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myrulia · 3 years

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hi ! I was wondering if I could request prompt 23 !! I really like stories like that !! Take all the time you need :D thank you !

.｡.:*✧Prompt 23: "I'll be yours and you'll be mine."

.｡.:*✧Warnings: Suggestive language, modern AU

╰╴⇢｡.:*✧A/N: I had such a fun time with this and explored new themes so thank you for the support!🥺

Busy was an understatement of what your life was as an adult in the city of Tokyo.

You had a well paying job but still life never could give you a proper break to yourself other than sleep.

Until your new co-worker came along.

He was a tall, young and handsome man who was around your age, yet a little younger, that got assigned to work alongside you for a new project given to you by your boss, aka the CEO of the company you work for. Working with said co-worker, you have come to learn that his name was Michikatsu Tsugikuni.

You both were hard workers and produced excellent amounts of positive work loads, which meant you were getting paid more and more due to your new partner. You even put in the effort of getting to know the raven haired male outside of work. You both had gotten coffee with each other a few times, and even went on park "dates" to either talk about your jobs or any other small hobbies you might share.

This developed a bigger bond between the two of you, and before you knew it you found yourself locked in a closet with kisses being trailed down your neck and onto your exposed breasts that were threatening to pop out of your already half unbuttoned shirt. That one breathtaking experience in that accursed closet of your office building changed the way you saw Michikatsu. At first he made it seem like he was simply an innocent man that wanted to work with you, but instead he found you as a whole enticing and sexy in general.

The way your skirt would slightly rise up your thighs as you sat down, your suit jacket buttons struggling to keep your chest locked and unexposed, he just wanted to rip your clothes off of your skin almost every time he saw you. Not only did he find your body damn near angelic, but your face itself stimulated his hard-on with the concentrated expressions you would make as you worked diligently beside him.

This of course led him to have more private time with you in that same very closet that almost nobody even dare bats an eye at in the entire building. The amount of hook-ups you've had were uncountable as the months went by of your dirty little secret still being unknown that you sleep with your obviously younger coworker who was so experienced with sex it made it feel almost unreal each time even though you took charge and guided him where you needed him the most.

Although each time you went home to your skyrise apartment, you found yourself longing for more of his presence even in your bed or wandering around your apartment, not just sex in a closet and occasionally seeing him in the office. You would lay in your bed and ponder about what it would be like to really have you as his and him as yours, not just some hook-ups only to pretend like nothing happened.

You wanted a real relationship.

After all, you had known each other for months now and would see each other outside of work regardless. You had developed a decent bond so it would only be natural for you both to be together, right?

With that in mind, you confidently stride your way into the same building you enter almost everyday, taking the elevator to the 6th floor and greeting everyone who passed by with gentle smiles and partial waves.

You smiled, until you saw him.

His eyes were practically glued onto yours as you made your way over to him, setting your binders down on the table and sitting down next to him. You crossed your legs per usual and sipped at the latte you grabbed a little before entering, not daring to utter a single syllable in his direction. This, however, left Michikatsu ultimately confused. He did not think he did anything to tick you off or annoy you to an extent, other than the small whispers of teases he'd say in your ear that would get you fired up, so just what was bothering you?

`` Hello, [Y/N]. Is everything okay? You seem particularly silent this morning. ``

You glanced over at the raven haired male to be met with him slightly leaning over, his tie loose and a gentle - yet worried - expression adorning his features. You set your cup down and clear your throat, shaking your head and opening the binder you brought with you.

`` Nothing is of the matter, let us work shall we? We have a busy day today with the amount of proposals we have from neighboring companies. ``

Michikatsu merely nodded, pulling out his own folders of research and studying he had done the night prior to aid you with your part of work as well as lessen the load significantly for the two of you. You may have appreciated his efforts, but that lingering thought of being with him still bothered you throughout the day.

You both worked as though you were in a rush, getting through the assigned papers with ease since it was the two of you, turning them in a little after your lunch break to the second in command of the office building, Hakuji Soyama. He was also a hard worker and extremely loyal to his job, so it was no wonder that he had direct connections to the CEO.

With your work being done, you felt a hand sliding into yours. Looking up at your very much taller coworker, you raise a brow at his choice of actions until you felt your hips being pulled in the other direction until you were standing in front of the same closet where everything started. Your mouth opened to say something, your hand holding onto the doorframe to stop yourself from going inside.

`` Michikatsu, nothing today, alright? Instead I want to ask you something. ``

Michikatsu stopped with his actions, removing his hands from your body out of pure respect and instead of the usual smirk he would have around this time, the tall male had a gentle smile and a softer expression on his face while looking down at you.

`` That is fine with me [Y/N], but what is the question? ``

You toyed with your fingers, removing your gaze from his and sighing out due to pure frustration that you would ever have the thought of trying to have such a heavy conversation in a work space, so you thought of something else instead.

`` Actually..- will you come to my house after work? I'd like to discuss something with you. ``

`` Your house? I guess I'll be free this evening. I'll be there around 7 if that works for you? ``

`` Yes, that is fine. Now, can we finish our work for the day? There's still more that must be done. ``

You turned on your heel to leave, walking ahead of Michikatsu who followed behind quickly, but his mind was stuck on the fact that he was just invited to your home. Your private space that had everything about you represented in a few rooms. He would be lying if he said he wasn't excited about the whole thing, but the one thing on his mind is that just what on earth could you want to talk about?

The day went by rather quickly after your confrontation with Michikatsu near the closet. You both got through your work quickly and communicated about anything else that needed to be done before the day was over, as well as things that could be done another time so you would not have to feel stressed.

By the time you both went through everything and submitted the things you had done, the work day was over, which meant you could go home and prepare to have a lengthy conversation possibly. You exited the building and caught an Uber home, entering your skyrise apartment building and smiling at the front desk woman before taking the elevator up to your home that was only third to the top floor. It was a rather tall building that gave you a gorgeous view of Tokyo so getting it was not easy, but here you are now successful and all.

You kicked off your shoes and greeted your white cat that snuggled itself onto your legs. You smiled at your furry friend and plopped yourself down onto your couch, receiving a notification from Michikatsu who asked about your address. You replied with details and threw your phone somewhere without batting an eyelash, huffing in frustration.

Before you knew it, you heard a doorbell ring take over your eardrums, which meant he had arrived at 7 on the dot like he had said. You opened your double doors and allowed him inside. His eyes practically lit up at the sheer size of your apartment for one singular person, as well as the view you get as soon as you enter that shows off the beauty of Tokyo.

`` Welcome to my semi-humble abode, `` you joked and guided him to your couch, your cat jumping at the new person but relaxing once it felt your hand atop its head.

`` You have a lovely home as I expected from someone who looks lovely every day. ``

`` Don't flatter me too much, it might go to my head. ``

You both laughed, you heading towards your kitchen and making two cups of water and bringing it over to your living room, setting them both on the coffee table in front of you. You nervously took a long and a little dramatic sip, just to prolong the conversation further as nervousness set into your skin. Your mind was running a mile a minute at what his reaction might be. Will he cut you off? Will he switch jobs and delete your contact from his phone? You had absolutely no clue.

`` S-So.. what is it that you wanted to talk about?, `` He asked, getting the conversation started. You pulled the cup away from your lips, setting it down and sighing once more.

`` I wanted to talk about us..- and well, our relationship I guess? ``

Your works left Michikatsu in shock as soon as they left your pretty lips, his eyes slightly widening but relaxing right after, his gaze stuck on your eyes, trying to think of a proper response until you spoke again.

`` Michikatsu, we've been fucking around for months. Sure we've went on "dates" before but they didn't mean as much as they do now. So I wanted to ask you personally, what are we? ``

He was left stammering on his words, and for once his face wasn't red from pleasure but instead of embarrassment. Sure, you had been known to be straightforward and blunt before but being that right now left his feelings in disarray. He tore his eyes from you finally, looking down and being left in his own thoughts. You gave him time to think, seeing as how it was a heavy question.

But little did you know he felt the exact same way.

Since he joined the company a little later, you were his senior, and you being in a position higher than him only enticed him even more. It wasn't only that though, each and every time he saw your face, happiness would strike his heart since you were there yet another day. It almost felt surreal that you even existed with how utterly drop-dead gorgeous you were. Of course, with you being such an eye-catching woman, he has over heard the other males in the office speak about you and your body only, but he had come to appreciate every part of you whether that be your body or joyous personality.

`` Michikatsu, please say something. ``

Your words brought him from his thoughts, but looking at your face that was so stern and had a piercing gaze that he could not stop his cheeks from heating up. You raised a brow at this until he began to speak in a calm manner.

`` In the truth of it all, I have thought about this as well. In fact I was planning on talking to you about it but my nervousness got the best of me.

Hearing the male be so honest and vulnerable with you honestly pulled at your heartstrings. You listened intently for what else he had to say but nothing could have prepared you for this.

`` I'm going to be completely honest, I didn't just fall for your body, but for you as a whole. You draw me in with that gaze of yours and I can't help but to not ignore it. [Y/N], I want to be more to you. ``

This time you were fully taken aback by his choice of words, your eyes pretty much tripled in size. Your lips quivered to say something, albeit a "yes" or just anything in general, but so much ecstatic emotions overflooded your mind that you felt overwhelmed.

Michikatsu watched your face and your body movement, automatically telling that you were a little emotional at the moment so he opened his arms, inviting you in which you happily accepted. Your arms wrapped around his larger frame, his easily being able to envelop you in warmth and care. You allowed your senses to be overtaken by his, his scent of cologne being so fresh and inviting that that allowed yourself to sink into his embrace further.

`` I take it that you are happy with my response?, `` the male said whilst looking down at you, he notices tears pricking the ends of your eyes but he quickly wiped them away with his finger, caressing your cheek afterwards and having a gentle smile on his features.

`` I believe so, so Michikatsu, what does this mean for us? ``

`` I think it means that I'll be yours and you'll be mine. ``

`` I like the sound of that. ``

You moved closer to his face now that your emotions had calmed down just a little, but hearing the words that came from his resplendent and flavorsome lips had you yearning for more than just his words. You wanted more of him now that it was official.

He quickly caught on to what you were implying and leaned closer to your face until your lips connected in a singular heated kiss that had your legs squeezing shut already.

You wanted him more than any other time before.

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95jezzica · 3 years

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Some Nordic HCs 01

- Norway is actually the oldest of the Viking trio, but let's Denmark claim the title because he honestly couldn’t care less about being the oldest.

- Their parents were Scandia and North, but Norway is the only one old enough to really remember them, since they died not long after Denmark and Sweden had “popped into existence”. (I want to note that I hc the Sami people to have their own representations, but they’re not related to the Nordics, and are for another post. It wouldn’t feel right to make them related, considering our history.)

- Denmark and Sweden are twins. Sweden just had the unfortunate luck to be born after midnight, and thus has his birthday the day after Denmark. (A reference to how Den’s national day is on the 5th of June, while Sweden’s is on the 6th). Yes, Denmark holds it high above Sweden’s head that Sweden is the youngest of the Viking Trio. x)

- Denmark is 203cm (6′7) tall, Sweden 218cm (7′2) and Norway is the “short” one of the Viking Trio at 180cm (5′9).

- Because of this many nations who hadn’t seen Norway outside of paintings or photos were surprised by how tall Norway actually was the first time they met him, since he was only short compared to his giants of siblings.

- Iceland is the youngest of the Nordics and stands at 173cm / 5′6.

- Finland is the shortest at 170cm/ 5′5, but also the strongest of the group when it comes to physical strength. (Probably mental strength too, tbh).

- Both Denmark and Sweden are smart individuals, but would never pass the Wisdom check. Sweden is just better at hiding it since he's so naturally quiet, and since he's usually able to blame all his stupid shit on Denmark. x’D

- Denmark finds it hilarious that most of the non-Nordics still don’t know at least half of the stupid shit he gets into is actually Sweden’s fault. x)

- For many years Norway was the one who made sure Denmark and Sweden didn’t get themselves killed. Nowadays he still does, but at least he has help from Finland and Iceland now. x)

- Iceland loves his older siblings and Finland very much, but by god does he wish he wasn’t the only normal one. (Spoiler alert: He isn’t one either.) xD

- Norway and Finland are best friends. Fight me.

- Sweden’s eyesight is complete and utter shit, but he doesn’t realize he needs stronger glasses since they DO help a little compared to being without them. With that said, even with his current glasses his eyesight is absolutely terrible and in modern age Sweden would likely count as legally blind.

- Because of this Sweden can’t SEE magical creatures, but he can hear and feel them. Sweden also has magic, but prefers not to use it since he’s not as good at controlling it like Norway is.

- Long before the Viking era Sweden once found a bear cub, mistook it for a puppy, and then adopted it. Needlessly to say Mama Bear wasn’t too happy about it, and Sweden has since then been permanently banned from adopting any animal without the input from one of the other Nordics. (Not that it really stops him). x’)

- Norway loves his mountains and to this day still have a cabin hidden away amongst them. The other Nordics are the only ones to know where this cabin is hidden.

- Norway, Sweden and Finland also share a secret cabin around Finland’s side of the Thee-Country Cairn. (The name of the place/point where Norway’s, Sweden’s and Finland’s borders meet each other). This is the cabin usually used for the Nordic meetings and/or vacations together.

- One time Iceland accidentally said ‘Dadmark’ instead of ‘Denmark’. No, he still hasn’t been able to live it down, and Denmark cried tears of happiness when it happened. x)

- Both Norway and Sweden are autistic, while Denmark has ADHD.

- Norway, Denmark, Sweden and Iceland are considered cousins to the main-Germanics. (Prussia, Austria, Germany, Switzerland and Liechtenstein).

- Everyone except for Finland know about Sweden’s quite frankly obvious romantic feelings for Finland. The only reason why the rest of the Nordics haven’t intervened yet is because they’re unsure if Finland returns Sweden’s romantic feelings or not.

- (The part of me which ships SuFin wants to say Finland returns Sweden’s romantic feelings, but it took a longer time for Finland to realize his feelings were romantic or if he even wanted a romantic relationship to begin with. If you’re not a SuFin-shipper you can just ignore this part though).

- Iceland sometimes feels insecure about how different he is compared to the other Nordics, but he takes comfort in that his language is the one who today is the closest related to old (west) Norse.

- The Nordics know a lot of languages. Those include: . The main Nordic languages. (Danish, Norwegian, Swedish, Icelandic and Finnish). . Old Norse (West, East & old Gutnish). . Greenlandic (Kalaallisut, Tunumiit, Inuktum). . Faroese. . Meänkieli. . The Sami languages. (North, South, Lule, Ume, Pite, East - etc). . German. (The old trading language back in the days). . French. (Was the Royal/Court language). . Jiddish/Yiddish. . Hebrew. . Russian. (More so Finland than the rest). . English. . Spanish, Italian, Mandarin and Greek. (School-level).

Bonus: - Sealand is also fluent in Scottish Gaelic, Irish Gaelic, Irish and Welsh. - As an internet nation Ladonia pretty much knows all languages which exists written on the internet or within an audio file- but he counts Swedish, Ladonska and Latin (yes, this is true) as his native languages.

- Sweden is Ladonia’s and Sealand’s Pappa (Swedish for papa/dad), while Finland goes by Isä (Finnish for dad).

- Sealand originally had a hard time learning Swedish and Finnish, since they’re so different to English, but with time and hard work eventually managed to master them both before tackling the rest of the Nordic languages.

- Sealand rotates between staying with England and Sweden, and they were once forced to use “Divorced Parents” as a cover when some nosy humans got a little too close with their investigations. Denmark thought it was hilarious. x’D

- Iceland pretends to be a bit grumpy/annoyed about it, but secretly loves it when he is sometimes asked if he can baby-sit Sealand and Ladonia. (Partly because he’s finally not the youngest and gets to be in charge). x)

[ The End ].

(For now?)

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bokutouch · 3 years

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Hi!!! I was wondering if I could get an eternal matchup pls??

- my names Olivia and I’m 17.

- I go by she/her pronouns and I want to be matched with a male character from Haikyuu!! please.

- My birthday is January 6th, 2004 and I’m a Capricorn Sun, Cancer Moon, and Libra Rising (my Mercury is in Sagittarius, my Venus is in Aquarius, and my Mars is in Aries if you wanted to know the rest).

- I’m 5’2, I have brownish-red hair and blue eyes.

- I spend a lot of time doing school work because I’m really driven by it and I’ve had good grades a majority of high school. When I’m not doing schoolwork I enjoy listening to music or going on a walk! I really like going on sunrise/sunset walks bc they’re always really pretty! I try to do community service in my free time because I really enjoy helping others out. I'm currently a summer camp counselor but I hope to be a lab tech one day :)

- If I were to go on a date with a partner I don't really mind what we do, but I like book dates, movie dates, and especially museum dates!! In a partner I'm looking for someone who shares the same interests as me, is kind, has a good sense of humor, and most importantly can understand and work through my emotions with me. I get really bad mood changes so if he can work with me through that I really value it. My love languages are acts of service and quality time.

- I think that one of my fatal flaws is that although I appear kind and respectful when I’m out in public, I have pretty severe anxiety, depression, and anger issues so I struggle with that a lot. I also get really defensive and stubborn when someone says something that annoys me so i kinda never stop talking lol.

- To finish off I’m an ISFP and Enneagram Type 9v1.

- I hope you have a great day! Ty if you do this! ❤

Hello olivia, thanks for coming to my brand new rocket ship!! 🚀

first of all I apologize bcs I'm not really educated about astrology,

so I'll just use your other description as best as I could okay??

I SHIP YOU WITH AKAASHI KEIJI!

"why akaashi?" you might askㅡ

first of all, some part of you reminded me of bokuto.

and some part of you definitely reminded akaashi of bokuto too. it's not a bad thing really.

Akaashi looks at you and think, "ah, she is my home."

because "home" supposed to be comfortable, because home supposed to be familiar. Being with you bring him peace. You are his home, his tranquility, his safe haven.

Most people told him, "God- you are such a boring person, Akaashi." and as the time goes by, he is starting to believe that tooㅡ but thats until you come into his life.

You're one of his classmate. And not gonna lie, at first akaashi only know you as the quiet girl who always buried her nose in books. "If I am boring, she must be a lot more boring than me." that's what he thought of you, bcs really everytime he sees you, its always you and your books. He understands the importance of having good grades, but should you really be doing that everyday?

The first time you two have a really long talk was when one day akaashi saw you still sitting inside your shared classroom, all alone bcs it's almost 6 pm and of course everybody left already. Nose buried deep in books like you always do, but this time he could hear you humming a song- it's a song that he also enjoyed listening to. He never sing in front of other people before, but for some reason he wanted to join your little secret concert at that time, so he did. He sing along to your little hummingㅡ 1 song turn into 2, turn into 3, and you still didn't notice him at all. He laughed a little because "what's so interesting in that clinical laboratory science book that she doesn't even realized I've been here for almost 10 minutes already."

He tapped your shoulder two times, and you jumped at that.

"H-hey? Um, sorry, I just.. I've been waiting here for you to finally notice me but I guess that book is really interesting, huh?" he smiled at you, feeling a little bad after seeing your reaction at his little tap tap on your shoulder.

"Oh, yes... I want to be a lab tech in the future, so um you know, just preparing." you awkwardly smiled back at him.

"Well, uh.. I know you definitely going to be an amazing lab tech one day. I saw you reading tons of books related to that job everyday in class, so... I believe your hardwork will be paid off."

"wait... that was so nice of him." you stared at akaashi who's currently fidgeting with his fingers.

"Thank you for saying that, Akaashi. That really means a lot to me. People have been telling me that my dream job is just that, a dream. Hearing you saying that someday my hardwork will be paid off really motivate me to prove them wrong. I swear I'm gonna rub it on their face once I got the job." you grins at him.

And at that, Akaashi heart beating a little bit faster than the usual. Was it your thankful speech for him? Was it your cute little grin? He doesn't really knowㅡ one thing he knows for sure though, he wants to keep talking to you. From today, tomorrow, and as long as you would let him.

"Hey, uh... it's going to get dark soon. Do you maybe want to go home together with me?"

You could see how nervous akaashi was after asking you that question, so you just nods and start fixing your books into your bag. Right before you zip up your bag, you remembered the main reason you are still in the classroom at that hour is because you were planning to see the sunset on your way back home, "Wait Akaashi, I actually want to see the sunset today..."

"Oh? I usually go home as the sun set due to my volleyball practice. The sight look really pretty if you see it from on top of the hills behind our school. Do you want to go there? I can show you the best spot."

Of course you accept his offer enthusiastically. So yes, that day is the beginning of your friends to lovers type of relationship with Akaashi.

Akaashi confessed to you first.

His friend circle are full of annoying people. They all be like,

"COME ON AKAASHI!! CONFESS YOUR UNDYING LOVE TO OLIVIA ALREADY."

"AKAASHI, DO YOU WANT TO SEE OTHER GUY SNATCH HER UP? HUH? ANSWER ME. AKAASHI!! AKAASHI!! WAIT UP!! "

"AKAASHI, WHAT IF OLIVIA DECIDED TO FALL FOR SOMEONE ELSE BECAUSE YOU ARE BEING SUCH A PUSSY AND WON'T CONFESS TO HER?"

"AKAASHI THIS" "AKAASHI THAT" "AKAASHI" "AKAASHI"

so during your usual study date day, he just decided to straight up ask you to be his girlfriend.

"W-what?" you just sat there for a whole minute because... what if things gonna feel different once you two put a real label to your not so friendly friendship? What if being friends with Akaashi is a lot more better than being his girlfriend? What if he ended up leaving you because he doesn't like the real you? There are so many ugly things that you hide from him, would he still love you the same after seeing all those imperfection? so many what if(s) going inside of your head, so little time to actually process each one of it.

"Umm, you can say no, you know...." all the messy thoughts inside your head stopped right away after hearing that.

"NO! wait, Keiji- I mean, not no to be your girlfriend, its no to me saying no to be your girlfriend." God, its hard to be in love. You can't control your heart, your brain, and now your tongue. God bless your soul, olivia.

"So.... is that a yes to be my girlfriend then?" Akaashi looks really small in that moment. He is still not sure if he can finally kiss you or not. Only being a friend to you for these past 6 months kept him from doing a lot of romantic stuff with you. Kissing you, holding your hands for no reason, hugging you any time he wants to, actually go on a study date with you instead of a childish study day. So now he really won't waste a single time if you answer his previous question with a "Yes" ;

After having a long talk about your imperfections, all your insecurities, and also tons of frustrated tears coming from your eyes, you finally say yes and there you have your new title as Akaashi Keiji's new girlfriend. He definitely got his long waited kiss from you too 🌻.

HEADCANON(s)!!

Bokuto once joined you and akaashi's museum date and he broke a statue hand after trying to handshake the statue. He grabbed the broken hand and show it to you and akaashi with teary eyes. Can't do nothing but running for your life and never comeback to that one particular museum 😭

You and Akaashi have the same love language, "Act of Service" ; So the two of you enjoy giving each other little massage here and there.

Just like you, Akaashi love being helpful for others too, so he really enjoyed the time he spent accompanying you to all your community service agendas. People that you two have been helping together ship you guys so much, especially the elderly couple. They keep saying "You two will make it until old days like us two."

After a long time dating eachother, you two decided to adopt a cute siberian husky that you named "Bobo". Akaashi rejected that name at first, because "Honestly love, I don't like how you picked a name so close to Bokuto's name. Our dog deserves better." You gasped at that, "How dare you, Keiji. This is our son! And his name is Bobo. I don't take no for an answer."

RUNNER UP(s) !!

OSAMU MIYA

SAWAMURA DAICHI

SHINSUKE KITA

alright this getting too long haha.

I hope you enjoy the results, love 🦋

#🦋eternal matchup!#angie's matchup🕊#matchup #haikyuu matchup

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lassluna · 5 years

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Its a brand new day, (it's never too late to start) 1/2

All Killian Jones wants is to survive this February as painlessly as possible. Hopefully without telling his best friend he loves her. That would be a disaster.

