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lemmeaskthedevil · 4 months ago
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oh i wannan throw upp
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batmanisagatewaydrug · 5 months ago
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So I’m a minor (16 to be specific) and I frequently watch and read stuff with explicit sexual or 18+ content in it. I live in an extremely conservative Christian household and things like explicit fanfic are pretty much the only option I have for learning about sex that isn’t abstinence only. I do feel bad about it, especially when I see adults online say stuff like “oh i watched lots of inappropriate things as a teen that i really shouldn’t have” and it makes me feel like I’m ruining myself in a way that I won’t realize until I’m an adult? Right now I don’t see what the big deal is but i get the feeling that when i’m 24 or something I’ll wake up one day and be ashamed of this for some reason i’m not mature enough to know yet. Should I just stop and wait until I’m 18 to continue or what?
hi anon,
okay. I'm gonna hit you with something:
turning 18 does not actually change the way you feel about porn or sex or anything. the difference between being seventeen and 364 days and being 18 is nonexistent. there's not a magical switch that changes you as a person; that comes from lived experience. if you're 18 and your experience is still that porn and smut and what have you i something that you should feel bad about, it's still going to feel that way and a birthday won't change that.
look, the whole notion of "I saw [x] that I shouldn't have when I was young" is like. okay. so you saw something that was a little mature for you that you didn't quite get? awesome. did you die? no. most people's hangups about sexuality don't come from seeing a rogue titty when they were a teenager, they come from the culture that person was raised in that made seeing a rogue titty feel like something to be ashamed of instead of a completely natural part of life.
story time! when I teach my 4th-6th grade OWL classes (Our Whole Lives, great human development program) I always start by holding a meeting with the kids' parents. I've been doing this for seven years, and every time without fail some of the parents will recall seeing porn for the first time as a kid. these guys were kids when printed porn magazines were still a thing, so they were discovering them in all kinds of places - the bedrooms of their parents or their friends' parents, at bus stops, in the woods, once even stowed in some farm equipment. and they remember it feeling illicit and exciting, sure, and possibly making them confused or even horny for the first time in their young lives, but like... that's it. none of these people are irreparably damaged by seeing porn. in fact, they've grown up to be the kind of people who go out of their way to make sure their young kids are enrolled in a queer-friendly, body-positive, diversity-embracing sex ed class to counter stereotypes and misinformation they might receive elsewhere.
looking at things that arouse you is morally neutral. it can be a great way to help you learn about what turns you on, and even if it's not the best source of factual, realistic depictions of sex, it can still help you discover things - hell, I only figured out what the clitoris was by reading Young Justice fanfic (shout out Snaibsel).
you can't ruin yourself, at any age, with the media you like to consume. what makes you uncomfortable and anxious is the attitude you've been taught to have about that media, which is something that has to be actively unlearned, because it's certainly not going to just disappear on its own when you become a legal adult.
tl;dr obviously no one is making you watch porn and you shouldn't if it makes you uncomfortable, but if you drop it right now and come back when you're 18 don't expect to feel any different if you haven't done any more unpacking re: the conservative Christianity of it all.
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sturnsdarling · 3 months ago
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lets just stay here for a while
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{part two of 'I get them too, sometimes' } anxious!reader has an anxiety attack so bff!matt kisses her to calm her down, after, they agree to not go back to the party and just hang out with each other for a while.
vibe check: fluff, maybe suggestive if you squint, MAKEOUT SESH oioioioioi, just cute vibes all round honestly
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A/N: slightly obsessed with this vibe dude. i'm really into writing fluffy stuff atm, I do have some smut in the works but as of rn this is the vibe I'm on. I hope this comforts you guys as much as it does me hehe
love and cigs, merc
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"d'you - do you wanna hang out in here for a bit? I can stay with you" Matt said, his eye contact wavering at the offer only to return to you once more.
"oh you don't - you don't have to do that, Matt, you'll miss your party" you shook your head.
"I don't really like parties anyway" he replied, "I'd honestly rather sit here with you on the floor all night" he chuckled, gesturing to the floor.
You smiled as a soft laugh left your nose, "okay" you said.
"yeah?" his head shot up to meet your gaze.
"yeah." you nodded
Matt opened his mouth to speak but closed it just as quick, a boyish grin crawling its way onto his face. You cant help but smile back, the thumping sounds of the music just on the other side of the door suddenly becoming a muffled hum as you stared at Matt.
His presence had always been a strange comfort to you, more so than any of your other friends. There was something about him, you just knew he got it, whatever it was and there was never any pressure to be anything other than yourself around him.
"so, um" You both began to speak at the same time, cutting yourselves off with a laugh and a raised hand.
"you go" He said, a soft smile still lingering on his lips
"can I ask you something?" you said, biting your cheek slightly.
"anything" Matt replied, almost instantly
"how many girls have you kissed to stop their anxiety attacks?" you chuckle, trying to lighten the mood from earlier.
Matt laughs, dropping his head and shaking it slightly, peering up at you from under his lashes, "none" he smiles, "well, other than you now, obviously"
a genuine laugh left your lips, you brought your legs into you, an uncontrollable smile etched across your face as you looked at him, "well, I guess I should feel privileged then"
"oh, definitely" Matt nodded, brows furrowed in jesting seriousness, "I don't just go around kissing any and everyone having breathing problems, you know" he added, trying to maintain his serious face but failing.
you chuckled again, "I should hope so, that would be very invasive" you couldn't help but laugh at the mental image
"yeah, I'd probably get in a lot of trouble" Matt said, laughing as he spoke, "good thing - uh, good thing it's just you, huh?" He said.
your heart dropped slightly and you weren't sure why, something about the 'just you' stinging slightly, your face dropped into a slight smile and you nodded, biting your cheek, "yeah, I suppose that is a good thing" your eyes met the floor.
Matt noticed your change in demeanour and immediately started kicking himself, why did he say that? what did that even mean? what did he even want that to mean? a silence filled the room, the only sound being the echoing music of Chris' party playlist in the back, some generic rap song you didn't like that much started playing and, in unison, you and Matt groaned.
"god I fuckin' hate this song" Matt rolled his eyes.
"me too" you chuckled.
"for once I wish we could have a party like this with my music, I'd have such a better time"
"we could -um, we could listen to music, if you want to" you said, shrugging
"yeah? I mean, yeah, let's do that" Matt said, nodding and getting up, riffling through his drawers for an old pair of wired headphones for you both to share.
He found them and came and sat down next to you again, this time, his back rested against the bed as he pulled his phone from his pocket and plugged in the headphones. Matt placed a bud in his ear and held the other one out to you. You shuffled up next to him, your back against the end of the bed as you placed the bud in your ear. Matt looked through his playlist, trying to find the perfect song, you lazily gazed over his screen, watching all the songs fly by as he raced through his playlists.
"oh, I love that song" you said, pointing at the screen
"Dominic Fike?" Matt asked, looking at you, "didn't I show you his stuff?"
"mhm" you nodded, "I like him, he's cool"
Matt simply smiled, looking back to his phone and pressing the song. 'Wurli' by Dominic Fike started playing and after a moment, Matt put his phone down between the two of you and rested his head back onto the end of the bed. You did the same, letting the corner of the bed act as a rest for your neck.
Matts hand was rested by his phone, and without thinking, yours met his on the floor, your knuckles brushing against each other slightly as they rested next to each other. Your fingers twitched against his, every touch felt like static through your body, the subtle intimacy of it making you feel giddy. Matts hand edged closer to yours, his fingers now resting on your palm slightly as he traced small circles on your skin. You shifted your hand slightly, moving it down to meet his, your fingers interlocking on reflex.
Matt closes his eyes with a smile, and you did the same, you felt like teenagers, holding hands for the first time. His thumb absentmindedly rubbed over yours and his touch made you feel completely content.
"Matt" you craned your head to the side, looking at him.
"hm?" he hummed, mimicking your actions and turning so his face was only inches from yours, his breath hitching slightly at the feeling of his nose nearly brushing yours.
"thankyou, for staying with me" you smiled, eyes pouring into his
His brows furrowed slightly as he stared back, unable to pull his eyes form yours, "of course" he smiled
"you um-" you paused, letting your eyes flit to his lips for a split second before returning to his eyes, "you're a really good friend"
Matt chuckled, not realising how close you had both gotten, your noses now touching as your eyes wondered back to his lips, "well, you know what they say" his words coming out in a near whisper
"what do they say?" you asked, your volume matching his, your lips a now breath from his.
"they, um - you know" his eyes were rapid between your eyes and lips, feeling the warmth of your words on his skin, "I have no idea" he admitted, before pulling his hand from yours, placing it on your cheek and pulling you into him.
Your lips were pressed against his, this time, in a much more desperate way. You pulled at his shoulder, dragging him into you impossibly close as his tongue brushed against your lips, asking for access that you granted him immediately. Your tongues brushed against one-anothers, your hands grapsing at each other as if you were trying to crawl into each others skin. The song was still playing, nearly at an end as you were pulled deeper into Matt.
As he kissed you feverishly, you shifted, hooking your leg up to hoik yourself onto his lap. You straddled him, his hands finding your waist immediately as both of you refused to break the kiss. Your lips moved against one-anothers in sync, as if you were created for eachother, created to kiss like this. His hands moved up your back, making you arch into him as you whimpered slightly into the kiss. Neither of you had come up for air, and the song had restarted, you were completely lost in it, blissfully unaware of the approaching sound of Chris calling Matts name outside of the room.
"Matt, what the fuck are y-" Chris said, swinging the door open and cutting himself short as he laid eyes on the vision in front of him
You and Matt instantly pulled away from each other breathlessly as your attentions shot to the door.
Chris' mouth was hanging open in a smirk, "sorry, kid, as you were" Chris through his hands up in surrender, turning his back and closing the door behind him with a chuckle.
You and Matt both sighed, laughing slightly as Matts grip on you loosened, and your forehead fell to his. You shook your head against his slightly.
"we should probably go back out" you whispered, pulling away from Matt and resting your hand on his shoulder.
"yeah" Matts shoulders dropped, "we probably should" he nodded, his gaze on your hips as he pressed his thumbs into the tops of your thighs.
"or" you said in an insinuating tone.
"or?" Matts eyes shot to yours, a grin spread across your face, "or is good, I like or" Matt said rapidly, eyes flitting between yours and your plump lips.
"we could just stay in here" you shrugged, moving your lips to hover over his.
"that, is an amazing idea, angel" he smiled, pulling you into him with a large hand spread across the small of your back.
Once again, your lips were moving against his. The song still playing on a loop in your headphones as you kissed each other desperately, your hips moving against his as your straddled him. You felt almost lightheaded as Matt kissed you like he was starved of you, pulling you into him as if he had been waiting to kiss you, to have you like this, his entire life.
Just outside the door in the kitchen, Chris searched around the sea of people for Nick, who was at the table with a group of people talking about something Chris didn't care about. Chris placed a hand on Nicks shoulder, getting his attention before leaning down and whispering in his ear, a smile growing on Nicks face as Chris spoke.
"finally" Nick said, looking up at Chris who was nodding his head in agreeance.
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stuniolvs · 10 months ago
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keep you safe
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matthew sturniolo
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in which matt snaps at you because he is having anxiety before a show.
(please leave requests!)
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matt had begged you to go on his second tour with him. you two were a fresh couple during the last one and he absolutely hated it.
he just missed you like hell and didn’t want to do that again. so you agreed to go on this one with him.
it’s currently the second show and you loved going to the first one with him so you were excited about this.
you guys had been driving for most of the day before stopping the tour bus at the hotel then checking in and dropping off all our stuff then driving back to the venue. now just waiting in the tour bus until the triplets needed to go in.
you had noticed that matt seemed a bit off but you just figured it was because he didn’t get good sleep last night.
“hey baby are you excited?” you ask matt who was watching tv. “mhm” he sighs not breaking his gaze from the tv.
you entered the venue with various security guards around you and the triplets.
meanwhile matt was biting his nails feeling extremely stressed and anxious. he felt sweat prick at his hairline. he started doing some deep breathing as he entered his green room type of area to get ready.
you quietly sat on the floor backstage wanting to leave matt and his brothers alone to get ready.
nick entered the room first wearing a purple shirt and some jorts. “looking good nick!” you compliment “thanks babe, i gotta go check with the sound people so ill be back soon” you nod.
then matt enters backstage. he’s wearing a blue tshirt and jeans, simple, yet he still looks so pretty. “hey baby, you look g-“ “shut the fuck up! god you’re being so annoying!” he shouts quickly storming out.
matt felt panic rise in his throat.
shit. shit. shit.
he felt himself start to sweat as he’s breathing restricted. he tried to take deep breaths but they’d just get caught in his throat.
“matt?” you shout down the long hallway knowing something was up with him.
“i-i-i” he tries to yell but it comes out barley a whisper. luckily you heard him in their because it was fairly quit in the hallway cause nobody went down it unless they had to use the restroom.
you quietly open the door and the second you see him your heart tugs. he’s sitting on the ground with tears running down his face, sweating, and trying to breath.
“hey, hey, matty.” you slide down next to him. you pick up his hand and place it on your chest covered with a blue shirt. matt looks up at you with glossy eyes. you take deep breaths as matt try’s to follow “so sorry” he mutters three times through strangled breaths. “matt it’s okay” you cup his face and pull him into a kiss.
he quickly kisses back, putting his shaky hands on your waist.
after a couple minutes you pull back.
you speak before he gets the chance to, “matt what’s wrong?”
“i-i don't know.” he mutters “i-im so sorry baby, i d-dont know what’s wrong. i don't feel good.”
“its okay matty. i love you and if something is wrong, even if you don't know what it is, please tell me and i can help."
he takes a deep breath“i love you more and i promise i will.” he sighs “i have to go, we go on in 10” he groans.
“okay baby, win for me. i love you so much,” you say with an idea popping into your head. he kisses your nose. you run a paper towel under the sink and wipe his face with it. “i love you too baby.”
you walk him over to his brothers and you place a parting kiss on his lips with a “you look so amazing matty.” and a flushed matt enters the stage.
you walk over to you favorite security guard and speak to him. “hey, i have to go get some things for the triplets i should be back about 20 before the show ends, ill text you when im back.” “oh yes of course mrs.sturniolo, ill be there to walk you in when you text me.” he nods “thank you so much!”
you leave and stop by your favorite flower stand and get a bouquet for matt. then you stop by target and get candy and stuffed animals of their animals for each triplet. you leave and arrive back 16 minutes before the show is gonna end, holding a bag full of stuff.
you enter the backstage area seeing the triplets enter from the stage, all three of them sweaty.
matt glances around before landing on you before he jogs over to you “baby! baby! i won!!” he says holding up his medal.
“good job matt! here you go, there’s more stuff in here but they're for your brothers too so can you go get them?” you ask while handing him the flowers you look up at him after your rant and see a shocked matt staring at the flowers. “these are for me?” you nod aggressively. he looks up at you and places a soft kiss on you lips, slightly leaning because there’s a bag and flowers in-between you guys.
he pulls back, “thank you so much baby. i'll go get nick and chris.” he says placing a soft kiss on your nose.
when matt, nick, and chris are in front of you you hand them their candy and stuffed animals.
they all hug you thanking you.
"are we ready to go back to the hotel?” you ask “mhm,” chris says, he looks exhausted.
matt drives them back to the hotel and you all settle down in your rooms.
matt dumps a bottle of water in a cup and uses it to put his flowers in placing his stuffed shark next to you in bed. “to keep you safe.” he said
you smile and open your arms, he lays on your chest. “i love ya’ so much baby” he mutters “i love you matty.” you kiss his head.
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islandofsages · 11 months ago
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Hey ! I wanted to request a Ignihyde!Male!Reader that look like a little like Grim ? Like, they have the same ears and tail, the same fire (even if the reader controls his fire better than Grim) and people think they are from the same family/are connect ?
Just Grim and Reader looking at each other and asking to themselves if they have just meet their secret brother, and Ace, Deuce, Ortho, Idia and parental figure!Trein being confused to their friend (Grim for Adeuce, Reader for Ortho and Idia) having (a possible) brother.
(Ignore it if you don't want to write it)
Have a good day.
characters: ace, deuce, the shroud brothers and trein x male ignihyde reader
tags: platonic, fluff, imagines + scenario format; implication of yuu, mention of azul
warnings: nothing
author's notes: sorry this took a while! and that i strayed a bit again help. hope you like this <3
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You’re one of the only beastmen in Ignihyde - and you’re okay with that. It gets a little lonely at times but that’s nothing new for an Ignihyde student. People mind their own business, you mind yours. And the only friends you have, in this case the Shroud brothers, basically forget that you’re different from the others. Days are hardly interesting, despite the college’s many atrocities - or maybe because, and now you’re desensitized.
Until one day, you spot a creature, all feline-like and sitting on someone’s shoulder. Okay, not the weirdest thing you’ve seen at NRC so far, so you’re about to shrug it off. Then you see it; a tail and a pair of ears that are eerily similar to your own. What’s next, it can manipulate fire as freely as you do?
“Hey guys, I’ve got a new trick up my sleeve. Watch this!”
One thing you didn’t expect for it to have something in common with you is that it can talk. Though maybe you should be less surprised, considering even the paintings on the walls can talk in this place. But still. You forget that you should be expecting something from the words it just spouted and are caught off guard when it starts spewing fire next. This creature is way too talented at throwing out stuff from its mouth, you think as you jump out of the way just in time to avoid being burnt to a crisp.
“Grim, you can’t just spit fire whenever you want to! We’ve been over this!”
A redheaded student in front of you starts to scold the creature whose name is Grim apparently. He looks familiar but you can’t quite put your finger on it-
“You’re just jealous, Ace.”
Oh, you feel like Idia’s talked about this Ace person before. He described him as “crafty” and seemed to think of him as some sneaky extrovert but you’ve learnt to not put much faith in Idia’s descriptions of other people. No offense to your friend but at least he’s somewhat self-aware of how anxious he gets around others.
“I definitely am not??? This is the same thing that almost got us expelled, you know!”
You feel like you may also have heard of a group of first years almost getting expelled until they somehow got their hands on a magestone the headmage told them to get, as if you can just swing by a store and buy one. You know how hopeless Headmage Crowley and dumping a lot of work on a bunch of freshmen is in character but you can't help but feel disappointed anyway.
“I can’t believe I’m saying this but I agree. You really have to learn how to keep your pride in check…”
Another student, blue-haired and you assume is Ace’s friend, chimes in on the scolding. The student whose shoulder Grim has made himself at home only shook their head, most likely accustomed to his behavior. You watch them bicker as you ruminate on the resemblance of that strange creature to you.
After a few minutes of thinking (and walking so that you don't lose them), you decide that the fact that you were almost a victim of Grim’s flames is strong enough of an excuse to allow you to approach the friend group.
“Hey. You four.”
