#blaine wiley

[necros-writing-stuff]

Such Sweet Ignorance: Collabo'ween Day 16

GN!Reader/Blaine Wiley (Male Sugar Daddy Energy Vampire OC).

Warnings: There's a sense of dread through this one; Financial control; Heavy anxiety for reader; Emotional manipulation; Fear of dying; Reader is suffering from something similar to chronic fatigue.

Word Count: 2739.

Notes: This one is far more horror than smut with a creepy element to it. There's like three lines of smut lol. It's in first person and made to be like a journal entry.

With the power of hindsight, it was blatantly obvious how many red flags this man has. But I was broke and desperate, so I went along with what he wanted anyway. 

Hello to anyone who might be reading this, by the way. I'd appreciate it if you're some scholar from a couple hundred years into the future, peeking into the past via the journal of some random person. If you're someone closer to me then this will be quite awkward and I'm gonna have to ask you to stop here. I don't think I can look people in the eye after admitting the things I'll admit here. Though after everything I've learned, someone I know now could be reading this hundreds of years in the future.  

But I have to get it all off of my chest. I have to do it this way because if I pay for a therapist then he'll find out and make me stop seeing them even if the meetings are only over video calls. This is the first time I’ve been away from him for more than a couple of hours in many months. 

It started last year, sometime around mid July. I was at the local library, using their free wifi when he'd sat down across from me. He'd only smiled at me then before reading his own book while I typed something up on my laptop. 

We had a few more meetings like that, and I'd grown used to him being there. I'd seek him out when I'd enter the building and feel giddy when we'd make eye-contact. He was so handsome, dressed modestly but you could tell he had money just based on the make and materials of his clothes. Auburn hair. Blue eyes. Well built but not so cut that you'd think him vain. And he was looking at me.

He broke the silence first, asking me what I was writing. I wanted to lie, badly, because it was a romance novel that I was thinking of self-publishing just to make some cash on the side. Plenty of people will buy terrible romance novels and defend them with their lives if they have tropes they love and hot enough male protagonists. 

For a reason I still can't explain, I told him the truth. A pattern that would continue, as you'll see. 

I was waiting for his nose to scrunch up in disgust, my shoulders tensed so bad that I could feel the knots forming in the muscles already. Instead he smiled and asked if he could read some. 

Yet again, I let him move around the table and sit beside me. I let him read what I wrote. And holy fuck was it a surprise when he started giving input on how to make it better than it was. 

"My mother was a publisher, I used to do my homework at the kitchen table when she'd review all the things she'd get." Then there it was, the nose scrunch. "I… I kinda ended up loving some of those novels because of it." 

Handsome, well-off, a lover of romance novels, a seemingly good relationship with his mother. People say hook-line-and-sinker a lot. This was an anchor tied to my ankle as he kicked me off the boat into Mariana's Trench. The books he'd been reading across from me were all horror, but the ones he'd kept in his bag to read at home? Soft, smutty romance. 

I never asked why he always ended up at the library at the exact same time as myself. Knowing him as I do, I'm sure he'd have come up with an excuse that I couldn't refute, one I'd accept without blinking an eye. But I'm still disappointed that I never asked once. 

Blaine Wiley is his name. An art appraiser - older than me but so kind, supportive and patient that it didn't matter in the slightest. 

We became fast friends, especially with how open I felt I could be with him and how open I thought he was being with me. Everything I told him, he came back with something personal of his own. Never in that "I'm one-upping you," way, but in a "I see you, I know what it feels like too," way. 

I had family problems? So did he! His sister was always at his throat. It's why he valued my friendship so much, he'd said. The notion of found family was one he identified with heavily after his mother had passed.

Naturally, we ended up dating. That restaurant was so expensive. I wanted to hide behind Blaine the entire time we were there. Expensive suits and bespoke dresses were everywhere while I was in an outfit I'd thrown together from a charity shop. Yeah, the outfit was expensive at one point. But not anymore. I was a drowned rat amongst groomed cats.

Somehow Blaine had made me forget about all of those worries. We'd hardly been able to stop talking long enough to eat (and the food was delicious). Even surrounded by absolute opulence, he remained all that my attention could focus on. 

I couldn't not follow him home after such a lovely date. I couldn't not let him lay me down on his bed, strip my clothes from me and go down on me like that meal we'd shared was but an appetiser. He was so thorough and selfless. 

My nerves returned once we'd finished - waiting and waiting for the other shoe to drop, to be kicked out of his bed now he'd gotten what he'd wanted. Instead, I was trapped in one of my very own novels. Blaine asked me to stay the night, his arms holding me close as we slept. He made me breakfast. He drove me home and kissed me goodbye with a promise to see me again. 

