#bill harvelle

[lovetransaction]

You didn't seem like trouble. You seemed like you were lost in the world because you'd had a good woman and you wanted to be at her side for the rest of your life, and nobody needs to see their good woman die the way you and your boys did. But it wasn't even Dean and Sam who my good man was thinking about when we brought you in from the dark cold and that loneliness you wore around you like a damn halo, the kind that turns to whiskey fumes, the kind that says:

there's nothing i can do to you that's worse than what i live through every day;

and my good man, Bill, he said to me, John Winchester might make it through a sight more hunts but he won't make it through with that whole family alive. And they might not even realize they're dead.

Hunters talk that way. You see enough things looking back at you from the dark, smiling, with eyes that burn around the edges, and you get to talking that way.

And I said: fine, Bill. We need another goodlooking sad-eyed stray like we need a hole in the roof, but fine. I said: he don't seem like trouble, at least.

You looked over at us at the bar from where you were showing Jo how to draw seagulls that looked like m's, and you smiled that slow sideways smile, and Bill hummed in his throat and we got a hole in the roof.

Your letter's two years on the heels of my good man dead and it's writ heavy in blue ballpoint on that thin onionskin paper. Sets my teeth on edge and I won't even read your words, John, because I'm still that angry. You think I'm angry with you but that ain't how this works. Hunters know that shit can go far south every time they step foot out the door, and Bill was better than you. You gotta be real good at this to be bait, and we both told you that.

I'm angry you ate at our table and played with our daughter. I'm angry you showed us snapshots of your little boys and had story after story to tell and you were tumbling over yourself to get them out and Bill held my hand under the table every time because we could see you had nobody else to tell them to. I'm furious I felt bad for you and that you looked at Bill like he was some big brother you never had and I feel angry that you were trouble, John, you were trouble that night you wandered down the hall and knocked at our bedroom door and opened it and Bill said, well, shut it behind you.

I'm shutting this door behind me, John. If you were here it might change my mind because you were the last person other than me to touch my good, good man and that might be too much for me to not put my hands on you. I'm not reading your words -- and I forgive you -- and you will never be nothin' to no-one -- except trouble.

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going to lebanon : flash creations

[jasmineshaven]

i like to think that bill and ellen were planning to have more than one kid, but jo popped out and made their lives a living nightmare, so they decided, 'fuck that' and stuck with the one.

[fandom-hoarder]

Maybe John's visiting his favorite son Adam and he doesn't want you to know...

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Mm, actually it doesn't fit this particular timeline, but notes for another time✍✍✍

[mambosfive]

@harvellepatriarch ♡’d for a starter (still accepting) !

"he was with me." emira confirmed into the phone without a moment of hesitation. professional alibi had become a part of her job, under the guise of being an assistant to both rita and mambo himself. "rita, i've got this. i know what i'm doing. you've taught me how to do this, just trust me." she assured her mentor, knowing that the next time she'd be parroting back the story she'd been fed, it would likely be to someone in a uniform. "i have to go, but i'm on it." she confirmed, whisper of a smile dancing across her face for a fleeting session, before it vanished with the press of the red button to hang up her call. "eavesdrop much?" she asked, head turning to the body far too close to her for her liking.

[darkshrimpemotions]

You know, the counter to criticism of John has always been "John did the best he could under those circumstances" but that argument REALLY falls apart hard when the show gives us multiple examples of other hunters who had kids and provided them with stable homes or at the very least, didn't abuse, neglect, and exploit their children to the degree John did.

Bill and Ellen Harvelle. Krissy's dad. Tasha Banes. Hell, Mary's parents, even.

Hunters are all traumatized people who've lost someone, and yet not all hunters with children left them alone in hotel rooms for days or weeks at a time without enough money or food, used them as bait for a shtriga or god knows what else (I haven't forgotten or forgiven Dead Man's Blood), put them in danger constantly, isolated them even from other hunters, or emotionally abused them to have no self worth and view "I'm proud of you" as a dangerously out of character statement from their parent.

Jo grew up safe at home with her mom, viewing her dad coming home as an occasion for joy. After her dad died, her mother tried EVERYTHING to keep Jo from hunting to keep her safe, and finally only started hunting again herself to protect Jo. Dean reminisces about "when dad got home" with a haunted look in his eyes. Dean was hunting werewolves at sixteen. When Sam was afraid of the thing in his closet, John gave him a .45.

Krissy wanted to be by her dad's side all the time. Her dad even quit hunting, laid down whatever reasons made him start, to give her a shot at a better life. Dean gets quiet and changes the subject when asked if he misses his dad. Sam's fondest memories are of getting away from John. John drove his kids nearly to death with his obsession. Spent Sam's college fund on ammo.

Max and Alicia Banes were part of a community. Their understanding of hunters' funerals included friends and family gathered to celebrate the life of the departed. Sam and Dean knew very few hunters before John died. They only knew how to grieve in isolated silence around a solitary pyre.

Mary grew up in a house. She slept warm in a bed in a room of her own. She had family dinners. When she said the worst thing she could imagine was her kids being raised like she was, she meant hunting by itself. And I'm not saying hunting is good or healthy! It's not.

But it was the worst thing she could imagine. She couldn't even imagine the abuse, neglect, deprivation, instability, and hunger her children would one day endur on top of hunting.

But sure, yeah. John definitely did the best he could under the circumstances.

[soft-pine]

Timeline of Every Anecdote from Dean's Childhood in Supernatural (Full Canon Only)

My other timeline includes stuff from some of the pseudo canonical materials. This one includes only things that happen or are mentioned in the show itself.

winc*sties this is still not for you!

Still super open to feedback and suggestions if I missed something.

Content notes: death, child abuse, alcohol

1983

Dean is 4

John & Mary used to call Dean their “little piglet” because he liked to eat so much. [13.21 (this is technically in a dream of Sam's)]

Mouse Trap is Dean's favorite game. [14.17]

Mary would feed Dean tomato-rice soup when he was sick. [5.13]

Mary would sing "Hey Jude" as a lullaby. [5.13]

Dean really likes Mary's meatloaf. He doesn't know she gets it from Piggly Wiggly. [12.02]

Between May and November John and Mary had a fight and John left home for a few days. [5.16]

November 2 - Mary Winchester dies, Sam is 6 months old. [1.01, 1.21]

Mary's uncle arranges a burial and headstone even though she doesn't have a body. [2.04]

Dean doesn't speak for a while after Mary dies. [1.03]

John Meets Missouri. [1.09]

John leaves a box of pictures in the basement of the house. [1.09]

1984

Dean is 5

1985

Dean is 6

John takes Dean out shooting for the first time, using bottles as target practice. According to Dean, he "bullseyed every one of them." Dean remembers this story as him being “6 or 7." Dean cites this story as one of the fonder memories of his father. [2.06 (date suggested by John's Journal)]

Rufus spent the whole year being nice. It was the worst year of his life. [7.10]

1986

Dean is 7

Dean starts having a crush on Daisy Duke. [11.13]

Bill Harvelle dies. [2.06, 2.14 (year suggested by John's Journal)]

John began the masked vampire case - looking into killings and kidnappings along Route 77. [15.20]

1987

Dean is 8

John takes Dean and Sam on a donkey ride at the Grand Canyon. Dean’s donkey farts a lot which Sam finds very funny. [8.21]

Dean has begun hunting. [11.08]

1988

Dean is 9

John is hunting a Shtriga in Wisconsin when he leaves Sam and Dean alone in a hotel room. Dean gets bored and goes out and comes back to find the Shtriga attacking Sammy but can't steady himself in time to fire at it. John comes back but can only scare the Shtriga off. [1.18]

They know Pastor Jim by this point. [1.18]

Dean: "You couldn't been more than 5— you just started asking questions. How come we didn't have a mom? Why do we always have to move around? Where'd Dad go when he'd take off for days at a time? I remember I begged you, 'Quit asking, Sammy. Man, you don't want to know.... I just wanted you to be a kid... Just for a little while longer. I always tried to protect you... Keep you safe... Dad didn't even have to tell me. It was just always my responsibility, you know? It's like I had one job... I had one job...'" [2.22]

Dean and Sam (5) play dress up as Batman and Superman and jump of the roof of a shed. Sam breaks his arm and Dean takes him to the E.R. on the handlebars of his bike. [9.15 (mentioned again in 11.08)]

At some point before now Dean is given his first beer by Fred Jones in Salt Lake City. [8.08. He also apparently gives Sam his first beer too but it's unlikely it was this same time?]

