#bestie sent this one to me ❤️‍🩹

[wintersangels69]

[acebytaemin]

day 2 of bday weekend celebrations was another gorgeous beautiful success 💗💗💗

[imaginespazzi]

Hey bestie,

How are you? I hope you’re doing good! Me? Not so much after reading part 3 😭

My thoughts:

I wasn’t expecting us to finally get the fight from that night, so I was NOT prepared. This - When Azzi’s 18, Paige says those words, ones that sound a lot like giving up, and teaches Azzi that sometimes in life, even the people you thought would never make you feel this way, are the ones who'll break you the most – this broke me babe, and to think Azzi still held on despite everything. Like I know Paige was just hurting but maybe she does deserve the suffering (a little bit) after all.

The entire summer scene was fucking elite. Poor Katie and Tim, they just wanted a. nice. family. dinner!! And instead they had to sit through their daughter’s gay ass drama lmao, #freeKatieandTim

The bros standing ten toes down for Pazzi ✊ Jon and José not even trying sent me, like no sorry, P is our sister-in-law but we appreciate you dropping by. AND DREW, our MVP - Drew had looked over to Azzi then, his eyes wide and accusing, “you can’t be Azzi’s girlfriend.” – little man was a bit traumatised, like sorry pookie who is this girl and why is she claiming to be something she can’t possibly be? He’s the GOAT fr, I know when he and P got back home, he scolded tf outta her and it went something like- Drew: “Why are you letting Azzi be other people’s girlfriend?? That’s OUR pookie.” P: “I know, I’m trying bro!”. Drew: “Well try harder!!” *stomps away*.

Then the Cayman Islands - UCLA and UConn to each other: 😡😤🔪🤬🖕👿 while Azzi and Paige: 🥰😍🫂🤩💗👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩 and then there’s probably Carol like: 😩 (she’s so over all this)

And then the ending! I’m guessing P left without saying goodbye because she probably saw the text from Zoe and once again was promptly reminded of their reality? 🥺

Speaking of Zoe, oh girl I’m so sorry, you deserve better – like damn, she just wanted to share some fucking pizza!!

Also, jealous Azzi making an appearance! (I’m such a shameful sucker for the jealous Paige and Azzi trope, I’m sorry!)

Oh and one final thing on part 3 – babe I know you said writing **** was taking years off your life, but we really appreciate your sacrifice because it was absolute 🔥🔥

What’s next (potentially)?

Oh man where to from here huh… I feel like Paige is eventually gonna get to the point where she's like "choose me, pick me", only to realise that Azzi just can’t do it cause she can't trust her with her heart, and I know it's gonna hurt bad. And even though Paige needs and wants more, she’ll also take whatever she can get even if it’s slowly killing her, because it’s Azzi and she’d rather have a little bit of her than none at all 😔

Also, a tension-filled game between them in the final 4 coming up maybe??

That part where Katie shoots Azzi a look of disappointment – I wonder if momma Fudd will ever call out Azzi over whatever’s happening between her and Paige and poor Zoe?

Either way, something tells me we’ve still got a lot of angst coming our way, and look as much as I want our babies to finally just get their shit together, I just can’t say no to more angst you know, I’m just a girl. 🤷‍♀️

Oh and this part - she’s even less sure about how she’d survived that one year where they’d practically lived in each other’s skins – is this something (I'm guessing this is their covid era?) we go into a bit more?? I do love all the allusions/references to how long they’ve always been something more and the blurring of the lines but never fully crossing it obviously until that fateful summer of 2022. I guess it does explain somewhat, though, why Paige felt so betrayed about Azzi not choosing her (UConn) because baby girl probably thought “ok once we’re both at UConn, we can finally be together 😌” - like her dream/vision of them playing together and also being together got ripped away from her ❤️‍🩹

As always, bestie, thank you for existing, thank you for your talent and for being so generous in sharing it with us. You outdo yourself every. fucking. time. 💐

Quick non-ucla fic side note: ESPN’s Bracketology having Utah and UConn on opposing sides of the bracket, so basically they’re saying Utah vs UConn championship game where I get to watch AP and PB ball out? Yeah ok, give it to me. 🤪 #APHiveUP (but bleed blue always ofc)

Favourite quote/line:

“You always say the right things,” Paige says quietly, and then even quieter, she whispers under her breath, “you make it so hard Az.”

