#being told i'm a good person makes me feel iffy but also happy because of it 🦷

[nightzskii]

dont mind this post

looking at old tags the best i can

[doin-just-fine]

MAJOR UPDATE: Questioning systems or systems in a doubt spiral pls read.

I recently told my therapist about potentially being a system. This was a scary move because she has previously had some iffy takes about systemhood. But I told her because I trusted that she would meet me where I was at and help me navigate , at the least, the general idea of not understanding my own brain if nothing else which I was ok with. I told her and it went as expected. I explained why I thought I might be a system but also the doubts I had about it and how it was distressing me to not understand myself. She agreed to use the language I was using for it and was happy to help me through (as is her job) and also because whether it was systemhood or not it was something in me that was trying to be seen and we would work on figuring out what it was.

Fast forward a few session, and I was going through another bout of "what the fuck even is my brain". I was starting to realize that my "systemhood" is very different from the things I've been seeing online. In the ways that it's different to other systems is: - I'm always in the front, always in the captains chair - I have no amnesia because I never switch out - My hyper-vigilance never lets me dissociate fully though i definitely "check out" in my own way - Head mates just feel like vague ideas or emotions

But the ways that are similar are: - These vague ideas or emotions have opinions and feelings that are different from my own. - Though they are vague, I can definitely tell they are separate from what I have come to understand as "me" - I become "a different person" in the sense of my attitude, vibe, behavior, and opinions change from where they were 5 mins ago, but I am still me, just a different me.

Anyway, I was already trying to make sense of all of this and was not planning on talking about it with my therapist because nervous... However, my therapist ask me about it first. She asked some clarifying questions about my partners system vs my own and how they are different. When I explained what I just wrote above to my therapist she said "Thats what I thought and I owe you an apology."

Basically, my therapist, like any good therapist should when confronted by something they don't know a lot about, had been doing research on complex forms of trauma and coping. Things in the same vain as CPTSD and Plurality including those two topics. She had specifically been reading a book called "The Body Keeps The Score" (TW it is a book about trauma and studies of trauma so it has details of case studies that some people may find incredibly triggering). I did some research on what exactly the book was talking about in regards to "systemhood" and from what I've found, chapter 14 at the end of a section called "Writing to yourself" and the first parts of chapter 17 have interesting information regarding systemhood and how its not entirely limited to things that are diagnosable like DID or OSDD. It seems to talk about how we all have several selves and trauma can get in the way of those selves communicating effectively. My therapist told me about this book and what she learned from it and apologized to me because the book made her realize that she was wrong and that I was in fact a system....

The session ended and I just kind of sat there... not sure how to feel but definitely feeling relief and validation.

After doing research on the book to write this I have some words of wisdom. If you are a questioning system or are doubting your validity remember this: The human brain is so incredibly complex and no one actually understands how it does anything beyond its basic physical functionality... the conceptual abilities of our mind are a mystery. How we define self is just theory. If you don't fit into boxes, labels, identities, or diagnoses that does not mean your experiences aren't real. You are going to be ok. Understand YOUR mind and how it works for YOU, not through a label or diagnosis. If those things come later, great! Do not let them destroy you just because you don’t fit perfectly. I am a system. Simply. No types, labels, or diagnosis. I am a system. I have a unique experience because my brain is no one elses. I am a system. I may not have people in my head in the traditional sense but I'm also not alone up here either. I am a system. I am a system. I am a system. Nobody has the right to deny me this for they do not live behind my eyes.

As I understand myself: I am a system.

[ssadumba55]

Luigi, Flynn Rider, Nick Wilde & Naveen react to Bisexual!Reader

Request: Okay, so I like, just recently came out to you! I know that I'm anonymous for the request but I have some homophobic friends that are on here and I dont want them to know that it was me. :( I have a specific headcanon request since I came out today! Could you please write me a how Luigi, Flynn Rider, Nick Wilde, and Prince Naveen would react to you coming out as bi? Thank you in advance!

Special request that I got asked to do by someone. I know things are hard now, but trust me they won't always be and soon you'll find amazing people who support and love you for who you are! For now, hopefully this brings you a little joy! Wanted to get this done for pride month.

Luigi

Luigi doesn't have a mean bone in his body, if you came to him and confessed you were bisexual he'd be overjoyed he was the first one you told

And he'd do all the research he could, he's on the job don't worry

He will absolutely be your number one biggest fan, he is now an LGBT ally (he probably was one before but now doubly so), he is taking you to pride whether you like it or not

He would definitely help you plan out how to come out to other people in your life, yes it would be many steps, and yes he will support you the whole way

And he'd also support you in more subtle ways, like wearing pins or even just like comforting you if the whole sexuality thing is stressing you out

He is just really happy that you're choosing to be your authentic self

Flynn Rider

If this man isn't at least bisexual himself, he has good gaydar, so he might already have an inkling before you come to him

He's genuinely happy for you

Might make bi jokes, might ask you if you're into every person you pass on the street

He will try to turn this into a "so you're into me" thing, like it or not, he's going to assume you're into him (if you're not he will be very annoyed)

Will ask you dumb questions at all hours of the day, just to get a reaction

Probably has a little bi flag to wave around and annoy you

He is your biggest supporter though and he will gladly threaten anyone who doesn't respect your sexuality

Nick Wilde

Nick is the kind of guy who when you first tell him, he's already looking up pride events to go with you to

He knows what it's like to not feel like everyone else, to have something about you that you can't change that makes a lot of people iffy and he will spend a lot of time just reminding you that you're not valued any less because of your sexuality

He has so many bisexual stickers, pins, things just to show he supports you. Even has one for his police officer uniform.

Will play smash or pass with you if you ask him

I don't know why I just get the vibe that Nick like- buys pride stuff just because he thinks you'll like it. Every time he sees something bisexual or with the rainbow he's like "don't mind if I do."

Probably forgets you're bisexual every time you say you're into someone

Naveen

He doesn't really get the idea at first, but his first reaction would definitely be "as long as you're happy that's all that matters".

Once he wraps his head around it though, he absolutely is a huge supporter

Definitely an ally, and has definitely learned some queer songs to play on his ukulele

He loves a big event so he will absolutely attend pride with you and he will bring his ukulele. And he'll joke about upstaging you at your own event (but you don't care as long as he's having fun!)

If someone maybe isn't supportive, he definitely gets very upset on your behalf but he will also comfort you very well.

He truly believes that everyone should be who they want to/are capable of being and he thinks you're very brave to be who you are

And you can't tell me he wouldn't buy you pride related things just to see you smile!