They turn around to notice you finally (though you can hardly blame them – save for Idia and his glow-in-the-dark-esque hair, Ignihyde students are not noticed as much). It takes them a second to realize that you're no ordinary student. When they do, their jaws fall open, letting out a wild “Huh?!”.
Grim himself jumps off the quiet student's shoulder and stands on his two feet. The day is getting crazier and crazier the longer you entertain this coincidence. He then points at you and begins his bullshit-spewing again.
“W-Who are you?! And why do you look like me?!”
You should be asking the same questions right now but the lack of answers for them makes any word on the tip of your tongue die before they can escape. Plus, the way he's saying his words sound more accusatory than you’d like to admit.
“Don’t look at me! I'm just like this!”
Grim doesn't seem satisfied by your answer and honestly, you can't blame him. You both are quite confused by what's happening at the moment. You two resort to unconsciously recreating the two-Spidermen-pointing-at-each-other meme. The other three students also seem to be at a loss from what they're witnessing.
Ace Trappola
He would laugh at Grim and point out how he's not special anymore but he's too stunned to even say anything (at least for now)
He looks you up and down again then pinches himself to make sure he’s not hallucinating
He feels like he should be less surprised and that the uncanny resemblance could just be passed off as a coincidence but he has to admit, seeing you two as not brothers may prove to be a little difficult for him
He gets used to you two over time and stops questioning it altogether. Sometimes he even forgets
At times, he’d poke fun at Grim and say how you two are way too different personality-wise to even be correlated in some way
But deep down, he’s happy for Grim he found someone similar to him 
He won’t say that aloud obviously.
Deuce Spade
His eyes dart from you to Grim then you again. This goes on for a minute
He almost asks you if you can also breathe fire so recklessly
He ends up interrogating you, like a parent doing a background check on the friend you just brought home
Sooner or later, he concludes that you two are “bros”, despite not having the same feline characteristics
He’s glad Grim found his long-lost brother (he gets a smack from Grim for this)
He would notice how Grim’s smiles oftentimes are wider when you’re around, probably feeling some kind of kinship with you
And he gets that - since you all are “bros” now, he’s more than willing to have your backs now
After sorting things out with the freshmen, you return to your cave like the nerd that you are, feeling more exhausted than usual. To your surprise, you also return to two nerds being in said cave. A Shroud brothers ambush is not something that happens too often.
“Hey (Y/N). We decided that your place needs trashing. Also Ortho wants to try out this new game he found but it needs at least three players.”
Sounds about right. The geeks are geeking out as usual, just at your place this time. But you need them to hear about how crazy today was. You open your mouth to say something-
“I tried to convince him to get Azul but you know how stubborn my brother is.”
Ortho cuts you off and you force a nervous chuckle as a response. You agree but you should really get this off your chest-
“Hm? Did you guys hear something~?”
Idia teases and it brings a genuine laugh out of you and Ortho. Then you take a deep breath and release it. Third time’s the charm, right? You try again.
“Listen, you two. You wouldn’t believe what happened today.”
They perk right up at the promise of gossip (specifically, gossip related to you). You jump a bit from the excitement, finally glad you got their attention. Your hands start to gesture while you tell today’s story.
“I found this… cat. His name is Grim? He has the exact same ears and tail that I do! And he can breathe fire too! Except he does it with no regards to his surroundings whatsoever. That’s kinda concerning.”
Idia Shroud
“You saw wittle Gwimmy??? Man, I’m so jealous… I’ve been in need of some cat therapy for a while now…”
By the sound of it, he already knows who he is. You gasp dramatically at this, feeling betrayed at the fact he never told you about him
He tells you to chill and simply excuse that he didn’t think it was that important or anything
Of course, at first he was shocked but then he pondered about the coincidence - concluded that weirder things have happened and can happen
You’re unamused by this but it is very Idia. You suppose if you have a curse where it burns blot in your body nothing can really be seen as weird
Still, he entertains the possibility of you having a non-human distant cousin
If he isn’t already so nerdy, it feels like he’s growing a second brain trying to theorize what your relation to Grim is…
Ortho Shroud
Also already knows who he is. This truly is a Shroud brothers ambush… of betrayal at that
Theatrics aside, you try to pry him for further information and maybe explain how you and Grim may be related
“Sorry (Y/N), I’d love to help but Grim has been avoiding both of us for a while now. Whether that’s intentional or not, I’m not sure, but I sure wish I was with you when you ran into him. I’m sure I could’ve gotten some valuable information from him!”
You have your doubts about that.
While you keep things to yourself, Ortho provides you with Grim’s surface level information - which is basically nothing
So you two vow to get closer to Grim; even with the ulterior motive, it doesn’t hurt to have more friends Idia would beg to differ
Grim-like traits aside, it’ll be eye-opening to him to see if you two are similar in any regard at all - whether it be from your healing presence to your dazzling smile.
The next morning, you walk to your first class of the day: History of Magic. A fairly interesting class regardless of your stance on the subject. Professor Trein goes on and on about something, you write things down in your notebook. Your eyes are on Lucius for half of the class too. Your mind is still stuck on the events of yesterday. You feel like you’d be reminded of Grim any time you lay your eyes on anything feline - including yourself.
At last, class is dismissed. As much as you enjoy the class and genuinely like Professor Trein, you can’t help but feel that classes are dragged out way too much in this college. You pack up your things and you leave around the same time the professor does. So when Grim comes running and tackles you to the hallway floor, he’s there to witness it all.
“Hey twin! Wanna have lunch with us later? You’ll be seating with us cool kids!”
As you try to regain your composure over being literally knocked over and the fact that Grim has already warmed up to you, Professor Trein attempts to comprehend the scene unfolding before him.
Mozus Trein
Yes, of course he needs to scold Grim over misbehaving for the umpteenth time that week, but he’s also in awe of how… similar you and Grim look.
If he’s seen either of you before, whether in vicinity of each other or not, he’s never noticed blame it on the old grandpa eyes
People (and creatures now too, accounting for Grim’s being here) of your traits and abilities are far and few between
As much as he’d like to inquire you two on your ancestries (and their possible connection), he does respect your privacy
He always liked having you in his class but now, he finds himself looking out for you more often, a way to put his energy from his curiosity about you into something else
He’d ask you about your day and jokingly ask how your relationship with your long-lost brother is doing as if he’s not acting like a dad himself
Needless to say, he’s definitely your favorite teacher now.
You accept Grim’s offer for whatever reason and have lunch with the “cool kids”. You feel a little out of place at first, hanging out with people who aren’t the Shrouds, but then you start having lunch with them every other day. Then you start visiting Ramshackle Dorm where Grim is staying and spend time with the others there. At some point, you brought the Shrouds along and they would bring their games.
Suddenly, you know a lot of people. You think to yourself how crazy friendships start. You go from not knowing their name to knowing what they named their pet rock when they were a child. And in Grim’s case, you went from pointing at each other confusingly to pointing at each other for stealing each other’s food.
For the record, he definitely stole your pudding first.
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gravehags · 1 year ago
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separated by a degree
Pairing: Cirrus x f!Reader
Rating: Explicit
18+ ONLY MINORS DO NOT INTERACT
Tags: domme Cirrus, mild BDSM, face sitting, pussy eating, fingering
Words: 2,742
Summary: You've had a rough week. Cirrus is here to make it all better.
a/n: RING A DING DING PART 6 Y'ALL like it goes without saying but Cirrus could step on my neck and I'd say thank you so this is an ode to that
@terzosbignaturals EAT UP
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This week had just been too much. Too fucking much.
Ever since you bid Mountain and Aether a lingering, intimate adieu after your evening together, everything has gone to shit. The plumbing in your shower - no one else’s, you sourly think - has gone out, forcing you to have to travel all the way across the abbey to Cumulus’ room every night just to bathe. It’s not that you don’t want to see her - quite the opposite - but something about inelegantly stomping the halls in your damp flip-flops and wet hair back to your room makes you agitated. On top of that, you’ve been assigned to your usual library duties as well as being an altar sibling every mass. You’re exhausted, both mentally and physically, and you haven’t been this anxious since you were a novitiate in Papa Secondo’s summoning classes. You’ve barely seen the ghouls, let alone spent time with them, and the loneliness is beginning to take its toll. You’re currently flopped on your duvet half naked after a long mass led by Papa Nihil, groaning into the empty space when there’s a knock at your door.
“What?” you shout, throwing an arm over your eyes.
“It’s me,” comes a feminine voice from the other side whom you identify as Cirrus. Shooting up from your bed you pad over to the door and open it while still hiding your body behind it.
“Gonna let me in?” she purrs, giving what’s visible of your form a once over.
“Uh…I’m…indisposed.” you say stupidly, to which she snorts.
“Half the pack has seen everything you have to offer and now you’re shy? Cute.” She’s smirking and leaning against the entryway as you grip the door tighter.
“What’s up?” you ask in a high pitched voice, changing the subject. If this is a come on you’re flattered, and part of you aches for it but the ache in your brain and body is much more powerful.
“Wanted to offer my services,” she says, tracing a claw down the wood of the door.
“Oh?” you say, somewhat intrigued. “And what does that entail?”
“Stress relief,” Cirrus says airily, “you’ve been going through so much recently, sweetheart. And I,” she steps forward slightly, entering your space, “can help.”
You don’t even realize that you’ve opened the door wider until she’s curling a lock of your hair around her long finger and staring at you intently. Her tail slips around you and rubs gently against the curve of your ass. Your lips are parted and you’re about to say something when all of a sudden she’s stepping back. 
“Not tonight, though, I understand,” she says, examining her nails with a sigh.
“I need to shower,” you blurt out. A vaguely sinister grin unfurls on her lips.
“Use mine,” she says, leaning her head against the doorframe, tail flicking behind her lazily.
Your mouth is dry. “Okay. Yeah just let me…let me get my stuff.”
“Just a robe should be fine,” Cirrus comments, her eyes drifting towards the ceiling. “You won’t need much else.”
You clench your thighs together at the surge of wetness that creeps out of you and your clit throbs at the brief contact. If Cirrus sees you do it, she doesn’t comment on it. Abandoning your post at the door you go back to the bathroom and remove your bra and panties, already soaked through. Sliding the fluffy, dark red bathrobe over your shoulders and securing it at the waist, you return to Cirrus.
“Ready,” you say, sounding altogether too goddamn eager and Cirrus knows it judging from the way the points of her teeth peek out from between her lips.
“C’mon baby,” she purrs, escorting you down the hall with her hand on the small of your back. “I’ll give you exactly what you need.”
The walk down to the ghoul den is quiet, but you do pass Aether in the hallway and give him a little wave. When he sees who accompanies you he lets out a rather ominous chuckle and winks at the other ghoul. Cirrus looks entirely too pleased as she opens her bedroom door and ushers you inside, closing the door behind the both of you with a loud snap.
Her room is a beautiful collection of dark blues and blacks, making you feel like you’re hanging amidst the stars in the night sky. It’s calming and she seems to enjoy how your shoulders slump in relaxation.
“Go shower,” she nudges you towards the bathroom door, “then I’ll take care of you.”
You’re about to shut the door behind you when she calls out, “oh and…no need to put the robe back on.”
There it is, that sensation in your belly you feel in every encounter you have with the ghouls. That wonderful feeling of anticipation that lingers in your veins, the promise of something positively delicious, has you grinning as you turn the water on.
Cirrus’ products are nice…very nice…and you enjoy the heady fragrance that perfumes your hair after you step out of the shower. Drying off, you regard yourself in the semi-fogged over mirror. You have no idea what to expect from this encounter and it turns you on immensely. With a sigh, you drop the towel and head out to see Cirrus. Opening the door you hesitate slightly, until you peek your head around it and see what’s waiting for you. While you were in the shower, Cirrus transformed. She is no longer wearing the standard ghoul outfit you’ve come to expect, but rather a beautiful black lace lingerie set that makes your jaw drop. Your gaze drags over the rounded curve of her hips and her dark nipples - hard beneath the expensive material. Suddenly, you become hyper aware of how you’re standing stark naked in Cirrus’ bathroom doorway and move to cover yourself. She watches you hunch over yourself and grabs something from the nightstand. You recognize what’s in her hands as a leather flogger, the handle intricately and tightly woven. She runs the tendrils through her fingers as she approaches you. Flushing from tip to toe you move to touch her - anything to distract from your vulnerable state - but she stops you with the end of the whip against your sternum.
“Ah, ah, ah,” she smiles, canting her hip, “you have to earn that, pet.”
You pout at her and she gives you a look, tucking the end of the flogger under your chin to raise it.
“Get on the bed,” she snarls suddenly, “hands and knees.”
You feel her eyes follow you as you make your way to the bed and climb atop the dark duvet. On your hands and knees, as she requested, you feel a sense of humiliation wash over you and also…something else. You’re enjoying yourself. With a grin, you arch your back to expose your ass and cunt to Cirrus’ gaze. She approaches behind you and runs the flogger along your back and down your legs, making you shiver. When you attempt to crane your neck to look at her she strikes, hard and fast against your ass. You cry out and jolt forward, making her giggle.
“Look at you, presenting yourself like a bitch in heat,” she purrs, once again dragging the flogger gently against your bare skin. The sting of the first strike hasn’t faded when she hits you again. The bite of the leather tendrils against your haunches makes you cunt ache and you feel yourself drip onto the covers. She hums as she observes the mess you’re making.
“Do you like being exposed like this?” She strikes a third time, your mind spinning. When you don’t answer she strikes again.
“Yes!” you howl, cunt clenching around nothing.
“Yes, what?” she asks sweetly.
“Yes…mistress?” you guess and she strikes you again, making you sob.
“Say it like you mean it.”
When she runs the flat of her palm over the abused skin of your ass you want to cry. It’s the first time she’s touched your bare flesh and you ache for her.
“Yes, mistress!” you pant as she squeezes the globe of your ass hard enough for her claws to dig in.
“How much more can you take?” Cirrus wonders aloud, coming over to your face to tilt your chin up once again. Your damp hair hangs around your face and tears streak down your cheeks. Cirrus gives you a pointed look, indicating that although she is in control, she is ultimately asking you for permission. You nod your head in her grip.
“More, please,” you say hoarsely. She breaks character for a moment and allows her face to split in a beautiful smile.
“Good girl,” she coos, running a single claw down your cheek. “Such a good girl for me.”
You exhale shakily, feeling more wetness slide down your thighs.
When she returns to her position at your ass and cracks the flogger across your skin once more, you practically choke on the broken moan that slips out of you. Your arms are shaking, trying their damndest to hold you up. She slides the leather tendrils between your thighs to graze against your clit and your arms give out. You sob into the duvet as you prop yourself up on your elbows - the best you can do in your state. Cirrus doesn’t seem to mind as she is instead content to drag the flogger through your sopping folds, enjoying the way your mess glistens on the leather.
“Can you handle two more?” she asks idly, caressing your ass again.
“Yes, mistress,” you pant, whining when she removes her hand from you. The flogger comes down on your skin twice in rapid succession and your moan is more of a shout. Cirrus steps away from the bed and sets the flogger down.
“So good for me,” she croons, running a finger down your spine. “Can you be good for me a little longer?”
Your forehead hits the duvet as you whimper into the fabric. The ache in your backside stings like nothing you’ve ever felt before, but the ache in your cunt takes precedence. You push yourself back to sit on your knees and let out a ragged breath.
“Yes, mistress,” you say with surprising steadiness. Cirrus beams at you and climbs on the bed next to you.
“Lie down, pet,” she murmurs, nudging you up. You crawl towards the pillows and practically collapse on them, simply relieved to no longer be on your knees. She watches your every move as you adjust and then slowly, she slides up your body. You’re desperate to touch her, and tell her so. She laughs, her breath hot against your skin as she traces patterns into your side.
“Hmm, I suppose you’ve earned it,” she murmurs and your hands fly to her waist. You want to see more, feel more of her so you cautiously slip the lace underwear she’s wearing off her hips. She allows it, still propped up above you, and kicks the garment off when it slides down her legs. 
“You have one more task, pet, and you’ll get your reward,” she coos in your ear, before pushing herself up. Grabbing the headboard she pulls her body up yours and in a smooth motion straddles your head. Cirrus hovers there for a moment and you sigh when you glimpse how fucking wet she is. The knowledge that she is just as affected as you are makes your heart sing and you’re desperate to taste her. Slowly, too slowly for your liking but you remain silent, she lowers her cunt to your mouth. You slide your hands up her thighs to grip at her hips before leaning up to give her an experimental lick. When your tongue runs through her folds, tasting her for the first time, the both of you moan in tandem. You are dying to hear her make that noise again so you swipe your tongue upwards once more, this time teasing at her clitoral hood. Her hips buck and you hear the headboard creak under her grip. When you latch your mouth onto her cunt, she gasps so hard she almost chokes. Exposing her clit you wrap your lips around her and suckle at the bud.
“Fuck, baby,” she whines from above you, and your grip on her hips tightens. “That’s it, don’t stop.”
So you don’t.
Your face is a dripping mess as you continue to suck at her clit, pausing every once in a while to drag your tongue through her. You can tell she’s trying her hardest to remain in this position, her thighs shaking with the effort. When you bring her hips down lower onto your mouth, you groan into her folds and she whimpers. Gently, you probe your tongue inside of her and she lets out a loud moan that makes your clit throb. As you fuck her with your mouth her hips begin shifting. She’s riding your face as delicately as she can but when you latch yourself onto her clit again her bucks become fiercer. She’s chanting your name as you moan against her cunt, sliding one hand in your hair to pull at it. Her body is tensing - you know her end is coming - so your assault becomes vicious, wanting desperately to see her come undone.
“Yes, yes, yes,” she pants, “I’m gonna cum, baby. Ah–ah–I’m gonna–”
Cirrus climaxes with a high pitched drawn out moan, and you continue licking and sucking at her. Her body twists and contorts above your head as you hold her firmly against your mouth. After several moments, she murmurs your name and you reluctantly release her from your grasp. When she moves off of you and settles in between your legs, she gazes at you adoringly. You’re a mess - covered in her slick from the nose down - and you lick your lips as you look at her.
“You,” she breathes, and you let your lips slip into a smile. You’re practically glowing with pride and she beams back at you while stroking the insides of your thighs.
“You’ve more than earned your reward, my pet,” she says, nuzzling your mound. When she finally spreads your legs, a litany of “thank yous” fall from your lips. Just as she did, you cry out when her mouth slides over your clit and she wastes no time in drawing your pleasure from you. She hums against your cunt as she slides one finger, then two in between your folds and begins fucking you intently. Cirrus isn’t here to tease you any more - she’s on a mission - and she’s ruthless. You’ve got your fingers buried in her hair, thumbs caressing the base of her horns, as she pistons her fingers inside you at a staggering rate. 
“Cirrus,” you keen, all formalities forgotten, “Cirrus, honey, don’t stop.”
