#best read with a romantic bgm!

[natasha-in-space]

HIIIIIIIII DARLING

I'm sorry my hyperactive squirrel brain is excited to request because mystic messanger has been occupying my brain.

Anyways since your requests are open I was thinking

Zen X reader confession??? Like Zen confessing to reader,how he would do it and blablabla (also if it's possible without any spoilers for the story since I'm on the 10th day rn so y'now)

Anyways eat well and don't forget to drink (⁠づ⁠｡⁠◕⁠‿⁠‿⁠◕⁠｡⁠)⁠づ

Thank you, dear anon! I hope you stay hydrated and eat well just as much. I had a lot of fun writing out your request! So much so that I decided to go with Zen's POV as well as your own. I hope you enjoy it :)

Zen was a hopeless romantic.

Perhaps it was just a side effect of all the exciting romance plots he always enjoyed acting out throughout his career, or maybe it was a natural part of who he was as a person. If you would ask him this directly, he wouldn't really know how to answer. Maybe, it was a combination of both. He longed for a meaningful connection with someone from a very early age, even if it wasn't necessarily romantic at the time. Songs and musicals gradually opened up his eyes to such an enormous array of breathtaking stories, full of people caring and loving ond another in so many difficult ways, both romantic as well as platonic... Something he couldn't really experience in his own home life. It was only natural for him to eventually start fantasizing about something similar on his own.

But, even despite all that... He never expected to fall for you so fast and so hard. The butterflies in his stomach he would have to deal with whenever he opened up the messenger as soon as he woke up and wondered whether or not he will see you there... how nice it would be to talk to you first thing in the morning, and how much he wanted to ask you about your plans for the day. The ticklish warmth blooming in his chest so breathtakingly whenever you would ask him about his day in turn, such genuine excitement felt in your sweet voice as he would talk to you over the phone in between his rehearsals... In fact, he got in trouble with his manager a few times already for always sneaking off to talk to you. He had no regrets. The many daydreams he would mull over in his own head as he ran his usual evening laps around his neighborhood... Thinking of how wonderful it would be to share his evening routine with you by his side. Would you two bicker like an old married couple? Or, maybe you'll stick together like glue? He couldn't help but want to find out.

It was all pretty dizzying to deal with already, in the best way possible, of course. It's been so long since he experienced the exciting feeling of falling in love.

But, when you showed up at his apartment? All worried for him of all people? He came to the realization that he was too deep to swim back out. Not like he wanted to, anyways. No matter how depressed and discouraged he would become, deep down, he knew he didn't want to let you go. You were the warm ray of sunlight he longed for. You supported him, you respected him, you encouraged him, and...

God, he hoped you would love him.

He made an effort to keep his sentimental heart under control for now. He wanted to be a proper gentleman to you! He wanted to take things nice and slow with you. Not to mention the scandal weighing down on his career currently, making his future rather unstable at best. You deserved someone who could provide for you and care for you... You deserved someone with a stable future. It wouldn't feel right for Zen to confront you with his feelings when he couldn't give you anything in return. At least, that's how he viewed it.

That is until he had to rush in to save you from that damn hacker.

Zen was aware of the danger this world possessed. Hell, he went through so many dangerous situations in his not so long lifetime, he could easily write an entire book about it, if he put his mind to it. But, nothing could compare to the paralyzing fear he felt in his very soul at the prospect of you being in danger, and him being unable to do anything about it. It made him act out in a way he hadn't in a long time. He will probably apologize to Seven for outright screaming at him to provide him the address to Rika's apartment... after giving him a piece of his mind at the party, that is.

Knowing that you were safe and sound beside him was an overwhelming relief that words couldn't describe. It was so strong, that his legs nearly gave out from underneath him the moment you two got back to his apartment. Still, he did his best to appear strong. For you. So that you could rely on him.

But... there was something else, too.

After almost losing you like that, he realized that he couldn't wait until the right moment to confess his feelings for you. Now, he knew more than ever, just how precious you became to him in a short amount of time that you have spent with him. And, truth is, he didn't want to hold back on his feelings anymore. You told him that he deserved to be selfish sometimes... So, as the day slowly faded into night, he gathered all his courage and paddled over to the tiny kitchen, where you resided currently.

"...Y/N?"

You were caught off guard and gasped as you whirled around to look at him with wide eyes. Damn it. He probably should have warned you first. You were probably still so shaken after everything that happened back at the apartment... He chastised himself internally before raising his hands up in the air to comfort you.

Well, no time like the present.

⏝꒷۰꒷⏝꒷۰꒷⏝꒷۰꒷⏝⏝꒷۰꒷⏝꒷۰꒷⏝

"My bad, my bad! Didn't mean to startle you. You okay?" Zen watched you with a worried expression plastered all over his beautifully sculpted face. Seeing him there caused your head to fill up with various thoughts for some reason. So many things have happened in the span of just ten measly days. And yet, it felt like months have passed. Figuring out your own feelings amid all this chaos was practically impossible!

"I- Yes, sorry! I just got lost in my head for a moment there." You laughed it off awkwardly. It was peculiar. Zen was always gorgeous, such is his fate. You thought it was only natural for you to get just a little bit flustered in his presence, especially if it's just the two of you in an enclosed space. But, right now, he was rather disheveled. His long hair was tied up in a messy bun, a couple of locks falling over his face rather adorably, his clothes were wrinkled from all the running you two went through today, and his face looked stricken with worry. And yet, somehow, you felt even more drawn to him than ever. He almost sparkled in that cheap kitchen lighting, much to your embarrassment. You couldn't even write it off on the possible moonlight, because his apartment had no windows!

As you stood staring at him, Zen began speaking with a nervous expression. "Y/N, to tell you the truth, I... have decided something after everything that happened to us today."

"Oh?" Just hearing him mention the horrible events of today's morning made all the color drain from your face. What was he going to tell you? You honestly had no idea, but, for some reason, your anxious mind came up with all sorts of worrying options. You sure hoped he wouldn't make you go back to that apartment... You were honestly not above begging if it came down to it. The thought of returning there was too much to handle.

Your chest felt incredibly tight with worry as you waited for him to continue with bated breath. Zen took a deep breath and then raised his piercing gaze back at you, making your heart skip a beat. And it wasn't due to the anxiety this time around. "What I want to say... is my true feelings. I know I already made it obvious that I like you, but... I want to say it properly this time around. I love you."

"Uh-" A small squeak slipped passed your lips as your breath got stuck in your throat. Did you hear him wrong, maybe? Did he... Did he really... So, you tried to pull yourself together and clarify. No reason to freak out just yet! "I... Did I... Did I hear that right? You... love me?"

"Yes, you heard it all precisely right. I love you, Y/N. As a person. As a partner. I love you." He didn't even hesitate. He spoke with confidence, his words were clear and loud enough for you to hear everything.

You could feel yourself freezing up again, the heat rushing to your cheeks before you could do anything to stop it. This was so different from the way you expected this conversation to go! Here you were, worrying about him sending you back to Rika's apartment, but instead he... confessed his love to you!? Amidst all the ticklish feelings of infatuation, came the feeling of great relief, making your shoulders slump forward.

Zen continued, carefully watching your reaction as he spoke. "I know that this is an inconvenient time for something like this. I know that the prospect of being with me in a romantic sense may be very stressful for you. But, please let me say this to you anyway. Y/N... I love you. I think... I think I fell for you even before we met face-to-face."

Zen's tender gaze made your legs feel weak from the intensity of his gaze. The eagerness in his beautiful ruby eyes conveyed more than even a thousand words ever could. He loved you. That's what his eyes told you. There was no doubt about it.

"You have always been so... genuinely supportive of me. You told me that I... that I am inspiring to you, both inside and out. You never saw me as just my looks. You never once doubted me during this recent scandal. Even when I doubted myself. You believed in me when no one else did. You... You don't know just how much you saved me." He smiled at you, and yet, it almost looked like he was about to tear up. He looked at you as if you were the most valuable thing in the entire universe at this moment. And the implications of that made your heart race even more than it already did, if that was even possible. Before you could reply in any way, though, he continued. "...I love your smile. I love how you always look straight at me and accept me as I am, even when I was at my weakest. I love you, Y/N. Because you saw me as who I am. I never knew someone could become so special to me in such a short amount of time, but... it's you, Y/N. And I wouldn't have it any other way."

"Zen..." Seeing all the emotion flowing through his eyes, and hearing him pour out his heart to you like this truly made you feel lightheaded. You were happy, but it wasn't due to his appearance. Oh, you were so unbelievably happy. And on the brink of crying, too. You were so relieved that he did not plan on sending you away, but you were even more relieved that...

The fact that you were also in love with Zen brought you relief. No other reason could be possible.

This conclusion was so natural, it was as simple as adding up 2 + 2. This was more than anything you've felt with him before. This was more than the ticklish sensations of surprise or embarrassment... You were just so incredibly happy. Giddy, even. The only thing that was left for you to do was to express it.

You accomplished it. Without even thinking, you reached for him and took hold of his sleeve, stopping him before he was about to go on with his words. In hindsight, this was a bit awkward, but you didn't care. Zen's eyes widened a little as he looked at you, awaiting your next move. "Y/N?"

But, unfortunately, you were at a loss for words. While Zen had too much to say, you couldn't form a single word, even as your chest was practically vibrating from all the feelings of affection and happiness stacked within it. You and Zen just stared at one another for a moment or two, nothing but the buzzing sound of his freezer breaking through the silence. Even though you knew you loved him back, you couldn't find the right words to tell him. Was there even any need for the right words? You didn't know. It was confusing. Confusing and so damn exciting at the same time.

You decided to go for it. Blurting out anything that would come to your frazzled mind. "Z-Zen, I- Me too! I mean- Love. I love you, too. That's what I mean."

That was not awkward at all. You couldn't suppress a stupid laugh as you realized just how embarrassingly high-pitched your voice sounded. God, you were such a mess. Regardless, you continued on. In some weird way, you messing up so terribly at first made it easier to just be honest from then on.

"Sounds like a dream come true, my prince/ss". He murmured in return. And, before you could even think about it, he gently cupped your cheek, making your breath hitch. "...Can I kiss you?"

"Wait, no. That didn't come out right. What I'm trying to say is... I am so, so happy to hear you say all of these things... And I don't care about the timing, or your career, or the scandal, or anything at all. I mean- No, I do care, just- Agh, you get what I mean!" This time, Zen chuckled along with you, making your stomach fill up with butterflies at the sweet sound of it. With a happy smile, he nodded along and looked at you expectedly. This made you forget all about your reservations or nerves at once. You felt comfortable, relaxed. "What I'm trying to say here is... I want to be by your side. Supporting you. Loving you. And... And being loved by you. Does that sound okay?"

How could you refuse that?

[jiminsass-istant]

"But I really feel that to understand jikook, you have to look at them from a best friend POV first. How much they mean to each other. Then these kind of gestures like the tattoo and GCF T wouldn't be such huge topics of discussion.

Would I make a video of my bestie with a romantic song in the background ? Sure!"

Previous anon here again. What you just said remembered me of a convo I had with my boyfriend about Jikook. He’s not an Army per se but likes some of their songs and he’s watched some content with me over the years, especially Run episodes. I ask his opinion about Jikook from time to time when something new drops because tbh I tend to trust guys pov way more on this issue. He’s more convinced that I am than Jikook have a thing, it’s not really a question for him he usually just say "it’s obvious". I prefer to leave some place to doubt personally. GCF in Tokyo was one of the things that got him so sure about them. I’m probably over generalizing but I think it comes from differences between how men and women navigates their friendships. I could make a cute vlog about my best friend with a romantic song in the background and people would mostly think it’s cute, but two guys doing the same? Most people would find it ‘sus’. Hence the fandom’s general attitude regarding Jikook imo. Not that guys can’t be close to their bestfriend and if they are they’re automatically dating but in the realm of male friendships it is mostly perceived that way it seems. My boyfriend has no problem being touchy with his guy friends and flirting as a joke but there’s some boundaries they would never cross, like making a vlog with a romantic song in the background lol. For the most part I think male and female friendships vary and unfortunately guys have less ‘freedom’ in that department, if that makes sense. I’m not sure I’m explaining my opinion correctly, I think there’s much more to say about this but I would go off topic probably. And I guess I could get canceled saying more as this isn’t exactly in alignement with today’s populars opinions, probably.

Sorry I'm a bit late to this ask. I really liked your POV and wanted to read it properly before answering. You are right that men and women view friendships differently. And if we add the skinship difference in cultures, then again people view things differently. For example, when I got into kpop first, the skinship between male idols was very new to me. I didn't find it sus, but it made me raise eyebrows sometimes. Over time, i understood that it was common behaviour. But if a guy friend from my community sees a skinship compilation they would just go " that's hella sus or hella gay".

I guess what you are trying to say is that filming your guy friend and adding a romantic bgm is a big deal for guys more than it is among girl besties. So you do admit GCF tokyo was romantic, right? Lol. I hope so, because to me it was. And also to the countless locals in the comments. Because let's call a duck, a duck. It's art and free to interpret and most of us interpreted it as romantic.

Also, aren't we viewing things from a gender binary perspective, here? I wish I had more exposure to all perspectives.

I just find it very amusing and endearing that jk had no problem with his work being seen that way. Feel free to share your POV anon, you won't be cancelled as long as you are polite. Get behind me.

[straycatboogie]

2023/07/19 English

BGM: The Jesus and Mary Chain - I Love Rock 'N' Roll

Today I worked late. This morning I went to the library and borrowed a collection of romantic sonnets in England. After that, I started writing today's poem at the AEON's food court. Recently I am busy so can't stay and enjoy chatting on Discord to chill. I am sorry for my absence. Next Saturday I will be able to get a day off, and I want to enjoy small talk even though I have to make up the record of the meeting about autism on last Sunday. I wrote a draft of my poem so roughly. Although I want to open it to the world (for example, on Facebook). But I won't. I want to be modest to open it because I don't want to treat my readers so rudely. I need the time to make my head cool. I start reading a long interview with Shuntaro Tanikawa, and find that I have never known about him almost completely. We can find his works almost everywhere. On the textbooks, advertisements, the cartoon "PEANUTS" he had translated... But I have not learned how he had lived. This is a good opportunity for me. What can I learn?