Big love always 💗,

-🙋‍♀️

Hi bestie,

Omg I'm sorry....again 😭

I was gonna wait a little longer with the fight but it felt right to have it in this chapter and I wanted it to be from Azzi's perspective because it would hit just a little harder

Poor Katie and Tim fr like they should have just gone on a cute date instead of having to deal with this craziness

The brothers are the biggest Pazzi shippers like they're actually tired of their sister's bullshit at this point. Drew with the biggest truth ever really just shut everybody else up. "GET OUR POOKIE BACK BEFORE I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING" - Drew Bueckers at some point probably

I was gonna add a line about Carol and Charisma just frowning at their teammates and being all exasperated and then fully forgot lmao but yeah UCLA and UConn are big mad at each other. Though writing Nika and KK are Muhl and Arnold felt so weird.

Bestie you might be the only person who got my hint which apparently was not as obvious as I thought 😭

Zoe, poor girlie pop, y'all are gonna be absolute wrecked for her soon because girlie's just a sweetheart who does not deserve this but got caught in it anyway

Jealous Azzi might actually be worse than jealous Paige in this universe lmao but the waitress was doing *too much*

Part 4 is honestly a bit of a mystery to me because I've dug myself a bit of a hole but never fear, I will angst myself out of it somehow. 😭

#APHiveUp YES EXACTLY BESTIE!! Utah vs UConn for the national championship because actually AP vs AE would be pretty fun too and listen not to get at my girl AP, but AE would win that and then UConn would win and that's the only valid ending.

As always, thank you for being here bestie. I love your long asks and how much you just get me and the UCLA fic which really wouldn't even be a thing without you.

Love you babes <3

[evansbby]

HAPPY POYT ANNIVERSARY 🥳🎉

where do i even begin!! i joined the cevans fandom early last year and poyt part 1 was a CORE memory of a read and i’ve been the biggest simp ever since… reading every drabble and checking your blog for anon asks like it’s the daily news brings me so much joy i could cry. it’s like clockwork everyday when i come home to dive under my covers and check the blog updates 😌😌 poyt steve is my comfort character within my comfort character and he holds a special place in my heart that no other steve has before. i so am in love your writing style 🥺 i love the way you take the time to build tension by focusing on the smaller details at a slower pace which makes the story so emotionally powerful. moreover, i LOVE the duality between playful drabble!steve and passionately unhinged chapter!steve 😭😭you are the sole reason my tumblr screen time is 2hrs+ daily and i seriously will never get tired of rereading each chapter and drabble of poyt. i don’t think you give yourself enough credit for everything you do as a writer. please don’t be so hard on yourself !! your health comes first and us poyt simps will be there patiently waiting 😌🫶🏼🫶🏼 please accept my love letter addressed to you below 📮💌:

my dearest @ evansbby 📝

it is with the fullest sincerity that i confess my ever-consuming love for the poyt universe… it’s surreal how you’ve crafted each complex character and captured every raw emotion with such intricate perfection. captivated as scenes flourish before my eyes, i’m thrusted into the universe myself. my heart strings snap when she cries, and my eyes crinkle into crescents when she smiles. and when he nurtures and coos, my legs turn to jelly and i swear my heart has exploded out of my chest into pink and red heart confettis, shades matching the blush that slowly tints my cheeks. you wield words with the spell-binding charm, each sentence purposeful and enchanting. a perfect balance of yin and yang, i’m starstruck by the kind of ethereality that not even angels sun-kissed in summery amber could ever compare to. your soothing words quell all raging tides within me and i become weak at the knees, holding onto the emotional roller coaster like a withering autumn leaf. truely it is your blog wherein i find solace in the mundane drag of ordinary life. may the tales of omega and steve lead to happy endings and mended hearts 😭❤️‍🩹

ps. you have 1 new gift!

Oh my gosh, bestie! This totally caught me by surprise! I had completely forgotten that yesterday was the one year anniversary of poyt! And the fact that you remembered and sent me this whole long beautiful thing AND a gift? 🥺🥺🥹🥹 I feel so blessed and thankful and you are just incredible! Thank you! 😌💓💓

Reading your message literally brought ME so much joy! Like I’m smiling so hard rn! I can’t believe that something I wrote was a whole core memory for you! And I’m so happy that my writing and my characters hold a special place in your heart. I know poyt!Steve is the literal worst but it’s super challenging writing him and to say how much he’s impacted your reading experience makes me happy and makes this whole writing thing so gratifying! He’s fr the hardest character I’ve had to write, so thank you for appreciating him as a character!!

