#bird removal Sydney

[cheesemonky]

Chapter 2: Just Listen To Me!

pairing: fairy!felix x fairy!reader

Series Masterlist

Word count: 2k

summary: A fairy gets their wings once they're 13. A normal one at least. You're 23, and still without any. This leaves you without a mate, because who would love a wingless fairy? So when you decide to leave, it's quite the surprise to find a fairy with a wing missing…

warnings: swearing, a shitton of dialogue NOT PROOF READ lmk if i missed anything :3

You hesitated for a moment, taking in the sight of the injured fairy before you. His breathing was laboured, and his body lay still as if he were dead. Almost his entire back was bloodied, as well as the ground around him. How long had he been here like this? After some contemplation, you approached his body slowly. Crouching down, you managed to get a closer look at his wound. Someone or something had completely ripped out his left wing. There was no sign that any animals were recently in the area, nor any humans. Dread settled in the pit of your stomach as you examined the gruesome scene before you. The absence of any immediate threats allowed you to focus on him. Gulping down your unease, you carefully inspected the wound. It was a clean tear, as if someone deliberately removed the wing. The unnatural precision made shivers run down your spine.

“Who could have done this..?” You muttered to yourself. Broken wings weren’t a rare sight, but to have an entire one torn out was… more than unusual. Your fingers traced the edges of the wound, and the blood felt far from fresh. Suddenly, you heard the caws of birds overhead. You had to get him out of the open. Hooking your arms under his, you dragged him out towards a large tree. Propping him up against the trunk, you set down your backpack, rummaging through it to find a shirt. You ripped a long piece of cloth out of it and wrapped it around the wound and across his chest. He didn’t sustain any other injuries, as far as you could tell. Maybe… you could stay with him a while. Just to make sure he was okay when he woke up. So for hours you waited, waited for him to come to his senses.

Just as you began to doze off next to him, you heard his breath hitch. It was a few seconds until his eyes finally fluttered open, and god, were they the most perfect things you’ve ever seen. He looked over at you for a moment, confusion and pain evident in his gaze, before he shuffled away from you. His eyes widened as he took in his surroundings and the makeshift bandage on his back.

"Where... am I?" he rasped, his voice barely audible.

“Australia.”

“Yeah, well, I know that…”

“Then I don’t know what to tell you.”

“What state..?”

“Sydney. What, you not from around here?” He sighed deeply at your words, rubbing his temples partly in weariness and also in annoyance.

“I am but… this isn’t my home.”

“Where is it then?”

“Well, you see, I’m a fairy so I live in a village with other fa-”

“I know, idiot, but that’s not what I was asking.” He looked at you in confusion and a hint of hurt. You were coming off a lot harsher than you wanted to. Maybe so long without any interaction was the cause.

“Sorry- let’s try again. What’s your name?”

“Felix. You?”

“Y/N. You’re a fairy, right?”

“Yeah. What about you?” You fiddle with your hands a little, attempting to keep your voice steady. To be fair, it wasn’t his fault. You don’t have any wings, so how could he tell?

“A fairy…” You mumbled, hoping he would sense how uncomfortable you were and drop the question.

“Hm? What did you say?”

“A fairy.” You said, slightly louder and firmer this time. And once again, the now familiar face of confusion he seems to like bearing appears.

“Where are… what happened to your wings?”

“Does it really matter?”

“I’m just asking… did they take yours as well?” You felt a little bad for him, honestly. You were being so unpleasant to someone you had just met and saved the life of. 

“I never had any.”

“What?”

“Wings. I never had any wings. I never got mine.”

“I feel like you’re lying to me.” This time, instead of snapping at him, you turned your body to face him. You hadn’t noticed, but he was listening quite closely to everything you had been saying. Hands in his lap, head tilted to the side and his face was clearly focused on what was being said.

“I’m not. I just… never got wings.”

“How do I know you aren’t just a tiny human?”

“Have you ever seen a human this small?”

“... no.”

“Exactly.” For a while, he looked away and at the tree in contemplation, fiddling with some of the peeling bark. You weren’t sure if he believed you or not, especially with how unreal your story sounds to others. With the silence dragging on, you decided to raise a question that should’ve been asked at the start.

“So what happened to your wing?” His eyes widened as he realised that he in fact did have a problem with his wing. He turned his head to get a good look at the shiny piece of him that was laying a few metres from where he was before, still with ling

“I… don’t think you’d believe me if I told you.”

“I literally told you I was a fairy without wings.”

“Well-... okay, fine. In my village, I was part of this group called Stray Kids.” Strange name, but okay. Who were you to judge? Plus, the name sounded somewhat familiar.

“We’re… not really superheroes, but we did help in defeating the Sound Monster.”

“Wait, that was you? The news of you guys taking it down was going around everywhere! I heard it even reached parts of Korea, which is like, really far away. Maybe not superheroes, but definitely celebrities. Is that how you lost it?” Though you chose to believe it, you still had a few doubts. Was it really this sweet and adorable young man who helped kill it?

“Nah, it was too long ago for my back to be bleeding out now. You see, after we took it down I went back to just see if we missed anything. And we did. There were these strange pieces of… something that had formed after the battle. I picked one up and I felt more magic in that moment than I have in my whole life.” The story started to sound a little more unbelievable now, yet you continued to trust him on it.

“I hid it well for a while. I didn’t even tell my friends. Until I had to defend myself and some other against a human. I used a bit too much magic and someone from our council was there to see it. I had an entire court trial and everything! I didn’t realise having too much magic was a crime.”

“It isn’t. Not where I’m from.”

“Well, it was more “illegal possession of unidentified magic” and “dangerous use of magic”. But how was I supposed to know?”

“Okay, those sound more like things you could be arrested for. But the wing..?”

“Right. So, it turns out fairies are idiots and the only way that they know how to get rid of someone’s magic is to take away a wing or two.”

“So they just… ripped it out?”

“Basically.” You couldn’t help but feel bad for him. To have a part of you just taken away like that would mean immense pain, physically and mentally. And it makes sense now as to why the cut was so clean. 

“Did it work though?”

“A little too well. I lost that extra magic plus some of my own. I haven’t got much left anymore.”

“So what now? I mean, I could teach you a thing or two about living out here but I'm not letting you follow me around." Actually, you probably would. Even though you're glad that all those who hurt you are in the past, you still get lonely. Plus, he's kind of like you in a way, no? With a missing wing and all.

"Huh? What, no way! I need to get my magic back!" He said with a bit more cheeriness than necessary. It was your turn to be confused now.

"And how do you plan on doing that exactly?"

"Okay, now you won't believe me." Has this guy really not learnt anything? If an anomaly such as yourself can exist, you're sure that others could as well.

"Just tell me. It's not like my opinion will stop you anyways." Glancing at you once more, he took a deep breath and continued his story.

“Well, since I was young, my mother always told me this story about-”

“Wait, wait, you’re going off of a children’s story?”

“I-I mean, it’s pretty believable… Plus it's not a children��s story! There’s been a lot of people who’ve actually managed to do it…” You were starting to get a little suspicious with his story. You didn't want him to get into any unwanted trouble or danger.

"If you want me to be convinced, you should try a bit harder to make the story believable."

"Didn't you say it didn't matter what you thought?" You opened your mouth to respond, but you closed it straight after you realised you had no response. There wasn't anything you could say about that. You sighed, nodding once for him to continue.

“It’s been rumoured that somewhere deep in our Bush, the Heart of Eris is still there.”

“Eris… Eris as in the Goddess of Fairies?”

“Yes, that Eris. It’s the thing that sourced all fairy magic and the reason we still have it.”

“... please don’t say what I think you’re gonna say…”

“Look, just listen to me, yeah? I’m gonna try to find it!” You fucking knew it. He really did live up to the ‘dumb blonde’ name. What was he thinking, following the story of a children’s tale? And he didn’t even have a proper amount of magic!

“You are literally gonna die out there.”

“Then come with me.”

“...huh?” You stared at him a while, trying to see if he was being serious or not. You felt like you were the only one using any of their brain cells at that moment. He wants you, a fairy without wings or any magic, to go with him, an injured fairy who has barely any more magic than yourself, to find something that probably doesn’t even exist?

“No.”

“What- why?! Come on, maybe we could even get you a pair of wings!” For a moment, you were tempted. Even after learning to live without any, you’ve always known that you would be happier if you did have them. But wasting all of your hard work out here to go look for something that could get you killed? Not worth it.

“I said no. That’s it.”

“I-... fine then. It’s not like we’re friends anyways. I’ll go myself.” As he began to stand up, you grabbed his arm gently. You were a little surprised he didn’t put up more of a fight.

“At least rest for a while. You’re still injured.” He stood still for a moment, not facing you, before settling down back where he was before. You had to stop yourself from smiling at the small pout on his face as you grabbed some things from your bag. Pulling out a small blanket you had brought from your old home, you passed it to him while you grabbed a sweater for yourself. He mumbled a small thank you before turning to lay on the ground. You stayed up for a while, just until he fell asleep before falling into your own slumber. But your dreams were unexpected. They were those same nightmares. The ones you hadn’t had for ages now. They were back and they hurt so much more than last time. Though, there was someone in the background. You heard Felix’s voice, talking so sweetly about something or other. And then there were wings, and the Heart of Eris and everything he had talked about. Was this dream telling you something?

The next morning, you woke up early to find some berries or small nuts and seeds to eat. By the time you got back, Felix had woken up too and had folded your blanket for you. Holding out a seed for him to take, you packed your blanket back in.

“I’ll be going now. Thanks for the help though.” His smile was far too bright for you not to change your mind. Plus, that dream wasn’t any help.

“Let me help you more.”

“What?”

“I’m coming with you.”

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FOOLISH

Things were normal after their breakup. Well normal for them.

OR

Carmy doesn't have the balls to tell his family he and Syd broke up.

Warnings: MINORS DNI, Arguing, Angst, Past Relationship, Toxic Relationship, Fake/Pretend Relationship, Possessive Behavior, Unprotected Sex, Jealousy If You Squint, Alcoholism, Marijuana Mention

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Part 1 | Part 2

A/N:

I tried to remain as true to the characters as I could. That's why there's a toxic relationship tag. You and I both know what would happen if those two got together. The title is based on Foolish by Ashanti btw. Sorry in advance for any weird formatting. Tumblr is being weird but it's Posted on AO3 with the correct formatting.

The sun rose as it did any other day. When the birds sang and car horns cried to break up the melody, Sydney Adamu hustled to The Bear. Through the labyrinth she knew as Chicago she found a place that brought her relaxation and excitement. A place that raised her blood pressure while simultaneously bringing it down to a happy medium. She and her business partner slash idol (slash ex), worked tirelessly to curate the perfect dining experience. Well almost perfect. But, from Sydney's experience, they were near perfection.

A colorful knitted cap sat upon her head, her braids draped down below. With each stride, the blond tips would bounce against her back and shoulders creating a rhythm that stayed in tune with the music blaring from her AirPods.

°⋆ I’ve seen you with the lights off I’ve seen you and you think you love me I’ve seen you with your hat off I’m dreaming of a time you knew me ｡⋆

Wind swooshed around her, dirt twisted before her sending dust to scratch her eyes. Water tip-toed the rim of her lids.

°⋆ So baby, is it all you’ve got? Tell me if you got some more-ore I’m thinking of some time off, off. I’m dreaming of a time when you knew me ｡⋆

No matter how many times Chicago hurt her, she just couldn't leave. Brandished over her heart, a chain that anchored her to the city. A gold chain that she found hidden in a velvet box that was gifted to her by her ex-lover on her last birthday. Wearing it still felt stupid now, but she could never bring herself to remove it. Fleeting memories from her youth reminded her of who she once was. So strong-willed and outspoken.

°⋆ Some things never seem to fucking work ｡⋆

While she still retained much of her buoyant personality, it was becoming harder and harder to remain strong. Sanguine her lenses once were, now not so much.