And evening time, at the resting time of my work, I write my poem completely once more. On a Telegram group, I asked the admin to introduce my poetry blog. Oh my gosh, my life goes around the poetry nowadays. This maniac personality is one of the characters of autism. As I wrote yesterday, I have a friend as a YouTuber. Although I can't have followed his videos, I start thinking that I could add my poems to the melody he writes. Yes, a collaboration. Or another friend's paintings and my poetry... my dreams increase. It makes me happy, and also lets me feel grateful in the current situation. Now I just need to enrich my collection of poetry to wait the time because it is too early. I need the time to realize these collaborations. I share some pics of "本の蔵". I start thinking that I would like to afford the first collection of my poetry to them to share with the customers if I could make it. Can I use the friend's painting as its cover? And I also want to share the income from the book by selling it with her. Of course, this is just a plan. I need to collect my poems.

Is there any writer who had become famous in his/her late stage of life? I adored the writes who had appeared young enough and become famous immediately. Just like Keiichiro Hirano (although I have never read his works), and Ryu Murakami. But I can't become like them. I need to accept that I am lesser than them, and I never have the great talent... I just try to make my talent grow higher steadily, step by step. Then I could become a great old writer as Atsushi Mori and Charles Bukowski. Of course, maybe I couldn't become because there must be a lot of amateur writers who couldn't show their talents. There must be the writers who had been praised after their death like Franz Kafka. I can't control that I would be praised, or become popular. I just make my efforts to keep on writing my best, and try to show it to the world. They are the things I can control. I just do them and wait for the result. God will help me.

I had drunk a lot of alcohol in my young days, and now have a regret a little. I needed to care myself more preciously. But at that period I couldn't see that, and there was no person who said to me "Treat yourself precious". Now I just try to keep/save my inner fire of vitality, and walk forward one by one. I try to write my poems one by one, slowly, slowly... I think that this is really a miracle because I am still alive. Now, luckily, my fire still works. Keep this fire and try to live in my 50s and 60s... to leave the great works as Yoshikichi Furui and Haruki Murakami. Once I felt that I must be sinful because I couldn't have found any purpose or dream in my life. Why had I learned English literature at Waseda? But now, I feel that everything was to be here. I just gripped my interest, and tried to dig it to the other side of this planet even though I have no talent. A long and winding road... to be here. Now the scenery is wide. What kind of inspiration falls from the sky?

The Hearts are Still Blue

The high school was like a battle place Smart students were trying to be an ace How would they become? Any famous magazine's face? Outsiders like me actually needed a grace

The Blue Hearts sang their anthem "TRAIN-TRAIN" They declared to go their way through very heavy rain I adored them. I carried my Walkman like the drink "REGAIN" I enjoyed their songs a lot although they must never refrain

And now... time must fly. But on YouTube I try I revisit the battle field with "The Catcher in The Rye" I don't want to tell any lie, but you say I'm sly?

The Blue Hearts says simplicity is the key So don't be afraid. Be yourself cause you're free I write this one with a smile of toy monkey

*1 The Blue Hearts is a Japanese punk band

[ricesoupremacy]

i don't read a LOT either currently, but these are my personal faves:

Nevermore (Supernatural)- it's got GORGEOUS art, tragic lesbians and is based off the works of edgar allan poe. what more do you need?

Homesick (Thriller)- this is just. god-level thriller. monsters in an apocalypse, main lead with amnesia, really cool colour palette, good lgbt rep (in the sense the characters aren't drenched with their sexualities, but it's casual and normalized rep which i personally prefer to in-your-face rep) (the male main lead is ace!!), and a black cat. read it for the black cat. i know you like horror, but this has got graphic stuff so just a heads-up in case you consider reading it.

Love Advice From the Great Duke of Hell (Comedy) [completed]- i read this to unwind and GOD i was so happy i found it lmao. peak comedy. i actually fell off my chair because of this. felt like i got abs just by laughing so hard. it's completed too, so no suspense. idk if you've seen that one spinoff sort of story of the cat and the pointing lady meme, but this webtoon is by the same artist.

Finding Wonderland (Fantasy) [completed]- sort of based off Alice in Wonderland. i don't think i can say much without spoiling but it deals with a lot of issues really well. and has very immersive art. and plot twists. and "alice" and the "white rabbit" are lesbians lol. idk why half the things i find are gay. the finale is so good tho.

Unholy Blood (Supernatural) [also completed]- translated from the original korean version. it's got hot vampires lol. action, feels, strong female lead- absolute rollercoaster. the only thing i denounce are these two romantic parts in the finale which were really sudden and unnecessary and i'm just gonna pretend they never happened but otherwise it's really good. it's got comedy to balance out too, but doesn't get any less intense.

The Fever King (Superhero) [completed 🥹]- whew ok so this is based off a book by the same name, i read it really long ago and i remember nothing except concerning bits but it's amazing. the art is literally electrifying. if you read it with the right bgm it's movie-quality. sadly there isn't an adaptation of the second book and i haven't read the books either so i'll cry but it's good shit

Purple Hyacinth (Mystery) will rip your heart out. i was reading it during s2 hiatus hjaghsahsajk i died. basically assassin teams up w police officer who can detect lies for a common goal, and then ykw happens next. but this is seriously my top recommendation. it's the most beautifully balanced webtoon in terms of pace, art, storyline, lore, bgm and somehow accommodates equal measures intensity, angst, romance, comedy while also not sidelining friendship, themes like marriage and class disparities and ✨trauma✨

not the best summaries (if you can even call them that) but yeah i've read these and i really like em, and i think you might too. i haven't tried out genres like romance and stuff but my friend says some of them are genuinely worth it and are not just sappy dramas, so if you're interested in other stuff i can ask her to send recs too! if you ever consider reading lol.

also is this a good time to mention that not even bones has a webcomic adaptation which is how i discovered it in the first place, and webcomic kovit looks UNHINGED👌

it can't beat the actual book tho so it's good to read after finishing the books. season 2 just ended, so season 3 (for book 3) is going to take a while. it hits different when you already know what's going to happen lol

anyway i've been reduced to a being too impatient to read actual books anymore so i read webcomics. the shame is too great. please don't break up with me.

THANK YOU for telling me about this! webcomic kovit looks exactly like i imagined him, but just more zannie-ish. which is nice and badass.

ooo i see. you're correct i just scrolled through some episodes and brooo it was so enrapturing even after i've read the trilogy because like. the story that i imagined in my mind first is playing out on the screen. it hits different fr.

i did not think you would choose webcomics over books. this is a deal breaker. jk i won't break up with you because recently i've started liking digital comics and stuff like what webtoons has. last november this friend of mine was telling me about anime and how anime artists don't get the recognition they deserve. their episodes are really detailed and the fact that it's all graphically designed just shows the kind of hard work they put into their content. how many webcomic/anime artists are actually famous? like, well known around the world? definitely not enough to explain the sheer amount of digital content that we have.

[sintreaties]

So I finally decided to watch the KKG movie. As it lasted two hours and I really struggle to keep my attention focused for so long, while watching it I just wrote down whatever reaction I had. You can find the result (and a lot of major spoilers) under the cut.

Overall I'd give this movie a 5/10. I wouldn't rewatch it in its entirety, but I would certainly go back to rewatch some clips. Bgm was nice. Give it a try if you like the live-action and you just want to relax for a couple of hours.

Kirari telling Sayaka to shut up 🙄🥰

NOT THE WHITE DR MARTENS

Kirari literally snatched Arukibi’s wig

Why does Kirari’s actress speak so softly

Yumeko’s criminally cringe

Why is there more crack than in stripperbami

“We can live a normal school life here,” Arukibi says, while walking through the fog of a fucking medieval fair

Election, but make it trashy

I would also love to be an actress like Kirari’s because she passes 4/5 of her time in the dark and she could be making the worse faces, you still wouldn't see it

Itsuki saves the day

Midari read her speech off a beat menstrual pad

If yumeko won against Manyuda, why does she still have the pet tag

If you dislike Saotome in general, I doubt this movie will help

“Kirari’s a monster. Only a monster could defeat her, not a hero. If we defeat her, we’re still monsters and we will still hurt someone because of gambling.” Murasame deserved better

KIWATARI AND SAOTOME LMFAO enemies to friends

KIWATARI REGURGITATED a Watch???

Suzui, just 🙈, you can do better than this

KIWATARI THREW HANDS

Kiwatari and Saotome have such a wonderful synergy

SUZUI jfc

Yumeko lied to her own partner <33

Sayaka getting closer to the mic: “It’s a gamburu” the crowd: 😍😍😜🤪😘🤪🤪🥰

They did not give Ririka a voice modifier, so she speaks as if she was inside a washing machine

MURASAME BEAT KIRARI?? AND HIS SISTER STILL KILLED HERSELF???

Arukibi is the nice kid who forced herself to work on a group project with the only kid that nobody else wanted to work with

THEY’RE TRYING TO KILL INUHACHI IN THE SAME MANNER THEY KILLED JESUS CHRIST— HER LUNGS ARE MEANT TO COLLAPSE UNDER HER OWN WEIGHT I SHFISKAL78&fybj

Sayaka best dealer

Mary is such an antihero that she’s not out of place with Kiwatari, and that should tell you a lot

Sayaka could easily peg Suzui — Another win for bottom Kirari

“A few words from out president” Kirari proceeds to mumble some shit that not only makes no fucking sense, but is also inaudble. The rest of the room applaudes out of politeness cause they just didn’t hear a fuck

Love that kirari and ririka are always together

I’m halfway through, the fact that this movie lasts two hours is mind-boggling

Sumeragi, you’re a first year student. It’s okay to lose sometimes.

Yumeko suzui FINGER GUN someone make fanart of it please — or buy me a graphic tablet, I’ll do it myself

Yumeko teaching “moderation is important in having success” is the most wholesome I’m ever seen Yumeko — and also the most laughable

Why do mary and kiwatari have cheerleeders choirs

They’re suspecting Kirari of trying to kill Inuachi like Jesus and that’s so fucking funny somehow

Murasame is a third year student. The fact that he seems to have a special connection with both of the twins AND runa is interesting

Saotome telling Kiwatari to go throw hands with Kirari 💀

Murasame can count the cards — which means that he would not be welcome in most Las Vegas casinos

Sayaka gestures so much that she could pass for an italian

KIWATARI AND SAOTOME SILENTLY SCREAMING AT EACH OTHER

If they’re going to win because suzui’s so idiotic Murasame can’t keep up I’m gonna lose it

Suzui has the power of making me physically violent by appearing on screen for less than twenty seconds

Arukibi is so terrible she fucks up long before her time

WHY DOES SAYAKA KEEP GESTURING TO HERSELF LMFAO

Kirari just being pretty💁🏼‍♀️

Yumeko’s reading is so over the top that if Arukibi was just a bit smarter and denied it no one would doubt her word — Arukibi are you okay, what is this face, what is this laugh, what

ARUKIBI CREAMS HERSELF AT THE TABLE OVER KIRARI and Kirari is just like 😑

Arukibi has mommy issues

Arukibi has mental issues in general

Arukibi are we okay

Planning an intervention for Arukibi

Arukibi has the guts to say some viscid shit about Kirari to Sayaka and Sayaka just clicks her tongue lmfao

Calling an exorcist for Arukibi

Arukibi scaring Suzui is life

Midari is planning to take over the village through Very Violent means

Kiwatari and Mary are still the best non-romantic couple

Why is there fog at the village if it’s just the old school building😩

Ikishima is physically prevented from committing murder by her own people and that’s the only reason why the village is spared

KIWATARI AND MAR— ONLY MARY BECAUSE SHE SENT HIM INTO A COMA

?????????

What

Reminder that matches are meant to be won, not lost

???? What

Screaming — Thank god for Sayaka

Kirari has two moods and nothing more 😊😑

What

What

UNO

FUCK

When does this movie end

Why is kirari already leaving lmfao😭

Can we not do that cartoonish thing with the eyes please

W h a t

Bromance between Mary and Kiwatari yes please😭😩

??

The only Ikishima I like is Live Action Movie Ikishima — probably because she has three scenes top

Sayaka clicking her tongue 🥰🥰

??? What

😩 I’m so tired

KIWATARI AND MARY BEING IDIOTS MY BELOVED

Kirari smiling 🥰🥰

[iamherefortheships]

Hello #stranger 2 fandom. How are we doing ? I have so many feelings about SF2 and its only been 2 days, but I cant move on from THAT FINAL DINER SCENE between Shimok and Yeojin .  I have literally joined tumblr so I can write about this (so maybe i can start living my life lol).

My brain cells were extremely satisfied with SF2, but my heart was left wanting.

Here is the essay/analysis of the diner scene that LITERALLY NO ONE asked for. I do ship them so some of the views are with shipping glasses ON! So read at your own risk :) also - its very long

I want to first contrast the scenes from SF1 to SF2. The final diner in season 1 was warm, funny and open to possibilities - it established that after being through all that crap together they had gone from being professional partners to friends who want to be there from each other ( Sorry i can’t come to your ceremony, sorry i can’t see you off...etc etc). The music was upbeat.

It felt like the start of something important (and I do not mean in a romantic way, it’s just a big deal for Shi-mok to let someone in his life)

And when the SF2 started, the way these two talked on the phone it just felt like they had been in touch -so maybe their friendship had been constant. And then of course the whole police-prosecution thing happened which made Yeo-jin super reserved and closed off. Even when they were together, I felt that their relationship was more mature and stronger. 