Also your letter is absolutely beautiful! No one has ever written me a love letter before 🥹🥺 I shall truly cherish this. Thank you so much, bestie. You made my whole day and week and month! You have no idea how much your letter inspired me! 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓 sending you all the love in the world! Thank you! And I also thank you for the gift! You so totally didn’t have to, as this message was more than enough! You are literally the sweetest! ily 🥹🥹🥹🥹

[divinefireangel]

"You do know you can always message me right? 🥺🩷" alright, taking advantage of it now to say that Right At This Moment i am reeling in shock from one kim hongjoong and pics of him posing with his shirt unbuttoned ❤️ (which i'm still in denial about because it looks edited) and seeing your mingyu posts made me laugh because fINALLY SOLIDARITY,,, i sent a friend a screenshot of your tag "#AND WHAT ABOUT MY HEALTH MR KIM" and said it applies to me too BECAUSE KIM HONGJOONG IS RUINING MY LIFE RIGHT NOW AND I FEEL LIKE MY BRAIN IS GOING TO LEAK OUT OF MY EARS haha </3

"loveblocking" is such a cute term i am going to sob.

ALSO HHGHHHJDRJHGJHA I'M GLAD YOU DON'T HATE ME BRUH 😭😭❤️❤️❤️💕💕❤️❤️💕💕💕🥳✨✨💕🥰🥰🥰 it's been more than two years now since i first found your blog 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳

and no worries with the tags omg, you were tagging properly but tumblr was being weird and not letting me see the posts hjshjhjshjfvahj

ALSO YAY FOR YOU FINISHING UNI TOO !!!! <333333 we are free <3

—babytasy who is HAPPY TO SEE YOU (take your time <333 no hurry!!!!)

OMG BESTIE STOP I SAW THE THING WHEN I WOKE UP AND MY BRAIN FRIED LITERALLY FRIED UP

The whole photoshoot is bias wrecking me and my own bias is also bias wrecking me so fuck them fuck me i hope they do fuck me anyways

Awww seems about right since I did become a fantasy like 2 years ago and exhausted all SF9 fics 💀

Well I finished one degree and I'm starting the second one in a month 😅😅 So I'm not exactly free but this is what I signed up for so no complaints

Love you boo keep sending asks, makes me wanna check the blog again and again😘❤️‍🩹

[onsunnyside]

HCV SIMS day 4:🫣❤️‍🩹 i’ll send a house tour next and then that’ll be it for a little while as this was one of my last free days!! hence the spam (sorry i sent a lot at once 😭 love u!)

omg reader got woken up again to make breakfast, and they wouldn’t let her go to the toilet bc she had to make their food and clean up their mess😭 so she had an accident… again… (peep curtis strolling past like it’s nothing)

steve, ari and curtis all talking and laughing together (probably about reader😭)

okay it’s getting boring so i’m gonna get the reader to flirt w everyone and we’ll see what happens from there hehe

ooo okay andy was nice and actually flirted back with reader (unlike curtis🤨)

I SPOKE TOO FUCKING SOON HE JUST STARTED YELLING AT HER😭😭 ari walking past like it’s nothing lmfaoo

okay andy is leaving to go on the computer, gonna get reader to flirt w ari now🤭

okay bye he yelled at her too. he fully rejected her this is so embarrassing 😭😭 poor omega.

let’s try flirting with steve

SLAYYY HE FLIRTED BACK!!!!! i hope ari is getting jealous

okay getting reader to ‘confess attraction’ to curtis now, let’s see how this goes😭

omg he rejected her (his facial reaction i’m in tears) and andy laughed BYE she’s so embarrassed now (she went to bed to hide from everyone🥲)

ransom is complaining about his love life to steve👀 (reader HAS flirted with everyone except him so far…🤭)

curtis is yelling at reader again after she flirted with him 😭😭 our mean alpha strikes again

steve and curtis insulting each other while reader makes dinner for everyone 🫣

…

andy pissed himself… i’ve had enough of this behaviour‼️ i’m sending them all to bed 😭