When you reach your climax you feel it from head to toe, building at the base of your spine and spreading to all your extremities. You cry out her name again and again and she continues fucking you through your orgasm. Your body is limp and twitching and she’s still going until you finally beg for her to stop. Now her face is covered in your juices as she leans back and removes her bra, finally exposing all of herself to you. Arousal twitches slightly in your gut as you view her bare breasts, but ultimately nothing comes of it as she snuggles against you.
“Goddamn,” you breathe and she smiles against your shoulder.
“You good?” she asks, reaching up to pet your still-damp hair.
“You could say that,” you grin, turning on your side to face her. She looks beautiful, her cheeks just as flushed at yours. And just as sticky. When you move to get up to grab a wet rag she frowns and drags you back down, wrapping her arm around your body and bringing you close.
“You smell like me,” she says, inhaling deep at your scalp.
“Yeah, I’m covered in your pussy juice,” you say wryly, which makes her laugh out loud. The sound makes your heart ache and you rest a palm on her cheek.
“Thank you for this,” you murmur quietly. She leans in to give you the only kiss of the night you’ve had, and it’s so terribly soft. She’s purring as she pulls away from you.
“You make a good pet,” she says with a little half-grin. “Think I might keep you,”
That wouldn’t be so bad.
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↳ Index [Chapter 33 - Avenir]
• Avenir (French, future)
Warnings: Yoongs & OC are the only couple ever, he tells her about the vampirism cure, they have a really deep & honest conversation afterwards, Jimin is a sweetie in this chapter
Wordcount: 7.6k
a/n: fjadsfjasjfas 
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“___ I have to talk to you.” 
“Oh no. Oh god, what happened?”
“Hm?”
“You, you addressed me by name and told me that you need to talk. That’s basically double bad.”
“No, I actually need to talk to you.”
“Okay?”
“Just”, he intertwines his fingers with yours, “come with me please.”
“Yoongi, you’re scaring me. Did I do something?”
“No love, you didn’t. I did.”
“You did?”
Yoongi nods his head, closing the door to the secret study behind him. It is located upstairs behind a bookshelf and up until recently, you had no idea that it even existed. You only found out about it because you caught Taehyung and Yoongi disappearing inside it and you followed them. They stared at you as if you were a ghost and then babbled all about how it was too dangerous for you to be here.
“What are we doing here? I thought I wasn’t allowed in here because of the curses and stuff.”
“I lied. Partially. I was keeping something from you. You still shouldn’t touch anything.”
“Okay, sounds very confusing”, you murmur, studying his face.
“Just-”, he stops talking and sits down in front of the desk, pulling you on top of his lap instead.
“Oh? That’s comfortable”, you say, rubbing his shoulder softly. You are sitting on him sideways, feeling very safe that way.
“Mhm”, he agrees but looks anxious.
“What’s the matter, love? What’s so secretive that you couldn’t tell me until now?” you ask him, caressing his cheek. 
He leans into the touch, placing his hands on your hips safely. 
“I have to tell you something, which I kept from you. I, I thought that it would be best if I did, but I need your advice.”
“Okay, talk to me.”
“___, I found a cure for vampirism.”
Yoongi almost tears up when your touch stops and soon retreats. So you are disappointed in him. He fucked it up. He is so sure of it.
“You found a cure for vampirism?” you make sure with your eyes widened in bafflement.
He nods his head.
“When? How? Where?”
“Back at Meredith’s place. She had one of Nilrem’s spell books and on its last page it contained a spell for removing vampirism from a person.”
“Nilrem? Isn’t he your former teacher? The one who created the curse in the first place?”
“Yes. I think he wanted to reverse it and I think that is why he created the spell.”
“Well, that is phew”, you breathe out loudly, “a lot to take in. Why did you keep it from me? You know that you could have told me.”
“Because I was scared.”
“Scared? Scared of what?”
“Of your reaction.”
“Really? But it’s awesome news. We could use it on Namjoon and render him useless. It’s great news.”
“Yes”, he whispers in awe, “yes, this is exactly what I was thinking as well…wait, you aren’t against it?”
“Why should I be? I think it’s a great idea. Who knows, maybe Namjoon manages to escape his prison and then all the effort would have been for nothing. We can’t kill him either, so stealing his powers is the best solution. He’ll be rendered harmless and even if he escapes, he won’t be able to do much damage.” 
“Yes, this is exactly what I was thinking. I- holy shit.”
“What?” you laugh softly.
“You actually understand. I, I was so scared that you wouldn’t and that you’d call me cruel for even thinking that.”
You smile, finally cupping his cheek again, “No. You doofus, next time tell me immediately instead of boggling your little mind with what I could think”, you tell him, caressing his temple, “we’re a team, remember?”
“Yes, I. Fuck, I’m not used to it”, he confesses, “I’m sorry, I should have told you sooner. I know I should stop being such a brooding loner, but I’m just not used to…having…someone to share stuff like this with.”
“It’s okay. I think the brooding loner vibe is kinda hot.”
Yoongi scoffs and chuckles, cocking his right eyebrow up.
“Hot?” he says.
You turn on his lap, now facing him completely with your legs tangling on each side of his hips. You hook your arms behind his head.
“Mhm-hm yeah, hot. Makes me wanna push your buttons until you break and show me where you like it”, you say in a raspy voice, dancing your fingers up and down his neck all whilst giving him a seductive little smirk.
He tilts his head back slightly, revealing his neck to your eyes.
So pretty and pale and so empty. You move closer, dragging your tongue up his neck before placing a needy kiss to his jawline. His breath hitches in his throat, his thighs press together instantly.
“Like this”, you breathe.
“Mhhm”, he hums, nodding his head in understanding.
“And like this. Do you like that?” you coo, kissing your way up to his ear.
“Yeah”, he sighs, letting his head tilt back as his eyes fall closed. He exhales shakily as your lips dance over his ear, making the softest of sounds when you bite down gently. 
He visibly shivers, rubbing his thighs together for just a second. 
“Princess…” his voice is breathy.
“Yes love? Do you like it? Mhm?” you ask him, trailing your kisses down to his neck. Just slightly behind his ear, right where he shivers the most as a result. 
“There is more”, he gets out.
“Yeah? Show me”, you encourage him, giving his thighs a little grind.
His hands touch your hips, holding them safely.
“I meant the spell”, he says, lifting his head with a heavy heart. He almost whines when your lips leave his neck, giving your hips a soft squeeze of desperation. 
Your eyes lock. 
“As much as I would love to let you push my buttons, I have to tell you more.”
“Yes okay, tell me.”
“Okay so, uhm”, he lowers his gaze even before he starts talking, “I could…I uhm….if it works on Namjoon and doesn’t kill him, I could use it…on…myself.”
You don’t say anything. You don’t even make a sound. And Yoongi feels like throwing up, which is quite ironic given how his vampire body can’t throw up, but in this moment he feels sick in anxiety. 
He lifts his gaze shyly, meeting your shocked eyes. 
“Please say something”, he whispers, making himself smaller.
“Why would you use it on yourself?”
“I, I don’t know.”
“You can’t”, you press out with a trembling lower lip. 
“Don’t cry please”, he begs, reaching out to caress your lip.
You move away, wrapping your fingers around his wrists.
“Yoongi, what the hell? Why would you even consider this?”
“I don’t know, I just…I’m sorry, please forget it.”
“No. No, I can’t. Not when you tell me something like that.”
Yoongi looks to the side. 
“Yoongi”, you shake his wrists softly, “my love, talk to me.”
“I just. I just thought that maybe we could have it.”
“Have what?”
“The thing we had in my memories”, he says, locking his gaze on yours. His eyes are slightly glassy. 
“The thing we had?”
“When I had a pulse and we kissed that, that deeply because we knew that our days were numbered and we shared one lifetime. Just one lifetime together. You and I.”
“Oh Yoongi”, you whisper, cupping his face.
He closes his eyes, leans into your touch before he turns his head and nuzzles his nose into your palm. A soft kiss follows, tender and filled with love.
“I understand what you mean. It must be exhausting to have so many lifetimes behind you and to never find peace.”
Yoongi squeezes his eyes shut, whimpering softly. 
“But Yoongi, don’t you want to spend a little more time with me?”
At that he opens his eyes, looking at you with held breath.
“I want to know how it is to be a vampire”, you confess, “I want to be like you and live longer than humans and, and when that day comes, I want to know that I will have you by my side until forever.”
“Why would you give up your life? I don’t understand why you would want to live longer than you need to.”
“Because I just…growing old is scary. We’ll live with the knowledge that one day we won’t see each other anymore. What if you take the cure and then you’ll die before me? Then I’d be heartbroken.”
He lets out a quick laugh, “and I should accept when you die before me?”
You shake your head, “that’s why I’ll turn into a vampire when the time is right, so you won’t lose me and I can keep this sexy body.”
Yoongi tries and fails not to laugh. 
“You’re always sexy. I’d want you even if we’re both old and grey.”
You snicker, squishing his cheeks softly.
“I know. I’d want you too”, you say. You begin combing your fingers through his hair, painting tranquillity on his features.
“But no more talk about giving up your powers. At least not until we captured Namjoon. You need to keep your powers to fight him and keep us safe. Yeah?” you make sure. 
“Yeah I guess…” Yoongi murmurs and lowers his head.
“Tell me. What’s still on your mind?”
“I just want to”, he pulls you closer so he could hide his face in your chest, “I want to know that I have an option. Not being able to die no matter what you try, sounds like a dream at first, but when you”, his voice begins trembling, “when you lose everyone you love over and over again until loss becomes a fucking routine and when you see people finally finding peace through death over and over again while you have to get through everything even if it hurts so much you don’t want to go on anymore, you realise that not being able to die is a curse.”
“I understand”, your voice carries immense comfort for him, “I really understand why you feel that way. And I get it. Even if I became a vampire and most death becomes harmless to me, I could still end it by ripping my heart out. So in a way I still have a safe switch, but you don’t.”
“Yeah.”
“So I understand why you’re so happy about this supposed cure and I’m really happy for you too because I want you to have the option to find peace”, you speak with unconditional love in your voice, caressing his cheek and temple the entire time, “I know how much you had to suffer in the past and I really don’t want you to think that I want to take this chance at peace from you, but Yoongi let’s not use it so hastily.”
You tilt his head up.
“We don’t know what it does. Maybe it kills you instantly or maybe it kills you painfully. Or maybe you don’t die, but live your life in pain. Maybe your life catches up on you and you die in a few days, you know like in the movies when an old witch gets defeated and then becomes a million years old.”
He scoffs, “I don’t think that this would happen.”
“But if it does? Then you’d be a wrinkly old witch before turning into dust and I don’t want this fate for you.”
He chuckles, rolling his eyes at you fondly. You giggle, giving his nose a soft tap.
“So let’s use it on Namjoon first and see how and if it works. And if it does and it is safe, then we can keep it in the back of our heads for darker days.”
You wipe the tears from his lashes.
“I’m not asking you to give it up. Hell, I’m happy for you that you finally found something that could finally bring you peace, but Yoongi I refuse to believe that living with me doesn’t bring you peace.”
“It does”, he says without hesitation.
“See?” you smile, “your life isn’t as dark and lonely anymore as it once was. You have me now and you know damn well, that I want to work my ass off to make living worthwhile for you.”
“You do”, no hesitation, “you make it worthwhile.”
“Well, that’s good to hear”, you caress his cheek with so much tenderness that Yoongi does everything in his power not to close his eyes. He can’t. Not yet. Not when looking into your love-filled, beautiful eyes brings him so much reassurance that whatever he may say, he can count on you. 
“Please don’t work so much for me”, he whispers.
“What do you mean?”
“You shouldn’t work for me. So much. Don’t do it. I don’t want to be of so much work.”
“Who says that I don’t love doing it? Yoongi it’s not work, I love showing you nice things. It’s not exhausting and you’re not exhausting.”
“But what if you. What if you grow tired of it? Or, or me? Then we’ll have eternity hating each other.”
“Well, do you want to hate me at some point?”
“No”, he says immediately, shaking his head, “I could never hate you. I don’t want to.”
“Then rest assured that I feel the same.”
He flusters, looking to the side.
“I won’t ever grow tired of you, my love”, you say softly, tracing the slope of his nose and forehead, “I told you, you are the most exciting person in my life. And I mean it, you’re the best thing that ever happened to me.”
“You too”, he presses out. He cups your face and pulls you close so your foreheads rest against each other, “you’re the best goddamn fucking thing.”
You chuckle at his harsh way of saying it, melting on the spot.
“You’re so cute. I’m so happy that I am. Yoongi give me a kiss.”
He leans in without hesitation, kissing you softly. His thumb is caressing your cheek as he does while your own is touching his temple.
Yoongi breaks the kiss after a moment, rubbing his nose against yours.
“I’m sorry”, he whispers.
“For what?”
“For bringing all of this up. I’m so unfair for burdening you with my shit.”
“It’s only a burden if it was forced upon me. My love, I choose to carry your worries. You don’t burden me.”
“Ah god”, he presses out, squeezing your head, “god, fuck”, he grunts then whimpers softly, “why are you so good?”
“At what?”
“At functioning?”
“I don’t think I’m that good, I just try to live.”
“I can’t do it. Any of it. I can’t be emotional or honest. It’s, it’s so hard.”
“Yoongi, you’ve been sharing your feelings with me for the last twenty minutes. You’re better at it than you may think.”
His breathing slows down, his hands finally stop squeezing your head. 
You chuckle softly and tilt your head to kiss his forehead. The breath Yoongi lets out sounds as if he just shed a million pounds of trouble with it.
“I don’t want to die”, he confesses.
“Mhm”, you kiss his forehead a second time.
“I really don’t want to die. Not when I have you. And, and I want to enjoy life with you.”
You smile, kissing his forehead a third time.
“Me too Yoongi.”
“But I just…I want to know that if I wanted to, I could…die. That’s all I wanted for three millennia. To know that I can also end.”
“I understand, this is totally valid and you are allowed to know that. This is why we will test it out on Namjoon first and then watch what it does. And if it is safe?” you tilt his head up, “well, then you can finally rest assured that shall the day ever come where you don’t want to anymore, you can finally close your eyes for good, but for now”, you reach for his eyes.
Yoongi closes them and sighs when you run your thumbs over his lids softly.
“For now I want to look at those pretty eyes for a long, long time.”
Yoongi opens his eyes, blushing slightly.
“You’re so cheesy”, he mumbles.
“I know”, you snicker.
Yoongi lets a pretty smile wash over his face. He places his hands on your waist, caressing you softly.
“Thank you”, he says, “you always know what to say.”
“Of course”, you assure him, pinching his rosy cheek, “we’re a team.”
“Yeah, we’re a team”, he says, smiling brighter.
He sighs in relief and drops his head against your chest.
“Fuck, I’m so exhausted now”, he confesses and chuckles, “talking about your feelings is tiring.”
You laugh, ruffling his hair, “yeah right? But you did it and that’s great. I’m proud of you, Yoongi Boongie.”
“Mhm”, he nuzzles, “princess, god I wanna sleep”, he laughs, “can I nap just like this?”
“But that’s uncomfortable. Let’s go somewhere we can lie down.”
“But walking”, he whines, making you laugh. 
“Fine, you doofus then let’s nap on this terrible chair”, you say, snickering.
Yoongi lifts his head because he wants to see your smile. He beams up at you so much that his eyes turn into pretty, little crescent moons.
You reach out with your tender hands and cup his face, caressing his cheeks as the sound of your sweet giggle makes Yoongi fall even more for you.
“Why are you laughing?” he asks, hoping that the answer is a good one.
“No reason, I’m just happy”, you answer him, painting the goofiest grin on his pretty face.
“Me too”, he says, rubbing your back, “give me a kiss, my princess.”
You giggle and give him a big smooch. You pull back, let him chase you and smooch him again, basking in the lazy yet oh so happy chuckles and the soft sighs of approval he lets out. One more time because it is so much fun.
“Stop pulling away”, Yoongi complains in a whine.
“I’m not, just try harder”, you tease him.
Yoongi pulls you closer rather roughly, making you squeak and laugh.
“Don’t make me actually try”, he warns.
“Or what?”
“I’ll kiss you until you’re sick of it.”
“Oh no, that sounds terrible. How could you?” you gasp dramatically.
Yoongi smiles lazily, hooking his fingers behind your neck.
“Com’ere”, he whispers, “lemme kiss.”
You let him pull you closer, sighing happily when your lips finally touch.
“Ahem.”
Yoongi breaks the kiss. You both look to your side where someone so loudly cleared their throat.
Hoseok is gawking at you with big eyes.
“We uh..got news of…okay very off topic, but that’s how you guys are in private?”
“What do you want Hoseok?” Yoongi says, having his public voice back on.
“You guys are disgusting in private. Eww you are so whipped”, Hoseok teases, pointing his finger at you as he laughs loudly.
“Are you twelve?” Yoongi hisses with his cheeks burning up in embarrassment.
Hoseok snickers, “sorry, sorry I just had to say something. Goddamn, I won’t forget that ever again. You guys chasing each other like two love drunk idiots.”
“Hobi come on, get to the point”, you say with fondness in your voice.
“Ah yeah the point”, Hoseok stops laughing, wiping imaginary tears from his eyes, “the point is that you guys are two nerds. Hah!”
You can’t help but snicker. You must give it to him. He is a complete idiot.
“Hoseok”, Yoongi grumbles, “get to the point.”
“Okay, okay yeah sorry I just had to make one more joke”, he says and straightens his back, “I feel awful for being the reason for breaking up you guys’ cute yet very major nerd moment date, but we got a call from Fredrick.”
“What does he want?”
“His informants heard rumours of Namjoon not far from here. It’s just an hour drive and if we drive now, we could surprise him.”
You and Yoongi exchange a look.
“Holy fuck, that’s great news”, you say.
“It’s incredible news”, Yoongi stands up with you in his arms, sitting you down on the table, “I have to go.”
“I know, I’ll prepare the ingredients for the, you know, spell in case you’re successful.”
“Understood. Don’t touch anything you don’t know the purpose of, it could be dangerous.”
“I won’t. Good luck, love.”
He nods his head and breaks away from you.
“Let’s go”, he says to Hoseok and places his hand on his upper back in a brotherly tap.
“I really hope that we’re successful. Honestly I miss knowing that I can have a chill day without Namjoon appearing outta nowhere”, Hoseok says, opening the door for Yoongi.
The latter turns in the doorway, locking eyes with you. You give him a reassuring smile.
“Hyung? Are you not coming?” Hoseok asks him when he doesn’t budge.
Within a second Yoongi is by your side again.
“What-”, you can’t finish your question when Yoongi cups your face and pulls you into a deep kiss. The kind of kiss that steals your breath away and which leaves you dizzy once he pulls back.
“I love you”, Yoongi whispers, gazing at you as if it was the last time he will ever lay eyes upon you.
“I…love you too”, you breathe, feeling oh so flabbergasted.