And then SF2 did something wonderful, which was so subtle that I couldn’t place it for a while. It made Shimok the empathetic one – the number of times he gave that weird soft look to Yeojin was just …! And he constantly expressed his concern in his own way and I am paraphrasing – “ is this who you are? Is this what you want to do? You don’t draw anymore”. He was expressing his concern towards her (without judging her choices btw, which I loved). This is a huge emotional step for him.

There is also a lot of public acknowledgement of their partnership/friendship – CB baiting Yeojin, WTH  making observations and thinking he can threaten Shi-mok by destroying Yeojin’s career, Shi-mok going out his way to protect Yeojin by appealing to CB. I am very happy with this – coz it does emphasize how central they are to this story and each other.

So the reason, I have gone off on a bit of a tangent is to bring it to all to the diner scene. I both loved and was terribly saddened by it – it felt weirdly unresolved for their relationship.

I can’t exactly place the tone of the diner scene . First of all, there was a deliberate sense of nostalgia (with the hair cut and reference to week keep saing goodbye), and that’s always done to refer back to a better or happier time. And then Yeojin and Shimok are both in different places emotionally. She was very sad in this whole scene which just broke my heart. She just gives and gives, she needs some TLC now!

There were more confusing vibes on what the scene was trying to establish. It started off so cute with the hair-cut,and showing how much Shi-mok notices her and remembers their time together.  And boy he notices her in this scene – literally cannot take eyes off her and has this glint in his eyes that entire time (CSW is such a brilliant actor!). The bgm is sweet, not upbeat but not sad. 

And I love that they talked about the dream (again, Shimok is sharing personal details with her this season…which makes the shipper in me super happy).  

Then the music becomes super sad – like it’s the end of something.  Even though Yeojin implies that this repeated farewells has become a joke, it somehow felt more final.

And then the way Shi-mok says - Take Care, Inspector Han. The way he said it just punched me in the gut – it was so full of emotion, tenderness, and finality. My first reaction was that this was a farewell in the literal sense – goodbye forever, end of an era, you were in my life and you meant something and I wish you the best in whatever you do. End of the road for us vibes.

Is that just me or did anyone else feel that way too? Am I overthinking this? 

But then, the food comes and Shimok just sits and gazes at her – and I am like whoa- that does not look platonic! The level of fondness in that gaze is not an emotion I have seen on this character’s face ever. He just takes her in….as if he is realizing what she is to him. But also, like he is memorizing her face .....

I have gone and rewatched this scene multiple times, and Shimok looks more smitten with every rewatch....LOL.  It’s the finality of the dialogs in the scene that keeps throwing me off.  

I know he asks her ‘Is she okay?”  (which is huge step for Shimok) but  I would have loved something more there…not an ask for help but even an acknowledgement that Yeojin realizes that he is there for her.  

I found it interesting that in this scene the camera was mostly focused on Shi-mok’s face  – as if to emphasize about what he feels for and what she means to him. 

I did love the scene, and it was so loaded with emotions and Shimok has definitely had some realization about Yeojin..but why did it feel so final ☹. I can’t even tell if they will stay in touch ☹. Why was the music so sad?

I don’t know how else they could have done it, and I know the second season was much darker, but I wish they had left these two together in a happier place. 

Okay apologies for the word vomit/typos but I already feel better after writing it!

[arentwelost]

reactions to the bnha: heroes rising film

spoilers alert !

(i risked coronavirus to go to the cinema for this but no regrets because we all want to die anyway oof-)

the film was very 1a centred & that’s gr8 and all especially since we got to witness the bond they had between them & just. how incredibly amazing their teamwork is

but i really ,,, miss,,, aizawa (my fave, my tru love)

he had a total of 3 (?) scenes, each of them lasting like less than 10 secs - even toshinori had more scenes than that : (

but you know who even had less screen time (aka none),,, our boy,,, the valid purple son,,,, shinsou hitoshi : (

the person who had the most screen time was this new villain called nine and i really wanna yell begone thot at him because he was like “i want to create a utopia where the powerful rules” and i was like thinking,, yo that shit sounds like capitalism & neoliberalism

his character design was really pretty, but it didn’t make up for his ideology that came outta nowhere with no backstory - so it was really hard to empathise/sympathise

what makes a villain good is 1) sufficient backstory 2) being so damn predictable and familiar that you actually prefer them over every other new villain because better the devil you know than the devil you don’t know

anyway, what really slaps is kacchan’s fuckin character development !!

lil gremlin is still gremlin but ,, he’s working with other kids,, he’s minimising damage done to the area while fighting villains,, there was a scene of him all calm and shit while eavesdropping on izuku and katsuma (which once again proves that most of his anger is just a front he puts up in front of other people rather than a perpetual state, and ya know what, i love that introvertedness that he has),,, him being protective over the bakusquad and not blasting kaminari for teasing him,,, he and izuku fighting together like a hero duo ,,,, eye-

this movie really said bakugo character development hUH

anyway in the beginning when endeavour showed up and dabi and endeavour had this whole showdown with their fire quirks and we got this close up of endeavour’s thicc thighs and i was like :           ) we don’t stan for this here but at the same time i was like @ hawks damn ur daddy really be like that, huH

which reminds me of my whole spiel about dabi/hawks and endeavour/hawks : ‘ ) 

but yea. dabi was unfairly attractive and i just want death to consume me

okay so the plot was like,, the hero commission (aka the dodgy ass institution): how about sending the 1a kids to an island where there are no active heroes ??

so the 1a kids get yeeted off to an island,, and they are having fun helping the locals out !! (this is the wholesome content we all deserve)

jirou and yaomomo asdgjhskgjahkj

kacchan who stays at home the entire day because he’s on ~villain duty~ and there weren’t any villains so he just sits at home and read manga asdfghjkl that’s a hard Mood

kirishima looking like the cutie he is eye-

the bakusquad teasing kacchan by calling him “kacchan of bakugo”

how is maharo & katsuma so damn cute *angery fists*

but izuku really be adopting children left and right hUh

dadmight and dadzawa whomst i only know dadku

ochako & tsuyu are so cute wtf eye-

these villains are overpowered af wtf

wow i love 1a having each other’s backs their teamwork,, was ,,, so good,,, so smooth ,,, (*whispers* poly 1-a anyone ??)

everyone be losing until kacchan comes blasTing in, saving kirishima & kaminari with sheer determination and stubbornness and manages to defeat one (1) villain

not going to lie though i feel like mummy got done dirty like that

but i like the little nod to the provisional exam arc

the inflated izuku mahoro projected was the Cutest

anyway what really clapped was you know,, both izuku and kacchan being the smort cookies they are: “DIDN’T I TELL YOU THAT ONCE I’VE SEEN YOU USE IT, I HAVE A WAY OF COUNTERING IT?!" 

like oof

also i love how izuku is established as the image of hope (the saviour) and kacchan is established as the image of victory (the victor) - this whole “win to save” and “save to win” really got laid down really heavily

but we’re all hoes for that i guess

touga in her winter gear !!! eye-

yaomomo delivering the Goods (i.e. the cannons) 

a o y a m a : (

the moment i realised that tokoyami was in the cave, i knew the villain there was Done For 

i haven’t forgotten our resident eldritch abomination, dark shadow, y’all

i just ?? love ?? mina ???? so much ??????

ngl i didn’t know chimera was literally a chimera until this part i just thought he one big furry

oof

that flashback to endeavour’s advice when shouto was fighting chimera ?? the symBoLisM wow

shouto being able to rationally separate endeavour the hero and endeavour the shitty dad & using the advice endeavour gave him to empower himself -

- wipes tears

sero and ochako getting blasted away really badly by nine,,, and izuocha happens but we’ve all seen that before

it is kacchan,, ,, being protective of sero when he got yeeted,,,,, that is the Point 

THE BEST PART ABT THE SECOND LAST FIGHT WAS LITERALLY BKDK BEING SO IN SYNC WITH EACH OTHER’S MOVES THAT THEY WERE FIGHTING LIKE A HERO DUO ??

LIKE IZUKU KICKING THE VILLAIN, REBOUNDING OFF THE SHIELD,, AND THEN FLYING OFF JUST FOR KACCHAN TO GRAB IZUKU’S HAND AND FLING HIM BACK AT THE VILLAIN FOR A SECOND ATTACK

THE WHOLE HANDHOLDING THING IS STARTING TO COME OUT AS A MOTIF

AND I JUST WOW ,,, BKDK,, (platonic or romantic or otherwise) OUT HERE,, HOLDING HANDS AS EQUALS,,, SYMBOLIC OF THEIR CHANGING RELATIONSHIP,,,,

s h o u j i : ( protecting mahoro and katsuma with his body : ( big cuddle boy doesn’t deserve this pain !!!

don’t think i didn’t notice the film using the same bgm as the kamino rescue

it draws such a powerful parallel ??  back then it was kacchan who needed to be ‘saved'  but now it’s kacchan doing the saving & the winning - once again, such character development asdfghjkl

this film,, making me appreciate kaminari 10x more

also fellas is it gay to stare at your rival and being able to communicate non-verbally

bkdk detroit smashing the storm together & making a damn fucking hole in the stratosphere like all might,, dispelling the damn storm and letting sunlight filter in ?? that was some really obvious symbolism but regardless,,,, wow

this is the part where the whole twin stars motif really came right in kicking our houses down

kacchan breaking both of his arms because of one for all & all i can think of is ,, izuku,, stop sharing your bone breaking juice with people

i’m just thinking about how people @ izuku: wtf how do you deal with this bone breaking bs all the time

and izuku, pure bean: oh yea haha i thought it was normal ?? like everyone has to get used to their quirks like this ??

a concept: quirkless izuku not understanding how quirks are supposed to feel

anyway, dadmight cradling izuku in his arms only to leave kacchan a metre away ?? favouritism that we’re all here for

izuku : ( apologising : ( for : ( being : ( a : ( bad : ( successor : (

i just want to shake izuku’s shoulders & tell him that he did super well and that he shouldn’t be ashamed of himself and that he deserves everything good in this world

also imagine being so gremlin that all the one for all predecessors were like "nope we’re not dealing with this gremlin child, we prefer the pure broccoli” 

disappointed that hawks didn’t get enough screentime

but we got some hawks & tokoyami and ryuukyuu & ochako time

kacchan ~conveniently~ forgetting what happened ?? i smell something fishy

our local crusty boy shows up & ahh yes, there it is - the close up shot that like to remind us that he needs to Moisturise

everytime i see red shoes on shigs i just think about the parallels between shigs and izuku and my heart breaks all over again

the scene where shouto got hugged super uncomfortably by endeavour ?? oof. the entire cinema just simultaneously laughed and heard the shouuuuutooooo

katsuma being like like “i’m going to become a hero like deku & bakugo !” and kacchan’s acting all cool and shit, telling him “you better” while izuku is like “katsuma, you can become a hero !! we’ll wait for you at ua !!” because he saw himself in katsuma and wanted to be the person he wanted someone to be for him when he was young

breaking my own heart like this

imagine the first years in ten years though

they’re just going to be a bunch of teenagers izuku or 1-a saved or adopted

and they’re going to give aizawa so many more grey hairs than the current 1-a

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Review of Love Lasts Forever / An Incurable Case of Love ❤️

Stars: 10/10 🤩

P.S, my first time writing a drama review! 😁

Firstly, I cannot express how much I love this drama! Total recommends to everyone, esp to those who likes romantic dramas!

It portrayed so many sides of life such as romance, family, friends and the importance of doctors and nurses, and how difficult their jobs are. At first, I wasn’t expecting much. I thought that it’ll be slightly cringy and boring, but no! I was completely wrong! I’d have never expected myself to love this drama THIS much. I watch it almost everyday T_T It changed my opinions about J-drama, honestly. Like previous reviews I have read, I too, also regret very much not “feeling it” the first time I watched. I regret not watching properly / in sequence (because I skipped some eps and some parts) but later on I went back for so many more times! Sakura Nanase is my role model when it comes to love 😭❤️ The way she’s so dedicated and didn’t give up even though there were so many challenges, and though it seemed impossible to reach her goal(s), she still tried her best and didn’t once stop. This already shows us what this drama is trying to show us. If you really want something, work hard for it! Don’t give up halfway. The not even 0.0001% chance mentioned by Dr. Tendo did happen. Dreams do come true. The character progression in her romantic life and work is also evident. Showing us that improvement can be made with hard work. Dr. Tendo on the other hand, he’s the type that doesn’t show that he cares. I was so touched by his confession in the last ep. I rewatched it more than 10 times already...He cried omg :( It showed that he really cares and loves Sakura so much deep down, but just didn’t express his feelings to her. He is so sweet and honestly his character progression 😭 From disliking Sakura to loving her this much......He finally could reprociate Sakura’s efforts. Nothing is impossible with hard work, right? My favourite part of this drama is the OST and bgm!!! During the eps, when sad/touching moments are happening, the piano OST (I love...) will play!!! It’s so amazing I was in tears :’( The music was so good I can’t stop replaying. This drama got me into Official Hige Dan <3 To sum my review up, Sakura’s perseverance touched me. I love this drama, and I dream to have such an experience too haha <3 Nanase Sakura x Tendo Kairi!

[tare-chan]

Spideychelle time!

Ok so now time for my spesific Spideychelle in FFH review :) It really took me this long to write cause… well… real life needs priorities ^^;

so anyway… beware of the long post under the cut

Okay, so when I read the news about the making of Spider Man FFH around October, when they shoot the Spideychelle scenes that’s placed in the very end of the movie, my hope for Spidyechelle being canon in FFH skyrocketed. 

and finally, when I saw it on screen, I have to say, I’m pleased :D Thank you Jon Watts! 