[emeritus-fuckers]

For the ministry role event rerun!

1. I would say I'm likely to be a ghoul because I'm in a way a pack person? I tend to want to form strong bonds with a small amount of people and being in a small pack seems like my kind of thing.

2. I feel like I'm drawn to more Terzo or Copia. I'm not honestly sure why but they seem more a little laid back and my kind of people to work with. I feel maybe more Copia though because I don't think I could handle myself with trying to work with Terzo and any compliments and flirting.

3. I'm a big ol' introvert haha. I hate speaking in front of a large amount of people. I'm more somebody who wants to have a set few close friends to hang out with. When speaking with somebody I honestly try to avoid eye contact because it just doesn't feel right to me.

4. Dishes. I despise doing dishes and refuse to do them. Laundry is something I more like to do. Laundry is simple and I like to sort through everything a certain way.

5. It really depends honestly. There's a lot of places I'd love to travel but I also want to stay in a cozy space at home. I've always told myself that I just want to get an RV and travel the world. It just simply makes the most sense to me.

6. I'm somehow am Animal magnet and don't understand how, but I love most animals. I'm iffy on Reptiles but I adore rats. I lean being more a dog person honestly. There are some days where I just don't want to do anything and have lazy days and I like people who allow themselves to have lazy days.

This post is part of the 1000 followers Role in ministry event. Entries for the event are now closed.

Your role in the ministry is...Wardrobe Manger at the Ministry under Papa Emeritus IV

At the ministry it's mainly looking after Copia's robes and the Papal regailia, other Papas robes and the Cardinals robes. After a tour however you have to sort through all of the Ghoul's stuff.

You wash the costumes but also see to their upkeep and just generally keeping everything organised.

You also get to spend time with Copia's rats. He's happy for you to hang out with them whenever you like and the rats adore you.

Normally get your work done then go and see the rats. You also hang out with Copia during this time.

He's a really good boss, as long as the work gets done he is very laid back, you keep your own hours and get breaks whenever you like. You, him and the Ghouls are a tight knit group. You've become very close with them and the Ghouls treat you as one of the pack.

Some of the Ghouls like to keep you company while you work. But only if you want them too, they know how introverted you are, so they are very careful not to overwhelm you.

Copia offers for you to join them on tour to help with wardrobe, it's totally up to you. He knows you want to travel but he also knows you like being at home. He says you would get your own bunk on a tour bus which would be your private space.

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Written by Nyx

[weebsinstash]

Hey I know this might be uncalled for and idk much about anything, but I found the last post in your personal blog talking about your trip kind of alarming. It sounds like you’re putting a lot of effort to an important friend, but from your posts, the entire situation just seems fishy. I’m sorry if I sound rude, I’m just concerned because you mentioned the other friend won’t make it and you’ll be alone with this guy far from home, and he doesn’t have any plans to take you around (which a lot of times, hanging out and sight-seeing doesn’t really require money, if any at all). I really hope that if you decide to go you’ll have an amazing time but at this point, but I’m afraid you’re kinda setting yourself up for disappointment? And I really hope I’m not rude by saying this. Again, you’re putting a lot of care and money into this trip so at this point you should think twice and consider going somewhere else and have fun by yourself.

I was wondering why you would ask over here but then I suddenly remembered I turned off anon on my main blog ages ago so that's on me 💀 you aren't being rude dont worry haha, its nice to know people care enough about me to express concern

For context for you guys who just know me over here, I recently reconnected with an old online friend I knew like 9 years ago and he kind of just invited me up for a visit with him and another online friend i knew during the same time period who also lives in his area on a whim because, life is short, the pandemic has been hell, people have died and drifted apart and all that, and I was really happy because he used to be a big pillar of support for me back in the day (the other friend too) and I thought "hey, taking a trip could be really good for me, im already super depressed lmao" but being invited up quickly turned into 1. Other friend can't make it 2. I have to provide my own lodging aka paying for motel which is expensive 3. He doesn't drive so I have to be taking a rideshare service to travel like 6 miles to his place and back to my hotel 4. I knew he was, earning a scholarship and such but he dropped on me today after I've already scheduled everything that he's been a full time student with no income so like, we really won't even be able to do basic shit like go out to eat or see a movie unless I pay for everything and that's on top of already spending like $1k on traveling and the motel alone

My mom is trying to talk me out of going and, I will be honest and say I'm really upset with his communication. He invited me in a really sincere way but this entire process has been a nightmare. Like I figured since I'm, you know, having to pay for a passport and travel to Canada, that we would be able to like sightsee and maybe check out the local food and try poutine but the only activities he has suggested so far is hiking (which is fine that sounds fun) and idk listening to music on subwoofers in his room in the house he shares with like 3 other men and doing shrooms. Like dude I love this guy like a brother but he really kind of should have told me he was quote "extremely poor" before I shelled out the cash to take 8 days out of my schedule, two of those which I'm going to be travelling the entire day, literally my departure day is gonna be 4am to 7pm nothing but travel and similar on the day back

But also like. He was there for me a lot of the times I needed it when I was younger, he supported me and did nice things for me, so I feel I owe him even if I didn't want to go, which I do like trust me I still want to see him. Yeah this isn't ideal but, it could still be something really good for the both of us. I trust him not to be creepy with me and you know, he's been through some really hard stuff too (for you followers over here, he is the same friend I mentioned the other day who basically lost use of his dominant hand in a work accident). Yeah it seems kind of iffy now but I could go and have a great time. And if not, if we don't click, and it's super awkward, then yeah I'm going to be extremely hardcore depressed by myself in a foreign country but I'll have my own hotel room so I can have my own space and do my own things until I crawl back home. I'll actually be in the Niagara Falls/St Catharines area of Ontario so, I figure, if I'm forced to make the best of a bad situation, there should be plenty of opportunities by myself due to the tourism :)

But yeah I'm still really nervous and I'm disappointed and anxious about this trip and I still have to pay for my passport and this is kind of coming at not the best time but,, I'm looking forward to this and so is he so, I think everything will be OK. And if not then I'll be super heartbroken and never want to trust anyone again because no one else will be familiar with me and accept me the way he has and if i don't have that then I might as well not even exist lol :)

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random thoughts about castaway diva, episode two

(read more because i always get carried away lol and this post might contain spoilers)

i'm going to preface this by saying i'm contradicting myself a lot in what you're going to read next but that's because i'm writing my comments as i watch the episode. so, when the show explains something that seems nonsensical at first, i'm going back on my words ^^'

the title of this episode (coincidence v fate) is intriguing. I think ki ho is one of the two brothers. I don't know which one yet but I really hope it's not woo-hak because his actions are in contradiction to what he's done when a teenager.