It’s made all the more difficult when he gains the attention of a secret admirer.

AN: Thank you so much @csrolereversal for hosting this wonderful event yet again! I am so happy to be a part of it. Thank you @allons-y-to-hogwarts-713 for making such a beautiful pic set as well as being a beta reader to this story. It was so fun working with you.

FFn Ao3

“0815?”

The door doesn’t open. Killian curses under his breath, scrolling through his text messages. The landlord had sent him the new code, but he was sparse on details on how to get it to actually work.

“#0815?”

Nope.

Killina sighs loudly, glancing at his watch, knowing that he was going to be late if he doesn’t open this bloody door. He takes a drink of coffee to settle his nerves.

Empty. Bloody perfect.

“#815.” He’s about to start pounding his head on the door. His brother always said he was hard headed, perhaps he can just break the door down.

Why the hell would anyone prefer this bloody contraption rather than a key like a normal bloody person?

He wonders how much he’ll get fined for breaking down his own door to his own shop. It’s far too early for these shenanigans and he is already out of coffee.

“Wow, when Belle told me you hated the new key system she wasn’t kidding,” says a voice behind him. He sighs loudly, face pressed to the door.

He typically loves to see her face in the mornings, but today was already putting him in a foul mood. He didn’t want to say something he’d regret to her of all people.

“Good morning Swan,” he says rather annoyed, because the only thing worse than being locked out of his own bloody coffee shop, was if someone was watching him struggle to open the damn thing. “Not to say I don’t love to see your face so early in the morning, but why are you here?” He says, catching a glimpse at the blonde leaning against her car.

“I was in the neighborhood,” she responds. There was something in her voice that warned him she was up to no good. Most likely plotting to get a free cup of coffee. She always gets free cups of coffee.

“You’re always in the neighborhood when I’m on staff Swan.” She shrugs, approaching him with an unusual spring in her step and a smile. “Aren’t you awfully cheerful,” he notes. Typically Emma Swan doesn’t function at 6 a.m without at least 3 cups of his mocha latte with cinnamon, free coffee or no.

He should know, after being best friends with someone for 3 years, he’s pretty much an expert in Emma Swan.

They’d met on one of her cases, him at a bar next to a man who was hitting on anything in a skirt. She’d sat beside the man in a very pretty skirt. He’d said something offensive to her and had his hand up her dress.

Killian had tried to defend her when Emma Swan made it clear that she didn’t need anyone defending her. She’d hauled the man off to jail at that very spot.

She’d thanked him right after, for coming to her aid even if she didn’t need it. For a moment it seemed like maybe, something could happen.

But it didn’t. She showed up at his coffee shop Bean Around the World the next morning and he offered her a free cup, they’d been friends ever since.

Just friends and nothing more.

Except for the fact that he was in love with her, of course.

“Couldn’t miss seeing you grumpy, Mr. Early Bird,” she teases. “Besides it’s the first day of the New Year!” She steps in front of him and eyes the electronic lock.

“It’s the 6th.”

“New Year doesn’t start until Monday, Killian,” she says, and within a moment she has the damn door open and is just smiling like she’s so damn proud of herself for breaking into his shop. “Come on, I need my hot chocolate like now.”

Killian rolls his eyes. “Is this a robbery?”

“Absolutely; Give me your coffee or I’ll lock the door again.” He’s helpless but to cater to her demands. So, he starts up the little cafe while Emma rummages through the lending library Belle, his manager set up in the back of the shop.

Before long, the machines are warming up, and he has a tall travel mug of Emma’s special mocha latte ready. Judging by her running boots, he has a feeling she’s going to need to be on the move. He decides to throw in a bear claw for good measure.

“For my favorite former thief,” he says, bringing it to her table. Killian glances at his watch, they had a few minutes before he had to officially open.

“I’m the only former thief you know,” Emma points out. She takes a sip of the drink and a big bite out of the pastry. “Have you done anything for your New Year’s Resolution?” She asks.

It catches Killian by surprise, this is the first year Emma had so much as mentioned New Year’s Resolutions, she’d mentioned wanting to make one when they watched the ball drop together at her apartment drinking too much champaign and eating all of the Christmas cookies Liam had sent them.

She’d thought it was just her drunken sugar rush talking, but here she was mentioning it again. He shakes his head.

“What was yours again?” She asks.

Telling the woman I love that I do in fact love her.

“Learn a new language,” he replies. “But after what Henry told me about the Duolingo bird, I don’t exactly trust it,” he admits.

“Henry has an active imagination,” Emma agrees.

She too is fond of the boy that comes into the coffee shop after school. His mom is a lawyer in the plaza and so he often spends a bit of time here reading and doing his homework.

“What was yours?” Killian asks. She looks at him, meets his eyes in a very intentional gesture. It feels oddly intimate.

“Trying something new,” she admits with a soft smile, one that brings a sense of warmth to his bones. It makes Killian desperately want to kiss her.

But he doesn’t, because that would ruin everything.

“So something besides your mocha hot chocolate?” He assumes quickly, looking away before he does something he regrets.

“Uh...yeah” she says just as quickly. “New coffee orders sounds just up my alley,” she says, shoving what’s left of her pastry into her mouth and downing the rest of her coffee.

“Great, I’ll have something new and interesting waiting for you next time you show up!” He announces happily. He’d hounded Emma in the past about expanding her horizons, but she was a stubborn one.

“Sounds like a plan,” Emma agrees before quickly exiting the shop.

It leaves Killian with an odd feeling like he missed something.

Belle shows up to the shop a quarter before 3, smiling brightly as she clocks in.

“Good Morning, boss,” she says, putting her apron on. The apron was unnecessary since managers weren’t usually the one behind the coffee machines, that she left with some of the younger baristas working.

“Belle, you don’t have to call me boss.” Not that his words matter since she always ignores it anyway.

“So I didn’t see the door broken so I assume you got in ok, Boss?” He nods.

“Of course I did. I told you it would be fine, didn't I?” He insists.

“Emma opened the door didn’t she?”

“Why did the new landlord replace the bloody lock anyway?” He says in annoyance. “The old one was working fine!”

Except for the way the key kept getting stuck, and the door would sometimes lock when it wasn’t supposed to. They’ve had some awkward moments getting locked out in the middle of a delivery. So it needed an upgrade, it didn’t mean they had to make it robotic.

“It might be because he kinda hates you,” Belle retorts. “And he knows you don’t do well with computer systems.”

Killian grumbles in agreement under his breath. The bloody monkey who’d bought the strip mall last year always did have a thing against him. He was always coming up with some new idea to make everything more difficult. Only reason they hadn’t been evicted was because the leasing contract had been airtight thanks to Regina Mills. The best contract lawyer in town, considering she had the very same contract he knew it was good.

Besides, she definitely wanted to keep her favorite coffee place and after school stomping ground of her only child.

“I’ll call him and see if we can’t get a better system in place,” Belle assures him. “Maybe he’ll think I’ll agree to a date if he stops being so annoying.”

“Ruby would have a bone to pick with him if you did,” he supplies with a smirk. “What would I do without you?” She shrugs happily.

“You can return the favor by coming to my Valentines Day party,” she tells him with a pointed glance. It doesn’t surprise him, Belle has been talking about throwing this party for months. He just had no desire to attend, Belle was his friend, and had it been for any other holiday he’d definitely be in attendance.

Valentine's Day, however, he had no desire to be surrounded with happy couples basking in their joy. Perhaps he was a scrooge, but it would just be too much for him.

It would tempt him too much into saying something he’d regret to Emma.

“Come on Killian!” Belle insists. “You don’t have to bring a date, you can just be there, get drunk, and eat lots of candy.”

“As tempting as that offer sounds, I’ll pass. Good luck with your party, and your shift. I’ll be back tomorrow,” he tells her.

He can hear Belle call out a response, but it’s lost in the sound of people in the small cafe.

Killian is exhausted when he gets home. He desperately wants a shower. He smells like a dark roast espresso. He’s so tired that he nearly misses it, but the bright color catches his eye.

It's a bright red shimmer bag with golden hearts all over. Inside was a large white mug. It had “Be Happy” written in black and gold font. He picks it up gently, both confused by its presence and knowing that it’s for him. Why else would it be outside his door? He looks around quizzically, as if something else in the empty hallway could give away the purpose for this gift.

There was nothing.

He scratches behind his ear nervously before returning inside with his mug. Honestly he’s not too sure what to do with it. He considers putting it in his cupboard with the rest of his coffee mugs, but that feels odd considering he didn’t even know if he should keep it.

Emma always mentioned how vacant his mug cupboard was considering his occupation. He always seemed to leave his at work and they wind up mixed in with the rest of the ones at work. The first time it happened, Henry had tweeted about it. Now it’s become a game his regulars play: collect all the pictures of Jone’s coffee mugs.

It definitely drummed up business, but at the cost of having but three mugs of his own. (All of which were Emma’s)

It made Killian think that maybe....

But he quickly swept the thought away.

Emma certainly didn’t leave this here for him, she’d have just brought over another mug if she thought he was lacking. Something like this...it reeked of someone with romantic intentions, how else explain the golden heart wrappings?

And Emma certainly didn’t have romantic interests in them, it was simply impossible.

Emma Swan was a woman who took what she wanted, so if she fancied him, he is sure he would know by now.

Then again, he thinks, Emma Swan being the tough bad ass Bail bonds person she was never liked discussing feelings or emotions. She told him bits and pieces about her past, but her feelings and emotions behind it remained closely guarded.

She was a woman who kept her emotional cards close to her chest. She’d spent a very long time getting over her issues over being abandoned as an infant, even longer getting over her ex abandoning her and framing her for a crime she didn’t commit.

She was brave and strong, but was also terrified of being abandoned.

If it’s not Emma, Killian wonders who could have possibly left this mysterious present behind.

Belle maybe? Only her apartment was the opposite direction of his, and it seemed out of character for her to leave it rather than give it to him directly. Especially since she secretly had a girlfriend.

There were a couple neighbors who always smiled when he looked their way, but one was married and the other was carrying her fiance’s child. They both seemed unlikely but not impossible.

There was always Granny, owner of the diner across from his cafe with her obvious flirting, he didn’t often visit the diner, but he always enjoyed the occasional waffle when he was a bit hungover. Every time he visited she would shamelessly flirt with him, but she was very direct. Also, he had a hunch it was just to make her granddaughter, Ruby, uncomfortable.

(Vengeance for Ruby’s refusal to introduce her grandmother to her secret girlfriend he supposed)

He considered asking Emma her opinion, she was an avid investigator after all, but something occurs to him.

He doesn’t want to give Emma the wrong impression. The last time he’d shown interest in someone else, Emma had started to pull away. He hadn’t understood it at first, but Emma was trying to give him space to date, to be happy without getting in the way, which was absolutely absurd. She was his best friend and would continue to be for as long as she’d have him. No relationship would change that.

The last thing Killian wants is to make that happen again. So a decision is made, he isn’t going to tell Emma, he’s just going to hope that someone made a mistake, or that it was a one time thing.

Perhaps the mysterious gift giver was just someone in the apartment complex that had left it at someone’s door at random.

It was not random. A few days later he finds a teddy bear with a rose in the same spot outside his door.

“Good Morning, Swan,” Killian greets sarcastically leaning against the bloody immovable door.

The new code he’d tried to set up still wasn’t working, he’d finally run out of mugs (except for the mystery one of course), and there was another gift left this morning.

He could hear her car pull into one of the staff parking spots. The unreasonable caffeine deprived part of his mind told him she was here to laugh at his inability to open doors, remember his coffee mugs, or find secret admirers.

Not that Emma was aware of that last bit.

“Just wanted to make sure you got in ok, and maybe catch up.” she assures him. “No coffee?” She asks. He shakes his head.

“Didn’t have a clean mug,” he admits. “I left mine here yesterday.”

Well he did have a clean mug, but Emma would notice a new mug.

“Oh,” she replies a bit disappointed. “Well...you really need new mugs,” she says, moving towards the door. “And to stop leaving yours at work. I think the collection has reached 15 at this point.” She reminds him.

He knows she’s right. He also can’t help but be annoyed with how easily Emma opens the door. “How the hell do you do that?” Killian asks. He’s convinced the landlord programmed it so that he couldn’t open it but anyone else could with ease just to make him insane.

“Magic.” She says with a grin. He disappears into the darkness of the cafe as he does his usual opening procedures, but he doesn't forget to make Emma her beverage. Her new beverage. He needed to pick something Emma would like, but still push her outside her comfort zone.

He decides to start her off with something in her ball park.

“White mocha latte,” Killian announces. She’s on her phone and looks stunned by the drink put in front of her. “You wanted to try something new, right?” Suddenly he feels very nervous and regrets just not bringing her her favorite beverage.

“Yup,” Emma says sternly. “Of course.” She takes a big sip. “It’s great, super sweet,” she confirms.

“It’s popular with the caffeine lovers but coffee haters,” he confirms.

“Right ok,” she says, sipping on it some more. “Are you on for Netflix tonight?” she asks.

Killian nods.

He’d almost forgotten about it. Netflix with Emma was the highlight of his week, they usually got pizza or chinese and picked something at random and just watched it all night long.

Belle used to ask him if anything happened between them on these late night platonic dates, but it never did. Nothing worth mentioning after all.

Which was fine. It was great even. They were best friends.

Last week they’d had to skip it when Emma got called away on an assignment, but this time would be fine.

“Wouldn’t miss it for the world.”

#csff #csrr #captain swan au #best friends to lovers #coffee shop au

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Next gen headcanons

Edward "Teddy" Remus Lupin

Nonbinary, uses he/him and they/them pronouns

Pansexual, but has mostly dated boys

Hufflepunk

Mixed bag of depression and anxiety

Tattoos and piercings everywhere. Also, a tattoo artist.

Walks with a cane due to chronic back pain

His first kiss was with his best friend, Basil Haywood-Karasu

He dated Victoire for a bit, but it didn't work out. They're better as friends

Lived in between houses for most of his life. His grandmother Andromeda and his godparents, Harry and Ginny share custody

When Andromeda began having a hard time getting around on her own, Harry and Ginny opened up their house to her happily, though this was after Teddy moved out on his own

Winifred "Winnie" Margaret Weasley-Wood

Daughter of Percy and Oliver

Bisexual

Gryffindor but almost Ravenclaw

Named after her late uncle and Grandma Molly, whose full name was Margaret, though she would never admit it

Has read every book in the restricted section, whether she was allowed to or not

Hands are constantly in motion. Does math in the air, taps fingers on surfaces, sometimes just does random stuff with her hands, has to stop herself from doing hand motions when talking, etc. Has no idea what causes it.

The shortest of all her siblings/cousins

Hosts a Qudditch Little League for her siblings/cousins

Victoire "Vic" Apolline Weasley

Bisexual

Ravenclaw

Sort of a preppy punk. Loves faux leather jackets but also loves tiaras :) completely beautiful, let's be honest

Curses in French all the time

Attended Magik N.O.U., a wizarding school in New Orleans in her 7th year, which sparked her love for travel

Learned wandless and non-verbal magic just because people thought she couldn't; the dictionary definition of "girls can be smart AND pretty"

Could totally kick Teddy Lupin's ass

Has to worst temper of anyone in her extended family. And that's really saying something

International Hit Wizard

Georgie Rhyme Jordan

Child of Lee Jordan, honorary Weasley due to his relationship with Fred prior to his Fred's death

Pansexual and Genderqueer; he/him or any pronouns

Feminist AF

Really into street art. May have graffiti-ed a few anti-Brexit and anti-Tory pieces around England, but there's no proof

Not vegetarian but has cut down on meals with meat

Was born with atrial septal defect

Megara "Meg" Rhys Weasley-Wood

Demigirl. Experiences some dysphoria but not a lot

Partially deaf due to an untreated ruptured eardrum.

Has a huge, fluffy, orange cat named Hercules

Blind enough that she has to wear coke bottle glasses.

Animal lover right to the core. Donates to any and all shelters that she knows have good practices and tries to adopt as many animals as possible from the bad ones

Loves divination. Has minor seer powers.

Has a magical disorder where smoke comes out of her hears when she gets mad.

Frederick "Freddie" Gideon Weasley II

Bisexual. In love with Taras Krum, who was in a student exchange program with Durmstrang and Hogwarts.

Suffered severely after getting hit by a bludger in his 6th year; a concussion and head trauma leading to epilepsy

Severe depression and imposter syndrome

Not much of a prankster

Bookworm

James "Jamie" Sirius Potter

Red hair + hazel eyes + freckles everywhere

Got a gold tongue piercing at fourteen and that's how he found out that he was allergic to gold

Smoked pixie dust once

Lover of poorly timed finger guns and funky socks (yes, he is bisexual, why do you ask?)

Not a professional quidditch player or auror

He runs a diner called "Lumos" that serves the best burgers in the wizarding world

Doesn't think he can do anything right

River Lee Jordan

Trans girl; lesbian

Allergic to cinnamon

Loves pranking; Dominique, Lily, Romany, and her prank their cousins all the time. They're terrifying.

Writer but she works as a herbologist assistant, waitress, and cashier at WWW on the side just to support herself

Can hear magic. It's an almost constant buzzing when she's around her family and at Hogwarts. Sometimes just needed to be alone so that she couldn't hear the buzzing.

Gwendolyn "Wendy" Lucille Weasley-Wood

Pansexual

Has a genderfluid s/o, Ari Spinnet-Bell

Very environmentalist. Tries not to be annoying about it.

Founded a Hogwarts theatre club and actually wrote a few, very very gay plays and musicals

Hosts a podcast/blog with her roommates (River, Ari & Susmita) called Witches Unstitched where they talk about anything and everything under the sun

Helped create a bunch of healing potions with all the plants she has in her greenhouse(s)

Dominique "Dom" Gabrielle Weasley

Pansexual and Aromantic

In a QPR with Lorcan Scamander, her best friend

Hates being compared to her older sister

When Lorcan got cancer and got pulled out of school, she took time off school while he was getting treatment

Shaved off all her hair when he lost his

Leader of the Pluto is a Planet society at Hogwarts

Best friend in the family is James, despite the fact that she and Arthur are in the Slytherin! Marauders together

Loves firewhiskey and menthol cigarettes (don't tell Wendy)

Illegal animagus - a white cat. Her nickname is Duchess.

Arthur "Art" Rubeus Potter

Gay + in love with Scorpius Malfoy

Dyed the tips of his hair green and silver when he was 12

Loves leather jackets, chokers, and combat boots

Has too many piercings to count, but his favorite is his deep purple nose ring. Hates the idea of a tongue ring

Trained himself in Legilimency and Occlumency

Learned Parseltongue, Mermish, and several other creature languages because "he was bored"

Knows quite a bit of dark magic, but is not a dark wizard

Had a lot of tattoos. Most were of creatures from the Black Lake, the Giant Squid taking up his entire back, and a merperson takes up his upper left arm

But over his heart is the Scorpius constellation, sketches of the four animagi are on his left hip, and on his ankle are magically fading footsteps that would eerily familiar to anyone who had looked at the Marauder’s Map

Went to a wizarding school located in the Great Barrier Reef, which offered courses for 18 - 21 year olds who had graduated from wizarding schools around the world

Loves puns, boxing, extra greasy pizza, potions, pet names, horror movies that are actually scary, singing in the shower, and his boyfriend, Scorpius Malfoy

Marine Mazoologist

Roxanne "Roxy" Fabian Weasley

Bisexual

Has been known to "experiment" with girls. In the Quidditch locker rooms. Forgets to lock doors. Oops

Her patronus is a coyote. Her happiest memory is of when her and Fred jumped of the roof of Hogwarts with their brooms. They had been trying to recreate the last scene of Pratical Magic, but like, with brooms

Loves cooking and knitting with her Grandma Molly

Studies in the strangest places. Lily once found her studying in the secret passage to Hogsmeade one night. Her brother found her sleeping in the Astronomy tower, with books strewn around her. Scorpius and Arthur once found her studying in a secret alcove (they still won’t admit to her why they had wanted to be in secret alcove in the first place)

Down to fight anyone for any reason

In love with Susmita Patil

Healer

Rosa "Rose" Bud Granger-Weasley

Lesbian

An absolute foodie

Named after a Charles Dickens character

Allergic to cats, which irks her mom and pleases her dad

President of the current Hogwarts chapter of S.P.C.W. (Society for the Promotion of Creature Welfare). Hermione has worked tirelessly in the ministry to get laws passed but even ministers can't change everything in a day

After graduating, her, Arthur, Dominique, Roxanne, Scorpius, Lorcan, and Lysander all went on a camping trip. Harry, Ron, and Hermione got really anxious about it

Loves reading trashy tabloids to call down. Circles all the stories about her family to torture her cousins with (jokingly)

It's a 50/50 shot whether she going to argue with you, and cite her sources, or if she is going to knock your teeth out

Spent her 7th year at The Salem Witches Institute in Massachusetts, a private all-girls school

Historian for wizarding history. Runs a small museum out of Grimmauld Place, which the Potters don't live in but Harry stills owns + has cleaned up a bit

Lily "Lils" Euphemia Luna Potter

Has meniere's disease

Vegetarian for medical reasons

Needs to wear glasses but never does

Gryffindor, but wanted to be in Slytherin

Will help out anyone and everyone if she can

Lived with Teddy for a bit after he moved out on his own

Asexual and Panromantic. In a polyamorous relationship with Frankie Longbottom and Estelle Huang

Had a pet snake named Besa. The snake was nearly longer than she was tall, non-poisonous, and the sweetest thing ever (at least, according to Lily)

Beat up James when he said that she "threw like a girl". She cracked one of his ribs, gave him a black eye, and broke his nose in three places. To this day, he claims that his nose is a little crooked (he was nine. she was five.)

Went to a wizarding school in the Himalayas in her 5th year, on the international student exchange program

Has very long hair that is almost always up in bun(s), braid(s) or ponytails. Has to magically shorten it for Quidditch games

Loves mysteries

Hugo "Go-Go" Cabret Granger-Weasley

Genderfluid [they/them]

Colorblind, dyslexic, and has ADHD

Dragonologist in Sweden, but almost went into wandmaking

In love with Allie Longbottom, who always painted her face Hufflepuff colors for games after Hugo got on the team

Uses medically prescribed pixie dust to help with their extreme anxiety; is careful not to take too much

Has a pet ferret that they named Star Boy

Joshua "Josh" Wilhelm Weasley-Wood

On the autistic spectrum

He takes his emotional support golden retriever, Laurel, to Hogwarts with him to help with the changing enviorment

Loves matchbox cars. Has hundreds of them. Carries one or two around with him at all times to fidget with

Loves hiking through the Forbidden Forest, with supervision from his dad, Professor Percy Weasley, or one of the other teachers, of course. All of them are willing to walk with him when they have time, but he loves hiking with his dad most

Has a hard time focusing when there's a lot of noise around him, so of course he has noise cancelling headphones

Learned how to fix up cars and bikes from his grandfather; opened up his own mechanic shop; loves riding the first motorcycle that he and his grandfather fixed up through the streets of London, especially with his girlfriend Lavi

It took him a while to overcome balance issues, but with training to be a seeker in Quidditch, and a lot of time spent taking practice drives on his bike in the fields around the Burrow, he was able to overcome them and once he did, he was on his motorcycle every chance he got

Has accomandations made for him when it comes to eating at Hogwarts, because the food can bother him sometimes

Hates when different foods on his plate touch

Romany "Romy" Charlotte Weasley-Wood

Lesbian-Oriented aroace; in a qpr with Maisie Greengrass

Is prone to accidental magic and has a bit of an anger issue that she works through with a punching bag, bring a beater on the Quidditch team, and playing drums

Her, Tessa Weasley, and Sariel Goyle formed a band called Bloody Bitchin' Babes that played underground gigs at Hogwarts parties before getting work at parties and bars

Hates all of her classes, except Transfiguration

Her plans look like the walls of detectives in murder mysteries. Photographs, post-it notes, paper ripped out of notebooks, red strings, and everything

Burnt Hufflepuff

Royal "King" Kingsley Jordan

Bigender + Bisexual; xe/xem pronouns

Loves all types of clothing but especially suits, flowery blouses, crop tops, chunky belts, scarves, and Doc Martins

Plays the piano all the time, xe even has a piano in xyr room

Gets chronic migraines, has been known to sit/lay in the dark for hours until the pain subsides. Hates taking meds for it

Never has her phone screen brightness above the lowest setting because xe hates that xyr light sensitivity may take xyr away from xyr phone, which is xyr life

Would love to travel one day

Louis "Louie" Antoine Weasley

Only has a little bit of veela charm, usually enough to get him out of minor trouble, and it isn't always permanent

Started taking in magical creatures when he was seven, when Luna gave him a suitcase like Newt Scamander's and got another one when he started adopting muggle creatures as well. He especially loves his mokes and his chickens.