And with that Yoongi finally breaks away and hurries outside. He gives you one last look over his shoulder and disappears.
With your heart racing in your chest, you look at Hoseok for just a second. He is grinning.
“Nerds”, he says, closing the door afterwards.
So now you are alone. You touch your lips. They still tingle from Yoongi’s kiss. Next your cheeks, which he held oh so safely. His touch still lingers on your skin like a warm reminder of good moments.
“Well damn”, you murmur, touching your chest where your heart is racing unbearably, “you’ve really got it bad, don’t you ___?”
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“What are you doing?”
It has been around twenty minutes since the others left and you are still hunching over the book, looking at pictures because you realised that you can’t read the language it is written in. You lift your head upon hearing someone call out for you.
Jimin is standing in the doorway, wearing a full set of clothes for once. His hair is down, making his face appear younger and his cheeks softer. He does that often these days. Show himself in cozy attire. Good. You hope that he can only have comfortable days from now on.
“I could ask you the same thing. Shouldn’t you be with the others?”
“No, I’m not risking anything. You will not see this handsome face”, he points at his own face, “anywhere near Namjoon until the day he is behind bars and I can throw rotten eggs at him.”
You snort, “sounds like a good plan, do tell me when you plan on doing it, I’ll join you.”
“Will do”, he says, studying you from head to toe afterwards, “what are you seriously doing though? Isn’t that Yoongi’s spell book?”
“Yeah, I realised that I can’t read it, so now I’m looking at pictures.”
“Hm.”
Jimin pushes himself off the doorway and struts to you. He sits down on the desk, looking into the book.
“Huh”, he says.
“What is it? Can you read it?”
“Would you look at that? This is beyond interesting”, he murmurs as his eyes dance over the letters.
“What is it?”
“I have no fucking clue what that says”, Jimin says and snickers.
“Idiot”, you hiss, hitting his knee softly, “I thought that you could read it.”
“Nah honey”, he says, leaning back on his hands, “I may be old, but that language has more than two millennia on me, I have no idea what it says. The pictures look pretty though.”
You roll your eyes, “very helpful.”
He shrugs his shoulders and gives you a boyish grin.
“So what are you going to do now? Look at pictures all night long?” he asks.
“Yeah? Maybe I can find something that will help us.”
“I doubt it.”
“Thanks?”
“Not your brain, just that this book is any useful.”
“Thanks again? Did you just admit that I’m intelligent?”
“I never claimed the opposite. You have brain, which kinda annoyed me back in the day.”
You scoff, “well, thank you.”
He rolls his eyes, “you are welcome. Don’t act too flattered though.”
“I wouldn’t dare.”
He scoffs then chuckles, looking at you with a sort of friendliness in his gaze. He jumps off the table, strutting to the bookshelves behind you. You turn with the chair, watching him.
“There’s so many books I have no interest in ever reading here”, he murmurs.
“Do you not like reading?”
“Not really? It was always kind of pointless to me.”
“Well, then you haven’t found the right books yet.”
“Really?” he asks and snorts.
“Mh-hm”, you nod your head, “reading is fun. You can broaden your knowledge on stuff, lose yourself in different worlds or find similarities to your own life in sentences or characters.”
“Yeah, I see it, but I don’t need it. Sorry, hun.”
“Fine, whatever. I’m telling you, there will come a day where you will find joy in it.”
“Oh, I do find joy in it.”
“Really?”
“Yup. Back in the day, I loved reading Tae’s plays. He always has the most thrilling ideas.”
“Plays, you say? How come he never talks about his plays?”
“I think Namjoon forced him to give it up. He doesn’t talk about it, not even to me, but Namjoon has a liking for ruining people’s hobbies.”
“Well, that’s just terrible.”
“Yeah, he’s an asshole.”
“Did he ruin something for you too?”
“Other than my entire life? Sure, there’s lots of stuff he ruined for me.”
“Do you want to share them with me?”
“Ew”, he scrunches his nose up, “ew, why do you care for that? What are you doing?”
“Tzt”, you roll your eyes, “idiot, am I not allowed to ask my friend what his hobbies are?”
“Eww, I’m your friend?”
“Well now you aren’t anymore, you weirdo.”
Jimin touches the side of his neck, averting his gaze to the shelf in shyness. You click your tongue, turning with your chair afterwards.
You managed to flip two pages of Yoongi’s spell book when Jimin speaks again.
“Taehyung and I wrote a ballet once.”
You lift your head, listening to him with your back turned to him. You feel that if you looked at him, he would retreat back into his shell again.
“It was the best story he ever thought of and he wanted me to be the danseur noble. So I created the dance while he thought of the story and then together we worked on the music.”
You have to smile. It is rather sweet to imagine the both of them creating melodies together.
“It took us three years to finish, but then…”, Jimin becomes quieter in his speech, “…Namjoon interrupted our casting. He killed everyone in the room and broke my legs before he shattered Taehyung’s hands. He told us to remember our places and then afterwards Tae and I stopped wanting to perform the ballet.”
“Well fuck”, you press out, “I should have expected such an outcome and yet each time you tell me what this fucker did, I am surprised.” You turn with your chair. “I’m sorry Jimin, that must have been awful.”
“I was used to it, I guess”, he looks to the side in embarrassment, “at least I tell myself that. It makes it easier.”
“I can imagine.”
He takes a deep breath, releasing it in a chuckle afterwards.
“What are you doing to me? Are you some sort of witch? Why do you always make me open up about my feelings when we’re talking?”
“I don’t know. Maybe I just seem trustworthy”, you joke, making him laugh.
“Yeah maybe.”
He steps closer and for a moment you think that he might reach out and pat your shoulder. But he doesn’t, instead he turns his back to you.
“Either way, I’m leaving you to your stuff”, he says, leaving the secret study in quick steps.
Except that he doesn’t really. Just ten minutes later and he is back with tea and biscuits.
“You’re back already?” you ask him.
“I just figured that, I don’t know, you always drink when you’re like reading and stuff. I don’t know”, he places the tray on the table next to you, “here.”
There is one cup on the tray. You never realised that Jimin watched you read or that he watched you long enough to realise that you always drink tea when you do.
“Thank you, Jimin wow. That’s so nice of you.”
“Yes, I know”, he says, shimmying from one foot to the other. It seems that he is waiting for something.
“Why don’t you grab that chair over there and join me for a cup? Maybe we could look for clues together.”
“Sure, if you want to”, he tries to sound nonchalant, but it’s not really helping when he pulls out a cup from the pocket of his hoodie as if he was just waiting for you to invite him. He places it on the tray without making eye contact, then hurries to grab the chair by the window.
He places it next to you, sitting down with one foot standing on the chair and the other resting on the pillowy seat. You prepare a cup for the both of you.
“Do you want some cream in yours?” you ask him.
“Yes, that’d be nice. Thanks.”
He drinks it without looking at you, setting it down. He clears his throat.
“Good. I made it just right.”
“You really did. It’s very rich in flavour”, you say, turning your attention back to the book.
Jimin watches you for a moment, fumbling with the biscuit in his hand. It is covering his fingers in crumbs and the greasy residue of butter.
“Are you educated in witchcraft?” he asks.
“Me? No, I have no idea. You?”
“Just the basics. I picked up a few things when I was living with the witches in Paris.”
“I see. Well, then you know more than me. Although, I do know many spells that could kill you guys.”
“Why?” he gasps.
“I learned them back when we started hunting Namjoon. I thought that they might come in handy.”
“Sounds logical. You creep.”
“Hey”, you nudge his leg, “be careful I could just snap my finger and turn you into a frog.”
He snorts, “sure, I’d like to see you try. You’re human remember?”
“I know. Boring, am I right?”
“I think it’s kinda cool. I always wanted to be human.”
“That seems to be a shared topic tonight”, you mumble.
“What?”
“Nothing, I was just mumbling nonsense”, you dismiss him, drinking some tea, “but enough about that. We have spells to find.”
“What are we looking for anyways?”
“I don’t know, something that could stop Namjoon.”
“Ripping off his head will stop him for a while. Easy.”
You chuckle, “sure. If we can get close enough to him to do that.”
“Yoongi will. He’s stronger than Namjoon.”
“Really?”
“Well, at least a little. That’s what he told me. It’s because he’s a Gluttonous Ripper and Namjoon’s just a Glutton. And I think he was also like the first ever vampire so he’s older too. You know. The strength adds up. Yoongi’s like unstoppable basically.”
“It makes sense. Maybe that’s why Namjoon hasn’t tried to attack us yet. Or why he never tried to actively eliminate Yoongi.”
“That, but also Namjoon is hated way more than Yoongi and barely has people helping him. Yoongi would just have to snap his fingers and people would want to help. Namjoon not so much. Even if the old grumps likes to pretend that everyone hates him just as much, they really don’t.”
“You think so?”
“Of course I do. The community knows what he did for us. As do the witches and werewolves. They’re not blind to all the sacrifices he made. Trust me, I talk to a lot people. Why do you think I’m still alive?”
“Thea?”
“Yeah, besides her. It’s because I always pulled the I’m friends with Min Yoongi card when I got myself into trouble.”
“You’re such a sneaky bastard”, you say, stifling a laugh.
“A sneaky bastard, who knew how to survive”, he says with a lifted finger.
“True that, I can’t deny it.”
Jimin smiles and you retort it.
The air feels comfortable between you and him. It’s a nice feeling to experience.
“Now, let’s actually get this started”, he says and stands up. He places his hand on your shoulder, giving it a gentle squeeze, “I’ll check the shelves.”
“Good idea. I’ll check the rest of the book.”
You spent the next hour in silence. It is a comfortable silence. It is the kind of silence, you thought to never be able to share with Jimin. You like that you can however. It is better to spend time with him that way, instead of always wanting to rip each others’ heads off.
The both of you finish the tea in the time of silence. You get another cup and more biscuits as well. He thanks you for it and then returns to rummaging around the piles of books.
The can has been significantly emptied when Jimin officially returns to the table, placing a book on top of it. He sits down again, reaching for his cup of tea.
“What’s that?” you ask him.
“A spellbook, it’s in Latin”, he says, crossing his legs nonchalantly, “maybe you could like it.”
“That’s a good find. Thank you, Jimin.”
“Sure, no biggie.”
He watches you for a moment, finding it peculiar that you furrow your brows when you concentrate. He isn’t judging it, he just finds it funny because it makes you look angry at the book. He eats one of the biscuits and sips on his tea.
“Anything interesting yet?” he asks.
“No, just Latin I’m too dumb to understand”, you murmur, reaching for your cup without looking.
Jimin pushes it to you so you wouldn’t miss it, handing you a piece of biscuit seconds later. You accept it absentmindedly, dunking it into your tea and forgetting it right there.
“Geez, take the cookie out, you’re drowning it”, Jimin says, pulling your hand away.
“Huh? Oh dear, I totally didn’t notice that.”
“I couldn’t tell at all. Ew, soggy biscuit.”
“It’s good stuff, don’t judge it”, you say, eating it most deliciously.
“If you say so”, he murmurs, scrunching his nose up.
“You go look for another book, instead of judging me.”
“I’m not judging you, on the contrary.”
You turn with your chair.
“Really? What’s that supposed to mean.”
He shrugs his shoulders nonchalantly.
“Nothing really. Do you think the others have reached Namjoon by now?”
You check your watch.
“It’s been more than hour. They should have arrived by now. Let’s hope that they’re okay.”
“They’re definitely fine. They all know how to fight and they have Yoongi.”
“Yeah, I guess. I’m still really worried.”
“Why?”
“What if someone gets hurt?”
“Then they’ll heal. Don’t worry.”
You sigh in defeat, “I guess. Gosh, I always get so worried when they leave to fight. I should stop that, it’s not like they can get hurt. And Yoongi will keep them safe.”
Jimin nods his head, giving you a reassuring smile.
“Exactly, he’ll keep them safe.”
He stands up again and returns to the bookshelf. He wouldn’t tell you, but he enjoys today’s evening. Your scent doesn’t annoy him anymore and your heartbeat doesn’t make him angry anymore. As a matter of fact, he finds the sounds of it rather relaxing. Just as he finds the sounds of you flipping the pages or setting your cup of tea down relaxing.
He also wouldn’t tell you that ever since he swore to be better for Tae, he turned his emotions back on. Because admitting that would mean that he would also have to admit that you were right. Feeling is nice if you are surrounded by good people. It is just incredibly hard to accept that he was indeed surrounded by good people these days. The thought of Namjoon still lingers in the back of his mind and sometimes he catches himself in the act of being rude to someone without even wanting to.
He tries very hard not to this evening, because you have been so nice to him. You let him hang out with Taehyung and you show no signs of disgust over their bond. You talk to him nicely even after all the awful shit he pulled with you. And you called him your friend.
Jimin sneaks a glance at you. You have one leg pulled on the chair, hunching terribly.
He smiles.
You are the second person after Taehyung to call him a friend. It feels nice to be called a friend for once. Enemy sounds so familiar, but leaves a bitter taste in his mouth. Friend sounds unfamiliar, but leaves sweetness behind. He likes it a lot and he hopes that he can hear it a lot from now on, because he wants to be friends with you and the others.
“Jimin, look.”
“Yeah? Found something?”
He takes the space behind you, placing both of his hands on your shoulders. It makes you sneak a glance up at him because of the unfamiliarity of it. He doesn’t seem to notice, looking at the book. So you don’t call him out on it, turning your attention to the book instead.
“It’s a spell about magical barriers. It says you need sorbus aucuparia to keep mythical creatures out.”
“Okay? And now for dummies please.”
“Mountain ash. It says that you have to grind up the bark of it and then sprinkle it on your threshold whilst repeating these words.”
“Sounds a little like nonsense to me. I never heard of mountain ash being able to stop us.”
“I mean, in theory every good piece of wood is able to stop you.”
“I didn’t mean it like that, good god”, he says and squeezes your shoulders.
You snicker.
“Tzt, just keep looking”, he says, abandoning your shoulders for the sake of finding something interesting.
The second can of tea gets emptied by you and him. The plate of biscuits soon is empty as well. Jimin finds two more books, which you now read on the sofa in the sitting room next to the kitchen. The one with the red satin sofas and huge marble statues of Alpha in each corner of the room. Taehyung made them over the span of ten years. Namjoon’s statue was covered by a heavy piece of fabric these days. Jimin reads too, resting on the sofa with his legs dangling over the headrest and his head almost falling off the edge.
Every now and then, the sounds of pages flipping cuts through the silence.
“Urgh boring”, Jimin breaks said silence with a loud groan.
“What?” you ask, lowering your book.
“Reading is so boring. Can’t we do something else?”
“What do you have in mind?”
“Just anything other than reading. Let’s watch a movie.”
“Sure, with what television?”
Jimin drops his head over the edge of the sofa, scanning his eyes over the upside down room.
“Urgh, uncool. Why do we not own a TV? What’s wrong with us? We have to buy one soon, it’s ridiculous. We’re living as if we’re still in 1834. Urgh, I’m so bored”, he whines with a huge pout on his lips.
“Just read your book”, you say with amusement lacing your voice.
Jimin lifts his head and drops it on the sofa in a weird angle.
“Let’s go to the movies together.”
“Now?”
“Yeah, duh.”
“What if the others come back in the meantime?”
“We’ll just leave a note or something.”
“I don’t know.”
“Come on ___, don’t be so boring.”
“I don’t know”, you whine, “I kind of want to be here when they return so we can make sure that they’re all okay.”
“They’re going to be fine. They have Yoongi, remember?”
You roll your eyes, “you can’t convince me that easily.”
“Urgh ___”, Jimin whines, “come on, let’s go to the movies.”
“Let’s just wait for a little, maybe they’ll come back soon.”
“___!” someone screams your name.
“See? As I told you.”
Jimin rolls his eyes, “fine, you win this round.”
“___!” Jungkook is screaming.
“I’m here!” you call out, hurrying out of the sitting room.  
“___!” his voice is breaking at the end.
“Kook! I’m here!” you tell him, making it easier for him to find you by running to where he calls out from.
You collide with him on the hallway.
“___”, he presses out with tears streaming down his face.
“Jungkook holy fuck, what’s wrong?”
“___ we captured Namjoon.”
“What? You captured him? Holy shit, Jungkook this is awesome”, you laugh, falling around his neck.
Jungkook sobs, squeezing you so tightly that you can barely breathe.
“Kook, careful your strength”, you warn him in a chuckle.
“___ I’m sorry”, he chokes out.
“Hey, it’s okay. We’re all happy here. So where is he? Where are the others?”
“Oh god”, Jungkook presses out and sobs loudly next to you.
“Gosh Kook, stop crying you’ll make me cry too”, you say, wrapping your arm around his waist.
That is when it happens. Namjoon sets foot into the estate, guided by Hoseok and Seokjin and with the Unbreakable Shackles around his wrists. The guys are covered in the remnants of the fight, carrying a grim expression on their face. Namjoon lifts his head and locks eyes with you and Jimin. His lips curl into a menacing smile.
He laughs.
He laughs loudly and happily and as if he won.
“What the fuck?” you say, eyeing him with shock.
“Fuck yes. I knew you fucking pigs weren’t dead”, Namjoon says and laughs louder, throwing his head back, “oh life’s fucking great. I’m going to rip you to shreds, Park Jimin.”
Jimin is hiding behind you and Jungkook, entire body trembling in fear. He is even grabbing a piece of your jumper, twisting it with shaking fingers.
“Stop hiding, little piglet. Oh, I’m going to fucking hurt you”, he growls.
Jimin whimpers, squeezing his eyes shut.
“Shut up, you cunt”, you spit, making yourself bigger in front of him. Namjoon’s black eyes flit to you.
He growls demonically, “come here little one, if you’re brave enough. Nobody’s going to protect you now”, he challenges you, snapping at you with bared fangs.
“What the hell is his problem?” you murmur, cocking your eyebrow up in judgement.
“___, I’m so sorry”, Jungkook presses out, whimpering painfully.
It only makes Namjoon laugh harder.
“Shut the fuck up”, Hoseok hisses, pushing Namjoon roughly “fuck, you’re giving me a headache.”
They pass by you. Namjoon rips himself free of Hoseok’s grasp, jumping at you instantly. Not that he can actually reach you, Seokjin catches him by his hair before he can, tugging him back roughly. But Namjoon fights him, he fights him to the point that all the tugging on his hair contorts his face into a grimace of distorted sanity. He is dripping black saliva from his sharp fangs, staring at you with obsidian eyes.
“You lost”, he growls and laughs, “you fucking lost.”
“Tzt”, you scoff, “says the one who is currently rendered useless. Look around you Namjoon, you are the one who lost.”
“Hah!” Namjoon exclaims loudly and laughs.
The sound of it twists your stomach in disgusted fear.
“Shut up”, Seokjin hisses, finally managing to tug him away, “walk. Asshole.”