A little dissapointed that we didn’t get to see what happened right after the blip. I mean, surely the victim of the blip will be very confused, and shared the same trauma. We did see Aunt May raised a fund raiser for the blip’s victim. I was hoping to see how MJ would react to the blip, and what will be her reaction in seeing Peter and Ned still the same age at her. Surely they will become the best trio…… But then again, perhaps the script writer decided to leave those times to the fanfic authors?? ^^

Anyway, the first thing I noticed about Spideychelle moments were, everytime Peter interact with MJ, the bgm played the same song that played at the london bridge scene :D Awww…. totally love that bgm! Soft tunes and romantic….

So, the first scene we had was Peter telling Ned his plans, and MJ come to literally says hello to them :D This is one big step for MJ. She now feels comfortable enough to approach Peter and Ned. We already seen how akward Peter and MJ were in this scene. Did anyone noticed that MJ was a bit dissapointed when she heard that “Peter has plan”? Perhaps she thought Peter has plan to… approach European women? or something else? She looked relieved when the conversation went south, with those little spoon collecting things, and thus leaving the boys by giving them advice about VPN. Ned claimed that the conversation went well….. while we of course see that those didn’t went well at all XD

Next, the plane scene. For the first time on screen did we see MJ cleverly defended Peter from Flash. And the highlight moment when Peter acknowledge her actions. His expression was priceless. The little smiles and adoration eyes… that immediately changed into dislike upon seeing Brad.  (oohh Peter… you’re so cute!!) Then we saw Ned being the best BFF trying to become the wingman, and execute the ‘sit next to each other’ plan, that went horribly wrong. ^^; (I laugh so hard at that scene). We can see MJ was curious when Ned tell Betty to switch seat with Peter, and that curiosity turned into annoyed expression when at the end MJ needs to sit besides Brad. But she managed to control herself (as always), and tried to enjoy the ride. Unlike Peter whose face clearly showed how disappointed he was. 

The bathroom scene were also very sweet. Peter was so terribly awkward, but he still tried to did his best, and give his best for MJ. The confused MJ unfortunately didn’t get the ‘coded message’, thus leaving a high hope Peter face to face with….. Brad XD Lol!! 

Then the boat scene. Where Peter stared at MJ too long, that MJ started to look back. I think that’s when MJ started to understand that maybe Peter’s unto something. She’s very observant after all. But, as a very guarded person, she won’t be reckless or she will be hurt. Thus she still cope with whatever thing Brad has to offer, before ditching him, and went to have espresso. I think, she needs that espresso to ‘encourage’ her to approach Peter (she usually just drink tea). After all, we did see her waited at the pillar, until Peter showed up. Of course her intention was to confront Peter about that little gift, but in her subtle way, by sharing her knowledge about that magic word ‘Bo’. Perhaps that’s a very subtle message to Peter too…. “that’s my super power”?? Get it? MJ of course already suspect Peter was Spider-Man for so long. 

Then the Hydro-Man appeared. I love how both Peter and MJ jumped in to rescue Ned and Betty. They’re very brave!! In this scene, like my post from long time a go, noticed that MJ’s eyes didn’t actually looked at the monster, but rather at the boys before her. She must’ve noticed the conversation, thus holding Ned arms to lead them away from the dangerous zone. She didn’t look back, or search for Peter, because she already know (or suspect) that Peter could handle it on his own. And it’s her job to make sure Ned and Betty were okay. 

After that, the camera only focused on Peter, and the rest of the group who went to the closed museum. We didn’t get to see where MJ was….. there’s a possibility that she sneak around to watch Peter from a far. (just like the scene at the carnaval in Prague). 

Later we see that Peter once again tried to execute his plan, and asked MJ to went with him at their next destination. Eiffel tower in Paris. And MJ liked the idea! But of course, she has to stated another dark information regarding the tower, just to mess with Peter. She really love his petrified expression, didn’t she? Only this time, MJ always relieved Peter by immediately stating the positive things. Like how she actually love Eiffel tower. Aww….. I really like this development from her part. 

The bus scene! Once again we see how MJ tried to being nice with Brad. But at a certain point, she choose her book instead. And at the ‘Baby mountain Goat’ scheme Peter did, did anyone noticed that MJ didn’t buy it at all?? Everyone else went to the window side, but MJ sit still in her seat. And when Peter were confronted by Betty, we can see that MJ kinda ‘glared’ at Peter from the top of her book. And MJ keep sending Peter an “annoyed stare”, several times after that: when Brad tried to showed her ‘that’ photo, when Mr. Harrington briefed the kid at the hotel lobby and Peter’s phone rings. I’m guessing MJ started to piece things together and a little bit annoyed that Peter’s spider things hijacked their vacation, and there’s possibility dragged them all to danger things. 

From this scene onward, we did see how MJ build up her courage to interact with Peter. The silent looking at each other when they walked to the opera house, then she compliment him pretty, and she even managed to asked Peter to sit with her! Totally love how MJ didn’t immediately accept Peter’s rejection as ‘rejection’, but tried to confirm what he meant by ‘no’. Especially since MJ must’ve noticed Peter fumbled with something in his ear. And when Peter didn’t showed up at her side, MJ now run after him!! I saw these as a great growth from her part. Sure at this point, I think MJ was still confused at her own feeling, as in whether she actually want Peter because she likes him, or whether she was intrigued by Peter’s alter ego and want to confront him for confirmation.

Judging by what happened at their night walk at that bridge in Prague, I’m guessing MJ leans to the later excuse. Now, this is one of my favorite (angsty) scene. Noticed her expression when she cut Peter’s confession. She was so proud of herself, pointing at Peter’s disappearance that’s corresponds with Spider-Man’s appearance, she even scoffed at Peter’s lame excuses, and her expression when she took out her ‘proof’ was such a ‘happy - proud - managed to solved a problem - you can’t make anymore excuses’ one. 

Knowing he was caught, Peter went silent. But what weigh him more was that harsh truth that apparently MJ didn’t like him back for what he is. He can’t help but wear the ‘extremely’ disappointed expression. His heart literally broken to pieces there. He has sold his favorite toys to buy the beautiful necklace for her, he has prepared all those plans, he has mustered all courage he has to tell her his feeling, but apparently, all of that was wrong!! His broken ‘so…. you’ve been watching me, because you thought I was Spider-Man?” part was soooo well played by Tom, that I can’t help but feel the boy’s pain. Poor Peter… :,(

On the other part, MJ instantly knew that she’s stepped the boundaries. Her facial expression changed from proud to ‘regret’ in split second! (bless Zendaya and her acting prowess). She shouldn’t pushed Peter to admit his secret, a thing that she should know was something so important to him for a reason. She shouldn’t snoop into other people business, especially when said people purposely hide it from others. And at that moment, I believe MJ suddenly aware that Peter has feeling for her. That part scared her, especially since she are now confused at her own feeling. Guilt mixed in that. Thus she escape to the things she never did, she lied. 

Thankfully, the projector butt in, and the conversation could be put on hold. And Peter’s rational- responsible part, made him not to dwell much on his broken heart things, but to immediately prioritize his actions. Thus he confirmed MJ’s suspicions, cause he needs to do something to fixed his mistakes fast. MJ’s was taken back with this sudden change of behavior. Apparently she rarely see Peter’s taken charge and now things need to be done. I totally love how they ‘solved’ this Mysterio is a fraud problem together. They’re both very smart!!

at this scene, we could also see how MJ still feels guilty to pushed Peter and snooped at his secret, that she, in her own way of course, reconfirmed Peter’s decision to tell her about his alternate ego. I’m pretty sure MJ wasn’t only 67% sure that Peter’s Spider-Man, but she was asking whether it’s okay for Peter to let her know his secret. That he trust her enough to hold the secret. And Peter said ok, that he trust her enough not to tell people. Despite her excitement for receiving Peter’s secret, MJ can’t helped but being overwhelmed by so many possibilities of danger that haunted them while they’re on vacation, thus she rambled. And this is one rare occasion when Peter was calm enough, while MJ’s mind going crazy. Just to point the fact that Peter already has so many more experiences with ‘danger super hero things’ than MJ was. 

We can see how MJ still worried over things and still can’t think of what to do next, back at Peter’s hotel room, while Peter already has clearer idea of what he has to do. This lead to a funny scene where Peter changes in front of MJ, then get embarrassed. While on MJ part, we finally see the raging hormone teen in usually stoic MJ. LOL! totally love this part. And as already stated by other tumblr account, we did see the extreme changes in MJ, how she can relax and let down her mask in front of Peter, but quickly put them back on while in front of Ned. (again, amazing acting Ms. Z!)

After that we skipped into an angsty part from Peter’s own little adventure. But it still showed how Peter still has deep feelings towards MJ. No matter what has happened, no matter that (he thought) MJ didn’t like him back, he still has strong feelings towards her: The illusion scene where he still jumped after the illusion MJ, and when he asked Happy to give MJ the necklace. Those are deep feeling, I refuse to called it puppy love. Peter really really like MJ. :,( my poor boy….

On the other hand, I love to see how fast MJ adapt being the FOS, a.k.a being the closest persons to Spider-Man, the persons whose chance of being hurt as collateral damage are high. And I love seeing her being the more calmed person than Ned, and still can think clearly despite the chaos in front of her: she shoved Flash to move and away from the danger, she being the person noticed that they might be the target of Mysterio’s drones, she questioned who Happy was, and her idea of using the mace. I’m guessing despite her snarky sarcasm exterior, she was scared, and extremely worried for Peter’s safety. She might have just finally brave enough to admit it to herself, that she actually really like Peter in a romantic way. Especially when Happy at some point, gave her the necklace, that could be seen as Peter’s parting gift. She might be very scared for not being able to meet him again, to finally tell him the truth about her feeling. Especially, since she has lied to him before. Thus we saw her immediately darted out of the vault, the second things seems went under control.

I love how the camera zoomed out, to show MJ being the lone figure that moved between the remnants of destruction at the bridge. It showed how determined MJ was to find Peter, and to make sure he was alive. And it leads to the scene, where a ‘non hugger’ MJ, literally throw herself into Peter’s arm, and hugged him tight. Cause he’s alive.  Noticed that MJ was still new to this worrying things, that she didn’t managed to call Peter’s name throughout her adrenaline rush, and stumbled on her words, stuttering and all when explaining what happened. While the more experienced Peter was calmed enough and managed to call her name, and asked coherent questions regarding everyone’s safety. . :)

But the table turned fast, when it’s time for them to talked about feelings. It’s Peter’s turn to stumbled on his words, and tried to apologize for every stupid plans he has made, the broken necklace, with thought that he has assumed things on his end. He was already accepted the ‘fact’ that MJ didn’t like him like that, and his gift and plans will make it awkward, between them. 

But, of course MJ need to stop his thoughts, and one effective way to silenced a rambling Peter was with a peck in the lips. And it was effective! MJ was observant after all :D Then we saw how MJ really struggled to showed all her inner fears, and at the end, she really really like Peter for who he was, with flaws and in such a ‘broken’ state. 

A very relieved Peter (look at his expression! Tom… oh my oh my… what a wonderful acting!) finally managed to tell MJ his feeling, that reciprocates! *sniffles*. 

And at the movie end, we saw the romance bloomed beautifully, and both of them understand each other so well, but them still being themselves :,) MJ still teases Peter and being a blunt honest, with a hint of soft (”well… except me… “, her texting “don’t swing and text”) and Peter accept MJ for who she was.

All in all… the development of Spideychelle in FFH was wonderful, and I shouldn’t asked for more…. (but I really hope there’s more!!) I can’t thank Jon Watts enough for this wonderful development, and for Tom and Zendaya for delivering such a perfect interaction between the two :,)

The mid credit scene, I say, built the stage for the ‘rocky’ relationships between these two. I can’t wait to see what the directors will prepared for us!!

Meanwhile, I will indulge myself in fanfic community :D

And… this turned out to be extremely long!! ^^; if you managed to come this far… I can’t thank you enough to spent your time in reading my fangirlism rambling. XD 

[the-bohemians-glass-half-full]

Kirk & McCoy Star Trek Fanfiction Rec List

  A rec list of Kirk and McCoy fics that I've recently enjoyed and thought I'd put out there.

BGM = Music I listened to while reading.

FF = Fanfiction.net

Ao3 = ArchiveofOurOwn

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   'Venom' by shoreleave (Friendship) 

     (There's also an extra part to this called 'Antivenin' written by Inhoe Publishing that tells of the recovery when they get back to the ship.) 

     Rating: T

    FF, Word Count: 10,485

     Genre: Hurt/Comfort, Angst

     Summary: Another away mission gone wrong. We can never have too many of those, can we?

     Notes: The character development in this is skillfully written as it shows the friends working out their issues, and then implementing the solutions they had decided on at the end. (And it also answers the question of why Bones is up on the bridge for no reason at all at times in the series and perhaps even the movies.) 

'The Basics of Primary Ed' by Caera1996

FF, Word Count: 136,062

Rating/Warning(s): M 

Genre: AU, Family, Romance 

Song BGM (for Crash): 'Floating Through the Wind - Claudie Mackula' 

     Summary: AU where Kirk is a kindergarten teacher and McCoy is the parent of a student. Now complete.

     Notes: If I didn't laugh out loud at the opening image of Jim leading a class of small kindergartners with so much energy. I really like that in this AU Bones gets to be with Johanna, his daughter, who he almost never got to see while on board the Enterprise and in the academy. And the romance is sweet, already progressing pretty quickly.

     By reading other fics author has written while reading this one, it's seen that they are really good at writing feeling and romance between two people, so much that it feels quite real. 

     There was also a prompt set in this AU called 'Crash' where Jim gets into a car accident, but has a phobia of doctors because of his past. There were a whole lot of feels as Bones had to rush over to the hospital from one of his medical lectures in order for Jim to calm down enough to give consent to treatment. 