I LOVE THIS SERIES SO MUCH I AM HOOKED !! DAY FOUR LETS GOOO AND TAKE ALL THE TIME YOU NEED BESTIE—YOU DESERVE IT FOR FEEDING US SO WELL😚💙

oh no, not the accident😭😭 this time I think curtis did the right thing by just walking by, the embarrassment would be enough for me

I wonder what they’re saying🤨 hopefully they’re at least acknowledging the ✨feelings✨ cough cough you know what I mean… or they’re talking about her not being a perfect omega yet, which would mean they have future plans hehe

YESS INTERFERE 👹 BUT NOO ANDY PLS JUST STOP FOR A SECOND😭😭 PLS SEE THE POTENTIAL !! THE BEAUTIFUL FUTURE !!

my poor girl, all this rejection is going to haunt her 🥺 THE STINKY BOOT SPEECH BUBBLE

AHHH STEVE COMING TO THE RESCUE !! DID I PREDICT IT ?? HIS HIDDEN FEELINGS ARE COMING THROUGH !! Jealous!Ari🫡 I hope they fight hehe

OMG NO NOT CURTIS TOO 😭 ANDY PROVOKING ALL OF IT TOO LIKE: “yeah reject her, she flirted with me too”

Ransom you’ve got another thing coming🌚 and I’m not surprised curtis has been mean all this time—it’s just him😭

BAJDND ANDY THATS WHAT YOU GET FOR BEING A DICK

[nighttimescribbles]

hi i'm not sure if you remember me but i'm the anon who complimented DaD and went into it fandom blind. i think i sent that to you in february/march i'm not exactly sure but since then i've only just reached season 2 and i couldn't go on. miche devastated me too much because he was my favourite daddy in your series so i had a little bit of a soft spot for him going into the anime. but anywho, i hope you're doing well i subscribed to you on ao3 and so i get emails whenever you upload something and i've been heavily enjoying you nsfw alphabet with zekey. which also reminds me (i'm not sure what this ask is turning out to be) a couple of my coworkers have told me they enjoy aot and when i mention my like for zeke, they're always so quick to judge because i forget people on the internet and people in real life are not all the same and that truly devastates me. anyways, once again, i hope you're doing very well don't forget to take care of yourself and stay hydrated as much as you can :-)

Nonnnniiiiieeeeee 😩😭🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 I'll tell you what this ask is turning into. It's turning into one of the sweetest asks that dropped onto my lap. thank you for bringing me a smile today 💝💝💝💝💝💝

i am so so happy that DaD led you to watch aot! don't worry about stopping at season 2 because babe, me too. 😩 i also *couldn't* after Miche's death. it was so horrifying. and knowing what's going to happen to my OG Daddeh Erwin? noped out. that's why you're finding me here, on tumbl space, sitting in a tub full of au's where everybody's happy and healthy. 😭 welcome to the fold~~~

thank you for mentioning the zekey nsfw alphabet 😭❤️‍🩹 i started that because i was so inspired by @killerbananas concise, lyrical writing style (you have got to check her out. fics that read like poetry, bestie) and wanted to see if i could incorporate it into my stuff. i know drabble dumps don't really get much traction, so i'm super super suuuuper happy whenever that baby gets even a whiff of feedback. now you're here and another lovely reader has been constantly leaving encouraging comments on there so my heart has been

i'm sorry that you can't share your love for zeke irl. he's just a fictional character? what's the big deal? personally, i didn't like him AT ALL at first (because the antagonist to the daddehs we all know and love, y'know?) but his sob story got me. i am a sucker for sob stories. and the more i looked at him and read about him and watched clips of him, the more i realised that he's not actually a bad person. he's misguided and goes about things the wrong criminally against humanity way but he can't be completely blamed for it. at least, i can't. i think his experiences have ruined him in the head but deep down, he's a good guy who would benefit from a warm, loving home.

welcome to the fold, nonnie! let's give zekey that warm, loving home here 💖

[jaanusbooktalk]

The Darkness Outside Us by Eliot Schrefer - Book Review

10/10⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️💫

TWs: death, violence, cancer, blood, vomit, war

(TWs are ranked in order of severity, please take them seriously - especially that death part)

Sometimes you read a book, and there’s a distinct before and after. Before I read The Darkness Outside Us, I was a person wholly removed from who I am now, in the After.