He wants to be a reporter but he chooses to publish mok ha's story when his brother, bo geol, rightfully told him not to do so because it'll attract public attention and mok ha is trying to adjust to the world after being alone for 15 YEARS.

From what i've seen, bo geol is more probably ki ho because he's more considerate towards her and seems to respect boundaries. He's also more polite and kind.

I'm sorry but kang woo hak can not be ki ho. I don't think he'd have changed that much in 15 years. I think that, even though ki ho changed his identity and pretended to be someone else, he'd still have that gentleness and compassion in himself. Which is why i'm leaning more towards be geol being ki ho. It makes more sense to me.

Or maybe ki ho will appear further down the line? I don't know.

Yeah i'm sure ki ho is not woo hak. There can't be any explanation that would change my mind. If he does end up being ki ho, I will riot! That's for sure.

They're planting the seed that woo hak is ki ho by the recurring "and then?". It's a nice detail, but i'm still iffy about him being ki ho.

This episode has left me confused more than anything.

I hope we'll see more mok ha & bo geol interactions so there is more suspense.

Just thought about it but woo hak being very close with his father could be another indicator that he's ki ho. He's never had a bond with his biological father so he wants to do that with his "new father".

On the flip side, if bo geol is ki ho, it's understandable that he seems more distant with his father. He's never had a good relationship with his dad so he has a harder time sharing an emotional connection with him. Hence why he's on his mom's side a lot of the time.

But also, woo hak is someone who pinpoints the importance of planning ahead for the future, something teenage ki ho has done by saving money to escape from his father.

I don't like this show because I sense a headache coming...

"If you keep worrying, you'll just end up with as many regrets down the road" Mok ha is regretting she didn't agree to go meet ran joo in seoul sooner. If she had done so, she might not have ended up on that island. The dilemma was difficult though because her father's presence was a heavy burden on her shoulders. Just like i said in my post for episode one, he destroyed her life and dreams so it's understandable she refused to go to seoul. She was scared and thought that maybe if she stopped wanting to be a singer, her father would calm down. Unfortunately, alcoh*lism is something that has an impact on the person that drinks and the people around them.

Throughout this episode, it was easy to notice how mok ha's personality and mindset hasn't changed at all. I mean, she spent fifteen years alone on a deserted island with no one to talk to. She kept herself company and seeing as she hasn't been influenced by what happened in the world, it's natural for her to be the same as she was when she arrived on that island more than a decade ago.

On that note, I'd like to say park eun bin is doing a wonderful job at being out of place/a foreigner to the world around her.

I'm just happy that mok ha learned from her past mistakes and will do whatever she wants to do. She's growing in front of our eyes.

The whole dodeok performance moment gave me so many feelings. Seeing yoon ran joo fall in disgrace from the public eye, resulting in her drowning her sorrow in cig*r*ttes and alc*h*l. But, even then, there's still someone by her side: seo mok ha. She kept her enthusiasm. She's a yoon ran joo fangirl. She proved it by giving balloons to everyone and asking them to cheer the singer on. She's a devoted fan and she made the impossible possible: impressing everyone with her singing skills and making her favorite singer shine.

I sense a strong bond forming in the future between the two women. I see them helping each other in many ways. I just can't wait to see more of ran joo and mok ha together.

I don't know if this is park eun bin singing but wow she sure does have an amazing voice 😍 edit: i checked and it is her singing voice. What a nice surprise!

before i end up this post, i'd like to apologize because i've been going back and forth in the comments i made on who might be ki ho. It's just that woo hak being ki ho makes sense but at the same time it doesn't. I'm waiting for the next episodes to see what happens.

Once again a great episode, so i'll give it a 9.5/10

[queer-as-frikc]

My coming out story is weird, it gets a lil transphobic so tw near the end tw long post too

So, pretty much throughout my time growing up through elementary school and half of middle school, i grew up in a white middle class area. I didnt know about the LGBTQ+ or anything other than what I saw, which was white people and an occasional poc. Eventually I had to move and I ended up in a super diverse area, and ended up becoming best friends with this person (they are ftm now so imma use the right pronouns but they were f when this story mostly takes place) he told me all about things I didnt know, specifically the LGBTQ+ community and that he was pan, and it was new information so just like any 13 year old learning new things, I questioned myself, I questioned if I could like the same sex or not or possibly more.

Sadly, drama happened between my best friend, his girlfriend and I, so thing got a little weird. But there was a time in winter, when he was off that relationship for more than a month and he said he'd like to date me, and I really thought about it before hand and said yeah, I couldnt tell you how happy I was to have this experience.

I told my mom that night, in a round about way cuz I was nervous, "Hey mom, what if I liked girls?" She told me she doesnt think that I do, because I always expressed feelings for guys, and when I tell her I didnt really understand what being gay was when I was younger, I didn't really know it was a possibility. She snapped at me and said, "Unless you are willing to kiss a girl and do the other stuff, you arent gay at all."

Eventually I have a sit down conversation with her, about how confusing this all was and how I wish I knew how I felt, and so on. She said she had a similar questioning phase but it never stuck so she doesnt think I am.

Like a month later I figure it out and dude that was so gratifying. I came out as bi to my mom, who just dismissed the whole thing, but I was terrified to tell my uncle (it's a long story about that, no it's not "sweet home Alabama") because he always said bi's were wh*res so yeah. I ended up telling him, and he goes, "You know my opinion on it but that doesnt mean that I'll disown you or anything." Btw the relationship (dating wise) with my best friend after he came out as ftm because he went back to his ex, it's all cool tho.

So that was that, or so I thought. It was my first year of high school, and I finally really understood the definition of pan, what was holding me back though was the trans experience, I thought because I didnt know what it was like, I couldnt be pan, even though I didnt have a preference, turns out it just means you like people no matter their gender and it like, clicked finally so yeah. I've told my family about that since but I a similar reaction: my mom said she doesnt think I am and she lectured me on my generation having so many labels and how she hated it. My uncle said he appreciated that I was pan more than me being bi which confused me but he just had a better view of pansexual than bisexual. (I explained to both of them what the difference was but idk man)

I believe it was my second year of high school when I really started to question my gender, and that was mostly because I saw a video of what gender dysphoria looks like if it's not that strong and you arent aware for ftm. So like wearing bagging clothes all the time, always wearing sports bras, and practically no other bra, feeling really good if someone accidentally calls you sir, etc. And I was like, oml it's me. But it wasnt, I didnt find that out until later tho. So, with my friend group, I find a name that seems to fit me well and ask them to address me by it and he/him pronouns, as like a test of sorts. (All of my friends are gay in some way so it was cool) In the end tho, I got a little iffy about the whole thing and wouldnt ever correct them at times or it was just off for me. I felt really bad because I thought that they might have thought that I was just trying to force myself to be more like them, but I wasnt, i still felt bad though and kinda dropped it.