“I may be useless right now!” Namjoon screams, “but you are the one who lost everything! I fucking won!”
“He’s crazy”, you murmur, turning to Jungkook, “what’s wrong? Why are you crying?”
“___ he-”, Jungkook whimpers, “cursed wood.”
“What?”
“He keeps healing and, and not healing. And- oh god.”
“What do you mean?”
Taehyung and Emma stumble into the estate and in their middle Yoongi is fighting and writhing in their arms. His skin is grey and in his mouth a cloth is stuck so he wouldn’t bite his own teeth out.
“Yoongi?” you gasp, running to his side, “holy fuck, what happened?”
“___, he had cursed wood. Namjoon he, he knew that we were coming. He, he had cursed wood grinded up and hit Yoongi with it. And, and he i-inhaled it an-and it’s, it’s- oh god”, Jungkook can’t finish his sentence as sobs rip through him.
“What?”
“Argh!” Yoongi screams up and fights himself free from Taehyung’ and Emma’s grasps. He falls to the ground, convulsing painfully. The cloth falls out of his mouth.
Yoongi screams. He screams like you have never heard a man scream before. Black blood gushes from his mouth and nose, muffling his screams all while he is choking on them.
“Yoongi?” you press out, “holy fuck, what is happening? Yoongi?”
The blood is streaming out of his eyes as well, turning his vision dark. His screams become muffled by the blood, his fingers reach for you.
“Oh god, it’s okay. Hey, it’s okay. I’m here”, you promise him and hold his hand.
Yoongi shatters it. He didn’t want it to happen, but he is in too much pain to have control. It hurts like you have never ached before and yet you can’t let go. You squeeze him right back, crying under the pain and the worry.
“Make it stop”, he begs and coughs for air, “it hurts, please”, he begs, convulsing again and again and again until the convulsing stops.
His hands stops squeezing you, his body stops twitching.
“Yoongi?”
You touch his face.
“Yoongi? Hey, Yoongi?”
You shake him.
“Yoongi?”
You shake him again.
“My love?”
The panic twists your stomach.
“Yoongi, wake up please. Please wake up.”
His hand slips out of your grasp.
“Yoongi! Please wake up! Yoongi! Please! Why aren’t you waking up?! Yoongi!”
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Angela And Spencer
Hello, everyone. I'm new here, not just to Smosh, but a little bit to Tumblr as well. And I'm jumping right into the deep end, I guess.
Okay, the thing is I absolutely love the Angela and Spencer dynamic. As a friendship and an amazing duo. It's just important to remember that they are not fictional, they're real people, so I don't let shit get weird. Is the idea of them together appealing? Sure, it is. I just believe it's okay as long as no one is being weird, creepy, or obsessive about it, then having casual fun with it is cool. Just be respectful. That's one of the reasons why I was hesitant to make this post because it might come across as something more than what it is. Which is just me enjoying my favorite duo, having fun, and sharing that with others.
Okay, now that's out of the way…
Spangela. As I've mentioned, I love them very much and I feel like not a lot of people talk about them. Now, more and more people are seeing the light, though. I still feel like they're closer than any of us realize. I only found two awesome compilations of them on YouTube, which was very surprising to me as a new fan of Smosh, I thought for sure there would be more. The compilations are created by @fvckwluv and they are an amazing editor, go check them out if you haven't already.
And because I get very anxious and I don't know many creators here and I don't want anyone to feel weird about my request. I'm making this post with some of my favorite moments, hoping that someone will kindly volunteer and make a compilation and add just a few of these moments to it. @fvckwluv I'm looking at you. Kidding, kidding. No pressure, lol. But I'd still appreciate it if one or two of them happen to make it in your next video because your editing is awesome and you can make all the moments work together well.
Okay, now, I can't do all my favorite moments in one post because that will be even longer than this one. I know. But yes, this post can be even longer. So, I'm only gonna start with sweet and very subtle moments that I feel show they're close friends and know each other well, as well as moments where Spencer is just being sweet to Angela. And if this works out and someone makes a video, then I'll post my other favorite moments. I mean, they roast each other constantly and they quite literally attack each other in Don't Win Mario videos all the time, so that should be its own thing.
So, I'm not including popular stuff of theirs. For now, I'm simply focusing on the underrated, subtle, and sweet friendship moments. Mostly. I will also be adding time stamps as much as I can, so it would be easier for anyone who wants to check them out or if anyone just wants to make a video.
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(The Chosen Moose Master Multiverse):
I mean, that whole video is just incredible. Their interactions are fucking gold. But other than the obvious moments, I like the subtle ones. When they start joking about Spy Kids. At 10:28, Spencer says to her, "And you love traitors." I'm starting with this moment, so you can understand what I mean when I say subtle moments. Because this one shows that he knows her and I like that.
When Angela does her second finishing move. At 20:38, I love how Spencer goes, "Oh, my god, I just got chills."
At 20:38, when she mentions that they forgot a rule during their turn with the I don't want to get a boner joke. I love the way he's smiling at her, saying. "We can take it back." And she smiles, too. "It's okay, I just wanted to get it in there."
Also, the last like 6 minutes of the video where he's so impressed laughing and clapping while she annihilates everyone.
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(Do you pick your nose in public):
They were both hesitant and unsure about smelling good to others. At 19:54, when Angela starts talking, I just like the way he's looking at her, so that's nothing. Just a me thing.
And at 20:26, you can see them in the background nodding at each other reassuringly.
At 25:55, he jokingly asks Angela "So you're telling me if I come to you with a pimple…" I know Chanse answers him, too, but he was very clearly looking at Angela when he was talking, he also laughed at her chatGPT answer.
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Okay, look, I just love seeing how they progressed in their relationship over time. In earlier videos, you can so clearly tell that they're still trying to feel each other out a little bit, it's so sweet.
Two times there was a tie, and Spencer had to be the tiebreaker, and both times, he picked her. Again, it's nothing, but I like these videos. The worst dates ever? Video. Spencer joins at 30:43. And the Our Craziest Business Ideas so Far video, Spencer joins at 35:55, Spencer liked her idea there, as he should, it was great. And it was also really funny when they all leaned in to smell him because he smelled so good, apparently.
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(Don't Win Mario Kart):
This video was amazing, just because Angela won that shit, but also because Spencer was so hyped whenever she won, and at 8:57, he was like, "Oh my fucking god." And, 20:35, he goes, "Angela won again!" In like, an excited voice.
And when Chanse was teasing her and telling her that her hair smelled bad when she was dancing and celebrating, for whatever reason, Spencer says at like, 20:11 "Show us how you washed your hair." Which is just…a great thing to say for me to think about. Thanks, Spencer.
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(Is He Cheating? Reddit Stories):
I mean, the whole video is a favorite moment on its own. But of course, the 13:27 Nerfs are in the gun joke, the look he gives her after is one to dissect, for sure. The first time I watched it, I was like, "What's wrong with him? Why is he looking at her like that? The joke wasn't that bad." And then I thought, maybe it was an inside joke or something because his reaction was so…weird, but also really hot? But the slight smirk was just…yeah, it was something. I was confused, mainly. I love them.
And the exchange goes on for a while, too. After Shayne asks for clarification Angela explains, and Spencer turns back to her and says softly, "That's crazy." And then they both just exhale a little laugh while covering their faces. Yeah, I think about this a lot. But I also feel like it was just a moment with no explanation behind it.
At 14:07, When Shayne announces an update and Angela leans in excitedly with her mouth open, Spencer sees her in the monitor or screen thing. He sees her and smiles and then leans in with her, too, with an agape mouth. I liked that moment. Especially that small smile and chuckle he lets out when he sees her reaction before doing the same thing himself.
At 52:33, when Angela starts humming jokingly at the Reddit story and he joins, I love how long it goes on. She just keeps doing it while he's silently laughing.
At 53:42, when Spencer makes the uggo joke, and Angela laughs and explains it to Shayne, I think you can see him looking at the monitor again, smiling while she speaks. And of course, when they lean in together at the end of the video showing off their matching hats. Like, we get it, you're insanely cute.
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(Overcooked):
The glasses saga starts at 2:02. And from there, it's all hilarious and cute at the same time. But, an underrated part, is at 18:33, after Angela says "They're in my car." the first time. You can hear Spencer ask, "Do you want me to go get them?" And you can see Angela shake her head no. But it's very faint, though, you have to wear your headphones to hear him.
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Okay, now, live streams. Live streams are where they truly thrive and shine.
(Sharing YOUR SWORD AF fan art live):
Just one very small moment here and it's still a good one. People kept sending how sexy Angela is in the chat and how she is the sexiest woman alive, and I mean, they're so valid for that. Anyway, Amanda kept bringing it up to Angela because she wasn't wearing her glasses and couldn't read the comments. And then Spencer was like, "I told them to shut up." It was just so funny and so cute. The whole sexiest woman alive thing starts at 1:24, but the Spencer comment is said after the 2:32 minute mark conversation between Amangela.
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(Don't win Mario Party Charity live stream):
At 11:54, he helps with her controller.
At 15:53, he references the papa thing she did in the cards against humanity video, and then he does it throughout the stream, as they all do, consistently. But he does it a lot.
Side note: Spencer also clearly mentioned once that he was cracking up when Angela was doing that, but I can't remember which video he said it and it's driving me crazy. If anyone can remember, let me know.
At 30:08, Spencer got confused about winning/not winning and Angela kinda chuckled and touched and patted his arm and he turned to her smiling. Again, a small moment, but I live for those.
Like at 30:20, when Angela starts singing the words don't win loudly and Spencer just looks at her and smiles, and Angela just lightly smacks his arm. Yeah, these are my moments. Sigh.
At 33:24, after she tries to sabotage him and Shayne, Spencer's like, "You're not even playing. what if I fully put down the controller and choked you out?" And just joking about not realizing that she wasn't playing.
Another choking comment to Angela by Spencer.
(The other one was in the latest Don't Win Mario Party video when they finally got day at the races. Angela says that she almost googled Day at the Races that morning to see what it looks like. And Spencer just straight up goes, "I would've choked you out." Which is so unhinged. And I love him so much for it. Truly. Thanks, Spencer.)
Back to the stream, at 34:18, Angela almost spoils a video about who wins in it and Spencer goes"Shhhhh. They're not even gonna watch it now", and she's like, "They don't watch for the winners." And he replies, laughing, "I know."
But the cutest part is Angela still very softly whispers and apologizes to him about almost spoiling it at 34:37, and it's just so sweet and melted my heart, Angela is adorable. You have to use a headphone to be able to hear her, though.
(Her apologizing to him happened two more times, I believe. That latest don't win video, when they were both Mario and Luigi and on the same team. When they lost, she said, "I'm sorry, Spencer." And on Reddit Stories, she says I'm sorry after he teases her about the fact that she doesn't give him enough time to get to a joke.)
At 34:47, Angela screams about mini-games incorrectly and he, of course, laughs, and then at 34:56, he asks her if she's singing Taylor Swift and teases her and says, "Dude, you were down bad last night" and then I can't hear what he said after that, something Taylor Swift? Most likely, singing. And then Angela of course says, "Shut up." It was a nothing moment, but again, I live for those.
Since she gave her controller to Courtney, Spencer turns to her at 37:59 and asks, "Hey, do you wanna use my controllers?" Angela got confused about what he was asking and then joked that she was already playing and Tommy joined in, the whole thing was cute, okay? Don't judge me, lol.
45:48, Spencer suggests that they, "de-italian Angela and get her fixed." And they all joke about that for a while. But what I love is that When Angela agrees to actually do it at 47:11 because she's awesome, Spencer says "Okay, thank you." because he knows that what he suggested was a bit insane, and he should be grateful that she's just as unhinged as he is.
At 50:33, Spencer jokes about the cone again, "You know how it is with Angela, man, she keeps getting into the trash." I'm including this joke because Angela laughed so damn hard at it. I love her ability to laugh at herself so much. Nothing but respect for her, honestly.
At 52:25, Spencer makes a weird sex joke, and Angela's like, "Spencer…" And then he goes, "Look, okay, it's a work in progress."
(This could also be paralleled in the latest don't win Mario party video. When Spencer says, "I hope I don't come in my pants." Everyone laughs, and Angela says, "Don't laugh at that." You can see Spencer close his eyes briefly, shaking his head and smiling.)
1:01:56. Somebody in the chat suggests they fix Spencer for a certain amount of money. And Angela's like, "That's not gonna be enough." And he continues her joke, "We're gonna need a bigger boat."
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(Boozy Painting Anthony For His Funeral live stream):
At 35:23, Angela excitedly asks him to paint something on her cast, and his response is equally as excited, open mouth and everything. I love that he tries to give her the same energy she gives other people. As he said on who meme'd it, it's the best part of Angela and you can tell he appreciates it so much and he tries to give her the same reactions to the things she says. I've noticed it a few times now. (For example, it happened in the Lego stream as well when she was talking about submitting options for her school mascot, he was giving her an Angela-type reaction to a very tame and normal story.)
At 39:38, after he messes up her cast, I just love that he wanted to try again and was like, "Let me draw something else." And then proceeded to lean over and just paint for quite some time on her cast until Alex had to be like, "Spencer get your elbow out of Angela's painting."
Also, I like the fact that Angela was the only one who knew Spencer was planning a Chanse and Angela show special because they'd already talked about it with each other before telling anyone else. Well, I assume Alex knew as well. It starts at 1:10:10.
17:06 - 17:23. After Angela posts coffee memes on Courtney's Instagram. Spencer says, "I gotta see these." And then you can hear him and Alex laughing, and then Spencer says, "These are awesome."
48:11, Spencer says, "The way Angela says day at the races is really funny." This bit might be more on the teasing side because he does say she sounds like Bobby Hill or Peter Griffin, but still lighthearted teasing.
59:16: This. This. This moment. This damn second. I have no idea what's going on here, but the way he just came up to her and touched her arm and both smiled and stuff was cute as all hell.
1:32:09, Spencer got so excited when Angela agreed to show her drafts. And then after Shayne reads her Call Me by Your Name draft at 2:12:12, Spencer says after they're all done laughing. "I would've retweeted that shit." It's extra sweet because she's been saying all stream that her co-workers never retweet her.
Also, I love how invested Spencer was in painting her face. Not only did he go over to her to take a picture of her on his phone, but at 1:19:36, he said, "Like, I need to see some red in there." And then Courtney is like, "Stop giving notes, Spencer."
Now this is speculation and not confirmed, but also I feel like it's obvious enough. Angela mentioned that she wanted her drawing of John Pork to be on set or something like that, and now it's on the Smosh Games set next to Spencer's one-ball picture. I can only assume that the director of programming is the one who approved to put it there, so yes, that is now a part of their lore in my mind. It's incredibly sweet and I just love seeing her drawing in the background in videos so much.
Now onto the best moment of the stream, at 1:25:00, Spencer sweetly asks her, "Do you need me to hold your jacket?" Like, I'm sure there are places she could put it away safely, but no, he asked if he could hold it for her. It was just so…I love him.
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(Smosh Does Arts and Crafts live stream):
At 43:57, Angela lights up when she sees him and says "Hey!" so excitedly. And then at 4:42, when she asks him the questions they asked Alex, he answers with "you." At the fancy party question. Though, he did answer with a bit of hesitation, lol. But that could mean anything, you know. The thing is his voice was kind of shy, yet a bit deep when he said it. This is just a Spencer thing, I love his voice.
At 1:08:50, Angela messed up the RumPum name and everyone was correcting her loudly, she was like, "I'm kidding, I got your ass." Spencer then chuckles and says, "You're gonna start doing that any time you get something wrong. Oh, I got you."
And then when Spencer told her at 1:21:46 to "Tell him–tell Shayne about your plan." I'm weird, I know, but again, I like the subtle moments that show that they talk to each other and are actually friends.
(Again, this could be paralleled in the latest Don't Win Mario Party. When Spencer says he wants to do an all-day marathon, Angela goes, "I pitched a meal train like churches do." While Spencer nods. Again, it seemed like she was the only one aware he wanted to do this and he already discussed it with her, along with Alex, probably. I also like that he clearly includes her in the creatives and stuff, and cares about her input.)
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(The Ultimate Staring Contest Live Stream):
When Angela was stone-faced and not laughing, and Spencer was like, at 16:25 "I think you brought that energy to TNTL one time." Like, wow, he remembers that! I don't know why that is so, so, so sweet to me. It was an old TNTL, too. The only hard mode TNTL Angela was in, I think.
And then at 16:37, talking about her dark place, he was like, "So, wait, what, what are you thinking about?" He was just really invested and maybe, just a tiny bit worried, I think. This whole stream felt like he was trying to be so attentive.
At 34:19, Angela talks about how she was on Spencer's computer and he had to go to a meeting, and then she, Shayne, and Amanda pranked him with a fart video. But it was her idea, I believe, and she was the one who gave it to him during the meeting. Amanda mentioned that people were clapping when she left the room. At 34:58. I just love knowing these things about them.
At 1:11:10, when they didn't agree on Angela's pitch, Angela was like, "I'm just pitching, that's all." Spencer went, "No, no, it was…." you can tell he felt bad that he said no. Even Alex felt a little bad and was like, "No, no, you can stand."
1:06:48, when Angela says she feels like she's been getting too much into a dark place, and Spencer goes, "Yeah, I'm legit w–yeah." I believe he was going to say worried. And it's so sweet and also kind of proves that it's not just me, he was being extra sweet that stream. Like, when he defended her against Chanse's joke about her being cross-eyed at 1:13:39. "I've never seen that Angela, don't believe him."
At 1:11:36, Angela pitches another idea again. And Spencer says "Yeah, mirror staring, that would be fun." But then, at 1:11:43 she says, "Everyone hates my ideas." And Spencer goes, "I just suggested your idea." Again, it's nothing, but I think he could tell she was a bit deflated and it was sweet that he was trying to make her feel better.
And finally, at, 1:17:16, he asks, "Was going to your dark place worth this food…meal you're about to have?" The entire stream, it just felt like he didn't like the fact that she went there. But maybe that's just me.
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(The Beopardy Charity Stream):
It's just another parallel of Spencer backing Angela up when she says some wild shit like she did in the family vlogging video. At 39:12, When Angela says they can play two truths and a lie with piss in the guns if they reach 20k, he sweetly pats her on the back, and then when everyone was laughing and Shayne was like, "Fuck. We can never allow Angela to pitch anything ever again." Spencer says, "dude, for 20k…" And Angela goes, "Thank you, Spencer."
Also, when Keith announced that she won the whole thing, Spencer looked so happy and excited as he clapped for her.
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(Reading Reddit Stories From Our Crew Live Stream):
At 50:15 Shayne starts reading a story, and in the story, it mentions the person is only a freelancer at Smosh. And Spencer jokingly says, "Okay, Angela." It wasn't her story, though. But I thought that was funny and cute, the way she just popped into his mind, I guess.