He loves swimming in the Great Lake with the Giant Squid

Loves carmelized apricots, pumpkin gorgonzola flan, cinnamon roll cheesecake, molasses cookies, Bulgarian candy -specifically chocolate bars, sweet potato pancakes, and homemade butter-maple syrup

Was in a student exchange program with Beauxbatons in his 4th year and again in 6th year with the Canadian wizarding school and he loved both experiences

Tessa "Tess" Rue Weasley

Can see people's auras

An expert at potions. Began working on a cure for lycanthropy at the age of 13 and a long 17 years later, she finally accomplished it. She always says that she would have done it quicker if only she didn't have to sleep to live

Part of the potions club at Hogwarts, which is a much less snobby version of the Slug Club that actually has to so with potions talent and not just fame

With her cousin Louis's help, she was actually able to tame a baby raccoon and named him Meeko after the raccoon in Pochahantas to help her and also trained him to help her nick a few things from her cousins sometimes

Loves classic fantasy lit, especially Narnia. Tried to charm a wardrobe to take her to Narnia, and let's just say that it didn't turn out very well and that it was really hard to reverse

Shaves her head in fourth year, because she was tired of all the work it took to take care of her hair

Penelope "Penny" Elodie Weasley-Wood

Named after Penelope Clearwater, who was her father's best friend and who died in the Battle of Hogwarts

She was adopted from Ukraine and loves everything about the country. The language, the music, the art, the people...

Went on to be a dragon tamer at a Ukranian dragon reserve, which she applied to as soon as she turned 17, and when she got an offer, she took her N.E.W.T.s in her 6th year so that she could take the job immediately

At the dragon reserve, she met Norma Hawryluk, who she fell in love with and a baby Ironbelly whom she named Vera and raised. No one but she had Norma could touch Vera though, because of the dragons' extreme rage issues

Constantly stole her sibling's and cousin's clothing

Gets stuck in her head sometimes

Romulus "Rome" Wolff Jordan

Asexual and Aromantic

Has a fluffy white cat named Marigold (Royal named her)

Loves wearing a ton of rings. Like, one on each finger.

Will only eat rocky road ice cream, and no other flavor ever

Has aphantasia, or the inability to voluntarily visualize images in his mind, but can still dream, because it's involuntary

Loves to sketch a lot. Will sketch everything he sees

Loves turtlenecks; hates crocs to no end

Big windows with amazing views are his favorite thing

Genevieve "Genny" Maribel Weasley

Prone to anxiety attacks

Polyamorous lesbian, in a closed poly relationship with Noa Spinnet-Bell and Lyric Scamander

Best friends with Romulus, her cousin. She is loud and fierce, and he’s quiet and passionate, and together they’re going to take over the world two steps at a time

Figures out that technology works in the Room of Requirement and starts a tech club that meets on Wednesdays, and has movie nights on Fridays

Brought a pet pig named Prince to Hogwarts

Unofficially a freelance curse breaker, but worked as an intern at the dragon reserve in Romania with her Uncle Charlie the summer after Hogwarts. Eventually moves to South America because her girlfriend, Noa Spinnet-Bell, got recruited by their Quidditch team, Tarapoto Tree-Skimmers

They move to a farm where Genny gets her own horses!!!

Elias "Simon" Jacques Weasley

Has fibromyalgia, which makes it difficult for him to stay in Hogwarts. With the chronic joint pain, fatigue, dizziness, and difficulty with memory, it was easier for him to get privately tutored by his dad, who was the Ancient Runes professor

Severe anxiety and depression, which was most likely caused by his fibromyalgia, but there's no telling

Vegetarian for personal reasons, and had James teach him how to make vegetarian burgers and other vegetarian meals

Loves water-based magic and might have gone into the exchange program for underwater schools in the Bermudas or Oceania, but he didn't want to risk his condition

Can beat anyone at any board game. No one knows how he does it. Ron played wizard chess with him for eight hours once, but eventually gave up on ever beating him

Is the publisher of a Hogwarts exclusive magazine. Uses his older sister’s computers to work on it. Works on his novel in his spare time. Occasionally holds poetry slams by the Great Lake. Just loves writing in general

Matilda "Tilly" Honey Granger-Weasley

Has a photographic/eidetic memory

Got expelled from Hogwarts in her sixth year for using an unforgivable curse on another student who was bullying/harassing Elias, but doesn't regret it all.

Finishes up her studies at a small non-boarding wizarding school in Romania, where she lives with her Uncle Charlie and his queerplatonic partner, Barnaby, and their cat, Wick

With the help of Barnaby, dyes her hair platinum white (think Zoe Kravitz when she had white hair)

Moves to America almost as soon as she graduates

Travels the world to write about different wizarding communities for the Quibbler and for her sister's museum

A little too obsessed with Joan Jett

Loves lucid dreaming

Elliott "Ellie" Ryleigh Weasley-Wood

Genderfluid

Has narcolepsy. Tired all the time and been known to dose off during class. And meals. And conversations

Needs to wear glasses but doesn’t, because they don’t want to look like a nerd. Looks like a complete nerd when they run into shit all the time and it doesn't help that their notes are always wrong because they refuse to sit in the front of class

Witnessed a car accident on a street one day and has been able to see thestrals ever since. Hates to think about it

Loves strong tasting food. Spicy, hot, cold, salty, super sugary, bitter... down to eat anything to be honest

Became a therapist for the wizarding community

Amare "Mar" Sabra Weasley

Own a huge shaggy grey and white dog named Ollie who she took to Hogwarts with her and is her best friend

Ellie, her cousin, is her other best friend and they love building huge forts and watching Disney movies together with tons and tons of snacks. Ollie always joins

Didn’t care one bit about school. Hated studying with a passion. Barely ever showed up to class. Was in detention more than all of her siblings and cousins combined

Worked as an intern at Lee Jordan’s radio broadcasting company for a few summers and hosted her own show that was based around old music after her sixth year

Alcoholic. Can't even be around firewhiskey

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cactusheartd · 5 years

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❝ I aim to be lionhearted; but my hands still shake and my voice isn’t quite loud enough ❞ ZENDAYA COLEMAN? No, that’s actually CASSANDRA BONES-JORDAN. A SEVENTH YEAR student, this HUFFLEPUFF student is sided with MCGONAGALL’S ARMY. SHE identifies as DEMI-GIRL and is a HALF BLOOD who is known to be SHORT TEMPERED, SELF-CRITICAL, and IMPULSIVE but also POETIC, RESILIENT, and LOYAL. { AUDREY, 20, JST, SHE/HER }

death tw ! disordered eating tw ! running away from ur bullshit tw !

Born a Lover and a fighter / dumb ass funfacts here while i get my shit organised !

Sword lesbian

vegan

Plant mother and art hoe, loves thrifting

Generally dumb as shit, only smart when it comes to talking in 7 levels of sarcasm and irony.

Says ‘do it for the vine’ and other completely outdated slang constantly.

If you remind her vine is dead she will - unstan.

Very tech savvy, extremely upset that tech devices have been banned in Hogwarts like ?

No fashion sense whatsoever like honestly -- get her some help, stop her wearing hawaiian shirts.

Asks people their fave cryptid on a first date / is really into conspiracy theories.

Excells at repressing emotions and bottling them up into her mediocre artwork and occasional poetry and also kickboxing - healthy coping mechanism? Who needs them.

Kind of a jock but an emo jock who’s also a hipster

Tells all her secrets to her plants and exposes nothing to anybody else whatsoever

Constantly ?? day dreaming but will pretend they were doing something cool.

Kind of aloof and will not let you know anything concrete about them. ever

Deathly loyal and ridiculously strong moral compass, lawful good to a tee.

She is cactus . . . . prickly … hard 2 open up, but full of life saving liquid in an arid environment. She’s made herself strong and protected 2 hide any emotion

Will do anything for those she considers her friends but only really considers like 4 people her friend and 1 of them is no longer with us

Used to only care for peaceful protests uwu but now she’s here ready 2 throw hands 24/7

Dog lesbian not a cat lesbian.

Really into history and linguistics, loves philosophy,

Speaks a speckling of other languages but nowhere near fluent but can say i love girls in 12 languages.

Only can be called Cassie or Cassandra, the only person that called her Sandy was Gwen so now it’s a no-go. Easiest way to piss her off is call her sandy.

hufflepuff seeker ; very fast and good at flying, but known for drifting off and day dreaming instead of spotting the snitch. excels in chasing down the other seeker.

Actual bio!

Being the younger middle child always comes with it’s perks, namely, your parents already know what to expect when they’re expecting.

Brought into the world full of smiles, and she’s never stopped smiling since.

A quiet, yet content child is how people would always place Cassandra Bones-Jordan. And for that reason, she was always somewhat in the shadow. That’s what everyone always says about middle children, they’re not the eldest, they’re not leading the pack. And they’re not the doted on baby.

They don’t have it harsh, they don’t really face the struggles and tribulations, they’re just part of the learning curve.

The infamous middle children, the children that time forgot that always end up with some sort of emotional baggage to them.

And so, Cassandra had a happy, uneventful childhood. Her parents loved her, her siblings loved her, and she loved them back equally and wholly with all the love she had to give. Which was a lot.

It was good for her, to be the quiet wallflower of a girl, she may not be a star actress but she shined in the role she was given to play. So introverted, she much preferred to sit in the back of the car with headphones in and a sketchbook in hand than ever join in the conversation, stand to the side of a photograph with a soft and pleasant smile on her face.

Such a lovely girl, everyone would comment, and leave it at that, sidelined for her extremely impressive bunch of siblings.

Cassandra fitted right into that role and so she never complained, just kept her head down and nose in her sketchbook and she’d be content and happy as she could be. She didn’t like the attention, she would actively try and avoid family at any and all parties.

Thus, it wasn’t a surprise that she was eventually sorted into hufflepuff, and she would always fondly remember that moment, writing back home to her mother. She was so proud to be a hufflepuff like her mother.

Except her sorting wasn’t really all that simple. She had an extremely long hat stall, the kind of hat stall where everyone tries to take bets on where they’re going to end up kind of hat stall.

Initially, the hat had thought gryffindor. For their was a bravery, a lion, hidden in the lanky but well built frame. Covered in marble that just needed to be sculpted, it was there, but it wouldn’t just bloom like a flower, it would need to be chipped at, destroyed, and the question for the hat was: would cassandra have trial by fire? Would she be burnt at the stake? Would Troy burn around her as she screamed into the night ?

Lucky girls are hardly ever called brave girls.

So the hat chose hufflepuff, perhaps a hope for the coming generations to be spared from war like its predecessor.

The wise words she and the hat exchanged didn’t really do much to bolster cassandra’s confidence, and so, she remained as a wallflower for the first half of the first term, learning the ropes of Hogwarts.

Luckily, she had her two elder siblings there to guide her a little bit, ruffle her hair as she walked past. But she still felt vehemently within their shadows, that her name Cassandra, meant little in comparison to the Bones-Jordan that felt like an anvill on her neck.

Being such a wallflower and a hufflepuff led her to being teased just a bit in her first year - a group of no good slytherins coming over and shoving her sketchbook into a puddle in the courtyard just because. ( she would later found out ; it was because one of her siblings had annoyed them earlier. )

A muggleborn hufflepuff of the same year, gwen mcstevens - scottish, ginger and awfully freckled, came to her defense and told em to fuck off basically in the most explicit way they could manage.

A spitfire, the sun, apollo, all synonyms for gwen mcstevens.

They became close friends- like he kind of attached at the hips, never seen without each other best friends’, it seemed like y/n had finally grown out of her shell a bit. Gwen even encouraged Sandy to dye her hair ginger in their 4th year.

Cassandra was quiet (around people she didn’t like), and gwen was loud.

They were each others balancing side, whilst gwen campaigned for everything and constantly had a bone to pick with someone, Cassandra would tag along. Because she felt the same way too , she just relied on the presence of Gwen to fully express those feelings.

An emotional crutch, they were completely co-dependant on each other, and at some point in their 6th year, it became like a thing between them. Unspoken, but there was a thing that she only ever told her parents about over christmas that same year in a flood of tears.

And much like her childhood, all they did was shower Cassandra in happiness, and told her to invite Gwen around next year for the holidays

Unfortunately - that christmas never came.

A few days after the news of Harry’s and MCgonnogal’s death came out, the first few muggleborns at Hogwarts began to go missing. Gwen amongst them. It was the 13th of November, a dreery November, when things were confirmed for the worst.

Dead. She could cope with the grief of Shacklebolt, Mcgonnogal, of Harry, but without Gwen -- there was an entire half of Cassandra now missing.

It was the rug out from under cassandra’s feet, her one support mechanism, the one person who knew everything about her was gone. But not just gone, she’d been murdered. Well, she didn’t know murder, but she could feel the room, could feel the machinations taking place.

cassandra was . . . . crushed. Defeated. Numb. she couldn’t feel shit - she was catatonic for a day in her dorm room, everyone edging around her so as to not aggravate the situation. And then she was gone, just like that.

She couldn’t deal with Hogwarts, at looking at Gwen’s bed next to hers, all her stuff left untouched as it had been last week ; her pet tortoise the only movement in that corner of the dorm.

It’s not like hufflepuffs to be rash; and here it was, the chipping of the marble.

She shoved a few belongings into her satchel and made a break for it on the 15th in the night -- stowing into the darkness.

However, the destinies, the fates, claimed this story to not be a tragedy - but an epic. Her hairbrain scheme to break free failed pretty badly; she’s found the next day by [w.c] in the early hours of the 15th on the border of the school grounds - just past the owlery a few hundred metres from the edge of the forbidden forest.

Disordered eating tw start In reality, it wasn’t fate, it was just the fact that she hadn’t eaten anything in a few days

Disordered eating tw end.

Cassandra begged for wc as they were fireman lifting them to the hospital wing to not say what actually happened, she didn’t want to deal with the drama without her crutch, nor did she want to worry her parents.

However, sitting in the hospital wing only lasted for a few hours, her desire to not worry her family trumped by the unending beating in her heart, the shaking of her limbs. this , although unknown to cassandra, was just grief.

But she had never experienced it before, or knew how to deal with it in a proper manner, so she tried to run again.

However, not having fully rested herself, her brain was fogged and her mental map of the school forgotten, and the room of requirement living up to its name, had sense a requirement in the lost bones-jordan child.

Moving through what she thought was just a normal door, Cassandra came face to face with a mirror. What should have been a paled face with sunken eyes and chapped lips, was instead replaced with stout figure with darting green eyes and firey hair.

Surprise ! it’s the mirror of erised ! what a lovely deus ex machina for us all !

And of course, it’s a grieving heart who sees what they long for the most ; gwen.

On the verge of tears, of running out the door and as far as she could -- ; perhaps it was too soon to see her again, her sun.

And maybe it was the lack of focus she had, or the iron deficiency, but she swears she heard the reflection talk to her. A manifesto to be brave ; cassandra had always followed gwen rigorously, but she did everything that gwen did. Sure, she needed the encouragement but she could always do it. She just didn’t believe in herself.

It’s the darkest hours of the heroes story ; and it's divine intervention, apollo, or thetis, swooping down from olympia with the words on wings.

It was that inspiration, that internalisation of Gwen that managed to get the courage to use her legs. Put one leg in front of the other and walk back to the hospital room, and sit back down. With no one to notice her second attempt.

The block of marble had been cut, the statue now revealed, the brave girl, the lioness, now in full force. People don’t call you brave if you’re lucky.

To keep part of Gwen with her everywhere, she decided to keep herself in everything Gwen had encouraged her to do, rather than become a hermit and avoid everything they ever did.

On a spur of a whim, she had those now, she decided to try out in the snap quidditch tryouts to replace the seeker. She got her best friends former position by some act of god, Cassandra says she plays with an angel looking over her.

She also signs up for the M.A the second she has a chance, constantly cementing herself in any role or position they needed to be filled.

Through dealing with her strife, she flourished rather than suffered, desperately trying to fill her time with extracurriculars, helping out the m.a, practising for quidditch matches.

At the same time, whilst keeping her emotions very bottled up, she’s started to act up and act out, her inability to deal with people she doesn’t like reaching sky high peaks. People would perhaps call her somewhat intolerant to blood purity ideas; and suddenly, she’s started to speak up when she hears something she finds dumb, started getting into fights and coming back to her dorm with a black eye or a bruised wrist.

It’s a level of self-preservation that’s gone too, along with any other healthy coping mechanisms. She doesn’t know how to deal with the deep seated grief that’s rooted itself to her bone marrow; but whatever she’s doing right now certainly isn’t helping one bit.

my wc page is still heavily under wip so i’ll post it in the gc when im done but the few basic ideas we got going on here are;

- the person who found her passed out in the forest ; sworn to absolute secrecy, peak drama and dramatic tension.

- other former friends of gwen who cassandra would have been friends with via proxy.

- people cassandra have absolutely gotten into a fist fight with as of late for whatever anti-muggleborn sentiment they’ve said in her presence

- love a group of people who are ... slowly going to adopt cassie into their friendship group bc she’s a loner and needs love.

- .. girlfriend (future)! crushes! you name it! she was kind of dating gwen so she ... soft angst hours ultimate edition !

- 1 ex / a guy, like the one person u date to try and convince urself your straight and it absolutely doesn’t work out and it’s kind of awkward we love heteronormativity in our kids.

#iidyintro #death tw #disordered eating tw #the bio is kind of death heavy but the other tw is like 1 line and i've marked it out so !!! stan

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indyflanery · 5 years

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Open Roads Ship Evaluation

WHO IN YOUR OTP:

drives when they go on road trips? do they switch at the halfway point? does one drive there and the other drive back? They switch when they’re in a car regardless of direction. But they prefer road trips on their bikes.

looks over the menu for fifteen minutes before ordering the same thing they order EVERYWHERE they go? does the other half of your ship get annoyed by this, or do they find it endearing? Nate, but Indy doesn’t mind, he gets him to try different things every now and then.

is more likely to get arrested? …Depends on what for. Indy for stupid shit, Nate for something actually illegal with good intentions.

is afraid of roller coasters? does the other half of your ship try and convince them to face the fear, or do they take a softer approach and not push them at all? Indy is not a fan. Nate tries to coax him every now and then and he lets himself be coaxed but it never turns out well.

shows up at home with a dog unannounced despite the fact they’ve already got three/four/however many pets? Equally so, but they only need one dog and Nate probably surprised Indy with it.

demands that they do date night? does the other person complain or do they go with it just to see the excited look on their partners face? No demands for date night, they did it regularly because they want to.

is the clumsy one who’s always tripping up flights of stairs or over their own feet? does it stress the other half of your ship out or do they find it hilarious? Indy hands down. Nate’s just more concerned that Indy is okay, even if he chuckles a little because it’s endearing after a point.

picks the music when they’re in the car? does the other complain about their taste in music? They have pretty similar tastes in music, Indy leaning toward more rock, but no real complaints.

insists on paying for everything when they’re out? do they fight about it? Nate always insists and they initially fought about it, but Nate has learned to compromise with Indy and not insist on it all the time.

is the one to quietly suggest they get high together for the first time? how does the other half of your ship react? Nate. Probably because he needed a bit of quieting his brain. Indy would be curious and agreeable.

is secretly terrified of horror movies and yet watches them all the time because it’s something the other half of your ship loves? Neither. Horror movies are entertaining if not always their thing.

talks in their sleep? does their partner record it and call them out, or not tell them and keep it as a secret so they can keep enjoying it? Indy talks and Nate probably asks him about it out of curiosity but he doesn’t tease him. He’d only keep to himself anything sweet pertaining to himself.

brings up the conversation of marriage + babies? how does the conversation go? Marriage Nate brings up, Indy can agree with it after some coaxing and the longer they spend in their relationship. They’re both in agreement on the fact they’re not big on kids.

has to pull the other back by their back of their sweater when they try and do something stupid in public? Nate probably has to keep a hold on Indy. He’s used to having people watching him.

is more likely to pick the other up from the airport with an obnoxiously large cardboard sign? what does the sign say? Neither are probably inclined to do that, but if pressed Indy probably would with just Nate’s last name and a chauffeur’s hat to tease him.

tries to cook a meal and accidentally almost burns the house down? Nate until he gets better at cooking. Indy can at least cook the bare minimum.

deliberately makes a squeaky chair squeak until the other person flips out? Indy

falls asleep no matter what position they’re in + needs to be carried to bed? Indy

is the little spoon when they cuddle? Indy, although he likes to think they switch (Nate claims the opposite).

hates thunderstorms and needs to be comforted for the duration? Neither mind thunderstorms. It’s a good way to cuddle.

brings the other breakfast in bed? is it a proper cooked breakfast - or just an old muffin? Nate definitely will bring Indy a proper breakfast even if it’s not always cooked by him

convinces the other to go on a hike? do they love it, or are they absolutely miserable? Indy convinces Nate they need to get out of the city more and Nate really doesn’t have a problem with it.

can never admit they’re wrong? Indy

lets the dog sleep on the bed when the other isn’t paying attention? They BOTH will do that.

uses emojis in replace of words? does it drive the other person insane? Nate uses more emojis, but it doesn’t drive Indy nuts unless it’s unnecessary add-ons.

who decorates their house? does the other come home and blink at all the pastel pink and force a smile despite how much they hate it? Mutual decoration. And there never will be pastels in the house.

is more likely to get into a fight to defend the other? Nate has never had any problems punching people.

is constantly spewing random facts about absolutely anything and everything? does it annoy the other person or do they find it all interesting? Indy and some of the things he comes up with actually intrigues Nate.

is the lovey-dovey drunk? Nate

laughs at their own jokes? does the other laugh at the joke… or at their partner? Nate. Indy just laughs at Nate being a goof.

is competitive about EVERYTHING? Depends on the competition.

apologizes first when they have a fight? Depends on the fight, although in general Nate will probably be prone to apologizing more.

makes the other a flower crown? does the other wear it without complaint or beg not to be embarrassed? Nate. Indy would probably wear it if they were home.

is more likely to put their fist through a wall when they’re angry? Indy despite being less prone to punching people. He’d have to be quite angry.

sends the other memes despite the fact they’re laying in bed next to each other? Nate.

wears the others clothes the most? Mutual thing. It’s comforting.

pranks the other on a near constant basis? how does the other react? Pranks are not a thing, but Nate would probably be more likely to doing it.

comes up with obnoxiously sappy pet names for the other just to watch them roll their eyes? Nate, but Indy teases just as much.

forgets their anniversary? Indy

is impulsive and makes big choices for them without stopping to think through what it all means? Indy

writes cute messages for the other on the bathroom mirror when they have a shower? Nate

has to do the dishes because the other gags any time they stick their hands in the water? Indy does dishes more but Nate will take his share of them.

jumps into the pool without testing the temperature, and who dips their toes in first? Nate dives in. Indy takes a little bit longer but not much.

tries to kill bugs in the house… and which one stops them and gets the bug out of the house alive and well? If Maverick doesn’t get to it, they both kill them.

can speak a second/third/forth language and uses it to annoy the other when they’re fighting? Indy (and 6th, 7th, 8th, et al.)

says i love you first? does the other immediately say it back? They almost always say it back or some form of it. Once he’d said it, Indy is prone to saying it more often.

wins when they arm wrestle? Depends on the day, although Nate probably just a little more.

gets caught singing some old, corny one direction song to themselves? Neither would ever sing One Direction.

is forever forcing the other to take selfies with them? does the other person complain every time? Indy more often than Nate and Nate never complains.

shows up at the others house with chinese food + a six pack of beer when they’re having a bad day? Definitely a rotating thing.

sends the cheesy good morning/night texts? Nate

suggests they send out a christmas card together? does the other go for it, or question when they turned into old people? Nate suggests it because he’d gotten conditioned to having it expected with his family and Indy questions it because WTF is that all about.

is a morning person and who pulls the covers up over their head and begs for five more minutes? Indy

is constantly insisting they won’t need a jacket before they go out… and then has to steal the others when they get cold? Indy

is a smoker and has to deal with the other forever showing them gross photos to try and convince them to quit? Neither smoke. Nate drastically cut back on the weed when he got serious with Indy.

decides they need to go on a health binge and throws out all the sugary food in the house? how does the other react? Nate and Indy clearly loses his mind over it.

holds all the important documents when they’re travelling? Why? Nate just because Indy is absent minded like that sometimes despite always travelling.

hates flying? how does the other help them relax before/during/after a flight? Indy hates flying. Nate distracts him or soothes him with low conversation. Some form of sex may or may not be involved depending on how bad it is that day.

is more likely to suggest a lil fool around in the bathrooms at a club? how does the other react? …Seriously? They’re both bad in that way.

plans a night of board games for date night, and who plans a romantic dinner at a fancy restaurant? Nate is more inclined to plan fancy things. Indy is more laid back.

cries watching the news? Neither.

teases the other one for having a crush on them… despite the fact they’ve been dating for a year? Nate teases Indy

believes in aliens? Indy will not give Nate the satisfaction of even letting him ask him about aliens.

is constantly leaving the lights on in every room in the house? Indy

rocks the seat on the ferris wheel? Nate and Indy would kill him if he keeps doing it.

is a terrible liar? Nate

is always reading the other their star sign despite the fact they don’t believe in any of it? Nate

who panics when Mercury goes into retrograde? Nate if only because he’d believe in it compared to Indy.

insists they watch documentaries to broaden their knowledge? Indy

is constantly renovating part of their house but not finishing one thing before moving on to the next? Indy is prone to that kind of energy but wouldn’t renovate the house.

uses all the hot water? Indy

is the shower person? who’s the bath person? They’re both shower people, baths are for more intimate moments.

is most likely to be unfaithful? A painful question…Neither of them are saints and have their history. Indy doesn’t want to think Nate will cheat but he doesn’t have the best history with relationships. But they are too devoted to each other to cheat.