I'm not sure 100% how I figured it out tho, but I remember talking to my best friend (not the same one from middle school, they were my best friend as well but they arent the same person) about the whole experience and I believe they brought up the idea of genderfulid, and I was like :0.... what that. They explain it, you go aall over the gender spectrum, some days you might feel like a boy, others you might feel like you have no gender, some days you might feel like your gender is something completely weird and different, that's just what it is. And I was like, "It fits but like, I barely feel femme at any point in time, maybe like once a year." And they tell me, that's ok and stuff as long as my gender just decides to be a completely weird and went all over the place, it counted, so I was like, "I finally figured it out!!!" And i was so happy.

Then came the time I was comfortable enough to tell my parents. I had been using the label genderfuild for over half a year already and I thought that it was what I was so it was ok to tell them. I saw how ok me being gay went, so I was nervous but not as nervous as I should have been, probably. I told my mom first, she went on a similar rant of her no liking my generations labels and such, but it went fine, I explained it, I thought I was through, I thought I was fine, apparently not. One day I'm in the shower and I hear my mom being very expressive with what ever shes talking about to my uncle, which is fine, she needs someone to vent to sometimes. When I get out though, and I can here her clearly, I hear sees complaining about what I told her recently, that I'm genderfulid, but instead of saying that, she only says I want to be a boy. (Oh no) So shes complaining to him, asking why I cant be more like her and just be a masculine girl and be fine, why do I have to fit in with the crowd of my generation to feel special, why cant I just be fine with who I am now? Etc.

The sad thing is, that night, I was going out shopping for pants and underwear with my uncle because I needed some and I wore men's pants already at that point, because they are more durable, and stuff so I knew it was gonna be a long ride. My mom was snippy with me that whole night, just the entire time which sucked.

When we finally left to go get clothes though, I didnt know it could get worse. My uncle lectured me about how that's just my generations fad, and how his was making tattoos and piercings ok in the work place and mine is being trans a gay and all that crap, and that I'm just trying to fit in, I'm not being myself, no matter how much I chop myself up and cut my hair and take hormones my chromosomes will never change and so I can never be an actual guy. He also said that I would bring just more attention to myself being a woman who does guy things rather than try and be one, and he thinks I'm doing this all for attention. I was mad but silent at this point, I didnt want to cause anything to happen. He ended up asking me, "So did you pick a different name?" I was surprised but I said yeah, and my friends were using it and it seemed to fit better. He asked me what it was and fear over took my body. I told him, "I'll only tell you if you dont use it against me if your mad." He says, "i cant promise that." And then gets mad because I wont tell him. Though I do, because I feel obligated since hes buying me clothes. To be even more confusing, he buys me guys underwear, and undershirts along with the predetermined pants he promised me and now I'm so confused.

But it gets even worse. When we get home, my mom freaks out on him because be bought me all that mens stuff and she said he was encouraging my behavior and stuff, he defended with it's just clothes, and yah it is. Eventually things settle down, obviously my mom isnt talking to be, but that's for the best at this point. I'm in the living room with my uncle and he just then starts harassing me with questions like, how do you know? he asks. "Well, I just feel that way, same as you." I say. But why do you wanna be a guy? he asks. "I dont wanna be a guy, it's just weird that way. Also it's not me being a guy, it me being many more than that," I say. He says that's bullsh*t. I offer to show him videos that better explain what trans is and how it's an actual sciencey thing and stuff but he said he wont take a video because he wants me to say it. And then he just goes off, saying the name I picked out shows how self centered I am because I am selfish, he kept asking me if i liked to fight, to catch and play with bugs, to be strong, to be angry all the time, and all these stereotypes for men and I just left, and went to bed. He wasnt going to listen to me, so there wasnt a point to me staying.

But, it gets worse. The morning comes and I'm awoken by the slam of my door by my uncle and the laughter of my mom. My uncle starts being really aggressive and starts cleaning my room, I only have clothes on the floor mostly so that's all it was, but he starts saying, well if you're gonna be a man, imma start training you like one, the man of the house picks up after everyone, the man of the house does everything he can to help the house run smoothly, the man of the house has to be strong, and all that stuff. (Which I thought was funny because he was "the man of the house" yet I did everything, and still do. I clean up most after him, funny huh.) And, I know what's happening and so I stay in bed, I don't want this to happen. But I literally get ripped out of my bed by my uncle and get told to stop being a little b*tch and a brat because I'm being selfish by my mom and I'm yelled at to sit in the living room and wait while my uncle cleans my room. When hes done hes starts lecturing me and being all aggressive and in my face. He keeps asking me a million questions with the tone that he didnt care so I knew he wouldn't listen. Eventually, him and my mom leave, I'm told to stay there until I get back. When they do get back, they act like everything is fine, nothing happened between them and I and it's just been so hard for me to talk to them about that since.

I'm greatful that I dont have to deal with that anymore but every time something that that is brought up with my family, I panic so much now. I'm fine and I'm safe but it was very traumatic for me. And uh, thanks for listening.

hey, thank you so much for sharing your story. this was just. so heartbreaking. noone deserves to have a person like your uncle in their life. im so sorry you had to go through all of that. i hope you’re in a much better place now <3 (also i loveeddd reading about how you figured it out) =)

again, tysm <3

[ultrahamilham]

You tagged me in a thing and I had a stroke, bless you

I get all Pikachu meme whenever I see you in my dash and you've referred to me and acknowledged my existence because it is literally the best thing ever, I have a mini stroke every time

Three ships: Jamilton, Jamilams and Jamilmads (would've said lams but then it just sounds like I'm saying the same ship in three different ways lol)

Last song: Uhh, I don't listen to music much, but Ultimately by Khai dreams

Last movie: The Hunchback of Notre dame

Currently craving: Sushi, oddly enough (I haven't had it in about nine years but still, want)