More dates followed, as well as many nighttime trists (and some in his car in dark car parks). He paid for everything. Insisted on it. He didn't have to worry about his bank account but I did, so why should I pay? In fact, why don't I let him give me money just because? 

Another moment where I should have ran. The writing was right there on the wall and I chose to walk past it like it was nothing but a graffitied cock. I feel so stupid - so full of shame - and I should be shouldn't I? I should feel disappointed in myself. I've been a fucking idiot and now it's far too late. 

Sorry. I'm getting ahead of myself and far too emotional. I’ll just keep going.

As you can guess, I took the money. I tried to turn it down, but he was so hell-bent on "taking care of me," that I folded quickly. No one has ever taken care of me. I barely take care of me. It was just so nice to not have to worry about having hot water or food in the kitchen. 

Three months is how long it took him to convince me to move in. The gifts and money got more and more expensive until he proposed it. His logic seemed sound; I was basically there every night, he was paying my rent and for my lifestyle anyway. I could leave any time I'd like if things didn't work out. He just wanted me to be safe and comfortable while I wrote. Once my book was out he was sure I'd have a good stream of revenue - hell, he could set me up with a publisher if I really wanted. 

From a one bedroom flat with a teeny tiny kitchen and no bath, just a standing shower, to his two-floored suite at the top of an apartment complex. His bath is a fucking hot-tub. It bubbles. You can see the entire city from his windows. He has his own personal bar in the kitchen and 4 ovens. 

My lifestyle was completely flipped. Rich clothes, days spent writing with an incredible view, relaxing baths while sipping drinks Blaine mixed for me at the bar, cooking with fresh ingredients from high-end boutiques. 

Blaine mostly worked from home, but when he’d leave he’d return from work and see what I'd done before sharing his own day. Often he'd come home with a necklace, a ring, new shoes or clothes for me. Always, I was on his mind. Always, I was his to pamper and love.

Somehow, even with how unbelievably relaxing my life had become, I'd end each day more exhausted than the last. I'd wake up with headaches that doctors couldn't explain. I'd just keep chugging vitamins and hope that it would stop eventually. 

Things started cracking when I wanted to go to a friend's party. Not even a close friend, just a fellow writer who'd stayed friendly with me over the years. A male writer. Blaine had tried to hide his true reason for keeping me home behind having a date planned. Deep down I knew it was jealousy. Deep down, I knew I should have ended things there or at least insisted that he consider why he felt so insecure about it.

I stayed home. I said my apologies to my friend and sent a gift through the mail. Blaine took me to an art opening the night of the party and introduced me to all of his friends instead.

It was hell. Anxiety had been a companion for most of my life, holding my hand anytime my thoughts would run away or even when I would simply step outside. It came back tenfold at the art exhibition. I felt like a piece of meat (though not due to Blaine's actions, surprisingly). His friends would peer over me with this knowing look before smiling or sipping their drinks. It only made me cling further to him. The one source of familiarity and comfort.

A breakdown followed when we got home. I was so tired and scared - I couldn't explain either - but Blaine simply held me and told me that the reasons why didn't matter right now. We'd work it out together, we'd get better together, but right then I should just let it all out. I could talk when I wanted to, but not feel forced to do so before I was ready. 

Perfect. Everything he did and said was perfect, and I fell asleep wrapped up in his arms again that night. 

I'd describe myself as agoraphobic these days. That previous anxiety I'd harboured had only grown in Blaine's custody. It was purposeful how he kept me inside without him, how he only took me out when it was a big thing with people whose lifestyles I couldn't connect to. Who I felt ashamed to open up around just in case they judged me. Events that made me have further breakdowns when we’d get home or even when I’d sit down in his car at the end of the night.

If his friends detested me, would Blaine leave? My only source of comfort? I couldn't let that happen. 

I don't leave the house anymore. I tried a few times after all of those parties to smile my way through meetings Blaine took me to, but it just drained me further until I collapsed. Literally collapsed. More tests were done on me at the hospital, but still they couldn't find anything wrong. 

Blaine left for a week on a trip to Oslo. Since he's left I've been getting my energy back bit by bit every day. I've needed it after what I found him doing a few nights before he left. 

Usually, I sleep through the night like a rock. The fire alarm going off wouldn't wake my eyes open. Something did wake me up last week. I don't know what or why, but when my eyes fluttered open I thought I was trapped in a nightmare. 