1989

Dean is 10

“When I was 10, I got my first B&E from borrowing some family's pay-per-view so I could watch the cage match between you and the Tower of Power.” [11.15]

Bobby takes Dean to play catch instead of “practice with the double-barrel” as John had instructed Dean. In the flash back Rufus guesses the year is around 1989. “No, we didn't shoot rifles, as a matter of fact. We threw a ball around. He's a kid, John. They both are. They're entitled.... Yeah, I know I ain't their dad.” Bobby hangs up and throws the phone down. [7.10]

1980s General

(i.e. there isn't a specific date mentioned for this but I'm guessing from context that it happened in this decade)

Sam sticks army men into Baby's ashtray. [5.22]

Dean sticks Legos into the vents. [5.22]

Dean eating all of Sam's Halloween candy sometime. [12.11 & 14.04]

John taking them to see World of Wrestling. Sometime before Dean is ten. Dean calls it “one of the nicest things” John ever did. Sam remembers John getting drunk. [11.15] ("The Hangman": "He was Dad's favorite. Anytime that noose would come out, Dad would be on his feet. It was one of the few times I ever saw him actually happy.")

John takes Dean fishing. When Dean tells Jack, Jack feels from his tone that it's his happiest memory of John. [5]

Dean telling Sam a stupid joke to distract him from ripping off bandaids when he was little. [15.01]

The first beer John shared with Dean tasted like "crap". [15.20]

Sam's memory of Thanksgivings: “We had a bucket of extra-crispy and Dad passed out on the couch. [5.16]

Dean: "I always wanted to be a fireman when I grew up." [1.22]

Dean says he believed the TV ads about Sea Monkeys having families [5.06]

Dean mentions a babysitter, Mrs Chancy, who was obsessed with the TV show Dynasty [5.06], which ran until 1989 when Dean was ten. This could be a lie he's just telling a kid to get him to open up about his babysitter though.

"Alright, here we go. John Winchester's famous cure-all kitchen sink stew. There you go. Enough cayenne pepper in there to burn your lips off, just like Dad used to make." [8.21]

"You used to read to me, um, when I was little, I— I mean, really little, from that— from that old, uh... Classics Illustrated comic book. You remember that? ... Knights of the Round Table. Had all of King Arthur's knights, and they were all on the quest for the Holy Grail. And I remember looking at this picture of Sir Galahad, and, and, and he was kneeling, and— and light streaming over his face..." [8.21]

“You used to take us hunting. Remember? Dad had a case, he'd just dump us on you. Shoot, you must have taught us most of the outdoor tracking we know.” Bobby: “Yeah, what I could get to stick. I never could get you little grubs to pull a trigger on a single deer.” Dean: “You’re talking about Bambi, man.” Bobby: “You don't shoot Bambi, jackass. You shoot Bambi's mother.” [7.09]

“Not young like I was when he actually taught me how to drive.” [15]

Dean says soft rock always put Sam to sleep. [7.16]

Dean talks about learning 101 different ways to make Mac 'n Cheese for Sam at a motel in Scranton while John was off hunting. "ketchup for spice, hmm? Uh, tuna, hot dogs, fluff marshmallow mix." [10.11]

1990

Dean is 11

January - John is injured on a hunt in Windom, Minnesota, and goes to the hospital, where he meets Kate Milligan. [4.19]

September 29 - Adam Milligan is born. [4.19]

At some point Dean makes a sawed off. He's in sixth grade. [3.03]

Dean tries burgers from a seaside shack in Delaware that become his favorite. [4.22]

1991

Dean is 12

December 25 - Sam and Dean are at a motel in Broken Bow, Nebraska while John hunts. Sam reads John's Journal and finds out that Mary's death was supernatural, monsters are real, and that John hunts them. He confronts Dean, who confirms it. Sam gives Dean an amulet. [3.08]

1992

Dean is 13

John buys a Playboy featuring Anna-Nicole Smith, eventually both boys end up reading it. [7.22]

June - Sam tells John he is afraid of the monster in his closet and John gives him a .45. [1.01]

Sam wants to go hunting with Dean. Dean says John said no. John calls to ask Sam to come. [11.08]

1993

Dean is 14

January – Motel Baba Yaga case. Dean says, “I was babysitting you when I was your age”. Sam says "I'm pretty sure that's illegal." Dean sees the nest, a pile of dead kids and has "nightmares about it for the longest time." [15.16]

1994

Dean is 15

Summer - Sam and Dean spend part of the summer being looked after by Donna, a babysitter (and maid at the Mayflower) in Housatonic, Massachusetts, while John hunts. At one pointJohn is gone for two weeks. It is the summer before Sam enters 6th grade, and he assigns himself a summer reading list. Dean possibly has a crush on Donna. [5.12]

October - They are living In Bismark (North Dakota?). Sam has a crush on Andrea Howell & has a really bad experience at her Halloween party, throwing up. Sam hides in the woods until Dean comes and gets him. [14.04]

Sam still believes in the Easter Bunny until close to here. [10.12]

1995

Dean is 16

Dean's first Werewolf. Sam doesn't go to the body burning. "So. I pick up this crossbow. And I hit that ugly sucker with a silver-tipped arrow right in his heart. Sammy's waiting in the car, and uh, me and my dad take the thing into the woods, burn it to a crisp. I'm sitting there and looking into the fire, and I'm thinking to myself, I'm sixteen years old. Most kids my age are worried about pimples, prom dates. I'm seeing things that they'll never even know. Never even dream of." [2.03]

Dean spends two months at Sonny's Home for Boys after being caught shoplifting. [9.07]

April 20 - Dean's award for New York Wrestling Champion. [9.07]

November 13 – Sam's soccer team won division championship. John keeps the trophy. [3.03]

Sam later talks about how John was upset with him for wanting to play soccer instead of learning bowhunting. [1.08]

November 24 - Sam has his first traditional Thanksgiving dinner at his crush Stephanie’s house. He has been attending a school called McKinley for two weeks. [5.16]

1996

Dean is 17

July 4 - Dean and Sam set off fireworks in a field and almost burn it down. [5.16]

At some point when Sam was 13 he ran away for two weeks while under Dean's watch in Flagstaff, Arizona, living off pizza in a cabin and befriending a dog he called Bones. Dean scoured the whole town looking for him and worried he might have died, and John was furious when he found out. [5.16]

1997

Dean is 18

When he's 13, Sam briefly wants to be a magician. [4.12]

Summer - The Winchesters hunt a werewolf. [4.13]

November - Sam and Dean attend Truman High in Fairfax, Indiana, for 3 or 4 weeks, while John is on a hunt that was originally supposed to be 2 weeks but ended up taking longer than expected. Dean is in 12th Grade. It is the third school they have attended since September. [4.13]

1998

Dean is 19

Sam is a mathlete. [4.04]

Summer - While John and Dean are off hunting a Kitsune, Sam stays in Lincoln, Nebraska, and does research for them. While there, he meets a girl and has his first kiss - only to discover that John and Dean's hunt has circled back on him. [7.03]

July - Dean goes on a solo "five states in five days" road trip, but ends up spending most of it in Cicero, Indiana, with Lisa Braeden. In the meantime, John & Sam "tie up a hunt" in Orlando, Florida. [3.02]

Dean meets Rhonda Hurley, she makes him try on her pink, satin panties and he likes it. [5.04]

At some point they spend time with Travis, the hunter. [4.04]

1999

Dean is 20

1990s General

Dean trying to cook Winchester Surprise on a hotplate with food (baloney and sliced cheese) that it seems Sam shoplifted in the rain. John gets home and throws it out. [14.11] In Lebanon John tells Sam he remembers this and apologizes to Sam for it. [14.13]

Sam and Dean visited the Cleveland Botanical Gardens on a field trip. [5.16]

Dean going to CBGB "way underage" and John coming to get him. [10.09]

Hunting the chupacabra in Mexico. Sam is an olderish teenager when he says this happened the year before. [11.10]

John making Dean be bait. [14.14 production draft. Corroborated by 1.20. Putting this in 1990s and not 1980s is very generous imo.]