“Eighty-six the foie gras chefs!” Carmy echoed, not taking his eyes off the sizzling slice of filet mignon in his skillet. He scooped up melted butter and herbs before pouring them over the scorching meat. A concentrated red stream of blood trailed down a crevice embedded in the meat.

“Yes, Chef!" The brigade echoed back, in a cultish chant.

"Eh, it was experimental anyways.” Syd shrugged continuing her prep of the day’s veggies.

Carmy chuckled sparing a glance at her as he plated what he'd just finished preparing. "And kind of illegal." 

“Are we still eighty-six-ing the-“

“Rum cake? Yes, Marcus is out today and we just don't have the coverage” He cut a small piece off of the beef and neared Syd. His voice became small as he reached her bubble. "There's a surplus of prepped dessert he made last night."

“Marcus? Out?” She took the piece of steak Carmy held out for her into her mouth without missing a beat. An involuntary moan bubbled out of her throat. “You’re unreal,” She could swear a pink tint spread across his cheeks, but he turned away to grab the plated dish before she could examine it any further. “I was just talking to him last night, what’s up?”

“His mom.” Carmy stepped aside as each member of the kitchen staff stopped by to steal a piece of his latest dish. Their eyes remained connected despite the intrusion of the staff stepping in and out of their line of sight. “I didn’t ask too much he sounded bummed.”

“Fuck, I should talk to him.” She frowned down at her station finding that most of what she needed prepped was prepped. “T, I did the veggies can you please get on the broth?” She called while wiping down where she'd just been working.

“On it Jeff!” Tina got to work as Syd made her way to the back alley removing her blues on the way. 

“Syd? I'll be right back Mom.” There was static breaking his voice up before he came through clearly. “Hey, what’s up?”

“Hey chef is everything alright? Carm was vague as usual…” Her eyes found the clear blue skies, there wasn't a cloud in sight. The expansive scape reminded her of his eyes. How he could convey so much to her in silence. So much goddamn information was stored in his eyes. Hidden away behind a sorrowful gaze that would forever follow Syd. His intense stare would probably follow her until the end of time. Those weren't eyes you so easily forgot.

It was a beautiful day, yes, but she had a hard time appreciating it. There was a jet gliding across the sky. She watched it ease across the pretty blue backdrop, leaving white exhaust behind it.

“Yeah my mom, she has a fever and a fever for you and me isn’t a big deal. But a fever for her…” He grumbled something she couldn't quite make out. Despite their distance, she could still feel the amount of stress he was under. He was her family. Everyone at The Bear was her family and each of them had unique relationships. “So I just decided to hold down the fort and make sure she’s doing all right.”

“Right, right” Syd turned just in time to see Carmy walking out the back door, cigarette in his mouth. Their eyes met briefly making her falter in her words. 

“Still there, Syd?” Marcus asked as a timer buzzed in the distance.

“I am,” She turned away, ignoring the burn in her cheeks. “How about I come by after work and bring you what the fam had today?”

“You the one!” He graciously exclaimed. “I gotta go, but alright just call when you're on the way.”

“Peace.” She shoved her phone into her back pocket and whipped her head to find Carmy already looking at her. Pounding just beneath her ribcage, her heart inflated with anticipation. The hair trailing the nape of her neck stood on end as goosebumps rushed up her arms. Their space remained shrouded in silence. How much time had passed? Seconds to minutes, minutes to who knows. They were rarely one on one these days. It was easier to navigate the sludge they'd gotten themselves into when other people were around to break the tension up. She wanted to leave but her legs remained still. There was something hiding. Something waiting to come out. She just felt it. So she stayed, listening to the industrial sounds of the city. The jet was now long gone, but its roar still hummed quietly beneath it all.

Carm's cigarette smoke floated past her. She quirked an eyebrow at her business partner who huffed while shaking his head. He hands her a cigarette to her which she hesitantly took. Despite not being a smoker. They needed something to break the ice these days and it sucked. In the kitchen, it was like nothing ever happened. Like they never fell in love, like they never broke up, but outside of the kitchen? Forget about it.

“Just got off the phone with my mom.” He ran a hand through his hair making it impossibly messier. "You don't smoke." He deadpanned plucking the cigarette from behind her ear and putting it behind his.

“You seemed bummed, didn't want to make it awkward.” She hesitantly chuckled before quickly looking at her feet. “Must've been heavy, the conversation with your mom. I’ve never known my Carmy to stop prep an hour to open for a smoke break."

“Your Carmy.” He muttered under his breath, hiding it behind a chuckle. "Yeah, well she has that effect on me." He stomped his cigarette out, feeling traces of guilt. Syd was never too shy to tell him exactly how she felt about cigarette smoke. She didn't mind weed though.

"Meat delivery was wrong... again." She mentioned trying to find anything to continue their conversation.

"We gotta find another fucking vendor." He cracked his knuckles, now that his cigarette was gone he needed something else to satisfy his vice.

"We do. But the guys we work with now are reliable." The two shared a look. "Semi-reliable and cheap. So we're stuck with 'em."

Another stretch of uncomfortable silence followed. More avoidant glances. More shuffling.

If only he just said what he wanted, she thought to herself. If only he'd release her by simply saying what he needed to say. She wouldn't (no) she couldn't leave without finding out why those baby blues of his were so downcast so pleading and so, so broken. But Carmy was even more stubborn after their severance, they barely knew each other these days. But this felt huge. It felt big, she could feel it vibrating that invisible cord between them. Disturbing the constant hum they sustained, even after everything.

"What'd your mom say?" She finally let her curiosity win.

There it was. His eyes flashed with something akin to fear and his lips twitched. He fidgeted even more. He was always in motion. Moving, moving, moving. “She asked to meet you y’know?” He rubbed a hand down his mouth, slowly nodding his head. He stared out in front of him, at nothing in particular. But she could see his anxiety beginning to bleed into his irises. She could feel it too and god she'd do anything to make it stop.

“You didn’t tell her?” Her thoughts were interrupted by that revelation. For the first time in a long time, she stepped into his space and caught his gaze. “Carmy it’s been weeks.” She stopped short. "No, months! Like two whole months!"

"Almost two months." He corrected earning him one of Syd's signature eye rolls. “I know, I know.” He sighed trying to drop her big brown eyes but it was proving impossible. Each time he'd find the ground or a spot just past her shoulder their shared magnetism would beg his attention. Forcing him to bare his soul.  “Look, only the crew knows. Richie just got back from vacation and I guess I just never see Sugar enough to mention it."

Carmy was still in denial that he and Syd had reached an end before Richie left. He spent the early days in a dreamlike state, hoping that he'd blink and everything would be back to normal. That he'd wake up and everything wasn't on fire and she'd look at him with the love she used to and not the resentment that now replaced it. Once he came to terms with it, Richie was gone and Sugar was far too busy to stop by, with the fresh addition to the family and all. The staff noticed but they didn't say anything. He wasn't going to say anything either. Tina realized what occurred when she saw their mirrored shame. Eyes avoidant and chemistry nonexistent. The family felt their disconnect as it trickled down to each and every one of them. Ebra was the first to slice the tension one day after closing.

"Tensions heavy." He called from a far corner of the kitchen, after a painful bout of awkward silence. "Trouble in paradise?"

Carmy's eyes met hers as she hesitantly dragged her gaze to him. If they told them it'd make it official. It'd make it real. Fuck him if he didn't want this shit to be the worst nightmare of his life. His throat was dry when she looked around the room. His heart pounded when she clasped her hands together and uttered the revealing truth.

"Me and Carm have decided to keep our relationship strictly professional for the betterment of the business." She sagged her shoulders. "Happy? Now come on let's get it chefs, we all wanna get home right?" She didn't look back at Carmy as she grabbed her cleaning utensils and escaped to the walk-in.

"Chef!" They called behind her. Tina's frown followed Carmy as he entered the walk-in behind Syd.

"Really?" He complained angrily. "Wh-wh-what are you doing? Why are you doing this to me?" His eyes searched hers. "That's how you choose to do it, Syd?"

"How the fuck else were we going to tell them? Sit them down one by one in our office. 'Oh yeah, your bosses aren't fucking each other anymore. Prepare your stations for a walk thru', that's real professional!"

He raised his voice, frustration boiling over. His face was hot with a thin sheen of sweat over it. The cool air of the walk-in did nothing to help. It only made it harder to breathe. Her angry eyes only made his breath shorter.  "Anything but that!" 

She sighed taking note of his erratic breathing. Once upon a time, she was the one that'd calm him down, now she was the source of his worries. How quickly the fucking tides change.

"Look, Carm I'm sorry." She avoided rubbing her closed fist over her chest. It felt wrong now. "I didn't mean for it to be messy, but we've been tiptoeing around each other for weeks they were bound to find out."

She brushed past him exiting their bubble. The eyes of the staff greeted her plunging her back into reality.

"Do you guys want a picture? A straight-to-DVD recording? Or what." She deadpanned before shouting. "Let's go!" She stormed to her station finishing her tasks.

This all happened after Richie left, a few weeks back. It wasn't like Carmy to just go and call up Richie during his time off. Call him for what? To give him the good news? Carmy didn't want to bother him with something so trivial and high school. "I haven't had the time to tell my family about us. Sugar took it upon herself to tell Mom about our first anniversary coming up and now… now she wants to meet you.”

Her eyes narrowed in skepticism.

Okay, so he wasn't being entirely truthful and he's pretty sure she knew it. He intentionally hadn't told anybody. He didn't want to. It'd make it feel too final. He and Syd breaking up just didn't sit right with him and he wasn't sure if it ever would. Sydney, however, didn't have a problem telling whoever. She was taking their breakup like a champ.

She frowned contemplating exactly how they got to this point. It began how any work romance started. Fleeting glances and red cheeks. Accidental touches that soon lingered. One too many hangouts that lasted way too long. One too many drinks led to a passionate and intense hookup. Then the inevitable downfall. Too much time spent with one another. Going to work and seeing each other, going home and seeing each other, seeing the best but the worst in each other. Uneven work distribution eventually began interfering with their personal relationship. They thought they could work through it, that was until it started affecting the workplace and their dynamic. One too many complaints from the staff of a hostile work environment and that was it. One of them just had to stop it. It was Syd who called it quits first, she knew Carmy would drag his feet and draw it out for a lot longer than it needed to be. Carmy didn’t have the energy to beg her to stay but his eyes said it all. She thought they fell back into step. Back to a neutral place, nothing deeper than coworkers. But every now and then they’d catch each other’s eyes or he’d get just a little too close to her and it was all so real again. But they knew better than to go back there. 

“We were together for less than a year-“

“I’ve never been with anybody for a year…” He interjected in a matter-of-fact tone. “Sorry, my family they just, they’re happy that I found someone to put up with me. It's sort of a big deal for them." It would've been a big deal for him too if only they'd actually made it a year. "God they’re gonna have a good laugh when I show up to dinner alone.”

Syd frowned looking back up at the sky. “My point is, I don’t think it should be this hard for us. You know disconnecting from each other….”

“We’re business partners.” He lamented. “We disconnect The Bear fails.”

“This place is never going to fail.” She shakes her head looking back down at him.

“I don't know Syd. Everything I touch...” He looks at her with a familiar echo of fear in his eyes. “Everything I touch fails.”

She watched him crack his knuckles, hands shaky, before walking back inside leaving her with her thoughts.

As promised after closing Syd made her way to her best friends' house with enough food for three.

"From what I've seen, that family is unwell." Marcus lightly jests. "I mean if Mikey is any indicator..." He widens his eyes trying to convey just how hectic the Berzattos were.

"Trust me Marcus I know." She sips her third glass of wine of the night. "I just wish I didn't care so much!"

"Carmy was your best friend once upon a time," He reminded, ignoring her eye roll. "Roll your eyes all you want sis. You two dated for a year, it's normal to still care about him a little bit."

Too bad she cared about him a lot. Maybe too much. "Yes, but enough to be his girlfriend for one more night just so his family doesn't rip into him?"

"I mean," He shrugs. "It seems."