Blaine's hand was pressed against my chest, right over my heart. And it was glowing. I think there were runes shining on the back of his hand, the red light bathing our bedroom in what looked like a sea of blood. Seconds ticked by and I felt my lids lowering again as he peppered kisses on my neck. I was just so, so tired. Blaine made me so, so tired. Yet, I could barely breathe.

And alright, anyone reading might be thinking that it really was a dream. I did, at first, like I said. So I left my phone recording when I went to sleep the next night, the screen laying down so Blaine wouldn't know. He might check it when I sleep (he knows the password, he could do it anytime - he knows all of my passwords for everything). So I thought up a lie to explain it away. The screen was malfunctioning and clicking on things without any input. Maybe he could get me a new one or get it repaired. Spending money on me always makes him happy. 

A phone only has so much storage, it'll only record for so long even when the settings are put on low. It recorded long enough for me to see that red light bathing the room again when I checked. Right at the end, the last few minutes. Whispers were also recorded. Blaine's whispers, soothing me, thanking me for being such a font of creativity and life. 

Have you ever heard of energy vampires? They're much less known in the western world than the classic blood-sucking vampires. But there's legends of beings that take your life from you to feed their own all around the world. I think Blaine is that. I think he trapped me to feed from me and I don't know how to get away. 

Plenty of times the thought to look through his office has crossed my mind. Plenty of times I've wondered why I've never met his sister or seen photos of his mother, why I don't know how old he actually is even though I know his birthday. And in retrospect, I realise that many of his friends I met at the art exhibition had nervous looking partners of their own. They had their own little me's. 

I never questioned him. I never thought I had a reason to. Without him though, it's like that leash around my neck has been loosened and I can think more for myself again. Not fully. I still can't step outside without having a panic attack. I can barely call for a takeaway. Apps are my best friend right now. Who knows how many creatures like Blaine are out there, waiting to prey on the innocent?

At least I had the initiative to look through his desk finally. It's such a classic thing, a false bottom full of letters. It feels fake even though I found it. Even though I read each letter and carefully put them back. Even though they confirmed everything I thought. 

They were all exchanges with people like him. Creatures who hunt for people full of drive to do something - like my writing, someone's dancing, singing, painting. Hell, one had a taste for mechanics who worked on custom cars. And how they'd drain them dry of everything. Many of their victims died. Some of them went through victims like a smoker with cigarettes. 

Blaine was one of them. He'd only keep them for a month or two before they'd pass away in hospitals from mysterious diseases that couldn't be identified. Moreover, he's been doing it for over two hundred years. Blaine wasn’t even his original name, he’d gone by dozens of names over the years. The last letter was from 1942. I guess he switched to using telephones, then the internet when it got popular. Who knows how many other victims have been held in his claws before he found me.

I don't know why I'm different. I don't know why he's let me live so long. I just know that I have to get away before he can truly take everything. 

And I'm trying. Believe me, I'm trying so hard. He'll be back tomorrow. I just need to get up and leave, to take all of my clothes and jewellery and pawn them off so I can get away. I don’t even care about finishing my book at this point - even though it’s so close to done.

I'm going to do it. I promise I’ll get away. I'll write again when I'm safe.

[justsamssimsdump]

[brokecorviknight]

Hatchetfield Pokémon AU - Partner List:

Main Characters:

TGWDLM:

Paul Matthews - Exploud

Emma Perkins - Porygon

BF:

Tom Houston - Donphan

Becky Barnes - Comfey

Lex Foster - Zigzagoon (Cressellia is also here)

Hannah Foster - Mew

NPMD:

Pete Spankoffski - Stoutland

Steph Lauter - Luxray

Grace Chasity - Hatterene

Max Jägerman - Passimian

LIB:

Wiggly (Wiggog Y’rath) / Wendell (Dark/Psychic)

Nibbly (Nibblenephim) / Nicky (Dark/Psychic)

Pokey (Pokotho) / Porter (Dark/Psychic)

Blinky (Bliklotep) / Blaine (Dark/Psychic)

Tinky (T’noy Karaxis) / Theo (Theodore) (Dark/Psychic)

Webby (Queen in White) / Wendy (Psychic/Dark)

Important Characters:

TGWDLM:

Ted Spankoffski - Volcarona

Bill Woodward - Leavanny

Alice Woodward - Skitty

Prof. Henry Hidgens - Liligant

Gen. John MacNamara - Genesect

BF:

Ethan Greene - Cyclizar

Linda Monroe - Vespiqueen

Tim Houston - Cubone

NPMD:

Richie Lipschitz - Gallade

Ruth Fleming - Sprigatito

Solomon Lauter - Honchkrow

Detective Shapiro - Pikachu

NT:

Henry (Fake Prof. Henry Hidgens) - Mimikyu

Lucy Stockworth - Gholdengo

Wooly-Foot - Galrian Darmanitan

Konk (Ted Spankoffski) - Darmanitan

Pryce Perkins (Paul Matthews 23) - Ditto

Emilia Matthews (Emma Perkins Android) - MissingNo

Time Bastard / Homeless Man (Ted Spankoffski) - Iron Moth and Slither Wing

Jane Houston (Perkins) - Revaroom

Miss Holloway - Hypno

Duke Keane - Snorlax

Gerald Monroe - Vivallon

Perky (Emma Perkins) - Aribolva

Ziggy - Shiftry

Jeri - Nidoqueen

Jerry - Nidoking

Lumber Axe (Lil’ Jerry) - Witchwood Haxorus

Shelia Young - Froslass

Rose - Toxtricity

Melissa - Meowstick (Female)

Puss - Espeon

Named Characters:

TGWDLM:

Greenpeace girl / Harmony Jones - Shaymin

Ken Davidson - Grumpig

Charlotte Sweetly - Oinkalogne

Sam Sweetly - Braviary

Nora - Minccino

Zoey Chambers - Alcreamie

Deb - Liepard

BF:

Frank Pricely - Sableye

Sherman Young - Salazzle

Gary Goldstein - Meowth

Uncle Wiley / Wilbur Cross - Tentacruel

Man in a Hurry / Barry Swift - Yanmega

Dude with Peanut - Pachirisu (Peanut)

Xander Lee - Empoleon

President - Unfezant (Male)

NPMD:

Mark Chasity - Flapple

Karen Chasity - Appletun

Off. Bailey - Skarmory

Kyle - Chesnaught

Brenda - Oricorio (Electric)

Jason - Bastiodon

Caitlyn - Altaria

Ms. Mulberry- Audino

Ms. Tessburger - Corsola

Rudolph - Sawsbuck

Brook - Finneon

Trevor Lipschitz - Magcargo

NT:

Allison - Lanturn

Madame Iris - Reuniclus

Craig - Tropius

Barker - Coalossal

Rupert - Gigalith

Jonathan Brisby - Tyrantrum

Sylvia - Floatzel

Andy / Executive Kilgore - Aggron

Jenny - Milotic

Dan Reynolds - Karrablast

Donna Daggit - Shelmet

Tony Greene - Klingklang

Jacqueline Frost - Glaceon

Pamala Foster - Komala

Roman Murray - Morpeko

River Monroe - Combee (Male) or Teddyursa

Trent Monroe - Venomoth

Seaton Monroe - Ninjask

Jordan Monroe - Shuckle

Malone - Octillery

Hailey - Skuntank

Zach Chambers - Gogoat

Liz - Beartic

Judith - Butterfree

Martha - Clawitzer

Mary - Bibarel

Mima Chambers - Drampa

Bob Metzger - Witchwood Aegislash

Carl Metzger - Witchwood Doublade

Larz Metzger - Witchwood Doublade

Louie Metzger - Witchwood Honedge

Mary - Medichan

Noah - Furret

Gabe - Sudowoodo

Marco - Copperajah

Kale - Chatot

Thrash - Noivern

Skud - Rillaboom

Courtney - Zebstrika

Russ - Scovillain

Beth - Centiskorch

Eddie Chiplucky - Krookodile

Stopwatch / Daniel - Phantump

Spitfire / Sophia - Blaziken

Charles - Type: Null

Bruno - Pangoro

Otho - Flamigo

Freddie Biggs - Corviknight

Mina - Pyroar (Female)

Chrissy - Alolan Persian

Aubrey - Purugly

Teddy Bear - Mabosstiff

Jerrie - Golurk

Different Actors:

Hot Chocolate Boy (Peter Spankoffski) (TGWDLM) - Polteageist

Pete Spankoffski (AC) - Aromatisse

Prof. Henry Hidgens (HQ) - Jigglypuff

Prof. Henry Hidgens (WB) - Spinda

Max Jägerman (TGWDLM) - Cinderace

Ethan Greene (YJ) - Goodra

(I’ve been working on this for a few weeks. I thought it would be fun to share. Hope you all enjoy it)

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STARTER CALLLL!!!!!!! For the event! I finally finished this hoe, so give me starters. No limit for now, so go INSANE! (HAHA)

Alexander Lightwood (Unwilling, Open to Death, No memory change)

Richie Tozier(Unwilling, Open to Death, No memory change)

Tyler Kennedy “TK” Strand(Unwilling, No Death, No memory change)

Evan “Buck” Buckley (Unwilling, Open to Death, No memory change)

Marco Del Rossi (Willing, Open to Death, Open To Changing Memory Status.)