My absolute favorite part is at 1:10:07 when Shayne asks about what they're most excited to see at Anthony's funeral. Spencer says he's most excited about Angela reading the chats as the vessel. Because that was his favorite part during Lisa's funeral. And then he went on applauding Angela on not only reading and figuring out the chats but adding her original takes as well since she's still kind of new to Smosh. The way he talks about her with so much admiration and respect. My heart.
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(The Lego Competition Live Stream):
This Stream is a Spangela stream and you can't convince me otherwise. I mean, they all kind of are, but this one…
At 14:08, they joke about building a hot and beautiful woman, and Angela just reaches over to touch him. I simply really love that moment.
And when he brings up that they were discussing their favorite Angelaisms the other night, he looks at her before he actually speaks. It's subtle, but he does, and why do I like that? I don't know, but I do.
53:54, when they were talking about a possible fake belly button ring for the chosen, I love how Angela starts joking in a British accent and Spencer smiles at her sweetly and joins in, laughing. Felt like an inside joke and I just love that.
26:30, Angela asks, "Do you wanna see mine? John pork. " Spencer goes, "You're getting there. Never give up."
At 40:42, when Spencer reads a comment about Angela and Chanse or Angela and Shayne playing fatal frame 4, Angela jokes, "Please, I've been begging, I've been begging." And then starts coughing heavily, he goes, "Do you wanna water?" The bare minimum, I know. Still, it's sweet, okay? He's like, the only one who's asked.
25:30 he says that his favorite shit was when she teased Amanda about saying something to her about the necklace during the criminal minds episode. I also like the fact that he brought that up when Chanse said something about Angela not slaying every day. And Angela was like, "You guys are just gonna sit there and let him do that to me?" I feel like Spencer's thought process was like: okay, let me bring up this moment where you were funny and how it was my favorite thing.
At 43:31, the sudoku thing. I love that he wasn't laughing with everyone else when Angela was kind of being self-deprecating about the sniper chess video and learning how to play chess. And he tried to make it better, you know, didn't fully succeed, but he did say she was great in the video and was a star. And even though he brought up that she whiffed the last two videos, he was talking about them in a positive light and that he loved them. "The werewolf ending and the criminal minds ending were the funniest shit to me."
I very much love the way he tried to imitate her. "Whoever playing the unsub better wake up." It was so cute and funny. And then when Chanse asks you said that? or something like that. Spencer replies, laughing," Something Angela fucking says." Again, in such an endeared tone of voice.
At 46:02 when Angela shows Shayne her garden, Shayne goes "Actually, I resp–I actually like that. " I love that Spencer kind of calls him out on being patronizing towards Angela a little bit and mocks Shayne and goes "Oh, you know what? I'm surprised." But the funniest part was that Spencer used the word "actually" with her when she first showed them the garden. "Oh, that's actually kinda cute." Said the hypocrite, lol.
55:20, the X-Men question. This moment is unreal. Don't even get me started on the fact that he stares at her for like, 20 seconds while smiling and shaking his head. My favorite part is not once does he open his mouth to call her out on her lying, he's just so endeared by her bit and just stays quiet to let it continue. And that look again at 57:55. He's just so…amused? Perplexed and amused? It's a similar smirk to the one he gives her after the Nerfs are in the gun joke. And yes, indeed, he does know Angela. He knows that she's blowing smoke and shit up her butt. Oh, how far they've come.
Okay, I'm done. For now. I had to cut and edit some moments out of this post, so…
I feel like most of these would be great to edit because there are a LOT of parallels. For example:
"Do you need me to hold your jacket?"
"Do you wanna use my controllers?
"Do you wanna a water?
"Do you want me to go get them (her glasses)?"
Just Spencer making sure Angela's got everything she might need. You get the idea.
I would also just love to discuss these moments, were you aware of most of them or is it just me? What are your favorite moments?
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cloudcountry · 5 months ago
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🫘 -- beanfest . . . survival of the beanest!
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auburn is on team...farmers!
this card is an sr. (vignette 1) (vignette 2)
summon: i hate this...i wish i could be holed up in sam's shop like idia...
groovification: i don't want to be here! i'd rather be anywhere but here!
set to home screen: i've never liked competitions...they make me so anxious...
home transition 1: i'm so jealous of idia...! what i wouldn't give to have a special skill that gets me out of this competition...
home transition 2: i hope i'm not too much of a burden on jade and cater...they should just leave me to die.
home transition 3: i'm not being melodramatic! you're melodramatic! ...okay, i get it.
home after login: the only good thing about beanfest is the scenery...i'd much rather be a record keeper or something again.
home transition (groovy): maybe i should try to enjoy it instead of complaining? yeesh, you're making me sound like idia.
tap home 1: i'm glad jade and floyd are one the same team as me...if i got chased by one of them i think i'd have nightmares for weeks.
tap home 2: i hope azul is doing okay. mm, actually, i know he is. he's always prepared for stuff like this, i bet he'll win for sure! oh, i shouldn't say that about the other team? oops!
tap home 3: do you think sam would let me sit in his shop and chill? if i get idia talking about premo maybe i'll have an excuse to stay...
tap home 4: i am going to sleep for DAYS after this. don't wake me up.
tap home 5: hey, shhh! don't give our position away! i don't want to get hunted down by one of those boys...they'd eat me alive!
tap home (groovy): i think grim is having fun...? whatever floats his boat i guess...its not often he gets to let loose.
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moonlit-dreamers · 1 month ago
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Can you rate all TSAMS characters?
oh dear lord- i can certainly try tho i get the feeling i'll forget some lol
in order of favorite to least favorite
sun - 10/10 - hes perfect, nothing can change my mind. hes heavily traumatized and incredibly anxious. hes the perfect specimen for whump AND hurt/comfort. im also just Heavily biased
ruin - 9/10 - yall cant fight me on this hes one of my favorites. hes a tragic, morally gray villain that did what he thought he had to. hes a sad pathetic wet cat of a man who i bet all my money on (a whopping 500 bucks) that he doesnt even know who he is as a person
eclipse - 9/10 - him being below ruin on the list means nothing bc theyre equal in my heart. again, tragic wet cat of a man whos too damn tired to deal with this shit any more. i also relate to him in ways that probably arent healthy <3
solar flare - 8/10 - BRING MY BOY BACK HE DID NOTHING ‼️
dazzle - 8/10 - sweet baby girl she can do no wrong
jack - 7/10 - he can do many things wrong but nothing could make me hate him forever <3
molten - 7/10 - he baby. he sweet. he dont know the world and thats okay. maybe i just like it when murder machines turn into pacifists and just want to have fun.
dark sun - 7/10 - he fascinates me. i want to put him in a lil test tube and study him under a microscope. i need to ask so many questions, most of them being some form of "what is wrong with you"
computer/spaniard - 7/10 - we dont talk about the previous 2 computers we dont care about them (i dont hate them im just biased <3) i only care about SPANIARD. i miss my boy why did they have to kill him he couldve been so good. sun needs his husband back/silly
old moon - 6/10 - he is... certainly a specimen. i keep bouncing between "i hate him i want to rip his head off" and "im wrapping him in a blanket so tight he cant breathe". before he died he was an absolute prick and the fandom ruined him for me bc everyone fell for his manipulation and blamed sun for shit moon did and bc i was so biased towards sun it was difficult for me to not hate him. after he came back hes more fun (and tolerable) due to him actually improving but i wish he had more set-backs bc like. to him he'd been dead for like. a week. he should be struggling more <3
earth - 6/10 - cant quite pinpoint it but i Do feel like she could be done better as a character. she... doesnt really change that much? idk how to describe it. maybe i just find her boring lol
solar - 6/10 - yes i am putting him this far down on the list bc i feel like he couldve been done SO much better. he has so little flavor it hurts. what are his struggles? what is his goal? what does he even do outside of sun n moon?? and dont even get me STARTED on how little his past is brought up in a meaningful manner, let alone be something that effects him. you could say "oh hes gotten better" yeah but we saw none of it so like?? fbkdsgnjkds i'll need to rant about his character another day smh my head
killcode - 6/10 - it was fun while it lasted or something like that. he was interesting and i Do wish they had just.. left him alive? not bc he would be "useful" or wutever but just bc like. wut if he wants to come back randomly? like he wouldve just been a fun side character
nexus/new moon - 5/10 - listen. i dont wanna put him down here. but his current arc fucked him over. he was so fun and whimsical before! he was just a silly lil guy trying to navigate the world around him and desperately trying to fill a role he couldve never filled. his current arc couldve been SO much better. but its not as emotionally charged as it could be. like. they just completely threw away his original motive! and now he doesnt care?? not even the slightest??? booooo tomato tomato tomato throwing tomatoes/ref
lunar - 5/10 - again, you can fight me, but current lunar just isnt it for me. lunar before he died? hell yeah. he was such a lil shit that only cared about stuff if it benefited him. he didnt care that he was hurting moon with his movements, he just switched sides bc moon actually paid attention to him. him and bm couldve been SUCH a good duo too OTL
bloodmoon - 5/10 - honestly i liked v1 bm more than v2. idk man. something about their energy was so different and it lured me in. v2 kinda just felt.. boring. no critiques on his character, just not for me *shrug*
gemini - 5/10 - i dunno. just boring to me
monty - 4/10 - yet another moment of "no direct hate on the character just uninteresting to me" with monty. theyre just. boring. also another moment of "i liked them before [insert event]" with the event being before earth.
the creator - 4/10 - just. meh? he could be better as a villain but hes like. been here for so long that i wonder if he really does much of anything? idk man. im losing steam atp dnf,jsdgndkj
this might be all of them..? i dunno. probably missed a bunch (and yes im aware i shoved in some laes characters shush). im gonna leave out eaps characters so this doesnt get longer and so i dont go on a hate rant about puppet/j
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yanderend · 2 years ago
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Male Yandere Demigod x Gender Neutral Reader
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Nitai, The Deity ; First Encounter
Requested by an anon
It had been exactly a year since The Deity had started his whole 'I'm just a normal man' schtick, and he was already getting irritated.
He found it completely unfair that people were expected to show up for things on time— it should be accepted that he can take a week-long nap to recover from the last irritating human he had to deal with by conventional means, that stuff's exhausting!
Even with all the downsides, Nitai was enjoying his new friendships, and being treated equally within said friendships!
Sure, it was hard to hold back his impulses of using his powers around them, but it was worth it to get the authentic human experience!
There's one thing about his friends that he never related to, though; Their obsession with finding romantic partners. Nitai had felt romantic love before, but he'd never been desperate for it— it's never been a necessity.
That being said, when his companions set themselves up for blind dates, he can't help but be curious— Humans never cease to find new ways to make things more entertaining than they are, huh?
Before The Deity knows it, it's date night!
He puts on his coziest outfit and mentally prepares— he knows he already looks cute in a sweater, so he doesn't care too much about visual performance. It's just a gamble, meeting someone new, they could be boring! How awful would that be...
The Deity arrives at the venue and greets you with a smile.
The combined nature of his less-modern way of speaking and near unnaturally large stature already sets off questions in your brain.
On his end, he's quietly looking you over and evaluating all the little details. Your outfit is comfortable, and suits you well, the way your face emotes isn't too overwhelming for him, and your aura is surprisingly pleasing. He shouldn't be getting ahead of himself, though.
'Have you been on a blind date before, Nitai?' You ask at about the third question into your back-and-forth.
The Deity hums, thinking. 'No, not really. It is rather a new invention, isn't it?'
'I suppose?' You question yourself. 'I guess what I'm really asking is if you were anxious, coming to meet me?'
Nitai is caught off guard— he doesn't show it on his face, but he pauses for a little longer than usual.
'Oh, anxious? In a way... I was worried about getting bored.'
'That makes sense. You never know what kind of a person you'd meet, doing this, right?'
In the middle of this seemingly mundane conversation, you throw a genuine smile at him, and he's momentarily stunned.
He takes a sip of water, quickly averting his eyes from you. He feels heat rising to his face— What's gotten into him now?
It seems like every minute he spends with you the atmosphere changes, little by little. It feels familiar...
Nitai tries his best to ignore it, and the night goes on. He's just a little more interested in what you have to tell him than he'd expected.
The sound of your voice tickles him, he finds it cute; 'Like a rabbit,' he says.
You laugh at that, and he thinks to himself that your laugh is rather cute as well. It's almost a shame he can't be the only one to hear it.
Then it hits him: The familiar feeling, its power! Could you have some hidden ability, be some other deity's descendant? It has to be something... Maybe you're just a mortal that's actually worthy of him, who knows?
Eventually, the evening draws to a close, and you say your goodbyes.
'It was enjoyable dining with you, mor- uh... my dear?' The Deity cringes at his slip-up, avoiding your gaze.
'Are we at pet names already?' You tease, 'Okay then, oh beloved Nitai, it has been a pleasure going out with you as well. Maybe we can do this again sometime, yeah?'
The Deity nods, and you go your seperate ways.
On the journey home, that last line plays in his head again; "Oh, beloved Nitai."
He's not a fan of sarcasm, and would so very much like to hear it again, but only genuinely, and only from your mouth.
What to do, what to do...
Bonus: General Headcanons and Trivia
Despite sleeping all the time, Nitai has never had a dream! His powers don't control whether someone dreams or not, just rest as a whole.
The Deity is very particular about clothes, he finds dressing up fun! He refuses to wear any itchy fabrics, only soft and silky ones— at least his one-colour fashion sense isn't hard to buy for.
He's majorly unaware of most things going on around him, and the times you spend together only make that worse, with his eyes watching you he often walks right into things.
That's okay, though; If he gets hurt it's no big deal, because he gets to whine and complain until you give him aid and attention. That's the majority of his plan to win you over...
The Deity is manipulative, but not on purpose. He's just simple-minded, and if he notices any tiny reason to keep his angel by his side he'll take it.
The sun is setting? Let him escort you. It's raining out? Just don't leave! It's cold? Cuddle up! Oh it's your face that's cold? Kisses it is, then~
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n0sewise · 9 months ago
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I was tagged by @recents on my main blog for WIP Wednesday, so I’m posting here on my side blog since this is where I post writing/fandom stuff. I’m tagging everyone and no one bc I’m too anxious to individually tag people (//∇//)
Anyway, here’s an excerpt from my killugon royalty au. Super rough and it needs way more fleshing out, but I think you can still get the idea from what’s here:
Kurapika wasn’t all that bad. Gon actually quite liked his tutor, and he’d come highly recommended to Aunt Mito as a fine scholar and an even brighter teacher. Even now, his smooth voice carried pleasantly throughout the room as he lectured Gon on something about fish. Fishing, probably. The Eastern Coast was known for its plentiful fish, having the good fortune of being located in the middle of the Gulf of Mobius. Or was it the Western Coast? One of the coasts, anyway. He’d only just gotten back from visiting a neighbouring earl’s daughter in the east, and Gon had quite liked the beaches. There hadn’t been much time to explore; there were dances and feasts, and the earl had wanted him to get to know his—
“Prince Gon?”
“Sorry, what?”
Kurapika’s delicate brows knit together in a pinched crease on his forehead. “I asked if you could tell me why Kujira stations our naval forces on the Eastern Coast only.”
”Oh,” said Gon. He thought for a moment. It would have something to do with fish, wouldn’t it? Kurapika had been talking about fish, and about—
He was saved from answering by a frenzied knock at the heavy, cypress door.
It was Zushi once again, and breathing hard like he’d run the entire way there.
“Your Excellency,” he panted, nodding at Kurapika. “Your Royal Highness, I’m so sorry to interrupt, but the Queen wishes to see the prince.” He straightened up from his deep bow. “She’s in her chambers,” he added. “It’s urgent.”
Gon could hardly fight his grin.
”I really should—“
”Just go,” said Kurapika with a dismissive gesture.
Aunt Mito’s chambers were all the way on the other end of the palace, and nearly the complete and polar opposite of Kurapika’s study. They were bright and airy, with long sheer curtains that fluttered gently in the breeze, and nearly every surface was decorated with a flowering plant or vine of some sort. Gon smiled when he spotted his mother busily tending to one of her plants, imbuing it with her own sparkling energy until its leaves were plump and vibrant with life.
“Aunt Mito? You wanted to see me?”
“Gon!” She turned and met him with a bone crushing hug once he was within reach.
“Is everything okay? Zushi said it was urgent.”
She waved a hand impatiently, her armful of bangles and charms clacking all the while, and laughed him off. “That boy is so serious,” she said. “There’s nothing wrong, but I’ve received another courtship proposal, and—“
Gon couldn’t help it, he wilted on the spot the moment the word courtship left her mouth.
”Aunt Mito, this is the eighth one this year, and it’s only April!”
”It’s only April and you’ve turned down eight perfectly nice options!” she countered. “Come sit,” she said, moving over to settle on her bed. “Sweetheart, I really think you’ll like this one.”
Gon collapsed next to her, falling back onto Aunt Mito’s soft blankets with a grunt.
”You said that last time,” he reminded her. “And it’s okay, I didn’t mind meeting her at all! I thought Noko was a very nice girl!”
”She was,” Aunt Mito agreed, “but I really do think you’ll want to see this next one. He’s a prince just like you,” she added. “So you’ll have that much in common.”
”Sure,” he said, with a brightness he didn’t feel. “I’ll go look. It can’t hurt, right?”
”Wonderful! The Padokean emissaries are already waiting for you to approve.”
Gon blinked. “Sorry, what?”
Aunt Mito could only smile helplessly. “They were insistent that their prince’s portrait be viewed in the best possible light, and I wouldn’t let them have the throne room for it.”
”All that for a painting? I’ll meet him, if that’s what you’re asking, Aunt Mito.” He’d already pushed himself up into a seated position, but even from this angle, she was hard to read, a funny sort of smirk twitching on her lips.
“There’s no need for that, Gon,” she said. “Just go and have a look and you can let me know if you’d like us to make arrangements. The emissaries are in the courtyard.”
Weird, thought Gon as he walked through the palace. All that fuss for a painting seemed excessive, but he’d promised Aunt Mito. Padokea rang a distant bell in the back of his mind, and he remembered that it had been in one of the readings Kurapika had wanted him to finish. Nothing to do about it now, he figured, already smiling as he stepped back out and into the sunshine. He’d reached the courtyard.
The emissaries were indeed waiting for him outside. There were two of them, and they looked woefully out of place under the warm blanket of Kujiran sunlight. Both wore sharply tailored jackets with stiff high collars that covered their necks entirely. They stood among the jacaranda trees, solemnly holding what must have been the painting under a dark veil of fabric.
“Your Royal Highness,” said the one on the right, bowing his head.
“Oh, hi,” said Gon. They still hadn’t lowered the painting, and he wondered if their arms ever got tired. “You know you can put that down, right?”
The second emissary looked at him, and despite maintaining a rather stoic expression, Gon could see her lip curl ever so slightly in what he could only assume was disgust.