"It'd be a bad idea right?" More semi-expensive wine slid down her throat. "It'd be bonkers to go along with this, especially after the whole ordeal."

She was referring to her 4 weeks of crying on Marcus' couch, in sweats post-break-up. She was always sure to clean up nice and put on a smile when she went to work, but Marcus was there through the worst of it. He'd never seen her look so small, so vulnerable as she did the first few weeks after they called it quits. She'd lay her head in his lap and cry and cry until she fell asleep. When she wasn't crying she was talking about what she could've done, what he could've done. Which led to anger and then to the inevitable crying. She'd spend the mornings before work throwing up, it only just stopped a couple of weeks ago.

"Look, I don't want you going through that again. But you seem to really want to help out Carm and what's one night?" He poured her more red wine. "You're over him right?"

She gulps down her wine instead of answering. Maybe it was the wine but she could feel water gathering in her eyes. The air conditioning blew past her cooling the tears and making them all the more real. She shook her head, annoyed with herself for crying over him, STILL.

"Fuck! I'm sorry." Marcus rushed to her side and pulled her into a hug.

"No, no it's" She laughs through her tears as she wipes the fresh ones away. "It's the wine I promise."

"I'm still sorry for you know asking that." He replied. "Especially this early on."

"It's okay, friend.” She shakes her head and sniffles as she pulls away. "It's been some months, I should be able to talk about our," relationship. "situation without crying like a little bitch."

"I don't think there's a time limit on getting over someone you loved." He replies sincerely ignoring her previous self-dig. "And if you ask me two months isn't enough time to get over anything."

"Almost two months and good thing I didn't ask you." She teased, tugging on her coat. "I gotta dip but thanks for this."

"Do you know what you're gonna do?" He follows her to the door noticing the stumble in her step. “You can stay the night if you want.”

She leans slightly to the left, eyes hooded. Her face crumbled with each passing second, the tough facade tumbling down. “I’ve decided what I’m gonna do.” She drops her shoulders. "Have an extra pair of sweats waiting though."

"Yes, Chef." He salutes weakly as a worried frown grew on his face. Watching her struggle to slip back into her Crocs helped him make up his mind. “Okay buddy you’re sleeping on my couch, come on.” He easily guided her back to the couch.

”Grab the sweats!” She shouts behind Marcus as she laid back on the cushioned surface.  

“When is it?” Her words were hushed but clear. 3 o'clock on the dot had arrived and sleep evaded her still. She tossed and turn until her phone was in her hand and his number was being dialed. It was now or never. There was no way she was going to do this sober.

Of course, he’d pick up, the insomniac. “What?” He held his phone against his shoulder as he stirred his boiling ramen.

“The-the thing." She supplies, although with no explanation her words were useless.

"Syd, I don't-"

"When am I meeting your family, who isn’t Sugar.” She explains. "The dinner."

"Ah, I get it now." He stops what he was doing and turns away from the stove taking his phone into his hand. "You're drunk."

"Okay and?" She scoffs, "Look Carm, I decided that I'll lend you a hand now so later when I need a recommendation you'll help me."

"I'd help you, either way, Chef."

"I bet." She blew a raspberry. "So, when is it, big guy?"

"When is what?" He shot back.

"Carmy" She whines his name the way she used to. It made his heart pound and a smile spread across his face. It made his conscious mind melt away, replacing his thoughts with Syd, Syd, Syd.

It made him feel vulnerable and his voice got all soft and mushy, he'd feel embarrassed if he didn't enjoy how she made him feel so much. So, with a tone only reserved for her, he made her a promise. "Sunday night, 6. I'll swing by yours on the way."

"It's a date!” She says without thinking twice. “Or no it's not a date!"

"Drink some water and get some sleep Syd." He tutted fondly as he silently wondered when the urge to take care of her would go away. "I'll bring you some soup in the morning."

Before she could respond the dial tone interrupted her thoughts. "Asshole." She muttered affectionately before tossing her phone on the coffee table and nodding off to sleep.

True to his word the next morning he handed her a warm Tupperware container filled with his signature hangover soup. They both managed to show up before any of the other staff did. Despite sleeping over at Marcus' she managed to get up by five so she could go home, change, then hustle to The Bear.

“Did you-“

“No, I didn’t.” He shook his head. “Syd come on I know you’re allergic to sesame seeds."

She shrugs chuckling to herself as she uncovered the warm cloudy liquid. The aroma wafted past her reminding her why she trusted Carmy so much with her career trajectory. "We can all be victims of forgetfulness."

"I'd never forget something like that." His words were heavy. Weighted with what they both knew but didn't want to say.

Instead of a day filled with a familiar waltz the ex-lovers shared, their routine was filled with affliction. Damaging the very foundations of what helped the kitchen run so smoothly.

"You two are weird," Richie whispered to Carmy during their cigarette break. "Did uh something happen? You two aren't you know... tweedle dee and tweedle dum-ing it today."

"We uh we-we..." He breathed wanting so desperately to tell him exactly what was going on but he couldn't. The staff obviously hadn't shared the latest gossip with him and Carmy was grateful for the rush that kept them busy for much of the day. After tonight he would but not now. "Just nervous about tonight."

"Listen I already spoke with Donna, it's gonna be small just us. We're only popping open two bottles of wine."

"It's not the wine I'm worried about it's, it's." He pressed the heel of his hand against his eye. Weary of the conversation already. "I never wanted to mix Syd in with that side of the family, of me. What if she sees mom and what she does to me and she-she just leaves" He lets all of the air he'd been holding out. "What if she decides this place isn't worth it" that I'm not worth it "and she leaves for good?"

"Carmy, you're so much of a know-it-all prick I sometimes forget that you have no experience with women." He laughs then took a long drag from his cigarette. As if Carmy's dumbfounded expression alone stressed him out. "What the fuck are you talkin' about?"

"You're not listening cousin-"

"I am. Syd isn't going to up and leave you after meeting your shitty mom- no offense." He redundantly remarks. "If she was gonna leave she would've a long time ago. The girl loves you."

"I don't know...she, we-we arent-" The confession tasted bitter in his throat, the words were on the tip of his tongue when Richie interrupted him.

"She does, every relationship has its rough patch. Some last longer than others." He muttered, blinking away the memory of his once happy family. "She's nervous too according to Sugar."

"Really?" The hopefulness in his voice made Richie scoff at his naive cousin.

"Yeah, Syd's been asking her advice and shit about what she should wear and what Donna's favorite color is. The works."

Carmy exhaled feeling the tightening in his chest decompress. "You sure?" The hopeful lilt in his voice made his cheeks burn, but he couldn't really bring himself to care.

"Yeah kid, really" He blew a raspberry. "God I hope I'm never as gone as the two of you. Just foolish." He muttered the ladder part of his sentence to himself.

“A dress?” He tries not to let his eyes linger on her long legs, the same legs that wrapped around him night after night, but he failed. He noticed her outfit choice when he picked her up, but it took a while for him to muster up the courage to say something about it. 

“I wanted to wear something different.” She tugged at the hem. “Too short? You know I'm not a dress person.”

“No, no” He finally left her legs and met her eyes. “You look perfect.”

“Bear!” His mom swings the door open and pulled him into a hug, tears already kissing her eyes. “You look so handsome, and you combed your hair?” She teased tugging at a strand. She turns to Syd, tears welling up once again. “And look at you.” She holds her hand eyeing her up and down. “Carmy goes on and on about those pretty brown eyes of yours but he did not do them justice.” She pulls Syd into a hug as Carmen darts his eyes around looking for an escape route.

"I brought you flowers." She hands the Berzatto matriarch a purple assortment of flowers.

"Wow," She eyed the bouquet admiring the color. “Oh Bear, she’s,” Donna shakes her head. “She’s gorgeous, your babies are going to be just beautiful” She turned away and entered the bustling house before he could speak. The soft sounds of Frank Sinatra drifted past their ears as the door swayed behind her.

“Sorry,” He quietly winces. 

"Don't apologize," Syd hesitantly intertwines her fingers with his. "That's what any mom would say to her son and his girlfriend, remember?" She raised an eyebrow.

Carmy let a shaky breath go, gently wiggling his fingers in an attempt to calm his nerves. "Right, I just. I think I need a second outside."

Syd frowned before tugging the door closed and turning towards her counterpart. Her hands rested on his sweater-clad shoulders, forcing him to direct his full attention to her.

"Carm, just relax. It's just a dinner, we can leave whenever you want." She frowned when he shook his head, eyes blinking rapidly.

"M-my family, my mom. Everything is fucked... you-you see what happened with-" He couldn't say Mikey's name right now. It'd break him and he wasn't going to cry in front of Syd. She probably already thinks so lowly of him, after everything he put her through. He still felt indebted to her. "And I just don't want you mixed up in that."

"Well, good news! I'm black and I like to mind my business so we're golden. Now let's go inside, it's getting chilly." Carmy surprised himself with laughter making Syd crack a prideful smile. She grabbed his hand once more finding it a lot less shaky.

The dining room table was grand, littered with masterfully prepared dishes. The gift of cooking obviously ran in the family. Each of them took their place at the table. Syd's eyes trailed the room, beginning at the head of the table and moving counterclockwise. There was Donna who was on her third glass of whiskey followed by Sugar. Sugar's eyes were worried as she looked at her husband, Peter, who held their new addition in his lap. Next to Peter was Carmy who hadn't looked up from his plate yet. At the end directly across from Donna sat Sydney. She was a natural against the brut energy Donna gave off. Across from Carmy sat Richie who was going on and on about some MMA fight, his mouth filled with pasta. Sydney commented on it twice in disgust. Following Richie was Fak who wasn't invited but heard about the dinner and just decided to show up with some girl who seemed to mirror his energy.

Things continued smoothly as time lazily dragged behind them. The much-awaited grand finale usually took place during dessert. Donna was soon to amass their attention. Carmy braced himself as they all dug into their desserts. A nervous glance was shared between him and Natalie.

The lack of conversation could be heard. Silence in the Berzatto house was always so, so loud. The Berzattos were not quiet people, even Sydney knew nothing good lay ahead.

"So Sydney!" Donna began fondly, now beginning to consume her seventh glass of alcohol. She'd begun mixing brown and white two cups ago. "I want to know more about you, who is Chef Sydney the girl who stole our Bear's heart, and put up with him for a whole year!"

She could feel the shift in Carmy's energy, which naturally threw hers off but she quickly recovered.

"I'm from here, erm Chicago. And I've loved cooking since I can remember." She gives the blond woman a tight-lipped grin.

"Short, sweet, and to the point!" Donna chuckled, loudly. It went on for a second too long. "You gotta tell me, what's your secret for dealing with a basketcase like Carmy Berzatto? Because I tell you.."

An awkward silence descended down the table until it reached Sydney, who brushed it off easily. She glanced at Carmy, his eyes avoided hers as discontentment filled them. Upon closer inspection, she could see anger beginning to turn his face red. "Actually, it's been pretty easy." They matched eyes before she confidently turned to Donna. "He's an amazing person. He's attentive and caring he always takes time to listen and he's a big softie beneath all of that... machismo" She teased. lightly. "I've never worked with a chef so dedicated. So gifted-"

"Gifted?" Donna quirked a brow, almost mockingly.

"He cooks like... like nothing I've ever seen before, well 'tasted' before. I don't think he's ever made a bad dish in his life. It's what made me fall in love with him." His smile was small but present. It was reserved, only for her to see.

'You mean that?' He just barely tilted his chin.

'I've got you.' She gently nods once.

“Our big successful chef.” Donna interrupted their silent discussion. Sydney turned to her as her smile morphed into an unwelcoming snarl. Where fondness slept envy roared alive. “Too big to come and say hi to his mama bear.” Her fork clanked against her plate. The sound was reminiscent of swords being drawn, ready to head into battle.

”Hey, Donna could you tell me the tiramisu recipe?” Richie attempted to steer her attention away. "It's good as hell! Fak pass me the dish-"

”Ask bear!” She grinned at him. “It’s Mikey’s recipe the one he came up with alongside Carm!”

