#being wanted isnt enough i need reciprocity
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shot-messenger · 7 months ago
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#is it weird to hope that you wont always have to be the person to initate#i stop being the first to reach out or to put forth effort and suddenly its always quiet#i get to eavesdrop on the plans other people have made for everyone else#idk if the empty pit i feel in my stomach is jealousy or simply that i know to most everyone in my life i am not a priority to them#idk if its selfish to want to be#being wanted isnt enough i need reciprocity#i need more than being tolerated or acquiesce but i dont even really get that#im trying not to lose faith in the human connection but i am just too tired to care if people want to be around me at this point#im tired of jumping through hoops to be loved#im tired of investing effort into relationships only to end up empty handed and wounded#when i do good things i dont take tally i dont want to hold a debt#they do not owe me#i cant help but wish however that people cared for me the way that i did for them#that theyd atleast give the consideration to tell me that they dont want me around#im not even trying to withdrawl at this point#im just simply too exhausted to put in all of the effort and so i suppose i will have to be okay with being empty handed#what i supply is not desired and there is nothing i can do to change that#i cannot make people like me#i cannot make people care about me#i cannot make people show me they care#i cant do anything but control my own actions#i dont think i will ever recover from this burnout and i think i will probably spend the rest of my life lonley unless i beg not to be#im not going to beg anymore#sm.txt#unrecoverable
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harukyuu2 · 18 days ago
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♥🐍ASKING YOU ON A DATE - Y. Endo !!
Hii! thanks for all the likes in the wb posts, i didnt expect it at all so tysm ♥ if anyone wants to send request i'll be grateful
!! - Yamato Endo x reader, neutral reader, mentions of reader being like a sibling to Umemiya, Endo being a jealous and a little obsessive boy as always, maybe a little ooc !!
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Endo Yamato still hated Umemiya even if a couple of weeks had happened after his fight with Takiishi. He didnt even hide it, when they were invited to a stupid hangout on Furin, his side eye was BIG and the one from Tsubakino more.
But he couldnt care less about it. He always had to find a way to distract himself from those "hangouts"—after all, he wasnt really part of that little world Umemiya and Takiishi had created. He always found fun in following Sakura around and teasing him, but it seemed the gods had blessed him today because you—the beautiful sibling who isnt stupid and doesnt look like Umemiya—were finally alone with Sakura, not Umemiya.
Your beauty was stunning for him, Its almost like you were made to be a muse, his muse. How long has he been staring at you by now? How many times has he wished youd shrug off Umemiya’s arm from around your shoulder even if he was just showing you off, so you could run to him instead? To his arms, where he could hold you forever and keep you away from everyone else. You’d be safe, only being his since you wouldnt need to speak with others, he could handle that part—a total win in his mind.
He just wished you would turn your head and see him, to notice how much he was trying to get your attention. But since you didnt because you were too focused on Sakura, he shrugged and decided to force himself on that conversation too! It wasnt that hard to make you talk with him, after all its not the first time his eyes lean on you, its not the first time he talks to you. But yet, in the inside he always feels desperated to rush this things with you, to just kiss you already, why does he have to wait? he can see from miles away that youre his. He doesnt like the time its taking to be closer with you, what if a jackass comes and thinks he has an opportunity? he wont like that. But oh well! a small part of him enjoys the thrill of chasing you even if he just said he hated it. Knowing that maybe just maaybe he can make a part of Umemiya mad its enough to make him enjoy this chasing. It wasnt hard to talk to you. Like your brother, you were easygoing and calm—maybe a bit more reserved than him, but still, it wasnt difficult to spark a conversation if something caught your attention. Lucky for him, he found your profile and remembered the things you liked! Not that he was stalking or anything, of course—he was just trying to get to know you better. He’d leave little flirty remarks or subtle moves that, when you finally caught on and laughed starting to reciprocate them, drove him absolutely crazy. After a few minutes of this playful back-and-forth with Sakura stuck awkwardly in the middle, Suo and Nirei came to grab him—it was time to patrol. But this time, Endo didnt follow them, even if he usually enjoyed annoying that trio with his presence. Instead, he gently took your hand, leading you to the back of that stupid school he didnt miss at all, smiling to himself as he realized he’d finally have you alone for a moment.
Pure silence was found in the back of the school, Endo still holding your hand even if you two stopped walking, his thumb caressing your knuckles like if they were precious gems, his intense gaze making you nervous enough to look at the side while that action itself made a small laugh come out with his mocking smile. - "Hey doll, i think eye contact is an important part for a conversation to go fine, dont you agree?" - He stated with a total confidence that got to you easily, with your gazes connecting, he felt a shiver around all his body—he needed you.
"Endo, why are we at the back of the school? Im pretty sure Umemiya and the others are still on the rooftop—oh, including your friend, Takiishi, right?" you ask with a polite smile. To you, Endo seemed like a weird but gentle boy; his appearance told one story, but his actions with you told another.
"Yeah, they’re up there, but I wanted a little more private time with you—just like them, you know? Takiishi wouldnt appreciate his talk being interrupted by us," he says calmly, tilting his head slightly as he looks you up and down, studying your reactions. Then, taking steps closer and closer, he speaks again, a sly edge in his tone. "I’m having fun right now, Doll. Even if it looks like the cat got your tongue."
He lets out a sigh—not one of frustration, but to calm his racing heart. Its ridiculous, really, how just standing there saying nothing, exchanging looks with you, makes him feel like this. - "Look, angel, Im being serious here," he says, his voice softer now. "I like these private conversations we have—just the two of us. Even if... they dont usually last long because of your brother." – that last part was muttered with a small disgust in his tone but you didnt get to say something because he interrupts you immediately
Shrugging, he leans in as he slowly pins you against the wall. Your breath hitches at the closeness, and his intense gaze never wavers. You can feel the warmth of his breath brushing your cheeks. - "You knoooow," he drawls, a teasing edge to his tone, "I wouldnt mind us talking more. Its kinda fun hearing you when you actually say something. So what do you think? Tomorrow, wherever you want, and I’ll pay for whatever you want to eat."
He lets out a laugh at your stunned expression, but he can’t stop the warmth spreading through his chest when you nod excitedly. Ah, the feeling of falling is something he loves. You two talked for a moment, alone and really close—the tension between you almost visible. But now, Endo, enjoying the thrill of the chase more than ever, decides to back off for now. He leans in, pressing a kiss to your cheek, deliberately close to the corner of your lips, before pulling back with a smug grin. Turning away, he starts walking toward the rooftop, clearly expecting you to follow.
"Come on, angel! Move those legs. Takiishi and Umemiya are probably bored out of their minds by now, and I dont want to make your brother mad... for now," he teases with a devilish laugh. His mind, however, is racing. He cant help but picture the look on Umemiya’s face when the two of you return after disappearing for a few minutes. And honestly? He’s already plotting how he’ll push his buttons even more in the future—just to have a few extra stolen moments with you he is capable of anything.
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fawnnpaws · 6 months ago
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this isnt even like. sexy but i think so hard about art and being a sub and what it means to him emotionally……… i feel like a lot of it is rooted in a want for transactional love where he gives and his partner gives too, rather than him giving and getting nothing in return.. another big component is a need for a consistent role in his life so he can have a sense of self.. and then in terms of actually being in headspace (puppyspace included) a lot of it has to do with dumbification and being able to turn his brain off for a little bit .. so many thoughts in my mind And dont even get me started about what i think his relationship with his mother is like 😭🤦‍♂️
oohhhhh <//333 art viewing being submissive as a way to guarantee getting his needs met and to have a purpose….. he knows his actions will be reciprocated, even if his feelings aren’t…. he needs to be needed and wanted so bad he’s willing to enter purely transactional dom/sub relationships because at least in scenes he’s almost getting what he craves so badly. he drops after, almost every time, it’s like all of his feelings of being unlovable and inadequate swallow him whole the second his dom leaves. because they always leave. they get what they want from him and they go. he doesn’t know enough about being submissive to understand why he feels so broken after scenes or that he should have a dom that takes care of him after the “transaction” is over. then you come along and you do return his feelings and it feels like the whole world has opened up all of a sudden. he never considered he could have all of his needs met at once - that he could give and receive through submission and be loved outside of it. it makes sinking into his headspace so much easier, so much so that he’s able to just turn his brain off while you’re home together doing mundane things. the dumbification part of it is so sweet because he’s putting all of his trust in you to take care of him, allowing himself to stop thinking and just follow your lead. he knows you know what’s best for him and he’ll lay his pretty little head in your lap while he waits for you to tell him what to do. he loves to hear that you think he’s good - praise is the quickest way to sink him down into that soft warm place where his brain takes the backseat. dumb puppy that he is in this headspace, he’ll just follow you around and lean against you, cuddle up on you however he can, breathe in your perfume and natural scent, anything to stay close. you love him fiercely and give him what he needs freely - he’ll do anything for you in return.
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envy-of-the-apple · 8 months ago
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Hiii poly I would love for u to know that your work is rly good no matter the fandom!
…buuuut I was wondering how RAST would react if they found out/thought (u decide) that Mrs gem had a crush on ijichi? Or maybe if her crush was reciprocated? Idk it only seems totally natural for them to bond over the sort of shared trauma of working for satosugu 😭
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jsdhhdjs feel free to alter if it doesn’t fit into the au or something
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omgggg yall are so mean to Ijichi oh gosh-
pre-'relationship' if they find out that you and ijichi are a thing they'll probably find it a little funny. It makes sense why you two like each other, you're both so similar. but once you three get-together and they still catch you making googly eyes at each other, they'll put a stop to it. It only takes one threat for Ijichi to stop looking at you forever. You can't blame him. It still hurts.