Harry Hook (Unwilling, Open to Death, No memory change)

Thelonious Jagger "TJ" Kippen ( Unwilling, Open to Death, No Memory Change.)

Maxine “Max” Mayfield (Unwilling, No Death, No Memory Change)

Klaus Hargreeves (Willing, Open to Death, Open to Changing Memory Status.)

Derek Hale (Unwilling, Open to Death, Open to Change in Memory Status)

Lily Tucker-Pritchett (Unwilling, Not Open to Death, No Memory Change)

Ambrose Spellman (Willing, Open to Death, Open To Memory Change)

Mazikeen Smith (Willing, Open to Death, Open to Memory Change)

Enid Sinclair (Willing, Open to Death, Open to Memory Change)

Victor Salazar (Willing, Open to Death, Open to Memory Change)

Quincy ‘Q’ Shabazian (Willing, Not Open to Death, No Memory Change)

Michael Munroe (Willing, Open to Death, Open to Memory Change)

Bob Belcher (Unwilling, Not open to Death, No Memory Change)

Eponine Thenardier (Willing, Open to Death, Open to Memory Change) 

Jim Hopper (Willing, Open to Death, Open to Memory Change)

Mercutio Alice (Willing, Open to Death, Open to Memory Change)

Lillian Deville (Willing, Open to Death, Not Open to Memory Change)

Chishiya Shuntaro (Willing, Open to Death, Not Open to Memory Change)

Gabriel Boutin (Willing, Open to Death, Not Open to Memory Change)

Heather Chandler (Willing, Open to Death, Open to Memory Change)

Maria Vasquez (Unwilling, Not Open to Death, Not Open to Memory Change)

Chad Meeks-Martin (Willing, Open to Death, Open to Memory Change)

Ginny Weasley (Willing, Open to Death, Open to Memory Change)

Blaine Anderson (Unwilling, Open to Death, Open to Memory Change)

Katherine Pierce (Unwilling, Not Open to Death, Not Open to Memory Change)

Simon Spier (Unwilling, Not Open to Death, Not Open to Memory Change)

Nick Nelson (Unwilling, Open to Death, Open to Memory Change)

Emily Fitch (Unwilling, Not Open to Death, Not Open to Memory Change)

Dean Winchester (Unwilling, Not Open to Death, Not Open to Memory Change)

Matthew Murdock (Unwilling, Not Open to Death, Not Open to Memory Change)

Maxine Baker (Unwilling, Open to Death, Open to Memory Change)

Jude Adams Foster (Unwilling, Open to Death, Not Open to Memory Change)

Ken (Unwilling, Open to Death, Open to Memory Change)

Gamora (Unwilling, Not Open to Death, Not Open to Memory Change)

Maeve Wiley (Unwilling, Open to Death, Open to Memory Change)

Miles Hollingsworth III (Unwilling, Not Open to Death, Not Open to Memory Change)

Raphael Santiago (Unwilling, Not Open to Death, Not Open to Memory Change)

Reggie Peters (Unwilling, Open to Death, Open to Memory Change)

Glenn Rhee (Unwilling, Not Open to Death, Not Open to Memory Change)

Peggy Schuyler (Unwilling,Open to Death, Open to Memory Change)

Mickey Milkovich (Unwilling, Not Open to Death, Not Open to Memory Change)

Carl Grimes (Unwilling, Not Open to Death, Not Open to Memory Change)

Victoria Spring (Unwilling, Not Open to Death, Not Open to Memory Change)

Carl Gallagher (Unwilling, Open to Death, Open to Memory Change)

Ryan Evans (Unwilling, Open to Death, Open to Memory Change)

Sebastian Matthew Smith (Unwilling, Open to Death, Open to Memory Change)

Jake Wheeler (Unwilling, Not Open to Death, Not Open to Memory Change)

Gregoria Grfyinndor (Unwilling, Not Open to Death, Not Open to Memory Change)

[zalrb]

Nick & June (+ Luke) - 4.10

OK I figured I would just do a post because I got a few asks asking if I could write out my thoughts about Nick's active involvement with June's revenge vs. Luke's push for her to let it go.

