also want those things, regardless of whether you are okay with him being a solo artist, you should know nothing is set in stone with SM until he is on that stage. So get up, and fight until you see him onstage regardless of what manner it turns out to be. That proof is necessary. Do not put your faith in the same company you were cursing a few days prior.
Let's prepare dilligently for the battle AND the war, together.
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Hi, I was thinking Armando Ateras x Reader. So letâs just say that Reader is half human and half vampire and she controls her thirst but she still needs to feed but the hospital is closed down. When Armando came home, he noticed that the house is completely quiet and he saw Reader on the bed back turn and was breathing heavily. He walked towards her and he noticed that her eyes were brown and dark and has dark circles under her eyes and he asked what is wrong and told him that she needs to feed but the hospital is closed down. So Armando offers her to feed off from him but she says no quickly but still lets her feed. :)
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â彥SUMMARY.; Youâre so thirsty, and yet you canât take the help heâs offering.
â彥FEATURED.; ARMANDO x HALFVAMP!READER
â彥TROPE.; ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP
â彥FORMAT.; ONE SHOT
â彥GENRE.; SLIGHT CRACK + ANGST (if you squint) + FLUFF
â彥WARNINGS.; Mentions of Blood, Mentions of human testing, Child Abandonment, Mentions of Death, Biting, + Mature Language
â彥NOTES.; Thank you sooo much for the request and Iâm sorry it took so long, it took me 3 days to edit thisđ§đ˝ââď¸,, it was kicking my ass fr but I had fun writing it since I donât think Iâve ever written something like this before. I hope yall enjoyyyy!!đĽ°đĽ°
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Death.
So this is what this dreaded thing feels like.
It had felt like years, centuries even youâve been at home feeling pain beyond what you believe to be normal.
Put it simply, youâre thirsty as shit and the only thing that you can drink to ease it a little you have nothing of.
Blood.
With you being half vampire and all, itâd make sense thatâd be the only thing you can even think of drinking.
The backstory of you being or becoming a vampire is definitely not a pretty one. You were tested in from an early age. Your shit parents sold you off for a couple grubby dollars because they could. They just didnât want to take care of you, so what better way to get rid of a kid than selling her off right?
God bless the world now though because theyâre dead, and they never get to bring another kid into this world. It took years of being prodded, poked, scanned, and lasered until Miami Department came and got you out of there. Only the people on this mission was even aware of your situation and what exactly you were.
Your situation was made top secret, which meant not many should even know youâre the person rescued from this place. Only the people in the mission, which was AMMO, and the captain, that was it.
That being said you had to be kept in a facility for a while to be monitored before they let you go. They didnât want to risk anything so they had to make sure you were good to go to be let out. And with you being so top-secret, that meant you had to stay in a place with someone that already knew your secret. Marcus decided to take you in, after many, many⌠many talks with Mike. They made sure you got what you needed and you even got the chance to integrate back into society.
However, this isnât the matter at hand right now.
With this all being said, the fact was that you were not full vampire. With that in mind, this sheer thirst you have for blood right now is absolutely ridiculous. Youâve never had this problem before.
You donât even know why youâre feeling like this in the first place.
You were usually able to control yourself, control your desires, your urges, your thirst. But now, it felt like you could rip the walls off hospital just to get inside for even a drop of blood.
Stones felt like they were piling higher and higher into your neck.
You were so fucking thirsty.
It had been god knows how many hours, close to about 2 days since the hospital closed down and you could feel the hot sensation of burning in your insides, along with fatigue and pain all over your body. You could curse the damned hospitals for putting you through this. You could control your thirst, you knew you could, but for some reason these last couple days, you had been completely insatiable.
And the people who could help you right now had been gone for almost a week. One of them being your boyfriend of 11 months.
Armando.
You had met him at the department, where you usually had to go for routine inspection of the state of your body and your abilities. He had been let out of jail for sometime, and with him being on AMMO, his father informed him of your situation.
Apparently he trusted his son with your secret.
He was weary of you at first, but that quickly died when he saw how you carried yourself. What led him to become so drawn to you was your raw strength and mental fortitude. He was impressed (and partially terrified) not only of your speed and strength, but also your ability to keep your thirst for blood at a minimum.
Granted nobody else in the world was like you.
Still though, he half expected you to react in the ways heâd seen vampires in movies would, unarticulated and flat out greedy for blood. Your personality is what sold him though, but thatâs a story for another time.
Right now, the man you were currently silently begging to come home was nowhere to be found, as he was busy on a mission, and only god knows how long itâll take him, or anybody else who knows about your situation to come back, You wanted him to be back so badly so he could just hold you as you went through this, not wanting to be alone. You were laying on your side, back facing the door and breathing so hard you were feeling severely lightheaded, even when laying down.