“Sorry! I didn’t mean to offend you!”
”We have been entrusted with the safe passage of our crown prince’s portrait,” she sniffed. “Its beauty shall never touch the ground beneath our feet.”
”Uhhh,” said Gon. “Okay, well whenever you’re ready, I guess?”
Both of them straightened immediately, standing even more stiffly than before. With a sweeping motion of his arm, the first man began to speak.
“Prince Gon of Kujira, we present to you The Crown Prince of Padokea, First of His Name, Heir to the Throne of Shadows, and Pride of the Zoldyck Family: His Royal Highness Prince Killua Zoldyck.”
And Gon hardly had enough time to reflect on either the lengthy title, or how the emissary managed to say all of that without taking a single breath, because his partner had already pulled the veil from the painting, and there, looking out at him from a gleaming silver frame, was the most beautiful boy he’d ever laid eyes on.
Gon’s breath caught in his throat as he stared. Immediately he understood why the emissaries had insisted on unveiling it among the jacaranda trees. Anything less would’ve been an insult to the boy in the painting. He gazed haughtily out of the frame at Gon, his sharp, elfin features frozen in a bored, half-lidded expression. It was hard to know where to look, Gon realized, his gaze roving every which way. There was the sharp angle of the prince’s jawline, softened only by his full, pouting lips. The prince’s hair too, was striking in its own right. It was entirely white, like the smooth, sun bleached colour of a seashell, framing his face in messy waves. In the end it was his eyes that Gon couldn’t look away from. They were large and blue, and framed by a set of long, silver eyelashes that lent him the appearance of something not quite human staring out from behind his frame.
One of the emissaries cleared their throat.
“Is he to your liking then?”
Gon forced a laugh and rubbed sheepishly at the back of his neck as he grinned.
”Yeah—I mean yes. Yes. He’s…” he trailed off. “Send the letter. Please. I’d very much like to meet him.”
An odd sort of smile twitched at the edge of the shorter emissary’s mouth, and she hid it before he could comment.
“Very well,” she said. “We’ll notify the royal family.”
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nenilein · 2 years ago
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Puyo Puyo Drama CD #8-2: Ecolo and the Puppy (ENG Translation)
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[DISCLAIMER: This translation was made by me! Feel free to repost parts of it or the entire text wherever you want as long as you credit the translator correctly!]
Translator’s Note:
This is a good time to mention that the Drama CD stories are not in chronological order and for most of them, it is hard to tell when exactly they take place. You will see why this is important to keep in mind for this track in particular.
INTRO
Ringo: Ecolo and the Puppy
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STORY
Ecolo: *humming a melody~*
Ecolo: Alright, where should I hang out to play today? Taking a stroll through spacetime sounds fun, but I could also just do what I always do pay Ringo a visit! That’d be nice~ *more humming*
???: *whimper*
Ecolo: *humming, continued* … Huh?
???:  *sad whine*
Ecolo:  Oh, wow… What’s the small thing squirming around under that bridge…?
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[Puyo Battle SFX]
Ringo: Solved it! Got it!
Maguro:  Check this out! Here it comes!
Ringo: Permutation!
Maguro: Butterfly Dance!
Ecolo: Hey there~~!!
Ringo&Maguro: HUH!?
[Sound of a ton of Nuisance Puyo crashing down]
Ringo:  Ow, ow, ow, ow, OUCH!
Maguro: Oh no…!★
Ecolo: Hey, you guys, lookie what I got~!!
Ringo: Ecolo, c’mon! You can’t just barge through the clubroom window in the middle of our Puyo battle!!
Maguro:  Looks like all the Nuisance Puyo we were building up came crashing down all at once, huh…★
Risukuma: You will have to declare the battle a draw, it seems.
Ecolo: Oh, who cares about that! Anyway, look at this thing~!
Puppy:  *miserable whine*
Ringo:  I-Is that… a puppy? Awww!
Maguro: Wow, the lil’ guy sure is cute★
Risukuma: I have never seen a breed like this before. It might be some manner of mix.
Ringo:  Hey, Ecolo, where’d you even get that doggy from?
Ecolo:  Oh, it didn’t look like it had anything better to do, so I gave it a ride here!
Ringo: *terrified* W-W-What’s THAT supposed to mean!? Don’t tell me you just went and grabbed a dog from someone’s house…!?
Ecolo: You got it all wrong! It was sitting under some bridge, shivering something fierce!
Ringo: Huh…?
Maguro: So what you’re saying is that it’s probably a stray, I guess…
Ecolo: A “stray”?
Puppy: *whine, yipping!*
Ecolo: AH! HEY! Don’t just try to run off on me…!!
Ringo: Hey, Ecolo, listen. Stray dogs are often dogs that were abandoned by their owners. 
Ecolo: Huh?
Ringo: That’s probably why it is on edge. It might be suffering from anxiety.
Maguro: Yeah, you might wanna be a little bit more gentle with it…★
Ecolo: It’s anxious…? That’s so rude! I wasn’t even trying to do anything bad to it!!
Puppy: *yipping*
Ringo: Ecolo! Stop it!!
Maguro: It’s still a baby, it doesn’t understand what you’re doing, or anything, for that matter.
Ecolo: What’s there not to understand, huh!?
Puppy: *whimper*
Risukuma: Mhmm… I would say that it appears to be hungry. How about we attempted to feed it for now?
Ringo: You’re right. Maybe it will be less anxious on a full stomach.
Ecolo:  Food, huh? Food… Oh, hey, Ringo! Hand over your apple!
Ringo: As if! Dogs don’t even eat apples!
Ecolo: Whaaaat? Picky, aren’t we…
Risukuma: We happen to have some cans of tuna and other foods here in the clubroom. Should we use one of those?
Ecolo: Will it really eat that stuff!? *SFX of can being peeled open* Heeeey, lil’ guy, you want some of this~?
Puppy: *curious puppy noises* *eating puppy noises*
Ecolo: Ahah! Wow, it ate it!
Maguro: And it’s eating really fast too. It must’ve been starving, poor thing.
Ecolo:  Whoa… Eating for your life, huh? ….Wooow…. Huuuuh…? Hmm…. Ahaha! You wanna have some more food?
Puppy:  *agreeing puppy noise*
Ecolo: Ahaha! Your voice is so funny~!
Ringo: Oh, wow, this might…
Maguro:  Um, Ringo…?
Ringo:  AAAALRIGHT, ECOLO! The others and I will be off now~! 
Ecolo:  Huh!?
Ringo: So take good care of the little guy, okay~?
Ecolo:  T-T-TAKING CARE…??? ME???
Ringo: I mean, it doesn’t have an owner, right? It’s completely helpless on its own! It needs someone to look after it for a bit.
Maguro: Hm… Okay, I’ll be going home too★
Risukuma: And I, too, shall abscond for the day.
Ecolo: What? WHAT!?
Ringo: Alright, Ecolo! See ya~~!
[Footsteps of everyone leaving]
Ecolo: What… WHAAAAAAT!?!?!?
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[Later]
Puppy: *whine*
Ecolo: Tch… I just wanted to show Ringo the funny, shivering furball I found! Why am I stuck doing this now!?
Puppy: *whine*
Ecolo: Urgh, let’s just ditch this thing here…
Puppy: *sad whine*
Ecolo:  Don’t you give me that look! I’ve got better things to do, y’know! More fun things, and… Huh? Eww, something stinks…  And why’s the floor all wet now? HUH!? Don’t tell me you peed yourself!? STOP IT!!
Puppy: *miserable whine*
Ecolo:  Huh!? Why are you shivering again now? Are you cold? Are you hungry?
Puppy: *whine*
Ecolo: Uhh… What’s your problem…!!!
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[The next day, birds are singing]
Ringo:  Morning, Maguro~!
Maguro:  Morning, Ringo!★
Ringo: You sure are up early today~
Maguro:  Could say the same ‘bout you!★
Ringo: Eheheh! Guess you also wanted to and check out the situation in the clubroom, huh?
Maguro:  Yep★
Ringo: I sure was surprised to see Ecolo, of all people, pick up a stray dog. I wonder how he’s been handling taking care of it so far~
Maguro: I sure hope he didn’t just dropkick it outta the clubroom window…
Ringo: Oh, you don’t gotta worry about that. I know he doesn’t seem like it, but Ecolo’s actually pretty…
[They open the clubroom door]
Ringo: Hey, Ecolo! Good morning!
Maguro: I hope the puppy is okay★
Ringo: Wait… They’re not here!
Maguro: Where did they go!?
Ringo:  Ahhh, uhhh, ehhh… um… Huh!
Maguro: What, what’s happening?★
Ringo: You see that black puddle over there in the corner!? I… I think that’s Ecolo!
Maguro:  WAAAAH!? T-Then…
Puppy:  Woof! Woof, woof!
Maguro:  T-That dog just came leaping out of the puddle!!!
Ecolo:  *snor*
Ringo:  I think Ecolo’s asleep…
Ecolo:  Uhhh… Nooo… don’t pee yourself… go to sleeeep…. uhh…
Ringo:  Ahaha! He’s still taking care of the puppy in his dreams!
Maguro:  Looks like he used tissue paper to clean up the messes. There’s still some dog footprints all over here…Guess last night was dedicated to battling the little one’s bowels★
Puppy:  Woof, woof, woof!
Ringo:  Look at that doggy running circles around Ecolo!
Maguro:  Guess I really didn’t need to worry, huh…★
Ecolo:  Uhh… c’mon here where it's warm… stop shivering… uh…
Ringo: Yeah. Anyway, let’s let him rest for now…
[They close the door again.]
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Puppy:  WAFF! Woof, woof, woof! Woof!
Ecolo:  Look, it’s a Puyo! Fetch!!
Puppy:  Yip, yip!!
[dog running]
Ecolo:  Hey, I said “fetch”! Not “catch and run off”!!
Puppy:  Yip, yip! Woof? Woof-woof!
Ecolo:  OH, C’MON!!!
Ringo: Ahh, it’s so peaceful these days~
Maguro:  Can’t disagree there…★
Risukuma:  Before we knew it, watching those two play by the riverbench has become part of our daily routine.
Ringo:  That dog has really grown fond of Ecolo, too…
Ecolo: Alright, now, sit! …I said ‘sit’!
Puppy:  Woof, woof!
Ecolo:  Oh, c’mon!
Ringo:  Ahahaha! Hey, Ecolo! You got trouble with obedience training?
Ecolo: And how! I mean, they got the easy tricks down by now, but…
Ringo:  Oh, like what? Please demonstrate!
Ecolo: Sure, okay! Let’s go… Hey, Puppy! Do a 5-chain!
Ringo&Maguro&RIsukuma: What?
[Puyo Battle SFX]
Puppy:  Woof! Wo-woof! Wowowooof! Wowowowoooof! Wohoooof!
Ecolo:  Goood! Great job~!
Puppy:  *happy puppy noises*
Risukuma:  Uuuuuuuuuuhm…….
Maguro: That’s… not the skill-level you usually go for when training your dog…★
Ecolo: I was thinking about teaching them how to talk next!
Ringo: *laughing* Ecolo, dogs can’t talk!
Ecolo:  Huh!? Are you serious?
Puppy:  Yiiiip?
Ecolo: Whaaaat? I thought for sure they’d learn how to talk when they grow up! I was so looking forward to that too! Hey, hey, are you sure you can’t talk? Hey, try saying my name! Say ‘Ecolo’! ‘E-co-lo’!
Puppy:  *confused whine*
Ecolo:  We really won’t be able to talk? Nooo….!
Ringo: Uhm… A-Anyway, Ecolo! Do you have a name for the lil’ guy already?
Ecolo:  A name…? Can’t I just keep calling them ‘puppy’?
Maguro:  Then how are you gonna tell them apart from other puppies? You should really give them a name that’s all their own★
Ecolo:  Uh? Uhm… Uhm… You pick one, Ringo!
Ringo: Okay! ‘Good-boy-Ecolo-found-ington’!
Maguro: Hey, Ecolo, maaaaybe relying on Ringo for names is kinda a bad idea...★
Ringo: You wanna say that again to my face, Mags?
Risukuma: You should probably give them a name that is easier to say and memorize.
Ecolo:  Alright, then I’m gonna shorten it to “Ecomaru”~!
[Translator’s note: “-maru” is a common name ending for old-fashioned boy’s names in Japan. Ringo’s original suggestion here contained it. Dogs tend to be given old-fashioned names in Japan.]
Puppy: Woof! Woof-woof!
Ecolo:  Ahahaha! That settles it! You’re Ecomaru now~!
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[Rain SFX]
Ringo: It’s raining~♪ It’s raining~♪ It’s R-A-I-N-ing~! Just a raining afternoon in the physics-clubroom~It’s raining~♪
Risukuma: It is rather chilly outside today, wouldn’t you agree?
Maguro: I wonder if Ecomaru will be okay?
Risukuma: They have a reliable chaperone with them. I am sure they will be fine.
Ringo: You’re right! …Eheheheheh!
Maguro:  You sure seem to be in a good mood today, Ringo.
Ringo: I mean, look at how much progress Ecolo’s made! He’s being so kind and gentle with Ecomaru.
Maguro: Yeah, you’re right★
Ringo:  I mean, don’t get me wrong, I feel sorry for that puppy for having been abandoned, but I am really glad Ecolo met them. He hasn’t been up to his usual weird pranks at all anymore lately. Just watching the two of them together makes me really happy!
Maguro: That’s true. I do hope things stay this way★
[Rain SFX get louder]
Risukuma: Hm? I believe the rain has gotten a little stronger. I shall close the window for no-… Ooof!!
[Something shoots by]
Maguro:  R-Risukuma! Are you okay!?
Ringo: Sounded like something shot at him! Wait… is that… an arrow with a letter on it!?
Risukuma:  Y-Yes. There is no need to be alarmed. This is a letter from an acquaintance of mine. Let me see what it says… “I will be arriving shortly…?” Oh my, it sure has been a while.
Ringo:  A-An acquaintance? Ris, who is that acquaintance, exactly?
Risukuma:  Well, you see… Oh, it appears they have already arrived.
Ringo&Maguro: Huh?
[Sci-Fi SFX]
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Ecolo:  It’s sure pouring down today. Let’s wait it out under this bridge for a while~!
Puppy: Woof!
Ecolo:  So, hey, Ecomaru?
Puppy: Yi~p? 
Ecolo:  Ringo said that you were abandoned, right?
Puppy: Yip?
Ecolo: So everybody forgot about you, and then you were all on your own?
Puppy:  *whine*
Ecolo: Then I guess you’re the same as I was a while ago…
Puppy:  Yipyipyipyip!!
Ecolo:  Ahaha! Hey, don’t jump around, I’m being serious here! I’m ticklish… Ahaha… Anyway, it used to be the same for me. I was always on my own. And I thought I was fine that way.
Puppy:  *questioning whine*
Ecolo:  But you know, I’ve been having so much fun lately! Every day, there’s others around me. There’s people who go out of their way to remember I exist for me. And that’s why…
Puppy:  Woof!
Ecolo:  There’s so many fun things I wanna teach you, Ecomaru!
Puppy:  Woof, woof!
Ecolo:  Because you’re special, okay?
Puppy:  Woof! Woooo~
Ecolo: Ahahahaha!
Puppy:  Woof-woof, woof!
Ecolo:  Huh?
Puppy:  Woof-woof-woof! *excited yipping*
Ecolo:  Huh, E-Ecomaru! What’s wrong!? You can’t just run out into the rain!
Ecolo: Wait… What is that!?
[Sci-Fi SFX, like an UFO is landing]
???: Would you happen to be called “Ecolo”?
Ecolo:  Who… are you? You look a lot like Ecomaru…
???:  We are from an extraterrestrial species that happens to resemble this planet's “dogs”. I am this child’s parent. We unfortunately got separated when they went astray during a sightseeing trip to earth. I have been looking for them ever since.
Puppy:  *excited yipping and whining*
Alien:  Ahaha… I see how it is. Did you miss home? My poor child.
Ecolo:  Huh? …Ecomaru?
Alien: Ecolo, I must thank you for taking such good care of my child. You have my gratitude.
Ecolo:  HOLD UP! So you’re just gonna… take them away!?
Alien:  Uhm… Yes?
Ecolo:  But, Ecomaru! I told you, didn’t I!? There’s still so many fun things I want to teach you…!
Puppy:  *sad whine*
Ecolo: *screaming*  Come here! Let’s go back together! I still want to play! I still want to play with you!!
Puppy:  *whining*
Ecolo:  *weakly* No… Please, no…
[Ecolo lowers his voice here.]
Ecolo:  Alright… If you don’t want to play with me, I’ll have to make you play with me…!
Alien: …Ecolo!?
[Puyo SFX]
Ecolo: *sounding pissed* Let’s go… good. Pretty nice…!
Puppy: *yipping*
Ecolo:  LOVELY TRICK!
[Ringo comes running]
Ringo:  ECOLO, NO! NO, NO, STOP IT! 
Ringo: …INTEGRAL!
[Ringo fires her spell and blocks Ecolo’s. It sounds like she’s taking the blow for the aliens too.]
Ecolo:  What… Ringo?
Ringo:  Ouch, ouch, that hurt…
Ecolo:  Ringo! Don’t get in my way!
Ringo:  Ecolo…
Ecolo:  RINGO!
Ringo: I’m so sorry. We were the ones who told Ecomaru’s parents that you were out here.
Ecolo:  What…?
Ringo: …Ecolo… Look…
Ecolo:  Oh. I… get it…
Ringo:  I’m so sorry…
Ecolo:  They… have a home… a place they belong…
Ringo:  *crying* I’m sorry! I’m so, so sorry…!
Ecolo: …It’s okay. I’m used to this anyway. Bye bye, Ecomaru. It’s fine. Just go and forget about me.
Ringo:  *trembling voice* Ecolo…
Puppy: *whining* …Yip! Yip, yip, YIP!
Ecolo:  What is it?
Puppy:  Yip! E…Eco… Ecolo…!
Ecolo:  Huh…?
Alien:  Oh my… Ecolo. This was the first time my child has spoken a word. Their first word was your name!
Puppy:  Ecolo! Ecolo!
Ecolo:  Ecomaru…
Alien:  I am sure they are trying to tell you that they will never forget you…
Puppy:  Ecolo! Five-chaaaain!
Ecolo: …Ahaha. Ahaha, hahahaha! Yeah… Thank you, Ecomaru!
[UFO leaves SFX]
[Footsteps]
Maguro: Ringo! I-Is everything alright!?
Risukuma: What happened to Ecomaru?
Ringo: Oh… Maguro. Ris. Ecomaru already left, I’m afraid.
Risukuma:  I see…
Maguro: S-So… How’s Ecolo taking it…?
Ringo:  I… think he’ll be okay. Yeah. He’ll be just fine…
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[Another day]
Ecolo: Heyo, Ringo! I’m swinging by for a visit~!