     I usually don't prefer AUs in any form, unless they are very slight, as I tend to like the characters in the form the story originally had them in, but this story is really sweet and wholesome. I actually look forward to the progression of what happens next in this story. Perhaps this is a game changer for me and I'll start seeking out more AUs. 

     This has at least two sequels and a whole bunch of prompts that take place in the AU to read, and so I look forward to finishing this to see what happens next. 

'No Man's Land' - A collaboration between shoreleave and Mijan (Romance) 

FF, Word Count: 81,093

Rating: T

Genre: Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Mpreg

     Summary: A mission gone wrong puts Jim at the wrong end of alien observation, helpless and defenseless. After his rescue, he slowly starts to recover, until one unrealized part of the Antosians' handiwork turns his life upside down and threatens to destroy him.

     Notes: I was pretty hyped for this one as it was a collaboration between two authors that are really good at writing Jim and Bones together- whether that be friendship or romance. This one's pretty much an ocean of angst with a sprinkle of romance. It's definitely not your lovey dovey mpreg fic, as it was non consensual and all the angst that comes with this situation. It feels like Jim is suffering the whole way. This really wasn't a very happy fanfiction, but with the writing styles of both these authors, everything was really well written with an air of realism, and I thought it was a really good read. People might be put off because of the mpreg, but even so it's a really good fanfiction that's well worth it.

'We Two Alone' by shoreleave (Friendship) 

FF, Word Count: 107,426

Rating: T

Genre: Drama, Hurt/Comfort

     Summary: Leonard McCoy thinks he has nothing in common with command-track cadet Jim Kirk, until a series of events forces them together. When a training mission derails into a seemingly hopeless situation, both have to learn to trust each other to survive.

     Notes: This was one that blew me out of the water with how good it was. The character development, the slow and realistic friendship development, the survival situation that kept me on the edge of my seat when shit started to hit the fan, and the feels as it was rough going in the last few chapters made it all fantastically written and I don't have enough praises for it. It took a good many times to work up the effort to read past the first chapter, but from then on, it was smooth, 'page turning' reading. 

     This fanfiction also answered the confusing plot hole in the movie of why Captain Pike would make Jim first officer when there had to be at least one more experienced and capable officer aboard the ship that would be better suited to the task. As soon as someone pointed that out, it really made no sense to me.

'The broken clock is a comfort (it helps me sleep tonight)' by Mellaithwen (Romance)

Ao3, Word Count: 11,683

Rating: M

Genre: AU Book/ Movie Fusion, Romance, Tragedy

(Song BGM: The Time Traveler's Wife Soundtrack and Lifehouse - Broken 'Cover by Mike Cerveni') 

Summary: James T. Kirk first meets Leonard McCoy when he is six years old.

     Notes: This one is an AU of the book/movie "The Time Traveler's Wife", and it's quite interesting to see all the confusing time travel being done. Beautiful Romance. A heart wrenching ending, and I was reeling with sadness by the end, but so so worth it. 

     'One Little White Lie' by laughter_now (Romance) 

    Ao3, Word Count: 71,768

Rating: M

Genre: Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Marriage, Amnesia

     Summary: One little white lie never hurt anybody, that's what they say. But apparently they are wrong, because even one small lie can spin out of control and change a life forever. Jim only wanted to be by his best friend's side after an accident. Nobody could have known that the lie he told to make that possible was going to come back to haunt him.

     Notes: Jim has to pretend that he's married to his best friend, due to a misunderstanding with the natives after Bones gets amnesia and drama ensues. 

     Although a lot of it was awkward with cringey moment and lots of tension due to Bones not knowing Jim anymore, and watching Jim struggle to keep their fake marriage from being found out by Bones, there were a whole lot of heartwarming feels with the romantic moments, and the ending was quite smile inducing. I really liked this one. 

'Alter the Ending' by IsmayDeVain (Friendship) 

     FF, Word Count: 8,267

Rating: T

Genre: Hurt/Comfort, Drama

     Song BGM: 'Claudie Mackula - Destroyed'

     Summary: Leo watches Jim die twelve times in one day, and no matter what he does, no matter what he changes, he cannot save him. 

     Notes: This one goes pretty much like other mass death plots, like Dean from Supernatural and Mayuri from Steins' Gate, where the character dies in a different way each time, while another character tries to stop it but is helpless to do so and it resets from the same point in time every time it happens. It was pretty hard to read Jim just dying over and over and feel Bones' helplessness and suffering as he couldn't do anything. Happy ending, lots of angst.

     'Morphine' by Tashilovet (Friendship) 

     FF, Word Count: 14,581

Rating: K+

Genre: Academy, Friendship, Hurt/Comfort

     Summary: The more McCoy tried to fight it, the more he wanted to help the stupid kid. A McCoy/Kirk friendship fic.

     Notes: This is a fic set when Bones and Jim were still in the academy. There's more to this than there would seem, a whole in depth and satisfying plot that caught me by surprise by the end given that it seemed more like a drabble fic. 

     'Mixed Signals' by Mijan (Romance)

     FF and Ao3, Word Count: 5,997

     Summary: Jim Kirk finds himself stranded on a planet's surface when an unpredictable ion storm cuts off transporters and, apparently, communications. The ship can't hear Jim, but he can hear their transmissions... and then Leonard McCoy starts sending him messages, believing that Jim can't hear any of it.

     Notes: I found this one really amusing and sweet, pretty lighthearted and relaxing after reading a bunch of angst filled fics.

     'Visions of Sleep' by ElegantGhost (Friendship)

     Rating: T 

     FF, Word Count: 12,598

     Genre: Hurt/Comfort, Friendship 

    Summary: Jim hasn't slept for days. When the ship is attacked and he gets a concussion, it's up to Bones to keep him alive and awake until they reach sickbay.

     Notes: While there were some confusing parts while Jim was out of it with delusions and blurred vision, and because there wasn't another perspective you couldn't tell what was happening at times, but I found the concept interesting and it was a good read. 

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For the reader asks: 😍👿🌍💡🎵 (conveniently these were from the half of them i can see xD)

PORTIA. HI. Okay I’m sorry this came like two days later lmao aNyWaY...

😍 What is your favourite fic trope?

As an alternative answer to the one given here, when the tired, broken, clearly having a bad time character gives everyone a bright smile not to hide their pain, but because they’re genuinely going through it all thanks to the love and support they receive. The True Ending for Fate/stay night: Heaven’s Feel is probably the best example of why I like this trope (though this isn’t a fic haha).

👿 What trope do you hate / avoid at all costs?

Alternative answer to the one I gave Cam is smart![insert character who is canonically a little challenged]. Not only does it erase all of the character development that is seen in canon or that can be built in fics, but it also strongly emphasizes that the original character was not smart. A good example is Akko. Yes, she is not the brightest witch nor is she intelligent in the typical sense like Diana is. However, she goes through her own growth and we do see that she’s got strength elsewhere. So yes, I immediately avoid any smart!Akko fics.

Okay idek if this is a trope but I guess that was a mini rant wOoPs. I just don’t like it when canon personality is omitted deliberately I guess.

🌍 What is your dream AU?

Alternative answer to a medieval/fantasy AU and a Fate!AU of all my favs would be a memory loss AU where instead of regaining their memories, that person just accepts the loss and makes new memories despite the angst. Idk I’m running out of favorite AUs LOL

I did have something in mind for Diakko (though I was still debating if I wanted it romantic or just platonic). That thing is going to sit as a WIP for probably forever.

💡 Tell me a headcanon (and who you wish would write it)?

So besides UBW Diana HAHAHAHAHA I guess a proper post-Auditions for Revue Starlight where either Hikari does end up taking everyone’s Radiances, or Maya wins and everyone else loses their Radiance. Someone else had started an idea like that for the latter, but hasn’t updated their fic and did expression writer’s block problems.

I don’t know who I would want to write it. At this point I’m so starved for RS content that I’ll accept anything as long as it’s developed well.

🎵 What do you listen to while you read?

Besides random epic anime music and Fairy Tail OSTs, this one specific BGM from FGO on loop lol.

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BTS Run 49 & 50 - The Jin Harem

This potato is back! 

To make up for the lost week here’s an EXTRA long post that covers ep49 & 50!

Let’s Get it!

The incessant need for these 2 to be glued to each other’s side is a blessing to us all

Did they really have to lean into each other as they sat?

Yes, yes they did

Hobi sneakily touching Jin’s hand 

You thought you were subtle but the camera still caught it~

2Seok lost in their own world

More like Hobi being lost in the food and Jin being lost in the pretty sight~

Ft. Cutie Jin’s sitting pose where his hands are on his knees which are together while his legs are apart~

Jin uwu-ing while admiring Hobi’s happy face

Hobi uwu-ing back at Jin 

2Seok brings happiness

Despite sitting all the way at the opposite end, Chim somehow managed to engage Jin into the conversation

Chim even seemed to be gesturing towards Jin and set his sight on Jinnie~

Jinmin: The space between us doesn’t matter if we are still connected at heart

I laughed a little too hard at this

Jk being a brat and Jin letting him

Why are jinkook so precious?

Take note that there are plenty of food around but JK HAD to have the one Jin took a bite out of

HMMM I WONDER WHY

JK: Why eat when there’s a better use for those lips?

PROTECT THESE  PUPPIES

Tae went to pass JK a glass and Jinnie thought Tae wanted to toast and brought his own glass towards Tae

But as Tae hands the glass to JK, Jin just toasts against Tae’s hand

XD HAHHAHAHA THIS MAN IS GREAT

During the actual toast, Jin’s glass only connects with Joonie’s

Sidenote: Their colored bowties make them look like comedians

Awww JK looking up to Jin

LITERALLY 

NOTICE HIM ALREADY YOU FOOL!

the glass Jin is holding is actually JK’s! 

He wanted to try the drink and when he was done, he put it back on the table between Yoongs and JK

But Jk shifted it back to the spot between Jin and himself

Perhaps he put it there so Jin could reach it easier if he wanted another taste?

Bangtan: The Manito Episode! JK: The Episode where Jin gave snacks as his gift!

The same episode but the associated memory is different...

Jk has a proper glass but his extra ass HAD to use the ceramic one he has...

This boy is a child

PROTECT HIM

WHAT DO YOU KNOW?

THERE’S ANOTHER CHILD BESIDE HIM!

I’m wondering if JK poured it to be a brat or for the sake of Jin...

Either way, it’s soft

It’s hard to tell who Jin was talking to as he mistakenly thought the ranking was talking about BV1...

Either way, it’s a Jinship moment

Hobi patting the slightly embarrassed Jin’s back 

XD HAHAHA THIS FOOL GOT CONFUSED 

Chim agreeing with Jinnie and pointing at him across the room

Distance is not enough to put a damper on Jinmin’s tenacity 

YOU CAN BET YOUR ASS THAT IF IT WEREN’T FOR THEIR SITTING ARRANGEMENT, JINMIN WOULD HAVE HUGGED TF OUT OF EACH OTHER HERE

Jin being fond at the sight of a fumbling Yoongs

Bangtan reacting to Jin’s comedy

Jin loves Bangtan, Bangtan loves Jin

BTS is the ultimate jinship itself

SLY HOBI PUTTING HIS HAND ON THE WORLDWIDE SHOULDER

2Seok checking in with that skinship

They really zoom out to give us a full reaction bangtan gives when it’s Jin’s moment huh?

Ft. touchy Hobi back at it with his touchy hand~

Hobi’s hand is STILL on Jin’s shoulder

Jin hitting JK out of amusement

Touchy Jin, Touchy Hobi

AHh life is great

Jin was the only one who was super amused by Joon’s “ottogi”

I bet that isn’t the only amusing thing Jin finds about Joonie~

Ahhhh onions~

The namjin vege~

2SEOK BE GOING STRONG!!!

Touchy HOBI, BLESS YOU

Joonie quietly praising Jin’s absurd skill at the card game~

Jinnie being very amused by Tae and JK’s hilarious conversation mid-game

Jk looks proud~

Jin was VERY amused at Tae’s misfortune with the pottery

Jin you evil man, beware of a certain pup with iconic eyebrows that will be after your ass!

Hobi got the BEST position ever

Bless his hand that touched Jin

Bless his entire existence for gracing us with 2Seok and his amazing presence

Namjin imitating Yoonjin’s photo-zone fail 

Staff: Who here ships Namjin? Namjin: *raises their hand* Vmin: Let’s just stuff our faces to forget the betrayal Yoongs: Hmph. Unbelievable Jk: BIIITCH WHAT? Hobi: Excuse you? What about 2Seok bitch? Jin: I ship all Jinships like an intellectual ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

???

It at least nice to see Jin can command Hobi and JK’s attention with just 1 finger

Touchy Hobi is just FEEDING us with all the 2seok now 

Touchy Jin STRIKES AGAIN!

He hits Jk and JK doesn’t even respond

JK must be so used to this shit now XD

He even hits and rubs JK’s back when Tae was talking about the water park T^T 

Bless Jin and his touchy hands

The understanding gazes between Namjin 

Jin accurately guesses Joon’s distaste for Bungee Jumping with just 1 look~

What a dumb thing to expose

Don’t you know the production team will use that against you now?

The more you say you hate it, the more likely it is for them to use that as a future punishment...

Bangtan exposing themselves = Boo boo the fools

Ft. Jk paying attention to Jin and ONLY JIN

*inserts doo doo doo doo BGM*

STOP BEING SO DARN CUTE YOU TWO

First, they act all kiddish and then they suddenly pull this romantic ass crap

our weak hearts can’t keep up T^T

MORE PLEASE

HE CLOSED HIS EYES

TO SAVOUR THE SENSATION

FCCCCCK

JINKOOK BE AFTER OUR HEARTS

Did I say bangtan were boo boo the fools? 