I've mentioned this before but I think it's important to note that Luke and Moira are a unit now, they're a team, they're co-parents, they're, I would argue, best friends, they're family

and I think it's important to note because Moira is emotionally dedicated to moving forward by letting the past go, she is doing all she can to build a life in Toronto

even when she's angry about Fred and wants to send June to Geneva, it's a palatable anger and a palatable response to that anger and when they find out about him being extradited to Gilead, her response is “Good, fine, whatever, I’m not wasting anymore energy on him” and Luke wants June to have the same response. He sees the work Moira is doing, he sees how communicative Moira has become, he sees how she helps the effort by working with nonprofits and raising money and contributing to The Fight in that way, 

and he wants June to do that. I wouldn’t have said this in 4x07 but I do think he wants her to be a palatable victim/survivor but of course, he wouldn’t see it that way, I believe he believes that telling her to let it go and move on is healthy because she’s not “stuck” in trauma. 

An anon said that Luke not being in Gilead so he can’t understand June is a copout explanation for his reaction and while I don’t think his behaviour should solely rest on the fact that he wasn’t in Gilead  -- let’s also remember in the flashbacks while Luke offhandedly mentioned that the new laws were terrible and he did walk with Moira to keep her safe, he wasn’t with June and Moira at the protests

Sure, it could be inferred that he was with Hannah or he was at work but even when they discuss the laws, he’s flippant

and unaware

but I do believe the fact that he wasn’t in Gilead plays a significant part.

Nick has seen the way that Gilead and Fred and Serena have negatively impacted June:

He found her, pregnant and bleeding out, outside of the Waterford House: 

He has watched Fred and Serena play house with their child:

He has risked his life numerous times to keep June safe 

and he has had to keep June safe by doing morally questionable things that immediately hurt her in order to save her: 

He was forced to marry a fifteen year old girl because Fred couldn’t handle Nick and June having any sort of intimacy and through a series of different events Eden ended up dead:

It’s not only that he gets the context of June’s rage, I don’t think he simply accepts and supports that a way forward for June is through Fred’s death at her hands but he genuinely understands that, 

He genuinely thinks that’s right, he genuinely wants a part in his murder because of everything Fred put June through and Nick through, which is why there’s as such a strong sense of victory in his eyes when he takes Fred into custody

And Luke, living in Toronto for how many years, doesn’t understand the concept of killing Fred in the same context that Nick or June does, murder isn’t a viable option for him because he’s always lived in a different kind of society, under different kinds of laws and hasn’t had to do things and hasn’t had to lose people and pieces of himself in the way that these two have.

But I think another dimension to this is that Nick knows a different June than Luke. I mean this in terms of personality and behaviour. Nick knows a stubborn, active, rebellious, facetious, tenacious June

And these are qualities that he loves about June and he knows what would be enough  for her and understands her motivations and her morally ambiguous actions, he sees her and there’s some of these qualities in Nick himself, which we see in how he reacts and responds and loves June:

so there is a genuine, intimate understanding there that leads to them both planning and executing Fred’s death as a victory.

The June Luke knows is perpetually apologetic

and seems to always feel bad for not behaving in a way he can wrap his head around  

and she is worried that she isn’t good enough, that she won’t live up to his expectations:

and frankly, that’s a thread from their pre-Gilead relationship,

and while they were together long enough for there to be a sense of security for June, because of the way they got together, there’d been an undercurrent of insecurity

and he would make her feel better 

and it would presumably work

June pre-Gilead is facetious, yes, and the fact that she went to the protest shows that an impulse to do something active, particularly with a mother like Holly, exists, yes, but she doesn’t press an issue, she doesn’t really show the kind of stubbornness and fire that she has in Gilead (probably because she didn’t have to)

and, again, Luke was enough

so I think Luke kind of expected him saying “this is OK” and “I understand” and “let’s move on” and “Fred doesn’t matter” would have the same kind of effect that it did pre-Gilead, he expected her being in Canada and the promise of him and them to be enough but, June is not that June anymore, their relationship isn’t that relationship anymore, she’s a June that needs the victory she found with Nick.

Does any of that even make sense? Lol. I feel like I was all over the place, so sorry for that, but those are my thoughts!

Thanks to: 

@colleenwing @pegsccarter @splitscreen @nickblaine @ben--solos @vahkarian

for the gifs!

[underhiseyebrow]

[requiem-infernum]

“My name is June Osborne. I am a citizen of the United States.”

THE HANDMAID’S TALE - Season 4 coming April 28th

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THE HANDMAID’S TALE season 4, coming April 28

[martharaccoon]

Wanted to take the time to celebrate the nominations THT crew got. All of them well deserved.

I am disappointed Joe didn’t get one because he was an outstanding villain and played Fred Waterford very well.

Let’s hope some of our THT cast get some good wins here.