To be honest, I’m still reeling from everything that this book was. Is. At some point tonight I will cry about it for the eighth time. At some point I’ll add it to my Amazon shopping cart so I can buy my own copy instead of this crinkly plastic-covered (now tearstained) one. At some point I’ll call up my best friend to cry about it some more. At some point I’ll make a Pinterest board, a Spotify playlist, anything I can think of to help me capture and share exactly how this book makes me feel. Because I need to describe it to someone, even if that’s myself.

I don’t reread books, as a rule. The last books I reread were the Harry Potter series when I was nine. This is going to be the first book to change that rule. Before I start actually reviewing, I would like to formally apologize to my brother who had to listen to me sob over this book for the past three hours while he tried to play video games in our hotel room. I’m sorry (but not really).

Summary:

“Two boys, alone in space. Sworn enemies sent on the same rescue mission.

Ambrose wakes up on the Coordinated Endeavor with no memory of a launch. There’s more that doesn’t add up: evidence indicates strangers have been on board, the ship’s operating system is voiced by his mother, and his handsome, brooding shipmate has barricaded himself away. But nothing will stop Ambrose from making his mission succeed—not when he’s rescuing his own sister.

In order to survive the ship’s secrets, Ambrose and Kodiak will need to work together and learn to trust each other . . . especially once they discover what they are truly up against. Love might be the only way to survive.”

TL;DR - Have you seen Bananafish? Have you read They Both Die At The End? They have nothing on this. (The blurb was dumb so this is what y’all are getting 😭)

Edit one hour later-

Spotify playlist:

Pinterest board:

If you want emotional damage, listen to the playlist while reading 🤲🏼❤️‍🩹

There is a terrible lack of fanart and general fandomness about this book so the sole two pieces of quality fanart I could find:

And yes, I did talk to my bestie for two hours about this.

Let’s talk representation:

There’s only really two human characters in this book and it takes place thousands of years into the future, where there are only two countries: Fédération and Dimokratía. From this it’s difficult to identify the ethnicities of the characters. They are both queer, thought at this point in the future they don’t really use labels like “gay” or “pansexual”. Neither are white, which is clear from the cover and descriptions of the characters.

This means this section is shorter, but my one commentary on the rep is that Ambrose’s skin is described without food terms (aka caramel, coffee, etc) which yes, is the bare minimum, but also appreciated💘

Also I’m just happy that we get a gay love story about space where the main plot line is not the romance - it’s a thriller/mystery/sci-fi elements!

Edit: HAHHAHAHAHA my whole review past this point just got deleted I hate everything fml 😃😃 I was literally right in the last section too

*deep breath* we move on 😌🪷🧘🏽‍♀️

What I liked:

This is one of those books that’s really hard to review without major spoilers, so this section will also be short (since this is a spoiler free blog).

I loved how space was depicted in this book. The prose was beautiful and the story overall really renewed my faith in humanity and made me wonder about what makes us human.

I also loved how the characters grew, developed (and broke down), and how they reflected the hope we search for in the world & each other. There has never been a more fitting name for a book than The Darkness Outside Us, because Ambrose and Kodiak were the light for each other.

At the very beginning of the book there are two black pages, which I’ve put below:

It took me a while to get it.

On a space ship in the middle of endless nothing, the only indication Ambrose and Kodiak had that they were alive was each other. This was what kept them from going insane.

They only knew they existed because there was someone else to perceive them.

(You can see how this gave me an existential crisis now right?)

Ambrose also, understandably, has multiple existential crises throughout the book (because of the nihilistic tendencies in his personality 🧐?) as shown above.

Although I did rate this a 10, some people had some issues with it (that I realized after listening to a podcast review) that I wanted to acknowledge:

- suspension of disbelief

- Ambrose’s character at the beginning (a little self centered)

- too much space stuff & it was confusing at times

- the ending (redacted for obvious reasons but basically abrupt/random)

Note: the people who brought these up still rated the book 8/10 or 3.5/5 overall, despite what they disliked. I didn’t have any of these problems (aside from the Ambrose one which I attributed to deep seated self image problems) but everyone will read it their own way so I wanted to include them as a heads up!