Dean used to live on “Nerve Damage” (“10 times the legal limit of caffeine”) as a kid. [13.08]

Escalating prank wars? [1.17] Sam mentions a time Dean put superglue in his toothpaste [15.06]

Could be 80s too: Dean: “Remember that wreath Dad brought home that one year?” Sam: “You mean the one he stole from, like, a liquor store?” Dean: “Yeah, it was a bunch of empty beer cans. That thing was great.” [3.08]

Sam performing in Our Town. [1.16]

Sam talks about having to make his own dinner as a kid. [5.06]

2000

Dean is 21

2001

Dean is 22

Sam smokes weed maybe. [11.19]

Pre-2002, 2000s General

Sam & Dean driving 1,000 miles for an Ozzy show. [5.22]

Driving two days for a Jayhawks game. [5.22]

John catches Lee and Dean 'wasted' on a hunt. [15.17]

John plays Dean and Lee “Good Ol Boys” before hunts. “Listen up boys this is real music. [15.17]

Sam used to try to get him & Dean to do 'honest work' rather than hustling pool. [5.22]

The Las Vegs annual trip. [7.08]

Sam ran tech for a production of Oklahoma. [10.05]

John gives Dean the Impala. [1.20] (John's Journal suggests this was on Dean's 18th birthday which would have been 1997.)

2002

Dean is 23

John gives Sam the "hunting is life; you can't have connections" speech. [4.19]

Sam says he's leaving hunting to go to Stanford University. John says if he leaves to stay gone. [1.01, 1.20]

September - Adam Milligan meets John Winchester. [4.19] (This could be any time from now til 2003 but I think it would be now because John will want to feel he can replace Sam or do something right.)

Post-2002, 2000s General

Dean sleeps with Annie. [7.19]

Dean sees Lee while Sam's in college. [15.17] Possibly the 'cult thing in Arizona' 'what that thing did to that family, those kids.' Because Lee does one more job after that in Texas and retires.

At some point Dean hunts a Vetala and learns they usually hunt in pairs. [7.11]

At some point Dean hunts a succubus with Richie. [3.04]

Poltergeist case in Kittanning, PA. [1.04]

John teaches Adam to drive using the Impala (this is after John gave Dean the car for his 18th). He also teaches Adam poker and pool. [4.19]

John "used to swing by Stanford whenever he could. Keep an eye on [Sam]. Make sure [Sam was] safe." [1.08] because he was worried Sam was "alone, vulnerable'' [1.20] and "he was afraid of what could've happened to you if he wasn't around." [1.08]

2003

Dean is 24

Dean dates Cassie Robinson. She breaks up with Dean after Dean tells her about hunting. [1.13] It lasts less than two months. [5.11]

June 21 - Dean is involved in a hunt for the father of Cole Trenton, in Nyack, NY. [10.02]

John gets taken from this year into the future in "Lebanon." He is sleeping in the Impala and Dean calls him and he tells him he'll be back soon. [14.13]

2004

Dean is 25

September 29 - John takes Adam to a ballgame for his 14th birthday. [4.19]

2005

Dean is 26, dude.

September 29 - John buys Adam a beer when he's 15. [4.19]

Roughly October 10 - John cuts off contact with Dean. [1.01]

October 31 – Dean comes to get Sam. [1.01]

Dean: "I must have stood outside your dorm for hours... because I didn't... I didn't know what... What you would say. I thought you'd tell me to... to get lost or get dead. And I don't know what I would've done... if I didn't have you. 'Cause I was so scared." [15.20]

General Comments

(i.e. just quotes and things that are too general to place at a specific time. i've sorted them roughly into themes but all of these themes are also present in incidents above.)

Dean says he's been wanting John and Mary back together since he was four. [14.13]

John's absence

Sam: "You remember the poltergeist in Amherst? Or the Devil's Gates in Clifton? He was missing then, too. He's always missing, and he's always fine." [1.01]

Dean mentions how John would dump him and Sam at Bobby's. [7.09]

Toni Bevell saying about John's drunken rages and weeks of abandonment. Also pointing out that Dean & Sam didn't tell Mary about it. [12.21]

Sam says John would be gone for weeks at a time and "he wasn't exactly a monk." [4.19]

Sam says John "was not around much." [11.05]

Sam talks about worrying when John & Dean would be out on a hunt and he wouldn't hear from them for days. He thought about what he would do. [11.18]

John's drinking

In the pilot Sam comments that John is likely missing because he's drinking. [1.01]

Sam comments that a dad bringing their kid to a wrestling match to distract them while he drinks seems familiar. [11.15]

See also the above [12.21]

Young Sam says John has a temper and you don't want to see him when he's drinking [7.03]

John's parental control

Sam talks about how John was angry with him for not wanting to learn to bowhunt or hustle pool and instead wanting to go to school and live his life. [1.08]

Dream!Dean: "You can still hear your Dad's voice in your head, can't you? Clear as a bell. I mean, think about it …all he ever did is train you, boss you around. But Sam …. Sam he doted on. Sam, he loved. Dad knew who you really were. A good soldier and nothing else. Daddy's blunt little instrument. Your own father didn't care whether you lived or died. Why should you?" [3.10]

Dean: "My father was an obsessed bastard! All that crap he dumped on me, about protecting Sam! That was his crap. He's the one who couldn't protect his family." [3.10]

Dean: “And I get what I've been doing lately, you know, what with the yelling and the acting like a prison guard. It's just, that's not me. You tell yourself you're not gonna be something, you know? But my dad was exactly like this. All the time. It's scaring the hell out of me.” [6.02]

Martin alludes to the fact that John would disapprove of Dean's connection to Benny and Sam's patience with it and "he'd have a mind to take you both out behind the woodshed and show you what's what." [8.09]

Tara also mentions that John would not approve of Dean working with Crowley [9.11]

Sam: “his drill sergeant thing worked with you but it didn't work with me.” [13.04]

“You know kids, no matter what they still want the old man's approval” about an abusive dad. Dean agrees to it. [13.02]

Dean: “I know things got dicey… you know, with dad… the way he was. And I just… I didn’t always look out for you the way that I should’ve. I mean, I had my own stuff, you know. In order to keep the peace, it probably looked like I took his side quite a bit. Sometimes when I was… when I was away, you know it wasn’t ‘cause I just ran out, right? Dad would… he would send me away when I really pissed him off. I think you knew that.” [14.12]

Difficult childhoods

Talking about Charlie as a teenager, Dean says, "Dude. If a shrink interviewed us at that age, you think the report would be all kittens and rainbows?" [10.11]

Cas says, "You were both troubled teens." [10.19]

Dean says he & Sam could have benefited from a mother's dating advice. [11.12]

Sam: "And when we were kids how many times did we tell dad we were fine just to make him happy?!" [14.16]