[swiftedittland]

The Handmaid’s Tale 2021 Emmy Nominations (Congratulations to all the cast & crew)

[withallthingslove]

the handmaid’s tale season 3 finale thoughts

under the cut because spoilers

sorry for the delay i decided to be healthy and practice self care and i went to bed at 11 pm

so i loveedddd this episode

i think it was way better than last season’s finale

i cried 3 (or 4) times

THE BEGINNING

wow

so i have a chronic illness and am technically disabled even though it’s an invisible illness and when on medication i function pretty normally. But watching june see all the disabled women being essentially led to their deaths... that really hit me. Everyone always likes to guess what would happen to them if gilead was real but there is no doubt i would probably be killed because i have crohn’s disease and the beginning of this episode pretty much proved that

I found it really interesting the guard didn’t like hit or electrocute june when she talked to him? that’s how bad it is when people just dont automatically go into torture mode. But he just told her to be quiet and didnt rat her out or yell at her which i feel like isn’t typical for guardians. Usually they man handle people whenever they get the chance

the waterfords:

yvonne’s soft serena acting was really good

fred looks terrible and makes tuello look even better... is it bad that i think fred is more of a hero for ratting serena out then serena is for turning in fred? Like I’ve always viewed serena as the worst of the two. Fred is stupid and your typical predatory white male. But serena is smart enough to understand everything she does is wrong and delusional and selfish enough to ignore it

WATCHING SERENA BE ARRESTED WAS SO DAMN SATISFYING 

I HAVE NEVER BEEN HAPPIER

also.... for all you delusional people shipping june and serena (seriously what is wrong with you?) serena clearly doesn’t care about june. “But offred and nick had a relationship” ... she is free in canada and calling june by her slave name. That’s all june still is to her. 

“that’s still rape” god bless tuello

(i read somewhere that nick and june never had sex that time and just pretended and then i read somewhere else that june touching nick’s elbow was her way of saying it was okay so either way even if nick and june made the situation work for them and already had feelings for each other serena arranging it was not good)

main plot:

the little girl rebecca is so cute

since she came from lexington I wonder how far word got out that the plane was leaving

June obviously still has her homicidal/suicidal tendencies. It will be interesting to see what her character is like in season 4

elisabeth’s acting during the “this isn’t your house” speech was really good

RITA

Lawrence reading to the children..... warms my heart

Also Lawrence and June’s goodbye. I think at this point they do like/respect each other. I wonder if lawrence is going to let himself be killed or if he’s going to become active in the resistance

The whole ending with the children and marthas and handmaids moving through the woods was so powerful

When June decided to sacrifice herself but handmaids and marthas followed... POETIC CINEMA. God that was so beautiful. I cried

The irony that they were forced to kill people by stoning and now they actually killed guardians with stones to help the cause... also poetic cinema

For a second I thought the guardian was the same guardian from the beginning of the episode but i couldnt tell

June sacrificing herself again... give this woman a medal 

When she was shot and then shot the guardian WHAT A BADASS

I was very happy when she shot the guardian even after he gave the clear... like it might single june is going more down a murderous path but also.... it felt right for her to do

When she saw the plane fly over her head I cried again

Ugh seeing Moira just leading everything in canada... another badass

Okay so we see emily and know she’s alive and I guess acclimating but what about her wife? and kid? that plot was just dropped (like some other plots hmmm)

WHEN REBECCA WAS REUNITED WITH HER DAD I CRIED SO HARD AND LUKE HAD TO WATCH BUT WE KNEW HANNAH WASNT ON THE PLANE BUT HE DIDNT UGHGRLGRGR

O-t’s acting during that scene... ugh. his soft asking for hannah please i just want them reunited please please please next season. 

RITA CRYING WHEN SHE REALIZED SHE WAS FREE dkfrjghrjjek

Also guess who is now in canada and can testify against the waterfords... RITA

Rita hugging luke... I felt so bad. all these people who know june keep finding him but not june or hannah

What’s going to happen to janine, alma, and brianna? And june? Obviously were supposed to wonder if june dies when her eyes close but she’s the main character so obvi that’s not gonna happen

But will they be captured? Go back to commander lawrence’s place? Be picked up by the resistance? 

Overall:

Really loved this episode and it did kind of renew my interest in the show. It’s what the handmaids tale is at its best

It’s not renewed enough that I’ll be anxiously awaiting the next season but i do feel like i still like the show again which is good

The show will have to do a lot to find consistency though because so many episodes of this season were a let down

The show also has a problem with fractured story lines because we still don’t know what’s going on with nick or what emily’s life has been like in canada

But overall a really thrilling finale

[leahchampagne]

FINALLY AN 'AUNT LYDIA BACKSTORY'!!