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hello! kk so miss gem technically isn't a prisoner but it's gonna be very hard to get anywhere outside of the property. I feel like (especially in the beginning) sato and sugu try very hard to keep you in the house, but at the same time, they aren't forceful. there will be guards everywhere too so it will be hard to leave.
Eventually, you'll be allowed to leave but very very rarely AND with a chaperone. I feel like small requests are doable. By small, that includes 'jewelry, dinner requests, clothes'. But they do ask for favors in return. The gifts aren't free:)
most of the time miss gem will be at home but they do bring their darling on a field trip every so often. mostly when they want to show off.
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again miss gem isnt a prisoner. inviting friends/ family over is on the table, but they will be firmly vetted. regarding education, suguru will 'gently discourage' it, but with enough pleading and begging to satoru, his support might be enough to turn the tables. you will still be heavily guarded/online school. It's because they're possessive and you're the darling of two organized crime dealers. Being in public in general with that type of title wont bode well. but if you do act up, those privileges will be revoked.
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a very interesting theory !
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They would definitely feel guilty, but they would handle it in different ways. I think Gojo will try to justify it. He'd constantly try to push the blame onto you and your personality and try to brush off your deteriorating state. But he's the one who will snap first. If it gets so bad, he will panic and try to force-feed his gem. Suguru is definitely more sympathetic. He'd keep repeating how you just need time, and eventually, you'll be happy.
He might even get the great idea that you need a distraction to get your mind out of it. Gojo was adamant about his refusal to have children, but Suguru knows for your sake, Satoru will change his stance.
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writers-wrongs · 11 months ago
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Could you write yandere headcanons for Arkham Riddler x male reader? If you don't do Arkham then BTAS?
sure thing! so far ive only played arkham knight (didnt realize it was the last installment til i was halfway through the plot) so thatll be where im drawing from
yandere!arkham!riddler x male!reader
-now, eddie is 100% bi (fight me), so hes not surprised when hes into a guy
-he is, however, surprised that hes actually romantically interested in someone enough to keep an eye on him as he navigates gotham
-this man... is interesting? and intelligent? that cant be possible, everyone but edward is a dribbling moron!
-but here you are, solving a few of the riddles hes placed around the city. he cant let you take the trophies, theyre for batman, but now hes certainly paying attention
-a few months after he first notices you, youre just go about your day when you notice a neon green question mark down an alley. another one of those trophies! might as well solve the puzzle, even if you dont get to keep it
-you solve the puzzle and go to try and grab the trophy, not expecting anything but a slight shock, but youre instead knocked to the ground from the voltage
-you wake up in default gothamite mode: tied to a chair in the middle of an empty room. of course, it had to happen eventually. soon, the riddler himself comes in to speak with you
-"good, youre awake. if i had to beat myself in chess again, id go completely insane"
-and he... sits down. sets up a chessboard on the table in front of you, and unties your hands. you play, mostly out of fear, and while you dont win, you get pretty close
-he looks shocked and excited, with a dash of smugness
-"i knew you were the one. second smartest man in gotham- right after me, of course"
-he explains to you that hes not going to kill you, just keep you ("i cant let that mind of yours make direct contact with the idiocy of gotham! your IQ will lower just by being around them!") and that he'll keep that mind of yours sharp
-how does he do this? puzzles. lots and lots of puzzles. hes a bit of a sadist, so the puzzles are mandatory if you want things like food. regardless of how you do, he'll keep you alive, but if you want anything more than the necessities, you better get good with puzzles
-he spends lots of time with you. he says its because youre the only interesting person in gotham, but its mostly because hes an incredibly lonely man. its hard being at the top, so he'll cling to anyone who can even get close to what he sees as his level
-he LOVES learning more about you. not that he didnt research you for months, but he could only gather so much information before kidnapping you. every conversation is like an interrogation
-in terms of affection, hes... interesting. if you earn your dinner, hes programming robots to serve as waiters and dusting off his green suit. i wouldnt call him a romantic, per se, but he certainly thinks of himself as such
-dont expect much in terms of physical affection, he takes a while to get to that point. hes the riddler, after all! hes above the need to cuddle! unless... if you need comfort, he supposes he can indulge you
-if you ever try to escape, he'll be furious. how dare you try and leave! how dare you assume hes dumb enough to not have planned for this! until you apologize, youre getting the bare necessities and no attention
-when you inevitably start to reciprocate, hes smug about it, but secretly ecstatic. he knows hes not the most charming guy around, but he managed to win over the second smartest guy in gotham. and isnt that all he really needs for companionship?
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aidlyncanon · 7 months ago
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this is my first actual tumblr post since idk what to do but ive had this idea in my head for a while and I wanted to share 🤗
so heres what I think each sbg characters love languages are. I wanted to include both the love language they express towards other and the type that resonates? with them when expressed by others. i dont know how to word that but I hope itll make sense 🙏
if it's inaccurate im sorry im not great at wording but i did try and make it at least a bit accurate which is hard when im unsure to most of these
𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐋𝐘𝐍 𝐁𝐀𝐍𝐍𝐄𝐑
𝐓𝐎 𝐇𝐄𝐑: 𝐐𝐔𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄/𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐕𝐈𝐂𝐄?
— I feel like this may be the only one that properly fits Ashlyn. I could see her maybe also liking acts of service but i cant exactly explain why.
Maybe its because I think its also what she would do for others that I think it would fit. Like I said maybe acts of service like people doing little things to make her life easier.
I have a headcanon that Taylor or Ben has things in their bags for the others (total mom friends) so imagine her shock when she found out someone had ear plugs in their bag incase she needed them?
you get where im going with this?
𝐓𝐎 𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐒: 𝐐𝐔𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄
— I take little to no criticism on this. I can't imagine Ashlyn's being anything else. If she tried getting a gift she'd probably take too long wondering if theyd actually use it. Physical touch is a meh, she doesnt hate it but it wouldnt be her favourite. She said herself she isnt the best with words.
Her gift to people is just her presence. She'd be the type to occasionally need quiet but wouldn't mind being in comfortable silence with someone she likes. I feel like quality time would be her way of showing she cares for someone.
𝐀𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐍 𝐂𝐋𝐀𝐑𝐊
𝐓𝐎 𝐇𝐈𝐌: ???
— This is an idk because im basing these off of what we know about their background and character but we know like nothing so everything about this is based off of pure theory.
The only canon part i can mention is that during his conversation with Ashlyn at the school he mentioned how since he moved around a lot he never really had a true bond with anyone.
"You seemed like the type to only get close with people who mean something to you."
So Aiden didnt just want someone he could feel attached to, he also wanted to feel cared for. Its a two way street with him.
While I could see him loving physical touch as I doubt he got enough of that as a child and he clearly loves being touchy with people I feel like with what we know I could argue really any love language. He'd probably take anything if it makes him feel cared for.
I found a picture of a chart saying "your love language may show what you lacked as a child" and he checked every box so he's fucked.
I ultimately want to settle with physical touch as he seemed shocked when Ashlyn initiated the hug likely due to being the one to always initiate them. Like above he probably just wants his efforts reciprocated.
𝐓𝐎 𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐒: 𝐏𝐇𝐘𝐒𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐋 𝐓𝐎𝐔𝐂𝐇
— Self explanatory we see him being touchy with Ashlyn. He also put his hand on Tyler (idk if this is still fast pass if it is my apologies).
"he did that as a stay away from my girl" stfu. 🤗
𝐁𝐄𝐍 𝐂𝐋𝐀𝐑𝐊
𝐓𝐎 𝐇𝐈𝐌: 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐀𝐅𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍
— I take ZERO criticism on this.
Were all aware how bad his bullying was so I doubt he heard anything nice about him.
The main thing that makes me believe this is that every time he gets complimented or something nice said about him he gets sort of flustered and blushes.
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This ^ was ben after Ashlyn complimented his bandaging job. A small compliment I know but even after what taylor said about him opening up he blushed there too.
You can't deny it means a lot to him he probably thought about those for a while.
𝐓𝐎 𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐒: 𝐆𝐈𝐅𝐓 𝐆𝐈𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐆
— I talked about this in a discord server briefly but I want to share it here. You know the quote "the quieter you are the more you hear"? Well thinking of that ive come up w the idea that Ben likely is more observant compared to most people.
Hed be the one to notice if someone was looking at something for a while in a store or hear it pass in conversation. Make a mental or physical note of it and get it for them.
I just imagine him being the type to be like "i know you like this" or "this reminded me of you". I feel like he wouldnt be the greatest at expressing it in many other ways so he resorts to getting people things.
Hes also pretty artsy so I can also just imagine him making people little things for them.
Like, tyler taught him guitar? gets tyler a new pick. Logan looking at something in the store? need to remember that. and so on
𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐀𝐍 𝐅𝐈𝐄𝐋𝐃𝐒
𝐓𝐎 𝐇𝐈𝐌: 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐀𝐅𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍
— Similar to Ben's. I could maybe see quality time being important to him as he hasnt had many people want to stick around him.
I mean his parents didnt want him and barrons group are just assholes so spending time with someone who genuinely cares for him? Doing an activity he enjoys? Hes over the moon.
𝐓𝐎 𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐒: 𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐕𝐈𝐂𝐄
— I can see him wanting to help people, i mean he helped Noah (the guy who barron replaced him with). I can imagine him doing little things for the group and people he loves.
He might get a bit embarrassed if confronted about it but ultimately hed do it again.
𝐓𝐀𝐘𝐋𝐎𝐑 𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐙
𝐓𝐎 𝐇𝐄𝐑: 𝐐𝐔𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐓 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄???
— This is up in the air but I feel like it fit her the best? I imagine after her dad dying at a young age she grew up knowing that time with people is limited and can end at any moment.
So i can imagine her really appreciating someone spending one-on-one of just personal time with her. But i can also just see her appreciating any type.