Dean drinks to “crappy childhoods”. [10.12]

Sam: "I had a kind of lonely childhood." [11.08]

Sam: "I had a messed up childhood." [14.04]

Dean's parentified role

Sam: “I wish I could have that kinda innocence.” Dean: “If it means anything, sometimes I wish you could too.” [1.18]

John: “You know, when you were a kid, I'd come home from a hunt, and after what I'd seen, I'd be, I'd be wrecked. And you, you'd come up to me and you, you'd put your hand on my shoulder and you'd look me in the eye and you'd... You'd say 'It's okay, Dad'... You shouldn't have had to say that to me, I should have been saying that to you. You know, I put, I put too much on your shoulders, I made you grow up too fast. You took care of Sammy, you took care of me. You did that, and you didn't complain, not once.” [2.01]

Dean: "And I… I had to be… more than just a brother. I had to be a father and I had to be a mother, to keep him safe. And that wasn't fair. And I couldn't do it." [12.21]

See also 1988 above [2.22]

Food scarcity

Sam says explicitly that they had to hustle pool to eat. [15.11] Additionally, Sam says John made them learn to hustle pool. [1.08]

Travis: "you ever been really hungry? I mean, haven't-eaten-in-days hungry?" Dean: a 'yeah' so emphatic his voice cracks. Sam: silence. [4.04]

The future

Sam: “Dad always said it was temporary, Dean. He said it for 22 years.” [6.02]

Dean's allusions to liking dancing/wanting to be a dancer. [7.16, 15.20]

Dean: “Jo, you've got options. No one in their right mind chooses this life. My dad started me in this when I was so young... I wish I could do something else... Jo, you've got a mother that worries about you. Who wants something more for you. Those are good things. You don't throw things like that away. Might be hard to find later.” [2.06]

Dean: "You know, ever since you were a kid, you wanted to live in a town like this. Lame, normal…" [15.04]

Dean gets his GED [5.01]

See also 1980's general [1.22]

John spends Dean and Sam's college funds on ammo [1.20]

Hunting

John saying hunter gatherings were trouble and in general keeping Sam & Dean away from them. [2.03, 12.06]

Dean says he and John weren't using disguises for hunting. [1.09]

Sam saying it seemed to him Dean & John bonded over hunting. [12.20]

Dean learned to use CB radios to look for leads from truckers. John used them all the time. [13.11]

“I'm starting to get why parents lie to their kids. You want them to believe that the worst thing out there is mixing Pop Rocks and Coke—protect them from the real evil. You want them going to bed feeling safe. If that means lying to them, so be it. The more I think about it...the more I wish Dad had lied to us.” [5.06]

Gordon Walker meets John "Hell of a guy. Great hunter." [2.03]

John maintains connections with Caleb, Jefferson, and Pastor Jim. Caleb sometimes supplies him with munitions [1.11]

John hunts with and then has a falling out with Daniel Elkins [1.20]

John hunts with and hooks up with Tara but never calls her back. [9.11]

At some point, John and Bobby have a falling out and Bobby threatens to shoot John if he ever sees him again [1.21]

TV

“Growing up on the road, no matter where Dad dragged us, no matter what we did, there was always a TV. And you know what was on that TV? Scooby and the gang.” [13.16]

Dean: “Ah well, growing up it was a… it was always nice to check out once in a while. I like to watch movies where I know the bad guy is going to lose.” [14.04]

The Hustler was John's favorite movie [15.11]

(for the record, I didn't sort and collate every comment about john or their childhoods here. i mostly tried to pick one which were a little bit more detailed rather than just general attitudes. but if you want to see all comments made about john throughout the show, click here)

[theirlives]

this  is  a  bit  dangerous,    but  consider  this  a  blog  -  wide  christmas  starter  call.    because  i’m  in  a  very  merry  mood.    please  specify  a  fandom  and/or  muse,    otherwise  you  probably  won’t  get  a  starter.    happy  for  you  to  give  multiple  options<3    and  to  make  it  all  a  bit  easier,    i’ve  put  my  full  blogroll  under  the  cut  for  you  to  find.  

multi  -  muse  blogroll: please note all these blogs are sideblogs.

btvs  /  angel  the  series    —    @hllmouths

charmed  (1998)    —    @chaermd

cobra  kai  /  the  karate  kid    —    @cobraes

mixed  film  media    —    @mediocrisfaebula

mixed  medical  &  first  responders  drama    —    @saivelives

mixed  television  media    —    @imperfectafabula

shameless  (us)    —    @scamsteal

supernatural    —    @huntaers

the  hunger  games    —    @burntodds

the  walking  dead    —    @livesrisked

tvdu    —    @vervaeins

twilight    —    @eclpsis

canon  solo-muse  blogs: the  following  blogs  are  not  tied  to  this  hub  and  you  will  receive  a  follow  back  from  them.

andie  star  from  tvdu    —    @reportergirl

allen  francis  doyle  from  angel  the  series    —    @frstsoldier

amara  from  supernatural    —    @amoralforce

ansel  from  the  originals    —  @northsalpha

barbara  kean  from  gotham    —    @barbarabtch

bela  talbot  from  supernatural    —    @hellsbelas

william  "bill"  harvelle  from  supernatural    —    @harvhells

carmen  berzatto  from  the  bear    —    @yeschhef

cordelia  chase  from  btvs  &  angel    —    @visiongrl

denny  duquette  from  grey’s  anatomy    —    @duquete

fiona  gallagher  from  shameless    —    @caretkr

illyria  from  angel  the  series    —    @smurfdemon

lexi  branson  from  tvdu    —    @towelgrl

lucille  smith  from  the  walking  dead    —    @saviormatriarch

negan  smith  winchester  taken  from  the  walking  dead  and  placed  within  supernatural or cobra kai    —    @unclenegan

sierra  morton  from  shameless    —    @spprtstaff

victor  zsasz  from  gotham    —    @contractkills

original character  solo-muse  blogs: the  following  blogs  are  not  tied  to  this  hub  and  you  will  receive  a  follow  back  from  them.

lord anton  bevell  based  in  supernatural    —    @antnbvll

heath  smith  from  the  walking  dead    —    @ironedson

spencer  masters  based  in  supernatural    —    @lostsistr

[t00muchheart]

Okay so we know that Dean was at Sonny’s for two months in the Spring of 1995—it was either March-April or April-May, because the wrestling trophy was April 1995. I think it’s safe to assume the latter, because we know that, while Dean was at Sonny’s, Sam was with Bobby & John was hunting, and that William Harvelle died on May 16th 1995 while on a hunt with John. It seems likely that it was after this hunt that John picked up Sam and then went to get Dean, too, which leads us to the third thing that happened in 1995 (or, I suppose, sometime before January 23, 1996): the hunt Dean told Gordon about from when he was 16.

That scene (In 2x03 (Bloodlust)) is SO interesting to me because even outside of the context of later seasons, the wording and acting are both super interesting: Dean is clearly telling a story and playing it up a bit, but the words themselves aren’t overtly positive; instead, they emphasize that Dean is set apart from normal kids—“seeing things they’ll never even know. Never even dream of.” Gordon is smiling as he listens, grinning as he states that Dean “embraced the life” but Dean’s face is serious & contemplative as he agrees. The acting on both sides makes it abundantly clear that the two have different understandings of “embracing” the life: when Gordon says it, there’s an aspect of enjoyment that isn’t there when Dean is talking about it.