The table sat still, each head hesitantly turning towards Carmy. Richie found the table while Sugar attentively examined Donna. Peter examined Sugar, their babbling baby in his arms blissfully unaware of the building tensions. Sydney didn’t know why but Carmy looked so small. Not like himself. Her hand reached for his under the table, his touch made her shiver. Slowly, she pulled his hand to rest in her lap, cupped within hers. She placed her other hand above his cocooning his hand in her warmth and protection.

He sighed deeply as he looked into Sydney’s encouraging brown eyes. He remained looking at her as he spoke. “Mikey loved using half heavy cream half coconut cream. We figured it out one day when we didn’t have enough heavy cream," He finally gathered the strength to face his mother. "It came out perfect and we never changed.” Appreciative sounds filtered around the table.

“Oh, Carm.” Donna's laugh grew until it drowned out the room's quiet chattering. Her laugh dangerously teetered towards the sound of crying. The longer it went on the more Syd questioned if she was actually laughing or crying. Donna's hair covered her face and her hands trembled as she vibrated with sarcastic joy. “You are so special!” She clasped her hands together sending an echo around the room. “So special that you missed your own brother's funeral!” Her throat churned out louder and louder gurgling laughter until she fell into a coughing fit.

"Here Mom let's drink some water." Sugar handed her the cup of water Donna refused to touch all night.

"I don't need water!" The liquid splashed Natalie's legs as it fell to the ground under Donna's hand. "Go be useful and start the dishes!" She waved her hand behind her, not bothering to spare Sugar a passing glance.

Carmy exited the table, escaping from the world he so desperately wanted to leave. Donna was none the wiser, the alcohol content in her blood had exceeded normal levels and only her words were important in this moment. Each face surrounding the table was shadowed by the light of her vigor. Her stage was set and she was not going to let the moment pass without earning a standing ovation. Sydney turned to Sugar who darted her eyes in the direction Carmy went, silently telling her to follow. Which she did.

He sat on the steps of the house face buried in his hands. Without looking up he stuttered out. "P-please just leave, you shouldn't" He shook his head looking out at the street in front of him. "I never wanted you involved with this part of my life. Now you see why."

"Carmy." She slowly squeezed next to him, gently grasping his shaking hands almost instantly stilling them. "You are not your mother." She ducked her head catching his red eyes. His lashes were wet and his face flushed. "You're you, you're one of the best chefs at the best restaurant in Chicago if you ask me."

That earned her a chuckle, which she enjoyed. Warmth radiated through her chest when he grinned at her, despite his tears.

"How do you always know what to say?" He knocked her knee with his.

"Because, Chef, you're my Executive Chef I'm supposed to know you inside and out."

That seemed to sober him up and dry his tears. He'd forgotten that they weren't where they used to be. Not at all. Still, the words she used to effectively end their ten-month relationship replayed in his mind when he'd sit alone with his thoughts for too long.

"I think we just need to set some boundaries."

"Boundaries?" He repeated incredulously, tilting his head. "What do you even mean by that Syd?"

"We can't be together and run The Bear together, it's not working."

"Syd, you sound-"

"I sound what Carmen?" She narrowed her eyes challenging him.

"Afraid." He replied honestly. "You're just afraid, but that's okay because I am too." His hands wrapped around hers, pulling her closer to him with a gentle tug. Brown and blue watched each other, their noses brushed. His lips ghosted across hers and they tingled at the feeling. She was feet away from him when he blinked again, pulled from the haze they often created when in close proximity to one another.

"I'll clean out my drawer tonight." She left out the door before he could argue. He watched her go. That was all he could do. She left him, his lover, his soulmate, the one thing he thought he'd gotten right... she left him.

"Earth to Carmy." She snapped her fingers pulling back his focus. "Dude you gotta stop staring at me like that." She teased but he saw her throat move alongside a nervous gulp.

"Sorry, I just..." He shrugged. "I'm just happy that you're in my life still after" He waved his hand. "After everything. You're the only sure thing I have."

These were the times Sydney felt her defenses were down. That all of the hard work she put in to get over him was simply a farce. A mask she wore to avoid the deep-cutting pain that their separation left her with. He just had to look at her, sick those intense eyes on her and she was suspended in his delicate grasp. He was saying so much. Professing his love, apologizing for whatever, begging her to come back. She felt it all, she read it all just from a simple gaze. She hadn't realized her eyes had fallen closed until his nose brushed up against hers, and her lungs sucked air in begging for the burning to stop. She could feel gentle bursts of air tickling her glossy lips and he'd begun to feel a hint of stickiness rubbing against his.

"Carmen!" Donna burst through the door ruining what they'd just created. The rest of the dinner table was in tow. Their faces were worried, they'd obviously been trying to talk her out of going outside. But Donna was a Berzatto and you didn't tell a Berzatto what to do. "I just came to apologize." She stumbled forward as Carmy stood to his feet to catch her. "I ruin everything." She sniffled, mascara-dyed tears trailing her face. "I'm sorry Sydney." She turned to the stunned girl, nearing her to pull her into a hug but Carmy grasped his mothers' arm pulling her back.

"Let's go to bed ma." He began leading her back inside without another word.

Syd watched them go, feeling pangs of sadness in her chest as Carmy and Richie helped her to bed.

"Claire said she was sober the last time she came to dinner." Fak's friend, Kelly, whispered her statement to Fak but Sydney heard. Sugar knew that Sydney heard because her eyes widened along with hers.

"Wait, Claire? As in Carmy's ex-whatever?" Syd questioned as her brow twitched, the warmth that spread across her face was due to something other than nervousness now.

"I feel like I said something I shouldn't 've." Kelly's eyes widened as they bounced between each of them. She awkwardly cleared her throat before slowly turning away and walking back to the dining room.

"Hold on, come back-" Sydney started to follow her but Natalie stopped her.

"A few weeks back Carmy brought Claire to dinner," She informed her before quickly adding, "He said it was innocent and they just randomly ran into each other."

She shouldn't care. She really shouldn't. They weren't together anymore and this was all fake. He had his own life and he was obviously living it. She had her own life and she had to start living it sooner or later. It's her fault for thinking highly of a man with deep-seated mommy issues anyway.

"It's fine." She pressed her lips together in a thin line. If Sugar was Carmy she'd be poking and prodding her for additional information. She'd see right through her mystique and ask what the fuck was up. But Sugar was not Carmy, she accepted Syd's answer and went back to the dining room.

The man of the hour walked back in, his face drained of energy. Richie patted his back before leaving for the living room. She wanted to be angry at him, but fuck he still held the key to her heart and he refused to return it. The fucker.

"Let'g go." He said just above a whisper and they went.

The car ride was quiet, aside from Carmy's outdated radio that played early 2000s pop through static. It wasn't until he pulled up to her house that the silence was sliced open. 

"Okay, what is it?" He shifted gears and turned to her.

"I don't know what you're talking about." She crossed her arms. He kept secrets she could keep secrets too.

"Sydney..." He huffed. "Please, just tell me, it's been a long day."

"Fak's friend said that Claire was at dinner with you and your family a few weeks ago?"

He paused pursing his lips. "Yeah, we uh ran into each other and-and she's a family friend so" He shrugged.

"Right, right" Sydney slowly nodded, her patience was running thinner by the second. "So, just a silly question!"

Carmy braced preparing himself. "What's up?"

"Why didn't you just bring her to dinner? I could've fucked off and spent my night with someone else. With Marcus or-"

"Marcus?" He cut her off. "What is it, are you two together or something? I've noticed how close you two have gotten." He challenged. "Funnily enough it was right after you left me."

"That's none of your business Carm!" She rolled her eyes, deciding to not dignify his accusation with a response. "I'm just saying, next time bother her with your odd jobs. I'm sure she's great at jobs!"

“Look nobody twisted your arm, okay?” He ignored her crude joke, voice raising only slightly. But in the tight space of his car, the smallest inflection made all the difference. He knows better than to raise his voice at her. “You willingly came."

“You might as well have twisted my arm! You put on that forlorn face. The one that makes you look like a wounded puppy-“

“Nice” He scoffs. “Really nice. Look just go, get out of my car.” He reached across her and opened the door. Her perfume clogged his nose and all he could do was think about how angry the smell made him. How she took it away and dangled it above him day in and day out. How she didn't even leave so much as a t-shirt with her lingering scent. One he could press against his face and inhale on the nights he missed her the most. He couldn't stop thinking about how someone else was enjoying her scent instead of him. How someone else got to see her more than him and listen to her ramble on and on about cooking and anything else that popped into her head. He couldn't help but feel bitter, it should be him.

“Yeah, whatever” She slams his door and rushes towards her apartment. On days like these, she wished her dad was behind the door waiting for her with his comforting smile. Ready to soothe whatever ill feelings she was experiencing. But when she unlocked her door she was met with darkness and silence. She was alone.

She’d just taken her shoes off and thrown her purse on the kitchen island when she felt a shift in energy. The air was thick and a creek sounded from the front of the apartment. He sighed heavily, it emanated from the cracks in the door. He knocks softly as if he didn’t want her to hear.

She stared at the partition, internally debating on what she should do. Perhaps if she stood as still as a statue, he’d surmise she was in the shower or didn’t hear him and leave.

“Come on Syd I know you’re there.” His thick accent made his words stick together.

“Weirdo.” She muttered sauntering to the door and swinging it open. Ugh, there goes those eyes again. 

“I heard that” He brushed past her and into the dimly lit apartment. “Look, I-“ He shakes his head, placing a closed fist over his chest. They hadn’t done it in a while. It felt way too intimate after their breakup. But drastic times called for drastic measures. He must've known how easily that'd make her turn to mush. “I’m sorry. Sorry I yelled and guilted you into coming to dinner and for being shitty in the car-“

“Woah woah woah slow down Carm” She meets him further in her home, clicking on a soft light. The golden glow created a halo above his head. “You call that yelling? I’ve endured much worse from you.”

“Unfucking believable! “ He throws his hands in defeat. “Can’t you just be quiet for like 10 seconds while I apologize? “

“Oh, this is an apology“ She points to nothing in particular. “It's great Carm, keep going!” He released a heavy sigh through his nose. Her brown eyes reflected the light and softened her hard gaze. Her deep skin glistened under the low lighting making her appear enchanted. Like something out of a Renaissance painting.

“God, you’re insufferable and stubborn." How could someone so breathtaking get under his skin like this?

She ignored the clarifying beauty he naturally possessed, nothing was going to distract her from what she needed to say. “You’re neurotic and have anger issues! Maybe take a therapist to dinner next time.“

“I wish I never fucking hired you!” He yells.

“I regret ever walking into that shithole!” She fires back.

He breathes taking in the gravity of her words. “So, that’s really how you feel?”

She ignores his inquiry because no she doesn’t feel that way. She counts the day she walked into The Beef as one of the best things that ever happened to her. But he didn’t need to know that. “Look I was waiting for the right time to tell you but," She takes a deep breath, preparing herself. "I’m leaving.”

“What? The Bear?” He felt like he’d just been gut-punched “I don't understand. You can’t leave?”

“I’m leaving, Carmen.” She stands her ground, on trembling legs, but she still stood her ground.

He blinked a few times feeling tremors of anxiety climbing his arms. “W-when?”

“Next month.” Her voice cracked. "I was offered a great position in LA and I'm staging there soon. Look, I've been scouting CDC's and I found a reliable one. He's hard-working and... Carm?"

He hadn't realized he was shaking until she gently touched his forearm. He jumped away as if her touch burned him. Their uneven breathing filled the room with sound. The distant sounds of cicadas screamed outside and the air conditioning clicked on before she decided to continue speaking. “Carm say something?”

“You can’t leave.” He repeats which made Sydney rolls her eyes. 

“I thought once upon a time that I’d never leave. That you… that we’d have The Bear as our baby forever but,” She blinks back tears, she’d die before he’d get to see her cry. “Things change and people change. Plus you just said you wish you never hired me."

“So this is it?” He mutters giving her those pleading eyes again. “That’s just it for us?”