My thing is I can imagine her being happy with receiving anything as long as someone had her best interest at heart then she'd become the happiest girl ever.
𝐓𝐎 𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐒: 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐀𝐅𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍
— Another give in, she does it ALL THE TIME. Its literally her defining feature. Shes very good with words and likes making others feel better about themselves. Seeing people perk up from her words would be enough to make her own day better.
I imagine she too, like tyler, had to be there for her mom a lot. So she probably learnt it from that experience. I also imagine her want to make people happier stemmed from seeing Tyler slowly lose interest in everything around him and wanting to be able to be the person who could make his day just a bit better.
Though like above I could see taylor doing things she knows mean the most of others. Like the moment she realized Ben likes words of affirmations she made sure to compliment him a bit more. After realizing Ashlyn likes quality time she would find a way to do that while also not overwhelming Ashlyn, say a movie or just going on a walk. Shed make an effort to make people happy based off of what they love the most.
𝐓𝐘𝐋𝐄𝐑 𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐙
𝐓𝐎 𝐇𝐈𝐌: 𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐕𝐈𝐂𝐄
— Tyler spent his entire childhood taking care of people so imagine how he would react to being taken care of for once.
I figure like at first hed be a bit reluctant however I think ultimately it would mean a lot to him to not have to always be rhe one taking care of others but being able to rest for once.
Like idk how to word it but I think it fits him, I could also see MAYBE words of affirmation? since he did want that when Logan Ashlyn and Ben found him but then again I dont blame him he was literally sitting bleeding.
𝐓𝐎 𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐒: 𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐕𝐈𝐂𝐄?
— This one has a question mark since im not sure. Taking care of others has just became nature to him, its his factory settings. Its not something he like goes and does to get people interested its just natural to him.
I dont think its something he'd do specifically to express care, he'd likely be unaware how much it could mean to someone since its just life to him.
Im not too sure what his would actually be MAYBE quality time again similar to Taylors in the sense that he knows just how fast someone can lose their lives so he likely would appreciate someone wanting to actually spend time with him.
Even if he wouldnt admit it.
If these are inaccurate then I apologize I did try to make them as accurate as I could but wording my thoughts isnt something i'm great at.
Most of these im unsure of but I wanted to talk about anyway so idk gimme ur opinions on them id love to hear them esp since im unsure for half of these :)
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your-favourite-yapper · 13 days ago
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"Sirius black x Kingsley shacklebolt(daddy figure)" <- elaborate
no <3
KIDDING LMAO IVE BEEN WAITING 500 YEARS FOR SOMEOJE TO ASK ME ABT THIS ILY ILY
There are 2 versions on how this could go
Way 1: Sirius joins the order he is imm determined to make it ahead bc in the order there's a sort of hierarchy where new members don't go on "serious" missions and that makes sirius even more mad bc the ministry already rejected his auror job application bc of his last name and he can't fathom not being the best at everything and so he finds the highest ranking person and its kingsley (and madeye and kinerva, minervas too old alastors insane (kinda hot but suirisu alr has enough inquiries into his own mental health soooo)) kingsely wins!!!! And he so he begins flirting approaching w kingsley and also I feel like even if he didn't wanna go ahead kingsely has an aura that makes him soo approachable which is why he's in charge of training the new members and he treats all the members kindly but Sirius thinks it's just him so when he finds out kingsley treats every1 like that he's MAD and also kingsley is the polar opposite of siriuss dad so that's also a factor. I feel like the relationship itself would be healthy(ish??) Bc while kingsley does love Sirius and recognize Sirius is pretty he isn't OBSESSED (yet 😼) and so that sort of grounds sirius bc kingsley doenst do let him whatever the fuck he wants and engage in self destructiveactivities (which is kinda annoying but its like daddy core?? Canyouseethevision) and kingsley while he isn't a virgin, isn't rlly secually experienced so sirius defo gets a power trip by the knowledge that one of the most influential order members is whining and writhing under (or above) him. So it's like, kingsley controls/takes care of sirius enough that sirius Stull finds a "challange" (and daddy) but still in love with (not obsessed) w him enough that sirius still feels in control (bc thats one of the best feelings in ghe world for him) also i do feel like kingsley has a savior complex xo when he dates sirius alot of ppl jokingly tell him to watch out and he's like "i can fix him" not in a cock hungry way (remus) but bc that'd just what he does and sirius is no df and he insists sirius won't ruin his life and that he's going to help sirius get better (but he isnt sick??) and then siirius gets imprisoned and kingsley does get sad but he wasn't obsessed w sirius so this doesn't destroy him (yet 😼) and he ev gets married then in ootp he's still married and tells Sirius this and him and sirius maint a healthy distance but after Azkaban Sirius doenst want need a "daddy figure" he needs someone that let's him self destrcut (kike james) so he can feel like it's still before Oct 31 so him and kingsely don't rlly get together and if they fuck after some meetings and if Sirius cries into kingsley shoulder sometimes and if Sirius told kingsley he got better at fucking and if the day before the battle at the depth of mysteries they fought and if the the order for Sirius to stay was given by kingsley and if sirius didn't want to listen so he left and now he's dead and kingsely a cheater and if he ev divorces his wife for "other rzns"(his wifes a muggle and if he tells her its bc of the war and not bc of the fact that she doenst have black hair or moles or a laugh like a dog and ane) and so if in the end sirius DID destroy his life well that's neither here not there!!
Way 2: Sirius doesn't really like Kingsley BUT remus has a crush on kingsley and that makes sirius mad bc even tho he doenst like or even want to date remus. remus isn't allowed to have a crush on anyone but HIM (but obviously sirius deosnt reciprocate i mean remus is such a loser with his stupid overbite and stupid freckles and stupid goldy brown curly hair and stupid smile and stupid moral compass and and) so anyways remus having a crush on kingsley is a big no no so sirius decides a good solution would be to stea date kingsley !! And just like in the last version, Sirius flirts to the max w kingsley who doesn't notice bc he's busy and he's never rlly had much experience in the romance department (he isnt a loser like remus but he spent most of his hogwarts yrs working towards his future unware 98% of the hogwarts population had a crush on him) so he just thinks Sirius is being friendly and this makes sirius mad bc he isnt supp to chase after ppl theyre supp to come to HIM but eventually Sirius bags him !! And it goes pretty much the same except Remus can't help but feel hurt and angry at Sirius (but why would he be angry ? Sirius didnt promise him nkt to go after kingsley in fact he lrobably didnt wven know remus liked him) but siiruss plan worked girlboss (kind of) bc now remus thinks abt sirius more
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raveneira · 25 days ago
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so as a fan of boruto and tbv boruto I’m wondering when it comes to the ships, are there more evidence against borusara more or BoruSumi??
Being as realistic as possible, the short answer is yes, but its really hard to tell without seeing any of the male perspectives which is a huge flaw in regards to every single pairing in Boruto
In Naruto we had Naruto, Obito, Jiraiya, Dan, Minato, Yahiko, several male characters with their perspectives and feelings shown for their love interests, requited and unrequited, it was not all one sided where only the female casts had romantic interests.
This is where Boruto falls massively short in regards to the romance, it gives the illusion of 'development' for BoruSara lets say by having Sarada completely and utterly obsessed with him, wearin his clothes, and not even caring about her friends feelings next to her because shes so fixated on a guy
This is the 'illusion' of development, because on the surface thats a win right? I mean no WAY shes not inlove with this boy right? no WAY their not endgame after all this right? sadly thats not how this goes
For you see, lets use a canon ship for example, SS, it was very one sided in the beginning with Sakura loving Sasuke but him clearly not reciprocating her feelings, but over time, as they spent more time together as a team, we see Sasuke's feelings towards her start to shift in a more positive direction, that he isnt entirely put off by her advances as he once was, that her love and care was starting to be reciprocated, maybe not in the romantic sense yet, but he loved and cared for her enough to be willing to die for her and Naruto to escape alive, and even in Shippuden there was several signs during the war that Sakura's feelings still impacted him, even if he couldnt accept them for obvious reasons at that point, you could tell her feelings still had an impact on him and that he acknowledged them, which is why he gave her such an awful vision to knock her out in the hopes that she would finally let go of him for good, just as Sasuke was hoping Naruto would let go of him after the final fight, but neither of them did.
Finally at the end of it all, the only one Sasuke apologized to and showed remorse for his actions was Sakura [Naruto is self explanatory I dont need to mention him] and then when he left he shared his most cherished gesture from his brother with her and promised he'd see her when hes back.
In this case Sakura's feelings got the most spotlight obviously because her feelings were already set in stone, Sasuke's feelings still had to be explored and developed which over the course of the series they were.
Compare that to BoruSara, we get all this insight on Sarada and her feelings right? now tell me, where do we get insight on Boruto's feelings towards her?
Here is Boruto when hes literally about to die in an assisted suicide and these are his last words
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"Im sorry dad, give my best to mom and Hima"
He doesnt think about Sarada at all, despite this being the last time he'll ever be alive to see them, hes prepared to die, he WANTS to die so he DOESNT hurt the ppl he cares about, so for his final moments he has a chance to leave behind a dying message for everyone he loves and yet the only ppl he mentions is his family, he does NOT think about Sarada, but if you had put Sarada in Borutos place you best believe she would've mentioned him before letting Kawaki off her.
This isnt a one time thing, even earlier in the series, this is literally JUST after he promised Sarada he would be her right hand man and support her, after he JUST told Tento how he wants to be an amazing Shinobi that supports the Hokage, the very first mission their assigned after that, he throws a fit and when Sarada comes to try and talk him into coming he literally refuses and just tells Mitsuki to go with her.