In context, though, and particularly in context of 9x07 (Bad Boys), Dean’s story is even more compelling: by Dean’s own account, he was 16 when this hunt happened, so either he went on this hunt between January and April (or possibly March, depending on when he was at Sonny’s)—before Sonny’s—or, more likely, sometime after he left Sonny’s. If we assume it was after—at most eight months after Dean tasted normalcy and John lost Bill Harvelle—Dean’s words gain another layer, especially the line “I’m sixteen years old. Kids my age are worried about pimples, prom dates…” because, as we know, Dean spent part of his time at Sonny’s getting to know & flirting with Robin, and was going to go to the dance the same night he ended up leaving, only deciding to go when he saw Sam in the Impala with John & knew he couldn’t leave him alone. In light of that, it’s clear that this line is not Dean looking down on the normal life, it’s Dean giving up on something he once wanted, coming to terms with his life as best he can.

In summary: John left Sam and Dean alone, and Dean got caught stealing food for them to eat. Dean went to a home and Sam went to Bobby’s and John went on a hunt and lost a friend. John picked up his boys and kept hunting, bringing Dean with him (putting him in danger, as he well knew considering what had just happened with Bill) while leaving Sam in the car (neglecting him). Dean stood in front of a fire as a body burned and watched as the dreams he’d let himself have for a short time burnt up with it, and even years later, recalling the scene fondly, couldn’t quite manage to sound like he was happy about the idea of letting them go to embrace the life.

[theroyalsims]

LADY ELLA PHOTOGRAPHED WEARING §6,500 GOLD AND DIAMOND BRACELET

Just like mummy!

Lady Ella, daughter of the Earl and Countess of Harvelle and the Queen's only grandchild, was spotted wearing a luxury bangle during her latest outing with her parents.

The accessory in question is reportedly custom made for the little lady, and is crafted in yellow gold and studded with diamonds.

The posh tot wasn't the only one sporting said bracelet. In fact, her mum, Eleanore, was wearing two bangles stacked on her right wrist. Lady Ella's custom bracelet is estimated to cost at least §6,500, while Eleanore's is said to be worth about §19,000 each.

The photographs, rather expectedly, caused quite a stir online. Some royal watchers thought that splurging and showing off such luxuries seem tone-deaf and inconsiderate, seeing that a housing crisis is currently taking place in Brindleton. One commenter wrote:

"It's disgusting how tone deaf they all are. I'm not blaming the baby - I'm looking at her parents. We get that they're rich but they should've taken into consideration that there are thousands of homeless people in Brindleton now and hundreds more in fear of being evicted due to high costs of living."

Another wrote:

"Here I am debating if I should get the brand name pasta for dinner tonight or the cheaper generic one so I can save §5, while a literal baby is wearing a bangle that could pay off my utilities, rent, and food bills this month. BTW, that bracelet won't even fit that little girl in a few months time. She's gonna outgrow it really fast and then it's bye bye §6,500. She's hasn't even turned one, ffs! At least be smart about how you spend your money. You're not only showing off how rich you are. You're also showing off how dumb you are."

Some, however, are quick to defend Eleanore and Ibrahim's parenting skills:

"If I had that much money to burn, I'd buy my kids anything and everything, too. It's not Eleanore or Ibrahim's fault that other people are struggling. Poor people will still be poor whether or not Lady Ella has a §6,500 bracelet. Let this family live a little. They're not asking you to pay for it."

The Harvelles were seen leaving Liberty Park located near their townhouse here in the city. For their low-key outing, Eleanore coordinated her outfit with her daughter, wearing a floral yellow wrap dress. Ella also donned an adorable yellow bumblebee print outfit that matched her yellow hair bows and sandals.

The Harvelles are expected to return to the country after a brief stint in the city following last week's activities.

[eptodaytommorowforever]

Events In The History And Of The Life Of The Very Young Elvis Presley Today On The 30th Of July In 1954.

It is Elvis Presley's first live, professional appearance.

He opened for Slim Whitman. It is a momentous event in the history of rock and roll. on the road to fame and sucess.

Elvis Presley - Backstage at the Overton Park Shell,Memphis Friday, July 30, 1954 rare b/w candid photo by memphis press scimitar.

Elvis Presley rare color candid photo back stage with child, Jerry Turner, who would grow up to be a memphis policeman assigned to guard Elvis Presley's body at his funeral. Jerry describes his duty at close friend Elvis Presley's funeral as the saddest of his life ...

Elvis Presley July 30th, 1954 advertisement in the Memphis Press Scimitar

Advertised as a Hillbilly Hoedown, appearing in addition to Slim Whitman and Billy Walker were 'Sugarfoot' Collins, 'Sonny' Harvelle, Tinker Fry and 'Curly' Harris. The show began at 8:00 on the night of July, 30, 1954, and they started with Elvis, Scotty and Bill performing 'That's Alright Mama'. Elvis Presley was so nervous he stood up on the balls of his feet and shook his leg in time with the music, a move he sometimes used in the studio. To his shock and horror the young girls in the audience went crazy, yelling and applauding. Scotty said, "We didn't know what was going on when all those people started screaming and hollering."

Next they did 'Blue Moon of Kentucky' and when Elvis Presley got offstage he asked why people were yelling at him. Someone told him it was because he was shaking his leg, which with the baggy pleated pants created a wild gyrating effect in time with the music. Later in the show they returned and did the same two numbers along with 'I'll never let you go (Little Darlin)', a new song they had been working on. The following year they returned to the Shell for the second and last time for Bob Neal's eighth annual Country Music Jamboree.

Above rare b/w Advertisment from the 30th, July In 1954 In The Memphis Press Scimitar Showing Elvis Presley As The Opening Act For C&W Star Slim Whitman.

True Fact; Even Slim Whitman Advised Elvis Presley Not To Sign With The Manipulating Control Freak Fat Controller Colonel Tom Parker As Is New Manager And To Sign With Hank Snow.

[ynscrazylife]

WHO I WRITE FOR *will be continuously updated

(Platonic means familial and/or friendship)

9-1-1

Romantic & Platonic: Chimney Han, Eddie Diaz, Evan “Buck” Buckley, Hen Wilson, Maddie Buckley

Only Platonic: Athena Grant, Bobby Nash

Bridgerton

Romantic & Platonic: Anthony Bridgerton, Benedict Bridgerton, Cressida Cowper, Eloise Bridgerton, Francesca Bridgerton, Kate Sharma, Simon Bassett, Tilly Arnold

Only Platonic: Daphne Bridgerton, Gregory Bridgerton, Hyacinth Bridgerton, Violet Bridgerton

DC Movies/Arrowverse

Romantic & Platonic: Alex Danvers, Bruce Wayne (Patterson), Kara Danvers, Lena Luthor, Selina Kyle (Patterson)

Call of Duty

Romantic & Platonic: Alejandro Vargas, Alex Keller, John Price, Johnny MacTavish, Kate Laswell, Kyle Garrick, Simon Riley

Criminal Minds

Romantic & Platonic: Aaron Hotchner, Derek Morgan, Elle Greenaway, Emily Prentiss, Jennifer Jareau, Luke Alvez, Spencer Reid, Will LaMontagne

Only Platonic: David Rossi, Penelope Garcia

Game of Thrones

Platonic & Romantic: Brienne of Tarth, Cersei Lannister, Jamie Lannister, Jon Snow, Margaery Tyrell, Ned Stark, Robb Stark, Sansa Stark, Theon Greyjoy

Grey’s Anatomy/Station 19

Platonic & Romantic: Addison Montgomery, Alex Karev, Amelia Shepherd, Andrew DeLuca, April Kepner, Arizona Robbins, Ben Warren, Callie Torres, Carina DeLuca, Derek Shepherd, Jack Gibson, Jackson Avery, Jules Millin, Jo Wilson, Lexie Grey, Lucas Adams, Lucas Ripley, Mark Sloan, Maya Bishop, Monica Beltran, Nathan Riggs, Teddy Altman