I was wrong

It’s us

Always has been, always will be

Jinnie grumbles about how his snack gift was thrown away by Hobi and Hobi protests XD

Awww I found it touching how Jin seemed GENUINELY TOUCHED by JK’s active nomming of his snacks 

T^T his pouty lips and the head nods

T^T PROTECT THIS PURE MAN WHO JUST WANTS PEOPLE TO APPRECIATE HIS GAG GIFT

Hobi: Bitch really? In front of my salad?

(That’s right, it’s been a while but the salad meme is BACK)

Tae: Welp... I found a new target for Yeontan’s teeth Chim: *snickers* He thinks he can just touch MY man? *scoffs* be prepared to face my kicks Joon: I’m about to throw my fists Yoongs: Let’s see what this paper says! Oh it’s a certain Hoseok’s fortune! It says he is about to eat some punches thrown by yours truly! Jk: Bitch. How you dare, How you dare, How you dare!

This shows tht Jinkook was sharing their glass the whole time 

and I bet a whole lot of indirect chuus happened...

Tae & Chim: *UNAMUSED ABOUT THE INDIRECT CHUUs* Joon: Really bitch?  Yoongs: Can you believe those 2 shits? Hobi: Tell me about it. I’m the one sharing their love seat here...

Hobi flirting with Jin mid-award ceremony

WHO WILL BE THE WINNERS (to Jin’s heart)?

STAY TUNED

Lmao no, just read on XD for part 2 of this EXTRA long post~

Let’s begin the promised Part 2 of this post~

Let’s Get It!

Jinnie anticipates Joon’s nomination for the ‘Cute’ award...

So... You think he is cute enough for an award huh?

You’re not wrong...

But... you are also not being subtle

His amusement and Joy at seeing Joonie being nominated for ‘Best Physical’ Award

Jin: That’s right, that man’s body is A++

He could have also been teasing Joonie

Either ways, Namjin is great

Jinkook looking like identical copies

Ft. Broadass Jin making Jk look tiny in comparison

Jin cheering wholeheartedly for happy JK when he was announced as the ‘Best Physical’ Award winner!

Touchy!Jin strikes again!

We’ve missed you handsy Jin :’)

HAND ON THIGH!!!

*Screams*

HE GOES FOR THE WAIST AND BACK AFTER THE THIGH!!!

Hobi responds by reaching for Jin’s Worldwide Shoulder!

I feel like a sports commentator

Extreme! Shipping, it’s a sport

:’)))

Jin reaches for Hobi’s hand amidst their laughter 

Sadly they were too excited to fully hold hands

Jin doesn’t give up and finally gets to hold Hobi’s wrist properly

I love 2seok

2Seok loves love

Love loves 2Seok

Jinkook + 2Seok

BLESS THIS FRAME

BLESS THIS SEATING ARRANGEMENT

BLESS JIN’s GENES

Jk: He’s mine~ Hobi: Excuse you! He’s MINE Jin: *sigh* it’s tough to be fabulous

Hobi, JK and Joon expressing their delight for MC Jin’s nomination!

MC JIN WAS FANTASTIC

HE DID SO GOOD!!

Hobi getting Handsy like always~

Hobi’s hand is on Jin’s thigh

I REPEAT HOBI’S HAND IS ON JIN’S THIGH

Jin is wrapping his hand around Hobi’s arm that is touching his thigh

PRAISE 2SEOK

It looked like they were gonna interlock their fingers!

If only they weren’t moving so much!

Jin doesn’t even let Hobi’s hand go...

:’)))

2Seok be doing the MOST

The softness in the way Jin looks at Hobi with his hands grabbing onto his knee

THE SOFTNESS THAT IS JIN ADMIRING HOBI TALKING

T^T

*ugly sobbing*

Jin looked towards Hobi upon hearing his name being called as the winner for the ‘MC’ Award!!

2Seok STOPPPP

MY HEART :”)

Jin actually turned to look at Yoongi immediately after Hobi hugs him

He probably thought Yoongi should have won the ‘MC’ award!

BUT YOONJIN IS SO URGHHH

Yoongi the gentleman APPROACHING JIN TO HUG HIM

YOONJIN :’))))

Jinnie escorting Yoongi, the RIGHT ‘MC’ Award winner to get his award

Joonie sneaking in some skinship with Jin with his back patting of consolment

PARK JIMIN YOU CRUEL MAN 

CUTE MY ASS (kidding you’re still cute but you’re the evil cutie)

It was sooooo bratty to play that trick on Jinnie!

Poor Jinnie was so happy when he thought he won...

:(((

Chim better have hugged Jin to make up for it

Chim you are boo boo the fool

IF you wanted Jin’s attention, maybe don’t be so cruel and mean to him?

2Seok are just being too much right now...

WHEN WILL YOU LEARN THAT YOUR ACTIONS HAVE CONSEQUENCES?!!

Tae: That ass tho.... *licks lips* Joon: That muscle punk is blocking my view of the JinBooty! Jk: Awww YEAHHHH A+ view 2Seok: *can I have this dance plays in the background*

Jk and Hobi calling out Jimin for being mean

CALL THAT PUNK OUT

ISTG JIMIN BETTER HAVE BACKHUGGED THE SADNESS OUT OF JIN AFTER THE BS HE PULLED

I DEMAND A JINMIN BACKHUG AS COMPENSATION FOR MAKING JINNIE SAD

Jk the sweet child using the chance to sneak his hand towards his favourite place: Jin’s neck

Jk’s neck kink is once again proven

STOP FLIRTING FFS 

(please don’t)

Flower!Jin~

2Seok reaching for each other when Hobi was nominated for the ‘Acting’ Award!

THey are so adorable with each other 

(Low key confused why Jin wasn’t nominated too... Guess the crew for Bts Run has bad tastes and only thinks of reducing Jin’s efforts and talents and give him a totally predictable and no-thought-put-into-whatsoever cooking award)

‘Cooking’ Award - we all know the rightful winner

Bangtan knows it too

But couldn’t the crew have put more effort into a different award?

Even Jin was disappointed with it

(¬_¬)

The members all tried hard to hype it up by praising him and saying its an important award

But BTS Run staff... Really? Seriously? All that effort and creativity but you give Jin the ‘Cooking’ Award?  (¬_¬)

Maybe try stopping with this ‘reducing Jin as only a cook/carer’ thing you guys have been doing and see his Variety sense and recognise it for once

(¬_¬)

Awww Chim must have felt bad for being insensitive to Jin the whole time 

:’)))

You could tell he felt guilty XD

Just give him a hug and all will be good Chim!

Jinnie staying positive (we know he always does :’( ) and cheering Hobi on and hyping him for the same nomination~

How many times have 2Seok hugged? XD

Yoongi reaching to shake Jinnie’s hand like the gentleman he is~

Jinkook hug~ 

Ft. Hobi’s lingering hand on Jin~

2Seok will be the death of us this episode

Flower!Jin receiving flowers from another handsome man, Tae

:’)))

The bright way Hobi looks at Jin

SUPPORTIVE 2SEOK!!!

Tae and Chim knows what’s good looking too

Jin: *announcing his choice out of the 3 bachelors* JIMIN-SSHI! Tae: *looks into the camera like in The Office* So THIS is what betrayal feels like... Chim: ME?!! *GASP* Joon: DAFUQ? I WAS A SHOO-IN!

Tae: *still in his Top 10 anime betrayal mode* Chim: THIS BITCH PLAYED ME AND I GLADLY LET HIM Joon: Imma just turn away from the losers

Jin HAD to be petty and get his revenge on Chim huh?

Well, petty man, NO Chim HUGS for you :<

Namjin + Flowers = Good combi

2Seok just keeps going

just keeeeeeeep on going

Really 2Seok is too much

Our weak hearts are suffering from the QUALITY MOMENTS

THANK YOU

aaand they are back to being goofballs that we love and know them for

Jinnie sneaking a glance at Joonie at their nomination for ‘Best Chemistry’ Award

(Low key though, Joon’s face and Jin’s face froze for a little...)

Tae seems to be enjoying the Namjin though

2Seok, stop giving us diabetes with your sweetness and touchiness XD

WHen the staff was reading out why they gave all 3 combis the award, Joonie was just looking at his fellow nominee

Jin, however, was busy making his harem and was flirting with Chim across the room

These 2 XD Distance really doesn’t mean a thing for them~

Hobi nudges Jin to try to get his attention away from Chim~

...

Tell me it wasn’t just me that found it off

...

...

?

Chim’s slight smile as he makes eye contact with Jin

Joonie’s odd expression and tone...

I’m sensing something...

Jinnie being a kid

But... why was Joon looking at him like that?

*Theory brewing...stay tuned to find out*

Tae being adorable and matching with Jin’s kiddy actions~

Jk snickering in the corner...

Does he know something we don’t???

Jin requests Joon to hold his hand...

But Joonie pulls his hand away so quickly!

...

JK: Kids, this is why you don’t jerk off right before you have to film Hobi: STFU you are the only kid here Jimin: HAHA Hyung got caught doing the nasty Yoongs: Gross... Tae: Stop pretending to be saints y’all bunch of nasties Jin: I’m taking that you are not accepting my request to hold hands because you didn’t wash your hands... That’s disgusting Joon... Joon: BITch stop accusing me. I JUST DON’T WANT TO HOLD YOUR HAND OK?! Bangtan: Who would want to hold hands with the person who caught them rubbing one out while calling their name? Not Joon. Joon: STFU Y’ALL ARE LYING

In case you guys didn’t realize, I am just joking

But yea There was some tension there but my nasty mind goes to someone being caught jerking off by someone else and thus awkwardness ensues~

Feel free to use this to write a fic!

Matching shocked!Namjin

HAHHAHHAHAH

THeir reactions were HILARIOUS

HOBIIII HHAHAHAHAHH

FCCCCKKK

*Save me Save me*

Joon: *wants to fight the confetti pt.1* Chim+Tae: * Enjoying the pretty streamers* Yoongs: *Having a mild heart attack* Jk: *enjoying himself* Jin: *caught in the middle of an earthquake* Hobi: *wants to fight the confetti pt.2*

Yea sure Hobi, wrap Jinnie up and tie him up

Not inappropriate at all

Hobi’s got his hands firmly wrapped around Jin’s waist

Yoongi has his arm around Jin’s Worldwide shoulder and Jin holds on tight to Tae’s arm~

Tae: Another member who is trying to wrap Jin up and tie him up

Inappropriate no.2

Hobi+Chim+Joon: *glaring at Tae’s audacity*

Well, aren’t you a little close, Sir?

Yoongs softly smiling at how Tae is wrapping jin with the streamer~

Jinkook is that touchy couple that will insist they DO NOT engage in PDA put pulls stunts like this

Jk isn’t even trying to hide his neck kink with Jin anymore

Fetus!Bangtan!!!

2Seok was already strong back then huh?

The way he looks at Jin...

WHO IS CHOPPING ONIONS HUH?!

2Seok is the main pairing for this episode 

HANDS DOWN THE TOUCHIEST AND SWEETEST PAIR THIS EPISODE

Edit:

TOUCHY JIN GROPES JK’s BUTT

Can’t believe I was distracted by all the 2Seok that I missed this

Thank you to the kind user who pointed this out in the comments section!!

-Edit end-

Jinkook + Shoulder + Neck + Shiba Jin + Headband Jin

*dead*

CHILDREN

FFS XD

Jin’s uwu though

:’)))

Jinmin are happy bubs that are glad to be on the same team~

Bunny!Jinmin~

Ft. Jin nudging Chim in the arm with his fingers~

THE FLUFFINESS AND CUTENESS

GAHH

If only they put the mike fuzz on  their butt to make it look ike a fuzzy bunny tail...

Top 10 Anime betrayals

When Jin lied about being unable to blow a bubble with gum

Joonie look so upset XD

HUG HIM TO CHEER HIM UP JIN!

Bunny!Jinmin abandons their animal friends and goes off to enjoy their time at the amusement park~

PHEW THAT WAS A LONGASS POST

Hope you guys enjoyed it!

Until Next Time~

[otomeverything]

NOTE: This review is SPOILER FREE.

7’SCARLET

Release Date: May 25, 2018 (North America) Developers:  Toybox Inc, Otomate Publishers:  Idea Factory, Aksys Games Platforms:  PS Vita ESRB Rating: T (Teen)

As the second title released by Aksys Games for their Summer Mystery Bundle, 7’scarlet offers one gripping mystery-solving game play amplified with a cute touch of romance.

Walkthroughs:

Hino Kagutsuchi Isora Amari Toa Kushinada Sosuke Tatehira Yuzuki Murakumo True Route & Final Character

  Read the game’s synopsis here.

  FIRST IMPRESSIONS Otome Visual Novels are either a hit or a miss when it comes to it’s story narratives. Just like Collar x Malice, 7’scarlet did one hell of a job foregoing a very intriguing mystery-type plot line while having a few romantic events as an additive to its overarching deep story. Like a really good book or a TV series, it was so hard to brush off the game’s story build-up as it became curiously engaging in each chapter you progress.

With the help of it’s unique visuals and animations, playing 7’scarlet was close to watching your favorite anime series.

  ART One of the things I really enjoyed while playing 7’scarlet was seeing its astonishing BG images. It’s just so pretty, it’s like wallpaper material, no kidding! (giggle)

. The game’s artist was non other than, Kurahana Chinatsu an illustrator who’s also famous for her other popular works such as the character designs for Uta no Prince-Sama, Lamento (Beyond the Void), and Togainu no Chi.

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Looking at these lovely BG images reminded me of browsing through expensive art catalogs!

  SOUNDTRACK AND VOICE ACTING There are two opening themes, “World’s End Syndrome” and “LOVESICK”, you can unlock the latter after finishing a certain route in the game. The BGMs are good too, some are rather simple but very fitting for the game’s setting and story transitions. Heck, I ended up buying the whole 7’scarlet soundtrack in iTunes.