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What makes him change his mind? Mitsuki blackmailing him that if he doesnt go then he wont either and just let Sarada face danger alone, he then REMINDS him of HIS own promise that wasnt even that long ago that he made it, which LITERALLY catches Boruto by surprise like he had forgot, which he most likely did if Mitsuki is having to bring it up to him to call him out.
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But notice how just bringing up his promise to Sarada wasnt enough, he was surprised, but not moved, it wasnt until he mentioned HIS MOTHER AND SISTER that he struck a nerve and Boruto gave in, he did not budge for Sarada, but he did for his family.
Even with this reminder about his promise I want you to think, when has Boruto ever once thought about it? seriously think, where has he thought about the promise he made to Sarada at any point? compare it to Naruto's promise of a lifetime, he thought about it and brought it up several times, but Boruto? not even a thought in his mind.
Ppl like to claim the times Boruto 'protects' Sarada is him acting on his promise but that could not be any further from the truth because this is something he did even before the promise.
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It has nothing to do with his promise, he protects her because thats his friend, if shes in danger he'll protect her, if Mitsuki is in danger he'll protect him, if anyone he cares about is in danger HE'LL PROTECT THEM, it has NOTHING to do with a promise he made, he never once has thought about it since he made it, only in the anime and that was once in a comic relief moment and it was SARADA who brought it up, which just goes back to my statement that everything is only from girls pov.
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SHE remembers the promise but not him, hell even Mitsuki remembers it, but not the guy who actually made it.
I wont completely downplay him protecting her in the exams tho, it was still meaningful and from his pov that it was HIS fault and he HAD to protect her, but it is SAD that that is literally all there is.
But going back to Boruto not really thinking about Sarada the way she does him, lets go back to the chunin exams.
When Boruto is about to lose their flag, what came to his mind when he was about to make his friends lose it all? well in the manga it was the email from his dad that gave him the push to use the ninja tool to win, him wanting to impress his dad and get his attention is what moved him.
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In the movie it was the exact same thing, his almost failure in the first exam, and the email from his dad.
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The novel and the anime however include Sarada in his reasoning, yet in the movie written by Kishimoto personally and Ikemoto who drew the entire movie recap exactly as it was in the movie, I think its safe to say thats the canon version of this scene.
Boruto didnt think about failing Sarada, letting her down, making her lose this step closer to achieving her dream, his one and only focus was impressing his father and getting his attention which Im not condemning him for but simply pointing out that Boruto does NOT think about Sarada the way she does him.
Lets just real quick compare Boruto and Sarada to Naruto and Sakura, because Im gonna use various examples so lets go with NS this time
When fighting Gaara, what motivated Naruto to be brave and tap into a whole new strength was him wanting to save Sakura before she was crushed to death, Sasuke too, but Sakura was a big motivator, and once Gaara was defeated the first thing Naruto wanted to know was if Sakura was safe and was relieved to know she was
Compare this to Boruto, when is she ever really a motivator for him? when has she ever been a source of strength? when has she made him reach new heights or push past limits? when has she been a driving force? a constant thought in his mind? someone he pays special attention to that he doesnt others?
Never, you cant give a single instance where Boruto treats Sarada any different than he would anyone else in her position, you could have Mitsuki about to get slashed by Kawaki and he'd have gotten the scar the exact same way, if Kawaki was about to sneak Inojin in their sparring match he would've jumped in to protect him and called him out the exact same way, if Sumire was the one who sent Sasuke to save him he would've thanked her the exact same way
Boruto treats Sarada like he does any other friend, there is no special treatment, no special thought either, the only time he'll think of Sarada is if Sasuke is involved in some way so she crosses his mind by extension for obvious reasons, but its never
'I HAVE to do this for Sarada, I have to protect Sarada, I have to be there for Sarada, Im so worried about Sarada, I need to get stronger for Sarada, I need to keep my promise to Sarada'
Im excluding the movie scene because that was out of guilt for partially causing what was happening and seeing how frozen in fear she was, so he manned up and took responsibility to protect her, to put that more into perspective just look at Sasuke literally stabbing himself so he could save Sakura and flee, sure he wanted to save himself, but Sakura being frozen and helpless was also a big motivator that made him fight even harder to move, Boruto has never had a moment where Sarada has made him fight even harder, made him overcome his fears, made him go out of his way especially FOR her
She's never a driving force for him, never a motivation for him, she doesnt cross his mind as anyone special he specifically wants to do xyz for.
Even now rescuing Sasuke is more about his own guilt for Sasuke sacrificing himself for him after Sarada selflessly sent her dad to protect him, and Boruto looking out for her is based on Sasukes final wish being for him to look after her for him.
Its funny how Boruto is quicker to remember and keep his promise to Sasuke than he does the one he made to Sarada. Shows you which promise and WHO Boruto really prioritizes.
Compare that to Sarada who literally says to Mitsuki that she wants to be able to help him more, that she wants to get stronger to help Boruto and fight off powerful Otsutsuki's, who breaks down and cries about how unfair omnipotence was to Boruto, whos bitched at everyone for 3 years trying to prove Boruto's innocent and being ignored, who was so overwhelmed to see him safe and sound she rushed to hug him
Which btw, Boruto returned, but he didnt initiate, because again their relationship is ALWAYS one sided, Sarada GIVES all this energy but she never RECEIVES any of it back.
Observe, how supportive and empathetic Sarada is of him about his dad even when she herself has father issues, vs how supportive or empathetic Boruto is towards her
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Despite wanting time with her own dad, she wants Sasuke to take on Boruto as his student because she knows it'd mean alot to him if he did, and was happy for him when her dad said yes.
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She lies to Naruto about where he is just so Boruto could spend a little more time with his dad.
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She insists on taking the lunch box Hinata made to Naruto because she knows how much it means coming from someone special, which is what makes Boruto change his mind when thinking of his mother.
Moving on lets also compare supportiveness of their dreams, when Boruto tells Sarada his dream shes supportive and happy for him and wants her dad to train him, but when Sarada tells him her dream this is how he responds
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Boruto LASHES out at Sarada unfairly because of his personal daddy issues, he takes his fathers neglect as Hokage out on her simply for wanting to be Hokage too, he also assumes that just because Naruto ended up neglecting his family that Sarada would do the same
Compare this to Sarada, who has even worse daddy issues, and how instead of lashing out at Boruto for wanting to be like her father, she supports him? instead of thinking he'd go on to neglect his family the way Sasuke did his she doesnt make that assumption at all? and this is WHILE inside shes annoyed with his complaining and envious of him
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Yet she never takes it out on him, never lashes out at him, never calls him out on his insensitivity and selfishness of only thinking about himself and never once considering how she was feeling despite them being childhood friends, yet Sarada is the only one who cared and sympathized with his father issues but Boruto never cared about hers, let alone even acknowledged they existed, and Boruto was so self centered on himself that she never talked to him about it either, not even Chocho her own best friend because she too was also insensitive in regards to her father issues [having a loving and caring father right there yet rejecting him because hes not cool when Sarada literally hasnt even met her dad to her knowledge]
The only person Sarada EVER opened up to about this was Kawaki, and thats because he was the only person who actually GOT IT, they BOTH lacked father figures in their lives and saw Naruto as the ideal dad who was the one who saved them in their darkest moments and inspired them, out of her 2 closest friends, Boruto and Chocho, Sarada could only talk about her personal father issues with Kawaki who she only knew for less than a year, she could open up to HIM before she could two ppl shes known since childhood, that speaks volumes on just how one sided he and Boruto's friendship is because he of all ppl she should've been able to come to for this, yet Sarada didnt say anything at all
I could go on but you get the point, everything is one sided, Sarada gives WAY more to Boruto than he ever has for her, despite having father issues himself, he never ONCE related to or empathized with Sarada in a similar position, but Sarada has for him more than once.
She lied so he could have more time with his dad, she gave up time she could've had training with her own father so Boruto could since he really wanted him as his teacher, she sacrificed even more time with her dad by sending him away on a whole 3 year journey to protect Boruto, despite complaining about her dad not spending time with her several chapters before that, she STILL made that sacrifice for HIS sake.
Show me a single panel or episode where Boruto makes even remotely that kind of sacrifice for her, show me where Boruto ever tells Sasuke or tries to get Sasuke to spend more time with Sarada, show me where he ever sympathized with her not having her dad around, show me where Boruto ever tried to convince Naruto to train Sarada, show me where Boruto ever gave that much of af about her like she has about him.
You wont, because it doesnt exist, unless you wanna count novels not written by Kishimoto and an anime where a good 90% of it, possibly more, isnt even canon to the manga.
In this post Im only gonna reference things we know for a fact are 100% canon, so that means only Gaiden, Boruto movie, and Boruto manga content I will be referring to since thats the content we know for a fact is canon and non debatable.
But the sad part is even if you do include the novels, Boruto only sends Sasuke to spend time with Sarada once because its parent child day and he literally wants to spend time with his own dad but sacrificed that time for his little sister to have it instead, it only made sense for Sasuke to spend time with Sarada on this day, that wasnt so much him being considerate as it was him wanting time with his own dad but couldnt and he saw Sasuke didnt know anything about the holiday since its a new thing and explained it to him, thats not the same as him ACTUALLY considering Sarada's feelings and looking out for her, he had assumed that was why Sasuke came back in the first place until he realized he didnt know, explained it to him, and then went on his way.
So even the one time Boruto thought about her, it wasnt because he actually thought about her feelings and wanted her to spend time with her dad, but just an coincidental encounter, but the entire event Boruto was sulking from wanting to be with his own dad, sound familiar? yea, thats how Sarada felt in Gaiden when surrounded by everyone with their dads, only difference is Sarada was attentive and sympathetic towards him, Boruto isnt.
But lets move back to the manga, specifically TBV cuz I dont wanna be here all day just on part one.
Sarada, unfortunately, decides to dress like Boruto, and not only dress like him, but also go the extra mile of wearing a mens sized jacket...