The after what felt like another hour had gone by, you heard the front door open and couldâve screamed for joy if you werenât so damn thirsty and borderline passing out.
âBaby..?â
You heard his voice as his smell was enough to make you feel like you could get through this.
Armando, on the other hand, was on it.
Immediately, when he neared the bedroom after putting his stuff down, he could already sense something was wrong. When he saw you laying on the bed, back facing him and breathing hard, he immediately was on full alert.
He came over to you and slowly turned you over in your back, trying to assess the state youâre in.
âMama? Talk to me, tell whatâs wrong, what do you need?â
You looked at him, barely able to form words, you were just so out of it. He noticed your usual brown eyes were so dark they were border-lining black now, and under your eyes were dark circles. You looked like you havenât slept in days.
âMama talk to me please.. I need to know what to do to help you..â
â..thirsty.â You barely manage to answer him, practically gasping as the single word left your mouth.
âWhereâs your blood baby? You donât have any more?â
You shook your head no. And you already knew what his next question would be, so again, grasping at straws for the words to rip themselves from the back of your burning throat, you managed to say, â..hospitalâs closed.. canât get more..â
He tsks at the information you just told him. He quickly kicks off his shoes and climbs onto the bed, lifting your head slowly to rest and on his lap as he brushes your hair, trying to find anyway to alleviate the pain he knows youâre in right now.
Judging by your state, you could very well die without getting blood somehow, and of course he could go get it for you, but he doesnât want to leave your side.
He canât risk that.
âMama vamos... bebe el mĂo, no puedo dejarte asĂ...â
At this point, you felt like your head was splitting and your ears were ringing, so you swore you had heard him wrong. You gave him an incredulous look, which he picked up on. âBaby Iâm not kidding.â Quickly, but carefully, he pulled your body up so you were in a position where you were sitting in his lap, face facing his.
âYou look like youâre about to pass out, you need to drink some of mine, now.â
You shake your head immediately. Weakly, you respond, âHell no.. Iâm not doing that. Iâm not gonna hurt you.â
âNo te lo estaba preguntando.â
He shoots you a look, and if you could, youâd muster up the strength to roll your eyes. You swore youâd never drink directly from a person, it just felt so wrong to you, wrong to even think about. It would make you feel less human, and it already took you months to start ingesting blood.
âWoman drink, now!â Still being stubborn, you didnât budge. So he had to take matters into his own hands. He guided your head from the crook of his shoulder to look at him.
âListen to me mama.. I can tell youâre fucking exhausted and tired, so I need you to listen to me and drink, Iâll be damned if I lose you to your stubbornness. Iâm not playing with you. Drink.â You start shying away from the intensity of his gaze and words.
You knew very well what you not listening to him would do. Sighing, you sucked it up and looked at him, nodding. He leans back a bit and takes off his shirt, then cranes his neck to one side, fully surrendering himself so you can start the process.
You swallow nervously, the dry feeling scraping at your insides. Slowly, you lean closer, your fangs slowly growing as your face draws closer to his face. You stop momentarily, not sure if you want to go through with this. âGo on baby, estĂĄ bien..â he rasps, rubbing your back gently.
At his reassurance, you come close enough to his neck and open your mouth, your sharp fangs coming into view and bite down. He groans at the intrusion, his body momentarily tensing at the feeling.
You on the other hand felt as if you were in pure bliss. The sounds you were making at the taste of his blood would have the neighbors sharing some questionable looks. You felt so energized, and you couldnât get enough. His blood felt like crack to you, it was so addictive. Armando swore it would hurt more than it did. It felt.. pleasing.
He liked it.
Maybe he should let you do this more often.
Finally, you pull back from him, dazed. He too is a little whipped from the situation. He holds the back of your head as you pull back, studying your face. Your eyes were already beginning to glow, reverting to their original color. âÂżMejor?â You nod yes, bringing a hand up to wipe the access blood and the corner of your mouth. Your body had felt like it was buzzing with pure electricity.
It felt so much better.
âSee.. thatâs why you need to listen to me mama.â
You nodded in agreement. âYeah I know.. thank you baby.â
He smiled at you. âDe nada, mamĂĄ...now can you wrap this up for me so we can shower?â Gesturing to his neck.
You laugh a bit and smile. âSĂ, vale.â
[GLOSSARY]
âMama vamos... bebe el mĂo, no puedo dejarte asĂ...â ââMama, letâs go... drink mine, I canât leave you like that...â
âNo te lo estaba preguntando.â â âI wasnât asking you.â
â. . . estĂĄ bien..â â â. . . itâs fine..â
âÂżMejor?â â âBetter?â
âDe nada, mamĂĄ. . .â â âYouâre welcome, mama. . .â
âSĂ, vale.â â âYeah, okay.â
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