Only Platonic: Meredith Grey, Owen Hunt

Harry Potter

Romantic & Platonic: Bill Weasley, Cedric Diggory, Charlie Weasley, Draco Malfoy, Fleur Delacour, Ginny Weasley, Harry Potter, James Potter, Lily Evans, Nymphadora Tonks, Remus Lupin, Ron Weasley, Sirius Black, Viktor Krum

— MCU/Spiderverse

Platonic & Romantic: Bucky Barnes, Bobbi Morse, Carol Danvers, Clint Barton, Gamora, Kate Bishop, Loki, Maria Hill, Melina Vostokoff, Maria Hill, Miguel O’Hara, Natasha Romanoff, Peter B. Parker, Peter Parker (AG), Peter Parker (TH), Pietro Maximoff, Sam Wilson, Scott Lang, Sharon Carter, Stephen Strange, Steve Rogers, Thena, Thor Odinson, Tony Stark, Wanda Maximoff, Yelena Belova

Only Platonic: Agatha Harkness, Pepper Potts

Star Wars

Romantic & Platonic: Anakin Skywalker, Han Solo, Leia Organa, Luke Skywalker, Obi-Wan Kenobi, Padmè Amidala, Poe Dameron, Rey Skywalker

Stranger Things

Romantic & Platonic: Eddie Munson, Chrissy Cunningham, Jonathan Byers, Nancy Wheeler, Robin Buckley, Steve Harrington

Only Platonic: Jim Hopper, Joyce Byers

Superntural

Platonic & Romantic: Bela Talbot, Dean Winchester, Gabriel, Jo Harvelle, Sam Winchester

Only Platonic: Bobby Singer, Ellen Harvelle, John Winchester

The Bear

Romantic & Platonic: Carmy Berzatto, Natalie Berzatto, Richie Jerimovich

— The Rookie

Angela Lopez, Aaron Thorsen, Bailey Nune, Jackson West, John Nolan, Lucy Chen, Nyla Harper, Tim Bradford, Wesley Evers

— The Vampire Diaries

Caroline Forbes, Damon Salvatore, Elijah Mikaelson, Enzo St. John, Hayley Marshall, Klaus Mikaelson, Kol Mikaelson, Rebekah Mikaelson, Stefan Salvatore, Tyler Lockwood

— Top Gun

Bradley “Rooster” Bradshaw, Jake “Hangman” Seresin, Natasha “Phoenix” Trace, Nick “Goose” Bradshaw, Penny Benjamin, Pete “Maverick” Mitchell

[diazpatcher]

so John killed Bill Harvel when Dean was seven, no wonder Dean doesn't remember the Roadhouse

[harvhells]

basic  information.

full  name:  william  anthony  harvelle. nickname/s:  bill,  billy  by  john  winchester. alias:  none. name  meaning:  a  timeless  classic  with  english  roots  that  date  back  almost  a  thousand  years.  it  means  resolute  protector  or  strong-willed  warrior  and  comes  from  wilhelm.  date  of  birth:  december  22,  1963.  age:  presently  61,  but  age  is  dependent  on  verse/season/etc. place  of  birth:  somewhere  around  central,  ne,  united  states.  gender:  cismale. pronouns:  he    &    his. sexual  orientation:  pansexual. occupation:  hunter.  former  occupation/s:  former  owner  of  harvelle’s  roadhouse  before  he  was  possessed.  it  had  burnt  down  by  time  he  managed  to  escape.  former  farmer  throughout  his  younger  years.  it  wasn’t  necessarily  an  official  title,  but  bill  grew  up  on  the  harvelle  family  farm  and  everybody  played  their  role.  no  slacking. education:  highschool,  barely  graduated  given  that  his  family  was  murdered  a  year  prior,  but  he  knew  they  wouldn’t  want  him  to  drop  out  on  a  revenge  mission.  living  arrangements:  once  upon  a  time,  bill  lived  happily  ever  after  with  his  beautiful  wife  and  daughter,  feet  firmly  under  the  table.  he  would  only  ever  leave  to  go  on  a  hunt  and  as  jo  got  older,  that  got  less  frequent,  not  wanting  to  miss  everything.  unfortunately,  in  more  recent  days,  he  doesn’t  settle  much  anywhere,  having  come  home  to  a  burnt  down  roadhouse  and  all  his  family  dead.  mostly  lives  on  the  road,  sleeping  in  his  car  or  motels.  

physical  information.  

face  claim:  andrew  lincoln. hair:  a  little  wild,  a  little  overgrown.  it’s  dark  with  untameable  waves,  though  more  salt  than  pepper  these  days,  grey  showing  through.  eye  colour:  a  brilliant  blue,  permanently  tinged  with  sadness  or  trauma.  sometimes  both. height:  six  foot. tattoos:  his  most  recent  is  an  anti-possession  tattoo  on  his  upper  right  arm,  which  definitely  came  years  too  late.  it’s  fresh  and  does  nothing  to  change  what’s  already  happened,  but  hopefully  it’ll  prevent  history  repeating  itself.  older  tattoos  prior  to  his  possession  include  a  skull  that  stretches  out  over  left  hand,  his  wedding  anniversary  in  wedding  numerals  on  the  right  side  of  his  neck  and,  believe  it  or  not,  a  funny  little  cartoon-style  skeleton  that  john  winchester  himself  doodled  on  bill’s  right  inner  arm.  it  became  a  permanent  tattoo  after  he  lost  a  bet  to  his  friend.  thanks,  johnny.  scars:  several  that  come  from  hunting  and  some  that  came  from  being  fucking  possessed  for  what  felt  like  several  lifetimes.  his  most  prominent  are;  a  bullet  wound  in  his  skull  from  beloved  john  winchester  (upon  bill’s  request)  that’s  hidden  by  hair,  scratch  marks  on  his  chest  where  he  used  to  attempt  to  fight  against  the  possession  and  physically  claw  the  hellspawn  out  of  him  with  no  success,  and  a  stab  wound  in  his  neck  (around  his  tattoo)  from  where  he  finally  gained  enough  control  to  lodge  a  knife  coated  in  demon  blood  there. piercings:  none. signature  scent:  tree  bark,  wood  pine,  scotch,  sea  salt,  smoke  from  a  fire  pit,  old  leather,  dusty  clothing.

abilities    &    skills.

species:  human  again  after  being  possessed  by  hellspawn  for  a  long  ass  time.  i  don’t  think  the  show  ever  really  confirmed  what  hellspawn  is,  so  thankfully  that  means  i  can  make  this  up  as  i  go.  to  me,  they  are  some  kind  of  creature  bred  specifically  in  hell.  seen  as  lower  beings,  filth,  the  runts  of  the  litter,  because  what  can  they  actually  do?  but  once  they  escape  and  sink  their  claws  into  someone,  they’re  a  goddamn  pest  to  cast  out  because  that’s  what  they  are;  pests.  pests  created  by  in  the  worst  corner  of  hell,  specifically  spawned  from  the  evil  acts  committed  by  damned  souls.  without  a  body,  they’re  nothing,  but  once  attached?  they’re  pure  evil  incarnate.  main  weapon:  bill  carries  a  particular  smith    &    wesson  gun  that  he  has  used  ever  since  he  first  started  hunting  in  his  early  years.  this  was  given  to  him  by  his  father,  who  was  also  a  retired  hunter.  when  he  died,  john  winchester  buried  it  with  bill’s  body.  it  stayed  here  until  bill  went  back. secondary  weapon:  a  knife  he  once  borrowed    (  stole  )    from  john  winchester.  it  isn’t  his  favourite  because  it  means  he  has  to  get  closer  than  he  likes,  but  bill  is  what  some  call  an  old-fashioned  hunter,  which  means  a  lot  of  his  weapons  are  also  old-fashioned.  he  tends  to  reach  for  a  classic  rather  than  any  kind  of  modernised  weapon.  combat  skills:  here’s  the  thing  about  bill!  i  cast  andrew  lincoln  for  a  reason  and  that  reason  is  that  one  scene  where  king  rick  grimes  rips  a  dude’s  throat  fully  out  with  just  his  teeth.  that  right  there  is  how  bill  fights.  he  might  not  necessarily  be  the  strongest  or  the  most  skilled  fighter.  he  certainly  hasn’t  had  any  combat  training,  but  he  will  do  anything  he  needs  to  do  to  survive,  including  going  for  the  jugular.  there’s  a  reason  john  referred  to  him  as  a  "damn  good  hunter".