BONUS QUESTIONS:

what is your otps song? Perfect by Ed Sheeran

do their families approve of the relationship? why/why not? Indy’s father is a bit indifferent, if slightly disapproving, but he doesn’t care that much one way or another about Indy’s choices. Nate’s family took some getting used to things at first mainly because it was unexpected and not generally acceptable for the eldest (and only) of a well-off family. But they’ve accepted it after Nate stood up for their relationship and they saw how content he was.

whose friends do they hang out with more? Nate’s

what do they do on their first date? did they have a first date, or did they just sort of… start dating? They did things sort of backwards, with sex as no strings attached before realizing there was feelings involved and then they went on a date the next day. Dinner, a walk, and ice cream - it was all very romantic.

what is their favorite way to spend the holidays? do they go to one of their families houses? or do they create their own tradition by staying in bed listening to christmas music and getting drunk? Family rotations are obligatory, with time spent with their friends more enjoyable, but their favorite time is spent together in bed or on the couch curled up watching movies with the dog coming and going as he will.

what do they name their dog? do the give it a super boring name like allen - or do they name it something like bubblegum princess? Maverick because Nate is a Top Gun nerd

how do they handle emergencies? does one of them crack under the pressure - or do they bicker because they both need to be in control?There are minor moments of panic but they handle things well pending on what the emergency is.

how did they meet? were they immediately drawn to each other? At a party in the Hamptons and they were easy friends.

what do they fight about the most? how do they resolve their fights? Things relating to Nate’s life of privilege and Indy’s more down to earth upbringing. It tends to resolve when they’ve had a few minutes to calm down and they compromise in some way.

#open roads

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sterekgala-blog · 7 years

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Sterek New Year’s Extravaganza Schedule

Welcome to the Sterek New Year’s Extravaganza! The SNYE is a month long event created for the relationship between Stiles Stilinski and Derek Hale (Sterek). During the months festivities, we would have hoped to have helped in producing a wide range of new content to kick off the new year!

We will provide a months worth of prompts, and all you have to do is write a fic or draw a pic related to whichever prompts you decide. You can choose to do one, two, or even all of them if you’re feeling up for the challenge! The event will start on January 1st and end the 31st.

Posting on AO3: To have your work appear in our collection you’ll have to follow these simple steps. First, you’ll need to long into your AO3 and go to our collection page (here). In the top right corner you will see the words ‘Post to Collection’.

Once you click this button, AO3 will direct you to the Post New Work page. There is where you will post the work you have been working on. All you have to do before you finally post is make sure that you are posting the work to our collection. You can check that you are by simply verifying that our name is present in the Associations box. MORE INFO HERE

Also, here is the link to the TAGS for each day.

SCHEDULE

Monday January 1st— New Year’s: To start off our festivities, we believe that the inclusion of a New Year's theme is called for. You’ll get to explore the many possibilities of what New Year's means for Stiles and Derek. Whether it be: a kiss at midnight, a pack new year's get together, meeting at a new year’s party, or even helping the other keep their resolutions. It could be as fluffy or as angsty as you desire!

Tuesday January 2nd— Time Travel: From a blast to the past to a leap into the future, your imagination can run wild. Will Stiles or Derek get caught between a spell that transports them to a different time period? Will time traveling be a common thing in their society? Will Stiles or Derek make a scientific breakthrough in manipulation of time and space? Whatever it is, don't hold back as you let your imagination take the reins.

Wednesday January 3rd— Humans: You know how this goes guys, any and all things human are embraced! From high school aus to tattoo artists anything goes as long as its human. Youtuber Stiles introducing his followers to his grumpy boyfriend, photographer Derek trying to focus on his model and not the talkative intern, or maybe just our amazing boys taking a relaxing stroll through the park. Anything goes!

Thursday January 4th— Historical AU: This is your chance to create that Pride & Prejudice AU you’ve always been planning to write. Or maybe your take on a Hamilton AU setting? Maybe take us on a journey to 17th century France! Whatever it is, live it up to the fullest as you write our favorite boys making their mark in the history books.

Friday January 5th— Crossovers: Whether you write Stiles being best friends with Jughead Jones, or Derek being roommates with Lance from the Voltron universe, you have the choice to write those interactions as you please. Will Harry Potter and Hermione Granger be the two that finally get Stiles and Derek on a Date? Or will Stiles and Derek find a way to weasel their way into becoming members of Alias Private Investigations, with Jessica Jones? Regardless of the situation, draw or write it as best as you can and have fun.

Saturday January 6th— Pining: Ahhh the sweet slow burn of pining. Having Stiles admiring Derek from afar as Erica relentlessly teases him about it. Or Derek losing his focus every time Stiles attends one of his basketball games. Wherever you decide to take this prompt you are guaranteed fluff in all of its forms. You can decide if it’s a case of obliviousness or if they are both just too emotionally constipated to realize that the other has fallen for them. Whatever you end up choosing to do just make sure it has a LOT of pining in it.

Sunday January 7th— Childhood Friends: Who doesn't love the childhood friend trope? Especially if it’s Sterek! This prompt could be either supernatural or human au setting. You could create it as them starting young and growing up, or you could have them had grown up together as the bestest of friends who are now testing the waters on starting a new relationship. All that matters is that the bond of childhood friendship changes to something romantic. Simba-and-Nala-fy that ish!

Monday January 8th— Enemies to Friends to Lovers: The classic ‘I hate you to I love you’ romance. Where they both have conflicting agendas or ideas that causes a rivalry against one another. For example: Stiles and Derek being rivals in a sports competition, them going against one another for class president, or simply Stiles not liking Derek because of his jock façade and Derek not tolerating Stiles because of his ‘know-it-all’ complex. Whatever the case may be, have it all lead up to them settling their issues and realizing that instead of hating one another, they are actually in love.

Tuesday January 9th— Fake/Pretend: The possibilities are endless with this theme. Whether it be Stiles pretending to be Derek’s mate for a werewolf convention, or Derek needing to help Stiles fool his family on a family vacation. Have it as fluffy or angsty as you deem necessary, just remember, make it make believe for the majority of the work.

Wednesday January 10th— Long Distance: This theme is a contender for being possibly one of my favorite days. With having the possibilities of Stiles being away at college or Derek moving away to New York for a well deserved mental retreat. You could have one of them get sick (probably Stiles. Seeing as his diet is just curly fries + coffee. That is not good nutrition Stiles!) and does a terrible job of pretending that they are fine over the phone so the other doesn’t get upset. Or them constantly visiting/calling/skyping one another because they can’t last more than a week apart. No matter the reason for the distance, just have it them being/wanting to be together while being apart.

Thursday January 11th— Neighbors: One of the things the fandom seems to love most is Neighbors Au’s. This can be when Stiles and Derek borrow sugar and flour from one another, or they find themselves in the middle of a ‘thin wall’ trope. Regardless of if Stiles annoys Derek by blasting his obnoxiously loud “study” music, or if Derek’s alarm clock is legit the reason why Stiles begins to hate existence, you have the power to let your headcanons go wild.

Friday January 12th— Friends With Benefits: The phrase “let's keep it casual” starts this type of relationship, which always leads to one or both getting noticeably attached. Yes ladies and gents, this is the lovely FWB relationship! They could start their agreement on a drunken night, or when one of them just needs a good rebound. They could both just gotten out of a long-term relationship, and in a moment of clouded emotional judgement fall into bed with one another. This prompt could be super angsty or really painfully fluff/annoying due to their obvious obliviousness to the fact that they are basically already in a relationship.

Saturday January 13th— Mates: Soulmates and werewolf mates are definitely nothing new to this fandom. In fact, it’s probably the most common trope we have on this this. Nonetheless, whoever says there is such a thing as too much of a good thing, is dead wrong. Write about how Derek knowing that Stiles is his mate, but not acting on it. Ooh, or the one where your soulmate's first words to you appear on your arm. Whatever you decide, just make sure it revolves around them having a sort of mating bond drawing them to one another.

Sunday January 14th— Getting Married: Whether it be them planning their wedding, crashing a wedding, showing up at the other’s wedding, or walking down the aisle. Wedding fics will always poke at least one or two feels in your heart. Have them picking out their cake together and Derek shutting down Stiles’ idea to have a Star Wars themed cake. Heck, you could even have them being in the middle of an arranged marriage! Be sure to be romantic and maybe a little bit overly dramatic as you create your perfect wedding scene.

Monday January 15th— Roommates: This theme is, again, a contender on being one of my favorite days. Mainly because of all the possibilities! You could have Sterek rooming together in college, or Stiles needing a roommate for rent money, and the Craig’s List Gods produced a grumpy Derek Hale. Or, you could create it as them being jealous that one of their friends get roomed with the other instead, because, “Derek sleeps NAKED?! Fuck that’s ho— ahh—horrible! I can’t believe you get to— I mean have to, yeah, cause gross— live with that, Scotty.”

Tuesday January 16th— Secret Relationship: Oh the painful world of secret relationships is guaranteed to make you shed a few tears. Maybe Derek and Stiles don't want to tell the pack just yet? Maybe Derek isn't ready to come out of the closet? Maybe Stiles has a homophobic grandmother that he can't seem to break the news to? Or, maybe they just want to keep it secret because the pack is already going through enough as it is? Whatever the case may be this theme is the perfect recipe for inner turmoil and angst.

Wednesday January 17th— Magic Mishaps: Now this theme right here is a sure fire way to get yourself thinking outside the box! Anything from witches blasting curses and hitting a member of the pack to Stiles messing around with an ancient spell, this theme is a wildcard for all things magic related. Maybe the pack switch bodies with each other? Maybe Derek gets hit with a spell that makes him saying everything he's thinking? Maybe they all start speaking different language and can't communicate with each other? Anything that has to do with magic not going exactly as the pack planned is what we're looking for with this theme, so don't be afraid to play around with it!

Thursday January 18th— Werebabies: Ahh the fluffy fluffy trope of werebabies has arrived! This fandom is very well versed on the concept of werebabies, and here is where you guys get the chance to show us your expertise in the wonderful world of baby weres. This can be: the pack's babies shifting for the first time, Stiles and Derek adopting an orphan werepup, a random werebaby being brought to Stiles and Derek's door step, or even one of the pack members turning into a werebaby! As long as there's a werebaby in there for us to coo at then it's exactly what we're looking for.

Friday January 19th— Royalty AU: Time to make our two favorite boys into the princes and kings they were born to be. This is where Derek Prince of Spain gets into an arranged marriage with Stiles the heir to the Polish throne. This is where King Stiles refuses to marry because he is in love with his royal guard. This is where Derek, the new pharaoh, defies all the laws and marries his overly talkative servant. This is where Stiles goes against his father, the Roman Caesar, to have a relationship with Derek, one of their fiercest gladiators. Modern or ancient this theme is a celebration of all things royalty, starring Stiles and Derek, so don't miss out!

Saturday January 20th— No Hale Fire: Here is the theme where we all get to erase the Hale Fire from our memories and let Derek with his family and pack. This theme can be anything you want it to be as long as it features the Hale Pack in all of it's glory. I'm talking Laura teasing the hell out of Derek, Talia being the best goddamn alpha ever, Cora not taking anyone's shit, Derek wrestling with his younger cousins, and so much more! Anything goes in this theme as long as we get to see the Hale family being together.

Sunday January 21st— Harry Potter AU: In this theme you'll be able to put Stiles, Derek, and the rest of the pack in the wonderful magical world of Harry Potter. They can be students attending Hogwarts together, professors teaching at Hogwarts, aurors in training to take down he who shall not be named, or even writers for the daily prophet going crazy over the return of the boy who lived. However you choose to interpret it this theme is where Harry Potter lovers get to put Stiles and Derek in on the action.

Monday January 22nd— Road Trips: Ever since Stiles and Derek arrived at Beacon Hills together in season 6 the fandom has gotten a thirst for these two out in the open road together, and this theme is here to quench it. Will the entire pack take a much needed vacation away from Beacon Hills to see the beautiful sights scattered throughout the U.S? Will Stiles and Derek be fighting over what music they'll listen to as they drive the Jeep all the way back to Beacon Hills to save everyone's asses yet again? Anything that has our two boys driving around for miles to get to their destination is completely acceptable, so put on your shades and jam out to Life is a Highway as you take on this prompt!

Tuesday January 23rd— Alpha & Emissary: It’s a common theme, and the best part about it is that it works well for both canon AND AU! The only rule to this theme is that it has to heavily feature an Alpha and an Emissary. You could make the Alpha/Emissary pair someone else and make them an enemy for Stiles and Derek, A new pack to join, Or of course have Stiles and Derek being they all powerful dynamic duo that they are. Maybe even it’s their kids that take on the coveted leadership roles. It doesn’t matter who they are, how they work in the story, or what universe it’s in, as long as they’re present and you keep it Sterek, it fits!

Wednesday January 24th— Moving In Together: Here you guys get to have our boys moving in together! It can be Stiles moving into Derek's loft after they've been dating a while. Them buying their first house together, or Derek rebuilding the Hale house for him and Stiles. It could even be them getting a place together when they're freshly out of college —because being an adult is expensive and at least they'll be living with a ‘friend.’ Let yourself have some fun with this one!

Thursday January 25th— Getting Back Together: Now, this trope is sure to tug at a few heartstrings. Getting back together is always going to play with your emotions. You angst lovers are sure to have a field day with this one, and it's not hard to see how. In this theme, you get to dive into a world where Stiles and Derek have already broken up and were pushed together yet again. It could be because it's Erica and Boyd’s wedding, and they wanted both Stiles and Derek to be there. Or maybe they just bump into each other again at a club after not speaking to each other for months. Whatever the reasoning for their reunion, they're forced to see each other face to face again, and they decide to give what they had one more shot! I'll need to remember to buy tissues for this day.

Friday January 26th— Fraternity: College aus are definitely not a rarity in this fandom, but fraternity aus specifically aren't very common, and they have so much potential! Just think of Stiles and Derek in rival frats and pranking the hell out of each other! Or Derek taking a freshly pledged doe-eyed Stiles under his wing, or a very drunk frat boy Stiles trying to get into Derek's pants at a party and Derek not knowing what to do about it. So many fantastic fun and amazing content to be created with this trope so don't hold back!

Saturday January 27th— Bodyguards: This is a trope that I personally enjoy very much and would love to see more of in this fandom. It can be anything from a celebrity!Stiles flirting with his grumpy bodyguard, to the first son!Derek not understanding why the hell his bodyguard never shuts up, to maybe even a mobster au where Stiles is the ruler of the underground world with Derek who makes sure nobody double crosses him. The only limit is your imagination so don't hesitate to let your thoughts take control.

Sunday January 28th— Scene Stealer: Similar to our crossover theme, however, with the scene stealer theme you get to take Stiles, Derek, and the rest of the pack into the universes of your favorite movies, books, or shows, only this time they get to steal the spotlight and make the moment theirs. Whether it be Stiles and Derek doing the dirty dancing lift or them saying the oh so known words of Alec ‘I don't want the world I want you’ Lightwood, this theme is sure to portray your favorite scenes in a beautiful Sterek-y light. If you’ve ever thought “Hey this scene would have been SO much better as Sterek..” then this is the theme for you!

Monday January 29th— Partners In Crime: You can never go wrong with this beloved trope as you depict Stiles and Derek as the unstoppable duo we all know they are. You can make it as intense as Stiles and Derek being hitmen that are constantly 3 steps ahead of the feds, or as lighthearted as kid!Sterek helping each other steal cookies from under their parent's noses. Which ever route you choose to take as long as these two boys have each other's back it's fair game.

Tuesday January 30th— Meet-Cute: Ahhhh meet-cute, the theme where everyone's inner hopeless romantic comes to the surface. This is the theme where you go full out on all things fluffy! I'm talking coffee shops, bookstores, dogs, doing that cliche thing where they bump into each other and everything falls on the floor and their hands touch and they look into each other's eyes! Basically, if it’s cheesy enough to be part of a hallmark movie then you're on the right track.

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LOVE AIN’T → WINDAM

TAGGING → Adam Li and Winnie Lilywhite ( @winemalilywhite )

TIMELINE → June 6th, 2018

SETTING → Adam’s bedroom

SUMMARY → A moment at Tia’s party sends the normalcy of Adam and Winnie’s friendship up in flames, and leaves them both needing answers. Instead, the line of questioning leads them somewhere they wouldn’t expect. Gets kinda smutty yolo ✌️

Winnie had been tossing and turning ever since she’d gotten home from Tia’s party. Maybe it was the fact that her adrenaline was still pumping in the aftermath of the fire, or maybe she was just restless because she and L’ogan hadn’t gotten to finish what they’d started. Or maybe — more likely, really — it was driving Winnie crazy that Adam hadn’t texted her back to answer any of her plethora of questions. He’d responded long enough to make sure she got home safely, and then he’d been freezing her out, and every time Winnie shut her eyelids, she could see his shocked face in her head, and maybe it was wishful thinking on her part, but it felt like more to her. More than just a friend who was grossed out by walking in on his bestie having sex, more than just surprise — and Winnie finally rolled out of her bed, tossed a hoodie on over her pajama shorts and tank top, and found herself out in the cool night air, wide awake even before it hit her face. She didn’t even think about it, just let reflex carry her until suddenly she was at Adam’s window, knocking loudly on it, not caring whether he was asleep or not. She needed him to answer, she needed to see him face to face — Winnie needed to know what his reaction meant, if she was ever going to get any peace of mind.

Adam didn't usually have trouble going to sleep. In fact, it was one of the things he bragged about most, being able to knock out anytime. Something about tonight, though, was off. It was probably that it was too hot, but even after he kicked back his covers and tossed off his shirt, nothing. Maybe it was extreme embarrassment from the party. As if seeing your best friend mid-fuck wasn't traumatic enough, there was the part after where he'd, well, accidentally set things on fire. He couldn't stop replaying it in his head, as though if he imagined it enough times, it would start to make sense, but still, none of it did. Winnie leaving him at a party to hook up with someone, L'ogan no less, and the way it'd all dissolved so soon after, was enough to make him feel a little crazy. He was glad everyone had turned out fine and no one had gotten hurt, but he still didn't feel like showing his face any time soon. He didn't want anyone to see him. Or, as a sharp tapping on his window caught his attention, it occurred to him that maybe he didn't to see anybody either, or at least not Winnie. He'd turned off his phone as soon he made sure she was okay, because he wasn't sure what he'd say to her the next time he saw her or even what she'd want to know; however, even before he pulled back the curtain he had a feeling that it was her at his window. He couldn't imagine anyone else who'd come see him after that fiasco. He hoped he was wrong, though, and a knot tied behind his abs at the sight of her face, flashing back to the last time he'd seen it, contorted in pleasure... He squeezed his eyes shut, willing that image away as he slid open the glass panel. "Hey," he tried, a small smile crossing his face. Despite it all, it was good to see Winnie, even if it felt a little different now in a way he wasn't totally sure of. "Um, what's up? Do you wanna come in?" he asked, rubbing a hand across the back of his neck, trying to act like it was any other night.

“Not really,” Winnie said truthfully, although she was already swinging one leg over his window ledge and clambering inside like she’d done so many times before. She didn’t usually get nervous, not even around Adam or Rafe in the heyday of her crushes on them, but nervousness was bone-deep tonight. Maybe she was crazy. Maybe Adam had just been confusing her lately and she was making it into something it wasn’t in her head, and he was going to tell her he didn’t care what she did or with who. Or worse — maybe he was going to tell her his reaction had been the L’ogan of it all. The dude had a history with Tia and Izzie; maybe Adam had felt more on his Valentine’s date than he’d admitted and was mad on Izzie’s behalf or something. That thought felt even crazier, though, bordering almost on a conspiracy theory of annoying popular girl proportions, and the realization should have helped Winnie to just spit out the questions Adam hadn’t answered earlier. Instead, though, she grumbled at how suddenly warm it was, peeling her sweatshirt over her head, feeling her tank top underneath pull up to reveal her stomach as she did so. In one fell swoop, she tossed the sweatshirt at his head and smoothed her shirt. “You guys keep it stupidly hot in here,” she informed him. “Is that the real reason why you torched Tia’s party early? Walt beaches not warm enough for you?” She asked scathingly, mentally cursing herself for not just getting to the point.

Adam was about to say that she didn't have to come in, then, because truthfully he wasn't sure he wanted her in his room either, but then she was in anyway and all he could do was look at her. Or, well, try to; it probably would've been more accurate to say that it was all he could do to look at her for a few seconds, avert his gaze to her surroundings, and back to her again. It became harder to look away, though, when her sweatshirt came off and his eyes flickered down to her bare stomach. The knot that had formed in his stomach lurched at the sight. Why was he thinking about Winnie naked right now? It only served to make him more uncomfortable, if uncomfortable was even what he was feeling. Taking a step back and away from her, he leaned against the wall, arms crossed over his bare chest. His throat went dry at the way she asked, like she was mad at him or something. Maybe she should be, but it wasn't something he was up to dealing with right now. Honesty. Honesty was the best policy, and so he took in a deep breath to apologize. "I'm sorry, okay? It wasn't like I wanted, you know, that to happen. I didn't mean to ruin the party or anything else. It just happened. And everyone's okay and safe and so, I don't know, if you're here to be mad at me for it, could it wait till the morning? I'll be just as embarrassed then but hopefully better rested."