Currently reading: The Da Vinci code, and about five different fanfictions

About a very late answer to your question (My family has COVID, which is shocking to hear, or so I'm told, but they're recovering and they fortunately had a mild case and no one has any history of disease so they're going to be okay! That's what the doctor said and I'm praying), Taco hell made me laugh really hard when I read it and really lifted my spirits because I remember being in not a great place when I started it but it made me smile which was like, a thing for me, and don't judge me but I think The three way was probably my favourite and I don't want to think about what that says about me but it was really because I love works that are that long (around 50k is always my sweet spot). I'm not sure if I'm remembering right and I'm so so sorry if I'm getting the title song wrong but that one Jamilton fic with uh, Gucci and fendi in the title was really fun to read ;-;

I also remeber the first work of yours I ever read was this comfort Whamilton around 1.5 or 2k where it starts raining and Alexander is on edge but George comforts him- Okay, I'm ranting now, apologies. ;-; (idk You're super cool and I want to talk to you like, normally, but you'll hateee me and I don't want that and so here)

I never really get a chance to respond as soon as I'd like, BUT I never get to and if you don't want to know/care about my life- please skip to the next paragraph thank you. So, I did end up watching Snowpiercer! I watched all ten episodes in one day which is iffy to say the least, but I'm still alive! I did love it. And I've been alright- a bit anxious with everything, but I've been giving my tests and uni and stuff. Yesterday, I was about to go to the vet when u realised about two minutes into the ride that I forgot my dog so that was embarrassing. Almost competing with the time I dropped my phone and then followed it, dropping to my knees and immediately bursting into tears (Nothing even happened to my phone!). So if you read this, thank you again.

I wanted to ask how you were doing too! If you don't mind xxx

And as for the fanfic writer asks, would you mind answering 50 ;-;

Wgjfvqkcwkh also I heard about you and Henni getting married so CONGRATULATIONS that is the most amazing, sweetest thing and in honestly so f*cking happy for both of you. I audibly awwed when I saw that post and I can't believe I just remembered.

I'm so sorry this got out of hand with how long it is, I didn't mean for it to be ;-;

-shy anon, sincerely apologising for possibly ruining your day by oversharing and/or overstepping (also with love and congratulations for you and her)

I get the surprised pikachu face whenever you show up in my ask box ;-; It always makes me happy!!!

Okay but sushi is always good. The craving comes randomly for me as well. I didn’t crave it at all when I used to make it for a living, because I got so tired of it, but now I crave it every once in a while lol it’s really good ;-;

I really hope everyone is doing okay! COVID is scary and it’s no joke. Having it before was horrible for me and I would never wish it on anyone. I hope everyone including you is okay ;-;

I’m glad Taco Hell did what I was meaning for it to do! It’s meant to be lighthearted and make people laugh. It’s based off of my life and it’s actual situations I end up in all the time. It’s quite amusing lol

I would never judge you. The Three Way is literally the one fic I am most proud of. I could never judge you. I literally go back and read it every once in a while and go like “I made that... Holy fuck...”

Oh! Gucci Not Fendi is the title. I’m glad you liked it!!!

Rant all you want! I adore that Whamilton fic ;-;

Seriously, my dear, I can promise you that I won’t hate you at all. Believe me, I really won’t. I’m probably the most awkward and annoying person anyone will ever know and I overshare like everything. People know more about me than they really should.. Lol

I care about your life, I was the one that asked you to tell me! But honestly, snowpiercer was soooo good... Like I tried to binge it all in one day but I was trying to write as well and it didn’t go over well lmao, snowpiercer ended up winning! I’m really glad you watched it!!!

That whole forgetting your dog thing is a mood. Today I forgot to turn on the food heaters and I realized it right before it was too late. Almost lost $200 worth of meat... Oops... Lmao

I do that with my phone if I drop it even if it’s okay. I just freak the fuck out and cry before I know if there really is an issue

Also I’m doing good! I decided to just lay back and relax tonight so I’m having a few drinks and I’m gonna watch random shit lol I was up for 33 hours the night before last and slept for 15 hours after. I can’t recommend doing that, especially not when you’re like 24. I’m too old for that shit.

Hell yeah I can do 50! I will give you a sneak peak at the 3rd part of the three way... .-. It will be posted on Oct 19th!!!

Here it is. This is seriously NSFW lol:

Alexander looked down at Thomas and ran the fingers of his free hand through Thomas' hair. He licked his lips as he watched Thomas work his tongue expertly inside George. "You're such a good boy Thomas, you're already wrecking him." He purred. 

Thomas let out a low moan and kept up the work, getting a little more aggressive. Alexander could feel himself getting hard in his pants at the sight coupled with George's shameless moans. Alexander looked back at George's face and grinned a bit. "Are you proud of us, Daddy?" He asked. 

George pressed his forehead against the headrest and panted as Thomas wrecked him. He tried to push back against Thomas to no avail. "Fuck… Y-yes… Yes you two did so good… Please… Please do as you wish… Whatever you choose, do it… I will take whatever you give me, you de-deserve it…" George bit out desperately.

Alexander grinned in delight at that. He looked at Thomas who looked just as excited from what George just said. He then touched Thomas' shoulder. "Alright, that's enough babe. I'm going to stretch him, then we can give him a good spanking. Why don't you undress for me? I have a little treat for you." He purred.  -END of the preview.

Thank you so much! We are so freaking happy that it’s happening. We were planning it more today! It’s so amazing ugh.

I appreciate it all the same! It’s not too long for me at all!! Don’t you worry my dear <3 you didn’t overstep at all!

[just-a-judgmental-frisk-here]

About ReplayTale

(Name for it is iffy could use help with it lmao)

Okay, so basically after going through 13 genocide runs one after an other, Frisk has kind of absorbed some monster magic. Specifically, the blue magic that Sans uses in his battle against the player *cough cough Frisk cough cough*

Due to the magic, Frisk's soul is not the one of DETERMINATION. It is the one of Integrity, the dark blue one.

As the actions of the past affect the future, Frisk then goes through an entire timeline without falling down, being a sort of apathic kid who only cares about peace in humanity. Their father was a judge, with a yellow soul, and taught them about Justice. Their mother had a Kind spirit, a green soul.

While Frisk may not know how to use their powers in this 'Surface timeline' but they can see what type of soul any given person has. Then...insecure Chara moves in the neighborhood, killing all Frisk's family.

Due to Frisk having the soul of Integrity, they set out for revenge because they didn't feel while anymore.

Chara's soul, which Frisk thought was weird as they had never seen a black soul before, wasn't even theirs. Dr. Gaster had handmade that specific soul for Chara to be his puppet.

In reality, Chara was an attention grabber. Always seemed to have it, or need it. Maybe it's because of Aserial ignoring her entirely, maybe not.

Frisk at this point had become the Judge. Not at court, but they would judge them anywhere. School, home, at the store. If they didn't seem peaceful to them, they would know it.