This is how she dealt with her 'complicated feelings' apparently after omnipotence, she took on his style and even somewhat his attitude
Now lets look at Boruto in TBV, who is he representing? yep you guessed it, it aint Sarada, its her dad.
I want you to keep in mind that TBV is 3 years after Boruto and her dad go MIA after she sent her father to protect him, shes had zero contact with either one of them for those 3 years, she has no idea whether they were dead or alive cuz apparently she never asked Ada for any updates, and in her mind Naruto is dead.
So with all those details in mind you would think Sarada would wanna honor her father right? dont gimme the Uchiha crest cuz thats her own danm name and what she wore even before now, but what about Naruto? that was her idol so you'd think she might wanna honor him right?
The answer is no, she doesnt represent her missing father, nor her believed dead idol, she reps BORUTO.
Now compare that to Boruto who reps Sasuke, why? cuz thats his idol, thats who he strives to be like, thats who he looks up to, who kept him safe despite being brainwashed, who trained him for a whole year, and who sacrificed himself so that he could get away.
It makes sense why Boruto would wanna honor him, even tho I have my own issues with his Sasuke cosplay, atleast from a narrative and character standpoint it atleast makes sense, like you dont see that and go 'Huh?' whereas Sarada you do because that dont make a danm bit of sense in context.
Her dad is missing, her idol is dead, her friend is missing, yet the only one she honors is the friend? not Naruto who saved her at her lowest moment and gave her her dream? not her father who she was only just starting to finally spend time with after years of being miserable without him?
To put this into perspective, imagine Sasuke putting Naruto above Itachi, like Imagine Sasuke, who idolized his brother as danm near perfection personified, imagine he put Naruto above him for no reason and Im dead serious, there is no reason why Sarada would put Boruto above Sasuke, romantic love doesnt trump familial love especially towards ones own parents, despite popular belief that 'well she loves Boruto and known him longer than Sasuke so she cares for him more' is such a bogus take because in that case Boruto should be closer to her for the same reason, Naruto became Hokage when he was around 5-6 which is around the same time Sasuke goes on his mission, you can literally make the same argument for him but for some reason ppl wanna act like theres a difference.
But ok lets play their game that romantic love trumps familial, if they truly believe thats true and that BoruSara is already mutual then shouldnt Boruto put Sarada above his family as well? because they arent just talking about Sasuke, no they say Sarada cares more about Boruto than her own parents, so by this logic if their love for eachother is stronger than their love for their own family then shouldnt Boruto put her above his family as well?
Well he doesnt, infact he consistently puts her BELOW them, he's always prioritizing his mom, his sister, and his dad, Sarada is never a thought in his mind UNLESS Sasuke is involved in some way.
When he refused to do the mission, Mitsuki used his mother and sister to sway him
When he was about to die, he apologized to his dad and asked him to send his regards to his mother and sister
What motivated him through the chunin exams was getting his fathers attention, not helping his friends succeed
Whats motivating him in TBV is freeing his parents, Sasuke, and patching things up with his brother, Kawaki
When he arrives to save Sarada and Himawari, he orders the others to look after his sister and gets mad when they dont, but is indifferent towards Sarada
Yes he protected and saved her, but there was no great concern over her wellbeing despite her having been injured and just nearly consumed, he put her right back into the fight despite knowing she was being targeted, he only asked that Hima be looked after
Even if you argue he 'knew' Sarada could fend for herself, thats bs, Boruto himself had to flee the Shinjus when he got jumped, Sasuke himself got overwhelmed just by the lesser claw grimes cuz of their numbers, but you want me to believe Boruto thought Sarada could just handle it? even after almost JUST being consumed? get outta here.
Im not saying he doesnt care, what I am saying is he cares way more about his family and will prioritize them than he will Sarada. Keep in mind he had to fly OVER Sarada to where Hima was and THEN he went back for Sarada, nuff said right there.
So what am I getting at? well if it isnt obvious by this point, BoruSara, and most ships in Boruto in general, with the exception of Mitsuki, is all one sided af and it is ALWAYS from the girls pov.
We see Ada's pov, Sumire's pov, Sarada's pov, Yodo's pov now, Moegi's pov now
We dont see Boruto's, dont see Kawaki's, dont see Shinki's, dont see Konohamaru's
We see everything from Sarada's pov but nothing from Boruto's, he does not feel those same strong feelings towards Sarada as she does for him, and Im not even saying shes inlove with him, I just mean strong feelings in general, he does not give that same energy back to her that she gives to him.
The most Boruto has done in return was tell Ada to thank her and not to worry, and promised her that he would free Sasuke and everyone else trapped in tree's.
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This is the most you get from Boruto, compared to the plethora of consideration you see from Sarada, the most you get is this.
Him coming to tell her what happened to her dad isnt really anything special, thats just expected, he left with her dad, her dad sacrificed himself for him, he tried to save him on his own first but failed, so now he goes to tell her what happened, its not that big a deal.
And thats exactly the problem, going back to my SS example, whenever we get moments of Sasuke's pov, of Sasuke giving some of that energy that Sakura gave him back, it was always a big deal, a big moment, something special that stood out from other interactions.
To put it a bit more in perspective I'll use Sasuke thanking Sakura before he left to Boruto thanking Sarada before he left.
With Sasuke there was an emotional and powerful build up, Sakura's pleas and Sasuke's refusal to look at her and choosing revenge over them, Sakura mentioning how their first interaction went and Sasuke saying he doesnt remember, all of that leading up to Sakuras confession, Sasuke deflecting and calling her annoying revealing he infact DID remember the interaction she spoke about, her trying to stop him and him appearing behind her, thanking her, then knocking her out and gently placing her on the bench before leaving
With Boruto all he does is literally just give Ada a message to relay to Sarada, there isnt really anything more to it than that, just tell Sarada I said thanks and dont worry cuz I'll be back.
There was nothing big or stand out about it, this is the same kind of thanks you'd see him toss any friend of his, theres nothing special about it.
And this is the problem with BoruSara, they have the 'illusion' of development because its pushed so strongly from Sarada's side that it gives the 'illusion' of the ship sailing, that theres something there, that their so inlove and so important to eachother etc
But when you really sit back, replay everything, and actually look at all their 'moments' and interactions you'll realize just how one sided the relationship is, that theres no reciprocation on Boruto's end, that Boruto doesnt treat her any different than he would anyone else, you could put Sumire in every place Sarada was and he'd act the exact same way, you cannot look at all thats happened and honestly say if you put Sumire in her place that Boruto would react any differently.
And thats what I mean by the 'illusion' of development, because Sarada is just a smoke screen, making her so obsessed and hyperfixated on him gives the 'illusion' that theres been some development in their relationship, that oh their bond is stronger now and shes starting to realize she loves him and Boruto feels the same etc etc
But again when you really look at it all you'll see that isnt the case at all, Sarada's obsession with Boruto is just like Boruto's sudden OOC attitude change, something GIVEN to them but not EARNED
For context Boruto's attitude is very OOC for him, and makes no sense in the context of what happened and what hes been through
To put it simply, Sasuke became the way he was not because of ppl being brainwashed into hating him who used to love him and losing nobody and knowing their all safe and sound, Sasuke became that way because a corrupt village persecuted his clan and plotted their genocide and made his brother carry it out in exchange for sparing his life, who he then hunted down and killed because he thought he was a traitor only to realize he wasnt and truly loved him
THAT is why Sasuke became the hardened person he was, from actual loss and trauma
Boruto has lost NOTHING, he says this himself, he lost nothing and has experienced no real trauma, hardships yes, but no trauma, he knows omnipotence is the reason for everything so he knows everyone that is against him now actually loves him and are just brainwashed, he had Sasuke by his side for a year and then KK for the other 2, he knew he had Sarada and Sumire as his allies back home, he now has Ada, Shikamaru, and Mitsuki on his side as well
Boruto's attitude makes ZERO sense in this context, hes acting like Sasuke but without any of Sasuke's experiences that made him like that
The same applies to Sarada, shes suddenly obsessed with Boruto to a very weird extent yet there has really be NOTHING to justify her obsession with him, none whatsoever
Just to give an example, lets use Haku, it was perfectly explained why Haku had such a strong unhealthy attachment to Zabuza, it made perfect sense why Haku would be obssessed with Zabuza and follow him to the ends of the earth, do whatever he asked, and even throw his own life away to protect him, THAT made sense
I'll give another example, Kawaki, do I even really NEED to explain why his obsession with Naruto makes sense? havin his biological dad sell him for money for booze? his adoptive dad beating him daily and having his body modified against his will? the only good father figrue he ever had in his life was Naruto who was the only one who ever showed him love or care? yea it makes perfect sense why he became unhealthily obsessed
But Sarada? for what reason are we given for her obsession with Boruto? absolutely none, not even in a romantic sense because for some reason Ikemoto wont commit and have her even recognize shes inlove, which is why I dont believe she is because by this point its been 3 years, shes been bitching at everyone for 3 years to believe his innocence, shes dressing like him, wearing a mens size jacket, getting called out by Sumire for her lack of consideration for anyone other than Boruto, she cant even listen to Boruto tell her what happened to her dad without cutting him off with a hug
Im sorry but if she hasnt realized shes inlove after all that, then maybe, just maybe, shes not fkin inlove with him because aint no WAY your doin all of that and still goin 'I mean that platonically' theres just no fkin way Sarada is just in THAT much denial that she cant tell shes inlove with him by now, your not gonna convince me Sarada is that oblivious, your not gonna convince me that 'oh shes like Sasuke' when Sasuke perfectly understood romance, he understood Sakura's feelings he just couldnt accept or focus on them cuz she had other important things to think about
Ppl however are arguing that Sarada doesnt know how she feels which is just stupid, your telling me your going out of you way to wear a mens size jacket the same style as your friend and you still dont know your inlove with him? get outta here man aint nobody THAT dense, thats not even in Sarada's character TO be that dense, she understands love and she not stupid, shes very emotionally intelligent, so if Sarada was inlove with Boruto she'd have realized it by now, the fact that she hasnt doesnt mean shes just that dense, it means what she says everytime shes asked if she likes him, which is no, sorry to burst ppls fanfics and headcanons but Im taking Sarada's words over shipper interpretations
Anyway so getting off of Boruto's perspective, even from Sarada's perspective its really lacking in the romance department because yea shes obsessed with him to a weird extent, but theres no romance, and when their is, its always shot down by her even when theres no reason for her to, there were tons of one sided loves in Naruto so why cant Sarada be confirmed inlove with Boruto by now? what does that ruin? its still a will they wont they situation since we dont know who Boruto likes yet so whats the hold up? theres no reason to keep dragging Sarada's feelings UNLESS its because she doesnt have any, but Ikemoto wants shippers to BELIEVE there might be to keep them reading, which makes sense because majority of readers are pro BoruSara, definitely dont wanna lose your main reading base when the manga is already struggling to stay afloat wth sales constantly dropping lower and lower every volume so yea, I get WHY he wouldnt shoot down BoruSara, but I dont get why if it WAS endgame why he wouldnt have already revealed Sarada's feelings by now, it only makes sense if she doesnt love him.