“I’m not mad,” Winnie shot back defensively. Then she amended her statement, adding a “yet” to the end that gave her room to change her mind, if she didn’t like what he had to say. And especially if he didn’t say anything at all; that would make Winnie the maddest. If she had so many thoughts bouncing around in her head and so many things she was thinking, and Adam was just silent on the subject all together. “I’m just… confused. I don’t know.” Winnie sized up Adam’s body language, the way he stepped away from her, the way he leaned as far away as he could get and folded his arms over his chest… Closed off. Like she probably wasn’t going to get anywhere, but she had to try. She mirrored his movements, crossing her arms over her chest, too, and letting out a heavy sigh. “Why were you in the lifeguard shack at all, Adam? I mean — were you trying to stop me from having any fun? Were you coming to apologize? Did you miss me? Were you just scoping out your own hookup spot and ended up in there totally on accident?” Each question felt more obnoxious than the last to her; if he were the one asking her instead, she’d have rolled her eyes to infinity and beyond, but it seemed that tonight, Winnie couldn’t stop herself from slipping dangerously close to what she’d always viewed as crazy girl territory. “And what was that face? You just looked…” Winnie huffed, trying to find a good word for it that wouldn’t give away her most closely guarded secret all in one fell swoop; in the end, she still felt like she’d failed. “Why did you look at me like that?”

Adam tried not to raise a brow at how her words and her tone contradicted each other, but failed when she tacked on the 'yet'. "Yet", like he was doomed to mess up no matter what happened. He felt that way around Winnie a lot lately, and he knew it was his fault for leaving without saying goodbye, but it was starting to seem like he'd never be able to make up for that. He either ignored her too much or she felt like he was hiding her or he brought her to parties and had such a good time with her, and somehow all of that was the same degree of wrong, wrong, wrong. He was tired of being wrong and being confused, and though it was almost a comfort to know she was confused too, that relief only lasted as long as it took for her to start asking questions. His brow crinkled immediately, his arms tightening around himself. "What? No!" His voice was still low but he could hear it rising in intensity as the feeling of being attacked took over. "Why the heck wouldn't I want you to have fun? Especially since being around me so much made you miserable, I'm glad you got your kicks with someone ," he almost spat, surprising himself with how hurt he sounded by that. He cleared his throat to continue as impartially as he could, steadying his tone and his face as he shrugged as nonchalantly as he could. "I wasn't stalking you or anything, I don't know. I just - you were gone and I wanted to know where you went. I didn't know that I'd find what I did, but it wasn't like I was there to stop it and yeah, I'm sorry for how it all went down, but I didn't mean to. It just kind of...happened." He swallowed thickly, his throat almost in pain by the time he got to the end. He blinked in surprise at the mention of his face. He didn't know if he'd looked as overwhelmed as he'd felt, but suddenly he felt like a new kind of exposed, as if he were the one who'd been caught having sex and not her. "I, uh, don't know what you mean," he stammered, his heart thumping loudly in his ears. Avoidance. He was avoiding the answer but he wasn't sure why. It felt like there were a million reasons his face looked the way it had and he couldn't vocalize any of them, and instead he blurted, "I just... I didn't see me, I don't know what my face looked like. And you probably didn't get a good look either. In case you forgot, you were otherwise occupied."

Winnie resisted the urge to roll her eyes. Her mother had told her that was bad for diplomatic relations — that it always played her card and made it hard to negotiate with anyone. And Winnie didn’t mean to act superior or like she thought that what people were saying was beneath her; sometimes, it just happened, and her feelings were plain as day on her face. Right now, though, she hoped her face was impassive. If she couldn’t stay neutral looking, if she couldn’t hold her cards close to her chest, then Adam would realize that the reason this all was so hard for her was because of her stupid, un-buriable feelings for him, and that was hardly something she even wanted to deal with. She certainly didn’t want to have to see how grossed out he was by that information, or deal with the fallout of him knowing. Still, the fact that she was even here fighting him at all… She had to hope that Izzie wasn’t home, or that Adam would keep this close to his chest and not talk to anyone about it. He might be dense, but it seemed like elementary to anyone else, she was sure. “I don’t want to have this same fight with you again,” Winnie reminded him, knowing she’d near well blown up at him at the party, too. “I get it, I’m awesome, but you’ve been going to those parties for years and hanging out with God knows who doing God knows what. It was just… a lot, that you wanted to spend every second of the thing with me. It felt… I don’t know, fake, and confusing.” Winnie ran her fingers through her short hair, tugging on the ends of it to try and keep herself from unloading the whole rant she’d made earlier on him again. He didn’t even know he was making things harder for her by caring too much. And she didn’t want to tell him, either, so it was almost like they were at an impasse. “So you make that face everytime you’re surprised?” Winnie challenged, taking a step closer to him, hating the distance he had put between them even more than she hated the stupid magnetic pull she felt towards him. She was scared to invade his space, scared to get too close… but she still didn’t stop until she was within an arm’s length, so close he could reach her if he wanted to. But he didn’t want to; that much was clear to her, that much had always been clear to her, and she glared up at him, gritting her teeth together for a second. “Because you don’t, Adam, I’ve never seen you look like that before and I just… don’t get why. Were you mad? Disappointed? Confused? If you really think it’s the same way you always are, and you really think it’s not a big deal, then why did you just stop talking to me? Why are you acting like… whatever this is that you’re acting like?” Winnie demanded, waving towards his closed-off body language and his impossible to read expression.

Adam couldn't get a clear reading on Winnie at all right now, and that kind of scared him; not even when she brought up the almost-fight they'd had was he sure how she was feeling. He'd first thought she was angry because, well, she was here , but now that he was trying to dissect whatever it was that made the air feel so hard to breath, he knew it had to be more. Had he embarrassed her that fully? First among all their peers, and then with L'Ogan? He hadn't thought their opinions meant much to Winnie, she'd given him enough grief about how it was weird that they mattered so much to him, but maybe it was different when she was among them. An intoxicating environment, Adam knew, could do a lot. "You say that like I'd be doing something ridiculous if you weren't there," he pointed out. "I'd be doing what I was doing with you with whoever was around instead, it's not major. I didn't think it was a bad thing to want to spend the party with you, but then again, I also didn't realize you were on the hunt." He hated himself for how almost aggressive that lest sentence sounded and he took a breath, trying to force himself to have some chill as he smiled and added, "Win, if you'd told me that's what you were there for, I would've, I don't know, backed off or something." The last part came out basically whispered, because it felt like a big old lie as he was saying it. After all, if he'd known her endgame for the night had been L'Ogan sex, he would've tried harder to stop it, wouldn't he?

But why? Winnie was great, she deserved to have sex if she wanted to, and his mom would be so disappointed if she thought he was trying to make a woman's choice for her. So why did it matter? Why did it bother him? Not being able to figure it out was scary, like staring at an exam he knew he'd studied the answer to but just couldn't remember, but it wasn't as scary as Winnie closing in. He didn't want her that close, things were different now, and he didn't want to be different in close quarters, but he couldn't move. He was frozen to his spot and to his argument that his face had been, well, just a normal face - it was a dumb argument, since he was sure his face now wasn't a normal face either. He opened his mouth to say "I don't know" but that was a non-answer and it wouldn't help anything, and if anything she was just getting angrier and more frustrated. She didn't show it as much as he could feel it wafting off of her, her air mixing with his. And then she gritted her teeth and his eyes flickered down and he paused. What was happening to his brain right now?

"I don't know what I'm acting like, don't you get that?" he insisted, finally looking up from her mouth. His fists tightened, then dropped to his sides. "I want to give you an answer, Win, I really do, but I can't. All I know is that I needed some space to get my head back to normal." And even as he said he wanted space, his body betrayed him and took a step closer to hers, as if being closer would make him look taller and make him feel less exposed than he did. "But even if I don't know what this is, I can promise you that I'm not angry. Confused? Sure. Disappointed? I don't know. There's a bunch of stuff in here, but mad? I think you're the only one here that is and I'm sorry. I wish I could've done the night differently. That it could've ended differently."

Winnie scoffed at his comment. “On the hunt? Yeah, right. It just happened, it wasn’t like… planned,” she pointed out, looking up into his eyes, searching for something that probably wasn’t there. Like jealousy, or some kind of wish that it had been him instead — Winnie shivered a little at that thought, even though the room was hot and so was her temper. She’d buried any thought of Adam as more than a friend for so long, and she hated how it was kicking back up into full gear at the worst time possible. She would have given anything to just turn around and climb out the window and leave it alone, to wake up and pretend that nothing had happened. But she couldn’t do that and she knew it; she’d just go back to her cottage and not be able to sleep and wish she had answers all over again. “I don’t want L’ogan, I’ve only ever wanted…” Winnie trailed off, frustrated again, but at least her voice was a little softer, trying to match the tone in Adam’s. He was whispering, like maybe if he was quiet enough she and her stupid loud feelings would have to quiet down until they disappeared. And it was working, for the time being. Winnie had been so close to blurting out that the only person she’d ever really wanted was him, but instead, she chewed on her bottom lip before saying, “I don’t know, I guess it was just nice to feel like someone wanted me for a change. Like, really wanted me, and not like I was just invisible next to stupid blonde girls or… whoever.” Winnie turned her head towards the ceiling, unable to believe what she’d just said out loud. How much more obvious could she get? It was hard to keep her gaze away from him for long, though, especially when she could feel him getting closer. If this whole thing was so stupid, if coming here was a mistake… then why was he getting closer instead of just pushing her out the window and telling her to get away? “I don’t get it! I definitely don’t get it, or else I wouldn’t be asking, Adam,” she told him bringing her hands up to rub her eyes. She felt tired — tired of hiding it, tired of pretending her feelings weren’t there, tired of herself reading into things that didn’t mean anything. How could she make it stop? Winnie just wanted to make it stop, wanted to find a way to make this stop coming back everytime she thought it was gone, find a way to make Adam stop giving her false hope he didn’t even know he was giving her. “I’m not even mad at you, I’m mad at me. I’m mad that I don’t give a damn what anyone else thinks in this stupid town but you, I’m mad that you only care when it’s convenient and that I always keep coming back to caring what you think anyway, I’m mad that… that I can’t make this go away when there isn’t even a this at all.” Winnie’s words came out rushed, frantic, not even making any sense. So much for the diplomacy and holding her tongue that her mother preached; she couldn’t even manage to form a logical statement of her feelings for her best friend, for the stupid boy that she was in stupid love with even after all this time.

“And it sucks, you know? Because when you say you wish it had ended differently, you mean you wish you’d never brought me, or that you’d never seen anything, and if I said it, I’d just wish that I’d been with you instead.” For all she’d thought she wanted to see his face again, to read his reaction and to figure out what it meant… Winnie turned on her heel instead, horrified that she’d gotten no answers out of him and had only answered questions he’d never even asked instead. “Forget it. I don’t even know why I came here, just… forget all of it,” she said with her back turned towards him, willing her feet to move, wishing that she’d just leave instead of staying rooted to the spot like she still expected some kind of response that could be anything but awful for her.

Adam looked down and shrugged. “If you say so,” he murmured, not totally convinced. After all, if Winnie had wanted to take someone to bone town, it explained why she seemed so exasperated at Adam’s constant presence, and to find her with someone like L’ogan was highly suspect. Even so, Adam was almost immediately convinced that Winnie spoke the truth by the way her voice sounded when she started up again. His eyes came back up to meet hers and maybe it was the way she looked or the way she spoke or the fact that she brought up feeling invisible next to stupid blonde girls, but Adam felt his throat go dry. Was she saying what he thought she was saying? No. It was impossible. There had to be another explanation. Adam’s forehead furrowed as his brain kicked into overdrive, trying to come up with another guy, any other guy, or a girl even, with a rumored proclivity towards blondes. He couldn’t. It all pointed to him, and even as he tried to stop himself from producing evidence, clips and snippets of their friendship flashed before his eyes: how betrayed Winnie had been when he’d left and how she’d forgiven him anyway, the animosity she’d had towards Charlie, her distrust of STI, the way she always had an eggroll or two if he needed them. It felt conceited and wrong and stupid to think that Winnie thought about him in any way other than her bonehead friend who she had to protect from himself, but as she kept talking, he couldn’t stop thinking what if, what if, what if like a mantra. He couldn’t even tell how the possible idea made him feel, if it filled him with apprehension or glee, but when she started calling him out, the barbs hit him like sharp swords to the gut and it gave him an idea. Adam didn’t know what he wanted, but he knew what he didn’t want, and he didn’t want to be the guy who made Winnie feel used. He didn’t want to be the guy who she had to keep fighting for when she should know she already had him. He didn’t want to be the guy who negated that a ‘this’ of some sort existed, or the guy who hadn’t even realized ‘this’ existed until he was scared that it was vanishing. Most of all, when she said that she wished it’d been him instead, Adam knew from the way his heart sped up that he didn’t want to be the guy who’d never brought Winnie to the party, or the guy who’d seen her get down and dirty. He’d wanted to be the guy with her. As quickly as the relief and impact of figuring something out came, so too came the panic when Winnie turned away. Adam knew he needed to think of the right thing, something smart and succinct that would sum up all the questions and answers he suddenly had in the face of his epiphanies, but words were failing him. Besides, no matter how often he’d told WInnie that she mattered the most to himt, she never seemed to believe him. With Winnie, actions spoke louder than words, and there was suddenly an action that Adam couldn’t keep himself from doing. So, with all the desperation of someone with a million things to say and only one chance to say it, he reached out and spun her back around in one swift motion, offering one loaded and hungry look into her eyes before grabbing hold of either side of her face and pressing his lips against hers.

Winnie didn't know how long she stood there, frozen in place, willing herself to leave. It could have been seconds or minutes or maybe even hours, although if that were the case the sun probably would have crept into the room by now and mercifully gotten rid of all the shadows that she'd just cast over them. Had she really said that? Why had she said that? Winnie knew she wasn't Adam's type, had told herself a thousand times that he'd never see her that way -- and they'd had a good thing going. A great friendship, one that was blissfully uncomplicated for him at least, and one that should have been able to withstand anything, even some stupid feelings. But could it really? Winnie had never meant to have to find out, and her breath hitched as Adam spun her around and grabbed hold of either side of her face. What was about to happen? Winnie's eyes flicked down to his lips for a stupidly hopeful second, then back up to his eyes, feeling a little bit afraid. Did he want her to be looking him right in the face when he told her she was right, and that her anger was wrong and her feelings were wrong and everything she was doing tonight was just wrong, wrong, wrong ? Winnie barely even had time to breathe, though, before Adam shattered all her expectations in the best way possible. His lips weren't as gentle as she'd always imagined they'd be -- they were hungrier, more forceful, like they were searching for something. And maybe they were; Winnie had dumped so much on him, and had expected disgust, or even betrayal that she'd hidden how she really felt for so long. Instead, though, he was kissing her in a way that made her knees feel weak, and that seared her lips and erased any memories of kisses that had come before this one, even kisses that were from earlier tonight. And maybe it didn't make sense; maybe it was sudden, and unexpected, and maybe Adam didn't even mean it... But God , Winnie had waited for a moment like this for so long, and despite her better judgment, Winnie didn’t want to let the moment go. Tonight had just been one mistake after another, but if this was the last mistake she ever made with Adam before he cut her out of his life completely or ran away to soccer camp to ignore his problems again? Then at least it was a mistake that lit her entire body on fire, and made her heart roar in her chest, and left her desperately trying to tangle her hands in his hair and pull him flush against her body as she kissed him back with all the force of four years of pent-up feelings. At least it was a mistake that, regardless of whether he picked her up and carried her to his bed or pushed her away or did none of the above, she’d probably treasure forever.

Adam knew that Winnie’s brain and feelings were a mystery to him sometimes, but for the very first time he thought he knew exactly what was going on. A cocktail of fear and confusion and hope that must have mirrored his look until a few minutes ago reverberated from her like a crowd jeering in a stadium but as their lips made contact, it was like everything took a breath. The boos turned to roaring cheers in the packed arena that was his mind and if she felt half of what he did, Adam would know he’d succeeded in kissing the bad away. And then her hands were in his hair and he let out a sigh against her lips and he knew that he was doing this right. There wasn’t a lot of time to think about it, though, because the way she kissed back left little room for thought. It left little room for anything, really, aside from wanting more. One of Adam’s hand ventured down Winnie’s body hungrily, experimentally. His fingers grasped down her smooth arm and onto the curve of her hip which he could feel through the thin fabric of her tank top that suddenly felt like too much clothing. It was enough to coax his other hand down, and he gripped her hips tightly against his making the muscles in his stomach tighten. His hands roamed around her curves, her waist, her back, unable to stop himself from marveling at the fact that he’d seen Winnie a million times before in a million different lights, but never like this. It wasn’t that he didn’t know Winnie was hot. He wasn’t blind. But still, he’d never pictured Winnie like this before, mainly because he thought he wasn’t allowed. Now that she was giving him permission, though, he wasn’t going to let it pass him by. His hands dipped down over her shorts, simultaneously squeezing her ass and drawing her closer to his ever hardening member. If he’d had known the evening would lead here, he would’ve stopped and asked himself if this was really a good idea - he’d decided he was against sex without feelings, after all, and Winnie was his friend, his noncomplicated friend who deserved the respect that a conversation about their emotions and wants and needs would warrant - but in the moment, he couldn’t force himself to stay on any of those thoughts for too long. He was too busy lifting Winnie up against him so that he could turn and take the few steps necessary before lifting them both down onto his bed, kissing her hard and pressing her body down onto the mattress with his own.

It was official, Winnie had to be dreaming. She’d pictured telling Adam how she felt about him for ages; she’d never been scared of anything else, after all, and she hadn’t seen any reason to be scared of a dumb thing like feelings. But the first time she’d tried, he’d told her he was going out with Charlie La Bouff. The next time she’d decided she should? He’d been gone , vanished without a trace, and it seemed the longer she waited, the more she’d have to lose. Every time she’d pictured it now, it was just rejection after rejection after rejection. It was never this, it was never Winnie gasping as she felt him harden against her or losing her breath from the way he kissed her, and it definitely had never been the weight of him on top of her on his bed, circling her in some kind of protective sphere where the world didn’t exist, where it was just him and her, and her and him, and all the worries and the anger and the stress of her secret could fade away. And her dreams definitely, definitely hadn’t been her hands roaming over his taut abs with a whine about how fucking hot he was. Or Winnie pulling out of his grasp only long enough to tug her own tank top over her head and let her bare skin press against his, and to give his hands somewhere new to roam. It hadn’t been her hands moving from his abs down dangerously lower, not even bothering to tease through clothes before they were underneath his waistband and wrapping around him, moaning into his mouth as his hands followed her lead and pulled her tiny pajama shorts out of the way. And it certainly hadn’t been exploring more and more body parts until it seemed like neither of them could stand it any longe, because hands just weren’t enough and they needed more. And imagination Winnie? She’d never dared to dream that Adam would be urgently reaching into his top drawer and rolling on a condom because he couldn’t get enough of her , yet Winnie was seeing it with her own eyes. It felt like it was happening much too fast and not fast enough, all at the same time, and she waited impatiently, wanting to feel him, tugging him back towards her the second it was on. So maybe Winnie wasn’t dreaming after all. Because she’d never let herself dream this far, dream this big, imagine this happening between them. And the fact that she hadn’t let herself think this would ever happen? It only made her cry out in pleasure when it really did and suddenly Adam was inside of her. Winnie’s legs wrapped around his waist, wanting desperately let him in further, to let him feel everything and to let him have all of her. And maybe, in that deep, dark, pessimistic corner of her mind... maybe in part she wrapped her legs around him so tightly in fear, wanting so badly to keep him there even though all of this was starting to seem too good to be true.

Every noise Winnie was making shot straight down Adam s body, egging him on like she always had. She’d always challenged him, encouraged him, supported him, meant the world to him - he’d spend the rest of his night wondering how he’d never seen it before, but for now it was the best thing in the world to soak each other in. He let out almost a choked gasp as he felt her hands find new places on his body, and before he knew it, he and Winnie were closer than they’d ever been. Nothing was between them, not secrets, not other girls, not clothes - nothing. And it was amazing. Or at least it was at first. Sinking in and out of her was a mind-blowing feeling. He’d had sex before, but never with someone who kept him this close, and the noises, damn , the noises - he’d never imagined something like that coming out of Winnie before, especially not because of him, and it kept him going strong. He kissed any part of her body that he could reach, his kisses softer now that his lower half was doing most of the work. He focused on her neck for a while, sucking experimentally near her collar bone, hoping to elicit some more of those noises that she’d never made before. Well, maybe not never . And that thought marked the beginning of the end as it dawned on Adam, with sudden clarity, that Winnie may have very well been making those exact noises earlier. Merely hours ago! It wasn’t that long ago at all, really, that he’d seen her being screwed by L’ogan, his body exactly where Adam’s had been… Adam gasped as he suddenly went limp. This could not be happening. It was way too embarrassing and way too inconvenient to be real, and yet it was, and he was thankful that Winnie’s leg’s hold on him had loosened because he had no choice but to roll off of her. He covered his face with his hands in shame, his body still buzzing with adrenaline and energy that had now been dubbed unusable by his penis the traitor. “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry,” he mumbled through his hands. He risked a peek at Winnie through his fingers before shakily putting his hands down and deciding to just be honest. “I’m sorry, I just started thinking about you and L’ogan and it just - “ he cut himself off, shrugging uselessly. Adam licked his lips, wanting to offer to go down on her and finish it off, but the thought of his tongue where L’ogan’s penis had been mere moments ago was too much and, frankly, made him feel kind of sick. He had to offer something though, say something , or risk losing possibly the best thing that had happened to him before it really started, but he was in a panic and coming up blank.

Winnie should have known it was too good to be true. Her brain had spent too long being too sure that Adam would never want her, and maybe for a few brief moments he’d lost his mind and gotten caught up in the wave of her emotions... but it wasn’t real. It wasn’t mean to be real, and the second he was off of her and burying his head with his hands, any thought Winnie had had of telling him her feelings making things better went out the window. She didn’t know what he was about to say, what excuse or apology she was about to hear, but her blood was already running cold as she clutched at Adam’s comforter and wrapped it around he exposed body. Whatever he had to say hardly mattered; Winnie had made things worse , there was no way around it. Truthfully, she’s been expecting him to say that it was about her. That he just liked feeling wanted, but that he didn’t want her to want him. Stupid, nagging insecurities that she didn’t usually feel in any other situation always came rushing up when she was with Adam, and Winnie hated it. She hated that he could make her feel so good one moment — make her feel more than anyone else in the whole world — and the next she was lower than low, all by his design. Whether he knew it or not, he had this hold over her, and Winnie hugged her arms around her chest as he started talking, bracing herself for words that would only seal their demise. She should have just gone home. She should have just left and salvaged their friendship. Instead, for the second time that night, she’d started something that she couldn’t even finish, and her body felt numb as Adam called attention to that very fact. “L’ogan doesn’t matter!” Winnie insisted instantly. “I don’t care about L’ogan, I care about _you_.” She chewed on the inside of her cheek, wondering how she’d have felt if he’d been hooking up with Izzie or something earlier in the night. She didn’t think it would have changed anything, though; God, she’d wanted nothing but Adam for so long that he could have been with a dozen girls in the last hour and she wouldn’t have cared as long as she finally got to be with him. It was pathetic, wasn’t it? She hated feeling pathetic, but her unwanted feelings were starting to make her desperate. And worse, their bodies had played tricks on her, let her think... Winnie closed her eyes, and she could still feel Adam all around her. It had been so much more than she’d ever dreamed it could be, and to him it just... wasn’t enough. To him some stupid pride thing about L’ogan getting to her first was more important than how right everything had felt for Winnie when they’d been together like that. But their bodies lied, because now Adam’s spoke a whole different story, one of disgust and repulsion and just... all the things Winnie had expected. “Just forget it,” she spat bitterly, afraid of saying more and getting mad again. What was even the point of fighting for something he didn’t want after all? “Can you... turn the other direction or something while I find my clothes?”