Season 3 is finally talking to me .....took 8 episodes ...bt here it is...

any reactions to the new promo for 3×08 ??

[skyshipper]

The Handmaid’s Tale - Beautiful Shots - 1x09

[hiddenpxpercuts]

STARTER CALLLLL…..

NOT CAPPING AT THE MOMENT SO GO CRAY.

Alexander Lightwood || 28 || Detective

Simon (papcrrings), Rafael (devilsmenu), Ragnor (lcxstsouls) 

Evan Buckley | 28 | Fire Fighter

Pildo (devilsmenu), 

T/K Strand | 28 | EMT

Kono (devilsmenu), 

Richie Tozier | 24 | Comedian

Ally (devilsmenu), 

Max Mayfield | 23 | Nurse

Jamie (devilsmenu), 

T.J Kippen | 21 | College Senior

Alison (devilsmenu), 

Harry Hook | 23 | Chef

Harriet Hook (devilsmenu), 

Marco Del Rossi | 21 | Law School

…..

Maxine Baker | 19 | College Freshman 

…..

Matthew Murdock | 35 | Criminal Lawyer

Dale (bcrncoldx), Felixia (devilsmenu), 

Dean Winchester | 38 | Psychiatrist 

Tucker (nightwhispcrs), Satana (devilsmenu), 

Emily Fitch | 19 | College Freshman

Chad (devilsmenu), 

Nick Nelson | 18 | College Freshman

Lorna (devilsmenu), 

SImon Spier | 19 | College Freshman

Jihyo (devilsmenu), 

Katherine Pierce | 500 + (Looks 25ish) | Unemployed 

Irene (devilsmenu), 

Blaine Anderson | 22 | Musician 

Junwoong (devilsmenu), 

Ginny Weasley | 21 | Teacher

Neville (papcrrings), Astoria (devilsmenu), 

Chad Meeks-Martin | 19 | College Sophomore

Sally (devilsmenu), 

Maria Vasquez | 25 | Nurse

Michael (nightwhispcrs), Tony (devilsmenu), Maomao (apothmuses), 

Heather Chandler | 23 | Trust Fund Kid

Anna (papcrrings), 

Gabriel Boutin  25 | French Ambassador 

Urumi (devilsmenu), 

Chishiya Shuntaro | 21 | College Senior

Heiya (devilsmenu), 

Lillian Deville || 22 || College Senior

…..

Mercutio Alice | 27 | ?

Romeo (devilsmenu), 

Jim Hopper | 45 | Mayor

Robin (nightwhispcrs), 

Epononine Thenardier | 25 | ?

…..

Bob Belcher | 45 | Owns Bob’s Burgers

…..

Michael Munroe | 22 | ?

…..

Quincy Shabazian | 19 | College Sophomore

…..

Enid Sinclair | 18 || College Freshman

…..

Mazikeen Smith | 30 | Private Investigator

…..

Ambrose Spellman | 75 + | Occult Shop Owner

Kallias (apothmuses), 

Lily Tucker Pritchett | 19 | College Sophomore

Noah (devilsmenu), 

Derek Hale || 25 | Police Officer 

Isaac (papcrrings), 

Klaus Hargreeves | 30 | Drug Counselor

Diego (papcrrings), 

Jake Wheeler | 19 || College Freshman

…..

Sebastian Matthew-Smith | 21 | College Junior

…..

Ryan Evans | 21 | College Senior

…..

Victoria Spring | 22 | ?

Noami (nightwhispcrs), 

Carl Grimes | 23 | College Student

…..

Mickey Milkovich | 27 | Security Officer

…..

Glenn Rhee | 30 | ?

Fred (nightwhispcrs), 

Reggie Peters | 20 | Band Member

…..

Miles Hollingsworth III | 21 | College Senior

…..

Maeve Wiley | 21 | College Senior

…..

Gamora | 35 | ?

Peggy (lcxstsouls) 

Ken | 35 | ?

Okabe (apothmuses), 

Jude Fosters-Adams | 21 | College Senior

Dakken (devilsmenu), 

Gregoria Gryfinndor | 23 | ?

Sal (papcrrings), 

Ivan Carvalho Cruz | 18 | College Freshman

…..

Milton ‘MG’ Greasley | 19 | College Sophomore

…..

[ofjoseph]

Moira was Hannah’s godmother. Is. Moira is Hannah’s godmother, and she got out. It was impossible, and she did it. I know I should accept the reality of you being born here, make my peace. But fuck that.

[sinema-toffee]

june you're one brave bitch...but a crazy one..still