But, Gaster still had control of Chara. One look at Chara soul told Frisk that it wasn't natural. Frisk goes up to Chara, who's crying over Aserial, and puts their hand right where Chara's soul was. They absorbed all of the Gaster badness- right into their own soul.

Frisk felt that until all was peaceful, they world never be themselves again. As in not being the Judge of human souls. Good and bad.

Frisk, however, remembered the underground. So they reset the game, and make sure that they fall down. Which they do fall down.

Flowey is actually depressed. He refuses to try to kill you, no matter how much you insist. All he wants is to feel normal. But he can't. You feel his pain.

Toriel is more trusting of Frisk, and will let them out of the Ruins, with a trusted friend.

Who none other than Sans to be that buddy? He's kind of scatterbrained this timeline. He catches Frisk's attention as Sans is the judge of this world.

Papyrus is nowhere to be seen, as you learn from Sans. You hate seeing Sans like this, and the entire point of each timeline you run is to save each character that disappears.

Undyne and Alphys hate each other during Papyrus's disappearance, because they each blame the other for the disappearance.

Mettaton is a malfunctioning robot not of Alphys's creation but of Gaster's. If you find him, talk to him. If not able to, talk to Sans about it. You and him have shared nightmares every now and then.

Asgore and goat mom were never married. Never had kids. Ever.

You brought Flowey and Chara into this universe.

Speaking of that demon child...she's clingy af. Needs attention, and also when not possesed by Gaster, mainly speaks in poems.

Monster kid thinks that you are an adult, and does not follow you into Waterfall. Only way he'll follow you is if Chara is following you. (she always is)

Napstablook is kind of a secret shop keeper. If you bug him enough, he'll give you instructions on how to use the magic, that you have.

You don't care about home. All you care about is saving Papyrus (he's in the void Gaster stole him), making Sans happy, and making yourself feel whole again.

Speaking of Sans...his outfit is a cyan hoodie, reflecting his soul of Patience, dark blue shorts and grey/gray slippers. I can't draw shit, but I did draw Frisk and Chara.

(P.S. frisk is totally trying to hide their feelings for sans through the entire game)

And...thanks for listening to my Ted Talk. I am excited to see where this will go. I'll draw others later. I'm writing a book about it on Wattpad, so here it is!

Now time for my surprise attack!

@june-the-lonely @undertale @undertale-over-the-void @undertalethingems @undertaleheadcanons @undertale-shitposts @friskiing @friskd @friskdraws @friskdreemurr00 @friskdreemurr123 @friskdreemuurr @friskyfrisk55689 @punmastersansbones @partyofthree-au @papyrussuggestions @papyrusthegreatskelenton @asksansandfriskchibi @ask-glitch-and-squid @ask-dreamswap @ask-skull-quartet @askblueberrymuffin @charadreemurr @charadreemurrofficial @deeeepiyuuu @dreemurr-reborn @dreemurr-skelememer @flowey-answers @flowey-daily @floweytxt @floweyaskblog @napstabiook22 @notsafefromchara @napstamuse @napstablookoftheday @blookiisms @determination-from-undertale @determinationful @deltarune @deltarunedyke @deltarune--kris @absolutedream-undertaleart @aserialdreamer @aserial-murderer @asreeldreemurr @mercygivingfrisk @my-verte-bae @mettatoniic02 @mettamania @mettatonfantasies

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[secretagentspydetectiveninja]

this is a weird question but what's it like being aroace? I'm writing a story and i'm hoping to include more diversity but as I've had no experience w these kinda things I'm trying to ask around to get more knowledge (I've been doing the same thing w my trans/nb friends! Sorry!)

Hey no worries, feel free to ask away, it’s really awesome that you want to include more diversity in your writing! If you ever want to IM me here or on discord or wherever if that makes it easier then go ahead.

Uhh as for what it’s like, obviously it’s going to be different for every person so be sure to ask around, but in my experience it sometimes feels like people are being very arbitrary with their actions? Things like flirting or actively trying to pursue someone romantically, to me it feels a bit like “...okay but why though??” I don’t even dislike romance, it’s just that sometimes it seems kinda... random I guess.

It does make listening to most pop songs unrelatable, though, and even though I sometimes like romance in fiction I seem to have a lower tolerance for it than most people I know. (And I can’t even tolerate smut at all. There’s the ace part for ya!) And as you get older you’re reminded how different things are for you, with people constantly talking about their SO’s and asking you when you’ll get one. I’ve seen other people mention an analogy - a world where everyone keeps going on and on about a certain perfume but you just can’t smell anything unusual at all and wonder what they’re on about or what’s wrong with you - yeah, I’d say it’s kinda like that.

OH, and ever since I was little, I always kept latching onto characters and deciding that they’re uninterested in romance and sex (well before I even knew what being aromantic and asexual was). You know Treasure Planet? At first I was heartbroken that they cancelled the sequel, until I found out they’d been planning to give Jim a love interest in the sequel, and suddenly I was quite jarringly relieved, because why?? would he need or want a love interest?? he’s Jim Hawkins!! Why would you ruin his personality with a love interest??? that’s so unnecessary??? (See? Aroace headcanon right there, lol)

And I thought I had crushes in school, but I picked them. Like, if someone asked me then I would just pick the most good-looking person I knew. Or if a friend said they had a crush on someone, and I didn’t think the person looked totally awful, then I would say I had a crush on them too. Honestly, I thought it was normal to do that, I thought having a crush was thinking someone was cute-looking, and that people were making up the romantic/sexual attraction bits to sound more grown-up ;_;

Also, I think non-aroaces don’t really see this side of things, but people get really aggressive with the amatonormativity, it’s that ingrained. I mean, my parents literally outright told me they’d rather I was gay than aroace when I explained things to them. And “friends” have harassed me when I came out as ace, I’ve been told basically everything on those “what NOT to say to aro/ace people” lists right to my face, been pressured into lying about things because people won’t take no for an answer, my family don’t believe me at all and constantly try to convince me I’m wrong. (Except my brother, you rock dude!) It’s not something that non-aroaces are aware of because it doesn’t directly affect them, so it’s easy to understate the amount of overall abuse, gaslighting and erasure that’s faced by aros/aces. Unfortunate but true ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

And on top of all that, you know that when people say “of course I consider friendship just as highly as romance!” deep down, they probably don’t actually mean it, lol. Subconsciously most people do indeed place a higher value on romance than friendship. It’s much easier to notice when you’re aro.

One last thing... I hate soulmate AUs. There, I said it! They rub me the wrong way, even when you’re including the whole “but soulmates can be platonic too!” thing. It just feels... iffy.