[EXPLOSION]
Ringo: GYAAH! ..Urgh! Ecolo! Could you NOT just come barging into the clubroom while I’m in the middle of an experiment!?
Maguro: Yeah, somebody could lose an eye!★
Ecolo: What are you guys up to today?
Ringo: Oh, I’m using the legendary art of alchemy to try and make a philosopher’s stone!
Ecolo: Wow! A classic!
Ringo: Hey, Maguro! Could you mix the yuzu-jam and salted sesame seeds over there into that glass of soy-sauce pickled nori, please?
Maguro: Pretty plebeian ingredient-selection, but okay★
[Door opens]
Risukuma:  Why, hello everyone. It is nice to see we are all in one place today.
Ringo: Oh, hey, Ris!
Maguro: What’s that you got in your hand there? Wait! Isn’t that the same thing as back when…
Risukuma: This arrow-mail arrived at my place yesterday in the dead of night. 
Ecolo: What’s up with this thing?
Risukuma: It is a message from Ecomaru’s parents. They wanted to inform us of how Ecomaru has been doing as of late.
Ecolo:  Huh!?
Ringo:  C-c’mon, Ris, read it out loud! Quick, quick!
Risukuma:  Very well. Ahem… Let me begin.
Ecolo: I wonder if Ecomaru is doing well~?
Risukuma:  Woof, woof, woof. Yip, yippity, yip. Snif, snif, bark.
Maguro:  Hey, um… Ris?★
Ringo&Ecolo: We won’t get a thing if you read it in their language!!
-THE END
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lemmetreatya · 2 years ago
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In Words I struggle to Express — Bassists!Onyankopon x Singer!fem Reader
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➡️ synopsis: the launch party went absolutely great and the after partys going to be even better! but somehow, it was a certain someone’s presence you were banking on in order for the night to truly be a success.
➡️ word count: 2.3k
➡️ content: no warnings
➡️ author’s note: fuck. okay. this is…very very self indulgent and basically based off our silly little mmbcu (dont ask) so ive tried to take out all the stuff that needs context so everyone can read it without too much issue. however for clarities sake: reader is in a girl group (called MMB) whilst reiner (drummer), zeke (vocalist), jean (vocals/guitar) and onyankopon (bassist) are in a band. at this point of time, Ony and reader aren’t in an established relationship.
if anything, id like to thank @pisspope for coming up with this specific idea earlier this week. i hope you know it’s rotted my brain ever since. thanks.
It was a success.
After months of constant tweaking, track ditching, debating lineups and self-doubt in your artistry — at final last: You had performed your album in full for your ceiling-packed launch party of family, friends and industry names alike.
Despite the shortcomings that came along with it, you hope the album lands well as it goes public tomorrow. Your band members have done their best in assuring you of it’s legendary status (“It literally serves cunt, you’ll be fine.”) and so there was only room for you to have faith that it’d do numbers — even if it was a diversion from your usual group's musical sound.
But even now, as the dregs of adrenaline still coarse through your veins, it’s just you left alone in the green room. You were only in the process of changing outfits, silk pink gown snuggly sat on your frame, but it was the creepinks of wallowing unfulfillment that somehow found its way into your heart.
Your band members and their other halves have graciously said that they’d set forwards on to the afterparty. Something about being ready to welcome you when you eventually do enter the venue where the after party was being held. You were okay with that — and thankful that they were thinking of you in that regard — but since it now left you alone with your own thoughts and own reflection in the mirror, you could feel your performing high start to come down and realisation kick in. That ultimately, despite the many wins you’ve received tonight, you were still alone.
“Can I come in?”
Rather than it being the knock, it was the steady voice you were oh so used to that reeled you out of your trance, your eyes finally locking back into focus. As you turn your head away from your reflection and into his direction, you could automatically feel your heart pick up pace.
“Well, doors open and you’re already halfway in so…”
A breathy excuse of a laugh leaves your throat — a sorry attempt at making yourself seem more pious for him than you actually were — but it was absolutely no help at all. Within his presence, you only ever felt more anxious than you should.
Onyankopon tries his best to force a laugh back but it doesn’t translate well. It seemed pained, even more forced than yours, and so you had to avert your eyes —  Save yourself from reading into something you didn’t want to.
You had to do that more for you than for him anyways. Because it’s been iffy with Onyankopon these past few months and with how he’s been treating you.
Not that you were complaining; He was a man who treated you to nice things and valued your opinion. A man who understood when you needed to be handled or when you could handle your own. A man who also understood your craft and was more than happy to aid his own. It was all well and good between the both of you and he was a gentleman wrapped in one. Only issue is that Onyankopon has never clarified what the fuck you two were.
Which, in itself, was off-putting. But concerning he had so much creative process on your album? (Actually, most of his band did, but since you possibly liked him just a tad bit better, his efforts were well more noticed) And considering you had to stick so many unsolicited hard hours alongside him? And keeping in mind how you were practically eye fucking him from the stage half the time you were performing your album — the sultry songs all directed at him?! You figured he’d somehow get the hint that you were open, willing, waiting for him to make a move.
As he cautiously took further steps into the room, you wonder if your requested audience would result in pushing him to make that move.
“I won’t take up too much of your time.” He hums with one arm suspiciously behind his back. 
He attempts to clear his throat yet he’s unable to do so the first time. It takes him several goes, a cough and a bat at his chest, before he’s able to achieve his goal. By now he just feels stupid, fumbling something as simple as this in front of you but he chooses to champion on.
You however, can’t help but find it endearing.
“No, you’re good. Still got a few minutes till we’re heading to the Ritz for the after party.”
You turn around in your chair, silk gown that crosses over the intersection of your chest one tug away from being labelled ‘provocative’. Unintentionally, but definitely welcomed.
“You coming, right?”
And you know you’ve tempted him — far more than you should be — because Onyankopon’s eyes automatically wander to the exposed skin of your chest. Stare locked on for several seconds before he’s forced to recognise his error and flick his eyes back up to meet yours.
“I…not this time.” He clears his throat again. “Which is mainly why I wanted to come see you now since I won’t see you after this.”
“Oh…”
You try your best not to look disappointed; for your shoulders not to sag and your bottom lip to stay free of being snagged between your teeth but it’s inevitable to stop the way your heart sinks halfway down your chest and your gut wretches inwards.
Right, of course. He was a busy man.
In your head, you know he probably had good reason to skip out on this big night of yours, but you can’t help the small teasing voice that reminds you that every one of his bandmates found a way to clear their schedules in order to make the party tonight. Everyone but him.
Subconsciously you tug the material of your gown over your chest.
“Maybe next time then.” You feign. Suddenly you don’t feel enthusiastic for your own event.
Onyankopon knows he’s fucked up your mood and he’s mentally kicking himself for doing so. Personally, he wasn’t going to say anything— just not show up and let you enjoy your time without him. But it’s Reiner, the drummer of their band, who nudged him to at least apologise for not coming.
Actually, Reiner nudged him to say a lot more than just his apologies for not being able to make the after party. He had berated Onyankopon in wisdolic manner about asking you out properly as opposed to keeping you exclusively on his arm. A proverb about ‘hope deferred making the heart sick’, “And you don’t want her to be sick because of you, do you?” He warned. 
In all honesty, he didn’t hate what Reiner was saying. He really did want to make a move on you! And he genuinely had the intention to as well. He also thought it’d be ideal to ask you out considering he was very much planning on taking you to go meet his parents soon but…
It just wasn’t the right time.
“It’s never the right time, is it?” Says a more nihilistic voice in his head, but he ignores it for sanity’s sake.
Onyankopon shuffles his footing.
“I’m sorry. Something really important popped up and you know I’d usually be there and…Look, I just wanted to come see you and mention you were really great out there. I know we, well, more you, worked really hard on this album and all but I genuinely just want to say that I’m really, really, proud of you.”
There’s a twitch of recognition on your face but the man’s rambled words did nothing to lighten your mood. You only turn your head back to your reflection in the mirror.
“Thank you, Onyankpon.”
Okay, you’re using his full name. That’s how he knows you’re upset at him.
Now he’s regretting even coming here. Onyankopon doesn’t want to go round blaming Reiner for your lack of reaction to him but deep down, he knows that’s all him. He knows that either way, mentioned or not, his absence would have upset you. He doesn’t want to now give you even more reason to be upset so he guesses he should start wrapping this up. 
“Congratulations on the album launch. That was the main thing I wanted to say. I should have started with that first…”
With an outstretched arm from behind his back, Onyankopon offers you a box of luxury chocolates and a freshly picked bouquet he could fit all in one hand. In all honesty, he would have definitely gotten you something bigger, better than you could have ever imagined! 
But, he just didn’t have the time. 
“You never have the time—“ “Shut up. I know.” The voice in his head is cut short. 
However, contrary to the heart felt gift, it seems your attention can no longer be brought. Despite his presentation, your expression is fixed and occupied on your reflection. Onyankopon suddenly wonders whether you were always this down when he wasn’t around. 
You sniff once but not because any tears were about to grace your face. 
“Thanks.” You say without looking back at him. “You can put ‘em over there with the others.”
Onyankopon’s gaze follows where your eye line draws to within the mirror. 
Sure enough, towards the side of the room there's a table where a mountain of gifts, flowers and congratulatory efforts lay. Onyankopon takes two steps towards it before sheepishly laying down his now rather measly looking present within the only sliver of table available. 
If he didn’t feel so out of depth with you, he would have dryly laughed at how low effort his offering was in contrast to Jean’s, his band’s guitarist. 
As he could see, the man had brought you an expensive bag bouquet — a gift extravagant enough to take up half the wall behind it. There was even a large bottle of champagne and a D’usse that tagged along with it and a card that had your stage name curved in beautiful calligraphy. 
You and Jean didn’t share a relationship anywhere as near as efficient as you and Onyankopon’s to warrant this type of gift, but he guesses his bandmate took great pride in the help he had on your album. Onyankopon even feels a sense of irate jealousy as he remembers how the two of you danced back-to-back on stage as Jean played his guitar solo during your final song. 
His throat runs dry at memory recall of the performative sight. Surely, all of that was to provoke him. 
“Sorry.” You suddenly blurt out and Onyankopon’s attention is instantly brought back to you — the physical you. 
“I kinda need to get ready now. Vans almost in front.” You drastically avoid his eye contact. “If I could just have these last few minutes alone that’d be great.”
With your last sentence mumbled and your hands playing at your gown, he knows you’re not telling the whole truth but he was honestly out of his depth here. All Onyankopon could do was fulfil your wishes. 
“O-oh! Oh, sure! Sure, yeah I’ll let you…I’ll let you get to it.”
With almost bashful demeanour, Onyankopon backs away from the table and makes a beeline towards the door. 
But it feels wrong. It feels incomplete. 
It’s not like he wanted to force himself against your boundaries but he just knows that if he leaves now without saying anything — he might just wound your ebbing relationship beyond repair. 
In some sort of divine intervention, Reiner’s words about not being the ‘hope deferred’ that resulted in making you sick, kicked in. As soon as the phrase comes to him, a looped smile starts to grow onto his face. 
“Now's the time!” His inner head voice says and for once, he lets it speak. 
Stopping in his tracks, Onyankopon mentally gears his courage up before turning on his heels and blurting out the first thing that came up his throat.  
“Hey, uh…look, I really do feel bad about not being able to make tonight. I wanna make it up to you so how’s your availability for the day after tomorrow?”
You’re surprised by his offer but you don’t wholly show it. It’s the way you pretend that his preposition didn’t excite you that made Onyankopon want to burst out in laughter. You were so cute when you were trying to be aloof. 
“Depends.” You shrug as your eyes actively avoid his. “I have an early morning promo interview for the album and my evenings fully booked.”
Onyankopon enthusiastically nods. 
It made sense you were busy concerning the work needed to be done for your album drop but Onyankopon was determined. Onyankopon wanted to make this work! 
“Okay, that’s fine. How’s lunch time for you?”
There is a look of ponder on your face and a sparkle in your eye. You roll your lips in contemplation before quote mark nonchalantly, shrugging your shoulders. 
“Relatively free.” You quip. 
Yes!
“Great! Leave it open for me. I’ll take you out on a date.”
Onyankopon is pumped enough that he’s already heading out the green room and so you get up from your chair to shout after him.
“Wait— Ony, to where?”
The man turns round to face you, a ghost of a smile gracing his lips. Not the most infectious smile but it’s his and so automatically, you’re drawn to it. 
“Don’t worry about that. Just dress comfortably. I’ll pick you up from whatever studio you’re recording at.” He says before making his way out. 
With a huff of disbelief, you sag back down into the chair. 
It wasn’t unbelievable that within the spur of the moment, Onyankopon had thought up a date to take you to. He was like that — It was kinda his thing — but there was something about this particular mystery date that you found yourself looking forward to. 
The same smile from before grew larger on your face and your reflection in the mirror relayed the same message. 
Suddenly, you didn’t feel so down anymore.  
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oblivions-dawn · 6 months ago
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⭐⭐⭐ i'm absolutely here to see your directors commentary >:3c
HEJ HEJ HI HELLO!! So something in your director's cut answers inspired to talk about how I write about Vig's dragon soul, since I haven't really talked about stuff in the sequel dfklgdfkl
ANYWAY. This is a scene from Breathless' Chapter I, A New Unease:
Isran sighed deeply as he pinched the bridge of his nose and shut his eyes, aggravated. “Anything else I should know about?” The vampire’s glowing persimmon gaze settled on the hunter. She wished that Isran would just let Vigdis sleep; it was obvious to Serana that her nightmares were worse than before, her fitful slumber often disturbed by a racing heart and sharp inhale. The lack of sleep pulled at her freckled features, drained of its natural rosy hue, accentuated by the dark shadows beneath her hardened eyes. “No,” Vigdis growled through her teeth. “There isn’t.” “Oh, but there is something else, isn’t there?” All heads turned to Florentius, who stood beside Isran with a knowing grin on his lips, his peridot eyes alight with excitement. “What are you talking about, Florentius?” Isran gruffed out. Serana could feel Vigdis’ terror and rage, as if the Red Mountain itself had exploded beside her. Then, feeling became taste: blood and fire and smoke curled over her tongue, doused her throat and lungs. Serana swallowed thickly, even as raw, uncontrollable power snaked into her body and coiled around her bones. She had never felt such intensity before—and it scared her. She stood up. “Floren—” “She’s Dragonborn.” Silence settled over the atmosphere. The taste in her mouth dissolved into nothingness, and Serana released the breath she didn’t realise she had been holding. Her shoulders dropped, but she continued to stand with an anxious apprehension as an endless meadow of questions bloomed in her mind at the priest’s words. “I’m waiting to hear what exactly that means,” Isran pressed in controlled, measured tones.
So . . . . no one is even aware Vigdis is Dragonborn until this moment. We get hints of it in Petrichor, but the reveal isn't until, well, the very end. Okay that's a lie because FLORENTIUS and the Arch-Mage [my own OC Octeagan] knew what she was, BUT NO ONE ELSE DID. Not even Viggy. And . . . she's not taking it well, to say the least. But I really wanted her soul, once it's properly awakened, to be something you could feel and taste and almost touch. Her anger is a volatile and dangerous thing, and it's heightened even more by her dragon soul. This is the first instance of her dragon soul being a more physical thing, and it happens several MORE times, and will CONTINUE to happen because Vigdis is truly just a bomb waiting to go off at a moment's notice. I should add that Vig's dragon soul specifically tastes like fire/smoke/blood, whereas other Dragonborns would have . . . a different taste, essentially. I just really love the idea that such power has to physically manifest and suffocate everyone around them because IT'S COOL and, again, I love pushing Vigdis to an edge, only to suddenly pull her back, and do that again and again and again . . . . until she snaps. >:3c There is a whole scene before this between Vigdis and Serana that is also really good but I really REALLY wanted to go over the soul thing so dfklgjkldjg I hope my rambling was interesting ;w;
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regina-cordium · 6 months ago
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me? responding to a post i got tagged in? wild!
got tagged by @renninflight
Rules: always post the rules. answer the questions the person who tagged you has written and write eleven new ones. tag 11 new people and link them to your post. let them know you’ve tagged them
except. i never know who to tag for these. if u see this tagged ur it. ill put questions at the end
under cut, because as yall know im a Yapper
What's your favorite band/musician? (And tell me why! And if you've seen them live!)
I'm a Hozier girlie thru and thru. he was in boston in march AND HAD NOAH KAHN AND I COULDNT GO AND IM STILL SO DISAPPOINTED. A N D HE WAS AT BOSTON CALLING AND I C O U L D N ' T G O auuuuugh
What's something you're proud of?
i dont mean this in, like, a self deprecating way. but i honestly dont know what to say. i got dean's list a couple times in college. i won some kinda award and now my name is on a plaque in the english department, thats kinda dope (i, to this day, have no idea what it was for)
What's something you like about yourself?
i do tell my parents they overestimate how smart i am, but i will say i am p good with trivia/knowing random things. nothing better than getting most of a jeopardy board right (<- needs to go outside more)
What's something you would like to do, if money weren't an obstacle?
i would literally never leave school. i love learning things (see above)
What's something you do when you're anxious or stressed to calm down and relax?
listen to music, sometimes Very Loudly
Do you have a favorite author? (If so, who?)
im totally blanking, but i dont really think so? theres not really an author that i see and immediately go "oh i gotta read ALL of their stuff RIGHT NOW" yknow?
Do you have a favorite poet? (If so, who?)
emily dickinson. yes, i am gay, how'd you know?
Do you have a favorite artist? (You can probably guess the rest of this question!)
van gogh!!!!!!! i know its such a basic bitch answer, but i L O V E the impressionists
What's a movie or TV show that had a big impact on you? (Could be something you watched growing up, a movie you saw recently that made you emotional, something you've seen a lot, something you quote with friends and family, etc)
i would watch beauty and the beast on vhs CONSTANTLY growing up. tv show wise, definitely buffy and angel and charmed. watched them with ma growing up and they have absolutely shaped my interests since then. also, and i swear im not being sarcastic, supernatural. ma and i watched every goddamn episode together since the pilot and look at me now.
What's something you wish you could forget? (Could be something personal, or it could just be a gross or weird fact)
not to get Very Fucking Morbid, but my dad almost died when i was 12 and i'd super love to forget that, actually
What's something you'd like to change about the world?
I Cannot Emphasize Enough That You Should Care About Other People
okay here're my questions. if u got this far, u are doubly tagged. idk i never know who to tag.
Song you've had on repeat lately?
Favorite play/musical (or both!)?
Book/movie/show you think somebody should read/watch to understand you better?
What's your favorite poem?
What's immediately to your left?
Favorite dessert?
Somewhere you'd love to travel, if money/accommodations were no issue?
Tv show currently/last watched?
Do you think aliens are real?
Do you think ghosts are real?
Do you have overly specific requirements for a room when you're trying to sleep?
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