Adam was having trouble breathing, as if the situation wasn't embarrassing enough - it wasn't that he was out of breath from the sex, it was something else, something worse. Was he really having a panic attack right now? It wasn't something that happened often, maybe only twice in his life before, but he could feel himself ruining everything and had no idea how to stop it. What was there even left to say? That his brain had conjured up the worst image possible to ruin the mood? He couldn't even explain why, not without sounding like a complete and total moron who was scared of something so important. This felt important to him, at least, and it only raised the urgency when Winnie said what she said. She cared about him . She cared, and he ruined their first night together by being what, jealous? Fearful? Awkward? Now she was mad at him all over again and this time he knew exactly why. The ground was slipping out from beneath him as she asked him to turn away. He almost felt like if he turned away from Winnie right now, it would be turning away from any possibilities with her in the future, and he didn't want to do that. He couldn't do that. He'd never considered Winnie as a possibility because she was too good for him in every sense of the word, but now that she was here, he could hardly imagine anyone else. "Winnie, stop!" He bit his lip, sitting up a little to look at her. "I mean, uh, if you want to get your clothes, you can, but I don't.... want you to leave," he managed, looking up at the ceiling as if to give her the privacy she requested in order to find her outfit. "I didn't stop because I wanted you to leave. I don't care about L'ogan either. I care about you , which is why I wanted to be thinking about you and not what I saw earlier and..." Adam trailed off, not sure he knew how to proceed. "I just mean that this feels important. And my mind likes to run from important and it ran too far and I'm sorry, but I don't want to leave this . Whatever this is. Does that... am I making any sense?" he asked, keeping his eyes trained to the roof respectfully.

Winnie wished she had it in her to believe Adam. She really, really did, but she knew how much her friend hated conflict, and that’s what this felt like: a conflict, and a pretty big one to boot. She didn’t know how to not be mad, and she didn’t even know if it was really at him, or at herself for getting her hopes up. “It’s probably not important,” Winnie muttered bitterly as she scooped her shirt up off the floor and pulled it back over her head, her back squared away from Adam.

The words didn’t feel true even as she said them — it was so important, it was the most important thing to her. He was the most important thing to her, and he had been for longer than she cared to remember. But what was this for him? Would he forget the whole thing tomorrow? Would he wake up and think she was a mistake? Winnie knew she couldn’t stay. She couldn’t bear to see the look in his eyes change again, couldn’t handle it if she felt the shift in the air as he decided that something more than friendship between them was wrong. She prided herself on being tough, but that might kill her. And so she stood, hearing his mattress shift without her weight on it any longer, and pulled her shorts back on too, shimmying uncomfortably as she tried to deal with the longing ache still between her legs. She wished she could turn back around, could go right back to how they’d been — to feeling blissfully complete and happy.

But life didn’t work like that, and Winnie’s body was just going to have to catch up with the rest of her and deal with it.

“Maybe some other time,” she whispered, a little more sadly than she’d meant to. “But I don’t want to be here while you get over yourself and figure out what you actually want. I just... I can’t,” Winnie said, folding her arms over her chest protectively again, too afraid to look at him and meet his eyes. Staying here would be for his benefit, not for hers, and God, she always was willing to drop things and do what made him happy. But not this time. This time, she needed to leave and take care of herself. She padded quietly towards the window, ignoring the urge to reach out and touch him, to tell him it would be okay. Because she didn’t know. She couldn’t know. Instead, she tugged his window open again and whispered so low she hoped he couldn’t even hear it, “I love you, you stupid idiot,” before she hopped over the ledge and back out into the warm summer night.

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cybermoonmoon · 3 years

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"HEAVEN ON EARTH"

G-d lives on the 6th floor.

G-d's on the subway coming home from work. She couldn't get a seat again has a headache, and her feet are killing her. G-d makes mental note about urban congestion, and stress. it’s been a problem since Ur, or was it Babylon? Anyway it was that time she was a snake charmer.

Oh the carnivals! Music theatre. These are the best things humanity has come up with. It's among the reasons she loves them so much. It's their saving grace,...literally.

The train pulls in She has to struggle out of the crowded car. No one will get out of her way. Polite consideration still a vague idea. However they are learning they are trying. G-d joins the wave of tired people ascending together out of the grimy station. On her way some lite deli shopping. A pint of vanilla ice cream oranges mint tea. You know, the brand with the nice pictures. Bread sticks, and dried figs. All the major food groups. G-d browsed Her way to the counter, and pays in Aztec jade, Roman silver, and Weimar bank notes. The Haitian family that owns the deli is used to their special customer paying in odd currencies. The woman behind the counter gives change in Barbados dollars, American dimes, and Kenyan pennies. The two are friends so gossip, and other pleasantries which are cut short by other customers. G-d adds a lotto ticket to her purchase. The two bid each other goodbye till next time. Outside G-d sees a homeless man. She knows him his name is Thomas. Though he doesn't remember his true name is Azzarel, He is an Angel. In time he'll remember. G-d put a silver shekel once earned by a certain Judean carpenter into his cup. Doing this smiling She went on her way. G-d blinked, and there was Light. G-d sang, and there was Life. G-d smiled, and there was Love. The "Lord of Hosts" got to her building. She lived on the top floor of a six story walk up. G-d liked it up there it was convenient to the roof. If it wasn't raining she'd spread a blanket. She'd lay, and watch Her sky, Her clouds, and at night Her moon, and stars. Bounding up the stairs She enjoyed the aromas of cooking from half a dozen ethnic groups. Her neighbors were preparing, and settling down for their evening meals. The "Divine" enjoyed the music the symphony's of all their various languages, and the emotions.

At last G-d got to Her apartment,..6-B. She put Her keys into triple Medico locks, and went in. Her cats Caine, and Able were waiting for her. It was well past their dinner time, and they were more than slightly annoyed. Her pets didn't care if She was G-d,...they were cats, and 'they' were hungry. __________________________________________ "LISTENING" The Mother of Isis the G-d of Abraham, the Lord of Gandhi, the Mother Creator of all that was is or will be was on the roof of Her sixth floor walkup. She was laying on a blanket listening. It was well past midnight hints of snow in the wind. G-d was listening to prayers. The Lord Creator listened to prayers the way we listen to the radio. The music of souls was in the air. The sky was bathed in prayer they danced over the city like sparkling aurora's. G-d watched, and listened. She listened to each,...and...every...one. __________________________________________ "REVELATION" The Lord was on a bus, She was headed to a dentists clinic,...dreaded root canals. She was seated on those hard plastic bench's toward the back, and was looking out the window. The ebb, and flow of the traffic reminded Her of the start stop gliding of schools of fish. G-d looked at the passengers. Almost all the tribes of humanity were here. New York Constantinople Babylon how they gathered the family together. There a Russian plumber a young African school girl telling secrets to her best friend. A Korean house painter two Mexican women in animated conversation about the new bookstore they were going to open. An old woman. A woman who had lived most of her life in rural China. She was staring. Staring at G-d. The woman looked from behind crinkled lids with clear brown eyes. Eyes that held recognition. Eyes that beheld G-d on a bouncing downtown bus on an unremarkable day. This didn't happen often. Being seen, being recognized. When it did it was usually small children or the dying. Those entering or leaving this life. This woman that saw G-d was neither. Her name was Violet. This woman who could behold the Creator of the Heavens, and the Earth. Violet spent most of her life as an herbalist. She learned how the Earth was life giving. She used this knowledge to cure illness, assist childbirth, and ease death. G-d, and Violet just sat, and beheld each other as New York blared, and blinked around them. Till at last Violet asked G-d, asked in a calm voice,..."Are you sure you know what you're doing?" She who laid the foundations of worlds with a touch of a gentle smile on her lips said,... "Yes." The bus eventually pulled up to Union Square. Violet got up to leave, but turned at the last moment, and asked...

"Are you happy?"

The Creator gave a wink. The woman nodded, and went on her way. That night G-d thought again about Violet’s last question. How wise Her children were. Happiness was the whole point of this creation. Joy fulfillment. The Lord smiled. Oprah is closer to the Truth than she knows. Cain, and Able G-d's Persian cats meowed loudly. They were demanding their dinner. She who painted eternity with dreams knelt on her kitchen floor fed her companions, and looked to her window. She saw the night sky danced with aurora's of prayer's. She will listen to the Dreams, and Nightmares of Her children. G-d who birthed eternities will listen to the prayers of the this world. Though tonight she will pray too. Tonight G-d will Pray with Her Children.

Amen. __________________________________________ "HEAVEN ON EARTH" Epilogue, G-d is not far away in some golden heaven, ruling some distant Paradise. G-d is here with us. Always has been. Always will be. Because G-d's Heaven is on Earth. The blue, and fruitful world continued to sail around it's golden sun. Life went on with all it's joys, sorrows, and mysteries. The years gathered into centuries. The centuries into millennia, and the millennia into ages. Ages that melted mountains, lowered, and raised seas, and rearranged the stars. In this time all life was in the sea, as it was in the beginning. Humanity had long since transcended to their bright realities. Oh! How that pleased G-d! She was still with them, and loved them in their new realms. Though She'd followed her children as they scattered themselves amongst the stars. She still remembered, and abided on the earth. Now She dwelled in the seas with her newer children. This as the land rested, and healed from it's long work. G-d, the maker of Worlds, the founder of Dreams swam in clouds of plankton. She maneuvered amongst schools of fish, burrowed with worms, swayed with sea weed, 'and' Contemplated with Whales. Whales, and the others of their kind were the next of Her children who would find their way to the stars. She would learn with them wonder with them pray with them till at last they too found their bright place in eternity. She would do this for them as She had for all of Her children on all of the Earths. With Patience She would Watch. With Patience She would Guide. With Patience She would Love. Amen.

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screw1nthetuna · 4 years

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From a childhood fascination to Assassins Creed to an A-Level in Egyptolgy?

I cast my mind back to Primary School where we had a trip to the History Museum in London. At the time we were learning about the Greeks and the Egyptians, but it was the latter that took a hold of me and still does to this day.

At the time of the visit, I remember peering through the protective glass at a mummy, perfectly preserved within it’s coffin casing and surround by items belonging to the individual. Gold, pottery, many items, engraved with amazing hieroglyphs.

Further down the aisle were information slabs about the Pyramids of Giza, I cannot remember the exact number of stones used in the Pyramids at the time of reading it, but it was enough to make me realise these were big monuments for sure. It was at this moment, I realised I had a fascination for Ancient Egypt.

FAST FORWARD TO 2017

With me being a big conspiracy theorist (I like to call it ‘alternative realities’), I was watching a lot of late night YouTube videos, taking me into some great documentaries on the secrets of the Pyramids, looking into the astrology and maths around these amazing structures. I started remembering my school trips, which led me to start wanting to know more again about Egypt and why I loved it so much throughout my life. It’s strange sometimes in life it goes so fast, we forget to be curious and take time out to explore and learn more.

So I got this book ‘ A History of Ancient Egypt: From the First Farmers to the Great Pyramid ‘ by John Romer (now an inspiration to me, which we will go on to in a moment) - here is the link to the book if anyone fancies purchasing! https://www.amazon.co.uk/History-Ancient-Egypt-Farmers-Pyramid/dp/0141399716

The book took me back to way before the Pyramids were built and right down to the agricultural beginnings of what was essentially Ancient times. in fact I still have not finished reading the book yet after 3 years. I was about a third of the way through the book, I remember closing it and staring at the front with the thought “Why on Earth have I not gone to see the Pyramids yet?”. This came at a time personally where I had some very hard and difficult things going on in my life that I tried my best to deal with, but it inspired me to think that we sometimes take time for granted and we should do things when we have the chance to. So, me being me, within an hour of thinking that, I booked a flight and hotel for that November in 2017.

In October, when I booked the ‘holiday’, I was recovering from a fractured arm ( football related) to which I started coming back to playing again with my pals on Wednesday nights in Guildford. The problem I have had since I was 17, I am very injury prone, it is like my key trait if I was ever made as a player on FIFA games! The week I came back, I ruptured my ankle ligament (I think for about the 6th time in my highly amateur career). It was safe to say, this one was going to take a LONG time to heal, the swelling and pain was quite simply horrible.

Whilst waiting for my X-Ray, I quickly thought “Uh... I am supposed to be going to Egypt in two weeks”. Then my mind went into meltdown, I had the whole trip planned - Luxor, Abu Simbel, Aswan, Cairo, the lot! Intricate detail, full itinerary to the hour marks. I looked at my ankle and started trying to use mind powers to reduce the swelling, no help.

Anyway, two weeks passed and I found myself at Heathrow. Strange situation, I was on crutches wondering what am I doing going on a plane like this, with my ankle like that. It got more interesting when I was bypassing the big usual queues for check-in etc. by someone kindly pushing me on a wheelchair!

After several hours, I arrived in Cairo Airport, except I forgot to get a Visa....

An hour of talking and filling out forms with the Airport team took place and I was finally on my way... except the hopper bus had left 45 mins prior, so actually I was going nowhere, other than hopping around on my own in an empty airport lounge. It was about 1am at this point, pretty tired. After some haggling with a taxi company I was back on track.

Arriving at La Pyramids Hotel (amazing by the way) around 3am, I was delightfully informed that although I am booked in on this day, technically the room is not available. Sofa in the concierge it is then! I tried to sleep, it was impossible, so many people coming and going. It got to about 6am, I realised it was getting lighter outside, so I got my crutches and thought, I am going for a wonder. I did not get far outside the hotel, but I got far enough to experience something visually amazing. There was a strange mist in the sky, perhaps elements of humidity I do not know. When you see the images of your hotel online, they don’t always feel or look the same when you are actually there, but this time for me, it was 100 times better than the images, I was given something very special to see. Slowly, a silhouette appeared in the distance. In my head I was like “No way are they that close”. The triangle shape got darker as the light improved in the sky. It was time to be introduced to the only existing Wonder left in the World.

I think I stood there for about an hour trying to comprehend the fact that I was actually here, looking at them, with my own eyes. It would not be until the Friday of that week that I would go and actually see them, seeing as my original plan was for me to be at the South of the Nile 7 hours drive away by now, but cancelled due to my injury.

I had to wait patiently all week, staring at the Great Pyramid of Giza from the poolside (Amazing to be able to do that so easily by the way). It would take me 45 minutes to get from my hotel room to the pool, very frustrating, but worth the view (although highly annoying when I would get all the way to the pool and realise I left my music in the room and have to hop back up and return again!).

When Friday came, it was incredible. To be right by the Pyramids, the Sphinx, climbing some of the stones, that have sat there for thousands of years, it is so surreal. The camel ride in the distance, looking back at the Pyramids, your mind can only wonder what these amazing desert lands once looked like, so much is still to be found.

Yes, my journey in Egypt was short, it was reduced in terms of the itinerary, but no one can take away my experience of the Pyramids, the people I met at the hotel, both guests and staff, as well as taking home with me some great items and gifts for others, but more importantly it gave me a massive ambition to return and do it properly again.

FAST FORWARD TO 2020

In January 2020, I obtained a copy of Assasins Creed Origins, it had already been out a few years, but I love the series of games and had to play this one as it was based in Egypt. I found myself climbing the Pyramids, meeting rulers of yesteryear and jumping off of mountains overlooking Siwa and the other Ancient Lands. I started participating in the in-game tours, really cool way to learn about the history of Egypt and take time out from assassinating for a bit.

It was actually this game that helped me learn more and then encouraged me to look into perhaps trying to take this to another level and really learn about Ancient Egypt. I enrolled on a Level 3 Egyptology Diploma. 2011 was when I graduated from University, so it has been a while since having to research a topic and deliver citations etc.

I think when you have a subject you are passionate about, it becomes easier, I found myself flying through modules, amazingly getting 97+% Distinction levels on my first few assignments. I was really impressing myself, I knew I loved the concept and what I was learning about Ancient Egypt, but never envisioned myself smashing it! It was starting to get nerve wracking each time I pressed the submit button on the assignments completion. However, each time the results would come in at high levels, 94%,97%, 100% etc. I realised very quickly that not just with the help of books, but the love I have for Egypt and it’s history is what has allowed me to have passion in this and get great results. I was really really enjoying it. Covering topics of each ruler, every dynasty, racial comments, comparisons of different periodic language, religion, architecture and even the variant opinions of modern historians and their theories and thoughts, whether it be the Greek historians of the early AD periods, or modern Victorian Egyptolgist’s thoughts, it was all amazing to piece together and also make my own conclusions.

My final result came in two weeks after submitting my final assignment, I was officially credited with a Level 3 Egyptology Diploma and Certificate to stick on the wall. I know I will do a degree in Egyptology for sure after this and take it to the next level, hopefully get involved with some digs too, but first I need to finish my Astronomy Level 3 and Mayan/Sumerian Level 3 then I am sure I will continue my Egypt quest..

I now think back, if I had not gone on that trip, which I have to thank my teacher at the time for organising really, or to have read that book by John Romer, which was so detailed and passionately documented, I perhaps would never have gone down any of this path. Generally, I was inspired along the whole way and given something very special from it. My next step is to help fight for Egpyt to get their prized artifacts back home where they belong, for centuries they have been in Museums around the World.

My reward to myself..... Egypt, October 2020. The Full Journey. (This time I won’t play football leading up to it).

Let’s catch up in November and see how it went!

REMEMBER

If you have a dream, or want to learn something, go for it, no matter your age or your level of experience or knowledge, life is for learning and you have more than enough ability to achieve what you want to achieve.

“Be curious” - Stephen Hawking

All the best,

Si Buckingham

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longhornfabrays · 4 years

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Headcanon #001 - Character Questions

Taken from here. Edited a bit.

PART 1: THE BASICS

What is your full name?

Lucy Quinn Fabray

Where and when were you born?

Allen, Texas on May 28th, 1999

Who are/were your parents?

Russel Fabray - Lawyer

Judy Fabray - Housewife

Do you have any siblings?

Frannie Fabray - Older sister - Housewife

Where do you live now, and with whom?

Austin, Texas in an apartment on her own.

What is your occupation?

Student

Write a full physical description of yourself. You might want to consider factors such as: height, weight, race, hair and eye color, style of dress, and any tattoos, scars, or distinguishing marks.

5′5″, blonde hair, hazel eyes, Caucasian, shoulder length hair, cheerleader body, wears mainly dresses

To which social class do you belong?

Upper class

Do you have any allergies, diseases, or other physical weaknesses?

Allergic to dust

Are you right- or left-handed?

Left-handed

Do you have any quirks, strange mannerisms, annoying habits, or other defining characteristics?

She stands very straight and can have a rest bitch face. She never cusses or takes the lords name in vain. She rarely uses emojis or texting language when typing, if she does it’s usually just lol. She is very straight forward and can come off as rude to some.

PART 2: GROWING UP

How would you describe your childhood in general?

Quinn had a difficult childhood. She was pressured to be more like her sister and bullied at school for being overweight. Because of this, she stayed in a lot and played video games to get her mind off everything. After losing the weight, she still felt the pressure to be like her sister, but her school days got better and even became popular once she joined the cheerleading squad.

What is your earliest memory?

Staying the summers with her grandparents in Savannah, Georgia.

How much schooling have you had?

She has had from Kindergarten up to her junior year of university. She will be doing her senior year as well and possibly go on to get more education.

Did you enjoy school?

When she was younger, she did not. She often tried to get out of going to school. After things started getting better, she loved it. She loved her Queen B status and would go to every school event. She continues to love school.

While growing up, did you have any role models?

She found most of her role models to be fictional including Lara Croft from the Tomb Raider series. She often wanted to be just like her, but her thoughts changed as she got older. She also looked up to her grandmother on her mom’s side of the family due to how she created her own path instead of following her family’s wishes for her.

While growing up, how did you get along with the other members of your family?

Quinn considers herself to be quite the Daddy’s girl, as he would dote on her and give her anything she wanted. He still does. She has always been at conflict with her mother and sister as they want her to be more like them. She got on with her grandparents, her Grandma Eleanor being her favorite. Now, she gets on great with her cousin of sorts by marriage, Sebastian, and considers him her favorite family member. She wants to get close to her niece and try to show her she doesn’t have to be like most of the women in the Fabray family.

As a child, what did you want to be when you grew up?

Archaeologist and then a game developer

As a child, what were your favorite activities?

Playing video games, reading, and dancing

As a child, were you popular? Who were your friends, and what were they like?

She wasn’t popular from K-6th grade, but after losing weight and joining the cheerleading team in 7th grade, she became popular and stayed that way the rest of her school years. She didn’t consider anyone her true friend, and didn’t get those until she started at UT.

When and with whom was your first kiss?

Kyle Stevens

Are you a virgin? If not, when and with whom did you lose your virginity?

She’s not. She lost her virginity to Kyle when she was 16.

PART 3: PAST INFLUENCES

What do you consider the most important event of your life so far?

Everything that happened between her 6th and 7th grade years.

Who has had the most influence on you?

Currently, it’s Brittany, Santana, Sebastian, and Finn. Her family also does to a point because she likes to do things that will upset her mother or sister.

What do you consider your greatest achievement?

Reaching her millions of followers on Twitch and YouTube as a gamer. However, as that’s a secret, she would say being the captain of the squad in high school.

What is your greatest regret?

Not being herself.

What is the most evil thing you have ever done?

Being mean to those not as popular as she was in high school.

When was the time you were the most frightened?

Recently when she had a little meltdown after not being sure what exactly she was doing with her life.

What is the most embarrassing thing ever to happen to you?

Marley slapping her in front of everyone during karaoke, even though she knows she deserved it.

If you could change one thing from your past, what would it be, and why?

Hiding her true self but to be popular.

What is your best memory?

Revealing everything to Brittany and having the girl still want to be with her.

What is your worst memory?

Not treating Finn the way he deserved to be treated.

PART 4: BELIEFS & OPINIONS

Are you basically optimistic or pessimistic?

She’s more of the type to be realistic, even if that means being pessimistic.

What is your greatest fear?

Her father being ashamed of her.

What are your religious views?

Christian

What are your political views?

Her family is more Democratic, but she has a more for the best of everyone.

What are your views on sex?

She’s more opinionated about it when it comes to losing virginity than keep having sex. If you’re happy and completely sure you won’t regret it, go for it.

Do you believe in the existence of soul mates and/or true love?

She does.

What do you believe makes a successful life?

Being true to yourself and happy with who you are.

How honest are you about your thoughts and feelings (i.e. do you hide your true self from others, and in what way)?

She definitely hides a lot of herself, especially from people she doesn’t trust all the way. With those she does, she tries to be as honest as possible.

Who or what, if anything, would you die for (or otherwise go to extremes for)?

Those she considers her closest friends, including Finn, Sebastian, Brittany, and Santana. Her niece she would do this for as well.

PART 5: RELATIONSHIPS W/OTHERS

In general, how do you treat others (politely, rudely, by keeping them at a distance, etc.)? Does your treatment of them change depending on how well you know them, and if so, how?

She tries to treat everyone nicely, but bluntly as well. Crossing her, though, would be a bad idea because she is good at tearing down people.

Who is the most important person in your life, and why?

Her closest friends because they are definitely more like her family than her own family.

Who is the person you respect the most, and why?

Her Grandma Eleanor because they are so much alike.

Who are your friends? Do you have a best friend?

Sebastian, Finn, Brittany, Santana, Rachel, Marley, Sam. She considers Seb, Britt, and Finn her best friends.

Do you have a spouse or significant other?