So romantic love aside, what reason does she have to be this obsessed with Boruto? absolutely none, there is NO reason for her to be this obsessed with him, its not like Sarada was some orphan abandoned on the street and Boruto was her one and only friend who helped her out and took care of her etc, nah Sarada had a normal childhood, loving mom, her best friend Chocho, Boruto havin her tag along with him and his friends, dont mention the novel because it contradicts the manga and even if you do it doesnt change anything because she still had Chocho, still had her mom, and still had a normal happy life with her only issue being an absent dad
She has no justifiable reason for being this obsessed with him, yet she is anyway even tho its unearned, same way Borutos personality shift is unearned, they both act in ways they dont have an justification for WHY they would, none of the experiences that would MAKE them behave the way they are
This is long enough so I'll just end by saying this, yes there is more going against BoruSara when you actually look at substance, theres barely any between them, all surface level bs, one sided bs, and non canon/debatable canon bs that the manga disregards entirely.
BoruSara thrives entirely off content by other ppl, Kodachi added extra bits to the movie novel than was in the movie, the novels were written by different ppl and are debatably canon, and we all know SPs track record, if you look at the manga tho there really isnt much goin for em that you cant say would be any different for somebody else
Like if Sumire hugged Boruto I find it very hard to believe he wouldnt of hugged her back, hell I believe even Mitsuki would've gotten a hug back, I dont really see Boruto only hugging Sarada back, but for example I can only see Sasuke poking Sakura's forehead, not because he dont care or feel as strongly for Naruto, but because he reserved that gesture specifically to convey to Sakura how he felt and to share with his daughter, a symbol of a promise he intended to keep, this is something he especially does just to them
But Boruto? yea I cant see him not hugging anyone else back who hugged him, it just goes back to what I said about their moments not really being 'special' because their nothing that wouldnt happen for anyone else, their not a big deal, hell the only reason the hug is a big deal is because Sumire understandably is jealous over it and called Sarada out for her inconsideration, not cuz she understandably hugged her friend she was happy to see, but because Sarada NEVER considers anyone elses feelings at all, SUMIRE understood how Sarada felt and why she acted that way, but Sarada never considered how Sumire felt, that she also missed Boruto, that she also had things she wanted to say, that she also wanted to show her joy and relief at seeing him alive as well but Sarada didnt even give her a chance to say or do anything before she flew at him.
So instead of a heartfelt reunion, instead now she gotta break the awkward tension between them now that Sarada cant speak cuz shes all embarassed by the hug, once again considering SARADA'S feelings despite her not considering hers at all.
Anyway Ima leave it there, sorry if this isnt as organized as my other posts, I didnt really plan this out and just wrote it as I thought about it but I hope I still made my point. I didnt want this to be too long so theres still alot of stuff I didnt go over in this post but I hope what all I did mention gets the point across well enough on its own.
If you were wondering if I think BoruSumi has more going for it than bsa, I cant say, it has the same issue with a lack of Borutos pov to tell, but just Sumire being sure and confident in her feelings for him puts it above bsa which is literally all fandom speculation that oh their totally inlove they just dont realize it yet ._.
As for if BoruSumi has more going against it, no it doesnt, if anything it has less tbh because its less focused on, and when it is its usually in a positive and mutual light so yea, definitely beating bsa in that regard.
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furiousgoldfish · 7 months ago
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Damn i was not expecting the "#tw extreme abuse", thank you very much for your words though
I might be able to help the person who asked about healthy relationships though, ive made a lot of good relationships despite my family:
Communication
•above all else, communicate. Tell them about yourself. Learn about them. Get to know eachother! Likes, dislikes. Boundaries especially! Check in on them. Just a quick hi once in a while can do wonders (lots of relationships fail due to lack of communication or miscommunication)
•listen to eachother
Arguements
•if something happens you can always walk away, make sure the other person understands that they can as well. Take time to collect yourselves and explain later why your upset
•be clear and ask for clarification where you need it
•fights can be scary but dont think that someone will leave you after one
•try to steer clear of insults/threats/blackmail if your angry, thats hard to repair after
Trust
•i know its hard to trust and you can take all the time you need to learn how, but making healthy relationships is a good way to learn trust.
•Dont lie to them or you will get caught up in trying to keep it under wraps (unless its to protect your safety, in that case maybe being around this person is not a good idea), not only will they not trust you but you wont give yourself the opportunity to trust them
Kindness
•be nice. Its simple. Good people, the people that will make for great friends/support/family will be kind back! Go out and meet people! Youll make friends! Just give yourself a chance!
•treat other how you deserve to be treated, with all the love and kindess you should have gotten! They will pay it back, they will love you!
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•express interest in their interests. You dont have to be a big fan, people will want to show you what they like when they like you. They're sharing something special to them. So ask about it! You dont have to engage much with it, but show them their interests have value. It will make them really happy, and they should be open to yours as well.
•do fun shit together! Something you both enjoy! If there isnt anything that overlaps you can do your own stuff in eachothers company. Just hanging out with them is enough.
•being able to love someone else, is to love yourself. You're filled with so much compassion and care for this person, and they will feel the same. They will be their to love you when life hits the fan.
•again take your time, it can be hard to get right. If it doesn't work out thats an experience you can carry into the next relationship, something to learn from.
Caution:
-make sure they actually make you happy and treat you well, not that theyre just the first person you could latch onto
-make sure you both have personal freedoms, your loyalty to eachother should not come at that cost
-keep yourself safe, safety comes first
Finding good people is a very important one as well, if anyone needs i could try explaining that too. Hope this helps.
Hey thank you for sending this manual!
Yeah your situation is extreme, I'm thinking about you and hoping that you get to experience freedom.
Your manual sounds really nice and is filled with common sense, and I've been following these types of guidelines for most of my life, but still had absolutely no luck. The thing is, this would work if you're surrounded with kind, understanding, non-abusive, friendly people who also just wanted to be friends with you and reciprocate and earn your trust and keep you in your life.
However a lot of people will see your friendly, kind, compassionate and communicative nature and decide to make use of it. It's been the hardest thing for me to realize when the other person is just pretending to be friendly back, in order to exploit me. It's really difficult to take distance from someone when they make you feel guilty for it and attack you for it, and it's hard to not feel guilty and betrayed when it happens. Manipulative people make great use of trust and communication you give them! Treating them with love and kindness will often get you in a situation where love and kindness will be expected, or demanded out of you, while you find yourself unable to ask even for some patience and space for yourself. And I'm worried that this is the situation for most abused people, we're often trying so hard to be kind, communicative, trusting, interested, loyal, patient, giving, caring, compassionate, and they zero in on that and eat it up, taking some time to make us let our guard down, before they start banking on us being in their service.
I have been trying to find good people all of my life, and fell unsuccessful, and I've tried hundreds of people, created a system of red flags that make me drop them, and had to drop pretty much everyone. And it's not as if this manual is generally bad, or I've just sucked so much at communicating and building boundaries, it's just, really difficult after abuse to feel okay around people, and to not be bothered by some of their manipulative nature - it hurts us more than it hurts others.
So even as I'm really bad with people, I can't recommend being very kind, trusting or communicative, of course it's nice if you can be that and not get hurt for it, but I absolutely cannot. It never happened once in my life, that someone returned the same kindness, love and care I gave them, and it often broke my heart. I would have to be very naive to still believe that I just haven't done it for the right person - hundreds of people reacted similarly, took what they could, then either turned on me, hurt me and pretended it was okay and I should stop being sensitive, or abandoned me altogether if I ever stood up to them.
This all is not your fault, and I can completely understand how you sent in these instructions with best of intentions, sincerely believing that this is the key to healthy relationships. It seemed like that to me too, when I was younger! I fully believed this would work, kind people would see me and return the kindness, it would be okay. The only thing I can recommend is the stuff you have under caution - if someone fails to reciprocate, or reciprocates at first and then stops reciprocating, get distance. If your freedom around this person is limited, get away, get distance. If they start treating you worse at any point, get distance. It's not worth ending up in another abusive, neglected or scary situation just for the hope of human connection. And it's also really difficult for an abused person tell when they're being neglected, treated badly or their kindness is not reciprocated, just because we've already been used to so much worse, so anyone not outright threatening to kill us seems like a nice enough person who deserves our whole heart. They often do not.