“Yeah,” She slowly nods, brushing her hand over his. No matter what went on between them they seemed to have a force between them. Pulling them closer and closer without either realizing it. "This is it, I'll be out of your hair in a month.

“This can’t be it, Chef,” He says mere inches from her face. His eyes trail to her lips that sat waiting for him. “Look, I-I need you.” She could only gulp feeling the intensity of the situation set in. After their breakup things were sore for a while but they had lives to live. They never had a chance to double back, to have one last hoorah before lights out. "Sydney. I thank god every day that you walked into The Beef and accepted that position. I don't want you out of my hair."

“You don’t need me-“

“I do need you.”

"The Bear was always yours."

"It's ours. I can't imagine sharing it- this, with anybody else. Sydney." He slightly shook his head. "Don't do this, baby."

Maybe it’d undo all of the work they put into trying to hate each other. Trying to forget about the other's touch or the feeling of their lips on each other. But they could no longer deny what they wanted to do so badly. His hands still felt right around her, pulling her closer. His lips still fit perfectly against hers. She still loved to jump up into his muscular arms and wrap her legs around him. He preened at the feeling of her back in his arms like this, kissing him like nothing ever happened. She sunk into the soft foam of her bed as he laid her back and proceeded to climb over her. His mouth hovered over hers, hesitantly he opened his eyes in an effort to read her. The girl who stole his heart (and one day his last name) was still so hard to read. But at this moment she was open her eyes were honest. She wanted him as much as he wanted her. Carnally. His yearning was near animalistic at this point. Not being able to kiss her and taste her for seven and a half weeks was making him go crazy, but here she was. His fix, waiting for him to make the next move.

"Syd, I...I don't want this to be just sex." He confessed. "I want you back. I'll do anything, I'll change anything. Just please, don't leave me." Her brown eyes flashed with something he couldn't put his finger on but her smile made his heart flutter. Her hand was soft as it gently ran over his ear and neck, despite the burns and cuts she endured over the years. He recalled her once saying shea butter kept her hands soft. She always smelled of it and this time was no different.

"Let's just enjoy this, yeah?" She leaned up kissing him as her arms pulled him against her body. His mind yelled at him to stop talking and enjoy the moment, but how could he if she was just going to walk right out of his life after?

They touched and kissed and rubbed against each other until Syd found herself on top of him. Her heat pressed against the stiffness that pressed against his jeans. Her sounds were intoxicating when his hands gripped her hips and controlled the speed of her gyrations. Over and over again she ground against him chasing sweet pleasure. He could stay like this forever. They both knew that. He never came in his boxers until she walked into his life and sat in his lap. She pulled away, desire in her eyes as she worked to open his jeans.

"Boles de Picolat." She says as her warm hand wrapped around him and began moving up and down.

"Fuck" He groaned. "Are you seriously thinking about the menu, now?" He panted already seeing spots. He hadn't had sex or even masturbated after their breakup, so he was embarrassingly close to coming from less than ten strokes of her hand.

She slinked down his body and made him curse god as her warm mouth sucked him in. His eyes rolled when his leaking tip pressed against the back of her throat. Her velvety smooth mouth swallowed him down as her throat gagged from the spurts of come dripping out of him. "Sorrysorrysorry" He wasn't sorry. His hips twitched as she continued worshiping him, he was still hard and ready to feel her all over.

"I didn't want to forget." She giggled innocently, his dick still twitching in her hand which made Carmy feel all types of hot. He gently grabbed her hand and pulled her back to him so he could kiss her. He tasted the saltiness of his release lingering on her tongue, but he didn't mind. "Also don't apologize. The point is to come." She yelped when he rolled them over. His shirt was the first to go followed by her cardigan. Her dress came off as he leaned back down to kiss that adorable smile off of her face.

"How many?" He questioned as he kissed down her body. He could smell her arousal mixing with the mango and vanilla of her perfume. He kissed her clothed valley, feeling just how turned on she was through the lacey fabric.

"How many what?" She questioned.

"How many times do you think I can make you come?" He used his finger to push her panties aside so he can finally taste her. He moaned like a little bitch when her tangy cream melted on his tongue.

She whimpered, trying her hardest to keep her legs open but it was becoming harder with each pass of his tongue. Her thighs were pressing against his ears, vibrating in no time.

Like the ocean kissing the shore, he rolled his tongue over her swollen bud relishing in the high pitch sounds mewling from her mouth. He loved her like this. She walked around The Bear like she was the toughest thing out of Chicago. Never taking time to relax and rest. But Carmy knew just how to sedate her. He knew how to turn her brain to mush so she had no choice but to relax under him. He hadn't realized he'd forgotten to remove his rings until his fingers were knuckles deep inside of her, but by the volume of her moans, she didn't mind. She constricted his fingers as he pressed over and over against that sweet spot within her. He pulled back to observe at her pulsating entrance mesmerized at the beauty of her body. God why the fuck was he jealous of his own fingers. Her hips jerked and her cunt pulsated rapidly as her first orgasm washed over her.

She didn't have time to fully recover. When she blinked he was lining himself up at her entrance, his red, leaking tip rubbing her over throbbing clit.

"Carmy,-" She began, tone unreadable. As it usually was. She was always so worried. He cut her off by shoving his fingers soiled with her pleasure into her mouth. She deserved to experience how good she tasted.

"Sh, just enjoy it." He slowly pressed into her loving the dazed look that overtook her face. She nodded obeying his command as he began gaining pace. He removed his fingers when she moaned filthily head thrown back in ecstasy.

"Fuckfuckfuck" She breathed already feeling another orgasm climbing her body. His pace accelerated pulling her leg a bit higher on his hip so he could fuck her through her second orgasm.

"That's it" He encouraged against the shell of her ear. "Let go, love." His groan matched hers as she squeezed him, writhing through another orgasm. Her moans were growing louder and louder as he continued fucking into her at the same pace. Her thighs were touching her belly now as his hands held her legs up. A simple glance down at his hands commanding her body made her sensitive rose throb with pleasure. "Again, already?" He couldn't help but chuckle.

"Fuck you-" Her words were cut off when he adjusted his angle and found some hidden button that made her words slur into unintelligible stuttering. He grinned watching her let go again, this time pushing him closer to the edge.

"You're so beautiful" He panted feeling his orgasm creep up his body. "You're my beautiful- fuck- my beautiful girl, all mine." He let an embarrassing noise echo through the room as he released long white stripes inside of her. She met his thrusts wanting to draw his orgasm out as long as possible. His throat was raw as he gulped down air trying to regain his composure but tremors of his release were still running through his body like an electrical current.

Later that evening they lay beside one another in her bed. She rested against his chest and he inhaled the sweet smell of her hair feeling his heart burst. Then something hit him.

"Earlier you started saying something but I stopped you," He could hear the tiredness in his voice. "What were you going to say?"

She hummed drawing a circle on his chest with her finger. He kissed her forehead. Since he'd gotten her back in his arms he couldn't stop adorning her face with kisses. "That I uh...I was just gonna say, I love you."

He figured. It still freaked him out how well they knew each other. "I love you too."

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Hi everyone :3

Sydney here!! Made an alt blog to spam cute birds to! (Not SFW, but will reblog just literally any birds I come across) Sometimes spammy, but will mostly queue up posts I've delved very deep into the tags for some pics, so let me know if there's any old art I accidently post you want removed, or warn me if any pieces end up being AI!

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Clarence explores a project in Western Sydney providing a crucial corridor for native plants and wildlife.

Clarence is in the Western Sydney Parkland, Australia’s largest urban park, which covers 5,000ha of facilities, attractions and bushland, all set aside for public use alongside some of Sydney’s biggest new developments.

It’s quite leafy now but in the 1950s the area was all bare paddocks.

Environment Manager David Kirkland explains how the open spaces are being planned.

In some areas, where a lot of superphosphates had been used and there were lots of weeds, the topsoil was stripped back to remove the chemicals and weed seeds, then it was reseed with native grasses and wildflowers.

The plan is to recreate the original ecology of the Cumberland Plains, much of which has been mostly lost as Sydney has expanded. They cover 1400ha now and are aiming for 2,000ha.

“The other year alone, I planted up well over 60,000 trees,” David says.

Beyond recreational activities, it's also the green lungs of the area, helping to cool the West in the heat of the summer months and reduce heat island effect.

There is even a patch of dry rainforest in a gully where it is protected from sun and wind. David aims to recreate this habitat in other gullies.

One of the biggest threats David and his team face is invasive species. African olive (Olea europea subsp. cuspidata) is a major problem, producing 20,000 seeds per plant per year, all perfect sized for birds to eat and drop, forming a dense monoculture that is hard to eradicate.

However some areas have been cleared, with a lot of effort, proving it can be done – eventually!

Bringing back cultural burns involving by local community is a goal for the team.

About 1500 ha of bushland has been restored, and biobanking local species for conservation is another key goal.

About 20ha is set aside to focus on diversity and habitat, and already some plant species are reappearing and local fauna returning.

Future plans include creating wildlife corridors under the adjacent freeway to link it to other corridors.

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Mavournee Hazel’s NCIS Sydney character Blue Bird (AKA Blue) may be a forensic pathologist like NCIS icon Abby Sciuto (Pauley Perrette); however, that’s where the similarities end.

Speaking to Mediaweek before the November 10 premiere of the Paramount+ series, Hazel admitted that she hoped “fans remove themselves from that comparison”.

“I think comparison is the thief of joy,” she said before adding that she was “aware” that this may happen.

“I never thought I’d be in a position where I would be playing a role like Blue that is compared to someone like Abby’s iconic cultural resetting character,” she said. “Obviously there are similarities in what we do, but straight from the get-go, our team behind the scenes were so considered and thoughtful in how they wanted Blue to be different, and that she wasn’t going to be Abby and that she is her own person.”

In the classic NCIS style that die-hard fans know and love, Blue’s character will evolve as we learn more about her and her backstory.

“Hopefully people love her as much as Abby,” she said.

(l-r) Mavournee Hazel and Pauley Perette. Paramount+

Who is Blue, Mavournee Hazel’s NCIS Sydney character

For the 27-year-old, Blue Bird, as a character, is a blessing.

“She was part of an upcoming forensic Outreach Programme with the AFP, the Australian Federal Police, and she’s brought into the team by chance because their usual go-to forensic scientist can’t quite make it. So, Blue gets the opportunity to show the team what she can do,” she said.

“She’s such a genuine, authentic character, and she’s so intelligent to a degree that I don’t think we fully even touched on in this season.” 

L-R: William McInnes, Sean Sagar, Tuuli Narkle, Todd Lasance, Olivia Swann and Mavournee Hazel, NCIS Sydney Cast. Paramount+

William McInnes and Mavournee Hazel visited the AFP

While Hazel is a key member of the core cast, the actor she spends the most time with is William McInnes who plays AFP Forensic Pathologist Dr. Roy Penrose. Given his tenure in the Australian TV and Film landscape, it was a joy to work with him and they even got to visit the working Australian Federal Police labs.

“That was amazing,” she exclaimed. “We got to go into the labs and see what they do there to protect the borders. It was fascinating seeing them analysing certain materials because Blue gets to do as well. I learned a lot from seeing them.

She added: “I was also so surprised by how many young women were actually in these labs and go into the forensic world that is a little bit more male-dominated.”

Mavournee Hazel and William McInnes, Paramount+

Blue’s dedicated set 

Mediaweek was fortunate to visit the set of NCIS Sydney during filming, with one warehouse that housed three different sets on a Sydney wharf.

Blue’s lab in particular was a stand-out, with some of the most intricate details with a nod to the character’s quirky personality and style.

For Hazel, it was just as thrilling.

“I think I cried when I saw it for the first time, because, it was also my first day on set and to have a whole set dedicated to my character. She’s such an apologetic person who doesn’t want to take up any space and to have permission to be like, this is your nest, it was amazing.”

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Can Pressure Washing Remove Bird Droppings From The Lawn Or Patio?