Okay that was all probably an incoherent wall of text, sorry about that! If you’ve got other questions or more specific questions I’m happy to answer those to the best of my ability! I hope things go well! (And I hate to shamelessly plug my own fic, but I was writing No Romo for Aro/Ace August and it’s not done yet but it’s the most aroace thing I’ve written, hehe, it’s probably a better glimpse into The Life Of An AroAce than this will ever be)

[thatsjustsupergirl]

Random but I'm still peeved about the Alex/Kara argument in 2.02. Especially the part where Alex claims to have given up a career in medicine to protect Kara. I mean, I'm not sure if that's bad writing or Alex IC blatantly ignoring reality because Alex was not gonna graduate due to academic probation plus she was in jail for at least public intoxication if not a DUI (I can't remember if she got arrested before putting the keys in the ignition or not). 1/

She wasn’t exactly ‘days away’ from graduating med school or anything. Now Alex may have taken the job with J'onn to protect Kara but I’m pretty sure J'onn made the offer to throw a lifeline to a drowning Alex not to protect Kara. But the whole protect-Kara angle really doesn’t hold water since Alex didn’t give Kara even an ounce of potentially life-saving information that she learned at the DEO. Nothing about Kryptonite or secret anti-alien agencies who could blackbag her. 2/

It feels more like Alex enjoyed the leverage of knowledge even while Kara expressed dissatisfaction with her own life. (Did she like lying to her sister? Probably not. Was there a selfish satisfaction to knowing more the Kara, to being part of something bigger? Yeah, I think there was a bit.) 3/

But outside of the influences of redK Kara would never pick apart an argument like that IC but IDK it seems like a very significant character flaw that fandom tends to ignore which is disappointing because the selfishness plays so well off Alex’s deepseated guilt and sense of duty. Alex!Discourse usually focuses on her relationship with Eliza or making her a martyr for her sister which does as much disservice to the nuance of her character as it does to write Kara only as a space puppy. 4/4

This ask made me so happy.

I just finished my S2 talk time project a few days ago and then went back and rewatched the pilot, and let me tell you it is very easy to forget just how much progress Alex and Kara have made, because wow is it jarring to see them at the start of S1 where Alex is so much worse at emotional vulnerability and amped up on passive-aggressive snark.

I really loved that scene in 2x02, which I have written about before, because it highlights all of those flaws without taking away from the fact that Alex still makes a valid point that Kara needed to hear.

Nobody is perfectly consistent in how they express themselves. Ever. People are chaotic and messy and complicated, and they find ways to rationalize bad choices to themselves. They find ways to rationalize good choices, too. They forget about the emotions that motivated a decision over time, or their relationships change and suddenly a memory is recolored into something that isn’t quite reality anymore. A person’s internal logic or truth is not always *the* truth. But none of that means they are “out of character” the second there is a mismatch. 

It just means they’re human.

And you hit the nail on the head: Alex was not telling the objective truth in 2x02, but she might well have been telling a truth she believed. Alex has spent years inventing excuses to justify her life choices and coming up with lies to tell her sister and her mother to keep them off her back. At some point the truth and the fiction are going to start blurring in her mind, at least a little. That’s just how our brains work.

Plus, we’re talking about a woman who was so confident she could beat a polygraph that she didn’t even break a sweat about having no time to prepare. The mental self-trickery that requires is insane. Alex Danvers is good at lying to others, but she’s even better at lying to herself.

So, when it comes to Kara and the complicated relationship they have as siblings? Alex can absolutely be petty, and mean, and hurttful. That doesn’t mean she loves Kara any less. It doesn’t negate all the things she does that are generous or compassionate or selfless.

What it does is make her a well-rounded character. Just like how Kara is more well-rounded  for being impulsive and self-centered and stubborn in addition to all of her good qualities.

To return to your point about that period in Alex’s life where she was struggling and J’onn pulled her out: yes, she was absolutely giving Kara a revised interpretation of events. Alex’s memories from 1x17 were not actually things she spoke out loud during that interrogation. (At least, I am 99% confident she was not sharing all of her personal failings in explicit detail, especially since long-winded rambling is not part of a polygraph.) So Kara, as far as we know, still remains in the dark about the exact depth of her sister’s issues. And Alex clearly doesn’t ever want her to find out, because that would be damaging on a wayyyyy worse level than her occasionally being an asshole when they fight.

But, within that scene from 2x02, do we know for sure that Alex is lying? We can’t see into her head, after all. Maybe she genuinely believes she would’ve clawed her way out of her funk eventually and gone into medicine if J’onn hadn’t intervened. Maybe she legitimately wanted to be a doctor even though she was a depressed, self-loathing mess and on the verge of failing out. Maybe she only said yes to the DEO because she was afraid Henshaw would blackmail her or her family, or get Kara carted off to some creepy government lab if she turned him down.

All of that, however, does not negate your point, which is that once she got to the DEO, that choice became about her. Not her family, not her sister. Just her.

For possibly the first time in her adult life.

That had to be powerfully liberating. And I agree, it probably gave Alex some immense satisfaction to know that while she might not have Kara’s superpowers, she could still be out there in the world kicking alien ass anyway. We also know she felt good about the fact that her coworkers and her boss recognized her efforts and her talents, and that she was happy to find a space where that was even possible. Those were not things she’d ever had before. And yeah, she guarded them rather selfishly.

I am iffy, however, on criticizing Alex for not telling Kara about Kryptonite and such, because it’s one of the very first things she and J’onn explain to Kara in the pilot ep. (I’m also iffy because Clark knew Kryptonite existed for way longer than Alex did, and he never told her about it either!) And I don’t think Kara would’ve needed a warning about “secret anti-alien agencies,” at least not prior to her decision to start superheroing. Given that strange men showed up at their house when she was a kid and her foster dad changed jobs almost immediately thereafter and her family was constantly afraid she’d be taken away, I have a feeling Kara was already aware of that risk, at least on some level. You’ll note that she never questions the motivation behind Alex’s “never do something like that again” in 1x01, even though Alex is extremely harsh and hurts Kara’s feelings.

tl;dr: Alex, like the rest of us, has her flaws. She has a nasty tendency toward repressing or hiding negativity at her own expense, in part because she’s afraid to disappoint her loved ones, but also because her sense of empathy runs deep and she doesn’t like seeing others suffer. She can be passive-aggressive. She loses her temper in immature, ugly ways.

None of this means she’s a bad person. She’s usually a very good person! But it also doesn’t mean that we get to handwave the ugliness away as “shitty writing” just because it presents a challenge as far as understanding her character.