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barbieb0y · 5 months ago
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forged in a bonfire.
day 4 of scrunkly week already woah
the theme is autumn! i went with both sitting by a cosy fire + cold hands, warm drinks for the prompts! i dont celebrate halloween so i feel detached from prompts related to that haha
as usual, i wrote a scenario for my selfship, uppercut (my oc, paper cut x joe reverse 1999) BUT i did add mercuria reverse 1999 into the mix bc idk i just like the (potential) dynamic between her and joe, although idk her that well (the wiki doesnt have her info either so...) and this isnt explicitly romantic but there is so-called tension. so
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Paper Cut has grown accustomed to the sound of foreign yet warm laughter. The flames that occupy the bonfire in front of him could only hope to rival such warmth. But the best thing about this kind of laughter is that sometimes, it would include his own. It’d make for a great journal entry and an even greater bandage.
“Leave it to J to get Dr. Cut of all people to leave his lil’ man cave.”
Another wave of laughter ensues, this time he joins in. He can’t deny the person’s claim - J’s siren call was the straw that broke the camel’s back. But he has no regrets; even with all the unfamiliar faces and voices, he feels like he’s finally home.
“Not that hard really. The dude just needed a little push.”
J  frequently shrugs off any mention of his effort to bring Paper Cut out of his shell easily. He’s a strong believer in the efforts Paper Cut himself made to get out there. It’s just a coincidence that the biker was there for him and his journey.
���A ‘little push’ is an understatement of the century.”
Mercuria’s comment prompts another round of unashamed laughter. At this point, Paper Cut has chosen to watch this little drama about him silently, metaphorical popcorn in hand. The next scene starts with J rolling his eyes and folding his arms.
“Okay, maybe I didn’t need to visit him every single day but–”
“And the fact that you’d pretend to be hurt specifically on Thursdays.”
“Thursdays are unlucky days for me! It’s not even pretend sometimes!”
“Pfft, sometimes.”
The laughter never seems to die down. That observation can be attributed to the fact that J being the center of attention – but he almost always is the center of attention, just how he likes his social interactions to be. But the best part is that he doesn’t even have to try. Paper Cut supposes that’s just how it is when everyone in the neighborhood knows your name and your game. But in a way, Paper Cut himself also garnered such a reputation.
Paper Cut’s job is to heal paper cuts and beyond. Even if he doesn’t believe it, his fame has been the consequence of his own choices. Not charging patients cash for medical services was and will always be what makes him infamous. It’d be abnormal if it was simply free but the strange charging fee of a piece of paper for every session would’ve been enough for people to call him crazy.
You can call him a quack all you want but at the end of the day, he gets the job done – this is what Joe thinks of his work ethics. Joe was more concerned that he wasn’t taking care of his own health. After all, the doctor can’t heal if he himself is sick, right?
“We got some hot cocoa, folks! J, help me pass it around.”
One of the unfamiliar faces announces and with his best service smile (which is his usual, ‘I-love-my-friends’ smile), J gives out warm mugs full of comfort.
Paper Cut mumbles a thank you and manages a small smile for J, which is reciprocated almost immediately. Just as quickly, Mercuria has to stifle the voice of the person sitting beside her before they could make things awkward for the two. That moment was enough to make her feel like she’s thirdwheeling so there’s certainly no need to add fuel to that fire.
Everyone there knows that there’s some kind of tension between the two (or at least, almost everyone - one guy insists that they’re simply “very close friends”). They’d rather not assume but they’ve grown somewhat impatient waiting for their friendship to eventually transform into a romance. And they have to admit, the two men make good in-group gossip material.
As soon as J is done with his arduous task, he plops down next to Paper Cut with a mug of his own, which he extends towards his seatmate. Paper Cut chuckles and clinks his mug with J’s to humor him. It works, as J lets out a satisfied laugh. But J is pleasantly surprised when Paper Cut moves to imitate him but with his own other seatmate, Mercuria, instead. And she also humors him.
Before long, the air is filled with that warm, foreign laughter again as people clink their mugs affectionately. Paper Cut closes his eyes, submerging himself in an orchestra of delight.
On that night, eternal bonds were forged.
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thinking about how fp had to learn to fight at such a young age to protect himself from his father and him even as a child trying to protect his mama from getting hit and all he ever knew growing up in that house was violence and how you needed to reciprocate it to survive and of course that carried out into the rest of his life where he was always quick to get physical when someone even looked at him weird because in his mind everything is a threat and its kill or be killed so of course hes going to swing first and then how hes so protective of fred and archie and anyone close to him or even just someone who cant fight for themselves fp will insert himself and defend them because he just cant sit by and watch someone be bullied or abused it reminds him too much of his childhood and of course this gives him the reputation of being a troublemaker and violent and he hates that because when other people say it they make it sound like he's like his father but he isnt theyre not fighting for the same things but sometimes it does feel a little too close for comfort...
SCREAMING AND THROWING UP!!!! 🤮
And then you add into that how one of fps most reliable cover stories for senior beating on him so bad he couldn't hide it was "i got into a fight..." 🥺 and sometimes he'd add on details to make it more realistic and that was easy to do bc he was just drawing from the violence he grew up surrounded by and the violence he saw and lived with every day... and this contributed to his reputation as a delinquent and a troublemaker and a bad, violent kid that would be a bad influence on good kids like Fred.... People were always asking why would he hang out with some guy who always came to school banged up from fistfights he started 🥺 and people would just go wild with the rumours and the things they'd say about him and then he couldn't escape this reputation and yeah some of it was true cuz like you said he had a quick temper cuz that's what he grew up with... But most of it wasn't true but he could never escape it 😖 and it weighed so hard on his psyche and contributed to so much of his self loathing bc he hated the parts of him that were like his dad 🥺
And when you said he absolutely cannot sit by and let someone be bullied or abused!!!! 😭 That's literally canon he has to go smashing heads to protect teenagers he is so so so sensitive from his upbringing to people picking on others who are defenseless 🥺 AND HIM AS A LITTLE BOY TRYING TO PROTECT HIS MOM FROM BEING BEAT PLEASEEEEE GOD 😭 he literally just wants to protect people from violence but the only way he knows how is with more violence and this is why he and fred are drawn to each other cuz freds such a pacifist 🥺 but sometimes it isn't enough in the real world and fps inserting himself into the role of freds protector 😭
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daveth-isnt-dead · 21 days ago
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Coalescence was so good!!!! I absolutely loved the story and how you wrote the relationship between Viktor and the MC. Since it was made obvious that she'll follow him to hell and back, how do you think she'd fit into the events of season 2? Would love to know your thoughts!
So sorry for the late reply! I wanted to get my thoughts together and give you something substantial. First of all, I'm so thrilled that you enjoyed Coalescence, i had such a great time writing it, i honestly havent written anything that quickly in a very very long time. It means a lot that so many people have liked it. So thank you. NOW! the question. part of the reason i didn't intend to write a sequel is actually because i was having such trouble trying to work out a satisfactory ending for the two of them with the direction season two goes in. im a sucker for a happy ending and it was almost impossible for me to find one, unfortunately, but here are a few ways i see it going. Under the cut because i talk a lot.
1. plot continues as normal, sky dies, attack on the council and MC, furious at Jayce's decision to use the hexcore despite viktor asking him not to, follows him to the commune. their relationship would be strange, she is still very much in love with him, but he's distant and unable to reciprocate the way he used to. given her disposition, i imagine that this actually makes her a little bit obsessive. she never gets the 'healing' treatment, because she knows it takes a lot of energy from him and she doesnt need it (shes lying, it's because she's afraid she wont love him the same way anymore lol). I like to think that she develops a weird sort of friendship with Jinx when they show up, i have some dialog for her and MC in my head that makes me laugh. Ultimately, Jayce shows up and kills viktor as normal (he definitely makes some sort of jab about her being viktor's pet because he is not himself rn) but cannot make himself kill her even though she begs him to. Likely because he knows she cant hurt anyone. Then when Ambessa shows up, she refuses to give up viktor's body and gets killed there because she just isnt a fighter. RIP MC. 2. If she's in the council room when the attack happens she pushes viktor out of the way, it's that simple. this idea probably has the least meat on it. i think viktor still gets very injured, but she would either die immediately or if i wanted to get very spicy, she gets to become the machine herald, how fun! i don't think i would go in this direction though, it's a bit too much of an AU for me, even though it is very fun to imagine. 3. unfortunately the true and canon ending for her most likely is that she gets eaten by the hexcore. i think having someone else who already knows about his augmentation would be enough to stop viktor from trying again without getting more shimmer. so sky gets to live (a victory, honestly, i love her) and then, when the attack on the council happens, the hexcore doesnt have enough power to heal viktor and MC realises this, at first feeding it some blood, some hair (maybe a tooth cause i think that would be yucky in a way i enjoy) but ultimately she realises that it isnt enough. asks jayce to tell viktor she loves him, and then lets the hexcore devour her. by this metric she would still be present for season 2, but only in the same way sky is. because im a sucker for a good ending, i keep toying with this idea that she somehow manages to get herself tangled in the anomaly and because she doesnt have a body anymore she ends up spread across all universes at once. mage viktor would be very surprised to see her, because i think this is the only universe that this has happened in lol. dunno how i would resolve this, but i would like her to find a way to help teleport jayce and viktor somewhere safe after the end of the series and then they can stay together! im possibly considering the nice AU that Ekko visits but logistics on that are confusing. this is all just rambling at this point, but im always cooking. gah, i talked a lot. i hope this made at least some sense, there's a reason im not actively writing a followup and it's that this is all still such a tangled mess in my head. if i figure it out im sure i'll write something. feedback on my mess of ideas is very welcome and thanks again for letting me know that you enjoyed Coalescence, i do have an unrelated viktor fic coming soonish, so keep an eye out!