Bird droppings might initially seem harmless, but there's more to them than just being gross. In their sitting on your lawn for an extended period, they can damage your grass as they are acidic and burn grass blades.

This is more than just a view; in most cases, droppings spread bacteria that end up ruining your surfaces when untreated. Someone does not also want to step on them while enjoying his or her outdoor space! Now are pressure washing services Sydney really the cure-all?

How pressure washing can help

Pressure washing is one of the most effective means to remove bird droppings, especially from patios and hard surfaces. Lawn care experts near me can use high-pressure water blasts to blast away dried or stubborn droppings without necessarily scrubbing them off.

On a lawn, however, pressure washing services Sydney have to be a bit more careful. Grass is much softer than concrete so the force of a pressure washer can destroy the blades or even uproot patches of grass if you are not careful.

Best practices pressure washing

Before you hire lawn care experts near me with a pressure washer and start blasting, here's what you ought to know.

Correct nozzle: fan nozzles are best at distributing water pressure evenly without any damage.

Lowest pressure level: begin using lower pressure and increase, if necessary; this is especially advisable on more fragile surfaces.

Pre-Soaking Stubborn Spots: If the droppings are particularly dried or crusty, pre-soak them with water and a little soap to loosen them up before pressure washing.

Eco-Friendly Detergents: For patios, consider using a biodegradable cleaner that won't harm nearby plants or soil.

Alternatives for delicate areas

Professionals from My Clean Cartel also use warm water, mild dish soap, and a soft-bristle brush to manually clean the area. Such a method is still labor-intensive, but it is safer for lawns.

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9 Tips To Prepare Your Garden For Spring

As the colder months give way to warmer days, it's time to get your garden ready for the vibrant season ahead. Spring is a period of renewal, and with a little effort and help from tree services Sydney experts, you can ensure your outdoor space thrives.

Whether you’re a seasoned gardener or just starting, the tips in this guide will help you make the most of the season.

Clean Up Debris and Old Plants

Winter can leave behind a mess of fallen leaves, broken branches, and dead plants. Start by clearing away all the debris to provide a clean slate for new growth. This cleanup also helps reduce the risk of pests and diseases, as many can overwinter in the remnants of old vegetation. Dispose of the debris properly, and if possible, add it to your compost pile to recycle nutrients back into the soil.

Prepare and Enrich the Soil

Healthy soil is the foundation of a thriving garden. Test your soil’s pH and nutrient levels to determine what amendments are needed. Add organic matter such as compost or well-rotted manure to enrich the soil. Turn the soil over to aerate it and break up compacted areas, ensuring good drainage and root growth. Mulching at this stage can also help retain moisture and suppress weeds.

Plan Your Planting Layout

Spring is the perfect time to rethink your garden layout. Consider the sunlight, shade, and space requirements of the plants you intend to grow. Group plants with similar water and nutrient needs together for easier maintenance. Incorporate a mix of flowers, vegetables, and herbs to create a visually appealing and functional garden.

Prune and Trim Overgrown Plants

Late winter or early spring is an ideal time to prune shrubs and other perennials. Trimming encourages healthy growth and improves the shape of plants. Remove any dead, damaged, or diseased branches to prevent problems later in the season. For flowering plants, research whether they bloom on old or new wood to avoid cutting off potential blossoms.

Start Planting Seeds and Bulbs

Spring is synonymous with planting. Start seeds indoors or directly sow them into the ground, depending on the plant’s requirements. Hardy vegetables like lettuce and peas can be planted early, while warm-season crops such as tomatoes may need to wait until the threat of frost has passed. For vibrant blooms, consider planting bulbs like tulips and daffodils now so they’ll be ready to showcase their beauty as spring progresses.

Install or Repair Irrigation Systems

A well-functioning irrigation system is crucial for maintaining a healthy garden, especially as temperatures rise. Check hoses, sprinklers, and drip systems for any leaks or blockages. Clean out nozzles and replace damaged parts as necessary. Adjust the watering schedule to suit the changing weather conditions, ensuring plants receive adequate hydration without overwatering.

Control Weeds Early

Weeds can quickly take over if left unchecked. Spring is the best time to address them before they become a significant problem. Hand-pull weeds or use tools to remove them from the root to prevent regrowth. Apply a layer of mulch to suppress weed growth and retain soil moisture. Staying on top of weeds now will save you time and effort later in the season.

Feed Your Plants

As plants emerge from dormancy, they’ll need a boost of nutrients to support new growth. Apply a balanced fertiliser suited to the specific needs of your plants. For vegetables and flowering plants, choose fertilisers high in nitrogen and phosphorus. Organic options like bone meal or fish emulsion can provide a more sustainable alternative. Be careful not to over-fertilise, as this can harm plants and lead to nutrient runoff.

Add Decorative and Functional Elements

Spring is a wonderful time to enhance your garden’s aesthetic appeal. Consider adding features like pathways, garden beds, or decorative edging to define spaces. Install bird feeders or pollinator-friendly plants to attract beneficial wildlife. Functional additions such as raised beds or trellises can improve productivity and organisation in your garden. Thoughtfully placed decorations can also create a welcoming atmosphere.

By following these tips, your garden will be well-prepared to embrace the joys of spring. With a little effort now, you’ll be rewarded with a lush, thriving outdoor space that provides beauty, food, and relaxation throughout the season. Happy gardening!

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Gardne Life in 2025

“The time to relax is when you don't have time for it.” ~ Sydney J. Harris

January, the month of winter sleep, offers gardeners the opportunity to dream, plan, and imagine. There is not much work to be done in our gardens, but we can still begin to chart the days ahead so that we’ll be able to share the bounty from our efforts.  The new year is a time to re-evaluate everything we do. As gardeners, we can begin anew, too.

Although you may feel like you have too much to do, make time to relax and refresh. Curl up with a cup of tea brewed from your homegrown Meyer lemon and spearmint, grab your favorite seed catalogs or garden books, and discover new water-conserving cultivars for the year.  You can plan patio hardscapes incorporating rocks, bricks, and cobbles instead of flower beds. If you have the space, design a meditative maze in your garden. Prune a few budding branches from your peach or crab apple tree and put them in a vase to watch their blossoms unfurl. For a scent-filled room of sweetness, cut a bouquet of narcissus to place by your bedside for the deepest tranquil rest. For kindness to our fine-feathered friends, design a “Bird Branch” on a deciduous tree or an old stump, hanging feeders, and nests for those cold winter nights. 

Every new year, I ask myself, “Why do I love to garden?” I know my reasons. Ask any gardener, and you’ll get a multitude of various answers, but a few are universal. We garden because it feeds our bodies, minds, and souls. Gardening offers us a way to connect, to remember, and to share.

January offers us the chance for a new beginning. To your list of resolutions, include spending more time in nature while you drink in the beauty. Decide to compost, recycle, collect rainwater for watering, and grow organic vegetables, herbs, and fruits.  Exercise your body, mind, and soul by digging deep.  Be grateful for what we already have.  Relating to the earth reminds us that despite turbulent times, we can survive and thrive. Go into the garden to be nurtured by nature.

Perform the necessary chores, then take the time to chill out! It’s winter. Nature is sleeping and you need to take a break, too.

Hello 2025!

 Cynthia Brian’s Goddess Gardener Garden Guide for January

FERTILIZE the entire landscape with a slow-release all-natural fertilizer. 

ADD better drainage to any potted plants you received as holiday

gifts by removing the wrapping paper. Trim the spent blossoms,

water deeply and fertilize.

BRING budding cymbidium orchids indoors to display.

APPLY elemental sulfur to the soil around your acid-loving plants such as the

azaleas, citrus, and camellias. This will break down slowly over the next year and

will help keep the soil in these areas at the optimal PH for plant color and health.

PRUNE roses, crape myrtles, and deciduous fruit trees by the end

of the month. 

BUY bare-root rose bushes. Soak in water for a day before planting.

Cut off any damaged or broken roots. Plant the bud union three

inches above the ground. 

TREAT houseplants with a warm shower and shake. Indoor heat dries

the roots, leaves, and fronds, especially those of ferns.

PICK ripe and tangy navel oranges, Meyer lemons, and tangelos,

and use the rest of your persimmons.

WATCH for snow plants to sprout in the Sierras.

PERUSE seed catalogs available now to determine what you want to plant in spring.

ADD a bowl of freshly picked Meyer lemons to your countertop as a useful culinary display.

REMOVE the longer canes from wisteria.

COVER frost-tender plants with burlap, sheets, newspaper, or straw. Be on the alert for swift temperature swings.

FEED the birds. Baby, it’s cold outside and our birds need food and shelter. Make sure to clean your birdhouses and feeders regularly.

WATCH for rats and mice. As the cold weather begins, vermin seek a warm bed and easy-to-find food. 

CHECK plants that you’ve brought inside for the winter for any insect infestation.

APPLY organic snail and slug bait (Sluggo), as these mollusks are active during winter.

CLEAN the dead leaves from the bearded iris to prevent rot and insect hideouts.

PLANT a cover crop to increase nitrogen and protect again winter erosion. Fava beans, clover, vetch, and mustard are excellent choices. To find seeds visit www.rareseeds.com or www.sowtrueseed.com.

GIVE the gift of my book, Growing with the Goddess Gardener, twelve months of inspiration and gardening tips to sustain your inner gardener with a full year of kindness and happiness in nature. Buy directly from www.cynthiabrian.com/online-storewith proceeds benefiting charity PLUS you’ll receive extra goodies and an autographed copy.

Happy Gardening. Happy Growing. Happy New Year!

See photos at Substack: https://cynthiabrian.substack.com/p/welcome-to-2025-gardening-life?

For more gardening advice for all seasons, check out Growing with the Goddess Gardener at https://www.CynthiaBrian.com/books. Raised in the vineyards of Napa County, Cynthia Brian is a New York Times best-selling author, actor, radio personality, speaker, media and writing coach, as well as the Founder and Executive Director of Be the Star You Are!® 501 c3, which was just honored as the 2024 Nonprofit of the Year by the Moraga Chamber of Commerce. https://www.BetheStarYouAre.org . Tune into Cynthia’s StarStyle® Radio Broadcast at https://www.StarStyleRadio.com. Her newest children’s picture book, Books in the Barnyard: Oh Deer!, from the series Stella Bella’s Barnyard Adventures is available at https://www.CynthiaBrian.com/online-store. Hire Cynthia for writing projects, garden consults, and inspirational lectures. Cynthia@GoddessGardener.com  https://www.CynthiaBrian.com

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Why Solar in Sydney Is a Good Idea

Solar energy systems are a great way to save money on electricity bills. They can also reduce greenhouse gas emissions and are a renewable source of power. However, it’s important to do your research before purchasing a system.

The STC rebate can significantly lower your upfront costs. In addition, you can sell excess power back to the grid and earn a feed-in tariff.

Costs

Solar in Sydney energy is a clean, renewable and efficient form of power that can help reduce electricity bills. It also helps reduce greenhouse gas emissions and reliance on fossil fuels. In Australia, there are a number of rebates and incentives to encourage homeowners to adopt solar energy. These incentives can significantly reduce the cost of a solar system and reduce its payback period.

The price of a solar system is influenced by several factors, including the technology used and the size of the installation. Generally, a 6kW solar panel system costs $5,500 to $8,500. However, you can find many companies that offer affordable and competitive prices.

Some companies even provide a free consultation to ensure you are getting the best value for your money. This is especially true if you’re considering purchasing an offgrid system. Moreover, you can get the most out of your solar system by pairing it with a battery storage solution. This is called a symbiotic system, and it will save you money in the long run.

Eligibility

The NSW government has made solar energy more accessible for households on a low income. Eligible households can apply for a free 3kW solar system, which could save them up to $600 per year – more than twice the amount of the Low Income Household Rebate. This offer is available in the Bayside, Burwood, Campbelltown City, Canterbury-Bankstown, Liverpool City, Macarthur Region, Strathfield Municipal and Sutherland Shire local government areas.