[akatsuki3519]

For the 'One Piece' ask.....I'm going to give you the following questions to answer: 1. Sanji, 2. Tony Tony Chopper, 3. Nico Robin, 4. Eustass Kid, 5. Jewelry Bonney, 6. Urouge, 7. Boa Hancock, 8. X Drake 9. Donquixote Doflamingo, 10. Sengoku, 11. Akainu, 12. Tashigi (or do they tell you that you look like somebody famous......or has anybody even told you that you look like an anime character), 13. Marco, 14. Zeff (:P), 15. Absalom and 16. Monet!! Feel free to pick the ones that interest you!

Yayyyy thanks so much!!

1. Sanji: Do you view yourself to be a good cook?

I can cook, I don’t think I’m particularly good one naturally though! ^^” I just follow recipes exactly… and it normally turns out okay!! XD

2. Tony Tony Chopper: Do you have a sweet tooth?

YES, definitely!! I’m terrible haha, I eat way too many sweet things! >.

3. Nico Robin: What was the first book that you can remember reading?

I have no idea, but the earliest memory I have of actively reading a series is the Series of Unfortunate events so let’s go with that! 

4. Eustass Kid: Do you think that you are handy with electronics?

I’m pretty handy! Phones I’m kinda iffy with, but laptops, computers, consoles etc. I’m generally quiet good with! I had to help out with a number of technical difficulties during my rotations actually, no one else could figure it out haha…

5. Jewelry Bonney: Do you enjoy buffets?

YES, I absolutely love them! I have a small appetite (eating little and often rather than a lot at once), but at buffets I absolutely have to try everything and generally go all out! :P  

6. Urouge: If you had wings, where would you fly to?

Japan, because I really wanna go and I’m terrified of planes…! 

7. Boa Hancock: Do you believe in love at first sight?

Definitely not, since I think personality plays a major role in love so!

8. X Drake: If your dad was a pirate, and you were captured by Marines would you serve for them?

No, I don’t think so… I know nothing about real world pirates and Marines lol, so giving this a more detailed answer on a One Piece slant, the Marines are so corrupt I don’t think I’d ever serve for them, I’d rather be a pirate… although there are some Marines I would definitely serve under if I had to be a Marine (Smoker, Tashigi, Fujitora, Coby, etc.), you know… the ones with a decent sense of justice lol… 

9. Donquixote Doflamingo: If you were the king of your own empire, what would it be called and what kind of place would it be?

Ohh, emm… I’m really un-inventive so I have no idea what I’d call it… but I’d definitely like for it to be like Dressrosa (before Doffy took over obviously!), so like… a relatively warm/tropical place with a lot of culture and a really good sense of community!

10. Sengoku: Do you enjoy senbei?

I’ve actually never had them, but I think I’d like them as an odd snack, I don’t think they’d be one of my fave things though!

11. Akainu: What kind of justice do you believe in?

Well not Akainu’s anyway… >.> This is a very difficult question to answer, I thought about this for a while… I think there should be somewhat of a correlation between severity of a crime or action and the consequence of said action, but I definitely think that justice should have a sense of ‘heart’ rather than being purely a ‘head’ thing, if that makes sense… (something Akainu severely lacks) I don’t think every situation should fall under a same set of rules as there are always some differences that may require two similar situations to be handled and dealt with differently. 

Using One Piece as an example, I think the way Fujitora dealt with the whole Dressrosa issue was fantastic, it’s one of the reasons he’s one of my favourite Marines, and he’s such an excellent contrast to Akainu in the narrative of the show. I think Luffy has a really excellent sense of justice too! 

12. Tashigi: Do people ever tell you that you look like someone they know?

I was once told I look like Gwyneth Paltrow but I really don’t think so at all haha… also, I was cosplaying Shirley from Code Geass at a con one time and I met Hirokatsu Kihara (an anime writer/producer who worked on Code Geass), and he told me I actually looked really like Shirley so that was pretty neat haha! XD

13. Marco: If you could have any devil fruit, what would it be?

Ohh man emm, I think it’s gotta be Law’s, the Ope Ope no Mi/Op-Op fruit, it would be really handy from a surgical/veterinary point of view haha! You could also have a lot of fun with it too, with the personality swap thing and stuff… :’)

Also, contrary to popular opinion, I really like Rocinante/Corazon’s devil fruit, the Nagi Nagi no Mi/Calm-Calm fruit, sometimes I think it would be nice to just block out sound for a bit you know lol… it would be handy for sneaking around too :P

14. Zeff: If you were stranded on a rock with a bag of gold, a bag of food, and a scrawny hungry child, would you eat your foot?

Whyyy haha! No, I really don’t think I would…!! 

15. Absalom: If you could be invisible, where is the first place you would go?

Hmm… I’d probably just go wandering around at night or something haha, I’m such a night person but obviously wandering around or going for a walk in the dark can be a bit dodgy and can be kinda scary depending on where you are, so… I’d just like to go for a relaxing night time stroll haha! That’s such a simple answer sorry haha

16. Monet: Do you enjoy writing? Share a snippet?

Yes, I love writing!

A young man stood in the middle of avast, empty room. Large, gold pillars stood around at intervals, anarmored guard with spear in-hand stationed at each one. Tapestries of varyingcolours and sizes were dotted along the walls, intricate designs and scenes stitched onto every piece. An older, irritated lookingman sat at the top of the room on a throne-like chair. A women stood to hisright, her eyebrows furrowed in concern. 

The room was eerily silent as thetwo men stared each other down. No one spoke for some time until the quiet was broken by a loud, booming voice that seemed as if it could bring the very walls down. 

 “I’m starting to get sick of your endless whining, boy,” the man on thethrone growled, “every day you come in here spouting the same nonsense, andevery day I tell you the same thing – it’s not happening.”

 “But it is NOT nonsense!” the young man retorted, “if you left thecastle you would see it for yourself! Our people are starving! There is no food!Their fields have been destroyed by the stupid war that you have started andthe neighbouring countries will not import anything because they don’t want tohave anything to do with us!”

 “Enough! Not another word out of your mouth! I’m the one in charge here now in case that has slipped your mind!Get out of my sight before I have you forcibly removed!”

 There was a short moment of silence. The tension in the air was palpable.

  “I’m notleaving this time…” the young man continued, his hands clenched into fists, ‘not this time…”

I’ve never put any of my writing on here I’m kinda self conscious, but anyway there it is, it’s done now… ^^”

Thank you soooo much for the options Rachel, this was super fun!!