And like any other game, there will always be that one song you’ll end up getting stuck with, even after completing  the game. Dat-one-song that gave you so much FEELS. In 7’scarlet, mine would have to be the song “Starry”.

  Voice Acting

Nobunaga Shimazaki “Hino“ – Napoleon (Ikevamp), Kurogane Naoto (BlazBlue), Mitsuhide (Sengoku Nightblood)

Tetsuya Kakihara “Isora“ – Shin (Amnesia), Victor Frankenstein (Code Realize), Karasuba (Pyschedelica BB), Toki Tanba (Charming Empire)

Showtaro Morikubo “Toa“ – Impey (Code Realize), Reiji (Uta no Prince-sama), Okita (Hakuoki)

Chiharu Sawashiro “Sosuke“ – Shila (Snow White and the Red hair), Hero (Caligula Effect)

Shinichirou Miki “Yuzuki“ – Hijikata (Hakuoki), Nesso Galland (Black Wolves Saga), Bucket-Sensei (Bad Apple Wars)

Sanae Kobayashi “Yuki“ – Sara Nome (Macross Zero), Nagisa (Maid Sama)

Hiroki Yasumoto “Mr. Karasuma“ – Azrael (BlazBlue), Nidai Nekomaru (Danganropa V3), Hyuga (KLAP)

Hiroki Takahashi “Kagura Tsukuyomi“ – Rayne (Neo Angelique Abyss), Otohiko (Kamisama Kiss), Koujaku (DRAMAtical Murder)

Daisuke Kishio “Yasu“ – Azusa (Diabolik Lovers), Mizushima Arata (Kiniro no Corda: Bluesky), Kuzuryuu (Danganropa V3)

Chiwa Saito “Yua“ – Aoi Asahina (Danganropa V3), Taokaka (BlazBlue), Domina (Period Cube), Fate (Caster)

  MAIN CHARACTERS (SPOILER FREE)

Recommended play order:

1)Hino 2)Isora 3)Toa – only unlocks after finishing Hino and Isora’s good ending 4)Sosuke – only unlocks after finishing Toa’s good ending 5)Yuzuki – only unlocks after finishing all of the character’s good ending

  Hino Kagutsuchi

Childhood friend

Sporty

Dork

Hino’s story was cute. It had very few spoilers regarding the game’s overarching plot but his route did a good job catering as a story build-up for the oncoming routes you’ll get in to after finishing the first two recommended ones (his and Isora’s). I enjoyed the fact that Hino was physically a jock on the outside but covertly the biggest dork on the inside

(the guy fangirls on ‘kawaii’ things! Awww). His romance ventured more into the friendship-type-love rather than a mature one. His route wasn’t my favorite, but it was definitely a good start, nevertheless.

  Isora Amari

Best Chef

Hot tempered

Jealous

Yandere

Just like Hino’s route, Isora’s story offers very few spoilers of the game’s underlying plot but was well written enough to create a very mysterious atmosphere of the town, Okunezato. Isora’s character depth was also deeper than I expected and I wished the writers expounded more on the justification of this character’s actions rather than just throwing it on the spot. Despite this, I love Isora Amari’s story. It had great pacing, enough to give you that creep factor you seek in every mystery-themed visual novel. His romance, on the other hand may or may not suit everyone’s preferences. Although I personally enjoyed it, I can understand how it may not work for some. ┐(︶▽︶)┌

  Toa Kushinada

Cat mom

Clumsy af

Color blind

such a sweet boi!

So my first impression with Toa was: “Really?! I have to romance this clumsy nerd, seriously, game?”. Then I started playing his route just to get it over with and oh my goodness! I did not expected the sudden turn of events! 

As I’ve probably mentioned repeatedly on my previous reviews… I absolutely love it when a game catches you off guard, and this route takes the cake! I was left speechless.  I couldn’t talk more about his story without going into spoiler territory so I’ll leave it at this: Toa was such a great character and he deserves all the love in the world! Best boy (imo), one that’s definitely unforgettable.

  Sosuke Tatehira

Smart

Neat freak!

Best Doctor

OC!

If there was one route that got me at the edge of my seat in 7’scarlet ~ it was definitely Sosuke’s. His story had great pacing where it started off very light and warm then surprisingly escalated into a few bemusing affairs. His route also introduced a more definitive and deeper story regarding the mysteries surrounding the town of Okunezato. While the suspense was a little overwhelming in this route, I wanted to commend on how the romance never took a back seat in Sosuke’s story. His relationship with the heroine felt genuinely real and I love both his and Ichiko’s character development. I also loved the fact that Sosuke was such a neat freak and becomes very obsessive-compulsive about something so simple such as a goldfish scooping game! The perfect husbando, if you ask me! (chuckles)

  Yuzuki Murakumo

Jerk Boss

Hot!!!

Intense

Tsundere

While the suspense was building up in Sosuke’s previous route, Yuzuki’s story on the other hand was a power house of thrill and drama coupled with a few action packed scenes and romantic events… And although it happened so fast, all at the same time, I’ve got to say it was paced really well that it didn’t came out too forced nor too overwhelming with information. I personally love Yuzuki’s character. He’s cold and irritable on the outside but inside his icy personality is one very warm fluffy husbando! 

 His story was probably the most compelling as far as solving the mysteries of Okunezato goes.

  Ichiko Hanamaki (You)

amnesiac heroine (explained in ??? ‘s route)

hates strawberries (explained in ??? ‘s route)

can’t swim (explained in ??? ‘s route)

Despite the the main protagonist’s naivety and recklessness to a point where you’d clearly have to question this heroine’s sense of danger 

 (laughs), Ichiko Hanamaki had a couple of good points up her sleeve such as her strong will and determination to look for her disappeared older brother in spite of being absolutely clueless on where to begin. Another enjoyable aspect, was how this heroine sometimes gets shamelessly clumsy in declaring her love to the gentleman of her liking. She had a couple of funny moments that got me all “wtf lol” ~ so it was never a dull moment playing her as the MC. 

    And it gets better… So the story doesn’t really end there. After finishing Hino, Isora, Toa, Sosuke, and Yuzuki’s route. Two more routes unlocks in this game.

Who is the culprit?

Another factor why this game was so entertaining to me was that it reminded me of playing Mafiascum; where each player gets to accuse anybody as the culprit and the accused needs to present alibis to which another player/s confirms it to prove his innocence.

As someone who’s been playing mafiascum online for a long time, the game’s conclusion was somewhat predictable but I’ve got to admit, it was one gripping read and the “True Ending” was painfully heartbreaking.

  TRAILER

  OVERALL THOUGHTS?

7’scarlet is a very well written mystery themed visual novel. While the story appeared so simple, the events where paced so good that the rise and fall of tension as you unravel the mysteries remained suspenseful enough to keep you wanting for more.

I had a couple of moments where I really couldn’t put down the game for a second just to eat or sleep because I had to know, I NEEED to know what will happen next!

Truth be told, I had never expected I’d get so emotionally attached to this game. It’s really one gripping read. It’s one of those titles that’s hard to get over with even after finishing the game play. I think an overall rating of 4.5/5 is an appropriate mark for 7’scarlet. The rest of the .05 completing the perfect score is just me wishing they could’ve done more with the last secret route as I did felt it to be a little lacking as far as how the story concluded.

I would say the animation and movie clips were an additional plus points. Although without it, the game still excels as one of the most compelling stories an otome game has to offer. Do I recommend this game? YESSSS! If you’re looking for a good mystery-romance themed visual novel with great art, music, animation and one unforgettable story that will rob you of words, 7’scarlet is the perfect choice. All your money’s worth it too.

            Romance and Folklore – 7’scarlet Review NOTE: This review is SPOILER FREE. 7'SCARLET Release Date: May 25, 2018 (North America) Developers:  Toybox Inc, Otomate…

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Synonyms for Painful - Part 1;  SHINee’s Key

20 - difficult; had anyone told me before, I would’ve laugh and said they’re stupid. Only now without you here do I realize how difficult living without you is.

A/N: hullos, I’ve finally decided to post this Part 1 of ‘Synonyms for Painful’. In case you’re new, I will not be posting the sections of this series in chronological order because none of the parts, unless mentioned otherwise, are really connected at all, unless indicated. The numbers before the prompts are just for organization purposes. Without further ado, please enjoy part 1!

and yes... i did take some artistic license to key’s character. 

you should also listen to this nice song as bgm; (x) 

I only have one thing to say about working in an office building; it’s boring as hell. There’s no dragons flying around setting buildings aflame with their fiery breath, there’s never a damsel in distress hanging precariously with one hand from a ledge of a 50-story tower. There’s no dice of destiny deciding your fate; dice that -with one roll- could grant you all the treasure in the universe or trap you in a slow, excruciating death.

Yeah, nope. It’s pretty boring.

Every day it’s the same thing. It’s just me and my office, Kim ‘Key’ Kibum in our shared office as the hours tick by slowly with only a flickering light bulb hanging above us. From the crack of dawn to the first sign of nightfall, our bgm is the the quiet buzzing of the weak light bulb.

The most exciting thing that’s happened throughout our relatively uneventful careers must have been 

that day a storm burned out the electricity in the building and Key and I played poker and b.s. by candle light for the rest of work day. Long story short, life as us was really boring and repetitive and neither of us had a problem with it. We both preferred the serene and recurring safe haven in our shared office. We both preferred life boring.

I’ll admit to staring at him and his delicate features for more than was required time and time again, but it was hard not to. He was decorated with prominent cheekbones, a peaceful smile, and eyes that always scrunched up when he smiled, which was not often. He was around the smaller size when it came to men, perhaps because Asian men were infamous for being short, but he still managed to look good in it. Every day, he surprised me with a new variation to the strict dress code we were stuck working with. I always wondered where he got the money for such clean and professional looking clothes, after all, we didn’t have a very high salary.

Key got his nickname from my first day of work. I had forgotten my office key that first morning. Fortunately, upon walking through the hallway on the floor I was appointed to be in for the next long while, I was only mildly pleased to realize I was sharing an office with the attractive Asian male I had been sneaking glances at on the elevator ride up and that he had his keys. I still remember the way he looked over me, a half smirk painted on his lips when he realized one, that I was doomed to being his office mate for however long we were going to be working here, and two, that I didn’t have my keys.

Ever since that first day, we fell into a pattern of me ‘forgetting’ my keys, and him always there to greet me with keys, that half smirk I might or might not have fallen for and a cup filled with my usual white chocolate mocha.

Yes, it was boring. Yes it was repetitive, but we didn’t mind. So we kept it the same.

That is… at least until one day, he didn’t show up to work and I was forced to ask the secretary for a spare key. At first, I didn’t think much of it, after all, though we had each other’s personal numbers, we never really contacted each other outside of work. There was a good chance he was on sick leave, the flu had been passing through our building.

After about a month of becoming awkwardly acquainted with the secretary, a pleasant, small female with round glasses, dimples, and a crazy amount of unwavering patience, I started to get worried. After another week of racking up the courage to ask her if she knew anything about Key, I finally asked.

This time, I wasn’t met with the same, patient smile. In its place was a sad, sympathetic one. She stared at me with unshed tears painted in her eyes and handed me a plain manila folder. Upon entering the soundless elevator, I pondered the pain in her eyes and the sadness in the wordless silence she had greeted me with.

Arriving at our office, I finally opened the manila envelope, expecting to see a pink slip with his name on it or something. Instead, I was met with the appearance of a hastily written url on a torn piece of paper along with a neatly folded letter. Opening my personal laptop, I quickly typed in the url, not expecting much to pop up. I have never in my life been more wrong. What popped up exactly 0.72 seconds later was a news article whose headlines stopped my heart for a brief, jaw dropping second.

No. No. It couldn't be. Scrawled across the top of the screen were the following words; Terrible 10 Car Collision on the 805 north. 5 People Killed, 7 mortally wounded.

I scrolled down further with my hand shaking badly and tears collecting at corners of my eyes. The list of the deceased drivers finally crawled into view and the dam holding back my tears broke. His name was the first one there.

Dropping my expensive personal laptop, I slid to the floor in shock. I covered my mouth, the tears running down my face and bile building in the back of my throat.

I would never see him again. He would never be there to open the door for me with that snarky smile of his. We could never play b.s. again during our breaks and speak about the older lady next door who wanted to set him up with her granddaughter. I would never get that last cup of white chocolate mocha he always bought for me in the mornings. He was gone. Dead. And to think we were foolish enough to promise to marry each other if by the time we were 45 we hadn't found someone else.

After about an hour sitting there on the floor, crying my eyes out, someone knocked on the door.

Shakily opening the door, the secretary I had been recently getting to know appeared with a smile and letter in her hands. She left shortly after, saying she had spoken with our boss and that I had the rest of the day off.

On the letter was the familiar chicken scratch of my late co worker and best friend. I slowly read his writing, savoring the one sure thing I had left of the man I didn’t realize was my best friend until it was too late.

My favorite person in the whole world~

If you’re reading this and I’m not here… That means something bad happened.

I don’t know if you remembered that one conversation that happened a couple years ago, but during that conversation, I promised never to leave you. I know… it was a stupid promise to make, knowing separation is  inevitable, eventually, one of us might have left. I guess it had to be me. I broke that foolish promise and I cringe to think I ever promised you something so impossible and unrealistic.

If you’re reading this… it also means there’s a possibility you don’t know how much you really mean to me. In the case that you already know, I’ll tell you again. In the case that you don’t… I’d swim across the sea for you even though you know I hardly know how to swim. I’d trek across the hottest desert to make sure you were safe and sound. I’d scale the highest mountain and throw myself in front of a train for you. Chances are though… I never told you all that. I’m saying all these things, yet I didn’t have the balls to tell you in person. I’m such an cowardly idiot.