Here is the link to the Spotify podcast review if you’re interested (be aware there are MAJOR SPOILERS!!!)

What brought it to a 10:

This book led me to ask some pretty big questions-

“Would I have done the same in their shoes? Would anyone?”

“If you could do it again would things be different?”

“What makes us human?”

“How do you know you exist?”

“What brings people together/what keeps them apart?”

“How much can people withstand before they go crazy?”

It’s a book that is sad, yes, but not in a way that you’ll regret reading it after. You’ll be grateful the universe (and maybe me 😉) helped put it in your hands.

Finally, I’ll let some random people (courtesy of Tik Tok comments sections) tell you what they thought:

“This book has ruined me and cured me and murdered me and hugged me all at once” -@ihathdroppedmycroissant

“I listened to the audiobook version and it had me sitting upright in my bed all night starting at the wall” -@draconic.gremlin

“I just finished this and I’m still gasping for air” -@morethanapage.books

Do with this what you will.

I sincerely recommend to fans of:

They Both Die at the End by Adam Silvera

Osamu Dazai (the author)

Simone de Beauvoir & Jean-Paul Sartre (poets/key figures in Existentialism)

The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller

Psychology AKA why ppl do sh*t

Philosophy AKA why ppl do sh*t but fancy✨

Sad books that take ur heart and give it back better

Note: Gay space nerds, you should read this🪐 (I love u)

This book changed the way I see the world. I hope it will for you too 🫶🏼

^me to Tumblr for deleting my review halfway thru (I’m on Ep. 12 of Doom At Your Service rn)

[graciebrams]

bestie i started listening to gracie bc of you!!! and omg her songs are so good and i’m mad at myself for not listening to her sooner!! i wanted to listen to a while since you post about her sm, and you have great taste so i assumed she’s amazing. my faves songs so far are stay, mess it up, block me out, the bottom, and wishful thinking (it’s so hard to pick a fave rn) i hope you have an amazing day <3

(i’ve been meaning to send this ask for a couple weeks but i kept forgetting whoops 😭)

sooo i saw this ask the first thing in the morning when you sent it but I didn't know how to respond bec i was so 🥹🥹🥹 this ask made me so flipping happy 😭 you have no idea !! I'm so glad you love her tooooo 😭 also the fact that you think my taste is amazing !? 🥹 helloo !!? you're too kind 💕

omg those are literally my fav too like I can never pick my favs when it comes to her jshgsjsb. WISHFUL THINKING is my all time fav like I just go 🥰😍 everytime I hear it!! block me out makes me cry everytime lol and stay is so underappreciated fr 😔🥺 that's literally my most most fav but people barely talk about stay 🥺 and it makes me sad ☹️ . MESS IT UP AND THE BOTTOM ARE MY JAMS !!! SUCH BOPS BOTH OF THEM 🤩 !!

omg have you heard minor? if yes then what's your fav on it? and also if you've heard the whole this is what it feels like then what's your most fav from all?

and you should listen to unlearn with benny blanco that one is just 🥹🥺❤️‍🩹 !!

ahh I'm just so happy you love her and started listening to her bec of me 🥹 you're like the thrid person this year who told me they started listening to gracie bec of me it makes me so ecstatic 😭❤️‍🩹. ilyyyyy and i can't wait to disscuss more about her with you 🥺🥰

[pop-punklouis]

hi again bestie happy (sorta early) birthday. i tried sending u flowers but no one would do it today or tmrw and then i finally found one shop that was taking delivery orders for tmrw so i was like ok cool bingo and placed an order etc etc and then i got a phone call from a lady with a heavy southern accent and she’s like “we’re closed for the holidays and will be refunding your money” and i was like. why did u let me place an order for dec 22 then 🧍🏽‍♀️anyway. you WILL get flowers from me one day it just won’t be the day of your birthday i guess 💆🏽‍♀️ but i hope it’s still a fabulous one! love you 🤍

omg what shop did you order flowers from :( my aunt sent me flowers today from a shop in my town so i h8 that but i love you so much always just the idea of being sent flowers is so lovely and kind and it is wayyy too nice of a gesture ❤️‍🩹

thank you for the birthday love and for always being so thoughtful and generous and having an overall warming presence ilysm ✨