familial  information.

mother:  theodora  harvelle  nee  port,  deceased.  father:  abraham  "abe"  harvelle,  deceased.  siblings:  beth  harvelle,  deceased.  edward  harvelle,  deceased.  kids:  joanna  beth  harvelle,  deceased  (dependent  on  verse).  significant  other:  ellen  harvelle,  wife,  deceased  (dependent  on  verse).  extended  family:  john  winchester,  best  friend  and  hunting  partner  on  occasion.  

any  other  information.  

bill  was  raised  on  a  family-run  farm  after  his  father  retired  from  hunting  to  settle  down.  bill  doesn’t  know  the  full  reason  why  his  father  got  into  hunting.  that  part  of  his  story  was  never  shared  with  him,  but  he  does  know  why  he  got  out    …    he  met  a  girl.  when  abe  and  theodora  decided  they  wanted  children,  they  knew  they  didn’t  want  to  raise  them  in  a  dark  world.  they  turned  their  backs  on  the  supernatural,  buying  a  farm  to  raise  their  children  on.  the  eldest  of  three,  bill  was  their  first  bundle  of  joy.  from  a  very  young  age,  he  remembers  waking  up  before  sunrise  to  help  his  parents  with  the  chores,  not  only  learning  the  importance  of  hard  work  from  them,  but  also  the  strong  family  values  that  he  instilled  into  his  own  life  when  he  became  a  father  him.  

abraham  still  taught  bill  about  hunting  and  the  supernatural.  it  was  too  dangerous  not  to.  just  because  he  left  hunting,  that  didn’t  mean  there  stopped  being  things  to  hunt.  abe  could  never  forget  about  the  world  he  was  once  embroiled  in  and  it  felt  important  to  ensure  his  children  didn’t  remain  oblivious,  needing  them  to  be  prepared  and  ready  to  defend  themselves  should  they  ever  need  to.  upon  theodora’s  request,  he  waited  until  bill  was  eleven  before  starting  to  share  stories,  tips,  knowledge.  whatever  he  felt  was  necessary.  though  he  didn’t  want  to  actively  encourage  bill  to  follow  in  his  footsteps,  he  did  want  him  to  be  able  to  fight  back  should  he  ever  have  to.

bill  lost  his  family  and  the  farm  when  his  father  burnt  it  down  while  possessed  by  a  demon    …    with  them  inside.  a  hunter  can  leave  the  game,  but  does  the  game  ever  really  leave  them?  past  grudges  don’t  dissipate,  especially  not  when  demons  are  involved.  after  recognising  the  elder  man  as  a  hunter  who  once  took  something  from  them,  a  demon  chose  to  commit  an  act  of  revenge.  catching  abe  off  guard,  they  possessed  him.  and  then  they  set  fire  to  everything  he  owned,  with  everyone  he  loved  inside.  the  only  survivor  was  a  seventeen  year  old  bill,  who  had  snuck  out  the  window  to  go  to  a  party  that  evening.  with  the  world  unaware  of  the  truth,  abraham  harvelle  was  branded  a  mass  murderer,  the  world  believing  he  had  committed  this  awful  act.  bill  spent  several  weeks  hospitalized  in  a  psychiatric  unit  after  trying  to  tell  everybody  the  truth.  no  one  believed  him.  why  would  they?  they  just  thought  the  grief  had  driven  him  mad.  

bill  went  straight  into  hunting  after  graduation.  it  wasn’t  necessarily  an  obsession  to  find  the  demon  who  possessed  his  father.  he  just  didn’t  know  where  else  to  go.  no  home,  no  family.  no  reputation.  people  turned  their  backs,  wanting  little  to  do  with  the  son  of  a  murderer.  hunting  became  a  coping  mechanism.  a  way  to  keep  a  part  of  abe  harvelle  alive.  he  might  never  be  able  to  clear  the  harvelle  name,  but  he  could  put  some  respect  back  on  it.  after  graduating  highschool,  he  slipped  easily  into  the  role,  using  everything  abe  taught  him  growing  up  and  setting  out  on  a  journey  to  learn  more.  eventually,  he  did  find  the  son  of  a  bitch  responsible  with  john  winchester’s  help  and  together,  they  righted  a  wrong  by  sending  them  back  to  hell.  from  that  point,  bill  swore  anything  johnny  needed,  he’d  be  there.  night  or  day,  call.  he’ll  answer.  

the  truth  behind  bill’s  presumed  death  and  subsequent  possession.  it  happened  so  fast.  hunt  gone  wrong  and  suddenly,  there’s  hellspawn  biting  at  his  skin,  forcing  its  way  in.  all  bill  could  think  about  in  that  moment  was  ellen    &    jo,  and  what  this  monster  might  do  to  them,  just  like  his  father  all  those  years  ago.  he  pleaded  with  john  to  end  it.  "don’t  let  that  happen  to  them,  please,"  and  john  respected  those  pleas,  shooting  his  friend  dead.  he  even  buried  him.  a  proper  hunter’s  funeral.    ―    but  the  hellspawn  was  already  rooted  too  deep.  unbeknown  to  everyone,  it  healed  bill’s  body.  brought  him  back  to  life.  from  that  point,  he  was  no  longer  william  anthony  harvelle.  the  hellspawn  was  in  charge.  all  bill  could  do  was  watch  helplessly  from  the  inside  as  the  pest  took  control.  they  did  terrible  things  and  yet,  no  matter  how  hard  bill  tried,  he  couldn’t  overpower  them.  it’s  hard  to  put  a  number  on  how  long  they  were  in  control,  but  bill  knows  it  was  a  long  time.  weeks  turned  to  months,  months  to  a  year.  nobody  searched  for  them.  why  would  they?  they  all  thought  he  was  dead.  the  things  he  witnessed  went  beyond  any  horrors  he’d  ever  seen  as  a  hunter  and  what  was  worse,  was  it  was  his  own  hands  committing  such  sin.

bill  escaped  by  finally  fighting  back  against  the  hellspawn.  it  wasn’t  easy,  but  overtime,  bit  by  bit,  he  began  to  find  the  stretch  to  regain  control.  to  fight  back  against  his  possession.  it  took  a  long  time.  longer  than  he  cares  to  admit,  but  after  clawing    (  sometimes  literally  )    and  tearing  at  his  own  flesh,  he  finally  managed  to  open  the  door  long  enough  to  stab  himself  in  the  neck  with  a  demon-blood  coated  blade.  he  thought  that  would  be  the  end.  game  over.  bill  didn’t  care  if  he  didn’t  survive,  as  long  as  he  took  the  hellspawn  down  with  him.  however,  with  the  demon  gone,  his  body  passed  out  from  the  wound  and  a  passerby  found  him.  bill  remained  in  a  comatose  state  for  seven  weeks;  a  john  doe  to  every  doctor  and  nurse  who  treated  him,  until  one  day..  he  woke  up.  after  finding  out  everything  he’d  missed,  he  sometimes  wishes  he  hadn’t.

[spnfemslashbang]

2023 Masterpost

And that’s a wrap! All the thanks to the wonderful writers, artists, betas and readers who participated in the Bang this year!

We had eleven teams make it to the finish line this year, so if you haven’t gotten a chance yet, check them out under the cut below. You can also find the fics in the AO3 Collection.