You know I’ve never been the best expressing myself verbally. I hope you forgive me for promising such a stupid thing when we both knew life is short and could, in a flash, be gone. I wish I could promise to never forget you. I wish I could promise you all the dumb, fluffy things we ridiculed while watching those absurd romantic movies. I wish my promise never to leave you had not been the empty promise it ended up as.

My only wish now is to hope this somehow gets to you and that you’ll never forget me… Don’t forget to find that guy that’ll spice up your life like I should have when I had the chance.

Your Key for however long you’ll want to remember me,

Kim Kibum

By then, his written words were hardly visible from behind the torrents of tears falling from my eyes. I was torn. I was angry. I was in complete and utter despair.  My heart was broken. I wanted with all my being for this to be a cruel joke. It’d been too long without him though. It wasn’t just a cruel joke. He was truly gone. And with him, he took a good sized chunk of my heart I didn’t realize he had grasped in the first place.

I took sick leave for the next week. I scavenged the new papers, I sailed through the news clips. My worst nightmare was confirmed. I would never have a steaming cup of hot white chocolate mocha waiting for me. I’d never see his beautiful naturally contoured facial features or hear his teasing laugh again. I’d never get to braid his hair while he slept, I’d never get to read the ending of that story he was in the process of writing.

Had anyone told me before, I would’ve laugh and said they’re stupid. Only now without you here do I realize how difficult living without you is.

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(1) hello, i'm stopping by to express my opinion on the 'shipping won't ruin jikooks friendship' u reblogged. i don't know jikook personally, obviously, so i can't say what it feels like to them when (if) they see posts about themselves related to shipping. if we assume they are in a romantic relationship, it probably won't be such a big deal (though if they're trying to conceal it, it might be), but since there is no confirmation about whether they're dating or not, and we look at them as just

Anonymous asked: (2) friends, it might be that things like that make them uncomfortable. once again, i don’t know them, i’m just basing this on my personal experiences- i have a friend, and we’ve been together for like our whole lives, because our parents were really close friends since school, and both of our families would often tease us and make comments about us liking each other like “i’m gonna close the door, but make sure you don’t kiss haha” type of stuff (it’s hard to explain tbh)

Anonymous asked:(3) and it kinda made things awkward for the both of us. we couldn’t really do anything that wouldn’t be considered “couple like” and it sucked, because we were friends ever since we were tiny kids (even loner than bangtan have been together), and that didn’t stop our friendship from falling apart. like, we still talk and meet up, but it’s awkward for no reason, really, since none of us ever had romantic feelings towards the other

Anonymous asked:(4) and so when i saw that jikook was listed as a top ship on the list for some magazine (can’t remember the name), it got me scared, because i really don’t want the two of them to feel like they can’t fully express their love for each other just because people keep taking perfectly normal friendship things, such as skinship, and making it seem like it’s something only lovers can do. i have nothing against jikook shippers as long as they do their thing respectfully, but there are some shippers

Anonymous asked:(end)some shippers who take this a bit too far, i think, to a level i wouldn’t really call healthy anymore. the channel kookminworld on youtube,for example, i feel like glorifies jealousy and makes it seem like it’s hot or whatever, when it’s honestly rly toxic.i don’t want to offend anyone with this, i just wanted to express my opinion, which stems from worry,i hope you don’t get offended and hate me for this. you just seemed like a grown person who would listen and perhaps speak their own mind

Hello anon~ You have some interesting points so I’m going to tell you what I agree with and what I don’t agree with. Let’s start with your first 3 asks:

You said your friendship fell apart because people teased you? I’m sorry but I don’t see this as a valid reason for two good friends to break apart. What’s so wrong with people thinking you look good together? My uncle told my family I’m in a relationship with my bestfriend just because we’re really close (note: they’re homophobic) but did we care? No lol we just laughed and continued doing our thing. Now, if you and said person are acquaintances then yes, that should make things awkward. But are jikook just occasional buddies? Drinking pals? Nope.

Moving on to your 4th ask. The magazine thing was really unexpected yes, but it’s not that deep. I myself didn’t pay attention to it. If Jikook saw it (which is very unlikely) I’m sure they just laughed it off? A silly thing like people shipping them shouldn’t affect their relationship at all. They’ve lived, laughed, cried, practically did everything together for such a long time, this would never be the cause of them falling apart. Jimin and Jungkook have better things to worry about. Now, It’s one thing to be close to your best friend and another to act like two teenagers in love. I mean come on don’t tell me you look at your best friend like that? That you would make an entire vlog about them and put a love song as BGM?  I’d never do that to my best friend lmao. Too much work. And that song?  I’d probably put some sort meaningless beat instead. The things Jikook do…I’m sorry but that is in no means just friendship. Again, it’s just my opinion I by no means want to disrespect yours.

For your last ask, I agree with the jealousy part. Some people take it way too seriously, shipping as well. Shippers can be really toxic and nosy, but they don’t represent the majority. It’s important to remember when to draw the line which most of us do c:

I respect your opinion and I’m glad you were really polite with how you addressed the issue, and even though I don’t agree with everything you said I just want to let you know that I enjoyed reading your point of view :)  (I actually had to write this again cause my laptop died around half of it I almost cried)

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Tears to Tiara: A Return to One’s Roots

It’s been a year since I finished Tears to Tiara: Kakan no Daichi and I feel that the game (and series) has influenced me quite a bit. In this post I will try to explain why and describe my thoughts on fiction in general.

Update (May 10, 2019): Added some things near the end because it was something I swear I was going to put in but I somehow forgot.

I will say this first: A large part of why I like Tears to Tiara so much is because the compatibility level between me and Marui Takeshi is very high. Only by realizing this after finishing TtT1 and rereading some of his work have I come to accept how much his writing has shaped my interests.

I feel that the Tears to Tiara series in which he is the planner and main writer of embodies many of the ideals written about in past works while opening it up to wider audiences (who will be the hero who reads Routes???).

No matter what anyone says, I believe that the most important theme present in this series is “kindness“.

This is what struck me the most after finishing TtT1. Tears to Tiara is a story built on the willingness to be open and kind towards yourself and others, to have the strength to take action and the responsibility to support the people you care about no matter the situation, to be human and humanistic.

While these may seem like empty words at first glance, I never felt that way about the scenario even once. A large part of that is due to the harmony between the voice acting and the text.

I feel that Marui’s text is very good at bringing out the emotions and inner workings of the characters, and sometimes I’ve felt like emotions were pouring out from the onscreen text itself (don’t ask me how this works I don’t really understand how I get this feeling either). While it does sometimes feel a bit long or indirect, it is not unnecessary text by any means and the specific wording used serves to envelop your mind into the workings of the characters and the world they live in. There is a certain steady, rhythmic pace to the dialogue that makes advancing the text feel very satisfying which kept me wanting to continue the game. The voice acting has just the tempo and amount of emotional weight to match, making it almost sound like a story is being read to you.

The wording of the dialogue combined with the voice acting makes lines that would not be considered quotable (aka 名言 level) in most cases still memorable and riveting nonetheless, which is a big part of why I am so fascinated with Marui as a writer. Here is a scene from the beginning of the game to try to show what I mean:

The story-like nature is heightened by the fact that the game has almost no narration (地の文), with what little there is usually being voiced (in fact, I don’t recall there being any unvoiced narration in TtT2). This leaves the weight of the narrative into the hands of the dialogue, and the performances of each voice actor must be dramatic enough to match. It feels quite dramatic in the theater sense, which is also helped by the fact that the protagonist’s sprite is shown nearly every time they speak. This heightens the sense of being a third person looking into a world as opposed to feeling like being in that world, although I was never really one to self-insert into the protagonist in the first place. Tears to Tiara is the first game I played where I can say that the “protagonist” is my favorite character without hesitation.

These emotions make it feel like the characters are speaking from the depths of their hearts, without any deception or obfuscation. It makes me believe that they will see everything through to the end, that none of it is for show. It is a bit hard to describe in words, but there is no mistaking the fact that I feel sincerity radiating from the characters. This sincerity is one of the main reasons why I like pretty much every character, which doesn’t happen to me that much (I also feel this way about Routes).

The text is also good at conveying just the right amount of information at the right time. There were some lines that I could tell were foreshadowing the first time around, but I was surprised to see just how many there were when looking at some scenes for a second (or third, or fourth...) time.

I feel that this 構成力 is best exhibited in Kusakabe Yuuki’s route in ToHeart2. It took me one and a half hour to clear from start to finish when I replayed it recently, but each event presents information about Yuuki, her relationship with Takaaki, and/or the plot of the route that reveals itself at the end. Discovering how much was shown right from the very first meeting with her was interesting, and going through each scene thinking “So this is what that was referring to...“ was very fun. I had a similar experience with Kajiwara Yuuna’s route in Routes (coincidentally or not, both of these characters are voiced by Satou Rina).

All of these factors also pair well with the other aural element, the music. As briefly touched upon in my previous post, the use of the soundtrack in TtT1 made me conscious of this aspect in other games, although I think the only other works that have approached this level from what I’ve played are the Dai Gyakuten Saiban series from Capcom. It has long been my conviction that Aquaplus’s strongest suit is music and sound (the music in Routes is what actually got me into Aquaplus as a whole) and there is little that would convince me that Tears to Tiara is not the pinnacle of those abilities. The interplay between the BGM, vocal songs, and the scenario is a sight (or sound) to behold, and this only improves in TtT2. My hours with the series have formed deep emotional attachments to the music within me and to this day can get me to cry the most consistently.

The amount of emotion found in the music is truly a strange thing, as I found out for myself a few months after finishing TtT1. It was when I decided to listen to the PC/Gaiden OP song Tears to Tiara. I felt a wave of nostalgia which I thought to be very strange. After all I had just completed the game and it was too early to become an old favorite or anything. Nonetheless, I felt like I had returned home and was filled with a sense of peace and comfort (or maybe this is my Nakayama Arisa bias from Routes). This made me listen to the soundtrack through the lens of “nostalgia” which ended up bringing out more emotion than I thought possible.

Revisiting scenes only serves to remind me how all of these elements work together to get the story’s messages and themes across as a coherent experience. I enjoyed myself immensely, with engaging and important scenes happening throughout the story from the very beginning to the end, although of course most of them are at the end. It blends both 燃え and 萌え (of the male characters for both properties tbh) making it easy for me to recommend to other people actually.

The amount of research done into the names and historical background of the setting is also something I really like, making it feel more inclined towards history than fantasy (historical fantasy?) at times. Marui is a self-proclaimed 設定オタク (seen in the 05.03.30 entry here) and it shows, mainly by my many trips to Wikipedia to see why something is a certain name and what historical events mirror those in the game. He’s even written about one of the trips he’s taken to Europe/Africa and how it influenced some of the locations in TtT2. This kind of attention to detail makes my own research all the more worthwhile (TtT made me realize that I did the same thing in Routes for the Heian/Kamakura periods in Japan...).

In the past year, I’ve been thinking about why and how this series means so much to me and I think I’ve finally found the words to explain these feelings.

To put it simply, I found what I have been looking for in fiction in Tears to Tiara. My foray into visual novels started with a friend recommending me Umineko, but the first one that I chose to start myself was White Album 2 (Skip the next paragraph if you don’t want my backstory).

Part of the reason why I chose this is tied to how I started learning Japanese. It was the summer between middle school and high school and I figured it might be useful in the future. I taught myself kana, read some of the Tae Kim grammar guide, and installed Rikaichan on the suggestion of a friend. Soon I was able to navigate webpages and search results with a bit of confidence. At that time I was beginning to run out of English fan art/fiction of a certain fictional couple that was not very popular. This led to me going through Japanese search results and finding fanfiction in a language that I was not quite used to reading yet, but was willing to try with Rikaichan. I rapidly consumed what I could find leading to my reading skills greatly improving, but that was not the only thing that increased. I had already sensed at the time that I was not interested much in real world romance and so looked to fictional romance instead. This led to me looking for fiction focused on the romantic (Romantic) and emotional elements. While White Album 2 satisfied this desire, I continued to search (and will continue) for something more.

To me, Tears to Tiara is a work of fiction I’ve always wanted; it is unapologetically emotional, unapologetically passionate, and above all, unapologetically positive. There were times where I could only sheepishly grin at a character’s idealistic goals, but I could rest assured that their companions would help them ensure a future where they could be realized. There were times where a character’s despair would wring out the pathos within me, but I could rest assured that someone would be there to hear and validate their worries, to support them when they get the courage to face their problems, and to share the happiness when things get resolved.

Negative feelings are treated as a natural part of being human, as something that must be given equal attention to as positive feelings. To be human is to both give and receive, and to possess the insight to discern how much energy one should spend in each category.

These might seem like obvious things, but Tears to Tiara made me seriously think about these concepts and how they could apply to my life. It is a game that gives importance to feelings that are easy to pass off as “weak” or “cliché” (this is also a reason why I like Kitto, Sumiwataru Asairo Yori mo, a lot).

This made me reevaluate what kind of 感動 I want to experience in fiction. It is not that I want to cry. In reality, I did not cry much while playing the games themselves. It was after I had enough time to think about the consequences of each event and how they connected to each other that I could not hold back the urge to shed tears. It feels much better to cry for the accumulation of a character’s growth and the happiness they acquire over an event that takes those things away. This is the secret behind how the soundtrack can get me to cry consistently: the happiness I feel brings me to an emotional high that has a high probability of being accompanied by tears. When I revisit a scene, the parts I feel emotionally overwhelmed by are usually “slice of life” ones. The nature of the text (described above) combined with the knowledge of future events make the characters all the more precious.

In the end, Tears to Tiara to me a work that is about nostalgia: for the past, present, and future. It is about the joy of being alive and living in a world that possesses beauty all around if you care to look. It is a series whose music and characters I can reliably gain motivation from, and I sincerely hope that more people get their own meanings from it.

それは決して 悲しい物じゃなく 強くて優しい

―― Until (Nakayama Arisa)

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