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expfcultragreen · 3 months ago
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The main langley 711 closed but its whatever because they stopped making mojos and switched to shitty old wedges a few months back 😩
I actually sort of applaud whoever pulled the plug on forcing people to staff it, they were constantly being harassed by bitchy methheads
Which, no offense to methheads in general but, you know the problem people suck all the fun out of everything
That was a neighborhood 24 hour resource that kept getting shittier and is gone now, for brand integrity reasons i would guess
Like, it was rare there werent people camped out outside on the 711 lot or actively overdosing on the premises with firetrucks onsite, and most any night there were multiple active drug deals/a shooting gallery situation in the parking lot or by the dumpsters, plus whatever was happening inside with someone wanting/needing some kind of leeway and being stymied by capitalism etc
Its unclear why this sometimes happens to 711 other than, the people working there tend to be polite about it because theyre not highly regarded by the society that demands 711 either, and the people who go there habitually/camp out there, tend to focus on places that are open 24 hours because they cant go to dry shelters etc
So these businesses are often put in the position of operating in a capacity its not legal for them to operate in, (or else, making enemies in the local transient-and-wacky demographic thats attracted to certain locations for largely geographic reasons)....in order to pick up the slack left by these religiously affiliated anti-drug places that would rather people die than be housed while high
...on the topic of the transient-and-wacky demographic, if you want good advice about being cool with these people, you have to imagine that basically everyone theyve dealt with lately other than other homeless people, are essentially a faceless mass of judgemental calvinist douchbags who never cared about their wellbeing as fellow humans and demonstrably have evil/purely selfish values revolving around profit and a pyramid of enslavement and dont understand true humanism/fraternity/sorority/[any religion name here]/whatever, and every time you enforce some little procedure of whatever bureaucracy your workplace has, thats you assigning yourself evil
....which is exhausting on a long enough timeline even for people who get it, but also, are not social workers but ARE at work
But maybe we should all be taught social work skills instead of like, trig
Some of this stuff is easy for me because ive always been seeing evidence of a reciprocal balancing mechinism to linear reality (karma) ever since i started watching for it as a kid.....so im like, workplace protocol isnt as important as how i myself would want to be treated should i end up in their shoes...(never bought the myth that its personal failings that cause desperate circumstances, always saw how often people socially mob up and destroy the futures of people for petty reasons, could be anyone....cast out)
A big part of the problem is domestication; they dont know how to medicate their trauma other than drugs (for reasons; no money for therapy, no trust in therapy etc) BUT they paradoxically have largely-externally-cultivated resentment for everything about being anywhere they can get them (because theyre not remote diy producers, or colleagues of similar....maybe because they have 0 chill), ie the hostile aesthetics and ergonomics of public spaces and mainly, the people who functionally "fit" eg people who can get jobs and are earning money by flexing on them about where they can be, what theyre allowed to do
People who actively enjoy holding themselves above the people who've had the most damaging lives, entirely deserve their disdain.....but also, anyone who is even just avoidant in the wrong way reads as yet-another-one-of-Them....the authoritarians....the teachers, the stepdads, the nuns, the jocks, the librarians, the mallcops, the clerks, etc/whoever, the ones who've always been there to cast you out, poised to do it.....there are of course skids who actually dont have a problem with authority to a compulsive extent and are conventionally pleasant in demeanor, for the record....typically theyve been hurt first/worst by peers. Most skids are not having a good day when you meet them. (This is tongue-in-cheek understatement; my point is that people often hold visibly impoverished people to standards of decorum that only make imaginationland sense, to people who've never been unsheltered for long, never looked like "a vagrant" etc and might tend to take issue with the idea that its not some kind of choice, to just be "difficult" as a lifestyle....i guess for the thrill of risking being beaten to death by nazis for not being at work?)
And yeah at this point theres a counterculture of identification with being so defiant of a corrupt system in its dysfunction that its dysfunctional, like, it renders one unable to function.....imo/ime, thats trauma, when its creating loss of general functionality. We shouldnt be in such a rush to prove we're just as traumatized as anyone else or to valorize their/our own state of painful defiance, in spite of its paradigmatic righteousness, rationality, etc; the issue here is, we're in the unenlightenment when it comes to healing that pain. Some people say the best way forward is violent radical action, blabla, total rev eternal war yaddayadda....i dont think that leads us out of trauma, kids. I think we have to be like, ummm... corny about all this
Could we all just try voting progressive/lib for the gotcha one way or the other, just so everyone who said it wouldn't make a difference can really see if they were telling the truth, instead of tilting it in their own favor by not bothering and risking the kind of con wins we're bound to have a real blowsome time with, theyre like "we'll just use police to assassinate you all in raids and political prisons and blablabla" basically....its like the 1 reason to hate AI, the 1% might be using us to train our replacements
I have no idea what "basic human decency" is supposed to look like, as noted, there are many opposing views...do the 1% have "basic human decency"? Impossible, they havent abolished themselves already
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ao3feed-destiel-02 · 8 months ago
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love you enough for the both of us
read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/Zgsu372 by ijusthavealotoffeelings “What I want most isn’t sex, Dean. I want—I want you to love me. That’s my greatest desire. And you—you can’t give it to me, Dean. Not the way I want it. Not the way I love you.” The words are soft, vulnerable, and it feels as if the very room has been transformed into a homemade confessional, because this is Cas confessing his dearest secret to Dean—again, always again—and this is Dean on the other side, not knowing how to respond. Heart racing, Cas’s figure blurring with his tears. This is the bunker dungeon all over again, with death knocking on their door, and this is Cas dying, again, because Dean is too afraid to give him what he wants. OR Post-finale, after Jack rescues Cas from the Empty and brings him back to Earth as a human, Cas and Dean have yet to talk about his confession. Dean's avoidance of the subject was working perfectly—up until a routine hunt in which a witch curses Cas to die within 24 hours unless his greatest desire is fulfilled. Seems like they have some talking to do, after all. Words: 11569, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Series: Part 2 of post-finale but make it destiel Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Categories: M/M Characters: Castiel (Supernatural), Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Rowena MacLeod Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester Additional Tags: Post-Season/Series 15, Post-Canon Fix-It, Sort Of, Castiel is Saved from the Empty (Supernatural), this is what happens after - Freeform, oh god im so bad at tags, lets get the basics out of the way, Love Confessions, Dean Winchester Lives, look everyones alive in this ok, Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Happy Ending, as I am wont to do, I am physically incapable of writing sad endings, so fear not dear readers, First Kiss, First Time, Hand Jobs, Blow Jobs, uhh what else, absurd amounts of mediocre prose, Dean Winchester Loves Castiel, he just has trouble accepting it, Fuck Or Die, well its more like, love or die, magic spells i just totally made up, lots of hand wavy magic dont fucking @ me ok, the details arent important, Dean Winchester Has Internalized Homophobia, hes working on it, Human Castiel (Supernatural), Religious Imagery & Symbolism, Lets Play A Game Called, how much can i project onto dean winchester in one fic?, if you wanna get drunk then take a shot every time i insert unnecessary prose, ok these tags are getting ridiculous, i need to stop, the love is reciprocated theyre just idiots, the inherent eroticism of dean saying cas's full name, i really meant for this to be a porny one shot then it just got away from me, Feelings Realization, Porn with Feelings, maybe a little plot? but not really this is just dean and cas being happy and in love, as they should be, my headcanons for when cas pulled dean out of hell, dean deserves to be told how much he is loved, and cas deserves to be able to express his love, fuck it man this is my finale for these two, Dean Winchester Uses Actual Words, i know shocking isnt it, The Handprint (tm), veeeery sappy ending, dean referring to cas as his angel, which no cas is human in this but hes still deans angel fuck off read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/Zgsu372
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superpeanutgarden · 11 months ago
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Update on that one guy
so like?????
The reason that everyone thinks we're together isnt *just* because I'm all over him all the time.
This is a relief, I'm glad that it isnt just me being twitterpated or whatever. I'm also glad that I'm not imagining the fact that he likes me
I mean, I spent the night with him this weekend😏😏 so it's very clear that he likes me. It isn't romantic, but it doesn't have to be. Like, obviously it would be nice if he was in love with me also. BUT, I am super aware that my emotions are overly intense and I don't need perfect reciprocation. I just want to experience him, ya know??
(I got to experience him, and holy hell. We slow danced briefly in his kitchen and I kissed him desperately- greedily- and we fell asleep entwined with each other)
I just need to tell him that what he feels is enough. I don't want more.
I also ship him with one of our other friends. They look super cute together and I just think it would be neat, ya know??
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gh0stbabyyy-blog · 1 year ago
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today after class has made me realize im happy without you. im a peace without you. why would i want to be with anyone that is ok not talking to me? thats ok with me giving them the silent treatment? thats ok with me being mad at them? i want to be someone that doesnt want to be in a fight with me weather silent or loud. i want someone to be proud of me, and take interest in my day and my activities as much as i am in theirs. the same feelings are being reciprocated then im in a one sided relationship. besides doing right by your family in the financial way. you’re not there for me emotionally or physically. im alone. i feel like im growing as a person and your not growing with me. i feel like this is something you are choosing to do. you might love me because of the time we’ve spent together but you dont love me enough to listen to me when i say i need you. we’ve yelled, we’ve talked civilly, and now we dont talk but no matter what type of form of communication it is. it still not enough for you to understand. if in a relationship one person is growing and the relationship isnt. then there is no relationship. we’re supposed to grow together as dual and as individuals but i cannot grow when im constantly being let down and disappointed. i’ve gone through lots of emotional battles from never feeling enough for linda, manny and now you. you will always be my family but this is not ok. i can no longer fight for something that is no longer there. we are family and we need to work on trying to be friends.
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