She is currently dating Brittany Pierce.

Have you ever been in love?

She was in love when she was with Kyle, but that was more for the popularity and what the relationship brought her. She is realizing she’s in love with Brittany.

Have you started your own family? If so, describe them. If not, do you want to?

She has not, but she does want kids.

Who would you turn to if you were in desperate need of help?

Sebastian, Finn, Brittany, and Santana.

Do you trust anyone to protect you?

Yes. She trusts her best friends.

If you died or went missing, who would miss you?

She’s sure her family would make a huge deal out of it. She thinks her friends would be the ones to actually miss her.

Who is the person you despise the most, and why?

Frannie because of how hard she tries to be Miss Perfect.

Do you tend to argue with people, or avoid conflict?

She’s definitely the type to argue.

Do you tend to take on leadership roles in social situations?

Yes she does.

Do you like interacting with large groups of people?

She does.

Do you care what others think of you?

She used to, but not as much anymore.

PART 6: LIKES & DISLIKES

What is/are your favorite hobbies and pastimes?

Playing video games, reading, dancing, cheerleading.

What is your most treasured possession?

The bracelet her grandmother gave her.

What is your favorite color?

Blue

What is your favorite food?

Macarons

What, if anything, do you like to read?

She likes older novels compared to newer ones like Jane Austen and such.

What is your idea of good entertainment (consider music, movies, art, etc.)?

Reading, watching movies and TV, going to museums, taking hikes.

Do you smoke, drink, or use drugs?

She drinks more regularly than not. She does pot from time to time, but that’s rare. She has never smoked cigarettes or done harder drugs.

How do you spend a typical Saturday night?

Depends. She’s usually out having fun with her friends. Sometimes she has relaxing nights in.

What makes you laugh?

Her friends.

What would you do if you had insomnia and had to find something to do to amuse yourself?

She would either play a game, watch something, or read.

How do you deal with stress?

Plays video games or works out. Also drinking.

Are you spontaneous, or do you always need to have a plan?

Both. It depends what it is. She is more for having a plan, but she can be spontaneous.

What are your pet peeves?

Excessive talking or talking loudly, being late, using text language all the time or in real life, being upset for no reason, second hand smoke, being on your phone during conversations.

PART 7: SELF IMAGES & OTHER

Describe the routine of a normal day for you. How do you feel when this routine is disrupted?

She usually wakes up early, eats while having coffee and checking her social media, works out, then does her classes, practice, and spends times with friends. She sleeps in more on weekends or in the summer. She doesn’t mind if it gets interrupted.

What is your greatest strength as a person?

Her charisma.

What is your greatest weakness?

Being unsure about herself.

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

Hiding who she is.

Are you generally introverted or extroverted?

Extroverted.

Are you generally organized or messy?

Organized.

Name three things you consider yourself to be very good at, and three things you consider yourself to be very bad at.

Good - Organizing, cheerleading, video games.

Bad - Conveying her feelings, drawing, staying calm.

Do you like yourself?

Kind of

What goal do you most want to accomplish in your lifetime?

Be the top in what career she goes into.

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

Graduating from Yale (or what college she attends next), being married, possibly having a kid.

If you could, what advice would you, the player, give to your character? (You might even want to speak as if he or she were sitting right here in front of you, and use proper tone so he or she might heed your advice…)

Come out with who you are. It’s no good keeping your secrets.

#quinn;hc

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surveys-at-your-service · 7 years