Homeowners can save money and help the environment by switching to solar electrician power in Sydney. Solar power provides a cheaper alternative to electricity from the grid and reduces carbon emissions. In addition, a residential solar power system can increase the value of a property.

Solar energy is a great option for Sydney residents due to the city’s abundant sunshine and generous rebates. However, it is important to understand the energy requirements of your household before installing a solar panel system. Also, it is essential to choose a reliable and accredited retailer that can help you navigate the rebate process.

Installation

Sydney is an ideal place to invest in solar power, thanks to its sunny climate and government incentives. Embracing solar energy can save you money on your electricity bills and minimize environmental impact. It also helps reduce reliance on fossil fuels and lowers greenhouse gas emissions.

Various companies provide solar services and products to help Australians make the switch to renewable energy. These include Beyond Solar, which offers transparency into the world of solar energy and estimates how much a homeowner can expect to save on their electricity bills. Other companies offer solar inverters, which allow homeowners to capture the sun’s rays and convert them into electricity.

Depending on the size of your solar system, you can save up to 30% on your energy costs. You can also sell excess power back to the grid at a lower feed-in tariff rate. To maximize your savings, keep your solar panels clean and free of debris. This includes removing fallen leaves, bird droppings and dust.

Maintenance

Solar power is a renewable energy source that captures the sun’s rays and converts them into electricity. It is an effective method of reducing household electricity bills and offers long-term financial savings. It also reduces greenhouse gas emissions and promotes sustainable living. It can also increase the value of a property.

The efficiency of a solar system can be improved through regular maintenance and cleaning. This includes removing dust and debris from the panels and addressing any shading problems. In addition, a technician can check the inverter for signs of power degradation and make repairs as needed.

Solar energy in Sydney is a great way to reduce electricity bills and save money. It also helps the environment by reducing reliance on fossil fuels and lowering carbon dioxide emissions. It is a great choice for homeowners who want to cut their energy costs and help the world move toward a greener future.

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8 Harmful Chemicals to Avoid When Cleaning Your Solar Panels

Many people use solar in their properties, leading more to do the same. If you are hooked, you might already source a solar company. But before you undergo the solar installation Sydney process, you must understand the maintenance responsibilities to ensure its longevity and efficiency. While regular cleaning is crucial, using the wrong cleaning agents can damage the panels and reduce their effectiveness. Many harsh chemicals can harm the delicate surfaces and coatings of solar panels, leading to long-term problems.

Ammonia-Based Cleaners

Ammonia-based cleaners often leave residues that can be abrasive when exposed to sunlight or when wiped. Residues can scratch the surface of the solar panel, particularly if the panel is made with anti-reflective coatings or tempered glass. Ammonia can also degrade or strip the coating, reducing the panel’s ability to capture sunlight efficiently.

Bleach

Bleach is a highly corrosive chemical that can damage the metal frames, mounting structures, and seals of solar panels. Corrosion weakens the structural integrity of the panels, leading to potential system failures and increased maintenance costs. Its harsh chemical nature can also engrave or discolour the glass surface of solar panels. This material can leave residues or streaks on the glass surface after drying, and they can block sunlight, reducing the panels' ability to generate electricity.

Hydrogen Peroxide

Hydrogen peroxide, especially at higher concentrations, is a strong oxidiser. It can etch the tempered glass surface of the panels, creating micro-abrasions that scatter light and reduce energy output. It can also leave behind residues when it decomposes or reacts with dirt and organic matter, and weakens the seals and adhesives used to protect the internal components of solar panels. This damage allows moisture and contaminants to enter, leading to internal corrosion and electrical failures.

It is better to stick with plain water cleaning alternatives or mild soap solutions. Partner it with soft cleaning tools and solar panel-specific cleaners, and you are good to go.

Strong Acidic Cleaners

Acidic cleaners often leave residues or streaks when not rinsed properly, which reduces the efficiency of the panels. But, aside from the damage to the solar panels, acidic runoff can harm nearby plants, soil, and water sources. Cleaning with strong acids conflicts with the environmentally friendly principles associated with solar energy systems. Sadly, strong acids can also emit harmful fumes and cause skin burns, eye irritation, or respiratory problems. Cleaning solar panels with acidic solutions, especially in high or confined spaces, poses serious safety risks to the person handling them.

Alkaline Cleaners

Alkaline solutions often dry unevenly, especially on sunny days or in hot climates. Streaks or smears block sunlight, further reducing the panel’s efficiency. Repeated use can cause cumulative damage to the solar panel’s components. This leads to a shortened lifespan and more frequent maintenance or replacements. Remember that whatever cleaner you use, you must rinse it thoroughly.

Chlorine-Based Cleaners

Repeated use of chlorine-based cleaners causes cumulative damage to the panel’s materials and coatings. It reduces the lifespan of the panels, leading to increased replacement and maintenance costs. Chlorine can also react with other organic or inorganic matter on the panels, such as dirt or bird droppings. It creates stains or discolouration that are difficult to remove and may permanently damage the panel surface. Better stick to pH-neutral, non-corrosive cleaning agents.

Rubbing Alcohol

Rubbing alcohol (isopropyl alcohol) can degrade or strip the anti-reflective coatings applied to many solar panels to enhance sunlight absorption. It can also have a dehydrating effect on the materials it contacts. It can dry out the seals and adhesives used in solar panels, leading to cracks or failure of these components over time.

Toluene

Toluene can corrode the aluminium frames, mounting hardware, or other metal components. Using this compromises the structural integrity of the solar panels, increasing maintenance costs. It also releases toxins that can irritate the eyes and skin and may cause long-term health issues with repeated exposure. Cleaning solar panels with toluene, especially in confined or elevated spaces, poses significant risks to the cleaner.

When cleaning your solar panels, always opt for a gentle, non-abrasive cleaner and avoid harsh chemicals that can cause irreversible damage. Stick to a mild soap and water solution or use products specifically designed for solar panel care to maintain their efficiency and longevity. Regular cleaning with the right tools and cleaning agents ensures your solar panels continue to perform at their best for more years.

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How to Maintain Your Windscreen After Replacement 

Getting a new windscreen is a fresh start for your car, providing clear visibility and essential protection. After a recent windscreen replacement Sydney, keeping it in top shape will help it last longer, stay safer, and look cleaner.

Here’s how to maintain your new windscreen and ensure its longevity.

Cleaning Tips for a Fresh Windscreen

After a replacement, careful cleaning is one of the simplest yet most effective ways to maintain your windscreen. New glass is often in prime condition, and a few good habits can keep it looking and performing well.

Use Gentle Cleaners: Choose glass cleaners that are free from ammonia, as harsh chemicals can damage the tint and cause streaking. A mild cleaner combined with a microfibre cloth will remove dirt without scratching the surface.

Avoid Harsh Scrubbing Tools: Avoid abrasive sponges or rough brushes, as these can create tiny scratches that damage the glass over time. Instead, use soft cloths or squeegees designed for glass.

Clean Regularly: Dust, bird droppings, and other debris can build up quickly on windscreens, particularly in urban areas. Clean the glass every few weeks to avoid hardened grime that becomes harder to remove.

Mind the Wipers: Wiper blades are in constant contact with your windscreen. Check them regularly and replace them every six months to avoid scratching from worn or hardened rubber.

Avoiding Hazards on the Road

Even a well-maintained windscreen can sustain damage on the road. Being mindful of your surroundings can prevent chips, cracks, and other wear.

Keep a Safe Distance from Large Vehicles: Vehicles like trucks often kick up rocks or debris that can hit your windscreen with enough force to cause damage. Stay a reasonable distance behind to reduce the risk.

Drive Cautiously on Gravel Roads: Loose stones and debris on gravel roads are common culprits for chipped windscreens. If you need to drive on such roads, drive slowly to minimise the impact from flying stones.

Beware of Temperature Changes: Rapid temperature changes, such as turning on a hot defroster on a frosty morning, can stress the windscreen. Gradually increase temperatures in cold weather, and park in the shade when possible to avoid extreme heat.

When to Get Your Windscreen Checked

Regular checks for minor wear and tear are key to maintaining a windscreen's durability. Small chips or scratches might seem minor but can worsen quickly, particularly under harsh weather or bumpy roads. Seeking windshield repair near me promptly after noticing damage can prevent it from spreading, keeping the glass safe and prolonging its life.

Benefits of a Professional Service

While many maintenance tasks can be done at home, a professional inspection can reveal issues that might go unnoticed. Technicians trained in car windscreen replacement Sydney services are skilled in spotting hidden problems and offering effective solutions. Whether you need a simple repair or another replacement, a professional can ensure your windscreen meets safety standards and lasts as long as possible.

Taking a proactive approach to maintaining your windscreen can help keep it in good condition and save on future repairs. With these tips, your new windscreen can provide lasting protection and visibility.

The author provides high-quality auto glass replacement and repair in Sydney, with a focus on windscreen replacement. For more details and to schedule windscreen replacement or repair, visit https://www.windscreenreplacementsydney.com.au/.

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Growing Pink Hibiscus Plants in Sydney: A Guide to Beautiful Tropical Blooms

Pink hibiscus (Hibiscus rosa-sinensis) is a stunning addition to any garden, bringing a tropical charm with its large, vibrant flowers and lush green foliage. In Sydney’s warm climate, pink hibiscus thrives, offering striking color throughout much of the year. This guide provides essential tips for successfully growing pink hibiscus plants in Sydney, ensuring your garden bursts with these eye-catching blooms.

Why Choose Pink Hibiscus for Your Sydney Garden?

The Hibiscus Pink plant in Sydney is known for its showy, trumpet-shaped flowers that can reach up to 15 cm in diameter. With shades ranging from pale pink to deep rose, these flowers add elegance and brightness to garden landscapes, borders, or patio containers. Their ability to bloom for most of the year in Sydney’s temperate climate makes them a popular choice among both beginner and seasoned gardeners. Additionally, hibiscus plants attract butterflies and birds, making your garden more lively and inviting.

Best Time to Plant Pink Hibiscus in Sydney

The best time to plant pink hibiscus in Sydney is during the spring or early summer, from September to November. This allows the plant to establish strong roots before the heat of summer and take full advantage of the growing season. You can also plant in early autumn, but spring is ideal for promoting maximum growth and blooming potential.

Planting Pink Hibiscus

Choose a location in your garden that receives full sun for at least 6 hours a day, as hibiscus plants love sunlight and perform best in bright conditions. The soil should be well-draining, as hibiscus does not tolerate waterlogged soil. Incorporate organic matter like compost into the soil to ensure proper nutrition.

When planting, dig a hole twice as wide and just as deep as the root ball of the plant. Place the hibiscus in the hole and backfill with soil, pressing down gently to eliminate air pockets. Water the plant thoroughly after planting to help it settle into its new home.

Caring for Pink Hibiscus

Caring for pink hibiscus is relatively easy, but there are a few key things to keep in mind:

Watering: Hibiscus plants need regular watering, especially during hot weather. Water deeply once or twice a week, making sure the soil stays evenly moist but not waterlogged.

Fertilizing: Apply a balanced, slow-release fertilizer every 4 to 6 weeks during the growing season to promote lush growth and abundant flowers. A fertilizer high in potassium can help encourage more vibrant blooms.

Pruning: Prune hibiscus in late winter or early spring to remove dead or damaged branches and to shape the plant. Regular pruning also encourages more vigorous growth and flowering.

Pests and Diseases

Hibiscus plants can be susceptible to pests such as aphids, spider mites, and whiteflies. Regularly check your plant for signs of infestation and treat it with organic insecticides like neem oil or insecticidal soap. Ensure good air circulation around the plant to reduce the risk of fungal diseases.

Conclusion

Growing pink hibiscus in Sydney is a rewarding and enjoyable experience, as these plants add vibrant color and tropical beauty to any garden. With their long blooming season, ease of care, and stunning flowers, pink hibiscus is a perfect choice for anyone looking to enhance their outdoor space. By following the planting and care tips in this guide, you can enjoy the beauty of pink hibiscus year after year, creating a lush and colorful garden oasis.