1. The Reaper’s Apprentice by @butterflyslinky with art by @ephemerastardust (Jessica Moore/Bille, E) Jess is dead, but instead of Heaven, she's offered the opportunity to become one of Death's Brides--a Reaper. With Billie as her guide, she sees the afterlife, and the peace death can bring.

2. The Sunken Garden by MBQ with art by @sunshine-zenith (Anna Milton/Mary Winchester, E) It’s 2023, Mary Winchester tries to solve a case despite her sons’ meddling and ends up partnering with someone she could never tell Dean about, with a monster no one wants to meet.

3. Midnight Blossoms by @bleuzombie and tea_or_die, with art by @burdenedwithpointlesspurpose (Billie/Tessa, E) Finally feeling comfortable in her own body, and confident enough to pursue a relationship, coroner Tessa finds the push she needs to finally meet with her online girlfriend when youth lands on her table. Growing up hoping for the best, but preparing for the worst, she gets to find out what it's like when the best finally happens.

4. But You Dream of Some Epiphany by @pinoruno with art by @solstheim (Anna Milton/Mary Winchester, T) During the culminating fight of 5x13 “The Song Remains The Same,” Anna and Mary are suddenly thrust into the future; alone and afraid, watching scenes play out before them that neither is truly a part of, they begin to lean on each other as they attempt to return to their own time.

5. no such thing as a unique experience by @astralpenguin with art by @golby-moon (Claire Novak & Zooey Fremont, T) It doesn't take long for fifteen year old Claire Novak to figure out that the girl sat across from her is a runaway too. Turns out that's not all they have in common.

6. The Voice In My Earpiece Thinks You’re an Idiot by @kerryweaverlesbian with art by bakh-meliorism (Jo Harvelle/Bela Talbot, E) Bela's after the score of a lifetime, but she's got one problem; it's a  two person job. Good thing she met Jo, who wants it too. Too bad Jo  brings some problems of her own: first, she's got a secret, and a big  one. Second, she's a total amateur. And third, Bela might just be  falling a little bit in love with her. A Jo/Bela heist fic!

7. Adapt to Change by @sitruunavohveli with art by @deancodedcastielenby (Charlie Bradbury/Mary Winchester, E) When Charlie and Mary meet, one is scared to go back to hunting after a close call and the other is confused by the modern world she finds herself in. Despite their different skill sets and personalities, they enjoy each other’s company, and if Charlie also happens to find Mary incredibly attractive, she’s never going to mention it to Mary. And then Mary asks Charlie to join her on a hunting trip.

8. I’ll Still Feel the Pull of You by allthismusic with art by RapsCallion (Claire Novak/Kaia Nieves, E) After a fight about Claire’s dangerous lifestyle, Claire doesn’t think she’ll ever see Kaia again. But when the Winchesters tell her their plan to rescue Castiel from the Empty, and they tell her she’ll need someone to call her back from the void, she knows who she must ask. A road trip brings her to Kaia’s door, and the drive back brings them closer together. And when Claire goes into the Empty on a mission to find an angel, she knows that waiting for her back in the bunker is the one person she’ll do anything to find her way home to.

9. The Red Means I Love You by @father-salmon with art by @squirrelofcelestialintent (Claire Novak/Kaia Nieves, E) Claire is The Grigori, Idaho’s most unpredictable serial killer. Kaia is Dreamwalker, a whisper in the winds of those who know their game. One fueled by a need to cope with her father’s death, the other, revenge for those in the Teen Wilderness Industry, both end up drawn to each other at the oak tree Claire laid claim to. The killers, though wary of each other, begin to form a friendship with the promise of something more, but are careful to keep their identities secret. Still, it doesn’t stop them from forming an attachment. Navigating a new relationship along with the challenges put in their path, the two begin to help each other, especially after Claire receives a visit from her unknown uncle, Castiel, who is more like her than she thinks. Kaia has their sights set on Washington after they’re finished in Idaho, hell-bent that their revenge is paid in nightmares. As the new Thelma and Louise, they become a terrifying force to reckon with, only this time with a happy ending. **Please make sure you read the beginning notes and the disclaimers**

10. Misfortunes of Fealty by @kayliemalinza with art by @solstheim (Claire Novak/Meg Masters, Claire Novak/Emma Winchester, E) After the death of her father and her siring angel Castiel has declined to take her as a vessel, Claire flees her homeland. Overwhelmed with grief, she encounters multiple women who promise to help her avenge her father, to find new purpose, to come into her own power--but there's always a catch. Title is a reference to the 18th century erotic novel Justine wherein bad things Just Keep Happening to the virtuous heroine. Claire gets a much more hopeful ending. Also featuring Dean Winchester, in the background, who just wants his clothes back.

11. What Happens In Wichita... by @motherofdragonflies with art by @burdenedwithpointlesspurpose (Annie Hawkins/Mary Winchester, E) It’s 1982. Ronald Reagan is President, the Dodgers won the World Series and Mary Winchester is done with hunting. She’s a wife now, and a mom, living the apple pie life, just like she always wanted.When an old friend calls in a favor, Mary reluctantly takes the case. It’s a simple haunting that shouldn’t take more than a day. But to Mary’s surprise, she’s not the only hunter trying to gank the spirit. Eighteen year old Annie Hawkins is young and hungry to prove herself, and there’s something about her that draws Mary in. Over the course of the weekend Mary discovers that there is more to life than being a hunter or being a loving wife and mother. But you know what they say: what happens in Witchita…

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18+ Fandom RP Search

hey there!! im a 20+ enby hoping to find some 20+ people interested in writing some canon x canon from a few select fandoms! in general i prefer to rp romantic plots, usually ones that are more slow burn and angsty, but i wouldn't be opposed to platonic plots. all of my ships will be queer, as i'm simply not interested in rping straight couples (being a queer person myself). as for the kind of rp partner i'm looking for, i prefer rping with people that are eager, understanding, and want to work on developing characters/plots together! i also look for people that match my writing length/style, which is third-person, literate, and past-tense.

nsfw is welcome by me, and appreciated, i like spicy and darker plots. however, if that's not your cup of tea, i completely understand and think rp can be just as fun without it!

the following are fandoms i am interested in rping (please keep in mind this is strictly ccs):

supernatural (tv show)

characters i muse: sam winchester, castiel, balthazar, jo harvelle, meg masters favorite ships: sabriel, destiel, but i am so open to ideas here

IT (movie)

characters i muse: eddie kaspbrak, bill denbrough favorite ships: reddie and hanbrough

dead by daylight

characters i muse: jake park, danny johnson, joey, ji-woon hak, yui kimura, renato lyra favorite ships: not sure! im open to exploring

stranger things

characters i muse: steve harrington, alexei, dmitri antonov, eden bingham favorite ships: steddie, harringrove, alexei and murray, but open to others!

jojo's bizarre adventure

characters i muse: caesar zeppeli, noriaki kakyoin, jotaro kujo, bruno bucciarati, johnathan joestar favorite ships: caejose, jotakak, bruabba, and more!

harry potter (seriously fuck jr tho)

characters i muse: harry potter, remus lupin, hermione granger, draco malfoy favorite ships: great questions, unsure

i would love to get something going, so if this interested you at all don't hesitate to interact so i can reach out! also full disclaimer: i only rp on discord

[fandom-hoarder]

Shower Thoughts:

What if Mary survived and John died, and Mary took the kids on the road. Hooked up with Bill Harvelle on a job and got pregnant with Jo. Sent Jo with Bill to be raised by Ellen like a freakin foundling, because she didn't want to bring another child into this -- Dean and Sam shouldn't even be in it but she knows they ARE because of the YED deal.

Mary still dies saving Dean just like John.

Dean still meets Jo.

Ellen never tells them.

Especially not when she finds out they slept together.