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Survey #101

“be the wildest of the pack, screaming amen and attack“

you run into the ex that hurt you the worst; what do you say to them? i wouldn't say anything. i'd at least hope i wouldn't, but i have a pretty big feeling i'd smile and do a really bitchy wave at him. but i'd hope i'd just smile and pass by him. do you think everything happens for a reason? i guess. do you watch stand-up comedy? i don't actively seek it out usually, but yeah. do you attend church regularly? no. personally believe you can be a perfectly good christian without going to church. what is your preferred video game console (if any)? playstation 2 had the best games. if you got a call from a friend in jail, would you bail them out? nope. one, i don't have that kind of money, and two, if you're rightfully in jail, i'm not helping your ass. do you need things thoroughly explained to you for you to understand them? yes, particularly academic stuff. have you ever felt pressured to do something you weren’t ready for? yeah have you ever worn jeans that were red, purple, blue or pink? i used to have maroon skinny jeans. loved those things. do you have a criminal record? no. have you ever been asked out by someone you didn’t want to be with? yes. have you ever had to spend the night at a hospital? too many nights. have you ever dated someone with longer hair than yours? no. have you ever worn flip flops in the snow? dude, it doesn't matter what the weather is, i always wear flip flops if i have to have something on my feet lol have you ever broken a heart? i don't know, but i doubt it. ever been though a really tough breakup? it was more than "tough" have you ever struggled with substance abuse? no. how about self-harm? yeah. how long have you been listening to your favorite genre of music? since the 6th grade. what is a common misconception that people have about the country you live in? everyone knows america's stereotypes, so i'mma talk about nc. more than anything, everyone's a redneck, according to the rest of the country. that and we're all conservative as actual fuck. do you always shut your computer down when you’re finished with it? no. do you dread filling out the about you box on most websites? no. starting it can be kinda hard tho. did you ever have those glow in the dark stars on your ceiling? i think so... would you ever get a matching tattoo with a s/o? i actually plan on doing so once/if i get married. i want to get a simple, kinda crooked heart with the words "you're awful; i love you" written inside of it in a childish font. it's a reference to the song "love me dead" by ludo. do you have a lock number or pattern for your phone? no. just don't feel that i need to. just another thing i have to remember. what was the hardest language you’ve ever tried to learn? latin. fuck that shit. do you have any food intolerances or allergies? bananas give me heartburn that makes me want to actually die. do you have any pets? how long have you had them? teddy, 9-10 years, cali, four years, bentley, year-ish, venus, not even a month. do you prefer female or male vocalists? don't care, but i know i listen to more males. were you ever into that gel bracelet craze? no. what do you do when you have ‘me time’? watch mark or more rarely listen to music, rp have you ever met someone online that you wanted to meet in real life? just to name a few: sara, connie, mini, megan (at least, once i did), emma, shaylee... give me an example of a sick death metal band. cradle of filth, brother. have you ever worn your boyfriend's clothes? ex's, yes. has the school ever taken away your cell phone? no. i didn't use my phone in class. is there a name that you hear and cringe? rachel. do you and your dad get along? yeah. amazingly. he had no reason to forgive me for that letter i wrote him. have you ever made your own layout for myspace? lol myspace. but no. i don't know how to do 99% of css stuff. would you rather be called cute or hot? cute. i don't like being called hot. do you use youtube more for music videos or for funny videos? funny videos. what’s your favorite thing about summer? literally the one and only thing i like about summer is swimming. would you rather own a pet polar bear or pet penguin? if it was entirely docile and you put aside the fact that they need to live in the cold, a polar bear. but considering i don't live in a cold habitat and they're not docile, realistically, a penguin. do you prefer ice cream on a cone, in a bowl, or in a cup? cone, although it's difficult for me because of my lip ring. it gets in the way lol. are you someone’s best friend? i think i'm colleen's, if you're not including her husband. do you have a secret life? kinda. would you live with someone without marrying them? yeah. do you prefer bar or liquid soap? liquid. is your favorite animal endangered? no. how many schools have you been to in your lifetime? five do you carry pain relievers with you at all times? no, but maybe i should. i get headaches a lot. have you ever done something outrageously dumb? more than once. last person who gave you a ‘good morning’ text? no clue. maybe tyler, but i'm not sure. what is the weirdest or cutest aesthetic you enjoy? weirdest, gore. cutest, pastel goth. strawberry shortcake or strawberry cheesecake? neither. did you ever own anything from lisa frank as a kid? SO MUCH SHIT what are your most used emoticons? c:, ;v;, ;-;, etc. have you ever used a bath bomb? no. who is your favorite water pokemon? vaporeon which fictional character can you not stand? hmmm. oh my god, maybe ashley from re4. she's fucking annoying. what common advice do you think never works? for those depressed: "just do this and that, it makes you happier!" people don't fucking realize how hard it is to do simple things, and usually doing them only stresses the individual out. what seems obvious to you that doesn't seem to be for other people? in most cases, spelling. what's a joke that you like? i actually don't like things that are general, accepted jokes. they're almost always cheesy. i like more witty things that aren't intended, if that makes sense? what single thing makes someone instantly undateable to you? does drugs. how short is too short for shorts/skirts? if your ass is showing do your parents trust you? should they trust you? yes to both. what’s your favorite led zeppelin song? "kashmir." dat beat tho. if you knew you couldn’t get caught, would you rob a bank? no way. wouldn't be able to live with myself. have you ever dated someone in the military? no. i personally wouldn't be able to. like can you say stress. ever been prescribed narcotics? yes, xanax. maybe another or so. what is an irrational fear that you have? whale sharks. there's no possible way for them to swallow a person due to their esophagi being so small, but my mind doesn't care lol best part about winter: snow<3 did you attend your high school prom? i went when i was a sophomore because my boyfriend of the time was a senior, then i went for my senior year. would you give your bf/gf a second chance if they cheated? absolutely not. what foreign language do you wish you spoke? german. would you rather get money or presents for your birthday? money. buy my own shit. do you have any exes you can’t stand anymore? i'll talk about each one that's ever had the title "boyfriend." aaron and i are fine; it was a total puppy love deal so we never had a real relationship. he was cool, but we don't really talk anymore. we're facebook friends, though. juan, yes, i can't fucking stand him because he's a goddamn pig that keeps getting into trouble. jason, i wouldn't say i can't stand him. i loved him once and will always have residual feelings for him. tyler, i wouldn't say i hate him, but i definitely want nothing to do with him. how old do you think you’ll be when you move out on your own? that's a question i don't like to think about much. i firmly believe i'd never properly survive on my own. so probably not until i move in with a significant other or i mature a lot more to where i can handle myself living alone. what’s something people always assume about you that isn’t true? that i'm a cold person because i don't say much. people tend to think i hate humanity in general and want nothing to do with anyone. on a scale of 1-10, how much do elevators scare you? a seven, maybe. i'm really scared of them getting stuck. do you like slim jims? they are my true loves have you ever received a hickey from the last person you kissed? that is a fucking disgusting thought that literally makes me cringe. no. do you still talk to the person you had your first kiss with? no. if you had to live off one type of fruit, which would you pick? strawberries. kiwi is a close second. how often do you drink monster? never. tastes like poison. when is the last time you did something illegal? a few days ago when i downloaded some songs. do you give a good back massage? well considering giving jason one always ended up becoming more than a massage... what has been the scariest experience you’ve been through? overdosing on otc things and just waiting to see how badly it would fuck me up. thankfully, it literally did nothing other than almost make me puke briefly. you can bet your ass my sinuses were clear as fuck tho lmao what’s your greatest insecurity? weight would you strongly prefer to go out with someone of your own skin color/racial background? nope. i don't care. say you’ve started seeing someone you really like. as far as you’re concerned, how long will it take before you have sex? there's a lot of variables here. one, i think i'm going to continue being abstinent, but i'm not entirely sure anymore. two, it depends on the person. exactly how rapidly are we becoming close to the other? is jealousy healthy in a relationship? i think it is at a very mild degree. being a bit "territorial" with your partner is a good sign, to me. it's defending someone you love and showing you don't appreciate someone else showing them romantic affection, even if you trust your partner. should evolution and creationism be taught side-by-side in school? i personally believe both of those branches should be electives. neither should be in the mandated curriculum. have you ever cosplayed? no, but honestly, i'd love to. is it wrong to sleep in a bed/cuddle with a friend (of the sex you’re attracted to) when you’re in an exclusive relationship with someone else? cuddling, yes, but sleeping together with a person not of your preferred gender doesn't seem wrong to me. how do you feel about government-subsidized food programs (free lunch, food stamps, etc.)? they're beneficial for people who need it. do you believe that heterosexual pornography is degrading to women? why just women and heterosexual? pornography is degrading to everyone involved. do you support the exploration of outer space? if yes, would you consider taking a trip into space, or even to another planet? i think it is important, but we shouldn't spend as much money as we do on it; we need to be more concerned about the planet we live on. and i personally wouldn't. is it okay for men to wear makeup? what’s your opinion of male crossdressers? sure. wear whatcha want. would you let your children under 13 watch movies with full nudity? HELL NO will you teach your children to believe in santa? i don't want kids, but hypothetically, i would. i really don't like the idea of lying, but i absolutely adore my memories of my own raising believing in santa. christmas was so magical. what is your opinion concerning strip clubs? honestly? cesspits. is there any aspect of your sexuality that you would be too embarrassed to ever share with a match? i wouldn't say "embarrassed," but i know i wouldn't like to share the fact i find penises remarkably hideous. i find both genitalia to be extremely unattractive. what’s your passion? meerkats, youtubers, silent hill, world of warcraft bc fuckin' nerd, heavy metal music have you ever been harassed and/or bullied? no, thank christ. pick one: crash bandicoot or spyro? SPYRO! i like crash too, though. do your parents drink? dad doesn't anymore, mom almost never does. could you forgive a boyfriend or friend who physically hurt you? fuuuuck to the no son are you a funny person? lol no how do you feel about bob marley? his voice is fucking awful when you were younger did you have a neopets account? i sure did. do you have any gay family members? yes, an uncle. do you look intimidating? besides having a serious resting bitch face, i don't know. your last ex calls wanting to hangout, what do you say? nah son. could you go the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? yeah. what’s one fruit you love in drinks? strawberries have you ever tried wine? no, don't particularly want to. i know it's really bitter. have you ever just laid outside and looked at the stars? i used to do that while catfishing with dad. it was on a cement decline for boats to get into the water, and it was pretty comfortable to just lay on your back and look up at the stars while waiting. some of my favorite memories. could you date someone shorter than you? yes?? why would height have anything to do with it?? have a crazy side? not really, no. ever been kissed by a legal adult when you were a minor (or vise-versa)? yes. i like to forget it ever happened. ever been kissed by someone you didn’t want to kiss? see above. ever been walked in on while you were making out with someone? lol almost. thank god for fast reflexes. ever stopped kissing someone because they had bad breath? ha ha yep. i don't do morning breath. ever thought of someone else while you were kissing someone? no. did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize? yes, but i sincerely believe he didn't mean it. what's the last thing you and your ex talked about? jason, a lot. i was trying to gain closure, and i think i did. pretty sure the last thing he really said was stop saying "i'll try" and start saying "i will" or something like that. tyler, essentially to stop fucking texting me. have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced? it's been pierced before and it is again now. are you on medication for anything? bipolarity, anxiety if i need it, birth control, and an allergy med. what was the worst mistake of your life? letting jason become the entire universe to me. could you ever be friends with somebody who was homophobic? i am friends with a homophobe. i don't necessarily "respect" her opinion, but i tolerate it. i firmly believe everyone has the right to their own. does virginity matter to you? i personally believe you should save it for someone you really, sincerely, absolutely love and plan to stay with, but i don't demean people who don't wait. regardless though, i firmly believe that you should at least feel that you love the person. how would you describe your sense of humor? extremely dry. ever written fanfiction for anything? believe it or not, no. i don't even read it. would you rather get a tattoo or piercing? a tat do you listen to a band a lot of people don’t seem to know about? ugh, otep is agonizingly underrated. how do you feel about children swearing? i'm against it. i believe a certain level of maturity is required to really know when it's appropriate to swear or not. what's a unique thing about your fashion sense? probably the fact i can look like a geek one second then a goth the next lol how do you feel about your weight? i loathe it, but i feel better about it ever since finding out my weight gain wasn't my fault; it was a mood stabilizer i was on for a year or more called abilify. it's unbelievable how much that shit fucked me over, and it did absolutely nothing in terms of my mental health. my current psychiatrist pointed out how it absolutely destroys your metabolism, and he was honestly stunned when i told him no one else that i'd been seeing pointed that shit out, especially my primary doctor, who had some training in psychiatric meds; and the disgusting thing is, she occasionally acted angry towards me about it and really did make it seem like i didn't care about my health and wasn't trying. ugh. i am still remarkably bitter that i'd been put on a medicine that has a side effect of weight gain anyway considering i've explicitly told every psychiatrist i've ever seen DO FUCKING NOT put me on something that causes weight gain, because i've been through it before and worked my ass off to lose all the weight i'd gained from paxil years before. but thankfully, since being taken off abilify and loads other medications, i've been losing weight rapidly since my body can no longer sustain what i'd gained. it helps that my appetite has returned to normal; well, maybe even less than normal, but i'm not complaining. like it's brazenly obvious it was medication considering it's not like i started exercising or something, and i haven't gone on some diet. i legitimately pray that i can return to what i used to weigh. do you like to comment on other people's surveys? only on close friend's. do you have any racist friends? yes, and it's the same story with the homophobe: i don't like your opinion, but i'm not going to generalize you as a whole terrible person just because of one belief. i'll never agree with you, but still. do you wear glasses? what style do you like better? yeah. mine are kinda like big, geeky ones. do you prefer lemons or limes? lemons. would you consider your voice high, low, or in the middle? definitely low for a woman. any songs that make you laugh out loud when you hear them? "i just had sex" by the lonely island ft. akon will, at the bare minimum, always make me smile. it's so silly. was your first kiss perfect? i wouldn't have had it any other way. how do you handle breakups? welp. if jason's and mine was any indication, i sob for over a year straight, get PTSD from it, want to die daily, and y'know, shit like that. i couldn't be more thankful that i'm over that shit. if you had to get a tattoo, where would you get it? there's a few that i'm debating on being my next. there's a big, very detailed one i want on my right, upper arm, but i'm sure it won't be my next because it's going to be fucking expensive. one that has a good chance of being my next is a cool design i found that is geometric and has a badass-looking ram in the center, then in an arch over it, i want the lyrics "maybe i'm a misfit, maybe i'm different; it will never be an average existence" from "rise, rebel, resist" by otep. i think it looks really cool with the design because the graphic kinda radiates a sort of dominant, resilient aura. i'm not sure where i'd get it, though. another that has a good possibility being next is a design that has a few tiny koi fish going around the wrist in a slight angle. it's really cute; i'd get it on the top of my left wrist. i also like this triangular design that has a watercolor, fire-like texture sprayed over it; in a pretty chiseled font, I want "Gefährlich ist wer Schmerzen kennt" ("whoever knows pain is dangerous") written over it, from "feuer frei" by rammstein. i'd get it on top of my right hand. this one has a high chance of being my next one considering the budget will probably be kinda small. lastly, another with a good shot is getting the anxiety ribbon with the lyrics "you can't kill what you did not create" (from "just when you thought we couldn't get any more emo, we go and pull a stunt like this" by motionless in white; yes, seriously) beside it. i'm thinking of getting it on my right forearm, on the side. WOW that was long pardon me and my tattoo ideas. do you wear your seat belt in the car? always. what's your biggest turn off? if you believe illnesses are only real if they're physical, i will immediately fucking hate you. like i know i say a lot i respect other's opinions, but that is one i will never, ever, tolerate. have you ever set a marshmallow on fire? yes. i'm awful at roasting marshmallows. thinking back to your relationships, who ended it? counting everyone who's had the "boyfriend" title, plus a "friend" who i briefly acted like more with: me, me, me, him, me. do you know anyone who's been arrested? i think i don't... have you ever tried to reconnect with someone from your past, but were unable to find them/get in touch with them? multiple online friends. do you believe that the more that you give, the more you will get? in general, but not always. what is something you've recently discovered that you're absolutely in love with? how did you come across it? this is by no means recent, but the last thing i discovered that i fell in love with was rhett and link, whom i started to watch daily over a year ago. i was first exposed to them by my ex, but back then, i never watched them with him. big mistake lol. i actually don't recall how i re-discovered them... what was the first social network website you joined? myspace. what is the worst natural disaster you've experienced firsthand? hurricane floyd. do you like to receive feedback on things you've made or done? i mean, sure. it's nice to see what others think. do you own any webkinz? ... i have ~40 in a bag in our attic. do you swoon over british accents? O BOI do you prefer wolves or foxes? foxes. do you prefer opossums or raccoons? opossums are cuter. did you ever have tea parties when you were little? only if nicole wanted to. she had this disney princess tea set that she loved to play with. choose one character: pooh, tigger, piglet, eeyore? eeyore was adorable. tigger's cool too, tho. choose one character: mickey, minnie, donald, daisy, goofy, pluto? goofy do you listen to kpop, jpop, or cpop? no. have an acquaintance who's obsessed, though. which baby animal is your favorite? meerkats. like, have you seen pups?? chocolate or strawberry milk? strawberry milk is fucking repulsive, so chocolate. does your job allow piercings or tattoos? currently unemployed, but i wouldn't work anywhere that didn't allow either. do you like rollercoasters? never been on one, probably never will. i'm too scared of throwing up. how old is your oldest and youngest friend? oldest, 30 or 31. youngest, 17. did you tease freshmen in high school? no, why would i?? i was one at some point. what is your favorite... bird? mammal? reptile? fish? barn owl; meerkat; cobra; koi, maybe. what's your favorite bubblegum flavor? i really like that watermelon one from i think hubba bubba? tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it? i got a moose from the huge cabela's hunting store in ohio when i was young, and i named it brownie. i have him still sitting on my dresser<3 what are your favorite memes of the year so far? this is such a millennial question lol. are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub? hateclub. idk, i just find them remarkably annoying. have you ever been a featured member on any website? yes. a sh fan site. do you prefer hot chocolate with or without marshmallows? without, but i can do both. who’s the last person you had a sleepover with? chelsea. who do you talk to about personal problems? sara, more than anyone <3 what would you do if you got pregnant? be fucking terrified, angry, but keep the baby, but give it up for adoption. when was your first kiss? 2012 ideal weather conditions? like 55 degrees, cloudy. the most embarrassing thing you’ve ever done? if it's the *most* embarrassing thing i've ever done, why would i want to talk about it? can you name 5 people that you used to be close to, but aren’t anymore? explain why. 1.) megan - she lied to me about essentially everything. 2.) mini - she just... stopped talking to me and now only does on her time. 3.) jason - he just about ruined my entire life so i no longer want any association with him. 4.) brianna - she found a new group of friends in middle school. 5.) jenna - we also just kinda stopped talking. it was hard to keep up considering we never went to the same school. she did call me the last time i was in the hospital though, which i thought was incredibly sweet. have you ever been told that you were good in bed? not explicitly, but i think the actions spoke for themselves. do you think you would make a good mother? no. i don't like being around others a lot and also don't fancy being responsible for another person. then there's the fact that there's a chance that after investing all that time into someone, (s)he could just grow up hating me. do you hate slang words like ‘tits’ and ‘shag’? depends on the word. do you ever watch wildlife shows? they're my favorite shows. would you pose naked in front of a million people for a million? no, actually. i am way too self-conscious and the embarrassment wouldn't be worth it. do you download music illegally? yes. been a habit i've had too long to break. favorite snapchat filter? i don't use snapchat, but of those that i know, i like the flower crown one. ... or is that instagram? idk. what's the worst thing you have ever done? acting in a way i shouldn't have with "just a friend." how many times have you been to the hospital? too many times. i don't know anymore. maybe six. top 10 favorite songs? in no order, here are some that i really enjoy atm: 1.) "false flags" by massive attack; 2.) "do i wanna know?" by arctic monkeys; 3.) "third day of a seven day binge" by marilyn manson; 4.) "pumped up kicks" by foster the people; 5.) "trap door" by ozzy osbourne; 6.) "face down" by red jumpsuit apparatus; 7.) "milk and cookies" by melanie martinez; 8.) "deep six" by marilyn manson; 9.) "daddy issues" by the neighbourhood; 10.) "why'd you only call me when you're high?" by arctic monkeys. i'm sure they're more that i like more than some, but i can't think of all right now. what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc) dry in most places, oily on my face. what is your crush’s first and last initial? DM are you going to change your last name when you get married? yes. what is your favorite condiment to go with french fries? ketchup do you like to eat stir fry? ew. what color is your mp3 player? my ipod's hot pink. have you ever laid in a hammock? yeah. we used to have one. have you ever lost a pet in a tragic way? how did you cope? our goldendoodle got spleen cancer and declined in health in literally like a week. he had to be put down, and i was there for it. it was hard to get over. what can’t you go a day without doing? eat, drink, use the bathroom, watch mark & do other shit online, watch gmm if it's a weekday. have you ever led someone on? why did you do so? don’t you think that it’s mean to do that? rather just not talk about it. i was a stupid kid. do you like gore? ... it's my aesthetic lol. but i have my limits about it. do you own any choker/collar necklaces? i have multiple. my favorite doesn't fit anymore and the other probably doesn't either. did you have a “scene” phase? no, i had an emo phase lol do you find it easy to trust others? nope if your s/o smoked pot/did drugs would you care? i wouldn't date him if so. do you like hickeys? i don't not like them if they're private. what time do you go to bed? any time from like 10:30 to 3:00 or so. do you hate the person you fell hardest for? no, but i don't like him. do you curse around your parents? totally open with dad, usually don't say "fuck" around mom. are you monogamous or do you prefer open-ended relationships? monogamous ever made out with a friend? no. how would you rate your sex drive? normal, i'd say. if you had to have a color for a name, what color would it be? uhhh. of those off the top of my head, maybe blue. if you had kids, would you worry about what they did online? of course i would. the internet has some things kids should never see. i doubt i'd go through their history though, if i'm being honest. i'd hold issue with that if my mom did it, so i'm sure my own kids would. have you gone mental? oh you have no idea. would you take your kids to visit a black santa clause? why or why not? yes?? what the fuck is this question?? do you remember the first conversation you had with the person you have feelings for? i don't remember, i just know he first called me "lip ring girl" because he didn't know my name lol do you know your best friend’s middle name? colleen, and i think sara's is jane, but i'm actually not sure if that's just part of her first name. have you had sex with a black person? no, but i'm not opposed to it. have you ever had a serious conversation with your dad? yes. he took me out to lunch one day and we talked about my recovering from jason. do gay, lesbians, bisexuals or transgender people bother you? nope. can you tolerate children for a long period of time? NO. just another reason i shouldn't be a mom. have you ever became attracted to someone you weren’t at first because their personality made you find them physically attractive? yeah, jason. were you more fond of swings, monkey bars, or seesaws as a child? boi i charged for the swings every time. what is the worst way to break up with someone? through text/any kind of messenger, omg. what must you have in order to sleep well at night? a fan on. what will you name your future son or daughter? i don't want kids, but if i did, the girl would 100% be alessandra and the boy would probably be luther. have you ever thrown a party for a pet? no, but i always give teddy a peanut butter sandwich "cake" for his birthday. what do you consider the greatest threat to mankind? greed. what is your favorite thing to do with your girls? just chill. if your one true love hit you would you still love him? fuck that shit. would you want to meet the man of your dreams if he dies in a year? no. like can you say traumatic. how did you meet your best friend(s)? colleen, girl scouts. sara, youtube. who introduced you to the band you love? all others besides ozzy, metallica, and korn, myself. what song reminds you of your first love? "easy to love you" by theory of a deadman. i couldn't listen to it after the breakup until very recently. what do you think of teenagers getting married? probably a bad choice. it works sometimes, sure, but you still have a lot of growing up to do. what movie that johnny depp plays in do you really like? "alice in wonderland" can you introduce yourself to a new person easily? NOOOOOO which disney princess had to go through the most pain? good question! maybe rapunzel? like can you imagine being locked in a tower for that long?? do you believe you can only be in love once? absolutely not. do you believe in premarital sex? i have mixed feelings. i'm more accepting of it than i used to be, tho. “once a cheater always a cheater.” true or false? no. just because you cheated once doesn't doom you to cheat again. do you believe its possible to fall out of love? yes, i lived through that experience. do you know your blood type? yes, a- are you catholic? i was raised roman catholic, but i'm not anymore. what kind of job did your mom have when you were growing up? she was an assistant teacher for the special needs kids. have you ever stayed up all night on the phone? this one time with jason. do you think that fishing and hunting are wrong and why or why not? hunting is wrong if you don't eat the meat, imo. i have no problems with fishing because it doesn't kill the animal. what do you put on your french fries? ketchup, sometimes. do you like mustard? yup. what’s the funniest nickname you have? i don't really have a funny nickname. would you ever keep your favorite animal as a pet? no. meerkats are very destructive pets. it's not legal in the u.s., anyway. what is something you eat but everybody else thinks it’s gross? i've heard a lot of people don't like peanut butter. which celebrities would you have a threesome with? i wouldn't have a threesome with anybody. i don't support them. favorite character from "finding nemo"? it's always been dory. through time, i've also developed a respect for gill. do you change your type of music regularly? my music "type" hasn't changed since i was in the 6th grade. ever met somebody who seem like they hated life? i know a lot of people like that. do you look forward to the spring? absolutely not. welcome to the life of one allergic to pollen. which area of the sciences do you enjoy the most? genetics do you care about your weight? of course i do, everyone should. if you could spend the day doing absolutely anything with anyone anywhere, what would it be like? go to the zoo with my mom. is there anyone who lives in the same house as you that you can’t stand? nicole's dog. i tolerate him, but i do not like him. are all of your friends virgins? to ask an adult if all their friends are virgins, realistically, has an obvious answer. not saying all adults aren't virgins, but you get me. it's more rare. but who are virgins and who isn't is none of my business. who's the last person who gave you a "good morning" text? girt messaged me good morning via facebook, if that counts? i don't text a lot of people, so no one really tells me good morning. do you have something you’re supposed to tell someone, but you haven’t yet? no. do you like going to museums? yeah! what is a cliche thing that happens a lot in anime? the most unique-looking character is always the protagonist. if you believe in a god or higher being, do you think that they are vengeful and will punish you for your wrongdoings? vengeful, no. will one be punished, probably. what is your favorite scene from your favorite film? it's super cool when alice fights the jabberwocky. do you have a hard time being around people whose opinions on alcohol and drugs differ from yours? nope. so long you don't do drugs or drink excessively around me, i don't care. what is something you thought could/would never happen to you that has happened to you? i attempted suicide. how often do you get on facebook? sometimes multiple times a day, sometimes none at all. do you think girls deserve more respect just cause they are girls? no, that's ridiculous. is there anything specifically that you’ve been worrying about a lot recently? job stuff. where do you spend a majority of your time when you’re at home? i am literally always in my room. which deadly sin are you most guilty of? sloth. who makes you feel the most unappreciated? my grandmother. if heaven and hell are real, which one are you going to? i ask myself that. there are a number of things in the old testament that i 110% disagree with, but then there's the fact that according to the bible, jesus' resurrection is kinda what nullified the "old" sins. hence why, for example, christians can eat pork or whatever. the old and new testaments are what separate christians from jews. but i'm quite sure the more "common sense" sins weren't suddenly made fine, but hell, how do we really know what's a "common sense" sin to a god and which ones aren't? idk. have you ever seen your dad cry? i've seen him tear up only once in my life. have you ever had a pet rat? tezzeret, rhoka, rhett, link. i want another pair. could you go a year without sex? i've gone 21 years without it, so. do you like pudding? chocolate pudding, yes. what’s your favorite kind of doughnut? i like original cake, glazed, and chocolate frosted. do you ever trip over your pets? occasionally, teddy especially. teddy always lies on the side of my bed when i'm there, and he will not move when i get up for something until he's sure i'm not coming back to the room, so i have to step over him. do you think polygamy is wrong or acceptable? i don't support it. what is one natural disaster you are afraid of? TORNADOES do your wrists ever hurt from typing too much? that's some amateur shit, brother. haven't had that issue for years. is there any song that makes you think of your dad? "sweet child o' mine" by guns n' roses. if i ever get married, i really want that to be the father/daughter dance, although i don't see how to really dance to it... have you ever taken a picture of you kissing someone? once. what is the last thing you did on powerpoint? a final project for my art class my senior year. if you were upset, who’s the first girl you would go to? sara, most likely. are you afraid of falling in love? yes, because i'm afraid of being hurt. could you forgive your best friend for sleeping with your bf/gf? definitely not. if you’ve ever had and quit a job, did you actually call in and quit or put in your two weeks notice or did you just stop showing up? my first boss and i talked in the back room and he was so understandable. he was super chill and a great guy. second job, i texted my boss. do you tend to baby or take care of the people you date, or do you tend to date alpha types that take care of you? both. depends on situations in regards to how i act. how would you feel if the person you were interested in refused to perform oral sex on you? fuck, i'd be happy. i don't like oral. honestly, does it bother you when your friends make questionable choices? or are you usually unaffected by how others live their lives? of course i care, because i care for them. i don't want them to make mistakes that they'll regret. have your parents ever expressed interest in you taking up a certain profession or hobby? they don’t have to have had pressured you into it, but maybe just as a suggestion? yes, my mom reminds me i should be a vet a lot. hypothetically speaking, if you ever give birth to a son, would you have him circumcised? yes, for health purposes. do you ever get frustrated because you have great ideas for a talent you don’t have? for example, you have a good idea for a song but you don’t play an instrument so you can’t share it, or you have a great idea for a video but don’t know how to use video software, etc. yep, with drawing. i can picture things so vividly, but when it comes to drawing them... nnnope. who was the last person you talked to on skype/video chat? we've never actually video chatted, but sam and i used to use skype for voice chat every day when we played wow together. does your significant other/crush know about your tumblr? does he/she look at it? no, but i wouldn't be embarrassed if he did. but he'd probably judge me for it being a fandom trashcan lmao have you ever had shower sex? no, and i never want to. sounds uncomfortable and dangerous as fuck. did you masturbate today? i don't masturbate. do you believe in karma as in “what goes around comes around?” no. not everyone who has done wrong ever gets what should be coming to them. how many brothers does your father have? none. does your best friend have any tattoos? sara, no, colleen, yes. are you a skittles person, or an m&m person? skittles have you ever had a seizure? no what was your gpa in high school? over a 4.0 are you better at telling stories or writing them? writing them. name a band that you can’t decide whether you like them or not. i pretty much know whether i like a band or not. nothing's coming to mind. what’s one word that annoys you when people use it out of context? "retarded." don't fucking abuse it around me. what fast food restaurant(s) can you absolutely not stand? arby's. ew. does it annoy you when people say “omg” or “idk” in a normal conversation? it's a weird pet peeve i have, yes. do you have any best friends that you only know online? most of the best friends i've ever had are online. are you afraid of needles? no. like don't get me wrong, the needles used for shots make me uneasy because they're so long, but i think that's kinda natural. do you have any plans set out for your future? if so, what are they? obtain a steady job, hopefully as a photographer, probably get married before moving to the mountains of nc because fuck the coastal plain. have you ever had a concussion? if so, what from? yes. i passed out and landed on my chin. do gay people make you uncomfortable? no, unless i'm being flirted with. have you ever heard of the cranberries? i've heard of their song "zombie," which i enjoy. who has the ability to hurt you the most emotionally? my mom. do you have the same political views as your parents? we're all mostly conservative, but we have some varying views. be honest, do you miss your ex? not anymore, no. if he couldn't handle me at my worst, then i don't need him. if you have siblings, who do you think will be married first, you or them? i'll go through them. ashley is married, misty's in a serious relationship so maybe she will be next, i don't think bobby or katie are dating anyone, nicole's got a boyfriend but so do i, so between us two, idk. do you like pastel colored hair? omf aesthetic are there any cracks or scuffs on your phone? no. how old were you when you got your first car? i haven't had my own car. do you feed your leftovers to your dogs? teddy will get something occasionally because he doesn't fucking beg like cali and bentley. what tricks does your pet do? teddy can sit, say hello (shake), lie down, and say please (beg). cali can sit. bentley can't do jack shit. who is your favorite character on your favorite television show? fma: edward elrich; that '70s show: probably hyde. who is your pet most attached to in your family? teddy, me. cali, mom. bentley, also mom because nicole gives him zero fucking attention. i'm the only one who gives venus attention because yeah, snake. out of all the colors of the rainbow, which one is your favorite? assuming shades and tints are not included, purple or red. would you ever be interested in going on a proper african safari? OMG YAAAAAAAAS if you had to be a teacher, what subject would you be able to teach best? english have your parents met the person you’re currently interested in? mom knows him well, dad's seen him a good number of times before the divorce. are your eyes the same color as your siblings’ eyes? only bobby and i have blue eyes. do you prefer glazed or powdered donuts? glazed. when you first meet somebody, do you stick out your hand for them to shake? i usually don't initiate it, no. do you know someone who has asthma? yes, my mother and grandmother what is the most controversial thing you've done? uhhh... download music, maybe?? how many people have you kissed in your life? three, but i like to pretend one never happened. what’s your favorite restaurant? olive garden. do you act on impulse or do you think things through? it varies depending on the situation. do you think the usa bullies other countries? sometimes, honestly, yes. have you ever taken a shower with someone else? with my little sister as a kid. can you taste the difference between pepsi and coke? immediately. what was your first pet? do you still have this pet? a beautiful collie named trigger; she was my dad's dog. but no, she died when i was very little, so i barely remember her. don't remember how she died. i was told she swallowed her tongue, but i know you can't technically do that, so. what is your favorite thing to learn about? meerkats. who’s one person who changed how you viewed something? a number of people. what annoys you most in a person? um. maybe closed-mindedness? intolerance? whose bed did you sleep in last that wasn’t yours? colleen's. in a relationship, do you think about the future, or now? both. you need to consider both if you want a healthy relationship. are you a patient person? NO. i am the most impatient fucking person. are you pale or tan or kind of an in-betweener? the irish is strong in this one. is life pointless? i fail to believe we'd be here if it was. would you ever spy on a boyfriend/girlfriend if you were suspicious? no, what the fuck. be an adult and be upfront about it. when was the last time you were bitten by an animal? what kind of animal was it? some weeks ago by our dog bentley, but it was just a playful nip. he needs to learn to stop doing it, though. what was the last band or artist you discovered? boyfriend's kinda got me into powerwolf. heard of them a looong time ago, but never actually listened to them. do you have a favorite song by the cure? "she sells sanctuary" are there things you’ve never told for fear that others would judge you? yes. can sex ever be casual? i do believe it's possible to have it casually, but i don't support it. what celebrity are you dreading the future death of? there are many. there are some who i think when they die, i will probably die with them. do you neglect your friends when you have a significant other? no. do you own a gun? no. i know i by law can't because of my suicidal and depressed history, but i'm unsure if those i live with can for the same reason. if you had to delete one year of your life, which year would it be? 20fucking16 what is your favorite christmas song? if you wanna count "the nightmare before christmas" songs bc who the fuck knows if that movie's more about halloween or christmas, i love fall out boy's cover of "what's this?" if i can't include the movie's soundtrack, i like "the most wonderful time of the year." what is something that has really impacted your life? more than anything, my breakup. what did you and your ex fight about most? me and jason, uhhh... i don't really know? we argued sometimes, yes, but i can't really think of a main topic... as for tyler and me, we only fought once and that was the end of it. do you have a foot phobia? it's not a phobia, but omg i still hate feet are you embarrassed by any of the songs in your itunes? lol yes. my collection of melanie martinez songs is so random. do you like raisins? omg no have you ever gone on vacation with your boyfriend/girlfriend? not with my current one, nor with any exes. have you met the last person you kissed's parents? no. known each other seven years and i have literally never seen his parents lmao have you ever been to a sports game? yeah. dad and i have been to like three hockey games. do people ever misspell your name? yes. people want to spell it as "brittney" all the time. have you ever had roommates? yes. when jason and i lived together, our friends, who were also a couple, lived with us. have you ever made a sex tape? no, and i never would. do/did you skip class? never one class exclusively. i would fake sick to stay home occasionally lol have you ever felt yourself fainting? twice. one occasion where i did, and another not that long after where i know without a doubt i would've if i hadn't gotten down on my knees. have you ever been friends with someone with bipolar disorder? yes. who’s the last boy to make you cry? jason last girl? my mom has anyone ever threatened you? yes. would you ever own a rat? i've had four and would like two more, but this time from a breeder. i just don't like getting pets from pet stores... they honestly give no shits about them. has your mouth ever been washed out with soap? no, but i'd be threatened with it as a kid. would you genuinely be okay with having a woman as president? yes?? what the fuck is this question?? what’s the worst feeling in the world? heartbreak, in various forms. what’s something you wish you could take back? things i don't want to talk about. what happens to you when you get nervous? i sweat, my heartrate goes up, i fidget a lot, i knead my hands, and i stutter badly. have you ever snuck out? how many times? no. who’s the first person you kissed, and would you like a do-over? jason, and no. who scares you? jason, because i know what he was capable of. what’s the hardest thing you’ve ever had to do in your life? learn to let jason go. do you prefer cupcakes or muffins? muffins do you and your dad get along? yes. i wrote him a letter after the divorce though that he never should've forgiven me for, but he did. he is a wonderful person that i am so so thankful for. <3 who was your high school crush? first was kyle, then girt, then jason. do your nails grow out round or square? round have you ever been on crutches? no. did your mom sing to you when you were young? i don't think so. does your boyfriend have a job? way to assume everyone has a boyfriend. but whatever. yes. do your siblings dye their hair? no. did you have a role model growing up? yes, steve irwin. what's the greatest lost you've endured? jason. is there a situation or person you haven't been able to get over, forgive or what-have-you? i'm over him, but i haven't exactly "forgiven" jason. did you give anyone their first kiss? no. what animal did you last pet or hold? pet, dog, hold, snake. were you born perfectly healthy or with some (or a lot) of health issues? i was perfectly healthy. did you ever catch any bugs or insects with your friends as a kid? me and my neighbor hunter would catch SO MANY bugs. have you ever been disrespectful to one or both of your parents? yes to both. do you believe in sex before marriage? is it against your religion? eh, mixed feelings. i think abstinence is for me tho. as for if it's against my religion, i actually don't know if it's mentioned in the new testament, so idk. when you sign your name do you use your middle name? no. do you have a shower curtain or door? curtain has anyone ever mistaken you for being gay/lesbian/bi? i've been mistaken as gay before. does the thought of being pregnant gross you out? let's be real here, pregnancy is disgusting. did you ever have to share a room with one of your siblings? my younger sister and i did when we were little. do you remember those "the land before time" movies and if so, who was your favorite character? i loved those movies. pretty sure my favorite was littlefoot. what band, musical artist or song do you feel you’ll never get sick of? more than anyone, ozzy and metallica. my first metal loves. do you think you’ll be a good mother/father? no, and thus i don't want kids. is it hard leaving people behind? if you actually gave a shit about the person, it always is. do you watch "the walking dead"? no, i don't watch tv. have you ever had to get a tooth pulled? if so, what for? no, but i may have to get this wisdom tooth on my bottom left jaw out. it causes me to bite my cheek a lot. if you’ve ever babysat, do you like it? i did once and i never will again. have either of your parents gone to jail? no. do you know a hoarder? i know two. what’s a reasonable amount of time before two people get engaged? i mean... it depends. people get close at different rates. but i'd probably be doubtful if it was any less than like two years. what’s something you’ve done that not many people can say they have? uhhhh... hm. i don't really know. i mean not many people can say they've been to a mental hospital at least five fucking times, but that's nothing to be proud of. what tv shows did you grow up watching? just to name a few: "pokemon," "bear in the big blue house," "rugrats," "spongebob squarepants," "the amanda show," "rolie polie olie," "the crocodile hunter," etc... lots of stuff on nick, disney, and animal planet. what were your favorite toys to play with as a child? these plastic dinosaurs that i had. do you enjoy the arctic monkeys? they have three songs i really love, one being one of my all-time faves. i've heard a few others that are all right. what type of criminal would you be? i wouldn't be a criminal to begin with. but if you're asking like, what am i most likely to do to make me one? idk. do you get attached easily? once you start showing me i can trust you, yes. but i don't mean this in a romantic sense; i learned my damn lesson. i'm doubtful and very cautious when getting attached romantically, but as far as friendships go, once i think you're all right? yeah, i get attached. what were you like when you were a kid? i was hyper, weird, and really talkative. only thing i've maintained is the weirdness lol would you go against your moral code for money? no. i have a really devout moral compass. what is your happiest childhood memory? really, i have a lot. the memory of me waking up early to play any of the original "spyro" games is strong with me. i also used to love swimming on the first day of spring with nicole; we'd always pester dad to put the pool up as soon as spring was here. we wouldn't even wait for the water to warm up lol. then i have a distinct memory of dad teaching me to ride a bike, and i loved that. playing baseball with dad was fun, too. all things considered, i had a good childhood. have you ever had an imaginary friend? no. if you could change one thing about the world, what would it be? that's a hard question, but i'd probably take away greed. it is the fuel behind a LOT of things. is there someone you don’t ever want to be out of your life? many people, but more than anyone, my mom. i have no fucking clue where i'd be without her. do you think you can love someone without trusting them? not sincerely, no. what is a career you dream of pursuing but realistically you shouldn’t? meerkat biologist. i wouldn't survive in the heat. do you like 80s music? quite a bit, mostly '80s metal. what kind of food is your favorite? (Ex. mexican, chinese, thai, etc.) american how would you feel if you were drafted for the military? NNNNNNOPE who is your favorite harry potter character? i don't know much about hp. what is your favorite queen song? "bohemian rhapsody" is the only correct answer what topics are you really shy about and don’t like discussing? i don't talk about my hobbies period. who did you last pinky promise with? probably colleen. do you drink bottled water? if i absolutely have to drink water, i'll get it from a bottle or preferably a water filter that's been in the fridge. i can't drink tap water. do you donate blood? i did once in high school, but i don't think i will again. it was a very stressful experience for me because i was afraid of fainting. have you ever swam in a river? yeah. welcome to the south. in what month do you start christmas shopping? i don't have my own money, so i can't christmas shop to begin with. have you ever posted a question on yahoo questions? no. do you still have clothes from your high school dances? i have both my prom dresses have you ever felt manipulated? yes. what is your stance on getting revenge? childish. do you have a ceiling fan located in your bedroom? no, but mom wants to install one. my room is extremely hot, and the one desk fan i have in here is far from enough. disney’s "frozen": yay or nay? nay. so disappointing. the pacing was awful and the story was so predictable. what does your best friend think of the person you love/like? sara doesn't know him, colleen loves him. ever thought you knew someone, but it was all a big lie? meet my former best friend. any music videos make you cry? "hurt" by johnny cash really gets me, as well as "one" by metallica, but i wouldn't say i cry. do you delete people from facebook if their views are vastly different than yours? no. however, if they start pushing their views on me or straight-up bash mine, then yes. do you like to climb trees? i wouldn't know, as i've never climbed one. like 99% of trees here in nc are pine trees, so no branches are low enough to climb. have you ever played the "tomb raider" games? omg so we had two. i remember buying the first one, but my brother had the second one, i'm pretty sure. might have been the first. i got too frustrated with the first one, which i played as a teenager, but when i was very young, my sister and i loved the second one. only our brother was good at it, but ashley and i would love to play and always lure the old butler into the freezer lmao. beatles or rolling stones? i legitimately only like one song by the beatles. i enjoy the rolling stones. what is your favorite accent? british or scottish what was your first favorite band? green day do you feel uncomfortable sharing drinks with other people? yes. do you call any of your friends by their last name? i call my boyfriend by a portion of his last name have you ever cried in school? yes, but only in the bathroom comes to the top of my head. do you remember the first computer game you ever played? not the absolute first, but i remember "putt-putt," "freddie the fish," "oregon trail," then there was this one i LOVED where i think some friends were preparing for a friend's birthday? i think it was a lion? i have very strong memories of a game that it think is called "amazon trail 3;" i played that game obsessively. were you baptized? yes.

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