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Paint Protection Film Sydney | nsdetailandwrap.com.au

Protective film is an invisible shield that enhances the appearance of your car and preserves its original paint. It also helps to increase resale value and protects against expensive repair costs.

Paint protection film is a clear polyurethane film that protects your car against dirt, stone chips, bug splatters, and environmental contaminants. It has a self-healing top coat that allows scratches to disappear instantly and provides a smooth, polished look.

Maintains the Original Appearance of Your Car

XPEL ULTIMATE paint protection film is applied to the exterior surfaces of your car and serves as an advanced shield against common threats, like road debris and bird droppings, and environmental contaminants. The clear, durable film is machine-cut to your vehicle’s specific year, make, and model, ensuring a flawless fit and a seamless appearance.

It protects the hood, bumper, fenders, mirrors, and other areas that are prone to scratches, chips, and dents. This prevents costly paint repairs and saves time and effort on cleaning and maintenance. The film also enhances resale value by preserving the original appearance of your vehicle and eliminating common sources of paint damage, which can reduce the overall resale value over time.

Premium paint protection film are available in clear gloss, satin, matte, and tinted options, allowing you to customize your look and providing reliable, long-lasting protection. These films have a high resistance to yellowing and peeling, exceptional clarity, scratch and chip resistance, self-healing technology, and hydrophobic properties that allow for easy clean up.

Protects Your Vehicle from Stone Chips

The sun’s harsh rays, bird droppings, road debris and other environmental hazards can take their toll on your car’s paint. This is why it’s important to protect your vehicle with paint protection film sydney. PPF acts as a robust shield that protects your vehicle from unsightly damage, keeping it looking pristine for years to come.

Some types of paint protection films have self-healing properties that actively reduce small scratches and swirl marks on the surface of your car. This technology uses heat to activate the topcoat layer of the paint protection film and fill in small nicks and scratches.

Additionally, some forms of paint protection film are resistant to stains caused by bird droppings and tree sap, as well as harsh cleaners and gasoline. This makes it easy to clean and maintain your car, ensuring that it looks like new for longer. This can help increase resale value when you’re ready to sell or trade your vehicle.

Easy to Maintain

Maintaining a flawless paint job can be challenging. Scratches, chips and fading from sun exposure can all detract from the value of your car. The best way to keep your vehicle looking fresh is with paint protection film (PPF). This invisible shield acts like a superhero cape for your Tesla, protecting it from all the evil villains that can damage its beautiful finish.

PPF is precision-cut to fit the curves and contours of your vehicle, so it’s virtually invisible when installed. Its advanced top coat is stain resistant, preventing discolouration from bird droppings and UV rays. It’s also hydrophobic, repelling dirt and contaminants for effortless removal during regular car washing. Additionally, some films, like XPEL Ultimate Fusion, have self-healing properties that can repair minor scratches and swirl marks with moderate heat application.

Adding paint protection film to your car can improve its resale value by maintaining the condition of your vehicle’s body and paintwork. The clear protective layer will protect against dents, scratches, rust and other damages that can detract from the overall appearance of your car’s exterior.

Long-Lasting Performance

The XPEL PPF is a multi-layered polyurethane film that offers UV protection, antiyellowing, stain resistance and self-healing, enhancing the appearance of your vehicle. It is virtually invisible after application and maintains the original factory color of your car. It is backed by a manufacturer’s lifetime warranty.

The smooth surface of the paint protection film is easy to clean and repels dirt, reducing your maintenance needs. The hydrophobic properties also mean that water and contaminants are easily wiped away, so you can spend less time washing your car.

PPF is an affordable way to protect your investment and adds value by preserving the showroom shine and curbing depreciation. Its long-lasting performance and unmatched clarity make it an ideal choice for drivers who love to show off their cars and want to keep them looking immaculate. It is available in a range of finishes and can be applied to diverse surfaces, including mirrors, headlights, bumpers, rocker panels, and more.

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How House Cleaning Services Can

Improve the Cleanliness of Your

Home

Achieving a pristine and welcoming living environment can be challenging. Luckily, there are many Sydney house cleaning services that can help. They offer a wide range of customised cleaning solutions that are tailored to your specific needs.

A clean living space is crucial to your health. Dust particles, pet hair, pollen, and other pollutants settle on hard surfaces and can trigger allergies and asthma.

A well-thought-out cleaning schedule

It can be overwhelming to keep up with household chores and maintain a pristine living space. However, by following a cleaning process, homeowners can spruce up their homes in no time.

The first step of a budget end of lease cleaning Sydney process is to dust and vacuum surfaces. Dust particles, pet dander and other allergens settle on hard surfaces and pollute indoor air quality. They can also trigger health issues such as eye irritation, headaches and respiratory diseases.

Make a cleaning schedule that divides chores into weekdays and pays attention to one area at a time. For example, clean kitchens on Monday, choose a few bedrooms on Tuesday, and tackle living areas on Thursday. Keeping up with quick daily tasks and weekly cleaning sessions makes it easier to complete big cleaning jobs. It can also reduce clutter in compact Sydney apartments, which make spaces feel dirty even when their surfaces are clean. Invest in a long-handle bendable duster to reach high spots like light fixtures and ceiling fans.

Clean windows and glass surfaces

One of the most important aspects of a home cleaning is sparkling windows and glass surfaces. Indoor glass surfaces are prone to fingerprints, grease (particularly in kitchens), dust and other debris, while exterior windows get dirty from outdoor pollutants, bird/insect droppings, and so on. Hence, it is necessary to clean them regularly.

It is best to start the cleaning process with a thorough dusting using a soft microfiber cloth or electrostatic duster. Next, prepare an effective cleaning solution by mixing a specialised window cleaner or mild dishwashing liquid with water in a bucket. Dip your lint-free cloth or squeegee into the solution and wash the surface of each window pane, starting from the top and working your way down. Rinse well to ensure there is no soap residue left behind.

Regular maintenance of windows and glass surfaces helps reduce dirt build-up between professional cleaning services. Moreover, it helps keep your living spaces healthy by eliminating harmful allergens that can collect in the form of dust, grit, and grime on glass surfaces.

Clean carpets and upholstered furniture

Carpets and upholstered furniture make your living space look beautiful and comfortable, but they can also be sources of dirt, dust and stains. Cleaning them regularly is essential to keep them in good condition and extend their lifespan. However, vacuuming alone won’t be able to remove embedded dirt particles and stubborn stains.

Professional cleaners have the tools and knowledge needed to clean even the most stubborn stains from your upholstery. They use safe, effective chemicals and techniques that won’t damage your furniture or fabrics. In addition, they can clean even hard-to-reach places that are usually overlooked by homeowners.

Keeping up with regular housework can be challenging, especially for busy families in Sydney. However, with a streamlined process, it is possible to keep your home in tip-top shape without sacrificing other important family obligations. Miracle Maid offers hourly-based, regular cleaning services in Sydney that can help you stay on top of your chores. Their professional cleaners follow a standard checklist to ensure your house is cleaned properly, and they can even assist you with end of lease cleaning for tenants looking to get their bond back.

Maintain a dust-free living space

While it’s difficult to maintain a dust-free living space, it’s possible to improve the cleanliness of your home. House cleaning Sydney services can help you achieve this goal by performing a thorough job and using professional-grade equipment. They’ll work from top to bottom, sweeping and vacuuming floors and surfaces, dusting and wiping surfaces, cleaning cabinets, sanitizing bathrooms and kitchens, and more.

They’ll also perform a deep cleaning service, targeting those areas that are neglected over time and can cause dirt to build up. This is a great way to prevent the build-up of bacteria and allergens in your home.

When choosing a house cleaning company, it’s important to find one that can meet your needs and budget. Look for a company with good customer reviews and a solid reputation. You should also be sure to communicate clearly with the cleaners about your expectations. This will ensure that they’re able to provide you with the best possible cleaning service.

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9 Reasons To Have Your Trees Pruned By Professionals

Maintaining the natural elements on your property can often be a challenging task, particularly when it involves ensuring their health and safety. While it might be tempting to handle this task yourself, there are numerous advantages to entrusting it to tree lopping Sydney specialists.

Here are some compelling reasons why professional care for your trees is a worthwhile investment.

Promotes Health and Longevity

Professionals possess the expertise to identify and remove sections that may be diseased, damaged, or dead, preventing the spread of decay. Addressing these issues promptly, help restore vitality and encourage healthier growth. Their precise techniques also minimise stress on the surrounding structure, reducing the likelihood of future complications. Regular maintenance by professionals ensures that these natural elements thrive year-round, contributing to a healthier environment overall.

Improves Safety for You and Others

Overgrown or weakened branches can pose significant safety hazards, especially during storms or high winds. Specialists know how to assess these risks and remove potentially dangerous sections safely. Their tools and techniques ensure that no harm comes to your property, nearby structures, or individuals during the process. Additionally, they are trained in using advanced safety measures and equipment, reducing the risk of accidents that could occur during a DIY attempt.

Encourages Better Growth Patterns

Uncontrolled growth can lead to overlapping or crossing sections, which may compete for sunlight and nutrients. Experts know how to correct irregular patterns and encourage upward or outward growth. This promotes better structural integrity and ensures healthier foliage development, resulting in a more vibrant landscape. Proper growth management also prevents overcrowding, which can lead to stagnation and the decline of overall vitality.

Protects Nearby Structures and Utilities

Overgrown limbs can encroach on buildings, power lines, and other structures, causing potential damage. Professionals are trained to manage these issues effectively, ensuring that your home, fences, and utility lines remain unharmed. Their preventative care saves you from costly repairs in the long run. By addressing these concerns early, they also prevent disruptions to essential services, offering peace of mind during adverse weather conditions.

Prepares for Seasonal Changes

Seasonal transitions can bring various challenges, such as heavy rainfall, wind, or snow. Specialists know how to prepare your outdoor elements to withstand these conditions. They will thin out areas that may collect too much moisture or become unstable, ensuring that they remain robust and resilient through changing weather patterns. Seasonal preparation also involves addressing vulnerabilities that could worsen during extreme weather, preserving both the health and safety of your property.

Preserves the Ecosystem

Skilled experts consider the impact of their actions on the surrounding environment. By using selective techniques, they ensure minimal disruption to local wildlife while fostering a healthy ecosystem. Their efforts support biodiversity, providing habitats for birds, insects, and other creatures that thrive in balanced outdoor spaces. They also promote sustainable practices, such as recycling organic material, which benefits both the environment and your property.

Prevents Pest Infestations

Dead or decaying sections can attract harmful pests, including insects and rodents. These infestations not only affect the health of your outdoor features but can also spread to other parts of your property. Professionals can identify early signs of pest problems and take corrective measures, safeguarding your landscape and home. Moreover, regular maintenance helps to create an inhospitable environment for pests, reducing the likelihood of future infestations.

Enhances Aesthetic Appeal

Well-maintained greenery significantly contributes to the overall appearance of your property. Professionals understand the art of shaping and thinning to create a balanced and attractive form. Their work not only enhances the visual appeal of your outdoor space but also adds to its overall value, making your property more inviting. A professionally maintained landscape often becomes the centrepiece of a home, boosting aesthetic appeal and leaving a lasting impression on visitors or potential buyers.

Saves Time and Effort

Pruning requires knowledge, precision, and the right tools. Attempting to do it yourself can be time-consuming and may not yield the desired results. Professionals bring years of experience, along with specialised equipment, to complete the task efficiently and effectively. Their expertise allows you to focus on other priorities while enjoying the benefits of their work. They also handle clean-up and disposal, saving you from the tedious task of dealing with debris after the job is done.

Engaging professionals to handle the upkeep of your outdoor elements is an investment in both their health and the safety of your property. From improving structural integrity to enhancing visual appeal, their expertise delivers numerous advantages that are difficult to replicate on your own. With proper care and attention, you can ensure that your outdoor space thrives for years to come. Whether it’s promoting growth, ensuring safety, or maintaining a stunning aesthetic, skilled specialists offer a level of precision and knowledge that guarantees exceptional results.